Chapter 1: Broken Dreams
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Graduation was rapidly approaching at McKinley High, Kurt was devastated after getting a rejection letter from Nyada.
He nailed his audition, Carmen had respected his bold song choice. Or so he had thought...Rachel had completely choked and still got in, while him and Finn had just stood in the choir room in stunned silence. What were they supposed to do now?
He was happy for Rachel, they're friends of course. But he was tired of being overcast by her shadow, as well as Blaine's, if he was being completely honest with himself.
Him and Blaine had argued an awful lot lately and it was weighing heavily on him. He was tired of pretending like it didn't hurt.
Blaine had changed, they both had, Kurt could feel himself starting to pull away in an opposite direction. Blaine would get so angry sometimes, it scared him.
Kurt closed his locker with a sigh and hurried down the hall to his last class of the day.
Finding a seat next to Blaine, he pulled what he needed for class out of his bag.
Blaine noticed the downcast look on his face and slightly raised one of his dark, triangle shaped eyebrows, "what's up?" he asked.
Kurt didn't say anything, just laid his head on the desk with another sigh. Blaine turned back to his notebook.
Kurt was pretty quiet during class; not saying much to Blaine, who glanced over at Kurt a few times during class.
When class ended, Kurt and Blaine gathered their things and made their way out of the classroom. Blaine walked with Kurt out to the parking lot, his hand resting on Kurt's lower back.
”How about popcorn and a movie later?" Blaine asked, as they neared Kurt's navigator. "Not tonight, I've got homework" Kurt lied. Blaine wasn't buying it though, "Kurt, graduation is on Tuesday, how much homework could you possibly have?".
"Blaine, please stop, I'm just tired" Kurt said, his voice cracking slightly "I'll see you tomorrow,ok?", he said as he mustered a half smile. "See you tomorrow" Blaine said, shouldering his bag and getting in his car.
Kurt made it about halfway home when he couldn't hold back the tears that were coming, as everything hit him.
He pulled over and laid his head on the steering wheel, sobs racking his body. He had to get to New York somehow, he just had to.
He could re-audition for Nyada next year, but he didn't want to wait that long. He started crying even more. It wasn't fair, he put everything into that audition, only for his hopes to go down the drain.
He pulled back onto the road, wiping his tear stained eyes on his sleeve. Usually he would use a tissue, but he didn't even care.
He pulled into the driveway; his Dad sitting in the living room when he walked in the house, with red eyes from crying "great" Kurt muttered to himself.
Burt turned to look up at him, "You okay kiddo? Did something happen with Blaine?" he asked. "No, I'm ok, just tired Dad." Kurt replied.
He was about to go downstairs to his bedroom when Carole called from the kitchen, "Kurt sweetheart! Dinner is almost ready, will Blaine be joining us? Finn is with Rachel". "No, just me" Kurt replied.
"Okay sweetheart, I'll let you know when dinner is ready" Carole said. Kurt went to his bedroom, he honestly just wanted to be alone right now.
He climbed into bed and snuggled under the covers. Not too soon after, Carole called down the stairs to tell him dinner is ready.
Chapter 2: Kurt's Nightmare
Summary:
Kurt has a horrible nightmare but starts to feel a bit better thanks to Finn.
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After dinner, Kurt went back downstairs. Changing into pajama bottoms, he got back into bed.
He fell asleep and had a nightmare, he was back in the hallway at McKinley after he got disqualified from the class election, "I lost the election, I didn't get the lead in the school musical. I can forget about Nyada and New York, because they'll never take me now."
His own words haunted him even more so now.
Then he was in the parking lot of Scandals, Blaine was pushing Kurt into the back seat of his car, "Yes, that's why I don't want to do it on a night that you spent dancing with another guy! Because, I've never felt less like being intimate with someone and either you can't tell or you just don't care!" Kurt shouted.
"I'm just trying to be spontaneous and fun!" Blaine yelled.
Suddenly he was in the Lima Bean, trying to voice his concerns about sectionals and how losing would hurt their chances of getting into Nyada, his last chance!
And all Blaine was concerned about was Finn giving him the stink eye in the choir room.
And then that meerkat faced jerk showed up, not helping the situation. Was Blaine even listening to him? Blaine had completely disregarded everything he just said.
Next they were sittting in Emma's office, "New York is all we talk about Kurt. It's like you can't wait to get away out of here" Blaine said.
Kurt started shaking and sobbing again, he couldn't remember if he was awake or sleeping. His nightmare had become his reality.
Suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder shaking him and thinking it was Blaine, he started shouting, "Stop! Please!" and crying even more. Feeling like he was back in the Scandals parking lot again.
He woke up with a shock and realized a very concerned Carole was holding him while a fresh wave of sobs came.
It was now the middle of the night and they were soon joined by Finn and Burt, who had been awoken by the commotion.
Carole had gotten out of bed for a glass of water, when she heard Kurt sobbing and shouting in his sleep.
Kurt described the nightmare to them; and they persuaded him that he should just stay home from school and rest the next day. Finn would grab anything he needed from school.
Blaine spotted Finn in the school hallway the next day and asked him why Kurt wasn't at school.
Finn told him that Kurt wasn't feeling good. Blaine said, "Oh...well, ok I'll see ya Finn" with an annoyed look on his face.
After school ended, Blaine drove over to Kurt's house. Carole answered the door.
He asked if Kurt was feeling up for company, explaining that Finn had told him Kurt isn't feeling well.
"Oh dear, Kurt isn't awake right now and I don't think I should wake him." Carole said "I'll tell him you stopped by when he wakes up."
Carole went upstairs to check on Kurt, he was sleeping soundly.
Finn got home from school, carrying a large package containing his and Kurt's graduation gowns, caps, and tassels.
Carole grabbed the graduation gowns from Finn and hung them up in the laundry room, to be steamed later.
Finn headed upstairs and quietly poked his head into Kurt's room, smiling when he saw him sleeping soundly.
He placed Kurt's cap and tassel on the top of his dresser and quietly closed the door.
Kurt woke up an hour later, he saw his cap and tassel sitting on top of the dresser and his heart sank a little.
Grateful for the fact that the weekend is here. He didn't want to be around Blaine right now, especially after the horrible nightmare he had.
He slipped on a t-shirt and headed downstairs; putting on one of his favorite movies, the Wizard of Oz, to help get his mind off things.
Finn joined him on the couch, just as the Munchkins were coming out to meet Dorothy.
"I love this part" Finn said with a big sheepish grin on his face. Making Kurt laugh for the first time all week.
Carole walked into the living room and smiled when she saw Finn and Kurt enjoying the film together.
She decided to wait a while longer to tell Kurt that Blaine had stopped by while he was sleeping.
She was so relieved to see him smiling and laughing again, that she didn't want to spoil the moment.
Chapter 3: The Rape Of Kurt Hummel
Summary:
A drive to Mckinley High to clean out his locker, ends up turning into one of the most terrifying/awful days of Kurt's life.
Notes:
Phew...this is a long one guys, poor Kurt :,( What he goes through in this chapter is a nightmarish reality for far too many rape victims. If you have experienced similar to what Kurt has and are feeling alone or ashamed, I hope that through my writing, I can help you feel that you and your pain are valid and that you are definently not alone.
I have heard that rapists will sometimes take clothing items of their victims as a kind of sick/twisted "medal", that is why Kurt isn't able to find the rest of his clothes after.
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Monday morning came fast, Kurt got ready and made his way to the school.
He walked to his locker with a box in hand to clear out everything; as graduation was tomorrow.
Removing the photos from his locker and placing them in a small photo box, he couldn't help getting teary eyed.
Once he had everything cleared out, he gave his empty locker a sad look and closed it.
He headed back to his navigator to put the box in the back. Not noticing Blaine coming up behind him.
Suddenly he felt two hands grip his shoulders hard, "Ouch!" he exclaimed.
"Why are you avoiding me?! Did I do something wrong?! Are we okay?!" Blaine asked furiously "We barely talked on Thursday and then you avoided me all weekend!!"
Kurt sat the box down and looked at Blaine with tears in his eyes, "We haven't been "okay" for a while Blaine...But, you knew that..." Blaine suddenly got very angry.
"What exactly are you saying Kurt?! Are you trying to break up with me?!" he shouted, with a controlling tone to his voice.
Kurt was sobbing now, "I don't know? Maybe...Yes, I'm so sorry" Kurt said.
"I refuse to give you up, you're not getting away that easy!" shouted Blaine.
"Fuck, you don't get it Blaine! I'm the one giving YOU up, I can't do this anymore. You're so controlling, I can't even discuss New York and Nyada without it turning into a big fight. What about what I want? I'm tired Blaine!" he sobbed even harder, "Baby, I'm so tired".
"Don't even call me baby right now!" Blaine shouted. He gripped Kurt's arm angrily, causing him to drop his cell phone in the box.
"I'll show you controlling!" he growled. Kurt froze, a wide eyed, fearful look in his eyes.
Blaine started dragging Kurt towards his car. "You're hurting me Blaine" Kurt sobbed. Blaine pushed Kurt into the car and slammed the door shut.
Getting in the drivers side, he quickly sped out of the school parking lot. A crazy look in his eyes that made Kurt even more scared.
"Where are we going? I want out of this car right now Blaine!" Kurt choked out with another sob."Please Blaine, please let me go, I won't tell anyone, I swear".
Blaine pulled over and Kurt breathed a sigh of relief, until he realized the door was still locked.
Blaine un-did his seatbelt and climbed across the seat to Kurt. Kurt started hitting him and told him to get off of him. It was no use though, Blaine was a boxer and much stronger.
He pinned Kurt's arms above his head, capturing Kurt's trembling lips in a rough kiss, forcing his tongue into Kurt's mouth.
"Please" Kurt gasped "Mmph...Stop" was all he got out as Blaine silenced him with his lips.
Kurt froze in fear, waiting for it to be over. Blaine got back into his seat and drove off again. "Blaine" Kurt sobbed "I'm begging you". "Shut Up!" Blaine shouted.
Finn arrived at the school, he saw Kurt's box in the parking lot, but no Kurt.
"Kurt!" he called loudly, causing two Cheerios to jump as they walked by. He hurried back to his car, grabbing Kurt's box and cell phone.
He didn't know where he was going to start looking, but he wouldn't stop until he found Kurt.
Blaine pulled into the driveway of his house, his parents were out of town on a business trip. He grabbed Kurt's arm and pulled him out of the car.
Going up the stairs to Blaine's bedroom, Kurt was trying desperately to get out of his boyfriends strong grip.
Blaine practically tossed Kurt onto the bed. Grabbing three ties and a sock out of his drawer, He tied two of the ties around Kurt's wrists and tied his wrists to the headboard.
"Omg" Kurt sobbed, he couldn't believe things had gotten this far out of control. How could the same man he had loved so much, harm him and betray his trust like this.
"Stop this! Stop it now! You don't have to do this, Please, can’t we just talk.” Kurt sobbed.
Then he got even more scared. "Please untie me" he pleaded with his boyfriend, while struggling against his bonds.
Blaine put his hand over Kurt's open mouth and said, "Will you behave or do I need to keep you quiet?" Kurt tried to bite Blaine's fingers, then regretted it a moment later.
"That answers that question" Blaine said. "I hate you" Kurt said angrily, glaring at Blaine, just before Blaine stuffed the sock into his mouth and secured it with the third tie; between his lips.
Then he tied the two ends of the tie behind Kurt's neck, tears were running down Kurt's cheeks.
"Ok Kurt, here's what's going to happen, I'm going to do whatever I damn well want with you, just like you did with my heart.” Blaine said.
Kurt whimpered in fear, he knew it was inevitable at this point. Blaine popped the cap off of a bottle of lube; Kurt was terrified and was sobbing under the gag.
He tried to kick Blaine, but his legs were pinned down as Blaine squirted some lube into his hands, pumping Kurt's length furiously.
Kurt whimpered even more, his head shaking and sobbing uncontrollably. It was non-stop, fifteen minutes in, the pain was unbearable.
Kurt was in agony and the room started spinning. For a split second Blaine felt bad, but then he remembered how much he wanted to make Kurt suffer and kept going. Kurt soon passed out.
When Kurt came to (he had no idea how long he had blacked out for) he massaged his freed wrists and removed the gag.
He looked down in shock to see that his legs were covered in bruises and there were bloody fingernail marks going down his chest.
He had no idea what else Blaine had done while he was blacked out; but he knew he needed to get to a hospital, everywhere hurt.
He cautiously got off the bed and peeked out into the hallway, the house was completely quiet.
He supposed he should be grateful that Blaine un-tied his wrists. He discovered his boxers at the foot of Blaine's bed (they had blood on them) he wasn't sure where the rest of his clothes were.
He slipped his boxers back on, sobbing in pain as he did and wrapped a blanket around himself.
Kurt stumbled down the stairs and saw that Blaine's car was gone, what a coward. He found a phone in the kitchen and dialed Finn's cell number.
"Hello.." Finn answered, not recognizing the phone number. "Finn" Kurt said, sobbing. "Kurt! Omg, are you okay?" Finn cried out.
"No,I'm not ok..I..I need to go to the hospital" Kurt choked out. "Omg! I'm coming right now, I'm in my car! Where are you?" Finn said, frantically.
Kurt gave Finn the address to Blaine's house.
He hung up the phone and threw up in the sink. Shaking and crying uncontrollably, please hurry Finn, he thought to himself. He was in so much pain.
Kurt went outside and waited on the large porch, not wanting to be in the house for one more moment.
Soon Finn was pulling into the driveway. He was horrified at the state that Kurt was in. Nothing but boxers on and wrapped in a blanket, no shoes.
Finn got out of the car and hurried over to Kurt, gently picking him up in his arms, his face was as white as a ghost and he looked so fragile.
Kurt had just been staring at the ground when he pulled up, his expression completely detatched; and it scared the hell out of Finn.
He carefully laid Kurt in the back seat, so he would be more comfortable. Thankful that there was an extra pair of sweatpants in his car, Kurt must be freezing.
He pulled open the blanket to put them on Kurt and gasped; it made him sick to see his stepbrother hurt/violated like that, he cried the more bruises he noticed and then his chest...oh god, what happened to you Finn thought.
"Did Blaine do this to you?" Finn asked (I could kill him, I could fucking kill him) thought Finn. Kurt couldn't even speak, he nodded his head and immediately started sobbing, bringing his knees up to his chest.
Blaine had completely broken him; he couldn't even think straight right now, let alone speak.
Finn got into the back seat and held him; "I got you Kurt, you're safe, it's going to be ok" Finn said, crying again. Kurt continued sobbing in Finn's protective arms. Nothing was ok right now.
Finn helped Kurt gently pull on the sweatpants and then started the car. He called Burt and Carole on the way to the nearest hospital and told them he would meet them in the emergency room. "Oh my gosh, Kurt sweetheart!" cried Carole.
Finn pulled up in front of the emergency room. He carried Kurt out of the car and put him in one of the wheelchairs. They hurried inside.
"Mom and Dad will be here soon, I'm gonna get you help, I promise I'll never leave you alone again" Finn said as he gently touched Kurt's shoulder.
Chapter 4: At The Hospital
Summary:
Carole and Burt join Kurt and Finn at the hospital, Rachel and Mercedes meet up with them later in the chapter. Most of this chapter is taking care of Kurt's injuries. Poor Kurt:,(
Notes:
I did my best researching, to get the most accurate medical terms. If you notice anything that needs correcting, please let me know :) Thank you for reading :)
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Soon, Burt and Carole got to the Emergency Room and hurried inside. "What happened kiddo? Who did this do you?" Burt asked.
"He isn't talking, but Blaine did something really bad to him. He's got bruises up and down his legs and his chest is badly cut and bleeding." Finn explained.
"He was just in boxers and a blanket when I went to get him at Blaine's house. Blaine was nowhere to be seen when I arrived and Kurt was sitting on the porch."
Burt and Carole felt sick; Kurt was the most gentle, sweetest, best kind of person.
"Don't worry, Blaine won't get away with this. I'll make sure of it" said Burt.
They took Kurt into an examination room. He tried to explain as best as he could where he hurt and what, if anything, he remembered happening to him.
"This is a safe space Kurt, you can talk to me, no one is going to hurt you here.
I know this is difficult, but the more details you give me, the better I can help you." The doctor gently explained to him.
He tearfully explained what had happened, up until he blacked out.
Carole had to excuse herself out of the room for a bit, as Kurt rehashed the details of his horrible experience. It was all too much for her.
"I'm going to do a full, physical examination on Kurt and see where to start and how I can best help him" explained the doctor.
Burt and Finn joined Carole out in the hallway to give Kurt some privacy.
They heard a few cries of pain from Kurt, causing Carole to grip Burt's arm and cry.
A few minutes later a nurse passed by and looked at them sadly; carrying a rape kit and went into the room.
Ten minutes later the examination was over and they were welcomed back in.
"Luckily, the majority of Kurt's injuries are superficial" the doctor said, they all breathed a small sigh of relief.
"The bruises should calm down in two weeks, as long as Kurt keeps his legs iced and elevated; there are also multiple bruises on his arms, around the hips, pelvic & groin area, those last ones especially will be particularly painful for the first few days.
I will send you home with prescriptions for pain relief and to help him sleep. There are a few spots on his chest that will require stitches; small areas though, thank goodness, and they should heal just fine.
The problem I'm concerned about though, is that there is unfortunately a significant amount of tearing in the rectum area. Usually small tears would heal on their own, but this is much more extensive and requires surgery" the doctor said.
Burt was trying hard to be strong for everyone, especially Kurt. But, he felt like he was going to be sick, when the doctor said that.
He started crying as he looked at Kurt. Part of him wanted to reach out and hold Kurt’s hand. But, he was afraid the movement would spook him.
A moment later, Kurt shakily held onto Burt’s hand and looked at him sadly; as he said, “Daddy” with a hoarse, tired voice.
Kurt hadn’t called Burt, Daddy since after Elizabeth had passed. “I’m right here, Kiddo” he said.
They wheeled Kurt into another room for stitches and to get his chest bandaged. The stitches were painful but Kurt had some relief after the nurse applied ointment and bandaged his chest.
"I'm so sorry" the nurse said sadly as she said goodbye to them.
Soon it was time to get Kurt checked in for surgery. They all rubbed his shoulders encouragingly; and Carole gave him a kiss on the forehead, "It will be okay sweetheart, we'll see you when you get out, we love you." she said.
Kurt just nodded, he felt so numb from the shock of everything that had happened.
It was a lengthy surgery and the three of them waited anxiously in the waiting room.
Rachel and Mercedes arrived with flowers for Kurt, Mercedes looked like she had been crying and Rachel sat next to Finn. She was shaking nervously and laid her head on Finn's shoulder, holding his hand.
Later, the doctor came out into the waiting room, "The surgery went great, Kurt is resting in the recovery room, follow me this way" he said.
Kurt was sleeping when they walked in; Mercedes walked over and gently touched Kurt's hand, the reality of everything setting in, even more once she saw him.
It broke her heart to see Kurt's arms covered in bruises, he suddenly looked so small and fragile.
Kurt slowly opened his eyes about twenty minutes later; "Hey guys" he said in a groggy voice, looking around the room at the five of them.
"Thanks for coming Rachel and Mercedes" he said with a sad half, smile. They burst into tears, "come here" Kurt said. He gingerly sat up in bed and they shared a hug.
The doctor handed Burt a folder with surgery after care instructions and prescriptions for a strong painkiller,muscle relaxants,and a prescription strength cream.
"The healing process will take about six weeks" the doctor explained "Kurt should avoid strenuous activity and rest as much as possible, but avoid sitting in an upright position for longer than fifteen minutes at a time, especially during the first week. You'll need to help Kurt clean the area and apply the cream twice a day."
"You are good to take Kurt home; I'd like to see him back in a week and a half to remove the stitches on his chest and also a month from now for a checkup. Do you have any questions for me?" he asked.
"Not right now, but I will call if I do" Burt replied.
"Kurt, any questions?" asked the doctor, "Yes, how long until the burning sensation goes away? And how can I go to the bathroom and sleep comfortably until then?" Kurt asked.
"A few days, the antibiotics and pain meds will help a lot and ease your discomfort. As far as going to the bathroom and sleeping; I suggest using a stool softener to make it easier on you. And sleeping with a donut pillow under your hips; I will grab you one." the doctor explained.
"Okay, thank you" Kurt replied. "You're very welcome, I'm so sorry this has happened to you." the doctor said "I will bring you that pillow, and then, there is an officer that would like to speak with you on your way out. Take care Kurt."
"They made their way out into the waiting room. An officer was waiting for them by the front desk.
”Hello Kurt" she said "I have a few questions to ask you if that's alright?" Kurt nodded.
"First, I need a physical description of your boyfriend; his car and license plate number, and what he was wearing when you last saw him, as accurately as you can remember" she said. Kurt gave her the info on Blaine that she needed.
"These next questions are going to be particularly painful, I'm sorry about that" she said "Please stop me at any point if you need a break."
"How did you feel before, during and after the assault? What fears did you experience?" she asked.
"We had an argument before hand and I was terrified as his anger increased. I felt completely helpless, he prevented me from shouting/screaming and held me down. I felt sad and betrayed, afterwards I felt disgusting." Kurt answered.
"Thank you Kurt, now I'd like you to tell me how he restrained you and how he prevented you from shouting/screaming" she said. Kurt's voice cracked as he spoke, Mercedes rubbed his arm soothingly.
"He held my hands above my head in his car and wouldn't stop kissing me, silencing me. At his house he tied my wrists to the headboard and put his hand over my mouth; then gagged me when I wouldn't comply." Kurt replied, crying.
"Can I take a break please?" Kurt asked. "Yes, of course" she said. They sat in silence; Kurt stared at the floor and his eyes welled up with tears, as Mercedes held him.
"I'm ready to continue now" Kurt said after five minutes.
"I have two more questions for you, then a form to fill out & sign and we will be done here." she explained "What sexual acts did your boyfriend perform on you without your consent?"
"He jerked me furiously for at least fifteen minutes; before I blacked out from the pain, I'm not sure what else he did after that, sorry" Kurt answered. "That's ok Kurt, there is no need to be sorry" she said.
"Did anyone witness him kissing you, restraining you in his car, or in the parking lot?" she asked. "No, no one did" Kurt answered.
"Alright Kurt, were finished with the hard part; the last thing I need from you is to fill out this form, sign and date it with your phone number, your parents number and address. Also Blaine's number, his parents number and address." she said.
"Ok, he said that his parents are out of town, I'm not sure how long for." Kurt explained "Thank you for that detail Kurt" she said. Kurt filled out the form and handed it back to her.
"Here is my card, please contact me if you recollect any other vital details. I will contact you as soon as we find him and give you updates. Thank you for your time Kurt, I'm very sorry this happened to you." she said.
Rachel and Mercedes said goodbye to them and Finn wheeled Kurt out to the car, picking him up and laying him in the back seat.
"We will pick up Kurt's prescriptions and some medical supplies, then meet you at the house" Burt and Carole said.
Chapter 5: The Aftermath
Summary:
The investigation to find Blaine continues, Kurt prepares for graduation and his first therapy session.
Notes:
Discussion of self harm and depression/suicidal thoughts which may be triggering for some readers.
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Finn and Kurt arrived at home, Finn helped Kurt get downstairs to his bed.
"Mom and Dad just text me, they'll be home soon" Finn said, making sure Kurt was comfortable.
"Thanks Finn, thanks for everything, I was so scared" Kurt said.
"That's what brothers are for" said Finn, sitting on the bed and gently hugging Kurt.
"Is there anything I can get you?" he asked, "a glass of water please" said Kurt "You got it, I'll be right back".
Finn headed upstairs to the kitchen, just as Burt and Carole got home. "Finn, will you take these prescriptions up to Kurt?" asked Carole.
"Yeah, I was just coming up to grab him a glass of water" Finn said.
"Ok, I'll make him a sandwich, he shouldn't take the muscle relaxant and pain pill on an empty stomach. I'm sure he's hungry. Thank you Finn dear" Carole said.
Kurt gratefully accepted the sandwich, Carole was right, he was hungry. He took the muscle relaxant and pain pill, falling asleep soon after.
In a small motel room just outside Lima, an anxious Blaine was pacing back and forth across the room.
There's no telling how many people knew about what he did to Kurt by now. Had Kurt already gone to the police?! Were the police looking for him right now?!
He left Kurt on his bed and untied his wrists, that was so stupid! He should of took Kurt with him, he thought, getting even angrier now.
He had to get out of here, away from Lima where no one knew him. He wasn't about to go to jail.
Maybe he had scared Kurt enough to keep him quiet, But part of him doubted it. Why did Kurt have to be so difficult, he made Blaine do what he did.
He had Kurt right where he had wanted him, he was compliant with Blaine for so long. Why did Kurt have to go screwing it up?!
He decided he would lay low until it got dark and then figure out his next move.
It was around 7 o' clock and Burt got a call from the police, "Hello" Burt answered. "Mr Hummel, we got a tip from someone who saw a car with the description and license plate number that matches Blaine's, heading out of Lima.
We're checking the area now, we'll call back soon with updates." the officer said. "Fantastic! Thank you so much!" Burt hung up the phone.
"Good news?" asked Carole. "They have a tip on Blaine's whereabouts and will call back soon with updates" explained Burt.
"Thank gosh, I'll feel much better knowing he's in jail, where he can't hurt Kurt again" said Carole.
It was getting dark, Blaine made his way out of the motel room and was about to get in his car; when he saw police lights flashing.
"Shit!" he yelled, trying to start his car and pull out, when he heard a police officer yell, "Freeze!".
Blaine put his hands up, turning around to face the police officer, glaring at him. The officer approached him, "Blaine Anderson, I have a warrant out for your arrest; for the kidnapping and rape of Kurt Hummel.
You have the right to remain silent, anything you say or do will be held against you in the court of law. If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be appointed to you. Put your hands behind your back." he said.
The officer handcuffed him and sat him in the back of the police car, then drove away.
The phone rang again "Mr Hummel, we found Blaine Anderson and we've got him in custody" the officer said.
"Thank gosh!" said Burt "Thank you officer!". He told Finn, Carole and Kurt, they would all sleep easier tonight.
Kurt woke up the next morning; sore but looking forward to graduation, he wasn't about to miss out on it.
He already felt safer knowing that Blaine was in custody.
Carole brought his graduation gown into his room and wrapped her arms around him in a hug, "Congratulations Sweetheart" she beamed. "Thank You" Kurt said with a smile.
Kurt changed the bandages on his chest before getting dressed for graduation, wincing slightly as he gently applied more ointment.
Then got dressed and fixed his hair, heading upstairs. He was still very shaken up, but also had a sense of braveness, he had survived a terrifying ordeal.
He had a long road of recovery ahead of him and was starting therapy the next day.
The officer at the hospital had been so comforting, she reminded him a lot of his mother actually.
He smiled to himself, thinking how proud his mother would be of him, if she were alive today.
The members of the New Directions immediately surrounded him with hugs the second they saw him.
"We're so sorry! We're so glad you're okay!" they said. Kurt teared up, but was so thankful for their love and support.
Drying his eyes, he said "Alright, lets go do this thing!" linking arms with Rachel, Santana, Mercedes, Quinn, Mike, Finn and Puck.
It felt so good to walk across that stage and accept his diploma.
Afterwards, they all went back to the Hummel/Hudson home for a graduation party. Kurt felt so safe and happy with them all together.
They promised to keep in touch and Skype call with eachother whenever they could.
They were all hanging out in Kurt's room. Kurt was nervous about the future, but knew that he could get through it all with their love and support.
After everyone left, Kurt took a pain pill and muscle relaxant, he was very sore and needed some rest.
Carole was holding Kurt's hand as she drove him to his first therapy session.
They got to the psychiatrists office and were given some paperwork to fill out.
"I'm so nervous" Kurt said, Carole squeezed his hand and said "it's going to be ok sweetheart".
Soon it was time for Kurt to go in.
He was led to a room with a comfy looking couch and the psychiatrist greeted him with a smile, introducing herself to Kurt.
"Kurt, it is so nice to meet you", Kurt gave a nervous smile "Thank you" he said.
"I would like to spend our first session getting to know about you and how I can help you, before we dive in. Is that alright with you?" she asked.
"Yeah, that sounds good" said Kurt.
"Great, I have a handful of questions for you that weren't in the paperwork. These may be hard for you to answer, and I'm sorry if they are. Have you ever been to a therapist in the past?" she asked.
"I did when I was seven, my mom passed away from cancer and my dad was really worried about me." Kurt answered.
"I'm very sorry to hear about that and at such a young age" she said. "Have you ever struggled with suicidal thoughts or self harm?" she asked.
"Both actually; during middle school and into high school, I was badly bullied and coming out of the closet made it worse." Kurt said.
"What age did you start to have suicidal thoughts and harm yourself? What emotions did you experience and were you able to get help?" she asked.
"I was..." Kurt tried to talk and started crying, she handed him a box of tissues.
"My first year of high school before I joined the glee club; I got really depressed and was wearing long-sleeve shirts even when it was warm outside, to hide the cuts.
I felt like no one at school would care if I was gone. One bully in particular made it his mission to make my life a living hell." Kurt said, tears running down his cheeks.
"Then I joined the glee club and made friends, and things started to get better. I was still getting bullied but I finally had real friends. I wasn't alone anymore." Kurt said.
"I'm so happy to hear that it got better for you Kurt, I have a few more questions and some homework for you." she said.
"What is your home life like?" she asked.
"My dad, Burt is amazing, he's my best friend and my step brother Finn, he's the best brother I could ask for. My step mom Carole is really great, she's been there for me through a lot." Kurt said with a smile.
"That's fantastic Kurt, I would like you to start a daily journal, how you're feeling, things that are bothering you physically/mentally. It will help me to learn even more about you. Are you feeling up to that?" she asked.
"Uh sure, I can try that" said Kurt. "Great, I'll see you on Friday, take care Kurt" she said.
Kurt made his way back out to Carole in the waiting room. They got in the car, "How did it go sweetheart?" Carole asked, rubbing his arm soothingly.
"It was hard but good, she's really nice and suggested keeping a daily journal" Kurt said.
"Aww sweetheart, I love you so much, the therapist sounds great and keeping a journal sounds like a good idea." Carole said. "I hope it is a good idea, I love you too" Kurt smiled.
“Tell you what; we'll stop at the store on the way home and you can pick out a journal, we need to get some groceries as well." Carole said.
Chapter 6: The Court Hearing
Summary:
Kurt is hoping to get justice at the court hearing but fate may not be so kind.
Notes:
Sorry guys, I threw in a crazy twist with this chapter, I promise things will work out later in the fanfic for Kurt.
Contains depictions of self harm and mentioning of partner abuse.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Kurt fell asleep ok that night, but ended up having another nightmare.
Everything that happened with Blaine came crashing back into his mind; that awful feeling of helplessness, fear and dread.
"No, no, no" Kurt tossed and turned in bed, crying. He woke up shaking and holding the teddy bear his mom had given him before she passed.
He had pulled it out after he got home from his first visit with the psychiatrist. It was like having a part of his mom here with him.
The hearing for Blaine's sentencing is today and Kurt is terrified to be in the same room with him again.
He reluctantly got dressed and fixed his hair, his face care routine calmed him a bit.
He closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths, silently crying.
He went upstairs, Carole made a pot of coffee and some breakfast.
Kurt didn't have much of an appetite, he just had a cup of coffee and a slice of toast.
After breakfast, Kurt, Carole, Burt and Finn got in the car and headed to the courthouse.
The drive felt like forever, once they got there, Kurt started shaking even more. Finn reached over, across the back seat and gently squeezed his hand.
"It's gonna be ok, I won't let him hurt you again" Finn said.
They entered the courtroom, opposite from the side where Blaine was seated with his attorney and parents.
Kurt shivered at the sight of him; Blaine looked over in his direction when they entered, that same scary look in his eyes that Kurt had witnessed that terrifying morning.
Finn sat down on the right side of Kurt; putting his arm around his shoulders, and glared over at Blaine, daring him to even think about touching Kurt again.
Kurt's attorney soon joined them, sitting on the other side of Kurt.
The judge soon came in, introducing himself and explaining how the court hearing and sentencing would proceed.
Unfortunately, there were no witnesses to the crimes, other than Kurt and Blaine. But, each would state their side and the judge would come to a sentencing.
Kurt's attorney leaned over "Blaine's attorney is one of the best in the state. I'm not surprised with his families wealth and social standing; that they are going to do everything within their power, to guarantee that he gets as minimal jail time as possible." he explained to Kurt.
"I'm going to do everything I can to try and prevent that from happening, but unfortunately, that is what we're up against."
"I damn well hope so" Burt scoffed angrily "After what this asshole did to my son, I don't want him out of jail anytime soon. Otherwise, what are we paying you for?"
First to testify was Blaine, "Mr. Blaine Anderson, you are here before the court for the kidnapping and rape of my client Kurt Hummel, how do you plea?" Kurt’s attorney asked.
"Not guilty by reason of insanity" Blaine stated. Kurt’s attorney shook his head and sat down.
Kurt looked back and forth between Blaine and attorney, and was trying not to cry.
Burt couldn't hold back his anger, "Excuse me?!" he shouted, jumping out of his seat. "Mr. Hummel, calm down!" the judge shouted.
“I have no intention of calming down, this creep knows full well what he did to my son! How could you?! You were like a son to us!" Burt shouted back.
Kurt started to cry and Blaine just looked at them with a smirk. Finn wrapped his arm around Kurt, trying to comfort his brother.
"Each side must be able to speak their side, if we are to come to a sentencing" the judge said.
Burt sat back down, fuming; Carole put her arm around him and her head on his shoulder, crying.
"Mr. Anderson, please answer in your own words, what made you do what you did that day.” Kurt’s attorney asked.
"I simply wasn't in my right mind and didn't realize the full extent of what I was doing; my boyfriend was done with me.” He cried, his expression changed dramatically, to one of fake pity. “I didn't want to hurt him, I really didn’t." Blaine replied, pretending to act distressed.
Which caused both Burt and Finn to glare at him. Kurt had tears running down his cheeks; shaking his head, he couldn't believe Blaine was speaking so matter of factly about all this.
“Sweetheart, please find it in your heart to forgive me?” Blaine said, looking across at Kurt. Kurt was livid, “Never!” he shouted back at Blaine.
"Thank you Mr. Anderson, I’m sure the court will take your heartfelt testimonial into consideration.” the judge said.
”Objection your honor! Mr. Blaine Anderson has no right to speak directly to my client in court! He obviously forgets that he’s in a court of law and has fed you a very well rehearsed performance.” Kurt’s attorney said angrily.
The judge completely ignored him and said. “Before I was interrupted, I was going to say, We will have a short break and then continue with Mr. Kurt Hummel on the stand. You are allowed to go out into the hallway. But, please do not engage with the other party." he said.
Blaine and his family went out into the hallway in one direction, Kurt and his family in the opposite direction. "This is complete horse shit!" shouted Finn "Guilty by reason of insanity?!" "How can he get away with this?!"
"I broke his heart, I never thought he would do what he did though." Kurt cried "I should of never said what I said, Then things would never have gotten out of hand like they did."
"Kurt sweetheart, none of this is your fault, you know that right?" Carole replied. Kurt shook his head, crying "I don't know anymore". They all went back into the courtroom.
The judge came back in and called Kurt to the stand.
"Mr. Kurt Hummel, in your own words, what took place before you and Blaine left the school?" Blaine’s attorney asked.
"We got in a fight in the school parking lot, I broke up with him, I told him it was because I couldn't take him being controlling any longer.
I broke his heart, but I never thought he would do what he did. He gripped my arm and pulled me towards his car, despite me telling him he was hurting me." Kurt replied.
"I see, and what was his behavior like, once you two had gotten in the car?" Blaine’s attorney asked.
"Once he forced me in the car against my will (Kurt said with anger in his voice), I begged him to let me go and told him I wouldn't tell anyone. He had a crazy look in his eyes.
He got angry with me plenty of times. (Blaine shook his head when Kurt said that part, but he knew it was true.) But, I never saw him look quite that way before and I..." Kurt replied, before he was interrupted.
"Thank you Mr. Kurt Hummel, that will be all" Blaine’s attorney said, cutting him off.
"Objection your honor! I believe my client was not finished speaking yet." Kurt's attorney said.
"I asked him the question and he answered. His answer just further confirmed the fact that Blaine Anderson was not in his right mind, and is therefore not guilty by reason of insanity. I've heard enough." Blaine’s attorney stated.
"This is not right, Kurt said himself how controlling Blaine was. Also, Blaine sounds very manipulative, I'm not surprised he's convinced you that he's somehow innocent. I'm sure his families wealth and social standing only adds to it." Kurt's attorney replied.
"That is enough!" the judge shouted.
"I can assure you, This won't be the last you hear from me. This is not right and you know it" Kurt's attorney said angrily.
"The court finds Mr. Blaine Anderson not guilty of the kidnapping and rape of Mr. Kurt Hummel by reason of insanity, and sentences him to no more than the required two weeks in a juvenile detention center." the judge stated.
Blaine's dad nodded with a smug grin on his face and Kurt started sobbing. Finn wrapped his arms around Kurt protectively, as Blaine was escorted out of the courtroom.
"What are we supposed to do now?" Burt buried his face in his hands.
"I'm so sorry that I failed you" Kurt's attorney said.
"Hey, you didn't fail us, you stuck your neck out for my son. And I'm sorry for getting so angry at you. Clearly this judge and Blaine's attorney are corrupt." Burt said.
"Thank you, I appreciate that. I'm going to investigate further into everything, it's not right for them to get away with this. I will be in touch with you as soon as I find anything out." Kurt's attorney replied.
"Thank you" Burt said and shook his hand.
They all left the courtroom and headed home. Kurt felt sick and soon cried himself to sleep on Finn's shoulder.
"Poor kid, this is so unfair" Finn said. When they got home, Finn carried Kurt up to his room.
He tucked Kurt in bed and closed the curtains, so the light wouldn't wake him. Then he gently closed the door.
He went into his room to call Rachel and tell her what had happened.
“Oh Finn, I'm so sorry, that is just so wrong" Rachel said "Is Kurt okay? Sorry, stupid question".
"He's completely devastated, as we all are, he's asleep right now" Finn replied.
"Poor Kurt, give him my love please" Rachel said. "Will do, bye Rachel" Finn replied, hanging up the phone.
Finn laid on his bed feeling exhausted; he was so worried about Kurt, and at the same time he was trying to work up the strength to send Rachel to New York.
He couldn't stand in her way, even if it broke his heart to do so, she belonged in New York.
Kurt woke up around four, feeling even worse than when he fell asleep, if that was even possible. He felt so numb; Blaine was in the detention center for two weeks, just two weeks, then what?
Who's to say he wouldn't try to hurt him again, this was all too much.
He wished his mom were here; he just wanted her to hold him again and tell him everything was going to be alright, even though it felt like his whole world was ending.
But she wasn't, she's gone, who are you kidding, Kurt thought to himself.
He knew something that would take the numb feeling away, even if only momentarily. It had helped throughout high school; and after the multiple times Blaine had taken out his anger out on him.
Stepping into the bathroom across the hall, he grabbed his razor from the shower. He took a deep breath, then he reached out and glided the blade across his arm.
Kurt hissed in pain and drew back his arm, inspecting the shallow cut that was already starting to bleed.
He realized he wanted more, this was pain that he could control. The old familiar feeling coming back from the beginning of freshman year.
Kurt reached to draw the blade across his arm a second time, when the door suddenly opened.
He dropped the razor in a panic and quickly tried to compose himself.
But it was too late, Finn had already seen the cut on his arm.
Kurt cursed under his breath for forgetting to lock the bathroom door.
"What the...what the hell Kurt?!" Finn shouted, as he spotted the razor on the floor and made the connection.
Kurt started sobbing, "Finn...I can't do this anymore, I just can’t, everything is shit”, he said, more sobs racking his body.
"Kurt I'm sorry, you just scared me" Finn replied, rushing over to Kurt and gently pulling him into his arms.
A few minutes later, Finn said, “This isn’t the first time Blaine’s hurt you, is it.”
It was a statement, not a question. Finn had seen Kurt covering up the bruises with makeup multiple times; there was no fooling him.
He had tried to confront Kurt about it before, but Kurt had avoided talking about it.
It was time for some tough love, even if Kurt got angry with him; he needed help.
Kurt got angry at that and stared down at the bathroom floor. “Kurt, answer me please” Finn said.
”What do you want to hear Finn!” Kurt exclaimed, defensively “That my boyfriend has an anger problem, that he hit me, that I’m screwed up? I was handling it just fine on my own, before you got in the middle of it.” Kurt replied, angrily.
”I just want you to get help, that’s all” Finn said, pleading with Kurt.
Kurt tried to leave the bathroom, but Finn just held him again. “Let me go” Kurt said angrily, “I’m sorry brother, I won’t do that” Finn replied, with tears in his eyes.
Eventually Kurt broke down and started sobbing again, in Finn’s arms.“I’m so sorry” Kurt barely got out, between sobbing.
”It’s gonna be okay” Finn replied, trying to reassure Kurt.
“You can’t tell mom and dad about any of this, you just can’t, they have enough to worry about right now." Kurt pleaded, a moment later.
Finn didn't know what to say at first, "I really don’t like keeping this from Mom and Dad, but I will respect your wishes Kurt; because you're my brother and I love you. But please promise me, you’ll put a stop to cutting yourself, that you will try and get some help. I’m here for you, you don’t have to go through this alone.” he said.
"Fine, I promise" Kurt replied.
"Lets get this cut taken care of" said Finn, grabbing the first aid kit from the bathroom cabinet. Kurt winced as Finn cleaned the cut, then he placed ointment and a bandaid on top.
Kurt went into his room, he needed to be alone. The arguement with Finn and everything that day, had exhausted him.
He ate dinner with everyone later and then returned to his room.
He was glad when it came time to take his muscle relaxant and pain pill.
Kurt woke up around 2am as thunder rolled outside; he was feeling slightly shaky and his room suddenly felt very dark and lonely.
He grabbed his pillow and teddy bear, quietly walking down the hall to Finn's room.
He opened the door and Finn stirred in his sleep, then opened his eyes.
"Finn...if you’re not too angry with me, can I sleep in your room tonight?" Kurt asked.
Finn turned on his bedside lamp and looked at Kurt, “I’m not angry anymore, I just care about you.” he answered. Kurt nodded, trying not to cry.
“Come here” he said, moving over a bit and making room for Kurt. Kurt got into the bed and replied "Thank you Finn".
"Anytime brother" Finn said before going back to sleep. Kurt made himself comfortable next to him, suddenly feeling much safer.
Notes:
I updated this chapter some, fixing some writing mistakes and added some more depth to the overall fanfic. And some extra information that will tie into the conclusion of this fanfic; to help things make more sense.
Chapter 7: A Visit With Kurt’s Mom
Summary:
After a particularly painful visit with Kurt’s psychiatrist; he and Carole go to visit Kurt’s mom at the cemetery.
Chapter Text
Carole walked to Kurt's room to wake him up for his appointment with the therapist. She was surprised to see his bed empty, "Kurt?" she called into the hallway.
"In my room, he was feeling lonely last night and came to sleep in their" said Finn, walking to the bathroom.
Carole walked to Finn's room and opened the door, smiling when she saw Kurt. He looked so peaceful, she hated to wake him up, but they had to get going soon.
"Kurt sweetheart, she said, gently nudging his shoulder, "Time to wake up."
"Morning" Kurt smiled sleepily with his adorable bed head. "Good Morning Sweetheart" Carole replied with a smile, "I've got some breakfast waiting and then we'll head to the psychiatrist's office".
"Nooo, more sleep" said Kurt, making Carole laugh. "C'mon, we'll grab a coffee on the way" Carole bribed Kurt.
"Okay, I'm awake" Kurt said, getting up and heading to his room. He got ready and had some breakfast, then they were on their way.
They pulled up in front of the Lima Bean, "You wait here sweetheart, I'll bring out your coffee" said Carole.
Kurt nodded, "thank you Carole" he knew going in would be triggering for him and he was grateful that she recognized that.
Carole soon came out of the Lima Bean and they drove the rest of the way to the psychiatrist's office.
"Are you nervous?" Carole asked, gently touching his hand when they got there.
"Yes, I know talking about everything again is going to be a lot. I just hope I can get through it...Will you come back with me? I don't think I can get through it on my own." Kurt asked, his eyes watering.
"Of course I will, Sweetheart" Carole replied.
"Thank you; when my mom died, it felt like my whole world had ended..then my dad met you and everything changed. I miss my mom so much it hurts; but I have a mom again." Kurt said, crying.
"Oh Kurt, I don't ever want to replace your mom. I just feel so lucky that I gained such a wonderful and loving son, I will always be here for you." Carole replied, now she was crying too.
"Can we go visit her after my appointment?" Kurt asked. "Of course sweetheart" Carole answered, giving Kurt a hug.
They headed inside and sat down in the waiting room, soon the psychiatrist came to take them back.
"Hello Kurt, Hello Carole" the psychiatrist greeted them "Kurt, how is your journaling going?" she asked.
"I don't really know if it's for me, I feel like writing things down only triggers me further right now." Kurt answered.
"I'm sorry, I was worried that might happen. You don't have to write it down anymore." she replied.
"I'd like to discuss with you, what happened that day with your boyfriend, if that's ok?" she asked.
"Okay" Kurt said hesitantly, Carole gently rubbed his arm. "I went to school the morning before graduation to clean out my locker. It went okay until I got out into the parking lot."
He started crying and Carole gave him a tissue. "You can do this sweetheart" Carole encouraged him.
Kurt continued, "He grabbed my shoulder aggressively as I was walking towards my car, He was really angry. I hadn't talked to him all weekend and had contemplated breaking up with him, only I hadn't told him yet.
I told him he's controlling and I couldn't take it anymore, I told him that I wanted to end it. He said he'd show me controlling and dragged me towards his car. I told him he was hurting me.
We took off in his car and I begged him to let me go. I told him that I wouldn't tell anyone.
He pulled off the road before we got to his house, only to start kissing me against my will. I couldn't move, he's so much stronger then I'am."
Kurt took a sip of his coffee and continued, "When we got to his house..he carried me up to his room, I was kicking and screaming the whole way but it didn't do any good...He tied me up and covered my mouth, he said he had to because l wouldn't cooperate.
God forbid I would make it difficult for him." Kurt shook his head and had tears welling up.
He grabbed another tissue and Carole squeezed his hand, Kurt jolted immediately with a frightened look on his face..."I'm sorry Carole, I was just reminded of Blaine grabbing my hands, when he tied me up" Kurt cried. "Oh god, I'm so sorry" Carole replied.
Kurt took a break for a few minutes and continued, "He hurt me really bad, I blacked out before too long, but I ended up having to have surgery because he penetrated me so severely, and he badly cut my chest.
By some lucky chance he left me there alone; because the house was completely empty when my brother came to get me." Kurt finished.
"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry" she said "The good news is, you're past the hardest part of having to re-tell your trauma. I'd like to help you with your ptsd so you don't have to re-live this over and over again. We will make that the main focus for now.
I can teach you skills to help you handle your ptsd and there are different types of therapy, which types work for some may not be the case for you, but we will find out what will help you the best.
Does this sound okay to you so far,Kurt?" she asked.
"Yes, whatever you think is best, I hate feeling this way" answered Kurt.
"It's going to get better Kurt, I promise you, you're in good hands. I'm going to prescribe you Zoloft to help with your ptsd and also to help you sleep. You should notice improvement in a week or two as your body adjusts." she said.
"Okay" Kurt said " What are the types of therapy like?" he asked.
"I'd like to start you with, what we call, cognitive processing therapy, we will go into detail about how you felt during and after your trauma.
This will help you to examine how you think about your trauma and figure out new ways to handle it. For example, maybe you've been blaming yourself for something?" she said.
Kurt nodded, "I've been blaming myself for breaking up with him, that maybe what happened wouldn't have if I had just stayed quiet" he said.
"That's great that you're recognizing that Kurt; I can help you understand that things were beyond your control, so you can move forward, understanding and accepting that it wasn't your fault, despite things you did or didn't do." she explained.
"That sounds like a good plan" replied Kurt, feeling hopeful for the first time in days. "I'm so glad to hear that Kurt, I feel like this will help you a lot" she said.
"Do you have any questions for me Carole? " she asked "not right now, you've explained things fantastic, thank you" Carole answered.
"Great, here is your prescription for Zoloft, Kurt and I will see you on Monday" she said. "Thank you so much" Kurt smiled. "Your very welcome, bye" the psychiatrist said.
Kurt and Carole got back in the car and headed towards the cemetery. Carole knew the way to the cemetery as they had visited in the past.
"We can pick up some flowers on the way, if you'd like" Carole said.
"I would like that a lot" Kurt smiled "Thank you". "You're very welcome sweetheart" Carole smiled back at him.
It was a short ride to the supermarket, Kurt's thoughts were with his mom on the ride there.
It would absolutely break her heart to see what Kurt had been through this week.
He had to remind himself that even though it didn't feel like he had come far since Monday; he was starting to talk through his feelings & fears and that was a start.
When they got to the supermarket, they picked out a nice bouquet of pink roses and white daisies, Kurt's mom loved roses.
They drove to the cemetery and parked the car. Kurt held Carole's hand as they walked to his mom's grave.
Once they got to her grave, Kurt placed the bouquet at the base of his Mom’s headstone, "Hi Mom" he said.
He always had a little chat with his mom when he went, about what was going on in his life. This one was going to be hard, so much had happened.
Carole rubbed his back reassuringly, "Carole's here with me too" he said, smiling.
"You remember Blaine, I brought him here with me a few times" his smile fading as he said his name "Well...he hurt me really bad mom, I was so scared" he started crying and Carole wrapped him in her arms.
"I'm really hurting and I understand why you can't be here with me right now, but I miss you so much.
I graduated from high school on Tuesday and I know you would be so proud of me. I'm not sure what I'm going to do, Nyada didn't accept me and I feel really lost right now.
But, I'm determined to make it to New York. I love you so much Mom, I promise I'll continue to make you proud." Kurt said.
Him and Carole stood there in silence for a while, Kurt resting his head on her shoulder.
Then they got back in the car and headed home.
They got something for lunch on the way home, Kurt was hungry now that he was feeling much more calm.
The psychiatrist was so nice and understanding, and it was comforting to talk to his mom.
Chapter 8: Girls Night
Summary:
Kurt, Mercedes and Rachel have a girls night over Skype. Kurt prepares for Blaine being released from the detention center. Adam is introduced into the fanfic.
Chapter Text
Kurt had been in good spirits that rest of Friday and slept a full night. But saturday was a different story, he felt the awful weight of depression creeping back in. There was more time to sit and stew over everything, now that the weekend was here. He was desperately needing a distraction, but just felt like staying in bed at the moment.
Rachel was now in New York and Mercedes in LA. They both felt sorry for leaving him behind, but he assured them he would be ok, even if he didn't fully believe it himself. It was heartbreaking enough for Rachel, when Finn had unexpectedly sent her on her way, and he was excited for Mercedes.
He turned on his tv, mindlessly scrolling through the channels; eventually turning it off and going back to sleep. Not because he was tired, but because he can dream and pretend that the last week never happened. That he hadn't completely bombed his chances of going to New York and Nyada. That Blaine was still the sweet, supportive guy that he had fallen in love with in the first place.
Kurt woke up late in the afternoon to a text from Rachel, "Hey Kurt, would you like some company later? Mercedes and I thought we could have a girls night over skype with you tonight, we miss you."
Kurt thought for a moment and text Rachel back, "that's exactly what I need right now, how about six o'clock?". A minute late Rachel text Kurt back, "six is perfect! see you later!"
Kurt smiled for the first time all day and got out of bed to take a shower. Enjoying the feeling of the warm water running over his body; taking a couple deep breaths as the numb feeling from earlier washed away.
Soon it was time for their girls night, Carole had made popcorn for Kurt and the girls had some as well. "Are you doing okay?" They asked. Kurt knew that question was coming, they were just being good friends. "Okay I guess...therapy is going ok" Kurt said.
"How are you really?" Mercedes asked "I know you're good at putting on a brave face, but you don't have to around Rachel and I" Mercedes said. Rachel looked at Kurt with a sad smile, "it's ok sweetie, it's gonna be ok" she said, trying to reassure him.
"No! It's not ok!" Kurt shouted, bursting into tears "the one guy that i trusted, that I loved so strongly once, betrayed all that in one morning. He scared the hell out of me and I don't know if I'm ever going to be ok again." Kurt said.
Rachel and Mercedes were crying now too, "boo, I know things feel hopeless right now, but we will always be here for you. We love you so much" Mercedes said. "I love you too" Kurt said, crying.
"Damnit...part of me thinks I'll never find a guy that I will feel safe with. Even though I'm so not ready for that" Kurt said. "The right guy would be so lucky to have you" Mercedes said, Rachel smiled and nodded in agreement. "Thanks ladies" Kurt smiled, feeling better.
They stayed on skype for another couple hours talking and laughing, ordering pizza when dinner time came. Kurt didn't know it at the moment but he would still make it to New York someday and would eventually, find the right guy when he was ready.
Meanwhile in New York, Adam Crawford was walking hand in hand, fingers linked with his boyfriend, on the way to get lunch together. "How was class babe?" his boyfriend, David Meyer asked with a smile, massaging the back of his hand with his thumb.
"Brillant!" Adam said with a grin, "I've chosen the perfect song for my midterm. Also,I've spoken with some of my friends in the class, were starting a singing club of sorts." David smiled and kissed him gently "that's wonderful Adam".
"Thanks love" Adam smiled "how was work this morning?". David sighed "Stressful, lots of annoyed people (he worked as a telemarketer at a call center) I'm just glad I get to enjoy my lunch break with you".
"Likewise love" Adam smiled and snuggled into David's shoulder, "I have a surprise for you when you get home tonight, you're going to love it".
"Oh yeah?" David said, raising his eyebrows and winking at Adam, "Do I get a hint?". Adam giggled, teasing David, "no way, you will just have to wait till tonight."
"Such a tease" David laughed and kissed Adam again.
They sat down at lunch, David planted more kisses along Adam's jaw line; Adam hummed to himself and leaned into his touch.
It was Adam's second favorite spot to be kissed and David knew it.
As they waited for their food to come, David said, "So...do you have a name picked out for this singing club of yours?".
"Mmm...I was thinking of the Adam's Apples actually, does that sound completely cheesy?" Adam asked.
"Not at all babe, I love it" David said, grabbing Adam's hand again.
David got off work and was heading home, smiling to himself, wondering what surprise Adam had waiting for him.
Not too long after, he was opening the door to their apartment.
He was surprised to see it was mostly dark inside, lit only by candles, there was a long trail of rose petals and something smelled good.
"Adam?" he called out. "Right in here, love" he heard Adam call from their bedroom.
Adam greeted him with a grin when he walked in their room; wearing boxers and a tank top.
He was spread out on their bed, waiting for him, "surprise!" Adam beamed.
"Aww baby, this is incredible!" David said excitedly and joined him on the bed.
"I know work has been stressful and I wanted to do something nice for you" Adam replied, smiling. "I've made us dinner, it's cooking in the oven”.
"I see, that's what smelled so good when I got home" David said.
"While we wait however"...Adam said, giving David that look that said he wanted him right then and there.
David quickly shed his jacket, tossing it on the floor.
The second he turned back to Adam, he was capturing his lips in a passionate kiss. Whilst, starting to unbutton his shirt.
"So many buttons" Adam giggled, in between kissing.
David laughed and started helping him unbutton his top, "someone's very eager"... Adam captured his lips again, cutting him off, and started running his hands up and down his bare chest.
David tangled his hands in Adam's hair and helped him out of his tank top, deepening the kiss.
He shifted Adam to lay down next to him, pulling him even closer together and entwining their legs.
They both got so distracted that they barely heard the oven timer go off twenty minutes later; they laughed and hurried to the kitchen.
Meanwhile in Lima, Ohio, Kurt groaned, getting out of bed and trying to tame his bed head.
He had gone through another weeks worth of therapy. He was comfortable with his psychiatrist now.
Blaine was getting out of the detention center in four days and Kurt was scared.
Healing from the injuries that, that asshole had inflicted on him and from the surgery was difficult.
There was a lot of itching and soreness as he recovered, he could sleep ok but he dreaded using the bathroom, it was so tender. The ointment did help through and the pain pills.
He was thankful that he was able to clean the area and apply the ointment on his own. He couldn't bear the humiliation of having to have his Dad or Carole help him. He loved them both, but no.
He sat up on his bed, opening his laptop and smiling at the messages of love and support from his friends on Facebook.
He replied to them all, he told them he was doing alright but was scared about the upcoming week. His medication had really kicked in and was helping a lot.
He hadn't thought about New York or Nyada for days, so much else had been on his mind.
But, he did have a college fund saved up since before his mom had passed (mentally thanking his Mom and Dad for that) and he could get a good amount selling his navigator.
He closed his laptop and laid his head back down on his pillow, suddenly feeling tired. His bed felt so comfortable and inviting. He soon fell asleep.
Chapter 9: Hope At Last
Summary:
The day comes for Blaine to get released from the detention center and Kurt is just trying to cope as best as he can.
Sebastian gives Kurt some fantastic news and they form an unlikely bond.
Notes:
Finally Kurt has some hope! I’m so excited to be to this point in writing this fanfic!
Chapter Text
The next few days went ok; then came the day when Blaine was getting released from the detention center in Columbus, Ohio.
Kurt had a restraining order but it still made him nervous.
Finn was staying in Lima for at least the rest of the summer, working at Hummel tires & lube.
Kurt was starting to feel some of his strength coming back. His psychiatrist had suggested some light exposure therapy to help him heal from his trauma.
Going to places in Lima that he had been to with Blaine; and experiencing them in a safe, loving way.
He went to the McKinley High parking lot by himself; to prove to himself that he could feel safe again, even on his own.
He pulled in and turned off his navigator, shaking slightly when he remembered exactly what had happened in that area.
He couldn't remember the exact spot where Blaine had grabbed him, but he was pretty sure he was close. Some of the time since it had happened felt like a blur.
He started feeling that same helpless feeling, he had felt the morning it happened and took a few deep breaths to calm himself down.
He could do this, he just had to remember that he's safe in his navigator. No one else was in the parking lot, no one was going to hurt him.
He left and decided to treat himself to a non fat mocha at the Lima Bean; he parked in front and walked in, getting in line.
Someone got in line behind him and a moment later he heard them say, "Kurt?" He knew who that voice belonged to, Sebastian Smythe.
But, something was different, his voice didn't have that hint of arrogance, he actually sounded...sympathetic?
Kurt turned around "yes" he said, holding his ground incase Sebastian decided to mess with him.
"Sorry, I just....I didn't recognize you in your hoodie. Umm.." Sebastian was finding it hard to form words, definitely a first for him.
"What?" Kurt asked, hoping Sebastian would get to the point; as he was nearly to the front of the line now.
"I heard what he did Kurt...What Blaine did to you. Kurt...shit...I'm so sorry" Sebastian said.
"Who told you?" Kurt asked, his eyes filling with tears.
"Blaine's brother Cooper told Jeff and Jeff told Nick, then Nick told me. And well...word spread quickly, we're all here for you and so is Cooper. He was furious when he found out and we are too.
Also, my father and I are able to help you legally, my family has a lot of connections.
It may take some time to sort out exactly what is going on in that court; but we could get Blaine put away for a long time.
I know you have plenty of reasons not to trust me; with my behavior in the past, and I'm sorry about that. But, I would really like to help you, if you will trust me with this." Sebastian said, a pleading, sincere look in his eyes.
Kurt smiled at that, he loved the Warblers and he had always liked Cooper, it was nice to know they were all behind him.
Cooper had been considered the black sheep of the Anderson family, he was nothing like Blaine and his parents.
He lived in LA and worked as an actor, mostly commercials and spots in various tv shows.
He was rarely in Lima; but Kurt had talked to him on the phone once in a while, before it happened.
Kurt made a mental note to call him when he got home. It was incredibly comforting to know that he was on his side.
Since, Blaine's parents clearly were not, it was ridiculous and heartbreaking.
"Omg Sebastian, thank you" Kurt replied, crying and hugged Sebastian for the first time in his life "Thank you so much".
The sudden relief that Kurt felt was incredible, he finally had some hope.
"I...uh..is there anything my family and I can do to help?" Kurt asked, hardly believing how much his day had improved.
"Don't worry Kurt, we'll get in touch with your attorney and take care of everything. You just focus on healing, okay?" Sebastian said.
When they got to the counter, Sebastian turned to Kurt, smiling and said "This ones on me".
They got their coffee and found a table. Kurt put his hand on the table and Sebastian reached out to touch his hand.
"Kurt...I realize it may be too late, but I'd really like to be your friend. I felt sick when I found out what Blaine did to you. I want to be here for you." Sebastian said.
"I would like that, I'd like a new start with you. I didn't imagine you would be this kind but I'm very thankful for it.
Even though, you were trying to take Blaine away from me sophomore year and then you were just...snarky to me after that." Kurt replied.
"I know Kurt and I'm sorry, I admit, I really pursued Blaine sophomore year and that was wrong of me.
You were able to keep up with my snarky comments and frankly I was intimidated & impressed. No one has been able to keep up with me like that.
And in a weird way it was fun, I enjoyed our battle of wits." Sebastian said, Kurt giggled at that last part.
"I noticed how Blaine treated you during senior year, when i would run into the two of you here.
How he...controlled you in a way, and you were so eager to please him. That's not the Blaine I met sophomore year, he's changed." Sebastian said.
"Wow, thank you for that, it would be nice to have another guy friend. I was so caught up in how in love with Blaine I was, that I kind of ignored that part of him. Until it got to be too much. Now that I know you noticed, it sinks in even more." Kurt replied.
"Of course I noticed Kurt, I was a jerk to you but I'm not blind. I got more worried about you, the closer graduation got. I wish I would have said something, I will always regret that." Sebastian admitted with a sigh.
"You're here for me now and that's what matters" Kurt said. "Thanks Kurt" Sebastian replied, smiling.
They finished their coffee and exchanged phone numbers; "Call me anytime, I mean it" Sebastian told Kurt.
Kurt said goodbye to Sebastian and got in his navigator.
Sebastian Smythe is now his friend, he thought to himself and it made him smile.
He never would have thought that they would be friends one day. He was incredibly grateful for it and glad that he didn't side with Blaine.
He made his way home, feeling a new hope inside of him, knowing so many were behind him.
Kurt walked into the house and downstairs to his room.
He called Cooper, "Hey Kurt buddy, I'm so glad you called" Cooper answered.
"Hey Coop" Kurt said, his voice cracking slightly "I ran into Sebastian just now at the Lima Bean and he told me everything".
"Aww Kurt, I'm so sorry, what Blaine did to you...it's not okay. It makes me sick, and i want you to know I'm here for you" Cooper replied.
"I really appreciate that Coop and I'm relieved that you're being so supportive, even though he's your brother. I felt so disgusting and ashamed after it happened, and terrified and..." Kurt couldn't finish, he started crying.
"He's dead to me after he did that to you, Brother be damned. And my parents...I knew they were cold; but i didn't realize they could be that cold.
I can only imagine how scary that was for you; you shouldn't have to feel ashamed, Blaine should be the one feeling ashamed. You're a catch Kurt, you deserve so much better." Cooper said.
"Thanks Coop, he's such a coward, he even left me at your parents house alone after. Everywhere I go reminds me of him; therapy is helping but its hard being in Lima, even more so, now that he's out of the detention center (anger bubbled in his voice).
I have a protective order against him, but a piece of paper doesn't make me feel very safe. The sooner i get to New York, away from Blaine, the better." Kurt replied.
"It sounds like you could use a change of scenery for a while; how about I fly you out here and we can spend some time together. I think the beach and California sunshine would do you some good." Cooper suggested.
"That would be great Coop!" Kurt replied, he was excited about the idea of some change of scenery and he had yet to visit California.
Heck, he'd never even seen the ocean before. "I'll have to clear it with my parents and psychiatrist, but I think it should be fine." Kurt said.
"Great! Hey, I've got to go, I need to get going to an audition. But, please let me know when you get the clear to come and we'll get it planned, ok" Cooper said.
"Sounds good Coop! Bye and good luck" replied Kurt. "Thanks Kurt! Bye" Cooper said.
After hanging up, Kurt heard his dad get home from work.
Perfect, he could ask him about going to visit Cooper.
Kurt went into the living room, "Hey Kiddo, how was your day?" Burt asked as he came in.
"Hi Dad" Kurt smiled. "It was good, I just got off the phone with Cooper and he..." Kurt stopped when Burt asked him, "Cooper Anderson, as in Blaine's older brother? Why is he contacting you?"
"It's ok dad, I called him, he knows about everything and he's on my side" Kurt answered.
"Well, thank gosh for that" Burt said, feeling relieved, and sat down to take his shoes off.
Kurt explained everything that had happened at the Lima Bean w/ Sebastian and Cooper suggesting he come to California for awhile.
"I'm glad that they are all on your side, you need that right now. That sounds very promising with Sebastian and his dad, thank gosh for that.
As for California, I have no problem with you going; if you’re sure you feel okay going. I'm sorry you have to go through all of this." Burt said.
"Thanks Dad, I'll clear it with my psychiatrist tomorrow and let Cooper know." Kurt replied, giving his Dad a hug.
Chapter 10: Subway Attack
Summary:
Adam is running late getting home, thinking it’s just going to be a regular subway ride home. He has a terrifying experience at the subway station.
Notes:
Contains physical assault and strong language
Chapter Text
David was just about finished cooking dinner for Adam and him. He sighed, glancing at the clock on the kitchen wall. Adam should have been home an hour ago.
Adam was just leaving Nyada, his singing club had gone over-time a bit.
He knew David was probably wondering where he must be; so he sent him a quick text to let him know he was on his way home.
He was sitting, waiting to get on the subway; when he saw a guy about the same age as him being harassed by a group of guys.
"Hey homo, I'm talking to you!" one of the assholes taunted him while another laughed beside him.
"We don't need your kind here, spreading your fairy dust. No one wants to catch what you have." they said.
That set Adam off and he shouted at them. "Leave him alone, why don't you!" He hated seeing others getting harassed like that.
He got the groups attention and the tallest of the four said, "Yeah, and what are you gonna do about it? You a homo too?" he replied, sneering at Adam.
"So what if i'am, I'm simply standing up for him. And by the way, you can't "catch it" like a bloody cold, you ignorant morons!" Adam said the last part shaking with anger.
The poor guy getting harassed looked over at him and mouthed, please just go. He didn't want him to get hurt, he didn't know what these guys were capable of.
Adam just shook his head, no way in hell was he going to leave him alone.
Another guy in the group shouted, "he's a homo too! I knew it!" laughing he said, "seems we've hit a nerve" mocking Adam's British accent.
Seriously?! Adam thought to himself, these assholes are unbelievable.
He got up and marched over to them, getting in the guys face, "what is your problem?!" Adam shouted.
"You're the problem, faggot" the guy replied, sneering at him.
Adam hated that word, it was what his dad had called him when he came home early, and found him on the couch; making out with a guy that went to the same high school.
So much anger surged through him and he delivered a strong punch to the guy, hitting his nose with a crack. He immediately grabbed his nose crying, "you broke my fucking nose!"
Adam looked scared suddenly (wishing that it wasn't just him and the five guys waiting for the subway) the tallest guy of the group lunged at him, knocking him to the concrete ground.
His head hit the ground with a hard thud that didn't sound good, then everything went black.
The guy continued to kick him even though he had gone unconscious, he didn't give a fuck, he was worthless to him.
The other guys of the group were holding back the guy that they had harassed, who was trying desperately to help Adam.
The subway arrived and a woman screamed as the door opened.
The group of guys ran away quickly, leaving an unconscious Adam with blood on the ground.
The guy that had been harassed in the first place; was sobbing, his knees pulled up to his chest and frozen with fear.
The woman put a hand on his shoulder and he jumped, "what happened here?! are you ok?!" she asked with a frightened expression.
"I'm ok" he answered "but...he looked over at Adam, is he breathing?". A man looked up that was kneeled down next to Adam, "he has a pulse, but a very weak one".
He had taken Adam's cell phone out of his pocket and tossed it to the woman, "Alert his mom/dad...whoever's number you can find, while I check his head. An ambulance is on the way!"
The woman quickly scrolled through his contacts, her hands shaking, she didn't see a number labeled mom or dad.
Adam's phone buzzed with a text from David, "where are you?", she quickly called his number.
"Adam, are you on your way home?" David answered.
"My names Heather" the woman said "Adam is badly injured at the subway stop and an ambulance is on the way. I'm so sorry, I didn't know who to call." she said.
"Omg" David cried "Don't be, I'm his boyfriend, you did the right thing."
"Is he... (he was struggling to keep it together, hurrying out the door to hail a taxi) going to be ok?" David asked.
"He's unconscious, he has a pulse but it's very weak. He hit the back of his head and lost a decent amount of blood." Heather said.
"Oh god" David cried "I know exactly what stop it is, I'm on my way!" he said, getting in the taxi.
Ten minutes later, the taxi pulled up by the stop and the ambulance had arrived.
He paid the driver and got out, just as they were pulling Adam out of the subway entrance on a stretcher.
"Adam! Oh god!" he cried running over "I'm his boyfriend" he told the paramedics.
They got Adam in the ambulance and David got in with them; gripping Adam's hand as they hurried to the hospital.
Adam came to about halfway to the hospital, he looked around for a minute, feeling very disoriented.
"David..." he said with a hoarse voice, looking over at him. Then he cried out in pain, "my head is throbbing" he cried.
"It's gonna be okay baby" David replied, squeezing his hand.
The ambulance arrived at the emergency room and the emt's quickly took Adam inside, followed closely by David.
They went into an exam room and a nurse arrived first to check Adam's vitals, then a doctor came soon after.
The emt's explained what happened to Adam from their account and the witnesses.
A police officer arrived to question the man that had been harassed in the first place; and get a description of the attackers.
The doctor took Adam into a second room to do an examination and x-rays to assess Adam's injuries.
He laid Adam down after and hooked him up to an iv, to help stabilize him.
"There are six broken ribs and the back of his skull has been fractured. Thankfully the fracture is not so severe that the brain is affected.
He's very lucky that there were no organs punctured in the process. There is a lot of external and internal bruising on both of Adam's sides." the doctor said.
"Thank you doctor, where do we go from here, as far as healing?" David asked.
"The broken ribs and skull fracture should heal on there own in a couple months. I'm going to send you home with care instructions and a prescription for pain meds; and another to help Adam sleep.
I'm going to get the back of Adam's head taken care of and bandaged. You'll be able to take him home when the iv is finished." the doctor explained.
Soon they were in a taxi headed home, stopping to pick up Adam's prescriptions and some medical supplies.
When they got home, David helped Adam change into some sweats and a t shirt. And got him comfortable on the couch, as he got them something to eat.
After eating dinner, David gently pulled Adam into his arms. Adam started crying, "I couldn't leave him there alone, I just couldn't.
And then they said that awful word, the same one my dad called me and I just..." he started sobbing and it made his ribs hurt even more.
"Shh, it's gonna be ok baby" David said, calming him down, and kissed him gently. Adam soon fell asleep in David's arms.
Chapter 11: Learning To Heal
Summary:
Kurt’s last therapy session before he leaves to go to LA. Adam returns to school after the subway attack.
Chapter Text
Kurt got into his navigator and headed to his next appointment with the psychiatrist, on his own this time.
Carole had insisted on going with him, but he told her he would be fine.
He knows she's just being a good stepmom, but he can't be babied forever.
After all, she wouldn't be there to hold his hand in New York, whenever he got triggered or had a ptsd episode.
He loves Carole, but this is important for his healing process, to go to therapy on his own.
"Hello Kurt", the psychiatrist greeted him with a warm smile. Kurt smiled back and made himself comfortable on the small couch.
"How has your week been?" the psychiatrist asked.
"I have good days and then not so good days." Kurt answered.
"And what about light exposure therapy, did you give it a try?" she asked.
"I did, I went to the high school parking lot on my own" Kurt said, and started crying, slightly frustrated that he was crying so easily.
"I just...I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes. I tensed up and I felt like I was drowning. It took some deep breathing to calm me down. I had to tell myself I was safe, that he wasn't going to get me." Kurt said.
"Oh Kurt, I assure you, you are not going crazy. This is a perfectly normal response to the trauma you've been through.
You're able to tell yourself that you're safe and believe it, and that's a big step. This is why exposure therapy can be so effective. I'm very proud of you" she said.
"Thank you" Kurt replied, raising his head with tear rimmed eyes.
He told her what had happened afterwards at the Lima Bean; how he and Sebastian had formed an unlikely bond, and that the Warblers were all behind him.
She was very glad to hear that Kurt has more support on his side.
"One more thing" Kurt said "I talked to Blaine's brother Cooper on the phone (shivering as he said Blaine's name) He's on my side by the way. He suggested I come and stay with him in LA for a while, have a change of scenery." Kurt said.
"That's fantastic that he is on your side. How long would you be staying with Cooper?" she asked.
"I'm not exactly sure yet, probably a few weeks" Kurt answered.
"Ok, well we could set up a few weekly Zoom call's while you're in LA, does that sound good?" she asked.
"Sounds great" said Kurt, happy to have the clear to go.
"Great! Have a good time in LA Kurt" she said with a smile.
Kurt called Cooper once he got back in his navigator, "Hey Coop! I can come!" Kurt exclaimed happily.
"Kurt buddy! So happy to hear that! I'll get you a plane ticket and get you out here next week, sound good?" Cooper asked.
"Sounds great Coop! Thank you!" Kurt replied. "Anything for you Kurt, you doing alright this week?" Cooper asked.
"Doing okay for the most part, I'm really looking forward to next week. These antidepressants are helping but I just feel tired sometimes." Kurt answered.
"Ah Kurt, I'm sorry to hear that, you're doing good after everything you've been through. I can't wait to see you next week, Love you Buddy" Cooper said.
"Love you too Coop" Kurt said.
"I'll get your ticket booked and text you later with the details. Bye for now Kurt, take care Buddy" Cooper said.
"Bye Coop" Kurt said and hung up the phone.
Kurt started his navigator and headed home. Next week was going to be much better, he could feel it.
Adam returned to Nyada a week later, his professors had emailed him his assignments, so he wouldn't fall behind.
He still had quite a bit of pain, but got through the day alright.
He was happy to have a break at lunchtime, he brought some ibuprofen with him because the painkillers made him drowsy.
David texted him, "How is your first day back babe?".
Adam text him back, "it's going alright, I'm a bit sore" Adam text back.
David texted, " I'm sorry, are you going to be ok?".
"Yeah thanks, I've brought some ibuprofen with me. I better get back to class love, see you tonight, love you" Adam text.
"Love you too, see you tonight" David text him back.
Adam went to his last class and then headed to the auditorium; for a meeting with the Adam's Apples, he'd missed seeing them.
As soon as he walked in they all ran over to him, "Adam omg! We were so worried when we found out! Are you okay?" they all said, avoiding hugging him; because of his injuries.
Adam started crying, "I was so scared and then my head hit the ground and everything went black...I thought they were going to beat me to death, they almost did..." he choked out with a sob.
They were all crying, "that must have been so scary, were so glad you're okay" they said.
They talked for about an hour and then Adam said bye, heading home.
Adam took a taxi home instead of getting on the subway. He didn't know if he would ever feel safe at the subway station again.
They still hadn't caught the guys that did this to him.
He got home, dropping his bag by the couch.
He grabbed an ice pack and took one of the painkillers. Laying down on his side of the bed, he soon fell asleep.
He slept soundly for a while and then he was in the subway station again.
David got home from work and heard screaming coming from down the hall.
He hurried to their bedroom, Adam was screaming and thrashing around in his sleep.
David gently shook him awake, trying to calm him down. He held him till he stopped shaking, Adam woke with a start.
Adam looked up at David with red rimmed eyes. "David, what's the matter with me?" he sobbed.
"Nothing is wrong with you sweetheart" David said.
"I don't feel like me anymore" Adam said.
They sat on the bed for awhile, David holding Adam and rubbing his back soothingly.
David held Adam until he stopped sobbing and shaking.
David made some dinner for them both, wondering to himself if some professional help would help David.
Chapter 12: Coffee With The Warblers
Summary:
Kurt meets up with the Warblers and Sebastian before leaving for LA. Adam is struggling with his ptsd and trust issues.
Chapter Text
It was the day before Kurt was leaving to stay with Cooper for three weeks.
Kurt was carefully folding clothes to pack in his suitcase, his hands shaking slightly.
Something that happened once in a while, but he tried to not draw too much attention to the fact.
Carole was driving him to the airport at noon the next day. She came in his room a few minutes later with a laundry basket full of clothes.
"Hi sweetheart, I've got the rest of your clothes" she said, sitting the basket down on his bed and noticed his hands shaking.
She sat on his bed and started pulling clothes out of the basket, to fold them. She knew that he could use some help without saying a word, they had a really cool bond that way.
Kurt smiled up at her, "thank you Carole" he said. She smiled back at him and continued folding; Kurt was thankful for the help.
A moment later, Kurt's phone buzzed with a text from Sebastian, "Hey Kurt, I know you're headed out of town tomorrow. But the warblers and I would really like to see you before you leave. Can we meet up with you later? I'm sorry this is short notice".
Kurt texted back, "I would like that, I could meet you at three, after I get packed".
Sebastian smiled and texted Kurt, "Three sounds great, I'll let them know, we can't wait to see you. How about coffee at the Lima Bean?".
Kurt text back, "Awesome, coffee sounds great, see you then".
"Who was that?" Carole asked.
"Sebastian, him and the Warblers want to see me before I leave" Kurt answered.
"That's great, I'm glad they're being so supportive" Carole said.
"Me too" Kurt replied, with a smile.
Kurt finished packing and left to head for the Lima Bean.
Soon he was pulling into the parking lot and smiled when he saw the Warblers and Sebastian waiting for him.
He got out of his navigator and they all encircled him in a big group hug. "Kurt!" they all exclaimed happily at the same time.
Kurt couldn't help but get teary eyed, "I seem to be doing that a lot lately" he said, half crying and half laughing, (the latter in an effort to protect himself from painful memories with Blaine).
"We're so sorry about what happened to you Kurt, and were here for you every step of the way, we love you" they all said.
"Thank you guys, I love you too, I always will" Kurt said with a teary smile.
Sebastian put his arm around Kurt's shoulder and they all headed inside.
Once they got their coffee, they found a few empty tables and sat down.
They chatted for a while; about what they had planned for the summer, future plans and college:for the members of the Warblers that had graduated.
Kurt told them how devastated he was about Nyada rejecting him.
"You'll get there soon, with a voice like that, they would be crazy not to take you in" Nick and Jeff reassured him, gently rubbing his shoulders.
"Thanks guys" Kurt said smiling at them.
They all left around five, saying goodbye to Kurt and wishing him a safe flight.
Kurt got in his navigator and headed home, it had been so good to catch up with them all.
The next morning, Burt and Finn hugged Kurt goodbye before heading to work.
Carole helped Kurt get his things in the navigator and they took off for the airport.
It was during dinner a few nights later that David brought up the idea of Adam going to a psychiatrist.
Adam didn't take it so well, "so what? so they can fix me?".
David sighed, "No one wants to fix you honey. I love you and I can see how much this has hurt you. I just want to help you" he said.
Adam cried, "I'm sorry, I can't sit across a room from someone and be studied like something under a microscope."
He knew this was a different situation, but his dad had sent him to therapy when he found out he's gay. And he couldn't stand to sit with a psychiatrist again.
Adam's mom was killed in a car crash when he was just seven years old.
"No, I'M sorry, I shouldn't have brought up a psychiatrist after what that asshole put you through" David said, feeling awful.
"Can we not talk about this right now please?" Adam begged, already feeling badly triggered.
"Of course honey" David said.
Adam laid in bed that night, his mind reeling, after David had fallen asleep.
He was silently crying and snuggled closer to David.
Kurt and Carole arrived at the airport.
Carole helped Kurt get his things out of the navigator and hugged him, "have a good flight sweetheart and let us know when you land" Carole said.
"I will" Kurt said. They said goodbye to eachother and Kurt headed inside to check in.
The flight from Ohio to Los Angeles wasn't a very full one.
Kurt slept part of the way, it was the first time he had traveled alone.
Once the flight had landed that night; Kurt made his way through the crowded airport, towards the baggage claim.
He texted Cooper to let him know that he had arrived at the airport.
Cooper got there just after Kurt made it to the baggage claim.
"Kurt, Buddy!" Cooper exclaimed. running over to Kurt and enveloping him in a big hug.
"Hey Coop" Kurt said with a teary smile, Cooper hugged him a little tighter, just holding him there for a minute.
"Alright, how about we get your suitcase and go get something to eat, I bet you're hungry." Cooper said, clearing his throat and trying not to cry.
"Sounds great" Kurt replied, and they headed to the parking lot; Cooper grabbing Kurt's suitcase.
Adam tried to keep his mind occupied as much as he could. He was grateful for the Adam's Apples to help keep him distracted.
He knew David was worried, but he didn't trust to talk to anyone else about his ptsd, other than his friends and David.
So he threw himself into his schoolwork and music, a much needed distraction.
Chapter 13: Date Night
Summary:
Kurt settles in at Cooper’s house, Adam and David have a date night at home.
Chapter Text
Kurt and Cooper got something to eat, and then went to Cooper’s house.
Kurt put his clothes in the dresser and closet. Then put his hair and skin products in the bathroom next door.
Then he laid down on the bed, feeling tired and a little emotional. He had been so relieved when Cooper first sided with him.
It was eerie and extremely unnerving, the way Blaine’s parents had acted in the courtroom on that awful day. Cooper was nothing like Blaine and Kurt was very grateful for that.
He felt very safe being so far away from Blaine. He called Carole to let her know that he had made it to LA, and had just got to Cooper’s house.
“That’s good sweetheart, have a good time, love you” Carole said. “Love you too” Kurt said.
After Kurt got off the phone with Carole, he decided to sleep for a bit. The comfortable bed reminding his body how draining the flight had been. He wasn’t used to air travel.
Adam got home from school and sat down at the table, pulling out his homework. He got himself a glass of water and got started with his musicology paper.
He was doing okay, a lot of bad memories with his dad had come up the last few days and he was just trying to deal with it.
A couple hours later he text David, “how does pizza and a movie sound tonight, love?”. “Sounds great, I’ll see you in an hour” David replied.
Adam turned on some music and went to take a shower to get his mind off things for a while. The warm water felt so nice and relaxing.
After getting out of the shower, Adam called to order some pizza for David and himself.
Soon, David got home and the pizza arrived. “Welcome home love” Adam said and kissed David.
They got comfortable on the couch and watched “Love Actually” while they enjoyed the pizza.
After eating they laid down on the couch together, David had his arms wrapped around Adam. “How was your day babe” David asked Adam, kissing his cheek.
”Okay, finished a paper for school, some more memories came up with my dad” Adam said.
“Baby, he’s out of your life, you don’t need to worry about him anymore. It’s just you and I together, he’s not going to hurt you again.” David stated, with a sigh.
“I suppose so” Adam said sadly, a single tear slid down his left cheek, that David didn’t see.
Chapter 14: Beach Trip
Summary:
Kurt sees the ocean for the first time and makes plans to get together with Mercedes.
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The next morning after eating breakfast, Kurt and Cooper went out for an afternoon at the beach.
Kurt couldn't wait, finally getting to see the ocean was so exciting.
They got out of the car and sat their towels and things on the sand.
Kurt excitedly ran for the water, feeling so happy.
He loved the feel of the sand under his bare feet, and the water around his ankles.
Cooper watched Kurt, smiling, the poor guy had been through so much; it was good to see him so happy.
A while later, Kurt walked over to Cooper and spread out one of the towels, sitting down.
"So glad you're having a good time Kurt" Cooper said, smiling.
"Me too" Kurt replied, smiling at Cooper.
They pulled out the sandwiches and drinks they had grabbed on the way to the beach.
They enjoyed the view of the ocean while they ate.
"I'm so proud of you Kurt, you're doing great and have come so far since that awful day" Cooper said, reaching over and patting Kurt's hand.
"Thank you Coop" Kurt said "I never thought something like this would happen to me. I feel so safe being here."
"You're very welcome, I'm so happy to hear that you feel safe here" Cooper replied.
After they ate, they both went swimming for a while.
Splashing eachother and laughing, it felt so good to laugh again.
After a while, they got back in the car and headed back to Cooper's house
Once they got home, Kurt went into the bathroom and hung up his wet clothes, swimsuit and towel in the shower; to dry.
He went into the guest room and changed into some lounge bottoms and a t-shirt.
Then he sat on the bed, watching tv for a while.
An hour later, Kurt got a text from Mercedes, "Hi Boo! How was your flight and your first day in LA? We need to get together, it's been too long." Mercedes texted.
"It's been great, Coop and I just got back from the beach, it made my heart so happy to see the ocean. Flight was good, I miss you and can't wait to see you!" Kurt text, smiling.
"I'm so glad to hear that boo, aww I miss you too" Mercedes text back.
"I've got a Skype appointment with my psychiatrist at two tomorrow. I'm free to get together after that." Kurt texted Mercedes.
"Ok cool, I'll pick you up at four, does that sound good?" Mercedes text back. "Sounds awesome! I can't wait to see you!" Kurt text.
"See you tomorrow! Love you Boo!" Mercedes text.
"Love you too Cedes! See you tomorrow!" Kurt text.
Chapter 15: A New Plan
Summary:
Kurt has his first skype therapy session during his trip to LA. And spends some time with Mercedes, who helps him come up with an alternate plan.
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The next afternoon, Kurt had lunch before his Skype appointment with the psychiatrist. He sat out on the small deck, enjoying the warm weather.
A little while later, he logged into Skype and soon, connected with his psychiatrist. "Hello Kurt" she said, smiling "how is your vacation going?".
Kurt replied, "it's going great, thank you".
They talked for an hour, the psychiatrist checked with Kurt, that he was doing good with the medication dosage he was at.
When the therapy session ended, she told Kurt to have a good weekend, and that she would see him again on Friday.
Kurt felt like he was handling the therapy sessions a little easier lately.
An hour later, Mercedes came to pick Kurt up at Cooper's house. "Kurt!" she exclaimed happily, getting out of her car and embracing him in a big hug.
"I've missed you so much" Kurt said with happy tears in his eyes.
They drove around LA for a couple of hours, talking and enjoying eachothers company.
Mercedes showed Kurt some of her favorite places, occasionally getting out of the car and walking around.
It was getting close to dinner time; they stopped at the grocery store on the way to Mercedes apartment and grabbed some things for dinner.
"I hope you don't mind stopping at the grocery store with me, I really need to go grocery shopping" Mercedes said, sheepishly.
"Not at all" Kurt replied, smiling.
"I love La, there's so many more opportunities out here in the music industry; but gosh, it's kind of weird being on my own, so far from home, you know? Mercedes said.
Kurt froze for a second, he didn't know what it was like at all; he was stuck in Lima with that sick asshole.
"Kurt..are you okay?" Mercedes said, once she saw the pained look on Kurt's face.
"I just..I'm so happy for you Mercedes, really I'am" Kurt said.
"Oh boo" Mercedes said, feeling awful "Things are going to work out for you too, I know they will".
"Thanks Cedes" Kurt said "I sure hope it's sooner then later, the sooner I get away from that asshole for good, the better. A year until I can audition again feels so far away" Kurt said, sadly.
"Well...Who says you have to wait a year?" Mercedes said. "What do you mean?" Kurt asked, suddenly very curious.
"Your parents have a college fund saved up for you right?" Mercedes asked.
"Yeah.." Kurt started, slightly confused at first, then hopeful "Are you saying what I think you're saying?" Kurt asked, excitedly.
"Yes!" Mercedes said, her and Kurt were so in synch that they could practically read eachothers thoughts.
"You should have enough to get you by for a while, you can find a job in New York and you're set" Mercedes said.
"I'm liking this idea more and more, I could even sell my Navigator to help" Kurt said, smiling. "Absolutely!" Mercedes exclaimed.
They were now at the grocery store and they got out of the car, heading inside.
Kurt felt like a huge weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
Chapter 16: Dinner At Mercedes
Summary:
Kurt and Mercedes talk about New York after dinner, Kurt ends up staying the night.
Chapter Text
Kurt was feeling more and more excited about the future as he and Mercedes walked through the grocery store; getting what she needed for dinner and groceries.
They finished grocery shopping and made their way to Mercedes apartment.
When they arrived at the apartment building; they carried the bags of groceries up to the second floor.
"It's not much, but its home" Mercedes said, smiling, as she opened the door and showed Kurt inside.
"It's great" Kurt said, smiling at Mercedes.
Together, they put the groceries away and started on making dinner.
"We could look at apartments in New York after we eat, if you want" Mercedes said.
"That would be great, good idea" said Kurt. His heart was feeling much lighter already.
After they had finished eating, Mercedes pulled out her laptop and did a search for available apartments.
There were some looking for a roommate, Kurt didn't know if he was ready for that yet. The idea of sharing an apartment with a stranger kind of freaked him out.
What if he was to have another flashback in his sleep, he didn't want to have to explain that to a roommate or have them look at him; like there was something wrong with him.
There were also single rooms available for rent thankfully; Kurt liked the idea of that much more and the cost of rent wasn't too high either.
"You're so awesome with fashion, I wonder if there are any interns available" Mercedes said.
"Here's one and its a paid intern" Mercedes said, after some searching.
"Who is it with?" Kurt asked, feeling hopeful.
"With Isabelle Wright at Vogue" Mercedes said.
"Isabelle Wright?!" Kurt said excitedly, his face immediately lit up.
"Yes, you know her?" Mercedes asked. Kurt smiled even bigger, "of course you do" Mercedes said, smiling.
"Oh my gosh, she's incredible! and Vogue!" Kurt said, bouncing up and down where he was sitting on the couch.
"She will love you!" Mercedes said, smiling. "Thanks Cedes" Kurt said, smiling back.
They ended up talking about New York for so long, that Kurt was surprised at how late it had gotten.
"Just spend the night here, Boo" Mercedes said.
Kurt text Cooper to let him know that he was spending the night at Mercedes apartment.
"Have a good night Kurt, i'll see you tomorrow" Cooper texted.
"Thanks Coop, see you tomorrow" Kurt text back.
Chapter 17: New Discoveries
Summary:
Kurt tells Cooper what Mercedes and him talked about. Burt gets in touch with Sebastian’s dad, to start the process of getting to the bottom of things.
Chapter Text
Mercedes dropped Kurt off at Cooper’s house the next afternoon.
Mercedes hugged Kurt goodbye, “take care boo, keep me updated on your New York plans. I’m so excited for you!” she said.
“I will, bye Cedes” Kurt replied.
After going inside, Kurt excitedly told Cooper what he and Mercedes had talked about.
“That sounds awesome, Kurt Buddy” Cooper said.
A few days passed, and Sebastian’s dad got in touch with Burt. He told Burt that he had been talking with Kurt’s lawyer.
There was no doubt in his mind that something very suspicious is going on.
He was furious as well about how short of a sentence Blaine had received.
It was just a matter of starting the process of investigating into exactly what was going on; and getting the proof they needed to start the ball rolling for a fair trial.
In Columbus, Ohio, Blaine was pacing back and forth across his room.
He then sat on the bed, thinking in disbelief how his brother and the Warblers had pretty much disowned him.
His delusional mind couldn’t figure out why they would do that.
Whatever, he thought to himself, at least his mom and dad were on his side.
Kurt’s next Skype appointment with his psychiatrist went good.
She told him that it was very healthy he had future plans he was looking forward to.
Kurt was feeling more and more hopeful about the future. New York was getting closer than he thought it was weeks ago.
However, he was going to wait to share his new plans with his parents and Finn until he got back to Lima.
Not because he didn’t think they would be supportive, of course they would.
He knew they were working hard with Sebastian’s dad and the lawyer to get to the bottom of what was going on.
He wanted that to be the main focus, at least for right now.
Kurt received a quick phone call from Santana, “Hey Lady Hummel, it’s been a while” she said, smiling.
Kurt chuckled at the familiar nickname, “Hello to you too, Santana” he said.
Kurt was grateful that Santana hadn’t treated him different or gave him pitiful looks after everything that had happened. He craved any sense of normalcy since that awful day.
“So, I’m gonna be in town when you get back from LA and I thought we could meet and catch up.” she said.
“That sounds great” Kurt replied.
Chapter 18: Drifting Apart
Summary:
Adam and David's relationship is starting to crumble and they end up having a fight.
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A week and a half had passed, and the men that attacked Adam in the subway, had been caught and arrested.
He felt a lot of relief knowing that they weren't out on the streets anymore.
But, the memories of his dad that had resurfaced since the attack, were starting to put a strain on his and David's relationship.
He wished David could be a little more understanding.
The next day, Carole and Burt asked how Kurt's trip was going.
He told them it was good and to tell Finn he says hello.
Finn wasn't home at the moment; he was starting to have some regrets about what had happened with him and Rachel parting ways.
Adam got home that night, just as David had finished eating dinner.
"Where have you been babe? I waited for you, but then I got hungry." David said, with a slight disapproving tone to his voice.
"I was with the Adam's Apples, we talked for a while and I lost track of the time." Adam replied.
"I wish WE would talk more, I feel like you're pulling away from me." David said, feeling frustrated.
"I've tried love, you either don't want to hear it or just attempt to brush over what we're talking about." Adam said, feeling equally frustrated.
"Babe...they caught them, they caught those assholes, you're safe. And your dad, he is far away from you. I don't understand why you're still so upset." David said, exasperatedly.
"I'm upset because this has resurfaced memories with my dad, painful one's, and you're not here with me, I feel so alone." Adam replied, crying, his composure breaking.
"Babe, what do you mean? I'AM here with you, of course I'am! You and me, we live in this apartment together, I love you." David said "I don't understand what else you want from me" he finished, as he got up from the table and attempted to embrace Adam.
But, Adam side-stepped out of the way, before he could. "No! That's not what I meant! You're not here with me in the situation." Adam said angrily, his arms folded across his stomach "I'm remembering things that I thought I had forgotten about, and I can't share them with you." Adam replied, shaking.
David started reaching out to touch Adam's arm, and he pulled away while shaking his head.
"Babe, you don't need to be afraid anymore, he's away from you, I've tried to tell you." David said.
"You still don't get it, just stop, stop talking" Adam replied, sniffling.
"I think I'm going to sleep alone tonight" David said coldly, walking past Adam and out of the kitchen.
Adam leaned against the kitchen counter; and let the tears fall as he slowly slid down against the cupboard, until he was sitting on the floor.
After Adam had calmed down; he realized how hungry he was and heated some leftovers in the microwave.
After eating, he got a pillow and some blankets from the hall closet; then made himself a bed on the couch.
Adam made a mental note to call his sister in the morning; as she still lived in Essex and it was pretty early in the morning there.
She was the only immediate family member he had, that he could turn to, and she had a way of putting him at ease.
Chapter 19: Adam and Emily
Summary:
Adam has a much needed phone call with his sister.
Chapter Text
David had left for work, by the time Adam woke up the next morning.
Adam felt slightly groggy as he started a pot of coffee; the fight from the night before had worn him out.
After having some toast with his coffee and getting ready for school; Adam called his sister on the way to Nyada.
He was glad it was Friday; it was hard trying to pretend like everything was ok, while focusing on his classes.
Adam’s sister, Emily answered the phone, “Hello Brother” she said sweetly “It’s been a while”.
“It’s so good to hear your voice again” Adam replied.
”You sound tired” Emily said sadly “Are you ok?”.
“No, David and I had a fight last night. I don’t know what’s going to happen with us.” Adam replied, trying not to cry.
”Oh Adam, I’m so sorry, what did he say?” Emily asked.
“That he doesn’t understand why I’m still upset; since those guys that hurt me have been caught.” Adam replied.
“Thank gosh for that” Emily said “I was so scared for you”.
“Thank You” Adam replied.
”The fact of the matter is, its affected me more than I thought it would in the long run. They called me that same awful name that dad called me, when he found me on the couch that day with my high school boy friend.” Adam said, blinking back tears.
”I’m so sorry Adam, have you been having memories of that again? I hate how he hurt you.” Emily replied.
”Yes, and David couldn’t be less understanding. He wasn’t there, he doesn’t understand how much it haunts me. He’s not even here with me in it, right now, and it’s breaking my heart.” Adam said, finally letting himself cry. “I feel so alone it all” he finished.
”You have me, always, I’m so sorry David is being this way.” Emily said.
”Thank you, I’ve just arrived at school, I’ll talk to you later, I love you.” Adam said.
”Your welcome, I love you too” said Emily.
Kurt had about a week left of his vacation; it had been so good for him to spend this time with Cooper and he loved the warm weather, California was definitely growing on him.
Chapter 20: Adam's Nightmare
Summary:
Adam has a nightmare with his dad and his boyfriend in it. This chapter tells the start of what Adam went through with his dad.
Notes:
Sorry for the delayed update guys, I've been occupied with spooky season festivities.
Chapter Text
Kurt had a few days left of his vacation in LA. Cooper and him went on a tour of a film studio lot.
It was fun to see things behind the scenes, what had to do with Cooper's passion for acting.
Kurt couldn't believe that his time with Cooper was almost over, it had gone by so fast.
He was looking forward to moving forward with his plans to move to New York though.
Classes went okay, but Adam's mind felt like it was somewhere else entirely.
He walked home from school, feeling like his world had been flipped upside down.
He had been through enough already, being attacked at the subway station.
David was so loving and supportive while he was healing from his physical injuries. But then he had changed, once he had painful memories again.
He loved David, he really did, but if this continued it wasn't fair to Adam.
Adam arrived at home to find that the apartment was empty.
There was a note on the fridge from David that said, "Staying at a friends for a few days, I need some time to think."
Adam shook his head and walked into their bedroom. The closet door was open and some of David's clothes were gone.
Packed pretty hastily by the looks of it, because there were a few hangers on the floor.
Adam closed the closet door and sunk down on the bed. It didn't feel like home anymore, without David there.
Adam ended up falling asleep soon after that, and had a nightmare about his dad; when he found him and his high school boyfriend on the couch making out.
It was a chilly Autumn afternoon and the final bell had rung for the school day.
Adam and his boyfriend walked out of school hand in hand and got into Adam's car.
Usually they would go to Eric’s house after school; but Adam wasn't expecting his dad to get home for at least a few hours.
So, Adam assumed they would be safe at his dad’s house.
They soon arrived at Adam's house and went inside.
Adam sister, Emily had a writing club after school; so she wouldn't be home for another hour.
She was a freshman and Adam was a junior.
Adam and his boyfriend, Eric took advantage of the time they had alone. After leaving their shoes and book bags by the front door; they moved to the couch and started kissing.
Eric deepened the kiss and then started to remove Adam's jacket. Adam giggled as Eric struggled to remove his jacket, because of the wooden toggle buttons.
"Here, let me help you" Adam said, smiling at Eric.
Adam tossed his jacket to the side and then removed Eric's, doing the same with his.
"I love you so much" Adam said between kisses. "I love you too" Eric replied, smiling at Adam.
A half hour later, Adam heard someone walk onto the front porch; as he was laying on the couch next to Eric.
"Emily, is that you?" Adam called out, it couldn't be that time already, could it?
"It's me" Adam's dad said as he opened the front door and stumbled inside. Adam got a jolt of fear, hearing his dads voice. He and Eric sat up quickly, as Adam's dad entered the front room.
"What's going on? Who's this?" Adam's dad asked,coldly.
"I'm Eric, I go to school with Adam, we're..." Eric said, before Adam's dad cut him off.
"You look like more than friends to me" Adam's dad said angrily, taking in the sight of their ruffled hair and slightly wrinkled shirts.
Adam could smell alcohol on his dad's breath.
"Care to explain why you're home so early and have clearly been drinking." Adam said, angrily.
Adam's dad had been an alcoholic since his mum died; he supposed he shouldn't have been surprised that he was drinking, but it still made him angry.
He could have easily injured himself or someone else while he was driving; and he certainly didn't want his dad being around his sister like that.
"I got laid off" Adam's dad said "So what...".
"So what?!" Adam shouted "You're Emily and mine's Dad, you're supposed to take care of us!".
"I think I should be leaving..." Eric said anxiously, feeling scared.
Adam had told Eric how angry his dad could get when he had been drinking.
"Don't change the subject, I want to know what you two were doing on the couch." Adam's dad said, angrily.
"We're together Dad, Eric is my boyfriend" Adam said, standing in front of Eric, protectively.
"You're what?!" Adam's dad shouted, furious now "I want you both out now! I won't have people like you...fag's in my house." he said, disgustingly.
Just then, Emily came into the front room, she had heard just enough to know what was going on. "Dad, you can't do this" she said, crying.
"It's no use" Adam said, crying and shaking his head.
"Get out now!" their Dad shouted.
"Dad, stop it!" Emily shouted.
Adam woke up trembling and crying, he looked at his phone, it was one in the morning.
Chapter 21: Adam and David Breakup
Summary:
Adam and David part ways
Notes:
Often in relationships where one partner is mistreated, they will beg the opposing partner to stay. They make them feel dependent on them and they become scared to let go.
The partner that is being mistreated will do anything they can to get the opposing partner to stay; often at expense to their own happiness and well being. From personal experience.
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Adam woke up, crying and shaking all alone on his and David’s bed.
He didn’t care what time it was and that David was angry with him; he was sending him a text right then and there.
Adam texted David all about the terrible dream he had.
Instead of comforting Adam, he just shrugged it off; telling Adam he was tired and that he had to be up early the next morning.
”Well then, can I see you soon at least?, when are you coming home?” Adam asked, frantically.
There was a moment of hesitation, and then David answered, “I should be home tomorrow night, Adam…we need to talk…”
“Oh..ok..I can do better David, I swear” Adam said, feeling anxious.
He didn’t like the way David had said, *we need to talk*.
”Ya..goodnight” David said, “Goodnight” Adam replied.
David got home around seven the next night.
Adam greeted him by the front door, as he sat his bag down on the floor.
Adam was so relieved to have David home. He tried to embrace him/be intimate with him; but David wasn’t having any of it.
Adam dropped his arms to his sides sadly, as David walked over towards the living room.
Adam followed him and they sat down on opposite ends of the couch.
After a moment of silence, both staring at the floor; Adam said, “You’re scaring me, love, please say something”.
David sighed, then said, “I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can do this anymore.”
Adam stared at him in disbelief for a moment; feeling like his heart had dropped into his stomach.
”Adam…” David said and slowly reached out for his hand.
“I…I heard you” Adam said, with a shaky voice.
Then, Adam’s sadness turned to anger, “I can’t believe it, you’re just going to give up after everything we’ve been through together, unbelievable!” he shouted.
David shook his head, frustratingly, “What do you expect me to do Adam? I mean really” he said.
”Well..to be honest..I was hoping you were coming home so we could work things out. I wasn’t expecting you to just walk out of my life.” Adam said.
”You think I’m just giving up on you? Adam, I’ve tried talking with you, you just don’t like what I have to say.” David said, bitterly.
”I can try more, I can do better, Baby please” Adam begged.
David shook his head, “I’m done Adam, I can’t argue with you anymore.” he said.
Adam started crying and shaking, “The apartments in your name, where am I supposed to go?, did you even think about that?” Adam asked, feeling panicked.
”I don’t know, maybe one of the Adam’s Apples can take you in until you get back on your feet.” David suggested.
”I’ll be back, I need some air” Adam said, putting his shoes on and walking out the front door.
Chapter 22: Adam Moves Out
Summary:
Adam moves in with a friend from the Adam’s Apples. Kurt travels home from LA to Ohio.
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It was the morning of the day that Kurt was leaving to travel back to Ohio.
He was in the guest room getting his things together, when he got a text from Santana.
”I want to take you to dinner tonight; tell Carole I’ll pick you up at the airport.” the text said.
”Hey, that sounds good, I’ll see you at six.” Kurt texted.
“See you at six, Hummel” Santana text back.
The next day at school, Adam made arrangements to move in with Tobey; a friend of his in the Adam’s Apples.
They planned to load Adam’s things into his friends car, after classes.
Adam didn’t have too many belongings; so they were hoping to get out of there before David got home.
Adam wanted to avoid an awkward run in with him.
A couple of hours later, Cooper drove Kurt to the airport.
When they got there, Cooper helped Kurt get his suitcase out of the car. Then hugged him goodbye as they stood on the curb.
”Goodbye for now, Kurt Buddy, it was really great spending time with you.” Cooper said.
”Bye Coop, thanks so much for having me to stay; I had a great time too.” Kurt replied.
”Your welcome, I’m here for you, whenever you need me. It’s going to be alright.” Cooper said.
”Thanks Coop, love you” Kurt replied.
“Love you too, Kurt Buddy” Cooper said.
Adam and Tobey left the school, and drove to the apartment that David and Adam had shared.
They stopped to pick up some cardboard boxes on the way.
When they got to the apartment, they grabbed the boxes and headed inside.
To their relief, they found that no one was in the apartment.
They worked quickly, filling the boxes with Adam’s belongings.
Adam tossed some things that David had given to him; he didn’t want a reminder of him.
Over an hour later, they had finished and carried the boxes out to Tobey’s car.
Successfully finishing and getting out of there, before David got back.
Tobey drove them the fifteen minutes to his apartment.
Adam got teary eyed as he watched the apartment building disappear from view behind them; realizing that he would never share another dinner with David there again.
The place that used to feel so comfortable with David, now felt so empty and foreign.
Tobey looked over at him, “you gonna be okay?” he asked, with a concerned tone in his voice.
Adam sighed, then said “Not right now, but I will be.”
Tobey patted his shoulder sadly, as they continued to his apartment.
They arrived at Tobey’s apartment ten minutes later and got Adam’s boxes inside and sat them just inside the front door.
Then Tobey showed David inside. “I’m sorry I don’t have an actual room to offer you, but the pull out couch in the living room is actually pretty comfortable.” Tobey said.
”It’s great really, thank you so much Tobey, for everything.” Adam replied.
“Your welcome” Tobey said, smiling “Make yourself at home please, you’re welcome to anything in the fridge.
I’ll make some room in my closet, for you to hang up whatever clothes you need to. And there’s some shelves in the corner of the living room, you can store whatever you need to.” Tobey said.
”That sounds great, I appreciate this a lot” Adam replied.
“Cool, well..I’ll leave you alone for a while to unpack, unless you need some help.” Tobey said.
”No, I’ve got this, but thank you” Adam replied.
Tobey nodded and gave Adam a hug, then walked out of the living room.
Chapter 23: Kurt and Santana
Summary:
Santana picks Kurt up at the airport, and they talk over dinner at Breadstix.
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The plane landed in Lima that night. As soon as Kurt got out of the plane terminal, he texted Santana to let her know that he was grabbing his suitcase; and then he would be outside.
Kurt waited at the baggage claim for his suitcase. Five minutes later, Kurt spotted his suitcase. He grabbed it and headed outside
Kurt spotted Santana’s car and walked over. “Hummel!” Santana shouted happily, when she saw him.
Kurt smiled as Santana hugged him, “I’ve missed you so much” Kurt said. “I’ve missed you too” Santana replied.
They put Kurt’s suitcase in the back of car; and then they left the airport.
Twenty minutes later, they were pulling up at Breadstix. Santana parked her car and they headed inside.
They we’re seated in a booth and soon ordered their food.
“How’s college?” Kurt asked Santana. “It’s okay I guess, I looked forward to seeing Brittany when I came home to do laundry. But since we broke up, I’ve just lost focus.” Santana said, then grabbed a breadstick to nibble on; distracting herself.
”I’m so sorry Santana, I had no idea you two broke up. I’ve been so wrapped up in what happened.” Kurt said, and sipped his water.
”No, don’t be sorry” Santana said, ditching the breadstick. “These breadsticks are still disgusting, why am I eating this?” she said. Kurt nodded in agreement and laughed.
”It’s ok, really” Santana said, gripping Kurt’s hand that was resting on the table and looking at him. Kurt nodded at her and looked sad.
”Are you scared?” Being back in Lima, knowing he’s out.” Santana asked, looking at Kurt sadly.
Kurt was quiet for a moment, Santana felt his hand shaking in her’s.
”I’m terrified” Kurt said, so softly that only Santana could hear. He was trying not to cry.
”Oh Kurt, I’m so sorry, maybe I shouldn’t have brought it up. You’ve just been on my mind a lot.” Santana said, worried about her friend.
”It’s okay” Kurt replied “I’m just going to try and stay close to home for now, not go out on my own if I can avoid it. I have a restraining order against him, but a piece of paper doesn’t make me feel very safe.” Kurt said.
”I bet not” Santana said, looking at Kurt sadly. Their food came a moment later, and they started to eat.
After they finished eating, Kurt asked Santana, “Could I stay at your house tonight? I could really use a night with a friend, before I go back home.”
”Of course” Santana replied, smiling. “Thank you” Kurt said, smiling back at Santana.
”Anytime” Santana replied, ”My mom will be excited to see you too.”
Santana and Kurt left Breadstix and headed to Santana’s house.
Kurt text Carole to let her know that he was spending the night at Santana’s.
Kurt and Santana talked about New York on the way to her house.
Kurt told Santana what he and Mercedes had talked about and his plans for getting to New York.
”You know..I was thinking that New York might be more my speed.” Santana said.
”It would be great to have a roommate that I know..” Kurt said, looking at Santana knowingly.
Chapter 24: Welcome Home
Summary:
Kurt spends the night at Santana's and then goes home the next day. Adam calls Emily to catch her up on what has happened.
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Kurt and Santana arrived at Santana's house and, after getting Kurt's suitcase out of the back of the car; they headed inside.
They walked inside and Santana's mom greeted them. "Kurt! It's wonderful to see you!" Santana's mom said, hugging him.
"It's good to see you too Mrs. Lopez" Kurt said, hugging her back.
They headed up the stairs to Santana's room. Then sat down on Santana's bed and talked for a while.
Kurt was curious, so he just asked Santana, "Does she, does your Mom know what happened to me?"
"She could tell that I was worried about you. But no, she doesn't know what happened to you. I didn't want to tell her unless you were cool with it." Santana said.
"Thanks Santana, I appreciate that" Kurt said, smiling.
"Your welcome" Santana replied, smiling back.
It was hard for Adam to sleep, the first night at Tobey's apartment.
Not because the bed was uncomfortable of course; it was very comfortable.
But, because his mind kept thinking of David, everything that had happened.
He called his sister. He told her that he and David had broken up and that he was now living with Tobey.
Emily was very sorry to hear that Adam and David had broken up. But was relieved that her brother had somewhere to go.
Kurt didn't mind sharing the bed with Santana, she had a way of making him feel safe.
They continued to talk about New York as they laid in bed.
"I'm so excited for you to be my roommate" Kurt said "I love Rachel, but I couldn't live under the same roof with her."
"Hell no" Santana said, causing them both to laugh.
"I can't wait for us to be roomies too, Hummel" Santana said "We make a good team".
A while later, they both started yawning and decided it was time to go to sleep.
They said goodnight to each other and drifted off to sleep.
They woke up and had breakfast the next morning, then Santana drove Kurt home a couple of hours later.
When they arrived at Kurt's house, he got his suitcase out of the back of the car; and then they hugged each other goodbye.
"Take care of yourself, Hummel. I'm just a phone call away and we'll be in New York soon." Santana said, her arms wrapped around Kurt.
"I can't wait for that, love you" Kurt said. "Love you too" Santana replied.
Santana got in her car and pulled out of the driveway, waving goodbye to Kurt.
Kurt smiled and waved back at her.
Kurt grabbed his suitcase and headed inside. His Dad, Finn, and Carole were so happy to have him back.
Kurt told them all about California; and then what he had talked about with Mercedes and Santana.
Burt was surprised at first, to hear that Kurt wanted to move to New York so soon. But once Kurt explained more, Burt understood.
Chapter 25: Panic Attack
Summary:
Kurt ends up having a panic attack in his room and goes into shock, Finn and Carole are there to help him.
Notes:
*Could be triggering for those that struggle with panic attacks and dissociation*
Chapter Text
Kurt had started preparing for the move to New York; he was so excited to have something so big to look forward to.
He was currently in his room, holding a stack of post-it-notes and a pen.
He was labeling everything into four groups; donate, put in storage, trash, and take to New York.
He had been working hard all afternoon, completely forgetting about lunch.
Kurt came across his and Blaine’s prom picture from Junior year.
He was so stunned that he dropped his post-it-notes and pen.
Finn walked into Kurt’s room holding a sandwich and a glass of water.
Kurt didn’t even register him walking in.
”I thought you might be hungry dude, you completely missed…” Finn started to say, before he realized what Kurt was holding.
Finn sat the sandwich and glass of water down on the nightstand. Then rushed over to his step-brothers side.
Kurt was motionless, staring down at the photo, like he was frozen.
Finn gently took the photo out of Kurt’s hands; sitting it face down on the nearest shelf.
”Kurt..Dude..say something please, you’re kind of scaring me here.” Finn said.
Finn didn’t know what to do, he gently led Kurt to sit down on the end of the bed.
He sat quietly next to Kurt; watching him, with a worried expression on his face.
Five minutes later, Kurt started to slowly lift his head.
“Finn..” he said “What?.. What happened? How did I get here?… on the bed, and oh god..where’s uh...where’s the photo?” He said, his eyes darting around the room like a frightened animal.
”Kurt..I need you to take a couple deep breaths for me, it’s gonna be okay. The photo is over there.” Finn said, pointing at the shelf.
”Throw it away Finn, please…just get rid of it.” Kurt said, looking terrified.
Finn got up, walked over and grabbed the photo; then tossed it in the garbage bag, Kurt had started throwing away things in.
”What happened Finn? When did you come in? I..I don’t remember..why don’t I remember?!” Kurt asked, frantically.
Finn wrapped his arms around Kurt, and Kurt started sobbing as he laid his head on Finn’s shoulder; shaking nearly uncontrollably.
Finn shouted up the stairs, “Mom! Come in Kurt’s room, somethings wrong!”
Carole was hurrying down the stairs, a minute later.
”Kurt, Finn, what’s going on?!” she asked, frantically.
”I came in Kurt’s room to bring him a sandwich and found him holding his and Blaine’s prom photo.
He wasn’t moving, and now he doesn’t remember what happened. I didn’t know what to do, I can’t get him to calm down.” Finn said.
”It’s okay Finn, Honey, it’s gonna be okay.” Carole said. “It looks like he’s had a panic attack and is in shock. What did you do with the photo?”.
”I threw it away like he told me to” Finn said. “What can I do? How can I help?” He asked.
”Good, get me something warm for his head.” Carole replied, and gently laid Kurt down; then pulled the comforter over him.
”Poor kid” Carole said, as Finn came back with a warm washcloth for Kurt’s head.
She laid it across his forehead and Kurt relaxed a little, “It’s gonna be okay Kurt, Sweetheart” she said, softly.
”I’ll let him lay here for a little bit, but I think we should take him to the hospital to get treated for shock; his shaking is worrying me.” Carole said.
She gently squeezed Kurt’s hand as he looked between her and Finn.
Chapter 26: Doctor Visit
Summary:
Finn and Carole take Kurt to the doctors office to get checked.
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Carole kept Kurt wrapped up in the comforter to keep him warm.
Finn carried Kurt outside and put him in the back of the car.
“We’re gonna get you to the hospital, alright buddy, get you some help.” Finn said.
Kurt looked at Finn with teary eyes, and nodded his head, shaking.
Kurt was reminded for a minute of that awful day, and Finn coming to take him to the hospital.
But, he knew that Finn had kept him safe from anything else happening. And he knew that Finn would keep him safe now.
Carole called Burt at the tire shop, to let him know what was happening.
”I’ll be there as soon as possible, please tell Kurt.” Burt said, frantically.
“I will” Carole replied “We’ll see you soon”.
They we’re about halfway to the hospital; when Kurt started feeling nauseous.
“Mom…Finn…I’m gonna be sick” Kurt said from the back seat.
Finn turned around and saw how pale Kurt had become.
“Mom, pull the car over” Finn said.
Carole quickly pulled the car over. Kurt barely had enough time to open the door; before he was vomiting.
Finn and Carole both rushed to his side, with worried expressions on their faces.
Kurt was shaking even more after he vomited. His eyes were watering, and Carole handed him a tissue.
A few minutes later, Carole grabbed a bottle of water out of the cup holder. She took the cap off and handed it to Kurt.
”Try to drink a little of this if you can, sweetheart.” Carole said. Kurt swallowed a little bit of the water.
After giving Kurt a little time to calm down; they got back in the car and continued driving to the hospital.
When they arrived at the hospital, they went to the front desk and got Kurt checked in.
Burt arrived at the hospital, as they were waiting to see the doctor. He hurried over to where they were sitting.
”Oh kid” Burt said sadly, hugging Kurt gently.
Soon after that, they were called back to see the doctor.
The nurse came in the room first, to check Kurt’s vital signs. Then the doctor came in the room, soon after.
After Carole and Finn had told the doctor what had happened; the doctor confirmed that it was a very intense panic attack.
”Kurt’s heart rate is high, which is very common for what he’s been through. Kurt, is this the first time you’ve experienced a panic attack like this?” the doctor asked.
”Yes, not that I remember much of it though.” Kurt replied.
The doctor explained to Kurt that this was because his mind went into a dissociative state; and how it can happen as a result of ptsd and trauma.
”What do I do if it…” Kurt was trying not to cry “If it happens again?” he asked.
”I’m going to prescribe you a third medication, to help prevent panic attacks; and also an anti-nausea medication. You can take these along with your two current medications. I will pass these notes along to your psychiatrist.” The doctor explained.
”Ok, that sounds good, thank you” Kurt replied.
”Do any of you have questions for me before I send you on your way?” the doctor asked.
They all said no and left the doctors office.
Chapter 27: In Need Of A Friend
Summary:
Kurt relaxes at home after his doctor visit, Santana calls Kurt later.
Chapter Text
Burt, Carole, Finn and Kurt left the hospital; stopping to pick up Kurt's prescriptions on the way home.
When they arrived at home, Carole helped Kurt get back into bed. Carole got him a glass of water to take his medications with.
"Would you like me to put something on the tv for you?" she asked.
"No, I'm gonna get some sleep. Thank you Mom, for everything." Kurt replied.
"You're welcome sweetheart, sleep well" Carole said, turning off Kurt's bedroom light.
Kurt had been calling Carole, Mom, more and more lately. It made her so happy.
Adam was feeling more and more at home, at Tobey's apartment.
He still thought about David once in a while. But, he was starting to think of him a bit less.
Adam and Tobey were going to the store for more groceries.
Tobey made sure to keep some of Adam's favorite foods in the fridge too.
Kurt had slept for a few hours, and woke up just before Carole carried a basket of clothes, down the stairs to his room.
"How did you sleep Kurt, sweetheart? I grabbed your clothes that were in the dryer." Carole said.
"I slept good, and thank you" Kurt replied.
"Good to hear" Carole said, smiling.
"Dinner is cooking in the oven, but I want you to stay put and rest, okay? I'll bring you a tray down when it's ready." she said.
"Okay, Mom" Kurt said, in a sleepy voice.
Carole sat down at the end of Kurt's bed and started folding his clothes in the basket.
Kurt wasn't going to argue with that; the panic attack and hospital visit had left him exhausted.
"I'm so glad you're doing a bit better. It means a lot to me, that you call me Mom." Carole said, smiling.
"You bet" Kurt said, smiling back "You remind me so much of my birth Mom; and it means so much to me that you're been here for me, through all of this." he said.
Carole got teary eyed, "You've been through something that no one should have to go through. I'm just glad I can help you through it. Love you Kurt, sweetheart." Carole said.
"Love you too, Mom, thank you so much for everything." Kurt replied.
"You're very welcome" Carole said, gently squeezing Kurt's hand.
Santana called Kurt, after Carole went back upstairs. "Hello" Kurt answered, in a sleepy voice.
"Hey Hummel, how are New York preparations going? Did I wake you up?" Santana asked.
"Hey..something happened today, I'm exhausted from it..it really scared me." Kurt replied.
"Shit...Kurt, are you okay?" Santana asked, with a serious tone to her voice.
Kurts voice cracked and he told Santana everything that had happened.
"You need a friend right now, I can hear it in your voice. I'll be there later tomorrow." Santana said.
"Are...are you sure?" Kurt asked.
"I'm at a college i'm tired of, and my favorite gay is in crisis; of course i'm sure." Santana replied.
"Thank you Santana, I'll see you tomorrow." Kurt said.
"You're welcome, see you tomorrow Kurt." Santana replied.
Chapter 28: Santana Arrives
Summary:
Santana arrives at the Hummel’s house.
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Kurt told Carole that Santana was coming to stay for a while; and she got the guest room ready for her.
They we’re planning to have Santana stay until her and Kurt left for New York.
She wanted to help Kurt prepare for the move to New York.
Sebastian and his dad were continuing to do some digging, into the circumstances surrounding Kurt’s case.
With the help of some private investigator’s ; they discovered that Blaine’s dad does indeed have some connections with people working in the courthouse; where the hearing was held.
Now it was a matter of zeroing in on those responsible; and getting the verification to begin interrogating those individuals in question.
Santana arrived at Kurt’s house around six the next night.
Carole greeted Santana at the front door and told Kurt that she was her.
Kurt hurried up the stairs, and was so relieved to see her; that he practically ran into her arms.
Santana held Kurt for a moment, Kurt felt so safe in her arms.
They helped Santana carry her things downstairs; into the guest room, next to Kurt’s room.
”Dinner will be ready soon, I’ll let you get settled in, Santana.” Carole said, smiling.
“Thank you, Carole” Santana replied.
Kurt sat down on the guest bed, as Santana started to unpack.
“I’m really glad you’re here, thank you Santana” Kurt said.
“Your welcome, Hummel” Santana replied.
”I can’t wait to get to New York, till I can have a life again. I’m scared to even leave the house, now that he’s out and roaming around.” Kurt said, sadly.
Santana sat down next to Kurt, on the bed. She wrapped her arms around him, “with me here, that pathetic hobbit wouldn’t dare to come near you.” she said.
“Let’s hope so” Kurt said, staring down at the bedspread. “It’s gonna be ok” Santana said and hugged Kurt.
Chapter 29: At The Psychiatrist Office Again
Summary:
Kurt meets with his psychiatrist again and Santana goes with him.
Notes:
Sorry about the wait, hope you guys enjoyed the holidays :)
Chapter Text
The next day, Kurt and Santana were hanging out in Kurt’s room; looking at available apartments in New York.
They found a few close to manhattan that looked promising.
Kurt had a visit scheduled with his psychiatrist later that day; to talk about the panic attack he had; and Santana wanted to be there with him.
At two o’clock in the afternoon; Kurt and Santana got in Kurt’s navigator, and left to go to the psychiatrist.
On the way there, Kurt talked with Santana about how they would decorate their apartment; to distract himself from thinking about Blaine again.
When they got to the psychiatrist’s office; they made their way into the waiting room.
Kurt got nervous and started wringing his hands.
The prospect of talking with the psychiatrist; brought back the familiar anxiety he had felt the very first time he visited with the psychiatrist.
Santana placed her hand gently on top of Kurt’s in an attempt to help him calm down.
Five minutes later, they were called back to see the psychiatrist. Kurt nervously made his way down the hallway; with Santana at his side.
The psychiatrist greeted Kurt and he introduced her to Santana.
“I got the notes from your doctor, regarding your panic attack.
Im hoping that with your new medication and my help, you’ll be able to keep these panic attacks at a minimum.” the psychiatrist explained to Kurt.
”That would be good, I’m so scared that it’s going to happen again.” Kurt said. Santana could see him shaking in the seat next to her.
”Kurt, if you’re okay doing so, can you tell me what exactly caused your panic attack; what happened just before.” she said.
”I uh..I think I can do that” Kurt said, shakily.
Santana gently squeezed Kurt’s hand, reassuringly.
“Take your time with it Kurt, there’s no rush.” the psychiatrist said.
Kurt tearfully explained what had happened, and the connection with the prom photo.
Santana watched him, feeling sad for Kurt.
When Kurt had finished; the psychiatrist told him he was very brave for taking the first step of getting a handle on any future panic attacks.
She told him some things that he could do, if it happened again. Like, grounding himself to get out of the head space and situations; that the panic attack had fooled him into believing he was still trapped in.
Kurt told his psychiatrist that he was moving to New York; she gave Kurt a few names of psychiatrist’s in that area.
She was glad that Santana would be living with him, to have someone there that he trust’s and feels safe with.
Chapter 30: Talking With Sebastian
Summary:
Kurt and Santana meet with Sebastian at the Lima Bean, to have coffee and talk.
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With Santana’s help, Kurt had gotten the rest of his things sorted, for the move to New York.
He had two large suitcases to take some clothes in; and then his family would ship the rest of his stuff to him.
He also sold the Navigator for a pretty decent amount. He’s grateful that his Dad knows so much about cars; he helped Kurt a lot.
Everything really felt like it was falling into place.
Kurt and Santana were sitting on Kurt’s bed; when his phone chimed with a text from Sebastian.
Santana glanced at Kurt’s phone as he picked it up.
Kurt had told Santana the other day, that he and Sebastian are friends now; but Santana was still surprised.
She told Kurt that she had to see it to believe it. So, they were meeting Sebastian at the Lima Bean in an hour.
Kurt read the text from Sebastian, it said, “Hey Kurt, I’ll see you and Santana in an hour. I’ve got some new updates that my Dad found out.”
”See you in an hour, thank you, I appreciate you and your Dad’s help so much.” Kurt texted back.
An hour later, Kurt and Santana were in Santana’s car, pulling up next to Sebastian’s car.
Sebastian waved at them; Santana waved back awkwardly after Kurt.
”This is so weird” Santana said to Kurt.
“You’ll see Santana, he’s changed” Kurt replied.
They got out of the car and Sebastian greeted Kurt with a hug, to Santana’s surprise.
Then he said hi to Santana, and Kurt smiled when Santana said hi back to him.
After the three of them got their coffee, they found an empty table.
Santana was starting to warm up more to Sebastian; after she saw how nice he was to Kurt.
”We’ve narrowed it down to ten people that we need to question at the courthouse. It’s going to take some time to get to the bottom of this.
But, we’re definitely getting closer to figuring out exactly what is going on.” Sebastian explained to Kurt and Santana.
”That’s very good to hear” Kurt said, feeling hopeful.
“I’ll keep you and your family updated, as soon as we find out anything new.” Sebastian said.
“Thank you so much” Kurt replied.
”Also, my father and I think that it’s best that you don’t go out alone; until you move to New York.” Sebastian said.
Kurt nodded in agreement and Santana told Sebastian that she would be with Kurt till they moved to New York.
”Good, I’m glad to hear that” Sebastian said.
“Because, I ran into Blaine at the grocery store yesterday. He tried to greet me like nothing had happened, it was weird. I’m afraid him and his parents will get angry, once we start questioning people at the courthouse.”
Kurt suddenly got scared, hearing that Blaine had actually interacted with Sebastian.
He looked at Sebastian with fear in his eyes.
Sebastian reached across the table and gently held Kurt’s hand.
“It’s going to be ok, he’s just trying to be intimidating; that’s all this is.” Sebastian said, looking right at Kurt.
”But he knows where I live, what if he tries to hurt me again.” Kurt said, starting to cry.
Santana looked at Kurt sadly and wrapped her arm around his shaking shoulders.
”You’ve got all of us, and if it becomes necessary, if Blaine sends threats or comes there. We can get officers to patrol the area. We’ll make sure he doesn’t hurt you ever again.” Sebastian replied.
Kurt took a moment to calm down and then said, “Thank you Sebastian, for everything”.
Sebastian replied, “You’re very welcome, Kurt”.
Kurt and Santana said goodbye to Sebastian and left the Lima Bean.
Before too long, he and Santana would be in New York; but until then, he would be kept safe.
Chapter 31: Adam’s Night Out
Summary:
Tobey talks Adam into going for a night out with him and friends.
Chapter Text
Tobey invited Adam to go with him and some friends, for dancing and drinks, that weekend.
He thought it would be good for Adam to get out of the apartment; besides going to school.
Adam reluctantly agreed to go after a while.
The prospect of going to a regular night club; meant that less men would be trying to talk to him.
Late Saturday afternoon came; and Adam was trying to decide what to wear to the night club.
He hadn’t gone out in a while, let alone dancing.
After a while, he decided on a pair of dark skinny jeans and a blue button-down shirt.
Adam and Tobey left the apartment at eight; to meet their friends at the night club.
When they got there, they entered and headed to the bar.
Their friends asked how Adam is, “I’ve been better, thanks” he replied.
“Good to hear, Buddy” they said.
Adam started to relax after drinking a few shots; and actually had a good time.
He went out on the dance floor with his friends. He was feeling more and more better, as they all started to dance.
Adam made a mental note, to thank Tobey for encouraging him to get out of the apartment.
After fourty minutes or so of dancing; Adam’s friends noticed a guy watching him, smiling.
He had brown hair and green eyes; and looked around the same age as Adam.
After the current song ended; Adam and his friends returned to the bar.
The guy that had been watching Adam made his way over.
Adam’s friends noticed this, and inconspicuously made a spot at the counter for him.
The guy approached the bar, seeing the open space, next to Adam.
”Hi, I’m Jonathan and I couldn’t help noticing you out on the dance floor. I hope you don’t mind me asking, but, are you gay?”
Adam suddenly got a little nervous, but, replied “Yes, I’am in fact; Hi Jonathan, I’m Adam.”
After having another shot, Adam’s friends went back out on the dance floor; to give Jonathan and Adam some privacy.
”So Adam, can I buy you a drink?” Jonathan asked.
“Yeah..uh, okay that sounds fine” Adam replied.
”Great” Jonathan said, and smiled at Adam as he got the bartender’s attention.
A few drinks and an hour later, Adam was feeling a lot more comfortable with Jonathan.
They had moved from the bar, and we’re seated close together in a booth.
Adam was really enjoying the company; he had missed this, since breaking up with his ex.
Jonathan was gently stroking Adam’s arm.
A moment later, Jonathan surprised Adam when he tilted his head and kissed him.
Adam wasn’t sure how to feel at first, but then it felt good, to receive affection from a guy again.
He found himself leaning in more, as Jonathan wrapped his arms around him; deepening the kiss.
“Mmm” Adam muttered against Jonathan’s lips, and they continued kissing.
A moment later, they broke apart the kiss; Adam smiled shyly at Jonathan.
Jonathan looked at Adam curiously, “No need to be shy, Babe” he said, smiling.
”Sorry, it’s just..it’s been a while..this has been really nice.” Adam said.
”Oh, that’s ok, your welcome” Jonathan said, giving Adam a peck on the lips.
Later that night, Adam and his friends left the night club.
”It was lovely to meet you, thank you for the drinks and your company.” Adam said to Jonathan, smiling.
”Your welcome Babe, I had a great time with you” Jonathan replied, winking at Adam “I’m sure we’ll see eachother again, sometime.”
Chapter 32: A Frightening Night
Summary:
Blaine and his dad start to unravel, as things move further along; with Sebastian's dad questioning people at the courthouse. Blaine shows up in Lima and the police are alerted. Kurt and Santana's move to New York is getting closer and closer.
Notes:
Phew:0 A big chapter with lots happening:) I even threw in a bit of Kurtbastian, Sebastian being sweet and continuing to be there for Kurt :)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Kurt and Santana we're moving to New York in two weeks.
They had got their plane tickets booked. Kurt found a great psychiatrist in the area; and they were finalizing the details of getting into an apartment.
Sebastian's dad had started to question people at the courthouse.
It was a lengthy process, but Sebastian and his dad were confident that they would get to the bottom of what was going on; before too long.
At the Anderson home, Blaine and his dad were having an argument in the living room.
The Anderson's had found out what was going on at the courthouse, and were furious.
Inside, Mr. Anderson knew that they we're screwed, but remained delusional; not wanting to give up yet.
"I don't know what else Mr. Smythe and his son think they're going to dig up on us." Mr. Anderson said, shaking his head.
"Wake up dad, we're screwed when they find out that you paid off the judge!" Blaine shouted at his Dad.
"Don't use that tone with me young man!" Blaine's dad shouted back.
"Young man..." Blaine's said, laughing coldly "You realize by the time they get this figured out, I will officially be an adult; they could put you and I away for a long time." Blaine replied.
Blaine's mom had started crying, from her spot on the couch.
"Can we just stop talking about this, please?" she said.
"Whatever" Blaine said "I have better things to do, anyways" he stormed out of the living room.
A few nights later Kurt and Santana were sitting on the living room couch with Finn; watching tv after eating dinner.
Kurt was feeling uneasy that night, Sebastian told him that they had started questioning people at the courthouse.
But, Blaine and his dad were furious, as predicted.
Carole and Burt were out on a date night.
Kurt was glad they had a night to unwind and have fun together.
He was grateful for their support, but he knew it had been stressful for them too.
"Kurt, Santana, you want some popcorn?" Finn asked.
"Yes, please" they both replied.
Finn got up from the couch and headed to the kitchen.
Finn was walking back into the living room, with the popcorn; when he saw a car stopping outside the house.
"What is it?" Santana asked, seeing Finn looking out the window.
"There's a car outside, it couldn't be Burt and Carole yet" Finn said, opening the blinds.
Kurt immediately turned around and looked out the window.
"That's Blaine's car" he said, with fear in his eyes.
"Shit!" Finn shouted and immediately locked the door.
"Santana, take Kurt downstairs, I'm callling the cop's" he said.
Kurt was sobbing as Santana took him downstairs.
She sat him down on his bed, and wrapped her arms around him; as she sat down.
"Why is he here, why is he doing this?" Kurt said, as he continued sobbing.
"I don't know, sweetie" she said, trying not to cry, herself; as she watched Kurt falling apart.
Santana pulled her phone out of her pocket.
She texted Sebastian, "Blaine's car is outside Kurt's house, Finn called the cop's. Kurt's falling apart here, I don't know why Blaine is doing this."
Sebastian texted Santana back right away, "Shit, please tell Kurt I'm on my way. It's going to be a little while; but I want to be there with him."
Just then, Santana heard sirens outside and it sounded like Burt and Carole had got home too.
"I will and thank you, You're the only out-gay guy that Kurt can rely on right now. The cop's just arrived, I'm pretty sure Burt and Carole too." she texted back to Sebastian.
"It's my pleasure, I feel awful, what Kurt has had to go through; it's the least that I can do. I'm very glad to hear that the cop's have arrived." Sebastian texted.
Carole hurried downstairs, "Oh Kurt, honey" she said, the moment she saw him and Santana on the bed.
"I'm so sorry we weren't here; Your dad is upstairs with the police..." Carole started to say.
"And Blaine?.." Kurt said, lifting his head and looking at her with red-rimmed, tired eyes.
Carole hesitated.. "he took off, sweetie"..
Kurt started to cry again "So he's just...out there" he said, feeling sick.
"The cop's are patrolling our area, sweetie, I'm so sorry." Carole said, feeling defeated.
"Its ok Mom, it's not your fault." Kurt said, a moment later.
Carole looked at Kurt with a sad smile. "Can I get you anything, sweetie?" she asked.
"Not right now, thank you" Kurt replied.
"Okay, Kurt sweetie, I'm gonna see how it's going upstairs." Carole said, and left Kurt's room.
"I texted Sebastian, he's on his way; he wants to be here with you" Santana said.
"Thank you for telling him. He's been amazing through all of this; you both have." Kurt replied.
An hour later, a police officer was still patrolling the house, they hadn't seen any sign of Blaine. But, he could still be in Lima, somewhere.
Burt came down the stairs, "Hey Kiddo, Sebastian just got here, He'll be down in a second. I just wanted to come and give you a hug." Burt said, as he hugged Kurt.
"Thanks Dad, I love you" Kurt replied.
"Love you too, Kiddo" Burt replied.
A moment later, Sebastian came down the stairs; he had a backpack with him.
It was ten thirty and Santana had gone into the guest room.
"Hey Kurt" he said, looking at Kurt, sympathetically.
"Hi Sebastian, thank you so much for coming." Kurt replied.
"You're Welcome" Sebastian said, smiling
"I uh..I brought you something" he said, pulling a stuffed, pale-pink bunny out of his backpack.
"I know, it's a little silly, but I've had this since I was a kid; and she helped me when I was sad. I hope she'll help you feel better too." He said, handing the bunny to Kurt.
"It's not silly" Kurt said, smiling "That's very sweet".
He gestured for Sebastian to sit down next to him.
"I was so worried about you, when Santana told me." Sebastian said, placing his hand on top of Kurt's.
"I already feel safer with you here" Kurt replied, holding Sebastian's hand in his.
Twenty minutes later, Kurt started to look tired.
"Would you like to lay down?" Sebastian asked, starting to pull back the covers for Kurt.
"That would be good, thank you, all of this has been a lot." Kurt answered.
Kurt blushed a little as he took off his jeans; leaving him in his boxers and a t-shirt.
"It's okay" Sebastian said, smiling shyly.
Kurt got into bed and Sebastian sat at the foot of the bed.
A moment later, Sebastian got up, making to move to the small couch across the room; so Kurt could stretch out his legs more.
"Please stay" Kurt said softly, Sebastian looked at Kurt in surprise.
"I was just going to go lounge on the couch" Sebastian replied "I brought some sweats to change into."
"I mean, please stay here on the bed with me; please, just..I want you to hold me" Kurt said.
"Kurt, are you..are you sure? I know it's been a long while since you.." Sebastian started to say.
"Yes, I'm sure" Kurt replied "I know you Sebastian, I feel safe with you, I trust you."
"Okay, of course I will, Kurt" Sebastian said.
He changed into his sweatpants and got into the bed, next to Kurt.
Sebastian pulled the covers over the two of them, then held Kurt in his arms.
Kurt immediately melted into his touch, "Thank you" he said, before he fell asleep.
Notes:
I just want to say, thank you to everyone that is still here and reading, thank you for your kind comments. You make me feel much better after the handful of negative comments I’ve received 💜 much love to you 💖
Chapter 33: If You Were Mine
Summary:
Sebastian and Kurt share a kiss, and have an emotional conversation the day after the police arrive. Blaine indulges on why he drove to Lima that night. Adam meets Jonathan at the night club again.
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It was definitely comforting to wake up with Sebastian next to him; after the scary night Kurt had.
The police were pretty sure that Blaine had been spooked away, when they showed up.
They told Kurt and his family that they would be right back, if he showed up again.
Sebastian left that afternoon, after making sure that Kurt would be alright.
Kurt walked him out to his car in the driveway.
They got to Sebastian's car, and Kurt kissed him on the cheek.
"Thank you so much for everything. I definitely feel safer with you around.” Kurt said.
Sebastian smiled and said, "Anything for you Kurt, I know I've mentioned this before; but it isn't any less true now, than it was then.”
Kurt looked at Sebastian, curiously.
"I didn't do anything when I saw the first signs of that asshole mistreating you. I'm going to continue doing all I can to make it up to you." Sebastian said, kissing Kurt's cheek.
"You are, especially by being here with me, and through last night" Kurt said, smiling at Sebastian.
"Oh, Kurt.." Sebastian started to say "If you were mine, I would never make you feel scared, ever. I would treat you like.. No, no I can't go there." he said.
Kurt looked at Sebastian with so much trust; he held Sebastian's face gently in his hands, as he said, "Its okay, please tell me what else you were going to say." he said.
Sebastian looked at Kurt for a moment; he gave Sebastian a nod of encouragement, and he continued.
"I would treat you like you deserve to be treated, with love and respect; you're incredible Kurt.
It makes me sick, that he made you feel so defenseless, so vulnerable and frightened.” Sebastian said.
He was shaking, thinking about the hell that Kurt had gone through, at the hands of that monster; his former friend.
”You tried to tell him to stop, to let you go, to show any kind of mercy; and he took that from you too, when he..” Sebastian shook his head and started to cry.
“I know sweetie” Kurt said, he had tears in his eyes, but looked at Sebastian and knew that he meant every word.
Before Kurt could second guess himself, he wrapped his arms around Sebastian, bringing him in close; and kissed him.
Sebastian's eyes widened in surprise for a second, and then he kissed Kurt back.
A moment later, Kurt stepped back, "I'm sorry..I, shouldn't have..You were so nice to stay with me last night..and then I just.." he started to say.
Sebastian rubbed Kurt's arm soothingly, "Kurt, it's okay, really. You haven't had a guy care about you like this for a while, its only natural to..feel this way".
"Really, you're sure?" Kurt replied.
"Yes, I'm sure" Sebastian said, wrapping his arms around Kurt and holding him close. "It's going to be okay.
Blaine was sitting in his bedroom in Westerville, Ohio; panicked thoughts were rushing through his brain.
It was stupid going to Lima, he knew that now.
All he had wanted was a glimpse of Kurt; he didn't want to get himself arrested.
He had passed Sebastian on his way out of Lima.
Of course Sebastian had been too focused on the road ahead to notice him; Blaine thought, chuckling to himself.
But, what was Sebastian doing, headed to Lima, anyways. We're him and Kurt together now? He had only paid attention to/contacted Blaine; when him and Kurt were together.
Before Kurt became, well...difficult; then Sebastian wanted nothing to do with Blaine. Even though he kept seeing Sebastian at the Lima Bean every once in a while.
Adam and his friends went back to the night club, the next weekend.
Sure enough, Jonathan was there as well.
"Hey Gorgeous" he said, when he spotted Adam.
"Hi Jonathan" Adam replied, and allowed himself to be steered away from his friends.
"We'll see you later" Adam's friends said, and laughed lightly; as they watched Adam and Jonathan dissapear into the crowd.
'I wanted you all to myself, Cutie, I hope you don't mind." Jonathan said with a smirk.
He then cradled the back of Adam's head; as he captured his lips in a passionate kiss.
"Mmm, i don't mind" Adam muttered against Jonathan's lips.
"Good" Jonathan said, smiling, "I've missed you".
They reached the bar and Adam caught Jonathan staring at his ass, as they sat down; "I've missed that too" Jonathan said.
Adam laughed, "what are you drinking?" he asked, getting the bartenders attention.
"A rum and coke to start" Jonathan replied.
"I must have been more tipsy than I thought, last weekend; that accent is so sexy, I barely noticed." Jonathan said, capturing Adam's lips in another kiss.
"We didn't exactly do much talking last weekend.." Adam said, blushing more then he thought possible.
"I guess we didn't" Jonathan replied, chuckling.
Their drinks came and they sipped them, as Jonathan gently caressed Adam's thigh.
Adam looked over at Jonathan and smiled.
They talked for a little while; Adam told Jonathan about England, and Jonathan was falling more and more in love.
They moved to the dance floor, and Jonathan was holding Adam close; his hands resting on the small of Adam's back, as they swayed to the music.
A few minutes later, Jonathan started kissing along Adam's jawline.
He slightly froze at first, being reminded of David and how he would kiss him there; then he slowly relaxed into the touch.
Around twenty minutes later, Adam and Jonathan moved to one of the booths; on the second level of the night club.
"I'm sorry if I'm prying too much Babe, but I couldn't help noticing the way you froze on the dance floor when I.." Jonathan started to say.
"Oh that, umm..my ex, he always kissed me there; it's my second favorite place to be kissed actually." Adam replied.
"Hmm..really? Jonathan said and moved forward to kiss Adam.
But, Adam placed his hand on his chest, stopping him from doing so.
Jonathan looked confused for a second, and then Adam said, "We were great for a while, and then we fought, it became exhausting. He..he ended up not being there for me, like a boyfriend should be."
"Oh Babe, I'm so sorry" Jonathan said, and kissed Adam gently.
"Thank you" Adam replied, a moment later, and let himself relax against Jonathans chest; as he cuddled into his side.
The time came to leave the night club; and Adam said goodnight to Jonathan, as he rejoined his friends.
Adam wasn't sure if whatever he had with Jonathan; would turn into a relationship eventually.
But, he had fun with Jonathan; he made him feel sexy and wanted again.
Chapter 34: Kurt and Sebastian
Summary:
Kurt sees Sebastian one more time, before him and Santana move to New York.
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Kurt and Santana were moving to New York in less then a week.
Kurt couldn't stop thinking about the conversation and kiss he had shared with Sebastian.
He knew he would be moving soon, and Sebastian was staying here. But, he felt safe and loved in that moment.
Kurt was sitting on his bed with Santana, watching t.v., when he couldn't keep it from her any longer.
"I kissed Sebastian" he blurted out, then put his hand to his mouth; in suspense of how Santana would respond.
It felt that much more real, saying it out loud.
Santana muted the t.v., "Whaat?" she said, looking at Kurt in surprise.
"We talked in the driveway, he said how he would treat me better if I was his. And then it just sort of happened...the next thing I knew, my lips were on his." Kurt said.
Santana replied with a smirk, "Wanky.."
"Santana, this is serious, I don't know what to do" Kurt said, snapping slightly at Santana.
"Well..do you like him? How did he react when you kissed him?" Santana asked.
"I...I don't know...maybe? He seemed ok with it, he told me everything would be alright." Kurt said, then laid back against the pillows, sighing.
Santana laid down on her side, next to him, propping her head up on her arm; and looked at Kurt.
"Kurt, I may not know you as well as Berry. But, you've been through shit, you deserve to feel good again. This, whatever it is with Sebastian, just enjoy it." Santana said.
"You're right, I should just talk to him" Kurt replied.
"Yes! That's more like it Lady Hummel" Santana said, slapping Kurt on the behind.
Kurt squeaked in surprise and Santana got off the bed; going into the guest room.
Kurt smiled and picked up his cell phone, calling Sebastian.
Sebastian picked up after one ring; "Hi Kurt, how are you?" he answered cheerfully.
"I'm good, I umm..I keep thinking about the kiss and conversation we shared. I would really like to see you again, before I go to New York." Kurt said, trying not to get nervous, as he waited for Sebastian to reply.
"Kurt, I..I would be lying if I said that I haven't thought about it too. It was nice, sharing that with you. I'm free tonight, can I pick you up at seven?" Sebastian replied.
"Now that we've both been thinking about it, I don't feel as nervous. Seven sounds great, thank you." Kurt said.
"Good, you don't have to be nervous. See you then, Kurt." Sebastian replied.
Sebastian picked Kurt up at seven, and Kurt got in Sebastian's car.
"Hey Kurt" Sebastian said, as Kurt buckled his seatbelt. "What do you want to go do?" he asked.
Kurt suddenly became a little shy, "I'm not exactly sure, I just knew that I wanted to see you again, before I leave." he said.
"How about this..I'll drive until we decide on something to do. And if you just want ride in the car and talk, that's great too." Sebastian said.
"Okay, I like that idea" Kurt said.
Sebastian smiled at Kurt, as he started the car.
Sebastian had been driving them around Lima for about twenty minutes; when Kurt broke the silence and said, "I like you Sebastian, you make me feel safe. I know I'm leaving in a few days, but I had to tell you that before I go."
"I like you too Kurt, it means a lot to me, that you feel so safe with me. I now understand why you wanted me to hold you, as you slept that night." Sebastian said.
"I haven't felt that safe with a guy since...I hardly remember when. Thank you for that" Kurt said.
"You're very welcome, Kurt" Sebastian replied.
After a little while, Sebastian and Kurt stopped at the Lima Bean and got a hot apple cider.
Kurt enjoyed every sip, "This is exactly what I needed" he said.
"Yeah, it's really good" Sebastian replied.
He sat his cup in the cup holder next to him.
Then he reached across and gently squeezed Kurt's hand.
"I'm really glad you called me Kurt. This has been nice." Sebastian said.
"Me too, I'm really glad I could see you before Friday." Kurt replied.
Sebastian released Kurt's hand and said, "I bet you're excited for Friday; it sounds like you and Santana found a great apartment."
"So excited" Kurt said, smiling "Decent sized bedrooms for both of us, a nice little kitchen and living room."
Later that night, Sebastian took Kurt back home.
"Good luck in New York Kurt; I'll keep you and Santana updated with everything going on." Sebastian said, and kissed Kurt on the corner of his mouth.
"Thank you" Kurt said, smiling.
Chapter 35: Leaving For New York
Summary:
The day comes for Santana and Kurt to leave for New York. Jonathan invites Adam back to his apartment, after another night at the dance club.
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The day of Kurt and Santana’s move to New York came.
They had two suitcases each; with as much of their things as they could fit in them.
Burt and Carole were driving them to the airport at eleven, that afternoon.
They woke up that morning and Kurt started a pot of coffee.
Santana joined Kurt in the kitchen a few minutes later.
They talked while they waited for the coffee to be ready.
Kurt could hardly wait to get out of Lima. The day that he would move to New York, had seemed so far away; and now it was actually here.
He was going to miss his Dad, Mom, and Finn of course; but he felt so relieved knowing that he would be able to go out again.
The fact that he would feel safe again really lifted his spirits.
The time came to go to the airport.
Santana said goodbye to Finn, and then Kurt.
”Have fun out there, little brother, and just..stay safe okay” Finn said, hugging Kurt.
“I will, thank you Finn” Kurt replied.
Burt and Carole helped them put their suitcases in the back of the car.
Burt was trying his best not to cry; as he and Carole helped Kurt and Santana get their suitcases onto the curb at the airport.
Kurt noticed and pulled his Dad into a hug.
“I know New York is the best place for you, especially after all that’s happened; but I’m really gonna miss you.” Burt said.
”I’m gonna miss you too, Dad” Kurt replied.
Burt released Kurt a moment later, “You two better get going, Love You Kurt” he said, clearing his throat and blinking back tears.
“Love you too Dad” Kurt replied.
Then Kurt hugged Carole goodbye.
“Goodbye Kurt, Sweetheart; call us when you get there. And take care of yourself.” Carole said.
“I will Mom, thank you, goodbye” Kurt replied, smiling at Carole.
“I’m so proud of you” Carole said, smiling back at Kurt.
Burt and Carole hugged Santana; then her and Kurt headed inside the airport.
A little over a week went by, and it was becoming clear that Jonathan wasn’t really looking for anything serious.
That was okay with Adam though; he just enjoyed Jonathan’s company and had fun with him.
The fourth time they met at the club, they went back to Jonathan’s apartment after; for some more fun.
They we’re out on the dance floor, when Jonathan said in Adam’s ear, “How about we go back to my apartment, cutie”.
Adam got butterflies at the thought of going back to Jonathan’s apartment, he was a little bit nervous.
But, he deserved to feel good again; to feel wanted and desired.
”Okay, Yeah, that sounds good” Adam replied.
Jonathan took Adam’s hand in his, as they left the dance floor.
They left the club and went out to the sidewalk.
Jonathan hailed them a cab, and they started the fifteen minute ride to Jonathan’s apartment.
“You know” Jonathan said, kissing Adam “It’s gonna be really difficult to keep my hands off of you; for fifteen whole minutes.”
Adam chuckled at that, “I know exactly what you mean” he replied, and rested his hand on Jonathan’s thigh.
Then he leaned against Jonathan’s side; as Jonathan rested his hand on the small of Adam’s back.
They arrived at the apartment building and Jonathan paid the taxi driver.
Then they went inside and up the stairs to Jonathan’s apartment.
Jonathan opened the door and he and Adam walked inside.
Jonathan shut the door behind them; then tossed his keys onto the small table nearby.
”You’ve got a great apartment, it’s..” Adam started to say, and then was cut off; as Jonathan pressed him against the door and started kissing him.
”Too much talking” Jonathan said and Adam laughed.
They took off their jackets a moment later, and moved to Jonathan’s bed.
Jonathan laid Adam down against the pillows, then removed Adam’s shirt and his own.
He hovered over Adam as he moved in to kiss him again, their lips moving together in unison; as Adam roamed Jonathan’s chest with his hands.
”Mmm, so hot” Jonathan said, looking down at Adam for a moment; and then enveloped his lips as he started kissed him again, more deeply this time.
He tangled his fingers in Adam’s slightly tousled hair.
Adam was loving every minute of it, it felt so good to be kissed this way again. He smiled as Jonathan kissed along his neck and down his shoulder.
He wasn’t quite ready to go all the way yet and Jonathan wasn’t pressuring him to; which was nice.
He hoped he would be able to enjoy sex again someday; after what he’d gone through with David.
An hour later, they moved to the couch and enjoyed a drink together.
Jonathan held Adam, as Adam said, “Thank you for this Jonathan, it felt really good to experience this again”.
”Your Welcome Babe” Jonathan replied, and tipped his head to kiss Adam “I want you to feel good”.
Adam smiled and leaned into Jonathan’s touch as he continued to hold him.
Chapter 36: The New Apartment
Summary:
Kurt and Santana get settled in New York. Kurt meets his new psychiatrist and meets with Isabelle at Vogue.
Chapter Text
Once Kurt and Santana had got their luggage; they got in a taxi, to meet the landlord at their apartment.
Kurt let his mom and dad know that they had made it; on the way to the apartment.
The landlord was helpful and it didn’t take them long to get their keys.
She said bye and told them to call her if they needed anything.
There was an entryway that opened up into a kitchen, with a small table in the center.
Then a cozy looking living room, next to the kitchen.
And two bedrooms with a bathroom at the end of the hallway; to the right.
Santana chose the bedroom on the left side of the hallway; and Kurt chose the bedroom across the hall from her’s.
After getting unpacked, Kurt and Santana left the apartment to get some groceries.
Adam was going to leave Jonathan’s apartment late the other night; when Jonathan stopped him.
“You shouldn’t go out this late, on your own” Jonathan said.
“You’re probably right” Adam said, and smiled at Jonathan.
”No funny business, Babe, I swear; We’ll just go to sleep.” Jonathan said, holding out his hand for Adam’s; and led him to bed.
They got into bed together, and Adam soon drifted off to sleep.
It was Kurt and Santana’s second night in New York.
Kurt was meeting with his new psychiatrist for the first time; the next afternoon.
He was sure she would be as nice as his old psychiatrist.
But, the prospect of opening up to someone new was still nerve wracking.
Kurt was tossing and turning in his sleep, late that night.
He was dreaming of Blaine again; his nerves must have brought it on.
”Please..don’t do this” Kurt said in his sleep, crying. “Blaine stop..you’re hurting me, stop!” he cried out in his sleep.
The noise woke Santana up, and she hurried across the hall to Kurt’s room.
She started shaking Kurt, to wake him up.
“Kurt..Kurt wake up, you’re having a nightmare” she said.
After a moment, Kurt opened his eyes and then jumped; when he heard a car honk outside, passing by.
His eyes darted around the room, and then focused on Santana.
“Oh Santana” he said, and started crying again.
She pulled Kurt close and held him, “It’s gonna be ok, you’re safe” Santana said.
Kurt’s visit with the new psychiatrist went good.
He was nervous as he predicted, opening up to someone new.
But, she soon reassured him that there was no need for him to be nervous. He was in good hands.
The next day, Kurt was meeting with Isabelle Wright at the Vogue offices.
He was ecstatic to say the least, he had idolized her for years.
If he couldn’t go to Nyada, this was the second best thing that made him happy.
Kurt was sitting in the waiting room at the Vogue offices; when Isabelle’s assistant called him.
”Kurt Hummel, Ms. Wright will see you now” she said.
Kurt got up and followed her down the hall, to Isabelle’s office.
“Kurt, it’s wonderful to meet you” Isabelle said, as she gestured for him to sit down; across the desk from her.
”It’s wonderful to meet you too, Ms. Wright” Kurt replied, smiling at her.
“Thank you Kurt, and please, call me Isabelle” she said, smiling at him in return.
“I’ve been looking through the portfolio you emailed to my office. And, I must say that I’m very impressed.” she said.
”Really?” Kurt said with a grin, a feeling of hope rising in his chest.
”Absolutely, it’s very clear that you have a keen eye for fashion. I would be happy to take you on, here at Vogue.” she replied.
Kurt eyes started brimming with happy tears, “Thank you, thank you so much” he said.
”You’re very welcome, Kurt” she replied “Do you think you could start as early as tomorrow?” she asked.
”Absolutely” Kurt answered, with no hesitation.
”Great, I’ll see you tomorrow at nine then” Isabelle said, as she shook Kurt’s hand.
Chapter 37: Adam and Kurt
Summary:
Adam and Kurt meet at a crowded coffee shop.
Chapter Text
The coffee shop was quickly filling up with the morning crowd; as Kurt ordered a coffee.
After he got his coffee, he found a table with two chairs that was vacant; and sat down.
About ten minutes or so later, a guy with blond hair approached the table.
Kurt looked up from his notebook, with a hint of curiosity.
”I’m sorry to bother you, but could I just?..” he asked, gesturing towards the empty chair; across from Kurt.
”Oh,umm..” Kurt said, looking a little nervous; and then took a quick glance around the coffee shop.
The other tables were taken.
“Sure” Kurt replied.
”Thanks, very much” the guy said, sitting down.
He looked a little older than Kurt.
”I’m Adam, and you are?” he said, extending out his hand to shake Kurt’s.
“Hi Adam, I’m Kurt” he replied, nervously reaching out to shake Adam’s hand.
”So Kurt, how long have you been in New York?” Adam asked.
“Two weeks, I got into an intern with Vogue” Kurt answered.
”Vogue, wow, well done” Adam said, obviously impressed.
“Thank you” Kurt replied “What about you?”
”Im wrapping up my second year at Nyada. I’ve been in New York for two years.” Adam said.
”Really, that’s…that’s great” Kurt replied.
Adam noticed the hint of sadness in Kurt’s expression, when he mentioned Nyada.
Before Adam had a chance to inquire why, Kurt was talking again.
“What part of England are you from?” he asked Adam.
”I’m from Essex, about an hour away from London” Adam answered.
“I bet it’s beautiful over there, do you miss your family?” Kurt asked, feeling a little more relaxed.
”I miss my sister, my mum died when I was a kid” Adam said.
“Oh, I’m..I’m so sorry to hear that. My mom died when I was a kid too.” Kurt replied.
”Thank you, I’m very sorry for your loss Kurt” Adam said, locking eyes with Kurt.
Kurt gazed back at Adam for a moment; then said, “Thanks, I uh..I have my dad though, he’s my best friend.”
Adam looked sad for a moment, and he wasn’t quite sure what to say; he had no idea what it felt like to have a dad that cared, anymore.
Not since after his mum died at least, his dad was a different person after she died.
But he knew that he felt safe with Kurt somehow; even though he had just met him.
Kurt looked at Adam curiously, waiting for him to say something.
Adam stared down at his coffee cup, for a moment longer; lost in his own thoughts.
Kurt watched him out of the corner of his eye, as he sipped out of his almost empty coffee cup.
A minute later, Kurt turned back to his notebook; giving Adam some privacy.
Kurt was so focused on what he was writing; he didn’t notice Adam looking across the table at him, again.
Kurt stopped writing for a moment, to take another sip of his coffee; then sat the cup down.
Without thinking about what he was doing; Adam reached across the table and grasped Kurt’s hand in his.
Kurt immediately jumped, knocking over the rest of his coffee.
His eyes darted in Adam’s direction, and then watched in horror; as the coffee spilled across his notebook.
Adam quickly grabbed a handful of napkins from the front counter, and passed them to Kurt.
Kurt frantically grabbed them and cleaned up the mess.
”I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to frighten you” Adam said.
“It’s..It’s okay, I just..I can’t..can’t do that” Kurt replied, blinking back tears that were starting to form.
Kurt didn’t want to start crying in front of someone he barely knew.
He didn’t think Adam would hurt him; but he was reminded of Blaine, when Adam grasped his hand.
Adam felt awful, “I really am very sorry, Kurt” he said, as he looked at Kurt sympathetically.
*Why does he care so much? Surely he’ll get up and leave in a moment, deciding I’m too broken to continue talking with*; Kurt thought to himself.
But he didn’t, Adam stayed there to make sure he was okay.
A moment later, after Kurt had composed himself; he stood up from the table.
“I should get going” he said, putting the coffee soaked napkins into his cup.
“Are you sure you’re going to be alright?” Adam asked, looking at Kurt with a worried expression on his face.
”Yeah, I’ll be fine” Kurt replied.
Adam wasn’t sure that he was buying it though; he saw how frightened Kurt had looked.
Unfortunately, Kurt was walking away from the table, before he could say anything else.
Chapter 38: Seeing Kurt Again
Summary:
Adam runs into Kurt at the coffee shop again, and they end up talking more.
Chapter Text
Nearly a week later, Adam couldn’t stop thinking about Kurt. It was clear that something from the past had terrified him; he just didn’t know what it was yet.
Something about Kurt drew Adam in, he cared for him; even though he barely knew him.
Adam hadn’t seen Jonathan since he met Kurt, he had a lot on his mind.
Jonathan had been very kind, but he knew that Jonathan wasn’t looking for a relationship. Maybe part of Adam wanted something more.
Kurt’s intern at Vogue was going great, him and Isabelle had really started to bond. She asked for his input on group projects and he appreciated that.
Thankfully, he hadn’t had another nightmare while in New York. He was trying not to make himself feel bad; about how he had a hard time controlling his emotions, at the coffee shop.
Kurt had let his loved ones know that he had gotten the intern at Vogue; they were all so proud of him.
A few days later, Adam went to the same coffee shop he had met Kurt at. After getting in line, his phone chimed with a text from Jonathan.
“Hey babe, haven’t seen you in a while, you doing alright?” the text said.
“Doing alright, just been busy is all” Adam texted back.
“Its all good, babe” Jonathan replied.
Adam got his coffee and a blueberry muffin; then he found somewhere to sit.
A moment later, he looked up to see Kurt coming in the coffee shop. Kurt hadn’t noticed Adam yet, as he got in line.
Adam decided that he would wait until after he got his coffee; to try and talk with him. He didn’t want to scare Kurt away.
Kurt got his coffee and was adding some cream and sugar, when he noticed Adam. Adam heard Kurt say, “not again”.
Kurt grabbed his coffee and started making his way towards the door.
Adam knew that it was now or never, “Kurt, please wait” he said.
Kurt looked at Adam nervously, “what do you want?” he asked.
“Kurt, i’m not going to hurt you, i promise. I would just like to talk with you, please.” Adam said, looking at Kurt with complete honesty in his eyes.
Kurt had every reason not to trust a new guy, after what he had been through. But, something about Adam, made Kurt believe that he really meant what he said.
”Okay, I guess I could stay and talk” Kurt said.
“Thank you for trusting me” Adam replied.
Kurt sat down, across the table from Adam, and started to sip his coffee.
”Kurt..I saw how frightened you looked when I first saw you. And honestly, you’ve been on my mind since then.” Adam said.
”Really, why is that?” Kurt replied, looking at Adam.
“Because, I’ve felt afraid like that; some awful things have happened to me in the past. And I thought, just maybe..you might be struggling like I’am.” Adam said.
Tears had started to form in Kurt’s eyes.
“Kurt, i’m sorry, i shouldn’t have..” Adam started to say.
”You’re right” Kurt replied “I’am struggling, i’ve been scared for so long” he said, crying.
”Oh,Kurt” Adam said, sadly.
“I know..i’m a mess” Kurt replied.
“No, you’re not, you’re obviously just trying to do the best you can.” Adam said.
“Thank you” Kurt replied.
”I would like to give you my number, if that’s okay with you.” Adam said.
”Yeah, that sounds good” Kurt replied, teary eyed but smiling.
Chapter 39: Sebastian Missing Kurt
Summary:
Kurt receives a phone call from Sebastian.
Chapter Text
Kurt went back to the apartment and told Santana that he saw Adam at the coffee shop again.
”Please tell me you at least got his number this time” Santana said. “I did” Kurt replied, smiling slightly. “Good!” Santana said.
”I have a hot date with an off broadway choreographer in a half hour” Santana said, walking towards her room. “Get in here and help me decide what to wear.”
Kurt followed Santana into her room and sat down on the corner of her bed; as she started flinging clothes onto the bed.
”Two weeks and you’re already got a date, that was fast” Kurt said, Santana smirked at him.
Kurt was laughing at the mess of various clothing items, Santana had made on the bed.
Kurt helped Santana pick out a short red dress and a black fur, short half-open jacket.
He called out a good luck as she ran for the front door.
Kurt was lounging on the couch after Santana left. He sent a text to Adam, so he would have his number too.
Adam texted Kurt a moment later, “Hi Kurt, its been wonderful to meet you, I can’t wait to talk with you more.”
Kurt smiled as he replied, “Thanks Adam, it means a lot to me; that you’re taking the time to talk with me. I’ve been through a lot.”
”You’re very welcome, Kurt. I know we’ve just met, but I want you to know you can tell me anything; whenever you’re ready.” Adam texted.
”I appreciate that” Kurt texted back. He sat his phone on the coffee table and laid back down on the couch; suddenly feeling tired.
He knew he could trust Adam now, but it was still scary opening up to a new guy.
Interrogating people at the courthouse had been a very grueling for Sebastian and his dad.
Sebastian would come home at night feeling completely exhausted; but, it was worth it to help Kurt.
The judge and those that worked closely to him at the courthouse, had yet to budge.
But, Sebastian and his dad knew it was only a matter of time; until they cracked under the pressure.
Kurt ended up sleeping for a little over an hour; he had a missed call from Sebastian when he woke up.
He quickly called Sebastian back, wondering if he had an update for him.
”Hey Kurt, thanks for calling back; I’ve got a few things to tell you.” Sebastian said.
”Great, is it going ok?” Kurt asked. Sebastian thought how was the best way to word his response for a moment; he didn’t want to stress Kurt out if he could help it.
”It’s going alright, it’s a process, we’re doing more interrogating at the courthouse.” Sebastian replied.
”That’s promising though, right?” Kurt asked. “Yeah, how’s it going in New York?” Sebastian asked. Hoping to get Kurt’s mind off the case for a little while.
”It’s going good, I’m glad I got that intern at Vogue I wanted; and living with Santana is great.” Kurt replied.
”That’s great Kurt, are you doing ok?” Sebastian asked. “That nightmare really shook me up for a while..and, I think I might have made a friend; he wants to help too. It’s just..scary” Kurt said.
”I’m sorry to hear that about your nightmare Kurt. This possible new friend sounds like he could help you.” Sebastian said, trying to sound optimistic for Kurt.
He missed Kurt a lot and a part of him wanted to be there to comfort Kurt himself. He couldn’t get the night they had spent together and the next morning, out of his head.
”I hope so, thank you Sebastian” Kurt replied. “You’re welcome Kurt” Sebastian said. He knew the best place for him to be right now was Lima, but it killed him not to be closer to Kurt.
”I uh, I gotta go, i’ll talk to you later” Sebastian said, trying not to show just how much he missed Kurt.
”Oh..uh, okay” Kurt said, surprised. “Have a good day Kurt” Sebastian replied. “You too, Bye Sebastian” Kurt said.
Chapter 40: Conversation At The Diner
Summary:
Adam and Kurt meet at a diner to talk.
Chapter Text
About a week later, Adam and Kurt made plans to see each other again. They met at a diner Saturday afternoon.
Kurt exited the subway and made his way to the diner. Adam arrived just after Kurt, they found an empty table together.
After ordering something to eat, they started a conversation. Kurt appreciated that Adam was slow to touch his hand.
Adam asked Kurt how his week had been. He said it was different being away from the rest of his loved ones; but, that he was enjoying being in New York.
They had been eating for around ten minutes; when Kurt looked at Adam and said, “I think i’m ready to start sharing things with you.”
Adam nodded, “Whatever you’re comfortable sharing, you can trust me Kurt.” he said, looking back at Kurt.
”Okay” Kurt said “I’m not really sure where to start..I guess I’ll start with when I met my ex, since he’s the source of my trauma.”
Adam gave Kurt a look of encouragement and he continued. “I met him my sophomore year of high school and I instantly fell for him. But, we didn’t get together until Valentines Day.
We we’re so in love the rest of sophomore year and junior year. But then, he started to get really controlling. Grabbing me forcefully in public, every once in a while.
Starting fights with me over the smallest things, I was always the first to apologize. A now close friend of mine said it was like I was so eager to please him, I see that now.
I had become so compliant that I just put up with it for too long. He forgot about my dreams and I was just there to cheer him on while he lived his.
He hurt me a lot, he even hit me, my own boyfriend hit me. I covered it up with makeup like it was some secret I had to keep.” Kurt said, his eyes welling up with tears.
Adam handed Kurt a napkin to wipe his eyes with. After a few minutes, Kurt sat the napkin next to his glass.
He looked at Adam with red rimmed eyes and said, “Adam..I don’t know if I have it in me to share anything else right now. It’s not that I don’t trust you, I do. I’m so sorry, I just need a little time.”
”It’s okay Kurt, you have absolutely nothing to be sorry about.” Adam said “It was selfish of your boyfriend to cast you aside like he did. Anyone that could dare to think of hitting someone as beautiful as you..I can’t even comprehend it.” he said.
Kurt blushed immediately and then said, “Thank you so much, Adam”.
”You’re very welcome, Kurt” Adam replied.
They continued eating for a few more minutes and then Kurt said, “I couldn’t help noticing that you got quiet when we first met. After I mentioned my dad I mean, are you okay?”
”Well uh..my dad found me making out on the couch, with another guy from high school, one day. He came home early, he was furious and kicked me out.” Adam said.
“You must have been so scared” Kurt replied.
Adam looked at Kurt sadly, “My dad’s an alcoholic Kurt, he has been since my mum died. He got angry all the time and mostly he took it out on me.
I suppose I just got used to it. I protected my little sister from him; I didn’t want anything to happen to her.
I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared about getting kicked out; after the adrenaline of that afternoon wore off.” Adam said.
Kurt looked at Adam with tears in his eyes. He was scared to come out to his dad in high school and he even remembered thinking to himself, “please don’t hate me”. But, he couldn’t even imagine going through what Adam did.
”Thats awful, Im so sorry you went through that.” Kurt said, and held Adam’s hand.
Adam looked at Kurt a moment later, “Thank you Kurt, I lived in my car for months. My sister was able to sneak some extra clothes and blankets out of the house for me; but it was cold and miserable.” he said.
”Oh my gosh” Kurt said, sadly “What happened with the guy your dad found you with?” he asked.
Adam immediately shook his head, “No, i’ve already taken enough attention away from you.” he said.
Kurt thought to himself for a moment, and then gently stroked Adam’s arm; like Sebastian had with him.
”Please tell me” he said, when he could feel Adam’s arm relaxing under his touch.
”Okay” Adam said and sighed “He never came near me again; the whole thing must have freaked him out. Because, he never talked to me again either.
I had a boyfriend here in New York and he left me too. I’m tired of being hurt by people I love.” he said, sadly.
”I’m so sorry to hear that, Adam” Kurt said. “Thank you Kurt” Adam replied.
Kurt and Adam sat finishing eating, neither said much for a little while.
Kurt felt sad for Adam, hearing what he had gone through. He hoped that he could help Adam feel better too.
A while later, Santana texted Kurt to see what he wanted to do for dinner. He told her that he would be heading back to the apartment soon.
”If you ever want to just, you know..hangout, you’re welcome at mine and Santana’s apartment.” Kurt said.
”Thank you Kurt, a lot, I would like that” Adam replied.
”You’re welcome, you’re great Adam, you really are” Kurt said, smiling at him. Adam smiled back at Kurt, feeling hopeful.
Kurt invited Adam to have dinner with him and Santana on Tuesday night. He knew that she was eager to meet Adam.
Adam was excited about gaining new friends, outside of school. He was feeling more and more comfortable around Kurt.
It turned out that Adam didn’t live too far away from Kurt and Santana.
They left the diner and Kurt asked Adam, “do you want to walk with me to the subway?”
Adam hesitated, “I uh..I don’t take the subway anymore” he replied.
”Oh..okay, that’s alright” Kurt said “I’ll see you next week then.”
”See you next week” Adam replied.
Chapter 41: Dinner With Adam
Summary:
Adam joins Kurt and Santana for dinner at their apartment.
Chapter Text
Adam wanted to take something to contribute to dinner. He didn’t cook much, but he did make good brownies.
Adam got to Kurt and Santana’s apartment around a quarter to seven. He knocked on the door and soon Kurt opened it.
”Adam, hi” Kurt said, smiling at him. “Hello, Kurt” Adam replied, returning the smile.
”I made brownies” Adam said, presenting the container of brownies to Kurt. “These look great, come on in” Kurt replied.
Kurt introduced Adam to Santana, then said, “have a seat on the couch, dinners just about ready.”
Santana soon joined Adam on the couch. It was quiet for a moment and Adam was trying not to show that he was a little nervous.
”Does uh..does Kurt need any help in the kitchen?” Adam asked, nervously. “Lady Hummel is fine” Santana replied “So..what are your intentions with him anyway?”
”Uhh..” Adam said, feeling more nervous. “Do you like him?” Santana asked. “We’re just friends” Adam replied; “Uh huh…” Santana said.
”Santana, leave Adam alone” Kurt called from the kitchen. Adam breathed a sigh of relief.
A while later, the three of them sat down to eat. Kurt mouthed “I’m sorry” across the table, at Adam; Adam smiled at him.
They continued eating and then Adam said, “Dinner is delicious, thank you Kurt”. “You’re very welcome” Kurt replied, smiling.
Adam and Kurt sat on the couch together after dinner. “Santana really is sweet, she’s just protective of me, after what I’ve been through.” Kurt explained.
”I’m sure she is” Adam said, smiling “I assure you, she has nothing to worry about when it comes to me.”
Santana joined Kurt and Adam in the living room; and the three of them enjoyed the brownies Adam had made.
”These are amazing” Kurt said, and Adam noticed that he had a line of chocolate above his upper lip.
He stifled a giggle as he attempted to direct Kurt to where it was. A moment later, Adam said “I’ve got it” as he moved closer to Kurt.
His thumb brushed along Kurt’s upper lip, as he wiped the chocolate off. Kurt looked at Adam and blushed. “All gone” Adam said, gazing into Kurt’s eyes.
Adam easily got lost in Kurt’s eyes, how had he just noticed how beautiful they are are; he thought to himself.
Kurt gazed into Adam’s eyes in return and then directed the gaze to his slightly rosy lips; wondering what they taste like.
Santana shifted in her spot near the couch; and they just remembered that she was in the room too.
Adam leaded back against the couch again and Santana looked at Kurt; raising her eyebrow.
Kurt had a lovestruck look on his face, as Santana muttered “just friends”.
Kurt composed himself and then said, “Santana, I know you’re just as excited to have Adam here tonight as I’am.” Adam blushed at that second part.
Santana pretended to be caught off guard, “I don’t know what you’re talking about” she replied. “Santana…” Kurt said, rolling his eyes.
”Ok, I’m overprotective, I’m sorry. It really is good to meet you Adam.” she said, unsuccessfully hiding the smile that was showing. “Likewise, Santana” Adam replied, smiling at her.
Adam went back to Tobey’s apartment later that night; still thinking about the moment he and Kurt had shared.
It was in that moment that he knew, Kurt is special, he really likes him a lot.
As he laid in bed, he texted Jonathan to tell him he had met someone.
Jonathan was actually really cool about it. “I’m happy for you, take care Adam” he texted. “Thank you Jonathan, you as well” Adam texted back.
Chapter 42: Coffee With Adam
Summary:
Kurt invites Adam to get a coffee ;)
Chapter Text
Adam found himself waking up from a nap, Saturday afternoon; Kurt, the first person on his mind.
He felt good when he was around Kurt; and was glad that he could help Kurt in return.
Kurt had been thinking about Adam too. He didn’t flinch under his touch, it was so gentle.
He wanted to see him again, he felt happy, comfortable with Adam.
Kurt sent Adam a text, “I’m going to get a coffee, would you like to join me?” he asked Adam.
Adam smiled when he read the text from Kurt, “I would love to” he texted back.
They both arrived at the coffee shop and got in line. “I’m really glad you invited me” Adam said.
”You’re welcome, anytime” Kurt replied, smiling.
After getting their coffee, Kurt and Adam decided to go on a walk through the nearest park.
They enjoyed each other’s company and the spring flowers, as they walked.
Kurt noticed Adam glancing at his free hand, that wasn’t holding his coffee.
”You can hold my hand if you want to” Kurt said. “Okay” Adam replied, smiling, as he gently took Kurt’s hand in his.
They sat down on a park bench and finished drinking the last of their coffee.
Kurt asked Adam how school was going; and Adam told him that finals are coming soon, but he isn’t too nervous.
Kurt then told Adam more about his intern at Vogue and how nice Isabelle is.
They left the park and took a short taxi ride to Kurt and Santana’s apartment.
”Kurt, I never told you why I don’t take the subway anymore. Perhaps, one day I will be ready to. But, in the meantime, thank you for understanding.” Adam said.
“Of course, whenever you’re ready Adam” Kurt replied, holding Adam’s hand.
”Welcome back” Kurt said warmly; as they entered the apartment. Adam smiled at him.
They sat down on the couch and Kurt said, “Santana got a job at the diner, so we shouldn’t be interrupted this time.”
Adam nodded at that and chuckled.
Adam reached over, holding Kurt’s hand in his, and Kurt smiled nervously.
He was excited, nervous, and infatuated all at the same time; at the thought of him and Adam in the apartment alone.
He knows Adam likes him, just as much as he likes Adam.
His mind raced with what to say to Adam next. Though, he just wanted to kiss him and get the nervousness over with.
”We’ll be alone until five at least; and then she should be home for dinner. You’re welcome to stay for dinner; I know its not for a while. But, if you do want to stay..oh gosh, I’m already inviting you for dinner again.” Kurt said.
Adam chuckled softly and held Kurt’s face gently in his hands.
They gazed into each other’s eyes again, and Kurt was finding it even more difficult to contain himself.
”I tend to ramble when I’m nervous, it happens a lot actually” Kurt said, with the cutest smile Adam had ever seen.
”It’s adorable, *you’re* adorable” Adam replied, making Kurt blush.
A moment later, they were still facing each other. Adam started rubbing his hand up and down Kurt’s arm.
Then Adam said exactly what Kurt was thinking, “I really want to kiss you right now.”
”Me too” Kurt said, and Adam gently held the back of Kurt’s head; as he brought their lips together.
Kurt draped his arms around Adam’s shoulder’s, as he deepened the kiss.
It felt incredible and their lips moved with perfect synchronization; like they were made for each other. Everything about it felt so right.
Adam gently tangled his fingers in Kurt’s hair as they continued kissing. “So beautiful” he said, taking a breath, causing Kurt to smile against Adam’s lips.
They broke the kiss apart a few minutes later. “That was..” Adam started, “Incredible” Kurt finished.
Adam nodded and smiled. Kurt moved into Adam’s lap; removing his beanie, and started playing with his hair.
Adam rested comfortably against the couch and rubbed the small of Kurt’s back.
Kurt straddled Adam’s lap and kissed him deeply; causing Adam to moan slightly.
Kurt broke the kiss apart a moment later, leaving Adam breathless.
Kurt wiped the few strands of hair from Adam’s forehead and said, “So..I’m guessing you’re staying for dinner”.
”Absolutely” Adam replied, pecking Kurt on the lips a few times, making Kurt giggle.
Santana came back to the apartment after work. She smiled knowingly, when she saw Adam holding Kurt on the couch; and quietly went to her room to change.
Chapter 43: Morning Surprise
Summary:
Kurt has a skype call with Mercedes, and Adam visit’s Kurt.
Chapter Text
Even after they had finished dinner and Adam left for the night; Kurt was still smiling.
”Spill Hummel, I need details” Santana said, muting the t.v., after giving Kurt her full attention.
Kurt’s cheeks reddened slightly as he said, “Adam and I kissed..twice” with a big grin.
”I knew it!” Santana exclaimed, grinning “I saw you two on the couch”.
”You were spying on us” Kurt said with a fake gasp; pretending to be surprised.
”Relax Lady Hummel, I went to my room” Santana said. “I’m kidding” Kurt replied, laughing.
Kurt texted Sebastian and told him about him and Adam.
”I know you and I got really close and I just wanted to tell you.” Kurt texted.
”It’s ok Kurt, I’m happy for you” Sebastian texted back.
The next night, Kurt was sitting on his bed; having a skype call with Mercedes.
”I’m so proud of you, Kurt” she said “You’re in a new city, have a great job; and a wonderful guy.”
”Thank you, Sweetie” Kurt replied “I used to think my heart could never love a guy again. He makes me so happy, he’s so gentle with me.” he said.
”That’s wonderful to hear, you deserve so much love, Kurt.” Mercedes said.
Kurt smiled and then said, “I miss you”.
”I miss you too, boo. I need to get out there someday and visit you.” Mercedes replied.
”You would love New York” Kurt said, happily.
On Saturday morning, Adam stopped by the apartment; surprising Kurt with a coffee and bagel.
”Good Morning” Adam said, smiling as Kurt opened the door.
”Adam..Hi” Kurt replied, surprised, but happy to see Adam.
Kurt smoothed his slight bed head as he let Adam in the apartment.
Adam took in the sight of Kurt in his pajamas and a tank top; that perfectly showed off his muscular arms.
”I thought I would surprise you; I hope you haven’t had breakfast yet.” Adam said.
”I just woke up actually, I guess my hair sort of gave it away.” Kurt said.
”You look beautiful” Adam said, as he gently held Kurt and kissed him.
”Thank you” Kurt said, smiling shyly.
”You’re very welcome” Adam replied, smiling in return.
Adam and Kurt lounged on the couch together; as they enjoyed their coffee and bagels.
”How has your week been?” Adam asked Kurt, as Kurt leaned his head on Adam’s shoulder.
”Good, I talked with my friend Mercedes; she wants to come visit someday.” Kurt answered.
”She sounds great, Kurt” Adam said.
”She’s the best” Kurt replied.
Chapter 44: I Want To Be Your Boyfriend
Summary:
Kurt has a phone conversation with his parents. Then, Adam and Kurt enjoy a movie night together. And, they officially become a couple.
Chapter Text
Santana came home that night and heard music coming from Kurt’s room.
When she got down the hallway; she saw that Kurt’s door was open, and went inside his room.
Kurt’s back was turned towards Santana, as she sat down on the bed.
He was hanging up freshly laundered clothes, as she swayed his hips in time to the music.
A moment later, Kurt turned, and was surprised to see Santana sitting there.
”Santana..I, uh..didn’t hear you come in” Kurt said, chuckling lightly.
”I’m glad to see you in a good mood” Santana replied.
”I finally feel like I’m getting back to my old self; before everything happened.” Kurt said.
Santana smiled at that and said, “New York is good for both of us.”
Kurt talked to his Mom and Dad; as he started putting dinner together that night. Finn was hanging out with Sam.
Kurt was making spaghetti and meatballs; something that his birth mom and him had enjoyed making together.
”Kurt sweetheart! It’s wonderful to hear from you!” Carole exclaimed happily, as she answered the phone.
Kurt smiled as he said, “I’m happy to hear your voice too, Mom”.
”How are you? What have you been up to lately?” Carole asked.
”I’m doing great, I met someone actually” Kurt answered.
”Oh Kurt, thats so great to hear” Carole said, happily “what is he like?”.
”His name is Adam and he’s from England. He’s a senior at Nyada. And, he likes me just as much as I like him.” Kurt replied, buzzing with excitement.
Carole was so happy for Kurt, and couldn’t wait to meet Adam of course.
Carole said bye to Kurt and passed the phone to Burt.
”Hey Kiddo” Burt said, as he picked up the phone. “Hi Dad” Kurt replied, smiling.
”It sounds like you’ve got a new guy in your life” Burt said, feeling optimistic, but cautious too.
”I do, he’s really great Dad” Kurt replied “I can’t wait for you and Mom to meet him.
”That’s good to hear, Kiddo” Burt said “Just make sure he treats you like you deserve to be treated.”
”I will Dad, I feel like I can trust him” Kurt replied.
”I’m very glad for that” Burt said, then got emotional “I couldn’t bear the thought of you getting hurt again. Seeing you in the hospital nearly destroyed me; after what that asshole did to you.”
”I know Daddy, I was so scared” Kurt replied, sadly.
“Aww Kiddo” Burt said, sadly “Are you sleeping okay their?”.
”Most nights thankfully, I’ve had a handful of nightmares, but I’m doing okay.” Kurt replied.
”I’m sorry you have to have them at all. If you ever want me to come and be their with you; just say the word and I’ll be on the next plane.” Burt said.
”Thank you Daddy” Kurt replied, tearing up slightly.
“You bet, Love you Kiddo” Burt said.
”Love you too, Dad” Kurt replied.
Adam came to the apartment later that night.
Kurt smiled as Adam walked in and greeted him with a kiss.
Santana was out on another date; so, he and Adam had the apartment to themselves.
Kurt offered Adam a drink; then Adam sat it down on the table, after taking a sip of it.
He wrapped his arms around Kurt and held him gently; as they waited for the microwave popcorn to finish.
Adam and Kurt cuddled on the couch together; as they enjoyed one of Adam’s favorite movies, “Love, Actually”.
Kurt rested his head on Adam’s chest and Adam pulled the nearest blanket over the two of them.
Adam felt so warm and inviting; laying with him like this was so comforting. Kurt knew he wanted more of this feeling.
Adam smiled as Kurt wrapped his arm around Adam’s torso.
”This really is good” Kurt said, about a third of the way through the movie.
”I had a feeling you would like it” Adam replied, smiling, as he kissed Kurt.
Kurt relaxed against Adam again, as they continued to watch the rest of the movie.
After the movie ended, Kurt was certain he wanted to tell Adam exactly how he feels about him.
Kurt sat up, grabbing the remote from the coffee table and turned the tv off; as the credits started to roll.
Adam looked at Kurt curiously, and Kurt said, “I have something important to tell you, and this feels like the perfect moment to say it.”
Adam smiled at Kurt and said, “Whatever it is, you can tell me” as he gave him a nod of encouragement.
Kurt bit his lower lip slightly and then said, “I love you Adam, I want to be with you. I know I have some emotional baggage, and that can be a lot. But, I really want this with you. I want to be your boyfriend.”
”Oh Kurt” Adam replied, smiling, as he gently caressed Kurt’s face “I love you too, very much. I have since we first talked in the coffee shop. I would love to call you my boyfriend.”
”You would?” Kurt asked happily, his face lighting up with joy.
Adam smiled to himself, Kurt looked so adorable in that moment.
”Absolutely” Adam answered, without any hesitation “And, we will work through whatever comes our way; the both of us. You needn’t worry love.” Adam said.
”Okay” Kurt replied, with relief; crying happy tears, as he captured Adam’s lips in a kiss.
Chapter 45: Adam’s Ordeal
Summary:
Adam has a ptsd episode, while him and Kurt are walking to get lunch one day.
Notes:
*mention of ptsd*
*possible trigger warning*
Chapter Text
Kurt and Adam had started doing practically everything together. Everything felt so right with Adam.
Meeting Adam for lunch, when Kurt got a break from work, and Adam got done with classes for the afternoon; was the best part of Kurt’s day.
Kurt practically raced over to Nyada, when his lunch break came; that friday afternoon.
Adam spotted Kurt outside the school. And, had a big grin, as Kurt greeted him with a kiss.
Adam wrapped his arms around Kurt and said, “Good Afternoon, Love” practically giddy with excitement.
”Hi, Baby” Kurt replied, smiling, and rested his head on Adam’s chest.
A member from the Adam’s Apples saw them from afar and smiled at the pair.
Adam wrapped his arm around Kurt’s waist, as they walked down the sidewalk.
They started walking to the deli; that was a little over a block away.
Talking about how their days were going, on the way there.
They passed the subway entrance; and Kurt felt his boyfriends arm tense around his waist.
Adam suddenly looked terrified, and it broke Kurt’s heart, to see him so afraid.
Kurt looked at Adam with concern in his eyes, “Are you okay, Baby?” he asked.
”Yeah love, it’s just…memories” Adam answered, his voice trailing off. He knew it was a lie, but didn’t want to scare Kurt.
Kurt gently disentangled himself from Adam’s arm; that was now resting on the small of his back. Adam was staring straight ahead.
Then, Kurt stood in front of Adam, so he was facing him.
He wrapped his arms around Adam, and said, “Something happened to you back there, didn’t it, something awful.”
It was a statement, and not a question. He recognized that his boyfriend is going through ptsd too.
It was quiet for a moment, and then Adam rested his head on Kurt’s shoulder. Tears falling onto Kurt’s sleeve.
Adam also wrapped his arms around Kurt; like he was holding on for dear life.
Adam started shaking in Kurt’s arms and Kurt’s eyes welled up with tears. “Please let me in, Baby” he pleaded with Adam.
”I’m scared” Adam said, crying. “I’ve got you, Baby, I’m never letting you go.” Kurt said, as he held Adam a little tighter.
A moment later, Kurt pulled his phone out of his pocket, to call Isabelle.
There was no way he was going to leave Adam on his own, after that. He was so worried about him.
Adam’s head was still resting on Kurt’s shoulder. And, Kurt had one arm wrapped around Adam, as he called Isabelle.
Kurt explained what had happened and asked if it was possible to take off the rest of the day.
Kurt thought it was best to get Adam home. He had never seen him this upset.
Isabelle told Kurt that he was okay to go home with Adam; and hoped that he would be okay.
“Come on, Baby, let’s get you home” Kurt told Adam, and got them a taxi.
Kurt opened the door, then wrapped his arms around Adam again, as they got settled on the seat.
They arrived at the apartment that Adam shared with Tobey.
Kurt got Adam comfortable on the couch bed. Then, got Adam a glass of water, hoping it would help him to relax.
Adam thanked Kurt and took a few sips of water. Then, he put it on the small table next to the bed.
Kurt laid down next to Adam and continued to hold him; whispering words of comfort in his boyfriends ear, as he gently stroked his hair.
Kurt sighed with relief, when Adam fell asleep, ten minutes later. His poor boyfriend had exhausted himself.
Kurt pulled the blanket around them a bit more; and soon fell asleep too.
Chapter 46: Scary Memories
Summary:
Adam tell’s Kurt what happened to him at the subway stop.
Chapter Text
Tobey was home, when Kurt and Adam woke up; a few hours later.
”I bet you’re hungry” Adam said, looking at Kurt. “I’am, but I’m more worried about you” Kurt replied.
”I’m sorry I scared you, love” Adam said, wrapping his arms around Kurt.
”It’s ok Baby, you can talk to me, I’m here” Kurt said, kissing Adam gently.
Kurt held Adam in his arms, as they sat against the couch back.
Tobey took the liberty of ordering the three of them some pizza.
When the pizza arrived, the three of them sat down at the table.
Tobey looked back and forth, between Adam and Kurt.
Kurt didn’t say much, he wanted to let Adam talk whenever he was ready to.
”You two have been so quiet since I got home; is everything okay?” Tobey asked.
Kurt looked at Adam with an expression of hesitation. Then, Adam broke the silence.
”We passed the subway entrance on the way to lunch; the scary memories came back. Thank gosh Kurt was with me.” Adam replied, sadly.
”I’m so sorry, Adam” Tobey said, looking at Adam knowingly.
Kurt looked between Adam and Tobey; not really sure what to say.
Kurt rested his hand on Adam’s leg, as Tobey said, “You’ve got to tell him, Adam”.
”I will, but first let’s eat” Adam replied.
Kurt graciously put a slice of pizza on his boyfriends plate; and then one on his own, as he thanked Tobey for the pizza.
Adam was glad to see Kurt eating something. He knew the afternoon had been a lot for him too.
After eating, Tobey went in his room; to give Adam and Kurt some time alone.
Adam held Kurt’s hands in his, as he said, “I have something important to tell you”.
”Whatever you have to tell me, its okay” Kurt said, looking into Adam’s eyes.
Adam’s eyes shed silent tears, and Kurt gently squeezed Adam’s hands.
”Six months before I met you, I was attacked at the subway..” Adam started to say.
”Oh my gosh” Kurt replied, his eyes brimming with tears.
”A group of homophobic assholes were harassing a guy, while I was waiting for the subway. I couldn’t just leave him to fend for himself.
So, I stood up to them; and then..they turned on me. They most likely would have beat me to death; if help hadn’t come.” Adam tearfully explained to Kurt.
”Baby, you must have been so terrified” Kurt replied “Thank gosh help came”.
”It was love, before I knew it, my head hit the ground and I blacked out. I came to in the ambulance.” Adam said.
Kurt started crying, as he rubbed Adam’s back, and held him close to him.
How could anyone be so cruel to someone as sweet as Adam.
”How badly did they injure you?” Kurt asked, in a concerned tone.
”Thankfully, the injuries I sustained, nothing too serious; healed in a matter of weeks.” Adam answered.
“Thank gosh for that” Kurt said, stroking Adam’s hair and kissing his cheek.
”But, the psychological pain has ended up being much worse” Adam said.
Kurt froze listening to that last part. He knew what Adam meant all too well; and felt like his heart dropped into his stomach.
Chapter 47: Letting Adam In
Summary:
Adam spend’s the night at Kurt’s for the first time. Kurt tell’s Adam what Blaine did to him.
Notes:
*possible trigger warning*
*mention of rape*
Chapter Text
It broke Kurt’s heart to hear what had happened to Adam at the subway stop. But, he was glad he opened up to him about it.
He wants to help Adam through it, however he can. Adam had opened Kurt up to love again; something that Kurt hadn’t thought was possible.
Kurt was sitting on the couch, that next Saturday afternoon; when he got a phone call from Sebastian.
Kurt answered the phone on the second ring, “Sebastian, hey, it’s been a while” he said.
”Hey Kurt, how are you?” Sebastian asked. “I’m doing alright” Kurt answered, he didn’t want to stress Sebastian with what had happened the previous weekend.
”I’m glad to hear that” Sebastian said “Things are really moving along here, my dad and I think it will only be a matter of weeks; until we can get you a fair court date set up.”
”Wow, that’s..that’s great Sebastian; thank you, thank you so much.” Kurt replied, feeling a lot of emotions.
”You’re very welcome, Kurt” Sebastian said, smiling
That night, Kurt and Adam were in the kitchen making dinner; at Santana and Kurt’s apartment.
Adam was a bit of a timid helper with the cooking; but, he was a pretty good learner.
Adam was currently grilling the chicken and veggies that he and Kurt had prepared together; while Kurt stirred the mashed potatoes.
Kurt finished stirring the mashed potatoes; and wrapped his arms around Adam’s waist, as he said, “how’s it going sous chef?”
”I appreciate your confidence in my lack of cooking, love” Adam replied, chuckling “But, I’m afraid the chicken may be sticking to the pan.”
Kurt looked down at the pan and said, “all it needs is a little extra olive oil.” Then, grabbed the bottle next to the stove.
Adam continued grilling the chicken and veggies. Kurt kissed Adam on the cheek and said, “you’re doing great”.
Adam smiled shyly at Kurt and replied, “thanks”.
They sat down to eat, and Kurt told Adam, “I’m really glad you opened up to me. I know how scary it must be for you; opening up to someone new.”
Kurt gazed down at the table for a second and Adam looked at him lovingly. Adam gently tilted Kurt’s chin up with his finger.
”Oh, but love, you’re not just someone new; you’re the sweetest guy i’ve ever known.” Adam said.
Kurt smiled slightly, but then, had a downcast, gloomy expression on his face.
Kurt tried to hide it at first, but, Adam definitely noticed.
”What is it love? What’s the matter?” Adam asked, with a saddened expression on his face.
Kurt shook his head slightly; willing his mind to push away the thought that Blaine had rarely praised him like that.
It was difficult in that moment, to think of himself as someone that deserved praise like that.
Adam sensed that Kurt needed a moment; and rubbed his arm comfortingly instead.
Kurt and Adam were laying in Kurt’s bed, later that night. It was the first time Adam had spent the night at Kurt’s.
It was going alright until after they had started making out.
Adam was kissing Kurt as he intertwined their fingers; the movement caused Kurt’s hands to slide a little further up the bed.
Kurt’s mind immediately went to the thought of Blaine tying his wrists that awful day; and he froze.
Adam stopped kissing Kurt immediately. It broke Adam’s heart to see the terrified look on his boyfriends face.
Kurt had lost touch of reality in that moment. He stared blankly across the room, as Adam watched him with growing concern.
A moment later, Kurt got out of bed and went down the hall to the bathroom.
Adam soon joined him, and found Kurt sitting on the bathroom rug, crying.
He looked so small, sitting there by himself, with red rimmed eyes full of tears
Adam sat down and gently pulled a frightened, shaking Kurt into his lap.
”He raped me, Baby, my boyfriend raped me. I begged him to stop and he wouldn’t.” Kurt said, before his breath hitched and he let out a sob.
Adam felt sick, hearing what Kurt had just told him. How could anyone do such an awful thing as rape, to someone as sweet as Kurt.
Adam gently cradled the back of Kurt’s head as he sadly said, “Oh love, I’m so sorry”.
Kurt clung on to Adam and rested his head on Adam’s shoulder.
Adam stayed on the bathroom floor for a little while, letting Kurt relax in his arms.
When Kurt was no longer shaking, Adam carried him back to bed.
He laid Kurt down, then got into bed beside him; pulling Kurt into his arms again.
Kurt laid his head on Adam’s chest; just focusing on the rhythm of Adam’s heart beating for a moment.
Then Kurt said, “I wanted to tell you, I was just scared and well..” Kurt shook slightly as more tears fell.
Adam stroked Kurt’s hair again and said, “Shh, it’s gonna be okay; i’ve got you, love”.
Kurt kissed Adam and then said, “I wanted you to know, because, I can’t see him in the courtroom again without you there with me.”
”Of course I’ll be there love, I won’t let him hurt you, not ever again.” Adam promised Kurt.
Kurt told Adam what had happened in the courtroom and he was appalled to say the least.
Afterwards, Kurt soon fell asleep in Adam’s arms.
Chapter 48: Adam’s Birthday
Summary:
Kurt prepares a special dinner for Adam’s birthday.
Notes:
I can’t believe it 💖 My 100th fanfiction chapter is here 💜 Thank you so much to my favorite guy, Chris Colfer for inspiring me to be brave and put my writing out there 💙 Meeting and talking with you in 2015 was so magical 🥹
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Adam’s birthday was just around the corner; and Kurt wanted to plan something fun for his special day.
Adam probably wasn’t expecting a lot, since it was his first birthday, since he and Kurt had become a couple.
But, Kurt wanted to make him feel special.
Adam had been through a lot, they both had; and, Kurt was looking forward to doing something fun with Adam.
Kurt was currently at the grocery store; picking out some things to make a birthday dinner for Adam.
He felt like he knew enough about his tastes by now; to put together a meal Adam would really enjoy.
Adam loved potatoes, so, he was planning on making him some homemade mashed potatoes.
Adam had mentioned in conversation once, that his mom made beef wellington and apple crumble on special occasions; before she died.
Adam’s dad never cooked after Adam’s mom died; it was just the occasional take-out food.
Besides that, Adam and Emily pretty much fended for themselves.
Adam would have liked to learn how to cook with his mom; but, he was so young when she died. He just thought he would have more time with her.
Kurt had never made beef wellington before; but, he was excited for the challenge. He knew it would mean a lot to Adam.
Kurt grabbed the other items he would need for dinner; and headed to the checkout.
He called Tobey while he was waiting to checkout; and arranged with him to leave a key under the doormat.
So, he could get started on dinner early.
Blaine and his Dad knew things were really going south.
The judge was under a lot of pressure with all the questioning; it was only a matter of days until he cracked.
The stress of it all had been too much for Blaine’s mom. She had gone a few hours away; to stay with her sister for a while.
Kurt worked a half day on friday, and then, picked up the groceries at his apartment; before going to Tobey’s.
Kurt arrived and let himself in; after finding the key under the doormat.
He set everything out on the counter top and got started; prepping the potatoes and beef.
Kurt smiled to himself as he peeled the potatoes and chopped them into smaller chunk’s.
He couldn’t wait to see Adam’s reaction when he got home.
Kurt was grabbing some milk out of the fridge, to add to the mashed potatoes; when he noticed a picture of Adam and Emily on the fridge door.
Kurt smiled at the picture fondly; he would love to meet Emily someday. Adam had told him so much about her.
Emily had really helped Adam after their Dad kicked him out. Adam hadn’t been allowed to grab anything as he left the house; besides his backpack with his school things and his mobile phone.
Kurt cried when Adam told him how he had lived in his car for the rest of high school.
Emily had sneaked some blankets and other things from Adam’s room; after their Dad fell asleep a couple nights later.
She had been so scared to; if their Dad woke up and caught her, he would be furious. But helping her brother gave her courage.
A couple hours later, Kurt had finished making the mashed potatoes; and the beef wellington was almost done in the oven.
It was turning out great, for Kurt’s first time making it.
It was time to start putting the apple crumble together. Kurt cored and chopped the apples; then, put the other ingredients into a large mixing bowl.
When the apple crumble was ready to go in the oven; Tobey texted Kurt, to let him know that Adam would be home in a half hour.
It gave Kurt the perfect amount of time to get dinner finished, set the small table, and light some candles.
Adam was surprised to find that the door was already unlocked; when he got home.
He walked inside and sat his bag down; then, Kurt enveloped him in a hug.
”Happy Birthday, Baby” Kurt said, and kissed Adam.
“Thank you, Love” Adam replied, smiling warmly at Kurt.
They walked into the kitchen and Adam started to cry; when he saw what Kurt had made.
Kurt wrapped his arms around Adam and laid his head on his chest; as he said, “there’s apple crumble in the oven too.”
Adam looked around the kitchen in awe and said, “I haven’t had this since my mum..” as a few tears slid down his cheek.
”I know, Baby” Kurt said sweetly, and kissed Adam again.
As they ate dinner, Adam savored every bite.
It meant the world to him, that Kurt had put such a special meal together, for his birthday.
As they enjoyed the apple crumble; Kurt gave Adam his birthday present.
A nice picture frame with a picture of the two of them; and a set of braided bracelets for each of them.
”This is wonderful, everything; thank you so much, Love” Adam said.
”You’re very welcome, Baby” Kurt replied, smiling at Adam.
Kurt helped Adam tie his set of bracelets onto his wrist.
Then, Adam asked, “may I?” to Kurt, gesturing to his wrist.
Kurt nodded happily and held out his wrist. It meant a lot to him that Adam had asked first; before tying the bracelets on.
Kurt was sure it had broke Adam’s heart, to see how scared he was the weekend before; even though he hadn’t said so.
Kurt and Adam cleaned up dinner; and then, relaxed on the couch again.
Kurt was holding Adam in his arms. Adam interlocked his fingers with Kurt’s; as he looked at their bracelets, smiling.
It had been the perfect first birthday with Kurt; Adam thought to himself, as he relaxed in Kurt’s arms.
Chapter 49: Next Morning With Adam
Summary:
Kurt spends the night at Adam’s, and they enjoy breakfast together. Sebastian call’s Kurt with some big news.
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Kurt ended up spending the night, after Adam’s birthday dinner.
They were relaxing in bed that night; Adam holding Kurt, and Kurt resting his head on Adam’s shoulder.
”Adam?” Kurt said. “What is it, Love?” Adam replied.
”I was wondering..what happened with your sister, after you got kicked out.” Kurt said.
”She lived with our dad until I turned eighteen. Unfortunately, there wasn’t much I could do until then; legally anyways.
Once I turned eighteen, I was granted temporary custody; until she turned eighteen as well.” Adam replied.
”Oh my, I’m sorry Baby” Kurt said, sadly “Is your sister okay now?” Kurt asked.
”Yes, she’s doing better now; she lives with some friends” Adam answered.
”Thats good” Kurt said, smiling. Adam smiled at Kurt and kissed him gently.
”Thank you for caring so much about my sister, as well” Adam said.
”Of course” Kurt replied lovingly, and kissed Adam’s cheek.
They soon fell asleep in each other’s arms.
The next morning, Adam started a pot of coffee; after he and Kurt woke up.
Adam got back in bed with Kurt, for a bit; while he waited for the coffee to brew.
”Good morning, Love” Adam said, kissing Kurt.
”Mmm, good morning Baby” Kurt replied, with a sleepy smile.
A moment later, Adam got out from under the covers; to make some eggs and pancakes.
”Can I help you in the kitchen?” Kurt asked, looking up at Adam.
”I’ve got it, Love, stay here and rest” Adam answered, gently stroking Kurt’s hair.
Adam leaned down to kiss Kurt again; and then Kurt said, “Okay, Baby” as he laid back against the pillows.
They sat down to eat the breakfast Adam had made.
”This is delicious, thank you, Baby” Kurt said.
”You’re very welcome, Love” Adam said, kissing Kurt on the cheek.
The two of them continued eating until Kurt’s phone rang. He looked down at his phone with curiosity; and saw that Sebastian was calling.
”Sorry about that, I’ll be right back, Baby” Kurt said, as he stood up and walked out of that kitchen.
”Hi Sebastian” Kurt answered “Any news with the case?” he asked.
”Kurt, hey, I’ve got great news! The judge gave in, we can finally get you a fair case!” Sebastian said, excitedly.
Kurt was so surprised, he almost collapsed as he sat down on the couch.
”Sebastian, that’s..that’s incredible” Kurt replied. He had waited so long for this day, and it had finally arrived.
”Blaine’s dad was totally paying off the judge.” Sebastian said.
”My lawyer was right then, he called out the judge; saying something about the Anderson’s wealth and social standing.” Kurt replied, breathlessly, holding a hand to his mouth in shock.
”I know, it’s a lot to process, you okay Kurt?” Sebastian asked.
”Yeah, yeah I’ll be okay. It’s just a lot, like you said.” Kurt answered.
”When uh..when do you think I should be able to get a court date?” Kurt asked.
”Within a week, it sounds like; is there a chance you can be here by wednesday? My dad and I need to go over some things with you before.” Sebastian answered.
”Yeah, that should be okay, thank you Sebastian” Kurt said.
”You’re very welcome, Kurt, I’ll see you on wednesday; everything’s going to be okay, alright?” Sebastian replied, doing his best to reassure Kurt.
”Okay, bye Sebastian” Kurt said, his voice breaking slightly; and ended the call.
Kurt was sure that Isabelle would understand. He hoped Adam would be okay, missing three days of classes.
Kurt went back into the kitchen. When Adam saw the slightly stunned look on Kurt’s face; he asked, “Is everything okay, love?”
”That was Sebastian, I’m getting another court date.” Kurt said, his eyes brimming with tears. As he thought about the relief of a fair trial.
”Oh love, come here” Adam said sweetly, his arms open for Kurt.
Kurt sat in Adam’s lap and Adam wrapped his arms around him; holding Kurt close.
”There’s a lot more details, ones I haven’t been able to talk about for a while; that I know will be difficult for you to hear.” Kurt said, his voice breaking.
Adam got teary eyed at that; dreading hearing what else had happened to his boyfriend. But, he put on a brave face for Kurt.
He was at a loss for words at the moment; it made him sick to imagine what else had happened to Kurt.
Adam nodded, and held Kurt protectively, trying not to cry.
“We need to be in Ohio by wednesday; and the court date will be within a few days later. Are you sure you’re okay missing three days of school?” Kurt asked.
”I’ll be fine, Love, my friends can pass along whatever notes I miss. Don’t worry about that, okay?” Adam answered.
“Okay” Kurt said, nodding, and laid his head on Adam’s shoulder.
Chapter 50: Flying To Ohio
Summary:
Kurt and Adam travel to Ohio, Then, meet at the courthouse to talk with everyone.
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Isabelle told Kurt not to worry about work, and just focus on the court date.
She wished Kurt good luck, giving him a hug; and told him that she would see him when he got back.
Sebastian’s dad had talked with Burt; just after Sebastian had called Kurt.
Burt was furious when he found out what Blaine and his dad had been up to; with the judge.
He thanked Sebastian and his dad for helping them. Burt knew they wouldn’t have received a fair trial; without their help.
Kurt and Adam headed to the airport wednesday morning.
Adam could tell that Kurt was getting a little anxious; as they got into a taxi.
They pulled away from the curb and Adam rubbed Kurt’s arm, comfortingly.
”It’s gonna be okay, Love” Adam said. Kurt sighed and replied, “I know, I’m just scared”.
Kurt leaned his head on Adam’s shoulder, as they rode to the airport.
They made their way through the airport, and soon; it was time to get on the plane.
As the plane was getting ready to take off; Kurt leaned his head on Adam’s shoulder, and said “I think I’ll feel better if I just sleep a little.”
”I’ll be right here when you wake up, I love you.” Adam said, kissing Kurt gently.
“I love you, too” Kurt replied, before he closed his eyes and snuggled next to Adam.
Adam draped his jacket over Kurt, as the plane took off.
Adam gently woke Kurt, when they landed in Ohio. “Were here, love” he said, as Kurt opened his eyes.
They made their way off the plane and to the baggage claim.
Finn was picking them up at the airport; then, they would meet Burt, Carole, the Smythe’s, and Kurt’s lawyer at the courthouse.
After Adam and Kurt got their bags; Kurt spotted Finn walking over to them.
Finn enveloped Kurt in a hug, and then; Kurt introduced Adam and Finn to eachother.
Finn reached out to shake Adam’s hand, “Hey, Dude” he said. Finn had a slight look of hesitation on his face.
Adam replied, “Hello, Finn” in a friendly tone; as Kurt wrapped his arm around Adam’s waist, smiling.
Kurt knew Finn was just being protective; and, he didn’t blame him for it. He had really scared Finn that awful day.
But, Adam was a good man. He hoped Finn would warm up to him soon.
Finn helped Adam and Kurt put their suitcases in the back of the car. Then, the three of them made their way to the courthouse.
When they arrived at the courthouse, the three of them headed inside.
Adam squeezed Kurt’s hand reassuringly; as he sensed Kurt stiffen nervously, next to him.
“Thanks, Baby” Kurt said, with a teary smile. Adam gently kissed Kurt on the cheek; as they made their way down the hallway.
Soon, they were met in the hallway by everyone.
Burt and Carole enveloped Kurt in a hug; as soon as they saw him. “Hi dad, Hi mom” Kurt said, as he relaxed momentarily; in their embrace.
Then, Kurt introduced them both to Adam. Burt shook Adam’s hand and Carole gave Adam a hug.
Sebastian walked up to Kurt and Adam next; greeting Kurt, and then Adam.
A moment later, Sebastian’s dad said, “I’m sorry to break this up, but we should get started.”
They all gathered together in a small, nearby room.
At first, Sebastian’s dad and Kurt’s lawyer were just discussing Kurt’s case file.
And then, they got into what Blaine had done to Kurt. And, how it was all likely to be handled now.
Since Blaine was now technically an adult; the trial was being transferred from a juvenile case to an adult one.
Meaning that the punishment would be harsher.
Adam couldn’t hold it in anymore and started to cry; leaning into Kurt’s shoulder, as he held him close.
He knew that it wasn’t going to be pleasant. But, hearing what Blaine had put Kurt through; was much worse than Adam could have imagined.
”I’m so sorry you have to hear it like this, Baby.” Kurt said, gently stroking Adam’s hair. Kurt’s eyes were starting to water.
In that moment, it was as if Kurt and Adam were the only two in the room.
Kurt leaned his head down and kissed Adam softly.
A few hours later, they were done discussing everything for the day.
Adam and Kurt were more than ready to go home.
Kurt and Adam were laying in Kurt’s bed that night; feeling exhausted.
Kurt was resting his head on Adam’s chest; and looked up at him with red rimmed, tired eyes, as he said, “I love you.”
”I love you, too” Adam replied, looking back at Kurt, with a sad smile.
Santana would be joining them in Ohio, the day before the court date.
Chapter 51: Court Date
Summary:
Santana arrives in Lima. The emotional day of the court trial.
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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Kurt woke up the next morning, a few moments before Adam.
He received a text message from Mercedes. “I’m so sorry I can’t be there for the trial, Boo” she said.
Kurt replied, “It’s okay Cedes, I understand”. As he rested his head back against the pillow, beside Adam.
Adam woke up a few minutes later. He saw the downfallen look on Kurt’s face. Kurt was laying on the pillow, facing Adam.
”Morning” Kurt said, his eyes sad and tired.
”You okay, Love?” Adam asked softly; while stroking the side of Kurt’s face.
”I just wish the court trial was over with” Kurt said, burying his face against Adam’s chest. His body shaking as he started to cry.
”I’m so sorry, Love” Adam replied, with a somber tone to his voice.
It wasn’t fair that Kurt had to feel like this.
It was quiet for a few moments; as Kurt let himself relax in his boyfriends arms.
Then, Kurt looked up at Adam with tear stained eyes. “Kiss me like you did the first time, please. Help me forget about all of this for a while.” Kurt said.
Adam smiled and looked at Kurt, knowingly; he remembered exactly how that first kiss had felt.
He held Kurt the same way he had that day; and captured Kurt’s lips, in a kiss that nearly took his breath away.
Kurt put everything he had, back into the kiss. Willing his mind to forget about anything and everything for a while. As he savored the comfort of Adam’s lips on his.
Adam pulled Kurt into his lap, as they leaned against the headboard.
Taking a breath for a moment. Then, Kurt gently kissed Adam once again.
Kurt leaned his head against Adam’s chest; and, all felt safe in that moment.
Kurt and Adam picked Santana up at the airport, the next day.
Adam was a little quiet as he opened the trunk of the car. So, Santana could put her carry on bag in.
”You guys doing alright?” Santana asked, after she got into the back seat.
”As alright, as can be expected” Adam answered, as he rested his hand on Kurt’s thigh. And gave Santana a reassuring smile, in the rearview mirror.
She was glad that Kurt had Adam; he needed all the love and support he could get, especially now.
Adam woke up the next morning, with Kurt’s arms wrapped around his waist.
Adam looked at Kurt, smiling, and gently stroked his hair.
Kurt opened his eyes a moment later, and Adam said, “Good morning, Beautiful.”
”Hi, Baby” Kurt replied, with a slightly sleepy voice.
A little over an hour later, they were all on their way to the courthouse.
Adam held Kurt’s hand over the center console.
”By this afternoon, It will all be over, Love” Adam told Kurt.
”I can’t wait for that” Kurt replied.
Blaine’s head popped up, the minute they all entered the courtroom.
Blaine glared at Kurt with such intensity; that Kurt practically felt the color drain from his face.
Adam glared back at Blaine; as he kept his arms wrapped protectively, around Kurt’s waist.
Blaine looked at Adam and scoffed to himself.
They sat down and Kurt was glad to see the new judge.
Soon, they got started, and Kurt leaned against Adam; who had his arm wrapped around him.
Kurt was just trying to focus on the feel of Adam’s hand holding his; while avoiding looking towards the other side of the courtroom.
As the felonies that Blaine was being charged with; including rape and kidnapping, were starting to be read off; Kurt and Adam held each other close.
”I love you so much” Kurt whispered to Adam, with teary eyes.
”I love you too” Adam whispered back, kissing Kurt on the forehead.
Sebastian looked over at them, smiling at the pair.
The judge announced a verdict of, guilty of all charges. And, sentenced Blaine to seven years in the Lima county jail.
Kurt cried with relief. Adam kissed Kurt and held him in his arms again.
The Smythe’s and Kurt’s lawyer congratulated Kurt and his family.
There were teary smiles and hugs all around.
The same couldn’t be said for Blaine’s side.
As Blaine was escorted from the courtroom; his dad threw his hands up in anger.
And Blaine’s mom had her face in her hands, crying. She knew time in jail was coming for her husband as well.
Kurt and everyone stood up and exited the courtroom.
”Let’s go home, Baby” Kurt said, as he hugged Adam.
Notes:
This is a short trial. Since it’s just for getting a proper sentencing.
I did my best to research the correct jail time for Blaine.
Rest assured that Blaine’s dad and the previous judge will receive their proper punishment. Even though it’s not in the chapter.
Chapter 52: Going Home
Summary:
Adam and Kurt return to New York; Kurt has a question for Adam:)
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The morning after the court trail; Kurt, Adam, and Santana flew back to new york.
Kurt was looking forward to getting back home; and having more time alone with Adam.
They returned to Kurt and Santana’s apartment that afternoon.
The three of them took their bags in; Kurt and Adam headed to Kurt’s room.
Once they got in Kurt’s room, they sat their bags down on the floor.
Adam smiled as Kurt enveloped his lips in a kiss.
Kurt backed them both towards the bed; until they plopped down on it.
They laid against the pillows, with their legs intertwined.
Kurt nuzzled a bit closer to Adam; and Adam gently ran his fingers through Kurt’s hair.
”This feels nice” Adam said.
”It does” Kurt replied, looking at Adam fondly.
Adam moved Kurt into his lap, kissing him softly; as they sat up, against the headboard.
”I’m so glad were home” Kurt said, smiling at Adam.
Adam’s heart swelled with happiness, when Kurt said home.
Being there with his boyfriend and holding him close; absolutely felt like home.
”Me too, Love” Adam replied, smiling back at Kurt.
Later, Kurt, Adam, and Santana ordered some chinese food for dinner.
The sweet and sour chicken ended up being Adam’s favorite.
It was only his second time having chinese food; and it was more fun to experience with Kurt.
Kurt and Adam were laying in Kurt’s bed, later that night.
They ended up sleeping in Kurt’s bed, most of the time now.
Kurt broke the comfortable silence, as he said, “Adam, I have something to ask you.”
Adam held Kurt’s hand in his, and replied, “What is it, Love?”
”Well..since you spend most nights here anyway, and I love having you in my bed..” Kurt started to say, causing Adam to blush at the second part.
”I was wondering if you want to move in” Kurt said.
”Really? You mean it?” Adam asked excitedly, his face lighting up.
Kurt giggled and replied, “Yes, of course”.
”I would love to” Adam said, and captured Kurt’s lips in a kiss.
The next day, Adam let Tobey know that he would be moving in with Kurt.
He thanked Tobey for taking him in; when he had nowhere else to go.
Tobey was happy to see Adam getting settled in with Kurt; to see him happy again.
Adam and Kurt planned to get Adam’s things, after classes got done for the day; and Kurt got off work.
The day after they got home; Kurt returned to work at the Nyada offices.
Isabelle greeted Kurt with a hug, and he smiled.
She was so happy for Kurt, that he could really start to heal now.
After work, Kurt rode the subway to Tobey’s apartment.
He would meet Adam there, and then; they would move Adam’s stuff in Tobey’s car.
Adam just had a few boxes, and some small, loose stuff.
Together, Kurt and Adam got everything settled in Kurt’s room.
Adam thought it was very chivalrous, the way that Kurt made room in his closet; for Adam’s clothes.
”That’s very sweet of you, Love” Adam said, and kissed Kurt gently.
Chapter 53: Adam and Kurt’s First Time
Summary:
Adam spends his first night in Kurt’s bed, since moving in. Kurt tell’s Adam he’s ready for their first time.
Early the next morning, Adam recieve’s some difficult news from home.
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The first night at Kurt’s felt so right.
Kurt was holding Adam in bed, and planting small kisses along his neck and shoulder.
Adam sighed happily, as he relaxed more and more, from Kurt’s touch.
Next, Kurt slipped his hands under Adam’s shirt; wanting to touch more of his skin.
Kurt moved his hands up Adam’s stomach, and then his chest.
He felt Adam’s skin tingle under his touch; and got a small moan from Adam, as he brushed his fingertips over his nipples.
”I love having you here” Kurt said.
”Mmm, and I love being here” Adam replied.
Kurt loved being this intimate with Adam. He decided he wanted even more of it.
Kurt said it so softly, that Adam didn’t quite hear him at first. “I want you to make love to me.” Kurt said.
Adam looked at Kurt with confusion on his face, then said, “Tell me again, Love, I didn’t quite get that.”
Kurt gently brushed Adam’s hair aside, and said it softly into his ear, “I want you to make love to me.”
”Oh..uh” Adam said, then he felt a pleasant chill go down his spine; when he fully realized what Kurt was saying.
Adam was quiet for a moment, thinking to himself. Kurt studied Adam’s face, waiting for a reply.
Kurt, thinking that Adam might be deciding against it; said, “You don’t want me..” with sadness in his voice.
Kurt laid back against the pillow sadly, lowering his head.
Adam laid on his side, facing Kurt; and gently tilted Kurt’s chin up with his finger.
”Of course I want you, Love” Adam said “I just want to make sure, you’re certain that you’re ready for this.”
”I’am, I’ve never wanted anything more.” Kurt said, without any hesitation in his voice.
Adam helped Kurt remove his clothes, then removed his own; leaving both of them in just their boxers.
Adam sat with Kurt, holding him; as he ran his hands up and down his sides. And kissed along Kurt’s collar bone; Kurt tilting his head back, to give Adam more access.
He wanted to let Kurt get familiar, with the feeling of Adam caressing his bare skin.
Kurt relaxed more and more, in Adam’s arms. As Adam’s hands glided over Kurt’s skin.
This was the first time Kurt had experienced actual foreplay; and he was enjoying it immensely.
Adam laid Kurt back, against the pillows. And started to trace his hands down Kurt’s thighs; caressing the skin there.
Kurt’s skin was tingling under Adam’s touch; and he felt completely at ease.
”How are you feeling, Love?” Adam asked Kurt, with a sweet tone in his voice.
”I’m feeling wonderful, Thank you, Baby” Kurt replied, smiling.
”I’m so glad” Adam said, smiling back at Kurt; as he hovered over him.
When Kurt gave Adam the word that he was ready; Adam enveloped Kurt’s lips in a tender kiss, that was so reassuring.
”I love you, I trust you” Kurt said, after Adam broke the kiss.
”I love you too” Adam replied, and pressed one more gentle kiss to Kurt’s lips; before removing Kurt’s boxers, and then his own.
Kurt blushed slightly when Adam took what they would need out of the nightstand drawer; next to Adam’s side of the bed.
Kurt was grateful to see that Adam had an ample amount of lube. He was sure that there would be some discomfort. But, he knew that Adam would take good care of him.
Adam was so gentle with Kurt, taking it slow as he prepped him; and making sure Kurt was okay.
Even when Kurt gasped in surprise, shortly after Adam had entered him; He massaged Kurt’s hips and said, “It’s okay, Love, i’ve got you.”
As Kurt adjusted to the feeling of fullness again. Adam did everything he could to make sure that Kurt experienced as little discomfort as possible.
Kurt had wanted to spare Adam the full details and extent of the internal injuries he had received (at least for now); as the result of being raped.
But Adam knew that even though Kurt had healed in that way; he needed to be careful with him.
Adam was being a complete gentleman the entire time; and Kurt felt so safe with him.
There was so much love and trust put into it. Kurt never knew sex could feel quite like this.
The comfort of being massaged and kissed gently, while Adam made love to him; was amazing.
Adam watched Kurt come undone underneath him, with so much love in his eyes.
Afterwards, Kurt felt perfectly content, wrapped up in Adam’s arms.
As Adam studied Kurt’s expression, basking in the afterglow; he admired how beautiful his boyfriend looked.
Adam brushed Kurt’s slighty sweaty hair from his brow; and Kurt bit his lower lip lightly, looking at Sebastian.
Adam kissed Kurt deeply, like he couldn’t get enough of the taste of Kurt’s lips. Kurt moaned against Adam’s lips.
”So beautiful” Adam said, a moment later. Then kissed Kurt one more time, before the two of them got up from the bed.
Kurt went into the bathroom with Adam, their fingers intertwined and Kurt kissing Adam; then leaning his head on Adam’s shoulder.
They got into the shower together, enjoying the feel of each other’s touch again.
Around three in the morning, Adam was holding a mostly naked Kurt in bed; when he was woken up by the ringtone he had set for his sister.
Adam carefully removed himself from Kurt; and took his phone out into the hallway.
Kurt stirred slightly in his sleep, as Adam closed the door behind him.
Adam answered the phone, with worry on his face; hoping Emily was okay.
”Adam..I’m so sorry to wake you up so early. I hope I didn’t wake Kurt as well.” Emily said.
”It’s okay, Kurt’s still asleep. Is everything alright?” Adam asked.
Emily started crying, “No, Adam..dad’s dying, it’s his liver. I don’t know how I’m supposed to handle this, I’m scared.” Emily answered.
Adam’s face went pale, and he leaned against the wall. He felt like the hallway was spinning; he definitely hadn’t expected to hear something like that.
Adam’s heart broke when Emily said, “I’m scared”. He couldn’t lose it, he had to keep it together right now. His younger sister needs him.
”Oh Emily” Adam said, sadly “We’ll uh..we’ll figure this out. I’m coming to help. I’ll catch the soonest flight out I can get.”
Emily breathed a sigh of relief, and said, “Thank you Adam, I’ll see you soon, I love you.”
”Your welcome Emily, I love you too, I’ll see you soon.” Adam replied.
Chapter 54: Flying To England
Summary:
Adam tells Kurt about his dad. They fly to England to be with Adam’s sister, Emily.
Chapter Text
Adam got back into bed with Kurt, feeling numb.
He started stroking Kurt’s hair gently, attempting to feel a bit better.
A few moment’s later, Kurt opened his eyes, sleepily; and turned on his side, to look at Adam.
Adam gently rubbed Kurt’s lower back, “I’m sorry I woke you, Love” he said to Kurt.
Kurt looked at Adam sweetly, and said, “Don’t be, it’s okay”.
Adam pressed his lips against Kurt’s, gently; then said, “You’re being very sweet, but you must be tired.”
Just then, Kurt yawned, and Adam stroked Kurt’s hair again.
”Told you, love” Adam said, causing Kurt to laugh.
Adam tried to smile in return, and managed for a few seconds; but then, his smile was gone.
”Baby, what’s wrong?” Kurt asked Adam.
Then held Adam in his arms, as he started to cry.
“My sister called, our dad’s dying” Adam answered, as he held onto Kurt.
”Oh honey, I’m so sorry” Kurt said, sadly.
Adam sniffled and said, “It’s been so long since I last saw him, I’m scared. I’ve got to go home as soon as possible.”
Adam suddenly looked so small and frightened, in Kurt’s arms. He had been strong for so long.
Kurt gently stroked Adam’s hair, and said, “I’m coming home with you.”
Adam turned his head upward, and looked at Kurt with red rimmed eyes.
”You would do that for me?” Adam asked, with tears in his eyes.
”Of course, Baby” Kurt replied, kissing Adam gently.
The next morning, Adam and Kurt started looking at flights to England.
Isabelle was understanding once again; Kurt was surprised and grateful at the same time.
He knew Isabelle was sweet, but he thought for sure she would be in a panic; when he told her he was leaving with his boyfriend again.
A little over twenty-four hours later, Kurt and Adam were on their way to England.
They were a few hours into the flight, when Adam had his head resting on Kurt’s shoulder.
Kurt was glad to see that Adam was getting some sleep.
The night before they left New York, Kurt had woken up at four, to use the bathroom.
He found Adam’s side of the bed empty. Kurt walked down the hallway and saw the light on in the front room.
Then consoled an upset Adam on the couch; who had wandered out of their room at some point during the night.
Kurt knew Adam really wasn’t okay; when he found him practically sobbing on the couch. Rambling something about “how could he, and stupid alcohol.”
Adam got a little snappy in the heat of the moment. And then, apologized profusely to Kurt; before starting to cry again.
Kurt knew Adam didn’t mean it, his boyfriend was finally allowing himself to fall apart; of course he would be upset.
A little while later, Kurt coaxed Adam to come back to bed with him.
Kurt and Adam got off the plane that night. And after getting their luggage; met up with Adam’s sister, Emily.
Kurt let go of Adam’s hand, momentarily; as Emily wrapped her arms around Adam, in a hug.
Adam held Emily close, and he rubbed her back; as Emily cried.
Kurt looked at both of them, with a saddened expression on his face.
The three of them got in a taxi, and made their way to Emily’s apartment.
Emily talked to Kurt on the way. Saying how good it was to finally meet him; and that she’s so glad Adam has him.
Adam held Kurt in his arms, and gently kissed him.
He knew he wouldn’t have been able to get through it; without having Kurt with him.
When they arrived at Emily’s apartment; she showed the two of them to the living room.
She had made up the pull-out bed, and had some fresh towels waiting for them in the bathroom.
Kurt and Adam had a shower together, after getting settled in the living room.
Kurt held Adam in his arms, as the warm water washed over them.
Adam relaxed from Kurt’s touch, as his hands gently cleansed Adam’s shoulders and arms, and then his chest.
Kurt kissed the back of Adam’s neck; and then massaged his boyfriends scalp, as he washed his hair.
Adam was pretty quiet during the shower, just focusing on Kurt’s touch.
Adam slept better that night, thanks to Kurt.
He felt safe in his boyfriends arms.
The next afternoon; Emily, Adam, and Kurt took a taxi to the hospital.
Kurt held Adam in his arms, during the entire ride.
After they arrived at the hospital, the three of them walked through the hallways; until they got to Adam and Emily’s dad’s, hospital room.
Adam and Emily exchanged a nervous look, and Adam let out a deep sigh.
Kurt rubbed Adam’s upper arms, soothingly, and said, “I’m here, right by your side, Baby”.
Adam nodded, a few tears sliding down his cheek; as he touched Kurt’s hand, with shaky fingers.
Emily opened the door to the hospital room and went in first; followed by Adam and then Kurt.
Adam’s dad was about as civil as expected, when he saw Adam come in the hospital room with Emily.
”What are you doing here?” he asked, looking at Adam from his seated postion on the bed.
”I came to be here with Emily, for support. You’re not exactly in the best of health, and I didn’t want her to have to go through this alone.” Adam answered.
“You always were the protector, weren’t you..” Adam’s dad said, scoffing at him.
Adam ignored him and held Kurt’s hand; as he led Kurt to step beside him.
When Adam’s dad laid eyes on Kurt, and made the connection that he’s Kurt’s boyfriend; he was furious.
Kurt’s eyes were full of fear and hurt; as he saw the way Adam’s dad was glaring at him. He gripped Adam’s arm a little firmer then he meant to.
Adam rubbed Kurt’s side, letting him know he wouldn’t let his dad lay a hand on him.
”You dare to bring another guy with you, some fa..” Adam’s dad started to say, narrowing his eyes at Adam.
”Don’t you dare call him that” Adam replied, angrily “He loves me and I love him. That’s why he’s here with me.”
Adam’s dad glared back at Adam as well, even though he was practically on his death bed; his chest heaved with anger.
Emily went out into the hallway, but Kurt stayed with Adam.
No matter how scared Kurt was, he refused to leave Adam in the hospital room alone.
Kurt’s arms were wrapped around Adam’s torso, as he rested his head against Adam’s shoulder blade.
Silent tears slipped down Kurt’s cheek, and he listened to Adam’s shaky breathing.
A moment later, after Adam’s breathing had returned to normal; he said to his Dad, “we’re leaving for the day, and I don’t want you saying another word about my boyfriend; is that understood?”
His dad looked at Adam for a moment, and then slowly nodded his head.
Chapter 55: Warblers Visit Blaine
Summary:
Wes, Nick, Jeff, and Trent have a visit with Blaine at the Lima county jail.
Some more disturbing details are revealed.
Notes:
******mention’s of an abusive relationship, rape, and self harm******
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Even though Blaine had been in the Lima county jail for a few weeks; he was still delusional to the reality of what he had done.
His cellmate was getting sick and tired of Blaine’s arrogant, conceited attitude.
The majority of the inmates, incarcerated for felonies such as fraud, tax crimes, or theft; didn’t take kindly to being around a rapist.
Some of the Warbler’s were coming to visit; Blaine had little interest in it.
The jail only allowed up to four visitors per inmate, at a time.
Sebastian had made it clear that he never wanted to see Blaine again; just the thought of it, made him feel sick.
Wes, Nick, Jeff, and Trent ended up being the members of the Warbler’s, to visit Blaine at the jail.
They wanted to have a serious talk with Blaine, about what he had done to Kurt.
The four of them checked in at the visitors entrance.
They were then shown to a table, in a small room. And were told that Blaine would be in, in a few minutes.
The four of them sat down and waited for Blaine to come.
Blaine was soon escorted into the room, by a guard; and sat down at the other side of the table.
Blaine’s wrists were handcuffed in front of him; and he had a dark look in his eyes.
Wes, Trent, Nick, and Jeff barely recognized the once happy, former Warbler.
”No Sebastian?” Blaine asked, with a hint of sarcasm in his voice.
Trent cleared his throat, “Sebastian has made it very clear that he never wants to see you again. Though, he does want us to ask you some question’s, on his behalf.” said Trent.
”That’s a shame, he was cute.” Blaine replied, matter of factly; to which Trent ignored.
”However, it did surprise me that he’s attracted to Kurt. I have to admit, I never saw that coming. Of course, Kurt is with someone else now; some blond guy..they were all over each other at the trial..” Blaine said, before he was cut off by Trent.
”That’s none of your business” Trent told Blaine, coldly.
Blaine became angry and slammed his fists on the table; causing the four Warblers to jump.
Blaine sank back in his seat, after the guard (who was standing in the corner of the room); gave him a warning.
Wes was the next one to speak, “I gotta say Blaine, I don’t enjoy seeing you like this.” he said.
”Well..I’m sorry to disappoint you then.” Blaine said, smirking at Wes.
”Damnit Blaine, this isn’t a joke” Wes said, his voice sounding slightly tired “We all know what you did, and we want to know why?”.
Jeff, Nick, and Trent nodded in agreement; and looked across the table, at Blaine.
”How could you do that to Kurt? What gives you the right?” Nick asked.
”It was my right as his boyfriend” Blaine answered, with no shame on his face at all.
”Excuse me?! It’s your right!?” Trent exclaimed.
”Trent’s right, that’s some seriously fucked up thinking.” Jeff said.
Trent sat there for a moment, shaking with anger.
“You have no idea what Kurt’s been through since then. He was alone and terrified out of his mind; when he came to that afternoon. After, who knows what else you did to him, once he was unconscious.
He’s been to multiple doctor and psychiatrist appointments; trying to handle the hell you put him through.” Trent said.
“He left me no other choice; He brought it on himself, making me angry like he did. He did whatever he wanted with my heart; so I did whatever I wanted with him, it’s that simple.” Blaine replied, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
Trent started to cry, “I can’t believe I’m hearing this” he said, shaking his head.
“You do not kidnap and then rape your own boyfriend, because you’re angry with him. And then continue, after he goes unconscious. You don’t own him Blaine, you never did.” Trent said.
Wes looked down at the floor, sadly; while Nick and Jeff had tears running down their cheeks.
”He had to have stitches on his chest because you cut him so deep. And..” Trent almost couldn’t get out the last part, “He had to have surgery after what you did to him, surgery Blaine!”
“It wouldn’t have hurt him as much, if he had just cooperated. And as for the cuts, one for everytime he fought with me; made me get angry at him.” Blaine replied, looking at Trent defiantly.
”You cold-hearted piece of shit” Trent said, glaring at Blaine.
Wes lifted his head up, talking to Blaine next; trying to get him to feel something, anything.
”You could have tried talking with him Blaine, you owed him that much.” Wes said.
”Talking rarely got me anywhere with Kurt, I had to be more..physical with him.” Blaine replied, coldly.
Wes felt a shiver go down his spine, at Blaine’s words. “I don’t like the way you said that. What else did you do to Kurt?” he asked.
”I had other ways of making Kurt compliant..Of course, Kurt had his own way of coping, afterwards.” Blaine said, looking down at the table; his expression unreadable.
”You sick asshole, you hit him didn’t you?” Trent asked, joining in again.
Blaine was too much of a coward in that moment; to admit it directly.
But, the smirk he gave Trent confirmed his fears.
Trent felt sick, remembering back to when Sebastian told him he had seen Kurt in long sleeve shirts, even when it was warm; a handful of times at the Lima Bean.
He had noticed it shortly after senior year began. Kurt concealed the dark circles under his eyes, as best as he could; but he always looked tired when Sebastian saw him.
Blaine watched Trent with amusement, as Trent’s mind started to put together the pieces of the puzzle.
”Oh my god” Trent said, with tears in his eyes; holding a hand up to his mouth.
Trent got up from his seat, saying, “You make me sick; I never want to see your face again.”
Trent told Wes he would be waiting in the hall, then left the room.
Blaine just scoffed, and Wes said, “Kurt was never your’s to control, Blaine”.
Blaine just ignored Wes, while Nick and Jeff glared at Blaine.
The guard escorted Blaine out of the room.
Jeff, Wes, and Nick left the room, to join Trent in the hallway.
Notes:
I’m debating having Trent or Sebastian or both, talk with Kurt about his history of self harm; to help support him.
Chapter 56: Saying Goodbye
Summary:
Trent fills Sebastian in on what happened during the visit with Blaine. Adam and Emily make final arrangements, days before their dad passes away.
Chapter Text
The second they had left the hospital room, Adam held Kurt in his arms; “I’m so sorry, Love, so very sorry” Adam said sadly.
”I was so scared, But I couldn’t leave you alone” Kurt said, a tear falling on Adam’s sleeve.
”My brave, beautiful boyfriend” Adam replied, leaning his head down and kissing Kurt gently.
Kurt wrapped his arms around Adam’s torso and leaned his head against his chest; just breathing Adam in for a moment.
After Trent got home from the visit with Blaine at the jail; he called Sebastian.
”Sebastian” Trent said with a tired voice.
”Hey Trent” Sebastian replied “How uh..how did it go?” he asked.
Trent started to cry again, “Blaine hit Kurt, that asshole actually hit him..And then, Kurt tried to cope; but..it’s not good Sebastian.” he said.
Sebastian felt like he was going to vomit, “Oh my god..I had no idea..Kurt..” he said, tears sliding down his cheek.
”I know” Trent said, sadly “I told him I never want to see his face again”.
Sebastian sniffled over the phone. And Trent said, “Kurt cut himself on purpose, his arms”.
Sebastian sobbed, he couldn’t hold it in anymore.
Trent’s heart broke, as he listened to Sebastian’s sobs.
”I’m going to try and talk with Kurt. I think..Kurt might be more willing to talk about it, if you join me.” Trent said.
”Okay, I want to help Kurt however I can, I hope he’ll talk with us about it.” Sebastian replied.
”I’ll uh..I’ll give Kurt a call, and let you know” Sebastian told Trent.
”Thank you, Sebastian” Trent said, then hung up the phone.
Kurt and Adam had been in England for a week and a half.
Adam’s dad looked much, much worse than when Kurt and Adam had arrived.
The nurse informed Adam and Emily that it was only a matter of a few days, or less; that he was expected to live.
Adam and Emily knew there were some final arrangements they would need ti make with him.
But, they weren’t looking forward to the conversation.
Adam insisted that just he and Emily talk with their dad. He wouldn’t put Kurt through his dad berating him again.
”You sure you’ll be okay, Baby?” Kurt asked Adam, before he left for the hospital.
”I’m certain, Love” Adam said, looking at Kurt lovingly; and then enveloped his lips in a kiss.
”I want you to stay here and relax” Adam said, stroking Kurt’s hair gently; as he laid him down on their bed.
”Okay” Kurt replied, looking up at Adam. “I love you” Kurt said.
”I love you too” Adam replied, bending down to kiss Kurt once again.
Adam and Emily’s dad passed away that Saturday afternoon.
He had been agreeable enough, when Adam and Emily were making final arrangements with him.
He told them to have him cremated, as it was the cheapest option.
He had a small nest egg of money, that he had set aside: after their mum died.
Adam and Emily had never heard about the money before. But were relieved they didn’t have to worry about the cost of cremation.
Adam made arrangements with the crematorium; his dad’s ashes would be ready to pick up in a few days.
As it was just Adam, Kurt, and Emily; they didn’t bother with anything like a viewing.
Both set’s of their grandparents had passed away. And they didn’t have much family; besides their dad’s estranged brother.
They had never met him, just heard about him.
Adam was holding Kurt in his arms, as they laid in bed; that Monday night.
Adam placed soft kisses along Kurt’s shoulder.
Kurt’s favorite place was being held in his boyfriends arms.
Kurt sighed happily and rested his head on Adam’s shoulder.
A few moments later, Adam let out a deep, shuddering breath; as he stroked Kurt’s hair.
”You doing okay, Baby?” Kurt asked Adam, rubbing soothing circles against the small of his back.
”Yeah, just looking forward to having this all over with. Even though, I lost him years ago, figuratively speaking.” Adam answered, sighing, then let himself relax in Kurt’s arms.
”Oh, Baby” Kurt said comfortingly, kissing Adam gently; as he stroked his boyfriends hair.
Kurt’s kiss reassured Adam, that everything was going to be alright.
Adam’s dad’s ashes were scattered in places around Essex, that they had visited; specifically before their mum had passed away.
Their dad was a different person back then; he didn’t drink, or lose his temper like he did after their mum passed away.
Adam and Emily just wanted to try and remember feeling happy; what life was like when their mum was alive.
Chapter 57: Flying Back To New York
Summary:
Kurt and Adam fly back to New York. They have a skype call with Mercedes. And then, Kurt calls Sebastian later that night.
Notes:
I’m sorry this is so late 💖 I just moved into a new house 💜
Chapter Text
The afternoon that Kurt and Adam left England, to fly back home; Emily dropped them off at the airport.
She gave each of them a hug, before saying goodbye.
Adam and Kurt made their way through the airport.
They had some time before they had to be at their gate; so they decided to grab something to eat.
Adam had been introducing Kurt to british foods during the week. It had been a nice little distraction from everything.
Kurt enjoyed some foods, but others not as much.
Adam and Emily had prepared an english breakfast that morning.
Kurt enjoyed most of it. Trying a bit of everything; even if he wasn’t sure if he would like it.
He didn’t want to hurt Adam and Emily’s feeling’s. They had been so proud of themselves; presenting breakfast to Kurt.
When Kurt got to the beans though, he subconsciously raised his eyebrow.
Adam looked over at Kurt and chuckled. “It’s ok Love, you don’t have to eat them” Adam said, warmly; as he rubbed Kurt’s thigh.
Adam saved one of his favorites for last; toad in the hole.
He ordered one to split, in case Kurt didn’t like it.
Adam watched with anticipation, as Kurt lifted the fork to his mouth.
When Kurt made an “mmm” sound, Adam grinned; as he said, “I’m so pleased you like it, Love.”
Kurt smiled at Adam, in response.
Kurt leaned into Adam’s side, as they sat down on the plane.
Adam sighed happily, as he said, “back to home”.
That night, Kurt was preparing dinner for Adam and himself; when he got a text from Mercedes.
”Hey Boo! When am I going to get to meet that adorable boyfriend of yours?” Mercedes texted Kurt.
Kurt smiled when he read Mercedes text; feeling his heart flutter.
Just then, Adam walked into the kitchen; he wrapped his arms around Kurt’s torso from behind, and kissed him on the cheek.
”Dinner smells amazing, Love” Adam said.
“Thank you, Baby” Kurt replied, smiling at Adam.
Adam was excited, when Kurt told him that Mercedes couldn’t wait to meet him.
They arranged to talk on skype with Mercedes; later that night.
Then, the two of them enjoyed dinner together.
A while after dinner, Kurt got out his laptop; as he and Adam got settled on couch.
Kurt opened skype, and soon, he and Adam were connected with Mercedes.
”Hi, you two!” Mercedes exclaimed happily, as she smiled brightly at Kurt and Adam.
”Hi ‘Cedes!” Kurt exclaimed, and grinned back at Mercedes.
Adam smiled and waved at Mercedes, as he said, “Hello Mercedes, Kurt has told me wonderful things about you. I’m so happy to meet you.” Like the British gentleman that he is.
”It’s great to meet you too. Thank you for making my boo so happy.” Mercedes replied, loving Adam already.
”You’re very welcome” Adam said, as he wrapped Kurt in his arms; the two of them getting even more cozy on the couch.
Mercedes watched the two of them, adoringly.
”So..how did you two meet?” Mercedes asked them, excitedly.
”We met at a busy coffee shop, not far from Nyada. Adam politely asked if he could join me at the small table.” Kurt started saying, smiling.
”I knew there was something special about Kurt; from the moment I laid eyes on him. I know, even more so now; that it wasn’t just chance, meeting at that coffee shop. We saved each other, we’re healing together.” Adam said, looking at Kurt, lovingly.
”I’m very grateful we did, I never thought my heart would open up to love again.” Kurt added.
Kurt had happy tears in his eyes, as well as Mercedes.
Kurt leaned his head against Adam’s chest; as Mercedes told them how happy she was, that the two of them had found each other.
A moment later, Kurt said, “I invited Adam to dinner twice, and then dinner turned into coffee dates; and coffee dates turned into much more.” Kurt said, as he smiled.
”Of course, I was absolutely smitten with Kurt from the start. I went home after that first dinner, still thinking about the chocolate on Kurt’s lip; from the brownies I had contributed.” Adam said, smiling, then winking at Kurt.
”You did not..” Kurt said, looking at Adam, with an astonished look on his face.
Adam giggled, and replied, “Oh, but I did, Love”.
Causing Kurt to blush slightly, as Adam pressed a kiss to his lips.
Mercedes watched them with amusement; as Kurt said, “When I brought Adam back to the apartment, that next time; I couldn’t wait to just kiss him already.”
”Me too, Love, so much. You were driving me wild in those skinny jeans.” Adam said to Kurt.
For a moment, Kurt and Adam got lost In each others eyes. Forgetting they were on skype.
Mercedes cleared her throat lightly; and they both turned, muttering, “Sorry, Mercedes”.
Mercedes told them how happy she was, that they had found each other.
At around ten that night, Adam and Kurt headed to bed together.
They changed into tank tops and boxers; then snuggled under the covers together.
Kurt kissed Adam’s forehead and stroked his hair; as Adam rested his head on Kurt’s chest.
Adam sighed happily, as Kurt’s touch relaxed him.
Adam fell asleep soon after that; as he had to be up early, for classes the next morning.
Adam rested against Kurt’s side, smiling in his sleep.
Around five minutes after Adam fell asleep; Kurt got a text from Sebastian.
Kurt picked up his phone from the nightstand and unlocked the screen; reading the text from Sebastian.
”Hey Kurt, I’m sorry it’s late, can you talk for a few minutes?” the text said.
Kurt gently got out of bed, careful not to wake Adam.
Once Kurt closed the bedroom door behind him, and went out into the hallway; he dialed Sebastian’s number.
”Hi, Kurt” Sebastian answered, after the second ring.
”Hey, Sebastian” Kurt replied.
”I uh, I have something I want to talk with you about, if that’s okay.” Sebastian asked.
”Of course” Kurt answered.
”There’s no easy way to skirt around this unfortunately, I’m so sorry Kurt.
Trent, Wes, Nick and Jeff went to talk with Blaine at the jail. And they filled me in on some things he said, about you.” Sebastian said, sadly.
Kurt had a sharp intake of breath, and replied, “Oh god, how much did he share with them?”.
”He told them how he kept you compliant” Sebastian said, with a shaky breath.
Kurt hanged his head low, feeling so ashamed; by how easily Blaine had kept him compliant.
“And, how you had your own way of coping. Kurt, I’m so very sorry that he did that to you; that he thought that was okay.
Trent and I, we really want the chance to talk with you about how you coped; would that be alright?” Sebastian asked.
Kurt thought about it for a moment, then said, “Yeah, that would be alright.”
A few tears slid down Kurt’s cheek.
Chapter 58: A Skype Call
Summary:
Kurt has a conversation with Sebastian and Trent.
Notes:
*****trigger warnings*****
*****mention’s of self harm and partner/relationship abuse*****
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Kurt woke up in Adam’s arms the next morning; thinking about the upcoming skype call with Sebastian and Trent.
Adam started to stir, and Kurt composed himself; not wanting to worry him.
”Morning, Love” Adam said, stroking Kurt’s cheek, gently.
”Morning” Kurt replied, then kissed Adam softly.
Kurt and Adam shared a quick breakfast together, before getting dressed.
Then, Adam kissed Kurt goodbye; before leaving for school.
Kurt said, “Have a good day, Baby”.
”You too, Beautiful” Adam replied, smiling, before shouldering his school bag.
That afternoon, Kurt opened his laptop on the coffee table; before getting settled on the couch.
Soon, Kurt was logging into Skype; and then, connecting with Sebastian and Trent.
Sebastian and Trent said hi to Kurt.
Sebastian said, “Kurt, I’m sorry to hear that you had to cope like that. If I had known back then that you were..”
Kurt held up his hand, to stop Sebastian.
”Please, can I start first? I sort of blew up with Finn, when he tried to talk with me. And I don’t want to do the same with you two.” Kurt said.
”Whatever you want Kurt, is fine with us.” Sebastian replied.
”Okay” Kurt said, feeling slightly vulnerable.
“I never thought I deserved someone as loving as Adam.
I got so used to being compliant with how Blaine treated me; I settled for so much less than I deserve.” Kurt said, tears starting to pool in his eyes. He wiped them away, with frustration.
”Kurt..” Sebastian said, sadly, wishing be could reach out and touch Kurt’s hand.
”Please, let me continue” Kurt said, gently this time.
”The way Blaine would handle me, in public too; grabbing me like he did. I felt so embarrassed, so ashamed.
I thought I was coping in the best way, I knew how to.” Kurt continued.
Kurt pulled up the sleeves of his cardigan, part way; revealing some of his cut’s.
Sebastian and Trent looked at Kurt sadly, as he showed them.
”This is the first time I haven’t covered them up with makeup. I’m tired of hiding it.” Kurt said, trying not to cry.
It was quiet for a moment, and then Trent said, ”It’s gonna get better Kurt; Sebastian, and I, we’re here for you.”
Sebastian nodded in agreement and said, “You deserve so much Kurt, we only want the best for you. However Trent and I can help you, we want to help.”
”Thanks, you guys” Kurt said, with a teary smile.
The three of them were nearly through the skype call, when Adam got home.
Kurt looked towards the kitchen, and said, “Adam just got home” in a slightly panicked voice.
”He’ll understand Kurt, I’m sure he will, he loves you.” Sebastian said, and Trent nodded in agreement.
Kurt took a deep breath and attempted to compose himself, as best as he could; as Adam entered the front room.
He smiled when he saw Kurt sitting on the couch; and sat down next to him, rubbing his hand over Kurt’s thigh.
”Hello, Love” Adam said, pecking Kurt on the lips.
”Hi, Baby” Kurt replied, placing his hand on top of Adam’s.
Then, Adam turned to the laptop screen, “Hi guys” he said, in a sweet tone.
Sebastian and Trent said hi back.
A moment later, Kurt had a sharp inhale of breath; and started shaking, next to Adam.
Adam immediately had a look of concern on his face.
”Kurt, Love, what’s the matter?” Adam asked Kurt.
Kurt started to cry, and Adam wrapped him in his arms.
”Whatever it is, Love, you can tell me” Adam said, as he stroked Kurt’s hair.
Trent and Sebastian looked at the two of them, sympathetically.
Kurt shifted in Adam’s arms, and started to pull off his cardigan.
Adam looked at Kurt, curiously.
”I..this is how I tried my best to cope..When I was with Blaine. When he..he hurt me, so many times..too many times.” Kurt said, sadly.
Kurt had slipped the cardigan, all the way off. Adam saw the numerous scars on Kurt’s arms and shoulders, for the first time.
”I just hope you can understand, somehow..Because, I love you so much.” Kurt said, his voice small and shaky.
Adam’s eyes watered and his heart broke, at the thought of Kurt worrying; that Adam might not understand.
”Of course I understand, Beautiful. I love you too” Adam said, choking back a sob, as he held Kurt; like he would never let him go.
Trent and Sebastian said goodbye to Kurt and Adam; knowing that the two of them needed some time alone to talk.
Kurt and Adam got up from the couch and went to their room. Adam gently caressed Kurt’s shoulders.
Adam resumed holding Kurt in his arms, as they sat on the bed.
“Are you cold, Love?” Adam asked, as Kurt still had his cardigan off.
”No, I’m okay, thank you” Kurt answered, quietly.
Kurt wrapped his arms around Adam’s torso and rested his chin between Adam’s neck and shoulder; closing his eyes for a moment.
”How umm..how is it I’ve never seen before?” Adam asked Kurt.
”I’ve always covered them with makeup, for a long time, actually. I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you sooner...I was scared.” Kurt said.
”No, Love, you don’t need to be sorry. I’m here, it’s going to be okay.” Adam replied.
Kurt smiled with happy tears, and leaned his head; to kiss Adam’s cheek.
They were laying in bed before going to sleep, that night.
Kurt was holding Adam in his arms this time.
”I know that was a lot for you to come home to. Thank you for being the sweet boyfriend you are.” Kurt said.
”I’m okay, Love, but that’s sweet of you to say. It just makes me so sad, that he thought it was okay to treat you like he did.” Adam replied.
”It amused Blaine sometimes, how I coped. Like he thought it made me weak somehow. There’s only so much of being handled and shoved around, that a person can take.” Kurt said.
Adam turned in Kurt’s arms, and looked Kurt directly in the eyes; as he cupped Kurt’s jaw with his hand.
Kurt looked back at Adam, feeling such a strong feeling of assurity.
”Love, you are anything but weak. You’re beautiful, brave, and kind; everything that he’s not.” Adam said, and kissed Kurt softly.
A moment later, Adam pulled back; and Kurt could still taste his lips on his.
”Thank you Baby, so much. You make me feel so safe, you always have.” Kurt said, caressing Adam’s chest with his hand.
“You’re very welcome, Love” Adam said, and wrapped his arms around Kurt; protectively.
Wanting to help Kurt feel a bit lighthearted, Adam winked and smiled at him; as he said, “You know, I wouldn’t be a proper boyfriend if I didn’t. It’s all in a days work.”
Kurt giggled for the first time that night, and snuggled against Adam’s chest.
Notes:
So sorry this is late 💜💚 It’s been a busy two weeks
Chapter 59: Moving Forward
Summary:
Kurt has his second chance at auditioning for Nyada. This time, with Adam’s love and support.
Chapter Text
Kurt was preparing a song for his Nyada audition, with Adam’s encouragement.
Kurt had picked a song that meant a lot to him; as it shows how much he loves Adam.
Kurt was in a better head space; with help from Adam, Sebastian and Trent.
He was starting to have less memories of how Blaine had treated him; and the need to harm himself that he had, had in the past.
Adam rubbed Kurt’s shoulders reassuringly, as they entered the room where Kurt would be auditioning.
Carmen Tibideaux greeted Kurt and Adam.
Adam whispered comforting words to Kurt; then sat down, as Kurt made his way to the front of the room.
”Hello again, Mr. Hummel, I’m anticipating seeing what you’ve prepared.” Carmen said.
”Thank you” Kurt replied.
Adam smiled at Kurt, encouragingly, before he started to sing.
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Share my life, take me for what I’am
’Cause I’ll never change all my colors for you
Take my love, I’ll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do
I don’t really need to look very much further
I don’t wanna have to go where you don’t follow
I won’t hold it back again, this passion inside
Can’t run from myself, there’s nowhere to hide
But don’t make me close one more door
I don’t wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don’t walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don’t have you
You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love
I never knew love like i’ve known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to
I don’t really need to look very much further
I don’t wanna have to go where you don’t follow
I won’t hold it back again, this passion inside
I can’t run from myself, there’s nowhere to hide
But don’t make me close one more door
I don’t wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don’t walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
Don’t make me close one more door
I don’t wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don’t walk away from me
Don’t walk away from me
Don’t you dare walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don’t have you, you
If I don’t have you, oh you
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Kurt finished singing, and Carmen stood up.
”You have improved since the first time you auditioned, Mr. Hummel. That was an excellent song choice.” she said.
Kurt looked at her hopefully, and she smiled.
”Thank you” Kurt said, and Adam looked at Kurt proudly.
Carmen told Kurt that she would let him know soon.
Then, he and Adam left the room.
Kurt and Adam got home; and Kurt was lounging on the couch, in Adam’s arms.
”Are you nervous, Love?” Adam asked Kurt, gently stroking Kurt’s arm.
”The opposite actually, I have a really good feeling about the audition.” Kurt answered.
”I’m so glad to hear that” Adam said, and kissed Kurt softly.
A few days later, Kurt got an email from Nyada.
He was sitting on his and Adam’s bed. Adam was currently taking a shower.
Kurt read through the email and was practically jumping up and down; when he realized that it was his acceptance to Nyada.
”I got in, I actually got in” Kurt said to himself, happily.
Kurt hurried down the hall to the bathroom; as Adam was wrapping himself in a bathrobe.
”Baby, I made it in, I’m going to Nyada” Kurt exclaimed, with happy tears.
Adam was beaming, as he wrapped his arms around Kurt.
”Honey, that’s so wonderful” Adam said.
Adam pecked Kurt on the lips, then said, “We need to celebrate, it will just take me a bit to get dressed.”
Kurt nodded happily, in response, as he said, “That sounds great, Baby”.
Notes:
song in this chapter:
“I Have Nothing” ~ Whitney Houston
Chapter 60: A Happy Ending
Summary:
The last chapter is here 😮 I can’t believe it 🥹 Thank you so much for the support and kind comments💞💜💖💚💞
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Kurt and Adam are doing better, and attending Nyada together. Adam has a romantic surprise for Kurt.
Chapter Text
Kurt was thrilled to finally be at Nyada with Adam.
He was happier than he had been in a long time.
No longer was he scared, and feeling like his world had crashed down around him.
He was excited about life again, and looked forward to the future with Adam.
The members of the Adam’s Apples had instantly embraced Kurt; as part of their group.
Kurt was still working with Isabelle on saturday’s.
Fashion was still a very important part of his life. He couldn’t walk away from Vogue completely.
Adam and Kurt would spend the mornings together; then separate for classes, until lunch.
The current afternoon was no different; except that Adam had a surprise for Kurt after lunch.
After eating lunch, Adam and Kurt walked down the hall hand in hand; to meet with the Adam’s Apples.
”So…are you going to give me a hint what the surprise is?” Kurt asked Adam, playfully.
”All in good time, Love” Adam replied, chuckling, before kissing Kurt
The other members of the Adam’s Apples smiled at the pair; as they walked into the room where they were meeting.
Adam gestured for Kurt to sit down.
Kurt looked up at Adam curiously, after he sat down.
“Kurt, you mean everything to me. You’re my love, my best friend; and I constantly find myself falling more and more in love with you.” Adam said.
Kurt looked at Adam, teary eyed, as Adam continued.
”Though you and I take every chance we can, to show how much we love eachother. I want to take this opportunity to express my love for you, through song.” Adam said.
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You’re a falling star
You’re the get away car
You’re the line in the sand, when I go too far
You’re the swimming pool on an august day
And you’re the perfect thing to say
And you play it coy, but it’s kinda cute
Oh, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don’t pretend, that you don’t know it’s true
Cause you can see it when I look at you
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, you make me sing
You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything
You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well
And you light me up, when you ring my bell
You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space
You’re every minute of my every day
And I can’t believe, uh that I’m your man
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can
Whatever comes our way, oh we’ll see it through
And you know that’s what our love can do
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, you make me sing
You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It’s you, it’s you, you make me sing
You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything
You’re every song, And I sing along
’Cause you’re my everything
Yeah, yeah
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
***************
Kurt was teary eyed, as Adam finished singing.
”I love you so much” Kurt said, and kissed Adam.
”I love you too” Adam replied, and wrapped his arms around Kurt.
Adam found a therapist in campus that he’s okay talking with.
He and Kurt soon found out that she is lgbtq friendly.
She assured Adam that there’s nothing to fear with her.
A month into their sessions, she had helped Adam so much already.
Adam told her that he had thought about riding the subway again.
She encouraged him to, with Kurt’s help.
Kurt gently squeezed Adam’s hand; as they walked into the subway station entrance.
Adam looked over at Kurt, smiling nervously.
”You ready to do this, Baby?” Kurt asked Adam.
”With you, I’am” Adam replied, making Kurt smile in return.
Adam took a deep breath, as the two of them stepped onto the platform.
Kurt gently rubbed Adam’s arm, encouragingly.
Once they were seated on the subway, Adam let out a sigh of relief.
”Thank you Honey, for everything, I love you” Adam said to Kurt.
”I love you too, I’m so proud of you” Kurt replied.
Whatever would come in the future; they knew they could get through it together.
Notes:
song in this chapter:
“Everything” ~ Michael Buble
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