Unprecedented Reactions

by Liddolyesplease

Summary:

You were too busy kicking one of the drunk soldiers in the stomach to notice the way steel eyes flashed gratefully at you.

Chapter 1: Saviour

Unprecedented Reactions

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One second, you’re pushing Levi out of the way of an incoming large hand and the other, everything goes black.

 

Only for you to wake up in your bed.

 

It was a nightmare, you were sure of that. It had taken you a little while to gather your bearings, but once you had, you hadn’t been able to go back to sleep.

 

You laid back in bed, arms sprawled everywhere while being lost in thought.

 

Even if it had been real, it hardly mattered that you had died. You weren’t some special soldier whose loss had had any impact, which is why you don’t mind the idea of giving up your life for Humanity’s Strongest Soldier. He’s the one who will make a difference-you’re a nobody. A poor orphan born in Wall Maria, who had been forced to enlist in her 20s to keep making a living.

 

You had considered joining the Garrison, but had decided that you had nothing to lose. No parents or friends to mourn you, no lover you would be leaving behind. There was nothing stopping you from at least doing what you could for humanity. As far as you’re concerned, this way you die having given some meaning to your life.

 

And a part of you hopes that you die the way you had dreamed. If your death prevented Humanity from losing its most promising and powerful soldier, you would do it a thousand times over. You would save him in exchange for your own life and you feel sure that you wouldn’t regret that decision one bit.

 

After all, could anyone ever regret saving the person they were hopelessly in love with?

 

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You never told Levi how you felt, feeling too shy.

 

You first met him when you had enlisted, only a few mere months after he had. You hadn’t known the story behind him much, although the gossip mill had been rife with talks about it. You had seen him and his friends, walking around, keeping away from everyone. Approaching them hadn’t crossed your mind, for you were too busy preparing for the upcoming expedition and trying to calm your nerves. It had been your first expedition.

 

It was only after that terrifying expedition ended that you realized Levi had returned alone, his companions absent from his side. There hadn’t been any need to ask him what had happened, his pained expression had been explaination enough.

 

Later that night, he had shut himself in his room in the barracks. His absence at dinner indicated that he hadn’t eaten anything, and against your better judgement, you decided to bring him some.

 

The door hadn’t been locked, and once you had cautiously peeked in, you noticed him lying in the bed. He was facing towards the wall, wrapped in a blanket, and hadn’t so much as shifted at sound of the door opening. Maybe he was actually asleep, or he was pretending so he wouldn’t have to deal with anyone. You couldn’t blame him.

 

You set down the tray as silently as possible. It had a bowl of soup, two loafs of bread and some ration bars you had found. Just as you moved to turn, you paused, catching sight of him again.

 

It was an internal battle, that raged on for what felt like hours but was really only a minute. While you could chance trying to talk to him, you sincerely doubted it would go well. You were a stranger and in the past few months, the only people he had even held small conversations with had been his friends. His superiors often got rude, one worded responses from him and friendly comrades had been terrified into silence with glares. You were more likely to piss him off then actually help him.

 

Resolving to yourself that the food was enough on your part, you quietly crept out of the room, determined to not disturb him.

 

Once you had shut the door, you sighed, feeling the exhaustion of today’s events creep up on you. This was the price of joining the Survey Corps and sating your morals, losing people every expedition. This feeling of loss and despair would be your new constant.

 

Rubbing a hand on your forehead, you tried to soothe the headache away as you walked back to your room. You stopped short of turning in the corridor as you heard a group of soldiers.

 

‘H-Hey did you see that midget from the underground?’

 

Your eyes narrowed and you found yourself leaning against the wall as you listened intently.

 

'Yeah. You see the nerve he has, locking himself up in that room like he’s actually mourning. That fucker didn’t even join for the cause’

 

You frowned as another voice joined in. They were all clearly drunk.

 

'Let’s.. Let’s teach that midget a lesson. I bet he’s putting it on. He’s just scum from the underground, he doesn’t even belong here.’

 

You felt horrified as two other soldiers agreed with him. They had all unanimously decided to go wake up Levi up and taunt him about the death of his friends.

 

While you could agree that Levi clearly hadn’t joined willingly, you felt that it was too cruel to go after him like this. Especially when he was already so heart broken.

 

You weren’t the best soldier, but you could kick ass when you needed to. It may be three on one, but if the way their voices were slurring as they talked were to be considered, you had the advantage of not being a dumbass drunk.

 

As the soldiers came into your view, you rolled your sleeves up.

 

You were too busy kicking one of the drunk soldiers in the stomach to notice the way steel eyes flashed gratefully at you.

 

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You could never say you and Levi spent a lot of time together. The two of you had joined around the same time, but Levi had scaled the ranks much more quickly. He had, due to his outstanding skills, joined the most elite squad.

 

You had remained a mediocre soldier at best, and you were content with it. You didn’t have an amazing titan kill count nor fists of steel like Levi, but you did whatever was assigned to you just fine. It was life you could even say you were proud of.

 

You had, much like the rest of your cormades, braced yourself for death. Any expedition could be your last. In fact, you often set out for expeditions expecting to never come back. Some sort of fate had been keeping you alive so far.

 

It was luck that kept you alive so far- and then it was Levi.

 

Levi had saved you from a titan during an expedition. You had been helpless, all out of blades. Your squad had been utterly annihilated and you had been in the midst of struggling as a large hand grabbed you and a titan opened its mouth to eat you.

 

It’s why your dream is so hard to forget. It was earily similar to back when Levi had saved you. You would find yourself in that position again. A titan and it’s hand tossing you in its mouth. And much like this time, Levi would be there too.

 

Except he wouldn’t be the one doing the saving.

 

Back then, he had intervened at the speed of light and saved you. His expression had been as stoic as always, eyes scanning your form for injuries. Once he had found that you had no life threatening wounds, he had helped you up and back to HQ.

 

It had later made you blush, remembering how his strong arms had helped you settle on his horse with him.

 

That had been the start of your feelings for him. It hadn’t just been the fact that he had saved you, it had been how gentle how he was with you. You had seen how he treated others, talking roughly, trying to be helpful in his own awkward way. He often physically kept away from others, but for some reason, he hadn’t hesitated a second in touching you.

 

You knew better then to delude yourself that it was special treatment-but you couldn’t stop your heart from fluttering anyways.

 

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The two of you never grew beyond anything but casual friends. You’re sire thay dream you hadn’t regretted dying for him. You, however, know for a fact that you had regretted being a coward and not telling him how you felt.

 

Now, here you are, very much alive and kicking. It is possible this was just the wishful thinking of a soldier destined to die. Its possible your dream has shaken you to the point of making rash decisions. But you don’t care.

 

All your mind knows is that you aren’t chomped in half. That you are well enough to walk up to Levi and talk to him. Dream or not, you want to tell him. You want him to know how he makes your heart beat in a way that no one ever had. You want to tell him that you harbour feelings for him that go beyond comraderie.

 

And most importantly, you want him to know that you want him.

 

It was a painful itch- one you won’t be able to get rid of. Not until you fess up.

 

It doesn’t matter that you’re signing up for an absolute guaranteed rejection. It doesn’t matter that you know he won’t be nice about it. As far as you’re concerned, the end goal isn’t getting into a relationship. This is your shot at confessing, at amkigm sure you that you die without regrets.

 

No matter what the outcome, you know your feelings won’t change. And that is what makes it easier for you to confess.

 

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You have been working with Levi for a solid five years now. You know him rather well, considering that he’s one of the few comrades who, much like you, have miraculously lived through being in the survey corps for an unusual amount of time.

 

While others couldn’t classify you as best buddies, you know plenty about each other.

 

You know that he made special graves for each comrade that lost their lives. He would take their insignia off their jacket as a symbol of their wills. You also know that he had started this tradition since Isabel and Farlan died. Every soldier, no matter how they behaved with him, had been included. You know this because you had caught sight of him in the middle of his task. And without a single word, you had picked up a shovel and joined him in his task.

 

Levi hadn’t said a word to you, silently accepting your help. You had been too busy trying to even out the dirt with your foot to notice steel eyes flashing at you with fondness.

 

You know more about him then that too. And he knows about you as well. In particular, the two of you had picked up on how the other liked their tea. It was silent gesture, one where if either was nearby and making tea, there would be enough for two people. Hange had once tried to snag the extra cup of tea Levi had in his hand for you- only to find herself best friends with the floor.

 

You had learned how to live up to his cleaning standards-to the point you held the unprecedented position of being the one person he had never attacked for being a slob. It’s wonderful feeling-being the special one he had never been harsh with.

 

You thought you knew him well. Enough to know his reactions to certain things and situations, enough to pin point how he was feeling at certain times.

 

So when you confess to being in love with him-you are forced to realize that you don’t know this man as well as you thought you had.

 

The Levi you know was supposd to reject you brutally. He was supposed to harshly tell you to get your head out of the clouds and stop fantasising like a school girl. To get over your shitty feelings and leave him out of it.

 

But the Levi in front of you is different. He isn’t pushing you away-no, his hands are grabbing your wrists and tugging you into an embrace. His forehead is resting against yours. Those steel eyes you had never quite caught expressing anything, are filled to the brim with affection.

 

You’ve been proven wrong and frankly, as his lip softly brush against yours, you’re glad about it.

 

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A/N: Heyooo. don’t know where this came from. This feels like a 'felt cute might delete later fic’. I hope it was enjoyable at least? I can see a part 2 for this from Levi POV but don’t know if anyone even liked this, let alone wants a part 2.

Also ruins part 2 is half way done :)

Chapter 2: Dreams

Summary:

He likes you, scratch that, he’s more then half way in love with you. And if you keep this up, he’s not sure he can control himself and keep these feeling bottled up for much longer.

Unprecedented Reactions: Part 2

 

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Growing up in the underground, Levi had learned a very different way to navigate life then normal people did. If you stole a loaf of bread and got caught, you got beat up and starved. If you pick pocketed and didn’t get much, you should have picked your target better. If you played nice and thought for anyone but yourself, be prepared to be used and discarded.

 

When Kenny had left him to fend for himself, Levi had survived on his own just fine. In order to not get caught stealing food, he ran faster. To pick pocket well, his sharp eyes picked out whose pockets had more in them. He didn’t make any friends, didn’t let anyone join him, so there was never any need to worry about getting stabbed in the back.

 

Until he met Farlan.

 

Farlan had been an exception to all his rules, an addition to his life that he hadn’t anticipated. Levi had been nervous of course, and not very trusting at the start. But the man had won him over, and secured a soft spot that Levi didn’t think his heart even had.

 

Farlan had not just been his friend, but his brother. The man he only had to look at to ask for a solution to their problems, the man who made jokes that had him hiding smiles, who didn’t hesitate a second in defending him from everyone in that hell hole.

 

He had accepted their brotherhood, feeling a little anxious, but mostly at peace with his decision. And then he had met Isabel.

 

Sweet, kind Isabel. She had just been a starved, homeless kid when he had found her. His heart hadn’t been able to accept the idea of just leaving her there, of walking past her and ignoring her like he forced himself to with all the others. Farlan had only smiled at him when he brought her home and had given her some bread. It had been his way of saying he agreed with Levi’s decision.

 

Since then, they had been a trio. They’d wreak havoc in the underground together, working hard to sustain themselves. Levi, knowing his superior strength, took up more work. He didn’t mind it, feeling more safe ensuring their well being with his own hands.

 

It eventually became a pattern, of leaving it all to him. Sometimes it made him feel pressured, most of the time he pressured them to keep it up. He was too nervous, too scared that he would lose his self made family if he didn’t protect them.

 

His worries hadn’t been for nothing, his fears of losing them hadn’t been unfounded. Unfortunately, his own actions had been the root cause of it.

 

If only he hadn’t insisted that they believe in him. If only he had kept them close and hadn’t gone off on his own. Farlan would be alive right now, and so would Isabel. Had Levi not pushed them to pick, his family would be safe and sound, with him.

 

Instead, here he was, lying in bed, covered in blankets, and unable to to do anything but mourn.

 

He would never be the same again, for he would never have his family back. All the positive emotions he had accessed in the years of being with them, had died, leaving behind a shell of a man.

 

It was like the candle lighting up the room had been shut off by wind. One strong breeze cut off the entire light source, leaving all the darkness in the room what it needed to thrive and spread. Levi didn’t think that candle could ever be lit up again, that he could ever experience care for another human being again.

 

It felt like his heart had been effectively killed.

 

And that’s when he heard the door open.

 

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He heard you put down the tray, but could tell you hadn’t immediately left after. You were still there, staring at him perhaps. Probably ridiculing him for his depression, like he could tell everyone else was.

 

It ignited a fury in him, an anger he had felt leave his body once he had butchered that titan to pieces. He suddenly wanted to be violent, to destroy everything that crossed his path. Anything that could serve as outlet for his grief. Just as he thought to get out of the blankets and confront whoever had dared to enter his room-he heard the door shut.

 

Levi sits up, frowning. His hair is all over the place and his uniform direly needed to be cleaned. But he didn’t care, he wanted to know why you had dared to enter his room. What gave you the right. He didn’t care that you had come to give him food, he just wanted to pick a fight.

 

Throwing the covers off of him, he ignored the voice in his head that chimed at him to clean his shit up. But he would do that later. Right now, his hands were itching to unleash violence on something. Or rather, someone.

 

He followed you out, noting that you were a female. His stealth abilities were top notch-a novice like you couldn’t even hope to notice him, walking along like nothing was happening.

 

You paused, and Levi stopped short, thinking he had been found out. He didn’t bother to hide himself, after all, he was here to face you. His eyebrows furrowed as he distinctly heard a few male voices chattering.

 

‘H-Hey did you see that midget from the underground?’

 

Levi tensed, having a good idea of where this was going. He couldn’t help noticing the way you had done the same.

 

‘Yeah. You see the nerve he has, locking himself up in that room like he’s actually mourning. That fucker didn’t even join for the cause.’

 

He frowned, so what if he hadn’t joined the suicidal corps for their cause. Isabel and Farlan had been alive, just like any other person. They had loved and cared for him, and he had done the same for them. Only ungrateful surface dwellers would think he had no right to mourn his friends.

 

It made his fist clench. You were the furthest thing from his mind now, these men would be the fight he needed ot sate his blood lust.

 

'Let’s.. Let’s teach that midget a lesson. I bet he’s putting it on. He’s just scum from the underground, he doesn’t even belong here.’

 

Levi was long accustomed to being called words like that. He fucking hoped they would approach him to 'teach a lesson.’ As they all decided they would 'counsel’ him on the death of his friends, Levi wanted to laugh. The underground and the surface really did have the same type of scum on it.

 

Their voices got louder as they approached, and Levi prpeared himself to kick their asses to hell and back-

 

–Only for you to grab one of the mens arms and smash him against the wall.

 

Confused, he kept himself out of sight, watching as you took on all three of them. He couldn’t understand why you were doing this. Were you like him, frustrated and needing a way to let loose? It made sense, those drunk ass men were good target practice. But he couldn’t help feeling that there was more to this.

 

'Have a little compassion you jerks! He just lost his friends!’

 

You were defending him? Him? The scum of the underground? Against your precious cormades? Levi could feel the fight in him dying out, being replaced by emotions he had thought that he would never feel again.

 

'If anyone of you dares to approach him, I swear I’ll get the Commander on your asses!’

 

You were holding one of them in a choke hold, confident that they couldn’t overwhelm you.

 

Levi was in awe of you, watching you lecture and beat up the men that planned on attacking him. The last time someone had defended him like this was Farl-

 

His breath seized, and he closed his eyes, feeling an abundance of emotions he just couldn’t identify. He couldn’t word them out, not today.

 

But he knew he felt grateful to you.

 

Once he was sure you wouldn’t get hurt, he went back to his room. He took the soup and the bread from the tray you had left, and began to eat, allowing himself to not think about anything.

 

Unbeknownst to him, the candle flickered back on.

 

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He takes note of you after that, his eyes seeking you out whenever you were in vicinity. He’s accepted his role in the corps, his responsibility as a soldier, but he can’t help gravitating towards you.

 

You remind him of Farlan, but it’s different. Farlan had wanted to be his friend, but you? You came to his defense, solely out of the kindness of your heart. You want nothing in exchange.

 

You don’t boast about it, don’t flaunt it, not to him or anyone else. If Levi hadn’t seen you defend him with his own eyes, he would have never found out about it. Those men don’t even look in his direction, not after what you did to them.

 

He feels curious about you, and allows himself to keep you in his radar.

 

He settles into his job well, climbing the ranks quicker then he thought he would. But Levi is quick to realise why–there just aren’t enough people in the Corps. They need him, and if it means having to put aside their reservations about his origins, then so be it.

 

It makes his day a little better to watch Erwin sweat over keeping him around. He doesn’t plan to leave, but it’s nice getting a little special treatment. Especially all the free tea he gets.

 

He doesn’t know how to approach you, and even if he did, he has no idea of what to say. Should he tell you he knows what you did? Thank you for it?

 

He’s not used to making friends, so he doesn’t know how to be friends with you. Rather, he contends himself with watching you from afar, keeping an eye out for you just in case.

 

You’re a strong, capable soldier, and it brings him a little relief to know that. As his time in the survey Corps piles up, Levi notices how easily some of his comrades get slaughtered. How helpless he is to stop it all.

 

He selfishly celebrates your safe return from each expedition in his mind.

 

He can’t help noticing you, how kind you are. You put everyone around you at ease, making jokes. He remembers the first time you talked to him, how flustered he had felt afterwards.

 

'Levi I’m beginning to think the walls were built to protect the titans from you. Not us from them.’

 

Everyone had laughed, and Levi had felt heat creep up his cheeks at it. It had launched an entire debacle of comrades lauding his strength, one he hadn’t been able to shut down. Everyone had been too drunk to be scared of him, and he had been too lost in his thoughts about you to be terrifying enough.

 

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His following interactions with you are cordial and meaningful at the same time. Ranging from drinking tea together, to practicing with your gear at the same time.

 

Even though he can’t quite explain it, he finds himself making exceptions for you. You’re not that good at cleaning, just average, but he doesn’t have the heart to scold you for it like with everyone else. He finds himself turning a blind eye to it, blaming your mess on others and letting you off the hook.

 

It doesn’t make much sense on his part, but it happens without him even planning it. There’s just something about you that makes him automatically nicer. Levi doesn’t question it much, instead opting to simply follow his gut instincts without regrets.

 

He’s too tired of having to think on the battle field, feeling exhausted in his efforts to keep everyone alive. Being around you has a powerful effect on him- for just being your vicinity makes him feel at peace.

 

Maybe it’s because he just misses his friends, and has latched on to you. Or maybe he’s too worried about the others still judging his background, thus making him cling to you, the only person he knows doesn’t give a damn.

 

Or maybe it’s just that he’s very much interested in you- and it’s so foreign that he can tell it’s not just friendship.

 

Friendship was when he wanted to help Farlan not die carrying crates that are too heavy for him. He’s sure it’s not him snatching them away before you even look at them.

 

Friendship is being okay with his friends talking to other people, not feeling possessive about the low lives who flirt with you. It’s certainly not imagining different ways to teach them how to keep their hands to themselves.

 

Friendship should be being okay with the bare minimum physical affection, not day dreaming being wrapped up in your arms, wondering about how soft they would feel.

 

He’s got a good idea of what he’s feeling, but he doesn’t have enough nerve to verbalise it. Doesn’t have the required courage needed to look you in the eye and say it.

 

He needs a push, and not the literal one Hange tries to give him everytime she catches him staring at you. He knows he should at least admit what he feels about you in his own mind, but he just can’t.

 

Until he does.

 

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Ever since he’s accepted his position in the survey corps, Levi has made it mission to give it his all. Every order is carried out swiftly, every action is conducted with purpose. He’s devoted himself to his job– no one could link the brash underground thug to the man he is now.

 

And he likes it that way.

 

The job isn’t easy, of course, especially with all the losses incurred on every expedition. He feels grief for every life lost outside the walls, inwardly chastising himself for not being there, even though he knows its out of his hands.

 

His hands itch with the urge to do something for his fallen cormades, who gave up their lives to help them succeed. Their young, bright expressions flash in mind, because he was fond of them. He wonders what he can do to honour them, and comes up with two method.

 

One, he begins to take their wings of freedom insignia off their dead bodies, keeping them safe and sound for their loved ones. To him, it’s proof that they were alive.

 

Two, he starts making them special graves. It’s a laborious task, especially on his own, but he wants to do it. He has to do it, if only to give himself and everyone a way to talk to them, to tell them that they’re remembered, even in their deaths.

 

It’s one day he’s in the midst of his self assigned mission that you stumble upon him.

 

He notices you from the corner of his eye, wondering what you think of what’s upto. He pretends not to notice the smile you flash his way, knowing that it’ll be harder to hold back his blush if he dwells on you too long.

 

You walk away, and he finds himself slightly dissapointed. He figured you’d at least try to talk to him a little, but shoves his thoughts aside. However he finds himself pleasantly surprised when your return just a few moments later, with a shovel in your hand.

 

As you flash him a grin and begin to dig as well, he barely manages to take his eyes off of you. Returning to his own task, he finally admits it to himself.

 

He likes you, scratch that, he’s more then half way in love with you. And if you keep this up, he’s not sure he can control himself and keep these feeling bottled up for much longer.

 

He’s not sure he can stay away from you for much longer, and a part of him is aching for that time to come.

 

Now that he’s admitted it to himself, he wonders if he can admit it you.

 

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The most notable moment he has with you is, unfortunately, when he saves you from a titan. He had hoped that he would never have to see you in this situation, but when has he ever gotten what he hopes for?

 

He manages to save you in the nick of time, and he’s sure he’s going to have nightmares about it. You almost falling into a titans mouth, your expression frozen in terror. It’s something he’ll remember in his darkest moments, a scene right out of his worst fears.

 

He can’t bring himself to keep his distance after saving you, wanting to ensure that you’re not injured in anyway. He knows his grip is more delicate then usual, his eyes are more worried then expressionless. But he can’t help it.

 

You mean more to Levi then you think, more then he can even comprehend himself.

 

He’s a little giddy, like a cadet with a crush on his senior, when he finds out your horse isn’t there. It means you have to ride on his horse with him, the idea of which makes him feel shy and a little more excited then it should.

 

You fall asleep on the way back, your head resting on his chest. He doesn’t have the heart to wake you up, to the point he sneaks you past everyone in the formation and gently lays you down in the cart. He covers you with his cloak and eyes your peaceful expression, heart sorely wishing for things he’s never known he wanted.

 

There’s an urge to brush the strands of hair on your face, he tries to resist it at first but ultimately gives in. His hands are stiff, and he’s alert, worried you might wake up. But the moment he manages to brush them aside, he hurriedly moves away from you.

 

His heart is beating too fast, and he doesn’t know how to calm it down.

 

He’s doesn’t think he even wants to.

 

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Dream do come true-especially in Levi’s case. He’s dreamt of all of his friends dying, and life has served accordingly. Every worst case scenerio that has ever invaded his mind, has the tendency to be brought to life.

 

It stings really, the injustice of it all. But he knows better then to complain-like always, he makes peace with the situation, and moves on. He refuses to look back and cry, knowing he’ll end up in drowning in regrets if he does. He braces himself for the future–likely to be a very dark and bleak one.

 

He never, in hold widest dreams, expected one of his deeply desired dreams to come true.

 

He’s been digging deep inside himself, trying to find the needed courage to approach you with romantic intentions. To let you know his hearts desires. But so far he’s achieved nothing.

 

So when you approach him one night, eyes unable to look into his own, he’s on the edge. He overthinks, expects you to reject him. You probably noticed him pathetically staring at you, and no doubt decided that he needs to be put in his place. He knows he deserves it, after all, what right does a man like him have to even think about someone as pure as you?

 

He braces himself to be brutally turned down, what he doesn’t expect is the words that tumble out of your mouth.

 

'I.. I’m in l-love with you.’

 

The words are stuttered, with a red blush spread across your cheeks. He stares at you for a few seconds, mentally commanding your eyes to meet his. When they don’t, he takes action with such confidence that he surprises himself.

 

His hands move to grasp your wrists, and he pulls you closer to him. He rests his forehead against yours, finally managing to get you to look him in the eyes.

 

Levi smiles, a sight that only you would have the pleasure of seeing for the rest of your life. He chuckles a little, moving even closer to you.

 

Dreams really do come true in his case. Sometimes, even the good ones.

 

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A/N: Ta dah! Heyooo here’s the part 2! I hope y'all enjoyed this. My asks are open so ask awayyy. Till next time 💕