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jake has not touched himself for a week and he just wants to be held.
he either wants to get fucked or fuck the shit out of someone. he wants both. but he could never dom. he knows it. he admits to it. but he wants to put his dick on his heeseung hyung so bad. and he also wants to be fucked by him with no mercy. he wants to be told to scream heeseung's name to show how much he and only he can give it to him. to show that heeseung can only make him feel this good.
fuck the members in the dorm hearing them right? shame and embarrassment is for tomorrow. pleasure and slapping of skin is for now.
jake keeps his eyes on his ipad screen playing one of his favorite porn viceo as he intently watches the person thrust their hips on their partner with jake's own hand moving rapidly on his dick, thinking about heeseung's lips on his neck, sucking, licking, and biting the skin, marking him.
fuck, jake wants him so bad.
with his stomach knotting, jake knows he's almost there as he lets the lids of his eyes fall down, brows furrowing.
he leans his head back on his chair's headrest, releasing a grunt from his throat, hand still moving, but this time he's rolling his wrist with his hand at the tip of his leaking cock. he didn't want the members to know the sin he was doing while thinking of heeseung. he always feels bad. he thinks it's unfair to heeseung that he thinks about him to get himself off.
but just as if the universe hears his thoughts, someone came bursting through the door.
jake hears a surprised gasp from beside him.
"what the f-"
jake flinches, hand stopping its movement as he sits up straight, hurrying to pull down his hoodie to cover himself. he's generally scared of death but all he wants right now is to be buried alive.
he doesn't have the time to turn his head to the door so he slams the ipad down on his table as quickly as he can, sending a quick prayer from above that the screen did not crack. as if hiding the ipad now would change anything.
"jakey..." a voice quietly mumbles.
jake hears it. he hears the flustered tone from the person standing one feet away from him. and of course. of course, it's heeseung. of course the voice came from someone he secretly have feelings for. now he gets to send a curse to the gods above because it's got to be his heeseung hyung. it cannot be one of their members walking into him. it's got to be heeseung catching jake watching gay porn with his dick out. god, with his fucking dick out.
heeseung probably knows by now what jake's thinking about whenever he tries to get himself off. heeseung probably knows how much jake wants heeseung's dick on his ass right now. he probably knows everything.
why did the universe not give him the chance to let heeseung know through his most likely sloppy confession. he's done for. everything's going to be awkward between them from now on. he should've done this in the bathroom. he knew he couldn't be comfortable and slip through the safety of someone going in the room and catching him jerking off. he shouldn't have let his guard down like that.
jake couldn't look at heeseung's eyes but jake knows he's being stared at with whatever look is given. and he wonders why. he wonders why heeseung is still standing there.
jake's anxiety is going up as he tries to fiddle with the end of his hoodie. he's scared at the thought that heeseung might run off this room, outing him to the members and telling them what he just saw. but he knows heeseung isn't anything like that. he's a good person. he'll mostly likely just keep this to himself and move on with the day unless jake wants to talk about it.
on the other hand though, jake also feels kind of excited. a part of him finds it hot that heeseung has found him in this position. jake kind of wants to continue and put on a show for him. but he can't. he knows he can't. that would be inappropriate. and adding the obvious fact that jake doesn't even know if heeseung likes dicks.
but apart from everything, jake's still wondering. and panicking. why is heeseung still here? why is he still staring? a normal person would have just said their sorry hastily and slam the door behind them.
to this thought, jake finally gathers up the courage to look up and speak, but all that's coming out are choked up words.
"h-hyung- i-" jake feels like throwing up. he doesn't like this. he doesn't like this at all.
"wh- no! no, i'm sorry!" heeseung shrieks, finally coming to his senses.
"i thought you were- i didn't know you were-" heeseung struggles finding his words that he wasn't aware that his hands starts gesturing at jake's state as to which jake finds so humiliating.
jake lowers his head down again and covers himself as much as he can.
"hyung..." jake starts. his voice so small. all he wants right now is to be alone and let shame eat him up.
"hm?"
jake is so confused, why is heeseung not getting it? does he want jake to beg the gound to eat him alive?
"can you, um, leave?" jake still tries to be polite as he can.
"oh," heeseung runs a hand through his hair as he lets go of the doorknob. "i thought you'd be wanting my help."
jake's head snaps up as his eyes widen. "what?"
"do you need help?" heeseung asks, his eyes suddenly turning dark.
jake feels himself disconnecting from his body, ears going shut until he hears the door closing with the sound of a click, indicating that heeseung has locked the door.
"i-" jake is trying to breath. his eyes everywhere but heeseung.
what is happening? is heeseung walking towards him? he can't breath.
as soon as heeseung approaches jake, heeseung turns the chair to face him and leans down, their faces inches away from each other, as jake lets out a small audible gasp.
jake's head is spinning. with heeseung this close to him, jake can smell his showered down perfume, his body wash scent taking over.
heeseung is just overall intoxicating. from the way he looks, the way he seats, the way his body moves with the beat when he dances. anything he does. and jake has imagined doing everything to heeseung and heeseung doing everything to him. but now that it's happening in real life, he's downright clueless of what to do. he just wants to taste him.
"answer me, jakey." heeseung says, voice soft, contradicting his choice of words as his fingers removes a stray of jake's hair that's covering his left eye.
this time, jake looks up at heeseung's eyes properly. he holds the eye contact for a moment, wanting to take everything in. how heeseung is looking at jake now, he won't forget. his bambi eyes turning into something dangerous. like a predator finally catching his prey. and jake likes it. more than he was willing to accept.
jake can hear his own heartbeat pumping through his chest that he swears that heeseung can hear it too. how embarrassing.
"kiss me," jake whispers, so quietly that heeseung almost couldn't catch it. but he does. of course, he does. heeseung is always so attentive to him that jake hates him for it. because he's giving himself false hope that heeseung might like him back.
heeseung breathes but he immediately presses his lips against jake and jake melts right away, sighing into his touch, letting out the breath he doesn't know he's holding.
jake turns his head on the side as he wraps his arms around heeseung's neck, pulling him down to taste more of him. he feels heeseung lick his bottom lip for permission to kiss him deeper and he gladly opens his mouth for him. their tongues gliding on each other, finding their perfect rhythm.
heeseung pulls away and as jake was about to complain, heeseung's lips are on his neck, biting and sucking, finding his sweet spot. jake lets out a moan near heeseung's ears as heeseung smiles through the skin and marks it.
heeseung tries to find another spot to put a hickey on and jake's losing his goddamn mind.
jake leans his head more to the side to give heeseung more access. to show how much he likes what heeseung is doing and that he can do anything he wants with his neck. hell, he'd even let him snap him to death but that's another topic.
jake can't help his hand finding its way to heeseung's head, grabbing his hair and pulling a bit, making the man on top him groan.
"fuck," heeseung mumbles on jake's skin. "do that again."
"do what?" jake teases as heeseung bites at the skin.
"stop being a brat."
"i'm not." jake smiles sheepishly and heeseung goes on to kiss it away.
heeseung's hand is now all over jake's body. going from his chest to his waist and back to his nape just because he can.
heeseung also starts palming jake through his hoodie as to which he receives a gasp and a surprised moan.
"h-hyung... fuck," jake grinds into heeseung's hand, asking for more friction but heeseung wouldn't budge so jake attempts to pull his hair again as heeseung softly groans into the kiss with jake grabbing the chance to bite heeseung's lips, grinding his hips up, desperate for more than just this.
"god, fuck, jakey." heeseung moans out which makes jake whimper. he loves the way heeseung moans his name. he could listen to it forever. music to his ears.
"you make me go mad." jake says as he tries catching his breath.
"yeah?" heeseung looks at him and licks his lips as he inches forward to leave kisses on jake's jawline. "enough for me to touch you?"
"yes," jake whines. "hyung, please.."
"please, what?"
"touch me. please." jake begs, sending an electricity down heeseung's hard on.
heeseung chuckles deeply as he instructs jake to get out of the chair and sit on the bed. "didn't know you were such a whore, jakey."
heeseung turns around to get the ipad from jake's desk and gently throws it on the mattress as he positions the both of them on the center with jake sitting in between heeseung's legs.
jake hears the sheets rustling so he turns around to see heeseung finding something under the pillows.
lube.
jake would be so embarrassed if he wasn't high on heeseung's kisses but right now he just wants heeseung to touch him and make him promise to never let his hands leave his body forever.
jake can feel his cheeks heat up so he turns back to face the front.
heeseung kisses jake's nape as he speaks. "play the video."
jake surprisingly obliges and presses play.
as soon as jake leans back, heeseung pulls his chin to the side and reconnects their lips. jake sighs into it.
heeseung lifts jake's hoodie up and starts pumping his cock, making jake break their shared kiss.
jake moans loudly, throwing his head back on heeseung's shoulder and he doesn't mean to. so he covers his mouth with his hand while he grinds because he wants more. more. more.
heeseung removes jake's hand from his mouth and quietly speaks to his ears. "moan for me, baby, let the rest of them hear it."
jake starts whining again. "more, hyung. please." he pants and he feels tears forming around his eyes. "want your fingers."
heeseung loves it. loves the way jake is whimpering for him. like a puppy wanting to be held.
with this, heeseung pours lube on his fingers, warming it up first as his hand reaches for jake's hole on the front and his other hand pulling jake's leg up and starts circling his middle finger around his rim.
jake starts to shake and it's embarrassing how sensitive he can get.
"do you think of me when you watch this videos, jakey?" heeseung asks as he inserts a finger.
jake almost forgets the ipad in front of them with porn playing on it. his chest tightens with nervousness so he closes his eyes shut.
"n-no..."
"fucking liar." heeseung curses and adds another finger, pulling out and putting them back in.
jake wants more.
"i bet you think of me fucking you right here. i bet you've thought about me ruining you, using your ass for hours. because you're such a good slut, aren't you?"
jake secretly likes the way how he's being talked down like this. his fantasies becoming true as heeseung thrusts his fingers.
"right, jakey?" heeseung's deep voice gave him nothing but goosebumps and pleasure that goes straight to his gut.
"yes. fuck, i- ah!" jake bites his lips when heeseung starts rolling his fingers around and intentionally pulls in and out slowly to drive jake insane.
heeseung angles his fingers up, finding the younger's prostate as jake's body momentarily freezes.
"fuck!" jake blurts out as his body jumps forward, his weight now leaning into his arms, his hands gripping the sheets because fuck, everything just feels so good. "r-right there! hyung! please!"
heeseung removes his fingers. evil.
"no.. heeseung hyung..." jake whines as heeseung bends him down and pulls jake hips up as he gives his left ass cheek a smack.
jake is not so sure if he can still last much longer but he tries to resist. he also tries to resist asking if he can suck on heeseung's fingers. heeseung's fingers that would probably look good on his throat, jake thinks.
jake whimpers the second heeseung inserts his fingers in again. he pants into the sheets as he starts to match the rhythm of heeseung's fingers, moving his hips back and forth.
heeseung slightly bends over to reach jake's hair as he settle's a grip. "show me how good you take these fingers."
jake cries, his hair being pulled back. he almost gives in and lets his subconscious drive him. that's how safe he feels with the man behind him, fucking him so good with just his fingers.
heeseung thrusts his hands faster the moment jake's legs start to shake, rubbing on his prostrate continuously.
"don't stop," jake barely manages to speak as heeseung lets go of his hair and holds his waist to keep him steady instead. "feels so good..."
heeseung kisses his shoulders as he goes down his back until he reaches jake's ass and leaves bite marks on both cheeks. jake loving the way it stings.
jake feels heeseung's tongue feathering over his hole as he starts sucking, inserting his tongue, and thrusting it inside and out with his fingers.
"hyungie, fuck," jake's moans started getting higher as he squirms under heeseung's touch. "more.. faster, please-"
jake can feel the knot on his stomach again and he begs. once more. "please touch me," he cries as he grips on everything his hands can find.
heeseung grants jake's request and starts pumping his cock with his left hand along with other on his ass still doing its work.
jake can't resist anymore. he's almost there. "c-close.. so close."
"yeah?" heeseung coos. "will you come for me?"
jake nods quickly as heeseung turns jake around so he's facing him and guides him to lie on his back as he attacks his neck again before he goes to his lips. swallowing his moans, kissing him so soft, letting him taste himself.
with this position, heeseung's fingers goes even deeper and jake knows he'll come any second.
heeseung pulls away as he stares down at jake, his body perfectly hovering him. "come for me, jakey." he says as he thrusts his fingers harder and faster.
jake shakily breathes. his mind clouded. everything just feels so good with heeseung's lips drawing him and touching him like his body is for him only.
jake bites his bottom lip and grabs heeseung's hair as his finally comes, letting out white strings of his cum decorate his hoodie and heeseung's shirt.
jake groans loud and long as heeseung lets him ride his orgasm with his fingers slowing down.
"good boy." heeseung praises, giving him a peck on the side of his lips.
jake's cheek forms a tint of red and looks away.
heeseung removes his fingers as jake lets out a whimper, receiving a chuckle from heeseung.
"so sensitive."
"shut up." jake covers his face and heeseung laughs again as he goes to the bathroom, getting a damp towel.
after cleaning jake up and giving him new clothes to change into, they're both found lying down on the bed, cuddling, with heeseung playing with jake's hair.
"heeseung hyung," jake breaks the silence but his insides aren't silent at all. his heart beating faster than it normally should be and his mind screaming at him to not do what it thinks he would do.
"hm?"
"i have something to tell you."