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Luz sat in the car, School was extremely hard today. She was still embarrassed that she yelled in class. She was kinda thankful no one understood what she meant. She thought she was gonna get detention for yelling like that. She stared at The Haunted Hayride poster in her hands. She was gonna wait until after they ate dinner to tell everyone about it. She was thinking of going. But how would she explain all about Halloween to them? Camila parked into the parking lot and stopped the car, Luz was still completely spaced out. “Luz?” Camila looked concerned. “Yes, Mama?” She asked, Shooting her head up. “Were home, Are you- okay? You’ve been acting weird since you got out off school.” Luz looked away. “I’m fine..” It was silent. “Let’s go inside, Don’t want the food to get cold.” Luz awkwardly laughed as she started to walk away from the car and make her way inside with the food. Camila looked at the ground, concerned for her daughter. She started to walk inside. As they made it inside, The others were sitting in The Living Room, Looking through food magazines. Camila noticed Luz all of a sudden being smiley now.
“Hey guys! What are you doing?”
Willow was grabbing plates, Amity looked surprised. Vee and Hunter looked nervous, Gus just looked chill. “Why do you guys look like that?” Luz asked, Looking at Hunter and Vee confused. “We- Wanted to buy dinner for you guys. We didn’t know how to- And uh.. We called this number- 911 I think it was?” Luz set the food on the table, She looked at Hunter. “YOU CALLED 911?!”
“Yeah? They thought there was an emergency but we just wanted food.”
“Oh my Titan. Hunter..”
“Well, We got takeout!!” Camila said, Changing the subject.
Gus and Hunter started cheering. Vee and Willow smiled at her. Amity looked like she was smiling, But didn’t seem as happy as the others. Willow set the plates on the table. “I wish I knew how to make demon food for you guys.” Camila sighed. “It’s okay! Human food is good as well!” Willow reassured her. “Yeah, I love Human Food!!” Gus added. Camila smiled. “Well I’m glad that you guys like it.”
After a few minutes, Everyone was at the table. Amity still was sitting by the magazines.
Luz walked over and kneeled down next to her. “Amity, Are you gonna eat dinner with us?” She asked. Amity looked up at Luz, Her bright gold eyes shining. “I’m- I’m not that hungry..” She replied. “You sure? Have you even ate anything besides the bit of breakfast you had?” Luz asked. Putting a hand on Amity’s cheek. “I-I’m fine.. You can just eat without me!!” Luz took her hand off her cheek, She still looked concerned. “Okay. Well,” Luz took her beanie off and put it on Amity. “It looks cute on you.” Amity smiled, She frowned when she thought Luz looked away. “Cmon, I like seeing you happy.” Luz flapped Amity’s ears around. Amity started giggling. “Luz!! Stop!!!” Luz smiled. “Okay, Okay, We’ll I’m gonna eat. You sure you aren’t hungry?” She asked. Amity felt bad for concerning Luz so much. “Yeah, I’m sure.” The thought of food made Amity feel sick. She’s never been good with food.
Luz kept staring at Amity every few minutes as she ate, Amity just sat on the floor, Spaced out. “Did anything interesting happen at school, Luz?” Camila asked. “Not, Really.” Luz replied. She bit her lip. She wanted to bring up The Haunted Hayride. She just didn’t know how. She decided to just stay quiet and finish her dinner. She had to keep mentally reminding herself she had a whole week to tell them.
After they finished dinner, Luz walked over to Amity again. “You doing okay?” She asked. Amity nodded. Luz kissed her on the cheek. “I gotta do homework, Ugh.” Luz sighed. “Need any help?” “No, It’s okay. It’s just boring math.” Amity raised an eyebrow. “I don’t know what that is, But if you think it’s boring I’ll believe you.” Luz chuckled. “I gotta go do it now, Will you be okay?” Amity slightly smiled and nodded.
Luz had trouble concentrating on her homework, She hated doing complicated math that she probably won’t even need to use in a few years. She hated how long it took her because she really doesn’t feel like doing it and ends up procrastinating. She pulled out her phone, And started reading Hectate x Azura fanfics.
Amity and Willow were in Luz’s bedroom, Changing into their pajamas. Amity was just sitting in the corner, Looking at something. “Are you gonna change?” Willow asked. “Oh! Yeah. I will in a minute.” Amity replied, Her leg was shaking. Willow looked concerned. “Okay.. Well, I’m gonna lay down.” Willow said. Amity still didn’t change yet, She looked like she was trying to hide something. For some reason.
Luz was sitting in The Living Room with Camila and Vee. Luz was mumbling about something. Camila and Vee couldn’t hear. Luz realized and stopped talking.
Hunter and Gus were in the basement. They were talking about Cosmic Frontier, Per usual.
Amity went in the bathroom, Changing out of her clothes, She started to look at the cuts and scars on her thighs. She came out of the bathroom after a few. “Are you okay? You were in there for a while.” Willow asked, concerned. “Yeah, Just takes me a while to change.” Willow didn’t look like she believed her. But she didn’t bug her about it.
Everyone was now in bed, It’s 10 pm now. Luz stared at the sticker lights on the top of her bed. She felt so empty and overwhelmed. She grabbed her pallisman egg and got out of bed, Leaving the room. Amity woke up, Rubbing her right eye. She looked to see Luz leave the bedroom. It concerned her, Luz has been doing this every night lately. She yawned and looked at the ceiling. She’s been having trouble sleeping since Luz keeps leaving the room. She knew she’d have to get use to this. She shut her eyes, trying to go back to sleep.
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Amity still had trouble sleeping, She got out of bed, Walking into the kitchen. She was so hungry, Her stomach started rumbling loudly. She opened the fridge, Without even thinking, She ate anything she could find in there. Shoving different kinds of food into her mouth.
After a couple minutes, Hunter came down from the basement, He walked into the kitchen. “Uhm, Amity..?” Amity’s eyes widened, She looked at Hunter, She put the ice cream that she was eating onto the counter. “Oh! Hunter, uh.. hi..” Amity could feel her face burning up at Hunter catching her. “What are you doing?” He asked, Raising an eyebrow. “Nothing! I was just- hungry..” Hunter was confused on why Amity was acting weird. Amity put the ice cream back in the freezer. “I’m.. I’m gonna go to bed now! N-Night Hunter!” Amity sprinted back to Luz’s bedroom. Leaving Hunter clueless.
After breakfast, Luz sat in her room, Trying to get her homework done before school. She was so tired. She got a few questions done. Then the bus pulled up, She sighed, Grabbing her bag, And walking towards the door. “Bye guys! Wait, Where’s Amity?” She asked. “She’s in the bathroom.” Willow replied. Luz didn’t think to much of it and walked out the door, Making her way on the bus.
Amity felt vomit rise to her throat, It came out of her mouth and into the toilet. She started coughing as more came out. “Shit..” She felt light-headed. She started to cough again, and started vomiting all the food she ate last night. She all of a sudden heard a knock on the door.
“Amity, Are you alright in there?” It was Camila.
“Oh yeah, Camila, I’m fine!” She replied, Her voice sounded a bit shakier. “Are you sure? You’ve been in there for a while.” Amity tried to hold back the little bit of throw up still in her mouth. “I’m sure.“ “Alright, I’ll believe you.” Camila walked away from the door. Amity gagged and the throw up flew out of her mouth. She started coughing again. She flushed the toilet, and washed her hands. Then left the bathroom hoping none of them notice.
“Hm, Looks like I need to go grocery shopping again.” Camila mumbled to herself. Amity felt guilty. She sat in The Living Room with the others.
Luz sat in class, Bouncing her leg. She was drawing pictures of Eda and King again. Her teacher was collecting the homework. He eventually made it to Luz’s desk. “Do you have your homework this time?” He asked, Rolling his eyes. “I- I’ll finish it soon.” She replied. “Sure you will.” Her teacher walked away. Luz sighed, Spacing out again. A few kids snickered behind her. She continued drawing random sketches of Eda and King. She missed them so so much.
While Camila was picking up Luz from school, Amity and the others were at the house that apparently is Evelyn and Caleb’s, They were decorating it so they can hang out there. “Why is Hooty on the door?” Gus asked. “Who knows.” Willow replied.
After a bit, They were all trying to learn Spanish on Duolingo. Amity sat on the cooler, Not really paying attention. “Amity, Why aren’t you learning Spanish with us?” Willow asked her. “Just not in the mood.” She replied. “Are you sure, Just a few months ago you were trying so hard to learn Spanish for Luz.” Amity just nodded, Then spaced out again. She missed Ed and Em so much, And her Dad. She’s hoping that they will be okay.
Luz was just about to leave school, She was putting her books back in her locker, Till she heard two girls whispering about her.
“Doesn’t she have scars on her arms?”
“Yeah, She’s like- emo or something.”
“Does she even try to hide them?”
Luz pulled her sleeves further, Even if they already cover her arms completely. She shut her locker, Walking out of school. The two girls laughed seeing her. Luz sat in the car. “Hey Mija, How was school?” Luz sighed. “It was fine.” She mumbled, Spacing out and looking out the window. “Did anything interesting happen? Everyday you always tell me it’s fine.” “Not really.” She replied, She really just wanted to get home. “Are you sure? You’ve been acting strange since you and your friends came here.” “Mom, I’m fine.” She said, Sounding a bit annoyed. “Sorry Mija, I’m just concerned for you.”
Luz immediately went to her room, Ignoring everyone. She sat in her room, Listening to music. Amity was concerned about Luz. She waited a bit, Then eventually went into her room. “Luz?” No response. “Luz..?” Still no response. “Luz Noceda!!” Luz flinched, She was having one of her spaced out moments per usual. “Oh.. Hey Amity. What’s up?” She asked, Fidgeting with her fingers. “Are you doing okay?” Amity asked. Luz couldn’t hide it anymore, She buried her face into Amity’s chest. “I just had a bad day..” She admitted. Amity rubbed her back. “Do you wanna talk about it?” Luz bite her lip. “Not really.” Amity smiled. “That’s okay.” Amity cuddled up beside Luz, Luz put her head on her shoulder. Now the two girls were cuddling each other, Something they do pretty often. Luz ended up falling asleep, Amity smiled, Putting the blanket over her.
Amity woke up in the middle of the night, Making her way into the kitchen, She saw Luz at the table. She was talking to- her laptop?
“After we save Eda and King, I’m staying in The Human Realm, Permanently..”
Amity’s eyes widened, Luz really wants to stay here? Forever? She heard Luz shut her laptop, She walked past Amity, Not even noticing Amity was there. Amity couldn’t believe it. She laid back in bed, Staring at the ceiling. Tears fell down her face, She was so worried about the future now. What will she do without her Luz being there?
Luz sat in the bathroom, She took a blade out of a razor. And started scraping it through her arms, All she felt was numbness doing it, She was so use to this feeling, She got use to rubbing blades on her arms almost every night. She noticed that a lot of blades are gone, But she’s the only one who uses them, At least she thinks so. Who else would self harm anyway? Luz watched the blood dripping down her arms. She smirked, She hated that she never felt anything when doing it, But she deserved it. She helped Belos. She ruined everything. They wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her. Luz buried her face into her knees as she hugged them. “I deserve this..”
Notes:
I’ll get more into Amity’s ED in other chapters!!
Also the chapters will get more interesting soon. (I’ll try lol)
Chapter 3
Summary:
More about Amity’s Eating Disorder (I swear I tried so hard for this)
Notes:
I’m writing way too much but motivation randomly comes to me 😭
Next chapter will focus on Luz
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Amity was now eating anything she could find in the fridge again. She hated doing this every night. What caused this in the first place was when she was around 4.
11 years ago..
Amity grabbed the end of her skirt. “Mommy, What are you doing?” Odalia smirked. “You need to learn how to listen to me, You also keep eating high calorie foods, Are you trying to get fat?” She started, Amity saw her put something in a cup. “Here, It’s apple blood, It’ll make you loose calories.” Amity raised an eyebrow. “I thought it was for adul-“ “Just drink it.” Odalia interrupted, As she was starting to get impatient with the girl. Amity grabbed it, Taking a few sips of it. “It tastes weird.” Odalia sighed. “Shush, Do you want to keep eating all that food and gain weight?! Just. Drink. It.” Amity bite her lip. “Sorry, Mommy.” Odalia rolled her eyes. “Just drink it already, Or I’ll give you a bigger consequence.” Amity chugged it down. She all of a sudden felt dizzy and lightheaded, She fell to the ground, passed out. Making Odalia smirk. “Take this as a lesson, Mittens.” She walked out of the kitchen.
Emira came into the kitchen a few minutes later, Just coming to get a snack. She immediately noticed Amity’s unconscious body on the floor. “Sis?!” She ran over to her, Kneeling down on the floor to look at her face. Odalia came back into the kitchen. “Of course, She hasn’t woken up yet.” Emira noticed the apple blood in one of Amity’s cups on the counter. “You gave Amity alcohol?!?” Odalia just put on one of her cold smirks. “She just needed to learn a lesson, Perhaps you can too.” She walked out of the kitchen. Emira started panicking. She heard in a cartoon she watched on The Crystal Ball that eating a ton of food numbs alcohol. Amity woke up after a bit, Her whole body was tense. Emira hugged her tightly. “Mittens, Just eat anything you can find in the fridge.” Amity bumped into a wall trying to get to the fridge. Emira carried her to the table and sat her down on a chair, Putting a garbage can next to her. She started giving Amity any food that she could find. After awhile Amity was in the bathroom throwing up, Emira comforted her as she spent awhile throwing up all the food out.
Ever since Amity started starving herself during the day, And only ate when she knew everyone was asleep, Just so Odalia wouldn’t yell at her to stop eating. Even now in The Human Realm, She is still doing it. And she knows Luz is starting to suspect her and is catching on.
She sighed as she put the food she was eating back, And decided to just go back to bed. She really was wondering why Luz was planning on staying in The Human Realm forever. She’s definitely gonna have to bring that up to her sometime.
Amity sat in the car, Anxious. Camila was taking them to a restaurant for dinner since it’s the weekend. This isn’t the first time they’ve eaten in a restaurant, It’s just that Amity’s Eating Disorder has gotten progressively worse since the last time they went to one. And it’s starting to get way too obvious to hide. She’s praying Hunter didn’t tell anyone about a few nights ago. Luz noticed how anxious Amity was being. “Amity? Are you alright? Your legs are shaking.” Amity took a few breaths. “I’m alright.” She replied. Luz grabbed her hand, Amity squeezed it. Hoping that everything will be okay.
Amity was already hating every second of being there. The Waiter came to ask what food they want. They all were waiting on Amity. “Uh- I.. didn’t have enough time to look on the menu!” She lied. The Waiter told her that they’ll come back to her order when she comes to bring the others food. Willow looked at her concerned. “Are you okay, Amity? Hunter told me that he saw you-“ Amity immediately started panicking. “PFFFT- W-What? That’s- That’s insane!” The 6 of them looked at her, Concerned while being confused at the same time. Sweat was literally dripping down her face as she was burning red. “Amity, Are you okay?” Amity bit her lip. “I’m perfectly fine!”
Amity ended up getting a pizza, She shoved it down her throat. “Amity, You could get sick. Why did you eat it so fast?” Luz asked. “I gotta use the bathroom!” Amity got up, Walking away, avoiding Luz’s question. Luz was now extremely concerned at how weird Amity is being. “Does she always do this when I’m at school?” Luz asked. “Yeah, She does.” Gus replied. Luz bit her lip, Looking at Amity as she walked away. ‘What is she doing to herself..?’
Amity knew all of them were finding out about her Eating Disorder. And she knew Camila would try to help her. Getting Motherly love after years of living in a house with barely any love besides from her siblings, Was strange to her. She missed Ed and Em so much, They helped her with her Eating Disorder a lot and always made sure she ate. But now that she’s away from them, She doesn’t have anyone to remind her to eat, Or stop her from starving herself. Sure, She could talk to Luz or Willow about making sure she’s eating. But she doesn’t wanna depend on them for something she does to herself.
Amity stood on the scale in the bathroom, Her heart pounded as she was anxiously waiting for it to show her weight. 56 pounds. She sighed. “I need to loose more..” She mumbled to herself. She remembered when Odalia used to check her weight every week. Amity hated all the judgement she got every single time. Now she judges herself. Amity sat down on the bathroom floor. “Why am I like this?”
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Chapter 4
Summary:
Luz hating school while extremely concerned for Amity. While being oblivious at the same time
It’s a bit crappy but I tried
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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Luz opened the cabinet in the bathroom, Looking for the razors. “Cmon, Cmon, Where are they?” She couldn’t find any. “Why are they disappearing so fast? I don’t use them that often, Do I?” Luz sighed. She walked out of the bathroom. Making her way to The Living Room. She walked into the kitchen, Grabbing a snack. She was wondering what happened to the razors. She all of a sudden saw Amity storm from the couch and into the bathroom. She raised an eyebrow. She has never seen Amity act so weird. She walked into her room, Trying to do at least her homework while it’s still the weekend.
Luz buried her face on her desk, Homework was so hard for her now. She also had an English paper she hasn’t even started on yet. She can write fan fiction, But why can’t she just do a simple English paper? She grabbed her pencil, Trying to continue her homework. Amity walked into Luz’s bedroom. “Are you doing okay?” She patted Luz’s head, Kissing her. Amity checked on Luz everyday, Sometimes it annoyed Luz, But she knew Amity was just worried for her.“I’m fine, How about you?” She asked. Amity blinked a few times. Luz never really checked on her. “I’m- uh- good!” Luz raised an eyebrow. “That didn’t sound so believable, Are you sure?” Amity nodded. She then walked out of the room. Luz was now even more concerned. Why wasn’t Amity telling her anything? She was now even more stressed. She got out of her desk chair, Walking out of the room.
Luz was getting clothes for Amity for the day, Since they had a pretty similar size in clothing, Luz shares them with her. She grabbed a purple romper, Since Amity has worn that before and told Luz how much she likes it. “Hey Amity, I got you clothes for the day.” “Uh… Could I have something else that’s not short?” Luz raised and eyebrow. “But it’s hot out today.” Amity awkwardly smiled. “I’m just cold.” Luz was getting more suspicious of Amity. “Alright?” Luz grabbed a crop top and jeans. “Is this good?” Amity nodded. “Thanks, Luz.” All of a sudden there was a honk outside. “I gotta go to school, Bye.” Luz left the room.
“Byee Guys, I love you!” She exclaimed, Walking out the door. “Is it just me or does she usually say that?” Gus asked. “No.” Willow saw the bus pull away from the window, Concerned for Luz.
Luz was walking towards her normal table she sat by herself at. The two boys from the other day looked at her. “Hey Luz, Over here!” Luz was a bit startled. She looked over at them, Walking over to the table there at. Just as she was about to sit down, She tripped on the leg of the table, Falling on her face. “AHH!!” Just her luck. Her food got on her and the floor. A few kids laughed. Luz sighed, Getting off the ground, Brushing some of the food off her. “Were you making out with the floor or something?” A girl asked. Luz sighed. “Luz, Are you alright?” One of the boys asked. “Y-Yeah, I’m fine. I’ll be back.” Luz walked away.
Camila walked into the bathroom, She saw Amity throwing up. “Amity?!” Amity’s eyes widened as she looked at Camila. “O-Oh! Hey Camila!”
‘I forgot to close the door.. Stupid Amity! Stupid Amity!’ Amity was mentally slapping herself. “Are you sick?” Amity sighed in relief. She was grateful Camila didn’t find out. “Yeah, I’m uh- sick.”
Luz looked into the bathroom mirror. She was trying to wash some of the food on herself. She splashed water on her eyes, So she doesn’t look tired. She turned off the faucet, Burying her face onto the sink. “I’m so done..”
Luz was in the car, She was so hungry. How did Amity skip meals so often? She probably won’t ever get an answer to that. She can’t even skip one meal without feeling nauseous.
Camila was sitting with Luz in the living room. “How have you been lately? You’re concerning me.” Luz looked away. “I’m fine, Mom.” Camila sighed. “You can talk to me, I’m worried about how gloomy you’ve been.” Luz hesitated, She started speaking. “Why do I always mess up? I got all of them stuck here, None of us know if their families could be alive! I’m so stupid for even thinking i could be a witch!” Camila looked concerned. “Mija..” “I should’ve never even stayed there, Everything would have been fine and I don’t get why I’m still even-“ Luz stopped herself. “I’m going to bed.” She got up. “Night.” “Mija, Wait! Let’s talk more about this!” “Goodnight, Mama.”
Luz went into her room, She saw Amity sitting on her mattress. “Are you okay? You look really tired.” She asked. “I’m fine, What are you doing?” “I’m sick.” Amity just decided to pretend she’s sick so none of them find out. “Oh.” That explains her being hot earlier. (Does it Luz?) Willow and Vee were already asleep. Luz put on her pajamas and sat in her bed. She couldn’t sleep like always. She noticed Amity moved her bed closer to her own, She smiled at that. “Luz?” Luz looked at Amity. “Yeah?” Amity looked away. “Have you ever hurt yourself before? Like uhm- with objects?” Luz’s eyes widened. “Uh.. N-No! Why?” “No reason! Just wondering.” Amity turned to the other side of her bed. Luz raised her eyebrow. Why would Amity ask that so suddenly? Did she know about Luz’s self harm? Why else would she ask? Does she do it to hersel- No. Amity wouldn’t do that. Luz was just overthinking. Right? It’s not like Amity would do that. It was strange for her to even ask something like that.
Amity was expecting Luz to leave the room. Minutes ticked by, Luz still hasn’t left. And she’s still awake. Luz is a pretty light sleeper so even if she was asleep, She’d just wake up. Amity really just wanted to get food right now. But Luz would probably check on her if she took too long. Amity eventually fell asleep before she could continue waiting.
Luz was still awake, Staring into space. Everyday just got more worse and exhausting. She got out of her bed. Grabbing a pencil sharpener from her desk, All the blades are gone from them too. Luz probably just doesn’t remember using all of them. It’s strange how they’re going away so fast. “Am I going insane..?” She mumbled to herself. She needed to do something right now. She looked everywhere in her desk. Nothing. She sighed. Walking out of the room. She grabbed alcohol from the top cabinet in the kitchen. She took a few breaths, And took a few shots of the bottle. Then a couple more, and more. She drank half the bottle. Luz’s eyes widened. She put the bottle back. She decided to just sit on the couch. It’s not she’ll get drunk, right?
Notes:
Be prepared for Suicidal Drunk Luz and Depressed Amity :)
I’m still working on it but I promise it will be out soon 😭
Chapter 5
Summary:
Luz gets drunk, and later finds out about Amity’s ED.
Notes:
I rewrote this so many times 😭😭 Not the proudest of this, but hopefully it’s good still. I’m sorry this took more then a month to write- Motivation left me for so long but I finally got ideas for this!! Also thank you for 1000 hits! It makes me happy people actually read this
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Amity looked to see Luz on the couch, passed out. “Luz?!” She ran over and crouched down on the floor, She was so confused. What is Luz even doing in The Living Room this late? She immediately put a hand on Luz’s wrist, checking her pulse. It seemed fine. Amity was still anxious to death though. She sat there, seeing if Luz would wake up or not.
After a half an hour, Luz rubbed her eyes and saw Amity. “Heeey, Amity.” Luz said, groggily. Amity raised an eyebrow. “Are you okay?” Luz started laughing, for some reason.
“What if I jumped out the window right now? Wouldn’t that be funny?”
Amity’s eyes widened. “W-What?! Luz! Of course not! Why would you-“ Amity frowned. “You don’t actually think about.. doing that, right?” Amity couldn’t even say it, It made her want to burst into tears and hug Luz and never let go so she can protect her from everything that’s making her feel this way. If Luz commited, She just might too. She shook her head, Trying to escape these impossible thoughts. Amity doesn’t want to believe there’s a possibility of Luz committing suicide. She already might have lost her family, But loosing Luz would might just be the last straw for her wanting to live.
“Luz, Are you drunk?” Luz just started laughing more in response. Amity thought about doing what Emira did for her years ago, But what if Luz develops an Eating Disorder cause of her and it’s all her fault? She didn’t want Luz to continue being drunk, So she grabbed Luz. “Okay, Batata. I hope this works..”
Luz was now at school after Amity tried getting her sober again an hour ago, Amity noticed how weird Luz was after she did become sober again. Luz kept saying sorry for some reason, Amity didn’t get why. She didn’t even do anything wrong! She also kept trying to push Amity off whenever she went near her. It confused Amity, But she probably was just overthinking, again.
Camila was getting clothes for Willow and Amity out. “Here.” Camila said as she gave Amity her clothes for the day. “Thank you, Camila.” She replied. Camila smiled. “It’s no problem, Mija.” Camila noticed something as Amity turned around and she could see a scratch? A scar? Something close to her thigh. “What is that on your thigh? Did you get hurt?” Amity winched in response. “It’s nothing.” She mumbled. “I got it practicing my uh- magic.” Camila’s eyebrows furrowed together. “You got it, Practicing your magic?” She looked a bit suspicious of her, Amity hasn’t used her magic besides when she’s helping Camila. Amity awkwardly chuckled. “Yeah, I- was practicing with Willow. Uh.. a few days ago.” She left the room to go change. Camila definitely didn’t believe her.
Later in the day, Luz was walking into the bathroom. She raised an eyebrow when she saw Amity standing on the scale. “Amity?” Amity flinched and Immediately jumped off in panic. “Luz!” She sounded shaken up by Luz seeing her. Luz could only see the numbers on the scale for a second, ‘54 pounds..? She’s so underweight.’ Luz thought. Amity looked anxious after Luz looked back at her. “Are you okay?” Luz asked. “Your face is really pale.” She cupped Amity cheeks with her hands. “I’m fine, I’m gonna go get water.” Amity was about to leave the bathroom, Luz looked back at the scale again, then Amity. Amity really needs help, how is she loosing weight so fast? “Amity, Wait.” Amity froze. “Hm?” She weakly smiled, Luz frowned. “What’s going on with you?” She asked. Amity’s hands started trembling, She couldn’t tell Luz. What if she leaves her for this? “Ah, it’s nothing.” Luz was starting to get angry. “No, You’ve been skipping every meal for months, your only getting skinnier, and your only 54 pounds! What is going on with you?” Amity turned back to Luz, She can’t run away this time, can’t she?
“I- alright, how do I even talk about this? I uhm.. starve myself, which you probably can tell. But, I binge eat anything I can find at night when the rest of you guys are sleeping,” She took a breath as she continued. “I- make myself sick all the time. Which is why I’m in the bathroom so often, I’ve been like this since I believe I was, 4? I- I can’t really remember, Ed and Em helped me a lot of the time, they reminded me to eat, Make sure I didn’t look at the scale, and other stuff. When we got stuck in The Human Realm, I don’t know. I just, relapsed... And it started to get worse. And I-” She stopped and looked at Luz.
Luz blinked a few times, then looked back at Amity, horrified. “Why did you hide this for so- so many years? You’ve had this since you were 4?!” Amity swallowed the lump in her throat that kept coming back. “Mhm..” “Amity, I gotta get Mama to take you to the doctor, maybe even the hospital!” Amity’s eyes widened. “No! No! Don’t tell Camila! Please Luz, I- I- I’ll be fine!” “You’re making yourself sick, You might be anorexic, I have to tell her, or else, you could die.” Amity bit her lip. “I.. No! I can’t go.. I won’t go..” “I’m sorry Amity, You need help.” Luz walked out of the bathroom. “Wait, Luz, Don’t!” Amity didn’t know what Camila was gonna think of her, She knew Camilla would take her to the human doctors, and they’d try to stop it. She didn’t want that. Why couldn’t have Luz just listened when she said she didn’t need any help? Why did she not expect help? Why did she feel like she doesn’t deserve help?
Amity all of a sudden felt lightheaded, The whole room looked like it was spinning. Oh no, She’s about to pass out. She’s almost passed out many times before, but always managed to make sure she doesn’t. The only time she actually did, Was when she was around 12 or 13, she couldn’t exactly remember her age. Emira had to get Viney to help, and she had to make sure it didn’t happen again. She was sat on toilet seat, She took a few breaths and got up. She can’t let the doctors find out about this.
Luz came back with Camila. “Get in the car, Please.” Camila demanded with concern and worry in her voice. “I’ll be there in a minute!” Amity brushed the top of her hair repeatedly, anxious. Camila walked away, Luz looked at her and frowned, then walked away.
The second they left the bathroom Amity grabbed every heavy thing that she could find, not even paying attention what she was putting into the pockets of her jeans. Then looked in the mirror to see if it looked believable. She must of took to long, Cause she heard a knock on the door. “Everything okay, Hermosa? You arent trying to get out of the doctors are you?” “Uh- No! I’m- not!” Amity managed to mutter out. “Well, Hurry up, Please?” Amity opened the bathroom door after a few seconds. “I-I’m ready..”
Luz was holding Amity’s hand as they sat in the waiting room, Amity’s anxiety was going through the roof. What if Camila punishes her for this? Amity started shaking her leg repeatedly, Also while rocking back and forth, Cause Luz told her she’s allowed to do that without worrying of being judged. Luz put her hand on Amity’s thigh to get her to stop. Amity looked at her. Luz opened her mouth, about to say something. “Amity Blight?” A voice said, interrupting Luz.
Amity raised an eyebrow, She looked at Luz, who nodded, reassuring her to go with the person. She looked at the tag the man had been wearing, it read: Dr. Brown, Nurse. ‘Must be a type of healer’ Amity thought as she followed the supposedly nurse into a room. It had a bench with paper on it, it kinda looks like the ones at the healing coven back in The Boiling Isles. There was also a poster with a bunch of letters and numbers on it, who would wanna hang that on their wall? “Dr. Gracey will be with you shortly.” Dr. Brown told the anxious girl. He soon after left the room, Leaving Amity alone. She sat down on the bench. Moving her legs around as she looked at the ground. She’s really here..
Dr.Gracey stepped into the room, shutting the door. “Amity, Right?” Amity nodded, she clutched the hip of her jeans as tight as her palm would let her. Dr.Gracey sat on a chair, she started looking at something on her laptop, It looked a bit different than the one Luz has. “Okay, it says on my laptop that you’re having bad eating habits?” Amity hesitated, then nodded. “Okay, May I ask you a few questions?” Amity nodded again. She felt too weak right now to say anything, she really did wanna cry right now. Why is she here?? What are they gonna do to her? She didn’t trust these human doctors.
“When was the last time you had a full meal?” Amity bit her lip. “About a week ago.” She admitted. Dr.Gracey typed on her laptop. “Alright, When was the last time you looked at a scale? If you do regularly.” Amity was trying so hard not to stim, She really only felt comfortable stimming in front of Hexsquad and Camila, Cause she knew she wouldn’t be judged. “An hour ago.” She replied honestly. Dr.Gracey was typing again. “Alright, Follow me.” She got up and opened the door, Amity followed her to a scale. “Step on it, Please.” Amity did so. It only took a second for her weight to show. “57 pounds” Dr.Gracey muttered as she wrote that down.
Luz heard from the waiting room, that’s definitely not what she saw when Amity was on the scale earlier.. She was gonna have to bring that up later. For now, She just waited for Amity to be done.
After an hour and a half, Amity finally came out. Both Amity and Luz tried to pay attention to what the doctor was saying to Camila.
“We think she might be Anorexic, With how long she’s had problems with eating, she will start to have a slow death if she doesn’t start eating soon.”
Luz’s heart stopped hearing that. She couldn’t loose her Hermosa. She felt Amity squeeze her hand tighter, she didn’t even look at her. Luz felt so bad for her, Amity was hurting, bad. She didn’t know Amity was going through this much. She really has been caught up in her own self pity and guilt.
The car ride home was silent for awhile. The silence felt suffocating to Amity, she felt weird after leaving the doctors. Her breathing became heavy. Thankfully, Luz didn’t seem to notice.
After they got home, Camila started making dinner. Luz was talking to Willow in the living room about something, But Amity wasn’t paying attention. She was just sat on the couch, The doctors voice replaying in her head. She tried to get it to stop, it wouldn’t. It was hurting her head, She covered her ears as she shut her eyes. “Amity!” Amity shot her head up, removing her hands off her ears. “Yeah?” She asked panicky. “Is everything alright?” She finally made out whose voice it was, Willow’s. “Yeah, Yeah, I’m fine. I was just- thinking about something.” “About what? You can talk to me and Luz if you need.” Amity weakly smiled. “I know.” But did she really? Why does she feel like she can’t open up? Why does she feel like she can’t tell anyone anything? She then heard Camila say it’s dinner, making her snap out of her trance.
Amity sat down next to Luz at the table. “Wow Amity, it’s strange seeing you at the table for once.” Gus said. Amity felt her heart sting hearing that. She knew Gus didn’t mean that in a bad way, he probably meant that light heartedly. But he wasn’t lying. She just awkwardly chuckled. “Yeah.” She started to feel uneasy. She hesitated at first, but took a bite of the food in front of her, then another, and she ended up eating almost half of it before saying she was full. She was pretty impressed, She ate almost a full meal! Luz smiled at her. “I’m proud of you, Hermosa!”
Amity was sitting on her bed, reading a book. She heard the door open, and looked to see Luz enter the room. She then looked back at her book. “Hey.” Luz said softly. “Hey..” The girl muttered back. Luz sat down next to her. “Do you.. wanna talk about earlier?” “What is there to talk about?” She asked. “I don’t know, everything?” Amity sighed, she didn’t drop her gaze off her book. “Why were you lying to the doctor?” “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” She responded nervously. “Don’t act dumb. I know you lied about your weight. Why are you lying so much lately?” Amity set her book down. “I- don’t know.. I just don’t want to be a burden, y’know?” Amity wanted to say how Luz has also been lying as well, but she didn’t. Luz frowned. “You’re not a burden. I know it doesn’t seem like it, but you aren’t. I promise you.” Luz told her. “Thanks..” “By the way, Mama took the scale out of the bathroom, I can start reminding you to eat as well if you’d like.” Amity nodded. “That would help. Thank you, Luz.” Luz smiled. “Of course.” Amity was glad, She was hoping maybe for once she would actually heal this time.
Notes:
Ahhh this probably has so many spelling errors, Anyways I need to stop making every chapter full of Amity and work on Luz’s pov of things because she was literally the main focus in the beginning of this and I have things planned for her!