Deja vu

by Natshotdeadcorspe

Summary:

“I-i killed him, man” curly whispers.

Ponyboy sits up slowly staring at curly then looking at the lifeless soc laying infront of curly. He closes his, hoping this is just a dream and he is really at home sleeping in his and sodas room. He’s disappointed when he opens his eyes and he realizes its not a dream. “Oh gosh, not again please not again.” He thinks outloud
He feels like hes about to puke with the horrible feeling of deja vu.

 

An au where dallas and johnny never die. The doctors help johnny and he is finally able to walk on his own. The gang lives life peacefully until one cold and dreadful night.

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Chapter 1: Chapter 1: movie

Summary:

The beginning of what just might be the end

Notes:

Please ignore horrible spelling 😭

Writing

 

“Hey baby curtis!!” curly shouts as he crashes threw the doors of the curtis house. Curly is always so energetic, never backs down from an adventure or challenge. He also has a serious reputation that makes people fear him and that makes him feel he can do whatever he wants. Not ponyboy curtis though. Hes not like the rest of the greasers. Hes the only one who doesnt think curly is some dumb, feared, hoodlum. Theres many other things that make him stand out from the rest of the greasers but thats not important right now.

“Why are you so loud?” Darry ask annoyance obvious in his voice. Darry is sitting at the kitchen table reading the newspaper. Darry never liked curly very much. Even before mr and mrs curtis died. Hes always been over protective of him brothers. Especially the youngest one and with curly having a criminal record, he thinks hes just a bad influence on ponyboy. Curly knows that darry doesnt approve of his and ponys friendship. He just doesnt give a crap what darry or anybody thinks of him.(other than ponyboy.)

“Wheres ponyboy?” Curly enters the kitchen and starts rummaging threw stuff like he owns the place. He stops for a minute waiting for darry to respond to his question. Darry puts his newspaper down and looks at curly. He sighs and rolls his eyes realizing curly isnt gonna leaving him alone he answers him.

“Hes out with johnny and dallas.” Curly grins, thrilled he can get a rise out of darry.

“Cool, thanks dar!”

“Its darrel to you hood.”

“Whatever darry!” Curly runs out the door of the curtis house laughing, as darry rolls up his newspaper and attempts to throw it curly. He missed but only because he struggled with rolling up the newspaper. Darry sighs already having a headache.

. . . . .

“Come on soda please??” Pony begs his second oldest brother. Dally, johnny and ponyboy decided to hang out today. They were gonna go to the drive in movie theater but they were way early. So they visited sodapop and steve at the dx. Ponyboy finished his last pack of cigarette's and he didnt have any money. He was trying to convice soda to give him a free pack but last time soda did that he got chewed off by his boss.

“No i aint gonna risk gettin hollered at by my boss just because you cant go 5 minutes with no smokin.” Soda tells his brother seriously. Him and darry both hate how addicted ponyboy is to smoking. They were never big smokers themself and they cant cut ponyboy off because almost everybody he hangs around smokes.

Pony rolls his eyes and huffs. He walks out of the dx and sees johnny and dallas talking to steve who’s working on a car. He walks over to them. Johnny smiles softly when he notices pony. Johnny just a couple weeks ago was able to start walking on his own again.

“Hey pony. Did you get the cigarettes?” Johnny ask gently. He’s become less quiet and jumpy but he’s still quiet and soft. Pony shakes his head.

“No, soda didn’t want to risk getting in trouble with his boss again.” He sighs. He could make money if he got a job but darry wont let him. Darry says pony doesn’t need one and that he should just focus on school and track. He doesn’t understand why darry bothers him so much about school and his school work. He was already bumped up a grade and he is pretty smart. He’s positive he could pass and not even show up but he knows if he skipped school darry would find out and that would be the end for pony.

“Thats alright you can have one of mine” johnny offers. He pulls out his pack of cigarettes and starts to take one out for pony but a hand stops him. He looks at the hand, then the owner of the hand; dallas winston.

“No ponyboy can get his own or he can just stop smokin so much. Kid goes through 2 packs a day. He can survive a some time with no smokes.” Dally says, earning a glare from pony, a mumble of agreement from steve whos under a car now, and a slight nod from johnny who looks at pony with apologetic eyes and he puts his pack back. He could never tell dallas no when he tells johnny to do something. Even after the incident last year he still looks up to dallas. Ponyboy grumbles curses under his breathe.

“Kid i aint stupid neither am i deaf so unless you want me to tell superman that your cursing you better shut your trap and get over it.” Dally spits out. Darrys nickname from the gang was superman because of his muscles. Pony shuts his mouth real quick after the threat and looks down.

“Its getting dark lets start heading towards the drive in.” Johnny suggest trying to ease up the tension. The trio says bye to steve and starts walking. As they’re walking a dark curly headed boy spots them and grins.

“Hey ponybabe!!” Curly shouts at the trio. The three boys come to a stop. All of them look across the street and see curly. Ponyboy didn’t mind the nickname curly gave him very much. He always gives pony flirty names and remarks so he isn’t affected by it much anymore. He waves at curly and the curly haired boy jogs across the street to meet up with them. When he reaches the other side he puts an arm around ponys shoulders. Curly is about 5’9. While ponys 5’5. He hates how both his brothers got his fathers height and he got his mothers. The gang often teases him about his height. Even johnny sometimes even though hes only an inch or two taller.

“Hey curls.” Pony smiles at him. Curly always thought pony had to sweetest smile ever but he would never say that outloud.

“Hey dallas. Hey johnny.” Curly smirks at them. He only focuses his attention on them for a millisecond before hes back to staring down at ponyboy. He ignores dal and johnny when they greet him back and starts talking with pony.

“Where you heading blondie?” Ponyboy never dyed his back to the auburn color it was before. When curly first saw pony with blondie hair he became obsessed and he told pony that he looked better blonde so pony never dyed it back and he continues to bleach it when his brown roots start to grow out.

“To the drive in theater! Wanna join us?” Pony ask looking at curly with the biggest green eyes ever. Curly has to look away and sigh. He looks at johnny and dallas who are also waiting for his response. Dallas seems impatient and johnny just stares at him and pony.

“Fine ill join y’all.” Curly answers. Pony smiles and leans into curlys arm more. Not in a romantic way (curly wishes it was) in a happy cheerful way.

“We better start going now if we want to get there in time.” Dallas informs. Pont and johnny nod while curly just stares at pony. They all start walking, curlys arm never leaving ponys shoulder.

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Chapter 2: The drive in

Summary:

The four of them get to the drive in and things are well until trouble begins to bubble

Notes:

Sorry for the slow updates

Also this has a slurs in it and internalized homophobia and kinda homophobia to others. So if u dont like that then dont read.

As the four of them climb under the fence of the drive in they start walking over to find seats. Johnny and dallas sit down in the middle row. Ponyboy goes to follow but curly stops him.

“Come get some popcorn and drinks with me ponykid.” Curly says. Pony looks at him then at johnny and dallas who are watching the movie. Well only johnny is dallas is talking to some greaser broad sitting infront of him. Pony looks back at curly and nods.

“You guys want anything?” Pony ask mainly directed at johnny. Johnny nods softly. He mumbles “popcorn please”. Pony smiles and nods. Dallas looks up at him and smirks.

“Get me and this pretty lady-“ he points with his thumb at the girl infront of him who giggles. “A coke and popcorn. Thanks pony.” Pony rolls his eyes. He and curly begin walking towards the food stand. Curly grabs 5 popcorns.

“We only need 3” pony states. He has a bitter look on his face.

“I thought you were a super genius kid. Theres 5 of us so we need 5 popcorns.” Curly says likes its the most obvious thing on earth.

“I know that, but if dallas wants popcorn for him and that lady he can get it himself.” Pony grabs 2 cokes. “And he can get his own cokes.”

“Woah ponybabe your being mean. Who spit in your coffee this morning.” Curly says with a laughs and gets in line to pay for the 3 popcorns and the 2 cokes.

“Nobody spit in my coffee. Im just getting dallas back. He wouldnt let johnny give me a smoke stick because he said i can buy my own. So if i have to buy my own cigarettes he can buy his own food.” Pony explains. The bitter look transforming into a smirk. Curlys eye are wide. Hes shocked. The fact that pony is being mean isnt what shocks him. Pony can be a little bitch when he wants to be. But the fact hes standing up to THE dallas, dallas winston has him swooning over pony. Not even curly himself would dare stand up dallas. He might tease him sometimes but never actually stand up to him.

“God pony ur a little shit you know that!” He laughs and pony joins him. “Dallas is gonna kill you man.” He moves up and gets to the register to pay for the food and drinks.

“He wont lay a finger on me. Dallas is tough but after everything that happened last year darry holds a grudge against dallas. And dallas knows if he were to hurt even one hair on my head, darry would pumble him.” Pony says cooly. Him and darry have gotten closer after everything that happened. They still fight(mainly over curly) but darry has stopped putting so much pressure on pony and pony had started using his head more.

“Whatever you say kid. Now come on lets go sit back down dont wanna miss the movie” curly grabs the drinks and pony grabs the popcorn and they start walking back to their seats. They arrive and sit down; pony beside johnny and curly beside pony. Pony hands johnny and curly their popcorn and curly hands pony his drink.

“If u get thirsty johnny cake we can share my coke.” Pony whispers to him. He knows johnny wanted a coke too but was just to scared to ask. He beats himself internally for not just getting johnny his own but he didnt want to ask curly to pay for too much. Johnny smiles and nods.

“Hey kid wheres my shit?” Dallas ask. The broad is now sitting next to him, his arm around her shoulders.

“If you want food you can buy it urself or just stop eating.” Pony says quoting dallas’s words at the dx. Pony can practically see the smoke coming out of dallys ears.

“Listen hear you little shit. Dont get smart with me. Your not some big shot and im not afraid to beat the brakes off of you.” Dallas says sternly pointing at ponyboy. Pony just shrugs and eats his popcorn staring ahead at the movie. Dallas now turning red from anger stand ups. You can see the vein in his forehead. He doesnt like being ignored and he doesnt take it to kindly being disrespected by some little kid. “I will yank you up by your shirt ya hear me kid. Im not gonna sit here and let you make a fool out of me. So unless you wanna walk out of here in a straight line with all your teeth still intact you better stop acting tough and go get me the dam popcorn and cokes i asked for.” Dallas almost shouts. Johnny looks between his two friends. The greaser girl just smokes and watches the movie. Curly has his head down trying to stiffle a laugh and pony just stares at dallas and eats his popcorn.

“Im not scared of you anymore dallas. Ive grown up. When i was little you were the monster in my nightmares. Now your just dumb hood who thinks he intimidating but really deep down is just a coward trying to cover up his fear.” Pony says smoothly. His face lacks emotion. No fear, sadness, anger, and happiness is shown. Its just blank. Dallas on the other hand; his face has soften. He no longer looks angry just shocked. He stares at ponyboy.

“Fuck you kid!” He says. He looks at the broad then at johnny. “Come on we’re leaving. Im pretty sure theres a party we can crash.” The girl stands up and dallas puts his arm around her again. Johnny looks at pony apologetic and stands up too. Dallas begins walking. He looks back once more at pony with a sad smile.

“Bye pony see ya later.” He says before following dallas. Jogging to catch up with him. Pony lets out a sigh.

“No way dude. Your fucking awesome!” Curly exclaims. “I have never seen anybody stand up to dallas winston like that and not get socked in the face. One time tim yelled at him and tim ended up with a broken nose and a black eye. The two of them didnt speak for weeks!!” Curlys amazement is pretty obvious. Pony blushes and smiles at him.

“Not gonna lie i was pretty scared that he would knock my lights out.” Pony awkwardly laughs. Curly puts his arm around pony and laughs too.

“Im glad he didnt. Wouldnt want your beautiful face messed up.” Curly flirts. Pony rolls his eyes. He punches curly softly then leans into him. The two of them sit in silence watching the movie. An hour later the movie ends and curly looks down at pony who is asleep. People around them begin getting up and leaving. Curly smiles at pony and kisses the top of his head softly. He shakes pony and tells him its time to get up. Pony sits up and rubs the sleep out of his eyes.

“Hey sleeping beauty need me to carry you home?” Curly jokes. Pony rolls his eyes for the 100th time that night. He stands up and stretches. “Ill take that as a no then”

“Shut up hood.” Pony smirks. Curly gasp putting a hand on his chest in a fake hurt way. He stands up and puts his arm around pony again. He loves doing that and pony loves when he does it. They begin their walk home. As they walk mustangs drive by and honk at them. The whole bob situation was big news. Socs were bad before but now all they do is harrass johnny and pony even more now. In school they cant even walk down the halls without having socs shove them or throw stuff at them.

“Fucking douches.” Curly shouts at one of the mustangs. He holds up the middle finger at them. Pony giggles. As they walk they pass the park. “Wanna make a pitstop at the park ponybabe?” Pony smiles and nods at the question. They walk up the hill to the park and sit on the bench. Pony stares at the sky. Hes always been a sunset lover but he loves stars too. Curly looks at him with love and admiration in his eyes. Curly doesnt understand how someone can be so hot and beautiful of the same time. Curly hates himself for loving ponyboy the way that he does. Its wrong for a boy to love another boy. Being gay would ruining his reputation. And it would make him a hypocrite. He laughed at and bullied this one kid who came out as gay two years ago. He called him a fag and told him to go die. He regrets that now see as how he is gay himself. The voice in his head is telling him that pony is worth ruining his reputation while the other voice is yelling at him that being a fag will get him killed. Curly is pulled out of his thoughts by the sounds of a loud engine. He and pony look where the noise came from and they see a mustang. The car starts driving up the hill. Ponyboy is frozen in fear. Curly stands up and grabs ponys wrist. “Come on!” He whispers. Pony stands up and they start walking. The mustang stops and 3 socs get out.

“Where do u dirty greasers think your going?” One of the shouts. The 3 socs start walking towards them. Curly and pony continue walking until another soc car pulls up right infront of them. 4 socs get out of this car. Curly curses. Theres no way they can fight 7 socs and theres defiantly no way they can out run them. Pony probably can but curly cant. Hes fast but not fast enough. He leans down so his mouth is right beside ponys ear.

“You can out run them. When i say go i want you to run down look back.” He whispers. Pony shakes his head.

“No im not leaving you.” Pony whispers back. Curly groans. Pony is the most stubborn greaser there is. No point in arguing with him.

“Say, cole aint that the little grease who helped kill bob.” One of the socs says. The one whos name is supposedly cole nods.

“Its is. And what else do we have here. Tim shepherds little brother. What are you two doing out at this time of night alone.” Pony is almost shaking with fear and curly has a protective arm in front of him.

“What are you low lifes doing on our side of town.” Curly ask with a smirk. Pony looks at him.

“Who are you calling low lifes greaser.” One of the socs steps closer.

“You better watch ur step pal or else” curly says to the one stepping closer. He gets infront of ponyboy.

“Well will you look at that. The little Shepard is protecting his bf.” The socs laugh. Curly snarls. Pony looks on the verge of tears.

“He aint my boyfriend. Unlike you boys i dont have broad repellent sprayed all over me.” Curlys comesback makes the socs pissed.

“Thats it. Grab em!” The soc named cole shouts. The socs run at them. Curly shoves pony and shouts run. Pony runs but he was too late 4 socs grabs him. Three of the socs go at curly. They start fighting. The four socs pick up pony and carry him towards the water fountain.

“NO HELP STOP IT!!” Pony shouts. The socs laugh and start shoving him into the water. He thrashes. They drown him. They laugh at him and one of them dumps alcohol into the water. Ponys kicking starts slowing down. Curly punches the last standing socs. Curly wobbles at he clutches his side. He looks where the socs are drowning him. Ponys kicking has stopped. Curly pulls out his switch blade.

“Looks like we finished what bob started. We killed the little fag!!” One of them shouts. They howl with laughter. Thats when curly sees red and runs over towards them blade in hand.

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Chapter 3: My brother

Summary:

After the incident the two boys go looking for help

Curly gets up and runs over to check on pony he starts shaking him and repeating his name. “Pony, pony, pony, pony, come on man wake up, pony!” Ponyboy coughs and water comes out his mouth. Curly sighs glad pony is Atleast alive. Ponyboy coughs for a little and after he’s done he lays on the concrete and catches his breath. He looks up at curly after a few minutes pass.

“Curls what happened man?” Curly looks at him. He looks so scared and young and even tho he’s soaked to the bone right now and his face is red curly still can’t admire how beautiful he is. Curly blinks and pushes those thoughts away. He clears his throat preparing to tell pony. He opens his mouth to say something but nothing comes out. Pony looks at him confused. Curly sighs.

“I-i killed him, man” curly whispers.

Ponyboy sits up slowly staring at curly then looking at the lifeless soc laying infront of curly. He closes his, hoping this is just a dream and he is really at home sleeping in his and sodas room. He’s disappointed when he opens his eyes and he realizes its not a dream. “Oh gosh, not again please not again.” He thinks outloud
He feels like hes about to puke with the horrible feeling of deja vu.

“Man are you okay? You look like your boutta be sick.”

“Cause I am.” Pony stands up and stumbles a little away from curly and pukes. He finishes and he walks to curly only to fall onto his knees. “Oh my god this can’t be happening again.” He says. Curly just stares. He’s a tough hood he’s been to jail multiple times and he’s been in plenty of fights and yet as he looks at pony and then the lifeless soc’s body he feels scared for the first time in forever. He killed someone. He might hate the soc’s and beat them up all the time but he never expected to actually kill one. Curly snaps out of his thoughts as the shout of his name. He looks back at pony.

“What?” He asked still kinda unfocused.

“We need to go now the other soc’s most likely are already on their way to the police station. We can’t stay here we gotta leave now!” Pony states. Curly nods and stands up. He reaches his hand out for pony to take and pony accepts his offer. After their both standing still hand in hand they look at eachother.

“Where are we gonna go?” Curly questions. Pony thinks for a second. He gets an idea from the last time this happened.

“I know someone we can go to but we need to hurry.” Pony starts dragging curly before he can even respond. Curly just follows his lead.

 

……

They arrive at bucks and stop at the door to take a break. It’s a long walk from the park to bucks and pony isn’t still breathing right after being drowned and curly just isn’t in the right state of mind. As they’re catching their breathes they notice their hands still intertwined. Pony looks at curly and blushes. Curly voids looking at any part of pony as his face heats up and pulls his hand away. Pony frowns and turns to knock on the door. Buck comes and opens it. He sees it pony and curly and groans.

“What do you want kid?” He says directed at ponyboy. He isn’t fazed by curly cause he’s a kinda regular.

“We need to see Dallas, it’s urgent!” Pony says. Buck looks at curly and pony and sees the state their in.

“Fine but your brother better not figure out you’re here. I do not wanna deal with him. Head on up” pony mumbles he won’t and a thanks. He starts heading up and curly follows him. They get to Dallas’s room and knock. They hear a loud groan and feet hit the ground. The door opens harshly. Dallas stands there with a scowl on his face. Once he sees who it is his face still stays a scowl.

“First of all why are you wet and second of all what do you want?” He ask.

“Some soc’s saw us at the park and they started drowning me so curly killed one of them. Now we need help.” Pony spits out. Praying that dally helps him again.

“You got drowned again? Why are you always caught up in the worse situations.” Dally sighs. He looks at pony and curly and realization hits his face. “You know what I was gonna help you but I changed my mind.” Dally smirks

“What why?” Curly finally speaks. His face is actually confused and his eyes are puffy. Pony has the same confused face.

“After how you treated me today at the drive in your lucky I’m not rat and don’t get the police on you two.” Dallas say. Pony frowns and curly rolls his eyes. He’s starting to come back to his regular self still shaken up tho.

“I’m sorry okay! Is that what you wanna hear? I’m sorry so please help us!” Pony begs. Dallas face stays the same.

“I made up my mind and my answer won’t change go find help somewhere else.” Dallas says and he slams the door. Pony feels like crying again and curly looks at ponyboy.

“I have an idea” curly says. He tells pony to follow him and he goes down stairs. “Hey buck can I use your phone?” Curl ask buck at the bar. Bucks huffs and passes him the phone.

“Who are you gonna call?” Ponyboy ask.

“My brother.”

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