You're Selfish! (Vent fic)

by ILoveDannyCooper

Summary:

Stu Macher never meant to hurt anyone, nor did he ever mean to make it all about him! But Tatum Riley thought otherwise, she was very convinced Stu did all of this on purpose. After all the drama Randy Meeks comes over to comfort Stu <3

Vent fic :,)

“You obviously just do not have the skills to focus on more than one person at a time! Also, you pull the stupid fucking Autism card so much! I have issues and so do others!! Don’t use it as an excuse!!” Tatum yelled at Stu.

He stood there, dumbfounded. He couldn’t believe what he just heard. His girlfriend had just accused him of not having the ability to focus on more than one person, and that he “Plays the autism card too much”. He didn’t know what to say, He’d known Tatum for years now. He trusted her with his life. But now all that proves to be pointless.

“You think you can just do whatever because you have autism! You use it as an excuse to just abandon all your friends! You need to fix yourself and learn that not everything is about you. You need to realise that other people matter too, it’s not all about you.” She just kept going, screaming things at Stu. He didn’t know why she was upset, maybe it was because the day prior he had left their school camp early because he puked, but that didn’t make any sense, he had literally been sick! Stu was so confused and just started to cry, lost in a sense of false hope, realising his girlfriend didn’t really like him at all.

“I-I don’t understand!” He yelled back, why would Tatum say such horrible things? Sure sometimes he gets away with things because of his autism but he never uses it to his advantage! He was now crying and just dissociating. “What did I do w-wrong? I just- I have autism! It causes me to act differently than others! I take in things slower than others and have more needs!!”

Tatum looked at him, offended and as if he had done something wrong. “You’re so inconsiderate! On your birthday Claire and I were having issues and you said ‘Well it’s my birthday so this day should be all about me’! You want everything to be about you, you’re so fucking selfish.” She spat these words at him as if he was nothing, he tried his best to understand but he was starting to struggle to breathe. “Oh look! Now you’re gonna have a panic attack all because I told you I’m over your selfish bullshit! This isn’t about you Stu!” Tatum was just saying things, but they were going in and out of Stu’s head.

“I never said it was all about me! And yeah I was kinda u-upset with what happened on my birthday because I wanted attention on me! It was my day…” Stu quietly said, he didn’t want to argue anymore, he just wanted her to stop and leave him alone.

“Yeah well guess what else Stu. Last year I kept making jokes like ‘I’ll kill myself’ but you asked me to stop, and guess what? I fucking stopped. Now you do the same thing!” Tatum remarked, standing up and looking up at Stu, eyes full of anger.

“You never asked me to stop Tatum! If you told me to stop then I would have!! I can’t stop doing what makes you upset if you don’t tell me what’s fucking wrong!” Stu spat back, sitting down on his couch, looking away from Tate.

“You should just know you dumb shit! Autism isn’t an excuse to do the wrong thing. You need to fix yourself and put others first. You abandoned Tim just like you did to Alyssa a few years ago! You’re so inconsiderate!” She said, pacing back and forth, stomping as she walked.

Stu looked up at her through teary eyes, wiping his face and slamming his hand down on the couch in anger. “I never meant to hurt Tim or Alyssa! I can’t focus on multiple people, you said it yourself! I’m trying to though okay? I’m trying so hard to fix myself but you’re now saying I abandoned Tim when I used to be literally infatuated with him! I am less of a bother now, he probably agrees!” He said, starting to scratch at his arms out of anxiety.

“Oh look at that, now you’re hurting yourself! You’re a fucking attention seeker Stu, go get help.” Tatum turned to him and screamed at him.

“I am getting help! You know what? I never even wanted to be your friend after our fight 2 years ago! You forced me to be your friend, and you forced me into this stupid relationship! I hate you Tatum, we’re over and so is our friendship too.”

With that, Tatum left Stu’s house, slamming his front door behind her, leaving him alone with his thoughts. For a while he just sat and cried, but then he grabbed his phone, immediately messaging Randy, Randy had been his best friend for a few months now, he probably knew Stu better than anyone else even though he hadn’t known Stu as long.

Stu messaged Randy through tears, “Tatum fucking hates me! Please come over as soon as you’re available… I need your support”. The message soon sent and Randy immediately messaged back, “On my way now, just stay safe please Stu”.

When Randy walked in, Stu was sat on his couch, wrapped in a blanket and crying. He walked over to Stu, quickly hugging him.

“Oh Stu, I’m so sorry, I’m here..” Randy said softly, gently patting Stu’s back. He just cried into Randy’s arms, upset. Tatum had been Stu’s best friend since primary and his girlfriend for around 4 years. She meant the world to him, but now she had just left him because he struggled with things like friendships and his autism.

“She was being ableist Randy, she said I played the autism card too much… What does that even mean?!” Stu spoke, voice cracking and his voice hoarse. Randy shrugged, not understanding either. “I loved her, I tried to be the best guy ever and she- I don’t understand Randy, and I’m pretty sure Billy is on her side! He- He hates the fact I bring up that we dated… I apologised, I never meant to hurt him! I never meant to hurt anyone… Now all I have is you and Dewey of all people…” He cried, hugging Randy tightly.

“I know Stu, just know I’m on your side, I don’t think you’re an attention seeker at all. And you can’t help the fact you’re autistic, I promise it’s not your fault man, I’m right here with you okay?” Randy patted Stu’s back sympathetically.

“Th-thank you… You’re the best friend ever,” Stu replied, laying down and hugging Randy, knowing the relationship they have is nothing more than platonic, he just enjoys Randy’s company and the fact he’ll hug him no matter what. “I love you man, you deserve the world.”

Randy smiled and hugged Stu again. “Of course Stu, and I love you too, you’re a good best friend and you deserve better than Tatum.”