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It's been billions of years since Earth succeeded. I tried to stop him, no matter how many times, yet it failed the last time. Why do humans have to be so cruel to their home planet? Now look at what happened to Earth. I feel bad for him, he doesn't deserve it. I tried to comfort Luna and myself as well, did it work? I don't even know.
I keep chatting and calling. Not with my friends though. Despite what the therapist was saying, I couldn't bare to listen anymore. I'm glad I can disguise as a moon or asteroid, they can't see my breakdowns. I could've stopped Earth from going into the Sun last time. Yet I was too slow. I don't deserve to be the god of speed, I wasn't even fast enough to save Earth.
The solar system went downhill after Earth's tragedy. We used to be just a good old planets, dwarf planets, moons, Sun, whatever, big family. Yet after the tragedy, Venus got worse on me, taking his anger out on me. I don't blame him. Saturn almost destroyed us when he saw and found out about Earth's successful... I still don't blame him.
Billions of years of our system and years as well after Earth succeeded... And only a few years left until Sun turns into his next life sequence, Red Giant. Jupiter and Sun already told us about it before, before things went downhill.
Me and Venus would be swallowed by the Sun, Earth would be really close to the Sun and intensely heated, if he survived, Mars would be intensely heated as well, Jupiter and Saturn would be the new Goldilocks zone planets and Uranus and Neptune would be much warmer.
I could finally be with Earth again after the remaining years of Sun's first life sequence. We better reunite. I was happy when I realized I was the closest planet to him, and when we were close during orbits. I miss him more than anything. I couldn't stand to be where he didn't see me.
The last few years felt like an eternity. I couldn't wait any longer to join Earth. But I couldn't go off in the same way as him, I don't deserve to, and what will Sun and the others think? Yes, the others don't interact with me that much, but it'll be like Earth all over again. I can't bare them losing one by one.
At least during the Red Giant sequence, mine and Venus' will be at the same time. And it's expected, unlike Earth. I'd rather burn out than fade away into broken pieces of a planet, and there will be evidence.
Last few years of the Sun's main sequence, I just wake up and look at the gaps of remaining sunlight that will be my last. But I will finally join Earth soon, away from all chaos, away from getting hit by asteroids and solar flares. If it has to cost me intense pain and burning then so be it.