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Turning Out
It wasn’t like Jack had meant to do it, it just kind of… happened. It had been the excitement that had made him do it. It wasn’t like he meant to kiss his brother on purpose, even if he kind of had. And it was totally part of Jack’s imagination when Ryan kissed back.
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20 Minutes Earlier
“Are you ready to wrap this up Jack?” Ryan’s voice came from his ear.
Jack looked over to where Ryan was located on the stage and gave him the tiniest of nods before turning back to the audience, singing the finale song of the night.
“ I gotta get better, I’m all that I got
For two or three minutes then I'm gone.”
The finale was great, their best yet on this tour so far, at least Jack thought so. He descended the Toaster that he was on with a giant smile on his face. When he got to the bottom, after a few short seconds, he saw that Ryan had stayed behind and waited for him.
Then it happened, without thinking, Jack ran up to Ryan, grabbed his brothers face, and kissed him square on the lips.
Ryan stiffened but only for a second before he kissed Jack back, hard.
Suddenly it hit Jack what he was doing and he pushed off of Ryan with more force than was likely necessary.
“Oh my god-I-I don-I’m so sorry-” Jack stuttered and then ran.
Jack didn't know where he was running to, he just knew that he had to get away from Ryan. His brother. Brother. Jack had just kissed his brother. And his brother had kissed him back. It was wrong, it was illegal, but it was also so delightfully wonderful.
Jack let out a sob, his legs giving out and he slid to the floor, right there in the hallway where anyone could see him.
How could he have been so stupid? He knew that he has had a crush on Ryan for some time but, years even, but to act on it? The excitement had just been too much.
Jack was so caught up in his thoughts that he didn't hear the footsteps until they were less than 10 feet away.
Before Jack could look up the person spoke, “Jack?” Jack froze when he heard his name, it was Ryan's voice. The middle Met brother didn't sound angry but Jack couldn't take any chances and stayed quiet.
Ryan sighed when Jack didn't answer, he had been expecting a reaction like this but it still hurt. He had been in love with Jack for just as long as Jack had likely been with him.
Jack looked a mess, since he had run from Ryan he had cried and had started to pick at the skin of his fingers, hard enough to almost make them bleed. He had to reassure his younger brother before things got worse or one of them did something that they would later regret.
Ryan sat down and as stiff as Jack already was, he got stiffer. Now was the time, now was the time when Ryan yelled at him, called him disgusting and their relationship as brothers would be ruined forever.
What Jack did not expect however was for Ryan to lean over, grab Jack's face, and before Jack could push him away, he planted his mouth onto Jack's gently.
Jack was shocked beyond belief, in all he had imagined happening, he had never once considered that Ryan would be the one to initiate the kiss.
Ryan pulled back after a couple more seconds and smiled at Jack shyly. “I thought that might be the only way to shut you up.”
Jack just nodded dumbly and couldn't stop his thoughts about how cute Ryan was being right now.
Ryan suddenly became serious again. “Are you okay Jack?”
Jack nodded and smiled back, “So what does this mean for us? I would normally just ask if you wanted to be my boyfriend but…” Jack trailed off and quickly looked away.
Ryan forced Jack to look at him again, by taking the younger one's hand. When Jack finally looked at him Ryan said, “We can still be boyfriends if you want, we would just have to be a little careful and hide our relationship.” Ryan took a breath, “would that be okay with you?”
Jack nodded and then asked, “Can I kiss you now?”
“Yes,” Ryan said and leaned in to grasp the back of Jack's head.
Jack did the same as they kissed coming up briefly to take a breath before kissing Ryan once more. Now that Jack knew how Ryan felt, he didn't want to stop kissing him.
He knew that Ryan felt the same with how he suddenly grabbed Jack by his waist and pulled him up into his lap, connecting their bodies even more.
Jack moaned when Ryan bit his lip and made Ryan groan in turn when he first licked into his older brother, now boyfriend's mouth.
The two only broke off after a long length of time, both panting and gasping for breath. Jack saw that Ryan’s lips were swollen which meant that his likely were as well. Ryan’s hair was also ruffled from Jack's hands. The fact that being Jack's doing made him be extremely pleased.
Jack was still in Ryan’s lap as he connected their lips together, just for a quick kiss, pulling back and resting his forehead against Ryan's.
“We should probably go meet up with the others, they will be wondering where we are,” Jack said.
“We should not go in at the same time though,” Ryan said, “unless you want them to know exactly what we have been doing.”
“True,” Jack said, trying to think of what they could do. “Do you have any ideas Ry?”
“I could go in and tell them that you were really tired?” Ryan proposed, “It is really late after all.”
“That would work,” Jack said with a nod.
Jack backed off of Ryan's lap and slowly stood. He had not expected this night to end this way. The kissing and love and just the overwhelming amount of emotions.
Ryan felt he needed to do something before he left. “Hey Jack,” he said hesitantly.
“Yeah?” Jack said and to Ryan it was adorable.
“I love you,” the words were just barely above a whisper but Ryan meant every one of them.
Jack was stunned but only for a second then, “I love you too.” Then he turned and walked down the hall, towards the direction of the parking lot.
Ryan smiled as he turned to go too, he was happy, certainly happier than he had been in a while. He would seek Jack out back at the hotel later but for now he had a boring meeting ahead. Oh well now he got to think about his new boyfriend during it.
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Jack was tired, that much was true, but he was also waiting to see if Ryan would join him. He had always wanted to sleep next to his brother, but had always thought that that Ryan would find it weird and say no, now that was a whole less likely.
Jack waited for another 20 minutes for Ryan. Then he got ready for bed. Jack changed into sleep pants but kept the white shirt, it smelled like Ryan, not that he was going to tell Ryan himself that. After that he went into the bathroom to brush his teeth and finish getting ready for bed. Jack would take a shower tomorrow morning, he really was too tired right now.
Jack left the bathroom and climbed into the hotel bed. Before he turned off the lights there was a knock at the door.
Jack was hopeful but was careful not to be too hopeful, it could be Adam or one of the other crew members. However Jack was still really hopeful that it would be Ryan.
“Jack?” A voice, Ryan’s voice, called from outside the door.
Jack let out a sigh of relief. “Coming!” Jack called back before getting up and moving towards the door. Jack was excited but nervous, this was a new thing especially because it was Ryan.
Ryan was smiling when Jack opened the door. Jack was trembling slightly, in excitement or fear, he didn't know.
“Hey Jackie,” Ryan said with a soft smile, “can I come in?”
Jack nodded and moved back to let his brother in. “How did the meeting go?”
Ryan didn't speak until he was sat down on Jack's bed. “It was boring but I was hoping that it wouldn't, but…” Ryan smiled at Jack. “We just got back to the hotel about 5 minutes ago. As soon as I was alone, I came here.”
“Thanks,” Jack whispered, he didn't know why but he was feeling really vulnerable and sad right now, he was also slightly nauseous but that was likely from how nervous he was.
Without warning Jack surged forward and wrapped his arms around Ryan, pulling him into a tight hug.
“What’s this for?” Ryan asked, hugging Jack back.
“I just wanted a hug,” Jack said then as an afterthought he very quietly said, “And it's been an overwhelming day.”
As if Ryan heard him, which he might have, 6the older of the two hugged Jack a little tighter.
Jack whispered, “I love you,” and heard Ryan whisper it back.
The two of them hugged for a little while longer before Jack pulled away and cleared his throat, “I should probably go to bed.”
Jack looked away from Ryan, suddenly nervous again. The silence was broken when Ryan spoke, “Would you like me to stay with you tonight?”
Jack's head whipped back so fast that Ryan heard his neck crack. “Yo-you mean it Ry?” Jack whispered hesitantly.
Instead of verbally answering, Ryan nodded. “Just let me go get ready first and I'll be back within the next 20 minutes.”
“Okay,” Jack said, “can I kiss you?” He said this last part a little quietly and nervously.
Ryan let out a breathy laugh, “yeah of course.”
Ryan grabbed Jack's checks gently and angled his face so that he could kiss his boyfriend slowly and gently. Ryan broke the kiss after a moment and stepped back.
“I'll be back,” Ryan whispered so as to not break the moment. Then he left the hotel room, leaving Jack alone with his thoughts.
As soon as Jack was sure Ryan was gone he sat down on the bed, right where Ryan had sat. Jack smiled, he was happy. He was so glad that Ryan felt the same way as him. Jack smiled and turned off the light. He was waiting in the dark for Ryan to come back.
After a few minutes Jack got bored, so he grabbed his phone, which was resting on the nightstand. On impulse he texted Ryan.
J: Are you almost ready?
R: Yes, I'll be there in a few
J: Okay, see you then
R: See you Jackie ❤️
Jack smiled and set down his phone. He was hoping that Ryan would never decide that being with Jack was wrong and he didn't want it anymore. But Jack was almost certain that would never happen.
There was a knock and Jack jumped out of bed, throwing off the covers as quickly as he could. Then he rushed over to the door and opened it.
“Come in,” Jack said once he saw that it was Ryan.
Ryan did, stepping into Jack's dark hotel room. Jack noticed that Ryan had changed into sleep clothes. A pair of black sleep pants and a dark blue t-shirt. Ryan was also wearing some slippers on his feet, black and fluffy.
Jack walked toward the bed and got into it laying down and waiting for Ryan to do the same. Ryan did so almost immediately, he wouldn't want to keep his boyfriend waiting after all.
When they were both settled in Jack asked, “How was your day?” He knew that it was cheesy and lame but he wanted to ease the tension.
Ryan snorted but decided to humor his boyfriend, “I'm doing alright, my day was pretty awesome though?” Then he turned onto his side and looked at Jack. “How was your day?”
“Also pretty good,” Jack said, “I had a little bump in the road but everything is good now.”
“I have a question,” Ryan said hesitantly.
“What is it?” Jack asked, just as quiet and hesitantly.
“Can I spoon you?” Ryan asked.
Jack had never been spooned before but he was all for it. “Yeah, you can,” he told Ryan, as he turned onto his other side, now facing away from Ryan.
Ryan moved closer while at the same time he grabbed Jack and pulled him in closer to his chest.
“Is this alright?” Ryan asked and Jack nodded against Ryan.
“Goodnight Jack,” Ryan said sleepily.
“Goodnight Ryan,” Jack said back, closing his eyes.
It didn't take long before both men were asleep, with dreams of the days events in their heads. Jack was glad about how the day turned out and couldn't wait to see what would come next.