Please (Don't?) Hurt Me

by Anonymous

Summary:

The adrenaline rush he gets is addicting. His mind becomes darker, his desires stronger than his morals. He thinks that's what makes it fun - knowing that he's basically sexually assaulting the sweet, kind, innocent man, and that he has no idea about it.

OR

Gunwook is fucked in the head and rapes Hanbin.

Notes:

This is my first time writing smut and it's s very.. intense. Like massive Trigger Warning. I know there's a chance some people will be upset, but the tags are there. Don't like don't read.

Chapter 1: More

Gunwook stares, observing a sleeping Hanbin. The leader is wearing an oversized white tee shirt and impossibly short shorts that would probably fit on a girl. His smooth skin calls out to Gunwook, enticing and sexual, although he finds everything about Hanbin sexual.

He doesn't remember when this little crush turned so dark, but he knows. He knows what he's doing is weird, and maybe it wouldn't be weird if all he did was watch Hanbin sleep, but the maknae finds he isn't satisfied with just watching him. It isn't until hes purchasing a secret phone just to take pictures that he fully realizes that he's acting creepy.

It started off innocent, his heart skipping as he looks at his hyung napping and deciding to put a blanket over him. He watches as Hanbin snuggles up on the couch, unconscious and unaware of Gunwook's presence. So, he decides to test just how heavy of a sleeper his hyung is.

It goes from testing if he would wake up from a loud noise, to raising and dropping the leader's arms, then all of a sudden he's curious as to how much clothes he can take off of him without him waking up

The adrenaline rush he gets is addicting. His mind becomes darker, his desires stronger than his morals. He thinks that's what makes it fun - knowing that he's basically sexually assaulting the sweet, kind, innocent man, and that he has no idea about it.

 

He's so obsessed with the older that he can't go a day without jerking off to him, whether he's masturbating to a picture of him, his clothes, his voice, or, even better, to his real, sleeping face.

The worst he's done so far (other than undressing him) is cum on his face and hair, but today feels different. He doesn't just want to look at Hanbin, he wants to touch him. So, he does exactly that.

 

He slides his hands up Hanbin's legs, over his thighs and under his shorts. He's not wearing any underwear, doesn't wear it at all when he sleeps actually. Gunwook kneads and caresses the flesh, feeling the soft skin under his fingers.

"God you're so fucking pretty hyung." He mutters under his breath.

Getting impatient, he slides off Hanbin's shorts and let's out a groan at the sight of his cock. It's not extremely small, but definitely a lot smaller than Gunwook's, which honestly turns him on a lot.

His hands and eyes wander all over the older's body. Everything about him is smaller than Gunwook. He's thought about what would happen if Hanbin did ever wake up, and he's become content with acknowledging that he could easily just pin him down. The thought of doing just that excites him, cock twitching as he imagines his hyung struggling against his grip, but to no avail. Fuck, the image of Hanbin's thrashing slowing to a stop as he realizes he can't do anything, that he's weaker than Gunwook and oh so helpless.. it could keep him going for days.

He grabs the lube and squeezes some on Hanbin's soft cock, chuckling as he watches him shiver. He has fun toying around with it, eyes lighting up as he sees it become erect. He's basically drowned Hanbin's cock with enough lube that it drips down to his hole and piles under him on the bed.

Gunwook's heart races, much like the first time he watched his hyung sleep, as he circles Hanbin's hole. It's pretty, like the rest of him, and man is it tight. He slowly inserts one finger, practically drooling as he watches the rim drag against his finger that he pulls back and forth. It's obscene, and Gunwook decides at this moment to grab his phone and record.

He makes sure Hanbin's legs are spread enough, bunching his shirt up so that his chest is visible and trying his best to angle his phone just right that he captures everything, including Hanbin's face.

He slowly adds more fingers, soaking up the sound of Hanbin's pants and whines. It isn't until he curls his fingers a certain way that he actually heard him moan. It's long and drawn out and feminine, and it's the most beautiful sound Gunwook has heard in his entire life. He wants to hear more.

He starts massaging the same spot, hitting Hanbin's prostate over and over again. He's rock hard right now, no thanks to the older's reaction. He stares at Hanbin's face, scrunched up in beautiful bliss. Drool leaks at the corner of his mouth, his hair sticking to his sweaty forehead. His chest rises up and down with his heavy breaths and moans, his fingers twitching. More. Gunwook wants to see more.

He does his best to prop up his phone on Hanbin's bunched up shorts, making sure it's still recording before he practically abuses the leader's prostate. He's rough, so rough that he's almost sure Hanbin will wake up. His free hand reaches up to Hanbin's erect member, sloppily jerking him off. And with all of this, Gunwook gets what he wants. He sees more.

Hanbin is gripping the sheets now, body unconsciously rocking down to follow Gunwook's fingers. He's moaning a lot, and loudly. It almost sounds like he's in pain with how unstable his breathing gets, but Gunwook knows he feels good. The sight of Hanbin's face is truly all that he really needs. The older lightly tosses his head side to side, drool dripping down his chin before his entire body arches, and suddenly he's completely silent.

Thick ropes of cum spurt out of his cock, his orgasm so strong that the substance makes good distance, not only leaking all over Gunwook's hands but landing on his own face and chest. Gunwook keeps going until the older thrashes against his touch, sensitive and twitching. He's in awe as he turns his semen drenched fingers around, staring at the goopy consistency.

"That's so fucking hot." Gunwook groans.

He looks up to see Hanbin has in fact woken up. He's confused, a dazed look in his eyes as he tries catching his breath. The maknae can see the exact moment the leader realizes it's him.

"Gunwookie?" Hanbin's voice wavers, hoarse and barely above a whisper. "What's going on? What are you doi-mmph!!"

As Hanbin was becoming aware, Gunwook had already collected the cum on his chest with his fingers, shoving it into the other's mouth before he could finish his sentence. He enjoys the startled look he sees in Hanbin's eyes, the alarmed noises coming from his mouth that turn into actual gags as Gunwook fucks his throat with his fingers.

At this point Hanbin is flailing around. At first he tries to get Gunwook to remove his fingers from his mouth, which only results in him pressing deeper, and for a good few seconds Hanbin is convinced Gunwook actually wants to make him throw up. It's all too much, all too fast. He's kicking and hitting Gunwook now, and when he actually smacks Gunwook on the head pretty hard he's able to make him stop. But he sees Gunwook's expression change, which gets him to freeze completely.

Gunwook removes his fingers from Hanbin's mouth but is quick to wrap his hand tightly around his throat. The leader can't handle such lack of oxygen and can only manage to grip Gunwook's wrist. Gunwook considers pinning Hanbin's wrists together with his other hand, but when he notices the elders grip becoming weak and his face becoming pink, he decides to just use both hands to choke him instead.

"If you scream when I let go I'll fucking kill you." Gunwook growls. "Nod if you understand."

Hanbin is beyond panicking, he's genuinely terrified he's gonna die and too unfocused to respond. This angers Gunwook even more.

"I said nod if you understand." He repeats.

Hanbin's face is bright red now, his eyes bloodshot. Gunwook thinks he looks so beautiful like this, but let's go when the older brings up enough energy to nod.

Hanbin breathes in and out, and like he promised, he doesn't scream. He's lightheaded and the room is spinning and he feels scared but all he's focused on is catching his breath. He forgets about Gunwook until he feels something prod at his bottom.

He's wide awake now, and as much as he doesn't want to believe this isn't happening, he knows that it is. He, Sung Hanbin, leader of Zerobaseone, is being raped by the maknae of Zerobaseone, Park Gunwook.

"Gunwook wait-" His voice sounds scared, even to him. "Slow down Gunwook please Wookie please don't do this I'm your hyung please-"

His begging is unsuccessful as Gunwook inserts himself into him. He wails in embarrassment as he realizes the maknae is easily able to slide in.

The maknae thrusts harshly, groaning at the sight of his cock disappearing into his hyung. He's living the dream, fucking the love of his life to his hearts content. When he notices Hanbin's cock has become erect, he smiles. Hanbin knows, and attempts to cover up. He feels humiliated. He doesn't want this, but his body is reacting differently.

"Don't hide hyung, it's okay." Gunwook attempts to sound sweet, but only comes off as condescending. "I want to make you feel good too hyung."

The younger's attempt at soothing him contrasts from his earlier threats, and a sob erupts from Hanbin's chest. He's so, so confused. He's terrified of the maknae, he just wants this to end. Tears flow out of his eyes and he throws his hands over his face. He probably looks so pathetic right now, his legs spread as his maknae takes advantage of him.

"I like how you sound when you cry hyung." Gunwook manages to mutter through his thrusts. "I know it shouldn't, but it turns me on."

"Please... stop talking like that and just get this over with already." Hanbin's voice cracks as he begs.

He feels Gunwook slow down, and suddenly his hands are being brought away from his face. Through his blurred, teary vision he sees Gunwook. His Wookie. The one he knows. Not the one who choked him, but Gunwookie. The real Gunwook.. or what he hopes is the real Gunwook.

"I love you hyung." Gunwook confesses. "I don't want you to hate me."

And God, Hanbin is so, extremely confused. A moan slips out as he feels Gunwook thrust into him, hitting a spot that actually sorta feels good. Well, it felt good from the begining - he did wake up to an amazing orgasm after all, but he doesn't want to think about that. He doesn't want to admit that... But it's hard when the younger man wraps his hand around his length, teasing the head before jerking him in sync with his thrusts.

Right now, the look in Gunwook's eyes look like... Love. He's staring at Hanbin like he's the most beautiful thing to exist, trying his best to make Hanbin feel good. It does. It feels really fucking good, and if Hanbin thinks about it too hard he'll probably have a panic attack so he's just choosing to dissociate for now.

"Do you feel good too Hanbin hyung?" Gunwook asks, and Hanbin doesn't know how to respond, doesn't want to respond.

"I'm-I'm close..." The younger boy's hips stutter and his pace becomes erratic. "Tell me you feel good too hyung. Say it. Please."

Hanbin's mind is breaking. This can't be real. Gunwook can't be doing this to him. It doesn't make sense. One second Gunwook is hurting him, one second he's saying he loves him. He's so lost in his head that he doesn't notice Gunwook's shift until it's too late.

PLAP!

Hanbin's cheek stings where Gunwook had just slapped him, but he doesn't get a chance to fully process it when the maknae harshly grips his jaw. He's forced to look directly into his eyes, and it's bewildering how the sweet Gunwookie he knows has disappeared within seconds. He feels like he can't breathe, even though Gunwook's hands aren't around his throat anymore he feels scared, as if breathing will make Gunwook mad. Gunwook's mad right now. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck no Gunwook -

"Please Gunwook I'm sorry I'm sorry Gunwookie please don't-"

PLAP!

"Just. Fucking. Say. It." Gunwook enunciates each word with a harsh thrust, and Hanbin finds himself crying again.

"I- I don't know what - I'm - I'm sorry Wookie please-"

His words are cut off as Gunwook connects his lips onto his. He's kissing him, kissing him passionately at that. And again, it's like the old Gunwookie is back. He's completely lost, losing himself in the moment and he really doesn't want to admit it but he feels good. Gunwook is crazily good at sex. Is that what this is? Sex? It's rape, he knows it is but-

"Tell me you feel good too." Gunwook pulls apart to repeat his demand for the third time, his voice is just as sweet as when he first said it.

And Hanbin really, really doesn't want to say it, but Gunwook is unpredictable and he's not gonna risk anything right now. So, he wraps his arms behind Gunwook's head and clings on to him.

"It feels good. I feel good too Gunwook."

Hanbin's stomach burns with shame as he says the words, but it seems to satisfy the younger as he immediately cums on the spot. He feels it gush into him at what seems to be a constant flow. This whole thing seems to be constant and neverending. But it's done now, right?

Hanbin's erection stands against his stomach. He feels a mixture of emotions, but the main ones are confusion, shame, guilt, fear, and... arousal. He doesn't know why, but his hand finds its way down to his throbbing cock. Even after everything, even after logically knowing he didn't want any of this, for some reason the friction between his hand is delicious.

Gunwook's eyes sparkle at the scene unfolding before him. Hanbin uses one hand to play with his nipple as he hastily jerks off, looking directly into Gunwook's eyes. Although he had just orgasmed, Gunwook's cock hardens again as it's still in Hanbin's ass.

"Look at you~" Gunwook smirks as he begins to fuck into Hanbin again. "What a fucking slut."

Hanbin shakes his head. He doesn't like this. He's not a slut. This is wrong. It's supposed to be done now. Why does it keep going? Why doesn't it stop? Why does it feel so good?

"I'm not... A slut" Hanbin says with whatever little dignity he has left.

Gunwook chuckles at the older, and for some reason the look on his face is oddly attractive. It's humiliating. Hanbin feels extremely humiliated. Everything about this humiliates him, from knowing that Gunwook is younger than him to knowing that he's been moaning the loudest he ever has in his entire life. But, what's most humiliating is that it makes him grip his cock even tighter, makes his tip leak with an insane amount of precum.

"Ohh really? You're not a slut?" Gunwook taunts. "I think we need to fact check that.. after all, I know you know that I'm raping you..."

Right.. Hanbin is being raped. That's what this is.

"The thing is, if you cum while being raped, it automatically makes you a slut. Did you know that?"

Hanbin let's out a whimper. He doesn't understand why... But the combinations of emotions he's experiencing all blend together and he decides he wants to see if Gunwook can make him feel good, even better than he has felt this whole time.

"Are you sure you can even make me cum?" Hanbin sneers, and like a switch, he can see in Gunwook's eyes that he isn't happy.

Chapter 2

Notes:

Hii sorry for the super late update! I've been busy and kind of rushed this, so I apologize if the pace seems off.

The next chapter will be about Hanbin and Gunwook's relationship after the rape. There won't be smut, but there's a lot of emotional manipulation and victim blaming. If you've read this far you probably are already aware of the tags but just adding trigger warnings as a reminder!

Also feedback is greatly appreciated! This fic is my first time writing smut.. I hope it's not awkward lol

Gunwook has always been competitive, so it's no surprise when he takes Hanbin's words as a challenge. It's wrong, God he knows that what he's doing is wrong, and that's precisely why it feels so fucking good.

"I dunno hyung, what do you think?" Gunwook's face is dark as tightens his grip on Hanbin's waist.

He leans down, tracing his nose around the older's chest, making his way up before mouthing on his sharp collarbones. This close, he can hear Hanbin's breathing, like really hear it. The shakiness, the pace, everything about it let's Gunwook know that the other is anxious. Scared. Expecting. He assumes this is what it feels like when animals can smell fear.

"Hm? Don't you believe in me hyung? You think I can't do it?" The maknae mumbles as he mouths at Hanbin's neck. "What kind of leader are you Sung Hanbin? Shouldn't you have more faith in me?"

He shallowly thrusts into the other man, moving up so he moans directly in front of one of Hanbin's ears and fuck, this is not what he expected. He figured Gunwook would be angry, would fuck him rough until he's shaking. Instead, the younger decides to do what he does best - be unpredictable.

"It's okay if you don't wanna be a slut Hanbin hyung. That's fine." Gunwook leans up, and now Hanbin can see his face again. "That just means you can't cum."

Hanbin only has half a second to register the other's statement before he's having the living daylights fucked out of him. It's fast and hard and it's so, so much. He can feel Gunwook hitting just the right spot, fucking him just the right way. There's no way this is rape. It feels too good.

At the intense pace Gunwook's hips are moving, Hanbin's orgasm builds up in an embarrassingly short amount of time. His mind is blank, all he can focus on is the pleasure, the growing pit in his stomach, and the way Gunwook looks above him. He'd be lying if he said he didn't find Gunwook attractive, but he's never seen the younger like this - hanging above him, his gaze full of hunger and desire. It makes him feel... Wanted.

Apparently Gunwook call tell he's close, his hands wrapping around Hanbin's length. It feels oddly intimate like this, and Hanbin can't stop thinking about Gunwook's earlier words.

"I love you hyung."

Love. He had said he loves Hanbin.

Maybe that's what this is. Hanbin feels good, and Gunwook said he loves him. This can't be rape. This... This is love. They're making love. Gunwook isn't raping him, he's making love to him.

Hanbin is close, he's so, so close. So close, that he forgets he even challenged Gunwook less than six minutes earlier. He begins to feel it, feel the orgasm that he already knows is going to make his eyes roll back. But it doesn't come. He doesn't cum. Gunwook squeezes at the base of his cock, tight and so insanely painful that Hanbin actually shouts in agony.

Gunwook stares at the older's face, contorted from an expression of pure pleasure into extreme anguish. All because of Gunwook. He didn't think ruining someone's orgasm would be so fun, but the second Hanbin actually starts full on sobbing, tears streaming down his cheeks, he knows that this won't be the last time.

"W-Why.." Hanbin is wiping his eyes, and maybe this is the most emotional he's been throughout the whole thing.

"What do you mean why?" Gunwook innocently asks as he pets the older's hair. "If you cum while being raped, it means you're a slut. You don't wanna be a slut now, do you Hanbin?"

Hanbin starts crying so hard his head hurts. Gunwook's right, he did say he wasn't a slut. This isn't making love, this is rape. He knows it is. Everything is clear but he's still so confused because he doesn't want it, knows that he shouldn't like it, but at the same time he does.

Gunwook stares for a good while, relishing in the sight of Hanbin's pathetic sobs. His dick is still buried inside of him, and he didn't think it could get any harder, but it does as a light bulb goes off in his brain when he remembers - he's recording all of his.

"Aw.. look at what we have here." Gunwook's voice is too light, to airy for what he's doing. "It's Sung Hanbin, the leader of ZeroBaseOne."

A hand gently caress the side of Hanbin's shoulder before running down his chest and abs, the phone camera following until getting close up to Hanbin's soft cock. The mere idea of an orgasm has long left Hanbin's mind. He just wants this to stop.

"Zeroses, you might be wondering, why is our precious Hanbinnie crying so hard?" Hanbin can tell this is way too fun for the younger.

"Well, it might come off as a surprise, but our little leader didn't get to cum. He said he's not a slut, so as the perfect maknae I am, I ruined his orgasm for him." Gunwook talks like he's recording a regular video.

"I'm showing you him, because this is what your perfect Sung Hanbin looks like when he's broken. When he knows he's being raped but wants it anyways."

And that's what gets to Hanbin. He's seriously hyperventilating now. He's spiraling bad, Gunwook's words repeating in his head over and over again because.. they're true. They're true and it makes him feel shame, heavy in his stomach.

"No.. I DON'T.. I don't want this Gunwook.." Hanbin is finally able to speak. "Y-you're fucking gross Park Gunwook. You're a fucking FREAK - you're - you-"

And again, Gunwook's hand is around his throat. This time, he let's it rest there, only applying a gentle pressure.

"Fuuuckkkk yesss.. keep talking like that hyung." Gunwook shoves the camera into Hanbin's face. The nineteen year old has never been this turned on before.

"God, it's so fun raping you." The younger man practically giggles, and under normal circumstances Hanbin would find it cute, but right now it sounds extremely condescending.

Hanbin's mind is blank. The pressure on his neck makes him just lightheaded enough that it feels safe and scary yet... Comfortable. Gunwook enjoys this. This has probably been the best part so far - watching his leader dissociate. He's pliant, quiet as he let's Gunwook take whatever he wants.

The maknae takes his sweet time fucking into him, changing his pace from brutally fast, to slow and sensual. He makes sure to record everything, getting close ups of Hanbin's glazed eyes, his asshole sucking in Gunwook's cock, the cum all over his body that builds up after the maknae keeps going, round after round.

He even gets Hanbin to say what he wants, whenever he wants, all with the promise that this will be the last time.

"Just this last time hyung. I'll cum just this one last time and then it'll all be over. Say it for me, hm? Won't you say it? Don't you want this to stop?" Gunwook speaks sweetly, smiling as Hanbin nods at his words, a promise he's made multiple times and never keeps.

Hanbin has no energy for this to mess his with head any more than it already has. He's tired, spent from all the orgasms that naturally happened as his body is being stimulated against his will. His brain is foggy, he honestly can't really even register when he cums because he doesn't exactly feel like he's in his body anyways.

"Go on. Say it. You know what I wanna hear." At Gunwook's encouraging words, Hanbin puts in extra effort to move his mouth.

"I'm.. I'm a slut. I like being raped." His voice is breathy, barely a whisper.

Gunwook grins. If he knew raping Sung Hanbin would be this fun, he would've done it ages ago.