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It was a normal day for Spencer well almost normal he’s been having issues with his wife lately and conflicting feelings with his friend Ricky but he can’t worry about that right now he has a child to focus on. Spencer grabbed a toy car and handed it to Gage and watched him play with it and sometimes have to to get up himself to get the car when Gage threw it to far this kept going until Nadia walked inside the room with her planning look on her face. “Nadia! honey! how are you and what’s with the look?” before Nadia got to say anything there was a knock at their door which caused Spencer to get up and Nadia to look towards the door Spencer recognized the knock it was their older neighbor Jud was his name? he wasn’t sure admittedly but he went to the door and opened it “Hey Spencer um.. you mind coming over right quick you might need to see this.” Spencer looked confused but nodded his head he followed his neighbor to a spot in the road where a dead cat laid.
“Is this your sons? you mentioned having a cat no?” he stared at the cat for a little bit until he eventually determined that it was in fact his sons cat. “Yeah..but thinking on it how the hell do you explain death to such a little kid.” he watched his neighbor tilt his head and pick up the cat which was utterly disgusting to Spencer “Maybe you won’t have to Spencer.” he watched his neighbor walk away confused until he realized he was heading towards the local cemetery or somewhere close by he wanted to ask what he meant but he knew how secretive he was. Spencer walked back to the house and sat down, Nadia on the floor with Gage he sighed and tried resting until he got jerked awake by Nadia grabbing his face basically squeezing his cheeks and making stupid noises “Nadia.. really.” she smiled and giggled before heading to their bedroom he looked outside noticing how late it was how did it get dark so..maybe he did fall asleep he got up and picked up Gage carrying him to his crib and laying him in it giving his tiny forehead a kiss.
Spencer finally went to the shared bedroom and grabbed some pajamas before changing into them he looked towards the bed seeing Nadia peacefully sleeping he oddly dreaded sleeping with her recently maybe it’s been because of how off she’s been recently she’s hardly been playing with Gage to she’s never done that before and admittedly Ricky felt more comfortable when it came to sharing a bed that one time he had to when everyone came over and Nadia refused to let him inside the room. He sighed and laid down with her trying to get comfortable which took a few minutes but he eventually fell asleep he slept well until he heard a meow? but how the cat was dead he slowly woke up and had to hold in a scream once he noticed the cat quite literally on top of him staring him down. He had no idea on what to do so he slowly lifted his arm and started petting the cat until he fell asleep he sighed and dropped back down staring at the ceiling how was the cat back what did his neighbor do? he fell back asleep after a good 10 minutes he got woken up by Nadia complaining about how the cat stinks and looks dirty he looked at his hand just now noticing how dirty his hand actually was he got up and reached out for the cat Nadia eventually handing him the cat he tiredly walked to the bathroom and turned the water on in the the tub before closing and locking the door. He went to put the cat into the water when it came back and scratched him across his eye “AY! NO.” he eventually got him into the water and got a rag to hold over his eye until he got the cat clean and instead of picking him up again Spencer just unlocked the door and opened it watching it run out.
He found some bandages that he put over the scratch that should work for a little while before leaving. He went downstairs about to properly say good morning to Nadia until his phone rang he checked who it was and it was Ricky? why was she calling so early he shrugged and answered and god his ear was going to suffer after the yelling she started with. “Spencer! you need to come down here a boy got hit and-!” sometimes Spencer forgets he actually has medical knowledge so he quickly ran back to get into some better clothing, Ricky still yelling at him to hurry up since he was the closest person with any sort of knowledge he grabbed medical supplies and rushed down and out the door he got into the car and drove there Ricky looking horrified by the time he did he grabbed all the supplies he had and rushed over and jesus christ..you could see the guys brain he stared for a little bit until figuring out what he might need he took care of the wound the best he could before putting bandages on it he watched for the ambulance that arrived a good 20 minutes later. The paramedics finally took control of the situation and all Spencer could really do was stare at how bloody he was which he didn’t like admittedly being covered with blood in any way is why he didn’t become a doctor like he wanted to.
Ricky started shaking him which eventually got his attention. Turns out he was being questioned and didn’t realize it. “So you’re the one that took care of the boy's wound?” Spencer was trying to think of a response. I mean obviously he was but he just couldn’t talk even if he wanted to so instead he looked at Ricky hoping she’d catch on and thankfully she did. “Yes sir, he's the person who tried helping. I had called him over in a panic because he was the closest person I could think of.” the officer nodded and urged Spencer to move somewhere else possibly to either question him alone or what Spencer hoped to get the blood off of his hands he awkwardly stood where he was told to go and got questioned more unfortunately he answered the best he could which was only 3-6 words at best he was finally able to get the blood off of his hands and get all of his things back he started heading to his car before Ricky had stopped him she hugged him tightly, confused Spencer hugged back and rubbed her back slightly. “Uhh..Ricky? what’s up?” all she did was hum as a response looks like she was enjoying the little messuage she was getting after a few minutes she got out of his grip and left waving back at Spencer..he was still so confused but shrugged it off trying to ignore the fact he was already missing the feeling of her warmth.
He finally got into the car and drove home he could tell something was off with Ricky but he wasn’t sure what but he didn’t want to bother her about it maybe it was the longer hair? he didn’t know he arrived at the house and got out admittedly he forgot about his eye and took the bandages off he could care less if his scratch hurt by now he went and checked the door and surprisingly enough it was unlocked Nadia never..something really isn’t right Spencer looked over to the trail by his house that he’s always refused to go down but curiosity has been getting to him lately he closed the door and locked it for the sake of it and walked towards the path he felt dread the moment he got to the start of the trail but he couldn’t stop now he started walking down it the forest taking over more of it the more he went down and his breathing getting louder it felt like he was going to a different world at this point. He finally got to the end his head feeling fuzzy and his body feeling weak geez how long is that path for him to end up like this it looked like an odd small version of the cemetery but with nothing but a circle of rocks and a small grave for a..cat? something had been put in that circle recently to. Spencer tried backing away to head back but he couldn’t and he passed out right there in the “cemetery”.
After who knows how long Spencer woke up with Ricky over him? how did she even find him..she quickly jumped up and tried to help him up but god his body still felt heavy he tried getting up to put less weight on her and after a few tries he eventually got up Ricky helping him back to the house. Ricky knocked on the door and after a while Nadia finally answered she had an unreadable look on her face but the stare she gave Ricky wasn’t to kind. “Lord Nadia..I don’t know why you’re staring at Ricky like that but nothing happened Ricky found me passed out at the end of the trail near our house.” her stare darted towards Spencer and she sighed she helped him in and waved at Ricky before closing the door and putting Spencer on the couch. “Oh right honey I planned a picnic with our neighbor’s and don’t worry Ricky and everyone else is invited.” Spencer nodded his head to what she said before passing out again he woke up outside with Nadia standing across the street he started rushing over to her until he noticed headlights and it was too late he couldn’t move in time before the truck hit him. Spencer jerked up breathing heavily still on the couch he realized his phone was ringing and he answered it the best he could. “Spencer! there you are I’ve been calling for ages uh I know she probably didn’t tell you so the picnic is in a few months can’t wait to see you there.” Spencer tried to respond but all that came out was gibberish geez what is up with him today. “Just waking up again huh..and um take care of yourself okay, byee.” and the call ended just like that he just dropped the phone onto the floor before staring at the ceiling until it was at least 12am but he couldn’t sleep again and he knew it.
He got up and tried walking over to the house calendar stumbling a few times and looked through to see if Nadia labeled when the picnic was and thankfully she did it was a good few months away so that was good maybe he could fix himself enough up for the picnic. He looked out the window noticing his neighbor was out on his porch which was surprising considering his age he struggled to get to the door but he eventually did he went out and waved, one hand holding onto the doorframe and he watched his neighbor wave back. Spencer knew the idea was stupid but he started out to the road looking both ways before running across he did fall and scratch his elbow and knee a bit but he got up quickly and out of the road right before a truck came speeding by wow that was lucky..he dusted himself off and went onto the older man’s porch and sat beside him awkwardly looking at the ground. “You sure took a tumble Spencer and have you heard about the boy earlier? he unfortunately died a while after getting to the closest hospital but hey looks like your butting in saved him for a bit.” Spencer looked towards the older man shocked there’s no way that’s what could’ve helped him it wasn’t much anyways.
“That..entire experience was horrible and I’ve been meaning to ask..the cat what did you do to the cat how is he back.” he watched his neighbor sip his beer and finally look over. “I brought him back Charnas, did you never hear about where that trail near your house leads to? I’m surprised you haven’t caught on considering you’ve went I mean look at you, covered in dirt and blood.” Spencer looked at him even more confused unsure of what to say about that but he tried. “What’s so..important about that trail tell me please.” his neighbor gave him a small smile and laughed “It’s a haunted place a place where the dead can come back to the living if you bury them there but there’s never a guarantee they’ll come back right and if that’s the case then dead is better.” Spencer shook his head there’s no way he said that..but he didn’t deny that I mean his kids dead cat is back he eventually sighed and got up waving towards his neighbor before heading back to his house.
As the months passed he kept noticing things off about Ricky her constantly messing with her hair and looking uncomfortable in her own clothing and admittedly she had asked him about dresses from time to time which he tried his best to find her some. But sadly he’s never seen her in them he’s occasionally seen her in makeup as well but he never questioned it he felt like it’d be wrong to. The day finally arrived and he thought it’d be sweet to go see Ricky what could go wrong? her house was close by anyways so he went over to her house and knocked on the door and he checked to see if it was unlocked and knowing Ricky it probably was she forgot to lock it from time to time. And of course it was unlocked so he quietly peaked inside obviously he wasn’t going to walk right in and he didn’t see her maybe she wasn’t home? he walked in and looked around until he saw the bathroom light on and he knocked on the doorframe and poked his head in suddenly getting a hair brush to the face. “Spencer! Jesus, why didn’t you say you were coming over..” He held his face and shook his head. “I wanted to see you before the picnic and to see if you needed help..” She looked surprised and took Spencer’s hand making sure she didn’t break his nose or anything. Spencer finally got a good look at Ricky she had makeup and a dress on she looked..beautiful okay maybe he had feelings for Ricky but there’s no way he’d come out about it it’s wrong not because of whatever Ricky has going on it’s just Spencer has a wife he shouldn’t be feeling stuff for another person no?
“Spencer? Spencer, are you okay?” Ricky had her hand on his cheek kind of rubbing his nose with her thumb. He went to respond but he couldn't. All he could really do was look at her in awe before she started giggling a little bit. “Well I should get out of this before meeting with everyone..but I’m glad you at least find it pretty.” he just nodded and smiled before finally leaving Ricky's place and going to the spot, he was in his favorite casual clothes since they felt nice and comfortable. He sat beside Nadia at the table as they waited for everyone to arrive before Nadia went inside to get Gage and the picnic basket Spencer looked around for Ricky she was in a shirt and jeans Spencer oddly missed the dress he didn’t know why he honestly didn’t understand anything going on with Ricky was she a woman? but didn’t say anything? and yet he couldn’t stop himself from staring at her, she was just so pretty either way. Nadia came back with Gage and the basket she put it down then she put Gage down letting him run around while everyone was eating and talking nobody noticed Gage running towards the cat in the street it only got noticed when tires started screeching and Nadia finally poked Spencer pointing it out towards him. Spencer got up and ran as quickly as he could towards the road but he wasn’t quick enough and the sounds of a body being hit like a odd wet noise with cracking and bending well to Spencer that’s how it sounded he fell to the ground hugging the distorted body of his child all he could really do was start crying he could care less about the blood for once.
After a while he was still on the ground but the body was gone someone had called the cops he didn’t know who did though everyone looked distraught and disturbed but Nadia he didn’t know how to explain the look she had but he didn’t like it Spencer tried to get up but Ricky rushed over and put him back on the ground. She was saying something to him but honestly he couldn’t hear her he really couldn’t hear anything other than distant sirens and screams he just kept staring at Nadia something about how she looked ticked him off like a time bomb somehow.
After a while everyone finally noticed Spencer on the ground and decided to help him inside, his clothes still very bloody and dirty. Patrick was holding his face towards him and yelling god knows what but Spencer had no idea what was being said and it must’ve been obvious when Patrick let go and looked concerned at the others. Next thing he knew he was just being held by Nadia and Ricky being taken to the closest bathroom it wasn’t long before they got to it and Ricky left leaving just Nadia and Spencer in the bathroom admittedly he didn’t feel safe but he wasn’t sure why, Nadia helped him get out of the bloody clothes that he really didn’t want to wash. He stood and watched the tub fill up with water with Nadia rubbing his back until he finally got in and just soaked in the water until he fell asleep in the tub he woke up in his bed with a new set of clothes on and thankfully everything looked fine. Nadia walked in and sighed before mentioning that she added something to the calendar or that’s what Spencer thinks she said he’s still a little out of it so he got up and went downstairs to the calendar.
It was a funeral it was most likely Gages and it was like reality hit him all over again that his child is actually dead. He stumbled back and shook his head he tried acting like he read it wrong but he knew he didn’t he looked around looking at all the toys and things they had gotten for Gage admittedly mostly from Spencer himself he spoiled that kid so much. Nadia came down into the room why does she still not look distraught Spencer can’t tell if he’s seeing what he wants to see or what but it definitely was real whenever Nadia went up to him and started messing with his hair. It was quite nice until she grabbed it and yanked him down to her height like it was some sort of warning and it hurt pretty badly considering how tightly she grabbed his hair. “Karma’s nice isn’t it? mm..nothing’s going to be the same after that funeral Charnas.” She let go and walked away after that what did she mean about karma? karma for what? he had no idea what Nadia was on about at all he started rubbing his head and sat down just deciding to look at his phone. He scrolled to Rickys contact and debated calling her but would it go badly? well..she is a better bet than Nadia so he called and waited to see if she’d answer he stared at the phone until eventually she answered apparently she was busy before he called. “You normally don’t contact me first..what’s going on?” geez was this really that out of character that Ricky asks that right off the bat? “Um..Nadias being odd again she grabbed my hair before getting me to her height and talking about karma and that nothing will be the same after the funeral.”
Spencer got up and started walking around while he was talking to Ricky not even noticing Nadia until she took the phone which unfortunately started an argument Spencer hoped Ricky didn’t hear much of it especially after Nadia accidentally scratched him pretty badly. Luckily enough he got it back and just decided to go outside and sit on the porch for a while and he saw Ricky? oh lord she did hear everything didn’t she.. she had her hair up in a small ponytail with some horribly smudged makeup on she ran over to Spencer after seeing him on the porch and grabbing his face looking for the scratch from Nadia which she found quickly due to it bleeding a little. She put a bandage on it the best she could Spencer went to apologize and thank her but it got cut off by her hugging him tightly and which be hugged her back they stayed like that for a while before she attempted to pull him up but failed because it got him off guard but he got up the second time. The makeup was annoying him a little bit so he tried to get rid of some of the smudges which he fails horribly but it gets a laugh out of Ricky so he’s happy next thing he knew Ricky was basically dragging him to her car and to her place he always thought it was a nice house and wondered what it was like to live there honestly.
For the next little bit until the funeral Spencer stayed with Ricky it was oddly better than being with Nadia but he dreaded going to the funeral he didn’t want reality to hit him again Ricky somehow had a suit for him ready and admittedly he didn’t want to question. Though since today’s started other than the dread he’s been feeling he’s been thinking about what his neighbor said could he actually bring Gage back? Maybe he’ll try tonight after the funeral just to see if it’ll work. He sighed and finally started getting ready he stared at the mirror and gee he looked horrible he washed his face to see if he looked better but he didn’t guess he’s stuck looking like this. He walked out the bathroom rubbing his eyes, Ricky had a concerned look on her face did he really look that bad? she started messing with his hair until she nodded Spencer had a small smile on his face. He didn't know if she was going but he was already heading out so he’ll find out if he sees her there. Watching the people he was closest to carrying the casket felt so..wrong none of it felt real to Spencer he looked around for Ricky but he didn’t see her there so he looked at the casket his vision felt like it was going blurry it was getting harder to see by the second.
The thought in the back of his mind kept creeping up on him he could try it he really could nobody would know he’s gone, nobody would know he did it. He kept staring at the casket until a hand on his shoulder brought him back to reality it was his neighbor who Spencer was shocked to see was even there in all honesty why would he be there? maybe Nadia told him. “Spencer don’t do it, I know what you’re thinking of.” he listened to the preacher? speak in the background before he tried speaking though it came out no more than a whisper. “I have to..I have to do it there’s no other option and I’m scared of what might happen if I don’t try.” Saying that didn’t feel right why would he..he went to say something else but it tasted like metal in his mouth he looked down to see his nose bleeding pretty badly why didn’t his neighbor point it out? he covered his nose and mouth looking around to see if anyone noticed but nobody did it seems. He ran off somewhere he didn’t know where he was going but it was somewhere away from everyone he finally stopped nearby the church, he stumbled into it his nose practically pouring blood at this point his hand couldn’t even hide it now especially since it’s on his suit.
He found a bathroom pretty quickly catching the sink when he fell so he didn’t hit the floor he got some toilet paper and put it in his nose he knew it was dumb but not much you can do at your own sons funeral. He tried cleaning the blood off his hands and suit he wanted to stay in there and just rot maybe if he let his nose bleed enough he could bleed to death but he knew it wouldn’t be long before he’d be found he just hoped it wasn’t Nadia. Spencer poked his head out and left the church finally deciding to head back why was everyone gone? seriously why does this keep happening to him? he walked until he found Nadia who looked mad originally but her face softened after she noticed the horribly bloody tissues. She helped Spencer get in and she took them home it felt longer than usual but he didn’t question and after they got home Nadia quickly went to bed but Spencer had other plans he just had to make sure he had the strength to do it he got rid of the tissues and threw them away before quickly starting to get the suit off until he was left in his dress pants, white shirt and his tie he ran down the stairs to the basement and grabbed a shovel before stumbling his way back towards the cemetery because he thought the car would be to risky.