Total Eclipse of the Heart [ABANDONED]

by catsbecats

Summary:

After Bella's heart was broken, she could never imagine falling in love again.
When she was changed by a stray vampire, She was devastated. Now, she can't die. She can't escape her aching heart.
She never realised her new chance at love and life.
Alternative title: The Aching of My Frozen Heart
(BTW, slight mentions of suicide, drug addiction)
[ABANDONED]

Chapter 1: Prologue

"Bella. I don't want you to come with me," I said, channeling coldness in my voice. It pained me to choke out these words.

 

"You... don't... want me?"

 

"No," 

 

As the night went on, I tried to reason with this foolish girl, who probably won't even remember me in a few years.

 

"Will you... remember me?"

 

I'll do more than that. I will grieve her after her inevitable death. I will keep her memory in my otherwise tainted soul. However, I can't give her hope that I'll come back to her.

 

"I will keep the memories. But... our kind is easily distracted."

 

I see the hurt in her eyes and I could tell that my plan succeeded. She'll move on from me, to someone safer than me. She'll be protected from the nightmare that is my world. At least, that's what I thought before Alice hunted me down, furious at what I've done. She showed me visions of the future: Bella depressed. Bella attempting suicide. Bella doing drugs. Bella... dying.

 

What have you done???   Alice demanded in her thoughts.

 

"Edward. you'll ruin her. If it wasn't for the fact that I, unlike you, keep my promises, I would be rushing back to Forks to comfort Bella and call out your bullshit. That, and this..."

 

She showed me a vision of Bella screaming at Alice to leave her alone. To stop before she rips her heart even more.

 

"Are there any... alternatives?" I practically begged.

 

"You better pray it works, Edward. I'll kill you if it doesn't." She hissed and  allowed more images to flash through my brain.

 

Bella laughing. Bella happy. Bella in love. Bella and her children. Most importantly, Bella alive,

 

"Yes. I better pray," I agreed fervently 

Chapter 2: Metamorphosis

I ran to the woods, attempting to follow Edward. To reason with him.

 

Where is he???

 

After what seemed like centuries, I finally accepted reality. My angel doesn't love me. I forced my body into a fetal position, cradling my heart to protect it from further damage. My efforts obviously failed; My heart ripped and tore into multiple parts that were impossible to stitch back together.

 

Suddenly, I heard leaves rustling. No footsteps accompanied the sound. Although it was probably just the wind, I couldn't resist calling out.

 

"Edward?" I whimpered hopefully.

 

"I'm afraid I'm not your mate, Isabella," a feminine, but slightly shrill, voice answered, "however, I am here because of your mate. My James is dead, thanks to him."

 

My heart pounded with fear. Of all the rotten luck. "Yes... but he's the one who killed James. Why are you killing me?"

 

She threw back her head and laughed manically. "Why, Bella. Mate for mate. It's only fair!"

 

Streaking closer to me, she bit my left thigh. As she drank my blood, her wild, untamed face softened.

 

It had not been twelve seconds until she suddenly stopped and froze. "Fuck!" She trilled and dashed away.

 

She was followed by three wolves. They were huge, almost twice the size of an average-sized one. Before I could react, they chased after her, howling in rage.

 

Weird. Animals usually avoid vampires. According to Alice, their scent screams danger. Why would a pack of wolves try to hunt a creature who can kill them before they could blink? 

 

Before I could focus on that question, I was distracted by something else: the pain.

 

It tore at me, mentally pounding me, burning me more than his admission that he doesn't love me. Instinctually, I knew what was happening.

 

I was turning into a vampire.

 

I used to beg him to change me. To be equal partners in love. To not cause him any further pain.

 

Now, though? "Be careful what you wish for" took on a whole new meaning. The burning feeling ran through my veins. It took me all of my energy to force my mouth shut.

 

Another thought: I can't die. I could barely survive without Edward. However, after the change, it will be impossible to commit suicide.

 

The fire raged on.

 

Soon, I found that I could think around the pain. I could count how many seconds went by. I could hear water gushing in a stream nearby. 

 

On the other hand, the pain changed. Although the fire retreated from my palms and feet, it went to the heart. Fueling the most painful thing yet.

 

My long-suffering organ beat out its last moment, stopping with a thud.

Notes:

IDK what I'm trying to write here lol please comment if you liked my work :)

Chapter 3: A/N

Summary:

[NOT PART OF THE OVERARCHING STORY]

Hey, so unfortunately, I'm going to put this fic on undetermined hiatus.

I have a multitude of reasons.

Most profoundly: prolonged author's block, the fact that I do not know what the fuck I'm doing with the plot, I lost the notepages for this and I left the fandom.

I may post the synopsis, or at least what I planned to happen in this fic, later.

I wish you all well, and I hope you enjoyed what little I posted..