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The golden light of early evening slanted through the tall windows of the hospital wing, pooling across crisp white sheets and casting long shadows on the stone floor. Harry Potter lay stiff in his bed, his fingers curled into the blanket, his breath slow and even. He looked calm. Unbothered.
Inside, he was anything but.
His head ached, his limbs were heavy with exhaustion, but beneath it all, something coiled, tight and sharp. Not just confusion. Not just fatigue. Something darker.
Anger.
The door creaked open, and in walked Dumbledore, his midnight-blue robes swishing softly. His face, as always, was unreadable, except for the ever-present twinkle in his eyes. That twinkle made Harry's stomach turn.
The older man surveyed the bedside table, where visitors had left a handful of get-well cards and sweets. "Good afternoon, Harry," he greeted warmly. "Ah, I see you've received some tokens from your admirers."
Harry blinked up at him. Admirers?
The word scraped against something raw inside him.
His lips twitched, and he forced a lopsided, neutral sort of expression onto his face. "Admirers?" he repeated, keeping his voice light. "Didn't know nearly getting killed made me popular."
Dumbledore chuckled. "What happened in the dungeons between you and Professor Quirrell is a complete secret. So, naturally, the whole school knows."
Harry let out a short, breathy laugh, but it wasn't real.
His mind snagged on the words. A secret that everyone already knows... The fact that I killed someone. What kind of school is this?
The thought sat heavy in his stomach, twisting like something rotten. No one had said the words out loud, not even Madam Pomfrey, but they all knew. Quirrell is dead. And it was because of him.
And no one seemed to care. Not really. Not even Dumbledore. The sense of betrayal was palpable, like a bitter taste in his mouth.
The older man's voice cut through his spiralling thoughts. "You need not worry about it any longer. The Philosopher's Stone is safe."
Harry's fingers twitched under the blanket.
"The Stone?"
Dumbledore nodded. "It was merely a decoy, my boy. Nicholas and I agreed it was best to use it as a lure. The real safeguard is now beyond mortal reach."
Harry stared.
A decoy?
The word echoed in his skull, hollow and disbelieving.
All this time, all the fear, the danger—everything—had been for nothing?
His chest felt too tight. He had nearly died. Ron and Hermione had almost died. They had risked everything, fought a fully grown wizard, looked into Voldemort's face, and for what? A game? A test?
He wanted to laugh. He tried to scream. He did neither.
Instead, he inhaled, slow and steady, and tilted his head, schooling his face into something thoughtful. "But then… why did I get the Stone?" he asked, his voice careful, measured.
Dumbledore smiled, as if this were all perfectly reasonable. "Only someone who sought the Stone without the desire to use it could obtain it. A test of purity, you see."
A test.
Harry swallowed against the sharp, bitter taste in his mouth.
That's all I was, then. A test subject. A convenient piece on the old coot's chessboard.
He exhaled slowly and let his gaze slide away, as if he had accepted the answer. As if he wasn't raging inside.
Silence stretched between them. Then Harry cleared his throat, choosing his words carefully.
"Sir… can I stay here? At Hogwarts? Over the summer? My uncle, he—"
"Ah, Harry," Dumbledore interrupted smoothly, waving a hand as if brushing the thought aside. "Let us not speak ill of your family. They love you. And I daresay you get up to all kinds of trouble, don't you? Boys need a steady hand."
Harry felt something inside him snap.
For a moment, he couldn't breathe.
Not because of the words, but because of the finality in them. The certainty.
Dumbledore had already made up his mind. There was no point arguing.
"But—"
"I will not entertain further complaints, Harry," Dumbledore said, his voice firm now, leaving no room for protest. "Your place is with your family, not here with us."
Harry's nails dug into the sheets beneath his hands. His entire body felt hot, his vision edged with white.
Fucking adults.
They never listened. Not at school. Not at the Dursleys'. Not anywhere.
He thought of the cupboard, the locked door, the nights spent shivering under a thin blanket, the way Uncle Vernon's face twisted when he was angry. The way Aunt Petunia's lips thinned when she looked at him. The way Dudley's fists felt when they connected.
They never listened. They never would.
Harry exhaled. Slowly, carefully.
He stuffed the anger down, pressed it deep, deep inside, where no one could see it. He made his face smooth, his expression blank. Not sullen, not sulky—just empty.
Malfoy did that. Malfoy walked around with his chin tilted up and his face carefully bored, as if nothing could touch him.
Do it like Malfoy does.
He forced a slight nod. "Right," he said, voice light, almost casual. "Of course."
Dumbledore studied him for a moment, as if sensing something beneath the surface. But then he reached for the small box on the bedside table. "Ah, Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans," he chirped. "In my youth, I encountered a particularly ghastly vomit-flavoured one. Since then, I have preferred a simple toffee."
He popped one into his mouth and made a small face. "Alas! Earwax."
Harry gave a small, polite smile. Said nothing.
Dumbledore stood, brushing off his robes. "I will leave you to rest, then. We shall see you at the feast."
Harry watched him sweep out of the room, his grip tightening on the blanket.
The door clicked shut.
The fake smile slid from his face.
He stared at the ceiling. His heartbeat was too loud.
They're sending me back.
No one was coming to save him. No one cared. Not really.
His fingers twitched.
He had to do something.
Harry exhaled slowly, turning his head to stare at the faintly glowing outline of the hospital wing windows. His body ached, but it wasn't the kind of pain that mattered. He'd been through worse. He just… hadn't realised how much this year had twisted things in his head until now.
Why had he trusted them?
He didn't trust people. He never had—not in primary school, not at the Dursleys', not anywhere. And yet, at Hogwarts, something had changed. He'd gone along with everything. He'd trusted teachers, trusted adults, trusted that people would listen to him. Why?
It was like he'd been sleepwalking through the year.
Like his own thoughts hadn't belonged to him.
Harry sat up. His fingers dug into the blanket. He had to figure this out.
The feeling only got worse as he thought back over the last few months. He should have questioned things more. He should have noticed something was off. Hypnotism existed in the Muggle world—so what about magic? Some spells changed people's forms, wiped memories, and altered emotions. Who was to say there weren't spells that made you… trust?
He clenched his jaw.
What the fuck was done to me?
Later That Night – The Restricted Section
The castle was silent. Shadows stretched long and dark as Harry moved through the corridors under his invisibility cloak, his breath slow and measured. The weight of the cloak settled over him like a second skin, muffling his movements, shielding him from the castle's ever-watchful gaze.
He slipped into the library and made his way straight to the Restricted Section. The iron gate was locked, but as he reached out, it swung suddenly open. The hinges groaned softly, and Harry tensed, waiting. When no sound of approaching footsteps came, he slid inside and let the gate click shut behind him.
Rows upon rows of books loomed before him, their spines gleaming dully in the dim light of his wand. Some vibrated with power, their bindings sealed shut with silver chains or waxen locks. Others recoiled at his touch, repelling him with a pulse of defensive magic.
He moved deeper into the stacks, scanning for anything that could help him understand compulsions.
A book growled as he passed, its pages rustling like dry leaves. Harry ignored it. Another tome had a spine that looked like skin—he ignored that too. He was looking for something specific.
Then, his gaze landed on a book titled How to Get Your Heir to Comply .
The moment he opened it, his stomach twisted.
The pages were filled with things he shouldn't be reading—spells for obedience, hexes for loyalty, potions that bent minds. Some of it wasn't very good. There were even notes about using love potions to control heirs and force marriages.
Harry wrinkled his nose in disgust. Ad, he thought dryly, slamming the book shut. But his fingers still trembled. This was real. Wizards did this to people - how fucking backwards.
His eyes darted back to the compulsion section. The book listed dozens of ways to alter a person's mind—blocking magic, suppressing intelligence, even changing someone's true gender - what the fuck? . His skin prickled.
The wizarding world is insane.
However, the book did not provide guidance on how to detect compulsions.
Frustrated, he shoved it back onto the shelf and kept searching. It took another two hours before he found what he needed— Detecting Unseen Enchantments: A Guide for the Cautious Witch and Wizard .
Harry flipped to the index, scanning for compulsion detection. The spells inside were complicated—half of them required Arithmancy knowledge or precise Latin phrasing he didn't understand. And there was something else—a warning.
"Many compulsions are self-concealing. If under such an enchantment, a wizard may struggle to perceive their own altered state and may dismiss or forget attempts at detection."
Harry's throat tightened.
If he were under something, he might never even realise.
Near the back of the book, something caught his eye—a thin, blank sheet of parchment tucked between the pages. Frowning, he pulled it free. The moment his fingers touched the surface, a prick of pain made him flinch. A single drop of blood welled up on his fingertip and smeared onto the parchment.
Before he could react, ink bloomed across the page.
Warning: Compulsions and potions detected in the system.
The letters glowed an eerie, pulsing gold. Then, another line appeared, sharper, more insistent.
Refrain from attempting removal. Seek Gringotts' assistance immediately.
The last line flashed.
Harry's heart pounded.
Oh, shit.
His hands tightened on the parchment. His first instinct was to find a way to fix it, but the book's warning echoed in his head. If he were under compulsion, would he even know if his spells worked? Would his magic even let him cast them?
He had to think. He had to plan.
Something shifted behind him.
Harry turned too quickly, nearly tripping over a stack of books. His hand shot out to steady himself, but the book he grabbed slid free, landing at his feet with a soft thud.
He bent to pick it up.
The title sent a shiver down his spine.
A Practical Guide to a Young Wizard's Independence
It looked… ordinary. Bound in dark leather, the gold lettering faint and faded with time. Yet, as Harry touched it, a strange sensation prickled at his fingertips. The cover felt warm, almost alive.
Carefully, he opened it.
The pages were blank.
Frowning, he flipped through, searching for text, but every parchment remained stubbornly empty.
Then, words began to appear, slow and deliberate, written in curling, old-fashioned script.
For those who seek freedom.
The ink settled, and more words followed, forming as if the book itself was thinking.
Only visible to those in need.
Harry's breath hitched.
Another line appeared beneath it.
- To walk unseen. To erase traces. To undo bindings. To escape.
A guide. A book of secrets.
A way to carve out an existence unnoticed. Untethered.
A way to never go back.
Harry tightened his grip, his mind racing. This book—whatever it was—had just become the most important thing he owned.
Heart pounding, he slipped it beneath his cloak, clutching it close as he hurried from the library.
—-
Harry escaped the confinement of the hospital wing just before curfew the next day. He felt drained, sore in ways he couldn't quite explain. Questions filled his head and the need to know more - before the train took him back - away from magic - back to…. Fuck he didnt want to think about it. Anyway, he knew he didn't have much time left.
So, that night, after waiting for the common room to empty, he slipped out once more, retracing the now-familiar route through the darkened castle. This time, he wasn't just following instinct; he had a list. The book had guided him, suggesting titles, hinting at knowledge that had been hidden from him. He had to trust it.
His heart pounded as he crept into the library, his hands itching with anticipation. It had been too easy last time—far too easy. It was as though the castle itself wanted him to have these books. But tonight, luck wasn't entirely on his side.
Mrs. Norris had nearly caught him.
Her glowing, lamp-like eyes had locked onto him just as he ducked behind a towering shelf. He had barely managed to breathe, let alone think, before his hand darted to his wand. A hasty distraction spell had sent a pile of books tumbling from another aisle. By the time Filch arrived, Harry was already gone, vanishing into the corridors with his stolen knowledge clutched tightly to his chest.
Now, back in the safety of his four-poster bed, he wasted no time. He drew the curtains shut with a flick of his wand and whispered the silencing charm he had learned just days ago. A warm, thrumming sensation filled the space around him as the magic settled into place.
The spell had been surprisingly easy to cast—he had found it in A Sorcerer's Shield: Wards, Barriers, and Protective Magicks , one of the many books he had taken from the library.
Like so much else in magic, it had come to him as though he were remembering something he had always known.
He turned his attention to the books now stacked neatly beside *the book*, the one that had first guided him toward the knowledge he so desperately sought. Five new tomes, their spines glinting faintly in the dim light. He ran his fingers over the covers, tracing the embossed titles.
"To Thine Own Will: A Study in Magical Coercion and Consent"
"Turning of the Wheel: Guide to Solstice, Equinox, and Sacred Sabbats"
"The Cloaked Mind: Resistance, Occlumency, and Unspoken Shields"
- The Heir's Grimoire: A Guide to That Which is Rightfully Yours
Most of all, he wanted to dig into the bright yellow book that had popped out when he was close by and demanded to come with him:
"So You're a Wizard: Everything They Forgot to Mention (and Hoped You'd Never Learn)"
Written by a muggleborn… just looking at the index - Sectioned into chapters like "Don't Drink the Pumpkin Juice," "The Truth About House-Elves," and "Warding Your Dorm from Prefects."
This was reckless. Harry knew that. Taking books from the Restricted Section—stealing them, really—and smuggling them out of Hogwarts for the summer was beyond foolish. But the book had assured him it was necessary. Information was power, and if he wanted to stand a chance of understanding this world—his world—then he needed to learn on his terms.
The dormitory door creaked open. Harry tensed, listening as footsteps shuffled inside.
Ron.
Hurriedly, Harry shoved the books into his trunk, pressing them beneath his robes and school supplies before snapping the lid shut, just in time. The hangings around his bed shifted slightly as Ron flopped onto his four-poster with a tired groan.
Harry let out a slow breath. He was cutting this far too close.
But it would be worth it.
The Great Hall – House Cup Ceremony
The Great Hall – House Cup Ceremony
As Gryffindor roared in victory, Harry glanced at the Slytherin table—at Malfoy, at Nott. Their celebration had been snatched away at the last moment. And for what? For a lesson on courage? The weight in his pocket pressed against him. Courage wasn’t grand speeches and last-minute points—it was knowing the rules and playing them better.
Still, he forced a smile. He had to. People were watching. He schooled his face into something pleased, something victorious. It was exhausting.
As the cheers swelled around him, a weight pressed against his pocket—the book. It was always there, close to him. Just that morning, a new chapter had appeared, scrawled in dark ink:
Phase two : Securing Wealth
Harry hadn’t even spoken his plan aloud, but the book knew. It understood his need before he fully did.
And it had ideas.
It didn’t matter what Dumbledore did or what Hogwarts thought.
Because now, he had a plan