The Forgotten Melody (ENG)

by Sugusia

Summary:

Venti, a young student with a strictly defined career path, the future director of a large company that has grown globally with its influence. However, since he was a toddler, a love for music was growing in his heart, it began with carefree piano playing and led him to doubt. To follow the path his parents had planned for him, but to take a risk and devote himself to what he loves?
One day at a small street concert, Venti meets a certain waspish guitarist, Xiao. Their meeting awakens feelings in him that further complicate his decisions about his future.

Dahlia for the purposes of the plot is a trans boy!

Sorry for any mistakes but English is not my first language! ♡

Chapter 1: Street player

I hurriedly grabbed my lyre and carefully hid it in my bag, then with a quick step I left the thresholds of the large building I should call home. Was he, however, one? I have no idea, the word should connote a warm place to which one gladly returns. And I hadn't found any rapid warming there for several years.
As soon as I was a safe distance away, I turned into the wrong alley and started humming one of my favorite songs. I jumped onto the roof of one of the lower garages and so that none of the residents would notice me I quickly made my way to my hiding place. Maybe having such a place in the eyes of others seems childish, but since I found it, it is only here that I can be myself. If I can call it that at all. I jumped down from the building and took out the key I had found from ten years ago just outside the entrance, opened the gates and as soon as I settled inside I carefully closed them. I turned on the lamp and squatted on the pouffe, opened my bag to take out the previously packed instrument. I had an hour and a half left for class so my moment of peace and quiet wouldn't last too long. I started to strum random strings and sighed heavily when I realized that it didn't do much. I continue to be full of these awful negative emotions, and the older I get the harder it is to banish them. Shouldn't it be the other way around? After a while, the melody finally began to resemble something that wasn't the chittering of a hungry cat. I opened my mouth to get the words of the song out, I think a clear enough voice rang through the room, and I drifted off into the world of music again. I smiled under my breath, imagining that I could someday play like this in front of others and not be limited to solitary concerts in some abandoned pigeon house. This dream, however, seems distant; I could then face the wrath of my parents or even destroy their good reputation. After all, playing as a player is too childish, instead I should study to be worthy of inheriting the family business. So, I must enjoy moments like these, when I can indulge in music in at least partial peace. I have always been terribly drawn to it, at one point I even began to plan my future with it, but when those plans were destroyed by the expectations of those around me, at least I found this place and give myself to my passion here.

When the words of the song came to an end I put down the instrument and lay down to look at the star-lined ceiling. I received them and the lyre from my best friend on the day we had to say goodbye. And although I promise myself that I will come to see them at night, when they shine brightest, my plans are always covered by fear. Of someone discovering what is really hiding inside me.
When I realized that I didn't have much time left, I grabbed the lyre and tucked it into my bag again. Then I stood up, corrected my slightly disheveled hair and wove two braids from my longer strands. I left the deserted place and twice made sure I locked it properly. Just as quickly as I arrived, I left the area. Now there was nothing left for me to do but to go to the university again and listen to boring lectures, well I shouldn't complain after all I never complained about lack of anything, so fulfilling all my parents' expectations is quite normal. Even if in the process I slowly start to lose track of who I actually am, it's nothing.I slapped my cheeks to stop thinking about these bullshit things, I can't let the peace that playing the lyre brought me so easily be lost!
I went out to the local promenade to take the slightly longer road to get to the lecture, at first glance there was nothing unusual going on here. A mass of people walking back and forth, a few people distributing flyers, and street players setting up their equipment. Specifically, a group of three boys, possibly about my age. I averted my eyes and walked past them, speeding up my step, I can't let myself be fooled and stay here longer than I should. Although being late won't change much, I should maintain the position of being a punctual and systematic student.

Well, that's also when I heard this pair of notes.
It was the beginning of one of my favorite songs, exactly what has been on my mind since the morning. I turned abruptly and ran up to the group that surrounded the players to see their performance, they were playing quite nervously and looked quite impatient. Could it be that someone in their band was late? So why did they start early? I grabbed the lyre hidden in my bag and started playing along with them, wanting to add that missing note. After a while, I couldn't help myself and somehow it went on by itself.

- There will come a soldier, Who carries a mighty sword~ - As soon as I began to sing two children standing close to me pushed me to the middle, without thinking much I began to dance and sing at will rocking this street performance. The audience started clapping their hands moving to the rhythm of the song, a few were even tempted to dance. This whole scene was like a dream, a wonderful dream in which I would like to stay forever, a dream reflecting my true self.
- Oh lei, oh lai, oh lord~ - I continued singing, seeing everyone having a good time, even the players looked calmer, but they also didn't know much about what was going on. I grinned to myself, feeling overwhelmingly happy that my music appealed to someone, that it allowed everyone watching to get away from this boring duty-filled world at least for a while. At one point I noticed a boy among the crowd, seemingly not standing out from the rest, but when he looked at me he seemed charmed. He had dark green hair with turquoise highlights, yellow eyes and a pair of earrings on his face, only these details caught my eye before I turned further absorbed in the dance.
After a few minutes, the song ended and I stood still breathing harder.

- Thanks for the primer guys, forgive me for interfering with your performance! - I called out turning in their direction, waved my hand goodbye and ran towards the college. I wanted to hide the lyre but through haste I did not realize that instead of falling back inside the bag it fell out on the ground. Due to the excitement I was experiencing, I didn't notice the mistake. Less than ten minutes later I was already at the university, I entered the hall perfectly on time, out of breath I sat down in my seat in the hall. I wiped my forehead and sighed loudly laying down on the bench.

- And why are you so out of breath? Did you almost oversleep again? - I heard the voice of my friend who again at the sight of my condition was all laughing.

- You won't believe it anyway. - I rolled my eyes trying to calm my breathing, while he looked at me extremely curious.

- Was it related to music again? - He asked then giggled again, Dahlia has been my best friend since I was a child due to the fact that our parents are friends. We have always gotten along, he is the only one from my close circle who knows about my passion and tries to support me in it and often stands up for me when my parents have a problem.

- How did you know? - I asked and slightly shocked I rose from the bench, I looked at him when he raised one eyebrow.

- Because it's always about the music here Venti, at least since I've known you only talk about it when we're alone. I doubt that you were almost late because your mother told you to mow the lawn. - When the lecturer entered the room we quieted down considerably, I took out my notes tablet and listened in silence to what the old man had to say today. I did not like my current life, but it would be hard for me to change it. I'll soon graduate and start an internship at my parents' company, then I'll have a permanent job there until one day they don't write it off for me. Only that I don't see myself locked up in an office for the rest of my life, I believe that once I start working there and manage to move away from my parents I will at least be able to devote my free time to music. Something I've loved since I can remember, but the reality is that without connections it's hard to shine in the music industry.
- Em... Venti? - I suddenly heard a quiet whisper from the blue-eyed man at which I turned in his direction, the boy in his tablet had social media on. - Is this the reason why you were almost late?” he asked, showing me a video from earlier of me playing along with random passersby and singing my favorite song. - Do you have any new friends?

- I do not know them, it was quite spontaneous. - I said quite embarrassed scratching the back of my neck and smiling foolishly. - Do not spread it further good? I don't want some miracle to arrive from my old folks. - He nodded slightly then started looking through the comments under the video.

- Haven't you lost your lyre lately? - He asked suddenly showing one of the comments. “Wanted boy in braids from the video, you dropped your lyre.” I stared at the screen for a moment blinking several times, trying to catch the moment in my memory. Had it fallen out as I was hiding it? I reached for the bag and indeed it was not there.

- Who wrote this comment? I need to write to that person, send me the link of her profile.

- From what I can see it seems to be the page of the group you joined, let's see.... 4nemo? - Immediately when I searched for their site I wrote a short message

“Hi, this is the boy who disturbed you this morning. Where should I come to pick up my lyre? And will around 2 pm suit you?”
Surprisingly, I did not have to wait long for a reply because just a minute later someone wrote me back.
“Sure, come to the music store on...” I reacted to the message and turned off the apps to focus on the lecture again.

- Are you sure it's a good idea for you to go there alone? They may have some hidden intentions, I don't know kidnap you to use your voice for publicity, not to mention that you are the son of influential people.

- Something you, if they were suspicious I would have noticed it already in the morning. - The boy at my words rolled his eyes and quietly sighed.

- If you go missing I won't protect you from your parents.

- I know I know~ I'll try to arrange it quickly and come up with some excuse if I'm late. I won't drag you into this.

- It will end up like it always does, “Dahlia have you seen Venti? Isn't he with you? He's late.” - He quoted while correcting a strand of his short blond hair that had unruly escaped from behind his ear.

- You're exaggerating, maybe this time it won't be so bad.

*****

As soon as the class was over, I said goodbye to my friend and left the university. I turned on the map on my phone to make it easier to get to the indicated address. Fortunately, this music store was not far from the center so it didn't take me too long to get there. I stood in front of a large glass door, it had the name of the store written on it and a few notes around it. When I stepped inside I was greeted by a rather normal store atmosphere, there was some song quietly turned on. I looked around and saw a bored boy sitting behind the cash register, focused on his phone he didn't notice me enter. He had dark green hair with turquoise highlights.

- Is it at your place that I can pick up my lyre? - I asked coming closer, the man as soon as he heard me slightly gasped then put down the phone and looked at me. When I caught eye contact with him and saw his yellow eyes, I recognized him as the boy who was then standing in the crowd looking at me. Was he also a member of this band, or was he just a devoted fan? No, a fan would not write back from their official account.

- Oh yes, give a moment.- He got up from the desk and walked through the door which he had centrally behind him. Just a few seconds later he returned with my lyre and handed it to me. - Do you often join others' performances like this? - He asked suddenly when I already wanted to thank him and leave the store.

- Today only happened like that, rest assured I will try not to repeat it again. - I replied rather embarrassed continuing to look at his face, it was clear at first glance that he had great success with the opposite sex. He looked about my age, maybe a little younger if you look at the height. You could not read much from his face, he practically did not show emotions on it. Or maybe it was just such a first impression?

- Your voice did not sound like the first such performance, to be honest, you stole my part in the morning. - On his face continued to show only seriousness, through this I could not judge whether the words were said jokingly or, however, he was really angry.

- Seriously? Forgive me, I joined only because they lacked a singer and on impulse. I guess I can't pass by when someone plays my favorite song. - I scratched the back of my neck terribly embarrassed, the man just waved his hand.

- It's nothing, honestly this song worked out much better for you than for me. And the guys started playing it to spice me up for being late, so I guess you could say you saved me from being compromised. - A stone dropped from my heart when he admitted that he was not angry, the smile on my face deepened slightly.

- Well in that case, thank you for the lyre and good luck on your next performances! - I threw in his direction then turned around and headed for the exit.

- Wait, wouldn't you be willing to come to our rehearsal sometime? - I stopped abruptly upon hearing this question, I knew it would probably be hard for me to reconcile this with my duties. But if I were to agree?

- Write me what and how, I will try to drop in after class. In that case, see you around. - I waved my hand to the green-haired man and left the store in earnest this time. I have to admit I got a little excited, even if it's just a silly attempt, I'll have a chance to meet people who share my love for music. And to use this as an opportunity to escape from my boring college life, to see how people who are not limited by demands live and.... I guess I'm running my thoughts too far into the future, first I might come up with an excuse to go to the guys' rehearsal at all. People I don't know at all and I didn't even think to ask their name. You are a genius Venti, a bloody genius.

Chapter 2: Shared song

- I will be later today, I promised the lecturer that I would help him with something. - I said in the direction of my parents eating breakfast across the table, I saw only a slight nod of the head immediately then I left the house before unnecessary questions would start. Yesterday, fortunately, there were no problems, I was not too late. It's a little silly that a grown man has to deal with his parents' rules, to tell the truth I could move out and cut off contact. However, in the back of my mind I have the fact that life on my own would not be so easy, I certainly could not continue my studies and devote myself to music because for that I simply would not survive. Here I at least have dibs on the sick system I've been taught since I was a kid, I know I have a future and maybe someday I'll find some time for myself in it. I never wanted to make the decision to run away because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to cope alone in this big world. That's why I listened to them, started my studies to have a high education as befits a future company director and now despite my age I am held accountable for everything, and the truth is that they know nothing about me.
Today, unfortunately, I did not have time to go to my hideout, for that I had one comforting thought. I lied to my parents and after class I will join the rehearsal of that team. Who knows, maybe I will make new friends? The kind that will like the real me, and not the perfect boy I play every day?

- And how? Did you get the lyre back? - Dahlia looked at me with a curious gaze and a gentle smile on his lips. I nodded at which he was a little surprised. - Is this music store really there? Didn't they wear chimneys and want a ransom from your parents? - Hearing the stupid things he was saying I burst out laughing loudly.

- No, but listen to this. I got an invitation to their rehearsal, that's wonderful isn't it?

- Listen Venti, you know that I support you a lot in this double life of yours, but is enlisting in a street gang a good idea? You may not be able to balance your trials with your studies and your family life. Especially hiding it from them.

- It's just an invitation to a rehearsal, and in addition, I told them I'll be back later so it will be fine. One invitation doesn't mean I'll be part of their team, and it might even be our last meeting.

- If you say so, but be careful okay? I don't want you to get in trouble again over some stupid idea of yours, especially since you know how easy it is to get her off balance. - He sighed loudly probably not believing that I was talking seriously. The boy has witnessed many times the quarrels in my family, so he knows very well what kind of problem I face every day and why I try so hard to conceal from my parents the fact that I continue to do music. There have already been a couple of attempts, each ending in failure, the same hurtful words that still sit in my head and prevent me from taking the next step on my dream path. Forever the same nervous but also worried face, asking how I imagine surviving for making a few sounds on instruments, whether I'm going to end up as a homeless person playing in nearby tunnels asking for at least some money for food.

- I can handle it, you know I can't quite give it up especially when the chance hits me. Once we're done with these damned studies I'll have a little more time for it. - The blonde agreed with me then went back to reading something. further rather unhappy with my decision.

*****

The class passed quickly, excitedly I entered the message sent by the nice guy from the store and entered in the maps the address where they have rehearsals. What if it's really some kind of trap this time? After all, yesterday I forgot to even ask what his name was, on the social network on set only nickname which I would rather not use. After a long while I was finally there, I was greeted by an older building that was slightly neglected. In case you're wondering, I sent Dahli the location I was in and let him know that if I didn't write back within an hour that he was alive then to start worrying. I took a deep breath and went inside the building, it was open. I quickly texted the boy that I was already there, a moment after he read the message I heard the door creak and footsteps on the staircase. I finally spotted him coming out from behind the wall and waved in his direction.

- I know this place doesn't look too good, however, no one lives here and because of that we can play in peace. - He said in my direction rather harshly after which he turned around and started to go back to where he came from, and of course I followed right behind him.

- Nothing is happening. - I replied, trying to make it clear that it was really nothing after which, when there was silence, I finally dared to ask. - What is your name? I think it would be more convenient to call you that instead of little_frog21. - I laughed under my breath at which the man stood still.

- This name shows in public?

- Yes. - After these words, the dark-haired man fell silent for a moment, as if he seriously thought that no one had seen his embarrassing name until now. I barely held back a laugh at his reaction.

- I had set up this profile when I was a kid, and at the time I took every opportunity to change it. - I think he was trying to explain unnecessarily, which made me laugh even more. There was a slight sense of embarrassment in his voice, or maybe I thought I was? At first glance he seems terribly judgmental, but what is he really like? After all, I remember his expression when he watched my performance, that face showed much more emotion than just coldness.

- Understa... - I didn't finish because the man interrupted me.

- Don't comment, please. Xiao, call me Xiao.

- And you call me Venti~ - I uttered in a melodious voice looking at his backside, was it because of his height that he wanted to seem so “menacing”?

- Exactly, it is worth mentioning that -

- Oh Xiao! And what a surprise, you finally brought us someone! - A voice called out, it belonged to a young boy, he had maroon hair tied in a loose ponytail, green eyes and under them two freckles. I also saw him yesterday.
- Oh is this the guy who stole the whole show for us yesterday? - He laughed under his breath and put his hands on our shoulders to make us hurry up. Didn't he tell his friends that he would move me here? So it is possible that I will not be welcome there after all. We went down the stairs probably to the basement of the building, in the middle of the room two more guys were sitting on a couch. One had dark blue hair cut as if by a pot, and the other had white hair with a red streak. I won't say each of them attracted with their non-standard appearance and they probably had plenty of female admirers. Meanwhile, I who with my feminine beauty was never popular with the girls.

- I brought you someone. - Said the green-haired man more quietly at which the rest laughed.

- You're letting us know this early Xiao, couldn't you have at least written on the group? - Said the white-haired man after which he got up from his seat and smiled gently at me. - I'm Kazuha, and here sits Scaramouche next to me,” he pointed to a boy with dark blue hair who looked rather frowning.

- I for one, my name is Heizou. - Said the last gentleman, the one I had the pleasure of meeting already in the corridor.

- Nice to meet you, I'm Venti.

- Are we past the boring introductions already? - Asked Scaramouche suddenly rolling his eyes, at which Kazuha snapped him on the forehead, probably wanting him to calm down and not get discouraged at the very beginning.

- Well then Venti feel at home and so on, but do you know what you did wrong yesterday? - Asked the brunet putting his hand on my shoulder, I turned my face to look at him. He looked quite amused, in response I let out a quiet “Hm?”
- Well~ First of all I understand that it was very spontaneous but you could have at least stayed for a while, secondly who normal suddenly starts singing with random people on the street? Everything is fine in your head? - He laughed gleefully, taking his hand. Of course I took it as a joke, at least I think his words were not serious.

- Oh give him a break already, it worked out well. At least he got our audience going before the real show. - Said the white-haired man with a calm tone and a neutral expression.

- Yes, it's very great that 4nemo is becoming popular by some random boy from the street. - The boy with dark blue hair sighed loudly and rolled his eyes, he didn't look happy ever since I came here. Or is he just like that?

- Gee~ Someone upset here? Candy calm down a bit or you'll scare our new colleague. - The green-eyed man interjected, continuing to be visibly amused. Honestly I'm already slowly stopping keeping up with what's going on here.

- Hell, how many times do I have to tell you not to talk to me like that!

- And you Xiao why don't you speak up about yesterday's performance huh? I remember you liked it. - The red-eyed man raised his eyebrow gently, I instead glanced at the green-haired man who immediately looked away.

- Stop, it was fine. - He had his arms folded over himself, and I can't tell for myself whether he's happy with my presence or not. - Can we just start the rehearsal without unnecessary chatter?

- Oh my, how aggressive! Someone is showing off here. - A quiet laugh came out of the brunet's mouth, then he walked over to the table on which the bass was lying and took it in his hands. - Well, what are you waiting for? - At his words, the two boys who had been sitting on the couch until then came closer.

- That's right Venti, do you want to just watch or join in as part of the fun?

- Well, I think since I'm here I can try to play or sing with you guys, because I doubt the lyre will fit in with your band. - I replied looking at the guys, a moment later Xiao walked past me without a word to join the rest. Together they began to lay out everything they needed, I watched from the sidelines myself. I wondered if every attempt they make looks like this, it's here.... Quite chaotic. But after despite the differences in characters they seem to get along quite well with each other. Especially these three guys, my new acquaintance seemed to be on the sidelines of the whole bunch instead.

- Fancy a special song? Just as a warm-up? - Asked suddenly the yellow-eyed man pulling me out of my reverie, I immediately looked in his direction quite embarrassed.

- You don't have to choose something under me, after all, this is your rehearsal. - I said finally having the opportunity to take a closer look at him, his skin was quite pale, he had many piercings, on one ear 4, on the other 2 and on his right eyebrow.

- Well, all right, but then don't complain that you don't like it. - I nodded energetically, I was terribly excited about all this. - If you will know something, the second microphone lies on the table. - I nodded again, and at this a gentle smile appeared on his face, which disappeared after just a second.

- Wow, you're the one smiling after all? - I commented suddenly delighted, to which a surprised brunette immediately ran up to us.

- The moment is possible? Xiao have you been lying to us all this time? - He said quietly looking closely at the face of the shorter boy, on his face had a rather mischievous smile. - Oh, you won't show me anymore? What a pity. - He sighed then returned to the rest and together they began to check the sound system.

- Okay, I think everything is ready. - Said Scaramouche more quietly while sitting down at the drums. - New, try very hard not to disturb us. - A slight surprise crept onto my face, I was already being called new? Each of the guys looked at the blue-eyed man with a similar face to mine, I don't think anyone expected him to say something like that.
- So what? Looking at the way this moron treats him, it probably won't be long before we have to change the name of the team! - I didn't want to interfere, especially when I know that even if I get an offer to join their team I'd rather refuse it, excessive mixing of my two worlds can bring terrible results.

- True, and we've thought about this name long enough. - Kazuha sighed quietly while standing at the keyboard.

- Don't worry about it guys, just play. - I laughed quietly and walked closer to take the microphone in my hand, this is probably the first time I've had the opportunity to do so. Maybe it's strange, but I felt great just by holding this silly object. The rest started playing one of the popular pieces, it would be strange if I didn't know it so I joined in. All the time I could feel the green-haired man's gaze on me, was I annoying him so much that I was taking away his role as a singer? Sam also sang, but surprisingly his microphone was more muted. Wait a minute, is this some kind of rehearsal for me? Okay, even if it is I somehow don't care, the most important thing is that I have a chance to sing without worrying about someone scolding me for it. I just focused on singing, nothing else mattered. After a few minutes the song ended, I breathed a little heavier then looked at the rest, their reactions were quite confused.

- You can hear that you haven't sung with someone playing the backing track before, you were too focused on the version you remembered from the radio. Because of which, you may have sung nicely but it didn't complement our playing. - Commented Kazuha, probably bailing out the rest.

- So try to focus on what we play good? It will come out better. - Added Heizou after a while, I didn't expect that it could come out like this. I was too focused on the opportunity to sing and didn't pay attention to what the rest of us were doing, which actually could have come out disastrously. I made a rather silly face and scratched the back of my neck embarrassed.

- Forgive me, I will correct myself. And thanks for paying attention. - I replied embarrassed, turning my gaze toward Xiao, with whom I happened to catch eye contact.

- Then why don't we play something of ours? Then for singing he will have to pay attention to the backing track. - Suggested Scara, to which the other two nodded. It seemed to me that during the rehearsal the boy acted calmer than before, it was quite a nice difference.

- Can you do it? I'll give you the text right away. - Xiao turned around and walked over to his bag to pull out a notebook, opened it to one page and handed it to me. I quickly looked at the text and nodded. - Also, I don't know it by heart, so we will have to share it.

- Sure, no problem! - I replied cheerfully at which the dark-haired man turned away from me.

- Then let's play the backing track alone first, without vocals. - He said in a slightly firm voice then returned to his seat, I put down the microphone and squatted on the backrest from the couch to watch them play. I listened to the song, slightly surprised that a song written by a street band could be so good. I looked closely at what they were doing, preparing myself for the fact that I would soon have to sing along to the exact same backing track. No, it might come out differently. I have to concentrate on that while singing, so that the sounds I have memorized don't interfere with it.

- How about it? Can you do it? - Asked the brunet to which I resolutely nodded and returned to them, in one hand I held the notebook of the boy in the other microphone, I stood right next to the guitarist who was also going to sing with me.

- I think so. - I replied with a smile after which I quickly read the lyrics once more to sing more fluently.

- So let's hear what such a thing Xiao wrote again. Maybe this song will knock us out? - Heizou joked after which they started to play the backing track, I took a step towards the green-haired man to make sure he would also see the lyrics written in the notebook, but he waved his head. Didn't he need it after all? I returned to my previous position and we began to sing together, this time I paid more attention to what the others were doing. I concentrated on singing the still completely unfamiliar text, until out of the corner of my eye I saw Xiao turn toward me, I was slightly surprised but also did so. I looked into his yellow eyes and a pleasant, warm shiver went through me. Every now and then I glanced at the text to make sure I didn't get the words wrong, but to be honest I was more focused on the warm gaze of the boy in front of me. He is beautiful. That's the first thing I thought when I saw him now, a pleasant warmth spread through my body thankfully not showing on my cheeks. It was the first time in my life that I felt something so strange through another person. We sang together, although the words of the song were coming out of my mouth for the first time in my life, it felt so natural to me as if I had heard it at least a few times before. It was really strange... The song ended after a while, and we continued to look at each other, I felt his gaze wrap around me like a soft blanket, and his faint smile made me explode inside.

- Earth to our lovebirds! - Said Heizou suddenly, breaking a long moment of silence, at least it seemed to me that it was quiet. I didn't pay attention for that moment with the boy.

- Shut up. - Mouthed the lowest of us quickly after which he turned away from me, pretending that nothing of the sort had happened. I myself had no idea what actually happened just now, but I guess considering it as nothing as Xiao did was a good thing, all I did was smile slightly goofily and giggle quietly. And just then my phone rang, I took it out of my pocket and when I saw the photo with which I have my mother tagged I walked away to the other end of the room to answer it.

- I know you're busy helping, but when will you be back, more or less? It's taking you a little long to help the professor.... - The woman said this in a slightly exasperated tone, I held back a sigh.

- I took a little longer, forgive me. I'll be back soon. - I replied in a calm tone with a slightly sad smile on my face. My mother hung up without even a silly “That's to see you,” I put the phone back in my pocket and turned to face the rest. Fortunately, they were busy talking and probably didn't care who I was talking to, which was nice because I was afraid of a storm of questions.
- Unfortunately I have to go now, thanks for playing together. - I said in their direction, which only caught their attention. After a brief farewell, I was already about to leave when I suddenly heard Xiao's voice.

- Wait I'll walk him out. - He communicated briefly, ignoring Scaramouche's further comments, and walked over to me, then we left together.

- Won't they be angry or something? I would be able to handle it myself.

- Don't worry about those idiots, who told you to go back? Your girlfriend? - He asked with a little curiosity in his voice, I laughed nervously and rolled my eyes. I did not want this question.

- No, I don't have a girlfriend actually, but it doesn't matter. I just have to go back because normal life is calling me. - I replied rather chaotically glancing at his reaction, a shadow of relief could be seen on his face? I myself do not know how to call it, it is very difficult to read from his facial expressions. But even now, when he is over all this trial is when I look at him I feel the same. I think I like his appearance terribly. So I have a taste for men pulled from some vampire series? Good to know.

- If you didn't want to answer so much, you didn't have to. Nothing is happening, I understand. Did you like it? - I took a moment to think about the answer, although it was obvious to me.

-I had a great time, thanks for inviting me.

- Will you come by again sometime?

- And next time will you tell the rest that I'm coming? - I laughed while covering my mouth, together we left the abandoned building.

- I guess I will have no choice, if anything, write. Somehow I will placate them to agree. - At his answer I laughed again after which I waved my hand and walked away towards the bus stop. I felt my heart beating a little faster than usual, I had a hell of a lot of energy as if at any moment I could just jump high and fly somewhere. That day was wonderful and I would do anything to repeat such a rehearsal with the guys, during those few songs played together I felt like I was really alive.

Chapter 3: Dusted vinyls

The next few days passed quite quietly, through the turmoil of graduation I honestly didn't even have a moment to drop by the guys' rehearsal again. And sitting in my hideout and playing by myself will probably soon no longer be enough for me, once I got to know the feeling of singing and playing in front of others it's hard to take a step back again. I used to write with Xiao every now and then. Ba, you could say we wrote every day about total silly things, mostly music. He sent me his playlist and I couldn't pull myself away from it now. I decided that it was probably seriously some kind of infatuation, which of course I can't be fooled by. I can't mix music into my main life, and how would my parents react to a relationship with someone I met through music? And on top of that with a man? Ugh... And it would be scary to think.

- Wait, seriously? Someone you like? - Asked Dahlia pawing at his head, I just laughed myself silly in response. I might have expected such a reaction, especially since we are talking about someone from my other world.

- I can't help it, something suddenly sparked and boom I think about him every spare moment. - I replied scratching the back of my neck slightly embarrassed by what was happening to me. When I write with a boy I feel as if the rest of the world disappears, I act like a stupid kid in love who does not see the world beyond this person. And although I try not to overdo it, on average it works out for me. For example, now, he wrote to me what do I do? I immediately click on the notification and write him back, not caring about my friend.

- Something I feel that there will be problems from this you know? Well, but let's say I understand, the heart is not a servant, you can not choose when something like this happens. Wait a minute, are you listening to me at all? - I looked at her from above the phone and nodded, then I took up the conversation with the boy again. Dahlia sighed loudly, then squatted closer. - Let me see. He wants to see her.

- Her? - I asked quietly glancing at the boy sitting right next to me, there was even more surprise on his face.

- Don't tell me that. - I turned the display of the phone towards him to look at the photos that the boy had inserted, his eyes lit up slightly.What a hottie!- He commented, then lightly slapped his cheeks. - So it's a boy, even better. You are the one who knows best how to turn your life upside down.

- Well what can I say, he is perfect. The better I get to know him, he seems much more interesting than at our first meeting.

- Oh you silly child, just so you won't be disappointed. - At his words I only rolled my eyes, then wrote the boy what time I finish classes because he asked me about it completely by accident. And given my naiveté, it didn't seem the least bit strange to me....

*****

After the class was over, Dahlia and I went out in front of the university and were about to go home, when suddenly I saw Xiao who stopped on his motorcycle in front of the university building, took off his helmet and looked at me to approach us in just a moment.

- Hi Venti, I know it's a little unexpected, but will you let yourself go somewhere? - He asked looking at me with his typical look, the one you couldn't see much from but which I loved terribly. Slightly confused, I looked at my friend as if asking him for advice in this situation. I would have agreed without a second thought myself, but after our earlier conversation I know that I should not enter into a deeper relationship with Xiao, even if I like him terribly. He, however, merely patted me on the shoulder with his slight smile. The boy stuck out his hand toward me, and I felt my heart start to beat a little faster. I slowly shook his hand and smiled warmly at him, feeling my heart trying to jump out of my chest over such a silly meaningless gesture.

- I'll cover for you, just don't come back too late. Have a good date~ - He announced in a melodious voice then ran away before I could chide him, I glanced again at the boy who was raising the corners of his mouth gently. Together we walked over to his motorcycle, he handed me a spare helmet.

- Do you want to go somewhere specific? - I asked to which he only nodded slightly, he himself probably did not believe that I would agree.Well, I believe that you will not kidnap me.I laughed after which I put on the helmet, sat behind him on the motorcycle, after a moment he started it and I grabbed him by the hips to prevent him from falling.I felt how by this proximity on my face arise a delicate blush, which fortunately was not visible through the protective headgear. And my heart beat a little faster when I felt his warmth next to me, and even the pleasant smell of toilet water and cigarettes to my nose. I snuggled tighter into his back and looked to the side as we drove I tried to guess the place we were going to, but this road didn't seem the least bit familiar. Could it be that he had found out whose child I was and I seriously shouldn't trust him? Well... What one does not do for plot twists in life.... Either I'll be murdered and my corpse buried or burned in the middle of the forest, or I'll have the best day in the world. There can be nothing in between.
It wasn't until a while later that I realized we were heading toward the music store where the boy works, the same one I had to pick up my lyre from after our first meeting. An interesting place for a date, if you can call it that. When we stopped in front of the store I got off the motorcycle and looked questioningly in Xiao's direction. He had just taken off his helmet and let out from under it his hair which was a little longer in the front, then tilted his head back slightly to correct himself.

- We are, come on I have to show you something amazing. - He said with a shadow of a smile on his face after which he went inside the store, and I could do nothing but follow him. A small bell above the door made its characteristic sound and the first thing I noticed was the look of the salesman sitting behind the cash register. An elderly man who glanced once at Xiao and once at me with a smile. I was greeted by the same atmosphere as before, a few instruments and records hung on the walls, an ordinary music store like many in the city. I looked around the interior before I heard the dark-haired man quietly grunt to get my attention. He was standing by some doors I hadn't seen here lately, I cautiously walked closer apparently curious. There was a staircase, probably leading to the basement in which the darkness stretched, to be honest I shivered at the sight.

- What is there?

- Paradise. - He replied briefly before pushing me towards the center, for a moment my heart rate jumped and all the familiar scenarios about meeting strangers flew through my head. But when the boy came up behind me, grabbed me from behind by the shoulders and started leading me down the stairs.... It is possible that I became even more stressed and until I closed my eyes not wanting to know what fate awaited me when we went down to the basement. At some point we stopped and I felt his grip loosen a little.
- Do you like it? This is such a secret place of mine, not many people can enter here. - He whispered in my ear, and I hesitantly opened my eyes. To my eyes appeared a small room, a closet full of packages of vinyl records, several of them hung on the wall in glass frames. There was a smell of dust and antiquities in the air, it looked like some old antique store. I breathed a sigh of relief, but what else would I expect from a musician? A torture chamber waiting for random sons of rich people? I guess I took my parents' warnings all too seriously.

- So I am to count on death accompanied by Beatles and ABBA records? I couldn't think of a better ending to my life. - I muttered and giggled quietly through my own stupidity, and stepped out into the middle of the room to get a better look around, the old boards creaking under my feet. Had this room never been renovated? How old is it actually? And why does looking around the cabinets with those records from my parents' time and beyond feel so peaceful? I even felt as if I had stepped inside some kind of time capsule, going back decades where the sight of such a collection was more common.

- Of course, I won't let you out of here anymore. - The green-haired man joined in on the jokes which surprised me a little, lately with his team he has been all too serious all the time, and with me he acts as if he feels a little more at ease. He closed the door behind him and walked closer to me, reached for one of the CDs from the shelf and put it in my hands.And this song will suit you.

- Heroes from David Bowie? Really? Where did you get that idea? - I laughed looking at the packaging of the CD, and he walked over to the table on which stood an old turntable.

- Do you want to find out? - He asked with a slightly softer expression on his face and quickly took the record from me, carefully removed it from its packaging and arranged it in the turntable. The sound in that atmospheric not-so-good quality rang through the room, and I listened to the notes gently swaying from side to side. I knew this song, I remember when I was a child and my parents would play similar songs on the radio, or wanted me to learn to play the piano. And then their company went global, and all that was left of the love of music they instilled in me were constant arguments and orders for me to give it up and not waste my time on silly things. Why did they give me something so valuable only to try to take it away from me later?

- We can be heroes for just one day, eh? - I looked at him with a gentle smile and put out my hand toward him, with a slow movement of my hips I signaled what my intention was. But Xiao contorted his face a little and reluctantly gave me his hand, then looked away. I guess I didn't come across as a very big fan of dancing, will he be angry if I force him to do it?
- We don't have to do it you know? - I asked as I began to turn slowly with him, so as to match the rhythm of the music, mostly I led us, and the shorter boy matched it quite timidly. In the rehearsal, at times he was so bold and foul-tongued, but now he's acting so softly? Like a dog that stops barking when you start stroking it behind the ear. I didn't understand much about his behavior, but I guess I shouldn't complain. After all, it made him a tad sweet, which contrasted with his always icy facial expressions.

- It's okay. - He murmured quietly and pulled me a little closer at which I widened my eyes a little, put his hands on my hips and looked into my eyes. Again, I saw notes of emotion in his daffodil-yellow eyes, and instead of the atmosphere of a snow blizzard, I felt like I was in the middle of a warm autumn day. Surrounded by colorful leaves, small mud puddles, and the rhythm of music from the crunching of leaves. I grinned at him, at which his expression also softened, put my hands on his shoulders and slowly spun us around further. It was hard to call it dancing, but as long as we were both having fun doing it I guess we could be forgiven for not having more difficult steps. After all, we're more familiar with the music than how to move to it, I, when it came to dancing, usually did what I liked and just had a great time. For his part, Xiao looked like a person who would even be reluctant to try, and now he agreed with my encouragement. I guess I have some magical gift for persuasion.
Suddenly, the phrase “And we kissed, as though nothing could fall” reached our ears, at which we both got a little tense, I laughed myself silly and continued dancing as if nothing ever happened. Did he choose this song because it suited me, or did he want to give me some sort of silent suggestion with it? Why did he choose this particular song? Earlier, instead of answering it, he just let it go.... Or is it a coincidence? A sign from above that tries to pull us together even if this is our third meeting. I have no idea, and I don't know if taking apart one sentence in a song will accomplish anything beyond confusion in my head. Rather, he meant the rest of the song, it's not his fault that such a sentence occurs in it.

- Xiao! I'm closing soon! - Cried the older man unexpectedly from above, at which we moved away from each other as if in fear that he might come in here and see us practically hugging each other. We looked at each other and giggled quietly seeing that we reacted the same way, me, of course, much louder than the boy in front of me.

- Unfortunately Venti, but we can't sit here forever. And that's a pity, because I wanted you to choose a song too. - Said the yellow-eyed man in a hushed whisper, and then he grabbed my hand to pull me behind him toward the stairs and the basement exit. I looked at his back in mild amazement at his sudden courage. We've known each other for such a short time, and I feel like I've known him for at least a few years, and I'm not exaggerating one bit about it. Maybe I don't act as comfortable with him as I do with Dahlia, but that's the fault of my perplexed heart that doesn't know how it should feel at a moment like this. It was beating a little faster, but it was also filled with happiness because with him I could do what I always dreamed of and not pretend to be someone I never wanted to be.
- So maybe now you want to go somewhere? - He asked when we left the music store, I thought for a while about a place but there was a blank in my head. I didn't want to bore him, and I'd be happiest to spend time with him in a quiet place, so that we would have a chance to talk and get to know each other better. A place where others would not disturb us, where it would be just the two of us and possibly some quiet notes.

- I have a plan, now I will show you the place where I hide from the world. - I pulled out my phone and typed the address of the area around my hiding place into the maps, showed him the route, and he just nodded, remembering more or less the areas we need to get to. We got on his motorcycle and rode toward my house, fortunately my parents don't usually hang around anywhere at this hour, and on top of that, rather, even if they spotted us on the motorcycle, they wouldn't realize through the helmet that it was me. Besides, why do I care so much? Even if they see me the only thing they can do to me is to scold me and scream when I get home, should I care so much about their opinion? Shouldn't I show that I won't always listen to their every little command? It's possible that I'll regret it later, but for now I just wanted to enjoy my time with the boy who caught my eye.

Chapter 4: Under the stars

We stopped in a parking lot near the place I had marked for him on the map, and when we got off the motorcycle I led him toward my hiding place. Looking around to see if any of the people living nearby were watching us, already such a habit from my childhood, although I was aware that most of the local residents knew that the old pigeon house was the place of a certain boy. When I was a kid, neighbors sometimes left me cookies in front of the entrance, and I considered it a treat from the windy spirits who listened to my concerts.

- Now be more careful, if someone sees the road it will be after my secret hiding place. - I said in his direction before I climbed onto one of the lower roofs of the garages, I wanted to lend a hand to help him, but he managed on his own. I rolled my eyes slightly and led him on.

- And aren't you afraid that I'll remember the way and camp here one day without your invitation? - He asked with a wry smile and jumped to the next of the rooftops, and I followed along behind him. I poked him in the side and laughed.

- Just try it, and I'll sneak into the vinyl cellar! - I threatened jokingly, and soon we were finally at the tiny door in the attic of an abandoned building, someone used to live here. My friend who a few days before I left told me where he hid the key to this place, his parents didn't sell this house or rent it to anyone so for 10 years now his attic that once served as a pigeon house has been my safe haven. And Xiao is the first person I've brought here, I never even thought anyone besides me and my childhood buddy would know this place. I opened the door and let him in first, it was quite low here and we had to bend down all the time. I closed the door and turned on the lamp.
- So this is my little kingdom of peace and quiet, and at the same time a star observatory, a concert shell, and the home of forest spirits. Make yourself at home here!

- Forest spirits? - He repeated after me and looked around the interior. Wooden walls, a low ceiling covered with stars glowing in the dark, a couple of small white-blue teddy bears made by my best friend's mother. Nothing special, a typical hideout of a ten-year-old boy who dreamed of hiding from the world and spelling lessons.

- When I was a child my good friend and I had such a game. Little forest spirits would show us magical things, and the melody that was in them. I always followed the windy ones, we thought they brought us snacks, lived in whirlwinds and could travel all over the world. At the time, becoming such a soul was my biggest dream, you know unlimited freedom, fulfilling dreams and such other nonsense. - I talked a little and sat down on half of a pouffe filled with balls, there was no other place to cling to so I pointed with my hand to a section right next to me inviting him here.

- And now? Did you get even a little closer to the windy ghost? - Asked the shorter boy and sat down next to me on the pouffe, I thought for a moment and quietly sighed.

- Every day, no, but currently I feel as if one of these little spirits led me here. - I answered him honestly, but did not dwell on the details. After all, we haven't known each other long, and I didn't want to bore him with my family situation or why I actually come here so often even when my friend hasn't lived here for a long time.

- So you are my windy soul. - The boy muttered under his breath, and I looked at him a little surprised, and after a moment I burst out laughing. But even through this silly text my heart beat faster, and I poked him from the side. So I was a path to freedom for him what? Funny, I can't lead someone to it when I myself am a prisoner of my own fate and can't get out of this life track planned for me. Because I'm afraid to do it, if I followed my nature I would have spontaneously dropped out of college a long time ago, gone abroad with one suitcase and lived from day to day hoping that some talent hunter would hear me sing.

- You say? How did I earn this title what? - I asked inquisitively and brought my face closer to his, grinning from ear to ear.

- I'll leave it to myself.

- Come on! Tell me! - I poked him again with my elbow, and then grabbed his shoulder and shook it, not too hard, of course, and in full jest.

- Am I your punching bag? - I shrugged my shoulders in response and reached for the lamp to turn it off, it's finally getting dark outside, which means I'll be able to see something I've been waiting for a long time. Usually by this time I'm already home, but my phone isn't ringing yet which means Dahlia has come up with a good excuse and I still have a moment of peace.

- And would you like to be one? Are you that much of a masochist? - I continued our banter, while the stars on the ceiling got brighter and brighter and began to gently brighten the room.

- Thanks, but if you offer the same to Scaramouche I'm sure he'll agree. - I giggled quietly and lay down more on the pouffe, and because of how close we were, I rested my head on Xiao's shoulder “for comfort.” I didn't even realize when I started humming one of the familiar melodies, and then the dark-haired man fell silent and listened to me in silence. And we lay like that in the old pigeon house that was a refuge for me from the whole world, not even talking to each other just sitting in the quiet sound of my singing. After the days I spent here as a child, this will probably be my favorite day here. Finally, I'm not alone here, I could show it to someone who probably at least partially understands me.
- Haven't you ever thought to start performing? You have a wonderful voice, and it would be a shame for it to be wasted on such solitary performances.

- And are you such a talent scout? You definitely exaggerate, you know?

- You can ask the guys from 4nemo, compliments from me are an honor. - He replied in a somewhat chilly voice, at which I giggled amused. I loved how the boy tried to pretend that he was an icy prince, when I had already managed to see that it was just a mask. At times, I saw more than just coldness and stifled emotions in him and believed that this was the real him. After all, every person handles things differently; I put on the broadest smile on my face, while he pretends to be completely emotionless like some kind of doll.

- Let's just say I'll believe you without asking. I myself don't know if they like me after I screwed over your trial.

- You don't have to care about their opinion, you were my guest. And besides, they already asked me if I was bored with my position as a singer in the band. Your voice also impressed them.

- Damn, I started singing with them on the street by accident, and now they act like I should join your band?

- Would you like to? - His question echoed through my head, and that smile I always tried to have on my face began to slowly disappear. I sighed louder looking at the ceiling full of shining stars, in my mind dreaming that one of them would fall. Then I could make a wish that wouldn't change anything anyway. Of course I would wish, but could I? Is it appropriate for the son of such important personalities, the future director of such a vast company, to entertain himself by strumming his guitar and singing into a microphone? After all, it's a childish dream, something that will never sustain me, something that won't provide me with a good salary if I'm not lucky or well connected. Something I'd like to chase, even though I know I have no reason to.

- Unfortunately but no, you know.... I don't have time to play artist, I have my studies on my mind, and as soon as I finish them I start my internship. I already have a set plan, if I make it, maybe around forty I will find some time for music. - I replied to him in a slightly sad tone, I continued to lean against his shoulder, at least until Xiao raised himself slightly so that he could look into my turquoise eyes.

- Whatever you have planned, you don't sound very convinced, you know? And what do you really want?

- Of course that desk job until I'm gray and wrinkled enough to retire. - My words were filled with sarcasm, our gazes met, and I knew she didn't believe a word I said. I myself could not believe them.

- We haven't known each other very long, but you mean to tell me that a person who with one song could get passersby moving and at least for a few minutes get them out of this gray world filled with boredom, plans to end up locked up in an office creating tables on the company's revenues? You know, I have a very limited sense of humor, but you made me laugh a lot with this one.

- I wish it was a joke, but unfortunately I try to think like the adult I should be. Dreams are childish aren't they? So what if since I was a child I have wanted to cheer people up with my singing, support them in difficult moments with a simple melody, comfort them with song lyrics.... If this is not something I can be sure of. The track I have chosen at least is proven, and how do I know if even one person will want to listen to my singing? What if the concert starts and the audience is empty?

- Then call out to me. I usually stay back and don't lean out, but if it's necessary I'll shout loudly, or sing from the audience with you. I don't know how I'll do it, but I'll try to make you feel like you're in front of a full audience, even if it's just the two of us there. - His words, so quiet, a little shy and gentle like the part of himself he had just emerged from behind that cold mask. While speaking he avoided eye contact, well probably for the first time in his life he is the one who has to add motivation to someone, but he succeeded. I looked again at the stars shining on the ceiling, and a shadow of joy crept over my face again. I had always imagined that these stars were wishes that had not been spoken aloud. Now one of them sat right next to me and said it would clap the loudest. I have always dreamed of a person who would want me to fight for music, he doesn't even know me, he doesn't know what I face every day, and he supports me as if we have been friends forever.

- Damn, with one sentence you have guaranteed yourself a place in front of the stage at every performance. Slow down Satan or I'll seriously end up a homeless musician! - My trademark smile returned to my face and I laughed, trying to cover the slight awkwardness of his proposal. I didn't want to feel how the atmosphere between us was getting warmer and warmer, how I was losing myself in this damn feeling more and more every moment. After all, I'm, or rather I'm trying to be a grown man, I can't act like a kid in love who reacts to simple words of support and compliments with too much attachment and possibly even love?

- Do you think Michael Jackson would have become the King of Pop if he had wondered what if music would manage to sustain him? And Beethoven? Even deafness didn't stop him from creating.

- Don't compare me with these geniuses, or I'll soon think I have to start composing symphonies at the age of seven and die tragically for anyone to remember me. - A quiet laugh came out of my mouth again, and unexpectedly I felt a warm hand right on top of mine, the hug was gentle, as if he was afraid I would panic over this one sudden gesture. My gaze went back to looking at him, his expression a little nailed down, as if my words held more weight for him than I would have expected.

- You know, sometimes I wonder if this constant prancing of yours is armor, or maybe it's just running away. Are those forest spirits of yours responsible for that too? - Xiao replied barely audibly and squeezed my hand a little tighter. Why did he hit the nail on the head with these words? Of course I'm running away, sabotaging myself, listening to people who keep clipping my wings instead of following my heart for once. I fell silent and closed my eyes, I didn't even know how I could answer that. Another joke would certainly not pass, he figured me out, the way I have dealt with this internal struggle for several years. He doesn't even know about everything, and he tries to support me anyway. He's already done more for me than most of the people I've met on my path so far. As I drifted off into the world of my own thoughts, I felt that familiar weight on my chest. When I opened my blinders I noticed that the man next to me had placed my lyre on me, with this way he probably wanted to give me a kick start.
- You know, that day when you bolted into our street concert, to everyone around you you were like the sun. Just because you now seem to have gone out doesn't necessarily mean that. Maybe you're shining on the other side now?

- Are you always such a poet? It's a bit romantic you know? Will you ever come under my balcony to read love poems? - Again I jokingly replied and straightened up a little, took the lyre in my hands and began to play. The first few single notes, quiet sounds spread through the old dovecote, and I again looked at the attic filled with small greenish stickers. My fingers moved more and more smoothly on the strings of the instrument, creating a sad melody that poured straight from my heart. It was quiet and fearful, as if it was afraid to see the light of day because it was accustomed to living in perpetual darkness. At some point, the soft accompaniment was joined by a shy humming, and then the words of the song.

When I met you for the first time,
Your voice lit up the darkness,
Like a soul in the wind that carried peace,
And still avoided words.
As light as the wind, so elusive,
Perhaps you are the sun that scorches the clouds
And fills every shadow.
Maybe the spirits know something,
Maybe they carry a message from far away,
Or maybe it's just you,
Which hides behind a cloud,
And still you dance in the silence,
Carrying a melody, written in the wind....

I listened carefully to the words of the song, continuing to play the same melody on the lyre. And something touched me about it, something that brought a warm smile to my face. I closed my eyes, and my fingers continued to touch the strings of the lyre while creating more and more familiar sounds. The boy's voice was warmer than ever, he really came up with something like this on the fly? Until now he had played the cold street boy, and now he was acting like a tender-hearted romantic. But I can't deny that hearing what he was singing about a slight blush came over my cheeks. I could feel his gaze on my hands, as if he was watching to see if I was about to play some kind of prank on him with the foundation. I could, but why ruin such a peaceful moment?
The music quieted down in time, but the atmosphere it evoked continued to hang in the air like a fog. Warm, slightly trembling like my hands after hearing it all.

- Am I your sun? - I asked a little directly and looked in his direction, he did not even try to glance at me. He sang something so obvious and thought I would not listen to the message hidden between the lines? This time I was the one who reached out and gently grabbed his hand, feeling as if butterflies were flying in my stomach, trying to tear me apart from the inside out from all the happiness and excitement. So this interest works both ways huh?
- But if I really am your sunshine.... you're the song I can't stop humming, even if I don't know all the words yet.

At my words, Xiao finally glanced in my direction, probably a little surprised by my words. However, instead of the typical joke on my face, he could see that gentle yet bright as a sunrise smile, and a hint of seriousness in my eyes. And when he made sure that not even a small hint of mockery escaped with those words, he carefully lifted the corners of his mouth upward in a conscious attempt to smile. I barely held back a giggle at the gesture, it was cute, but it's all too strange how someone's facial expressions don't come naturally. I moved a little closer, almost instinctively, continuing to carefully observe his warm face. Now that I've gotten to know them, I won't be able to look at his usually cool face in the same way, the image will never be erased from my memory. It will stay with me even if it was the last time I have the opportunity to call him up. We sat in a comfortable silence, slightly strained by these confessions. We looked deeply into each other's eyes, my turquoise ones absorbing every detail of his face: lightly painted eyelids, pale skin, a few piercings, eyes as yellow as velvets in full bloom, and even those little outlines of dimples when he tries to smile nicely. I raised my hand and just as I was about to touch his cheek there was a sudden vibration sound and I immediately took my hand away, for all this strangely romantic moment I had quite forgotten the fact of the existence of phones and how easily they can interfere with something.

- Don't worry about it silly, better check if it's something important. - I muttered and turned my face the other way while giggling under my breath. The whole atmosphere blew away in an instant, but at least that weight had subsided a little, it was business as usual again. Or it just seemed that way to me.

- Venti? Do you know any TotallyNotDahlia? He just tried to call me on instagram....

- Huh? Yes, that's my friend. But why... - And then it dawned on me, I reached into my bag for my phone and of course it was off. I cursed under my breath and sighed heavily. - Can I call him back from you? I'd be damn grateful... - At my request, the boy handed me his cell phone, and I immediately clicked the callback options.

- Venti? Do you know what time it is? Forgive me but even I was not able to cover you for so long. Around eleven o'clock she came by my house to pick you up, I tried to call you, but damn you have your phone turned off! For this whole situation you owe me a big beer or a drink!

- Something you, surely there will be no tragedy! Thanks for trying, I'll tell you everything tomorrow.-I replied in a low voice before I hung up, I took the opportunity to look at the time and indeed it was already after two in the morning. Usually this day from college I return around seventeen, I must admit that the presence of this little one can make time pass awfully fast, I did not realize when so many hours had passed.
- I have to go back. - I announced and handed him the phone, and after a moment I stepped back and got up from the pouffe still trying to smile, I knew that I was in for the rebuke of the century when I returned, but at the moment I preferred to focus on looking forward to my next meeting with Xiao. He's the only one I feel like myself around, he only knows about the person I've always been, he doesn't realize who I am on a daily basis and what the plans for the future I've talked about actually look like, and I don't think he cares. Because he is the only one who can focus on the real me and not the masks I clumsily put on myself.

- Do you want me to drive you away? - He asked directly, and I quietly giggled and waved my head. I am amazed at his protectiveness, he is probably afraid that someone will kidnap me at this hour, I will get lost or something even worse will happen. And he didn't realize that I was only five minutes away from home. I snapped at his forehead and chided him, looking him straight in the eye.

- Needless to say, come back early and write me the lyrics to the song! After all, I have to please my only spectator!

Chapter 5: End of studies

We talked with Xiao for half the night, in about four hours I have to get up to study but who cares? At most I'll take a nap at the lecture or take a nap when I get back, the life of a student who is about to end up with this trash should be more interesting. I should enjoy life by the handful, pursue what I've always wanted, and what I've been successfully dissuaded from. Why can't I be what I want to be? Why is it that only my freedom is blocked in this way? Why am I afraid to defy this horrible woman?

I slowly opened the door that led me deep into those as always cold walls, the larger building in which I was “lucky” to take my first steps, play my first notes on the piano, and then sit incessantly over books or conversations about the company I would one day be responsible for. The facility I used to be able to call home, but frankly that old pigeon house reminds me more of it. Especially after tonight, this place has become even more precious to me. And especially the lyrics of the song that the dark-haired man sang to the tune I played. I couldn't get the thought out of my head that it meant something more, that those words weren't just random choices. Of course it wasn't, he finally took into account the spirits I had told him about earlier, and how he compared me to the sun.... Well his friends in the team certainly don't know this romantic, more open-minded side of him.

When I crossed the gates of the building I quietly walked to my room, my mother did not wait for me to return? Did she give up and go to bed? I guess this is my lucky day, I should go to bed if I'm going to go to university tomorrow, and screaming in the middle of the night certainly wouldn't make it any easier. My parents weren't the worst in the world, I realized that everything they were doing was to protect my future, but along the way I think they forgot that they were raising their child, not a corpo rat who had just come to them after college. Since they have set their sights on me becoming their deputy they are completely forgetting that there are other things needed in life than study and work. When I was a child I didn't pay that much attention, I could go out to play with a friend, sometimes I played the piano with my mother, and on top of that they taught me two foreign languages at once. Even their choice was not random, the idea was that I would better communicate with the company's biggest business partners.

I quickly changed into something to sleep in and threw myself on the bed, I looked at the empty white ceiling of my room. At first the stars I got as a kid I wanted to hang here, but as soon as I tried it they were taken off while painting. I quietly hummed the same melody as before and recalled Xiao's lyrics. Although it was just an improvisation I would like to hear it in full version someday, after all, I created this backing track several years ago and I usually hum it when I need to calm down. The fact that it lived up to a few lines of lyrics made me terribly happy, and even more so the emotions that were hidden between the words.

*****
I woke up around seven in the morning and was not very sleepy, well strange if that few hours of rest were enough for me. I got up, stretched and started getting everything ready for the start of another perfect student's day. As long as I survived the meeting with them, I knew that when I came out of my room I would immediately get my parents' attention and not escape the conversation. So I took a deep breath and when I was ready, I left my four walls and went downstairs to the kitchen. As I suspected, I found my mother there who, at my arrival, didn't even raise her eyes from over her book. She's angry and will pretend she doesn't exist, don't you agree? I honestly would have preferred her to burst out and start screaming, this silence was even worse for me in the end. I quietly walked to the countertop and began to prepare breakfast for myself, carefully waiting for even the slightest sound from my parent, her silence fortunately did not last forever.

- So you weren't at Dahlia's yesterday? - She finally asked at which I slightly flinched and shook my head in the negative, I looked in her direction and smiled a little silly. - Not only did you lie to us, but you also screwed the poor girl over. You break me down son, will you at least tell me what she is like?

- Huh? She? - I widened my eyes slightly when I heard her words, wondering what my mother was talking about again.

- Well, since you went so far as to ask Dahlia to cover for you, it's rather obvious that it's about something more. So I'm listening, did you like some woman? - The explanation stunned me a little, I didn't expect her to draw such conclusions after I once disappeared from the house for the night. I barely held back from laughing at this question. After all, she was partly right, someone had caught my interest but it was about a boy. Well, it's not something I can share. After all, I know what conservative views they have, just like Dahlia's parents who don't accept his real gender. When we were children they often said that when we grew up we would become married, and in the future we would manage the company together and start a family to later pass the business to the next generation. Whenever I thought about it something twisted inside me, fortunately the topic quieted down and I hope they understood how bad this decision would be.

- I won't lie, someone caught my eye. - I muttered under my breath scratching the back of my neck and looked away from my parent.

- I knew it! What do her parents do? Does she go to college with you?

- Actually, I met this person by chance and did not manage to meet the parents....

- So when you find out, tell me right away! We need to see if she is a good candidate! How happy my father will be when he returns from a business trip! Next time instead of disappearing without a trace just invite her to join us, I will be happy to meet your chosen one. - She interrupted me, and I was only able to laugh nervously and went back to preparing breakfast. She wanted to meet this person just to ask everything she wanted to know, not that I was ever going to bring anyone here, much less a boy I had a crush on. That could have sparked a civil war. To end the conversation as quickly as possible it was after I finished eating that I left the house on the pretext that I was hurrying to class.

This time I didn't have time to go to my hideout, but I didn't even feel the need to do so. All thanks to last night, after that little private concert by two unfulfilled musicians. It's possible that it was just a childhood crush, although Xiao really was my type. Or maybe I only liked him because he lived the life I always wanted? I didn't know him very well yet, he certainly acts like a person who puts music first, and the way he encouraged me yesterday.... Until it made my heart warmer. When I arrived at the college I entered the lecture hall and took the same seat as always, where Dahlia was already waiting for me. The boy smiled surreptitiously and threw me a visibly curious look, I knew what he was going to ask and I just rolled my eyes in response.

- Did the date go well? - My friend asked me, and I sighed and nodded. As usual, he was looking for sensationalism where it shouldn't be, this inquisitiveness of his was one of his most annoying traits at times.

- Well, we were in a music store where he showed me old vinyl records, and then we were in a certain secret place looking at the stars. Romantic, isn't it?

- Just by this description alone I know that you fell into the ears, the son of some of the most influential people in the country liked a certain guitarist too much. I wonder what your parents think of that. - He laughed, and I poked him in the side to somehow make up for these jokes.

- Don't kick a man lying down, my mother thinks I've found myself a potential future wife.

- At least she'll get the idea of our engagement out of her head, the very pluses. Forgive me Venti, but getting married to you is the last thing I would want.

- But if by some miracle she finds out about Xiao then I can forget about returning home or leaving.

- Mine didn't kick me out, they try to fix me even if it's impossible. But it's funny to watch their efforts, well in your case it will probably be the same. When they find out that you prefer men they will start planting perfect partners for you. In the same way that floral dresses sometimes magically appear in my closet. - He smiled comfortingly at me, and I immediately reciprocated the gesture. Dahlia has been my best friend since our parents introduced us to each other, sometimes he is annoying but he goes along with it and most importantly I can rely on him in situations like this. Just like he can rely on my jokes when he gets cute hair clips from his parents as a birthday present.

- Well, at least we are together in this little spiral of hatred. - I shrugged my shoulders and the blond man nodded, and I could already see by the look on his face that more questions about my last night were getting ready. So as soon as the subject came back I told him everything in turn, about the dance in the basement of the music store, about the song we shared without mentioning what was included in its lyrics. More and more I began to think that it was a quietly shy confession, I would do anything to make sure it was true. Because who knows, maybe it will work out for us?

- Damn, and by his profile I thought he was a cool emo boy who could try to disappear from this world at any moment. I was afraid that he would provide you with some kind of trauma and that I would have to eat ice cream with you after nights, and it turns out that under this mask hides a romantic of few. Until I start rooting for you.

- Huh? So he finally earned your support? And you say you looked at his profile?

- Of course, he was too sticklers for you, and you, with your naiveté, certainly wouldn't see anything strange if he started dragging you to some white bus. Be thankful, I'm protecting you.

- Oh how grateful I am to you. You take such care of me, a true friend. - I said with a teasing smile, purely ironically. Well, every time in the past when someone caught my attention it was Dahlia who checked the information on that person and immediately told me all the darkest secrets of that individual's family. He was always unnecessarily looking for drama, but once in this way he seriously saved me from a boy who a month later was locked up for dealing in stimulants. So this unusual hobby of his sometimes comes in handy.
When the lecture began we both fell silent, as did the rest of the room. It was one of the last classes, then the defense and graduation. The time flew by damn fast, and I still remember when I was in high school and wanted to rebel, specifically to submit papers to study music, but when my parents found out about it they knocked it out of my head.
While writing notes suddenly on the tablet screen a notification from instagram. Little_frog21 sent me a message, I wonder what he wanted again. Another trip to the music store? Abduct me from home and make my situation with my parents even worse?

"Hey, in two weeks we have a concert in one of the clubs, will you come over? :)"
“They're holding free performances there to celebrate the end of the student year.”

“I was supposed to go with my friend and cousin to the city then, but if they agree then I don't see any obstacles!” he said.

"Take them with you, my younger sister will certainly take your cousin into her pack. She gets along with everyone."

“Wow, you have a sister?”

“Even two, but one to go out on the town with me only in about 10 years :p”

“I'll catch up with you then :DD”

“Agreed, but only if I get to hear the full version of that tune you played yesterday by then.”

“Only if I get the full lyrics to it!”

“So be it.”

“:D <3”

I smiled under my breath and when the boy stopped writing me off to I went back to taking notes, after all, for these last days I have to apply myself, pass everything and be able to soon say goodbye to this boring university once and for all. And then the internship, which will possibly be even worse than sitting here several times a week from morning to evening. Here at least I have Dahlie, and at my parents' company I will have to listen to their boring explanations for days. Then my life will be controlled even more. No matter what I did my parents did not change their plans, when I tried to rebel they would start a conversation like “we are doing this for your sake” and I always gave in to them. And that's how I found myself at such a point, not even knowing whether the better option would be to continue on my parents' path or move out into the street.

- Venti, do you think a bright pink in my hair would suit me? - Dahlia suddenly spoke up when the lecturer left the room, I glanced at him with my typical slightly mocking smile.

- Why are you asking my opinion? Just do it, and maybe I'll dye my hair too?

- For graduation?

- Great that we understand each other, he wants turquoise ends!

- I don't promise to do it right, at most I will burn your hair with bleach.

- Just try it! - I replied dramatically, to which we both quietly laughed. - Later the same day we are going to the 4nemo concert, so I have to look good!

- Huh? You set such plans without me what? And Furina what about it? Did you at least inform her that instead of going out to our favorite bar we will go to your lover's concert? - He asked and poked me in the side with his elbow, visibly amused.

- I also just found out so don't cling to stupidity. So in two weeks we'll graduate, dye our hair, and then go out on the town to drink more than usual~.

- And the next day not only will you have a hangover, but your mother will chew when she sees your hair. I guess life is seriously not kind to you.

- You're exaggerating, she'll be happy because she'll finally have one more reason to cut my hair.

- Yep, your mother is trying to cut off those cute braids of yours, and mine is annoyed that she doesn't want to grow her own. Nothing but envy for us. - Dahlia joked again, but I heard the note of seriousness in his voice well. I knew well how difficult the situation was for him, although he usually told some lame jokes about his parents in this way only masked the grief he felt for them. After all, what kind of parent can't even accept his child, after many conversations he continues to believe that it's just a silly phase caused by puberty.

*****

The two weeks passed much faster than I expected, due to my studies I did not have time to meet with Xiao. He did the same with the rest, only his every free moment was filled with rehearsals for an upcoming concert, seemingly just a small performance in a bar for young people, but they took it one hundred percent seriously. Well, after all, it was their debut on a real stage, not in the middle of a boardwalk. And this time they wouldn't be interrupted in concert by some random boy playing the lyre.... But at least I made a good first impression on the one I started to like, right?

The end of the year went without any delays, as befits a high-level university that we were already fortunately finishing. I now have a paper confirming my high education, does it change anything? No, I still don't know who I want to be or what I want to do in life, and through these studies I only have even more confusion in my head.
Dahlia and I took lots of pictures of each other as proof of our regained freedom, and then we went to my cousin's house where we met up with her. We figured it would be safer this way, after all, Furina has been dying her hair blue all the time for a good few years and it works out well for her. She's also good at make-up, dancing, and plans to become an actress. I have always admired in her this dedication to her dreams, and she was another person who tried to support me in starting my music career. She suggested that with my voice I should sign up to sing songs in movies, and I honestly thought about it, regardless of where I wanted to just sing and make others happy with it, not just myself.

- Well it couldn't go on any longer? We have to make it perfect if Venti is to see her boyfriend today! - Cried Furina cheerfully as soon as she opened the door for us and let us in. I rolled my eyes at her text and sighed quietly.

- How many times do I have to tell you that this is not my boyfriend?

- Good correction, future boyfriend! But that doesn't change the fact that if Dahlia did your hair you wouldn't stand a chance with him. I doubt if you would even want to leave the house. - She laughed and led us to her room, its decor was blue and white, full of plush sea creatures, and a few glowing jellyfish hung from her ceiling. She had a cabinet with cups and medals for dance and theater competitions. She had always been a passionate woman and knew what she wanted to do in life, and her mother supported her in this and drove to her every performance to always clap the loudest afterwards.

- You'd better watch yourself so you don't have purple on your head any time soon. - Threatened her jokingly Dahlia, and I just laughed and loosened my hair from its braids so that the girl could start working.

Chapter 6: Concert

When I finally finished drying my freshly washed hair, I ran to the mirror excitedly. My eyes lit up to see those gorgeous turquoise tips. I clapped my hands and turned toward Furina and Dahlia who were looking at my somewhat childish reaction with visible amusement on their faces. My friend was also past his metamorphosis, and that slightly pink hue went very well with his lavender eyes.

- Smile! - Cried the girl suddenly before taking a picture of the three of us, probably to put on her profile. She is quite popular on the Internet, having gained a little fame by winning contests, and now she keeps it up by being active on Instagram. She hadn't fully started her career yet, and already had her own fan base. I did not envy her in the end I know how hard she worked for it, I think I am happy for her happiness. Although I myself never had the opportunity to spread my wings like this. When I was about twelve years old I tried my hand at Youtube, but who hasn't tried at that age? Well in my case I ended up uploading a video where I play the ukulele and sing a song popular at the time, I even got some nice comments! But before I could record anything new, the classmates to whom I showed it told the teachers, and the teachers informed my parents about it. Thus ended my golden period on the Internet, ended faster than it began.

- Have you already groomed yourself to go out that you have time to take pictures? You'd better start painting already because it will take you the longest with this.... - Dahlia, as always when we were in the company of Furina, had to complain about something under his breath. It's not that he didn't like her, he just loved to annoy her, it was always funny when she got into her downright hysterical rage.

- Just because I like to look nice compared to you, doesn't mean you have to tease me about it! You know, it's not too late for me to put black paint on your hair! Or depilatory cream! - She reacted as she always does, that is, almost theatrically, and I only laughed quite loudly while watching these typical teasing of theirs.

- Of course, after all, we all know that there is no more masculine hairstyle than a bald head. - I joined them, and in response my friend sent me a cool look.

- Listen well you damn -

- Calmly calmly because this pink is about to turn white~ - I added more and combed his hair, he didn't answer me anymore apparently he gave up because we were outnumbered. When Furina finally groomed herself to leave, we left her house and walked towards the bar where 4nemo, as well as many other groups, have their small concerts today. We walked through the somewhat crowded promenade; Friday evening is, after all, the most popular time to go out, especially when it also combines with the end of the year at college. We walked through a small crowd, the streetlights illuminated us from above with their yellowish light, and the surroundings were filled with the sound of conversations, street players playing guitars, and the sounds of pigeons which, as in any city, were everywhere. When we arrived at the venue, we were greeted by darker lighting, blue and purple led lights, and an even darker stage. I looked around the room to find a good table, Xiao mentioned something to me that he would be making reservations close to the stage so we could see everything well. Finally I saw them, the whole 4nemo in full swing, though of course I paid most attention to their guitarist who was not yet aware of my presence at the bar.

- Huh? Is this your non-boyfriend? - Furina asked in a whisper and poked me a few times in the side with a teasing smile on her face.

- Just don't rip your throat out if you start cheering him there. - Added Dahlia from himself, and I immediately blocked their mouths with my hands, so that only stifled laughter could be heard.

- It seems to me are you guys much more excited about this than I am? - I muttered under my breath and rolled my eyes, then took my hands and walked toward the table. As soon as Heizou saw me, he smiled and touched Xiao's shoulder to get his attention.

- Look! Your lyre boy has finally come! Will you give him a kiss to say hello? - He said a little too loudly, at which Kazuha sitting next to him quietly laughed. The dark-haired man sighed through his comment, then looked in my direction, and in return I gave him a slightly wider smile.

- And well I came to save you from stage fright before the performance, no need to thank you friends~! - I replied cheerfully grinning at them like the last moron.

- Who told you that we are friends? - Murmured Scaramouche under his breath, to which Kazuha lightly poked him.

- There's nothing to growl at the very beginning of the meeting dog, you'll scare our new friends. Actually, it's a pleasure to meet you em.... - Said Heizou then looked at me as if asking me to introduce my companions. Well yes I guess I should do that?

- The pink one is Dahlia, and the blue one is Furina. - I said pointing first to one and then to the other. The blue-haired one, as usual, pleased, waved her hand in their direction with a radiant smile. We all took our seats at the table, I experienced the luck and had the opportunity to sit next to Xiao. Of course, by total coincidence, it's not at all like everyone around us is already trying to do everything to get us together. I won't say that I even like it a little.

- So I'm in for an evening in the company of only men? - Asked Furina looking at each in turn as they introduced themselves to them, Dahlia only quietly laughed.

- In a moment, my sister and her friends will join us as soon as they finish their performance. - Announced Xiao rather more quietly, as usual pretending to be terribly secretive in the company of others. I, however, already know that this is just a show, when we are left alone he seems much more open, or whenever the subject of music comes up I sometimes get the impression that his mouth does not close.

- Fortunately, she would not last an evening without female chatter about cosmetics and other nonsense. - He muttered under his breath Dahlia, at which Furina poked him lightly in the side, as they always loved to annoy each other. After a while, the lights on the stage came on and three girls came out, all dressed in costumes the color of the night sky, the lower edges of their skirts glittered with silver glitter, resembling stars. They matched it with silver jewelry, from this distance it was difficult to see its details, but I suspected that it also alluded to the theme of space.

- How lovely they all are! - Exclaimed Furina cheerfully, the girls probably heard this because one of them quietly laughed and let out a wink at the blue-haired girl. She had long brown hair tied in two high ponytails, and held a side flute in her hand. The second teenager had a slightly darker complexion, shorter dark brown hair with a red streak in her bangs, was also tied up in two fluffy ponytails, and held a classical guitar. The last one stood out the most, purple loose hair reaching past her waist, she had more accessories than the rest. She was the only one not holding any instrument, while I noticed a head microphone. She is most likely a singer, and by her choice of sound system, I infer that she will also be dancing. She is definitely the one that all eyes will focus on.

- The one with the flute is Xiao's sister. She doesn't look like him at all right? Compared to him, she always has a sweet smiling face and doesn't look like she wants to kill someone with her gaze. - Said Heizou, to which I quietly laughed.

- But you guys are picking on him, do you dislike him that much? - I replied while looking at the rest of the boy's team, however, they let out a quiet giggle. Well, except for Scaramouche, who nodded in response with a serious expression.

- Oh Xiao, your boyfriend is already defending you. Cute isn't it? - The maroon-haired man whispered to the yellow-eyed man with a mocking smile gently nudging him in the side, and at this the dark-haired man furrowed his forehead and sighed loudly, probably fed up with all the banter.

- How many times do I have to tell you that he's not my boyfriend? - Xiao muttered under his breath, as if he was trying to make sure I didn't hear it. Well he failed in the end I was sitting right next to him.

- Not yet. - Dahlia interjected, to which most of the company nodded their heads in agreement, and I giggled seeing the grimace on the face of my object of sighs. My gaze returned to the girls on stage who had already begun their performance, just as I thought the one that stood out slowly danced while her friends playing instruments formed her backing track. After a few short moments, a soft clear voice also joined the dance, which created an unprecedented nostalgic atmosphere in the bar. I could feel more like I was in a clearing, surrounded by colorful flowers than in a noisy place full of neon lights. Their music definitely grabbed your heart, they didn't sound like beginners, in the sound of the song you could hear how much work they put into perfecting their skills. All the sounds blended perfectly, transporting listeners to another world, one where problems disappear turned into the strumming of a guitar and the quiet whistle of a flute.

- How long have your sister and her friends been playing? - I asked in a whisper, glancing at the boy next to me, quietly enough not to disturb others listening to the concert.

- Well, they have known each other since kindergarten. Back then Xinyan was already learning to play the guitar and Yun Jin was learning to dance. Hu tao first watched them, and then she said she wanted to add something from herself, so I helped her get into this musical world. I first taught her on the guitar, but then she decided on her own that a flute would be better for the sound of the others, and she started learning on her own. - I listened to him carefully seeing the gentle smile on his face, when he talked about his little sister in his voice I heard a warmer note. It just showed how attached he must be to his sibling. Well, he's probably the type of older brother who supports with all his might and also won't hesitate to hit someone who messes up with his sister.

- Huh~ You sound like an awfully proud big brother now. Is your youngest sister also learning to play something?

- Well sometimes when Hu Tao and I practice together she comes and plays the dulcimer. Or she tells her friend in kindergarten how often she has home concerts.

- So there is a very musical family of you, still tell me that your parents play something.

- Actually, our mother often sang to us when we were little, our father was always a faithful listener. Well, and the music store and vinyl collection belong to him, so he also had some influence in developing our love for music. - I listened to all this with a warm smile on my face, but I couldn't stop that familiar sting of jealousy that squeezed me inside. It seemed to me that Xiao was living my dream life, he had the support of his family from all sides, from childhood there were people in his life who shared his passion. And in my case, as soon as my parents' company grew this music was banned, treated as unnecessary foolishness. After all, why run after your dreams when you can be blinded by the amount of cash in your wallet? Why support a child when you can make him count every expense as a robot, locked in an office from morning to night?
It is possible that my always cheerful expression frowned for a moment, which of course could not escape the watchful eye of my interlocutor. I felt Xiao place his hand on mine, as if he guessed something was bothering me. I immediately looked into his eyes and smiled foolishly. Today we are supposed to have fun, not worry about family business and the problems of the gray everyday world. After all, you only graduate once in your life!

- When I listen to all this until I feel like running away from home and living under your bed. Or in the closet, just for variety. - I chuckled in his direction and quietly giggled, and he also looked like he was about to laugh, but it was silent. Is he trying so hard to protect his reputation as a cool guitarist?

- Tastes aren't discussed, but in case you're wondering, I also have plenty of room in my bed. You won't have to crumple under it.

- Huh? A real animal comes out of our Xiao when we're not looking. - Heizou interjected and again gently poked him with the same mocking smile as before.

- You'd better check if Scara and Kazuha are waiting for you to come. - The dark-haired man answered him coolly, to which the rest of the table laughed. Before we knew it the music from the stage finished playing, and the girls came to the end to take a bow. The whole audience started clapping loudly, some even whistling. I glanced at Xiao and saw him smiling a little more than usual when he looked at his sister. I could see warmth and pride in his gaze, as soon as the brunette noticed him she immediately chipped in visibly excited after the concert. So it feels so good to have a sibling? Despite probably a lot of bickering they know they can rely on each other, and during moments like these they always sit in the front row and, although wordless, show their pride. When the teens left the stage they immediately walked toward our table.

- Try to beat that 4nemo! - Called out a brunette with short hair showing towards the guys, from what Xiao said I think her name is Xinyan.

- Well, don't think you guys will manage to get more applause than us. We are the stars of the evening! - Added Hu Tao as enthusiastically as her friend. Yun Jin, on the other hand, only shyly laughed while observing her friends' enthusiastic behavior.

- Oh? The stars of the evening? They aren't supposed to perform last by any chance? - Asked Heizou with an amused smile, at which slight grimaces appeared on the brunettes' faces.

- Oh come on, the girls have warmed up our audience well. There is nothing left for us to do but make good use of it. - Answered Kazuha, it seems to me that despite the fact that these groups play completely different kinds of music, they compete with each other? Well, that's probably the charm of such events. Some do it as a hobby for fun, and still others want to start their careers in this way and draw the attention of people who can help them do it. That was 4nemo's goal, especially since this would be their first performance on stage, and as far as I know they did their best to make it come out perfectly.
Hu Tao looked in my direction and a half-smile appeared on her face, before I knew it she was already sitting right next to me and watching me carefully.

- You are Venti aren't you? The one who accidentally wandered into their street concert? - She asked me in excitement, I felt all the way overwhelmed by this enthusiasm of hers. Already at the first glance at her I see that she is the complete opposite of Xiao, exactly as the guys described her.

- Well, that's right, and are you the little sister that Xiao talked so much about? - I replied just as jokingly, to which the red-eyed girl resolutely nodded.

- Huh? He tells stories about me, huh? I hope only good things, just like about you. - Saying this, she glanced at her brother with a hilarious expression on her face, could it be that she was trying to annoy him?

- So Xiao also told you something about me? - I laughed quietly and also looked at the boy sitting next to me. - Have I caught your attention so much that you have to tell others about me? I feel honored. - I winked at him, and he just rolled his eyes. I love these attempts of his to pretend that my words and actions do not move him, it's sweet.

- And just so you know how much more. He told me so much recently when he joined 4nemo.

- Are you done yet? - Xiao asked her, probably fed up with his sister's behavior. Hu Tao moved closer to me to whisper in my ear.

- We'll talk later, because right now this stiff is listening and interfering unnecessarily. - At her words, I nodded gently and giggled under my breath. Then the girl moved away and joined her friends. As soon as half of the concert of the next group had passed, the guys got up to go to the back to prepare for their own performance.

- Break a leg~ - I threw to them as they walked away, to which Heizou with his bared smile showed a thumbs up. Although they tried to look indifferent and well-meaning I could well see the tension among them, it would be strange if they weren't stressed about their debut on stage.

- Gee girls, you were wonderful! - Furina said as soon as the boys left the table. She looked at the three peers with delight joyfully quietly clapping her hands.
- I am Furina, can I ask you for an autograph? - At her question the whole group's eyes lit up, the blue-haired girl was an artist herself and always did what she could to support others. After all, she herself knew well what it felt like to worry all the way to the end of the performance, to try not to mess up the steps, the notes. In front of an audience, everything must be buttoned up to the last detail, and stage fright before a performance is the biggest enemy of any artist. Although it motivates some, for some people it grinds everything down as soon as they appear in front of people. It takes away the voice, makes the hands tremble and the feet on the dance floor do whatever they want.

- We are glad you enjoyed it, fortunately everything worked out as we expected. - Yun Jin replied to her, and Xinyan patted her on the head.

- Something was supposed to go wrong when we had your beautiful voice on our side? More courage. - The girl chipped and winked at the other, and then a faint blush appeared on the violet-haired girl's slightly pale complexion as she nodded in response.

- We can set ourselves to listening to girl talk until the others return. - Sighs Dahlia from the off, to which I giggled.

- At least for their conversations about makeup and so on, we'll have great accompaniment. - I said consolingly looking at the boy with bright pink hair.

- Well, we don't know if they will win the hearts of the audience. But at least we know that their guitarist has conquered yours. - He chuckled with a mocking smile on his face, at which Furina and the rest of the girls laughed louder, and I felt like hiding underground. When the last notes of the song of the group that was now performing reached our ears, we looked at the stage in anticipation of the appearance of our friends.

Chapter 7: Whispers in the Wind

Before we all knew it, a few minutes of intermission had passed and 4nemo came out on stage in full force. In the background we could hear the squeals of the female part of the audience, well in the end each of them was awfully handsome. If it didn't work out for them in the music world they could always try as models, with their distinguished faces they would surely conquer most teen magazines. My gaze involuntarily shifted to Xiao, he was dressed in a black turtleneck, jeans of the same color with chains attached to the side. It wasn't much different from how he dresses every day, but I still couldn't take my eyes off him. This was noticed by Dahlia who only laughed and waved his hand in front of my face.

- Did you come to watch the concert or admire their guitarist? - He asked through laughter, and I glanced in his direction slightly wrinkling my forehead.

- But you are enjoying my happiness, I will do the same as someone you like. Although with your character? I doubt you will find someone soon. - I replied and went back to looking at the stage, they were just starting the first song. From what Xiao wrote to me in the plan they have three, one of which is new and they haven't even played it at street performances.

- Well, I'd rather have no one than act like a lovebird. - The pink-haired man muttered under his breath, to which I put my finger to his lips to silence him. I wanted to listen to the music coming from the stage, I would find time to complain about Dahlia later. They started with the song we played together in rehearsal, but it was coming out much better now than it was then. I could hear more emotion in Xiao's voice, when he sang his voice was definitely stronger than when he usually spoke. I hummed the now-familiar tune under my breath and unconsciously smiled as if charmed. Maybe I liked this performance so much just because the singer is a boy who caught my eye? That's a possibility, but the song is also great. As the notes slowly quieted down, Xiao thanked them for coming and announced the name of the next piece. After which they began to play, this one I didn't already know so I listened in more than before. Just like the first time, I heard a well-composed piece, the sound of the instruments blended well together, and Xiao's voice complemented it almost perfectly. In the end, we didn't see each other for a good two weeks because they spent that time rehearsing, as you can see it paid off for them.

Then there was one sound that didn't match the rest, and it was during a chorus that everyone had heard before. The mistake was seemingly small and unnoticeable to most of the audience, but it certainly wouldn't have escaped the critics and more discerning and musically immersed people. I saw Heizou and Scaramouche's gaze wander to Kazuha, so it was he on his keyboard who made the mistake? Well but fortunately they didn't worry about it and just kept playing, it was their first such performance so a little stumble due to stress could happen. When the song ended the green-eyed man discreetly showed a thumbs up toward the white-haired man, a sign that nothing of the sort had happened. After all, they have one more song ahead of them, and the audience was already warmed up enough by previous performances.

I felt someone's gaze on me, and my gaze immediately shifted back to the band's guitarist. That's when we caught eye contact, Xiao was smiling at me, and his posture said to me, “Look at me and don't think about looking away.” Until I widened my smile because of it.

- And now welcome to the last song of the evening! It's our new song, “Whispers in the Wind”! - Xiao announced, and after a while the last song, the latest one that has never yet seen the light of day, began. First a few quiet twangs of guitar rang out across the bar, and then other instruments joined in as well, and at the very end Xiao's quieter voice than before.

I never looked up, the sky felt too wide,
Too full of songs I was scared to try.
My silence kept me, safe and small,
A quiet room with no one at all.

But wind slipped through where walls once stood,
Soft like forgiveness I never understood.
It didn't ask, it didn't stay-
But something in me begged it not to fear.

If the wind had a voice,
Would it sound like you?
If the sun had a choice,
Would it break through too?
And if shadows could fade
At the sound of your name....
Would you stay
If I whispered the same?

I listened carefully to the lyrics of the song, right from the beginning he caught my heart with that fragile sound of his voice, as if he himself was afraid to sing it. It was as if he himself was unsure of the words of the song, or whether he wanted to say them now. He looked straight into my eyes, as if there was no one else between us. And then I realized, it is directed straight to me. The song was written with me, him, us in mind. About our relationship, how we break our inner walls together, how with each other we slowly discover ourselves. How we show each other our faces that we wanted to keep deep inside. Did I help Xiao that much? When? What did I do that was so bad? And why was my heart beating so fast while listening to this? I listened further, expecting an unfolding of the text hidden between the lines.

You dance like dawn, without looking back,
Where I hold still, lost in the cracks.
But you saw me anyway-
Like a tune that won't drift away.

You never asked why I kept things in,
Just left the door open, and let me begin.
The silence was loud, but you heard me clear-
A song I thought no one would want to hear.

If the wind had a voice,
Would it sound like you?
If the sun had a choice,
Would it break through too?
And if shadows could fade
At the sound of your name...
Would you stay
If I whispered the same?

Not a love song, not quite yet,
Just a melody I won't forget.
But if you hear it, and you know—
Maybe then you'll understand why I wrote it slow.

If you're still here
When the sky turns blue...
Maybe the wind
Chose me too.

I blinked a few times, however, I looked nowhere but at Xiao. I didn't even realize when my hand tightened on the material of my shirt, didn't realize when I slightly parted my lips in surprise, the way my eyes gently widened with each successive word I heard. My gaze was as enchanted as it had been since the beginning of this tune, a song that was written with me in mind. Just about me. Although no one else in the bar realized it, it was like a silent declaration of love. Not obvious, hidden among the sounds of the instruments, in that quiet slightly broken voice that absolutely caught me whole. After a moment, surprise turned into a warm sincere smile, the most sincere one I had shown all my life, in which there was no question of pretense. Now nothing mattered, not my family problems, double life, uncertain future. All that mattered now was us: Me, a music-loving boy watching the performance. And him, capturing my heart with the sound of his guitar and words that only I understood. Something that was only ours, although it was also heard by the other guests. My heart was beating damn fast, and slight bumps appeared on my cheeks. At the sight of them, Xiao looked like he was about to laugh, in his eyes I must look comical now. Enchanted, smiling like the last idiot. An idiot in love. The dark-haired man thanked the audience, and when they bowed to the audience there was loud clapping and cheering, while I was unable to even do that. I was supposed to shout the loudest, and I stand stunned trying to figure out if this song really was what I think it was.

- Venti, are you all right? - Dahlia asked, finally bringing me back to the real world. I glanced in his direction further with the same beautiful smile as before, I couldn't stop, not when I felt so happy, not when I had just been confessed to love in the most romantic way for me.

- Dahlia. I love him, I bloody love him. - I admitted in a quiet whisper, not wanting the girls who were also sitting at our table to hear it. I did not want unnecessary interference, just the advice of my best friend. Who at my words smiled mockingly as always and patted me twice on the back.

- So go ahead, can you let the excitement subside? Some fan will still steal it from under your nose. - He said and patted me again this time a little harder, and I nodded. I looked toward the stage again, but they were already coming off, so I got up quickly and the moment they came down the steps and waved to the cheering audience I ran toward them. I didn't plan anything, and just moments later I was right in front of Xiao who surprisingly allowed himself a giggle.

- Did I perform so badly that I deserve to be rebuked right after the show? - He quipped, and I wanted to answer him but couldn't. I felt as if all the words were stuck in my throat, I grabbed him by the shoulders and looked into his eyes with the same gaze as for the whole performance. He smiled warmly at me as if from a stage and when he opened his mouth to add something, I didn't let him. I pulled him closer and closed the distance between us, bringing our lips together in a kiss. I thought my heart was trying to jump out of my chest, that the world around me was melting away and in fact I was now dreaming. I did it spontaneously, influenced by the emotions I felt after the song I heard. Never before in my life had music affected me so much, but also never before had anyone professed love to me thanks to it. Surprisingly, the boy confidently reciprocated the kiss, fortunately he didn't push me away. So does he really want it, or is he so stunned that he's afraid to just give me a kiss? Short moments passed, and we moved away from each other, surrounded by the gazes of friends and strangers.

- Am I to understand that you enjoyed the song? - He asked me in a hushed whisper putting his hands on my hips, unfazed by the fact that we were now the center of attention of the entire bar, probably an attraction bigger than all the concerts that took place today.

- I didn't like her, that's too weak a word. I love it. Just like I love you Xiao. - I replied a little uncertainly, to which the usually ice-cold boy widened his smile. Something that could rarely be seen, something that was mostly reserved for me.

- You might have picked it up in the song I wrote, but so did I to you. - He continued to reply as quietly as before, so that no one but me could even try to hear it.

- Did our lovebirds finally get their act together? - Heizou commented through a quiet chuckle, when I glanced at him I saw him gently poke Scaramouche who rolled his eyes in response, and then took a bill of some sort out of his pocket. He reluctantly shoved it into the green-eyed man's hands, did they bet? Xiao also noticed this and his expression returned to his normal cool tone, he also released me from his grasp. Could it be that he only now realized that so many people were looking at his warmer side? Well, I guess I should get used to it.

- We'll talk about it later okay? - The boy asked me in a whisper, and I only nodded gently at that. Immediately afterwards we all returned to the table as if nothing had happened, although I felt the gaze of my new friends, Furina as well as Dahlia, on me. Who, as soon as I took my previous seat, smiled under his breath and whistled quietly. I must admit that I continued to be slightly shocked by what had just happened, I couldn't help but think about how things would continue between us. Although the thought that we would talk about it later calmed me down, all in all, it was much better this way, with fewer curious eyes anticipating our next kiss, and fewer ears listening to our affectionate words.

- And what Xiao? Is Venti worth something, or is it a wasted kiss? - Asked Dahlia through laughter, as usual unable to let go of the opportunity to tease me, I sighed and looked at him with cooler eyes.

- Do you want to find out? My fist can present it to you. - I replied with a teasing smile and stuck out a piece of my tongue at him, and in response to my words Dahlia burst out laughing.

- For the rest, why do you need to know this? Jealous of your buddy? - Xiao surprisingly joined in our banter.

- About him? I think you are dreaming. I should be grateful to you in the first place, less fucking with this unfulfilled musician.

- Oh? So you are also playing something Venti? - Into our conversation suddenly interjected one of the girls, and when I confirmed it with a nod she immediately moved to the seat next to me apparently excited. Her sudden move surprised me a little, but I didn't let it show. - And on what?

- Forgive her, Xinyan can be very~ fascinated when it comes to music. It's been her passion since she was a little girl. - Said Yun Jin looking at us with a sweet smile on her face. I could already see how the two girls are very different from each other. One is louder and full of energy, while the other is quieter and a bit shy. But I infer from their behavior that there is something more between them, could it be that they are also connected by a passion for music?

- That's okay. - I replied briefly and then thought for a while. - I play the lyre, ukulele and piano. Although I would like to learn on something else. In addition, I like to sing.

- Would you like to? Then how about the guitar? I know the perfect candidate to teach you how to play and maybe in your case something more? - Heizou laughed at us as he did before, will everyone now reproach us? It may be their way as a way of showing that they are happy, but it is slowly starting to get annoying.

- In fact, if you felt like it, I could show you some chords. - Replied Xiao, unknowingly making our situation worse. I think he only realized this when everyone at the table started giggling quietly.

- Don't throw him into such deep water right away, the boy just broke through to do anything. - Threw Dahlia, and Furina looked at him out of the corner of her eye holding back a laugh.

- Give them a break already. Have you never seen boys kissing? Big deal. - She said while correcting a strand of her blue hair, as usual using that theatrical overly dramatic tone of hers.

- But when it comes to the guitar I can also help! I know how to do something, maybe one day we can play something together! - Xinyan interjected with a radiant smile on her face, and the purple-haired one let out a quiet chuckle at that.

- That's the plan! Let's have a rehearsal together sometime! - She proposed to Hu Tao and slapped her hands lightly on the table visibly excited by the idea.

- All in all, it could be fun. - Yun Jin spoke up, looking at her friends and then at the rest as if asking what they thought of the idea.

- Why not. - Kazuha replied briefly, and Scaramouche threw him an annoyed look.

- Are you making fun of me? - He whispered, at which Heizou laughed louder and patted him on his pot-cut hair.

- Are you frothing again for no reason? Be careful or you'll scare our female friends, they'll still think you're biting or something. - Commented the green-eyed which apparently further irritated the blue-eyed who in response poked the boy sitting next to him.

- Well, it's settled! Next Tuesday, I'll send you the address! - Exclaimed Xiao's sister cheerfully. Do they include me in this meeting, even if I am not a member of any team? I really liked the idea, yet I had just graduated. And it meant that it would now be harder for me to find an excuse in front of my parents. No more will I be able to tell them that I need to help a lecturer with something, and not get Dahli involved again. For the rest, my mother won't believe it a second time, especially since she suspects I've found someone for myself.

Chapter 8: Smell of cigarettes

After all the concerts, the evening began to unfold terribly quickly, everyone wanted to shake off the stress they felt before the performances and ended up having a few drinks. Which was exactly how Dahlia and I had planned to celebrate the end of our studies. I felt very comfortable among Xiao's friends, it was like entering a whole new world I had never known before. Well, until now, I had only been close to Dahlia and Furina, but thanks to one accidental intrusion into a street concert, I gained so many new friends, and a boyfriend with whom I have something more.
I glanced at the dark-haired guy sitting next to me, slowly sipping his drink, and noticed that he was trying to slow down. It was as if he was afraid of getting too drunk, or maybe he didn't want to make a fool of himself in front of me? He's cute. I smiled like an idiot and looked at him, hoping for some kind of attention. Maybe I overdid it a little, but when it came to alcohol, I never knew anything like moderation. When I had the opportunity to relax, I took advantage of it as much as I could, and Dahlia would make sure I got home safely, or sometimes, when things got worse, he would take me to his place.

- Everything okay? - Xiao finally asked, probably sensing my gaze on him. He turned toward me, and our eyes met.

- Yes, I'm just admiring how handsome the guy sitting next to me is. Is that a bad thing? - I replied without thinking, only realizing a moment later what I had just said. - I mean...

- You're being very direct right now, it's a nice change, - replied the shorter boy with a barely noticeable smirk, staring at me as I stared at him. Normally, I would have looked away, but now I was taking the opportunity to admire every detail of him.

- And you guys keep doing your thing, - Dahlia commented quietly. He was the one who convinced me to tell Xiao how I felt about him, and now he's complaining. I'll never understand his logic.
Then the DJ played “Killer Queen” by Queen, one of the newer songs that were supposed to get people our age moving, suddenly switching to such great classics? As soon as those few familiar notes rang out across the bar, several of my friends got up and headed for the dance floor. Heizou was the first to grab Scaramouche by the hand and, despite the shorter man's protests, pulled him to the center of the dance floor, followed closely by Kazuha with his trademark gentle smile. Next were Xinyan and Yun Jin, and finally I felt someone's hand on mine. However, it wasn't Xiao. I turned to my left and saw Furina, all smiles.

- Venti, let's dance! That's my favorite song! - She exclaimed joyfully, tugging at my hand. I laughed louder when I saw how excited she was about this one song. How could I refuse her? I got up and joined the rest of the group with the blue-haired girl, where we immediately started dancing. I've never been very good at it; my specialty has always been music, not choreography. However, the same could not be said about Furina. Even when she was fully immersed in having fun, her every step and movement was perfect. As befits an award-winning dancer. I may not have danced like a professional, but I had a great time, I just let myself be carried away by the music and did what I wanted. Furina saw this and chuckled quietly, then bumped her hip against mine to get me moving more. For a moment, I focused on imitating her steps, which apparently amused her even more.

- Isn't your future boyfriend coming over here? - Dahlia asked suddenly, grabbing my hand and forcing me to turn, then doing the same to Furina.

- From what I know, he's not fond of dancing, so maybe it's better not to force him? - I replied, keeping my eyes on my friends, to which the pink-haired girl pointed to our table. As soon as I glanced over, I frowned slightly. Xiao was sitting with a blonde girl I hadn't seen here before.
- I can't believe it! I only left him for a few minutes!

- And those few minutes were enough for some fan to try to steal him from you. You better get him here quickly before he forgets about you,- Dahlia muttered and nudged me in the side, and Furina pushed me towards the end of the dance floor, causing me to stumble and bump into some girl. Long blue hair, purple-pink eyes, and a rather embarrassed expression. I moved away from her and gave her a gentle smile.

-I'm sorry, are you okay?- I asked, and she nodded shyly, opening her mouth, but before she could speak, another woman interrupted us. She had long purple hair tied in two ponytails, and something like cat ears on top of them.

-Hey! Hands off my girlfriend!- She snapped and pulled her partner close, glaring at me with her amethyst eyes. I raised my eyebrows in confusion. Had I done something wrong?

-That's not true, I tripped and bumped into her. Anyway, I was just about to go to...-

-I don't care about your excuses, find your own.- She interrupted me, looking rather sulky, her cheeks slightly flushed, so she must have had quite a bit to drink, and I can't blame her for her behavior. Some people are like that when they're drunk, especially when they're with their significant others. And I guess when I was walking to Xiao's and saw that blonde girl, I acted just as possessive as the woman standing in front of me, hugging her girlfriend as if someone was about to take her away.

-Keqing~ calm down, nothing really happened. Let's go to the rest of the group, okay?- The quieter girl finally spoke, and at her words, the other girl immediately calmed down. She adjusted her ponytail, rolled her eyes, and glanced at me again.

-Fine, but next time watch where you're going,- she muttered casually, then took her girlfriend by the hand and walked away. Well, it was quite chaotic, but I shouldn't think about it too much, after all, Xiao is waiting for me to rescue her! I turned toward the table, they were still sitting next to each other and talking, it didn't look like this stranger was a threat to me in any way, but I couldn't just leave it at that. Maybe it was the alcohol, but the sight of them made my stomach churn unpleasantly. Jealousy? No~ I'm never jealous. As soon as I reached the place where we had been sitting earlier, I cleared my throat quietly and casually took a seat next to the object of my affection.

-Oh, Venti, you're back already?- Xiao asked, seemingly unaffected by my presence. Had this girl really messed with his head that much? I quickly scanned her; blonde hair, bangs longer than the rest, with several clips that looked like white and blue flowers pinned in it, golden eyes, and smooth, healthy skin. So this is my competition?

-I didn't want you to sit alone, but I see that a friend is already keeping you company.-

-Relax, it's not what you think.- The blonde suddenly interrupted, smiling cheerfully at me. -My name is Lumine, I've known Xiao since childhood.- I nodded slightly and took a deep breath, trying to act normal. After all, I can't judge someone for talking to someone I like, right? However, I had a strange feeling that this woman's appearance would cause a lot of trouble, or maybe I was spending too much time with Dahlia and that was why I was starting to come up with crazy theories. I reached for my drink and took a sip, then rested my head on the boy's shoulder as if it were the most natural thing in the world. I guess I was just trying to show this girl her place, even if she was just a friend.

-So, getting back to the topic, when exactly is he supposed to arrive?- Asked the dark-haired man, looking once at me and once at the blonde sitting nearby.

-The day after tomorrow, he'll be staying for the whole vacation, so I hope you'll find time to meet him. You know, he really wants to.- She replied, staring at us. I don't know why, but beneath that cheerful smile, I sensed a slight chill. It was as if her mood had suddenly changed when I sat down here, or maybe it was just another one of my alcohol-fueled delusions.

-I'll think about it, but tell him right off the bat that if he's thinking about going back to how things were two years ago, that's not an option. And he could stop using his sister as a mediator. I guess after all this, he's afraid to write, but I'm not scolding him for sending a stupid message.- I also heard a slight tension in Xiao's tone, this conversation seemed to be getting on his nerves. Weren't they supposed to be friends? Why is the atmosphere at the table so strange?

-I'll pass that on to him, and I think I'll run off now because I wanted to see Kazuha.- She stood up and stretched slightly, finally turning her gaze away from us.- Congratulations again on your debut and good luck. - She said this much more coldly, then walked away from the table, leaving me alone with the yellow-eyed man.

-What's going on?- I asked out of pure curiosity, and moved away from him a little to lean on the counter and look at him. A quiet sigh escaped his lips, he didn't even look at me. This probably wasn't his favorite topic of conversation, as evidenced by the long silence that followed my question. After this seemingly endless pause, the boy finally decided to speak.

-Her brother and I used to be close, but that's old news and I honestly don't want to bring it up,- he replied, and from his still nervous tone, I knew it was better not to ask for more details, as I didn't want to put him in a worse mood. Instead, I put my hand on his and smiled reassuringly.

-It's okay, you don't have to say anything else.- I winked at him, and he breathed quietly and looked at me, even returning my smile, although his was much gentler than mine. I quietly hoped that someday I would get some insight into the situation, but I wasn't going to force him. It was obvious that it was a difficult subject for him; after all, who wants to talk about their exes? Especially on the evening when we kissed for the first time and still hadn't had a conversation about everything that was going on between us.

-Do you want to go outside?- he asked, and I immediately nodded. Maybe some fresh air will make everything less confusing than it is right now. I wasn't supposed to hold back today, but after this whole evening, I'd rather not do anything stupid in front of Xiao. I know very well what I'm capable of when I've had a few drinks. I don't remember it myself, but Dahlia always told me about it in brutal detail. We got up and headed for the bar exit, then turned into one of the nearby streets. Xiao leaned against a low wall and took a pack of cigarettes out of his pocket, offering me one, but I shook my head and leaned against the wall of the building opposite. I couldn't even smell like smoke, or my mother would think I had fallen into bad company and assign someone to watch me again, just like she did in middle school when I came home late after school to go to choir practice. Those were terrible times.

-You're stressed.- I muttered under my breath, completely without thinking. Of course, the boy had suggested going out just to cool off after the whole situation. And I, like a fool, let it slip, which will only make things even more awkward...

-Yeah, sorry.- He replied quietly, then took a drag and a moment later blew smoke out of his mouth to the side, as if he noticed that I was keeping my distance from the stench.- But I didn't expect to meet either of the twins tonight, it's not a very pleasant topic of conversation.

-Like I said, if you don't want to, you don't have to. My priority tonight was to see you smile, even though it's sometimes difficult.- My answer elicited a quiet snort from him, and my attempts to defuse the tension seemed to have worked.

-And vice versa, I'd rather not go back inside so that only I can see him.- He turned on and finally looked at me freely, as he always did. I definitely prefer him like this than depressed by some events from the past. Tonight was not a good time to bring that up, so now I'll make sure he doesn't even have time to think about it!

-In that case, I won't protest if you kidnap me somewhere now~- I winked at him, and he rolled his eyes, but I couldn't ignore the slight lift at the corners of his mouth. I did it again. The boy considered a cold bastard without emotions managed to show me what was hidden under that mask again.

-So don't be surprised if your name is on the missing persons list tomorrow.

-To avoid that, I'll quickly write to Dahli to let the others know that we're leaving, and I'll ask for an escort home when you're done with me.

-Today, I'm just getting started with you, so don't expect me to let you go anytime soon.- I laughed at his words and took out my phone to quickly send a message to the pink-haired. “Xiao and I have already left, he's walking me home. So have fun there, sweeties! <3”. I knew he wouldn't be mad at me for leaving early, or maybe he'd bring it up next time we met and call me a fake, but that would be the end of it. When I put my phone away, my gaze returned to the boy in front of me. He perfectly lit and extinguished his cigarette on the wall behind him, dusted off his hands, and came closer to me to grab my hand without hesitation and pull me out of this dark alley.

-So where are we going, Mr. Kidnapper?- I asked jokingly and squeezed his hand lightly, and he smiled under his breath, raising his eyebrow slightly.

-Isn't it obvious? Somewhere where no one will hear your cries for help, that would make my job more difficult.

-I'm slowly starting to lose track of whether these are jokes or if a crime is actually about to take place.

-You can't blame me, after all, you were the first to commit a crime here. Some time ago.

-Oh, really? Enlighten me, what did I do? - After my question, there was a short silence. I was damn amused and treated the whole conversation as a simple banter, like I often have with Dahlia. The moment of silence lingered, quiet music could be heard coming from the nearby bars along the promenade, the night lanterns cast a pleasant yellowish light on us, the dark-haired boy continued to lead me somewhere, to be honest, I didn't even care where. Maybe it was the alcohol, or maybe all this love made me lose my ability to think rationally. When we turned towards the park entrance, the boy finally dared to answer me.

-Well, you stole my heart,- He whispered barely audibly, probably quite embarrassed to have said something so clichéd. And the fact that I burst out laughing certainly didn't improve his situation.

-Sorry! That sounded like something out of a bad romantic comedy,- I replied through my laughter, trying to calm down but unable to.

-Stop it! I'm trying to be serious here!- He was slightly indignant and stopped, and I stopped with him, still unable to control my laughter.

-Somehow, it's not working out for you, sweetie~ - When I managed to restrain myself and catch my breath, Xiao grabbed me by the shoulders and forced me to look at him. The intense eye contact alone made me blush slightly. When did he become so bold? A moment later, he moved closer, put one hand on my hip and... kissed me. Just like I had kissed him earlier, it wasn't an aggressive pounce on his prey, which I might have expected from his behaviour. The kiss was gentle, as if he was afraid that I would pull away and try to escape. But I didn't, how could I? I joined in the gesture, put my hands on his chest and gave myself fully to this slow dance of our lips. The slight chill of the courtyard, the dim light coming from the lanterns, the scent of the trees blooming in the park. All of this was just a backdrop for me, making the moment even more enjoyable. My heart was beating fast in my chest, my cheeks burning mercilessly. And after that moment, which could have lasted forever for me, we slowly moved away from each other.
-You know how to silence me.- I commented in a quiet whisper, trying not to disturb the quiet and rather intimate atmosphere.

-It's so effective that I think I'll use this trick more often.

- I won't complain. I love it as much as I love you. - I confessed to him once again that evening, smiling innocently, clenching my hands on the fabric of his shirt as if afraid of his answer, even though I knew it well. After all, he had also told me that a few hours ago, but I was still impatiently waiting to hear it again.

- You know very well that I love you too. I fell in love with your voice during our first meeting, and the more we saw each other, the more I lost myself in it. Well... I love you, Venti, I love you so much.

- I didn't think that you, with your perpetually cool expression, would be able to utter such sweet words. You surprise me more and more. - He chuckled softly in response and adjusted his grip on my hips, and I couldn't take my eyes off him. Those beautiful eyes, yellow like marigolds growing near the irises. I completely lost my head for him, and it looks like he did for me too.

- I'm going to surprise you again.- He began and gently widened his smile, and I waited for him to continue, anticipating the one question I had been wanting to hear for several weeks.
-Do you know the song “Bobby Sox” by Green Day?

- Huh? - I must admit that this really surprised me, especially since he caught me not listening to all the newly released tracks. - Well, I haven't had a chance to listen to it yet. Why do you ask?

- You know, there's a really good line in there. - He cleared his throat and prepared to sing, while I looked at him, completely clueless about what was going on. - ‘Do you wanna be my boyfriend?’ Something like that. - He sang with that little smirk on his face, and I could only widen my eyes in shock as I slowly realised what had actually happened. I felt that slight burning sensation on my cheeks again and my heart beating much faster, as if I was about to have a heart attack from all the emotions. I was completely stunned, so it took me a moment to find my words. Xiao waited silently for my answer, not rushing me, giving me as much time as I needed to recover from this emotional bombshell. But I could feel his hands shaking, he was nervous. Well, that's not surprising after asking such a question. I took a deep breath, I didn't have to think about what to say to him, the answer was as obvious to me as the sun rising every morning.

- Of course, I'll be your boyfriend. - I whispered in a slightly broken voice, wanting to sound more confident, but my emotions got the better of me. This boy doesn't know everything about me yet, he has no idea what I face every day. And yet he loved the real me, the music-loving fool, not the future company director I was supposed to become. It didn't matter to him what kind of family I came from, he never asked about it. To be honest, I think I know more about him than he knows about me. How long should I keep this a secret? Will the music that brought us together protect us from breaking up when I tell him that I can't devote myself to it completely? No, I shouldn't think about that. Not at a time like this, not when I see that joyful sparkle in his eye, his expression warmer than ever, not when he looks at me as if I were the most precious treasure in his life.

- I don't know why, but I was expecting to get rejected. - He joked quietly, and I burst out laughing.

- Are you kidding? Reject you? I'd have to be the biggest idiot in the world! - After saying that, I kissed him, pressing my lips against his in my excitement. I have a boyfriend! But that also means I'll have to be even more careful about hiding from my parents. Not only am I secretly involved in music, but instead of finding the perfect partner in their eyes, I've found myself a boyfriend. While I know very well that they wouldn't even want to hear about something like that. When we pulled away from each other, I grinned at him like an idiot, and he just smiled tenderly.

- So, may I walk you home, my boyfriend? - he asked, and I nodded gently. I would have loved to spend more time with him, even the whole night. But I know that if I don't come back during the night, I'll get into trouble, and my mother might start to doubt Dahlia and whether she can really trust him. He had always been a friend she trusted much more than me, and when I wanted to go out, I would say that Dahlia would be there just so she wouldn't have any problems and wouldn't hire anyone to control me.

We took each other by the hand and I led him towards my house. At least we had a long walk ahead of us, and my mother should be asleep, so I didn't have to worry about her seeing us through the window. Still, showing him where I live will probably make him think I come from a wealthy family. After all, people living a normal life wouldn't be able to afford such a huge house. I just hope it won't change the way he sees me.
At one point, the wind picked up stronger than before and I shivered slightly. Well, it was much warmer earlier because summer is coming, so I didn't dress too warmly. I also didn't think I would be coming back so late.

- Are you cold? - Xiao asked me. Of course he must have noticed, especially when we are so close to each other.

- It's not a big deal, although it could be a little warmer, - I replied casually, but then he let go of my hand without hesitation, took off his leather jacket and handed it to me. I smiled warmly at this gesture and put it on. - Won't you be cold now?

- Maybe a little, but the cold has never bothered me. I am one of those people who can sleep with the window open in winter.

- That's not good because I like warmth, I always turn on the shower to almost scalding hot water.

- I'll get over it somehow. - He took my hand again and we continued walking, while I snuggled into his jacket, which was too big for me, just as it was for him. On top of that, it smelled like a younger boy, a combination of men's perfume and cigarettes. I must admit that because of him, I grew to like that smell. I felt that slight flush on my cheeks again, but luckily we were now walking through a darker part of the park, so it was impossible for him to notice. The distance between us and my house was drastically decreasing, which meant that the night was coming to an end for us. Next time we'll probably see each other at the rehearsal planned with the girls, unless, of course, I manage to come. I'll have to come up with a good story and convince Dahlia so that she doesn't suspect anything. Now that I've finished my studies, it will be much harder for me to hide my second life, not to mention the fact that my mother hasn't seen my new hairstyle yet...

- We're here. - I said suddenly with a quiet sigh when we found ourselves near the building where I lived. Larger than standard houses, the building was surrounded by a wall, and behind the gate you could see the thuja trees and hedges that my parents' maids took care of with the utmost care. I stopped and looked at the boy with the same gentle smile as before, although now there was also a hint of sadness in it. I didn't want to go back there; I would have preferred to cut myself off from that life completely. But as an only child, I have my duties, I have to meet their expectations, otherwise I'll come across as an insolent brat. An ungrateful person who had lived his whole life in the luxury they had provided, I couldn't complain about lacking anything, except perhaps support in doing what I loved.
I saw Xiao's gaze shift towards the gate, the garden, and the building in the centre of the property. It was not what he expected from such a carefree, cheerful boy, but that was good. It meant that he was not behaving like a typical kid from a wealthy family.

- That would explain why you can play the piano. - He commented casually, without any judgement in his tone of voice. I let go of his hand and fixed my fringe.

- I can play a little, but I only played when I was a child. I think I'm better at the lyre. Well, take care so you don't die on your way home. I replied and grinned, then took off the boy's leather jacket and handed it to him. I waved to him and went to the gate to enter the code and open it.

- So next time we'll play something as a duet. - He waved at me with his faint smile, and I wanted to hug or kiss him goodbye. However, I couldn't risk anyone noticing, whether it was the staff, neighbours, or worst of all, my mother, who might wake up in the middle of the night, which she often does. Sooner or later she would find out anyway, but I wanted it to be a long time from now. Shortly afterwards, I was already hidden on the property, and a moment later I was home. It was dark, so I turned on the flashlight on my phone to quickly get to my room unnoticed. As usual, everything was in perfect order, in case of a sudden visit. After all, people who own such a large and important company always have to look perfect, whether it's their clothing or the interior of their home.

- Venti, is that you? - A woman's voice suddenly came from inside my parents' bedroom, and when I heard it, my stomach turned. Why now? I was walking as quietly as possible, so why did she wake up just as I got home?

- Yes, Mom, it's me. - I replied, trying to sound casual, hoping that would be it and she would go back to sleep. But of course, I couldn't have been more wrong. Through the frosted glass door, I could see her turning on the bedside lamp, and after a moment I heard the soft footsteps of bare feet on the floorboards. I stopped, knowing that there was no escape and that I was in for a chat with my mother. She came out of the room wearing a dressing gown, her hair slightly tousled, still a little sleepy. As soon as she turned on the light in the living room and looked at me, she immediately grimaced.

- What's that in your hair? - She asked and immediately took a few quick steps towards me, and there was no trace of her drowsiness from a moment ago. She took one of my braids in her hand and looked at it closely. - Is this Furina's idea?

- No, I came up with it myself. You wanted me to cut it soon anyway, didn't you? So what's the difference?

- You have to cut them off right now, I won't let anyone notice. You are the future director of our company, Venti, and you are about to start your internship. Haven't you thought about what people will think when they see my adult child acting so foolishly? - As usual in such moments, her voice was cold, showing that I was currently only their poster child, the perfect son who had no right to have his own personality or interests. I am supposed to be like some kind of robot who just stares at spreadsheets all the time.

- Before you hire me, you'll have to wait until I get all my documents from the university, and by then they'll be gone. - I replied, not wanting to add fuel to the fire. The only thing I need now is screaming in the middle of the night. She had already ruined my mood enough, and it had been so good. She leaned slightly towards me, probably to look at my hair, to see how much would need to be cut off so that there would be no trace of turquoise left. But then she grimaced again.

- You stink of alcohol and cigarettes. Were you definitely with Dahlia and Furina? - I wasn't surprised about the alcohol, I drank a lot today. But cigarettes? I kept my distance from Xiao when he was smoking. Oh yes, I was wearing his jacket.

- I was there, you can even ask them about it. As for cigarettes, I don't know what you're talking about, maybe someone was smoking nearby when we left.

- Fine, but if I smell them on you again, I wouldn't want to be in your shoes. - She finally stepped back and took a deep breath to calm herself down. I turned around and was about to go upstairs to my room when she suddenly spoke again. - What about that girl you mentioned recently? Was she with you too?

- No, I suggested it to her, but she doesn't like that kind of thing. She definitely prefers to bury her nose in books. She said something about having to catch up on her reading during the holidays. - I lied through my teeth, but I couldn't do anything else if I wanted her to leave me alone. For now, I have to make this imaginary girl seem perfect, a real role model, someone my mother won't suspect that I'm actually dating a boy.

- You should learn from her, and I'm getting more and more excited to meet her! What kind of literature does she like?

- I'll tell you another time, I'm tired. You should probably go back to sleep too, right? You mentioned something about a conference tomorrow morning.

- Don't worry about me, I wouldn't have woken up if you hadn't come home at such an ungodly hour. - She added at the end, then returned to her bedroom. I rolled my eyes and went to my room upstairs, immediately throwing myself onto the bed and leaning back on the pillows. I should be glad that she reacted fairly calmly for her, but either way, it doesn't change the fact that it would have been best if she hadn't woken up.
Then my phone vibrated, I took it out of my pocket and saw a message from Xiao.

‘I'm home now, sleep well.’

I smiled gently, replied with a simple ‘Good night <3’ and put the device on the bedside table, looked at the empty ceiling, and the memories of tonight came back to my mind. The song, the first kiss, the second kiss, and the fact that we are now officially a couple. I pulled my T-shirt up to cover my nose and inhaled its scent. My mother was right, I could smell a hint of cigarettes. Not long ago, I would have immediately changed this T-shirt and thrown it in the wash, but now? I'm happy that I can smell him, even when we're at least a few kilometres apart. I love him.

Notes:

I'm back, sweetie! Don't worry, the ao3 curse hasn't gotten to me (yet.)

Chapter 9: Blue jellyfish

- Hello? - I said sleepily into the phone, without even looking to see who was calling me and waking me up from my longer-than-usual sleep. I felt a slight headache, probably the result of sleepiness combined with yesterday's party. I yawned lazily, slowly sat up and rubbed my eyes, trying to wake myself up. I looked towards the window; it was probably around noon. Had I slept that long? Although, considering what time I went to bed, I'm not sure if it was that long.

- Why are you still asleep? - I heard that familiar voice and sighed with slight irritation. Who else could be calling but Dahlia? I had been quietly hoping to hear Xiao, but unfortunately he wasn't fond of calling. We usually texted each other, and I doubted that would change anytime soon.

- I don't know what time I got back, and so much happened yesterday... - I explained instinctively, but he just chuckled quietly in response.

- I'm just wondering, what did you do after you left? Do you have any interesting news for me? - He asked with that typical hint in his voice. Well, why else would he call if not to be the first to get an update on my relationship? It had always been like that, even when I tried to hide something from him, he would find out quickly anyway, so I came to the conclusion that there was no point in hiding anything from him.

- Nothing interesting: a walk in the park, a kiss, and you won't believe who's no longer single~ - I boasted proudly, and at the very thought of last night, a warm smile appeared on my face again.

- Oh, who would have expected that. It would be strange if you didn't become a couple, since part of the internet already thinks so.

- What? - I stammered, feeling my heart leap into my throat.

- Oh, right, you haven't been on Instagram yet. Well, at least you look nice in the photos. - He replied casually, and my expression immediately soured. What is he talking about? Did someone post a photo of us?
- Actually, that's the second reason I'm calling you, not that I care how you're managing to hide your whole music life from your parents. But you know, I think it would be better if you wrote to the author of the post and asked them to delete it. Although now I don't know if it will do any good, if some people have shared it somewhere else, you're done for. That's what I think.

I paused for a moment and switched my conversation with my friend to speakerphone, then went on Instagram to see what the pink-haired guy was talking about. At least three people had already sent me the post. My eyes widened slightly when I saw a photo of Xiao and me right after their concert, just as we were kissing. In an instant, I was overcome with even greater irritation. Why, just when I thought everything was starting to fall into place, did I suddenly become the star of one of the most popular posts?

- Fuck it, I've had enough. - I muttered under my breath and dramatically fell back onto the pillows. - Dahlia, what am I supposed to do now? See how many likes it has? There's no way the author will agree to delete it! What if someone shows it to my mother?

- You should have thought before kissing him in front of so many people. You know, it was a real sensation, a band that had just made its debut and immediately did something like that. Usually, even if someone in the band has a partner, it's kept secret, at least at first. And now the outraged girls will take revenge for taking away their love at first sight. You know, I like drama, but you're taking it too far. - I rolled my eyes at his last comment, because of course we did it on purpose. For publicity and to let everyone know that we're dating, it's not like I should be avoiding such situations like the plague.

- Well, at worst they'll kick me out of the house. - I muttered under my breath and rubbed my forehead, trying to calm my growing nerves, but I wasn't very successful. Yesterday, I didn't think about the consequences of my actions at all, or rather, I didn't expect people to get so excited about a simple kiss. But do I regret it? Of course not, it was one of the best moments of my life.

- Once they do that, at least you won't have to hide anything. After all, you'll be a failure to them anyway, so I wouldn't be surprised if they transferred the company to me.

- Yeah, and I'll end up under a bridge. You know, you're not comforting me at all.

- It's my pleasure, you idiot~ - After a moment, he hung up, without saying goodbye as usual. I sighed again and looked at the photo once more. We didn't look too bad, actually. I like it, I'll save it. I sent the post to Xiao, then went into our conversation and noticed that he had done the same thing a few hours ago. And right after that, he wrote:

‘Boys and I wanted to be talked about after the concert, but not like this.’
‘Does it bother you? I wrote to the author, but she's not replying.’
‘You'll have a nice surprise when you wake up :p’

‘Good morning, sorry, I just got up :D’
‘This has turned into quite a mess.’
‘I'll write to her too. To be honest, I'd prefer if the photo was deleted. I don't kiss you so that the whole Internet knows about it! Give me some privacy!’

I tried to be carefree in my replies, even though I was a nervous wreck inside. Now I was quite happy that 4nemo wasn't that popular yet. I was so scared by one post, and if they were already a well-known band, there would be a scandal all over the internet. I don't even want to imagine the headlines: ‘4nemo guitarist kissed one of his fans right after the concert!’ ‘The lead singer of a popular band just broke the hearts of a thousand female fans!’ The very thought gave me the shivers.
I didn't have to wait too long for Xiao to reply, luckily he was usually quite quick about it. The guys from the band complained that it was impossible to arrange anything with him because he never replied. I don't know what they're talking about, I don't have any problems with him.

‘Privacy isn't your strong suit, is it?’
‘And unfortunately, she wasn't the only one who shared it. Heizou says it's normal and that it's our chance to gain more publicity.’
‘But to be honest, I don't like gaining popularity this way.’

‘Haha, since it's already out there, I don't know if trying to fight it will help.’
‘I hope people forget about it quickly, I don't want to be recognised on the street!’

‘First a street concert, and now this. Are you sure you don't want to?’
‘Do you have any plans for today?’
‘If not, now you do :)’

‘Huh? What are they? :>’

‘You'll see when we meet.’
‘So what? Around 4 p.m.?’

‘Sure! Where should I come?’

‘I can pick you up if you want.’

I thought about this suggestion for a moment. My mother is at an important meeting right now, but I have no idea when she will be back. If Xiao comes to pick me up and she is already home, she might start to suspect something. Even if she's not there, someone from the staff might tell her that a boy on a motorbike picked me up. Since she'll immediately realise that it definitely wasn't Dahlia, I think I'll have to refuse.

‘I'd rather not from home, but do you remember that parking where you left your motorbike last time?’
‘I'll wait there <3’

He only reacted to this message with a thumbs up, and I breathed a quiet sigh of relief. I hope I didn't offend him or anything, although I wouldn't be surprised if he starts to suspect something because of this... How long should I hide all this from him? Won't he look at me differently when he finds out what a coward I am? After all, I'm an adult, and I live under my parents' control. Even though I've been avoiding it like the plague lately, I'm afraid that if the truth comes out, I'll forget all about freedom.
I got out of bed and went to wash up, and then I had to get ready to go out. After all, there wasn't much time left until four o'clock, and I'd rather not look like a corpse on our first date as a couple.

*****

I was waiting on one of the benches scattered around the car park, leaning against it and looking up at the few fluffy clouds floating in the sky. Today the weather was perfect, a summer day that nothing could spoil. Just me and my boyfriend, on what he had planned for us. The uncertainty made me even more excited!
Suddenly, I heard the sound of a motorbike and immediately looked up. Xiao had just pulled into one of the parking spaces, and I got up and walked closer. As soon as he took off his helmet and I saw his face, a warm smile appeared on mine.

- Have you been waiting long? - He asked with his usual cool expression, and I shook my head in denial.

- No, I've only been here a few minutes. - I replied confidently, and he gave me another hint of a smile. As if he felt relieved that he hadn't kept me waiting long. He pointed to the motorbike and handed me a second helmet. Another romantic ride ahead of us? I did as he asked, and soon I was sitting right behind him, clinging tightly to his back so I wouldn't fall off.

The journey took quite a long time, and it was only after about forty minutes that we reached our destination. Even though I was looking the whole time to see which way we were going, I couldn't figure it out, as I had never been to this part of town before. I slowly got off the motorbike and took off my helmet. We were standing in another car park, this time a much larger one. Not far away was a huge blue-grey building.

- Are we going to the aquarium?! - I exclaimed in surprise and looked at my boyfriend with a spark of excitement in my eye.

-Surprise. Hope you haven't been here yet?

- No! But I've always wanted to! - I said happily, then hugged him tightly, quietly squealing under my breath. I don't know how he did it, but he got the location right again! I had been dreaming of a trip here ever since Furina excitedly told me about the day she was here and the beautiful creatures she saw. Since then, jellyfish have been one of her favourite animals. When the initial shock passed and I moved away from Xiao slightly, he grabbed my hand as if it were the most natural thing in the world, and then we walked towards the building.

- I hope there won't be any photos this time. - Xiao muttered quietly, reminding me of something very important. We'll be in a public place again, should I hold back a little with these gestures that indicate we're a couple, or should I ignore it and have fun? On the other hand, this time we won't be surrounded by people from the same circle, but by random people who have never heard of 4nemo in their lives. The risk of someone who was also in the bar at the time noticing us is low, so I guess I should just relax and enjoy the date, right?

- I'm sorry, sweetheart, but we're not celebrities, although who knows? Maybe soon we'll have to wear hats and sunglasses on our dates. - I joked and squeezed his hand a little tighter.

- Yeah, and if someone recognises us, all the fans will know about it. That's the life of a famous person, isn't it? Well, I think you'd be great in that role.

- Really? Me?

- Your smile is infectious, you get along with everyone you meet, not to mention your voice. Shall I go on?

- No need, I'll blush. - I rolled my eyes and chuckled quietly. So that's how he sees me, huh? He's told me that many times before, and I'm damn glad about it. This lad only knew the real me. Not the person I'm forced to be every day, the one I hate and would like to get rid of. Why does it have to be so difficult?

When we entered the aquarium, we were immediately greeted by the sight of many aquariums full of colourful fish, starfish and other sea creatures. Everything was carefully labelled, and the little creatures swam around in circles, rested on rocks or hid behind seaweed. I stopped many times just to look at them with admiration and sometimes take a photo of them or myself and my boyfriend. Each time, he was surprised at first and tried to turn his face away, but when I assured him that I wouldn't send it to anyone, he stopped protesting and even tried to smile slightly.

- You look like that fish. - He muttered more quietly when we stopped again at one of the glass walls. I raised my eyebrow slightly and looked closely to figure out which one he meant.

- That turquoise guppy? - I asked, a little confused, and glanced in his direction. When he nodded, I couldn't help but chuckle quietly. - Interesting, may I ask why?

- He's curious and full of energy, just like you. Since we've been standing here, he's happily circled the aquarium about three times. So he's everywhere. Don't you think he fits in?

- It's one of the most popular fish, seriously, am I really that unremarkable? - The question was meant to be humorous, and I had to admit that he had a point with that comparison, but I wanted to encourage him to come up with something else.

- In that case, a bloatfish. - This comparison intrigued me even more, so I moved closer to him to look him in the eyes and wait for an explanation.
- You know, when you look at them from a distance, they seem cute and clumsy. But when you get closer, they get scared and pump themselves up. It may look funny, but it's as if they're defending themselves against someone getting to know them too well. And you, Venti, avoid conversations about yourself like the plague, unless they're about music. - When he finished speaking, I took a slight step back and blinked a few times. He saw right through me. He saw right through me completely. All those moments when I quickly changed the subject, talked about something and suddenly stopped myself so as not to say too much, all my efforts to hide what was inside me from him.

- I don't know what to say... - I replied in a quiet whisper and lowered my gaze, but Xiao quickly grabbed my hand, quite firmly.

- If you don't want to talk about something, I understand, but you're my partner, Venti. I'd like to know more about you, get to know you better, find out what's on your mind when you're lost in thought. Why does that cheerful expression on your face sometimes turn sad for a moment, and then your smile isn't as beautiful and sincere as before? - I gently lifted my face to look at him again, and in his eyes I saw concern and tenderness. Something his other friends could only dream of, something he shared only with me. He can open up to me, even if not about every topic. And I hoped to live in this perfect reality for a little while longer.

- You're right, I haven't said much about myself. - I sighed quietly and turned my gaze towards the aquarium, those happily unaware fish swimming without a care in the world. They think they have an infinitely vast ocean ahead of them, but in reality they are enclosed between glass walls. Even though they keep swimming forward, something is holding them back, and they don't even realise that they are trapped. How I wish my life could be so free and carefree.
- It's not that I didn't want to, I was just afraid of your reaction. You know... That it would change something.

- I assure you that nothing will change, you can trust me. - Despite how quiet his voice was, I could hear certainty in it, something that could be a source of support for me. But am I ready?

- So, not today, then? I don't want to ruin our date, but I'll tell you soon. I promise. - I didn't know when ‘soon’ would be, but meeting Xiao was like escaping from the grey reality I live in. But then these worlds will start to blur together, and I hope I don't lose myself in the process and forget who I really always wanted to be. Although at times it slipped my mind, then I met him. Looking at me with understanding, knowing that something was bothering me but not pressing me to tell him about it right away.

- All right, I'll give you as much time as you need, Venti. - He added and pulled me further into the aquarium, and the subject was finally over. For a few moments, there was silence between us. I could feel the slight heaviness of the conversation from a moment ago in the air and hoped it would quickly dissipate. Xiao paused for a moment and looked at one of the signs on the walls, then turned further, holding my hand so that I followed him step by step. I looked around as the walls full of aquariums slowly turned into a plain blue-green colour with paintings of various sea creatures. We went down the stairs, probably to another attraction that the aquarium had to offer. The stairs were quite long, and in the silence, the journey seemed to take forever.

- Where are we going? - I asked in a slightly pensive tone, but the boy didn't say a word and continued to lead me up the stairs. When we finally reached the bottom, we found ourselves in a short corridor with a light blue light coming from the end. We walked slowly towards it, and I glanced at Xiao from time to time. He smiled gently, even if it was barely noticeable. When we entered the room, my eyes widened, and my surprise quickly turned to enchantment. My mouth opened slightly, and my eyes probably sparkled with joy. The sight was breathtaking.

We were in a completely glass-enclosed room, and behind the glass was the ocean. Maybe not literally, but that's how it looked. We were surrounded by water, colourful plants and dark green seaweed that created a wonderful backdrop for the creatures swimming here. Corals, sea grass, starfish stuck to rocks. And fish, lots of fish swimming in all directions. Some in groups, some alone. Neon fish, clownfish, mandarin fish, octopuses, and many others. The jellyfish were the most eye-catching. Of all the organisms in this place, they moved the slowest, as if they were in no hurry and were simply enjoying their walk. They were pink, purple, yellow, but I liked the blue ones the most. The ones that were only visible when you looked closely because they blended in perfectly with the background. They don't even know how beautiful they look, and they looked the most wonderful.
I couldn't take my eyes off the ocean landscape stretching out behind the glass, and I was full of admiration. At one point, a melody formed in my head, which I unconsciously hummed under my breath, blending in with the sounds of the water rushing and gurgling around us. And right after that, words came to me that surprisingly fit well with the melody. Words with which I could express everything I was feeling at that moment.

Silent worlds flow beneath the glass,
Invisible paths among the waves.
Fish dance in circles of light,
As if they knew the secret of the stars.

Take me deep, where the horizon disappears,
Where the current knows no words of prohibition.
Your hand is like a lantern in the darkness,
Guiding me into a space without walls.

Jellyfish glow like imprisoned dreams,
In the depths where there is no bottom.
I look into the glass, but I feel freedom,
Because you are next to me.

When I felt Xiao squeeze my hand a little tighter, I realized that I had sung it out loud, even if it was a quiet whisper, as if I didn't want anyone to hear it. Slightly embarrassed, I finally tore myself away from the aquarium and looked at the boy standing next to me, feeling my cheeks begin to burn with embarrassment. A shadow of water was visible on his face, unstable, constantly moving. He looked at me as if enchanted, and there was also a delicate, warm smile on his face. I adjusted my bangs and giggled, completely unsure of what to do with myself now. It was just a song, and yet it was something I loved most. Especially since no lyrics had ever come to me as easily as these.

- I have to take you to places like this more often if this is the result. - He commented after a moment, tilting his head slightly. I couldn't escape his gaze, so intense, so tender, making me feel that familiar warmth inside me again. A warmth I only feel when I'm with him.

- It's a one-time thing, forget about it. - I muttered, still embarrassed, and let go of his hand only to nudge him.

- No way, I'll remember this forever. - He replied, and I rolled my eyes and folded my arms. Does he really have to tease me now? Actually, if I were him, I would do the same, except that Xiao is not the type of person who would suddenly start singing in public... I smiled gently and went back to looking at what was around us, the view that had completely stolen my heart.

- In that case, you're like a blue jellyfish. - I returned to our earlier conversation. I wanted to finish talking about the song, but then a certain thought popped into my head.

- Yes? Why? - He asked and also looked at the jelly-like creatures floating above us, the ones that didn't even realize how many people were looking at them and admiring them. They just floated around and looked beautiful.

- He has no heart, but he doesn't even know it because he has no brain either. - I joked and chuckled amusedly, feeling the boy's gaze turn back to me. He raised one eyebrow and looked at me with an expression that said, “Are you serious?”, while I couldn't stop laughing. Retort for those comments about my singing scored!
- Oh, don't look at me like that, or you'll stay that way. Let's keep going! - I called out, and this time I grabbed his hand and pulled him along. After all, we still have a lot to see before closing time!

Chapter 10: Meeting after years

We walked around the aquarium for a while longer, spending the time as pleasantly as before: holding hands and looking at the fauna and flora decorating the aquariums. We didn't mention our earlier conversation, and once again, the atmosphere between us became joyful and relaxed. It was a perfect, colorful date, devoid of the gray shades of normal life. Just him and me.
When we finished our tour, it was only 6 p.m., so we decided to take another walk along the same promenade as last time. I didn't want to end the evening so quickly; it's the end of June, so the days are longer than usual. So why not take advantage of it? Plus, I hadn't received any messages from my mother asking where I was, so I wanted to enjoy the peace and quiet for as long as I could.

- So what did you do then? - Xiao asked me, just as I was telling him about one of my fondest childhood memories. He wanted to get to know me better, so I slowly told him more about myself. I didn't want him to think that I didn't trust him and was closing myself off to him, because such a relationship would ultimately have no future. However, I was dosing out the information for now, as I didn't feel ready to tell him about everything I deal with on a daily basis.

- I said, “Mom, I want to play like that man on TV!” My mom used to play the piano, so she taught me a little, and I also took lessons for about a year. But then I stopped and switched to the lyre.

- Weren't you good at the piano? - he asked with interest, and I shook my head.

- I was doing surprisingly well, who knows, maybe if I hadn't stopped, I would have become the new Mozart?

- So why did you stop?

- You know how it is, a child goes to school and it's hard to balance responsibilities with interests. - I replied carelessly and shrugged my shoulders, well, the truth was that my piano lessons ended when I started to slack off in my studies. Since my parents' company had become very popular at the time and they had plans for me to become the future director, they didn't want me to have anything that would distract me from studying. That's why, even though I didn't like studying, I always had the best grades in my class.

- Are your parents the type who care most about grades? - It was probably one of the first times I was asked about them, and I sighed quietly at that very fact.

- Well, they're more the type who would say, “It's for your own good, you'll thank us for it when you grow up.” Something like that. After all, I have a great future ahead of me, why do I need a piano and music? - And then I said too much, or at least that's how I felt.

- A great future?

- Well, yes, that's why I went to college. It's hard to make a living from music and so on. I replied hastily and looked around the promenade for something to grab onto, something that could change the subject and save me. Xiao already knows my tricks, but at least when I do this, he'll guess that I don't want to continue the conversation.
- Hey, look! An arcade! Do you want to go in? I've never been to a place like this! - I exclaimed happily and pulled him gently by the hand. He rolled his eyes slightly in response, but then smiled and nodded. So I dragged him in, and as soon as we entered, I was speechless with delight. I wasn't lying to him about that, I really had never been to a place like this before. While the guys from my class were skipping school and were frequent customers, I was sitting with my nose in my books. I wasn't the class nerd, I got along with them, but I always had the feeling that by not participating in such outings, I was missing out on something and didn't have as good a relationship with them as the rest of the truants.

- It brings back memories. We held our first organizational meetings for 4nemo here. - "The dark-haired guy said with a hint of nostalgia in his voice, so am I the only one who has never visited such places?

- It's as chaotic here as it is in your band. - I joked and glanced at all the attractions of this place. There was a lot to choose from, but in most cases I knew I wouldn't understand the rules.

- I'll show you how I always beat the guys. - He led me to one of the larger tables, which looked like a miniature playing field. - Have you ever played air hockey?

- Somehow, I never had the opportunity. Have mercy. - I put my hands together in a pleading gesture, to which he smiled slightly and nodded.

- Okay, I'll try to give you a chance. - He winked at me, then put a coin in the machine and handed me one of the paddles. - You just have to shoot the puck into my goal, it's not difficult. - He explained it to me, and I hit it as it came, and the game began. I managed to score a few points, but I could see that the guy was really holding back and deliberately pretending not to notice where the puck was going. Even with the forehand, I couldn't do it. After a few minutes of play, the machine beeped and showed the final score on the board. 19-11. I guess I didn't do too badly for my first time, at least I had a double-digit score.

- I'm afraid to think how you play seriously, since I sometimes had trouble keeping up with your moves... - I muttered, and he snorted under his breath.

- To cheer you up, I'll tell you that you could beat Kazuha. He always lost in our little tournaments.

-And you won?

- Or Scaramouche. We were always together in the finals. - He shrugged, and I moved closer and jokingly punched him in the chest.

- So someday I'll beat you, champ~ - I challenged him with theatrical drama in my voice, hoping he would laugh, but unfortunately, he just flicked my forehead with a cheerful expression on his face. As usual, he is too composed when people are around us. But I swear that one day I'll make him choke with laughter!

- Do you like stuffed animals? - he asked suddenly and pointed to one of the machines standing against the wall. I had seen them before in shopping malls. You have to try to pick one of the stuffed animals, but it usually turns out to be impossible.

- I used to have a few, but I have to admit that one is cute. - I pointed to one of them, a black and white stuffed cat lying in the middle of a pile of toys. - I'm allergic to regular cats, so it will be nice to at least pet this one.

- It might be difficult, but I'll try. - he replied, and then began his efforts to get the cat out of the machine. I stood next to him and watched him with a sweet smile on my face. He looked incredibly focused, so I decided not to say anything and not to disturb him. Finally, on the fifth try, he succeeded and handed me the stuffed animal with a faint smile on his face.

- Thank you! - I exclaimed with childlike joy and quickly hugged him, but it didn't last long because I didn't want to attract attention in a public place. Although I would have preferred not to worry about it and just enjoy the time with Xiao, in a place like this there could be people who had been at the concert. I looked at the cute kitten one more time, then put it in the small backpack I was carrying. Then we played many other games together until I noticed that it was getting dark. I didn't want to be late again, so we decided it was a good time to end the date. We left the arcade, and just as we were about to say goodbye and go our separate ways, we suddenly heard a man's voice.

- Xiao? - said the stranger, causing my boyfriend to flinch slightly, and we both turned toward him. He was a blond man with long hair braided into a ponytail slung over his shoulder, and he was about our height. He had the same golden eyes as the girl we had seen recently at the bar. I widened my eyes slightly. Was this the brother they had talked about? So this was Xiao's ex-partner? I felt the dark-haired man squeeze my hand tighter, and I reciprocated without hesitation, wanting to show him that I was there for him. I could see from his expression that he wasn't thrilled about this encounter. I still don't know why they broke up, but judging by his reaction, I guess it wasn't very pleasant.

- Oh, hi, Aether, - he replied in a quiet whisper, and I could clearly hear a slight break in his voice. The boy standing in front of us smiled cheerfully at us, although I could see that he was looking more at Xiao than at me. I felt a slight twinge in my heart. It was hard to bear the fact that someone was looking at my boyfriend like that.

- Long time no see, how are you? - he asked casually and took a step towards us. Even though he was trying to act relaxed, the whole encounter was terribly awkward.

- It's going okay, but as you can see, I'm a little busy right now. - The dark-haired man replied a little more coldly than before and looked away. Apparently, he was no longer in the mood to talk or even be there.

- I see, is this the boyfriend Lumine was talking about? - He asked another question and looked at me for the first time since the beginning of the conversation, only to scan me from head to toe.
- I'm Aether, it's an honor to meet the future director of Astrelle Industries. - As soon as he said that, I widened my eyes slightly and glanced at my boyfriend, who did the same, causing our eyes to meet. I smiled stupidly and scratched my neck in embarrassment, trying to hide the shock I had just experienced. But how the hell did he know that? I mean, it's not exactly top-secret information, but I've never bragged about it left and right. And besides, it was something I hadn't told Xiao yet. It was just a detail, but because of this company and how much my parents care about it, my plans for the future look terribly boring and unhappy. I didn't want him to find out from someone else, but I didn't think this would happen.

- I prefer to be called Venti. - I forced a slight smile, but behind that mask lay growing irritation and embarrassment.

- Venti... - He repeated more quietly and nodded, then went back to watching the yellow-eyed man.
- In that case, take good care of him. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. - He winked at us, and I sensed a slight hint of rivalry in his voice. He waved his hand, then turned and walked away, and I exhaled the breath I had been holding unconsciously. He seemed nice, yet I felt that there was something behind it all, as if I might be in danger. Of course, I'm not suggesting that he would want to hurt me, but I was more concerned about how much attention he was paying to Xiao.

- That was weird, - I commented and loosened my grip on the shorter boy's hand a little.

- Ignore him. It's a good thing you were here, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to escape a long conversation.- Xiao replied and ran his hand through his hair, as if to relieve the tension.

- You don't like him that much? - I asked, keeping my eyes on him, assessing whether it was a good time to ask such questions.

- Well, a few years ago we exchanged a few unpleasant words when we said goodbye, and now he's back as if nothing had happened. Shall I walk you home?

- But your motorcycle is in the completely opposite direction...

- No problem, let's go. - Xiao pulled me forward and we walked along the promenade towards my house. We passed lots of people, random passers-by who were talking to each other or walking alone with headphones on. During my conversation with the blond guy, the sky grew even darker, and if it weren't for the streetlights of the city, the stars would have started to appear.

- What did you argue about? - I asked rather uncertainly. I knew that by pursuing this topic, I was treading on thin ice, but my curiosity was greater than my sense of the gravity of the moment.

- Why were you so afraid to tell me what your plans for the future are? - He answered with a question, which threw me off a little. I sighed loudly and looked up slightly at the roofs of the buildings, the tall poles lighting up the surroundings, and the patches of dark sky contrasting with them. I knew where that question came from. He had found out from someone else, when I should have been the one to tell him. In his eyes, it might be a trifle, but I had already gotten used to hiding it from everyone I met. Especially if it was someone from my dream world.

- I guess I just didn't want you to think I was a spoiled brat who didn't have to worry about anything. Until now, that's how people reacted to who my father is.

- I already told you at the aquarium, facts like that won't change anything between us. You know that, right?

- I know, but I'm still not very good at all this. - Is this the moment when I should start being completely honest with him? Can I allow myself to stop holding back and finally trust him completely? We haven't been together long, we've only known each other for a few months, but I'm afraid that continuing to hide things could quickly destroy the beauty that has developed between us. I don't want to ruin something that has made me so happy for the first time in a long time.
- My piano lessons ended when my parents' company reached the top. I was happy for their success, I wanted to live up to their expectations of me, I knew they were doing it to guarantee me an easy life. That's why I gave up music for a while, but I quickly realized that I couldn't live without it. - I said this feeling a terrible pounding in my chest, my hands trembling slightly. It was the first time I had told anyone other than Dahlia about this. Until now, I had only told him about things related to my parents, the company, and this whole twisted double life I had decided to live.
- Over time, their demands grew, and I lost sight of what I really wanted and what was right. Dreams or duty? Happiness or a stable life? Music or my parents' satisfaction?

- No one can force you to be someone you don't want to be, Venti, - Xiao replied briefly and stopped for a moment under one of the streetlights. I didn't even realize when we had left the pedestrian zone and entered the park. My house was getting closer and closer, so maybe it was better to take a break now.
- If music is something you love, and I know it is. I see it every time you sing, that little sparkle in your eye that says, ‘This is what I want to do in life.’ Then you should listen to your heart and choose what will make you happy. You have to make yourself happy, Venti, not others. It's your life, not theirs. - He spoke these words carefully, as if afraid of saying the wrong thing. He must have seen how uncomfortable I was talking about all this, and how stressed I was right now. He grabbed my trembling hands firmly and confidently, giving me a feeling of support and understanding.

- After all these years, I wish I could say the same to myself, - I whispered in a slightly broken voice and took a deep breath. Suddenly, I felt the dark-haired man let go of my hands, only to pull me into his embrace. He hugged me tightly, just like he did when he asked me to be his boyfriend. I snuggled up to him without hesitation, simply soaking up the warmth and tenderness I felt around me.

- The decision is yours, and whatever you choose, I will always be on your side, - he said softly and patted my back in a reassuring gesture.

- Thank you, Xiao. But stop talking like that, or I'll start crying. - I was joking, trying to lighten the mood a little. There was no way I was going to cry in front of someone else, I was too well trained to keep everything inside. Although I knew that if I wanted him to, he would wipe my tears and continue to hug me as if he never wanted to let me go.

- Ah, I see, you're a man who never cries. Like a real man. - Surprisingly, he also responded with a joke, which made me giggle softly, but it was muffled by the fact that I was burying my face in his shoulder. I smelled that pleasant scent again, something that made me feel even safer now. And on top of that, just opening up to him, the fact that he didn't start treating me differently like others did, was damn reassuring. I felt a great relief, as if at least part of that whole burden had been lifted from my heart.
We remained in pleasant silence, accompanied only by the quiet murmur of the wind and the sound of cars passing in the distance. It was getting colder outside, but I didn't feel it because of his embrace. If I could, I would gladly spend my whole life like this. But I can't, I have to go back eventually, even if I really don't want to.

Chapter 11: Uninvited guest

A light slam of the door echoed through the building, and as usual, silence greeted me. The same minimalist, perpetually clean interior, typically modern black and white furniture. There was nothing distinctive about it; my parents always cared about what guests and clients would think. I wouldn't be surprised if they were as boring inside as the whole room, everything that once made me admire them was gone. My mother no longer sits cheerfully at the piano, showing me how to play ‘The Cat Climbed on the Fence’; and my father no longer watches us from the side with his warm smile on his face and a slightly chipped coffee cup in his hand. Now that cup is in the bin, even though it was his favourite coffee cup, it was thrown away along with all the joy I once derived from spending time with my parents. After all, no self-respecting family would keep broken tableware, regardless of whether it's a slight chip, a missing handle or a completely broken glass that fell on the floor during an argument. Nothing that wasn't perfect could exist here anymore, so how come they still keep me here?
I found my mother sitting on the corner of the living room sofa, as usual, working late on her laptop, making more tables with summaries of the company's activities. When I went to the kitchen to pour myself some water, I felt her glancing at me from over her laptop.

- You could have at least said you were going out somewhere. - She spoke without any greeting, without that friendly ‘Welcome home, son!’ that I heard in my youth when I came back from my best friend's house. Now there was nothing like that in her voice; she had become a completely different person in my eyes. But even after these changes, I still love her, although I miss her smile.

- You weren't home, and I didn't want to disturb you during your meeting. - I replied and sighed quietly, returned to the living room and leaned against one of the walls. I wanted to run upstairs immediately, but I knew very well that I would be stopped right away. The woman in front of me adjusted her glasses and put her laptop aside for a moment. So, a conversation was coming.

- Where were you? With that girl? - Her question brought a smile to my face and I nodded, ready to continue the lie I had told her. The best part is that this girl doesn't have a name yet, and surprisingly, she hasn't asked for it yet.

- Yes, we went to the aquarium, and then I walked her home. That's why I was gone so long.

- The aquarium? She really has a good influence on you. - She lifted the corners of her mouth slightly, forming a small smile, but I didn't see any great emotion behind it, just relief that I was hanging out with people ‘of a certain calibre’.

- You know what, Mum, you could ease up sometimes. - I rolled my eyes and smiled slightly, pretending to be amused.

- Well, I've heard so many good things about her that I can't wait for you to finally bring her here. So, will you invite her next weekend?’ Your father will be back, and I'm sure he'll be overjoyed to see you with such a decent girl. - She suggested, although it wasn't really an offer, but an order. Something like: I won't believe you until I see her with my own eyes. I hesitated for a moment, hiding my relationship with Xiao was becoming more and more difficult.

- I'll ask her and let you know. - It was the only thing I could say, and I could feel her suspicious gaze on me. But she nodded, so she accepted my answer for now. When she put her laptop back on her lap, I knew that the time she had set aside for our conversation was over and she was returning to her endless duties. So I went upstairs, took out the stuffed cat Xiao had given me and placed it among the pillows on my bed. A little reminder that despite what's going on here, I can always count on him. I still can't believe I told him about my situation with my parents, but I guess it was a good thing, right? Especially since after confessing it to him, I felt somehow lighter.

*****

Finally, Thursday arrived, the day on which the joint rehearsal between 4nemo and the girls I met at the bar was to take place. Initially, it was supposed to be on Tuesday, but for reasons unknown to me, it was postponed. Well, for me, this meant another day of struggling to learn how to use the company's system. My mother gave me some tasks and a guide. Even though I didn't feel like doing it at all, I knew she was trying to prepare me for my internship and future job. So I had no choice but to sit over it for a few hours to make her happy. I'd rather get some modest praise than a scolding for being irresponsible and needing to finally start thinking like an adult.

"Leave the house soon, I'll be there in 15 minutes :*’

I smiled slightly at this message from Xiao, then quickly grabbed my backpack and left my room. I wanted to leave as quickly and quietly as I could, but of course my mother had to notice me.

- Where are you going? - she asked, leaning against the doorframe, crossing her arms and raising one eyebrow. Her gaze pierced me. Should I play the same card again? Don't I use this ‘girl’ as an excuse too often?

- To meet this girl...

- What is her name, actually? - She interrupted me mid-answer, and I quickly came up with a random name to satisfy her curiosity. I hope Xiao forgives me for hiding him from my mother in this way. After all, I present the cool guitarist to her as a well-adjusted and calm girl.

- Clara. - Clara. In reality, no Clara exists, and yet the name came out of my mouth as naturally as if I really knew someone with that name. And that's what scared me, how easy it is for me to deceive my own mother. But what wouldn't you do to feel a little bit of freedom, right? I deceive myself, and in reality, I complicate the situation even more.

- Well, have fun, and when you see her, invite her here for Saturday. - After saying that, she turned and went back to her room, so she let it go again. Luckily. When I get back, I'll tell her that ‘Clara’ can't come, although that will definitely make her more suspicious. ..
I left the house and walked quickly to the car park. As it turned out, Xiao was already waiting for me there. I ran up to him and hugged him in greeting.

- Sorry I'm late, have you been waiting long? My mother stopped me before I left and somehow... - I instinctively began to explain, and he snorted quietly.

- You don't have to apologise in a few minutes, you know? - He patted me on the back and gently pulled away from the hug, only to give me a quick kiss on the cheek. I melted at this gesture, or rather, I felt that pleasant warmth again and a feeling as if sweet butterflies were flying in my stomach.

- Do you like the name Clara? - I asked suddenly, and a slight curiosity appeared on the boy's face, he raised his eyebrow and stared at me, confused.

- Clara? Why do you ask?

- It's a long story, but do you like it or not?

- It's not bad. - He tilted his head slightly to one side and continued to look at me, probably waiting for an explanation for this completely strange question.

- So from today, in my house, you are known as Clara, - I muttered and smiled idiotically, scratching my neck in embarrassment. However, I thought it would be better to tell him sooner rather than keep something secret from him for who knows how long.
- It may sound silly, but unfortunately I can't tell my parents that I have a boyfriend. And since they've noticed that I'm disappearing a lot again, and the excuses that I was with Dahlia no longer work, so...’ It's like I lied to them that I found a friend named Clara. - I looked away while explaining this whole twisted story to him, a little afraid of his reaction. What if I offend him? However, to my surprise, the only thing I heard in response was a quiet, slightly shy chuckle. I hadn't heard that very often, so despite being embarrassed by my stupidity, I glanced at him again. At that slight smile and how he was trying not to laugh out loud. I did it! I made him laugh, it's just a shame it was in this way.

- I see, so to be like your parents, I have to be a girl? So what am I like as a woman? - he asked, still looking at me with that sweet amusement. It was a little strange to see him like that, but I'm not going to complain!

- Well, you know... You read a lot, you're not interested in parties, you encourage me to spend our time together productively, and so on. - My cheeks were slowly turning pink, and I wanted nothing more than to bury myself in the ground and not come out for several years. Or not come out at all, and play concerts for dead people.

- And as a girl, I'm also a guitarist, and I stole your heart with the sound of my guitar? - He continued to joke, and my embarrassment only grew.

- Unfortunately, then I would be forbidden from contacting you or something. - I confessed much more quietly and lowered my gaze.

-Wait, are they really that bad? - He immediately became serious, and I just nodded in confirmation.

- Well, the future director of the company should have the perfect woman who will help him run the company in the future, and she must be beautiful so that the next generation will look good. And, of course, someone with such an important role should not have any distractions; music is unnecessary, totally childish. - My words hung heavily in the air, immediately spoiling the pleasant atmosphere of our meeting. I didn't want it to be like this; we were supposed to go to rehearsal quickly and have fun. But it all overwhelms me more and more, I feel like I'm starting to break inside every time I lie to Xiao or my mother. The two worlds that I stubbornly tried to hide from each other were now slowly mixing and becoming one.

- Nonsense, - he muttered under his breath and sighed heavily, then pulled me closer to him again. Just like last time in the park, although now it was the middle of the day and there were other people around. But honestly, I didn't care right now. I wanted to feel the warmth of his arms again, at least for a moment, and the unlimited support he gave me. Someone who loves me for who I am, not for some ideal version of myself, like my parents do.
- Try not to worry about it so much, okay? We'll figure it out together. - He tried to calm me down, I took a deep breath and hugged him a little tighter.

- Believe me, there is nothing I want more than to learn to ignore what they think. But it's not that simple. - I continued speaking in the same, rather fragile whisper. As a person who always thought first about pleasing others, meeting their expectations, making them proud and smiling. I can't stop so easily, they set boundaries for me that I would like to stick to, but I can't. As a result, I no longer know whether I am closer to being a musician or the corporate rat I was supposed to be raised to be.
I sighed loudly again and finally moved away from the lad, I don't know how long I had been sticking to him like that. But I realised that my humour might overwhelm him too much. After all, I couldn't wait for today, this is not the time for sadness and identity crises. It's time to have fun with my boyfriend and his friends, a moment for music that I haven't had time to pursue lately.
- But I think we should go now, right? After all, we don't want Clara to be late for her rehearsal. - I tried to joke to lighten the heavy atmosphere, a little ironically because I was the one who started it.

- You're right, thank you for opening up to me. I know it's not easy, but I really appreciate it. - He confessed sincerely, and I saw that hint of a smile on his face again, which I returned. Then the shorter lad went over to his motorbike and handed me one of the helmets, and finally we set off for the rehearsal. Although because of this conversation, we're probably already late...

After about fifteen minutes, we were there. The rehearsal was to take place in the garage of one of the girls' houses, probably the energetic Xinyan's. We were greeted by the sight of a normal family home, not very different from the others in the neighbourhood. But it looked incredibly cosy right from the entrance, which was very different from the feeling I get every time I enter the place where I live. When we entered the garage, everyone was already inside, so they were just waiting for us?

- Sorry we're late, - I said at the start with a rather silly smile, and then everyone's eyes turned to us, as they had been busy talking before. I looked around, the instruments were in their places, and there were cupboards with stuffed animals, dried flowers and a smaller cup. On the walls, there were several medals and lots of posters of various bands, mainly rock bands, some even autographed! Well, this wasn't how I imagined the interior of the garage of a seemingly normal-looking house, but on the other hand, it suited the girl who was hosting us today very well.

- Oh, our lovebirds have finally graced us with their presence, - Heizou laughed in his typical, slightly teasing tone.

- Come on, have you been waiting that long? - Xiao replied, taking off his leather jacket.

- No, actually, the boys just got here too. It's great that you're here! - exclaimed the dark-haired girl with two ponytails, her excitement at this small event written all over her face, she was as happy as a little child.

- So, almost everyone is here, I think we can slowly begin.’ - said Yun Jin with a sweet smile on her face, and her girlfriend immediately picked up her guitar and, without waiting for the rest, began to play one of her stronger solos. The strumming of the instrument echoed throughout the garage and made the rest of my earlier tension evaporate. However, I was puzzled by the dancer's words, ‘almost everyone?’ I thought we were already at full strength. Then Hu Tao and Furina approached us, the brown-haired girl with a rather strange expression on her face. As if slightly embarrassed? It was totally different from the energetic girl I had seen recently in the bar. She grabbed Xiao by the hem of his shirt to get his attention and sighed quietly.

- Are you sure inviting him is a good idea? I know the rest of the group likes him, but... Will you be comfortable with that? - she asked with genuine concern in her voice, looking at her older brother with pure protectiveness. My boyfriend's face slowly became confused, as if he didn't know what the girl was talking about.

- The boys said they invited a former member of your band, apparently they wrote about it in the group chat and you didn't object. - Furina explained briefly, and I widened my eyes in surprise. Was she talking about Aether? Of course she was talking about him, Xiao hadn't mentioned that anyone else had ever left their band. But he also told me that his former bandmate had given up music in favour of studying and developing his future career.

- Don't tell me... - he whispered quietly, barely audible because the girl with two ponytails was still playing her guitar excitedly, and since everyone else's eyes were focused on her, it gave us a chance to talk in peace. Xiao ran his fingers through his hair, a gesture I was familiar with. He did this when he was trying not to get upset, to keep his negative emotions inside and not show them so openly.

- You don't know anything? - Hu Tao asked and glanced at the rest of the band. Kazuha shuddered slightly and glanced in our direction. - So they didn't discuss it with you? What the...

- No, I think it's my fault. After setting the date and place for the rehearsal, I didn't join the group, so they probably took that as consent, - he replied resignedly and looked at me with his faint smile. - I don't really like this situation, but we're not going to run away from it. Right, Venti?’

- Of course, if he tries to hit on you, I'll start sticking to him so he knows his place! - I said a little louder, and the dark-haired man stopped chuckling and ruffled my hair.

- See, Hu Tao? I'm fine. - Although he assured her, I could still see that hint of tension in him. The same one I had noticed during our last encounter with that blond guy. And I still felt that slight stress. I don't know the whole situation between them, but I can't imagine being friends with my boyfriend's ex. Maybe I feel this aversion only because of that fact, and in reality he's a good and nice person. But the very thought of him coming here made me sick, I have to work on this jealousy. Meanwhile, the sounds of the guitar slowly faded away, leaving the room in silence. At least until the garage door opened and the golden-eyed man we had talked about earlier walked through it.

- Sorry I'm late! I had to help Lumine with something. - He greeted us with a sweet, warm smile on his face, and the guys from 4nemo immediately approached him, clearly delighted by his presence. We were now standing in two groups: me, Xiao, his sister and my cousin; and those who greeted their old friend as if his place in the band had never disappeared, as if he hadn't hurt their good friend, even though a few weeks ago they hadn't asked me to join them. I didn't want to be negative, I hoped we could eliminate the slight tension in the air and just have fun. But how could I allow myself to be entertained when I could see how irritated my boyfriend was? He hid it, greeting him normally, as if nothing had happened between them. However, I could clearly see how uncomfortable he felt.