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Frank was mulling about in the green room before the show that night. His dream last night consisted primarily of one thing: Ray Toro’s beautiful lips wrapped around his dick. He felt stupid still being worked up over the dream after having jerked it out of his system this morning, but what could he do about it?
The second Frank had met Ray he began to fall in love. His kindness, love for music, and the way he balanced Frank's hyper behavior. No one had ever been able to neutralize Frank’s thoughts before like Ray could.
His smile lit up the room to Frank. His eyes were a beautiful shade of hazel and his hair became so light when the sun hit it. Frank hoped Ray hadn’t noticed how pathetic his pining for him had been over the past couple of years, but he was getting a bit tired of not knowing, of not having him the way he wanted to, the way he’d dreamed of.
Frank had always been a loud and obnoxious person and had never been able to hide his feelings this long, but there hadn’t ever been this much at stake. At this point, all of My Chem but Ray had figured it out. He had their blessing, but he still was terrified of ruining their relationship.
Frank was still sporting a semi (what can he say, love makes him horny) when Ray walked into the green room after triple checking his guitar was ready for the show. Frank sat up hastily and pushed his legs together, hoping to hide it.
“Hey, Frankie,” Ray said, taking a seat from the couch across from him. Ray then delved into something about having checked his guitar strings over and over because he was nervous for the show tonight.
While Frank felt bad for not listening to Ray (he looked so beautiful and flustered about tonight's show), he couldn’t focus from the way he spoke a bit too fast, moving his luscious lips rapidly, and a slight pink tinge to his cheeks. Ray didn’t often get this flustered (flustered enough to show it on his face) and Frank couldn’t help but stare adoringly at him.
And he still couldn’t get that glorious dream out of his mind. The image of Ray’s lips wrapped tightly around his cock, gazing up at him adoringly and moving fast around him. Frank fought with his mind to keep his erection from getting farther than a semi.
“What'd ya think, Frankie?” Ray paused, asking him. Frank felt a heat rush to his cheeks and cursed himself for not paying better attention to the man he loved when he clearly needed someone to talk to.
“I… I kind of zoned out, I’m sorry.” Frank said, watching Ray’s face fall a little bit. Maybe it was finally time for Frank to let his thoughts be known. Ray would forgive him for not listening to his words if he knew how Frank was thinking of him, right?
He hoped so, and went for it, chewing at his lip piercing.
“I’m sorry, Ray. Tonight will be okay, I swear. Um.. not to be a perv, but I zoned out cause I was thinking about shoving my dick in your mouth. Kinda happens a lot when we have normal conversations.” Frank grinned cheekily, feeling a blush rise to his face. He hoped that this would do two things: make Ray forgive him, and make Ray realize how bad he’s wanted him.
Frank finally looked up to Ray’s face and noticed his cheeks an even darker pink and his mouth agape, adding to the images swirling in Frank’s mind (focus on your confession Frank and stop being horny, he thought). He closed it, frowned, and then opened it again. “Huh? Are you joking with me right now?”
Frank ignored his questions and stood up, walking to Ray and deciding to boldly place a kiss on the top of his head. He kept himself lowered near the top of Ray’s head and wrapped his arms around him into a hug. “I know tonight’s a bigger crowd than ever and you’re extra worried about some malfunction, more worried than usual,” he mumbled, “but you’re gonna kill it, Toro. You always do. No one is gonna give a fuck if a string breaks, you always deliver.” As he spoke, he felt Ray move into his touch, flustering Frank even more.
He gave him one last squeeze, and with that Frank left the green room, softly giggling at his boldness. He found a bathroom to hide out before the show and take care of his (now) full-on erection.
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The show was a breeze. Ray had nothing to be worried about. All their instruments worked perfectly during the set and Ray shredded as always. Frank could feel Ray’s gaze on him for most of the show. He snuck him cheeky grins back, but couldn’t help but fully stare at him when he heard Ray’s backing vocals during Helena. He loved hearing Ray sing. Mikey gave him a look that was somewhere in between an eye roll and encouragement. He blushed a little.
After the show ended and they all exited the stage, Ray gave Frank the look. The I want to fuck you look. Frank was half sure of it, at least. Either that or he was super mad about earlier. He hoped it was the first option.
Ray left back to the bus as soon as possible, and Frank lagged behind in the green room with the others so he could gather the balls to go find Ray in the bus.
He was really nervous. Even though he confessed nothing about feelings, he felt like he had put his heart on his sleeve by admitting his sexual attraction to Ray, and that it was an ongoing thing.
Eventually, Frank couldn’t stand sitting in the green room anymore. He left Gerard reading Dune, Bob fast asleep on the couch, and Mikey who knows where.
When he got to their tour bus, Ray was nowhere to be seen, but he could hear the sink running. Frank fished his phone out of his pocket and plugged it in on the charger near the couch, and then walked over to his bunk to remove a couple of layers from the show.
He changed into a different t-shirt that wasn’t sweat soaked and put on a bit more deodorant. If there was a possibility of something happening between him and Ray tonight, he didn’t want to turn him off from smelling bad.
As soon as he tugged his shirt on he heard the bathroom door sliding open, becoming face to face with Ray. His eyes looked dark, and he couldn’t tell what was about to happen. He bit at hip lip piercing for what felt like the thousandth time that day.
“Hi,” Frank breathed out, gazing up at Ray. He felt small as Ray looked down at him, his eyes still dark like they were when he walked offstage earlier.
“Hi,” Ray responded.
They just stared at each other for a second before Ray said, “Did you really mean what you said earlier? Or were you just fucking with me like usual?”
Frank felt nervous. Ray definitely was thinking about his comment and not the fact that he wasn’t paying attention to him. He didn’t know whether to feel more nervous or relieved.
He looked down, “Do you want me to have meant it?” He mumbled. He looked back up at Ray and saw him stepping closer, making the shorter man have to tilt his chin up even more to maintain eye contact.
He officially loved their height difference.
Ray cornered Frank against the bunks, bringing his lips close to Frank’s ear and whispering, “Yeah.”
Frank let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. He felt so exposed, so naked, and yet he was fully clothed.
Ray picked his hand up and held Frank’s chin in his hand, moving his gaze down to his lips for a second. Ray’s face was still flushed from the show, but he looked even pinker in the dim light of the bus.
Frank felt butterflies realizing he was the one to cause this, and before he could dwell, Ray pressed his lips to Frank’s.
The moment was everything Frank had ever dreamt of. Ray’s lips were incredibly soft, and he felt subconscious knowing his lips probably felt dry and cracked.
Frank moved his arms up around Ray’s neck, pulling him closer and deepening the kiss. He felt himself getting harder by the second. He was consumed by the feeling of Ray’s body pressed against him. It was everything he ever dreamed of, and more. Way, way more.
He felt Ray’s hands move from his face down to just above his hips, massaging his skin. Frank let out a breathy moan and Ray used this as an opportunity to slip his tongue into his mouth. Frank felt pretty submissive right now, not that he minded.
The feeling of them beginning to grind their hips together, letting whiny moans escape in between hot, wet kisses, was the best thing to ever happen to Frank. They took off their shirts between sloppy kisses. Frank ran his hands all over Ray’s chest, feeling his muscular torso and body hair everywhere. He hoped to spend hours kissing him all over his chest someday.
Ray trailed his kisses down Frank’s chin, stopping to nip at his ear, making the shorter man moan loudly. He felt painfully hard.
Ray moved down to his neck and began to bite and suck all over. “Ray, I- fuck” His body felt like it was going to explode. He was no virgin, but nothing had ever been this amazing in his life. He felt like a teenager having his first make-out session, about to prematurely nut in his pants.
“I’ve- oh, thought about this so much,” Ray found a spot on his neck that was driving him absolutely crazy, and he knew it.
“About you, so much, ah, Ray.” He kept biting and sucking and licking it, making Frank a whimpering mess.
Ray took a pause from using his mouth, bucking his erection against Frank’s thigh, breathing out, “Me too, Frankie,” Frank moaned at his confession.
“No one’s ever said something like that to me before, I just-” Ray broke off into a moan as Frank slipped his hands between them and began to palm the taller man’s erection. He felt so large in Frank’s hand, and hoped that one day he could get Ray inside him.
Frank blushed at the thought and began to push Ray back to the set of bunks behind him, his hands not leaving his body.
He got on his tiptoes to kiss at Ray’s neck, hoping he’d continue.
“No one’s ever noticed me the way you seem to…” He broke off with a moan, Frank kissing the side of his mouth. “The way I’ve caught you looking at me, Frankie, I-” he kissed Ray again, this time on the lips, “I love it. I feel like you see me, always. Like you want me, too.” Frank beamed at his words, continuing to kiss all over Ray’s face and neck and collarbones.
I do, Frank thought to himself, I’ll always see you. I’ll always want you.
Ray let out a low laugh that turned into a moan when Frank sped up the pace of his hand on the taller man’s bulge.
“Except when you zoned out today,” Ray laughed quietly. “You definitely weren’t listening then.” Frank paused to look at him in the eyes and giggled, and Ray used this moment to take control again.
Ray pushed him back towards the other set of bunks and had his leg between Franks’, catching him off guard and making him let go of Ray’s erection. The shorter man couldn’t help but buck his hips onto Ray’s thigh. He needed more.
Ray moved his hands from Frank’s sides and held his face. He thought Frank looked absolutely beautiful, his face flushed, lips swollen, and pupils blown wide. He pressed a soft kiss to Frank’s lips, and then pulled away by just an inch.
“I want what you said earlier,” he kissed Frank’s left cheek. “Haven’t been able to stop thinking about it, Frankie.” Frank whined loudly as Ray pressed a kiss to his right cheek.
Frank couldn’t believe what was happening. Ray slowly dropped to his knees in front of Frank, kissing his tattooed chest on the way down. He was only stopping to mouth at both of Frank’s nipples, making the shorter man moan, before Ray fully landed on his knees and began to mouth at his bulge.
Frank let out a loud moan and his head rolled back. He’d never been so turned on in his life, seeing Ray on his knees before him.
Frank made himself look down, wanting to watch Ray’s mouth move against his erection.
Frank let out a frustrated whine, “Get on with it, please” he groaned. Ray chuckled, looking up at the shorter man before him.
“As you wish, Frankie.” Ray slowly unbuckled his belt, and even slower began to unzip his pants, beginning to mouth at his cock through his underwear.
Frank was seeing stars and Ray hadn’t even gotten ahold of him yet. He let out a loud moan and thrust his hips into Ray’s mouth as he slowly began pulling his pants off.
“Ray, please.” He whined. Ray sped up his motions and let Frank’s cock spring free from his boxers. He moaned at feeling the cool air around him.
Ray pressed a kiss to his tip before taking him in his mouth. Frank felt his tongue flat against the bottom of his cock, and he was already losing it, worried he wasn’t going to last long.
He was a moaning mess, watching Ray look up at him between his lashes and taking his cock so well down his throat. His hands were wrapped in Ray’s hair, tugging on his hair lightly. Ray’s gorgeous lips were covered in spit and he was moaning all around Frank. He really seemed to like his hair being pulled.
“‘M not gonna last long, baby.” Frank felt his quickly orgasm approaching, and Ray continued to moan around his cock. Frank couldn’t stop mumbling curses and letting moans fall out of his mouth. He was so, so close.
“Ah- fuck,” he breathed, “I’m gonna-” and his legs began to shake as Ray sucked an orgasm out of him. He was seeing stars and felt as if he was going to fall over, but Ray came up and caught his body, kissing the life out of him. His strong arms held him in place as he slumped against the wall of bunks.
He can’t believe Ray, the man he’d loved for so long, had just sucked him off and swallowed all of it, cleaning him off with his mouth. He pulled up Frank’s boxers and pants. He held the tattooed man until he seemed steady enough to hold himself up. Ray kissed him deeply, and Frank moaned at his taste in Ray’s mouth.
Frank paused their kisses, and let Ray’s forehead fall against his, breathing hard. Once Frank got ahold of himself, he toyed with the hem of Ray’s boxers that were peaking above his pants and looked him in the eyes saying, “Let me repay the favor, baby, please.”
Ray nodded, blushing, and let Frank takeover. Frank didn’t have the patience to tease Ray. Not tonight when the rest of My Chem should be returning soon. He needed Ray in his mouth now.
Frank’s lips grazed over Ray’s nipples, leaving soft licks, and a bite to the left one (the moan Ray let out was heavenly), before dropping to his knees and undoing the taller man’s belt. He wasted no time letting Ray’s cock loose from his boxers.
Frank licked along the bottom of Ray’s cock before taking him in his mouth. He savored the sounds Ray was making as he began to suck him off. Ray was so huge compared to himself, and the thought made him moan. Ray began to tug at Frank’s hair, holding his head with such need, but letting Frank control the pace.
Frank moved a hand down to fondle Ray’s balls, and he watched as he mumbled “oh god”s and “fucks”, needing to shut his eyes every so often.
Frank sucked him hard and fast, chasing Ray’s release. “Frankie, I- oh..” Ray began. “Mhm so close, Frank, please.”
Frank moaned at Ray begging him for his release. He really needed to take his time and tease Ray next time. He hoped there would be a next time.
“Ah.. Frank-” Ray stuttered as he spilled into Frank’s mouth. Frank loved his taste in his mouth, he craved it. The sound of his name on Ray’s tongue will be ingrained into his mind forever.
And just like Ray had done for him, he sucked him clean and pulled his boxers and pants back up.
Frank stood up and kissed the taller man so hard that he pushed him back into the bunks. Ray chuckled under the kiss.
They paused, breathing together and gazing into one another’s eyes. “I’ve been wanting to do that for a long time.” Frank sighed.
“Me too,” Ray mumbled. They held each other for a little bit, calming themselves down. “What now?” Ray asked into Frank’s hair.
Frank felt himself blush. He felt a bit too vulnerable to confess his love right now.
Soon. He promised himself. He needed to guard his heart a little longer and enjoy Ray while he had him. Tonight.
“Will you lay with me?” Frank whispered into Ray’s chest.
He felt Ray kiss the top of his head. “Of course, Frankie. Of course.” Frank felt his heart explode.
He hoped he wouldn’t lose this. Lose him. He hoped Ray loved him back.
They climbed into Frank’s bunk, spooning with Ray’s strong arms around Frank’s waist.
Frank felt safe. He felt so much love towards the man holding him, and he was sure Ray had no idea. He was happy with this. He could handle this, for now.
As long as he has Ray in his life, who is he to complain?
I love you.