I’m meant to change

by King0fDirt

Summary:

It was just a cold he told himself but his friends told him to go to a clinic
It was just a cold he told himself, and oh was he so wrong

It was just a cold he told himself as he sat in an uncomfortable plastic chair watching a pheromone professional explain what was happening to his body

It was just a cold he told himself as the women in-front of him explained that due to his exposure to too many alpha pheromones his secondary gender was slowly changing

The only thing is, is that he had to be exposed to alpha pheromones ,that was a huge part of his job, considering his job was to give service to alphas going through rut
Eren was born a beta but his body was changing due to his job, which paid very, very generously.

He wished it was just a cold

All of this was happening to the brunette because he decided to take on a mysterious new client, one with onyx black hair and a lie that would change erens entire life.

Chapter 1: How it started

Summary:

An introduction to Eren’s job and how he started it

What I did for work was looked down upon, most sex work was, but what I specifically do is not your typical job, I wasn’t a stripper, dancing seductively for the chance of money to be thrown as me, I wasn’t a pornstar either, being filmed for the viewers personal pleasure. No what I did was far more lude, I kept it a secrete from others cause if anybody knew I wouldn’t be able to show my face.

Back when I was a senior in high school I didn’t have a clue what to do with my life, the question was brought up constantly and I thought about it over for months but I ended up empty handed. Back then I would have never thought of myself going into this profession let alone know it would make me go through a transition that would change my life.

I didn’t even know it was a profession until a few months after I graduated, I had noticed that one of my friends, Mina,a beta, was wearing things that normally would be far outside her price range. I was at her graduation party when I asked her what she did, she looked nervous, like she hadn’t expected someone to notice that her taste had suddenly gotten expensive.

She held her red solo cup a little tighter as she looked around the room seeing if anybody was paying attention, she leaned in once she was sure nobody was listening to our conversation.

In a quiet voice she said “ i’m..umm” she opened and closed her mouth trying to figure out how to say what was on her mind until she decided she didn’t want to say anything at all, instead she pulled out her wallet and took a business card out handing it to me.I slowly read the words trying to process each one

Bliss co.
The words written in fancy purple cursive letters, under it had a description

A company designed for the higher class, where alphas of high society can find the help they  need ;) Signed by the co founder, Hanji, Zoe Call xxx-xxx-xxxx to book or to apply

I re-read the description over and over, it probably being written by a crazy person from how crude yet unserious it was.

It took me a minute to fully comprehend what the card was telling me until I looked at Mina, looked at the card, looked back at mina with my mouth agape several times.

“B-but you’re a beta, we just graduated? Are you sure this kind of thing is safe?” The questions flew out of my mouth before I could stop them. She looked away with a small blush on her face “I know I’m a beta” she said matter of factly “but some clients specifically look for betas cause..well you can probably guess why” she looked away, obviously I knew what she was talking about, alphas got into scandals all the time due to being stupid and getting an omega pregnant.

an awkward vibe settled between us until she decided to speak again

“look, the only reason I’m telling you about this is cause I know you don’t have a plan for the future yet” she paused and took a deep breath “and if you need something that’ll get you on your feet I recommend it”

What scarred me the most is that I was secretly intrigued “is this how you’re able to afford so many fancy things?” I asked She huffed a small laugh “it’s actually scary how much money you get from doing a job like this”

I quirked my eyebrow up asking a silent question, she understood “you know how I wanted to go to nursing school?” I nodded “yea you’ve talked about it a lot” she took a long pause“I’ve been doing this for a couple months and …I can already pay for half my tuition already”

What. Even with scholarships you’d still be in debt after going to nursing school

“Jesus Christ!?! How rich are these people!?” I looked back at the card. I wasn’t stupid nor needy enough to even consider a job like that. At least that’s what I said in my head, yet there was something disturbing yet alluring about the whole ordeal that made him think ‘can a beta like himself really be wanted for such a thing like that’ he quickly shoved that thought to the back of his head, but…what if?

Mina spoke, breaking me out of my thoughts “When the card says the alphas of high society it means high high society” she emphasized the “high” by speaking with her hands “ we’re talking like CEO’s, owners of every company, and business firm in New York”

I gaped at her “Godamn..” I said under my breath, she giggled “listen if it’s not your thing it’s not your thing, just giving you an option” she said she patted me on the shoulder and left with a shrug as she went to join the party.

I stayed put, the card feeling heavy in my hands, like it was trying to convince me to do something stupid, but then again I’m eren jaeger, doing stupid things is kind of my thing.

Chapter 2: A Mysterious Client

Tipping my uber for the ride, I stepped out of the black Honda. Standing before me a tall glass building with the words Bliss co. Written In its very well known purple cursive written at the top of the building. I shake my head putting the thoughts of the past and how I got into this profession behind me, besides that was years ago, I wasn’t 18 anymore I was 23.

I walked into the building, it bustling with people, I talked to a few people in the lobby, one thing I like about this job is that everyone at the office was friendly and it wasn’t hard to get close to others. I made my way to the elevator selecting floor number 6 this floor was specifically for people who worked in the same profession as I did, even though most of our work was done at the employers house we were still given a floor to organize client files, and planning who went into the field . Bliss co. Wasn’t just about sending people to help famous alphas through rut it was a successful business that specialized in every topic that fell under the topic of sex, it made toys, sex equipment planned events, and anything you needed to make a sex dungeon basically.

I walked onto the floor, it had a few meeting  rooms that were currently in use and cubicles filled the rest of the open floor plan. I walked to my makeshift desk it had my laptop a cup with a few pens and and a planner that I kept to keep track of clients, my mind traveled back to when I first learned about this job, Mina was right about one thing, people do look for betas specifically, I was booked at least 3 times this month.

My eyes scanned my planner filled with this month’s clients before a cup of coffee was harshly placed beside me I looked up to see a horse with a mischievous grin. 

I starred at jean weirdly before picking up the drink “thank y-“ just as I was about to say my gratitude I read the words written on the cup “baby” followed by a heart and a disturbingly accurate drawing of a dick. “Really?” I give the horse a deadpanned look, he chuckles as he sits down roughly at the desk bouncing in his seat in the process  “what? I was just trying to be nice while also considering what you like” he smirked taking his eyes off me looking at the screen in-front of him. 

I remember the day he started working here, it was a sad and irritating day. his desk was originally Mina’s and I was sad to see her go but I knew she was gonna become a great nurse just like she always wanted.

I was clearing out her desk when hanji walked over, a tall man with light sandalwood hair and a black undercut followed them “hey eren, love!” I looked up to see their usual bouncy personality, I didn’t mind the pet names they gave me, over the years I had grown used to it and secretly fond of it  but I would never tell them

“hey hanji what up?”  I gave her a curious look nudging my head towards the man behind her. “Oh! This here is Jean Kirsten, he’ll be in file management” they said patting the man’s shoulder, they looked up at the man “this here is Eren Jaeger, he’ll be right next to your desk” they used their hand to gesture to me, I quietly thanked them in my head for not mentioning my position in the company. Jean put out his hand offering a hand shake “nice to meet you” his voice deep and a little scratchy, I took his hand smiling politely. “Great I’ll leave you to get settled, if you have any questions ask Eren, okay?“ hanji said, Jean slightly nodded in response, “alright, byee boys, play nice” they waved while skipping off to do whatever crazy thing their mind could think of.

So far he didn’t hate the new guy at least that’s what he thought before Jean opened his mouth “so what do you do here? File management? Event planner? or are you one of those prostitutes?” He questioned while casually placing his belonging in the drawers I just cleaned.

Excuse me? One of those prostitutes? I repeated slowly in my head, irritation quickly came to the surface. I starred at jeans face, quickly coming to the conclusion the man standing before him was more of a horse than a man

“And what are you doing here? Horseface” the insult came off my tongue smoothly “Shouldn’t you be in a stable?” I asked tilting my head in an innocent matter, he looked stunned for a mere second before he smirked “oh?” drawing out the “oh” his eyes wandered down my body as he said it, finally coming to a conclusion on why I was acting pissy “so you are one of those prostitutes” he finally finished

“eyes up here” my voice coming out harsh, his eyes quickly snapped to meet mine “my bad, babe” he held his hands in defense the pet name falling from his lips in a joking matter. I glared at the stupid smirk he wore before going back at my desk “don’t call me stupid pet names” I turn slightly, looking over my shoulder to make eye contact “horse face” I finished.

Back to the present, he wore the same smug smirk now as he did back then. I held out my arm to flip him off, waving it around slightly to make sure he saw it. His eyes flickered to me laughing a bit before saying “appreciate it jeager, I traumatized the barista asking her to write that” he pointed at the dick drawing plastered on my cup 

Before I could retort back on how much of an idiot he was for making a stranger probably just trying to get through their minimum wage job  traumatized a short girl with blonde hair and pretty blue eyes walked passed to get to her desk that was right behind mine

“stop arguing, it’s way too early in the morning to be assholes to each other” her smile bright as she spun her chair to face me and Jean. “Good morning to you to krista” Jean said grabbing another coffee off his desk “princess “ written on the side of it, to hand to the girl

“oh thank you so much Jean, I really needed this” she excepted the coffee Jean nodded “at least someone is appreciative of the things I do around here” he said while tilted his head in my direction giving me that “I’m referring to you” look  I ignored his action and his words

“good morning Krista how are you?” I smiled warmly at her.

I could see Jean in my peripheral vision acting dramatic as his hands launched in-front of him like he was saying a silent “what the fuck”

“Eren play nice” Krista sternly said 

I listened, moving my body so it was resting on the armrest closest to Jean, leaning my head on my shoulder, my long brunette hair folding nicely I looked up at him through my long eyelashes “I’m kidding Jean” I paused “thank you, for the coffee” I smiled sincerely with a hint of something else because I knew whenever I acted like this it made the other man feel flustered, I watched as his eyes widened ever so slightly with a shade of pink dusting his cheeks, he cleared his throat to try and cover up his slip up before going back to normal “ you see babe, Was that so hard?” his usual grin coming back, I shook my head at him “alright go back to work”

spinning in my chair to go back to what I was doing but before I could Krista stopped my chair “Eren do you have room for another client at the end of this month?” I thought about it a moment before I couldn’t recall my own schedule, grabbing my planner

“it depends I have 3 clients this month, what days do they wanna book?” Taking my eyes off my planner to look at her “ do you have the 28th open?” I looked at her with a confused look, just a day? Ruts usually last 4 to 7 days I questioned in my head.

She noticed my confusion “this client is really weird he books a different person for every day of his rut, originally Laura was scheduled for that day, she’s been with the client before but when she saw she was booked for him she immediately refused to take the job” weird indeed I thought 

“A different person each day?!” Jean said spinning his chair to face us” what kind of whore is this guy?”

I laughed at his crude language while Krista looked at him, her eyebrows scrunching up trying to muster up the best fake glare she could  “don’t talk that way about clients” clearly trying and failing at scolding Jean cause all she got in return was “whatever you say princess”

Before thinking too hard about the client and how odd it sounded “sure I’ll take the job I’m open that day” I said shrugging my shoulders who am I to judge what a guys into even if that means he wants a different partner each day, in all honestly I’ve seen worse.

Jean looked at me weirdly “are you sure?”  I could see the slight concern in his eyes “this guy seems like bad juju” I scoff a little “I doubt it’s anything serious” I tried to convince him “now get back to work” I said pointing at his computer “fine fine just looking out for you babe” he said his hands falling into the defensive position “ if something horrible happens I want everyone to know I was right” he pointed a finger, it moving from me to Krista to make his point before finally turning around to focus on his work. 

I rolled my eyes before looking back to Krista, I expected her to have a warm smile like she usual did whenever me and Jean play fought but she didn’t she had this serious look on her face before suddenly spinning my chair so fast I almost fell out of it “What the hell krista-“. I grabbed the armrest tightly after almost loosing my life to a girl who wasn’t even 5,2. we were now facing our shared thin cubical wall.

she pulled me in close by the collar of my shirt shutting me up “look Eren before you take the job I want to tell you something about the client” she said whispering like shes about to tell me a secrete that nobody should hear.

“Okay?” I looked at her weird waiting for her  continued “I talked to Laura cause I thought it was odd the way she refused to take the job” I quickly realized why she was acting the way she was, this was how she acted when we were about to have a  gossip session, so naturally I leaned more towards her about to drink up every word she was about to say.

“Oh? And what’d she say” Krista had a glint in her eyes “ the whole reason she refused the job is because the guy, Levi Ackerman, has the stamina of an animal, that’s the whole reason why he books a new person each day its because he supposedly wrecks his partners to the point that can’t work the next day” she said with a small knowing smile, she knew I was eating this shit up cause everyone on this floor that knew what i did knew I could physical go on forever and know I did what I did well, really well.

I couldn’t help the tug of my lips as I looked into Krista’s blue eyes as curiosity consumed me “so he fucks like a beast?” I questioned receiving a shrug in response  “I don’t know that’s all that Laura would tell me” as she sat back in her chair.

“But hear this he’s supposedly a-“ 

Before she could finish She was cut off “You know I can hear every word you guys are saying, right?” A feminine voice came from the other side of the cubical wall.
Shit.

A quiet “shhhh peick, why would you say that?” Or atleast I think the girl tried to be quiet cause she was crunching loudly on whatever she was eating “yea pieck we were just about to hear the good part” a new voice chimed she sounded confident with a hints of humor within it. I stood up being tall enough to look over the cubical wall, I quickly recognized the faces.

Sasha quickly shoving ranch flavored chips into her mouth like they were gonna run away, looked up at me “I swear we weren’t trying to eavesdrop!” Wiping the crumbs off her office attire outfit

“well I was, before someone ruined it” a girl with dirty blond hair spun in her chair to look at the black haired girl who was very focused on her computer “you’ll live hitch, I promise” she looked over her shoulder giving hitch a small sarcastic smile before turning back to her computer.

My arms came up to rest lightly on the wall my chin resting gently on my crossed arms “sorry” I said with an apologetic smile knowing that if pieck hadn’t spoke up me and Krista would have continued to say who knows what.

Sasha quickly laughed filling her mouth with another chip “eh it wouldn’t be the first time you and Krista gossiped” chewing between her words, the sight was…disturbing to say the least.

“Best part of my day” hitch spoke matter if factly  “honestly I would die of boredom if I didn’t hear some tea every once in a while” her arms folded a-crossed her chest, a smirk on her face, she says that but we all knew that in reality she probably gossiped the most out of all of us, she knew everything about everyone’s business. Peick shook her head “come on now hitch we all know you and how you’re the real gossiper here” she turned her entire body to hitch now, joining the conversation “no need to act modest” her voice gentle but still sarcastic. Hitch rolled her eyes slightly “ yea yea whatever you people say” she said dismissively “you know I’m right” peick voice sung out. 

Then my mind wonders if hitch knew a lot about what happens around here then maybe she would know more about this mysterious client. Before I could ask I was distracted by Krista trying to stand on her spinning chair slightly stumbling until she grabbed my shoulders for support “Jesus krista your gonna get a condition” I said making sure she wasn’t about to fall. She looked at me and then the wall  “not my fault this wall is too tall and I’m too short to look over it” she said with a huff, she still clung to my shoulder trying not to fall “plus It’s rude to start a conversation without me” she pointed a look at me before looking over to the 3 beta women

“please don’t fall Krista. Ymir will kill us…literally” Sasha said,  hands out like she was gonna try and catch Krista if she fell. “Oh I’ll be fine I’m not that clumsy” as if she didn’t almost tumble to the floor trying to get up here.

I quickly changed the topic, my mind still thinking about the client “anywho, hitch” I say getting her attention “you know a lot about what goes on around here, hear anything about this Levi Ackerman guy?” The man’s name sounded rough but  smooth coming out of my mouth almost like I wasn’t supposed to say it at all.

She thought about it for a moment “ yea I’ve heard that name before I think he owns a law firm, rich like every other alpha client we get” she said with a bored look on her face “ there’s nothing actually special about this guy” she took a pause before a smirk appeared into her lips “other than how he is in bed or so I hear” she examined my face slowly that smirk remained on her face “but let me guess the steamy stuff is all you wanna hear? Not that boring crap”

A guilty smile came out, the people around me knew me all to well

“If you guys are gonna talk about sex go somewhere else” peick groaned softly, leaning back in in her chair, eyes closed in irritation, she knew she was never gonna be able to focus on her work with a bunch of people talking about sex right behind her, like they were teenagers still in high school.

“Oh come on peick I know you’re curious”Krista’s voice trying to coax peick into investing in the tea that was about to be spilt.

“Who cares what peick wants, spill hitch” Sasha pointing a finger at hitch ready for her to continue. Hitch opened her mouth ready to speak but looked at peick first looking for a sign that said go ahead, a long pause filled our conversation as we all looked at peick in anticipation, all of us slowly leaning towards her, when finally a loud sigh left her lips “fine talk about sex in the workplace, which is totally appropriate and okay” she gasped out sarcastically.

Sasha’s fist flew into the air before quickly coming back down “yes!” She said to herself. Now we all looked at hitch with the same anticipation, her eyes traveled to each one of our faces, she smiled slightly, like she wasn’t trying to smile, her shoulders shaking lightly before fully laughing pointing at all of us “Hahah you should see all your faces” she wheezed in her chair “I don’t actually have anything for you guys “ she says in-between her cackling “what!?!” “You can’t be serious?!” We all say and a small “and this is what I get for trying to be apart of this conversation” coming from peick as she spun her chair to face her computer.

Hitch coming out from her laughter from her own joke which none of us thought was funny.

“Do you really not have anything?” I asked desperate for something, anything!

“Nah I’ve looked into his records he keeps like everything confidential, he makes each one of our employees sign a contract about what they can and cannot say”

a privacy contract? We had rules that we had to follow regarding privacy that was very strict but I’ve never heard of a client making someone sign a contract before.

“however” hitch’s voice broke the silence “I might have something to share about the guy but it won’t do you much good since your a beta and it’s only a rumor” she said cautiously 

I leaned forward, not being able to hold in my anticipation

”he’s supposedly a dominant alpha”

as soon as the words left hitch’s mouth it felt like Krista held my arm tighter.

A dominant alpha? Is this supposed to be a joke? Dominant alphas were ranked above regular alphas for reasons I never understood, from what I’ve heard their pheromones were stronger, they acted differently and that supposedly their genes were easier to pass on, promising the birth of alpha children. They were very rare cases, only few known to the public and they usually got famous because of it. But none of that stuff mattered to me, would never affect me.

the entire concept was stupid to me alphas in general were already arrogant but dominant alphas were worse. I could already hear it, the overly confident grating voice correcting whoever godforbid accidentally referred to them as a regular alpha.

I couldn’t help the laugh that came out of me “Haha ha yea sure hitch, real funny, now do you have anything thats actually useful to me”

she breathed “like I said just a rumor jeager” 

Krista slowly made her way down not saying a word, once she was down safely I groaned loudly. “Ugh, thanks for nothing hitch”  as I plopped down in my chair, I hear a loud sarcastic “you’re welcome!” Coming from the other side of the wall.

Me and krista now looking at each other a face I’ve never seen on her before “sooo” she dragged out “are you gonna take the job?” Tilting her head just slightly to prove she was interested in my answer.

Let’s see, a guy who makes all his partners sign a contract, supposedly has amazing stamina, barley any background in our company’s files, evidence was telling me no but the whore inside of me said yes.

I didn’t have to say a thing, Krista already knew what my answer was by the look on my face, she always knew, quick to get to work by sending me any information I needed and filling up my colander. However Krista didn’t move, she wasn’t looking me in the eyes either.

She placed her hand on top of mine ”listen, Eren I don’t think this is a good idea, dominant alphas are-“ I interrupted her 

“Krista, it’s just a rumor. There’s no possible way its true” I reassured, I knew Krista was an omega, she felt things that I couldn’t, I didn’t have the instinct of danger like she did but I didn’t understand those things so I brushed it off. My curiosity of the man more important than any warning. 

“plus” I put on a mischievous smile “there’s no dick I can’t handle” as I gestured to my entire body

”oh my god eren” she rolled her eyes, slowly going back to her chipper self “I'm trying to have a serious conversation with you” she pleaded 

“I’ll be fine, promise” 

staring into my eyes she finally nodded “alright I’ll put it on your schedule” she spun back to her desks

“Thanks princess” turning back to my own desk, getting ready for what was to come.

 

Chapter 3: The call

Summary:

Armin catches on to Eren’s secrete, especially when the blonde decides to calls eren while he’s in the middle of working with a client..

A lot of my friends didn’t know what I did for work, and I’d like to keep it that way. Despite the fact that a few members of my friend group consisted of my colleagues, Krista, sahsa, and Jean we had all agreed to tell the rest of our friend group we worked a 9 to 5 office job at the same company. Which technically wasn’t a lie, I go to the office…sometimes.

However let’s just say we weren’t that good at coordinating our lie and it was coming back to get us, cause Armin was catching on very quickly.

It started a few weeks ago, armin had invited all of our friends to his apartment for a movie night before he got swamped with work at the law firm he had an internship at.

everybody buried on top of each other in his living room.

While the intro was starting armin had pulled me into his kitchen “you wanna help me get popcorn ready” the blonde point at a cabinet, already knowing what I was looking for I grab the 2 giant bowls and place them in the counter while the blonde puts a package in the microwave.

We lean against the island corner staring at the microwave, waiting for it to be done, when I hear a small sigh coming from the blonde. I look at him with a questioning look, the blonde not looking back at me sighs again, but this time more dramatically, his shoulders going all the way up and back down on his exhale, his eyes rolling as if to say ‘I want attention’

I give him a deadpanned look “if you want me to ask what’s wrong you could have just asked to talk”

The blonde finally looks up giving me a sheepish grin “I do wanna talk, more like complain?” He questioned himself before nodding “yea, yea I kind of just wanna complain”

“Shoot your shot, I’m all ears”

“This internship is killing me” he groans loudly, putting his hands in his head “my boss is a total nut job, don’t get me wrong he’s skilled at what he does, one heck of a lawyer and a businessman I’ll admit” he looks at me, desperation in his blue eyes “ but I swear to god if he tells me to clean his tea cup cause he sees dirt I swear isn’t there one more time, I’m gonna loose it”

I snort at his frustration, it’s hard not to, Armin’s never gotten this worked up due to someone else’s behavior.

“It’s not funny eren, he once asked me to clean his stapler cause his secretary touched it” the disbelieve look on Armin’s face makes me laugh harder  “his stapler eren!!” He shakes his hands in the air.

“I’m sure you’ll manage” I pat his shoulder in condolence “maybe being a cleaning boy is your real destiny” I try to make my face as composed as possible but I couldn’t stop the giggles that came out.

“Lucky for you to say, you have friends to keep you company when you’re having a shit day at work”  the harsh words come out of Armin's mouth but there’s no real bite to them.

“what can I say, the American 9/5 office job truly is the dream” I say sarcastically.
The beeper goes off, armin quick to retrieve the melted buttery goodness out of the microwave.

“Is it done is it done!” Sasha bursts into the kitchen taking the bag from Armin before realizing it’s blazing hot tossing the bag back and forth between her hands “ouch hot, hot”

“Well no shit Sasha, he just took it out the microwave” Jean, following after Sasha

I put the next bag of popcorn into the microwave “hey, eren was just telling me about your office jobs and what you guys do” Armin speaks behind me greeting the new people in the kitchen

Um…no the fuck I wasn’t.

I turn around quickly still behind the blonde so he couldn’t see me and look straight into jeans eyes and shake my head frantically giving the hint I was in fact not talking about that.

Thankfully jeans horse brain is smart enough to get the hint and come up with something quick

“oh was he? It’s kind of boring you know? Paperwork, sorting files that sort of thing” he rants as he rubs the back of his neck, a clear sign of anxiety that no doubt Armin quickly catches onto.

“You know I’ve never asked what your guys’s company is about?” Armin says while grabbing the hot bag out of Sasha’s hand, smoothly opening the bag dumping its contents in one of the giant bowls.

I walk over to rest slightly in the island counter

Me, Jean, and Sasha all sharing a nervous  look trying to silently figure out who’s gonna come up with a lie cause  somebody needs to say something.

panic sets and before any of us can stop we’re all blurting something

“Cooking”

“Programming”

“Social media?”

Well, we’re fucked. We all look at each other , silent ‘why the fuck would you say that’ being said to each other. And awkward silence filling the kitchen

“I see..” Armin says not looking at any of us, keeping his focus on the popcorn in front of him 

And if the moment couldn’t get any worse, the princess herself walks in,

“Why are you guys taking forever, people are getting impatient”

No, no, why her, why would you walk in here right now out of all times.

Armin beams brightly towards the other blonde “hey Krista, we were just discussing what kind of company you guys work for” I curse Armin’s innocent smile

Krista, below her better judgment of what just happened comes up with the same conclusion we did. To lie.

“Oh we work for a clothing brand company, we distribute our products to stores and handle calls of complaints” the blonde smiles not knowing she just brought us further into a hole

We all groan not being able to handle this anymore and slightly because Krista came in at the worst timing but before a confused Krista can ask what’s going on I quickly use my mouth to desperately try and save us the damage we caused.

“Our company deals with a lot of subjects it just depends on what department you work at”

Jean quick to come back me up “yea our company has 5 main subjects it focuses on and when you work at different parts of the building things get mixed around” he lies as if all of us don’t sit literally 5 feet away from each other.

And thank god the timer went off, Sasha quickly opens the microwave, plops the bag in an empty bowl and runs to the living room, escaping the situation in the kitchen. Jean quick to escape, runs after said girl screaming at her to wait up, leaving me, Krista and a contemplating armin in the kitchen.

“Well.. I’m gonna gooo, watch the movie” Krista speaks slowly, also making her escape, leaving me and armin in the kitchen, Godamn it guy’s you were to supposed to take me with you! I groan in my head.

“I’m also gonna head ba-“ I turn to leave but Armin speaks up

“You guys are acting so weird, have been acting weird for a long while actually, and I know you guys arnt being truthful, I’m not an idiot eren” armin plays with the big bowl of popcorn in his hands, moving it in a circular motion

His face looks hurt, like all of his friends are keeping a secrete and he’s the only one not allowed to know, it makes me feel guilty cause that’s exactly what’s happening.

But what else can I do? If Armin knew what i actually did how would he see me. I walk over to the sulking blonde, and rest my head on his shoulder “I’m sorry” I whisper not knowing what else to say “there’s just a lot about the company I can’t talk about and there’s a lot of stuff I do that’s…confidential”  it’s truthful yet vague enough to save my own skin.

I understand, or at least I’ll try to, i know I shouldn’t pry, it’s none of my business”

“Thank you” I say it genuinely cause if he dug any further I don’t know what I would do.

“Can I ask one question, just one?”

I contemplated it, I owe him something for leaving him in the dark, so I finally lift my head to look into his eyes.

“Does your job correlate with why you… disappear randomly?”

Yes.

“No”

The lie comes out too fast, too urgently. The question was too much, I would never had guessed someone would think my job connected to my little disappearances throughout the month. I would only be gone for a couple days at most, so how…how did Armin even think to connected the two.

I felt my breath hitch a bit, my pointer finger tapping relentlessly on the counter.

Armin only glanced at my hand once before looking into my eyes

“I just like to keep everyone on their toes” i try to do a small laugh while nudging him in the arm. Ready to end this conversation I grab his wrist and pull him towards the living room

“Now come, we’re missing the movie”

But Armin wasn’t having any of it, he knew i was being secretive about what we actually did and I could tell he was slowly piecing together the evidence he was slowly gathering in the weeks that followed after our little movie night. And I was stupid to believe Armin out of all people wouldn’t figure it out.

My stupidity and Armin’s Brian’s proved to be biting me in the ass because currently Armin was in my apartment and was standing across the island counter from me, a business card sits in-between us, a card that looks exactly like the business card Mina showed me all those years ago.

“Soooo” the blonde looked at me expectantly “wanna tell me why you travel with a bunch of Bliss co. Business cards in your wallet?”

There was a long pause

“Not..particularly?” I shrunk into myself, trying to make myself as small as possible, avoiding Armin’s eyes at all costs.

The one thing about Armin is that he could be overwhelmingly sweet and kind but he was also a quick thinker, and a good talker that could make you confess anything, which is why i was avoiding eye contact like my life depended on it.

“Eren” he said sternly” why arnt you looking at me” he accused “because…” I searched my brain trying to find a good excuse, I couldn’t, obviously “because I don’t want to” I simply stated obviously looking past the blond and not at him.

Wow, look at that wall, the way the paint just.. paints, fascinating.

I wonder what shade of green i bought last  when I painted them.

“Okay then” he paused “wanna tell me about the hickies then?” Pointing with his head towards the purple like marks that no doubt littered my skin.

I take my eyes off the wall, now choosing the high built ceiling as my new hyper fixation

“No” slightly shaking my head

“Then what about the call?”

Oh yes, the call.

The call that started this whole mess and why armin came busting into my apartment as soon as he realized I was finally home, the call that made me want to crawl out of my skin and dematerialize this very moment. The call that was taken while I was with one my clients.

“Nope, I think I’m good”

I finally meet eyes with him, his face and body language clearly saying ‘I’m not falling for this bullshit’

I didn’t even know why I was still playing innocent the evidence was laid out right before the blonde, it would take a stupid person not to know what’s going on, and armin was far from stupid.

Between the card sitting in-between them that clearly shows I have some sort of relationship with Bliss co. , the marks that covered my body plus the awkward, disturbing phone call Armin had received over the weekend. I’d say I was fucked.

A few days earlier.

I was half way through the month 2 clients down 2 more to go, however between my schedule my dear friend Armin wanted to get together with mikasa to hang out. However Armin found that task very difficult to do considering for past 5 days I wasn’t home.

And let’s just say Armin had become real suspicious of where I was, cause for the first time ever he called me in the middle of my disappearance.

The thing is it wasn’t just one call, it was multiple, after the second day with my client I had about 34 missed calls with a couple of voice mails. I locked myself in the bathroom enjoying the small break my client gave me, I finally had time to listen to the voice mails that Arming had sent me, I clicked on the first one putting the phone up to my ear “Eren do you wanna hang out with me and mika soon”, I could hear him shuffling in his kitchen “I was thinking maybe a game night maybe some take out?” He said with his cute little lilt in his voice “anywho get back to me when you can!”

I smiled listening to his voice.

I clicked on the next one, Armin’s voice filled with a slight worry “hey Eren I nocked on your door last night and this morning and you weren’t there, where are you? Mikasa and I are getting worried…again” my heart clenched at those words, i never thought hard about how my friends felt when i was out working, it was probably worse for Armin and mikasa cause they were the closest people i had.

I continued down the voice mails each one getting slightly more intense until I reached the last one “look eren i never bothered you about the whole disappearing thing because it’s not really any of my business but will you atleast let me and mikasa know when you plan to leave, you know how mikasa is, she gets really worried about you, and -and“ he took a breath “if I’m being completely honest I’m tired of trying to figure you out, you disappear for days every couple weeks and it’s like you have this mysterious secret you try to hide from us” the boy gasped through the phone out of breath from ranting, I could tell he wasn’t angry, slightly irritated yes but the worry never left Armin’s voice.

“I’m sorry just please think about it, you can tell us, whatever it is your hiding from me and Mika we won’t judge…unless it’s something really bad, but mark my words Eren I will find out what your hiding!”

The voicemail ended, a breathy giggle left my lips when Armin’s passionate yet playful voice filled my ears but there was a twist in my gut hearing the words “unless it’s something bad” and to that, yes it was bad.

Suddenly there was a nock on the bathroom door, I had been sitting on the floor, back to the door, the sound startled me making me yelp. A rough deep chuckle coming from the other side of the door “I didn’t mean to startle you, darling”  I quickly sent a text to armin telling him sorry and that he would talk to him later hoping that Armin would stop worrying. I quickly got up and opened the door being met with a handsome blonde.

My client, Erwin Smith was a patient man, a man of control, but when his rut hit he became a little more irrational. I could tell that throughout our time together he became more irritated about the phone calls, never saying anything but when the buzzing would start there was this twitch that would happen in Erwin’s face before he went a little rougher.

I stood before him wearing one of his white buttoned ups that was a little too big on me, I was lean, toned more in some places, and tall, standing a foot below Erwin himself but still managed to drown in the white cloth.

The man that stood infront of me, in all his naked glory leaned forward slightly until he was resting on the doorway his eyes went up and down my figure liking the way I looked in his shirt.

he reached down touching the bottom of the shirt tugging it lightly, a small smile on his face. His hand travels upwards towards my hip where he rubbed circles with his thumb.  He slid his hand up my side pulling me into his chest.

Erwin was sturdy, well built with muscles that made ungodly thoughts pop up into my head. His lips brushed my ear “are you ready, Darling?” He whispered, making my skin crawl just a little. I could tell he was already hard, his member brushing against my thigh “hard already?” I teased him, looking up into his deep blue eyes, his pupils blown wide. He didn’t say much, he was a man of action, and action is what he took.

He leaned off the doorway both hands coming to my waist, quickly lifting me up so that my long legs could wrap around his waist my hands quickly grabbing onto the well built shoulders, with my free hand I threaded it in between the fine blonde strand of hair tugging slightly, making it clear I wanted him to look at me, our eyes  met for a mere second before my lips were on his. The kiss breathy and precise.

he carried me in his arms, arms that promised never to drop me. I could feel the tip of his cock grinding against my ass as he  groaning into the kiss as he moved his hips to meet mine trying to find friction. He slammed me into a wall next to a door, taking one arm from around me he quickly fumbled with the door handle until it opened, he never breaking the kiss while doing so.

He hurried me inside of what appeared to be his personal office until he plopped me on his desk, pulling away I could function a little normally now.

There was a window behind the desk, a golden light filtered through the blinds making the man in-front me seem like he was almost god like. I let my hands fall behind me to support my weight dropping my phone on the desk somewhere, not caring where it went. Erwin didn’t waste time his lips connected to my neck, his finger going to good use unbuttoning my shirt. He was half done when we both heard the buzz, my phone. Shit.

I could see it, the twitch in Erwin’s face as his eyes glanced at the phone, I quickly kissed him trying to make him get back on track “just ignore it” I gasped after every other kiss and it worked, my phone stopped buzzing and I was practically shuttering due to how erotic the open mouth kiss was, he pulled away, a slow whine coming from my lips. Both his hands rested on both sides of me, leaning into the desk trapping me. His hand ever so gently moved the soft fabric that covered me so that one side slipped off my shoulder, exposing half my upper body.

those blue eyes  quickly going to the pink and slightly hardened bud on my chest with his hand already raised in the air he let his fingers slowly make there way down until his fingertips brushed over the sensitive area.

“You know you might make me jealous from all these phone calls trying to get your attention”his tone dark yet playful.

His fingers had me shivering in anticipation and I couldn’t stop the quiet whimper that left my mouth when he did brushed the bud, after a few days of having them constantly played with it was hard not to have a reaction. He quirked is eyes to my expression quickly, always attentive to how I reacted whenever he touched me. Erwin enjoyed this game, the game of who would break first, him or me.

I was painfully hard waiting patiently as I could to be touched but it seems Erwin was in a playful mood right now and who was I to not play along.

So I took my hands off the desk and I pushed gently at the hard chest  letting him land in his desk chair, i leaned back on my elbows, spreading my legs slightly to give the blonde a show. Erwin took the bait, his eyebrows shot up in surprise but quickly covered it up as confidence took the place of shock, he sat up hands folded together resting over his stomach , he leaned back observing my next move.

“Why would you be jealous of other people trying to get my attention, when you have all of me right here”

I slowly lowered my fingers to my entrance slipping in a finger, it going in smoothly, lube and other liquids being fucked into me constantly these last few days. I was trying to gauge the blondes  reaction, finding the man being hypnotized by every movement my finger made.

“If only you knew what you do to my alpha side” the words fell almost too silent I almost didn’t hear them but I could and he was right, I didn’t know, I was a beta and I honestly didn’t understand the whole instincts thing, the pheromones, their secondary gender speaking to them or some shit, I found it hard to comprehend.

But I decided to play along “I make your alpha  side feel things?” The words felt like sand paper but I said them anyway, making my tone innocent but my smirk very knowingly i was going to win this game.

I thrusted fast into myself wasting no time, I was fucked open, there was no resistance or anything.

“You have no idea” blue eyes roamed every spot of my body taking in every twitch, stutter and moan.

I felt the build up in my lower stomach but I made sure sure to not to thrust my fingers into my prostate, not yet, I’d cum too soon if I did, far too sensitive from all the attention it was receiving this week. The more my finger moved the more undone I became ,soft moans leaving my parted lips, Erwin consuming everything I did like his life depended on it.

I put a second finger in, ready to put on the show of a lifetime. I slowed down my fingers, coming to a stop, swirled my fingers around till I was poking that bundle of nerves “oh..” I yelped quietly in surprise when i decided to finally give my prostate the attention it  craved , my fingers massaged the spot slowly but  throughly, my hips rolling sensually onto my fingers. “Oohh..” my voice coming out a little louder this time.

At first glance Erwin didn’t seem to be affected, his breath calm, is face stoic, but he did move his hand to where they settled on each one of the armrests he of his chair, his fingers gripping painfully to the point his knuckles were white. He was holding on by a thread and I knew it.

My legs shook violently, my cock leaked profusely, my moans being rang in his ears like a melody, the sight was probably making the man go mad. Good.

It’s true that I didn’t comprehend the whole alpha instinct or how saying or even doing certain things made them go crazy, but it didn’t stop me from taking complete advantage of it, like it was weapon to use at my disposal.

“If I make you feel things, Then why don’t you come over here and show me exactly how I make you feel” I tilted my head, his blue eyes meeting my green ones, I felt the smirk on my lips as I said the next word as slowly and enticing as possible.

 

“Alpha”

He was up in seconds, trapping me against the desk, hands on my waist, his lips on my neck making there way up to my ear

“Careful darling” he growled “You shouldn’t say things like that if your not willing to take responsibility for it” there was a dangerous tone to his voice, trying to send me a warning we both knew I would I ignore.

“I don’t know what you meant? My words are completely innocent ” I said with a smile as I played dumb, I peered up at him. My fingers exiting me drawing a small whimper out of me from the emptiness, I brought my hand towards his member, stroking slowly over the huge, leaking cock.

He groaned long and breathy.

I looked down at my hand that was lazily stroking, noticing how every-time I tightened the pressure his cock would twitch in my hand.

No warning ever got through to me, so I did what I did best and continued to be blind and dumb to my own actions.

“Oh wow alpha you’ve become so big for me” I said jokingly but before I knew it I was lifted off the desk and spun around till I was bent over the desk.

Erwin’s hands moved gliding down my sides till they were on my ass spreading the muscles out of his way, I felt his leaking tip hit my entrance, I couldn’t stop the small grind backwards to feel more, the tip going in with ease.

“Never taking a warning per usual, Eren” he leaned forward, his chest pressing against my back

“Now, your gonna get punished”

“Promise?” I whimpered in a desperate gasp looking back at him into those intimidating eyes.

He pushed forward, filling me up beautifully

“Oh yes” I heard a deep sigh behind me “you’ll get your punishment soon enough” Erwin didn’t waste time like I thought he would, no, he slowly pulled out and rammed himself back inside of my hole like he owned it.

Shocking me at the sudden pace I quickly tried to prepare myself but another thrust straight into my prostate had me screaming

“Oohh, Erwin, wait,wait..ahh, Too fast, too~ Ahhh~” I tried to get out but the words along with my moans were forced outside of me like they were never mine to giveaway.

I heard the deep grunts behind me, not letting up the fast pace that was ruining my insides, holding myself up on my legs was proving to be a bit of a struggle, they shook uncontrollably about to give out.

The man above me had been inside me for 40 seconds and I was already wrecked, my prostate being overstimulated, my skin sensitive to the touch, my body for claim, and I loved it, craved the feeling.

My own cock hung bobbing with every thrust, it was aching, it hadn’t even been touched once this round and was in search of release

Infact it was chasing the feeling of a release so much that when my muscles began to tense up I tried to let myself go as fast as possible, desperate for the sensation that came with it

“I’m.. I’m gonna Ahh~ cum soon”

Suddenly a buzz vibrated around on the desk. No Armin not now, not now i repeated, The fast thrusts coming to an abrupt stop which had me whimpering like a whore from the lack of motion, chasing after an orgasm that was right infront of me, but rudely taken away by a stupid phone call.

I was too busy trying to grind my hips against the giant cock that was inside of me that I didn’t notice the blonde reaching for my phone

“Patients, love.. besides your friend has been trying to contact us forever, I think it’s about time we get back to him” I couldn’t see but I could sense Erwin’s mischievous smirk.

No, he wouldn’t, would he? I quickly tried to look over my shoulder reaching to grab my phone out of his hands but a strong hand held me down against the desk. I struggled, using what was left of my strength to free myself from the hold but i couldn’t break free.

“I think It’s cute how you struggle” the man above me simply said “I said id punish you, didnt I?” He moved his hand to below me, I questioned this action before I felt the vibration coming through my phone on my member it giving me more pleasure then I thought it would.

“What are you?- Ahh~ wait, that’s not nng~” I didn’t know how to feel, the vibrations, it sending a shiver over my entire body, not knowing if i should chase after the pleasure or not.

It wasn’t long before the vibrations left, leaving me stunned

“Let’s see what your friend wants, huh darling? He seems pretty worried considering he won’t leave you the fuck alone” his voice possessive and irritated

He set the phone beside my head I went to grab it, to end the call, to end what was about to happen, but Erwin quickly grabbed my wrists, holding them in one hand above my head

He hit the speaker button “no, no wait, please” I squeaked desperately looking up at him, like my words were gonna get through to the other man. My gut twisted, anxiety took over my body.

This is not what I thought he meant when he brought up a punishment.

Erwin’s finger finally clicked the accept butting before his hand rested on my lower back holding me down.

It was silent but only for a second “Eren? Eren! Oh my god thank god you picked up”

Erwin leaned down, whispering in my ear “ go on eren, speak” like it was an order.

I didn’t want to, wasn’t going to.

I felt Erwin kiss me moving the motion down my back, he purposely made them loud, to be heard over the phone. He was going to make me speak, whether I wanted to or not.

Bastard.

“Hey, Armin!” I said loud enough so Erwin wasn’t able to be heard “I’m sorry I haven’t been answering and I know you and mikasa are worried but I really need to get back to work” my mind on auto pilot, I was trying to end this conversation as fast as possible, this truly was the most humiliating thing I’ve ever done, and I hated that it made me even more turned on.

But I quickly realized I fucked up, Armin was already curious about my job as it is and I just gave him the perfect opportunity to find out.

“Wait work? I thought you said you disappearing had nothing to do with your job”

Before I could speak I heard a whisper from behind me “oh? so he doesn’t know?”he said in between the kisses he was littering my back with

I cleared my throat fast to cover up his voice

I focused back on Armin’s voice “yea yea I know I said that but look Armins it’s kind of hard to explain” I breathed a laugh, 1 trying to make it sound like I wasn’t in the middle of getting fucked against a desk, 2, to cover that terrible excuse I just made

  “but anywho Armin I really need to get back to work, can we talk when I get back?” I pleaded trying to make my desperation unknown in my voice

“What?! No I want to know now, you’ve been disappearing over and over again-“ his voice quickly became the last thing I thought about as Erwin started grinding behind me, very slowly, agonizingly slow, his tip messaging the sweet bundle of nerves inside of me.

I bit down on my forearm trying to hold back my moan. Armins voice was somewhere in the background, probably going on about how I shouldn’t have lied, how I should have just told him the truth. But the truth would have been too much even though I knew it was far too late to keep my secrete now. This call would expose me.

Erwin’s thrusts become more bold, pulling all the way out before plunging back in.

 

“I just don’t understand why you would feel the need to lie to me eren, you can trust me with anything!?” Armins voice rang but I payed it no mind, only focusing on how to keep quiet.

 

The thrusts got faster.

 

“Eren?!, answer me!”

Erwin’s thrusts were now relentless, and I couldn’t hold it in any more. There was a deep mark wedged into my skin due from biting it so hard but I couldn’t hold it in any longer, I couldn’t stop the loud, sultry yet crackly moan that left my body nor the ones that shamelessly followed it.

”Aaau~, fuck!” I let my head fall “ooh shit, fuck yes, Ohh~”

I moaned so loud I could barely hear the beeps  from the phone signaling the call had ended.

I was chasing my release, the consequences of the phone call was a problem for future me, current me just cared about getting pounded.

Erwin grunted above me and with a few more thrusts I was gone, I had cum all over the desk, and if it weren’t for Erwin holding me up I would have collapsed onto the floor too

We both stood there feeling the high before what happened literally just a minute ago crashed into me like a pile of bricks.

Oh my god. Armin heard everything, he had heard me get pounded against a desk, how will I ever show my face again, it’s not like I can ignore him forever I mean the guy lives next door!

Erwin finally lets go of my wrists and as quickly as possible  I turn to slap his arm as hard as I could yet still in playful manner (I couldn’t assault clients even if I wanted to)   “you Ass!”

“You loved it” he said, with a knowing smile

I did but nobody needed to know that. “You are so lucky I’m still high from getting off or I would beat you” I keep the playfulness there but still letting the tall blonde know I was serious.

I needed to keep it playful cause if I didn’t my anxiety would boil over from just thinking about the conversation I was gonna need to have with armin.

Notes:

The plot is slow right now but it will speed up in the next few chapters I promise

Chapter 4: Let’s talk

Summary:

The rest of Armin and Eren’s conversation

A few moments before the present

I had been in my apartment for less than an hour before armin came knocking on my door.

I looked through my peep hole finding him

patiently waiting for me to answer

 

“I know you’re in there eren” moving his eyes to the peep hole staring straight into my soul, how does he always know?

 

It’s fine there’s still a way to get out of this, I can just say it was a hookup, yea that’ll work, a hookup that realistically lasted a total of 5 days. Totally believable

 

I take a deep breath, and I finally open the door “you’re here to interrogate me arn’t you?”

 

“I am” he said matter of factly before pushing me aside and walking into my apartment.

 

Already knowing where to go, he sits comfortably at the kitchen island counter, I follow him idly so that I’m standing on the other side of the counter

 

“Soo do you want any water or tea? Before we start” already off to an awkward start way to go eren.

 

“Yes I think tea would be great” there was no expression on Armins face which scarred me a lot more then I would let on.

 

I turned around and turn on the electric kettle, water already there ready to boil, I open my cabinets and pull out two cups.

 

I swear I was turned around for a minute at most before facing Armin again.

 

in-front of armin sat my open wallet, my wallet which contained my ID, my debit card, and of course, Bliss co.  Business cards

 

The blonde held up the card looking expectantly at me. Before placing it in the middle of the counter between us.

 

I curse myself for leaving my stuff out on the counter

Shit. Well there goes my plan.

 

All of this leads to now. Armins questions still in the air, and me still playing dumb.

 

It wasn’t a secrete what Bliss.co did, especially the services I provided, the service was just extremely expensive, it was seen as a luxury that only few could afford.

 

“Eren, are you?”   He doesn’t need to finish the question, I already know he’s connected the dots in his head, he’s just asking clarifying questions.

 

I place my hands on the counter, leaning into it “yea..” I breathed out, it’s better to admit it than keep going back and forth.

 

Blue eyes stare into me but I don’t have the courage to look back at him, instead I take focus on the counter in-front of me.

 

“Then that call? The person you were with, was he?”

 

“A client? Yes”

 

“Then..Jean, Sasha, Krista! Are they.. as-well?” The blonde chokes over his words as he leans over the counter, making me look at him, no judgement can be seen in his eyes, just concern. The look honestly makes me feel a bit better

 

“No,noo,no !” I shake my hands frantically  “it’s just me, I’m the only one who uhm does the whole..sex thing” I finally get it out

 

A sigh of relief leaves Armin, sitting back in his chair clutching he’s chest

 

“ you had me scarred, I can handle one whore I don’t think I can handle 4” he laughs a little before becoming serious “I’m sorry you felt like you couldn’t tell me, I understand why you didn’t” he looks down at his hands as they fiddled

 

“Do you… look at me any differently?” I ask hesitantly

 

“What?! No of course not eren, I’m supposed to be your best friend there is literally nothing you could do to that would make me think any less of you” he says earnestly “ now don’t get me wrong I’m taken back, this is by far the last thing I expected but you know I’m processing it, and I believe you can do whatever you want with your life so if this is what you want then I can’t stop you”

 

Every tense bone in my body melts, and here I was getting anxious when armin is the most understandable person I know. I smile at the blonde “ thank you, I really needed to hear that”

 

The blonde gets up and walks around the counter pulling me into a hug that I practically fall into

 

Armins long hair tickles my face, he smells of tea leaves and lavender, a comforting feeling after facing one of my fears.

 

I pull back, my hands still on his shoulders, looking into Armins eyes

 

“Now that we’ve talked that out” I give Armin a serious look “Please tell me you’ve learned your lesson not to call me when I’m working”

 

He snorts “oh trust me eren, I’m never calling you ever again”

He points a finger at me “and you have to buy me takeout cause I deserve some compensation for having to listen to that”

 

I go to grab my phone “fine, fine, I guess that’s fair even though we both know I sounded great” I raise my eyebrows suggestively at him 

 

Armin groans in his hands “stop talking. I don’t want to remember a millisecond of that stupid call!”

Notes:

A short chapter, next chapter eren and Levi will finally meet