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Usually, you don't mind the cold. But there was something about the Snow Moon —a biting winter night so harsh, it seeped into your bones, stirring something uneasy.
You were a handmaid at the Snow moon Temple. Not sanctified enough to be a priest, not detached enough to be left in the dark. And definitely not ruthless enough to walk the assassin’s path. You existed in that in-between space, quietly useful.
Tonight, the temple was silent. Blessedly so. You wandered its vast, icy halls, letting the rare hush settle in your chest like a balm. When was the last Snow Moon ? More importantly, when was the last time you’d heard nothing in this place?
You relished it. Mostly, you relished that Kayn wasn’t around.
Not that Kayn was bad . Just... loud. Cocky. Arrogant. He was one of the newer initiates, but he was specifically chosen by the Snow Moon Order—so of course, he thought the world revolved around him.
He didn’t treat you poorly, not really. A bit blunt, maybe. Short with his words, often distracted. But you knew how hard he trained. You’d watched him—only to learn his schedule, of course.
So you could avoid him.
Obviously .
It wasn’t like you enjoyed watching him. Not the way his sweat glistened off of his skin. Not the way his muscles flexed with every graceful, brutal arc of that cursed scythe.
No.
Absolutely not.
Besides, he was clearly unhinged. Always muttering to himself about some bloodthirsty demon— Rhaast , he called it. Said it was fighting for control. God, poor guy.
Were you actually pitying him now? Good God.
You turned down a long corridor, eager for distraction. Snow had drifted in again through the high arches, covering the stone floor in slick patches of ice. If someone slipped, you knew who’d get blamed.
You grabbed a broom and scanned the hall. Fresh footprints trailed across the snow, leading deeper inside.
Someone was back.
You followed the footprints until they stopped at—of course— Kayn’s door . You sighed.
No sign of him nearby. Maybe he’d just dropped something off and left. You brushed snow away from the threshold, then opened the door and stepped inside to finish cleaning.
You could only imagine what Kayn would say if he came back to find every inch of the temple cleared of snow— except the doorway of his room.
His room was cleaner than you'd expected. Minimalist . A large, kempt bed, taut with crisp, grey linens. Weapon racks stood flush to the wall, holding polished blades with ritualistic precision. No personal items, no clutter. It looked less like someone lived here, and more like someone trained here. There was no comfort.
You avoid letting your gaze settle, focusing instead on sweeping the snow from the doorway and back out into the hall. Stepping further inside, you draw the blind over the archway near his bed, blocking most of the snowfall from drifting in—
and that’s when you see it.
Out of the corner of your eye, half-tucked beneath his pillow: a book.
A diary .
How… interesting .
You know you shouldn’t pick it up. You shouldn’t even be in here, let alone noticing something he’s gone out of his way to hide. You definitely shouldn’t be reaching for it, letting your fingers run along the worn spine as you ease it open.
But you do.
Because there’s something about this secret little book—something intimate and unguarded , and entirely unlike the Kayn you know—that keeps your hand moving before your mind catches up.
You crack it open.
The handwriting is sharp, almost aggressive. The first page isn’t dated. Just a line, scrawled across the top:
“ Don’t even think about it ”
Your interest is too high now to not think about it. You flip to the next page.
A short entry:
Rhaast won’t quit. Same useless threats, same hunger. He doesn’t understand—I’m not his vessel. I’m the one steering this. I always have been.
They all think they’re guiding me. They’re wrong. I’ve already outgrown them. They teach restraint like it's some kind of virtue. But the shadows weren’t meant to be tamed—they’re meant to be wielded. By someone strong enough to bear the weight. Me.
The ink grows darker in places, as if pressure alone could force meaning through the page.
She lingers. Always at the edge of things, like she’s trying not to be seen. She’s not stupid, I’ll give her that—she knows how to stay out of the way. Still, I can feel her eyes sometimes. Curious. Maybe cautious. I don’t blame her.
She’s seen what happens when someone weak tries to wield real power. They break. She hasn't figured out yet that I'm not like the rest of them.
You turn the page.
She swept the hall again today. I could hear her steps even through the wind. Light, but not timid. That’s rare around here. Most of the handmaids cower.
Rhaast wants me to test her. Says she’s soft, says I should spill her blood just to see the color. I told him no…Not yet.
A pause in the ink. Then, almost as an afterthought:
There’s something interesting about the way she watches. Like she’s trying to understand me. No one else bothers. They’re either afraid or arrogant. She might be both. Or neither.
Maybe that’s why I haven’t broken her yet.
You flip further, past dozens of increasingly fragmented pages. His thoughts spiral—no longer composed declarations, but layered voices bleeding into one another.
Some passages are barely readable, overwritten again and again as if trying to drown one voice out with another.
Rhaast says she’d beg if I gave her a reason. He doesn’t understand—there’s no victory in breaking something that never fought back. That’s not power. That’s cruelty.
You’re soft.
She listens.
Weakness.
Not yours to covet.
Mine to decide.
The words crowd each other, no spacing, as if written in fever.
One page is torn halfway through—scrawled in a language you don’t recognize. Symbols? Blood? You’re not sure. You almost close it there. But then, near the spine, you feel something strange. A page… thinner than the others. Pressed flat. Hidden .
You slide your fingers into the gap and reveal it.
The ink is red. No title. Just lines etched with obsessive precision:
She talks back. Smirks when she should kneel. Pushes when I want her to yield.
She’s not like the masters. Not like the acolytes. Not like the other handmaids who learn their place and stay in it.
She resists, and it should infuriate me.
It does.
But it also drags something else out of me—something restless and hungry.
I think I like the way she looks at me.
I think I hate that I want her to look at me differently.
I wonder what she’d do if I told her I wanted to taste her—just once—slow and deep enough to see if her defiance would break on my tongue.
I wonder what she would say if she knew Rhaast aches for her blood—thirsting to tear her apart, to claim every string of her flesh—and the only thing holding him back is me… because I’m desperate to keep her whole, if only for a little longer.
A final line, written so faintly it looks like breath:
I don’t want obedience from her, I want to unmake her—slowly, perfectly—until she’s nothing but devotion carved by my hands, and begging to never be whole again.
Before you can process the words, a voice breaks the silence behind you.
Low. Calm. Deadly close.
"Enjoying yourself?"
The shadows stretch across the floor. His voice is unmistakable.
Kayn .
He steps into view slowly, not bothering to hide his presence. The door hadn't made a sound… Did he come through the wall? How long had he been watching?
His eyes flick to the open diary in your hands. Then to you. He smiles but there’s no humor in it, only the certainty of his own power.
You freeze, the diary trembling slightly in your hands, the weight of his presence pressing down on you like a physical force. The shadows cling to him, swirling and shifting as if part of his very being. Kayn steps closer, his movement slow and deliberate—no rush, no need.
His gaze flicks from the open pages to your face, sharp and calculating, like a blade tracing the delicate curve of a throat. You can’t look away; his eyes bore into you with an intensity that makes your pulse quicken and your breath catch.
“You’re either very brave ,” he murmurs, his voice low and smooth, “or very, very stupid. Either way, entertaining.”
Your throat tightens. You try to speak, but the words stick, fragile as frost on glass. He moves past you—closing the door with a soft click. The sudden finality sends a shiver down your spine. And then he’s closer—too close—his presence overwhelming and magnetic all wrapped in one.
“You weren’t supposed to see that page,” he says, tilting his head with an almost predatory curiosity. Behind his eyes, you glimpse something wild, raw, barely held in check.
“But since you did…”
His hand reaches past you, fingers cool as they close around the diary, pulling it from your grasp. Your skin tingles where his hand brushes yours, the chill almost burning. He doesn’t open the book again. He holds it like a secret reclaimed—something only he should possess.
“Tell me… did it scare you, little shadow ? Or were you flattered to be included in my world?” His voice holds a teasing edge, like he’s amused by your reactions.
You meet his gaze, swallowing the knot of fear and feeling a spark of something reckless flicker inside. “Maybe a little of both,” you admit, voice steady despite the heat pooling in your stomach.
He steps in closer, his other hand lifting slowly, deliberately, until it grips your jaw—rough and possessive. It sends an unexpected thrill straight through you.
“I’m not like the others,” he says quietly, a statement of fact, not pride—more like a king stating his dominion. “You knew that. That’s why you came in here. In my room.”
His eyes flick to your lips, then back to meet your gaze, burning with an intimate danger.
“Do you want to know what Rhaast said when he saw you in here?” His lips curl into a smirk—half promise, half warning.
“He didn’t say to kill you… not right away,” Kayn murmurs, voice low and deliberate. “Rhaast likes to tear things like you apart slowly, watch the fear grow. Says it makes the end sweeter.” His fingers trail casually over the edge of the diary, teasing and deliberate, as if savoring the moment.
“I’m not like him. Rhaast wants chaos . I want control .”
That slow, knowing smile spreads across his lips, dangerous and seductive all at once. “You should be punished for sneaking around where you don’t belong.” His voice drops to a sultry whisper as he leans in, breath hot against your skin. “But I’m feeling generous tonight.” The grip on your jaw tightens, his eyes blazing with a ruthless intensity that leaves no room for doubt.
“So I’ll give you a choice—leave now, and maybe I’ll forget this little indiscretion .” He straightens, the tension between you pulsing like a live wire.
“Or stay… and face whatever consequences come next.”
You don’t move. Your breath catches, but you don’t pull away. Every second stretches taut with unspoken promise and danger. His grip on your jaw is firm but not cruel—more a claim than a threat.
Your eyes search his, looking for a hint, a crack in the armor, something to hold on to. Instead, you find only that relentless fire, the raw edge of control that never wavers.
For a moment, silence hangs.
Then, almost inaudible, you whisper, “And if I stay… what happens next?”
His smile deepens, a slow, dark curl of satisfaction. “What happens next is for me to know. And trust me—it won’t be gentle.”
A flicker of defiance sparks inside you. Maybe it’s curiosity. Maybe it’s something darker, a need to understand the fire you feel simmering beneath his control. Whatever it is, it roots you to the spot. You don’t move to leave. Instead, you meet his gaze steadily and breathe out.
“I’m staying.”
The words feel like a challenge, and for the first time, you catch a flash of something real behind that dangerous smile—approval, perhaps? Or amusement.
“ Well ,” he says, voice curling like smoke around you, “if you’re so eager to stay…” He tilts his head, eyes gleaming with a twisted kind of amusement. “Let’s make it fun.”
You tense. The tone in his voice shifts—deeper now, tinged with something darker. Not quite all him. Not quite alone . “Rhaast is restless,” Kayn continues, and he taps a single finger against the cover of the diary, still clutched in his hand. “ He thinks I should teach you a lesson. I think I should be entertained.”
You don’t like the way he says that word— entertained .
“So here’s the game, little shadow ,” he murmurs, stepping in close, close enough that your breath hitches. “You run. Into the woods, wherever you want. I’ll give you until midnight.” He smirks, as if the idea is laughable. “If I don’t catch you by then—no harm, no foul. You walk away untouched. I let you go.”
Your heart pounds. “And if you do?” you ask, voice quieter than you mean it to be.
His eyes glint. “You’re mine .”
The words hang heavy in the air. There’s something predatory behind it, something hungry. But it’s not just him. Rhaast is there, too—you can feel it. Something just behind his pupils, watching. Salivating .
You almost say no, and commit to just dealing with whatever happens in the confines of this room. But that look in his eyes—it’s not just mischief. It’s not even just power.
It’s hunger . Shared hunger. And that’s what makes your decision for you.
You bolt .
Your feet slam against the stone floor as you twist away, yanking the door open and sprinting down the corridor. You hear the low, echoing sound of laughter, and then the silence that follows is somehow worse.
The moment you breach the temple's entrance, the cold wind of the mountain slaps your skin, and you don’t stop. You dash headlong into the forest at the base of the slope, branches clawing at your arms, the dense undergrowth slowing your steps as the dark swallows you whole.
Somewhere behind you, the hunt has begun.
You don’t know how long you run before your mind starts working again—beyond just the need to flee.
Kayn.
Everything you know about him flashes through your mind like sharp glass. He was trained by the Order—the kind of training where people vanish without sound, without trace. He hunts like a shadow incarnate. Unseen. Patient. Deadly .
You slow down, forcing yourself to think. What does he track?
Footsteps .
Broken foliage .
Body heat .
Scent .
You double back over your trail, carefully stepping where snow’s already been disturbed. You break off pine needles, scattering them behind you to mask your scent, then roll down a shallow ridge, coating yourself in the cold earth. The frost bites at your skin, numbing your limbs—but it might be enough to hide your heat from him. From them .
This was either the smartest or the most reckless thing you’d ever done. What would he do? Nothing you couldn’t handle— probably .
But there was that flicker of hope, fragile and foolish, that maybe he wouldn’t get the chance to do anything at all.
You just had to make it until midnight.
A few more hours. That was all.
The woods are silent.
And then it hits you—an absence. Not of sound, but of something deeper. The quiet becomes too complete. The kind of quiet that only exists when something unnatural is watching. You’re not sure if it's just paranoia or if eyes really are on you.
You look around, slowly turning, your pulse thudding in your throat. The forest is thick, shrouded in snow and moonlight. Nothing moves.
But he could be anywhere. Invisible. Close . Stalking you like prey. It’s what he was trained for.
The weight of it makes your skin crawl. You press your back to a tree, trying to stay still, to think, to listen—but the silence eats at your sanity.
Then, all at once, an idea sears through the fog of fear: the temple .
Why would he look for you back where you started? If Kayn’s anything like he says— clever , arrogant —he wouldn’t expect you to return to the place you just fled. You might get a few precious minutes. A head start. Just enough .
You move again, fast but careful now, mind racing through every trick you can think of. You cross a stream to break your trail. You climb a slope, then double back and slide down the other side. Each move calculated, each decision wrapped in desperation.
Still, the silent forest feels alive behind you. Or maybe it's just the game playing tricks on your nerves. You don’t dare call out. You don’t dare stop. But as you finally glimpse the temple’s spires rising through the treetops again, silhouetted in the half-light…
A whisper curls against your ear.
“ Clever little shadow… ”
But when you spin around, there's no one there. Just trees. And snow. And the growing certainty that you’re not alone.
You curse under your breath, sharp and bitter. How the fuck did he manage to find you so quickly? You did everything right, you covered your tracks! Did you miss something? A footprint? A broken branch? Something so ridiculously insignificant that it betrayed your presence?
Your pulse spikes again, adrenaline sharpening your senses. The forest feels like a maze, each shadow a threat, every rustle a warning. You skim through every lesson you’ve ever heard about assassins—how they hunt, how they stalk, how they vanish into the air like smoke. And Kayn is no ordinary hunter.
But no matter how fast or far you run, the truth gnaws at you—he’s too close.
Your breath ragged, you race forward, heart hammering, limbs burning. The temple looms ahead, its familiar silhouette cutting through the dark like a beacon. It’s the obvious place to run. The predictable place.
That’s exactly why you have to go there.
The obvious choice is the last place he’d expect you to pick again. If he’s as cunning as you suspect, he’s counting on you to flee deeper into the wilds, to lead yourself into a trap.
You push yourself harder, muscles screaming, mind focused on that single, desperate hope. If you can reach the temple’s walls, maybe you can find shelter. Maybe you can turn the game around.
But every crunch of snow beneath your boots reminds you—he’s still out there. Watching. Waiting.
You steady yourself against the stone. The cold has sunk deep into your bones, your fingers stiff, face raw from the wind’s bite. There had to be an hour left—maybe even less than that. Time has blurred into panic and frost.
You slip into a half-collapsed alcove near the far end of the temple, tucking yourself into the shadows, as small and quiet as you can make yourself. Stone presses cold— so cold — against your back, the scent of old incense filling your nose. You wrap your arms around yourself to still the trembling, trying not to let your teeth chatter.
Your eyes strain in the dark, trying to pierce through the stillness. The temple should feel sacred, safe—but it doesn’t. The longer you stare at the far wall, the more the shadows begin to move. Not wildly . Not clearly . Just enough to make your stomach twist.
You blink hard. The darkness breathes. It watches you back. You press your hand over your mouth, forcing your breath quiet, your body still. Every instinct screams that something isn’t right. He’s here. Or close.
You press deeper into the stone, body trembling with the effort to remain still. You don’t breathe. You don’t blink. You barely exist.
And then he emerges.
The shadows on the far wall thicken, stretch—then peel away like a veil. Kayn steps out from the darkness itself, as if it had always been his to command. No sound accompanies him. No crunch of snow. No rush of air.
At first, he's just a silhouette—sleek and dangerous. His Darkin eye glimmers faintly, pulsing like a heartbeat. Noticeably, his scythe isn’t with him. A blessing and an insult all at once—not because he wouldn’t kill you, but because he didn’t think you were worth drawing it for. His gaze sweeps the hall slowly, methodically, sharp and patient as a blade being unsheathed.
He doesn’t see you . He takes a few more steps and pauses, tilting his head.
He’s listening .
You pray to stay unseen, unheard, unscented. You imagine yourself invisible, tucked in the fold of the ruin like a forgotten stone.
His brow furrows.
“Hmph,” he murmurs to himself, almost disappointed. He turns. Begins to retreat. The shadows gather at his heels again—thick, eager to reclaim him. He’s slipping back into the wall. You’re so close. So damn close.
But then—
Chk.
Your teeth chatter. A tiny, involuntary shiver runs through you, and that one sharp sound cuts through the silence like a scream. Then it happens again. And again. Your teeth won’t stop. A helpless stutter of sound—louder than it should be.
Kayn stops.
His head snaps toward you, eyes locking dead on.
And then he smiles.
"Ah," he says, stepping forward again, voice low and thrilled, "There you are."
He stalks forward, his steps are slow and confident that echo too loud in the frozen stillness. You scramble to press further into the stone, but it’s useless. He knows. He’s already seen you.
Kayn stops just a few feet away from your hiding spot. He doesn’t kneel. Doesn’t crouch. Just reaches down with one wrapped hand and curls his fingers around your ankle.
You jerk, kicking instinctively, but he only chuckles.
“ Cute ,” he murmurs—and then yanks.
You slide out from your alcove like prey dragged from a burrow, arms scrabbling at the ground for something to hold onto. There’s nothing. Just snow and stone. He towers over you now, eyes glittering with amusement.
“Did you really think you stood a chance?” he asks, cocking his head. His voice is lazy with satisfaction. “That all your clever little tricks would matter? That you’d make it to midnight and I’d just… let you go ?”
He lets go of your leg and you sit up fast, brushing frost and dirt from your dress, trying to salvage what’s left of your dignity. “Well, I mean,” you huff, lifting your chin. “You’ve gotta admit—I put up a good chase.”
He stares down at you, unimpressed
“No,” he says, tone turning cool, almost bored. “You don’t get credit for losing.”
“Rude.”
Then he crouches—not to help you up, but to get closer. Close enough to make you flinch. His finger extends, slow and deliberate, tracing the air just above your cheek, your jaw, like he’s measuring something. Like he’s imagining what he’ll do next.
“You ran like prey. You hid like prey.” His fingertip brushes the corner of your mouth. “But you’re still pretending you’re not.”
Your jaw clenches. You hate how calm he sounds. How in control. You hate the smug curl of his mouth. You hate how hes winning .
His hand lingers just a moment too long, and you snap.
Your teeth sink into the side of his finger, sharp and hard. Hard enough to break the skin under his wraps. To make him bleed. The taste is copper on your tongue. Hot. Wrong. Satisfying .
He jerks back, more out of reflex than pain, and for a beat—just one heartbeat—there’s silence. Then that grin returns, slow and curling at the edges. But there’s something else behind it now. A flicker of fire behind the smug veneer. A crack in the smooth confidence.
"You little shit ," he breathes, eyes narrowing—not with pain, but with a kind of dark thrill. “You actually bit me.”
Blood beads at the edge of his wrapping. He lifts his hand and turns it, watching the red rise against the navy blue. Then he looks at you again. Still grinning, but colder now. That edge of anger bleeding into the amusement.
“You really don’t know when to quit, do you?”
His voice drops, quieter, more dangerous. He leans in close—close enough that your breath catches again, but for a different reason this time.
“You’re lucky I like a little fight. Keep going,” he murmurs. “See what happens.”
You don’t look away. Even with him this close, you meet his eyes and tilt your chin up, defiant.
“Maybe I just like pissing you off,” you whisper.
The grin twitches. His fingers twitch. Then he moves.
It’s fast—too fast. One second, he’s a breath in front of you; the next, his hand closes around your throat and pins you against the cold stone floor. Not hard enough to choke, but enough to remind you who’s stronger. Who’s winning .
Your breath catches again—half from the shock, half from something else entirely.
He growls, his voice lower now, rougher. “You think you’re clever? That biting me makes you dangerous?”
You smile—crooked and smug. “I think it makes you bleed .”
His grip tightens just slightly, enough to make your heart stutter.
“You’ve got a mouth on you,” he says. “And no sense of self-preservation. Dangerous combination.”
You can feel the weight of him now, his body radiating heat in the cold temple air. His hand moves from your throat to your collarbone, dragging slowly, deliberately, over the edge of your clothing.
“But… Don’t pretend you’re not enjoying this,” he murmurs. “The chase. The catch. Me .”
You huff a breath that might be a laugh. “Get over yourself.”
His eyes flash, sharp and amused. “Oh, I’m so far past that.” Then he leans in, mouth nearly brushing your ear. “You’re mine now,” he says, dark and certain. “You stayed , remember?”
He pauses for a moment, eyes locked on yours as his bloodied finger trails slowly over your collar.
“This is what you did,” he murmurs, voice low and cold. The blood is darker now, half-dried, as he drags his finger up to your lips. Before you can react, his other hand snaps up, gripping your jaw—firm, unyielding. His thumb digs into your cheek, tilting your head up toward him.
“You want to act like a feral thing?” he murmurs. “Taste how that goes for you.”
There’s no softness when he presses the finger to your lips. The iron tang hits fast and sharp. Before you can turn away, he pushes it between your lips, smearing it over your tongue. The taste is bitter. His . Your breath hitches. Your eyes narrow. The urge to bite again rises fast and raw.
He feels it—knows it before you move. The subtle shift of your jaw. The tightness in your throat. This time, he doesn’t smile.
“ Don’t ,” he says, the word a quiet blade. His finger stays in your mouth, a threat in its stillness. “Unless you want this to get a lot worse.”
Your jaw eases, just slightly. The defiance in your eyes doesn’t vanish—but it flickers. Hesitates . Lingers in the space between resistance and something else.
And he feels it.
He revels in it.
He doesn’t ask how far you’ll let him go. He doesn’t ask for permission. He just starts .
His grip shifts. His thumb slides down your lip, parting it further, and then—slowly, deliberately—he presses his blood-slick finger deeper into your mouth. Not gentle. Not slow. Prying. Testing.
Claiming.
He watches you like a predator with its teeth already in the kill—half-lidded gaze steady, breath calm, as if he's done this a hundred times. As if you were always going to end up here. With him .
And you can feel it—that dangerous, intoxicating shift. He’s not seeing how far you’ll go. He’s showing you how far he will.
Your breath stutters around his finger, your tongue involuntarily brushing against the taste he left there. He watches for it—the flicker in your eyes, the way you tense beneath the cold air—and his mouth curves, slow and knowing.
His fingers drop from your mouth, a string of saliva connecting the two of you for a moment before it snaps. He offers a hand to you to get up- more gentle than what you’re used to.
You take it and he pulls you closer to him, one of his hands resting on your waist—not in comfort, but in possession . The other grips loosely around your throat. You can feel every inch of him—heat and pressure and intent. His breath brushes your cheek. His mouth hovers. Waiting. Wanting . Not touching. Not yet.
“ I could ruin you ,” he whispers.
And the worst part? He says it like a gift, like he wants you to thank him for it.
He tilts your chin higher with his thumb, holding you still. “Say it,” he murmurs, voice curling like smoke. “Tell me you want this…that you need it.”
And you do want it. Fuck, you do need it. But even more than that you don’t want to give him the satisfaction of knowing that.
“ No .”
Just one word—quiet, steady, threaded with defiance. It slips from your lips as smoothly as his threats had moments ago.
His head tilts, expression sharpening with something between amusement and intrigue.
“No?” he echoes, the word curling with a dark, velvet edge. “ Funny .”
His hand doesn’t leave your throat. If anything, it steadies you, keeping you right where he wants you. His thumb brushes along your jaw—almost affectionate. Almost . His eyes narrow slightly, reading the flickers in your face like a book he’s already halfway through.
“You know,” he murmurs, voice dipped in mock-thoughtfulness, “I expected the attitude. Maybe even the biting. But I didn’t peg you for a liar .”
“I’m not lying.” It comes too fast. Too firm.
His smile curves wider. He doesn’t believe you, he doesn’t need to. He already knows .
One hand lifts as he brushes a lock of hair from your face. His touch sends a shiver down your spine, not from the cold—but from the control .
“Not lying?” he echoes, tilting his head as if you’ve said something amusing. “Your teeth aren’t chattering anymore. And that flush?” He leans in closer, his breath brushing your cheek. “The warmth in you isn’t fear, you’re not scared . You love it . ”
He says it like it’s a fact. Like he’s always right.
Your pulse kicks up before you can hide it. You hate that he feels it. Hate more that he smirks when he does. The space between you crackles with something volatile and hungry.
His eyes flick down for the briefest moment—and your skin prickles like he’s already undressed every excuse you’re wearing.
“I don’t mind the fight,” he murmurs, almost to himself. “But the lies… ”
His voice dips lower, dark and amused, like he’s savoring the idea of tearing them out of you.
He doesn’t shake his head. Instead, his hand shifts—slides from your cheek to your shoulder with slow, deliberate weight. No gentleness. Just pressure.
Then he pushes. Not hard, just enough to remind you who’s in charge here.
“Down,” he says—quiet, firm, unyielding. A command, not a request. “If you’re not going to be honest,” he adds, voice like silk over steel, “then you might as well be quiet.”
You don’t move, but something flickers in your gaze—hesitation, pride, maybe even want . You want to push his buttons. You can’t help it, not when he looks at you the way he does.
He sees it. Feels it. And it only makes him hungrier.
“Oh, I love a slow learner,” he murmurs, leaning in, his breath warm against your ear. “Means I get to be thorough.”
His fingers slide from your shoulder to the back of your neck. He’s more forceful this time, gripping your neck firmly as he guides you down. You slide to your knees with a huff as his hand moves to grab a fistful of hair at the back of your head.
“ Good girl .”
You hate that you like it.
With his free hand, he dexterously moves to untie the sash around his waist, loosening it just enough to start pulling it down to his hips, his half-hard cock falls out as his hand moves to give it a slow pump. He watches you. Watches you like he already knows how you feel about him. Like you need him. His cock twitches in anticipation, the idea of what comes next too appealing for him to hide.
“Open.”
You tell yourself it’s just a game, that you’re still in control, but you don’t move away.
You obey .
You wet your lips with your tongue before you open your mouth, enough to take him, if he let you. Your hands slide to his thighs—hungry, almost reverent. Part preparation, part need. The ache to touch him surges just beneath your skin.
He looks down at you, unamused. That glare cuts through the heat like a blade. A silent reminder of who’s in charge.
“I didn’t say you could touch me.”
“ Cold —”
“Dont talk.”
The words land hard—no room for question, no softness. Just command. His eyes flick down to your hands, waiting. Expecting.
They move. Of course they do. You bring them back to your lap as you wait on your knees for him. He smirks down at you, his cock twitching again, growing harder at your compliance.
His hand shifts from the back of your head to your jaw, fingers tightening with deliberate pressure as you kneel before him. He watches you—not kindly, but like he’s already won. Like your submission was inevitable.
“Stick your tongue out.”
How degrading . You don’t want to give him the satisfaction of obedience. You should hold your ground, cling to whatever scraps of control you still pretend to have. But there’s something in the way he watches you—like he’s already inside your head, like he knows exactly what part of you wants to give in. And against your better judgment… you do.
He chuckles lowly, his eager cock already completely hard. He strokes it slowly, just out of reach of your tongue, before he angles it lower, letting you taste it.
One lick. That’s all you get before his fingers tighten at your jaw, holding you back with deliberate ease. He watches the flicker in your expression—half defiance, half heat—and it only makes his smirk deepen. His thumb presses harder beneath your chin, bringing you closer again, angling your face exactly how he wants it, like you’re nothing more than a thing to be arranged.
“You want more?” he asks, the question taunting, rhetorical. He slaps the tip of his cock on your tongue as you look up at him with that begging, pleading look you’ve never given anyone.
Something in him gives as he looks down at you. Maybe it’s the heat in your eyes, or the way you’re still pretending you’re not trembling for him. Maybe he’s feeling generous.
But the truth is, Kayn understands what real control is. It’s not just about taking , it’s about knowing exactly when to give.
Not because you’ve earned it, but because he wants to see what you’ll do with it.
Wants to see how far you’ll go once the leash slips—just enough to make you think it’s your choice.
And you hate how well he plays it.
Because part of you wants the control back. Wants to keep pretending.
But the rest of you?
The rest of you is already moving exactly where he wants you.
Because that’s the game.
He gives just enough to make you feel like you have something—
And takes enough to remind you that you don’t.
He slowly forces his length into your mouth, your tongue swirling slowly around it as he presses deeper. He lets out a low moan as he pulls you back and forth, using you exactly how he needs. It’s slower than you thought he would go, like he's savouring it. Like he wants to draw the moment out.
Wants to see how long it will take before you break.
Your hands clench in your lap as the heat starts to pool in your core with no release. He knows it, too. He can see how desperate you are for some friction as you sit there squirming, eyes half closed but locked on his, moaning softly against him as he fucks your mouth.
“You seem restless,” he coo’s, smug and teasing.
You go to speak—a garbled mess of words that just comes out as a muffled vibration against him.
He quickly slams himself in entirely, forcing you to choke as he holds you there.
“Dont. Talk.”
He pulls you away, just long enough for you to catch your breath before he's pressing his tip against your lips again, demanding entrance.
He baited you for that—and you took it.
You look up at him, eyes sharp, letting him know you see the game he’s playing.
But he only looks down at you, smug and unbothered—like your awareness doesn’t matter in the slightest.
Like he wants you to know… and still surrender anyway, as if seeing it coming won’t save you from it.
He pulls you forward again, this time rougher, more hungry. It feels like his control is slipping the further down your throat he is.
You relish it.
His movements hold a steady pace, but you can see the way his thighs tense as he starts to slowly rock his hips back and forth in time with your mouth. His hands grip just that little bit harder. His breath shakes as he closes his eyes, squinting for a moment, distracting himself from the pleasure.
He's breaking .
You don’t wait for his permission this time, going against him at a pace you decide. You bring your hands up, one bracing on his thigh, the other grips his shaft firmly as you start pumping him slowly, sucking on the tip, savouring the taste as pre-cum coats your lips. He moans in satisfaction, his grip loosening on you as be braces on the archway of the semi-collapsed alcove.
You know he could take control at any moment—snap his fingers, press you down, take what he wants.
But he doesn’t.
And it’s that restraint that undoes you. That dangerous calm, like he’s letting you play just long enough to feel free.
You want to touch that edge. Tease it. Tempt it.
Before he decides to stop letting you pretend.
You moan against him, your hand moving from his shaft to his balls in a desperate need, massaging them as you take him in your throat entirely. Your eyes water and you suppress the gag reflex long enough for him to really feel you.
This elicits a shudder from him as he bites his lip to stifle an even louder sound. His hands press harder against the stone as he lets you take the lead.
Fuck why does he have to sound so good? Why does he have to taste so good? You moan against him pulling your mouth away to breathe, just for a moment. Your hand returns to his shaft, the spit covering him working in your favour as you slide your hand along him, faster than before, your grip just that little bit tighter.
“Don’t stop,” he murmurs—quieter than before, but no less commanding.
An order, still. Only now, there's a desperation coiled beneath it. A crack in the control.
Sharper. Rougher.
Needier.
“You seem restless,” you purr, knowing full well the spark you’re lighting.
He growls—low and dark, something half-swallowed between anger and hunger. His hands leave the stone, threading through your hair with deliberate force. You’d tugged on the leash, and now he’s reminding you who holds it.
He thrusts deep. This time less forgiving. Your fingers dig into his thighs as you choke against him but it only spurs him on further. He doesn’t slow. Doesn’t give you a chance to deny him. His grip in your hair is like iron, as he fucks your mouth as a punishment.
“Nothing to say?” He taunts, already knowing the answer. He holds every inch of power now—doing exactly as he pleases—and you find yourself too willing to resist.
He hums, a slow, confident sound that vibrates through the air as you hold your silence. “At last,” he purrs, voice dripping with condescension and dark amusement, “She learns.”
You can feel him reaching his peak. The salty—sweet taste of precum in your mouth would be enough to tell. His thighs shuddering with restraint and the stifled moans behind gritted teeth only spurs you on to take him deeper. You want to please him. You don’t care that you can barely make him out through your teary eyes, don’t care you’re choosing him over oxygen. Every part of you is screaming for him.
His hips falter for a moment as his grip in your hair tightens. His breath is erratic now as he pulls you flush with one last, long stroke, emptying in your throat with a deep moan.
You swallow eagerly. Not wanting to disappoint, but also not wanting to waste a drop of him. He continues to grind slowly, your tongue dancing around his sensitive tip as the last of his cum spills into your mouth.
His grip in your hair loosens as he pushes away, almost reluctantly—as if conceding a small mercy, though he knows you’re already his. The charged silence between you hangs heavy.
He steps back, eyes burning with that arrogant, possessive gleam—like a predator admiring his prize. A slow, mocking smile curls at the edge of his lips. “You surprise me more than I expected,” he murmurs, voice low and dripping with dark approval.
But then his expression tightens. His jaw clenches as a sharp pulse of pain flashes behind his eyes—only he can hear the harsh whisper of Rhaast snarling inside his mind, a bitter hiss of impatience and anger.
Kayn grimaces, grinding his teeth, then leans in close, his fingers brushing your tears away in an almost caring gesture as he offers a hand to pull you up.
“Rhaast’s pissed I didn’t kill you.”
He steps toward the shadows, fingers trailing deliberately along his belt as he tightens it, the movement slow, almost teasing. He casts you a sidelong glance—eyes smoldering with something dangerous and hungry—before the shadows begin to swallow him whole.
“Don’t ever snoop through my things again.” His gaze holds yours, heavy and unblinking, the threat deliciously clear. “But when I get back…be in my room. Waiting.”
You watch the shadows claim him, that slow retreat into darkness like a closing door — but the promise lingers, heavy and unyielding. Your whole being is on fire, a reminder that beneath all his cruelty, control, and danger, there’s something intoxicatingly close, something you can’t—and don’t want to—resist. Every whispered threat, every touch, every sharp glance is a tether tightening around you.
The night swallows the last trace of him, leaving you alone with a restless mind and a throbbing core. Fucking hell the state he has you in. Your hand drifts down to your waistband, barely reaching the edge of your underwear before you stop.
You want to. God , you do. It wouldn’t even take long before you would cum. The thought of what he’d do if he knew you denied him your pleasure…it coils hot and electric in your gut. Tempting. Dangerous.
But the promise of later pulls you back from the edge—just barely.
You tell yourself it’s control. Discipline. You’re not like him. Not some creature that takes without care, that gives in wherever the hunger strikes.
You have restraint. You have rules .
And yet… you’re already aching to break them—for him.
You’re curious how far you’re willing to fall—and how deep he’ll pull you.