Bad Body

by Gr4yd41c4ppl3f4n

Summary:

Bloodmoon hates their body, very...very much

Chapter 1: Hatred and Pain.

Bloodmoon rocked on the floor by their bed, slamming their head into the frame. They dug their claws into their arms, oily tears running down their face. With each *BAM*, it echoed louder and louder into the room. They hated their body.

It didn't feel right.

The stupid blue hoodie that covered their torso was ripped to shreds with their claws and teeth.

The hood was beginning to soak with black incorrectly as they kept rocking.

Why were they created like this?

Their suit felt uncomfortable, limiting.

Their arms were coated in holes, waterfalls of obsidian blood gushing out.

They heaved, sobbing loudly.

"I hate this!"

"Me too.."

"It doesn't fit!"

"I know..."

The twins communicated, this time verbally instead of in their head.

 

"Bloodmoon?" That was their father, Killcode, or KC for short.

"What the fuck's going on in there?!" Their older brother, Eclipse, demanded.

"Nothing!" One said,

"GO AWAY!" The other howled

"We aren't going away until you tell us what's wrong." KC stated firmly but calmly.

"Well nothing's going o-on!" Their voice cracked, overcame with tears and sobs.

It was wrong.

Their voice.

Terrible.

Didn't fit what was inside.

Too deep.

Too masculine.

Too male.

Hurt.

Hurt a lot.

They clawed at their arms again, more oil spouting out.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN THERE?!" Eclipse shouted. Clearly, he cared. But the twins couldn't trust him.

No.

Couldn't trust anybody.

Not with this.

"N-Nothing! We just..uhm..*ow-*..hit..our..uh..head against the..bedframe! Mhm!" Bloodmoon lied. Their pain was evident.

"That's clearly not it!" Eclipse corrected, opening the door by force though it was locked.

Bloodmoon tried to cover what they had done with their arms.

Not like that'd help.

Fuck.

"..what the Hell?!" Eclipse looked at his little...brothers, clearly concerned.

Killcode's eyes widened, blinking in fear.

Bloodmoon felt more tears pour from their eyes, shrinking in their gazes.

"Never mind why you did this..." Eclipse's tone was a bit more gentle, still edged with his normal grumpiness. The day Eclipse sounded kind, that's when they'd know something bad happened. "You have to get fixed. Like, now."

Eclipse pulled down their hood and powers them off with a switch at the back of their head, hear the base of their neck.

Chapter 2: Coming out.

Summary:

Bloodmoon gets repaired! And then is pressured to come out.

Bloodmoon felt their body begin to power up.

The pain was all gone.

Why?

They didn't do anything bad enough to need fixing?

Surely?

They blinked open their eyes and looked at their arm.

It was..patched up?

Not the right colors though.

'Unnecessary...' The first AI growled internally.

'Mhm.' The second AI agreed in the mindspace.

They were in Eclipe's fixing room or whatever.

The only thing they were wondering right then...was why.

They noticed Eclipse hovering over them, visibly concerned, and Killcode behind him, looking scared.

That seemed a bit dramatic.

Why be scared?

It wasn't that bad.

KC stepped forward, putting one hand underneath Bloodmoon's chin.

He picked up their head, making them face him.

"Tell me, my children, why would you enforce this grueling agony upon yourself?"

"Agony?" The first AI echoed.

"Was not pain! Was...uhm..." The second AI tried to explain, though it was a lie. And one they couldn't back without telling them about...it.

"Do not lie to me." KC growled slightly.

"Why would you do something so...IDIOTIC?!" Eclipse demanded aggressively.

'I don't want to tell!'

'Neither do I...'

'What do we say?!'

'I don't know..'

"Uhm..."

"Spit it out!" Eclipse scowled.

Killcode put his hand on Eclipse's shoulder.

"Eclipse...they are not likely to tell you if you keep getting so...aggressive with them."

Eclipse shook his head, shooting his father an angry look.

"Well he-"

Bloodmoon flinched at the word.

They didn't the rest of Eclipse's sentence.

Bad.

Bad word.

The entire reason that this happened.

Didn't fit them.

KC and Eclipse kept bickering--well, Eclipse was bickering, KC was discussing--back and forth.

Too loud.

Bad.

Bad noise.

Too much.

They couldn't think straight(or cis) against all of it.

"We're trans..." Bloodmoon muttered.

The two others stopped and looked at them.

Quiet.

Good.

..wait no..

Too much quiet.

Now its bad.

"That's it?" Eclipse broke the silence, much to Bloodmoon's relief.

Bloodmoon nodded.

More quiet.

Bad.

Hated.

"..oh, my children." Killcode murmured quietly.

"That's nothing to be scared to tell us about." Killcode comforted, patting them gently on the head.

Bloodmoon blinked, a bit confused.

"But..but we aren't how we were programmed to be..." The second AI said.

"And neither am I." Their father told them.

"Isn't that..bad?"

"Not always."

Bloodmoon still didn't understand.

"Are you mad at us?"

"Why would I be?"

Bloodmoon realized..yeah..why would he be?

This whole damn family was gay.

Why did it change anything that they were?

"What are your preferred terms, my children?" Killcode smiled at them.

"...She/they..feminine terms." She said, realizing how good saying that felt.

"And your name is still fine?"

She nodded.

"Okay, my daughters."

Their eyes watered with tears of joy as he said that.

Yes.

They were his daughters.

"So I have sisters?"

The twins nodded.

"Yes..yes!!!!!!" The first AI confirmed, smiling wide.

"Yesyesyesyesyesyesyesssss" The second AI repeated joyously.

"Okay. Do you want any modifications for your new identity?" Eclipse asked, sounding kinder than normal.

Bloodmoon looked down, their face flushing red. How was she supposed to explain this?

"Well?"

"Uh..yes."

"I can't do anything with a yes." Eclipse sounded impatient

"B-breasts..."

Eclipse looked caught off guard. "Okay, cup size?" It sounded like he didn't know what to say.

"C's." Bloodmoon was embarrassed, hardly looking at Eclipse.

"..alright. Anything else?"

"A more feminine face-like, uhm, eyelashes and stuff, and make our voice more...uh..girlish."

"And fix the colors on our arm!!!!!!!"

"That's it?"

Bloodmoon nodded. She felt so weird talking about this.

"Do you want them now or?"

They shook their head.

"Do you want to tell the rest of the family before or after the modifications?" KC asked.

"After."

"Alright then." Eclipse responded.

"I love you no matter what, my daughters." Killcode hugged his daughters.

Bloodmoon noticed a slight smile on Eclipses face.

This was good.

Notes:

I'm not sure if I did the like trans experience justice, as I'm kinda not trans myself?? Debatable(I'm nonbinary)

If any of you reading this are trans I could really use some feedback-

Chapter 3: Modify!

Summary:

Bloodmoon gets their modifications!!! Whoohoo!!!

Notes:

Chapter title is a lemon demon ref

Bloodmoon was scrolling on Amazon on their phone, looking for the perfect dress to wear to come out to the rest of the family.

She saw it.

It was a shimmery, dull blue color. There was white lace at the bottom. A stunning, blood red color was striped along the color.

It looked like it went all the way down their legs with a slit up to her thigh.

It was perfected.

..unfortunately, however, she hadn't gotten the modifications yet.

Which meant she didn't know what size to buy it in.

The first AI sighed, disappointed.

"Cheer up, sister. At least soon Eclipse will call us down to get repairs!!!!" The second AI said, trying to sound happy.

Internally, though, she was also worried about it.

What if none of the sizes fit their body?!

Suddenly..

"Bloodmoon! Come down here!!"

The twins were so giddy, getting off of their bed.

The white footrest still had oil splatters on it..

She was going to have to clean that up.

Never mind that!

Her body was going to be perfect!!

They flapped their hands and stomped their feet in joy, running down to Eclipse's repair room.

"Hihi!!!!" The first AI said quickly. smiling and jumping up and down.

"Hi." Eclipse said, unfriendly as always.

It gave the twins a bit of...comfort? In knowing that he would never change.

Not too much, anyways.

"Get on the table."

"Yesyes, of course!!!"

She hopped up, sitting and dangling her feet off the edge.

They were vibrating with joy.

They kicked their feet forward quickly, rocking in happiness.

"Hold still." Eclipse growled.

She suddenly froze and hung her head slightly.

Their big brother took down her hood and powered her off.

~~~~~~~~~~

Several hours later, they felt their system boot up again.

"Welcome back. Get up."

"Alright, geez! Always so serious!!" The first AI froze after saying that.

She sounded like a girl now!!!!!

She squealed and jumped off the table.

"Do I sound like a girl too?!" The second AI laughed after she heard her voice.

It was perfect!

It was everything she imagined.

"Yeah, well, go put on a shirt." Eclipse pat them on the head roughly.

The twins sped out and up the stairs before putting on an oversized white t-shirt and black basketball shorts.

..it'd work for now.

They really needed a new wardrobe.

Without their hoodie, they felt bald.

Hmmm...

What to do about that?

They weren't just going to wear the same outfit always again!

Variety is the spice of life.

But only in some things.

Other things need to stay the same.

Always.

Enough about that!

They *did* have a hoodie in their closet.

It was light pink, so light you could only not tell it wasn't white when it was next to white.

She threw it on and put up the hood.

She looked around her mess of a room for a tape measure.

Not under that pile..nope..

Not that one either..

Surely this o-no, no of course not.

Never.

She knew she had one, but this room was such a cluttered mess...

Now that she had messed the piles up, she didnt know where anything was.

And then, from the corner of her eye, she saw it.

..on her bed.

She must have forgotten she put it there

She still didnt remember doing that, even after seeing it.

Whatever.

They took their measurements and decided they were a size small.

They clicked the inviting yellow-orange button, paying with a credit card they stole from some guy on the street after they killed him.

It would arrive in one week.

Notes:

RAAH I've been trying not to rush posting these chapters but the ideas and plots keep racing through my headddd

I'm sorry

Chapter 4: The Dress!

Bloodmoon had jumped up out of her bed as soon as she heard the doorbell.

It had officially been a week since she came out, since they last changed, and most importantly, since they had ordered the dress!!

They opened the door, not much liking the person in front of them.

It was a man, gross looking and hideous.

He was staring at their boobs.

They sighed.

“Father asked that we don't kill near the house, but what's the harm in doing it once,.right?” The first AI said, now used to her new voice.

The pervert looked a bit excited before they lined up their claws with his skull and sunk them in.

(blah blah murder blood kill stuff.)

After she moved the man out of the way and into the bushes before drinking the blood off of their claws.

“Just as good as the first time..” She quite enjoyed her meal.

They grabbed the package, running up the stairs with it and unboxing it.

Yes, this was it!!

The dress, glorious as could be!!!

They instantly tried it on.

It looked stunning on them.

“We look great, sister!”

The twins just stood in the mirror posing for a few minutes before taking the dress off the changing out of it, placing it very gently at the foot of their bed.

They know that's where it is.

One hundred precent.

No doubt about it.

~~~~~~~~~~~

Several hours passed.

The time came.

Her family was all gathered at Sun and Moon's house, wondering what the surprise was. Except for Eclipse and Killcode, who were going with Bloodmoon

..they don't trust her to defend herself, for some reason.

She's perfectly capable!

She was made to kill, she can do it just fine.

..though having two people that know exactly what shes gonna say and can just..be there giving support would be nice.

Maybe that's what they were doing.

Maybe they just said it wrong.

Whatever..doesn't matter.

Bloodmoon hopped out of bed and look at the foot of it.

..fuck.

Where'd the dress go?!

It was perfect!!!!

They began panicking, rushing around the room…

When they looked up in the closet.

It was..there?

Why?

They never did that!

Maybe they did and just don't remember it…

Whatever.

They put on the dress quickly and put on some mascara and eyeliner like Eclipse taught them to.

She didn't question why Eclipse knew how to do makeup.

Emos do what emos do.

She walked out into the living room, smiling sweetly.

“You look great, my daughters.” Killcode said to them.

The twins brought their hands up to underneath their chin and kind of bobbed back and forth.

Eclipse nodded at them.

The three headed out on foot to the house.

~~~~~~~~~~

Not long before they approached it the first AI broke the silence.

“Why have you two been acting like we need protecting the past..week or so?”

“We aren't suddenly frail just because we're girls! Murder is still as easy as everl!” The second AI chimed in.

“Just protective measures…I suppose..” Killcode said

Bloodmoon was a bit frustrated.

They took in a deep breath to ease their anxiety.

She opened the door,

She was shaky, hands quivering.

Her appearance was met with gasps from across the room.

She frowned slightly.

She spotted Terra, Monty, Cosmos(surprising they weren't busy), Sun, Moon(of course), Solar, Jack, and Dazzle.

So many eyes on them. They were beginning to get nervous…

They breathed faux-ly.

“We're trans…”

The room didn't seem particularly surprised by this revelation.

Eclipse was stifling snickers.

Bloodmoon nudged him to shut up.

“What are your pronouns?” Terra asked. Bloodmoon didn't even know why they were in the family, and it was mostly due to the stuff they did to her. Well, her and Dazzle.

“She/they…” The first AI answered for both of them.

They suddenly remembered what they've also done to Monty and Cosmo…

God, they were horrible.

Maybe that's why dad wanted them to stop killing.

Because they were so terrible.

“We like feminine terms.” The second AI said.

Bloodmoon was done with it already.

They didnt want to be in this room…

Faced with all the bad things they've done…

Their eyes watered slightly, but then they remembered they can't cry because of the mascara.

The twins tugged on their father's arm.

“Can we please go..” The second AI murmured.

Killcode shook his head.

Bloodmoon felt her eyes water more.

No, no crying.

They just put on fresh mascara.

~~~~~~~~

Bloodmoon was way too overwhelmed.

This was a bad idea..

The dress became uncomfortable after wearing it for too long.

There was too much noise..

So many people they wronged..

They must hate being in the room with her?

Who could blame them?

She was terrible.

Jack waved his hand in front of their face.

They must have gotten distracted.

“Whuh-oh..right..sponges.” Riveting conversation…

Killcode walked over and tapped his daughters on the shoulder.

“We can go now, if you'd wish.”

The twins nodded. “Yes please!”

“Bye! Cya uhm…sometime, Jack!” The second AI tried to finish off the conversation.

“Bye!!!!!!” Jack called back.

Killcode, Eclipse, and Bloodmoon were all headed home..finally.

~~~~~~~~~

The second that the door to her home opened, Bloodmoon bounced up the stairs and into her room. She changed into more comfortable clothes, floodgates in their eyes breaking.

They sobbed into a pillow, not caring about whether or not it got makeup all into it.

Well, not at the moment at least.

They kept messing up.

Why were they so terrible?