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James Potter has been locked up for two hundred and sixty-four days.
He counts the cracks in the wall instead of the days now.
There are more cracks than numbers his mind can hold.
It makes sense — stone breaks easier than people.
Except he isn’t sure he’s still a person.
He doesn’t talk. He doesn’t dare to.
The last time he raised his voice, the air itself had split open.
They said he screamed a single word: "stop". And twenty-three bodies fell before the echo died.
He remembers the silence afterward more than the sound of human flesh meeting the ground.
Silence that rang, sharp as a bell inside his chest.
They sealed him away after that.
It was the first time it had ever come this far.
A concrete room, a bed welded to the floor, no windows, no one to hear him breathe.
Sometimes he mouths words just to feel the shape of them again.
He imagines laughter. His own, maybe. Someone else’s. He imagines sunlight.
He imagines freedom like a sound he can’t quite remember.
The door hisses open.
"You're getting a cellmate." They warned him. And he pretended he couldn't hear the utter terror in their voices. He pretended he didn't hear them tremble. "You've been behaving, and we trust you to keep control of yourself."
A lie.
James imagined the truth was that they had absolutely not one care in the world for his future roomate's safety. They wouldn't leave him with him if they did.
He didn't dare to laugh at the thought, even if he could feel the need growing in his chest.
He could control it, now.
His impulses.
Laughing wasn’t a threat any longer.
Probably.
The guards always looked at him like he was a live wire. Like one wrong breath might detonate the room.
Sometimes, he wondered if they were right.
He used to be loud. Too loud. He used to fill every space he entered with something bright — words, laughter, warmth. Now, as he grew more dangerous, he was an echo of that noise, a hollow where sound should live.
The footsteps in the corridor grew quieter, then stopped. A pause, a murmur. The scrape of metal on metal.
Then: nothing.
The silence after the door closed again was heavy. But it wasn’t empty.
He could feel it. Another presence. Someone breathing.
They left him with a person.
He didn’t move. Didn’t turn around. He could feel the shift in the air, the way it changed when someone’s eyes landed on you.
“Are you awake?”
The voice was rough. Unfearful.
He didn’t answer.
Of course he didn’t answer.
A rustle. The sound of fabric, of tentative steps on concrete.
“You don’t have to talk. I just.. I just wanted to know if you could hear me.”
He almost smiled at that. The irony of it. Hearing was all he could do. Listening had become his entire existence.
The voice continued, nervous. “They said you’d been here a long time.”
A beat.
“They didn’t say why.”
He stared at the opposite wall, jaw tight. He wondered what they told him — about the room, about him. Probably nothing. Probably everything.
He tried not to think about the first time they told someone about him. What it looked like. What it sounded like.
The stranger shifted again. A sigh. “They took everything from me,” they whispered. “My name, my family. I don’t even know what I’m supposed to believe in anymore.”
That made him turn. Slowly.
The newcomer sat on the floor, knees to chest, hair falling over their face. Just a silhouette in the dim light. Solemn in a way that didn’t belong in a place like this.
He wanted to ask their name. He wanted to say something, anything.
But the words burned behind his teeth, heavy, poisonous.
So he just watched.
The stranger looked up, and for the first time in months, someone met his gaze without flinching.
A single scar ran from the stranger's ear to his chin, a dark slash that bisected his bronzed face, raw and unyielding, impossible to ignore. James tilted his head, intrigued.
“Do you—” He started, then stopped, fumbling for words. “Do you believe in redemption?”
He blinked.
A question like that didn’t belong here. Not in a room built for forgetting.
His throat ached with all the things he couldn’t say.
He wanted to tell them that redemption was just another word for survival. That there’s no clean slate in a world built on silence. That once you’ve killed with nothing but breath, there’s no forgiving the air.
But he didn’t say any of it.
He nodded instead. Once. And tried a smile.
He never did quite know how to stop those.
And somehow, that was enough.
The stranger smiled in return, and it was a small, broken thing. Almost human.
“Good,” he whispered. “Then maybe we can still save something.”
He didn’t know what he meant.
He wasn't sure he wanted to find out.
But for the first time in two hundred and sixty-four days, he wasn’t the only heartbeat in the room.
A couple of hours of heavy silence and an untasteful meal later, the stranger still couldn't stop staring at James.
He stretched his legs out, one ankle crossing the other, and made a small noise — half a grunt, half a chuckle.
James raised an eyebrow. Really? He’d been alone for months, and this was how he started?
“You’re judging me,” the newcomer said, without looking up. “Fair enough. I'd do the same."
James tilted his head for what felt like the millionth time in the day. You’ve got a mouth on you.
He finally met his eyes, smirk tugging at his lips. “Don’t think you get to be mysterious just because you can kill with a word. That’s cheating.”
James shook his head slowly, letting the corner of a smile escape. Maybe he’s fun.
“I’ve got a name,” He said suddenly, as if introducing himself properly would settle some cosmic debt. “Lupin. Remus Lupin. You can use it. Or not. I don’t care.”
James studied him, considered the name. He mimed writing it in the air with his finger, tilting his head at Remus like, Got it.
Remus laughed softly. “See? We’re communicating already. I think we'll manage.”
James leaned back against the wall, crossing his arms, smirking just enough to annoy him.
“Don’t get used to this,” Remus said. “I’m only friendly until the lights go out. Then I turn into a monster.”
James almost laughed, almost being the key word, and the corner of his mouth twitched again.
“Tell you what,” Remus continued, eyes glinting, “if you survive a week in here without accidentally flattening me, I’ll tell you why I’m really here. Maybe. If you’re lucky.”
James tilted his head, again, curious once more.
He shifts on his bed, reaching for something under pillow he hadn't used since the second month of his incarceration.
The notebook feels heavy in his hands, which, honestly, shouldn't be a surprise. Guilt sits heavier in James' chest than anything else he ever had to carry.
He looks around the room, searching for the stub of a pen that's been rolling around the floor since last week. It takes him a moment to find it, wedged between the leg of his cot and the wall, the plastic cracked, ink dried at the tip.
He wipes it on his sleeve anyway. Hope is stupid like that.
When he finally gets the pen to work, it bleeds thick black lines across the paper, and for a second he just stares at the page. He doesn't even know why he's doing this. He hasn't written anything on the bloody thing for months.
He glances up. Remus is still sitting, cross-legged on the floor. He's not even pretending not the watch, his eyes scanning every movement James makes.
"You had a fucking notebook this entire time and just decided to be all mysterious and talk to me in riddles?" Remus asked, eyebrows furrowed.
James shrugged, a glint of mischief recognizable in his eyes.
He turns the notebook slightly, blocking Remus' view. He writes slowly, the letters jagged from disuse. The pen scratches against the page, the sound almost deafening in the stillness.
He tears the paper out and tosses it towards Remus. It lands between them with a soft thud.
You keep staring, it says.
Remus looks at it. Doesn't move at first. Then he leans forward, slow and deliberate, and picks it up. The corner of his mouth lifts when he reads it, and James is reminded of pranks. That is the face of a prankster, he thinks.
He sets the paper down on the floor between them and studies James for a beat before replying, voice low.
“I thought you were dead.”
James raises an eyebrow.
Remus’s gaze flickers away, to the ceiling, the cracks, anywhere else. “The way you didn’t move when I came in,” he adds quietly. “Didn’t even look up.”
James shrugs. He writes again.
Maybe I was.
That earns him the smallest huff of air. Not a laugh, not really. Just something that acknowledges it.
Remus shifts against the wall, pulling his knees up, arms folded loosely over them. “You can write, then.”
James tilts his head, like obviously.
Remus hums; a low sound, almost thoughtful. “Good.”
Silence again. The hum of the lights above them fills the space, a faint static pulse that crawls along the concrete.
James writes something else. He doesn’t throw the page this time, he holds it up instead.
You talk more than I expected.
Remus’s mouth twitches. “That’s not saying much.”
And James smiles back at him.
Remus glances toward the narrow strip of light under the door. “They watch everything,” he says. Not a warning, just a fact. “You know that, right?”
He nods. He already knows. He’s known since the first day, ever since they told him he was too dangerous to see sunlight again.
He writes, They test the walls at night.
Remus’s eyes flick up at that. “I’ve heard.”
James pauses, then writes another line. Don’t touch the metal when the lights flicker.
Remus looks at him for a long moment. “Does it hurt?”
James hesitates before answering. Then, simply: Yes.
The word looks too small for what it means.
Remus nods once, a quiet acknowledgment. He leans his head back against the wall, eyes closing. “I’ll remember.”
The silence stretches. It’s not heavy anymore, just steady. James almost forgets what it felt like, the shape of stillness that isn’t punishment.
He opens the notebook again, turning to a clean page. His hand moves before he can stop it.
It’s been 264 days.
He doesn’t know why he writes it. Maybe to remind himself. Maybe to see it written down — proof of survival, of time refusing to stop.
Remus’s voice cuts softly through the quiet. “Since?”
James doesn’t answer. Just closes the notebook.
The lights flicker once, twice — and then the room sinks into its dull orange night glow.
Remus doesn’t speak again. Neither does James, obviously. But when he finally sets the notebook aside, he notices Remus hasn’t turned away.
They sit there, both pretending not to watch the other, while the hum of the power grid fills the air like a heartbeat.