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{Perspective: First Person}
[The Crows | Scythe (Fronting, Frontsealed)]
I got in to another fight with my parents.
My parents keep yelling and yelling at me and everything is blurry and I can’t figure out what’s going on, just that they essentially told me to kill myself and that they can do whatever they want to me, yet again. And you know what? They’re right, for the first part. I should kill myself.
I tell them several times to stop yelling at me, yet they keep screaming and verbally attacking me.
I run upstairs with my MacBook and its cables.
I’ve finally had enough. I’m done. I’m done! I’m not dealing with my fuckass life anymore. They want me to kill myself? I will! I have the gun, I have everything ready. It’s not like I’ll be able to graduate from high school anyways, with the way my grades are and the way I can’t focus on anything related to school. If I can’t graduate, and can’t proceed on to college and university, that’s bye-bye to my chances of being able to do any research on plurality or alterhumanity. I’d be stuck living off my parents for an eternity, and restricted to low-paying jobs. If I have to put up with my parents any longer than this, I’m going to end up mutilating myself.
I open up my iPad, go to Discord, and type up my final message. I send it in several servers and a few DMs, using copy and paste rather than forwarding due to ease.
I’m crying, but it’s not like anyone would care.
I pack my devices and cables in my computer bag neatly, also packing away my Oculus Quest in its own bag. I quite don’t know why I do this, but it helps soothe my thoughts of keeping things a mess when I go. I then grab the pistol from its hiding place, ensure it’s loaded, and fumble around with it, quickly figuring out turning off the safety after I take out my iPad again to do a Google search on it.
I can’t sense my headmates desperate speech and thoughts pleading for me to not do this.
Gun pointed under my jaw, straight up to the brain.
I pull the trigger.
Pain.
And it all turns black.
———
{Perspective: Third Person}
[Discord]
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
hey gng. p much my final message. im finally killing myself. i can’t hold on any longer. i don’t know what the fuck my parents expected, honestly. their yelling and verbally beating me down would eventually push me past my breaking point, and that happened tonight. i’m done. im sending this in several servers, and a few peoples dms. a few things tho, for people that im closer to or can access my stuff.
- my passwords for my stuff are all saved in my notes app and browser n shit. macbook password has been removed.
- i want my roblox account to not be owned by anyone else, though the items in it can be given to people i was friends with. mainly, my friends in The Kins of Robloxia and in Phight or Phlight.
- in general, my accounts will not be owned by anyone. however, i would like someone to keep the phighting VRChat avatars list updated, so i changed the email attached to the carrd account and will provide the password for both the email account and the carrd.
- i love you all /p. especially you, orms /r. i’ll miss you all, if there even is anything after death and i get to keep my memories after i possibly reincarnate.
yall keep going without me. it’ll work out for yall. just not for me.
email: [REDACTED]. passwords: [REDACTED], [REDACTED]
○ Coil!
skate
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
…. Oh. Oh not again.
○ Coil!
skateboard what is this
rori
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
This can’t be happening again.
○ Coil!
rori what’s going on
rori istg
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Skate…. Fuck. We can’t force you to be here. Be sure to be happy in your next life, aight?
It’s better for you this way, there’s no point in me trying to stop you.
Hey, hope that through some cosmic bullshit… you can reach us again.
○ Coil!
swords be with you, skater 👍👍
you’re a legend in my eyes.
hell maybe we might meet here up in pharadise lol
i salute you. 🫡
I’m… gonna go out for a fly. to clear my head.
———
[The Crows | Scythe (Fronting), Medkit (Co-conscious)]
Nothingness. To them, it seems to last for an eternity and for only a millisecond at the same time. They can’t feel much emotionally, thankfully.
Then? The feeling of lying on their side on an extremely comfortable bed, eyes closed. It also feels like they’re experiencing a very intense wing phantom shift. Scythe feels a lot calmer thanks to the nothingness void.
Medkit instantly comes in to co-consciousness and starts “screaming” at Scythe.
`We have been telling you to not do that, Scythe! We have rules in this system for a reason. You can’t do things like this to the body. I would drag you out of front and ban you from fronting for at least a month if I could. Gods- that was utterly stupid. Hopefully that was simply a vivid dream, considering we’re lying on a bed now.` Scythe can feel the anger and indignation radiating off of hym.
Pher simply responds with, `Hey! It’s done already, can’t undo shit here. I’m seeing if we’re still stuck back home or some shit.`
They open their eyes. The bed is circular. Definitely not back home. `Not home. Well, that’s one good thing at least? Or bad. Very bad.` They sit up quickly, noticing their “phantom” wings weighing them down.
Looking around, they notice they’re in an empty bedroom, with the circular bed being in the center. They look to the side, and instantly notice folded wings. The same wings they thought were just from an intense phantom shift.
They release an audible, unanimous “Oh.”
They’re large black wings emerging from the body’s back. They extend the wing they’re looking at, and it seems to have the same shape as they saw in the crow wing diagram they had downloaded on their iPad and MacBook. So, it looks like they have elliptical wings.
They take a moment to process before Scythe starts cheering internally. `Med!! We have fucking wings!!`
There is a moment of silence from Medkit before hy responds. `Yes, though we should see the rest of our body before anything. Let’s find a mirror or something similar.`
Standing up, they look around again and instantly notice their computer bag and the yellow bag with their Oculus Quest on the floor next to the bed. Scythe, being the internet addicted crackhead that they are, makes the body rush to it, checking the computer bag and finding all the items they packed away in it. Oddly convenient, honestly. While doing that, they quietly note that their skin is grey now, too, and in addition has slight fuzz all over it. They take out the MacBook and open it, finding it connected to WiFi already. They check it, and it shows that it’s connected to an odd network named “InterVersal Network.” They then open up the Photo Booth app and what they found was not expected.
They have a red, blue, and black halo hovering behind them, and they do actually have completely grey skin.
Out of shock, Scythe starts speaking out loud rather than beaming thoughts. “Holy shit we’re a pharadiser. Med, we’re a phucking pharadiser. Dude. Holy shit. Dear SFOTH. Oh my gods.”
`Well, this was unexpected.` Med then points out, `Also, look at our outfit and halo. It looks like we’re the collective self-insert you had made for us.`
`Oh my gods we are. Wait, that means I can impose y’all and you’ll become physical. Wait now we need to learn imposition. Shit man, this is groundbreaking.`
They sit in one spot for a moment, before Scythe decides that they need to see if they can inform the people that they had sent the message to that they, in fact, are now not dead. They navigate to discord, finding it connected just fine. They look over the messages received after the suicide letter, tensing up and resisting the urge to cry due to some. They look away for a moment just for their eyes to land on a Makeship Medkit plush.
`… Please go get my plush,` Medkit requests. They comply, grabbing the plush from where it was and hugging it tightly. The flock feels a bit better after a minute or so of just hugging the plush.
They soon get on Discord and start sending messages that they’re fine, but end up in a conversation in one specific server.
[Discord]
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
hey guys so guess who’s alive
us
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Wtf yo
That’s sick
○ Coil!
shit fr???
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
But how tf do you have your shit with you???
○ Coil!
yea how? i mean i asked God for my stuff but???
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
i dont fucking know i think the universes fucked up
○ Coil!
ok??
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
didnt even meet a sponsor or anything
○ Coil!
wait where r u
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Huh
○ Coil!
i wanna try and find ya
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Oh yeah where are you.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
ok first so uh
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Why are you summing they’re in Pharadiso yo
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
yall know that pharadiser SI we made right?
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Oh nvm
○ Coil!
yeah that goober
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
WAIT YOURE A PHARADISER NOW
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
yeah LOL
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Fuckin sick as hell, g 4 u
○ Coil!
rori istg if you arrive here all of a sudden I’m beating your ass
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
| Reply to: Coil! - rori istg if you arrive here all of a sudden I’m beating your ass
You’re underestimating my will to live cuh.
○ Coil!
you have several issues.
○ 𝕞𝕖𝕕𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 <Hy/Pher/Pew/Bea/Laz/Med/Kit> | 🌟🩸
We think that if we can learn imposition, then we'll each have our own separate forms as long as we're within range of each other.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
yea meds here btw
○ Coil!
med too???
is aster there?
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
yeah i think
lemme see if i can summon star to co-con
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Good to know the mind stays intact.
○ Coil!
i cast necromancy type shit/j
○ —͟͞͞★Aster —͟͞͞★ <Star/Any> | 🌟🩸
Hello, I am still here.
○ 𝕞𝕖𝕕𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 <Hy/Pher/Pew/Bea/Laz/Med/Kit> | 🌟🩸
That’s good.
○ Coil!
| Reply to: —͟͞͞★Aster —͟͞͞★ <Star/Any> | 🌟🩸 - Hello, I am still here.
hai star!!
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
ok so we have that figured out
| Reply to: Coil! - hai star!!
thats stars neopronouns
lol
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Good to know you’re all still together and not split up or anything.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
| Reply to: Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin} - Good to know you’re all still together and not split up or anything.
yeah. gods bless being plural /silly
○ Coil!
for some reason hover didn’t come with me tho..
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
oh
○ Coil!
prob cause he’s already here
as a real person
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
true…
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Oh shit that means if I [REDACTED] Rainbow’s not gonna be in my head anymore.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
maybe he gained the memories from being your headmate as well? idk
anyways
○ Akuma Cuttlefish [She/Her] {Headmate}
| Reply to: Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin} - Oh shit that means if I [REDACTED] Rainbow’s not gonna be in my head anymore.
I swear to Sol-
○ Coil!
| Reply to: 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸 - maybe he gained the memories from being your headmate as well? idk
probably???
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
| Reply to: Coil! - probably???
You should go like check on him.
○ Coil!
i mean i am friends with him so i can just say project moon in his vicinity
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
gonna rq get our place's address. also we have our medplush too and we almost broke down until we realized we have it here
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Skate what region are you in do you know where you are.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
not atm
havent looked outside
○ Coil!
| Reply to: 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸 - haven’t looked outside
do it do it do it
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
I’m gonna go eat popcorn or smth
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
oh. paradise falls lol
we’re nearby coil
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Everyone and their mother is in Paradise Falls /silly
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
LMAO
○ Coil!
LOL
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
i cant lie, was expecting crystal verdona
since its the LT parallel
and both Med n i are lost temple
○ Coil!
but my homie skate is in playground
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
true
○ Coil!
🤨
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
dude im scythe + reaper scythe + skate did u forgor
○ Coil!
no
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Wait guys you can be homies again in your new life…
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
hellyea
○ Coil!
| Reply to: Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin} - Wait guys you can be homies again in your new life…
remember if you join is i will kick your ass back home
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
ok so atm we’re at [REDACTED] come meet up vro
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
| Reply to: Coil! - remember if you join us i will kick your ass back home
Cuh stop underestimating me freedom is almost in my reach I can get away from my mom without dying.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
also it woulda been really funny if i became ivory physically but nah ig not. unless theres smth we're missing but i doubt it
○ 𝕞𝕖𝕕𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 <Hy/Pher/Pew/Bea/Laz/Med/Kit> | 🌟🩸
| Reply to: Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin} - Cuh stop underestimating me freedom is almost in my reach I can get away from my mom without dying.
We have doubts.
○ 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸
ok we’re gonna look around the place a bit now, cya
○ Adam [He/Him] <Σ> {Fictionkin}
Bye
○ Coil!
| Reply to: 𝕤𝕜𝕒𝕥𝕖𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕖 (ivory periastron) <They/Pher/She/He> | 🌟🩸 - ok so atm we’re at [REDACTED] come meet up vro
already on my way vro 😁😁😁
———
[The Crows | Scythe (Fronting), Medkit (Co-conscious)]
They stretch out their wings for a few seconds before closing their MacBook and getting up to look around the house.
It’s a rather small place, though it has all the necessities. Kitchen with the cookware and appliances, bathroom with self-care products, one closet with clothes, another with cleaning supplies, etcetera. It’s rather plain, but it works. They’ll just have to decorate the place later.
`This place is kinda bland. We’ll get stuff to decorate later, yeah? And I want both you and Aster here to help, Med!` Scythe smiles through the body.
`Alright, as long as we can get a few books on pharadiser biology. I’d like to learn how these bodies work, and how different they are from inphernals.`
`You say that as if you have access to your memories from being an inphernal, lol. But alright, we can get that probably. Gotta figure out a source of income, though.`
`Thank you. As for income, we can go see what jobs are available around us.`
Suddenly, there’s a knock at the door. Scythe says, `Wonder who that is. Actually, I know who it is, nevermind.`
Medkit responds, `Yes, Scythe, it’s probably him.`
They go to open the door.