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The air in the Kim pack manor didn't circulate; it lingered, heavy with the scent of expensive floor wax, cold marble, and the suffocatingly sterile aroma of Minjun’s designer cologne. It was a house built for Tier-1 Alphas—all high ceilings and sharp angles—designed to make anyone smaller feel exactly that: small.
Han Jisung stood before the full-length mirror in the master suite, his fingers trembling as he tried to fasten the silver cufflinks Minjun had chosen for him. The metal was cold against his skin, echoing the chill that had settled into his bones months ago. He looked at his reflection, but he didn't recognize the man staring back. The vibrant, loud, and soulful Han Jisung had been polished away, replaced by a pale imitation in a three-piece suit that cost more than his father’s house.
"Let me, darling. You’re shaking again."
The voice was like silk sliding over a blade. Jisung didn’t jump—he had learned that jumping was "anxiety-seeking behavior" that "distressed the bond"—but his breath hitched. Minjun appeared in the reflection behind him. He looked every bit the Pack Alpha’s scion: tall, broad-shouldered, with a face that graced the covers of business magazines. He looked like a gentleman. He looked like safety.
Minjun’s large, warm hands brushed Jisung’s aside. He made quick work of the cufflinks, his movements precise and graceful.
"I’m sorry," Jisung whispered, his eyes fixed on Minjun’s silk tie rather than his face. "I think the room is just a bit cold."
Minjun hummed, a low, vibrato sound that should have been grounding but felt like a leash tightening. "Is it the room, Jisung? Or is it that you’re neglecting your suppressants again? Your scent is... spiked. It’s sour. It’s quite selfish to let your moods affect the entire floor like this, don’t you think? It makes the staff uneasy."
"I took them," Jisung said quickly, his heart hammering against his ribs. "I swear, Minjun. Exactly when you told me to."
Minjun stepped closer, his chest pressing against Jisung’s back. He leaned down, burying his nose in the crook of Jisung’s neck, right over the faint, unformed mark where a bond should have been—a bond Minjun refused to finalize until Jisung was "stable enough to deserve it."
"See? This is what I mean," Minjun sighed against his skin. The heat of his breath made Jisung’s skin crawl. "I provide everything for you. I defended you when the Council said you were too low-blooded for this pack. And yet, you stand here and lie to me about your medication because you want to feel ‘in control.’ It’s a very unattractive trait, Jisung. It makes me wonder if you truly appreciate the position I’ve given you."
"I’m not lying," Jisung’s voice cracked, but even to his own ears, he sounded small and unconvincing. That was Minjun’s gift: he could make the truth feel like a fabrication.
Minjun pulled back, his expression one of weary, saint-like patience. He didn't yell. Minjun never yelled. He simply looked disappointed, a look that hurt more than a blow ever could. "We’ll talk about your honesty issues later. For now, fix your face. We have the Autumn Gala. I won't have the other Alphas thinking I don't take care of my Omega."
The Autumn Gala was a sea of black ties and shimmering gowns, a display of power masked by classical music and champagne. To the hundreds of guests, Minjun was a paragon of Alpha virtue. He kept a protective hand on the small of Jisung’s back, guiding him through the crowd, leaning in to whisper "sweet nothings" that were actually sharp commands.
"Smile, Jisung. You look like a victim. Don't embarrass me in front of the elders."
"Don't eat the hors d'oeuvres. You've been looking soft in the middle lately. We want you healthy and fit, don't we? For the image of the pack."
Jisung played his part. He had become an expert at the glass-eyed stare and the practiced, porcelain smile. But as the night wore on, a physical malaise he couldn't name intensified. He felt heavy—not just in his heart, but in his very bones. The smell of the roasted meats, the heavy perfumes, and the thick, competing scents of hundreds of Alphas and Betas made his head spin.
He felt a wave of dizziness so sharp he had to reach out and steady himself against a buffet table. A champagne flute rattled ominously.
"Jisung?"
It was Sora, one of the pack’s "High Omegas." She was the one the pack elders had originally wanted for Minjun—pure-blooded, elegant, and utterly cold. She looked at him not with concern, but with a curled lip of pure disdain. To her, Jisung was a stain on the pack's reputation.
"Are you quite finished seeking attention?" she hissed softly, stepping closer so the nearby Alphas wouldn't hear. "Minjun is over there trying to secure a trade deal, and you’re over here fanning yourself like a Victorian maiden. It’s pathetic. Do you have any idea how much work it takes to maintain the dignity you’re currently flushing down the drain?"
"I... I don't feel well, Sora," Jisung whispered, his hand clutching his stomach. A strange, metallic taste filled his mouth, and his vision blurred at the edges.
"None of us ‘feel well’ having to look at you," she snapped, her voice a low venom. "You were a stray. A charity case. You think because Minjun puts diamonds on you, you’re one of us? You’re a placeholder, Jisung. A temporary fix until he realizes that a broken thing can't be mended. Now, stand up straight before he sees you slouching and thinks he made a mistake choosing you."
Jisung forced himself upright, the effort sent a spike of nausea through him. He looked across the room and saw Minjun watching him. Minjun didn't look angry; he looked sad. He caught Jisung’s eye and gave a small, slow shake of his head—the universal sign of ‘Look at what you’re doing to yourself.’
It was a silent condemnation that felt heavier than a physical chain.
The ride home was a vacuum. The interior of the luxury sedan was silent, save for the hum of the engine and the sound of Jisung’s own ragged breathing. Minjun stared out the window, his profile regal and cold in the passing streetlights.
"I'm sorry about the buffet table," Jisung said, the silence becoming a physical weight in his lungs.
Minjun didn't look at him for a long time. When he finally did, his eyes were full of a terrifying, soft pity. "I'm not angry, Jisung. I'm just... exhausted. I spend so much energy trying to build a life for us, and you seem determined to tear it down with these little 'episodes.' Do you know what they were saying after you tripped? They were asking if I was ‘managing’ you correctly. They made me feel like I was failing you because I can't keep you stable."
"I didn't trip on purpose, Minjun. I felt dizzy. I think I might be sick. My stomach... it feels different."
"A doctor?" Minjun finally turned fully toward him, a small, patronizing smile on his lips. He reached out and stroked Jisung’s cheek. His thumb pressed just a bit too hard against Jisung’s jawbone, a silent reminder of the power he held. "You’re not sick, sweetheart. You’re just bored. You crave the drama of a diagnosis because you don't know how to function in a peaceful environment. It’s a common symptom of your 'unfortunate' background. You’re projecting physical pain to avoid the guilt of your own inadequacy. It’s a defense mechanism, Jisung. A very transparent one."
Jisung stared at him, his mouth dry. The words were so logical, delivered with such "love," that for a second, Jisung believed them. I’m not sick. I’m just ungrateful. I’m making this up to get attention because I don't feel worthy of him.
"I just... I want to go to sleep," Jisung whispered, his spirit finally breaking under the weight of the gaslighting.
"That’s my good boy," Minjun whispered, his hand moving to the back of Jisung’s neck, squeezing the sensitive skin there. "We’ll go home, you’ll take a sedative, and we’ll start fresh tomorrow. I’ll make sure the staff keeps the house quiet. No distractions. You just need to be still."
The manor was dark when they returned. The other members of the pack didn't even look up as they passed through the common area; to them, Jisung was a ghost, an intruder who didn't belong in their pristine lineage. Their indifference was a wall of ice that Jisung had long ago stopped trying to climb.
Minjun led him upstairs, his hand firm on Jisung’s elbow. He steered Jisung into the master suite and watched as Jisung changed out of the suit and into a silk nightshirt. Every movement Jisung made felt like he was moving through molasses. He felt drained, his body heavy with a fatigue that sleep wouldn't touch.
Minjun set a small white pill on the nightstand next to a glass of water.
"Take it. I want to see you rest. You’re so much more manageable when you’ve had your sleep."
Jisung didn't fight. He didn't have the strength left to even think about escaping. He picked up the pill and swallowed it, the bitter taste lingering on his tongue like the flavor of his own life.
"Good night, Jisung," Minjun said, leaning down to press a cold kiss to his temple. "Try to be better tomorrow. For me."
The door clicked shut, the lock turning with a finality that echoed through the empty room.
Jisung didn't move. He lay on the edge of the massive, cold bed, staring at the moonlight filtering through the heavy drapes. The nausea was still there, a low, pulsing throb in his abdomen that he dismissed as stress.
In the silence of the room, the first sob broke through his chest. Then another. He curled into a ball, clutching a pillow that didn't smell like him or anyone who loved him. He wept for the boy he used to be, for the music he no longer made, and for the sheer, terrifying loneliness of being surrounded by people who looked at him and saw nothing.
He cried until his eyes burned and his throat was raw. He cried until the sedative finally pulled him under, dragging him into a dark, dreamless sleep, unaware that the countdown to his escape—and his salvation—had already begun.