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I like someone. I really do. My diary entries are all about him—my sketch pad are full of his figure. His beautiful eyes,his handsome face that I can't capture perfectly in my art,and his smile—the smile that i rarely see but can cause me to kill just to see it again.
His name? Sasuke. He's unreachable. The youngest son of the Uchiha family. I knew he's unaware of my existence but it never stopped me from admiring him. Then came the team formation, we were 16. Together—we fought and build connection. But life is unfair—especially for him,here comes The fall of the uchiha clan. Killed—Murdered,leaving him alone and cold.
He grew colder, his once teasing remarks vanished, and soon enough—he left. I tried to stop him the night he was about to leave our village—he knock me out and left. My vision become blurry as I watch him walk away—leaving behind the memories we all build together.
Maybe I was a fool—no, I am a fool. But still, I begged Naruto to bring him back—to make sasuke feel home again. And that lovable moron—Naruto,left with the promise of bringing my first love back. Many years passed, I trained and trained and trained. Finally, I got stronger —but not enough to bring him back.
Throughout the years, Sasuke and I met but Not in good terms—we tried to kill each other—One fighting for revenge while the other is fighting for the sake of protecting the very village that betrayed him. Life is really full of unknown. Who would've thought that after everything, something worse can even happen? A war broke out. Many people died,while others are just clinging to the only hope we have—Naruto.
With Naruto leading—we won. He came back—both Him and Naruto missing an arm. But still —they look happy, content. I know i should too, but... I didn't feel anything. Not anger for his betrayal, not sadness for his story, and not love. I just feel— numb. I asked myself; Isn't this what i always wished for? he's back. He's finally back. But I dont care. It seems like my heart turned cold.
Many years passed after the war. We... we never spoke again. We live in one village but never had the courage to reach out. Naruto started dating Hinata— I'm happy for them,they truly deserve each other. Many of our friends started to form a family but still — I remained busy. Busy? no. not really, I just don't feel anything anymore. I sometimes thought of ending it all,but i thought of the patients i have in the hospital, of the people who loves me dearly—but sometimes, that love is not enough to keep a person going. So force my Sensei— now the Hokage,Kakashi to let me join the anbu.
I vividly remember his face, He's shocked. But still, he asked if I'm ok and i Answered with a small smile and nod. With a sigh, he let me. I entered as a anbu not as a medical ninja. Since then, I only took mission that will be impossible for me to come back alive—but I did, I always survive.
My friends starts to drag me out every night to hang out only to be coldly rejected. They didn't stopped—not until i started to smile again. I started to feel alive again. Finally. But that happiness didn't last— my parents died. just a few days after I left for a solo mission. Again, I felt numb. I hate it. I tried to take as many mission as i can to distract my mind but soon enough, i fell ill. Now lying on the hospital bed with him on my side.
".... why are you here?" i mumble but load enough for him to hear.
silence
"I'm... worried about you.. Sakura..." in a quiet whisper, sasuke manage to utter the words.
And that simple sentence made me feel hope, hope that maybe— Maybe I'm not alone.
"... why..?" mumble
"... Because.. I care about you.."
"you don't." i replied, trying to deceive myself—but heart longing for him to deny— to tell me he care.
"I do. Sakura I do." with a firm voice—sasuke replied. His eyes shining with something that I can't understand.
silence
"... thank you.." mumble.
For the first time since the war, I look at him directly in the eyes, my lips smiling slightly—small but genuine. He took my hands and caress it softly.
"please let me take care of you now Sakura." With a s
oft voice full of promise,he whispered.