Author, I am in awe. Not only is this fic steeped in lore and hot as fuck (including so many of my favourite things!!), you also went from ‘not knowing much about Johanna’ to writing 10k of Bellara/Johanna smut in the space of like, 6 weeks? Your brain is so large, truly.
I was completely enamoured with your Bellara voice throughout, from the beginning set up where she's enjoying being more "hands-on" with her projects despite Johanna's disdain, to her dynamic with Johanna (and the interplay of their respective egos), to all of Bellara's little asides that act as like, embellishments on her own narration. It really encapsulated those 'Bellara Lutare has ADHD' vibes and I am SO here for it.
Some of my fave Bellara observations:
- I should ask her for her advice on keeping whites white. To be fair, it is pretty impressive under the circumstances. I also want the Johanna Hezenkoss laundry tips.
- If I survive this… Emmrich’s going to kill me. And then Rook’s going to kill me. And then I’m going to die of embarrassment. PLEASE. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH.
- Has Johanna done this before, with women? Did she and Emmrich ever- No. No thank you sdjksgsdf I love the way her mind keeps drifting off, it's so realistic tbh 😭😭
- Bellara at the golem rod just like 👀: Not the safest of implements, but plenty exciting. Maybe it will do something exciting. Groundbreaking.
- the "[...]at this point, she would turn to Anaris himself just to be able to orgasm." immediately followed up by Ew. Maybe not. Desire can’t control me that badly. LMAO
As mentioned above, there were so many things I enjoyed about the Bellara/Johanna dynamic, but I had to highlight some particular favourite aspects:
- the push/pull between them in the Chamber of the Unbound (and how that name ends up with brand new meaning!
- the blood magic conversation, because one just has to laugh at the mental image of Johanna kinda being a snob about... fuel sources while emphasising her kill count
- Johanna basically like, using her subject matter expertise to goad Bellara into thinking about things more academically (with a wide variety of effects lmao), like:
- "You used blood magic on a spirit didn't you 😐" Bellara can't say she wasn't warned!
- Johanna continued to be a major nuisance and a minor assistance... truly the fic in a nutshell but Bellara is not complaining
- "Are you a good influence?"/"The best." please picture me screaming internally!!
- The very cool conversation and lore/worldbuilding about the Formless One and Johanna just like, pointing out he might have been Hiding in There and Bellara being all 🤔🤔? @ the Necropolis but Johanna being just like 🤷♀️ wait 1000 years and ask him yourself, which rude, some of us aren't functionally immortal Johanna Hezenkoss
This last point brings me to probably my favourite favourite part of the fic overall, which is cool and sexy worldbuilding. Personhood and autonomy are probably some of my favourite narrative themes, and Veilguard provided so much fertile ground for exploration with how it expanded what we know about spirits and souls. (I'm forever laughing that even though the game goes to great lengths to explain how they're different, even Watchers themselves use them interchangably in a colloquial sense!)
So, anyway, you can imagine how utterly delighted I was to receive a gift with sex pollen wisps. And why this is probably my favourite interaction of the entire fic:
Are you saying they have no influence?’ Bellara grinned madly, anticipation and anxiety warring within her.
‘So does alcohol, and money, and family, and a thousand other little things. Life is about being influenced. Whether you see it or not, it is always happening to you.’
She's so right, though, and yes... little wisps that are not quite spirits just nudging people along instead of undertaking full-scale possessions...it's like you've seen into my head!
And then that interaction basically leading into the sex??? In a mirrored alcove (the floor mirror 🥵🥵)?? the the myriad half-naked Bellaras that looked back at her from the walls and ceiling. Johanna taking charge and bossing Bellara around (How am I supposed to fuck you if you don’t spread your legs for me)???? Improvised object insertion????? Johanna losing her patience and getting more hands-on in the end? The mention of Johanna's spectacles pressing into Bellara's thighs and the little cuddle at the end??🔥💯 🔥💯 🔥💯 🔥💯 🔥💯
Seriously, thank you so much for this amazing gift; it was incredible from start to finish!!
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ziskandra on Chapter 2 Fri 05 Sep 2025 02:37PM UTC
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