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   Control Yourself by butteredsideup

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   26 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Galina Molchalina
   • Montreal Voyageurs | Montreal Metros Team Ensemble (Game Changers)
   • Ottawa Centaurs Team Ensemble (Game Changers)
   • POV Shane Hollander
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • POV Alternating
   • Anxious Shane Hollander
   • Insecure Shane Hollander
   • Eating Disorders
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Domestic Fluff
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • eventually
   • Established Relationship
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Post-Book 2: Heated Rivalry (Game Changers)
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • Grinding
   • Anal Fingering
   • Body Worship
   • Dry Humping
   • Medical Inaccuracies
   • probably
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Vomiting
   • i dont care if the hockey is inaccurate SUE ME
   • i call them the voyageurs
   • cry about it
   • Shane Hollander Has an Eating Disorder
   • Smut
   • Gratuitous Smut
   • Kinda?
   • Ilya Rozanov Loves Shane Hollander
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • i'd sooner die than use ai
   • orthorexia

   Summary

   Part of Shane’s brain knew this slight fear in his mind wasn’t grounded in reality. He was one of, if not the best player in the league right now. It was hardly even a controversial opinion. But he knew he could do better. He wasn’t pushing himself enough. Hell, he was more drained after a summer with Ilya than he was when he left the rink.

   That wasn’t good enough. His efforts weren’t good enough. He wasn’t good enough.

    

   Or: Shane's control issues reach a breaking point as he develops an eating disorder disguised as a performance diet. Ilya tries his best.

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

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   25 Dec 2025