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I look in the mirror as I dressed my lips with blood red lipstick. I rub my lips together before popping them to ensure that everywhere is colored. I do another once over my make up. My eyeliner flowed across my eyes and swooped off, creating a sharp point at the edge of my magenta eyes. My eyelashes were curled and spread evenly across the edge of my eyelids. As I coated my painted lips with lipgloss, a man with blonde hair and orange eyes hidden behind pointed anime glasses walked through the door to our bedroom and stood behind me. "Going somewhere Roxy?" He asked, his eyes clouded and unfocused. "Yeah. Just gunna go hang with Janey and the girls." I say stagnantly. I see his face in the mirror. He knows I'm lying. But he doesn't say a word. He just stands there and stares at us in the mirror. A few moments pass by before he walks into our bathroom. I can hear the buzzing of his electric toothbrush as I try to find a way to put up my hair.
I finally give up putting up my hair as Dirk begins to walk out the bathroom, and decide to just brush it. He walks over to where I'm standing and kisses me on the cheek. "Don't stay out late." He said. I focus on my hair in the mirror and stare at his reflection to answer him. "Alright." I continue to brush my hair while speaking. We we've been this distant since about a year ago. And every day, I see him retreating more and more into himself. I know he knows that I've been unfaithful. I know it's killing him. I don't want to stay with him anymore. I don't want to kill him anymore than I already have. But I continue on. Why? I don't know anymore.
I finish brushing my hair and head for our bedroom door when I hear him call out. "Roxy!" I turn around quickly to see what he wants. I meet his eyes and I can see him trapped within himself, and in there he's begging me to stay. But the Dirk trapped inside and the Dirk housing him said two different things. "See ya when you get back." I nodded. "Love you Rox." A piece of my heart chips off. "Love you too Strider." And with that I walk out our bedroom door and head out of our apartment. It's a warm night. As warm as the blood that flowed through me. I walked down the stairs and headed for the parking lot.
As I walked I passed a window with a couple similar to how Dirk and I used to be. The girl pounces on her boyfriend and smiles. They exchange words before laughing. What happened to us? Why weren't we like that anymore? Another guy then walked into the house, and started to introduce a friend, and I suddenly felt like I was suffocating. I quickly ran away from the window. I continued on to the parking lot.
I passed a cat resting within a hat outside in the cold. It was small and had white fur above it's eyes, almost like an extra set of eyes. The hat was orange and had a single dot on it. Soon the cat left the hat and went into it's owners house. I looked in the window and saw the cat lay on a soft green pillow with polkadots.
I finally reached the parking lot and see a jetblue and green car with a custom license plate that said "Ecto-1". I opened the door to the car and was welcomed by a face with slightly bucked teeth, pure blue eyes, rectangular glasses and jet black hair. "Hey Ro-Lal." The face said. I smiled at the man in the seat, but with a smile that wasn't completely genuine. "Hey John." I said. "Ready to go?" I looked back at the apartment complex I lived in with Dirk. I saw a shadow in the window of my apartment walk away before the lights went off. A single tear fell down my face silently. I turned to John and nodded "Yeah." Before getting in the car. "Let's go."
I don't wanna be.... A murderer.