Yes,Mistress

by Tripleojesus400

Summary:

College besties to WAY more
Come along on the journey of Jess Keigo and many more through their experiencing love and kink

there are no ties to the anime other than names and slight use of some of the characters back stories but no significant themes are here

 

A playlist I made for this fic 😋
https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/yes-mistress/pl.u-11zBPZ1TNKA1bY

Notes:

this is written in Keigos prospective

Chapter 1

 It’s been a month since I’ve been home with having to be in different places for work altogether it's the worst part of my job but that's just apart of the job description

While I was reaching near home I get a text when stopping at a stoplight 

From :Mistress  ⛓

I heard you were coming home today, meet me ready, you know the place @7 ;)

I just pause in place I haven’t seen this name on my phone in a while I respond with a simple yes ma’am and continue on my way home

When I finally get home it’s 5:30 and since I don’t know what she has a planned I’ll keep it simple just a small snack to hold me over till after and then I start the long torturous process of preparing and getting ready to her standards I would love to have the punishment I had last time I didn’t but she knows I enjoyed that a little um too much so it won’t be that one again

It’s 6:30 and I sitting outside her house I know she said 7 but I know that means 6:30 I walk up to the door and knock 3 times before she opened the door “You just get cuter by the day don’t you keigo” she says opening the door enough for me to walk in when I’m past her I stop turn towards her and kneels in front of her “Good boy ready to get collard” Being collard always help me get in sub headspace quicker “Yes ma’am I’m ready” She gets the collar off the table next to the door and she comes over to me and puts it on me “Is it too tight "she says putting the rest of the flap in the loop “No ma’am” “Ok then” she backs up a little and tilts my head up to look at her “go in the room and get naked and look pretty for me ok” “Yes mistress” “Ok go on now”

she walks away from me and I get up and go upstairs to where I’m supposed to be and get undressed and kneel on the pillow that was provided to me in the middle of the room hands on either leg waiting for her to arrive after what felt like forever but was really only 10 minutes “Sorry for the delay wanted to do an extra cleaning on these before being used” she sits a medium size case on the table next to me I’ve seen it before but she’s never used it on me “you remember when we went and did a another run thru of things you were ok with and weren’t you moved sounding form a maybe to a yes so I think we should try it tonight you're ok with that” I get a little excited after doing a little research I heard it could be an interesting experience so why not “yes ma'am i am”

She directs me to sit in the chair she pulled to me I sit in it and she starts the bonding process that I’m all too familiar with first the feet to the legs of the chair then a spreader bar on the thighs the hand on the back of the chair with leather cuffs “Color keigo” we not to long ago added the stop light system to our playtime’s /scenes “Green” i simply say “Good now sit there and be pretty while i set everything up ok…. Ok” She moves to the table and opens the case with im guessing the sounds in them and opens is after putting on a glove on then takes the small one and one a little bigger than it the other then she closes the case and grabs a bottle of lube that was also on the table

She coated the sound with lube with her gloved hands and then scooted the stool with her foot in front of me once she sat down she took the left glove with her teeth and now the hand that didn't have the sound in it grabbed my dick and started to lightly stroke it “Ok do you remember your safe word” “Yes” i say barely trying to keep my composure “Remind me what it is again” “Hawks” “Good boy now relax and let the sensations take over”she says with a smile 

she take the sound lines it up with my urethra and pushes it down antanginzingly slow “Fuuuuck” i say once the there is no more of the small pole to push down “Color keigo” “Fuck green” “Ok good good” she starts to stroke my dick with the sound in and it drives me absolutely crazy i feel like i could cum but it also feels impossible to do so

She stops when i start to thrust into her hand “Now now no cumming just yet i'll let you know when you can do that but not now ok good” She takes the sound out and it feels kind of weird then she does the same thing she did to prep the last sound for the next one

She does the same antagonizing process of pushing it down slowly but this one feels different my whole body freezes and i feel like i have to pee like really bad “Is it normal to feel like i have to pee because i feel like i have to pee” “Yes its normal stop thinking and just enjoy” She takes her grip on my dick and tightens it just a little and i automatically throw my head back at how fucking good it feels she keeps up the deadly pace and tightness till

“Please mistress i don't think i can hold it anymore please let me cum please” i beg i try to move my legs to close them but the spreader bar stops that from happing “just a few more minutes ok just give me 4 more minutes can you do that for baby” “fuck ok i think i can” “good see the time going past already just four minutes” that felt like the longest four minutes of my life

She pulled out the sound but still kept the same speed and grip and when she said the words “Now” i had the best orgasms I've ever in my life had like ever i felt high after and a little dizzy like room spinning and all once i rode out my orgasms and came back to life i saw her cleaning everything up and i'm free from all restraints and laying on the bed

“Oh you're finally awake I'll be done cleaning in one second just let me put this in the closet and we can move downstairs but till then i brought your bag with comfy clothes in it so you should shower then change into that then we'll go downstairs i ordered your favorite foods and snacks it should be here in a few minutes ok” she said in a completely different tone than when she last said something to me i like this side of her very much i get up and make my way to the bathroom attached to the room we were in and showered then when i was done i put on the clothes i left here last time they kind of smell like her too when i was done changing we made our way downstairs and the food and stuff came at the same time

i sat on the couch while she got the food and put the fuzzy blanket that i love over my shoulders and get comfortable on the couch she comes over and put the stuff on the coffee table “So i got yakitori from that place you told me about the other day and just some drinks that i know you like and some snacks” she says taking stuff out of the bags "thank you mistress” “Stop it playtime is over” “your right that's my bad thanks Jess i really appreciated” “How we feel are you uncomfortable in anyway” “nah I'll let you know if it does though” ‘did you really like it I've never done it before” “yeah it really did feel like i had to pee though "we both laugh We start to ate i tell her about my trip and we just talked and watched a movie “so your staying here tonight or going back home”she says as we start to clean up “you expect me to go home after being by myself for 6 weeks” “hey just asking and even if you said you were going home i wouldve guilt tripped you into staying” “you do it every time” “so just stay everytime then” “if i dont have anything important the next moring then yes i stay with you then jesus” i say with a smile on my face “you know you dont wanna sleep without your mistress”she says returning the smile i mean shes not wrong in the slightest 

Chapter 2

Now that i'm back home for a good playtimes have happened at least once or twice a week and  today is one of those days im currently on my way over to her house and by the prepping instructions i kinda have an idea of what happening tonight

I get there at 6:30 walk up to the door knock three times and then she opens the door

“Hey keigo how are you” she says as she let me in i do the usual procedure of kneeling in front of her as she puts my collar on me “not too tight is it” “no ma’am ” “ok come on now did you do what i told you for prep” she stops walking and turns to me “yes every step” i say standing up “good good ok let's go upstairs”

We go upstairs and we both get ready i knew from the prepping instructions i knew some type of penetration was going to be happening she was getting everything she needs for tonight and putting it on the bed “pick a number 5-10” she says from the closet “ummm 8” i say hesitantly she doesn't say anything i sit on the edge of the bed next to everything she has put out its a harness lube a vibrator some restrains and a blindfold

She comes back from the closet with a light brown dildo in her hand “you chose the lucky number 8 my only skin colored one oh and also its 8 inches” she smiles at me “ok you remember how this goes” she hands me the harness“yes i believe so”i say taking the harness its been awhile since ive had to put it on her but i figure it out quick enough

“Ok now go lay in the middle of the bed” i scoot in the middle of the bed and lay on my back she climbs on the bed and push my legs up so my knees are straight up then she puts a blindfold over my eyes she starts the bonding process minus the ankles and this time my hands are to the headboard

I hear a bottle open and the i feel her circle my hole I flinch a little bit she stopped for a second moves her hand then she first inserts one finger we haven't done this in a while so the feeling feels new for some reason after a while she adds the second finger i let a small gasp that turns into a moan when she puts the vibrator the tip of my dick “so today i just want you to stop thinking and let all of your sense roam free ok” i physically can't speak between her fingering me and the vibrator the only thing to come out my mouth was some gibberish even i couldn't understand

When she had a free hand from stretching me i felt her body move on the bed and then i felt nothing then cold droplets run down my stomach my back arches off the bed from the sudden sensation then i felt the whole ice cube press against my right nipple it circles it then drags across my chest then to the other nipple she does it over and over again till im covered in water once she gets rid of the ice i feel her get closer to me and push into me slowly till we were skin to skin my upper half fully comes off the bed with a moan so loud i'm pretty sure the neighbors heard me

When she finally finds her pace i start to feel something hot on my chest from the way it stung and then it didn't i knew it was candle wax she did it in a S pattern then she went up and down my legs all while keep this viscous pace if i wasn't restrained to this bed i would be moving wayyyyy more but i can’t and i its killing me to not be able to touch her right now but thanks to these nice leather cuffs I can not

“Hey keigo do you wanna come tonight” what type of fucking question is that of course I wanna cum tonight I’m actually on the edge of coming right now “yes ma’am” I simply say to her as she slow down her pace but not enough for me to be able to fully come back to earth yet “ok then cut out the ma’am and mistress and call me mommy” I’m glad she can’t see most of my face right now and that we’re of in the middle of sex because my face gets so hot and I just know I’m red in the face

“From the way your dick just jumped i can tell your into it aren’t you baby” she say quickening her pace back up “come on be a good boy for mommy and say it keigo” she has both hands on either side of my face I can feel her breath on my face “come on baby I thought you were my good boy” I’m literally fighting for my fucking life here your killing me and you want me to talk GOD “m...mo….mom...mommy” “Good Boy that’s right say it again for me”she sits back up “fuck mommy” goddamn this girl is driving me crazy “I’m giving you permission to cum when you want for being such a good boy today kei” “thank you mis- I mean mommy” it take about 5 more strokes before I’m coming all over the both of us

When I finish cumming she pulls out and kisses my forehead “rest while I clean up k”starts taking everything off of me piece by piece leaving the blindfold for last by the time she did that though I was half sleep

After a long nap or what felt like a long nap I feel her playing with my hair“hey kei it’s time to shower ok” I slowly wake up falling into her touch more “ come on kei you can stay here tonight if you wanna but I have get you to at least shower and feed you or else what type a dom would I be” she smiles and laughs a little “a bad one a very bad one for basically starving me today as well then not feeding me I’m telling on you to the sex gods” I say in a very horse voice while sitting up on the bed “nooo not the sex gods” she says in a very dramatic way we share a laugh “ok come on kei I ordered us pizza and waiting for us downstairs” “ok ok I’ll shower and meet you downstairs” I say getting out of bed

She takes off my collar then I headed to the bathroom to shower my clothes and stuff we’re already in here she’s such a good domme while in the shower I reminisces about when we agreed to do this

She was my best friend that I meet in college we lived in co-ed dorms and so she was my roommates as well like 3 week into being roommates she told me she was working with a dominatrix to learn how to be one and she would always rope me in to practice on one time she literally did shibari on me while I was studying for a final

it didn’t turn into what it is now till around a years ago and at the time we hadn’t stayed in contact much after college I went to a bdsm club with a friend just to watch and that night I watched her basically tortured a man till he came it was interesting I can say the least but after she got off the stage we caught up and after that I told her I was interested in finding a dom and she offered we do a trail to see if we were compatible in this setting and we very much are we did all the contracts test and more and our first play time was just bonding with edging nothing too crazy

And now I can barely walk downstairs because she just fucked the hell out of me when I finally do reach downstairs she’s in the kitchen in the refrigerator

“It took you long enough” “I’m so sorry I don’t really have full control of my legs right now I had to try not fall every four seconds” she laughs and pulls out two bottles of water and tosses one at me I catch it and we make our way to the couch to eat and finish watching some show called sex education it’s been out after care show for the past two weeks

“So mommy huh” I say trying to hold back laughter “oh shut up you were into it and I just wanted to see how it felt hearing it” she says pushing me I sit back up while laughing “hey you could’ve made me call you daddy master whatever in that moment I would’ve said it but it wasn’t bad” “it’s all in the hips you know ” “oh shut it” we laugh and finish the rest of the episode 

 

Chapter 3

Awhile ago Jess told me that she wanted to get back into impact play and she obviously knew that was something I was highly interested in

On Monday I got a text from her
From:Mistress
Hey hey kei
I found this dungeon we can go to for the impact scene I was talking about the other day
Are you free Friday
if not make time this is the only spot they have open for the next two months
I’ll send you details soon;)

The week goes by and Friday finally appears and I meet her at her house I knocked 3 times and she opened the door in a robe she doesn’t even stay at the door

“Well hello to you to”I say walking in and closing the door “I’m not ready yet just make yourself at home I’ll be ready soon”she says while going back upstairs usually when I’m here it’s straight to business I haven’t just came here and had to wait for her to do anything

I go in the living room and sit on the couch she had music playing throughout the house so I didn’t turn on the tv I sit on my phone and just go through my socials and other things till I hear “kei I need your help” from upstairs I get up and head upstairs and go to her room

“How may I be assistance to you” I say standing against the door frame “I need you to tie my corset for me” “oook” I say walking towards her “ok I have to lace it to” I say seeing that it’s not laced at all “yeah it’s a new one” I start lacing the corset then when I was done I pull the strings and her back straightens completely “is it to tight” “hey that’s my line and no pull some more” I do as told and when it was tight as I could possibly get it I tie it

“thank ya thank ya ok give me like 5 minutes can you go through that bag and say everything that’s in it so I can see if I forgot something”
She says walking into her on suite bathroom I go over to the leather duffel bag and unzip it and start to pull things out

“ok there’s a flogger a paddle a whip a riding crop and my usual restraints leather cuffs for wrist and ankles and spreader bar….oh the blanket I use after scenes and a first aid kit” seems like I’m going to need it Jesus Christ “wait wait wait there should be more things in there” she says coming outta the bathroom “well that’s all I saw” she walks to her closet then back to me with another bag “forgot I packed two do the same for this one”

“yes ma’am” I open the bag that obviously was apart of a set with the other one “in this one it’s 2 plugs lube make that two bottles of lube a ball gag a ring gag and a pocket knife wait a knife” I say turning to her “yeah that was something on your yes list correct”she says putting on her boots “I mean yes but didn’t think you would actually do it especially at a dungeon”I say putting everything back in the bag after she finished zipping her boot she walks up behind me and wrap her hand around my waist “if you don’t want to do it tonight then say the word and I won’t” she puts her chin on my shoulder “just don’t go too far with it” I say laying my head on hers “I would never push you past your limits so either safe word if you can’t handle anything I do to tonight or yellow if you just need a break from everything ok…...I’m going to be much rougher on you tonight so if you get to a point where it’s too much for you let me know ok” “ok” “ok so let’s get ready to go”

She spins me around and looks at my outfit for what looks like the first time tonight she fixes my waist coat “we’re taking your car ok ok” she walks past me and grabs one of the bags and I get the other and follow her when we get outside we put the bags in the back seat and she takes the keys and gets in the driver's seat

It takes us 30 minutes to get there we park in the parking lot that’s behind the building “ okay before we go in you know the drill” she pulls out the collar out of nowhere like I don’t know where she pulled it from but I lean forward and she puts the collar around my neck “is it to tight” “no ma’am” “ok good in here I’m only mistress and ma’am no Jess no Jessica ok” I nod my head “and I won’t call you keigo just kei while we’re here ok” “yes,mistress I got it” she smiles at me “that’s my good boy ok let go”

We get out and gather our things and head inside at the security checkpoint while they checked the bags
“Um excuse me ma’am but you can’t bring this in here” he says taking the knife out “oh I called ahead and asked if I could bring it and the person I talked to over the phone said I could” “I’m sorry but I can’t let you in with this” he puts the knife back on the table “ugh can I talk to the manager here because I Distinctly chose to come here because she said I could bring it” “I’ll go find her” the security guard says and walks away

A few minutes later a woman with a very similar outfit to Jess walks up to us “hey were you the ones who asked for me” she said looking at the both of us “yes so I called last Saturday to make the reservation for my room and equipment for tonight and while I was making it I asked if it was ok for me to do knife play here and I was told yes and know he’s saying i can’t bring it in” “ok so your the your the young lady who asked for the rigging room ok I did say that to you sorry for the miscommunication i should’ve warned him about your visit today come on back I’ll show you to your room for the night” she says putting the knife back in the bag and handing us our bags back

We follow her and we walk past some public scenes that were way out of my comfort zone one of had there sub in a cage

When we arrived to the room the lady told us the rules and the different safety precautions that were provided while she was talking I was look around the room and it’s not much in here there’s a lot of hooks on the walls and different ropes and restraints a dresser labeled after care equipment and a couch when

“Ok have fun and be safe if you need anything extra don’t be afraid to ask”she says as she walks out the room “ok kei do me a favor and go sit on the couch and look pretty while I set up ok ok” I do as told and she sets everything on a table similar to the one tattoo artist use but it’s bigger

She put both of the now empty bags in the corner of the room “kei get undressed for me you can leave them on the couch” I start to get undressed and fold the clothes and put them on the couch “ok now come come” I walk over to her” remind me again what the safe word is” she says in a soft safe tone “hawks” “good say it whenever you want to ok” I nod my head ok “okay so I wanna see how my self control you have so I’ll only use ankle restraints and the spreader bar if I feel like I need to but your hands will be above you head so when they start to feel numb let me know”

She get my usual wrist cuffs put them on me and connect it a chain that’s connected to the ceiling “is it uncomfortable” she says stepping back “no ma’am it’s not” “ok now”she walks over to the table on wheels and drags it to me “pick a number 1 or 2” “2 ma’am” “ok so ring gag pick a number 1-3 then 1 or 2” “3&1” “okey riding crop and the silver plug with the blue diamond on it pretty” she walks up to me with the ring gag “open”

I open my mouth and she places the O ring behind my teeth and and fasten it behind my head she then picks up a bottle of lube opens it and puts some on her hands then on the plug she then walks behind me and goes to put the plug in after she does my body is trying to adjust to it being there plugs always feel weird for some reason

After cleaning her hands she picks up the riding crop “everytime I hit you with this crop I want you to count out loud I’m going to hit you In 3 sets of 15 with a minute in between each hit and if you don’t say the number I start over ok” “yes ma’am” she goes for the first strike across my chest and it hurts but in a good way “1” she goes for the next on my right hip “2”
The next one was on my inner thigh “shit 3” the next one way on my ass“4” next one in the middle of my back”5” she goes in the same pattern till we reach “15”

She takes the crop and puts it under my chin and tilts my head up to make eye contact with her “your doing good keep it up” she gives me another few seconds before going back at it but this time harder than before when we get to 10 I kinda zone out from all of the pain going through my body right now

“You we’re doing so good and now you wanna stop ugh now I gotta start over” she says she goes back in the same pattern I come back to and obey the counting rule again when we got to “15” she she stopped and ran her hand through my hair “ kei color” I think for a second a small break would be great “yellow” “ok baby what’s wrong let me know” she says with worry in her voice “just need a small break and maybe some water” “ok let me let you down then we can take a break ok” I nod and she releases my arms from the chains I stretch my arms and while she gets me water I sit on floor and wait for her she comes in and sits in front of me and hands me the bottle of water

“Do I need to adjust what I’m doing to make you more comfortable” I think for a minute “no breaks in between the hits just do them back to back it hurts more and not the good kind of hurts when you stop then go again” “so just” she demonstrates what I said by tapping me lightly with the crop “yes like that it doesn’t give me enough time to focus on the pain” “ok drink more water then we can get back to it ok” I nod I drink more water little by little then we get back to business

After the last 15 which was brutal like damn I think I started to bleed on my back and ass she switched to whip it was a short one but I know from experience that bitch still hurts ok “I’m only going to do this 5 times on the thigh then we can get to the knife part ok” she hit repeatedly in the same spot on my thigh 5 times my thigh is slowly turning all types of purples and reds at the moment

She put the whip down then grabs the knife and a small bottle of alcohol and a paper towel she cleans the knife “do you want Jess or mistress” “surprise me” I saw a small smile on her face before she squatted in front of me put her hand on the back of my leg and took the tip of the knife placed it on my leg

From the first drag I could feel that she was putting Jess on my leg each letter hurt less and less as they went by when she was done she put the knife back on the table she wipes across it to get rid of blood with her thumb the kisses it and say” mines” well that’s a first

She lets me down from the chain and took off the cuff on my wrist takes out the plug that I completely forgot about she gets a towel that was in the towel warmer are wiped all the blood of my back and ass there wasn’t a lot but I was there she put ointment on the bruises and helped me put my clothes back on

She took the blanket out of the bag and told me to hold it we left out the room and on the way out nobody was on the public stages anymore we leave out the building and to the parking garage she opens the truck to put the stuff in it she grabs the pillow that was in my trunk for some reason “you’re going to need this” she’s right I’m kinda glad this was back here we get in the car when I got as comfortable as I possibly could I unfolded the throw blanket and put it on my legs don’t know why but I’m like really cold

We get back to her house I’ve already decided that I’m staying with her tonight because I literally can’t drive right now now that I’ve come down from my high my body really fucking hurts I’m sitting in the living room laying on my side that didn’t get hit today and watch tv I could go up into the guest room but I don’t have the strength to go upstairs right now

She comes to join me on the couch she lifts my head and puts it on her lap and starts playing with my hair “how you feeling still cold” “no not since you bought me the comforter thank you” “your welcome keigo” I don’t know what she does to me but when she plays in my hair like this I instantly fall asleep everytime without fail

Chapter 4

Notes:

Just a quick update I’m literally in a hotel lobby waiting to leave Minnesota

For the last couple of sessions we’ve been doing impact at higher and higher levels and I absolutely love it

I’m on my way to jess's house right now and flashbacks from something she said to me the last session came to me

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“Come on keigo i CAN'T HEAR YOU you were doing so good come on I need the people down the street to hear you show me your enjoying this let me hear”
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I smile to myself while driving

I knock on the door 3 times she answers “come on your wasting time hurry up” I walk in the house and stop when I get in the collar isn’t there on the table I turn to her “yeah no collar today you’ll get it when I feel
Like you deserve it now go get naked”

She’s been more of a hard dom lately and I don’t hate it I make my way upstairs and get naked and wait for her to get upstairs

When she made her way in the room she walks straight to me “you ready to do what I say and when I say it” “yes mistress” “good now lay on the edge of the bed knees on the pillow stomach on the bed” I go do
Just that then I feel a blindfold come over my head and over my eyes

The first hit came with no warning I felt like a belt it landed right across my ass hard I let out what it sounds like moan/yelp she strikes again in the same spot this time the noise is just a moan she hits again but on my thighs and I can feel my dick start to get hard and with the next hit I was fully hard

“Oh look at that I haven’t even touched you yet and your already hard a little masochist huh”she hits again
“You get off on pain huh keigo”she hits again and I moan really loud “it feels that good ok well this is the only way that your cumming tonight all on your own just from the pleasure of pain”she hits this time in a pattern of three

I start to cry “please mistress….please” she hit again “what are you pleasing about” a few more tears come out along with snot out of my nose “ha...har”I can’t speak at all at this point “ha ha what keigo” she says pulling me up by my hair “haaardder” I finally got out she lets go I fall back on the bed I can feel her smiling there’s a brief silence in the room then a loud pop happens it’s the sound of the belt hitting my ass and thighs at the same time I scream so loud it’s ridiculous she does this again and again and again till I fully lift off the bed cumin all over the floor and bed in front me “god keigo that's a lot first time making someone cum without touching them yay me” she helps me on the bed and as soon I hit the bed I fall asleep

I wake up to the sun blinding me I notice that I’m laying on Jess's stomach I feel her hand in my hair it’s not moving it’s just there I look up the see her fast asleep I’m still sleepy so I just turn my head into her body more and try to go back to sleep

I can’t really so I just stay put and look out the window and think about the “MINE” comment she made when we were at the dungeon I’ve been thinking about it a lot and I don’t know if it was a Mine as a dom to sub or Mines as as more than that it was never apart of our agreement that we couldn’t see other people but neither of us have maybe that’s something I should bring up but no because what we have is good and I don’t wanna mess anything up

“Stop it I can feel you overthinking”she says waking up and turning so that I was in front of her she runs hand through my hair then softly rubbing the side of my face “what’s going on in that pretty little mind of yours” “nothing it’s nothing” “kei I can tell it’s not nothing just let it out” I take in a deep breath and let it out” when we were at the dungeon after you put your name on my leg you kissed it and said Mines was that just a D/S thing orr” she lets out a small laugh “ok so this wasn’t something you picked up on....this is the first time I’ve only had one sub like ever and I’ve been doing this for 9 almost 10 years now and I’ve grown attracted to you being my sub I’ve gotten used to our routine and I know we didn’t think it would grow into this but I want you to be my permanent partner kei if you’re ok with that” I smile “ I don’t mind at all Jess”

Chapter 5

Since becoming permanent partners at least that’s what we’re calling it we’ve done more vanilla stuff sometimes but not often

But I know I’m in for a treat or at least I hope
ok so the last week I got busy and didn’t show up and didn’t let her know just didn’t show up and I haven’t heard from Jess at all I’ve tried calling and texting but nothing until she text me this morning told me to be FULLY prepped and on time

I get there I knocked 3 times and she opened the door she said nothing just let me in and closed the door and walked past me “ok” I say to myself she starts walking upstairs and I don’t know what else to do but follow her she leads me to the room where we used to everything we haven’t been in here for a while now

She turns to me with a static but upset look on her face “sit” I do as told I sit on the bed “you don’t want me to look pretty this time” she gives me a death glare and walks to the closet and comes back with a harness the small whip that hurts like a bitch and a jet black dildo and lube she drops it on the bed she goes back to the closet and comes back with restraints and a ball gag

The silence is killing me”hey Jess mistress whatever can you at least talk to me please” “if I wanted to talk I wouldn’t have this now open” I open my mouth and she puts the gag in my mouth

She puts the harness on herself this time I’m starting to feel I don’t know sad because she really angry at me like I knew she was mad but ouch

“Middle of the bed” I scoot back onto the bed and sit in the middle I’m still clothed and this is weird none of what we usually do is happening and I don’t like it

She crawls up the bed and starts to take off my shirt throws it then pants and boxers and does the same “on your stomach ass up” I look at her one last time before I turn around when I’m in desired position I feel her fingers that I’m guessing is covered in lube at my hole she then presses 2 fingers in as deep as she could go and fingers me for a while then she stops I feel her get closer then she plunges deep into me hard I scream over the gag I feel her open my hand and place something in it I look at it”it’s a dog clicker since you can’t say your safe word push the button and I’ll stop” I nod that’s the most she’s said to me since I’ve been here

She pulls out and starts going a fast pace that was hard to keep up with I’m moaning so loud that my throat starts to hurt the gag is making me drool and tears are running down my face “look at you so pathetic crying for what keigo” I just keep moaning it’s all I can really do “i really thought you were my good boy” “I am” I say as best as I could over the gag she reached down and unbuckles it “what was that” I get use to my mouth being free” I am your good boy mistress” “no no no no MY good boy comes when called you on the other hand don’t so now I have to show you what bad boys get” “please mistress please I’m so sorrry I won’t do it again” the whole sentence comes out as a whine and more tears start pouring out “of course you won’t” she grabs the whip and pulls out

She backs away from me a little and starts hitting my ass with her hand she did it 10 times in the same spot then 10 more on the other cheek then I felt that whip hit in the same places she hit with her hand

No other impact toy hurts like this one and she knows it I just know my legs and ass are purple she stops and I feel the whip fall on the bed she lays beside me with her back against the headboard “on top now” I get the strength from somewhere to get up and on top of her I sit slowly on the straps slowly my ass and legs burn at the movement

She puts wrist restraints on me and link them behind my back I start trying to find my rhythm on top of her and when I find and it hits the perfect spot I throw my head back a little “fuck” I say feeling the burn of the ass get worse but now it’s feels good her hands travel to my ass she rubs the grips hard I hiss in pain “you hurt me keigo” I bring my head up so we were making eye contact “you didn’t text call nothing I was worried about you” “I’m sorry mistress I got busy and it-“ she hits my ass and forces me all the way down so we were skin to skin I let out a loud moan it so deep in me that when I look down I can she it through my stomach “I don’t want to hear excuses” she lets go “when you come down everytime you should be taking all of it I know can” I start bouncing up and down on her and I notice she looks like she enjoying this a lot “everytime you go all the way down I can feel it you wanna make mistress cum don’t you” I nod my head quickly “yes yes I do ma’am” I say now going harder than before

she trying not to show but I can see it all over her face she just as close as I am she reaches for me and bring my head to her and kissed me like this was her last chance to I kiss her back with the same passion she pulls away and make a noise I’ve come find out I’m the only one to hear her eyes roll back and just that sight was enough for me to cum “fuck kei goddamn”we ride out the orgasm together

she undo the link between the cuffs and I roll over beside her and she looks like she’s three seconds away from sleep and then she is I laugh a little then I wait awhile before I get up to clean up everything I get the harness off of her and lay her down on the bed correctly I go in the bathroom I shower change and go back in the room I put everything back where it was supposed to be other than the dildo I put that in the need to clean box

I get back after putting everything up she’s still fast asleep I lay next to her just so she knows I’m here and do miscellaneous shit on my phone while I wait for her to wake up

About 2 hours later I feel her start to wake up I didn’t wanna move so I open my front facing camera and she her eyes starting to open I go back to Twitter and wait for her to wake up fully on her own she stretches her arms out “how long was I out” she gets closer to me “about 2 hours” she sits her head up and looks at me “when did you put on clothes” she says then lays her head back on my chest “after I showered I cleaned everything up so don’t worry about it” “mhm I’m still mad at you by the way” she says wrapping her arm around my torso

“I know and I’m sorry I’ll do anything to make up for name it you got it” as soon as I said it I had instant regret “anything you say food and a spa day would make up for it” “ok I’ll set everything up for your spa day” “you know you have to come to right” “did you think I wasn’t I could use a massage after that scene” “yeah yeah you know you liked it” “I did but I don’t like laying next to someone in latex go change your like a personal heater” “oh shut it just give me a minute you’re comfortable” “I’ve heard and when your done changing can we go in your bed this one isn’t as comfortable” “mhm

Chapter 6

So I had the next four day off so I decided I would set jess's spa day up for the end of the of the week we get there today (thursday) and because we have a rather late check in time just dinner is planned and tomorrow were doing the whole nine massages ,facials, manicures,pedicures,hot springs then saturday just laughing around at the pool they have sunday im taking her to do some shopping and then were back home monday
Jess told me to pick her up some restaurant she’s having lunch with someone didn’t say

Jess POV
It’s my weekly lunch with my very judgmental parents I highly debated not going but I dragged myself here I’m waiting for them at our usual place on the outside sitting area I text keigo to pick me up at 2

I’m sitting on my phone when I see someone approach the table and it’s just my mother “hello Jessica how long have you been waiting” “not long where’s dad” I say sitting my phone on the table “he’s not going to make it today some work stuff came up” she says settling in her seat “mhm well I can’t be here long I have other engagements later on today” from the look on her face I can tell the judgemental train is about to enter the station “are you still doing that weird sex stuff your 25 it’s time to get a real job” “I do have a real Job I’ve been doing it for the 10 years now i think you would know that you did pay for 4 years of college and it’s not weird sex stuff “ I say annoyed “Jessica you hit men get paid for it its weird”

“I’m not having this conversation with you today how’s Astro is he still kicking it” I say trying to change the subject “yes Astro is still alive and well anyways what are these other engagements you have planned today” I shift in my seat looking at the time praying it goes by faster “um I’m going to a spa or something I don’t really know keigo planned everything” her face lights up “ohh the sweet boy you met in college are you dating” “you can say that I guess” I really don’t want to tell her our actual relationship so we’ll go with that “and how does he feel about your weird sex stuff” I choke on my water “um well he knows about it and he has no objection to it”

Before she could respond my phone vibrates I look and a text from kei
KEI-BABY
i know you said 2 but im out here waiting for you when your ready
Also i can see you
On your left
I look up and look towards the street and see his car he waves “oh is that him tell to come over” she says turning back to me I wave him over and he comes over “um hey”he says walking to the table “oh sit sit it lovely meeting you” he looks at me and I push the seat out next to me he sits down “ok keigo this is my mom mom keigo” I say introducing the two “it’s nice meeting you” “so Jess tells me you’re dating” I look at him apologizing with my eyes “uh yeah it’s new but yes” he says to her “so what do you think about her um hobby” I mentally curse at myself for coming today “oh her being a dominatrix I don’t mind at all” he grabs my hand under the table

“I don’t see how you don’t it’s weird and I wish she would just give it up already she walks around in latex and hits people it’s just not right” she says with a disgusting look on her face “well I’m sorry you feel that way and I would love to continue this conversation but I have a 4:00 appointment for a spa and I know how much mistress hates to be late so if you don’t mind we have to go right mistress” keigo says he turns to me with his hand out I take it “right sorry mom I’ll see you next week” we get up and walk away
Back to keigo Pov
I can’t believe her mother is like that I couldn’t sit there and hear her talk about Jess like that “hey thank you for that” Jess says putting my hand that was on the gearshift in hers “your welcome I guess sorry if I overstepped I couldn’t just sit there and let her talk about you like that” “you didn’t over step kei she’s always been like this since I’ve started” I look over to her and she’s looking out the window “how long before we’re there” “another hour” I feel her take my hand place it on her lap I look back to her then back to the road

With her hand on top of mines she starts to guide my hand up her thigh she stops when we reach the bottom hem of her skirt she lets go of my hand and pulls her skirt up to her waist “you deserve a treat today so make mistress cum ok” she says reclining her seat back

While still look forward I make my way up her thigh and to her very warm pussy i push the sting from her thong to the side
Jess Pov
This isn’t the first time kei has fingered me but for some reason being in the car made everything feel 10x more sensitive even him just pushing the sting out of the way he starts slowly circling my clit “fuck kei that feels so good” I say grabbing onto his arm he slides his way down and presses two fingers in me “still feels good mistress” I nod my head “yes baby so good faster” he lets out a sly smile and quickened his pace and I’m a mess I don’t submit to anyone like ever but damn keigo for sure could be the first person

I can feel my orgasm coming faster than usual like its rushing to get to the finish line I literally stop breathing because of how good it’s feels “k..k….kei I’m a...bout to fuck cum” he keeps the same pace same pressure but now his thumb has found its way to my clit

I start to pant and squirming in the seat and in no time I’m cumming all over his hand my vision goes black for a moment and then I’m seeing stars my eyes are still closed trying to get back to normal I feel the car stop and see where in a target parking lot

“We have another 40 minutes before we’re there so do you wanna go to the bathroom and change or just use the bathroom” he says turning in his seat to look at me fully “ um yeah my stuff is in the truck right” I ask pulling my skirt down “yeah you want me to come in with you” “ no I won’t be that long 10 minutes at the longest” “ ok I’m right here when your ready” he says putting the car into park and relaxing in his seat
Keigo POV
She get out the car I watch her go around to the back of the car and in the truck she’s in there for a minute or two then she closes it back I watch her walk into the store then I hear a phone vibrate I look at the cup holder and it’s hers I look at the name and it’s her mother I leave it and stops shortly I do a little browsing on my socials and check a few emails before I hear somebody knocking on the window

I jumped a little then calmed down when I noticed it was Jess I unlocked the door and she gets in “ok I’m ready” “ok let’s go” I say getting back in driving position and putting the car in drive and left the parking lot and got back on the road

When we arrived to the spa I got out first I got our bags out the truck then go to open the door for her “so this is why you made me bring clothes”

ok so I found this resort type place that just outside of town and decided we needed to get away for awhile “yeah I had to pull in overtime for that major fuck up so come on let’s get our spa on” “ ok never say spa on ever again” we laugh and walk in “hello welcome to Stars resort and spa how everything going” the lady at the front desk greeted us “good thank you I have Reservation here under the name Keigo Takami” “ohhhh k I see you here you’ll be in suite 607 and here’s your key enjoy your stay” she slides the key to us “thank you” “oh it’s no problem you’re a beautiful couple by the way” “thank you” jess said turning to look at the lady

When we get on the elevator to go up to the room “ i dont know if i ever told you this but im absolutely terrified of elevators” i look at her and shes holding on to the rail for dear life i try to hold back laughter but when she looks back at me i lose it “ im sorry i just thats kind of funny” i say standing closer to her “ have i ever told you about the time i had sex in an elevator” the elevator dings and then the doors open and we leave out “ no but let me guess it was just you and the lucky lady alone in the elevator it got stuck and it was a long time before you even got a response from the help button people she fell for the keigo charm and boom sex” she say as we stopped infront of the room i make a buzzer noise “wrong it was a dude we were stuck for 3 hours and for one of those it was pure bliss and yes he fell for the keigo charm” i say tapping the tip of her nose then opening the door

She walks in the room well suite we put our bags down by the door and walk around the room and in the bathroom there's a jacuzzi in it “hm you really do know how to treat a women dont you keigo” she says turing and walking toward me “so what's the itinerary” she says wrapping her arms around my waist

“just dinner is planned for tonight and for tomorrow were doing the whole nine massages ,facials manicures,pedicures,hot springs then saturday just lounging around at the pool they have sunday i'm taking you to do some shopping and then were on the way back home Monday” I say rocking side to side “ok what time is dinner tonight” “reservation is @7” she grabs my hand and looks a my watch “it 4:30 so we have plenty of time to have a little fun” i start walking backward out of the bathroom and lead us to the bed

“you know kei I feel like it’s been way too long since you’ve been inside me” she says as she pushes me back on the bed and climbing on top of me “mm you think so well your wish is my command” she starts taking my clothes off one by one just throwing them all over the room I reach to take off her shirt and when I got it off I throw it somewhere then I reach to unzip the zipper on the back of the skirt I start to unzip it and it kinda gets stuck” you break it you buy it” she says in between kisses I get the zipper all the way down and get it off of her and throw it

She moves so that now she directly on top of my dick just feeling her warmth and wetness makes my dick rock hard she moved her hand down and aligned herself with me and slowly lowers herself till she’s taken all of me she throws her head back and place her hands on my chest she leans forward a little and after adjusting she starts bouncing slowly up and down then increasing as she got more comfortable

The sounds coming out of this room is nothing short of how amazing this shit feels hearing Jess whimpering and moaning because of me just makes everything 20x better I could feel her pace get a little sloppy so I took initiative and flipped us and now I’m on top she lets out a small gasp when her back hits the bed she then grabs my neck and pulls me to her and kisses me “fuck me please” she says looking deep into my eyes I sit up one arm on the bed for stability and begin to drill her shit her moans have went from soft to damn near screaming “fuck kei just like that don’t stop please please please” I feel her tighten around me and she her eyes roll back

I keep the same pace as we both climb up to our climax “fuck yes please please cum in me please” I look at her then at the same time we both came loudly might I add I fall next to her on the bed we’re both trying to fill our lungs again in silence I look over at her and she staring at the light fixture above us “we have to that more often”she says turning to me “yeah we really do” she gets closer and wraps herself around me
and sleep seems to take over us

Notes:

This part was entirely to long so it’ll be in parts most likely 3 parts to exact

Chapter 7

I hear a phone ringing and I slowly wake up because of it I fully open my eyes and reach my arm out to the side table a grab my phone it’s the alarm I set so we didn’t oversleep and miss our reservation

“Hey Jess” I say looking over to where she should be in the bed and she’s not I get up and noticed the room door is closed and it sure wasn’t when I fell asleep I get up and open the door to see her sit on the couch watching tv”hey you're finally up” she says smiling at me she has on my shirt it’s killing me because she looks so fucking cute “yeah we should start getting ready” she looks down at her phone “oh yeah I call the shower first” she says getting up “yeah knock yourself out” she kisses me then walk to the bathroom I go and lay on the couch and look at what she was watching it was some murder documentary

After like 20 minutes she yells “showers all yours” I get up and make my way to bathroom she still in there in a towel brushing her teeth I strip out of my boxers in get in the shower “you know your cute right” she says looking at me through the glass door while still looking in the mirror “yeah I’ve been told once or twice” I say looking over at her “how fancy is this restaurant” “um there was no dress code so not that fancy I guess” she wipes her hands on a hand towel then leaves the bathroom

After I finish in the shower I got out and went into the room and I see she’s at the desk doing her hair in a matching lace bra and thong set she putting her hair in a low ponytail I’ve always loved her natural hair so curly and from the one time she let me touch it soft “you just gonna stare at me or get ready” she says smiling at me through the mirror I laugh it off and start to get ready

“Hey is this corset to much” she asks looking in the mirror it’s a shiny leather corset that cuffs underneath her breast just perfectly she’s pairing it with a spaghetti strap black fitted dress”no it’s not to much” I say to her and now I can’t stop looking at her usually when I see Jess she’s either naked in latex or in sweats so it’s different seeing her in something other than that “well can you come tighten it for me” I get up and go tighten it “is that to tight” I say seeing that I could pull a little more “yeah since we’re going to eat you can tie it” I tie the strings together and look in the mirror “we look cute together” she says admiring our outfits I have on a black button up I don’t have to first two buttons buttoned and some black pants

She reaches for her phone and opens the camera I reach pull her closer to me by her waist she leans her head a little bit and I go to kiss her neck I hear the picture being taken then she hands me the phone she stands on my side with my arm draped over her shoulder hand on her waist and both of her arms wrapped around me when she was ready I took the picture she grabbed my face and pulled me in for a kiss I also took that picture

When we were done taking pictures we headed out the restaurant was on the resort so it didn’t take that long to get there when we made it there they sat us down at our table after our waitress left with our drink orders “so keigo” she says while looks at the menu “yes” I say confused “so earlier I did something with you I never do” she says looks up at me “and what was that” “I submitted to you I never done that” I laugh “well I’ve made you do other things you’ve never done before so just add it to the list” I say with a cocky smile on my face she submitted to me she cums for me and nobody else gotta love that for me “don’t get cocky asshole”

While waiting for our food we were holding normal conversation then somebody who wasn’t our waitress walks up to our table “um excuse me I’m sorry to interrupt but hey do you remember me” he says to Jess “oh um yeah Remy how are you” “good good are you still a you know cause I’m still interested if you are it was fun being your su-“ “hey dude we were in the middle of something here and i don’t really appreciate you interrupting that” I say cutting him off “oh yeah sorry well I’ll leave but I still have the same number mistress” hearing him call her that really pissed me off “I’m sorry about that kei he was one of my old su-“ “I’m sorry to cut you off but I really don’t care about whatever y’all had going on”

It really ruined my entire night. I couldn’t even eat and Jess didn’t eat either so we took the food back to our room when we stepped on the elevator it was quite like the rest of the night was “ so you’re just not going to talk to me …. Ok listen I’m sorry that happened I truly am …...please don’t let that ruin our weekend” I ignore her then the elevator dings and the doors open I walk out with her behind me “kei can we at least talk about this I don’t like you not talking to me” she says before trying to grab my arm but I move before she can

When get in the room I start to change out of clothes “OMG keigo can you just talk to me because I don’t know why you’re acting like this you know I’ve had submissive before you so why are you acting like this” she says cornering me “I’m acting like this because he had the nerve to sit in front of me and call you mistress I don’t like that not one bit it’s infuriating to say the least and you let it happen you could’ve shut it down as soon as you realize who he was but noooooooo you just let him keep on talking” I say getting past her “like I said I’m sorry keigo but I didn’t think he was going to do that it was totally out of pocket” “outta pocket isn’t the word” I say sitting on the bed back against the headboard

She leaves and goes to the bathroom when she came back out she started crawling towards me on the bed “Ok I’ll apologize a thousand more times if you want me too but can you stop being mad at me baby I don’t like it” she says straddling my lap with nothing on but her bra and thong she takes my hands and wrap them around her I pull her closer to me and kiss her “mines” I whispered to her as I started to let my hands roam around her body my mouth makes it to her neck and I started to lick and suck on her neck till there was a small red and purple mark “mines” I say again I let her go push her backwards and she now on her back on full display to me I start to kiss and lick all the way down her body till I made my way to her thong and pulled it down with my teeth her eyes on me the entire time

“I hate that other people got to have you….But your mines mistress….My mistress”I say while I kiss up and down both of her thighs till she was moaning and visibly wet I need to show her that as much as I belong to her she belongs to me I start to kiss up her thigh higher and higher each kiss till I reach her pussy waiting for me to devour it I start with slow strokes up and down her with my tongue then focusing on her clit with faster motion she’s arching her back off the bed and whimpering and moaning my name I then add two fingers and start to match my speed with both

“Fu...ck kei I’m going cum fuck please please please” she begging me to let her cum me no one else me I keep going wanting nothing else but to make her cum all over my mouth and then she does just that with screams and moans of pleasure as she squirts all over us “fuck kei you’re the fir-“ “first person to do that yeah I know you wanna know why because your my mistress and I’ll do anything to make you feel good….you don’t need multiple submissive when you have me” I say pulling her to me and lining myself up with her “anything you need want or desire I’ll go to the ends of the earth to do” I say thrusting into her “I’m yours and your mines right” she speechless only thing coming out of her mouth are curses and moans “come on Jess tell me your mines” I say finding my pace she’s taking all of me with every stroke “immm yours kei all yours” I smile to myself hearing her say that I continue my relentless pace “I’m the only one whose made you feel this way right only me nobody else” I say while starting to kiss her neck again “just you baby just you”

I feel her tighten around me and my pace starts to get ragged we’re both about to cum it’s no question about that I look down at her and she looks like she trying to to get words out but can’t but as soon as she got the strength to we both came I fall beside her after riding out my orgasm “I love you kei I really do” she says while trying to catch her breath “I love you too Jess like a lot more than you understand” we both just lay there for a while getting ourselves together “ok come on the shower is big enough for the both of us well that’s if you wanna shower with me” she says looking at me with a smile “yeah come on I now have an appetite we can eat after” I say sitting up “I for sure couldn’t tell the way you just ate me Jesus keigo” I stand and reach to help her get up she walks ahead of me and she has a very noticeable limp “first one to that too I’m just racking up all the firsts tonight” I say laughing “shut up” she responds laughing as well I sat on the bathroom counter while she turns on the shower water so it can get hot then sits down to pee

I look at her like she crazy “I’m sorry but you just told me you loved me it’s no more hiding that I have normal bodily functions” she says while she finishes peeing “well I do love you so I guess I can deal with you having normal bodily functions” she gets up to wash her hands “I should’ve found a way to make you jealous along time ago if I knew that would be the result” she says making her way between my legs “it wouldn’t have been the same but after you called me yours that exactly what I’ve been your” “and now I’m yours” “so what are you to me now my girlfriend significant other partner” “all of the above I don’t care what you call me girlfriend whatever it doesn’t matter”

I lean down to kiss her “ok but don’t think your getting out of being my mistress” “oh no no no no that’s never happening” the bathroom is now filled with steam “come on let’s get in” I say unhooking her bra in one fell swoop “ok that was cool how did you do that” “a magician never tells his secrets” I say hopping down from the counter we get in the shower she behind me holding on to me with her head laying on my back one of her hands rubbing up and down my chest while the other is making its way down my body when she reaches my dick she lightly strokes it till it’s hard again

“Hey keigo baby do me favor and cum for mistress ok” she say tighten her grip and starting to pick up speed “uhh yes mistress” I didn’t think it was even possible for me to cum again but I can feel myself come closer to the goal

She’s kissing along my neck shoulders and back while keeping a deathly pace “fuck please mistress let me cum please please please” I say almost losing control of my legs “aww look whose begging now…..but yes baby you can cum” after like 2 more minutes I was cuming

After we were done showering we went back in the room to put on clothes “umm hello I planned on putting that shirt on” I say as she takes the shirt I was about to put on “I don’t really remember caring and plus you never sleep in clothes anyway” “that’s because everytime we sleep in the same bed I was already naked before I fell asleep” “ ok I’m still not seeing your point just sleep in your boxers”she says closing a lotion bottle and putting it back on the desk “ughh fine” I go into the “living room” area and got the food that we got for the restaurant and bought it to the dining table in the room and took everything out she joined me at the table and sat across from me

“So keigo you never told me if you forgave me or not” she say opening her container “no I don’t but it doesn’t matter” “it really does because I can’t have you mad at me all weekend” I finish chewing on my food “so what are you willing to do to make me forgive you ” “ummmmmm whatever doesn’t matter giving you the same opportunity you gave me name it you got it” from the look on her face I can tell she feels the same instant regret I did when I said the same words “ok in order for me Keigo Takami to forgive you Jessica Carter you Jessica have to let me Keigo be in charge of one scene” “okkk um so what does that actually mean before I agree” she says shifting in her seat “that means I pick the place the activity the everything and you my love won’t be mistress you’ll be whatever name I think of” I say sitting back in my seat trying to read her face “ok sure when” “ I’ll let you know” I wink at her and continue eating
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I wake up to a phone ringing but it’s not mines “Jess answer your phone” she reaches behind her picks it up and lays back on my chest “yes” she says putting the phone on speaker and putting it beside her head “Jessica god I’ve been worried about you you haven’t answered any of my calls or text” her mother yells through the phone she turns the phone down “I told you I was busy this weekend I haven’t been on my phone” which isn’t a lie “what’s got you so preoccupied” “I’m on vacation please I told you yesterday keigo had something planned” she says sounding like she falling back asleep “where are you I don’t like that now that he’s around you act like you can’t communicate” “hey hello Mrs.Carter it’s me Keigo yeah um Jess has fallen back asleep but I promise you she’s ok and in safe hands” “ok but tell her to make sure she calls me later” “Roger that” she hangs up I look to see what time it was our day starts at 12 and ends at 4 it’s currently SIX o’clock in the morning I set a 9:30 alarm and go back to sleep

9:30 got here entirely to fast but we needed to get up I try sitting up but Jess did not let that happen “come on Jess we need to start getting ready” “no can we just lay here all day” “no baby we can’t” “it won’t take us that long to get ready just 30 more minutes please” she says holding on to me tighter “ok 30 more minutes then we gotta get up” I set a 30 minute timer and just lay there on my phone while she slept I get a few text from my manager asking about work things

The 30 minutes end and she groans “ok come on time to get up now” she lets go of me and sits up I do the same “go shower first I need a minute to wake up” she says reaching for her phone “ok no more sleeping though” she waves me off

After I finish showing she gets in while I get ready I just put on sweatpants and a shirt since we won’t have on clothes for long when she gets out she puts on a matching black bra and underwear set and then shorts and pink crop top with a jacket that look entirely to familiar “is that mines” I say sliding my feet in my slides “yes I believe so” she says putting her phone in the pocket

We make it to the spa and check in and change into robes First we had a hour long couples massage then we did facials and now manicure and pedicure we we’re going to do the hot springs after this but it closed for some reason “what color are you getting” Jess asking while looking at the color wheel they have “um either clear or black” I respond relaxing in the chair “get black” I just give her a thumbs up after we were done getting our feet done we were well I was getting my nails done she’s waiting to go to her nail tech at home “kei when I go get my nails done next time can we do this” she says showing me a picture of a couple that got matching nail designs “yeah we can do that” after everything is done we head back to our room

When we reach the lobby of the hotel we see the dude from yesterday I guess my annoyance showed on my face because she squeezed my hand and we make our way to the elevator and before the doors could close Remy and some lady walks in Jess stands closer to me and I put my arm around her “if my memory doesn’t fail me aren’t you scared of elevators” he said “um yeah I am” she responds getting closer to me if it was even possible “you didn’t try to get a room on the first floor for her wow” if it wasn’t for the elevator doors opening I would’ve punched him straight in face we get off the elevator and start walking to our room they weren’t far behind when they got to their door they finally past them but not far they were in the next room “huh so it was you being so loud last night” he says looking at me “actually it was her but have a good day” i say opening the door for Jess then walking in behind her

“I like possessive keigo” she says laying on couch “I wouldn’t call myself possessive but ok” I say moving her feet and sitting down “it’s ok to be in denial kei if we didn’t get off that elevator when we did you were going to hit him tell me I’m wrong” she says sitting up on her elbows “ok you’re not but it doesn’t make me possessive” “ok whatever you say kei whatever you say” she says laying flat on her back again

While watching tv my hands are constantly rubbing or poking on her legs or stomach“your love language is touch noted” she says without looking at me “huh” “it explains why your always touching me and hate having your hands restrained” “well yeah I guess I just like touching you I can stop if you want” I say moving my hands “no no continue” she says putting my hand back on her thigh I go back to what I was doing subconsciously when her stomach growls “yeah you didn’t feed me today” she says “if you woke up when we were supposed to we could’ve gotten food before we started our day”the look she gave me made my heart melt “what do you want to eat” “nothing here can we look and see what they have in the area” “ok” I do a quick google search to see what they have and named a few and she decided she wanted sushi “ok let’s go” we go out to the car and drive 20 minutes to the sushi place and on the way Jess called in our order

When we get there we walk in and there’s a small line that we wait in when we were next in line my phone rings and it’s my mother “um here take my card I gotta take this” I say handing her my card and getting out of line and going back to the car “hello” I say answering the phone “hey keigo just calling to see how you are still busy with work” I sigh in relief that nothing else is wrong “yeah everything good I’m actually on a mini vacation with my girlfriend” “did I miss hear or did you say girlfriend” I laugh “no you didn’t remember Jess the one I shared a dorm room with in college” “yes yes I do it’s her ooh she was so nice somebody finally fell for that keigo charm” she says as Jess gets back in the car and hands me my card “yeah she did she won’t admit it though” she turns and mouths “me” I nod my head “I’m sorry but if anybody fell for anything it would be you also hey ms.Takami” “oh call me tomie how are you” I hand her the phone and start driving “I’m doing good I can’t complain” “that’s good keigo treating you right” “yeah he is” she says smiling over at me “ok imma let y’all go just wanted to check on kei” “ok talk to you later” “ok” then my mother hangs up “why can’t my mother be like yours” she says opening the camera on my phone she takes what sounds like a thousand pictures on my phone before we make it back to the hotel
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We didn’t have anything planned today other than going to the pool so I let her sleep in while she slept. I went to get us ramen from the place we passed yesterday and made my way back. When I got to the door I got a text from her asking where I was

“Jess” I say walking in the room she comes walking out the room with her hair half way out of the ponytail she had in and my shirt that is somehow too big and too small “if you look at my hair your anti-black” I laugh at the statement and sit down she sits across from me she looks like she just woke up “you know you look like a zombie when you first get up” she doesn’t say anything just flips me off “when I have nothing but time plus it’s been 2 weeks since the last time you did” I say“you know I bought it with me right” “uh good thing I prepped this morning” I look at her and she looks at me we both get up go to the room while walking I’m stripping she goes in her bag and pulls out the harness and dildo and some lube “you know the drill” she says handing me the harness I put it on her “middle of the bed” she say and I scoot back on the bed

She crawls on the bed gets in between my legs and kisses me while rubbing lube against me since it’s been two weeks she can’t just get right to it so she fingers me for a while when I’m stretched she sits up and starts pushing into me the feeling was something I knew all too well but it still felt new somehow once she bottomed out she started to finding her pace and it’s just as relentless as usual fast hard and deep

She grabs my hand that's been holding onto the pillow and put it on her waist “your hands are free you can touch me” so now with one hand on her waist the other behind her neck I drag her down to me to kiss her she stay like this for awhile and while being like this she earned a few scratches on her hips and lower back

“Mistress mistress I’m about to cum” “hold on just a little longer you do that for me right” I can’t even respond my brain is blank she keeps going not letting me get a break to even breathe she then reaches down and runs her hand through my hair and bends down to kiss me “you can cum now” she says in between the kiss then sits up and grabs my dick and start stroking that plus her fucking me drives me to the edge way quicker than expected

When I cum I kinda black out for a minute “hey hey I’m getting in the shower if you need me” I reach for her and pull her back in the bed “no stay with me” I say burying my face in her hip “come on kei I’ll give you all the cuddles when I come back” I still don’t let her go “at least if your going to hold me hostage can I sit in a more comfortable position” I loosened my grip on her and she slides under my arm and gets off the bed “noooo come back” I say reaching for her again but she dodges my head and walks to the bathroom “20 minutes” she says then closes the door

In those 20 minutes I fell into a deep sleep but woke up when I feel the bed move I open eyes to see Jess taking a picture of my “stop it” I say covering my face with the comforter “why your cute when you’re sleeping” she says trying to move the cover “also get up so we can eat and go to the pool like you promised” I move the cover to see her in her bathing suit “hm so you do own clothes that aren’t black or made of latex or leather” I say sitting up to get out of the bed “last time I checked you loved me best in latex” she says follow me out the door “no actually I love you best naked” I say sitting down at the table “perv” I gasp dramatically “me a perv never”

After eating I went to put on my swimsuit well swim trunks and we got to the pool it was one where the bar was in the pool so Jess decided that we were going to get drunk together “are you sure you want us both drunk” I say holding the shot I just received “yes don’t be a bitch” she says sliding her shot to her “I’m only a bitch for you baby” I say before we both take our first shot

That shot was the first of 5 after that we lounged around in the pool chairs

“They seriously have to be watering down their liquor because we should be drunk as fuck by now” Jess said starting at the sky “yeah cause you’re definitely a light weight”I say looking over at her “exactly” “if your looking for a real drink go to the bar in the hotel” a lady said walking past where we were sitting

So we walked over to the bar in hotel and we sit on the end of the bar “hey how can I help you” the bartender said walking to us “um give us two of your strongest drinks please” Jess said to him “ok coming right up” while watching him make it it was obvious that we would for sure be drunk as hell “here you go let me know if you need anything else” we drag the drinks to us and take the first sip “yeah we’re going to get drunk on this”

we talk while drink we end up having three of the drinks and by the last sip of the last drink we were done no coming back drunk as hell we stumbled our way back up to the room laughing and almost falling every three seconds

As soon as we reach the inside of the room Jess dragged me to the couch and pushed me down “um yes” “I wanna do something I’ve never done before” she says getting on her knees in front of me “okay” she pulls down my shorts and starts to stroke my dick till it got hard then she got as much of me as she could of me in her mouth start to work her way up and down bobbing her head and stroking me at the same time “fuck Jess are you sure you never done this before” I can feel her smiling but she doesn’t let up she keeps going

After 5 minutes I was ready to cum but I didn’t know if it was cool to just you know in her mouth “Jess I’m bout to cum” she didn’t stop “come on fuck” I lose the little bit of self control I had and came in her mouth she sits up and comes up to kiss me I can taste nothing but alcohol and me on her tongue
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I wake up to the sound of a alarm bleary through the room I open my eyes and try to find the source of the sound when I find it I turn it off and fall back into the pillow

I reach out for Jess and I feel her foot “what” I hear her say from the other half of the bed then feel moving “nothing why are you down there” she lifts my arm up and she lays in front of me “I don’t know just woke up like that” when she gets settled next to me I put my hand on her lower back and she naked “why are you naked” “I could be asking you the same thing” “I don’t remember anything past you giving me head” “I’m sorry I did what” she says opening her eyes and making eye contact with me “you don’t remember that” “obviously not” she says sitting up in the bed “mhm well it happened” I say also sitting up

We take a good look around the room and obviously we have a good night the strap on is in the middle of the floor with lube beside it our clothes thrown everywhere everything that was on the desk is on the floor “ok what the hell did our drunk asses do” Jess says as we get out of the bed “it looks like a little bit of everything goddamn my back hurts” “I literally feel weak from the waist down” we make our way to the bathroom and when we look in the mirror we have bruises everywhere mine are mostly on my back and legs and Jess on her hips are thighs “we look like we got into a fight what did we do” Jess said looking at her thighs “you had to do this” she said rubbing one of them “well obviously but I don’t remember doing it” I said looking at how red my back is “did you bring that whip with you the short black one” “yes I did” “well that explains it”

We go back in the room and lay back down my pain is something that I’m rather used to so I can deal with it but Jess looks like she actually in pain she laid out on her stomach because “it hurts less” so I lean over and start to kiss all of the visible bruises “what are you doing it tickles” she says laughing “I caused you pain * so I’m going to* kiss*it*away*” I say in between kisses “I don’t think that’s how it works but thank you” she says pulling me up to her by my hand “your welcome princess” “Ouu new nickname I like it” “I’m glad you do” I say kissing her

I move my hand down her back and she grabs it “no no no more sex” “no fair” “yes fair we literally fucked each other till we had buries so no” “hi hello I’m your masochist submissive” “ok but this was different we could’ve really hurt each other last night” “ok ok ok when your right you’re right but if you’re going to stop the sex train can you put on clothes please” I say laying on my back

She gets up and puts on one my shirts and some shorts then throws my sweatpants at me “ if I gotta be clothed so do you” I get up and put them on and I picked up a shirt thinking it was mines and it was most definitely not it a cropped shirt “yeah that is definitely a look on you come on let’s go to the store we saw not to far from here” she says picking up my car keys

We go to the convenient store and pick up snacks and pain killers and head back to the room when we got back we decided to clean up and go to outlet mall afterwards

After about 2 hours of cleaning and getting ready we finally made it to the mall we’re in a watch store Jess wanted to come to “which one kei the red or black one” “I have the red one so I think you should get the black one” “ok I’ll take both thank you” she say to the man he takes both to be bagged “I guess being a psychologist is treating you better than I thought” “hey I live comfortably nothing too special” “I would love to meet Dr.Carter she must be nice” “you’ll meet her one day”

We do some more shopping and Jess is looking at some purse she likes but is being very indecisive about it “should I get it kei it’s super cute but it’s entirely too expensive I mean I can afford it but-“ “princess do you want it” I say cutting her off “yes but-“ “shhhh I’ll buy it don’t worry about it is there anything else in here that you want” I say taking it out of her hand “that wallet is cute” she says lowly pointing at the wallet she wanted “ok is that is that all” she just nods yes “ok let’s go”I say picking up the wallet and walking to the register and paying for it when the transaction was done “you want to hold the bag or want me to” “I’ll take it” she says while taking the bag “thank you kei I appreciate it”
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We check out of the hotel and get in the car to head back home “can we go back to that sushi place before we get on the road” “yeah call in the order”
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After a 3 hour lonely drive back home because Jess fell asleep after she finished eating

“Hey Jess we’re home wake up”I say parking in her driveway she slowly wakes up and stretches “your staying here tonight or going home” she says yarning “I planned on going home yes” “mhm ok well can you help me take my stuff in” “yeah”

“Ok Imma make my way home” I say putting her bag down in the living room “give me one reason I should let you leave” she says wrapping her arms around my neck I put my arm around her waist “I have to go back to work tomorrow” “just call off ” “wish it was that easy but I have I believe 5 different meetings tomorrow” “ugh ok mr.ceo of a multi million dollar company I’ll let you go“ “ok i'll call you when I get in the house ok” “you really gonna make me sleep alone tonight wow worst boyfriend ever” she says opening the door for me “ouch that one hurts you work tomorrow” “yeah I think I have 3 patients tomorrow” “I’ll come pick you from work tomorrow let me know when you’re done for the day” “ok are you going to stay tomorrow” “no I can’t stay with you this week probably next week though” “ok go before I change my mind and drag you back in here and never let you leave” “ok I love you” “I love you too kei” we share one last kiss before I left and made my way home

When I park in the parking garage I get a text from Jess of a picture of her in my shirt saying she misses me already I get upstairs and call her we stay on the phone till we fall asleep

Chapter 8

After a long long long day of meetings and different business pitches I slouch down in office chair and for the first time since I got in today look at my phone nothing special just a few random emails and a text from my mom I text her back and I got a from text Jess

FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Hey, is the whole picking me up from work thing still on the table?
TO::PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Why are you asking dumb questions I said I was
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Ok mr attitude well I have one more patient today so I should be done by 5:30
TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Ok I’ll let you know when I’m there
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Ok
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I pull up to Jess office and text her to let her know I was here a few minutes later she was coming out and yes I’m still getting used to seeing her in different genres of clothing because she looks damn good it’s just a 2 piece skirt suit with a white silk shirt

“Hi my love” she says getting in the car “hey how was your day” I say leaning over to kiss her “good my favorite patient came in today and their doing really good and I’m super happy about that anyways how was your day ” she says putting her seatbelt on as I pull off “boring but we got another big donor today so that was good” I say resting my hand on her knee she hums in response and looks down at her phone

“So you still can’t stay over tonight” she says putting her hand on mine “ yeah no I can’t” I says rubbing her knee with my thumb “I miss being on vacation just together 24/7 now those were the days” “yeah it was fun but back to being adults with jobs” “well I planned on cooking tonight do you wanna stay you don’t have to but” “depends what you cooking” “your favorite yakitori” “yes I will be staying with you for dinner then”

After that it got quite and when I got to a red light I look over at her again she looks damn good like really good she always look great but damn and I can feel myself getting hard at the thought of her acting out my professor student fantasy

“Are you sure roleplay is off the table” “why are you asking” she says as my hand goes under the hem of the skirt “because seeing you in this outfit is giving the sexy teacher I’ll do anything for to get a higher grade” “yeah no and I said no sex did you forget that” she says moving my hand back to the top of her skirt “no fun” “no you just don’t listen” “we both know I don’t now punish me for it” I say sliding my hand back up her leg “Keigo I would stop if I was you” she says putting my hand back on the gearshift “ouuu Keigo huh” I say looking over at her before pulling off when the light turns green “like I said I would stop” “and if I don’t” she chuckles and cross her legs and looks straight out the front window

Now I know I done got myself in some trouble but that was kinda the goal so when we stop in her driveway and she looks over to me and says nothing and gets out the car I can tell tonight should be fun and I probably will be a little late to work tomorrow

I get out the car and follow her when I walk in the house and close the door she pushes me to the door “you just don’t know when to stop do you” she says very close to my face “you know i don’t and you also know how to get me to stop” I says leaning in to kiss her but she moves before I can “imma say this now stop being a brat long enough for me to cook and be mistress good boy and you might get what you want but if you don’t this whole no sex thing will last for 2 months ” she says stepping back I let out small wimpering noise it’s low key embarrassing but fuck she’s made me make worse noises

She goes to change her clothes and came back downstairs to cook I was sitting at her island on my phone occasionally taking pictures of her “you know I can hear you taking pictures right” she says turning to me smiling “yes I know you can hear it” I say taking another one of her

When she was done cooking she plates food for the both of us and brings them to the table “voilà” she says sitting down across from me “looks good thank you” I say looking at the food “you know I can do more then cause you pain” “yeah but that will always be better” I say taking the first bite “after we’re done eating go upstairs to shower and meet me in my room ok” she says after chewing “yes mistress” I say with a slight smile

After eating we placed our dishes in the dishwasher and I made my way to the shower after I got out the shower I walk out of her on suite in a pair of boxers I left here when I looked around she’s not in here but the closet light is on I also see something’s laid out on the bed when I got closer to look it was my normal pair of cuffs and a leather paddle I picked it up and it was pretty thick looks like I could do some damage I’m counting on it too I hear moving behind me and I turn around to see nothing so I just guess it was just her moving so I sit on the bed and wait

I hear her clear her throat and I look up from the floor and I see her in a similar outfit to the one she had on earlier but with heels on this time she walks towards me and my mouth goes dry from how fucking good she looks “so Keigo I’ve been hearing that you’ve been a bad boy” she says tilting my head up to look at her “um uh-“ “don’t try to deny it I know you can be a little disobedient sometimes” “uh yes” I’m genuinely lost for words role play has ALWAYS been a no like a major no so I’m low key shocked now

She reaches for my hand cuffs “ok since you wanna be a bad boy you don’t get to touch me” “but-“ “but nothing hands out” I put my hands out and she puts the right one on then the left so now my hands are behind my back I literally hate this shit but I gotta suffer I guess “ok so since you’ve been a bad bad bad boy you get bad boy treatment so come stand up then lay on your stomach” I do as said

“Ok so you will be getting a total of 10 hits in sets of 3 so 30 in total with the paddle but the first 5 with just my hand so 35 all together” she says rubbing my ass then I feel her hand move then I feel a hit on my right ass cheek it stings she does the same thing 4 more times “you know the rule after each one you say” “what number were on” “see I knew you know how to follow directions” she says with the first hit with the paddle I hurts like a bitch “1……..2……..3……..4…….5……..6…….7…….8……..9……..10” each hit hurt worse than the one before she rubs the paddle against my ass for a second then got back to it “1……..2……..3……..4…….5……..6…….7…….8……..9……..10”
These ones hurt exponentially worse usually it doesn’t because my ass goes numb but not today “your doing so good kei 10 more give me 10 more and I’ll give you a treat ok” I nod my face is buried in the pillow with my snot and tears wetting the pillow she starts up again the next 10 goes by worse than the 10 before

“You did good baby so good you can have your treat now ok” she says pulling me up of the bed so now that I’m on my knees on the floor at the edge of the bed it’s hurts sitting in this position but you know in a good way she takes my cuffs and link them in front of me and I knew that I was hard but when she full on brushed up against my dick it was apparent how hard

She goes to her bedside table and pulls out a pink vibrator she then sits in front of me after pulling her skirt up to her hips so now I’m face to face with her barely covered pussy because the string to her thong is shifted she uses the tip of her shoe to make me look up at her “so you’re treat is that you get to watch me masterbate while you well at least try to I don’t know how much mobility you have like that but yeah” she says putting her foot back on the floor

She turns the vibrator on and place it on her clit and makes a small noise that makes my dick twitch I reach down to my dick and yes it’s hard to move in the cuffs I make it work

She clicks a button and I can hear it get louder I can also see it in her face that it feels amazing we’re both making very lewd noises but when I see her start to kinda lose her grip on the toy I can tell she’s getting close and shit so am there’s something about watching her that makes me go insane and with the pace I’m going and the way my ass feels it just pushes me closer

I see her look like she can’t take it anymore like she was about to tap out before she came “mistress please please please I need you to cum I did so good today right you said so yourself” I say feeling like I was going to cum in any second she didn’t stop she kept going but in seconds she was coming and so was I

She falls back on the bed and I lean forward head on her closed knees “fuck I always forget how powerful that thing is she says catching her breath “ok let me take care of you” she says sitting back up and running her hand through my hair she gets up and my head is now on the bed she takes her shoes off and goes to the bathroom and she comes back in different clothes and with a rag she cleans me and the floor and takes the cuffs off of me and guiding me to the bed “lift your hips baby” she says pulling my boxers up on me “I’ll be right back you bruised pretty bad so I’m getting ice ok I’ll be right back” I’m to dazed to respond so I just give her a thumbs up

After a few minutes off me zoned out I feel her getting on the bed and then my ass is cold I jump a little then relax she lays next to me and runs her hand up and down my back then my hair “do you need anything I bought water up” “no I’m ok thank you though “ I say turning my head towards her she smiling “what what’s the smile for” “oh nothing just happy that I kept my word” “ and what is that” “no roleplay and no sex” “I’m sorry but I got the impression that that first one just happened” “nope I just made you believe that it was by not being in my usual mistress attire” “you manipulative asshole” I say turning my head away from her “oh but you were still was very enthralled by my performance”
“Shut up” “never….. I love you kei” she says running her hands through my hair “I love you too Jess
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I had to wake up super early today so I can go back home to get ready for work “hey Jess I’m leaving ok” she just makes a noise and turns over “Jess love wake up” “whattttt it’s my day off why am I up before the sun” she says turning to me and looking at me “I gotta go home to get ready for work and I need you to lock the door when I leave” she makes another dramatic noise and throw the covers off and get up and goes straight to the bathroom after she was done we make our way downstairs to the door “so you have Wednesdays off” she nods and lean against the door frame “noted I’ll come over after work later” “ok” she says pulling me in for a kiss /hug “I’ll see you later” “mhm” she says letting me go and I walk to my car and pull off I see her go back in the house

I’m just arriving 10 minutes after my usual time and from my assistant I have a light day just gotta sign somethings and a meeting about something I don’t know but I can leave early so that amazing

I’m almost done with everything the meeting was just a status update about how smoothly everything going and now just got a few more things to sign and fill out
Jess POV
After kei left I went back to sleep for a long time like I didn’t wake up until 12:30 later than I’ll usually sleep in but I must’ve needed that sleep so I’m not complaining

After showering I decided it was finally time to clean and reorganize my kink closet because of yesterday after that box fell from the shelf and everything in it just on the floor it’s time for some spring cleaning I start by just staring at the closet for at least 10 minutes

My room has two closet and I’m trying to figure out how I have regular clothes in here so I start with that I assume that they were all dirty and went to put them in the washing machine to wash (best investment I’ve ever made was a upstairs laundry room) I start the load and go back to the hell hole I never usual let it get this bad but since the whole permanent partner thing I’ve just thrown shit either in the need to clean box or where it could fit

I know most of this shit has to be thrown out and replaced so I start taking all the boxes out of the closet and on to my room floor I start going through the boxes and there are some things still in their boxes I put that in box that I’m going to let kei go through when he gets here to see if he wants to keep them if not I’ll see if any of kinky friends want them I also have the need to clean box for leather things and the usual one for non leather things that would usually be clean but I only use two different toys for kei so the other ones has been neglected and my need to clean “mistress attire” box and the throw away box it’s mostly just old lube bottles and a few whips and floggers that got old

It takes fucking forever to get through the first 3 boxes and I have 20 to get through having to take out batteries debating if I wanna keep something or throw it out is a fucking process but when I make it to the third to last box I open it and it’s just different colors of rigging ropes that I’ve never used I look at the outside of the box and apparently I ordered them put them in the closet and forgot all about them “god it’s been ages since I did rigging” then I think about why no submissive I had at the time was down but I do now I smile to myself and grab my phone and take a picture of the box and send it to kei with the caption “these would look pretty on you” there was no immediate response so I just put them to the side and continue cleaning
Keigo POV
I just sat back down at my desk when my phone lights up from a text message I pick it up and open the message from Jess and see ropes like a lot of them in a box and she has the nerve to say ”these would look pretty on you” before I could respond I get a call on my work phone I put my phone down and answer it

After the call which lasted entirely to long I pick my phone back up to respond

TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Don’t show me this and it not happen
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
I’ma little rusty so it’ll be a while before we do but I promise I will
TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
I would look good in those
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
I know right
When do you get off today?
I’m cleaning my kink closet
I need you to look through this box of stuff to see if you want to keep any of it
And to help me clean some (a lot of toys)
TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
I should be leaving in an hour or so
Do you need me to pick anything up before I come over
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Um no I don’t think so if I think of anything I’ll let you know
TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Ok
Did you eat today?
Your doing a lot of lifting and moving
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Last time I checked I was the dom here
TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
and the last time I checked I was your partner that cared about you and I’m taking that as a no to my question
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Ok no I didn’t eat yet but I’m ok love
TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Whatever do you want me bring food or do you wanna cook tonight
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
After all of this I’m not going to wanna cook so we can order food later when you get here

My assistant walks in

TO:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Ok I gotta go I’ll see you later love ya
FROM:PRINCESS🌸💕💖
Love you too💕
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After leaving work I went to the convention store not to far from Jess's house to pick up a few things then made my way to her house I ring the doorbell since I know she’s upstairs and I can hear the music out here after a few seconds she opens the door “hello love” she say beaming a bright smile my way “hey princess I bought some stuff for you” I say while she starts to pull me upstairs

when we get upstairs her room looks like a sex shop like shit everywhere “ok this is wayyyy more than I expected to see in here” I say looking around “I’ve been a domme for almost 10 years I’ve accumulated a lot of shit so while I finish looking through this-” I pull her out of the room and into the hallway “we’re going to start over ok...ok hey princess I bought you some stuff for you since you’ve been up ripping and running all day so let’s sit down for a second ok” I say making eye contact with her “uh yeah ok but can you look through that box to see if you want any of it” she says pointing to the box as I make her go downstairs with the bag in her hand I pick up the box and go down stairs and she’s on the couch looking in the bag I place the box on the floor in front of me while I sit next to her “thanks kei I needed a break” “knowing you you wouldn’t have stop until you either passed out or finished” I say pulling out the first thing out the box

It’s a plug training set with different sizes that help you get used to it “I don’t think I’ll need this" I say putting it back the next thing I pull out is a tentacle dildo from bad dragon I reach to open it “only open it if you wanna keep it” I hesitate for a moment then open it I take it out and feel how textured it is and think it would genuinely feel amazing “is this stuff something that was sent to you or you bought” I say putting it back in the box and placing it beside me “a mix of both” she says eating another chip I get the next thing and it’s just a standard 8in dildo but it was a silver glittery one “yeah no that’s weird” “what to girly for you” “no just weird i think it takes away from the illusion if it’s not a skin color one” “whatever” I take the last box out and it’s was a anal toy set it had anal beads plugs lube a vibrator I put that on my side “I love how you just love to have things in your ass” “I-I have nothing to say to that” I say taking out more things

I also kept some different color plugs and like 3 glass dildos everything else didn’t interest me “why didn’t you keep any of this stuff for yourself” I say putting the things I’m keeping in my stay here duffel that needs come back home with me so I can put more clothes and stuff in it “ everything in that closet is for my submissive if I buy anything or get anything I want I have that in a separate place”

We go back upstairs in the mess and by me now helping her things are getting done quicker “so can put all the rope out on this shelf” “ any special order” “no it doesn’t matter” I start putting the rope up and the picture didn’t do this box justice every color in the rainbow and more are in this box I try to keep like color together

When I was done the rope was stacked up to the bottom of the shelf above it I step back and look at my work but it’s short lived by her bring in coming in the closet with the impact toy box “these go on that wall it’s not many so you can space them out” she says pointing the the peg board behind me I put everything up then the lube shelf was ready to be full again sadly it wasn’t she needs to re up on that I type it in my notes and go out to see what I needed to do next and all I see is the need to clean boxes and a small box “what’s next” “um just put all of these sensory toys in the only draw in there” “ok I say taking the box in the closet I put all of the candles feather toys blindfolds in there and also a super dull knife in there I take the box and put it with the rest of boxes in the hallway “all of this needs to be cleaned so can you help me take them downstairs” she says with the leather box in her hand

When we get downstairs and to the table she’s goes and she starts boiling water while she was doing that I started to take out everything out the container when the kettle was screaming at us she poured it in the glass container that i took the toys out of and I place some in there to start the cleaning process we let them sit for a few minutes then one by one take them out and individually clean them with unscented soap “so you wanna hear a stories about some of my pass submissive” she says like she just thought of one “of course” “ok so you know I used to charge my subs like when I first started so I would pretty much do anything I was comfortable with for the right number so I wanna say like a year and a half in to this I get a dude that’s in the AB stuff” “pause AB as in adult baby” “ yes and so after the first session of just weird shit the next time he comes back and is offering me $1000 to watch him shit in a diaper”I look at her like she just lost her mind” I see how your looking at me right now but hear me out” she says laughing “I was fresh out of college and now a full time dom I needed the money so I say yes and when he showed up in my room at the dungeon I was working at at the time in a diaper and squatted in front of me and took a grown man shit in a diaper while I verbally abuse him” we both burst out in laughter “omg Jess that’s fucking funny like what the fuck” I say trying to laugh and clean at the same time “yeah it’s was the easiest $1000 I’ve ever made” she says laughing as well

“Ouu I have another one” she says getting another toy out of the water and I give her my attention “so this lesbian couple comes to me and say they wanna spice up their relationship and want me to dom them both so I did I went to their house and they were like they learned how to be submissive from like porn or some horrible movies like all over the place so one had on like cat ears and a plug tail and was like real praise heavy and the other one wanted to be a brat so bad it hurt after everything I told her it was “or what” or “make me” and I hated every minute of it but they had a double sided dildo and I made them use it and it was fun to watch but they were horrible I had to full on ghost them”

“I guess imma better at learning from movies and porn” “didn’t you have a male dom before we got together” “well I had a male dom friend that you know trained me but he was never exclusively my dom no” “hm so I wasn’t your first dom I don’t know how to feel about that” “oh shut it your my first actual dom he just prepared me for you baby” I says putting down the toy I was cleaning so It could dry

“Another weird thing that happened was this was like a year ago actually it was Remy this is funny actually ok so he was into ABO alpha beta omega that whole thing and I knew nothing about that shit like not one bit so after a lot of research and a few fanfics I got the general grasp of it and so I would play into the whole alpha thing the biting the growling thing even though it was never intimidating even the knotting thing” i stop In my tracks “I’m sorry what you gotta explain what is knotting” “ok so knotting occurs during sex where the base of the alpha’s penis swells and becomes engorged and is pushed inside the omega” “umm ok huh yeah ok continue” “anyways once when we was you know for the first time with the knotting toy he came so hard he cried like a baby like I was crazy” she laughs then stops when she noticed I wasn’t “what what’s wrong” “oh um nothing just uh do you know where I can like find one just for research purposes” she laughs again and then realizes I’m serious “wait kei I’m not” “you don’t have to do all the other stuff I just want to cum so hard I cry and if that toy can do that I want it” “bad dragon I got it from bad dragon the place that tentacle you kept came from” “ thank you very much” I say laughing

“we need to go over your kink list” i say grabbing the next toy that needs to be cleaned “for what” “you forgot already the only way that i'm forgiving you about the whole Remy situation” “yeah yeah yeah forgot about that” “i guess you dont wanna be forgiving” “ noo i do i just kinda didn't think you were actually going to go through with it” “oh yes i'm going through with it you said it yourself im the only person that has made you submit so i wanna see how far i can get you to submit so like i said we need to go over your kink list”

Jess POV
I hate how he makes me feel when he talks to me like this “yeah ok we can do it next time”i say trying to contain my urge to jump across this table and take every inch of him

i first noticed how this tone of voice did something to me when he bought the purse then earlier when he pulled me out the room and now fuck have i been a swicth this whole time and kei just unlocked the sub in me

We continue cleaning and he's said nothing else about the topic “so have you thought about your one night as dom yet” “no not really cant really plan anything until i know what your comfortable with and what your not” “hm sounding like a true dom have you ever done this before” i'm just now thinking of asking this after all this time and kind of dreading the answer “yes i have actually not full time like you but yeah i have” “with?” he looks up to me with this unreadable look in his eyes “i'm sorry you don't have to tell me who or anything” “no it was right after i was with my friend the male dom i was with for a while and i had met this submissive that was fairly new she had a dom in the past but it was short term so we made a 3 scene contract and yeah i did nothing major just orgama denial slight bondage and degrading” he says putting the last clean toy on the towel to dry

My mind wanders and i can't get the idea of him making me beg to come and deny me over and over again and calling me a pathetic whore no slut no no no bitch yes a pathetic bitch FUCKING HELL im going to have plently of thinking material for later after he leaves

“Hey its getting late what do you want to get to eat” fuck only thing i want is you to eat me “umm it doesnt matter get me whatever you get im going to go put these upstairs” i say standing and with the motion i can feel how wet i am and its ridiculous he didnt even do anything “jess did you sit in water your shorts are wet” “huh” i reach behind me and my GREY SHORTS ARE WET “oh shit i didnt even notice” i say speeding my way to the steps and upstairs i look in the mirror in the closet and its a pretty big spot i change into some pants then put the dry toys in the glass container on the shelf where they belong then my brain goes back to kei and this whole domming thing it makes my body go crazy my heartbeat is being felt everywhere on my body right now but i push pass it and go downstairs keigo is back in the living room on his phone with the tv on “ouu a we-vibe i heard those were fun” “yeah same” he says adding it to his cart “i ordered pizza by the way” he says “ok….when you dommed what did make her call you” he lets out the sly laugh then put his phone down and turned to me “why?” “i'm just curious” “she called me a mix of master and sir the direct opposite of you” he says making very intense eye contact “hm i thought you were more of a daddy person” “nah doesn't have the same ring as master or sir” im internally kicking myself for this stupid no sex rule only 2 more days and god im holding him captive were fucking till we can't move “dont make any plans this weekend” he says like he just read my mind or something “why i mean i didnt have anything planned anyways but why” “don't worry about it just don't make any plans ok” “ok”

Just then the doorbell rings he gets up and go to the door and shortly comes back with the food he puts it on the coffee table “i have to leave after we eat gotta be to work early tomorrow “yeah ok same first patient is at 8:30” “and i might not be able to come over tomorrow dont know yet but i'll let you know” he says holding a slice of pizza to my mouth i bite it and take it out of his hand while eating and watch tv his hand is on my upper thigh most of the time and it's not really helping with my situation right now when we were done he drags my legs on top of his while still just casually watching tv and i've become immune to the leg rubbing but when he cuffs his hand in between my thighs and squeezes hand pressing lightly against my pussy and i almost lose my shit eyes roll to back of my head but he's not looking at me to see “you've been wet since i said i wanted to see how submissive i could make you just thinking of all the possibility of how this one night dom situation is going to play out thinking about the names ill call you and make you call me all the different ways i'm going to make you cum and if i do at all and so many other things” he says still looking forward but now his hand is on the waistband of my pants

“am i wrong?” he says finally looking at me “completely wrong”i say i don't know why i just straight up lied but i did “so if i was to touch that pretty little pussy of yours it wouldn't be wet” like goddamn keigo just shut up for a second “that would only work if i allowed you too and im not so you can't prove it” “oh you won't that's right no sex till this weekend right and you have lower self control then i do so you cant have me to touching you” he saying these things so casually that i feel myself getting wetter and dripping down to my ass “i can control myself and ill prove it” “how”

i lift my hips and push my pants down and he pulls them the rest of the way down and drops them on the floor beside him “jess you just blanty lied i can see that your wet through your underwear” “this isn't about that anymore touch me im proving that i can have you touch me in anyway and not fuck you in the end” i say and then he pushes my underwear to the side and he looks me dead in the eyes and pushes two fingers in me “fuck jess i made you this wet without even touching you” i go to speak but the only thing that comes out is a whimpering moan that makes me sound so desperate “is this what you wanted huh princess” he says hitting a spot i didn't even know existed my back arches off the arm of the couch and my legs start lightly shake feeling like i was about cum at any second then he moved his hand “unfortunately i have a early morning so i gotta head out” at this moment i could have killed him and smiled in the mugshot “i fucking hate you for that” i say moving my legs off him and get up to get my pants

he pulls me in his lap “liar you love me so say it” i don't say anything “i'm waiting…. Ok wanna be a brat ok ill deal with that later” he says letting me go and i get up to get my pants and put them on “come lock the door im leaving” i walk past him to the door and open it for him when he's in front of me he reaches for neck and pulls me to him to kiss me “ tell me you love me” he says pulling back and looking into my eyes “i love you kei” “good girl i love you too” he kisses me again then walk to his car and gets in to leave

i close the door and partially sprint upstairs i lay down in my bed grab my favorite vibrator and as soon as i turn it on i place it on my clit and replayed the events of tonight how his hands felt how me how his words drove me crazy and how he was right i have absolute no self control if he was in this house 10 more seconds i wouldve had him bend me over the couch “fuck” my mind goes back when his hand was around my neck and he called me good girl and made me tell him i love him The sounds im making right now sound so desperate im chasing my orgasm like my life depends on it i press harder against my clit and my back comes straight off the bed and i cum so hard im seeing stars i fall back on the bed and out of breath and instantly fall asleep

Chapter 9: Yes Master - CHAPTER 1

Notes:

HELLO LOVES I wanted Keigo big moment to be its own thing so when you see YES MASTER just know the power dynamic changes and this will be the first of many YES MASTER chapters
also there's an other update that's coming right after this one and it a good one so ,anyways enjoy

Friday 12:30
From: KEIBABY✨
I'm coming over at 2 after work and were going over your kink list
So be prepared for that
I'm not staying the night either because I need to collect some things
You're coming to my house tomorrow by 6:30 no later
To: KEIBABY✨
Yeah ok I'll be ready when you get here

I re-read the messages like 3 more times because the tone behind them makes my heart race he taking this seriously

I go and print out all of the necessary paperwork for our conversion that's in an hour and 30 minutes i print out a whole new blank kink list and my old one but thats strictly dom orientated so i have to fill out a completely new one i print one for him too and his other one and finally the consent forms and all that jazz and when they were done i put them on the table with 2 pens on the dining room table and change my clothes i know he's coming straight from work so i change into something i would usually go to work in when i was done changing he's knocking at the door i go down to open the door “hey” i say opening the door “hey though you didn't have work today”he says walking in and looking at me “yeah no i didn't wanted to dress properly for the occasion” “yeah ok come here” he says grabbing me hand and kissing me “sir were here for negotiations no time for this” i say pulling away” “mhm i like hearing you call me sir already” “come on lets get this over with” i say walking to the dining room table and sitting on one side with him on the other “ok so let's go through this list first…. this is the same one we did at first right” “yeah you also have both of our other ones as well” i say pointing them “ok so ill name things from mine and let me know yes or no” “ok”

“impact play” “yes but I don't bruise easily so don't get concerned when it doesn't look like anything happened” “noted...bondage” “yes” “knife play” “yes but you can only cut off authorized clothing and sadly no name cutting” “anal” “nothing to hardcore but yes I'm ok with it” “elaborate” “plugs and other toys yes but I don't really like being fucked in the ass no” “ok sensory play” “yes” “edging/orgasm denial” “yes” “overstimulation” “yes” “choking” “yes “ “fire play” “no sir” “praise” “yes” “degrading” “yes” “breeding” “yes” “double penetration” “no well maybe” “oral” “yes”

“Ok tell me if your comfortable or uncomfortable with anything i name ok” “ok” “metal handcuff” “no” “leather cuffs” “yes” “being collared” “.....for you yes” “doing the deed in front of a mirror” “yes” “me taking picture or recording at any point” “yes just send it to me after” “hair pulling” “yes if you want to ill put it in a style that's easy for that” “yeah that would be good” “gagging” “yes but not to the point where i throw up” “didnt plan on doing that but ok… how do you feel about humiliation” “to an extent” “elaborate” “i dont care what you call me or do but dont call me dumb or stupid etc but you can call me a bitch just to let you know” “was just about to ask about that acceptable names” “um princess i really like when you call me princess um like i said a bitch a slut whore whatever no pet or slave or anything like that though” “ok any health issues i should know about” “no none” “ok now safeword what we thinking” “same as yours hawks” “ok stop light system ok too” “yes” “ok” “oh last thing how are you with wearing make you and having it running and smudged” “oh yes 100% red or black lipstick” “red”

“Ok my turn,” I say turning the page “are you comfortable with me calling you master sir or daddy during” “just master and sir but if you slip and say daddy I won't hold it against you” “and for the negotiation part I will most likely struggle with the power exchange so just ease me into it I've never subbed before so I can't just get into subspace as you can and I will give you a hard time because I simply will im not going to submit easily so are you prepared for that” “more than you know” “also the collar make sure it pretty I don't want just a plain one either and aftercare I will be needing a comfy blanket your comfiest hoodie food snacks, etc and I wanna watch a movie of my choice and also I wanna stay the night I never been to your house” “ok I can do that and I will need you to tell me how was your experience was on a 10 point scale” “ok” “just one last thing” “what” “are you sure you want this to be a one-time thing”
I think for a second” I'll let you know after like I said I never subbed before so I don't know how much I'll like it” “ok we’ll table that part for later” “yeah” “ok well I have to make a stop at happy pleasures before I go home” “ ouu can I go with you I haven't been there in ages” “ok but you're driving your car I have somewhere else to go after there” “ok”

When we arrive to happy pleasure the cashier recognize me “oh my i haven't seen you in so long you give on the dominatrix life” she says leaning on the counter “oh never i just haven't needed anything new because i'm tied down now i'm a one sub dom now” “what no you one sub they must be the masochist of your sadistic dreams” “yes yes he is he's over there” i say point over at keigo “a cute one too how you snag this one” “best friend from college we kinda lost contact for a while and then he was at the dungeon i used to work at and he said he was looking for a dom and 9 months later he's roped me in to let him dom me” “that explains the almost full cart” i turn and look at him and shes right it's almost completely full “yeah” “well go shop around we got some new impact toys i think you'll like” “ouu thank you” i say before walking around i rack up on lube because i do need more of that and checked out the impact toys it was a new red collection and did i need to grab one of everything no but i did “hey kei finding everything you need” “yeah pretty much done just doing another walk through to make sure i didn't forget anything” “hmm 8in or 9in” “you know i can only do 8” “hey you mightve wanted to size up” “no did you find everything you needed” “yeah the light brown or the medium brown one” i say holding up two different didlo to him” both can never have to many” “when your right your right” i say putting them in my cart “well im done you”he says picking up one last thing “yeah come on”

Kei gets to the register before me “so your the lucky man who got miss jessica to be a one sub dom impressive” he laughs then looks at me while still taking things out of his basket “yeah thats me” i look at all the things he puts up there and im really in for a fucking treat good lord “i never thought i would see the day” “wanna know the secret” “whats the secret” “its all in the hips” he says winking at her i for some reason feel embarrassed but then “not you just lied and stole my line he didnt even get to do that untill after i made you my permanent sub asshole” we all share a laugh she finish ring him up and he pays then i start to put my stuff up “i see you liked the red collecting”she says ringing me up“you can never have to many impact toys and the red is so fucking cute” “ok so your total is $530 and i'm gonna give you a free harness too” “thank you i need a new one and its leather” “you and your damn leather and latex” “always complaining about something you like” i say paying he takes my bag off the counter “ok heres your receipt make sure you come back soon” “i will call me if you get any new restraints” i say at the door “i will” she says waving we walk out the door and he puts my bag in my car “oh what should i wear tomorrow”i say cloding the back door “something similar to this outfit”he says turning him phone to me and showing me his lockscreen it's one of the pictures we took before the whole remy incident “ok anything else” “no if i think of something i'll tell you” “ok see you tomorrow at 6:30” “yeah see you then i love you” “mm i love you too”he goes in for a quick kiss then opens my car door i get in and he closes the door i wait for him to get in his car and both pull off

Saturday 4:40
I texted Kei not too long ago a picture of my outfit asking if it was ok he said he changed his mind and wanted me in a skirt I sent him a few options and he chose the red and black pleated skirt I paired it with a long sleeve crop top and I also asked if I should wear my black Demonia in the ankle style or the mid-rise one or the full-length one that comes up the knee he voted mid-rise and I straightened my hair which I don't usually do but it was time for a length check/ trim so he can have fun with it tonight before I go and wash it again

 

I'm on my way to his house I have never been here and I don't know why but I'm nervous about it all what if I hate it and he's upset after he put in so much work to make sure I was comfortable sitting in his parking garage I calm myself down I know he wouldn’t do anything I didn't want or handle I trust him I take a few deep breaths and get out of the car I get on the elevator and go up to his floor when I find his door and knock 3 times and he answers “hey princess your early” he said letting me in “yeah I know but I was just sitting in the car” I say as he takes my bag with my stuff in it “it's ok wanna tour of the place” he says wrapping his hands around my waist “yeah you smell good” “thank you and you look damn good goddamn baby” he said stepping back and looking at me “stop it give me a tour”

“ok ok well here's the living room and kitchen,” he says pointing it's decorated in forest greens with gold and wood accents then he pushes a button and you can hear a motor of some kind and the curtains move and it a wall of windows the view of downtown Kyoto at night was beautiful I walk over to the window and low in awe I live further away from the city for many reasons so I don't get to enjoy how beautiful it looks “beautiful right,” he says walking up behind me “yeah,” I say still looking out the window “come on it's more for you to see,” he says grabbing my hand I get pulled to a small hallway he opens a door “this is my guestroom” we walk a little further “guest bathroom aaannnddd my room,” he says opening the door he has a black canopy bed a dresser an accent chair and a couch in his room wait “why do you have a couch in your room,” I said turning to him “because I had the room for it I feel like I'm being judged” “because you are,” I say going to sit on it

“anyway I got you something” “he hands me a box I open it and it's a red collar that says princess in gold letters “ouuu kei this is pretty” “I made sure that it wasn't a traditional sub collar so you can wear it whenever” “no it's not a whenever collar it's special only you can take it off of me and put it on me so master put it on me” he takes it from me and put it on me “not to tight is it,” he says running his finger along the lining “no sir it isn't” “good it got the lining made of silk so it doesn't leave a make around your neck for you know work and stuff” “thank you,” I say now feeling different is this what subspace is like I know im not fully emerged but im starting to feel how people describe it “how we feeling jess still ok with this if the collar is too much you don't have to wear it” “no no im ok I want to keep it on,” I say putting my hand over it

 

 

“ok well let's start off easy to ease your way into everything ok” he say and i nod yes “ok come here” he holds out his hand and i take it “we go to the end of his bed and i don't know how i missed all this stuff but i did with his body pressed against mine arms linked around my waist “ok these are all the things that i'll be using tonight but not limited to these items are you not ok with any of the thing in front of you” i look and i'm seeing a little of everything a paddle red restraints a red vibrator a plug with a red gem a polaroid camera lube“im seeing a theme here but everything looks fine”i say”yeah red looks great on you” he says kissing my neck right above the collar “did i tell you you look fucking beautiful tonight baby” “yes yes you have” i say smiling under his touch he’s gentle and moving carefully to make sure i stay comfortable “sir” “hm?”he says still kissing my neck and collarbone “you don't have to be so gentle i trust you” “don't remember asking” he says spinning me to face him “you say you trust me right” “yes” “then let me work my magic ok” “ok”his hands make their way to the hem of my shirt and lifting it off me and throwing it on the couch

“So pretty princess you know that” he says now with me laying in the middle of his big ass bed he taking off my skirt now when he undoes the zipper and throws it on the couch he looks at me with nothing but love and lust in his eyes “pretty little pussy nice and wet for master already” he sides the thong sting out of the way and running his finger down my slit “mngh” is the sound that comes out of me when he presses against my clit “my slutty little princess i havent even did anything yet and your making a mess” fuck his words are diving me crazy what type of witchcraft is this “princess look at me” i fight it for a second but i look down at him between my legs “good girl” he says pushing two fingers in me i keep my eyes on him not wanting him to stop but then he pulls out “open” i open my mouth and he puts the two finger in my mouth and rubbing them on my tongue “need a minute to adjust my ass your doing good princess” i smile a little at the praise he takes his finger out of my mouth and push them back into me my eyes roll back a little “how much do you care about this thong” “its nothing special why ” “where did you get it from” “um victoria secret i think” “ill buy a new one” he pulls a pocket knife out of his pocket opens it and slides the knife under the waistband it pops immediately then the string that connects inbetween closes the knife put it on the side table then throws what's left of the thong to the side

“Your bring such a good girl princess keep it up” he says kissing my inner thigh he gets up and sits in the chair on the other side of his room with the red paddle in his hand “come here princess” i crawl off his bed and walk over to him he pats his leg “sit facing me” i sit legs on either side of his leg he places both hands on my hips and slowly start to move me back and forth “be master good girl and ride my thigh”he lets go of my leg and i continue the motion on my own and god does it feel good i throw my head back and he loops his finger in the ring on my collar and bringing me to him gives me a small kiss “if you keep up the good work ill let you cum”he lets go and i see his hand with the paddle move and i brass myself for impact and almost jump out of my skin “fuck” “if you stop i cant promise you another oprotuinty when im going let you cum on your own” he says and i start moving again it hurt but like the good kind of pain he does it again and again until i start move faster “about to come princess go head” he drops the paddle both hand on my ass making me push down harder and he continues to do the motion while i was riding out my orgasm “you ready for me to fuck you princess” i nod my head against his shoulder “use your words” “yes sir im ready” he picks me and place me back in the middle of the bed but on my stomach then my back “im just going to put the cuffs on your wrist ok” “ok” he puts them on me behind my back“i told you red looks good on you right yeah i have” he says as i hear the shutter of a camera go off then 2 more times then his body is on the bed and i feel something cold against my ass then pressed inside the moan was rather embarrassing and it snapped me out of sub mode somehow and it made everything feel a little to real i fight against the restraints but get nowhere “do they pass the test” i don't say anything “hm silent treatment ok” “he lines himself up with me and push into me i fight the noise my body want me to make by placing my face in the pillow and is it hard fuck yes but my body wont let me submit again “aww what happened to my princess huh ohh jess is making a guest appearance “shut up kei” “kei just a minute ago it was sir” he keeps fucking me and fuck i lose the fight when he leans down and is hitting a new angle “there we go make all the noise you want nobody can hear you it just us” “well duh” “smartass” he sits up and pulls me up by my hair

“There's nobody here to criticize you for enjoying being a sub for once it's just me so come on be master good little bitch and submit to me like you know you want to” “fuck i love you master” “i love you too princess now because you wanna be asshole you gotta wait a little longer to cum” “but sir” “but nothing”he lets go of my hair and i land smooth on the bed he grabs the link between the cuffs and pull me alittle and started fucking the life out of me i mean were both loud my throat hurts from how loud im being “fuck princess who do you belong to” my brain goes blank no words can come out of my mouth and hes already stopped twice because i almost came and i dont want him to stop again so i fight “yo-y-you- ma-master-i belong to y-ou” i say as best as i can “damn right fuck princess cum cum with me now come on” my body takes the command and i squirt for the 2nd time every in my life thanks to him “fuck baby that's right goddamn” he says coming in me after he was done he unlinks the cuffs and pull out the plug “ok i know you wanna stay in the bed but i cant have you laying here on a wet bed so come on” he picks me up and lay me on the couch “when your ready the showers all your and we can watch whatever movie and here order whatever” he says handing me his phone “password is 12281106” he walks over to his closet or what i thought was his closet but its his bathroom he turns on the light then he goes to take everything off the bed “i feel special im apart of your password”i say realizing its both of our both birthdays “you always has been since you made it that when you stole my phone and changed it” “i completely forgot about that” when we were in college i was upset he was paying more attention to whoever the fuck he was texting so i took his phone ran off and changed the password to both of our birthdays

I look at his lock screen it’s one of the pictures I took on his phone when we were in the car on vacation then unlocked it and my text thread is on the screen my name is PRINCESS🌸💕💖 I don’t appreciate the pink ass emojis so I change it to PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤 then went to find doordash but I stop to look at his Home Screen and it’s the picture of us when he thought my crop top was his shirt then I find the app put in what I want

He’s already took everything off the bed and putting them in the washer “I left your phone on the couch” I say before going in the bathroom he already put my bag in here I start the shower and use the bathroom before I got in the shower while showering I hear a knock then the door opens ”here’s a hoodie and shorts and sweatpants you can have either” he says placing them on the sink counter “thank you” he walks out the bathroom and I finish up and change into his hoodie and a pair of shorts I bought with me his were too long but I do put both the shorts and sweatpants in my bag he’s not getting either back

I come out the bed is still naked and I hear the tv in the living room on I grab my phone and make my way out there “hey princess how we feeling” he says opening his arms I go and lap on top of him on the couch “great”i say getting comfortable on him “when did you change” i say noticing he look like hes shower “when you were in the shower in the guest bathroom i also ordered the food it should be here in a few” “ok” “you just wanted the hoodie i had other pant option you could have choose from” he say looking at my bare legs i pull up the hoodie to show i had on shorts under it “oh i'm taking the sweatpants and shorts back home with me” he just hums in responds and looks back at the tv but i just keep looking at him “on a scale of 10 i give you a 9.5” “ok why was a deducted .5 points” “you know when i agreed to this i remember hearing something about a stop light system and it was not used at all because at one point it should've most definity been used” “yeah your right but i was observing the situation and if you didn't respond the way i needed you to i would've stop but you took the que well and let me know when you were back on your own” “but you can't do that for everyone” “i'm only going to be domming you so im confused on why we talking about everyone”he says looking down at me “well yeah so next time when the power exchange is a little too much stoplight please i say laying my head on his chest “so there will be a next time” “yeah there will be”

Notes:

its going to be awhile (like two days) for the next update because I'm in the middle of two other chapters at the same time 😙 check my other prides and joys while you wait

Chapter 10

After everything last night and plus it’s Sunday and had nothing planned but yet here I am woke watching Jess sleep like she’s never slept before I guess I really wore her out yesterday

“Stop looking at me werido ” she says turning her head away from me “why your so pretty” she makes a grunting sound “your bed is really fucking comfortable” “thank you it better be all the money I paid for it” “how far is that coffee place you always yapping about” she says putting her head in my lap “down the street like a 5 minute walk” “mmm lets go I wanna see whats all the hype is about” she says getting out of my bed and going to the bathroom 

After getting ready we took the short walk to the small coffee shop. When we get there it’s a small line “so what should I get” I hear her talking but my brain is trying to figure out if I know who the man is in front of us then it clicks “Hizashi?” I say when my brain figures out who he is 

He turns around and makes direct eye contact with me “huh? Ohhh keigo and jess?” he says looking at both of us “yeah hey you know Jess” “yeah I know her how are you both” For some reason I feel like I’m slipping in subspace “um good I’ve been good” “yeah me too I haven’t seen you in forever how do you  know keigo” Jess looks at me then they make eye contact I don’t know if it some dom thing but she just nods and laughs 

Hizashi my friend of many years who was also my male dom and I haven’t seen him in at least a year “lets catch up I’ll be over there” he says picking his coffee up from the counter “yeah” he walks off to a booth by the window “I can’t even make you get into space that easily” “I know what you want go and I’ll be over there in a second” “ok” she says walking over to sit with him i order for us and stand to the side and wait 

She’s right it always take a while to get into sub space but for some odd reason as soon as he looked at me and said my name it was over it’s been a year he shouldn’t still have that power over me “um keigo” the barista says I thank her and take the drinks over to the table 

Jess POV

Once I sat down we had a small stare down “how what’s the secret it’s been what a year and he’s in subspace that quick” I say leaning on the table “Jess my love it doesn’t matter how many years it’s been the power I had over him will never leave” he says leaning towards me “come on hizashi tell me” “You asking me how to make your sub of what 9 10 months go into sub space just prove you’ve gotten soft” “oh no never” he just looks at me “ok well a little but he’s a tough one sometimes it’s instant sometimes I gotta walk him into it” “oh I taught him better than that you went and undone all my training haven’t you” “No maybe because we’re dating it’s harder for him” “I’m sorry what” he says sitting back in his seat “yeah shut up I know but I love him more than just as my submissive” “wow….you let him fuck you” he says like he just cracked the code or something “what huh” “Jess you still have the collar on” “what” I reach to touch my neck and yes the pretty red collar that says princess is still very much on my neck “shit yes and it’s a 10 out of 10 experience I do recommend it” we both laugh then kei slides beside me and hands me my drink 

“So keigo you have made mistress Jess go soft I can’t believe it” keigo laughs a little “I don’t know about that” he sounds like a teenager talking to a crush and it’s kinda funny “you’re not going to defend my honor wow kei I’m hurt” “why would he defend you against the truth” “it’s not true zashi I’m still the same dom you trained with all those years ago” “yeah ok keigo question” “yes” he says like he’s going to get punished if he doesn’t answer him “when was the last time your mistress completely denied your orgasm like no cuming at all” “I don’t think she’s ever done that actually” “so you always get what you want at the end”“Well yeah” come on kei at least lie for me

“hmm soft” he says taking a sip from his cup “I just got a whole new impact set it seems like it’s going to broken in real soon” I say looking at keigo before taking a sip he looks over at me like he’s pleading with me “too late for that look anyways how it going in the kink world I’ve been a little out of touch since the move” I say giving my attention to hizashi “well I’m a little out of touch as well I’ve been busy with other things to even have a sub at the moment and did you say impact set from where” “happy pleasures you don’t have a sub you always have a sub” “yeah been to busy at the radio station to maintain one” “you must be really busy we started as soon as you opened your own studio and you were pretty busy then” keigo says “yeah but you have a life outside of you kink life and most of the subs i have only do sw or have some kind of financial help so i could call when i was available and you would come and most want 24/7 relationship and that's draining” “i was never to fond of 24/7 dynamics” “anyways jess keigo here is quite the masochist your finally found the sub of your dreams” “oh yes nobody has ever let me be as rough with them other then kei the sadist in me is so happy” “kei your obviously being good for your mistress correct”

Keigo POV

I stop mid sip “yes sir” i say then freeze when it registers in my mind what i just said “wooooow yeah imma need to know what you did to him...sir…. if you were anyone else i would be livid” jess said looking between me and hizashi “i can show you better than i can tell you” he says putting his cup down and looking at jess “oh can you now and what makes you think ill let you” “oh jess my love it seems like you can use the a lesson or two a reteaching of a few things and i'm more than happy to show you a thing or two about keigo here” “oh i know everything i need to know about my baby keigo dont need help with that” “oh do you” “of course i do theres nothing you could tell me that i dont already know” i dont know whats happening but my dick is hard and if this ends in them both fucking me i don't care about anything else 

“hmm ok keigo tell me im not wrong in my guess that your hard under this table right now”they both look at me with nothing but lust in their eyes “your not wrong” “and if my memory doesn't fail me your a 5 minute walk from here” “yeah thats right” “kei i want you to know if you agree to what will happen when we get to your house it wont be pretty are you ok with that”jess says hand creeping up my leg “and if we get carried away your perparded to watch your mistress and master fuck infront of you”hizashi says reaching for my hand “yes yes i am”i say with the mental image of that forming inmy head “but i have one condition sir” i say “and what is that” “if you two end up you know fucking you can't make her cum” i say i can't give up that sence of pride that im the only one who can do that they look at eachother “ok i wont and if your a good enough boy ill let you do and not make her do it herself” “ok thank you” 

 “ok lets go we have business to take care of” we all get up about to start the walk back to my house i can't actually believe this is about to happen “wait you know what kei send me your address i need to make a pitstop at home real quick ok” i make a whining sound its not going to happen got my hopes up for nothing “where do you live” “like 40 minutes from here in the new house” he says opening his car doors “ouu me too take me home so we can do this properly” i make the whining sound again “oh baby i promise this is happening” hizashi says “yeah kei just we don't have anything to play with and i'm literally in sweatpants and a hoodie nothing say mistress about this just give us like an hour to get ready so we can make this good for you ok” she say pulling me to her by my waist “yeah ill drop you off and we’ll be right back so get ready and prep for us ok”he say running his hands in my hair “ok just one hour though”i say looking between them “yes baby one hour i promise” “ok but hurry” “ok let's go then” he says going to the drivers side and getting in and so do me and jess he drops me off and they leave i go in the house and clean up from last night and start showering and prepping and when i was done i got a text

From: HIZASHI🎙

We’re on the way 

With a picture of him and jess she's in full mistress attire black latex dress with a corset and her favorite black thigh high boots and he's in what i know to be his dom attire a simple black button up and slacks and i can see both of their kink bags in the back seat 

To :HIZASHI🎙

Hurry back please 

I don't get a response from him but jess sends me a picture of his hand on her thigh under her dress

From: PRINCESS🌸💕💖

You wish that was you huh 

She thinks she making me jealous but honestly it just makes me want them to get here faster and fuck me till i cant breathe anymore 

About 20 minutes later i hear 3 knocks on the door i get up and practically run to the door to answer it “hey baby” jess says “thanks for being so patient” i move out the way so they can come in “were going to need a minute to set up so were taking over your room for a minute ok” jess says already making her way there i sit back on the couch and after a few minutes they were walking back out and standing in front of me “yes” i say looking up at them “awhile ago i said i would collar you when i felt like you deserved it well i still feel like you don't so i'm using today to determine if your worthy of getting it back and if at any point i feel like you still dont im taking it back off got it” “yes mistress” she squats down in front of me and puts collar i haven't seen in months on my neck 

“Update me on safe words”he says looking at jess while she stands back up “what is it kei” “hawks” “ok and stop light system” “yeah so master how are we doing this” “well we could start light impact 3 sets of 10 then depending on how he does with that we can let him cum but that's only if we’re satisfied with the results then we just edge him till we can't how's that sound mistress” “ i like that i like that alot come on stand” i get up “go to the room get naked and sit on the bed and look pretty for me ok” “yes mistress” i turn and walk into my room and god they bought everything i see multiply bottles of lube different toy some i can't even tell what they were for restraints impact toys and more shit all over my room i get naked and sit at the end of the bed then they both come in talking “i'm still surprise i never seen you were practically neighbor” “yeah i would think we would've seen each other by now” “then again i moved in before you and youve been mia for months now” “hey just because you havent seen me doenst mean ive been mia we talk like once a day” theyre having casual conversation standing in front of me 

“keigo when you usually do impact with mistress how does it go” he says finally acknowledging my presence  “we do about 3 sets of 10 to 15 with me not facing her” “restraints” “on my hands and sometimes the spreader bar” “so how about no restraints like we used to do and if you move around to much you won't get to cum after” “but” “that wasn't something he wanted a response to jesus kei you're making me look bad” “yes im sorry master” “don't make the mistake again only speak when i tell you to” he say tilting my head back to look at him “yes sir” “good now stomach on the bed feet on the floor your bed is high enough for that yeah” i do as told “hands under your head” “i cross my arms and lay my head on them “five warm up hits with my hand you ready”he say sitting next to me “yes sir” the first hit lands against my ass hard and heavy ”1” “counting even when not asked good job there mistress” the next one “2...3...4...5” “good boy kei”jess says hand moving hair out of my face “thank you mistress” i say falling into her touch “soft like i said he took 5 hit from my hand that doesnt deserve praise” “come on master don't be mean” 

“Keigo what is the rule” i haven't said this in forever “i don't get praise unless i deserve it” “well i think he deserved it” “your getting soft mistress” he says getting up and she follows i hear something move then i can feel what feels like a riding crop on my right cheek and a paddle on my left are they going to do this at the same time i feel them move then at the same time they both hit at the same time “fuck 1….2….3….4….5….6….7….8….9….10” “louder,switch” i hear hizashi say“1….2….3….4….5….6….7….8….9….10” “switch” i hear jess say “1….2….3….4….5….6….7….8….9….10” my face is covered in tears my nose running knuckle white from my grip on the sheets “now that deserves praise” he says sitting next to me “you did good baby really good” jess said laying next to me and kissing my forehead “yeah yeah yeah call me soft but he did good master give him praise”she says hands in my hair massaging my scalp “you did do good keigo but were just starting so that was nothing” “you suck at praise” “whatever what do you wanna do next” “give him his reward like you said” “oh right so ill let you chose keigo sit back up” i do as told ass hurting because im now sitting on it “so you want one of us to choose what do with you or do you want us to hold a vibrator on your dick till you cum” “um you choose” he looks at jess she smiles then he does the same “ok sounding it is” ok did not expect that at all jess goes and gets the case that she had the first time we did it “you really let her do this to you before” he says sitting next to me “yes sir” “did you like it” “it made me feel like i had to pee but it was fun” “ok yeah no peeing or i'm shutting this down” we both laugh and i put my head on his shoulder and he runs his hand through my hair and softly rubs the back of my neck with his thumb the difference between them is that jess outright gives me praises and even with the you dont get praise unless deserved gig hizashi always shows praise physically more then verbally no matter if i “deserved” it or not 

“Ok i'm ready” she says walking over with the case lube and nipple clamps she puts the case on the bed And puts the clamps on at the same time “shit that hurts” “hi hello your my masochist submissive” she really just threw my own words back at me “you don’t have the ones with the part you can clip to the collar” “no but I will after today” 

She prepping the first sound with lube then she starts to push it down I throw my head back on masters shoulder “color kei” “green mistress” “good good” hizashi say wrapping his hand around my neck and squeezing then Jess starts to stroke my dick with the sound in a strangled moan leaves my throat “keigo you really pathetic right now you know that” he says tighten his grip around my neck “tears running down you face for what this is what you wanted right for your mistress and master to have their way with you” he lets go “yes sir this is what I wanted” “then stop messing up that pretty face of yours kei because we could give you something to cry about” yes do that whatever it is I want it please 

I let out a desperate moan “is that what you want keigo you want me to give you something to cry about have a reason for your tears” I can feel Jess pulling out the sound “ok then you cumming can wait” she pulls the rest out and put it to the side “you still have the Jacobs ladder right master” “yes mistress why” “I think kei wants to feel it in his throat and along his tongue” she says opening my mouth and rubbing her middle finger on my tongue “yeah I think so to” he undoes his pants and pulls them down not all the way off but enough 1 i haven’t sucked dick in like 2 years 2 his dick is huge and I don’t logically think I can deep throat him Jess pulls my hands to her restrain them with my usual cuffs behind my back and then sits on the bed behind me on her knees 

“Be a good boy for mistress and open up” I open my mouth and he starts to put his dick in my mouth the piecerings  rubbing across my tongue and when he hits the back of my mouth he pulls out then ram back in and starts to face fuck me I reach my hands out behind me and put my hand on her thighs she move her hand from my shoulder and unlink my cufff and moves to my side she took my hand and put it up her dress I look at her the best I could “you feel that kei feel how wet your mistress is watching you getting you face fucked” I watch as he grabs her face and kisses her tounge and all I moan in a way that made me sound entirely to fucking desperate and I really need to control that and in a short time I could feel him cumming in my mouth she pushes him away from me and I take a deep breath before she kisses me my hand still under her dress I reach up and slide a finger in her she moans and deepens the kiss and moves so that she’s in my lap both hand now on her waist

hizashi clears his throat “mistress...it’s not the time for that” “what I wasn’t going to fuck him just wanted to taste you on him master” she say getting up from my lap he pulls on the chain on the nipple clamps and i hiss in pain “I saw your hand and I don’t remember telling you that you could touch her I don’t care if she put it there it should’ve stayed where she put it so now you get to watch me fuck your mistress as punishment” I look at her “I’m not the one talking to you right now why are you looking at me kei I can’t save you” I look back at hizashi he reaches beside him and pulls up a toy to my face “this is the strongest toy I own I’m going to put this in you restrain you hands to the bed and attach a spread bar between your legs and your going to watch us fuck and if you don’t cum before we’re done I’ll let you make your mistress cum you want that right” “yes sir” “ok then mistress help me restrain him”

I scoot to the headboard and they attach my cuff to the bed then Jess put on the spreader bar then inserted the toy it wasn’t on yet they move towards the end of the bed and start kissing then hizashi started to unzip her dress it comes off easily she starts unbuttoning his shirt and taking it off of him then his pants once naked he pushes a button and Im sent into to shock by how strong this toy is then he pushes her over in front of me so I can see both of their faces he pushes into her she moans and he throws his head back finding his pace took no time at all they were both cussing moaning and grunting and Jess looks like she enjoying this a little too much I thought it would be ok to watch them two but my heart kinda starts to hurt but I can’t focus on that because of how this fucking toy has me on edge but I wanna be the one to make her cum so I hold out for as long as I can 

From watching the clock behind them it’s been 30 minutes “please please please I can’t hold it anymore please I I I can’t do it please let me cum please fuck”I say frantically they ignore me switch positions for the 4th time “fuck kei just a little long wait for me ok you can do that I know you can” she says riding hizashi “please mistress I can’t take it anymore I need to cum master please” neither one of them say anything but then I hear the tell tale that means Jess is about to cum she stop moving on him and gets off of him then crawl to me she lowers herself on me and I damn near lose it she kisses me while riding me like a stolen car “fuck keigo go head and make your mistress come go head I taught you how show her prove to her you can do it” he says beside me before he grabs my face and kiss me 

“Fuck kei kei kei cum with me baby come on shit” we all cum together hizashi cums on the both of us but mostly me they release me then we all collapsed on my bed “fuck that was fun” Jess said catching her breath I wrap my arms around her and whisper “mine” in her ear “yeah all yours baby” she says sounding half sleep “I’ll be back” he got up and left the room “how are you feeling baby” she says running her hands in my hair “I’m ok” “kei you know  I know your lying right I know your ok with the pain and edging but with it all” “I mean I liked it but I didn’t feel to good watching you get fucked by him” “I’m sorry kei you said it was ok” “it was don't be sorry it just you look like you were enjoying your self to much you don’t make those faces and sounds when I fuck you but he does and you sound like your having the best sex of your life” “your pride get hurt keigo” he says walking back in the room with a rag“ok my pride didn’t get hurt just I know how those stupid piecering can make having sex with people without them feel mediocre at best” I say as he pulls out the toy and wipe off the extra lube and his cum off of me “oh baby nothing about have sex with you is mediocre” she says pulling the covers over us me in the middle hizashi on my left Jess on my right “I’m calling out of work tomorrow I don’t think i'm going to have enough energy for that” I say falling asleep

Notes:

its going to be awhile for the next update because I'm in the middle of two other chapters at the same time 😙 check my other prides and joys while you wait

this chapter has been revised

Chapter 11

Notes:

PLEASE READ BEFORE YOU CONTINUE

I talk about some pretty serious things in this chapter such as self harm abuse and more if those are sensitive topics for you I would prefer skipping this chapter and come back for the next one because it gets kinda of heavy so read it at your own risk

and if this isn't a sensitive topic its not super heavy but its half cannon to the actually story of my hero just exaggerated a little

When i wake up im alone in the bed which sucks because that's for sure not how i fell asleep i sit up and see that the room is completely clean like nothing happened at all i go to reach for my phone and its monday “how the fuck did i sleep that long” i get out of bed and go to the bathroom and see that my collar is still on me and when i come out the bathroom and put on pants i go out to the living room and nothing noone “if i didnt have on this collar i would think i was going insane and dremet the whole thing” i say to myself while sitting on the couch i call jess “hey your up” “uh yeah where are you” “work it is monday we left this morning” “oh ok” “yeah you ok” “yeah yeah just everything feels fake like nothing happened yesterday” “i mean a lot of things happened yesterday like alot” “yeah but i wake up and both of you are gone without a trace” “we didnt want to leave a mess so last night we cleaned up we left you food to for when you woke up” “mmm jess can you come back i miss you” i hear her laughing “i wish but im booked up today im working till 6 today but i can come over after” “thats so many hours from now” “yeah i know but i'll cuddle with you tonight on your big ass bed but i gotta go my next patient is here” “ ok i love you” “i love you too kei” “she hangs up i lay out flat on my couch in pure boredness and feeling needy for attention then i feel my phone vibrate

From:HIZASHI🎙
Hey keigo when you wake up make sure you eat something and drink a lot of water you did good yesterday love let me know if you need anything

To:HIZASHI🎙
Hey i'm up and im about to eat something now
And thank you sir on the doing good yesterday

From:HIZASHI🎙
Do you need anything i can have it sent to you

To: HIZASHI🎙
Unless it's you or mistress im ok i don't need anything

From: HIZASHI🎙
I'm sorry to disappoint but i can't help with that i'm working all day today

To: HIZASHI🎙
ok well mistress is coming over after work today if you wanna join

From: HIZASHI🎙
I'll see but i'm not making any promises
I gotta go through call or text if you need anything ok
To: HIZASHI🎙
Ok have a good day

I put my phone down on the coffee table and stare at the wall then decide to actually go eat it been 24 hours since i did that i get up and go to the kitchen and they left me sushi which i wasn't really in the mood for so i just decided to order food while waiting for the food i get in the shower and when i get out my food was at my door i eat and answer a few emails

Bored out of brain i decide to go wash clothes and after 3 loads of clothes it was only 4:30 i never feel like this but for some reason i still feel very much in subspace for some reason like it never last this long usually after the scene i'm back to normal but nope maybe because i just fell asleep and didn't wake back up till the next day

While in deep thought i must have fell asleep because i'm jolted awake by someone knocking on my door i get up off the couch and walk over to the door look in the peephole and its jess “hey baby” she says when i open the door “hey” i say dragging her in the house “whoa ok missed me that much” “yes yes i did” i say pulling her on the couch with me and putting my head in her lap “aww my poor baby” she says with a chuckle “how was your day” i say getting comfortable “good im seeing alot of progress in my newest patient who i almost had to send to someone else” she says running hands through my hair “mhm your good at your job of course everything worked out” “thank you but you've never seen me work” “ok go do your magic”

“ok let's see where do i start ok so i don't really know much about you past the age of 18 so tell me about it”she says starting to run her hands in my hair “um well it's always just been me and mom my dad was there but got arrested when i was like 6 i think and my childhood was uneventful mostly always did good in school which helped a lot when it came to college because of the amount of scholarships i got” “so do you remember anything about your father” “uh yeah he was a shit person a criminal which lead to him being arrested for the rest of his life” “hmm ok so it's a known fact that kinks sometimes stem from some sort of trauma and your major kink that we play into is masochism so is there any past abuse that could have triggered you into liking pain as much as you do” i think for a second and it feels like a door in me has just been unlocked “um well when i was younger and my asshole of a father would get drunk and hit or kick me around and tell me to suck it because i was a man and i guess thats what triggered it because as i got older i would occasionally get into fights and once i even thought about losing on purpose i guess it was a way to feel something other than empty” “why did you feel empty” “i don't know like i said it was just me and my mother we dont have family outside of ourselves so she worked her ass off to make sure she could provide and that's something i could never fault her for and that also means i never really saw her but she always made time for all the stuff i did in high school like my plays and award ceremonies and graduations shit like that but other than that i was alone 90% of the time had to learn how to cook and clean very young because she got a night job and could no longer do it so i had to”

“when was your first sexual experience” “it was the typical prom night losing your virginity thing” “first time was with a girl or a boy” “girl i didnt fully test the waters of my sexuallity till college” “did you ever come out to your mother” “yeah i told her about it and she just told me she didnt fully understand it but she loved me regardless” “how old were you” “um 15” “how did you know” “um i was watching porn with one of friends and he played a gay one as a “haha joke” type thing and i really enjoyed it and i kinda knew from there”

“hm so to prevent actually having to reccomend you a therapist im going to give you my consensus now… your interested in bdsm started way before you met me and hizashi even if you dont know about it but you used pain as a form of happiness and we could get into that on another day but thats kinda why i dont use impact as a punishment because you enjoy it to much for it to be something to make you change behavior and im also sensing some abandonment issues because your mom wasnt around much and you hate being alone but its also when you feel the safest so when your not alone you fill your space with people that make you feel safe and honestly im honored but also the fact that you waited so long to have sex is a surprise to me” “i waited so long because i was told to only do it with people i had feelings for and i took that to heart i had plenty of opportunities to do so but i didnt” “do you still live by that” “yeah kinda but i have had like 2 or 3 hook ups in my life but they dont feel the same as when i'm with somebody i love or like”

“kei can i say something that might be weird” “um yeah” “and you can 100% say no to this and i wouldnt be mad at all” “what is it” “i wanna dive deeper into this as a whole but i wanna do it either overstimming you or edging you i cant really decide but is that something your ok with” “like psychological play” “yes exactly that” “uh yes but only if you dont have to work tomorrow i cant wake up and your not here after this” she thinks for a while “yeah my schedule is clear until friday” “ok then yes you can we can do this” i say sitting up from her lap

“Ok so this is how this is going to work i'm not going to touch once during this ok and at any point at all you wanna stop and it's getting to deep safe word out and we stop nothing further ok” she says restraining my hands to the bed “yes ok” i find myself in the same position two days in row restrained to my bed with a controlled vibrator in me going on a very subtle speed “ok so back to it kei you said your dad was gone out of your life since you were 6 but he wasnt a good person and after that your mom started to work more she was there when it mattered but not anytime else you felt empty and alone and pain became your only way to feel something… have you ever self harmed cutting burning hair pulling anything if the sort” “no self inflicted pain was never my thing believe or not my pain tolerance is very low like i cried getting my ears pierced” “you a low pain tolerance that i don't believe i've put you through a lot of pain in various different ways so how is that possible”

“because i know no matter how hard you hit cut whatever your going to heal the pain tell me i did good and make it all go away not literally but that's how it feels that's why i freaked out when i woke up today and you weren't there i felt like i did something wrong and that was it i lost you” she looks at me with actually worry in her eyes then she snaps out of it and turns the vibartor up one level “why did you feel that way kei” “because you were gone with no trace of even being here you were here in my space for the first time and i did some much shit this weekend that we never do i thought you left because i took you out of your comfort zone” “if at anypoint i didn't want anything that happened to not happened i would've told you you did nothing wrong and i need you to realize that yes saturday i was way out of my bubble but that was because i was with you and i knew you wouldn't hurt me and yesterday yes at some points did i feel like i lost you yes but when it was all over you called me yours and i knew i still had you” i pull against the restraints forgetting about them trying to reach for her “no not yet when you were little did you get any physical touch that isn't harmful” “no not really my mom isn't a touchy person she's been abused so much in her life that it triggers her “

“so you grew touch deprived and it only got worse with age so you started to have sex and get into realtionships to get your fill” “well yes” “and then you started with bdsm to get the best of both worlds the pain and the pleasure of being touched and taken care of” “yeah i guess you can say it like that” “and a while back i made you call me mommy you played it off as “oh yeah it felt so good i wouldve said anything” but you said it because you feel like the love care and protection that i have for you as your dom was motherly you love being taken care of because you dont remember ever being taken care of so you get that feeling from me youll do anything to get my praise and get legit sad when you upset or disappoint me you look at me like a motherly figure don't you kei” “no i don't think so” “keigo you know i'm right just me saying your full name makes you feel like your in trouble” “jess please” “pleaase what keigo” i legit strat crying why i dont know “stop calling me keigo i dont like it” “why not let me know why not why dont you like me calling you keigo”

“because because fuck my father would call me keigo and the only person who calls me kei other than you is my” “your what keigo” “my mother” “but you let hizashi call you keigo no problem why not me” “because when he says it special for some reason i don't feel like i'm in trouble or a disappointment” “but when i say it it feels that way” “yes” “why” “because you only call me keigo when i did something wrong or your upset with me and like you said i don't like it when your mad at me so it hurts me when you call me keigo” “i called you keigo last week and you seemed to get aroused by it what's different” “it had no heat behind it it was more of scare tactics to get me to stop being a brat and then it was ok” “how you feeling kei” “im in tears but i don't feel sad and that's wired right” “no not at all i just made you release emotions about stuff you didn't even know you had so its ok to cry” “can i tell you something” “yes anything” “one of my first time with a dude was older than me like i was 19 and he was 40 ” “thats a big age gap” “yeah i know and he was more of a sugar daddy than anything else but he was like my father in a weird way well not like my father but like a father he would constantly check on me make sure i was ok and fuck me to an inch of my life but i never saw him as someone i would date but as the man that provided for me” “how long were you with him” “up until we graduated college” “undergraduate or graduate” “undergraduate we had to cut it off because he was getting married but he still from time to time checks on me even now i talked to him recently and told him about you too” “do you still feel like hes a father figure to you” “yeah i do i remember telling him that and he made a joke about it” “what was the joke” “that explains why you called me daddy when we had sex” i laugh a little the vibartor goes up to a new level and it's getting harder to ignore

“did you feel that way towards hizashi” “no hizashi was a friend i met and we grew close and he wanted to train a sub and i was down it was nothing more nothing less” “so it was just a d/s relationship” “yeah like how we were when we first started we didn't talk about sex outside of playtime and everything was by the book” “when did you go from oh shes just my dom to i want her to be more than that with me” “umm to be honest i never felt like oh she's just my mistress your my literal best friend who i have very kink sex with except now your the girl ive been in love with since i walked in my dorm room 9 years ago that finally let me call them mine” she doesnt say anything just looks at me and start crying “wait jess what why are you crying” “fuck i love you so much i cant even finish this fuck” she reaches up and unlock the cuffs from my wrist she pulls out the vibrator

“huh put your pants back on” i do as told “whats wrong did i say something” “no baby you didnt come here”she says patting the spot beside of her i get back in the bed and sit beside her “why are you crying” “youve been through so fucking much and ive been fighting back the tears for a while now the fact that you trust me so fucking much it makes me feel like your love is something i don't deserve fuck i dont even tell people your my boyfriend because i feel like i dont deserve to call you that youve been through all different types of abuse and here you are bragging to somebody about me i cant love you the way you need to be kei” “wait no jess dont say that no no no you cant leave me fuck i shouldve kept my mouth shut fuck im sorry please dont leave me” “no no no no fuck no baby im not going no where at all like your stuck with me ok its just i cant love you properly because shit i dont know how to thats why im crying because you deserve so much more than what im giving you and i have to really work on that shit i gotta talk to my therapist about that you know how my family is super conservative and by me being the rebel daughter who is into some weird shit it made the love train stop real quick i never even heard my parents say the words i love you to anyone especially me” “ok but you do love me i can feel it i know you love me i dont care what you tell people i am to you i know where your heart is”

“no i want to be able to tell my friends and family that you keigo takami are the man that i fucking love to peices and the man im spending the rest of my life with no matter if he wants to or not so i think in order to do that we have to actually cut off the sex train for awhile” “umm why” “because our relationship is purly based off of sex we need to have somethng othe than that like what if we hate eachother when sex isnt envoled anymore” “that colud never happen we just went all week without sex and i dont hate you” “thats not long enough” “ok then how long a month” “maybe 3” “jess come on 3 months” “yes it gives us time to actually build a relationship that isnt based on sex come on kei you can do it for me” “ok ok im in but only because i love you” “no take it back” “what why” “i wanna say it first” “ok i take it back” “i love you keigo” “i love you too jess….now give me your love now or ill never forgive you for scaring the shit out of me” i say pulling her in my lap and laying on my back “what ok my praising was bad but you know im not going anywhere kei” “maam you were crying saying you didnt deserve my love i was about to end my shit if you left bye bye no more keigo” “nooo dont say stuff like that your stronger than that” “am i really jess the only person who has loved me unconditionally just decides to leave me after all these years i would not be stable enough for that” “ok but no more ending your life talk” she says getting comfortable on me “i we have to go to my house tomorrow i need clothes and stuff” “ok” “ok…you talked to your old sugar daddy about me” “i can hear how hard you wanna laugh let it out” she bursts out laughing “im sorry kei i really am but out of all the things you told me today that was the most shocking that and that you have a low pain tolerance” “yeah i do i have a serious love hate relationship with pain mostly hate but that's what makes it fun i guess” we both laugh at that

 

“ok what did you tell him about me i wanna know” “i told him that your really annoying” “stop really what did you tell him” “i told him that i fell in love with my old college roommate and that your the first person that i every actually told i loved them...and that you fuck me better then he ever did” “ok ok ok now your lying you didnt say that to him” “get my phone” she reaches and gets my phone off the coffee table i go to his text thread

To: charlie
Yeah i reallllllly love her like a lot
From: charlie
That's good keigo really good im happy for you kid
To: charlie
Thank you
From:charlie
the sex must be great
To: charlie
Oh yes better than you ever did

“good grief kei” she says locking my phone “call me keigo more ok” “are you sure” “yeah im sure” “ok keigo”

Notes:

this was not my original plan for this chapter but that plan is just put on the back burner for now but if your missing the spice go check out in private by me

its going to be awhile for the next update 🥰 check my other prides and joys while you wait

Chapter 12

MONTH 1
It’s been two weeks since we agreed on no sex for the next three months and it’s been normal a little weird at times but ok nothing has changed

“Keigo you don’t have to re organize your closet for me” she says as I move things around my closet “but where are going to put your stuff” “I don’t know in a suitcase or something” “no if your going to be spending more time here I don’t want you living out of a bag so boom all of this space is for you” I say moving back and looking at the now empty space “well thank you but you don’t have to”Jess I barely use all of the space in here so I have no problem with you having some of the space” “ok ok I’ll stop complaining then” “yes please” we kiss her hands find their way to the waistband of my pants naturally “it’s only been two weeks Jess miss it that much” “shut up you know you do to” “yeah but I can wait” “how is that possible I’m literally half naked at every given moment” “ok your always half naked I’ve been desensitized to it now” “whatever”

“Anyways we’re both off tomorrow what ya wanna do” I say walking out of the closet “um what I wanna do we can’t” “and what is it” “the dungeon I used to work at is having a private party thingy” “whyyy can’t we go” “because we haven’t been doing anything lately and I feel like if we do go it’s going to mess up our streak” “it really won’t you think because I’ll be collared and have to call youu- ok it might but we won’t let it we’re stronger than that” “are you sure about that” “yeeaaahhhh” “by the way you just dragged out that word I really don’t believe you” “we got this and now I kinda wanna go” “ughh ok ok it at 8 so we have all day to do nothing other than I have to go home to get ready for later” “ok”

“Ok which one the red or the black one” she says showing me two dress options their both latex dresses that look like once she sits down it becomes a shirt “I repeated myself like 800 times that night red looks good on you so why am I being asked this question” “ok but I wanna wear a corset and the red one looks weird with one” “then why was it an option” “keigo I’m asking for help not for you to be a smartass” “Jess does it really matter what you wear this much” “yes kei it does” she says going back in her closet “ok how bout this jumpsuit with the red corset or the black one” “I feel like I’m supposed to say black so I’m going with black” “wrong you were supposed to say red” she says walking past me and going to the bathroom

“I hope you don’t plan on drinking anything tonight” “one you know better than to think there’s alcohol served in a dungeon and two I’ve been doing this for 10 years I get in and out of these things in seconds” “well I thought since you said it was a private event it would be different” “nope were still in the dungeon so same rules” she says from the bathroom then the doorbell rings “oh that should be hizashi can you go open the door” she say peeking from the door

I go downstairs and open the door “has anyone ever told you you red looks good on you” he says looking at me “yeah a time or two” i say as he walks in “where's jess” “upstairs” “she not ready yet” “nope” he starts walking to the steps the stops “don't forget-” “i cant call you master or sir tonight i know hizashi” i say cutting him off and pushing him up the stairs “jess hurry up before were late” he says walking into her bathroom “im almost ready can you zip me up the rest of the way and we can go” he steps out the way and i zip the back of the jumpsuit “ok now I’m ready let’s go” “I really don’t know how you do anything in that much latex” “you should try sometime it really a humbling experience you never know how hard it is to fully swing until you have to do it in this thing” “I’ll trust your word”

We all get in hizashi car and we take the 20 minute drive to the dungeon they have underground parking so after finding a parking spot we get out “wait he doesn’t have on a collar” “oh god I forgot come here kei” I go to her and she reaches in her bag takes it out and closes the truck she then puts it on me

“Ok now we can go” we all walk in go up the elevator and greeted with a small line to the entrance with a security checkpoint one by one people go in then when we reach the front of the line I could see these two dudes looking at me and it was highly uncomfortable after we’re cleared we walk past them “he’s a pretty one" "hizashi always finds the pretty one” “actually he’s all mine” Jess say winking at them

We walk in more and all we see is someone speed walking towards us the stopping in front of us “omg mistress Jess it’s been forever I didn’t think you were coming” she says hugging Jess “oh I couldn’t miss this” “oh hizashi same with you y’all just disappeared on us” “I know I’ve been super busy with work” she’s takes a double take looking at me “ok which one of you does this cutie belong to” she says looking at me like she could eat me neither of them say anything I look at both of them and they’re looking away like she didn’t say a word “hello if one of you don’t claim him I will” she says getting closer to me I move closer to Jess practically standing behind her like a scared kid “oh yes he’s mine this is kei kei mistress midnight ” she says stepping to the side “nice to meet you kei” she reaches her handout to me “same here”I say shaking her hand

“now by the way the both of you acted like I was speaking another language when I asked who his dom was I can tell you both has been his dom at some point or at the same point” “well yes but me and kei haven’t been together in a year I gave up ownership to Jess” “yeah ok whatever hizashi shota is around here somewhere he told me to tell you to make sure you see him before the end of the night” “what did I do this time” he says while walking off “well you two have fun and kei if mistress Jess ever does anything wrong let me know ok” “uh ok” she winks and walks off “what the hell was that” “she was the dominatrix I trained with she’s like my kink mom she’s the owner of this dungeon as well and shota was hizashi equivalent” “got it” she grabs my hand “safe word rules apply here as well feeling uncomfortable or just need a break or whatever ok” “ok” “now let’s go bully hizashi”

we go over to where it looks like hizashi is getting fussed at “you think just because it’s been what 10 years since you’ve started you can’t learn anything new” “no sir I’ve just been super busy working I haven’t had time to even have a sub at the moment” “heyyyy”Jess says sliding beside shota and I sit next to hizashi “oh my favorite has arrived but the same goes for you being a veteran doesn’t mean you can’t relearn somethings” “actually I just recently found a fuck ton of rigging ropes in my closet and you know that’s your specialty you think I could give me like a crash course”she says leaning her head on his shoulder “first introduce me to the person sitting across from me” “oh this is my submissive kei kei this is shota” he just looks at me “how long have you been a submissive” “it’s been 2 years”I respond back this dude is kinda scary “so still a baby sub how did you get into bdsm” “um it’s always been a point of interest then hizashi needed a sub but not a full time one” “wait so you’ve been a sub for the both of them” he says leaning onto the table “yes” “I trained him it wasn’t necessary a full time d/s-“ he looks at hizashi cutting off his sentence and I know like he’s like their kinky yoda but this is weird to see him get shut down like that “to give you some background information me and midnight as you know her are the owners of this place and one day we get these two fresh out of high school students one on her way to college and the other working at a radio station as an intern coming here to learn about kink we both thought they were two young but instead of turning them away and them learn from some porn or movie we taught them the basis and as they got older then we taught them more and more let them get actual submissives blah blah blah and 10 years later they come to me saying they had the same submissive and being the person who helped them figure out themselves I can tell that your the biggest masochist in this room because it’s no way you endured them both and not be” we all laugh at that “well yes I am quite the masochist”

“So it’s just you or does she have other subs” he says before taking a sip of what looks like water ”yeah just me” “hmm that’s a new one” she sits up and whispers something in his ear he looks at her then back at me “I remember one day Jess told me she would only have one sub when she was ready to settle down with one person and I’m guessing that’s you” “yeah I guess so” I say looking at her she smiling at me and I can’t help to smile back “Jess is like a daughter to me and if your the one keeping her away from here it’s ok with me” “oh but if your going to help her with rigging i refuse to keep her away any longer” we all share another laugh “yeah I like this one Jess keep him” “I plan on it” we talk more and I meet more of jess friends and I’m now at the bar getting her something to drink she talking to someone she told me if they get stuck together to pull her away and say something wrong so after getting the water I walk over to her “hey mistress” I then whisper just random word to her “oh ok yeah I’m sorry excuse me” we walk away and across the room “so why do you have me lying” “ok I don’t kink shame we’re all into some kinky shit but well she’s into piss and shit” “okkkkk nevermind that was valid” “like I don’t know how many time I gotta tell her that’s not my jam” “I mean you did watch a man shit in a diaper” I say laughing “yeah whatever that’s different she does that shit for fun I got paid for that and it only happened once”

When it was getting late we decided to leave but not before saying goodbye to midnight which I later found out name was nemuri and shota when we got to the car Jess took off my collar and we drove home they mostly held up the conversation I added something here or there but my social battery was completely drained I just wanted to take off these clothes and go to sleep when we get to my house I unlocked the door and I immediately started taking off my clothes they continue talking when I get in my room I go start my shower then put my clothes in the hamper and then get in the shower

Mid shower I hear a knock then the door opens “yes” I say “just checking on you everything ok” she says coming in the bathroom and leaning on the sink “yeah tonight was fun I’m just tired now” “ok well hizashi said he staying the night because it too late to be driving” “ok that’s fine” “also since we didn’t eat tonight I ordered food and it just got here so when your done come eat ok” she say standing up straight I look out the shower curtain and she’s not in her jumpsuit anymore but she looks like she went shopping in my closet “am I going to get any of that back” “the pants yes but not this shirt it’s so comfy” “I’m not going to have any clothes because of you” “just an excuse to go shopping” she says closing the door I finish showering and get out the shower I do after shower care and put on whatever then go out to the living room their both in the kitchen we eat they talk then we separate we said it was ok but hizashi insisted on sleeping in the guests room

MONTH 2
From PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Hey babes i'm going to be late coming home today my mom wants me to come over today
To PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Ok let me know when you get there
fromPRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Ok i will iloveyou
To PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Iloveyouutoo

Weve been switching between houses for the past two months is it alot of work yes but we make it work the whole no sex thing has become something we dont even think about anymore do i miss it fuck yes but i mean were doing good and it all be worth it in the end

On my way to her house i decided to go to the store to get somethings to cook tonight once i got everything i go to her house and put everything out so i can start cooking but before i do that i'm going to shower and change

While cooking i get a text

From PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
I just got to my parents house and i should be done with them in 2 hours hopefully

To PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Ok tell them is said hi☺️

 

Jess pov

 

My mom texted me earlier today saying she wanted me to come over because my brother and his new fiance were coming over tonight so i reluctantly agreed and now i'm here having to watch the golden child get all the praise and glory even though he does nothing

“So jordan hows apartment hunting going” my mother asks my brother “we've went to a few places this past week and i haven't really seen any worth buying yet”he responds “well son just keep looking the right one will come soon” my father says “so mileena how's everything in going with school” “oh great i have 5 credits left and i'm done” she responds mileena is the type of girl that everyone can't help but love but me i don't know why but i just don't like her for some reason “i'm so happy that you're finally getting ready to settle down jordan” my mother says “he 23 no offence but i think this isn't going to end well your both so young live your life you can get married later” i say “jessica” my father says in a shocked tone “what i'm just saying i know jordan he's not ready for this he's too young” “your just mad that your getting old and all you have is work” my brother says “actually no i don't i've been in a relationship for the past 5 months and you would know that if anybody cared about me” “we do care about you sweetheart” my dad says “i've been here for an hour and all we've talked about is jordan who does nothing but live off the both of you while i do everything on my own and yet he's the golden child he's a fucking part time dj but when it comes to me i need to get a real job like i don't have a PhD and honestly mileena you can do SO much better than him i promise you” “you think because you got a degree and a big fancy house you wont let any of us in that your better than me” “you said it not me” “well your not your a fucking weirdo your a fucking dominatrix on the weekend and a psychologist on the weekdays jess your weird your relationship probably isnt even real your just making it to get brownie points” “im not you i dont do dumb shit to get attention and so the fuck what what i do in my free time has absolutly nothing to do with my ability to do my job and im damn good at it and maybe you would know what it feels like to be proud of your work if YOU ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE” “FUCK YOU JESS WHY COULDNT YOU JUST HAVE STAYED THE FUCK AWAY LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO” “YOU THINK I DONT WANT TO I DIDNT EVEN WANNA BE HERE TONIGHT AND FUCK YOU TOO ASSHOLE” “out of all the people in the world i had to get you as a sister you youve never liked me im sorry i was born and the attention wasnt on you anymore but fuck grow up already” “jordan are you being serious right now for real i fucking rasied you i never hated you and shit even before you were born they didnt give a fuck about me youre the reason this realtionship is like this so dont try that shit”the room goes quiet until my dad phone rings “excuse me” he gets up and walks out i do the same “and if i was you mileena i would run as far as you could because this isnt the life you want love you deserve better trust me hes my dumbass brother” i walk out the front door and go to my car i hear my dad calling me from behind me “ jessica wait” “what” “you really feel like we dont care about you we did everything and it never seemed like enough for you” “what you did for me was the bare minimum you did what you were supposed to do as a parent dad ive never heard the words i love you from either of you in my whole 27 years you dont call just to see how i am or to just talk to me youve always been busy with work your entire life and i can never be mad at you for anything you ever did for me but shit can a girl hear ‘im proud of you’ once and a while shit he gets it all you're so interested in his life when i was in college i only heard from you when my report card came home and now when your stupid annual banquet happens and you need to show off your therapist daughter and im really tired of it” he says nothing he just looks at me “i gotta go” i get in my car and drive home i feel drained and close to crying for some reason

 

I make it home and when i pull in i forgot keigo was here “shit ok get it together jess” i say to myself breathing in and out to calm down i get out the car

 

Kegio pov

 

I hear the car door close while i'm washing dishes then the front door opens
“Keigo” she says walking in the house “i'm in the kitchen” “hey” “she says wrapping her arms around my waist and laying her head on my shoulder “how was it” “terrible me and my brother got into and my dad gave me the we did everything we could and it was never enough for you speech” i stop the water and dry my hands and turn so i can hug her properly “was it a bad fight” “he said he wished i just stayed the fuck away” i dont know much about anything else in her life besides her and her brother used to be pretty close but as he got older he pushed her away “something told me not to go today and to just come home but noo i went”she says letting me go “i'm going to go get ready to go to sleep” “did eat when you were there” i says pulling her back “ no i didnt but i just wanna sleep kei i take whatever you cooked with me to work tomorrow” i look at her and i dont wanna push to much so “ok let me know if you need anything ok” “ok” she kisses me then goes upstairs

After i was done cleaning i went upstairs to check on jess she was in bed laying on her side on her phone “how we feeling” i say sitting in the chair in front of her “i feel like shit keigo” she says putting her phone down “why talk to me” she scoots back and opens the covers i accept the invitation to the bed she gets comfortable head on my chest hand in mine “i told my brothers fiance to run away from him” “why” “i don't know kei i just said it their too young to be getting married when i said that they looked at me like i was the grinch” “i mean your right though hes what 23 they have all of their lives for that” “thank you and me saying that made everyone turn against me he doesn't even know what he wants to do with his life and still living off my parents and the girl shes in college so she can be a lawyer of some kind i dont know she shouldn't put herself through that not this young” “but jess everyone has to make their own mistakes” “yes that true” “and i'm not against you here but maybe that's something he has to go through to grow up maybe she'll be the thing to help” “but marriage keigo they've known each other less than a year and they already have a day all set out” “we've been together less than a year would you say no to me” “shut up were different i've known you for 9 years” she says with a small laugh“that doesn't answer my question would you say no” she looks up to me” yes i would say no keep it up” “im hurt baby really hurt” “shut up” she says full on laughing now “but be honest do you think i was wrong for saying that to them” “it wasn't out of jealousy or hate just genuine concern for your brother but some people has to see the consequence of their own actions for them to see the wrong so you can't force it on him baby so no i don't think you were wrong”

MONTH 3
“Do you think we spend to much time together” jess says entering the bedroom from the bathroom “excuse me what happened to hello how are you” i say completely taken aback from her statement “like the only time we're apart is when were at work what if the first time were apart for the first time and we like being alone more than being together” “jessica please last time you said something like this you stopped us having sex” i say sinking into the bed “you don't think that will happen we both were both alone before we got together so we might miss that life and don't know it” she says straddling my lap “no no you were alone most of the time before we got together i was not” i say sliding her up so she's not directly on my dick “i forgot about you whore phase but that even more justifies my thinking you might LOVE being alone and don't know it” “i quite literally hate being alone always have always will why do you wanna leave me so bad” “i don't but i just wanna make sure i check all the boxes off so my mind can stop with all these what ifs” “ok ill do whatever you need me to do to make sure you know i dont want anything in this life more than you” i say seeing this actually means alot to her “only phone calls and text till the beginning of next month” nothing could ever perpare me for what she says next “Jessica Miranda Carter are you trying to kill me” “you said whatever i wanted” “i thought it was going to be like we can only see eachother on our days off or something not that” “please i dont wanna get to far into this and we realize we kinda hate eachother” “ok ok ill do it but it doesnt start till monday i need to see your face as much as i can before you leave and i can only hear your voice” “thanks kei” she says before kissing me “your lucky i love you because anyone else i wouldve left by now” “you really know how to make a girl feel special you think youll survive being without me for a month” “i mean i went 4 years without seeing you and that was pretty hard and we weren't even together so now that i've spent the last 6 months with you it's going to be hell but i'll endure so your wonderful brain can stop coming up with these stupid what ifs”a

Month 4

Today is the day that will be the first time in a month that we seen each other

I drive over to her house i don't even bother knocking just use my key and she's nowhere downstairs so i go upstairs and her bedroom door is the only one closed i knock and open the door and she's sound asleep i laugh to myself and walk over to her bed “hey princess” i say moving hair from her face it feels so good to see her again she opens her eyes “hi” she smiles and pulls me in the bed “sorry i fell asleep waiting for you” “it's all good princess i'm just happy to be around you again” “mh i cant for you to be inside me again” “your the one whose sleep wasting time” she sits up “give me 20 minutes “i gave you 3 months hurry up” she gets out the bed and goes to the bathroom

20 minutes goes by she comes back im sitting up against the headboard in just boxer she walks over to the bed in nothing but a bra and a thong “fuck ive missed you” “i thought you were desensitized to me being half naked” she says straddling me “yeah i lied” i lean in for the first this kiss turns into a full on makeout session she grinding on and i can feel he getting wetter and wetter “stop being a tease baby” i say movinig down to her neck she moves back and pulls my boxers off then sits straight on my dick the sound we make just proves how much we missed this “fuck baby” she says lower herself on me lower and lower taking me in it feels so fucking good when she bottoms out she sits there for a second and just gets used to the feeling again then slowly starts bouncing up and down then she found her pace she was comfortable with and went crazy weve both been in desperate need of this it feels like were rushing once we came once i was now on top of her

“i dont wanna rush just wanna enjoy the ride” i say kissing down her body then started to devour her slowly she moving around trying to get me to go faster “you keep it up ill stop” “i cant do slow right now i cant” she says in a voice i recognize “princess hey be my good girl and stop moving ok” i go back and her hands are in my hair shes not moving as much now “there's my good girl” she cums and i don't stop shes starting to move again trying to get away from me but she can't with my arm across her waist i continues through the next orgasm “baby i cant cant take it fuck” she says hands gripping my hair back arching off the bed without even coming up for a breath i makes her cum again

i come up to kiss her “that's what being my good girl gets you” she pulls me back for another kiss i push her down flat on the bed and slides into her and starts with a slow and steady pace that drives her crazy she can feel every inch sliding in and out of her “so pretty princess” i reach for her phone because it's closer than mine and start taking pictures of her after 10 pictures i stop but she makes a noise “what princess tell me what you want” she just makes another noise “use your words princess or it won't happen” she takes a moment “sss...swi..itch” she finally gets out “switch what sweetheart” “yellow” i stop everything “what's wrong”she sits up “dude how do you do this” “what” “cum multiple times and not feel like your about to die god we gotta switch” i laugh in relief that i didn't hurt her or something “you suck you came what 4 times i was aiming for at least 8 9 maybe 10” “yeah that never would've happened anyways sit back against me” i do as told “give me 20 minutes and ill fuck you” “20 minunets harsh its been 3 months i dont know if i can hold out that long but ill try” “yeah i know you can you always do” she starts stroking my already hard dick and im trying to focus on anything other than her trying to make me cum before time she already stopped once and i'm embarrassed on how fast i got there

She has one hand around my neck squeezing just enough that it's making it hard the breath but not impossible “stop trying to fight it keigo we both know your louder than this its been 3 months stop depriving me of my favorite sounds baby” she's kissing my neck now and thats making me pay attention to how bad i wanna cum right now and looking at the clock i still have 10 minutes “fuck mistress stop stop stop” she moves her hand “9 more minutes baby your doing good i promise you so good” i lay my head on her shoulder “look at how hard you are just leaking precum” she says rubbing her thumb over my tip “you wanna cum so bad it hurts”she starts stroking again my face in her neck “my arm hurts i should stop” she says turning her head to me “no mistress no please i've been a good boy please let me cum please” “you think you deserve it” “yes mistress i do please” “what if i dont think you do” she slows down “no no mistress please please please ill do whatever just let me cum please” “such a desperate needy little baby you know that keigo” “please mistress im so close and the time is almost up” “you know i dont have to let you finish” “jess please fuck i cant holding on longer than i have to” “jess yeah im adding 5 more minutes thats not how you address me especially if you want something from me ” “fuck fuck fuck” “dont you dare cum before i tell you too” “mistress i i i can't do it anymore i cant i cant” i feel all of my muscles tense up “fuck ok whatever cum ill figure out something go” “no i can fuck i think i can do it” “no keigo go ahead and cum its ok seriously” “how much longer” “6 minutes” “i can disregard what i said i can do it” “are you sure” i nod and she picks up the pace by like a lot and this drags some of the most lewd sounds out of me “4 minutes keigo” i start counting that's 240 seconds

60 seconds go past and she tells me i have 3 minutes the pressure builds up more and more the more time goes past then she stops and i really feel nothing but hate for her right now her hand squeezing the base of my dick to stop me from cuming “would i be out of pocket if i asked for you to cum in my mouth” “it wouldn't be the first time so no” “wha- i'll come back to that sit up” i sit up and she moves in front of me and starts to lick and suck my tip until i came all in her mouth i fall back not having strength left in me at all like fucking hell it felt good to cum my eyes close “no sleeping yet baby” she says getting back on the bed i dont even remember feeling her get off the bed im so out of it “i said i was fucking you after remember” i feel her fingers entering me my back comes off the bed as she finds the right spot immediately she fingers me for awhile before she comes down to kiss me while slowly entering me “you just came so hard and your already hard again such a good boy for me baby youre doing so good for me today” she starting to find her pace and god its just as relentless as i remember and god i missed it “are your hands retrained” “no” “then why aren't you touching me” she places my hand on her hips my hands roam her body then rest on lower back “hit me keigo” she says head thrown back “what” “you heard me” i move my right hand then i slap her ass harder than i planned on doing “fuck do it again” i do it again she starts speeding up then with my left hand i reach up grab her by her neck and bring her face to me and we start kissing like our lives depend on it and i hit her again and she grabs my hand and squeeze my hand so im squeezing her ass she moans more into the kiss then i hit again and squeeze it harder than the hit she breaks the kiss and sits up the tell tell noise comes out of her mouth and i thank god because i don't have to wait any longer to cum “fuck cum with me baby” and we do just that

She pulls out and falls next to me “were never going another 3 months without sex ever again”she say catching her breathe “yeah hell no”
After we cleaned up and showered we got ready to make our reservation we get there and as soon as the waiter left “i'm coming back to this sir when have you ever came in my mouth” she say “the night we got drunk off our ass”i say looking at the menu “i really did that” “you thought i was lying” i say putting the menu down “you let me do that” “you told me to sit down you wanted to try something you thought i was going stop you” “thats why i don't drink because i hate to inflate your ego anymore but that was the first time i did that sorry if it sucked” “oh i know you told me before you did it and baby i promise you i may not remember anything else from that night but i know damn well i came in like 5 minutes” “hm good job me” she smiles and looks at her menu “eww” “what” “i'm in love with you” “awe that cool” “nevermind i take it back” “noooo sorry dont take it back keigo” “ok Jessica i take it back” “no we're stopping that now no jessica” “why i let you call me keigo now” “ill go back to just kei again if you think that jessica is happening” “no ok ill stop jess” “ok now tell me you love me” “i absolutely despise of you” “stop it keigo before i start crying” “don't cry cry baby i love you” “i love you too”

Chapter 13: EXTRA #1

Notes:

I wanted to give some background on somethings and some people so I'm going to throw in some extra chapter that will be shorter that the regular chapters 😙

 

I have one long chapter that's coming right after this one

Backstory for Jess

Her parents met in the states in college and after graduation they ran off to live in a new place they moved to a small town in Japan in Miyagi and had Jess and 3year later had Jordan the older Jess got the more her dad worked he became this big time lawyer and they moved a lot so she never really had a good group of friends and in her first year of high school they moved to the US which was a lot for her she had to learn get used to a whole new place and thank god she was fluent in both English and Japanese because moving there without that would’ve made life a living hell when her 12th grade year came they moved back to Japan in Osaka this fancy pants place she went to this Prestigious highschool and couldn’t wait to get out of there immediately she did great in school and in just her one year there she beat the lead contender for valedictorian and got it by a landslide it was crazy she got scholarships and full rides to many schools overseas and in Japan but in the end she ended up going to Sophia University a 6 hours drive from her family

When she finally moved in and was placed in a suite because her parents paid extra for her to get her own room when she got there it was a four person suite and two of her roommates got room changes right before move in day so she only had one and they were all moved in by the time she got there later after her parents had left she went and knocked on their door to introduce herself and when they opened the door and she saw a dude she was in complete shock

“oh hey I’m sorry I didn’t come out earlier to introduce myself I’m Keigo you must be Jessica right” “yeah you can just call me Jess though and it ok about earlier my parents would’ve lost their shit if they saw my roommate was a dude” “yeah I guessed that” we both laugh “you wanna go like get food I’m like starving” “yeah for sure let me change real quick” “ ok yeah sure let me know when your ready”i go back in my room and put some stuff away and not to long after he was knocking on my door “ready” “yeah” we go to the cafeteria “none of this looks edible”he say looking at our options “not in the least wanna go off campus and go get something” “yeah sure” while walking past our dorm i make a turn into the parking lot and notice he's no longer behind me “you change your mind” “no no just didnt know you had a car” he says catching up to me “yeah graduation gift” i say getting in we drive around and decide on pizza “wait dude is that a drive in movie theater” i say driving past the sign “oh we have to go” he says looking back “definitely” i make a u turn and we go and it's perfect timing the sun just started going down

 

“Hey welcome we only have one movie available for viewing tonight unfortunately and its beetlejuice you can turn to 63.9 to get the audio of the movie it should be starting soon i hope you enjoy”

We go and park and while waiting for the movie to start we start eating “so what's your major” i ask “business major you” “hm psy major” “are you from here” he asks me “no miyagi you” “Fukuoka” “so we both got the hell away from our hometown” “yeah all my other offers came from places to close to home”he answers “yeah same had a few from the US that i turned down” “you must be really smart” “i guess you can say that graduated top of my class and i was a transfer student from the US” “thought you said miyagi” “yeah i moved to the US for 3 years and came back last year and moved to osaka” “parents in the army” “nope just two dumb teenagers running away from reality” “hm got it tell me more about yourself roomie”
We talked through most of the movie and when it was all over we made our way back to our dorm it was pretty destined we were going to be super close

Chapter 14

Notes:

CHAPTER NOTE-when something is in italic font its their inner thought

 

this is a fun one 😅randomly had the idea and jumped on it I hope you enjoy

I got a text from my childhood best friend the other day saying she was going to be in tokyo for the weekend so we're meeting up this weekend 

“Hey keigo don't forget we go to my dads work party tomorrow” shit i completely forgot about that “what time is it again” “its at 6” thank the gods i meet rumi at 12 “why do you have something else to do” fuck i forgot to tell her “um yeah but it way before 6” “oh ok it'll be better we leave from here so ill be over here by like 4:30 5:00” “ok ill be done way before by then” “ok cool cool”

Jess pov 

Why the fuck is he acting so suspicious like i feel like hes hiding something “so what do you have planned because im pretty much free before then” “oh nothing just meeting a friend from back home theyre in town for the weekend and were going to meet up” “oh ok cool cool” “yeah i completely forget to tell you about” “oh no its cool have fun” yeah hes definitely not telling me something and i dont really appreciated it but whatever “yeah you good” no im not ok your lying about something and i dont fucking like it “yeah i'm good why” “because you're hitting me with the i have an attitude responses” well duh your lying about something “nothing i just feel like your lying about something” “i mean im not so i don't know why you think i am” “then you shouldn't be so defensive about it” “i'm not being defensive about anything” “ok whatever keigo because your hiding something and i obviously am pointing it out and your being weird about it”

 “jess im not being weird about anything i just forgot to tell you they were coming into town this weekend thats it thats all nothing else” “i don't care have fun dude im leaving” “omg jess it's not that deep dont leave” he's trying to stop me from leaving the house but is unsuccessful i make it out but he catches me before i get on the elevator “come back in the house and we can talk about this like adults ok” he takes my bag and keys from me and i follow him back in the house “what” “is this because you don't really want me to come with you tomorrow so your trying to start a fight” “omg no if i didn't want you to come i wouldn't have asked you to go im acting like this because out the blue this childhood friend that i've never heard off is popping up and i'm confused” “ok ok rumi was my best friend up until the end of high school but after she left and i haven't heard from or seen her in years she's only here for the weekend and i just wanted to see her again before she left again that it thats all” she wait did he say she “that's why you were acting weird because their a she and you didn't want me to know you were spending time alone” “no that's not the case i didn't want you to think i was trying to get out of the thing with your dad” ok i really jumped to conclusions on this one “ ok now i feel stupid” “dont its ok just you know don't be walking out my house like you hate me” “i dont hate you” “well you sure did look like it” “i don't hate you i just don’t like feeling like i'm being lied to” “sorry for coming off that way” he says hugging me “you wanna come with tomorrow” “no go i don't wanna impose you haven't seen her in forever go ill be waiting for you when you get back” “no i want you to meet her and she's been lowkey  bugging me to let her meet you” “she knows about me” “i mean well duh you're literally my first real girlfriend she was actually one of the first to know” “i feel oddly special wait how much of our relationship does she know about” i don't think i can handle her knowing that we started dating because i literally cut my name in his leg as her first impression of me “just that your my girlfriend we dont talk sex stuff its weird she like my sister” whew ok “ok where are we going tomorrow” “umm the restaurant i met your mother at” “ohhh ok” 

 

Were on our way there and for some reason i wanna impress her so bad it hurts  “it's going to be ok jess chill” he says rubbing his hand along the inside of thigh when we arrive we see her god is she beautiful “ok kei if i leave you for her don't be mad ok” “yeah i knew this was a mistake” “omg kei its been entirely to long” she say giving him the biggest hug he lets go of my hand and returns the hug lifting her off the ground a bit 

Am i jealous no no noooo i could never be “rumi jess jess rumi” “god your beautiful you did not lie” she says looking at me like she could fuck me in the middle of the street and he turns and does the same “um thank you you are too i was just telling keigo dont be mad if i leave him for you” “it wouldnt be the first time thats happened” “ok you had an advantage that time so of course you got him and i didnt” “but i still got him didnt i” s he seems to cant stop touching him and i definitely don't like that “oh yeah they're waiting for us to claim the table” they take off in the restaurants with me behind them when we get to the table i sit down near the wall expecting him to be sitting next to me but nooo he slides right next to her still not jealous noo never that 

“Have you been here before kei” she says looking at the menu “no jess has though” “the food here is pretty good” they seem to not even acknowledge my existence “so how’s everything going kei” your the only person other than mom that calls me kei my ass  “ good good how about you how’s everything” “great I had a few meetings this weekend about expanding but I don’t think I found the right place yet” he moves his arm to the back of the booth seat and she scoots over closer to him I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care “so Jess kei told me your a psychologist were you like his therapist” no I wasn’t his fucking therapist I’m his fucking Best Friend well at least that’s what I thought “ no we met in college” “oh your that Jess ok” what the fuck do you mean that Jess “yeah I guess so” “do you honestly think I would be with her if it was that Jess” who the fuck is the other Jess 

“I mean shit I don’t know I just know her name is Jess and she’s a psychologist” “well to help clear up any confusion my name is Jessica” “oh the other one was Jessie” I look over at keigo and he’s just sitting there until the waitress comes over we order and she leaves the table but not without saying “your a cute couple” and the have the audacity to fucking laugh 

the entire time I’m ignored and the amount of times they’ve practically been all over each other fuck keigo doesn’t even touch me that fucking much to try to calm myself down I text hizashi 

To:HIZASHI❤️

I would be wrong if I just left because I’m obviously not wanted here

From:HIZASHI❤️

Yes you would be wrong Jess the only friend of yours he’s met of yours fucked you infront of him so I mean you can’t really be mad

To:HIZASHI❤️

That’s different hiz that wasn’t planned and he 100% consented to that I wasn’t initially invited so we’re they going to be like this alone 

From:HIZASHI❤️

Do you trust him Jess 

To:HIZASHI❤️

Well yes but she’s really bothering me like really bad

From:HIZASHI❤️

She’s his equivalent to me to you and we’ve done worse together so just don’t let your jealousy get in the way of you trusting him

To:HIZASHI❤️

I’ll try 

From:HIZASHI❤️

Now stop texting me and act like you got some sense before I tell midnight and sho on you

To:HIZASHI❤️

Please don’t do that 

From:HIZASHI❤️

If keigo tells me you were rude today I will now bye love ya 

To:HIZASHI❤️

Ok ok love you too

I put my phone down just in time for the food to come out and while eating all of hizashi reasoning went out the window because their literally fucking feeding eachother “I’ll be back” I go to the bathroom and I’m pacing back and forth waiting for hizashi to answer the phone “why are you calling me right now and not playing nice” he says answering the phone “Ok I really need you to talk me down now because she’s FUCKING FEEDING HIM I can’t hiz” “Jessica they’ve know eachother since they were wait like feeding him feeding him” “yes hizashi feeding him feeding him like a fucking happily married couple” I say voice cracking from starting to cry “ok Jess calm down ok breathe with me”I take several breaths in and out “ok now I know what it looks like and how this is making you feel but remember that this is the man that you love and he would literally die for you he wouldn’t do anything to hurt you on purpose ok we both know this so don’t let her get to you baby” “im trying to not let it be but this is the man I’m introducing to my family later-“ “exactly exactly remember that he’s your boyfriend that you’re introducing to your family later you’ve never done that” “yeah your right” I calm down a little bit “ok now go back out there before they think you taking a shit in a public bathroom ” “omg shut up I’m going back now” I say wiping my face and looking at myself before leaving the bathroom “ok talk to you later” I go back to the table 

“Everything ok”keigo says when I sit back down “yeah my mother just called to give me the don't dress like a whore speech for tonight” which isn’t technically a lie she called me earlier this morning with that speech though “mh what do I have to wear tonight like a full suit or” “nothing to out of the ordinary of what you would wear to like work” “ok” I suffer through the rest of the lunch of many times I wanted to just leave or jump across the table and drag both of them it’s really irritating but I don’t show it I just keep it pushing like I’m ok

“This was really fun it was really nice meeting you Jess I can see why kei loves you so much” you’ve said 20 words to me since we been here “oh the pleasure is all mine it was really nice to meet you honestly” I say with probably the fakest smile I’ve ever produced they hug one last time before we leave 

After he closes my door he makes his way to his side of the car he’s whole demeanor has changed “what’s wrong”I say as he gets in the car “you” ok what the fuck “I’m sorry what” “I ask you to come here to meet my friend and your on your phone the whole time or just not engaging” he says pulling off “wow ok if anyone should have an attitude here it’s me there was no way for me to fucking engage I wasn’t included I should’ve just stayed the hell home I’m surprised you even noticed me on my phone because you damn sure didn’t even try to include me” “omg how was I supposed to include someone who obviously didn’t want to be here” “keigo you invited me saying she was dying to meet me and she mistakes me for one of your fucking ex’s of course I’m going to disengage I let you have your fun and didn’t engage because I wasn’t needed here” “but I wanted you here you couldn’t at least tried” “keigo I just set through 2 hours of watching her constantly touching you and you fucking doing the same and yall fucking feeding each other you sat next to her you put your arm around her as soon as we got there I no longer existed to you keigo me staying in that fucking restaurant was a fucking feat on its own so don’t give me that bullshit” he says nothing just continues to drive the ride is silence until hizashi calls keigo 

“Yes”keigo says answering the phone and putting it on the phone stand on his dashboard “heyyy just wanted see how everything went today”he say then you can see he picks up on how we both look like we could kill each other “it was nice to see rumi again I wish that my girlfriend wasn’t an rude asshole the whole time but it’s ok” “it didn’t seem like you cared about your girlfriend since you had your precious rumi there” “okkkkkayyyy seems like it went just as I expected terrible ok let’s have a moment of honesty ok keigo jess really wanted today to go well like really bad and it didn’t and I know you missed your friend but Jesus keigo you don’t think you went a little to far today” “ok yes I can see that but I had to watch you two besties fuck” “which you 100% consented to” I interjected “she wasn’t prepared for this you gotta see this from her point of view kei she watch this girl practically take your undivided attention from her with no hesitation from your part you would feel the exact same way if the shoe was on the other foot” we stop at a red light  he looks at me then grabs my hand it puts it on the gearshift with his “I’m sorry baby I didn’t think about it that way it was a little much” “a little she feed you food and you didn’t correct the waitress when she said you were a cute couple” I say looking at him “ok it was a lot like a lot a lot but it’s always been like that between us and I’m sorry that not an excuse and I know that it hurt you to have to see that” “she cried in the bathroom keigo hurt really isn’t the word ” “he didn’t need to know that part hizashi” I say looking at the phone “you cried baby for real” “yes I was frustrated and angry you look like more of a couple with her than me” he looks at me then back at the road “I’m sorry I really am fuck I’m terrible person” “yeah you are but not really but you are” I say then we laugh “now I’m going to leave because I have a radio station to run talk to ya later” he says before hanging up 

We get to keigo house and when we get there we start getting ready for tonight which is a different thing when all of the clothes I have at keigos house scream WHORE but I put together the most civilized outfit I could and we left out around 5:00 and we get there by 6:10 

This yearly party has always been the bane of my existence it’s more of a who can I marry my daughter off to first event for the father’s than anything else hopefully by me having keigo here it’ll end that 

Keigo Pov

When we walk in and it’s a lot of people here talking like they’ve known each other for their whole lives “ok that’s the todoroki family” she says pointing to a table with a family that looks like their not the happiest “and their the Bakugo family” she says point to a family with some good genes because they all look the same “and there is the table with my favorite people here  the long haired blonde one is mr.yagi but I call him toshi” I look at her confused on how the two correlate “his first name is toshinori” she says picking up on the hint “and the one beside him is mr.Toyomitsu and next to him is mr.Sakamata and there’s the people i'm related to sadly” I see her mother which I recognized when we walked in and we start to walk over “hello people that forced me to be here” she says as we walk up to the table I don’t think I would ever have the balls to that but it’s Jess we’re talking about here her dad turns around and it’s somebody who just out of view until he moved your here with your girlfriend dude you should not be thinking about asking him for his fucking number I really hope that’s not her brother 

“Ok Jordan mother father this is my wonderful boyfriend keigo keigo them” she says “hello it’s nice to finally meet all of you” “boyfriend wow I really did miss my shot huh” the man that looks like god made himself said ok not her brother thank god “yes touya you did” she say letting go of my arm to go hug him one arm minimal skin the skin contact would’ve been accomplished if the whole back off her dress wasn’t gone but it’s a respectful hug 

She reaches her hand out to me and I grab it “touya this is keigo keigo touya he’s the only person here the same age as us that also is being forced to be here” “yes every year hey dude it’s nice to meet you ” he says extending his hand for me to shake god I could look at this man all day like he was obviously the rebel in the family both ears almost fully pierced nose has three different rings in it didn’t even know you could do that shit if this was my competition and I won I’m really lucky “yeah it’s a pleasure meeting you too” I say shaking his hand “have you met the people we really come here for yet” “no I was about to take him over there now” she is almost dragging me to the next table “Jessica” they all say when the notice her “hey hey” “it’s been so long since we seen you last” Sakamata says he’s a handsome older dude kinda reminds me of Charlie alittle tall black and white hair if Jess goal was for me to want to fuck every man in here then it’s well over accomplished “I know I know but I want my favorite people to meet my all time favorite person keigo keigo yagi Sakamata Toyomitsu” “nice to meet you” I say “oh wow Jess miss I’ll never bring a date brings a date you must be special” yagi says “he is very special” “well if your special to her your special to us” Toyomitsu says “thank you” “awww guys what about me aren’t I special too” touya says leaning on my shoulder dude are you trying to get me to fuck you  

The night progresses on speeches music food everything and at one point I’m sitting alone with Jess’s family “so are you like hizashi and she’s just bringing you to not look lonely” Jordan says “uh no” what the fuck dude “I mean if you are I wouldn’t put it pass Jess if she like paid you to be here tonight see I just got engaged so if this is some form of her trying to not look lonely it wouldn’t be that surprising” “look dude that’s not the case at all we’ve been dating for almost a year now I’m not here just to make her look less lonely” “whatever you say man” yeah I feel like she should’ve said worse things to him that night “son you should just quit while your ahead you see that they’ve always been destined to be together it’ll only do long before she realizes that”I look in the direction that her dad is looking in and see her and touya just the laughing it up smiling and just proving his point I excuse myself and leaves I’m not about to sit here and take this 

Jess POV

“So how’s things going with Tenko” I say to touya we’ve always been the two rebel kids of the firm and everyone thought we were just destined to be together the lawyer and the psychologist but it was just one big thing that never made that happen he’s gay I know that but nobody else does it’s been our secret for years now so every year at this stupid party we flirt and make everyone believe that one day it might just happen but it never will 

“Oh everything great there he wanted to come tonight but well you know” he says sipping out of cup “yeah I know I get it” “but let’s talk about who is here Jess my love if I wasn’t in a fully committed relationship right now and I didn’t love you I would most definitely be fucking your boyfriend in the bathroom right now”he says looking over at keigo and I hit him in his arm “hey no I’m not sharing keigo he’s mine” “mhm be grateful that he is” he says going to look at him again “hey eyes over here” I say pushing his head back in my direction “your dominatrix stuff don’t work on me baby you know that” he says leaning on the bar “I don’t need it to it works on him so that’s all that matters” I say doing the same “hello I just want to thank everyone for coming and making tonight a wonderful one it’s always good to see everyone in the same place again” ms.Shuzenji says into the microphone “every year same speech” touya whispers to me when the repetitive speech was over and everyone was standing to leave “aw where is your boyfriend wanted to see him one last time before I left” I look over to his seat it’s empty “um no clue” I text him and it doesn’t go through I walk over to where my family is “hey you know where keigo is” “no sweetheart he just left not to long ago” my mother said “like left left” “yeah I believe so so you need us to take you home” “no I’m ok it’s fine go” they leave no second thought standing outside at the dead of night his car is gone my messages aren’t sending and I’m starting to get worried “hey you need a ride home” touya says walking up behind me “um no I’m good” I’m not I’m really not I feel the tears come down my face “are you sure” “yeah dude I’m good” “you don’t look it come here” I go to him we sit on the bench in front of the venue and I call hizashi “my lord in the morning what happened now” “Um he left me stranded here” “what the fuck do you mean where are you” I can hear him already leaving his house “I’m still at the party venue” “alone” “no touya here with me” “I’m on my way love I swear to go I’m going to fucking kill him when I see him” “focus on driving hiz I’m out front” “ok” I hang up “do you have any clue why he could’ve just up and left” “touya todoroki do you think I would be out here cold and crying if i did” “ok no need for the government name to be said”he drags me closer to him and gives me his jacket “and if you wore clothes that actually covered everything you wouldn’t be cold” he says wrapping his arm around me “you know better than anyone else that this is a lot of clothing for me” “yeah remember the year you came in the mini skirt that barely covered anything and your dad made you wear his jacket the whole night” “it just made me look even more naked than the skirt did” 

we laugh touya is really the brother I’ve always wanted we’ve known each other for most of our lives we were eachother first kiss which was very awkward because as soon as we separated he said “I think I’m gay” that was not good for me at 13 but I mean shit we all find out somehow 

It’s not much longer before hizashi pulled up “thanks touya” I say giving him his jacket back “it’s no problem text me to let me know you got home” “ok” I say getting in hizashi car “what the hell happened” “I don’t know he was there one minute then he was just gone” “you have a key to his house right” “yes” “here it’s a hoodie I know you’re cold” he says handing me a hoodie from his backseat and pulling off we get there in half the time it should take to get to his house we get there and b line for his door Please be here please be here god please we open the door “keigo where the hell are you” hizashi yells through the house he’s nowhere to be found there’s a note on his bed

Jess 

I really hate that I feel like this towards you right now but I can’t be around you at all right now I’ll be back soon we can talk then because I can’t right now

Keigo

“He fucking left hiz he left me” I said feeling like my world is falling apart he takes the note and i fall to the floor I feel numb so numb that I don’t even feel the tears on my face until hizashi wipes them away he takes me into his arms and I just fucking ball my eyes out “he said he would never leave me he promised hizashi” “I know baby I know let it out” he says rubbing my back after about an hour of me crying on the floor we decide to leave 

“You wanna stay with me or want me to stay with you” he says pulling into out neighborhood “I can’t go in there hizashi” “ok” he drives past my house and goes further down to his house we go in the house “you need anything baby” he says putting his keys down “a shower” “well you know where it is” our house are literally carbon copy’s I go upstairs to his bathroom and turn on the shower and just sit on the bathroom counter lost in thought replaying the night over and over trying to see where I went wrong what I could’ve done differently and nothing comes to mind but leaving him with the people that probably hate me the most in the world I go to the dreadful family groupchat 

I don’t know what the fuck you said or did to keigo but I promise you I fucking hate you for it I can’t ever have something in my life that makes me happy without y’all ruining it 

I send the message then go to keigo text thread 

To: KEIBABY✨

Baby I’m sorry for whatever it is that made you leave me I’m sorry please come back I can’t I miss you so much already I’m worried about you are you ok can you at least tell me that you made it wherever you are or at least text hizashi if you don’t wanna talk to me 

Iloveyoukeigo

I stare at the screen praying it would go through until it’s snatched out of my hand “go shower here’s some stuff you can wear and your choice of towel and rag” “thank you” he leaves with my phone and I finally get in the shower and the anxiety that I once could say was under control took over me entirely when the thought of something bad happening to keigo the fear alone has me full on paralyzed on the shower floor “Jess you ok it’s been awhile” he say until he sees me fighting to keep breath in my body“shit hey hey Jess look at me ok ok” it takes me a minute but I finally make eye contact with him “it’s ok baby ok I’m here ok just focus on me take my hands and let’s try taking some deep breaths ok” hand in his he runs his others hand up my arm to help me control my breathing “that’s good come on innnnnn and outttt yeah good good feeling better” he says breaking me out of my deep concentration on breathing he looks so fucking worried so worried it scares me “yeah thank you” I haven’t had a panic attack in years “ok let’s get you out of here ok” he helps me up slowly and out of the shower I dry off and he helps put on the clothes he provided “zashi can you get me bag from downstairs” “yeah you sure your ok by yourself” he says “yeah I’m ok and some water please” he leaves and comes back with water and my bag I pull out the anxiety medicine that I haven’t taken in forever “I thought you stop taking them” “yeah I did but after that and everything else I can’t really trust my brain right now” I say taking the pill I promised myself I would never take again but here I am he sit next to me on his bed 

“I promise you the next time I see him I will murder him on your behalf” “please don’t” “why not he just up and left with no explanation other that I can’t see or talk you right now and he fucking blocked us on everything I’m going to fucking kill him when I see him” “can we stop talking about him hiz” I say putting my head on his shoulder “ok i still want to fucking kill him” 

To: KEIBABY✨

Hey keigo good morning I know you don’t want to talk me and won’t even see this but um just wanted to say that I love you 

Sunday 10:30am

I still had to work and be a functional human through the week and it was hard hizashi work hours are way different from mine so I’m pretty much alone most of the day which sucks and is weird I got so use to keigo being here when I got home or going over to his that all of this alone time feels foreign and empty

To: KEIBABY✨

Hey it’s been a week and I still haven’t heard anything from you and I’m really fucking worried baby just anything to prove that your ok so I can stop worrying so much 

Saturday 12:40am 

“Hey babes sho and midnight wants us to come thru today are you down orrr” he say coming in my room “yeah it gets me out the house” 

To: KEIBABY✨

I know you don’t care but I'm leaving the house for something other than work today 🎉 I know crazy right anyways I love you 

Saturday 4:30 pm

We make it there and as soon as shota and midnight sees me they look like they could fight god “I’m going to fucking kill him” shota says as soon as I sit down “what why does everyone want to kill him” “Jess my love since the first time I gave you a corset you’ve never stepped in here without one on and now you look like a nurse on her off day and that’s not a compliment love” “didn’t take it as one” I say sitting back in the seat “you’ve still heard nothing from him” shota says “nope nothing” “he just up and left” “yup” 

 

With keigo 

I’ve been at my moms house in Toyoshina it’s a 3 hour drive from everything I need a break from work Jess everything when I got here my mom was surprised but when I explained why I was here she understood “baby do you really think she would just use you like that that girl loves you so much I can tell by how you talk about her” “but who would know her better than her own family they just constantly put down our relationship like I was just some random dude she found on the street” “you know her relationship with her family isn’t the best so why would you believe them over her” “I didn’t even say anything to her about” her hand stops moving in my hair “so you just left no explanation” “yeah kinda” “does she know that your here” “no” “Keigo Takami you just left that girl at that party” “yeah I know she probably had touya or hizashi take her home” “you left her to find her own way home in the middle of the night keigo are you serious” “I know I shouldn’t have did that but she obviously didn’t need me so I left” she just sighs and goes back to rubbing my her hands in my hair 

It’s been two weeks I haven’t done much since I been here but last night I had the worse fucking dream ever it woke me up out of my sleep and I can’t let it come true in the dream we competly broken up gave keys back took clothes and stuff out of eachothers house a complete end and later on in the dream I got a wedding invitation for her and touya I can’t lose her I can’t 

I go to my phone and unblock her and my phone gets flooded with text messages from her everyday something new but still the same she tells me good morning then that she loves me and she apologizes continuously 

Then when I reach the message sent today it’s 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Good morning keigo I know your not going to see this and maybe not even care but happy 1 year anniversary🎉✨ baby I love you and I really hope I can see you today but if not that’s ok I love you 

Saturday 9:30 am

I go to the calendar and say that it was the august 27th one year from the first time she told me she loved me and we made it official 

I rush and get all of my stuff together as quick as possible “somebodies in a rush” my mom says in the kitchen as I grab my stuff “yeah I have to go back home” I say hugging her “ok go get your girl” “hopefully she takes me back” I say leaving out the door and running to my car 

I make the 3 hour drive an 2 hour drive because I need to hurry and make it to her before I lose my chance and she doesn’t want to see me anymore I pull up in her driveway and her car is not there I pull out and goes to hizashi house both of there cars are there I get out car still running door wide open I ring the doorbell and knock 

“No no your not doing this right now” he says closing the door behind him“I’m sorry hizashi I really am but please let me see her” “no not right now unblock me and I’ll text you when and where but not right now” “fuck ok ok” I walk back to my car and drive off to my home I haven’t see in two weeks I can tell she’s been here and for the first time in two weeks I cry like really hard I re read every text of her apologizing for something she doesn’t even know about that I know realize isn’t even her fault 

After 2hours of me completely beating myself up about everything I get up and leave I can’t just sit here when I see her I don’t wanna be empty handed I went and got her flowers and when I made it back to my car 

From: HIZASHI🎙

We’re at the station so come now 

I put my phone down and make my way there when I get there I see hizashi standing in front of a door 

“You made one of the strongest people I know break and I promise you if I didn’t promise her I wouldn’t I would punch you dead in your face but I’m not I won’t this room is soundproof so she can yell at you and let out all of her frustration and I don’t wanna hear shit from you about it ok”he says looking like he really wants to kill me but he’s restraining from doing it “I’m sorry hizashi” “I’m not the one you should be apologizing to” “I know but I'm apologizing to you to” he moves from the door and I open the door and she’s sitting there staring at the wall until she hears the door close she looks at me and hops out the chair and I expect to be punched slapped anything but she hugs me like she thought she never would get this chance again 

How could I ever think she didn’t fucking love me “I’m sorry Jess” she lets go of me and she punches me dead in my chest and it hurt but not that bad “you fucking left me stranded by myself with no explanation keigo what the fuck one minute everything’s ok then the next your gone and blocked on everything keigo I thought the worse you can’t fucking do shit like that not to me not to anyone damn it especially me what did I do that made you leave me was it because of rumi or my family what what happened that made you leave me keigo” she starts crying hard I’ve never seen her cry ever you fucking asshole what type of boyfriend makes their girlfriend cry she starts back up back in the chair she was in when I came in

“So when we’re at the party you’re brother made it seem like I was a fucking escort that you paid to come with you then your father talking about you and touya were destined to be together and seeing you two together it made me feel like I was just a ploy in your teenage rebellion and I left because I felt played and I don’t know why because-“ “wait wait fuck I didn’t tell you touya gay dude” “what” “yeah it’s always been a thing that would eventually be together whatever whatever but he’s gay so we just fake like it’s something there as a thing that we do there’s nothing there and dude I’m fucking 26 there’s no more teenager rebellion if I wanna rebel I just don’t show up”

 I put my head down on the table “so you did all of this because you thought I didn’t actually love you and was just using you without coming to me first and now you feel stupid as you should because I love you a fucking lot if I didn’t I wouldn’t have texted you everyday and let hizashi and shota kill you like they want to” she says running her hands through my hair “he’s really fucking mad at me” “yeah he is more than I am” “I know there’s nothing I could possibly do or say to make you forgive me but I want you to know that I’m sorry like really fucking sorry” “yeah you got some serious making up to do kid” “well I got you flower their in the car” 

“that’s a start now tell me you love me” I hear some insecurities in her voice yeah I need to erase all of that I sit up and grab her hand “I love you so fucking much and I shouldn’t have let anyone get in between that” “especially my dickhead brother and asshole father” she smiles and it looks like this is the first time she’s done that in a while “how soundproof do you think this room is” she say looking around “um well being that me and hizashi has had sex in a room very similar to this one I can vouch it’s very soundproof” she sits on the table “then start making it up to me then” I stand and look at her “red really looks good on you” “but you look better” she says pulling me in with a kiss that is desperate and needy I her scoot to the edge of the table “never fucking leave me again”she says as I slide in here “never again” fucking on a conference table isn’t how I thought we would spend our 1 year anniversary “fuckfuckfuck don’t stop please” I would never “fuck happy anniversary” I say kissing her neck “yeah happy anniversary” we cum together

 “this isn’t how I thought our first anniversary was going to go but this is ok” she says laughing fixing her skirt “yeah well I’m making it up to you I didn’t want to just show up with no plans for us later” I say pulling up my pants “are you going tell me or it’s a surprise” she say pulling me back to her “oh a complete surprise but I need you to go home get ready because I got some stuff to get ready ok” I say and her face drops a little “I’ll be there no later than 4:30 I promise princess” she holds out her pinky and we lock them and kiss “ok” she gets off the table and hizashi is standing right outside the door looking at us and he flicks me in the middle of my forehead hard “ow zashi” “your dumbass had me worried shitless I should hurt you worse than this” he then pulls me into a hug I hug him back then we let go “can you take her home I got some stuff do really quick” “keigo” “please trust me ok” “ok ok I’ll take her home but I’m staying because I’ll literally murder you if you don’t show up” “I’ll be there just need time to set up and get ready ok” “ok” I give Jess one last kiss before I go 

Jess POV 

Seeing him leaving kinda hurts “if he doesn’t show I’ll kill him no matter how much you try to stop me” hizashi says “stop it” 

I go back home and shower and start to get ready 

From:KEIBABY✨

Hey princess I’m almost ready with everything and on schedule 

To:KEIBABY✨

Ok what should I wear 

From:KEIBABY✨

Um your version of casual 

To:KEIBABY✨

Would this be to much 

I send a picture of a dress similar to the one I wore to the party but the back is closed and the corset I wore when we went out at the resort with these strappy sandals 

From: KEIBABY✨

No baby it’s perfect 

To:KEIBABY✨

Ok 

I got ready and went downstairs to where hizashi was “babes can you do me a favor” I say when I see him “depends” “can you tie my corset for me” he gets up and takes the ties from me “isn’t your submissive supposed to be doing this” he say pulling the strings “ yes but he isn’t here at the moment and you are” he ties it and move back in front of me “my Jess is back midnight would be so proud” “wouldn’t she this is the one she gave me too” “no it’s not” “not the first one she gave to me but the one she gave me she let me have my first sub” “ohhhhhh yeah I remember now” he say sitting back on the bar stool “dude you're really my Best Friend” I say standing closer to him “forever and ever” “I still don’t know understand how we never knew we had the same sub at one point” “well at the time you we’re moving and I was literally starting a whole ass radio station so we didn’t talk much it must have slipped through the cracks” he say hugging me around my waist “yeah probably” then the doorbell rings “ok go have fun” he lets me go and i walk to the door And open it 

“Hey princess you look beautiful as always” he says smiling at me “Have you seen yourself” I say stepping out the door “you know I try sometimes” he opens the car door for me and I get in then he gets in “I still can’t know where we’re going” “yeah no not yet”

We drive for about 10 minutes in comfortable silence “so where did you go” I ask just wanting know “to my moms house in Toyoshina” “that’s like 3 hours from here” “yeah I just started driving and ended up there” “that’s a lot of driving” “did you stay with hizashi” “yeah the first week but then I mostly just stayed home this week” “so umm touya” he says in the same tone he asked me about roleplaying “no no no off limits ew keigo” “what I didn’t even say anything yet” “just like I can’t have rumi you can have touya” “but he’s like hot dude you might need have to make an exception this once” “no kei ones he’s dating someone and two that would be like fucking my brother” we laugh “but he did say if he wasn’t in a relationship and you weren’t my boyfriend he would’ve fucked you in the bathroom” “wow ok I don’t think I could be around him anytime soon because wow” another 20 minutes go past and we make a turn in this parking lot and there’s like a lot of other people there 

“Hello welcome we have 3 movies we’re playing tonight titanic beetle juice and eat pray love pick one and by parking in the designated area and the radio station is up on the screen” “ok thank you” “enjoy your night” we drive off into the second second parking lot which was playing beetle juice 

“Dude where did you find this place” I say taking off my seatbelt “umm I’ve known about this place for awhile but they never play anything worth watching but tonight they just miraculously are playing beetlejuice” “the first movie we watched together” “yeah so I got plenty of snacks blankets and all that jazz in the backseat” “I reach in the backseat and got a blanket “hold this” I take off my shoes he moves his seat back climb over the center console in his lap back against the window he puts the blanket on us 

One hand on my lower back the other on my thigh and because of the way I’m laying on him this dress is leaving little to the imagination right now “I missed feeling you touching me” I say getting comfortable in his lap “yeah and I’m not going to stop” he says hand now rubbing under the hem of the dress 

Around a quarter way into the movie and its taking all of my might not to fuck this man in this car i dont know if my body is just trying to make up for lost time or what but his hand on my inner thigh got me wetter than niagra falls like god he has to feel it i wonder if his windows are tinted “you know my windows are tinted right” can he read my fucking mind or something “how dark” “that couple has be trying to see if it was anyone in here this entire time” i look over to the car to our right and i can see the couple paying more attention to this car than the movie “how about the-” “yes even the front window” his hand shifts up and now my back is against his chest and his fingers are sliding in me with no problem “you really missed me huh” he says two fingers deep in me i know people cant see me but the fact that i can still see them is making this feel 100x better never thought i was an exhibitionist right before i could come he has me now facing him back against the steering wheel for balance riding him “fuck princess just like that goddamn” hands on my hips guiding me because im legitimately about to cum im getting there faster than i usually do is it because its been a while or because i keep catching a glimps of the couple next to us looking over at the car either way i dont think im going to last much longer 

 

“Fuckfuckfucckkk”he says pulling me down fully on him and if he didn't want me to come that was a mistake at least that's what i thought until i could feel him cumming in me lying there out of breath and tired we get the scare of our life when somebody screams in the movie “shit that just scared the hell out of me” he say while we both laugh i sit up and move back in my seat “if you wouldve told me 8 years ago we would be back in a drive in movie but instead of a friendly conversation your fucking me i wouldve 100% thought you were out of your mind” “yeah same but not really i wanted to fuck you then but i didnt know you so i didnt” “all you knew was my name and wanted to fuck me already” “I mean have you met you”

Notes:

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Chapter 15: EXTRA #2

Summary:

This is the story behind Jess and Hizashi friendship

when I went to visit shibuya for a weekend with a friend i met in my last year in high school we came past this place that Ren told was a sex dungeon and I was intrigued so later that day when ren went to visit her family i went to the “sex dungeon” and when I got there this dude with long blonde hair was walking in as well “hey” “hey have you been here before” I asked him “no first time you” “yeah first time what actually is this place my friend told me it was a “sex dungeon” “well yeah kinda it’s a bdsm dungeon”

Just then we heard two people coming one lady one man “Um welcome to after dark how can we help you all today” the lady said “um I’m new to kink and I was wondering if there was somebody here I could talk to to help me with it” they shift focus to me “um hi yeah same I’ve trying to find a place like this to help with that as well” they look at eachother “how old are you love” “18” we both say at the same time “entirely too young” the man says “their legal adults sho” “that doesn’t mean anything midnight”

“have either of you done anything remotely kink related ” midnight says “no” we say together “are you two together” sho asked “no we met when we got here” the blonde dude says “sweetheart dom or sub” sho said looking at me “dom” “are you sure about that” “yes” “oh I love that how about you love dom or sub” midnight says “dom” they look at each other for a few seconds then back at them “leave a way to contact you on this paper and when we’re free we’ll call you” as she was writing her number she remembered she won’t be living near here for another 3 months “um I hope this isn’t inconvenient but I don’t live here for another 3 months when I move to college” “yeah and my new job doesn’t start till august as well” “we’ll figure all that out later just leave a way for us to get in contact with you” midnight says after writing down our names and numbers and emails “ok Hizashi and Jess we’ll be talking to you soon ok”

We left the dungeon “soo it was nice meeting you” I say to hizashi “yeah same actually I have this extra ticket to this concert and my friend canceled on me wanna come with me” “who's the act” “um I don’t really know them actually the job I start in august gave them to me today” “what job gives its employees concert tickets” “I’m going to be working at a radio station” “ah makes sense but yeah I’ll go it seems fun” “and if they suck I have somebody to talk about them with here’s the ticket it’s at 6” “yeah ok I’ll meet you there” we go our separate ways

I go to my hotel room and chill before getting ready which was a whole process and in the middle of me taking literally everything out of my suitcase Ren comes back “hey Jess what ya doing” “oh hey I met this dude earlier and we’re going to this concert thing and I don’t know what I should wear” “ok well if your plan is to sleep with him then that dress is your best option” do I plan to no no no I don’t even know him “that’s is not the plan but it’s the only option really” I go shower and get ready and head out the venue wasn’t that far from the hotel so I got there in no time

When I made my way to the front I see and jeez does he look different his hair is up with a braid on either side of his head which shows the music note that was tattooed behind his ear a leather jacket and just a simple t shirt and jeans and doc martens do I plan on sleeping with him “hey sorry I had you waiting ” “oh no no I just got here not to long ago” he say looking at me like I’ll disappear if he looked away “I really like your whole aesthetic” he says “really I’m like low key hating that you can pull off such a simple outfit and make it look straight off the runway” “oh well thank you” he hands me my ticket and we head in it’s not a lot of people here but still a good outcome from a no name band

While standing watching the opening act the dude behind me just kept getting closer “hey can you like back the hell up” hizashi says before I could get a chance to “whatever man next time tell your girlfriend to wear something less revealing” the dude says and walks through the crowd “btw there’s nothing wrong with your outfit he’s just a perv mad that he got caught” am I fucking this man tonight “yeah thanks for that” as the showtime for the main event go closer the more people came in like it’s was kinda getting like packed in here people directly behind infront and beside me and I just kept inching closer to him because I really don’t like people touching me “come here” he takes my hand and drags me front of him arms around my shoulders “better” he says looking down at me “yeah” we stood like this the whole night

“So how did you like them” he ask as we walk out the venue “I mean they weren’t bad” “Jess they were terrible” “thank god yes so bad” we laugh and just start walking “so where you from” he asks me “miyagi you” “Tokyo” “huh from the city I can see it” “I feel like I should be offended by that” “you should” we stop at this sushi place “so you’re going to college here soon” “ yeah Sophia” “a friend of mine is going there” “really that’s cool I hear a pretty good school I just did my second visit there today” “so you’re family just let you come out with a random dude” “well they're not here with me and it’s not like they would’ve noticed I was gone if I didn’t tell them” “oldest child” “yeah but it’s just me and my brother anyways tell me about hizashi” “well I just graduated not to long ago I’m an only child and I wanna be a radio host one day how about you ” “hm well for 3 years I lived in the US of A I’m going to college to become a psychologist and I’ll let you in on a secret my name is actually Jessica” “such an American name” “now I feel judged” “you should you were born and raised in Japan and have the name Jessica” “ yes because my parents are both American they were two dumb teenagers running away from reality” “they must be cool people” “ oh no not at all they constantly just criticize me like if my mother saw this dress I would most definitely be called a whore” “wow never mind then but like I said there’s nothing wrong with your dress I like it” “thank you” yeah I think I might be fucking this man tonight

“So what hotel are you staying in” he asks as we leave the the sushi restaurant “the Marriott by the venue we were just at” we walk there “soooo I had fun with you tonight Jess” “yeah me too thanks for inviting me” “yeah no problem you wanna exchange numbers since pretty soon it looks like we’re going to be seeing each other a lot” “ yeah” I say handing him my phone and he hands me his we exchanged numbers “well maybe we can hangout again before august but you know until then”

After that day every time I was in Tokyo after that day I was with hizashi I practically spent the summer with him “so it’s our last day of freedom together” he says as we lay on the floor coming down from being high off our asses “you start working and I start school plus I leave for Osaka tomorrow” “Jess when I walked in to after dark I didn’t think I was going to meet my best friend but I did” “same here but at least we’ll still see eachother every other day according to shota and midnight” “yeah that’s true Jess have I ever told you I never lost my virginity” “wait really me either” and I don’t know if it was the edible talking or what “you wanna like do it together” he says looking at me and I turn to him “really” “yeah” “fuck it ok” he climbs on top of me and starts kissing me and it got pretty hot and heavy real quick because in a flash I was naked and so was he “zashi your dick is pierced too” “yeah is that going to a problem” “no no just surprised”

he puts on the condom and i brace myself everyone always says it painful the first time he slides in slow giving me time to adjust to it as he goes and as the pain started to go away everything was worth it “fuck zashi this feels so fucking good please don’t stop fuck” I don’t know if it’s the piercing or just how big he is but this shit feels amazing

He reaches down to kiss me changing the way he was stroking and I almost lost my shit I let out the loudest moan I’ve made all night “right here” he says kissing my neck “yesyesyesyes please don’t stop” he doesn’t but he does speed up now we’re both loud and I’m so glad his parents aren’t home because I couldn’t be quiet right now even if I tried then the pressure that has been building in my lower body finally gets released when he fucking bite my neck where I could feel a hickey forming my body feels like it’s floating after I came and he came shortly after

“Yeah that was wayyyyy better than people described it as” I say catching my breath “definitely” he grabs my hand and just holds it while we laid naked on his bedroom floor

I left the next day and he came to the train station with me “come on zashi I’ll literally see you next week” I say as he hugs me “yeah but I’m going to miss you Jess” “one week and we’re back together just in a new place” “ok ok I’ll see you then”

We never let that night change anything between us and it only happened that one time and I kinda gave up on sex after that nobody was doing it for me like hizashi did but I’ll never tell him that

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Chapter 16

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this took me at least 2 weeks to do because I get off track and had to find away back but I'm going to say this now I mention oboro in this chapter not as his cannon self so don't expect fun oboro cool cool

It’s been two months since my whole disappearing act and and it was easier to get on Jess’s good side when I didn’t show up for one day but two weeks I been in overdrive dates every week enduring some of our most extreme scenes and now we’re on our way to after dark and I have to be the live subject for Jess and Hizashi rigging lessons according to shota this will be 1 of 4 classes so this should be fun

“Am I being collared for this” I ask as we park in the garage “no it’s after hours it’s just us here” “I don’t see Hizashi car here” I say looking at the only other two cars here then I hear his loud ass car enter the parking garage “never mind” he parks next us and get out he gets out the car and we’re both awe struck when we see him “does he um always look that good” I say “no not at all” we get out the car “um sir where the hell are you coming from” Jess asks closing her door “work why” he says looking at her curious “just work I haven’t seen you look this good since we went to that concert 8 years ago” “um ok weirdo keigo what’s wrong wait you to” he say seeing that I’m looking at him the exact same way he just looks like effortlessly good like it’s a simple outfit so I’m confused on why he looks this damn good “yes me too you look fucking great dammit”I say “well yes thank you but y’all are creeping me out y'all have both been to work with me I dress like this practically every day” “no no no zashi this is a date fit and you drove the challenger today you went on a date who are they” “yeah we need to get in there before we get yelled at for being late” he says walking off “don’t try to get out the question zashi” Jess says as we follow close behind “yeah you looked similar the first time we went out together solo”I say remembering our “first date”“yeah with me too so who are they a new sub or a partner you know just because I go and get in a relationship you don’t have to” Jess says as we get in the elevator and in true fashion she holds my hand like she’s scared she’s going to get stuck in here 

“No assholes I wasn’t on a date Shirakumo is in town for the next two weeks and he came down to the studio today” he says “oh Shrikumo “my first love” Oboro that one” Jess says as the elevator doors open “and this is why I don’t tell your girlfriend things” he says walking out the elevator “come on zashi just admit you got all dolled up for him today and we’ll leave you alone” Jess says “if it will get you off my back yes” he says like he just wants us the shut up about it 

“Ouu had a date tonight Hizashi” nemuri says “omg what is up with everyone tonight no I didn’t go on a date tonight” “well you look like it anyways he’s in rigging room 1 waiting” she say walking past us we make our way there and when we walk in he’s standing with his back to us gathering a black rope he has on a white button up shirt and some black slacks that were obviously tailored for him “sir” hizashi say to get his attention “5 more minutes and you would’ve been late” he say still not looking at us “anyways keigo you won’t be needed yet you can just sit over there” he says turning to us and I walk over to the couch and sit ”hm met with a new sub or Shrikumo in town” “the second one he came down to the station to see him he even drove the challenger today”Jess says “you never drive the challenger unless you’re trying to impress somebody still got the crush I see” he says handing him a wrapped black rope “good god is it attack hizashi day today sir” he says and honestly I’ve never heard hizashi speak in this tone of voice it’s like a whiny voice that I would kill to hear while I-  

“so keigo what’s your experience with rigging” he say breaking me out of my thought “um 0 experience” he stops in his tracks like I just told him the most devastating news “neither of them have ever done this on you is it something that’s a no for you” “no it’s just never happened” I say and they both look at me like two kids trying to get me to shut up but stop when he looks back at them they look away “Jessica Hizashi explain yourself now” “ok well until keigo I haven’t had a sub that was willing to do it so I kinda forgot about it and I just found the ropes in my closet sir that’s why I asked to do this before I used them again ” Jess says pleading her case “he was new to everything so I didn’t do a lot of things and I haven’t had sub all year” “has this ever been on your maybe list or yes with either” “always a yes” I say it’s kinda fun seeing them get in trouble “I nevermind let’s see how much you two remember since it seems like you don’t use the skill anymore”

They’re going through different knots and it’s all going swimmingly until they get to the double coin knot she struggles like a lot “still can’t do it huh”hizashi says like a kid “never really could sir can you help me” she say holding the rope out to him “Jess this is your really your kryptonite” he sits in front of her and start to show her how to do it he does it with such ease I feel like I could do it “ok now try again” he says handing her the rope back but half way through she gets frustrated “can we skip this one” “no you can’t skip it slow down and try again” she tries again and gets it “see I told you could do it and look at you” he smiles at her and stands back up I can feel her mood change from across the room “ok keigo we need you now” shota says bringing a stool infront of where the two of them are sitting “you won’t need the shirt” I take it off and go sit on the stool“so I’m pretty sure you forgot how to do anything on a person so I’m going to show you a body harness on keigo here and I want you to Replicate it exactly” wait he’s going to ok keigo you can do this is he so fucking hot that it’s becoming harder to not get hard right now yes but we’re stronger than this

He’s moving like this is something he could do with his eyes close he’s not making unnecessary movements every knot is tight but not tight enough that it hurts or bruising he finishes in no time “ok look at commit it to memory because once I undo it that’s it” he steps back takes Jess phone off the table and takes a picture of the front and back of me 

My biceps are restrained to the sides of my body and my wrist rest on my back hands inward they get up and look at it intently multiple times the feeling of them looking at me like this is really making me lose the fight with my dick right now “and to avoid having you take turns on keigo hizashi your going to work on my sub I’m pretty sure you remember yuji correct” he says opening the door we came in this dude who would be classified as a twink if he didn’t have a little muscle on him “oh yeah I didn’t get to work with him last time but yes I do hey” hizashi says greeting yuji shota pulls up another stool next to me and with one swift pull I was free rope falling to the floor 

“Ok 30 minutes to replicate what I did” he says sitting on the table “ok kei let’s beat hizashi” she does good on the chest piece but on the arms it got a little too tight “come on Jess we just went over this that’s entirely too tight his skin is already starting to get all red and ready to bruise undo it and try again” he says getting down from the table “yes sir I’m sorry it’s been a while and I-“ “I don’t want excuse from a dom of 8 years that I taught we all make mistakes I get it but one wrong move and you just caused some serious damage to him is that what you want Jess” “no sir I don’t” “ok then undo the knot and try again” she tries again and he inspects it “that’s my girl good now undo it and do it again just like that” she does it again perfectly “good girl” “thank you sir” “now finish you have 15 minutes ” never submitted to anyone else my ass she might not notice it but she’s most definitely submitting to this dude like hard it’s crazy 

The timer goes off and I can’t really see myself but I feel the same way I did when shota did it I look over at yuji and I can see the design for the first time tonight it’s not to elaborate but it looks so cool “hizashi I can already tell you that that’s not the right hand positioning and Jess minus the one time it’s pretty damn close minus the diamond in the middle of the chest is missing” “shit” she says looking at me “Jess watch your mouth”he says inspecting hizashi work “sorry sir” do they really have to call him sir “other than the hands being wrong you did a good job I’m still upset with you that you haven’t done this in what 2 years it’s really your strong suit so use the damn skill more” “you cursed sir” Jess says “that rule only applies to the two of you” “that’s not fair sir” she says with a pout yeah we’re going to have to talk about this later  “it is fair when you just up and leave for 2 years and not come and see us” “ok how’s does that apply to me it’s only been like 8 months since the last time I was here” hizashi says “doesn’t make a difference now be quiet” he comes over to me and gets a closer look at Jess’s work “so close sweetheart so close if the diamond was here there it would’ve been perfect all of the same knots are here tied where it supposed to be tied you did good” “so I did better than master for once” “in rigging yes now untie them”

After they talked for a while we left “so who week is it” hizashi says as we walk to our cars “mine” Jess says “ok I’m crashing at your place I don’t feel like being home”hizashi says opening his car and getting in

This isn’t to out the usual but something didn’t feel right about it this time but I’ll find out when he wants us to know “so question” I say as we pull out of the garage “I might have an answer” “smartass anyways the whole sir thing has that alway been a thing” “well yeah should’ve warned you first but when we first started we only trained to be doms buttttt we’re both switches at heart so we did slight sub training too” she say “ah that explains you submitted to him” “I do not” “Jess it took me collaring you to get that out of you and you still fought me on it” “ok yes but we kinda did the whole sir thing before the sub training because we called midnight Mistress for awhile but we outgrew that quick” “so there’s nothing behind it” I say looking at her “nope you fucked the shit out of me and got the title it’s more of a respect thing with sho”

We make it home “so zashi what happened” Jess says “what you mean” “your just randomly spending the night here after seeing oboro so what happened” she says like she knows something “nothing happened just wanted to stay over” she says nothing just hold intense eye contact with him “ok ok ok he’s staying at my house and I don’t think I’ll be able to stay in the same house as him” he says putting his head down on the island “why did you offer him your home if you can’t even stay there with him” “because he called last week and just casually brought up that he was coming here and his hotel got canceled while on the phone and I panicked and said he could stay with me and now I’m embarrassed because he bought his new girlfriend with him” “wow ok I thought” “yeah” “but he has a girlfriend” “yeah he gave me the whole it was a phase thing” “and” “yes that means that night meant absolutely nothing to him” “so” “no your not allowed to go over there and yell at him” sometimes when they do this it scares me because how the hell did he know what she was about to say 

Today is me and Jess off day so we decided we were going to go with hizashi to work today because we didn’t just wanna stay home all day “so did you meet her” Jess says “no not yet and I don’t think I really want to either”he says taking his headphones off “we’ll change your attitude because here they come” she says while looking out the window just then it’s a knock on the door then it opens and I can see why hizashi has had this life long crush on him 

“Oh did we come at a bad time” he says looking at me and Jess then back to hizashi “oh no don’t worry about them that’s Jess and her partner Keigo Jess Keigo Shrikumo” “oh it’s great to finally meet you I’ve heard a lot about you both” um how much “this is Ryuko Ryuko Hizashi Jess and Keigo” he say introducing us it goes silent for a minute and then it gets awkward “um yeah so we met hizashi in during college age when did you meet” I say breaking the silence “oh I’ve know hizashi practically our whole lives we met in what 4th grade and been friends ever since” he says looking over at hizashi the way he said “ friends” sound like he’s still trying to convince himself that’s what he want as well “that’s cool so how did you two meet” Jess says pointing between him and Ryuko “we met at a work party a few months ago” she says it gets quiet again “so how did you like the guest room” hizashi says “it was great thanks again for letting us stay” “oh it’s no problem at all” “yeah you work late yesterday you didn’t come back” “yeah we went out last night and got back really late so I just stayed over with them” we got back home before 12 “oh well if you aren’t busy tonight we were going to this restaurant tonight can’t think of the name if you wanna join you two can come too” he looks hopeful but I don’t one think Jess can sit in front of this man any longer without killing for hurting her Bestfriend but I don’t want to leave zashi by himself “yeah send me the address we can join you” hizashi says with a smile that anyone with eyes can see is fake and forced “yeah sure I’ll send it to you but we have to go we‘ll see you later” he says leaving the room 

“I’m sorry you don’t have to come if you don’t want to” hizashi says sliding down in his chair “you think I’m going to leave you to suffer alone as much as I don’t like him right now I won’t leave you by yourself” she says grabbing the arm of his chair and pulling it towards us “yeah I mean your always there for us so we’re here but I’m going to need to know what happened that night first” 

“Ok the night before our first day of our second year in high school I confessed and told him my undying love and he told me “I would accept this but I don’t wanna ruin our friendship” and I accepted that I took my L and then on graduation night we were in my basement and we kinda fucked for hours on my basement floor and when we were done he told me “it might not be today tomorrow 6 months from now or 10 years from now one day we’ll be together” that stuck with me still to this day and now it was just a “phase” sir you fucked to inch of my life and that was a phase yeah I call bullshit” I can feel how angry he is “so I wasn’t special huh” Jess says it sounds like its a joke but also serious “baby I would’ve been more of a gentleman if you didn’t get me while we were high off our ass and you were still my first girl” he say now laying between us legs on me head in her lap “hey hello what are we talking about” I say needing context “oh you haven’t told him ok yeah you know we met before you two met and we spent the summer together and the last day of summer we could spend together we got extremely high like too high for comfort really and we took each other's vCard” he says like it’s a recap story

 “wow ok is there anything you two haven’t done together” they legitimately have to think about this “I’ve never fucked him before yeah that’s about it really wow” she says still thinking “yeah and I’m never letting you do that you either so don’t get no ideas” he says lifting his head to look at me “I didn’t even say anything” I says throwing my hands up “and I’ve never to my knowledge gave you head” he says laying his head back down “yeah no I don’t think you have hm” “and you won’t so don’t get no ideas” “yeah your right not until I fuck you in front of her it’s only fair” my brain shuts down Kegio.exe has shut down “your so easy to fluster” Jess says looking over at me 

As much as none of us wanted to be here tonight we look damn good we’re going to this fancy pants restaurant where they have a dress code this is a place I would usually meet like work people but never just to go out 

When we get there we see Shrikumo and Ryuko in the waiting area “hey sorry we’re kinda late somebody needed to change their outfit 4 times” hizashi say “@ me next time jeez” Jess says “it’s ok we couldn’t be seated till you got here anyways” we go up to the hostess and she lead us to our table 

And by looking at the menu hizashi won't be eating tonight “where do you wanna stop on the way back” I say looking at him “um I don’t know I’ll figure it out before we leave” “you want me to ask if they can make the pasta vegetarian”Jess says also looking at the menu “oh shit I completely forgot about that dude I’m sorry we can leave and go somewhere else” Shrikumo says “no no it’s ok we can stay we’re already here” 

For somebody to claim that they’ve been friends since elementary school he sure doesn’t act like it in the 8 years we’ve known hizashi we got him down to a science and he fucked up this big on something that has always been apart of hizashi life 

“So you said you met in college right ” Ryuko says “yeah we met the summer before we started-“ hizashi kicks her foot and looked at her screaming no with his eyes “school and work life” “and I met him at a um party early sophomore year” I say “so you 3 together early 20s must have been fun” “yeah it was pretty fun” Jess says “but the three of us didn’t know each other together till a few months ago”I say “yeah I met them separately” hizashi clearifies “this might be to personally of a question but are y’all like a poly couple” Ryuko asks “no no nothing like that” hizashi says after almost choking on his water “shit might as well be” jess says “honestly” I throw out there “no I couldn’t deal with either one of you separately why would I have you at the time” “because you love us” we say in the same beat the table laughs well everyone but Shrikumo 

During dinner Shrikumo would try to poke holes in our friendship by trying to one up a story me or Jess told “yeah but as we got older we spent less time together but it looks like you’ve been good without me” he say looking at hizashi “you don’t have to say it like that” “I mean you have we used to inseparable now I barely talk to you” “we’re both busy people” “you can’t be that busy if they can produce this many stories with you” hizashi looks uncomfortable and I don’t like that “I mean we make time to spend together put in the effort to make sure he’s included even if that’s spending our off day with him at work” I say defending him “he doesn’t seem to take that same initiative with me” “maybe because you don’t you bought him to a restaurant that doesn't have anything he possible could eat” Jess says “I’m sorry I didn’t look at the menu beforehand why didn’t one of you since your so close” “we didn’t think you would invite your vegetarian “best friend” of all these years somewhere he couldn’t even eat at” Jess says and she’s getting mad mad and shit I don’t blame her he’s not about to just show up and try to make hizashi seems like he’s a bad friend because he doesn’t do the same shit he does with us with him 

“Hey i said the whole food this was ok so can we leave it alone” hizashi says sensing how tense the energy just got “no because I feel like it’s something deeper here what is it you think I’m going to steal him away from you huh Jess you’ve been his Best Friend for the past 8 years I’ve heard all about you the spending the summer together the sex the almost relationship what are you threatened by me being here” “me threatened by the person who left him with false hopes never I would never be threatened by the person who hurt hizashi yeah it’s only been 8 years since I’ve know him but he’s literally the closest person to me and will always be I always kept my promises and never made him believe something that wasn’t true but I bet you can’t say the same” 

she throws her napkin on the table get up and walk off we immediately get up and follow her but I would feel horrible if I made him pay for us all so I pay for the 3 of us and go outside and she’s pacing infront of the restaurant “he has the nerve to say that I’m threatened by him being here him out of all FUCKING people I’ll do anything at the drop of fucking dime for you and you know that hizashi why do you even keep this man around OMG” “jess jess baby calm down ok it’s ok to be mad just not so loud” hizashi says stopping her in her tracks with a hug 

There’s only 5 people in this world who could talk Jess down and that’s me,hizashi,touya,shota, and nemuri and we all know when we’re needed and right now I am not the one being needed 

“He lead you on all these fucking years for what huh there’s was no reason he could’ve left it at he didn’t wanna ruin your friendship but noooooo he had to go and tell you a bunch of bullshit” Jess is a angry cryer “come on stop crying I know your mad shit we all are but don’t let it get to you” “hizashi the day you told me we would be better as friends hurt like a bitch but you were right you never made me feel like I really had a chance of hope with that ever again and we grew closer now we can fuck and know that that’s that he couldn’t do that it’s been 10 years and he comes to you on some it was a phase bullshit come on man anyone who ever gets the chance to fucking love you and you love them back they feels that shit and he doesn’t deserve it hizashi he doesn’t” she’s crying harder now I’m needed I sit next to her on the bench “you know we both love you and she’s fucking right our relationship was strictly D/S and I still felt that shit I felt the love you put into to not hurting me or make me uncomfortable you still do it now that’s why we’re mad at the fact that he thinks he holds any power here” he sits down on the bench “what did I do to deserve people like you in my life god” he looks up at the sky like it has all the answers “we should be asking what did we do to deserve you” she says standing to sit on the other side of him while I was on the other head on each one of his shoulders 

We sit there for a minute just looking at cars drive past then we hear the restaurant doors open and see the people we were trying to forget about “obviously I’m not wanted anymore so I’ll go back to get my stuff and be out of your house and out of your life” “just admit you lied to me” “what” “love I don’t know how well you really know him but up until yesterday I knew him to be a gay man and now he shows up with you and the last time I saw him he promised me that just one day we would be together but now I’m just a phase right” “I haven’t been what you knew me as for a long time now get over it we were kids you really held on to that” “yeah I did because I loved you but god am I happy I never settled for you leave my key where you found it and if something is broken or missing when I get back you will be held responsible come on let’s go I’m fucking starving ” he says getting up and we follow 

After last night and a long day of work having to go to after dark was really not something i wanted to do but I still came through but I was a little late because I had a lot of shit to do today walking in I walk to the rigging room Jess said they were in “oh baby you look tired” midnight says standing in front of me “yeah a little” I say yawning she walks closer to me “your a good boyfriend when you need to be” she says then walks off the fuck is that supposed to mean  

I walk down the hallway and open the door “sorry I’m late” I say walking in and to my surprise I see Jess in a red rope chest harness and hizashi in a matching one and their attempting some sort of something on shota “we got bored waiting for you” Jess says “yeah I can tell” I say putting my phone on the table “ok since he’s here untie me” they untie him “won’t need your pants today ” he says standing then walking out the door didn’t expect that I strip out my pants and sit in the chair “you don’t look like you had a good day” hizashi says sitting in front of me “you sure your up to this today” Jess says “yeah just a little sleepy that’s all” I say yawning again “and you drove here”hizashi say“no I actually teleported here” “ok smartass” he says slapping my bare leg “next time do it harder” I say fight back another yawn “ok ready” shota says coming back in the room

After like 2 hours of being tied up to the point I can’t move I was done falling asleep sitting straight up and I don’t know how long I was out but when I woke up I was on the couch looking at them talk about something I sit up I have on pants and all I don’t know when that happened but it did “look who joined us” shota says looking at me “how long was I out” I say stretching “ummm 3 hours” hizashi says looking at his phone damn “mh sorry for being late and falling asleep”I say walking over to a chair but Jess pulls me in her lap “oh you think we stopped when you fell asleep we propped you up on the couch and kept going”she says wrapping her arms around my waist “great I’ve been meaning to tell you to add Somnophilia to my kink list” I say putting my head on her shoulder “wait really” I just nod in a approval 

We leave a while later when I was more alert “so we talked to sho and next time he’s going to be teaching you” Jess says swinging our hands back and forth “teaching me what rigging” “well yes” she says “she wants you to tie her up dumbass” hizashi says opening his car door “ok I’m going to let that slide because of yesterday events” I say “anyways yeah princess would love for you to do that once or twice” she says like princess isn’t her “ok but only if dickweed helps me a little” “just for that I’m not helping you with shit” 

 

Tomorrow gets here entirely to fast but at least I feel better when we arrive there shota is taking to some lady outside the door “ok sir I’ll see you next time” we hear her says as we get closer she smiles at us as she walks past 

“Was that kitty sir” hizashi asks entering the room “yes I’m not ready yet so give me like 10 minutes” he says “wow this is the first time sir hasn’t been ready for anything”Jess says”right do we get to give the “always be ready and prepared”speech” hizashi adds”keep it up” he say before walking out “while he’s out let me help you with some different knots” hizashi says handing me some rope 

We get through a few knots and honestly I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been seeing and hearing them talk about this for two days now or what but I’m kinda a natural at this “Boy Scout or boat kid” shota says coming back in “neither” “just a fast learner you think you could do a harness without help first try” he says like its a challenge “won’t know until I try” 

Jess is honestly trying to get us in trouble because today of all days she wears a red lacy bra “somebody wants my attention” I whisper in her ear wrapping the rope across her stomach “maybe” she says at a level only I could hear I do the diamond harness they did on me the first night shota and hizashi looks at it inspecting it “why did you ask me to teach him if he already knows what he’s doing this looks like I did it have you done this before” he says still looking at trying to find a flaw “no I haven’t first time” “ no fucking way kei Jess get up and go look it’s no way this is your first time” hizashi says stepping back “language” Jess gets up in the mirror “well shit ok you did a fantastic job baby” she says looking at herself “8 years of saying no cursing and you still do it” shota says “sorry sir it’s just he did really good I barely could keep the rope tied to a person my first time” she says looking at the back of it

me and shota basically just have a “can you do this”game which yes I was able to do “it’s been two hours we get it he’s a rigging prodigy” hizashi says “don’t be mad I’m better than you in something zashi” “I’m not mad just thought you know I would see you fail at least once by now” “why you wanted to come to the rescue and show me how to do it” he looks away like I said exactly what he was thinking “oh no I can’t figure out how to end this do I just leave the rope hanging” I say like I’m confused he smiles over at me “no let me show you” he says getting up and showing me something I already know 

The last day of this crash course week and we’re doing nothing shota had something come up so we’re just here alone in after dark we’ll nemuri here but not like in the room with us “we’re still going to that concert this weekend right” hizashi says twisting in his chair while on his phone “yeah do you think I’m missing that I haven’t been to a no name concert in years” Jess say “is the act name no name or” I ask “yeah their this alternative band their pretty good I mean they’ve came alongggg way from the first time we saw them” “yeah they sucked bad but I still followed them over the years” 

“Keigo you should get an undercut” Jess says looking at us in the mirror “yeah no I had one I’m not doing that again shit took forever to grow out” “oh shut up I use to have side shave” Jess said we both look at her like she’s crazy “hellooo rebel child here my mom would try to control every bit of my life including my hair so I was going to shave my head but decided on side shave instead and plus I was in America at the time so I got away with a lot of shit there “I don’t think there was a time in my life where I wanted to cut or shave my hair” hizashi says pushing his hair back out of his face “you would look like a girl if you shaved your facial hair” I say looking at him “yeah uh huh shut up” he says flipping me off “it doesn’t seem like your keeping your promise dude you keep saying your going to and nothing” I say

We’re getting ready for the concert at hizashi house “keigo keep your eyes closed before I stab your eye out” she says putting eyeliner on me “but your so pretty” I say keeping my eye closed “thank you but unless you want this to be last time you see me keep em closed” 

We’re going all out for this concert like I haven’t felt this emo since I was a kid “ok I’m done” she says as I open my eyes I look “Ouu haven’t seen myself with eyeliner on since I was at least 14” I say looking at me with this red wing liner and black in my waterline “you done Jess I need your services” hizashi say coming out his bathroom “what service babes” she says getting off the floor I just continue to look at myself in the full length mirror “I need you to fix this god awful braid I haven’t done this in so long I lost my skills” he says sitting in the chair he pulled in the bathroom “I love how I braid your hair one time out of boredom and now I’m the dedicated hair braider” she says taking the braid he had in out 

After I take entirely to many pictures of myself they we’re finally done I was subjected to more pictures with the three of us “I feel like I can fight god with these shoes on” I say walking to the car I have on a pair of doc martens “the fact that your dating me and this is your first time wearing docs is really concerning” Jess says getting in car 

We get to the venue and we get in pretty quickly because you know hizashi is kind of a important person in this world “ok because this is kinda like a work thing for me we get to go backstage to meet them and all that jazz” he say handing us the passes “perks of knowing a radio show host” she says putting it on 

We get to the door of  green room and it’s pretty obvious that they are partaking in something I’m pretty sure is illegal in Japan hizashi knock and walks in “dude it the dude who played our music on the radio” “oh yeah hey dude it's been forever since we seen you how are you man” “good i've been good man how's everything”hizashi says to the band “great we just released the new album not to long ago you heard it right” “did i hear it it was one of the only things i listened to when it dropped” hizashi says sitting down on the open couch and we follow suit “possible your best album to date if you ask me”jess says “oh well thank you i don't think we know each other” “no um we dont” “well im mikey and thats draken which im guessing you already know” mikey says”well of course we've been following you since your debut here in shibuya” “wow that was like what 8 years ago” draken says “yeah it was” hizashi says i'm quiet because honestly i'm just here to have fun i don't really know much about the band i've heard a song or two from being around jess and zashi but other than that i'm no NONAME mega fan “excuse me it's time” somebody with a staff shirt on says “well we have to go i hope you enjoy the show” they say getting up and leaving “hizashi have i ever told you i loved you”jess says standing “yes a time or two”he says as we get up as well”because meeting them is something i never thought would be possible”she says grabbing one of each of our hands “you should've came with me last year then”hizashi says as we make our way back to the crowd “yeah i should've i probably would've tried to nevermind i am a taken woman i belong to one man no more of that” she says like she making a personal declaration “yeah but if you came last year you probably could've been a taken woman by draken” hizashi says as the light turned down and music started playing 

The concert was really fun we go backstage again after because they wanted pictures with them which they happily did “so kei how did you like them”jess asks walking out the door “their pretty good i see why yall like them so much” “that was not our first reaction first time it was like bad like sometimes i look back and reconsider all of my life choices” hizashi say “that bad jeez” i say opening and closing the door for jess “zashi you think that vegan place by the house still open i could really go for some of their mapo tofu” jess says from the backseat “um i know they stay open pretty late but its almost 1 in the morning love” he says starting to drive “really that late ok i'll wait till tomorrow to get it”

After getting back to hizashi house we change and are watching some movies that just got exponentially boring in hizashi bed “you always talk about how big my bed is when he literally has a whole ass alaskan king size bed” i say looking at how much room is still left on the bed even with three full grown adults on it “your bed is big in size as you have that grande ass capoe bed frame”hizashi says “well both of your beds are bigger than my queen size bed”jess says

 completely disengaging from the movie i go on twitter and one of the first pictures i see is this picture of three people fucking and honestly the caption was nothing but true i do wish that was me god theres a dude on the bottom a girl ridding him and hes getting fucked by another dude god if overstimulation was a picture it would be this picture i look up and theyre both on their phones so i airdrop the picture to them “well shit ok” jess says sitting up on the bed “well shit indeed how have i never thought of that position” hizashi says inspecting the picture “right like do you know how crazy a sub would go for this like” jess says zoomimg in the picture then they both stop looking at the picture then me at me “yes why are yall looking at me like that” “do yall have sex outside of scenes”hizashi says “duh...why” jess reponds “i think im in the mood to hear him scream hizashi not master” is this about to happen wait i just was sending them the picture but i mean i will not say no to this no not one bit “keibaby you down to try this”jess says crawling up to the head of the bed where i am fuck yeah “yeah yes of course” hizahi gets to me before she does sitting in my lap kissing me and honestly i dont think my dick has gotten this hard this fast like ever when he feels this he grinds down on me fuck this is hot everytime ive been with hizashi its always been master this hard demanding personality that doesnt translate into how he really is so for to get a kiss without having to “earn it” is a yay for me 

I can feel that jess is on my right hand side “zashi don't be greedy share” she says and i can hear the pout in her voice he moves back and she comes closer “my turn”she says before kissing me like she wants to remember the exact taste and feel of my mouth significantly more tongue than hizashi 

He moves off me lap and off the bed and jess easily replaces him while hes gone until where jolted by hizashi grabbing both of my ankles and pulling my flat on the bed and further from the headboard and since our original plan for tonight was to just sleep the three of us barely have on clothes  jess takes off my shirt hizashi takes off my boxers and after jess took off her shirt she's just in a bra and panties and hizashi naked as well

Shortly hizashi prop my legs up start to put lube on me then fingering me while jess is still tonguing me down then i feel him slowly entering me and god bless the day he decided he wanted that stupid jacobs ladder i moan against jess mouth “feels good doesn’t it” she say pulling away now when she sits up hizashi stops with all of him in me and jess leans on him “my turn” she lifts up and sit straight down on me and they start moving in sync and i think i may have met god for a second all of their time having to work together really is coming in handy because their not missing a beat and god am i loving it 

“Your doing so good for us keigo” hizashi says starting to kiss on jess’s neck “fuck hiz i missed you fucking me”i say hand travling between jess and start playing with her clit her head falls down on hizashi shoulder with the sound of pleasure laced in her voice “fuck baby dont stop” jess gripping on to my forearm with one hand the other on hizashi neck 

Seeing the two of them together always does something to me like i cant even be jealous of the fact hes leaving hickeys on her neck because its fucking hot plus them both fucking me god i can offically die happy

Time feels like it doesn't matter anymore and were still going but now she's reverse cowgirl and the tell tale sign of jess coming to her end “no dont be selfish and cum before us wait” hizashi says pulling her closer to him by her hair but let that had been me i would've died but ok“but but i i cant fuck i cant” “yes you can you just dont want to” “nonono i cant zashi i cant baby fuckkk” “if you cum its over and i know keigo is being so patient and waiting do you wanna upset him by not letting him cum” honestly i could cum at this display alone but yk “no fuck okokok i shit wait” she say pace still identical to hizashi god i love it 

What feel like 3 hours past and honestly i dont know how we lasted this long especially me but were all there already and cum all at the same time jessfalls to my left hizashi on my chest we learn how to breath again “fucking hell we have to that again like my god” hizashi says i move his hair from his face hes really fucking pretty “ what”he says looking up at me “nothing just barely seen your face during” i say then we hear snoring we look over and jess is out like a light 

After awhile of just laying in the bed we clean jess and shower (separately) and come back in the room either of us on one side of jess but she so out she doesn't notice we turn the movie back on and soon hizashi was sleep face buried in jess's neck i go back on twitter and the picture that started all of this is right where i left it and i left a comment saying a simple “10 out of 10 would recommend” 

Notes:

BTW if the next chapter isn't for awhile I move into college Friday and that's also why this took so long but I have a EXTRA chapter coming after this one so that should hold y'all over for a while

Chapter 17: EXTRA#3

Notes:

Hello loves ✨ it’s my move in day so I might be a little slow on updating because I also start school Monday but I had this planned to post today so enjoy this short update

It’s our first lesson with nemuri and shota “ok so there’s a lot of things I need you to fill out today so imma need you to keep up ok” nemuri says we hum in response “ok first thing first both wanna be doms and from the test we sent you last week you both lean towards switch but that’s ok if you wanna explore the sub side at anytime just say the word but for now we’re focusing on dom” “you need to come up with what honorifics you want to go by”shota says sliding a paper to us with different honorifics on it “I like mistress” “I can’t choose between sir and master” “you can do both ok now to get you used to hearing it you in here the only thing you two are going to be calling each other is mistress and master or sir”shota say

It’s been 3 months and now we’re here almost every day and we’ve been focusing on impact this week with midnight “ok Jess go hit him just how I showed you” she says handing me a leather paddle “ok” I take a small step back and swing and hit her submissive I don’t know how he got roped into this but he’s here bent over this table thing with us just taking ungodly amounts of pain “no Jess take a full swing he’s ok he can take it” I go and take a full swing hit that makes the loudest noise ever I thought I broke the paddle handle “there we go now Hizashi your turn” she hands him a riding crop he takes his first swing and the sound the man makes is concerning “Jesus master hey are you ok” I say squatting in front of midnight sub “yes I’m ok” he says with a smile on his face “Jess I like your initiative but he has a safe word for a reason if he wasn’t ok he would tell us ok” I’m still getting used to actually working with actual people and not a dummy or something that’s not real

“Ok so after every 10 hits switch toys ok” we go at the same time in sync with each hit “switch” we do this again for the next “switch” and the next ten go pass “ok ok good good and his time is almost up for today so aftercare time I’ll do the bulk of it but the you’ll be treating the bruises you just inflicted” she say taking off his restraints and helping him sit up we go get the first aid kit and ice packs “ok this is going to be a cold so get ready for that” hizashi says placing the ice pack on him “we’ll keep it on for 5 minutes take it off give you a small break then put it back on there’s no bleeding surprisingly so just icing tonight” I say setting a timer I get a thumbs up from midnight

Another successful night of learning about kink “hizashi I wanna stay with you tonight my roommate has barely been home”I say as we walk out “I have to work super early if your willing to wake up early on a Saturday for me to drop you off it’s ok” “I’m prepared I even bought my own clothes this time” “never thought I would see the day”

“You know next week we’re with sho right and we’re doing rigging and all that jazz so I went and did a little research you know to prepare for next week and I just wanna say you might be better at impact but i'm going to be exponentially better than you in rigging” hizashi says sitting on the couch “and how do you figure” I say feeling real competitive “baby I was a Boy Scout this is going to be real easy for me” he say sounding real cocky “babe did you forget that i'm like a spawn of like a rich man I been sailing boat since I was little knots are nothing to me” ok so i'm not really that good with knots butttt listen I can’t let him know that “yeah ok well whoever gets the most praise from sho by the end of the week wins” they make bets like this every week and most time it’s 50/50 and nothing is ever a clear win but this week Jess feels like she going win for some reason

It’s our first day working with sho on rigging today he’s just showing us knots and how to tie them and when to use them “ok Jess let me see” I hand him the piece of rope he looks at then back at me he pulls the end of the rope and I pray a quiet prayer that it becomes undone because the whole point of the slip knot is for it to undo when you pull it

And it separates gracefully thank good you gods “good job Jess that was a good one” he goes to hizashi does the same thing and it comes apart easily we’re keeping track by writing a tally mark on a posted note and we’re 1 for 1

We got to a hard knot called the double coin knot and I can’t not do it for some reason “come on Jess I show you one more time ok pay attention” he shows me again slowly and I try again and nope still can’t fucking do it but mr.Boy Scouts got it on the first try I feel defeated “ok hizashi take a small break while I help her ok pick up the rope don’t give up yet” we work on it for a few minutes and he guides me through it and I finally did it “ok now undo it and do it again with no help” I undo it and do it again perfectly “that’s my girl” he say getting up I need to catch up hizashi has 3 more than me“ok tomorrow we’ll be working on a dummy so I can show you how to put these knots into use”

The next day I’m the one getting all the praise for some reason it’s easier to do on a “person” “hizashi you’re pulling to tight that would cut off blood flow we need it to tight but no that tight…..Jess it’s perfect you’re doing better today keep it up” one point for me “hizashi do you want your sub not the able to use their legs anymore it’s too tight undo it you know what you’re about to be my live demonstration sit” he walks off and comes back with a stool to sit on he takes the rope and starts to do the same thing he told us to do and when he was done I looked at mines and it looks nothing like that “you can’t move your leg correct” “yes sir” “does it feel like you about to lose feeling in your leg at all” “no sir” “exactly” and with one swift pull it all came undone “now try again and not so tight” he stands and hizashi tries again “there we go that’s 100x better hizashi” his first point of the day

Today we did upper body bondage and honestly I did better with the legs but it’s not that much harder “ok good but make sure this part sits dead in the middle of the chest ok” “yes sir ok” “yeah hizashi with a little extra work of trying to undo that Boy Scout tying rigging could be your speciality” ok but I didn’t get that compliment i can admit that his looks better than mine

Thursday we just practiced for when we get to do our own decorative tie on one of sho submissive

“Come on kei can you take a small break I need you to practice on I won’t take long pleassssseeee” I beg him I just wanna try one thing I know I can do but wanna work out all the kinks before tomorrow “why can’t I ever say no to you come on” “yes thank you thank you thank you” “but your helping me study after” I practiced the design I wanted to have in the middle of the chest piece and the first 4 times it did not work “ughhhh I know I can do it” it took 3 hours for me to figure it out and get to the point I could do it with no hesitation “ok thank you kei I’m done” I say undoing the whole thing

“Ok so to eliminate having to wait for the other to finish I have two of my subs here hizashi im entrusting you with kitty and Jess you get yuji so there’s no time limit you can choose whatever color or colors you want”

We start I use black for the chest piece and some white for the legs and arms and hizashi did red and black he did a simple diamond body harness and a rope ladder up her legs which would’ve been easier but I had to be difficult and want to add a heart in the center of my chest harness and a frog tie on his legs that was the easy part everything was nice neat and precise I love it “ok sir I’m done” I say “yeah me too” hizashi say looking at how he framed her body with the rope it really was beautiful “how the hell did you do the heart”he says looking over at yuji is full erect which I didn’t notice until now “ok wow from first looks you both did great there’s no grading system but if it was Jess you would get extra points for the heart” he looks at our work with a careful eye asking his submissive if they were uncomfortable and other questions and when we got our imaginary stamp of approval I had rang defeated in the praise contest “and you were just sure you were going to win this week” “shut up Boy Scout”

Chapter 18: Yes Master - CHAPTER 2

I really don't know what keigo did to me but goddamn i've wanted nothing more but for him to dom me again like i told him it wasn't a one time thing but he hasn't brought it up again and like i don't want to just straight ask him but damn ive lost my damn dom sparkle because of this i just have so much pent up sub energy that i can't even do the thing i do best 

“Come on mistress please” he says looking up at me from laying in my stomach “no im not going to give you something just because you asked for it” “if you hate me just say that” he says laying his head back down “i dont hate you just dont feel like” “but you always feel like it” i dont feel like it because i want you to take control and fuck the life out of me but you not giving me that so im not giving you what you want 

“Just fucking tell him thats what you want”hizashi says “now why the hell would i do that” “because a closed mouth doesnt get fed if you want it your going to have to tell well ask him you have to think about it he learned how to be a dom from us so you gotta think smarter here” “yeah i guess but i really dont think i have the heart to do that like last time i just agreed because i gave him the chance to get whatever he wanted i didnt actually think i was going to like it i didnt really like it when we did it with sho well i did but not as much as i like domming but i cant even dom right now because of it” “ok practice on me how you going to ask him” “no thats weird” “jessica just do it” i sit up straight and face him “ok…… hey so i was wondering if” “no try again” “uh ok…. So you know how i said that the whole one night dom thing wasn't a one time thing” “uhuh” “well i want you to do it again” “no theres no spice no flavor give me more you want him to take control right give him the submission he wants” “ughhhh ok ok let me try something different…… you know what i miss” i say putting my head in his lap “what” “being collard it was so fun i miss it” “really how much” “so much i can't even dom right now” “no don't mention that… really how much do you miss it” “so much it was so pretty on me to” “yeah it was” “can i wear it again sir” “there we go it is still weird seeing you submissive but yes that's perfect” 

I knew that i was going over to keis today so am i going to wear something a little whore like yes but is that really out of character for me no not really and because were on his turf it should be easier to get what i want today when i reach his door i can hear music on the other side of the door i use my key to open the door and he's in the kitchen cooking i put my stuff in the living room and join him in the kitchen “what did i do to deserve the pleasure of seeing you cooking when i get here” “existing is all you really have to do” “mhm well i'll continue to exist also whats on the menu tonight” “mapo tofu” “oh you really love me don't you” “yeah i do can you do me a favor and taste this” “mm yes” “open up” he says holding up the chopsticks up to me “mhm i like when you put stuff in my mouth” i say taking the food in my mouth “mhm maybe i should put something else in your mouth” “is that a promise” “keep it up and it will be get the plates out the cabinet” i go and reach up to get the cabinet and quietly thanking my past self for my shirt chose a crop top shorter than usual with a nude bra that matched my skin perfectly “why are you naked” he says lifting my shirt with one finger “i'm not yet anyway” i say putting the plate on the counter “go find something to watch before we both starve” “is the food going to leave if we don't eat it now” “jessica go” i didn't even have to try that hard i feel like the collar trick is gonna get it poppin 

“Here ya go it's hot so be careful” he says handing me my plate i take it and place it on the pillow on my lap “so what did you do today”he asks me sitting next to me “nothing much i did some cleaning and went over to hiz god this is good” it really is like its better than my usual place “thank you i'm glad you like it what we watching” “um i don't know there was nothing on so i just turned on anything what did you do today” i ask “i didn't do much today just lounged around and went grocery shopping” “yeah i need to go grocery shopping to i should've went today but i didn't want to leave hizashi alone” “i wish you would have told me i wouldve did it for you” “no no  to domestic” “i'm sorry that i'm becoming  domestic with my girlfriend for more than a year now asshole” “everything else is ok but you start buying me grocery i think i might actually die” am i being dramatic yes “well i guess i can take the stuff i did buy back wouldn't want you to die” “what when did you go in my home” “after i came back from the store i got a few things i knew you didn't have” “god what took me so long to commit to you” the cuteness overload is distracting me from my mission gotta get back on track “thank you for that” “it's no problem” 

After eating i take the plates in the kitchen and go back to the living room he's sitting on the couch one foot on the coffee table i lay on the couch head in his lap his hand instantly rested on my hip ok it's time for the pull in “do you know what i miss” i say putting my hand on his “what” “my collar it was so pretty on me”   i swear if he doesn't get the hint im going to cry “yeah it was you should wear it more often” he say hand now somehow under my shirt “can i wear it again sir” i say looking up at him from his lap “get up” he says i sit up and he gets up and makes his way to his room and comes back with it in his hand he squats in front of me “are you sure this is what you want” he says looking in my eyes with nothing but lust in his eyes i nod “use your words” “yes i want this” “ok” he puts the collar on me and i felt like i won “come on im not fucking you on this expensive ass couch” i get up and follow him to his room “how far are we going tonight princess”he says sitting on the edge of the bed with me between his legs “as far as you want master i want all of it” “ok then sit here and look pretty for me ill be right back” he gets up and we switch spots i sit and waiting anxiously for him to come back thinking about what he's planning then he comes back with a few things in hand a red rope and a hitachi wand he puts the stuff next to me then takes off my shirt “you went to zashis house like this” he says looking at the damn near transparent dark nude bra “yes” im lying i changed before i got here he says nothing just pushes me back and took off my pants “middle of the bed on your stomach” he says in a demanding tone i scoot back and lay on the bed on my stomach 

From where he was tying and putting the rope i could tell he was doing a basic armbinder tie “color princess” “green” i say turning my head to try to look at him “good ok” he moves my legs apart and i hear the  wand turn on then i feel it pressed against me “i have a goal of sorts and i would love to accomplish it tonight” whatever it is i dont care “your going to cum 10 times tonight” ok now i dont know if i could possibly do that but fuck it “10 conceutive times you think you can do that for me princess” he say turing the wand up “yes yes yes master yes” i say face down in the pillow i really have to ask which brand and model this one is because i think i need one in my personal collection “good girl” he holds it there for what feels like eternity “fuck i...i...im about to cum master fuck…..fuck it feels so good daddy please dont stop” i heard it come out of my mouth and honestly didnt hate it “daddy huh yeah daddy be daddy's good girl and cum for me” and on command i cum hard and he doesnt stop even after i stop cumming “fuckfuckfuck yes” “going ruin that pretty little face of yours”he says turning that god forsaken wand up “cum again and i'll fuck you how you want me too” “oh yes please” in minutes i was cumming again when my body stop shaking he moved the wand and gets closer to me and i'm jolted out of my sex daze with a hard slap to my ass then another one and another one “such a good girl for me” he flips me over by the rope connecting my hands together now on my back hands in the way of me actually lying comfortably 

He dips his head down and starts giving me award winning head like jesus christ “aw fuck daddy i love you please please dont stop” “i wouldnt dream of it” he says looking up i cant move much but with the little mobility that i do have i push up against him and he pulls me closer if thats even humanly possible and he does this for orgasm 3 and 4 “color” he says kissing me the taste of me very present “very green so green it's blinding”i say siting up to kiss him more “like the taste of yourself that much” he says pushing me back on the bed “on you yes” 

 

I get the feeling that i wont get fucked for a while because he still has on pants but i still have 6 more orgasms before were done tonight so i guess i can wait “you got so pretty for daddy tonight” he says thumb rubbing my bottom lip and chin “you have two options i can give you a small break and make you do something other than cum or just keep the ball rolling which one” to avoid me tapping out ill chose the break “ the break” “ok can you sit up on your own or you need help” i try to sit up and i get half way up before he grabs the hoop on my collar and pull me up the rest of the way “i think its time i mess up that pretty face of yours you want to be free for this or stay tied up” i get the hint that hes about to keep his putting something in my mouth promise “stay tied” “oh so you want me to face fuck you ok” he helps me to the floor now he standing in front of me “can i” he ask hand on the back of my neck and im guessing hes asking about pulling my hair “yes” he grabs the base of the pony tail and pulls me to him “mouth open” i do as told and this is the first time i've been on the receiving end of this so this should fun he starts slowly hitting the back of my throat its a weird feeling but something in me wants more he pulls back fully leaving my mouth “Come on master that’s it I thought you said you wanted to me cry and ruin my pretty little face” i say wanting him to give me more than what he's giving me he gives me no response just pushes his way down my throat and i gag something bad i dont feel like i have to vomit but i am infacting crying from it “you just want me to use you the way i want huh” he says with every inch in my mouth “look at you pathetic gagging and crying you wanted this” he starts back up and with every stroke a new sound i coming out of me and wholeheartedly i think im am about to cum he keeps going until he came mostly in my mouth and if he cant tell when i get back on this bed he will never know that i just came he doesn't not need that to inflate his ego even more  

I lay back on the bed on my back again “princess” “yes” “did you cum” fuckkkk “yes” “fuck i love you i didnt even touch you and you came such a good little slut for me well ready to cum 5 times no stopping” “as ready as ill ever be” “no i need a yes or a no” “yes” “good” he slides me closer to him starts fucking the life out of me this is what i wanted god thank you the 6th orgasm came quick “fuck daddy im cumming im cumming omg” after that he pulls out his mystery mouseketool and puts it right on my clit on what has to be the highest setting it starts to become to much and i honestly don't think i can take it but just as it became too much i felt 100x better like i was astral projecting and in another universe altogether “your being such a good whore for me tonight is this what you wanted the whole time” he says kissing my neck leaving different marks and bites “wanted me to claim whats mine to show the world who you belong to” “god yes im yours” “damn right nobody can slut you out like this but me and you know it” im mean shit he's right i'm not even doing this shit with anybody else “your mine sweetheart nobody makes you cum how i make you cum nobody gets you wet like i get you wet nobody know that with one small move i can have you shaking and squirting under my control” wait can he really i guess my skepticism is shown all over my face because he sits up all the way and stokes into me and hits a spot only he knows and i'm in fact shaken and squirting  “dont doubt me” he says before flipping me on my stomach doggie is really his fucking specialty everytime its a instant nut for me 

Number 8 happens fast and 9 was right after and with 10 i think hes trying to kill me im back on my back one leg on his shoulder getting deep long strokes that feels like heaven “fuck im so close” “i know baby i know” he leans down kissing me while keeping up the same tenacity “i love you” “i love you too princess” he says and i fall apart cumming for the TENTH TIME TONIGHT this is a personal record for us both i cant get more than 2 out of myself during solo times so the fact that i did 10 is shocking 

He pulls the rope and my arms are free i stretch “i hate to kick you off the bed but you know the drill”he says getting off the bed “help me up i don't think my legs are something i can use right now” he picks me up off the bed and puts me on the couch “do you need anything before i start taking the stuff off the bed” i think “my phone its on the coffee table" he kisses my forehead and leaves and shortly comes back with my phone “is there any tofu left” “no i didnt make alot why hungry” “um yes i dont think these a fluid or shit anything left in me after that” “then take my phone and get whatever” he says handing me his phone “i can do it from mine” he looks at me like just fucking listen and i took the hint and took his phone “want anything” “um whatever you get im fine with”he says as he starts to take the stuff off the bed i order sushi when the transaction was completed i go to my phone and text hizashi 

to: HIZASHI❤️ 

My guy 10 times 

I don't get an immediate response so i leave and go back on keis phone and open the camera and god its very present that i had a good ass night lipstick on my chin and nose eye makeup running and almost gone i'm missing an eyelash hickeys and prominent bite marks on my neck my collar slid to the left i take a few pictures on his phone then mine vibrates 

from:HIZASHI❤️ 

10 WHAT

to:HIZASHI❤️

Take a good guess 

*insert picture here*

fromHIZASHI❤️

Well shit didnt know he was capable of all that

God you look terrible 

in a good way 

Wait where is he?Is aftercare happening?

To HIZASHI❤️

Yes just order food and about to shower hes washing his sheets rn 

From HIZASHI❤️

You 💦?

To HIZASHI❤️

Yes like bad it was crazy he said he could i was doubting him in my head and i guess it showed on my face and he most definitely did then had the nerve to say “dont doubt me” like here's the ring 💍 take it 

From HIZASHI❤️

Wait if yall get married am i the best man or man of honor 

To HIZASHI❤️

I'm not getting married without you on my side so that's the end of that conversation

“You need help getting to the shower” he says coming back in the room “no i was talking to zashi” i say getting up is there a limp yes but can i walk also yes “bragging about me already” he says following me into the bathroom “yes 10 out of fucking 10” “ i get a perfect score this time”he says sitting on the bathroom counter “yes everything was perfect” “i'm here to please love” “now get out so i can shower in peace” i say struggly to get off my bra because my arms and back kinda hurts “move “ he moves my hand and gets it off in one flew swoop “you have to teach me how to do that” “never" he says closing the bathroom door 

After showering and stealing one of his many hoodie i join him in the living room and he's at the door “your really handsome” the delivery lady says “um thank you” he says taking the bag “your entirely too cute to be alone on a friday night” “he's not thanks again for the food” i say appearing beside him and closing the door “and i'm the possessive one” he says locking the door “sir you just made me cum 10 times and i called you daddy i think i have the right to be possessive” i say sitting on the couch “you right and i know i said i dont like being called daddy but hearing you say it was different so work that in there more” 

Notes:

its going to be awhile for the next update 🥰 check my other prides and joys while you wait

Chapter 19

Notes:

hello love sorry for the late ass update but yeah

this chapter started off as a Yes Master but it lost the yes master vibe so yeah

also this is all in Jess POV

I woke up today thinking i would be rid of all sub energy after late night but nope it's still a lot there i wake up before keigo which isn't to out of the normal and usually i would just wait for him to wake up waste some time by watching tv working something but all i want is his attention but he's sound asleep like he was the one who came 10 times yesterday i get up because i remember he said he went grocery shopping yesterday so i deicide as a “thank you” of sorts for last night i get up carefully and make my way to the kitchen i look at see what i can put together i end up making steamed rice, miso soup, the rest of the tofu from yesterday tamagoyaki,spinach salad with sesame dressing and pickled cucumbers wait picked cucumbers isn't that just pickles why did he buy these instead of just getting pickles 

 

After i was done plating everything i go back in the room to wake him “hey kei….babe wake up” he's not budging “dude wake up i'm being nice and cooked for you wake up” still nothing then like a light bulb going off in my head “ great I’ve been meaning to tell you to add Somnophilia to my kink list” i mean i dont feel comfortable actually fucking him while hes sleep before we talk about it more but i feel like a little head in bed couldn't hurt i get back in the bed and carefully get in place he doesn't move an inch i look up one last time before i start and i can tell im doing something right by the soft sounds i can hear from him and the subte movements in his legs and hands after about 8 minutes of this i look up and i can see his eyes starting to open the noise get louder more prominent “fuck baby im about to cum shit” am i really doing that good go me and soon his body stiffened up and i feel him coming in my mouth i swallow and sit up 

 

“good morning i made breakfast”i say straddling his lap “good morning princess” he says stretching and holding onto me waist and sitting up against the headboard “you really cooked breakfast”he says pulling me closer resting his head on my collarbone under where the collar is resting “yup a real traditional one too” i say laying my head on top of his head “american traditional or japanese traditional” “japanese traditional” “ok i'll meet you out there”he says sitting up and tapping my ass signaling he wants me to get up i get up and then he does the same going to the bathroom i go out and sit and wait for him “oh you really cooked im not going to lie i thought you ordered it”he says sitting down “i'm offended” i can feel the pout on my face its not intentional “either way i appreciated baby” he smiles and starts eating “i can't tell you the last time i had breakfast like this its really good thank you” “your welcome i needed to burn some time before you woke up so” “oh and that was a great way to wake me i promise to return the favor” yes please i don't know who taught you how to give head but i need to send them a gift basket “so what's the plan for today” “well between you stealing all my clothes and me either ripping  or in the special case of cutting your underwear off of you we need to go to the mall today and i don't wanna hear shit about you wanting to buy anything it's my treat today whatever you want” he says pointing his chopsticks at me “ok ok i understand” i say throwing my hands up 

 

“Oh i forgot to take this off” he says reaching to take off my collar “no i want to keep it on today...if thats ok with you” “oh ok yeah it's more than ok with me princess” he moves and goes to put on his shirt i take one last look at my outfit before walking into the living room to put on my shoes “oh wait baby come back”he says when im half to the living room “yes” “how we feel about slight exhitionism today” um hello yes its me sex gods i just wanna thank you “can i get more details” I say sitting on the edge of the bed “it came in the mail yesterday kinda forgot i ordered it” he says handing me a vibe “well yeah but now i have to change” “why” “from what ive heard these are pretty powerful and i would hate to cum in the middle of a store and it goes down my leg” this skirt already leaves very little to the imagination “but i like your outfit keep it on and i wanna try this i wont go too far that you cum in the middle of a store” i really dont believe that “ok then put it in” i say laying back on the bed “what time is zashi meeting us” “2” “oh i have plenty of time” he slides his pants down and pull me to where only my upper body is on the bed “please daddy” he slides in me easily i didnt even know i was this wet but god i can hear how wet i am “fuck princess always ready for me you love this dick dont you” he says fucking the hell out of me still fully clothed i can tell he  ripped my fishnets but i never thought clothed sex would still feel this good “yes fuck so much i love it so much” i'm not lying im mad at my past self for taking so long to fuck him “my own personal whore always ready for me fuck “ this has to be the quickest i've ever got close ever “come on baby cum for me princess” and i fucking do just that “good girl so good for me” he fucks me through my orgasm and when orgasm #2 was on its brinks of happening he speeds up bringing it closer he gets ragged with his pace and at the same time we cum 

 

“Fuck ok first quickie ever 10 minutes not bad timing” he says pulling up his pants “i feel like you already know what im about to say so im not going say it” i say making my way to the bathroom “ok what have you done outside of this relationship like have you been with anyone else but me and zashi” this is about to be real embarrassing “not really ive only had what 3 boyfriends my entire life one when i was in america but we broke up before i left to come back here one in college and you most of my sexual experinces thats not kink related has been real not exciting other than with you and zashi you know the dude in college was a we can't have sex until marriage and once he found out  about misstres jess he kinda fled but i have had my fair share of hookups but nothing serious so yeah you be getting a lot of first” “so i me keigo takami has had more sexual experiences than you wow i thought that was impossible” “ok yes and i never really explored my sexuality like you do” “ive been meaning to ask about that ive known you along time and i dont quite know your sexuality” well shit i don't either “well it sits between bi and pan” “hm until dude from college showed up i thought you were a lesbian”  “you are not the first person to think that” 

 

“Ok you ready” “yess” he slide the vibe in and just from the size of it makes my eyes roll back “is it uncomfortable” he says sliding my underwear backover ”no” “ok come on before were late” he says helping me off the bed i didn't think this would be this satisfying but just the feeling of it and me walking to the car was a adventure “you good over there” he says after pushing the button for the elevator “yeah yeah all good over here” i say crossing my legs while still standing “hm ok” the elevator doors open with three people on it already we get on the elevator and go to the back of the elevator and i hate elevators as is but being on elevators with other people god help me i was looking up at the lights and then i almost fall but he catches me before my legs could give out it feels like that god forsaken hitachi wand for last night and it stays like this for a while till the people get off the elevator then it stops “really” “i mean you weren't thinking about being on the elevator were you” he says smiling at me the door opened to the parking garage “god what took you so long”hizashi says closing his car door “oh be quite were here now” “princess your driving” keigo says walking to my car “um why i never drive” “because you have the bigger car” “can one of you just drive my car”i say holding out the keys  “no” they both say at the same time we get in my car and sitting in the car driving no less with this thing just vibing out in me is lowkey touture “i heard about the accomplishment last night how did you pull it off” hizashi says from the backseat “why would i tell you that” keigo says still looking at his phone “i mean i'm just asking you even beat my record i've only pulled off 5 before they tapped out” i open my mouth to say something and the vibe literary cuts off all speech i hold back the sound by covering my mouth just in time “we um took a break at 5” i get out before it goes down and back up “hmm thats cheating not supposed to take a break” i can't get words out anymore because this thing got me on the brink of cumming thank god i have leather seats “well i gave her a break because last time she tapped out and called for a switch but i mean she still came during the break” if i wasn't driving this car that i haven't finished paying off i probably would crashed by now because now he got his fucking hand on my thigh this thing has to be on its max setting 

 

We stop in traffic and the hand thats been resting on my thigh slowly inches up and pushes my panties to slide and he slowly starts rubbing my clit i physically have to restrain myself i look over at him then at hizashi who isnt paying us no fucking attention my free hand holding on to his wrist head leaning back on the head rest “you good love” I hear hizashi say from behind me “yeah I just really hate driving through downtown during this time” “yeah imagine working in the heart off this shit….and if yall think yall slick yall not” and instead of feeling embarrassed my brain thought this was prime time to bust tf out laughing “i didnt think i was being any less obvious than i am” he says moving his hand down further and sliding two fingers in me on top of the vibe “fuck kei” my grip on the steering wheel gets tighter as the vibes speed gets turned all the way up i lay my head on the steering wheel feeling like i was about cum then i see keigo hand his phone to hizashi out the corner off my eye and from the rhythm hes playing with the thing like a kid playing a game “fuckfuckfuck ok take your phone from him please” i say literary on the brink of having to walk around this mall with no underwear on “no i dont think i will” keigo says moving his hand back up to my clit and moving in quick circles that was what pushed me over the edge “ouu ok keigo that was fun were going to have to stop by happy pleasures on the way back” he says handing him his phone back “so were just going to ignore the fact that just happened”i say sitting back up and moving with traffic “um i dont think were ignoring it” keigo says getting the napkins out of my glovebox he wipes his hand then he moves my legs apart and wipes my thighs and the seat

 

When we finally make it to the mall and we walk around and one of my favorite things about going out with kei and zashi is that people always look like were crazy me and keigo holding hand zashi arm around my shoulder “god i wish she would cover up”an older lady says as we walk past “then i'll look boring like you” i say to her as we keep walking “stop bullying people jess” hizashi says pinching the skin on my neck “stop i have enough bruises on my neck” “you really do” he says looking at my neck 

 

We walk into victoria secret “hey welcome in were having our 7 for 35 underwear sale and all of our sets are $20 let me know if you need any help” the girl says as we walk in “thank you” 

 

“Ok which one blue sparkly or pink sparkly”i say holding up two different bras “blue” hizashi says smelling some lotion “both” keigo says taking them both from me “ok” i say turing and looking at underwear “this looks like the one i cut off”keigo says a bit to loud the two girls eyes damn near popped out their heads “yeah its the exact same on” i say laughing “ok jess you have one of everything in here can we go now”hizashi says “yes actually i am” I say heading to the line 

 

I kinda feel weird having kei buy everything I want like seeing the total of all the stuff made me feel like I might’ve girlbossed a bit too close to the sun “ok your total for today ¥37,820.28 card or cash” “thought it would be more card” he says pulling out his wallet “here you go” he says handing over his card “ok here you go have a good day” “you wanna hold it or you want me to” he says taking the bags off the counter “that’s the least I can do” I say taking the bag 

 

“Hey let’s go in there next” hizashi says pointing at a jewelry shop we go in and look around “what are you looking for zashi”keigo says looking at the chains “I lost my thumb ring and i'm looking for a replacement” “hey welcome in is there anything I can help you with today” the attended says to me “he’s looking for a thumb ring” I say point at zashi while looking at some rings “see something you like” keigo says walking up behind me “no just looking around” “while we’re here do you know your ring size”he say looking at the rings more intently “yeah why” he better not be thinking about proposing “just wanna know for future purchases” he says looking around us it’s just us and the attended whose on the other end of the store with hizashi I walk over to look at the bracelets then the thing I kinda forgot about starts going off in a pulsating pattern that’s driving me crazy I try to suppress it but I find myself crossing my legs and holding on to the display case for dear life 

 

I turn and see him just innocently looking in one of the cases I walk back to him “baby please at least turn it down”I say lowly standing next to him “princess I don’t tell you this often so get ready for the impact NO you can take it the wand was more powerful than this last night and it’s not even up that high” he says sliding it all the way up “okok you made your point sir please turn it down please” i say feeling like I’m about to cum for the 3rd time today “no” he says kissing my cheek before zashi called us over and he sliding it back down to a more manageable setting “ok so I really like this ring right”hizashi says showing us the ring “and you know it has all of our favorite color on it” looking at the ring it’s resembles a wedding band but it has a red black and blue diamond in the middle “what you thinking love” keigo says moving his hair from his face “ we should get matching rings and before you ask yes Jess they have a size 7”he says turing to me “ok do you have a size 8 as well”keigo asked “yes we do” “ok can i get the size 7 and 8 please did you see anything else you wanted princess” he says as the attendant went to the back of the store “no i don't” even if i did i don't think i would tell you the guilt of you spending so much money in one store ON ME is really eating me alive 

 

We walk out all with matching rings “ok keigo your turn pick a store where to next”hizashi say “ughh lets see here i need clothes” he say looking at the mall map we make our way to the clothing store and honestly keigo look like he was in heaven its a more formal wear type store button ups suits ties formal dresses  all that jazz “what you looking at” hizashi says appearing behind me “nothing just looking around these the dresses don't show enough skin for me” i say holding up this “i work in politics” dress “hm yeah do me a favor and come with me and keigo please before i go to jail”he says looking past me irritated “huh” i look in the direction he's looking in and this dude is starting me down like its creepy because he doesnt stop even when i catch him “ok yeah” we walk over to where keigo has a arm and hand full of stuff  “i might have to take some of my stuff out of your closet after today” i say taking the clothes out of his hand “no you wont i have plenty of room plus most of this is going to your house anyways” “got you” “excuse me i know this is weird but could i get your number i would love to take you out sometime” the dude that was staring at me says to me “please go on about your day she doesnt want your number and you don't need hers ” hizashi says before i could respond i look behind me and keigo is no longer there where the hell did he disappear to that quick “she can talk she doesn't need you speaking for her” he says looking at hizashi then me “dude im in a relationship so no i don't wanna go anywhere with you” “your dressed like that in a relationship i don't believe that what type of man would let their girlfriend go outside in a skirt that short” “first i don't let her do anything she's a grown ass woman she does what she wants second she told you no so take you L and go on about your day”keigo says from behind me “your the “boyfriend” huh if you settling for that i don't want you after all” he says “i didn't settle with anything rather i was with him or not i still would have told you no you were staring at me hard like your a fucking creep” “well if you dont want people looking wear clothes that cover you ass” “you have 3 seconds to get the fuck away from us before i do something i been wanting to do for awhile now” hizashi says “whatever” he walks out the store completely i really fucking hate people god why do i feel like im about to cry ugh “stop thinking about princess hes a prev with a fragile ego dont let it get to you” keigo says before kissing me and taking the clothes out my hand 

 

After that interaction i just wanted to be anywhere but in this mall but i didn't want to ruin the day so i sucked it up and kept it pushing 

 

Were in doc marten and hizashi is looking at these boots that caught his eye from the window “jess come here” keigo says waving me over to him “yess” “so is this boot a yes or no” he say turning around with a doc marten i was all to familiar with“oh yes you in a jadon 8 eye i would fuck you right here if I was willing to get arrested for indecent exposure” i say trying to make myself laugh “if i wasn't sure before i am now excuse me can i get these in a size 9” he says walking off to the attendant “so you gonna say what's wrong with you or keep it in all day” hizashi says sitting next to me on the bench “nothing wrong with me hiz im good just he irritated the hell out of me just gotta shake off the rest of it off” “ok” then i feel the vibe start picking up in speed its been easy to ignore all this time now i cant “maybe if you cum you'll forget about it” he says in my ear “fuck zashi” ive litery been edged this entire mall trip so now that i'm sitting and its hitting my gspot on its highest setting so i get close fast “fuckfuck please dont stop it” i say face flat against his arm “didnt plan on it love go head focus on it let it take over” and i do i only focus on the way this thing is about to make me cum and when keigo's hand appears on my inner thigh “please sir can i” i say looking at him squatted in front of me “yeah princess go ahead” and my body listened i came so fucking hard in the middle of this shoe store “excuse me sir here's your shoes” “oh thank you”

 

He trys the shoe on while i get my life together “it's something about a fresh pair of docs you getting them” i say looking at him “yeah i know you have probably all of the shoes in here but were not leaving till you find something in here” he says taking the shoe off and putting them back in the box “no you've spent too much on me already” “jessica what did i say before we left out this morning” he says turing to me “u don't wanna hear shit about me wanting to buy anything it's your treat whatever i wanted” “so why am i hearing shit i haven't even spent as much as i planned on spending on you today so put that independent shit in the closet for today and find something you want” shit ok damn i get up and walk around the store am i slightly uncomfortable because of my underwear being wet yes but i'll worry about that after we leave this store i walk around and he's kinda right i pretty much already have all of the shoes in here but i see these shoes that surprisingly i don't have their the shiny platform ones i thought didn't really exist “hey excuse me do you have these in a size 9” i ask one of the attendance “um let me go check one second” she looks at the bottom of the shoe and goes to the back she shortly came back with the box thank god i try the shoe on and it fit perfectly “zashi look their so pretty” i say putting my foot up “i have those actually” he says looking at the box i don't think there was moment more than right now where i hated hizashi “keiiii zashi just told me he hates me and never wants to see me again” “girl i told you i have a pair of shoes you don't and now i hate you”he say “yes that's the same thing i seen these like once and never again and you have a pair and that's unfair” i say taking off the shoe “they were a gift from a sub i had” “what sub gives there doms gifts” “this one” keigo says taking the box from me and going to the register “wait did he?” i say putting two and two together “see you were already upset about not having them so i didn't want to add fuel to the fire”he says putting his hand on my shoulder i shake it off and get up and walk over to where keigo is “don't be mad it was forever ago” hizashi says walking behind me 

 

I mostly order all of my clothes from small online shops and wherever i can find clothes that fit my out of work aesthetic so when i see a store that looks like it was MADE for me that twinge of guilt disappears “oh my actual god this has to be the cutest dress i think ive ever seen” it's a turtleneck short sleeve latex dress with a heart cutout on the chest and it  will probably stop right under my ass god im in heaven “how do you actually wear this shit like it has to be uncomfortable” hizashi says feeling the material of the dress “well at first yes but it's apart of my everyday but at work wardrobe now and plus dude you wear leather more than the average person” “ok but thats different” “your both weird as hell for wearing this shit more than once a month” keigo says looking at the rack in front of us “you have no complaints about it in the bedroom so im confused on why every time we leave it you got something to say” “why would i complain about something i like taking off of you” just when i felt like i was able to gain control again he comes at me with that cute shit FUCK i can feel myself blush i dont blush what the hell has this man done to me “man what did you do to her shes publicly collard and submitting i dont like what did you do to my friend” hizashi says so dramatically “i can show you better than i can tell you baby” keigo says winking at him them walking off “im not letting him fuck me” hizashi says walking off in the opposite direction i feel like that might be a lie after feeling like i have two of everything in here i find keigo “im ready” “ok did youuu ok yes you did find everything” he says tuning and looking at me with both hands and one arm full of stuff “come on let's go pay” he takes most of it from me and go to the register 

 

“Ok i'm done shopping and really don't wanna be here anymore so we ready to go” i says “yeah im fucking starving” hizashi says as we change direction to the exist after putting everything in the trunk we sit for a second “so food then happy pleasures or happy pleasure then food” i say starting the car “food cant shop in my favorite place on an empty stomach” hizashi says “ok where” keigo says turning in his seat “i literally don't care where btw” i say leaning against the door “where can go to that place you use to go with your mom every week” hizashi says “nahh nothing you can eat there and i might get triggered going back this soon” i say thinking about the last time i went there with keigo i cried in the bathroom “its been 3 months but ok how about the place by my studio with that amazing vegan pasta”hizashi says i look at keigo and he nods in approval  “ok we can go there” i say turning in my seat and back out the parking spot 

 

“No keigo sit on the other side” hizashi says sliding in the booth next to me “ugh ok” he says sitting on the other side “when is the next time i can get you two for a week” hizashi says looking at the menu “elaborate” keigo says looking up “like a week off from work” “um i literally make me own schedule so what's the plan” i says looking over to him “yeah same” “well somebody birthday is coming up and i recently got invited to a thing in ibiza and they said i can bring anyone and who else would i bring” “damn my birthday is next month jesus im getting old” i say thinking about the fact im 3 years from 30 “yes you are” keigo says “you wasn't supposed to agree with that” 

“I mean were all the same age y'all just get older before me” he says putting his menu down “so are you down or keigo did you have something else planned for her birthday” hizashi says hand resting on my thigh did he plan something this early it's still 3 weeks away “nah i didnt i been stomped on what to do so this is perfect” “ok ill have everything setup sometime this week” 

 

After ordering we just did some research on ibiza “oh yeah i forgot im interviewing a new sub on Thursday so i'll be late” hizashi say “oh ok finally it's been what 2 years now” “yeah almost” “i feel like i'm being cheated on somehow”keigo says”why because you were my last sub”hizashi says laughing at him “yes i mean i know we haven't been together in damn near 2 years but shit i feel replaced” what type of witchcraft did zashi put on him good lord “aww poor baby” hizashi says getting up and sitting on the other side of the table “only person who could replace you is homegirl across the table” he say putting his arm around him “is it bad that that's actually worse” he says looking at me “what it would be worse for me if you chose him over me” i say with that insecurity sitting in the back of my head “i would make this poly before i let either of you leave each other for me” hizashi says and me and keigo look at each other and smile “that's all it takes well i think i want you back master” keigo says latching on to him “no no i want him for myself i knew him first ”i say grabbing his hand from across the table “wrong i met him first tell her” he says laying his head on his shoulder god I want to see them fuck so bad “yeah remember first day we met and i said a friend of mines was going to the same school as you well it was blondie over here we met on pure happenstance at a party neither of us should've been at” hizashi says and keigo sticks his tongue out like a 3 year old “ugh i can't be your first nothing huh” i say crossing my arms like a child “jess you've got more of me then most of subs stop being a child” hizashi says as one of his hands make it  under the table “thats brings up something we were talking about earlier jess had really only had sex with us” keigo said getting closer to hizashi i really want to watch them fuck just solo i wonder how persuasive i would have to be to get them to let me watch “yeah because its hard to get used to not fucking me” hizashi says very cocky like “no it wasn't that hard” me and keigo say in unison “ok keep it that way next time yall want a third dont call me” he says putting both hands on the table “ok let me let me  just say you're a tough act to follow but i promise and this is coming from someone whose a dom and publicly collard right now his act will make you forget about any other act EVER” i say “it's no way its that's good you're just in love thank you” hizashi says as the waitress gives us our food “not true”i say taking my chopsticks apart “this feels like a way for you to get me to let him fuck me and i don't like it” “i mean you wont believe me until you do” “i'll be gentle i promise” keigo says “its been a hot ass minutes since i bottomed you would have no choice but to be gentle” hizashi says before he starts eating “so was that a yes on that motion” “no its not a yes” “but it most definitely wasn't a no”  keigo says before kissing the side of his neck 

 

“I’ve been meaning to ask the brand and model of the wand you used last night” I say as we look at the many they have available “ughhhh this one” he says taking one off the shelf and handing it to me “you will be putting my old one into retirement” I say putting it in my basket “the personal one”hizashi says looking at the box “yes it’s like a year old but this is a great upgrade” “when do you ever have to use it with someone with a high sex drive like keigo” “you know we don’t spend every moment together” “you practically live together at this point” he says putting something in the cart “well yes but we only stay together thursday-monday” keigo says doing the same “so your only not together tuesday and wednesday” “yup our only days off during the week is tuesday and wednesday so i sleep all day and hes all productive so we take those days for ourselves”i say picking up a paddle “you would think you would spend those days together but whatever floats your boat” “we used to but its really boring wanting to spend the day with your girlfriend and she just sleeps all day and also is someone who doesn't need another paddle put it back” he says looking at me “i was picking it out for zashi i don't do wood paddles i've broken 3 to many”i say tapping hizashi ass lightly “yeah that shit hurts like a bitch” keigo says looking at something now i know i never did that to him i look at zashi and hes just as clueless “yall swear yall the only people who ive been with” he says standing up straight and walking off “yeah i forget your a whore” hizashi says “only for jess and you occasionally”keigo says leaving us still stuck “quick question” “yeah” “how mad would you be if i fucked your boyfriend tonight” damn i didn't even have to try “mad why would i be mad” “ok because its your turn to watch us fuck” he says then walks off yes yes yes i cant wait 

Notes:

oops cliffhanger

it has taken me way to long to get to this point so imma just leave it here and pick it back up next chapter with keigo

Chapter 20

Notes:

hello loves ✨this chapter took forever and a day because I was going through the nasties case of writers block but I pushed through it and here's the update

After checking out at happy pleasures getting back in the car i could tell i started something from the messages i was receiving 

From: HIZASHI🎙

I hope jess didn't wear you out to bad yesterday

Your finally getting what you want 

I mean it's only fair you did have to watch me and jess

Is he actually going to let me...noooo this cant be...but if it is I'm excited...it's been forever and a day since the last time i fucked a dude hopefully i'm still good at it

When we make it back to my house it seemed like i may have imagined the vibe i was getting from the messages because he's paying me no mind like i've disappeared to put stuff away plenty of times

“My love are you done yet”he say peeking his head in my closet “nah not yet gotta hang up these and put that stuff up” “need help” he says walking all the way in the closet “uh yeah can you put the stuff from happy pleasure on that shelf back there” i say point to where i need it to go he picks up the bags and goes and starts putting the stuff back there 

“So just so you know im letting you fuck me tonight” “really i thought you said i would never get to” “well i changed my mind” “ok well how far are we going” he silent for a minute then i hear him take a breath “whatever you did to jess to make her wanna be submissive to you i wanna see the magic” im dreaming i have to be because huh he wants me to dom him nooooo cant be right “so my one night dom or yesterday or when we were on vacation  it's a differences” i need to make sure before i go to far and that's not what he meant “whats the difference” “first time i got super possessive and literary “claimed her “one night dom was edging knife play and impact second was rope play overstimuation face fucking forced orgasm all that jazz” i say turning and looking at him to try and read the situation better “you did all that” he says turing to me “um yes do i need to get jess to confirm” “nah just damn never thought of you as a switch” “yeah just like you i just lean more submissive than dominant” i say sitting on the floor he walks over and sits in front of me on the floor “so i feel like this is going to be repetitive to what jess told you but unlike her ive never submitted to anyone not even really to sho it's more of a respect thing with me so i'm not planning on becoming a sub in one night like jess i genuinely think thats because shes in love with you i just want you to fuck me” “did you think i was going to recurit you to be a sub zashi i just want to fuck you and for you to fuck me outside of playtime thats it so you dont have to give me the whole submissive spill i get it and maybe i can have my one night dom with you in the future so i can prove its not just because shes in love with me”i say pulling him in my lap “it has to be did you have sex pior to that weekend no mistress just you and jess” “yes after we did the whole “permernate partner” thing we were fucking outside of mistress times and i've dommed outside of jess remember” “um no when and who” “ugh how do you know her idk but after you closed our contract cause you got super busy i met this girl and we did a 3 scene contract” “how did you manage fucking me jess and her at the same time” “honestly i only saw her once a week for 3 weeks jess i only seen her on fridays and saturdays and i was with when ever you called so i was never double booked” “i was prepared to see yall fucking on this floor ugh boring ” jess says coming and sitting with us “unlike you i dont want my first time with hizashi to be on the floor” “ouch that hurt kei” “ok so how we doing this”hizashi says putting his hair up in a ponytail “um doesnt matter wanna fuck me first or vice versa” i say looking at him he looks like hes trying to communicate with his eyes “get it through your thick skull kei he doesnt want to fuck you tonight thats not the point” jess says like my own personal hizashi translator “if thats what he wants 0he has to say it” “your really going make me say it ok ok i just want you to fuck me tonight” he says putting his head on my shoulder “ok then we need to shower first because im not fucking you fresh out of leather pants” i say hitting his ass “cant do leather but can do latex” “don't feel bad he makes me do the same thing when i pull up in latex” jess says standing up “ya hot and sweaty i love you but not that much” 

“Ok few questions” i say sitting on the bathroom counter “shoot”he says sticking his head from behind the curtain “i'm pretty sure you've seen the archive of pictures of me and jess during are you comfortable with that” “yeah” “polaroid or just on the phone”  “uh both i guess yeah both” “ok any special names you would like to be called or want to call me” “you fine with just keigo” “absolutely not” “ok that was extra” “love you call me keigo when you dom no i might give in and you wont get what you want let's do kei instead” “i literally never call you that” “exactly unless you want something more honorific like” “no ill do kei” “ok hizashi hiz or zashi” “neither” “ok love baby prince” “oh how original prince and princess come on” “keep it up and i'll call you yamada”  “please never address me as yamada while your dick is in me we can do love or baby” “ok cool finish up in here and meet me in the room” i say hopping down and leaving the bathroom 

 

“So you excited” jess says looking up at me from the couch “yeah lets just hope i dont fuck it up” i say laying my head in her lap “theres no way thats possible also did he agree to pictures because if yes we need more polaroid film” she says taking the empty one out the camera “ill get some more in a second” “also are you sure you want me in here i could leave out and come back when yall done” “yes i'm sure i wouldnt deprive you of seeing your bestfriend get his back blown out” “oh thank god because i really wanna watch” “your just as worst as me” “i might be worst actually i been plotting all day on how to get this to happen and i didnt even have to try” “you have more experience fucking zashi give me some tips” i say laying on my back so i can see her face “ugh lets see ok he'll never admit it he has a praise kink so you know play into that his hair he doesn't necessarily like it to be pulled but you know he has long hair for a reason and when he says its been a hot minute since he bottomed he means at least 4 5 years so like honesty be gentle until he's either begging for more or he's visibly comfortable”she says running her hand through my hair “ok ok… do you really think hell be begging me for anything” “baby i literally begged you to fuck me and to cum in me  when i gave up control what do you think” “ok well yeah your right” i say then i hear the shower stop i get up and get the film for jess and give her my phone “ok i'm ready when you are” he says coming out the bathroom in just a towel “ok sit on the bed love give me one second” he sits down and i go to my bedside tabel “any latex or silicone allergies” i say looking at my condom and lube options “no but i don't use silicone lube it doesn't agree with me” “got it i have water based that's cool” i say holding up the bottle “yeah” “condom preferences” “won't need it” he says scooting back on the bed and laying flat “you sure” i says looking at him “yup one we all just got tested together last week and i trust you so we don't need it” “ok” i close the draw and get up “ok my love at any point you get too uncomfortable let me know ok” i say getting on the bed “ok” i get in between his legs and lean down to kiss him and i hear a clicking noise i only can register as the polaroid camera I sit up and collected some lube on my fingers and to distract him I started kissing him again while I pushed into him with my finger 

The noise he makes is between a moan and grunt and it makes his head lay completely down so i take my advantage and start kissing his neck and add another finger “if you fall in love with me by the end of this blame yourself ok” i pull my fingers out and added more lube “no if you fall in love with me blame yourse-” me pushing into him cuts him off so bad it sounds like he's choking back arching off the bed i start slow with long strokes that every time he's taking all of me  “fuck kei” he say as i find the perfect spot and i captilize on that “f-fas-faster fuck this slow shit is killing me” “your wish is my command” i sit up grab his hips and start gradually gets faster until hes literary sounding better than i could've even imaged “oh my fucking gooddd im about to-” he says and i stop “what the fuck” “no cumming yet” i pull out and flip him on his stomach “it would be selfish if you came before me now wouldn't it” i say pushing his head down in the pillow hands laced in his hair pulling just enough to add pressure but not yanking it to hard and i hear several clicking nosies then a click and printing from the polariod from how muffled he just got i can tell hes biting the pillow “come on baby this is my first time hearing you this needy don't hide it” i say bending down and whispering in his ear his head shifts to the side so his face wasn't in the pillow anymore  “that's my good boy i promise nobody can hear you but us” this did nothing but make him louder “please kei fuck you proved your point please please please let me cum” hes say needy and out of breath “come on i just called you my good boy don't make me take it back you cum when i say so” he makes the whiniest moan i've ever heard come from a man ever 

I think i just unlocked a new kink that i didn't know i had : voice kink unlocked: 

“Please please please i cant take it fuck please just let me cum” he sounds like hes almost crying “hey just some advice here kei he doesnt take  overstimulation well so if you dont want him tapping out soon i think its time to wrap it up” jess says leaning on the bed and saying in my ear yeah dont want that i reach around him and start to stroke him at the same speed im fucking him at “its ok now go ahead and cum” he reaches and takes a huge grip out of the sheets and let out what sounded like a scream of pleasure which pushed me over the line 

We collapsed on the bed hot and out of breath eyes closed “so pretty the both of you” jess says climbing on the bed and taking one last polaroid picture he makes a noise and reaches for me i move closer he cuddles into me like he doesn't want me to leave “want me to take care of aftercare” jess says getting back off the bed “nahh i got it take my place” i say sliding from under a already sleeping hizashi “put his ass to sleep jeez” she says laying in my spot while i get up and go take a quick shower and go clean hizashi while he still very much fast asleep “hey jess real quick help me get these on him” i say getting back in bed we get his boxers back on and as soon as he get them all the way up he wakes up “aw so nice of you” he say pulling me up to him “sooo i have this thing where after sex i like to get rated out of ten so on a scale of one to ten how did i do” i say wrapping both arms around his waist pulling him closer to my chest “hmm let me see i would say and im being generous here a 6” “im sorry a six me a six” “baby from the noise you were making if that was a six i would love to know what a ten is” jess says sitting up on her elbows “exactly are you just playing you have to be playing” “of course i was playing i dont think ive ever came that damn hard jess i really dont know why you need any personal toys with this one jesus ive never fell asleep directly after sex” he says getting comfy in front of me and pulling jess closer to him “show me the pictures when i wake back up” he says gradually falling asleep till he was snoring 

Chapter 21: EXTRA #4

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ just found this in my notes and remembered it so ill make this an extra because this was written around chapter 15 and 17 when Keigo left and came back sooooo enjoy

"hey kei cut this bracelet off of me”she say holding her wrist out to me I flip her wrist so her wrist is facing the floor after cutting it I drags the bottom of the blade against the top off her hand it leaves an inch cut on her hand “ouch baby that hurts” she says in the whiniest voice ever snatching her hand away from me “I’m so sorry princess come here” I say grabbing her hand and bringing her to me “no your not you did it on purpose keigo” in all honesty I did but I didn’t know it would cut her“ok I did but I shouldn’t have so now I’m apologizing for my actions I’m sorry that I actually cut you but it’s not a deep cut” “that’s not the point that it’s not a deep cut you hurt me now I’m sad” looking at her I can see that she’s actually about to cry “come here baby don’t cry ok I’ll get the first aid kit and make it feel all better ok” I say hugging her she doesn’t return the hug just holding her hand trying to stop the blood “I’ll be right back” I let her go and go to the bathroom to get the first aid kit when I come back she’s sitting on the kitchen counter with paper towel covering her hand “ok I’m back let me see” “ no I’ll do it myself” “Jess come let me do it please I already feel bad so please” “as you should” she says extending her hand to me I clean the cut and once I do that I can see she for sure won’t need stitches or anything I finish cleaning and putting ointment on it “what color band aid I have regular tan ones purple blue red white and I think some clear ones” she thinks for a minute “the red one” she says like she didn’t want me to hear it “ok red it is” I put the bandaid on her then kiss it “I really am sorry that I hurt you princess will you forgive me” she pulls me to her by wrapping her legs around my waist “no I won’t forgive you that actually fucking hurt bad like I’m fighting tears that’s how bad” “I’m really fucking sorry like I really am the fact that it cut you surprised me it’s a pretty dull knife like I was even surprised it cut the bracelet off” I say placing my hands on the counter behind her she blinks and a few tears fall she puts her head on my shoulder “I know you didn’t mean to hurt me but you did” I can tell by how wet my shirt is now and the way she talking it’s more than just the cut on her hand that she’s talking about “I would never hurt you or put you in harms was on purpose princess I love you entirely too much to ever even think about that” she sits up and looks at me the hold she had on me gone when she dropped her legs “princess I’m sorry for making you cry I’m sorry about the cut I’m sorry about the everything ok and if you hate me and never wanna see me I understand” she pushes my shoulder and starts laughing “stop being so dramatic baby it just feels weird that you actually did something to physically hurt me and I don’t know how to feel about that” “so you don’t hate me and wanna still see me every waking moment of the day” I say laying head on her shoulder “no I don’t hate you kei I just got upset for a second and my life wouldn’t be the same if I didn’t see you as much as humanly possible” “you still love me” “yes you big baby I still love you”

Notes:

ok that was some cute shit if you see some of the recycled in the future no you didn't 😂💕

Chapter 22

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨I’m backk so after almost a two month block I was able to finish this chapter it’s been sitting and collecting dust for awhile because I couldn’t get a break between work getting the flu family time and just life in general so I hope you like this one it 14 THOUSAND WORDS I know right once I got my sparkle back I couldn’t stop but I’m finally finished so enjoy 🕺🏾🧡
Ps. If there are some grammatical errors I’m sorry but once I saw that word count I physically couldn’t because I’ve been looking at the same words for two months so if there’s anything I’ll get to it later and fix it 🧡🕺🏾

With this ibiza trip really kinda being short notice its kinda been hard trying to fit everything that i have planned for the beginning of next month and the stuff i have to do now in to the next two weeks and now i gotta deal with halloween too this is when jess and zashi thrives its one of their favorite times of the year i'm still trying to recover from jess bathroom decorations scaring the hell out of me all damn week

We have t minus 2 weeks before we leave for ibiza and a week before halloween 

I'm on the phone with jess and hizashi and i'm not really paying them much attention  “ok what should we do group or individual costumes” jess say through the phone “there aren't many 3 people costumes that aren't cringe so maybe individual” hizashi adds “yeah your right so what we you plan on doing this year zashi” “um probably something i don't have to go out and buy anything it's too late in the game for that” “yeah same and because were going to be at after dark i can be half naked and it doesn't really matter” “my love when aren't you half naked outside of that office” “that's not really the point oh right I forgot zashi your going to after dark later right” “yeah why” “I need you to tell nem or sho to add touya and tenko to the list for me please” I heard touya and my attention was brought back to them “why can’t you tell them yourself and you know sho is going to make you ask him and nem is hard to find during the week” “ughhhhh your right but I’m not dressed for after dark” she says scooting back in her chair showing her outfit which is very jessica of her “ha there going to call you Jessica” “i knowww” “i'm sorry i heard something about touya” i say turning to the camera “oh now you wanna engage because you heard touya and his BOYFRIEND tenko” jess say “yeah uhuh what happening” “there coming to the halloween party with us” “hm fun” “you better hope he still likes you after the shit you pulled” hizashi says “i never told him what actually happened so he just think something came up and you left” i don't why that's a relief but it is i JUST got back on the good side with nemuri and shota “why didn't you tell him” “because i was already worried off my ass keigo was dead somewhere i don't need the person who sees me as a little sister and has a little too much damn power in the legal system looking for him” jess says before typing something “well thank you for that” “anyyywwaaayyyss back to costumes”

We were supposed to be having a halloween movie night but hizashi has a meeting with a new sub and jess has to go to after dark now to so of course i get stuck on prep for when they get here 

Jess pov

Getting past security and seeing midnight as soon as i walked in was something i was trying to avoid at all cost “oh hello jessica surprise seeing you here” she says with a slick smile “stop bullying me i came straight after work didn't have time to change” “if your looking for sho kitty here so your going to have to wait awhile” “actually you might be able to help my “brother” and his partner wants to come to the party this weekend and i wanted to get their names on the list” “you and and jordan made up” “yeah no touya” “ohhhh should've guessed but thats all sho i got nothing to do with the list of people so i hope your not in a rush because it looks like a punishment night” “yikes ok zashi here right” “yes i just left him with his potential sub” i look over to where he should be and see him when i look back midnights gone i go and sit in the booth behind them facing hizashi he sees me and says no go away with his eyes and i don't 

TO:KEIBABY✨

Hey i'm going to be here longer than expected kitty is here and nem said it's looking like a punishment type night so me and zashi probably be back at the same time ❤️

From:KEIBABY✨

Ok any intel on the maybe sub?

TO:KEIBABY✨

No not yet but i can tell that they're masc presenting and blonde

From:KEIBABY✨

Wow he's really trying to replace me 

TO:KEIBABY✨

My love your irreplaceable 

They can't do what you did to him last weekend 

From:KEIBABY✨

When your right your right 

“So is there anything you wanna know about me the floor is open” i hear zashi say “umm i get what the general dynamic will be so no questions there but i do have a question are you in like a relationship because i um saw you this weekend at that newish vegan place downtown and it seemed that way” yikes how is he going to explain that one “no not an established one but the people you saw me with were my two best friends and i'm occasionally their third” “oh how does that work if you don't mind me asking” “no its ok they are in an established relationship and i'm the third wheel most of the time but for some sexual activities i join basically i'm apart of the relationship 50% of the time” “sounds confusing” “yeah i can get that but it works for us in a lot of ways and with our life style it's pretty normal and i honestly wouldn't do it with anybody else we all trust each other and we know feeling won't get in the way of things” “hm ok well that was really my only question” “ok then i'm pretty busy for the next few weeks so i'll let you know when our first session will be soon” he says as they stand up “ok im looking forward to it” he leaves and when i get a glimpse of his face he's cute 

“of all the places to sit you chose here” he says sitting in front of me “yeah obviously” “why you still here anyways it shouldn't take that long to add people to the list” “gotta wait for sir kitty here” “ouu you bout to be here for awhile” “you not going to stay with me till he's done” “no im bout to go cuddle with yo boyfriend and watch movies” “please zashi stay with me” “no i will not be staying with you in here no longer then what i have to i've been working my ass off all week and i want is to change out of these clothes and have keigo play in my hair so ill see you when you get there”he say getting up “worst best friend ever” i say as he walks off the the exist “don't say things you don't mean” i sit there for AN HOUR AND THIRTY MINUTES before i say fuck it but just as i get up i see sho and kitty he says something to her and she walks off “jessica what do i owe the pleasure”he says and i dont even have the energy to be upset that he called me jessica “my friends wanna come to the party this weekend and i was telling so i could get them on the list” “who” “touya and his partner tenko” “ok i'll add them oh and dont forget keigo has to be collared” “really ok” “yeah its going to be other people here without dom and or subs so make sure he has on a collar” “ok i will” 

When i get in the car i get a picture from keigo of hizashi getting exactly what he wanted i get home quicker than i thought i would “i'm here finally” i say walking in “hey princess” keigo says looking over the couch “took you long enough” “well i'm sorry kitty didn't follow one of shos a thousand and one rules and had to get punished and i had to wait all damn day”i say sitting on the couch “are yall even allowed to call her that” keigo says “yeah i mean we don't know her actually name we only know her as kitty” “hm anyways go get changed so we can get this the movie night going” keigo said and i notice their in matching pajamas “wait do i have a pair of these” “no you don't”hizashi says getting comfortable in keigo's lap “yes princess you do their in the room” he say plucking his forehead 

After showering and changing i go back down stairs and hizashi is closing the front door with bags in his hand “tell me you love me” i say coming down the last step “huh” “tell me you love me hizashi yamada” i say following him to the living room “why am i telling you something you already know” he says sitting on the couch putting the bags on the table “because i wanna hear you say it is that too much to ask” i say sitting on the opposite side of keigo “ok my love i love you” “really” “yes i do” “but i love you more” keigo says handing me food 

 

Keigo pov

Going through my closet to find a costume was rather difficult looking at my clothes i was thinking Christian Grey buttt something about that didnt feel right so NO to that but for some odd reason i have all the components for a cowboy why i really don't know like even the hat “when did i buy this” i say putting the hat on “ok cowboy” jess say walking in the closet “yeah i surprisingly have all the pieces for this to work” “ok baby when did you make the concision decision to buy leather pants with tassels on the side” she says taking the pants from me “honesty i think charlie bought them for some sex thing” “sex thing” “yeah he bought the outfit well it was these pants and some assless chaps that got ruined before they got a second wear” i say thinking about how he practically ripped them off me when i wore them “hey no old sex flashback that don't envole me” jess says waving her hand in front of my face “why you jealous” i say putting the hat on her head and walking out the closet “ok so if he bought something for you no matter what you would wear it” “most times yeah” “so no matter how outrageous most likely you wore it” “spit it out your itching to say something justsay it” “ok so say if i was to buy something that hypothetically i wanted cut off of you or just see you in general you would wear it” “whatever it is i promise in my time of having sex i've wore and done alot of shit nothing can surprise me so buy whatever it is” i say laying on the bed “whatever like anything i want you shouldnt give me that much power” she says laying on her side of the bed “well i am so abuse the power while you can”

 

“Ok i thought we decided on individual costumes why are we all from the same era” hizashi said as we walk up to him in full costume me and hizashi seemly had the same thought on cowboy and jess is giving burlesque“and where the hell did you get those pants” “charlie” “and technically were not in the same era i'm ahead of you a few decades”jess says twisting so the tassels on the lining of the top of the corset moved “whatever lets go in” he says before walking in “wait wait wait i got to go back to the car” jess says walking back “ok i got you a new collar its very similar to the one you got me but its black and say keibaby” she says putting it around my neck “hmm i feel special” 

We walk in do the usual security checkpoint we go in and surprisingly everyone has on a costume even sho “wow bless whoever got sir to dress up as a cat” Jess says looking at the man in cat ears and tail and even a button nose and whiskers “how much you wanna bet it was kitty” hizashi says “40 on yuji she just got punished it had to be yuji” “if we’re taking bets I feel like he did this on his own” “well let’s find out” hizashi says 

We walk over to him “hey sir looking good” Jess says “yeah who got to pick the costumes this year” hizashi say “they couldn’t pick this year I chose it” he says “I would my like my money as soon as humanly possible” I say “oh Jess your brothers here”sho says “oh where I haven’t seen him” she says looking around for touya “somewhere near the photobooth and bar area” we walk over there and they were right there at the bar “wow i was fully prepared for you to be damn near naked” touya says as we approached him “i mean i cant let the world see everything just a taste”she says as  they hug “ok i want to formally introduce everyone ten jess her partner keigo and her best friend hizashi jess keigo hizashi my boyfriend tenko” touya introduces us the man next to him “it's great  to finally meet you tenko i've been hearing about you for the longest” jess say “so you do talk about me to other people it's nice to meet you too” he says then whispers in touya's ear “yeah that's him” he smiles at me and what jess told me rings in my head he said if he wasn't in a committed relationship and you weren’t my boyfriend he would've fucked you in the bathroom it seems like that doesnt really matter theyre both looking at me like they wanna fuck me and would i let them if jess allowed it “hey probably bad timing but did you get an invitation to your brothers wedding” touya says “uh no when is it” “next monday” “like on my birthday next monday i mean i wont be here anyways but no i didn't get any invitation” i can feel her whole demeanor change “anywayssss you say you won't be here where you going” tenko says changing the subject “um-” “were going to ibiza for the week” i say cutting her off “yeah sounds fun” 

The rest of the night went by kind of weird jess’s energy was off and we all felt it but didn't want to bring it up if she didn't want to 

Jess pov 

Im sitting at my desk waiting for my last patient of the day thinking about the fact that i didn't get an invitation to my own brothers wedding i know me and jordan got into that fight and the shit from the frim party but i didn't think he wouldn't invite me 

My thought are broken from hearing a knock on my office door they're not supposed to here for another 2 hours  “yes” when the door opens i'm greeted with mileena  my brothers soon to be wife “oh hey” “hey um we didn't have a home address to send the invitation to so i found out where you worked and decided to bring it to you” she say handing me the invitation “thanks but he doesn't want me there anyways” i say taking the invitation “but he does” “did he say that” i say sitting back in my chair “he made sure your name was on the list jess please just think about it please” she says sitting in front of my desk “i won't be here anyways if you didnt know its on the same day as my birthday” the room goes quiet “i know it may seem as though i hate jordan but i don't hes my little brother and i just want to see him happy and your what's doing that so all i ask of you is to keep him happy and out of trouble i wanna see him do something he loves so i can tell him im proud of him” “i can tell you love him and i know you wanna be there but i get it” she stands up and walks to the door “ill send a gift” i say before she walks out and closes the door fuck i feel like shit 

My patient canceled and I don’t wanna be alone right now so I hope keigo isn’t busy 

Keigo pov 

I was finishing up some stuff when my phone rings “yes” “hey there’s a Jessica Carter here to see you” my assistant says through the phone what a surprise “yeah let her back” after I put the phone down a few seconds later Jess walks through the door “hey princess” I say smiling at her “hey I hope I didn’t come at a bad time” she says sitting in the chair in front of my desk “no not at all what’s going on” “um I feel like crying and didn’t wanna be alone” I practically jump out of my chair and to the other side of the desk “why talk to me” she’s already crying “mileena came by today to give me my invitation and I wanna go but he doesn’t really want me there” she says crying harder “we both know that’s not the case baby” I say wiping her face with my hand “do we I said terrible shit to him and fuck I know he’s the reason you left me but fuck I wanted to see my little brother get married at least” she sounds broken what do I do fuck shit “ ok let’s go we can get later flights leave after the wedding you wanna see Jordan get married then that’s we’re going to do” “but hiz-“ “I’ll deal with him don’t worry about it ok you’ll see him get married ok” “ok” 

Jess pov

Its 3 days before the wedding and I don’t wanna just show up and ruin his day so I need to gauge the situation first 

“Hey” I say when the FaceTime connects “hey wassup” “you busy” “nahh just got back home I heard your not going to make it that sucks” he says sitting on his couch “thought you hated me and wouldn’t want me there” “Jess I’m legally obligated by the sibling law to tell you I hate you at least once a year” we laugh it felt good to laugh with him again “I mean yeah but you obviously didn’t read the fine print you gotta not act like it constantly” “yeah I’m sorry I was a real dickhead for what happened with Diego and the shit I said at the house” who the hell is Diego wait ”1st his name is keigo and and I said some fucked up shit to can’t put all the blame it all on you so I’m sorry too” “so we made up can you come now” yeah I’m not telling him I already planned on doing that “I leave Sunday can’t you choose my birthday of all days to do this on” “hey I did it to distract everyone from how old your getting” “I’m only turning 27 not 80” “hey my bad your 27 not married and no kids I’m saving you here” “”ugh whatever” “actually keigo said something about y’all being together for almost a year” “yup going on 2 now” “damn I really don’t know shit about what you got going in your life I’m terrible brother” “nah that’s kinda my fault too but enough of that tell me about the wedding what’s the colors” I say “we’re doing a forest themed so her bridesmaids are wearing forest green and gold” “and your groomsmen” “all I got is Astro I got him a little suit” wait the dog “what if I hired you some grooms people ” said grooms people will be me keigo and hizashi “absolutely not I would rather have no one” “come on a gift from you big sister” “no Jess please don’t” 

After I ended the call with Jordan I run downstairs “ok gang we need suits my brother is about to get married with no one on his side but a dog I can’t let that happen” I say sliding in the living room “you know the colors” hizashi said “yup” “well I know a tailor come on” 

After obtaining the suits i had the impulse to braid my hair one because i'm going on vacation right after and two i don't feel like having to deal with my my hair for the wedding so i go in my closet and get the box of braiding hair my cousin sent me a few weeks ago i go through the painstaking process of washing my hair and blow drying it 

“Jess we have 2 days for the wedding and you choose now to do this” hizashi says seeing me sectioning off my hair “yup if you wanna be useful you can section the hair for me” i say smiling at him through the mirror “how big are you going” he says sitting on the edge of the tub and grabbing a pack of hair “um medium” this is not our first rode with this so he knew exactly how much hair i need 

“woah ok what's going on in here” keigo says coming in the bathroom “your girlfriend is choosing to do her hair in these small as braids knowing its going to take her forever to do them” hizashi says handing me another piece of hair “its not going to take that long” “well i brought us sushi but yall look busy in here” “no no give me she's held me captive for the past 3 hours i need a break”hizashi says leaving the bathroom “i can't stop now but i'm hungry” “want me to feed you so you can still do your hair” “yes please”i say looking at him still braiding he gets one of my accents chairs and sit on the outside of the door “open up” he says holding up a piece of sushi with his chopsticks i reach over and take it “i like when put stuff in my mouth” i say before chewing “be good” he says hitting my thigh with the chopsticks 

After 11 hours and 40 inches later im done they fell asleep on me 4 hours ago  after dipping and putting my hair up i get in bed i crawl in between them “took you long enough rapunzel”keigo says pulling me towards him  

Only people who knows about us being here is touya “he’s in there” he says pointing to the door “ok” 

“Hey Jordan it’s some guys out here says Jess sent them for you you want me to let them in” “she really did that um yeah sure” when we walk in his face lit up like a Christmas tree “I did a good ass job on the color match” I say seeing our suits look identical he gives me the biggest hug he’s ever given me “I thought you said you couldn’t come” “we can’t stay for the reception because we got a plane to catch but I’m here that’s all that matters” he hugs me again “ok stop before I cry and you know hizashi but I want to reintroduce keigo not Diego keigo my boyfriend boyfriend brother”  “hey man congratulations” “thanks sorry about the everything” “it’s all good todays about you none of that “ “exactly now where’s Astro” hizashi says looking around the room  “yeah Astro wasn’t having it he back at home” 

“Aye it’s time” touya says coming back in the room we go out and when my mother and father comes down the aisle I could feel the negativity “somebody stop being dramatic” my father says sitting in the front row “I’m here for my brother not you I forgive him and only him so everything I said very much still applies to you” 

The wedding goes great and I’m happy I was here to see it after the ceremony we took a thousand and one pictures “hey we gotta go” hizashi says “ok Jordan I gotta go but when I get back I promise I’ll cook your favorite at my place ok” I say hugging him “I’m finally getting to see the house” he say shocked “ yup and you two imma need a niece or nephew out of the deal” I say walking backwards out the door 

I've not been able to stop smiling since i walked down the alie with jordan and not even a 15 hour flight in a 3 piece suit on my birthday could ruin this for me during our layover i got a few pictures of me and jordan from touya that he took of us and i don't think there has been a happy picture of us taken together for years “so because technically its only going to be like 6 something when we land you still wanna go to the club tonight” hizashi say “my body is saying no but i wanna go so bad” i say sliding down in my seat “if we go i'm not staying all night we've been up for damn near 24 hours and now its a 7 hour back time difference” keigo say “yeah very true well stay for like 4 hours tops” hizashi say 

After our last flight and checking in to this big ass penthouse “ok we need to start using your radio host privileges more than we do”i say looking around the room “yeah we really do” keigo say “ok the party starts in 4 hours so im going to sleep until then see ya” hizashi said taking his clothes off and we follow suit and god did that bed feel amazing i feel like it took no time for any of us to fall asleep 

When i wake up the sun is up and bright and by my concept of how time works the sun should be down right now it's only been 4 hours right  i look over and there both still sleep i reach over keigo for my phone and its 5 in the morning “shit we slept for 11 hours damn” “what” keigo says turing to me “we slept for 11 hours its the morning already” he looks over to the window and back to me “damn we should have known we weren't going to get up for that damn club” he says before pulling my leg down so i was laying flat and pulling me closer 

“sorry we didn't get to actually celebrate your birthday”hizashi says as we enjoy the sights while sitting to get breakfast “we're here for a week we have time to celebrate it” i say looking at the menu “any special request” “yeah i wanna tick shit off my sex bucket list” and times like this im glad we all speak 3 different languages because this conversation shouldnt really happen in public but if its had in japanes and not english or spanish we should be good “ok what is a sex bucket list” keigo says taking his sunglasses off looking at me “you made me realize i really havent done anything so i kinda made a list of things i wanna do” i says looking at them “ ok whats on the list and is everything legal” hizashi says sitting up in his chair “mostly if we dont get caught” “excuse me what do you mean” “in lighter terms fucking in your car with those people looking in the window and the shit at the mall was fun and i wanna fuck in public but not to public somewhere where the risk level is low but not impossible” i say and they look at eachother “thats your girlfriend” “she was your best friend first” “anyways also zashi i wanna fuck you i feel like it's only right after you two fucked” “i knew i shouldn't have let you do that ok whatever” hizashi say defeated “also ive never experienced hardcore impact so zashi thats also your job” i say and he looks happy again “am i involved in anything that's not illegal” keigo says “yes actually ive never 69 either so that oh and mutual masterbation that seems fun” “we have done that when we came back from the spa “huh yeah but i wanna do it again with you not restrained also and if you wanna say no to this you can i want to try  double penetration and well anal in general” “when i asked about that before you said no because you didnt like it now you wanna try it” keigo says sounding offended “yeah i had a bad experience with it but now i wanna try it again and well this is something specifically for you kei and when we get back home but sensory play on me” “i guess i can work that in yeah i can” at this point a few people has looked at us like they're obviously foreigners and the shock on some faces when the waiter  came over and we spoke perfect spanish 

“Ok anything else on your sex bucket list” keigo says once our waiter leaves “yeah full body rigging” “actually i never even done that” hizashi says “well thank god your in the presents of a rigging prodigy” “anyways anything else” “um no kei has ticked most of the things off without knowing” i can visibly see his head grown 3x bigger “keep it up and his heads going to get so big it falls off his shoulder” “hey im sorry that i was blessed by the sex gods” “by the way what bad experience” hizashi says bring the attention back to what i said about anal “so college boyfriend no sex till marriage unless its anal because that doesn't count yeah it was terrible like i was in pain during so i just never did it again” “are you sure you wanna do this then if i hurt while doing this i would feel terrible” keigo says with concern laced in his voice “yeah yall know what yall doing” and they caught the indication i was making immediately “so you choose the two pan dudes because we obviously know that were doing” hizashi says “yeah i mean shit he made you shed tears from how good you felt and the walls of your old apartment were thin as paper you both to know what the hell your doing” “i mean yeah but jesus and added note that was my first time topping to” keigo says then dodges a hit from hizashi “you couldve told me that before we did it” “why you would have changed your mind if i did”

“How the hell did you get all this through the security” keigo says looking through my bag  i came very prepared like half of my kink closet is in this bag “where did you get this from i like it” hizashi says holding a red and black paddle that has mistress on it “ughhh a etsy shop i'll send you the link” “yeah definitely do that” he say before hitting my ass with a full swing i hope that's not as hard as he can hit “i see not having a sub for so long weakened your hit” “well see about that baby” he says with a devil's grin on his face haha im in danger “wait you say you wanna tick shit off your sex bucket list but said nothing about doing anything with someone of the same sex” keigo say holding his retrains “well one im not just finding a random girl here and fucking her two ive done nothing with a girl im slightly afraid ill be terrible at it three i came perpard to fuck the two of you and no one else so if i do that it’ll be at home” “you terrible at sex has to be the funniest thing ive heard ever” keigo say throwing the restains on the bed and picking up the box with our collars in them “plus you have like the best case of beginners luck” hizashi says “ok yes i do but i dont wanna fuck up and be shunned by all women everywhere because i produced the worst head ever” “no i take it back that was the funniest thing i've heard your first time giving head you were blackout drunk and you produced the best head ive ever had” “im really starting to think yall love for eachother makes sex 100x better for you” we look at eachother “no definitely not” we say at the same time “has to be some of your best sexual experiences has been with eachother am i wrong” hizashi says “absolutely” we both say at the same time “ok so we lying now do you both realize ive known you two for all of our adult lives right” “yes and” “jess until keigo you literary sowre off sex because everytime you did it it was terrible and keigo you've been with what 2 woman your entire life you thought you were gay because you didnt like having sex with girls NOW fast forward a few years later the only thing either of you want to do is fuck eachother so i will die on the hill of if yall didnt love eachother you would literally still only dating and fucking dudes and you would still be strictly pleasure dom” ok nobody told him to expose me like that damn we stay slient because i mean shit hes right “ha look at you stuck because im right just admit it” keigo looks just as defeated as i do then i looks like a lightbubl went off in his head “actually sir some of our best sexual experieces has actually been with you yeah do we have some solo but most that im thinking off you were most definitely there” keigo say “your damn right the day after the coffee shop after the NO NAME show the shit at the mall and after the mall” “HA stuck” keigo says laughing at hizashi “whatever that proves nothing” he says sitting in the chair pouting like a 3 year old “but it does because if the hill your going to die on is that we love having sex with each other because we love eachother that only proves that you love us as much as we love each other” keigo say sitting in his lap “ew no why would i do that i love yall the normal amount” he say turning his head away from him “now your lying i heard you telling your maybe sub about us and if you just loved us “a normal amount” then explain i'm apart of the relationship 50% of the time”  “why were you cursed with such great hearing and get off of me” he says trying to get kei off of him “no tell us you love us and prove our point” i say leaning on keis shoulder “ughh heart why did you choose them god i love you now move” he says giving up “it chose us because we're great duh” keigo says getting up from his lap 

So the parties here seem  to last all day because we're getting ready and for one party and laying out outfits for 3 more “jess no your not wearing that” hizashi says looking at my current outfit “whats wrong with it” keigo says “right were going to a literal pool party” “its latex so that means your not going to get in the pool and your about to just sit and take pictures the whole time” “feel it” i say getting close to him “what why” “just do it” he reaches out and places his hand on my bra top “wait its not latex” he says feeling both sides of it “nope one of midnights friends commissioned for me great isn't it” i really don't know how she pulled it off but it really doesn't feel like latex but it looks identical and i fucking love it 

“Last time we were at a pool bar the shit was watered down so lets pray that's not the case here”keigo says “dont forget 2 drink minimum per party your a lightweight and you have a habit of disappearing and i don't have time to have to go looking for you” kei adds out of the three of us hes has the highest tolerance and it takes wayyyyy more to get him drunk than me and zashi “yeah yeah ok we get it” i say pushing him to the seats we kept our limit and i'm still functional and hizashi is still here “ok now i'm bored and this music selection is horrible” hizashi say leaning on the pool wall “yes indeed it is but we all know if we go back in that room before its time to change and go to the next party were going to sleep” keigo says hopping out and sitting next to where he's leaning “orr hear me out we could go back and maybe scratch something off my list” i say as a suggestion “depends what are we checking off”keigo says and i think for a second “uhhhh lets think we have what 2 and half hours and with having to walk back to the room and having to shower and get back ready after so we have around 40 minutes check something off and that plenty time to do the impact” “yeah but if we're going hardcore impact your not getting back up i can promise that” hizashi says “your right your right” “and nothing else is either quick or something you can recover from in time for you to be productive” keigo says “yeah all but one thing but i dont think you'll like it” “yeah no were not doing that right now”keigo say “why not it's easy and it wont take up that much time or energy” “where” i look around and there's not a lot of places BUT these private pool hut room thingies that just so happens to have reserved for PUT YOUR HANDS UP RADIO on it “anybody else from the station here” I say “nahh just me why” “ok then there it’s perfect” I say point to it “your gonna have to be quiet and we all know you can’t do that” keigo say and I’m quite offended “I’m always up for a challenge” I say pushing up out the water “ok come on we get out dry off and walk over to the hut and go in and it really nice inhere for it to look portable “come on we have 40 minutes” hizashi say closing the entrance “its your turn to watch now zashi” keigo says pushing me down on one of the couches “i get to witness the ‘sex gods’ at work” he says sitting on the couch in front us 

Keigo pulls down my bathing suit bottom and gets on his knees in front of me and starts to eat me like i was his last meal and i throw my head back and notice that the tent next to us is only separated by a VERY thin piece of fabric like i can see them drinking and moving around and then a laughing comes through “you said you wanted low risk factor but not impossible” hizashi says looking at the group behind us “and unless you want them to know what were in here doing i would keep it quite” he adds and fuck i know i said i accept the chanllege but fuck this is hard when we were in the car they couldnt necessary hear me over that loud ass movie and the mall we shit i dont know how i pulled through with that but this with hizashi watching me lustful eyes keigo hitting every spot that makes my body shake all at once and the people behind us that could easily see and hear “fuck” i say with a breath thats been in my body for to long and i dont know what to do with my hands i reach for his hair “touch him and ill make him stop before he's done” hizashi says stopping me dead in my track yeah i dont want that wait why am i listening to him keigo didnt say i couldnt touch him so why am i listening to him “don't do it i will stop” keigo says taking a breath then going back can he actually read my fucking mind because what the fuck 

When i tilt my head back i make direct eye contact with somebody and they never break contact and i notice that shes the only person still in there i bring my head back up “she's been watching for a while” hizashi says sitting next to me on the couch “and i'm tired of watching lets give her a show huh” he say and keigo stops and leans back on his legs “we have 30 minutes left” he says looking at his phone “ok im adding something to your list” hizashi say pushing me back “keigo heads or tails” he say “tails” “ok you get to fuck her while i she gives me head or would you like to  switch roles” keigo please switch roles come on you always seem to be able to read my mind switch im not trying to be horse for the rest of the week “nah i'm fine with that” he says winking at can this bitch really read my mind keigo if you can hear me i didn't really call you a bitch  they lay me flat on the couch pillow behind my head and hizashi one leg on the couch one leg on the floor keigo between my legs and i can feel myself chasing waterfalls why the fuck wasnt this one the list keigo pushes in and pulls out and i know this all to well hes not about to pull any punches and he doesnt he rams back in to me with a lot of  force i can no longer see the girl but i see hizashi wink at her before he holds my chin down and pushes his dick in my mouth and the mix of his the size of his dick and that fucking jacob's ladder silding in and out of my throat make me make the most obscene noises ive ever made and neither of them are playing around if i didnt have a dick down my throat this whole pool party would know i was getting fucked in here and i wouldn't give a damn hes fucking me like he fucked me he made me cum 10 times “your doing so good princess fuck so good” keigo says wiping a tear from my face 

In all of my years of knowing hizashi his dick has never been in my mouth which is honestly surprising and with it being in my mouth right now i can see why people have oral fixations because god im choosing to keep him in my mouth right now then to breath does my chest hurt a bit yes but i'm not dying i can say that he pulls back a little giving me breath again and i can feel him twitching on my tongue and i can tell kei is about to cum as well and so am i  and then he pulls out completely and keigo does the same ”what” i say looking back and forth between the both of them “time to go we have what 3 more places to go after this if we cum were going to sleep in this place and that's no bueno” keigo says putting his shorts back on “well i would have loved to be informed of this plan beforehand and to think i choose you over air” i say putting my bottom back on “oh shut up” 

Theyre  three rooms in this suit because i guess they thought we were going to sleep in separate rooms  when he said two other people were coming with him but in all actuality we all are sleeping in one room using one room as a closet and the other just for the bathroom and because we need to leave soon 3 bathrooms comes in handy but i also refuse to be left this horny for the rest of the day i just simply refuse i turn the shower on and because i left my favorite toy at home like a dumbass i have to do this this manually i sit on the sink and get very well acquainted with myself it doesn't take long for me to get to the edge me being able to feel how wet i am i just making me wanna go 10x faster which leads to me damn near falling off the counter when i cum and i shortly realize in my fogged out brain that i made myself squirt “goddamn i really need to do that more often” i say lean against the fogged out mirror 

After showering we all seemed to come out the bathroom at the same time and when we walk in the ‘closet room’ we all stop in front of our clothes look at eachother “so imma just guess we all did the same thing while in the shower” keigo says and we just burst out laughing “it wouldn't go away like at all i had to i would like for my dick not to be apart of my outfit today” hizashi says “and i refused to be left like that for hours” i add “yeah same i even tried to take a cold shower but it made it worse somehow” 

After getting ready we head out to the next party where once again i saw the same lady that watched me get fucked earlier and shes sitting at the same table as us “zashi do you know her” i say “yeah kinda” “what do you mean kinda i don't think i can sit here and know she watched me get fucked and not know her” i say as we closer to the table “well me and her worked together at my old station” “oh god” i say as we sit at the table “hizashi it's been forever and a day” the girl says in a thick accent i can't tell from where but it sounds southern “i know love i missed you and that lovely accent of yours how have been” he says sitting next to her 

“Oh I’ve been great and from the looks of earlier today so are you” she says winking at him “welllll yes that would sure make a day by the way this is Keigo and Jess Jess kei Kiyoshi Ito we worked together when I first started out”he says introducing us “it’s nice to meet you Jess and you think I could forget a cute face like that how are you Keigo” she says smiling at us “im great its nice to see you again its been years” keigo says returning the smile so everybody but me knows her ok just then my phone rings “ill be back” i looking down and seeing a number i know but its not saved “who is it” keigo says as i stand “my father” i say before walking somewhere quite

 “hello” “jessica”he says in his famously ‘i'm about to give you a speech you don't wanna hear’ voice “father” i say regretting answering the phone already “jordan told me you out of town for your birthday” he say “uhh yeah well its more of a work thing for zashi i mean hizashi more than anything” “mmm well did you do anything special yesterday” he's never cared about what i did for my birthday what the sudden interest  “no after we left jordan we were on a plane for 15 hours we just slept when we got here we got stuff planned today though” “like what” ok but why does he actually sound interested “ we went to breakfast this morning and a pool party not to long after now were at this lunch day party thing and hizashi hosting at a club later on tonight and i think keigo has something planned don't know” “sounds like a lot you gonna be able to stay awake the whole time”he says cracking a joke “yes i should be able to if not they'll just have to understand” we laugh i wanna put this in the records to say ME AND MY DAD JUST LAUGHED TOGETHER “so what's up with you you hated me yesterday” “jessica i can never hate you your my daughter i love you do i appreciate all of your decisions in life no but that's your life that you have to live and i have to get over it you were right i'm not as involved in your life as i should be and yes i know im 27 years to late but i still wanna try seeing you and jordan yesterday showed me how much one i missed of you two growing up and how much i want my family together” “dad your not about to die are you” i say genuinely concerned “what no” he say laughing “what i'm sorry i never thought i would hear those words” “well you heard them and i wanna take keigo golfing with me one day” “am i allowed to go” “no just the two of us i have something different planned for when you get home” “ok i get back Saturday nd i'll send you his number later” 

“You seem happy thats odd”keigo says as i come back to the table “surprisingly we actually had a good conversion oh and i gave him your number he's dragging you to golf with him” i say before taking a sip of hizashi drink “haven't been golfing in a while gotta bring my clubs home” “wait you golf” i say surprised “yeah have to i do alot of business on the green” “everyday i'm reminded that i'm the only one with a odd job because what the fuck do you mean you get work done on the green” hizashi say taking his drink back “in the business world golf is the closest thing you can get to a face to face meeting with people so i've golfed A LOT in my 5 years of working even have engvaed clubs and bag” “wait i thought that was just decoration in your office” i say remember seeing them when i went there to cry “nope” 

“Ok now I wanna change my outfit because are we going to have time to come back and change after we eat” I say looking at my “birthday” dinner outfit and my club outfit that are drastically different “yes we’ll make time just hurry up and change” hizashi says changing his pants “ok ok you dont gotta be mean about it geez” i say changing “not being mean just don't wanna be late love” he say kiss the top of my head before he goes in the bathroom “princess”keigo say walking into the room“yes” i say pulling my corset string “let me” he says taking the string “so i got you 2 present do you want one of them now or wait till later to get both” he say pulling then tying it and wrapping his arms around me  “depends does either involve me to be naked” i say turning in his arms “no they don't but they'll look better when you are” “hm then i'll take one now one later so you can see them in both no clothes and in them” “ok close your eyes” i do as told and i feel him grab my wrist “left or right” “left” i then feel him slip a cold piece of metal around my hand down to my wrist “open” when i open my eyes i see a gold bracelet that resembles a cartier bracelet “wait is this a real cartier bracelet” i say looking at it closely “my love i dont brag but i'm entirely too rich to be buy anything that's not real” he say in the cockiest voice i've ever heard from him “fuck thank you i've always wanted one” i say looking at it “its no problem baby i was looking at anklets but didn't see a point because most of your shoes would cover it” “very true but it would be cute to see one in the air next to your face tho” i say “be good we gotta make it to this restaurant” he says before kissing me “ok love birds we gotta go”hizashi says coming out the bathroom “look at my gift zashi isn't she pretty” i say holding out my wrist “hate to burst your bubble” “nope don't care just look at it and tell me it's pretty” i say cutting him off  “ok ok it's pretty” “ thank you” 

At the restaurant and it's a fancy one not like they had to wear jackets type of fancy but fancy “so are we going to be together tonight or are you going be somewhere else” keigo say looking at the menu “we should relatively be in the same space but you won't be in the general crowd though” zashi said doing the same “do you have a say in the music because if it's anything like earlier i will be leaving early” i say “yeah i made the set list so you should be alright”

“So when do i get my second gift” i say looking across the table at him he doesn't say anything just reaching into his jacket pocket and pulls out a velvet box that i recognize as a necklaces box “ouu more jewelry you’re spoiling me” i say before opening the box and when i open it i see two in the box one gold plated one that says princess and a simple diamond one “dude this is so pretty” “yeah wanna put it on now or wait” “wait it goes better with that outfit” “keigo you really gonna make my gift seem cheap but ok” he say sliding a small wrapped box “you were there when i got both you had time if you wanted to out do me man” i take off the black paper to see the famous tiffany blue box “dude tell me your just reusing a old box” i say stopping “open it and find out” i open it and it's a fucking gold tiffany heart tag charm bracelet “zashi dude why are y'all spending so much money on me” i say handing him the bracelet to put it on me “because we love you and you deserve to be spoiled every now and then” he says putting it on me “and plus you buy expensive ass gift all the time you got him a rolex for his birthday this year” keigo say looking at bracelet “i mean he said he wanted one and like i have 3 so i mean i had to” i say i almost got him 3 but i didnt because i couldnt find the ones i wanted to get him so he only got one 

The club is very lively and thank god were not with the general crowd because from the vip section you cant even see the floor below us “i haven't been to a club in forever” keigo say looking around”i know and i'm starting to remember why to that crowd is insane” “yeah if we had to stay down there we would've left within 20 minutes” “or i would have used my pretty privilege to get us up here” “have you done that before” “oh yes most definitely that and the “my dads a lawyer he could have this place shut down”” i say in my most spoiled kids voice “has that ever worked” “everytime” 

Zashi didn't pull any punches with this setlist “hello party people i wanna say thank you for having me once again and i also want to give a special shoutout to my best friend who's celebrating a birthday this week happy birthday jess my love” he says to this big ass crowd of people “im going to fucking kill him” i say laughing moving back from the railinng because now everybody was looking in my direction “you shouldve known he was going to do that” keigo say bringing me back to the rail trapping me between him and it “you think they would notice if i fucked you right here” he whispers in my ear “you were so against public fucking earlier now you wanna fuck me in this big ass club” “i changed my mind” he say already attacking my neck “well lets be glad i chose this very easy access dress” which yes is this dress to out of the normal for me no but its a tighter fitting and the whole back is out 

He lift the dress just above my ass so it's still down in the front and some on the sides I lean over the railing a little more and widen my stance and i don't know if this was pure circumstance or if hizashi knows what's happening but i couldn't hold back the laugh when a club mix of love in the club comes on 

I'm not really a thrill chaser but in this case i am the fact that i'm getting bent over this rail and getting fucked in front of hundreds of people is making me see why people do this shit “fuck kei” i say leaning forward more looking down no one has a clue and im not even trying to be quite thanks to how loud it is in here “fuck im about to cum cum with me baby” he says in my ear and we cum loudly 

Trying to recoup on the couch “did we really just do that and not get caught” keigo says rubbing my leg “yes we did and you were scared” i say sitting up on my elbows “we did it twice today” he says “yup yup” “what did yall two do” hizashi says appearing out of nowhere  and sitting on the arm of the couch “what nothing” i say looking up at him “yeah ok you just was bent over the rail doing nothing” “yup yup nothing at all” i say laying back on his leg “do we have to stay all night” keigo says “nahh just another 2 hours or so but if y’all wanna leave now I’ll meet y’all back in the room” hizashi say playing with the ends of my hair “nahh we leave together” I say laying flat on the couch 

I will never understand how Jess can fall asleep anywhere it’s loud as hell in here and she out like a light on this couch and I feel personally attacked by the lie hizashi told us he say 2 more hours it’s 3 almost 4 and she been sleep all 3 of them leaving me by myself 

They call for last call and you can see that a good amount of people are leaving so that’s a good signal also seeing hizashi make his way back up to us “hey princess” I say trying to wake her up “you know this is mission impossible” hizashi says to me “yeah I know couldn’t help but try though” I know she’s not waking up so I have to carry her all the way back “help me get her on my back” I say standing up 

After the 20 minute walk back to the hotel I drop her off in the bed “ughh you’re not even drunk and I still had to carry you you’re lucky I love you girl” I say getting her out of her dress and and something more comfortable because I’m not sleeping next to this scratchy ass dress 

After getting her in the bed I shower when I come back from the bathroom in the closet room I see hizashi sleep on the couch “I’m not carrying you to” I go and get a blanket from one of the other rooms and put it over him “good night my love” I say taking off his glasses and turning off the light 

I get back in the room Jess still sleep like I left her 

When I wake up I hear talking reaching out for Jess she’s not there I get up after adjusting to being woke and go out to seeing her and hizashi digging through take out bags “good morning sleeping beauty” Jess says “mhm good morning what time is it”I say sitting on the counter “almost 12” “I found out that there’s a spa in the hotel and set that up for later open” hizashi says feeding me what looks like a breakfast burrito I bite it “like it” he say taking a bite of his own “what’s in it” I say reaching out for another bite “eggs some vegetables and something else ” he says holding it to me so I bite it “eggs” I say knowing he doesn’t eat eggs “well you know a egg substitute” he says going for another bite “wanna try mine” Jess says offerings me hers “sure also do I not have my own” I say biting into hers “yes you do actually” she says handing me mine “whose do I have the duplicate of” I say taking the foil of it “mines” hizashi say “mhm thanks ” “did you not like mine” Jess says “I did both are good actually” “but you took multiple bites of his but just one of mine you didn’t like it it’s ok” “I’m just used to eating eggs substitutes now a days and regular eggs taste weird it was still good though” I say locking my leg around her and bringing her to me and taking another bite of hers

After eating we get ready to go get massages “this is needed after having to carry somebody last night” “ok I’m sorry for falling asleep in the club last night but whose fault is that really” Jess says “I knew something happened last night”hizashi says as we walk in the spa 

After changing in to robes we go in the room with three tables “welcome” the Masseuses says when we walk in we all lay on the tables and enjoy the massages 

“They was most definitely needed after having to carry a full grown women on a 20 minute walk last night” I say after we regroup after changing back “hey how many times are you going to throw that at me today” Jess say “as many times as I possibly can” “so the music festival thing is tomorrow so how bout we do nothing today”hizashi says “or we can check somethings off the list we have three days left and a lot of shit left” Jess says “ok what’s left” “uhh DP 69 rigging impact and me fucking zashi” “can we hold off on the fucking me part till we get back home” “ugh ok” Jess says leaning against the elevator wall “and the 69 thing can that wait as well I know you wanna try it but it suck’s honestly” I say thinking of all of my experience with it “omg ok then so Dp and impact because I just thought about the fact that I didn’t bring enough rope” she says as we walk out the elevator “ok I’m exhausted so you and zashi have fun with impact while I sleep” I say leaving them in the living room when we walk in the room 

“Is he really just going to-“ I’m cut off by hearing the room door close “I guess he’s actually going to sleep” zashi says sitting on the couch “so wanna wait awhile or wanna do it now” I say sitting next to him “now but first I know you don’t bruise easy so are we going to a point where you are going to or no” “yeah dude I said hardcore impact didn’t I” “your ok with the possibility of bleeding” “ok maybe not that hardcore you’ve done that before” “yes but I’ve never also done full on hardcore impact with someone who doesn’t bruise from just my hand” “yeah going to need more force than that love” 

“Come here” he says patting his lap I swing my leg over and sit comfortably “I’m going to give you the same treatment I give all of my subs when it comes to impact no special treatment got it” “yes I got it” “I’m not going to make you call me any honorific or anything but I am going to need you to listen to everything I say when I say it and I’m going to need a response when needed” “ok” I know this feeling well enough now to know I’m slipping into subspace “so where going to go in the room and I’m going to pick out my toy of choice and then I’m going to bend you over my knee and give further instructions then” goddamn zashi ok I see why you always have the subs that never wanna leave “ok” is all I can say he’s got me in a deeper head space than I’m used to and I don’t hate it 

“Sit there and look pretty for me sweetheart” did I steal that from him or did he steal that from me he say as we walk into the room we use solely for the bathroom room he leaves me there to really take in that I’m really about to let my Best Friend of oso many years bend me over his knee and hit me I’m about to change my name to TLC because I done caught the damn waterfall at this point it’s no longer a chase 

“Ok I’m back I wish you would’ve gave me a heads up but I can make due with this” he say twisting one of my paddles in his hand looking at it it’s one I haven’t used yet so I can’t even prepare for the pain cause I don’t know what it feels like “I’m glad your regular attire entails short skirts” he sits and leads me to being across both of his legs ass in the air

“10 warm up hits then we’re going to work up in intervals of 10 and stop at 40 small breaks in between ok” “ok” “safe word” “hawks” “same as keigos got it “ he rubs small circles on my ass and I relax into the touch so much that I forgot what we were doing so when the first hit comes it’s a complete surprise it’s a hard hit but nothing to out of the normal but the next lands same spot and god the pain intensity went up a few levels I let out a small gasp with that hit 

“Still ok” he says after the 5th hit “yes” I say bracing for the next “relax stop tensing up like that” I relax a little then the next hit then the next and the next “fuck” I say as the pain is slowly turning into pleasure finally and with the last two hits my poor thong string I was drowning in me 

He rubs my ass a little ugh he really doesn’t believe in giving praise for the bare minimum I feel the paddle on my ass and the sense of not knowing how bad this bitch is going to hurt is making me anxious 

The first hit made a loud pop through the room that the way that I damn near screamed was considered quiet he pulls no punches with this bitch of a paddle my ass and legs are burning but in a good way why did midnight always say I was better at this goddamn his hit is 10x harder than mines and I can openly admit that 

Over and over for 10 hits full force had me damn near in tears and I gotta do 30 more damn 

The small break in between was not helpful at all it just made me focus more on the pain because there was no stimulation “color love” he says moving my hair from my face “green” 

now when he said intervals of 10 I was thinking 4 sets of 10 no no no this bitch meant 10,20,30,40 and it takes me 15 hits into 20 for me to realize what’s going on I subconsciously try to run from hit number 19 but a steady hand on my lower back stopped me “unless you want me to start back over at 10 and go back up I would stop moving if I was you” a fucking menace to society if there every was one because what the fuck 

Halfway through 30 I’m in tears snot running down my nose my thighs are practically numb and my ass feels like it will never be the same after this but if he would to stop right now I would be terribly upset 

The break in between 30 and 40 seems like it was nothing like my guy give me a minute or 10 shit 

20 into 40 something changes and if it was even possible HIS HITS GET HARDER I’m trying my hardest not to run away but fucking hell I don’t think I can tuff it out any longer come on Jessica your mother ain’t raise no bitch we have what 10 left you can do this you deserve the praise at the end of this pain rainbow 

And with the last hit I feel accomplished “you did it baby 160 hits you took it like a champ good girl” he say rubbing my ass and thighs lightly “I even got you to bruise a little on your thighs” he say tracing what I’m guessing is a bruise on my thigh his hand slides back up and down between my thighs dragging low moans out of me it feel good everytime the side of his hand grazes my already wet pussy 

“Wanna know what you get for being such a good girl for me baby” he say “yes” “for being such a champ through this I’m gonna make you cum you want that” he say moving my hair to the side and I nod my head “I only accept words not movements and stop crying you’re messing up your pretty face baby”he say wiping tears from my face “yes I want that” I say with the little strength I have “good ok” he slides back on the bed with me still on his lap “I’m going to help you sit up ok” he puts one hand on my shoulder and the other on waist and helps me sit up and sitting on my legs I wince in pain from the movement he pulls his pants and boxers down and pull me to him so that i'm straddling him 

He brings me in for a kiss and guides me down him “fuck Jess you got this wet for me I’m honored” he say guiding my hips up and down at a pace that only he could keep “not the first time and won’t be the last fuck” I say putting my forehead on his shoulder

Everytime we fuck it feels like forever we can never just stay in one position it never works out that way “goddamn girl” he say railing my shit in missionary “fuck zashi fuck I’m bout to cum don’t stop shit” I say gripping on to the sheets 

When me and keigo fuck it’s never like this I think he loves me to much or something I don’t know but with zashi we’re like two wild animals and fuck I hope keigo never gets uncomfortable with this because fuck I’ll miss it “cum baby fuck cum” he say making eye contact with me knowing that shit drives me crazy I cum and he pulls out just in time and cums on my stomach 

“Fuck I haven’t came that hard in awhile” I say catching my breath “yeah same goddamn you really take it out of me you know that” he says laying on his back looking at me “yeah I know that’s why you love me” I say flashing a smile at him “I don’t even fuck keigo like that but you bring out the worst in me sexually” “and that’s why I’m the only consistent woman you’ve fucked can’t find this type of pussy no where but right here” “please stop saying the word pussy I hate it so much” he says getting up and getting a towel “you want to do aftercare in here then join keigo or do aftercare in the room with him” he says wiping his cum off of me “option two” I feel like during aftercare I might no might I’m going to fall asleep so just cut out the middleman and just go in the bed now “think you can walk” “yeah I think imma need help though” “ok get up when your ready” 

After a few minutes of just sitting there for a while I get up and my legs are weaker than I thought but I can walk we make our way to the room and keigo is not sleep just laying down on his phone “sounds like y’all had fun” he says as I lay down face first on the bed “jeez she does bruise” he says looking at me “yeah she did good with it give her love and praise while I go get ice and other things” hizashi says leaving the room “you actually went through with it and completed all 160 and around 20 minutes of sex you deserve more than praise princess” “how did you know it was 160” “hizashi does nothing lower than that I’ve endured worse I promise” he say like he’s seeing war flashbacks”well you could’ve warned me” “now why would I do that” “is it wrong that it felt good” “your asking a masochist someone whose came from getting hit before if it weird that it felt good no it’s not weird you need to work on getting that pleasure dom gene out of you because it’s ok to feel good and to make people feel good” he says “yeah I know” “ok Jess you know the drill it’s about to be cold we’re going to do 10 minutes compressions small breaks 10 minutes” hizashi says coming back and like I planned I fell asleep during after care 

“So you went all out huh” I say to hizashi as we watch tv with a sleeping Jess in between us “of course I did anything less she would've been on my case about it” I mean shit he’s not wrong if she wasn’t crying and numb by the end she would’ve got on his ass “I thought you were going to sleep” “nah I’m tired but not that tired I wanted to give yall some solo time” “she’s your girlfriend” “that asked you to do something so why would I get in the way” I say looking over at him “why are you ok with this sometimes I think you’re just doing this because Jess wants you to you know if you don’t want this to continue we could stop” “nahh not the case at all zashi we both have itch’s that neither of us can scartch and you scratch the hell out of it I heard how loud she was in there and as much as I love when Jess pegs me nothing compares to you fucking me and shit I love having both of you solo or together and seeing the two most attractive people fuck and flirt right in front of me god don’t even get me started I love you zashi and if my girlfriend needs a extra razzle dazzle as long as your the one doing it I don’t care” I explain “and plus I’m still not ready to let my master go” I add “you know your forever my kitten baby” he says running his hand through my hair “haven’t heard that in a long time” I say hearing my old pet name “your going to be ok with me having another sub” “i mean do i really have a choice i dont want to be the one who take you out the game i cant be greedy and take two of the best doms in the country i mean i already have one” “yeah you saying that just shows you haven't had dealt with nem and shota i swear they're really like the cream of the crop like one more sub lesson with sho would have put me on his roster” “i thought it was just a respect thing” “it is now but then shit he would've got my ass” we laugh “but actually i'm cool with the new sub i swear” “ok dont think i'm replacing you though your still very much my number 1 and dont forget it” he say “oh baby you could never replace me like i can't replace you” i say as he climbs  over jess and lay on my side of the bed “yeah that's true” he say pulling me closer to him from behind “i really hope she doesn't roll off the bed because she thinks your still right there” i say knowing she depends on us being on either side of her to know how far she can turn on the bed “is it bad I want her to” “your a terrible person” I say laughing 

“Ok so your not going to be able to do the music festival today come on Jess” keigo says “I’m in immense amount pain right now and the bruises got worse and will be seen in everything i bought to wear so have fun without me” I say sitting on the bed “it won’t be fun without you baby come on I know you have something that would cover it and not be to tight” hizashi says “did you forget who were talking to of course everything she bought is exactly that you could wear my cargo pants you’ve been trying to steal for the longest” keigo says trying to convince me “no babe I can’t sorry just go I’ll be ok by myself I’ll go tomorrow” “ugh we planned on not going tomorrow since we leave the next day” hizashi says defeated “well we can always come back next year I promise I’ll make it up to you both just go” “but we can’t leave you if your in pain” “especially since I caused it”hizashi say taking off his jacket “no zashi put the jacket back on im ok and I want y’all to go and have fun and take a bunch of pictures for me” I say walking over to them and pushing them towards the door “ugh ok ok text or call if you need anything ok”hizashi say opening the door  “or if you miss us and want us to come back you know just shot the text” keigo says walking out the door “I promise I will now have fun mistress orders” I say before stealing one kiss from keigo “yes mistress I will” he say catching up with hizashi in the hallway 

This having private access and special treatment is fun we’ve avoid all lines all crowds and all because of hizashi “so is it like this all the time or just because it’s a music festival” “nahh pretty much like this all the time one time I was traveling and I got boosted to a dope ass suite for just existing didn’t even have to pay extra” “yeah that never happens for me” “because your bougie ass already book the dope ass suites” “ok no need for name calling” I say laughing “you think she’s ok” he says looking off into space “yeah she’s a big girl she’ll be ok and if she’s not she’ll let us know stop worrying” I say reassuring him I know the dom in him is freaking out that he left her alone “yeah your right but it wouldn’t hurt to call her right” he says pulling out his phone 

“Why is he calling me” I say looking at my phone and seeing hizashi calling me “yes my love”I say answering the phone “hey how we feeling” he says and I can barely make it out from the music in the back “I’m right as rain love I told you I would call you not the other way around” I say “yeah I know but I just wanted to check on you I know you don’t do pain often” “liar” I hear keigo say in the back “well I don’t know what you two do in your personal time-“ “liar” “keigo your asking for 300 again” “ok I’ll stop jeez” i hear him say and I laugh “whatever voodoo you have on my boyfriend imma need you to hand over to me” “yeah I can’t do that but you're sure your ok” “yes baby I’m ok I promise now get off my phone and have fun” “ok ok I love you”hizashi says  “yeah me too” keigo say in the back “I love you too and if you meet cool people take pictures” “ I will” and with that we hang up 

“Jordan you’re on your honeymoon why are you calling me” I say answering his face time “dude did you get a call from dad” “yeah the one where we laughed and I felt like he loved me yeah I got that call” “ok just making sure I wasn’t the only one whew dude I thought he about to tell me he only had a year left to live or some shit” “right shit felt weird as hell” “still waiting for mom to make the same call” “hey baby steps I’m just lucky he remembered keigo's name unlike someone” I say remembering the whole Diego thing “hey it’s close enough” “no it’s not anyways where’s mileena” she’s sleep we just got back from couples massages” “we did those yesterday felt delightful” “where's your other half and keigo” he says laughing “haha ha thought you were funny their at a music festival” “your music loving ass didn’t go” shit shit ok I’m not telling my brother the actual reason I’m not there make up something quick “yeah no I didn’t woke up feeling sick so I didn’t go” “you sick Jess I’ve known you for 24 years you don’t get sick are you am I about to an uncle” “oh hell no no no NO hizashi has been having us eat a lot of non animal products and I had regular eggs yesterday and my stomach been fucking with me since” I’m an exceptional lair that’s not a good thing why did I think that was a good trait “oh you suck I wanna be an uncle” “and I wanna be an aunt so you know go court your new wife and make it happen” “court Jess what are you 80” he say laughing hysterically “no just don’t wanna say go have sex with your wife to my little brother” “Jess I found out you were a dominatrix by hearing you call a man things  a man should never be called over the phone I pretty sure the words go have sex with your wife is the least traumatic thing I’ve heard you say” “ok I thought paying you $50 would keep that story out the books forever” “nahh just for the moment that money is long gone” “whatever seems like somebody up” I say seeing mileena appear from behind him “yeah I talk to you later” he says hanging up 

“Zashi it’s been 10hours the sun is down and it’s fucking cold please can we go now” I say now regretting my outfit choice “yeah come on” he say taking his jacket off “here your shaking like a leaf” I gladly take the jacket and when both arms are in he grabs my hand 

We take a car back to the hotel “I’m fucking starving” he says pushing the button to our floor in the elevator  “but I don’t wanna go back out” I say leaning my head on his shoulder “yeah same my fucking feet are screaming at me” “that’s what you get for wearing non broken in docs today” “yeah rookie mistake” he says as we get off the elevator

 “you think she’s eaten” he say unlocking the door “she better has it’s almost 11 hours since we seen her princess” I say walking in the room “in here” we hear her say from the extra room “why are you in here” hizashi says walking in the room “because I just got out the shower” “I mean that would explain why she’s in a towel” I say pointing out the obvious “how’s the bruising” hizashi says “don’t know can’t really see them on my end” she says trying to look hizashi goes over and lifts the towel a bit to look at them “they still look relatively the same just more purple than earlier should be gone by the time we leave” he says sitting on the bed “so are you hungry because we’re about to die from how hungry we are” I say “yeah I haven’t eaten today” we both look at her like she just her lost damn mind “I feel like I just fucked up by saying that out loud” she says looking at us both “yeah your lucky I’m to tired and that my feet hurt too damn bad to get upset about that” he say getting his first boot off “we’ve been wearing these shoes for years and you went to a music festival in unbroken in docs you deserve the pain your in” Jess says “I could say the same about you but I’m being nice today” he says getting the next one off “there was no need for that yamada” Jess says putting on clothes “keep it up Jessica” he says walking out the room

 “so what happened tell me everything and show me pictures”Jess say sitting in my lap on the couch “it was fun zashi took me to meet Megan thee stallion here are the pictures from that” I say handing her my phone “you met Megan thee stallion hot girl Meg the h-town hottie Tina snow without me omg I’m so jealous” she says looking at the pictures “should’ve came with us we didn’t even do that much walking today” hizashi says sitting next to us “we should’ve done something different yesterday I’m upset I didn’t get to meet her” “rolling loud next year I’ll take you and you can meet and take pictures with everyone” he says “promise” she says holding out her pinky “promise” he says locking pinky’s “it doesn’t count if we don’t kiss” she say “who came up that rule” he says before kissing her “10 year old Jess and touya” she says “I think that was an excuse to just get a kiss out of me” “no really we made a promise to be friends forever and to solidify it we kissed which we still do to this day but that was barely considered a kiss but 3 years later more seriously we kissed he backs up and say “Jess I think I’m gay” and I just go “yeah same” and at the time it was not yeah same more like I was embarrassed and wanted to play it off” “awe poor Jess your first kiss was with a gay guy that really set up your future didn’t it” I say “and what is that supposed to mean”she says looking at me “I mean my guy I gave up on women after the second one and came out as gay so technically you’re dating a gay guy” “that sounds cool I’m dating a gay guy never tell anyone different” she say “anyways food what are we getting” hizashi says 

We did nothing yesterday but pack and lounge around and preparing for this 15 hour flight and after 2 delays and one layover we were finally home 

“God it feels good to be home”Jess says flopping on her couch “yeah btw I’m not staying tonight I want to go get in my big ass bed so I’ll see y’all tomorrow” hizashi say coming out the bathroom “you’re really not staying with us” I say “nope kitten going in my bed tonight been spending to much time away from it” he say putting his jacket back in on “ok I guess we can let you go” Jess says “didn’t really have a choice see you tomorrow” he says leaving 

“Kitten?” Jess says as I lay on top of her on the couch “long story” I say getting comfortable

Notes:

Ok so if you made all the way to the end your a fucking trooper and I love you for reading my work but I have a chapter that I wrote In the middle of writing this one that I have to go through and add and move something’s so expect a new chapter some time this week and be ready it’s not as happy go lucky as this one was 🕺🏾🧡

Chapter 23

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ here's the chapter I promised with the other one there are some ⚠️ CONTENT WARNINGS ⚠️ for this one I mention an abusive relationship that includes gaslighting verbal abuse and physical abuse but does not go into heavy detail I hope you enjoy

 

I made a playlist for this chapter 😋https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/chapter-25/pl.u-9N9Lz6dF1yjWaq

 one day when it’s just Jess and keigo just out and about they run into keigo only ex girlfriend Jessie “wow keigo Takami you do have type don’t you”she say approaching them “oh hey” he says surprised to see who the remark came from who and the fuck is she “couldn’t keep me so you replaced me with one of the few other people that look like me down to the skin color” she says looking at me and to be honest we do look very similar and some aspects and she’s right I’m pretty sure we’re both 420 in Fenty foundation “Jessie I’m doing this with you today” “why not keigo im not wrong and you know it” “okay I don’t know what the history is between the two of you but whatever it is we’re grown no need for all this” I say trying to defuse the way she talking to him before I get out of character and try to figure out who the hell she is “Jess I got this” “damn we even have the same name I bet he calls you princess to doesn’t he” and when it hit me that this is who rumi confused me with the anger that has building up behind  this whole conversation is starting to tip over and not just at her but a little at his ass to “I can see it all over your face he does doesn’t he he makes you feel so special and like your the only person on the planet that matters yeah been there done that have fun with him while you can” “what the fuck are you even talking about” “oh come on the vacations the sex the gifts it’ll all come to an end when he gets bored with you and chases the next thrill” “is that all I am huh keigo a thrill to chase well your free to go find you next one” and with that in order for me not to start a fight in front of his building I just let go of his hand and go inside 

 

I’m fucking pissed I feel played and used like all of this was a game and a waste of time 

 

I get upstairs and immediately start collecting my shit in a fit of rage “fuck Jess stop and listen to me please” he says finally making it to the room “no fuck you keigo im gone I’m not going through this shit again man I’m not” I say angrily stuffing my shit in my suitcase “going through what Jess just stop ok what she said wasn’t true and not going to happen trust me” he say taking the suitcase from infront of me “keigo just let me go ok just go and do whatever you want I’m letting you go free so you don’t have to make the difficult decision of when and how your going to let me go so give me my shit back” I say reaching for it back but he slides it into the hallway “Jess I shared my life with you my everything with you and you think I’m just going to up and leave like that I promised you I wasn’t going anywhere-“ “THEN YOU DID YOU LEFT FOR TWO WEEKS NO CONTACT AT ALL I THOUGHT YOU FUCKING DIED I THOUGHT I WAS NEVER GOING TO SEE YOU AGAIN” and here comes the tears “I FUCKING LOVE YOU I GAVE YOU SO MUCH OF MYSELF DONE SHIT WITH NO PERSON CAN EVER SAY THEY'LL GET FROM ME AND SHIT IM JUST A REPLACEMENT AN IDENTICAL COPY FROM THE NAME TO THE HEIGHT BUILD HAIR TYPE AND SHIT EVEN EYE COLOR I don’t feel special to you anymore and I don’t like that so I’m leaving” I say throwing that fuck ass collar that has that recycled pet name on it at the ground and seeing it fall apart and just leaving fuck all my shit I’ll have hizashi come get whenever “Jess please don’t go please”he say grabbing my hand as I try to leave I look back he’s crying I snatch my hand away from him and leave 

 

As soon as i reached my house i went on a get rid of anything that reminds me of him rampage “hey jess why is your front door just open ok what hell is going on in here” i hear hizashi say as i put all his shit that's in my bathroom in a bag “he used me zashi thats whats wrong” “what who did what” “keigo his ex showed up and told me all about it everything he used me for a thrill hizashi” “his ex what ex oh jessie” “don't even say that bitches name in my presents” “ok jess listen im guessing he never told you about her” “no but rumi mentioned her and confused me for her that day we went out so obviously she was important to him” i say walking past him to the closet “i gave him everything zashi and he just used me what did i do to deserve this” i say pulling his shit off the hangers “jess just listen to me” “no hizashi what happened last time when he left it was im going to kill him for making you feel this way now your trying to reason with me i bet he was with that bitch when he left for those two weeks just laughing at me making me look stupid” “are you going to shut up and let me actually speak” “know what actually just get out hizashi go just go fuck” “whatever your just mad i'm not going anywhere because your being irrational” “irrational me shit you know him better obviously did you know he was like this and you just let me be a dumbass and fall in love” “you think if i knew he was a piece of shit i would let him be with you the fuck and your right i do know him better and i know for a fact if you just sit the fuck down and listen to what i'm trying to tell you you think he's an asshole” “i thought i told you to leave hizashi go leave”

 

I’m stuck standing where she left me that bitch made the one person I’ve loved and loved me leave me and I don’t think flowers and a movie is going to fix this one 

 

I don’t know how long I’ve been standing in the same spot but I’ve been here for a while the sound of my phone ringing in my back pocket breaks me from just standing it’s hizashi and I just know I’m in for it “yeah” I say laying on my bed “it was Jessie wasn’t it” he say calmly through the phone “yup” “you never told her about how terrible she was did you” “I try to not talk about her at all” “well all imma tell you is this one was bad like all your shit out the closet drawers bathroom everything pictures gone she’s pissed I just got her to stop from trying to cut them and delete you out of her phone” just hearing this is making me cry more she’s done with me like done done “hey I get it when she’s mad she’s a bit irrational and reckless so just give her a while ok don’t give up” “it seems like she made that decision for me already” I say hanging up the phone 

 

Days turn into nights nights turn into weeks keigo has been completely MIA from work and any social circle he’s in 

 

It’s been three weeks since Jess left in a uproar and he’s barely moved eaten shit blinked he feels like there isn’t a point to anything anymore he just sits and waste his life away 

 

Hizashi finally got some time away from Jess to go and check on his other best friend he hates being in the middle of this but Jess won’t listen and gets mad anytime he tries to defend keigo about the situation he knocks on the door several times before he just uses the key that got thrown at him when he took keigo side in a very one sided argument “keigo” he says after closing the door it’s dark not one ounce of sun or light coming from anywhere he makes his way to his room once he realizes he’s like not in the living room dead somewhere there’s a suitcase and clothes that are obviously Jess’s scatter across the floor leading to the bedroom door where more of her shit is just on the floor where she left it “keigo” he say gently when he sees him lying in the bed on his side away from the door 

 

Hizashi walks to the other side of the bed to see his best friend looking terrible heavy bags red eyes dry skin hair all over the damn place and tears just falling from his eyes “hey baby” he says wiping the tears from his face he reacts like a touched starved puppy when his hand connects to his face he falls into the touch like he’s been dying for it “when was the last time you ate or drank water love” hizashi keeps a gentle tone he knows the history between him and Jessie and how traumatizing it was and he’s been trying to explain that to Jess but she doesn’t wanna hear it 

 

“I don’t even know what day it is my phone died a while ago” he responds in a low voice almost as if his voice was almost gone “ok wanna try sitting up for me then and we can baby step our way into everything else” keigo sits up takes in what his room looks like again he’s been out of it the only time he really got up was to go to the bathroom 

 

Hizashi sits next to him in the bed and wraps his arm around him he knows how much touch means to him “I’m sorry zashi” “what are you apologizing for” “for having to see me like this again” “you don’t have to apologize at all love it’s ok I’m here no matter what” 

 

The insecurity that has been with keigo since him and Jess started dating that if it came down to it zashi would always choose Jess over him has been put to rest 

 

After awhile of just sitting there giving keigo all of the small hits of touch and “I love you”s he’s been missing these past three weeks 

 

“So if I’m taking a wild guess and this is just a shot in the dark you haven’t showered in 3 weeks have you” “it has been the least of my worries my heart just got ripped out of my chest” “well let’s move that up to priority number 9 come on” hizashi says getting up out the bed and dragging kei behind him after turning the shower on he helps keigo get undressed and in the shower “so what you got a taste for food wise” hizashi says sitting on the bathroom counter looking for food to get delivered “It doesn’t matter I’m not that hungry” “whatever your eating whatever I buy and not just one bite either” 

 

After ordering food he went and cleaned all of jess shit out the floor his really pissed at her but not going to show it right now after packing her stuff up and putting back it in the closet cause if she want her shit she’s going to come get it herself and picking up the broken pieces of her collar off the floor 

 

Once keigo was out the shower they went and sat in the living room till the food arrived then moved to the dining table 

 

“So is she as bad as me” keigo say about to take his first bite “honestly worse she’s constantly angry and short tempered it’s becoming annoying honestly” “it’s my fault I should’ve told her a long time ago” “you didn’t have to do anything that shit broke you if you didn’t wanna tell her you didn’t have to if she would just fucking listen we wouldn’t be in this situation” “I mean yeah but I still should’ve told her I told her everything else I shouldn’t have kept that from her I almost did when I told her everything else but then she started crying and telling she wasn’t worthy of my love and now she’s gone” he says taking another bite “does she know your here by the way” “no she put me out and threw your key at me and said since I wanna keep defending you to go be with you” “you don’t have to ruin your relationship with her for me zashi I don’t want me to be the reason y’all stop being friends” “you won’t it’s not the first time since she left here that it’s happened she’ll be calling me later crying and apologizing for it” he says wiping his face the rest of the meal is quite other than low conversation from the tv 

 

Laying in the bed head in hizashi lap getting his hair that’s gotten longer played with “You know it’s not true right I would never do that to Jess” keigo says referring to the things Jessie said “I know you wouldn’t keigo if I did believe it  I would’ve broke this shit up a long time ago you love that girl more than anything else on this planet and she’s just to dumb to see it right now I wish I was there when it happened it wouldn’t have gotten this far I know just seeing her was triggering” “I just want my baby back hiz” 

 

After keigo fell asleep while they were watching tv he got the call he knew was coming “yes” he say slowly getting out the bed so he doesn’t wake keigo “hey” Jess says on the other side of the phone “I’m kinda busy right now what is it” “damn ok well I deserve that for my behavior last night and I was calling to say that I was sorry are you home” he looks back into the bedroom to make sure keigo was still sleeping “no I’m not” “oh oh ok got it where are you still at work” “no Jess I’m not at work” “ah so your with him got it well have fun call me when you leave” she sounds like she’s about to cry “I’m going to stay probably till the day after tomorrow so I’ll be over then ok I’m not choosing sides your both very important to me and I need to be here for him right now so don’t act like that Jess” “I know I know it’s whatever I get it you’ve known him longer your closer you have to be there for him I’ll call touya and tenko and see if they wanna come over or something bye” she hangs up 

 

I hold up to my promise of going golfing with jess dad even though we aren't together anymore “hey sir how are you” i say walking up to him outside the country club “oh don't be so formal call me james son how are you” he says shaking my hand “i'm pretty good” do i tell him we aren't together or did she already do that “i'm glad you actually came jess told me what happened” he says as we walk in “and you still invited me” “yeah i know jess better than she thinks i do things she love she don't stay mad at for long so while you two aren't up eachothers asses wanted to get one on one time with you” ok i see where jess gets her attitude from 

 

“So how did you learn how to play” he says as i line up my first shot “uhh in my field of work most things get handled out here so i kinda just learned” i say then take my first swing “nice shot what you do for a living”he says putting his ball down “ thanks im the ceo of a hospital tech company” i say putting my club back in my bag “switch tech” he say taking his shot “yeah that me” “how was she lucky enough to catch you god thats a big company” “yeah but i can't take all the credited my partner did most of the work and handed to me” “explain” “so Tsunagu Hakamada my partner we were close in school and we started this company together but i was the business major so i took care of all business stuff the inverters brand all that good stuff he took care of the all the tech stuff” “you speak of him in past tense did something happen between the two of you” “yeah unfortunately after we got the business off the ground he pasted in a pretty bad accent” “sorry to hear that” we get closer to our balls “so jessica you love her” he say getting his ball in the green “more than life” i say with all seriousness “then what happened” i thought we at least be a few holes in before this came up “we ran into my ex she told jess- jessica a bunch of stuff that's not true and i hate to say this your stubborn ass daughter didn't wanna hear nothing i was talking about after that” i say lining up my ball “oh don't be sorry she is stubborn always has been always will be” “but i would never intentionally hurt her and she knows that but hey i can't force her to come back” i say getting my ball also in the green “you plan on marrying my daughter” “well would have to be together for that to work” “yeah yeah answer the question” “well of course i don't see myself doing it with anyone else” “i'll hold you too that”

 

I have this stupid Christmas party that we host every year and I have to be here I don’t wanna but I’ve been gone long enough and I need to make appearances “thanks for coming zashi” I say as we sit in my office people watching through the glass wall “of course don’t I come every year” he says “yeah but I know Jess dad firm has their party tonight as well” “yeah but like she does once a week she got upset that I bought you up and yelled at me and told me not to show up so either way I wasn’t going to be there” he say finishing his drink “she thinks you’re choosing me that’s why she gets so mad” “ I’m not choosing anyone I wanna spend Christmas with the my found family at after dark like we planned but I can’t because one person won’t grow the hell up and listen” he seems like he’s mad and sad at the same time “you can’t blame her it’s my fault I should’ve told her but I was to weak to” “don’t say that keigo after the shit that girl put you through and for you to have grown this much since your fucking strong as hell do ever call yourself weak in front of me I seen you weak and your far from that now that’s your story to tell and if you don’t wanna tell it shit you don’t have to fuck if she is your girlfriend you love that girl and that’s all that should matter not what another person have to say” he says holding eye contact then breaks it when his phone rings “hey touya” “hey dude she won’t stop crying and I already called sho and midnight it’s a you thing” “no it’s not it’s actually a keigo thing she just don’t wanna admit it give her the phone” he says irritated “zashi I can’t keep doing this” I hear her crying through the phone “doing what Jess” “this you keep leaving me I can’t lose two of my best friends zashi I already lost him I can’t lose you to I’m sorry please don’t leave me I can’t” she sounds hysterical like she’s been drinking “you’re not going to lose me Jess calm down am not still here with you most days spending the night so you don’t sleep alone there when your hysterical even when your mad and throwing shit I’m still here ain’t” “yes” she says sniffing “then stop crying and stop giving touya a hard time” “are you with him now” I hear her say and my breathing stops for a second “yes why” “is he ok or is he hysterically crying drunk on a bathroom floor” “no he’s not the boss can’t be blackout drunk at his own Christmas party” she laughs “yeah I guess so hey can you do me a favor” “depends” “take care of him he doesn’t have me anymore so I know he’s pretty fucked up or maybe happy shit I don’t know nor do I wanna know really keep that part to yourself but tell him not end his shit like he said he would if I left him he needs to be here for you too” hizashi looks at me and honestly that part of me that felt numb has some feelings again she still kinda cares “yeah ok I’ll tell him not to end his shit” “isn’t his birthday coming up yeah his birthday is in two weeks right yeah 3days after Christmas ok anyways I love you zashi” “yeah I love you too Jess” they hang up and he takes a deep breath and lets it out “that girl is going make me go gray early” 

“It’s been a month and a half and you still haven’t talked to him yet” touya says turning the stove on “yes what do I need to talk to him for and why are you keep track” “to find out who the hell the girl was and the history what if their relationship was abusive in some way and you just left him for something somebody who doesn’t care about him said to you” tenko say chopping vegetables “that’s not the case at all he would’ve told me if something like that happened in his past along time ago” “would he shit like that traumatizes a person to the point they don’t wanna talk about it to anyone no matter how close they are” touya adds “I didn’t even know this girl existed till his best friend from high school said her name other than that I know nothing about her but she obviously got him down to a science” “not my place but I think you need to at least hear his side of this before you completely write him off” touya says 

 

I’m tired of everybody saying the same thing “hear his side of it first” shit even my therapist sho and nem said it I don’t wanna hear his side of it I don’t care really I don’t hizashi is obviously choosing him over me he keeps going and checking on him when I’m the one in pain the man I loved just used me and everyone is worried about him why I don’t know 

 

“Jessica” I hear come from the front door and it one scares me because nobody calls me Jessica and two because it’s shota “um yes” I say coming from in the kitchen and seeing him and hizashi “come on time to go” “what where are we going” “just bring ya ass on” hizashi say grabbing my hand and leading me to the door where the hell are they taking me  

 

“So I barely see you and you come kidnap me with sir” I say from the backseat they both seem mad at me which I don’t like but I’m still very much confused on what the fuck I did 

 

When we arrived to after dark I get even more confused we get in I see that it’s empty not even security is here and i mean it is pretty early in the day buts it’s a ghost town till I see a touya nemuri “what is this an intervention or something” and touya moved slightly and I saw him for the first time in 2 months he looks terrible his hair is longer and  he looks like he barely sleeps anymore 

 

“Sit” shouts says when we reach the table I sit across from him “it’s been two whole months y’all haven’t seen or heard from each other and this one is to hard headed to listen to anyone so we had to do what we had to” nemuri says I’m not hardheaded “so we’re going to do this in a way I know your both familiar with if you don’t have the talking crop you are not allowed to talk I want you both to listen to each other because your both hurt and we get that but we know you both still love each other even if one of you try to act like they don’t”shota says “why am I the one being made out the be the bad one here” “I don’t believe you have the talking crop do you” shota says 

 

“So I am going to give Jess the stick first you have 5 minutes get all out because once i hand it over you need to listen” hizashi say handing me the “talking” crop are we 6 years old “ok well im hurt out of all the people in this room i never thought you would be the one to make the feel this way and not saying I expect any of you to but he was the last one on this list dead last i gave you ever inch of my heart mind and body and i was just another thrill in the extravagant sex life of keigo takami and yes i still love you i always will but that shit kei it hurts for somebody i dont even know and to read our whole relationship down to the letter even the stupid pet name that made me smile everytime you said it and to get it thrown at me like im not the first nor will i be the the last and i dont care we both have exs and lives before eachother it just seems like everytime a new aspect of your life is revealed to me i get hurt rumi jessi who next a ex boyfriend that i dont know about im tired of it kei and yes the thing with touya happened and you left no explanation you didnt give me a chance to explain so why should i give you the chance huh you got up and left first shot you got how dont i know it wont happen again you cant promise that you cant promise another one of your past flings wont come back to bite us in the future you cant and i need that certainty i do love you keigo i do but i cant if i have to worry about you getting mad at something i do and you just ghosting me or im learning things about the man that i love form somebody else your my fucking best friend were the three amigos and this has really put a tear in the three of us and i fucking hate it hizashi annoyed with me all the time im not talking to you touya and tenko just keep telling me to talk to you shit even my therapist said i need to talk to you and honestly this is what ive wanted to do for a while but i was scarred of when i saw you next was i going to see the person jessie depicted and you already move on to the next or would i see you like this when was the last time you slept longer than 3 hours baby you look terrible and i'm sorry to say that but you do and i didnt want to see you like this either cause it just proves them right” and with that the timer went off 

 

I feel terrible because she scared to love me because of my past she extends the crop and i take it “ok so i have to tell you something that no one knows other than hizashi after we separated as roommates after undergraduate i met jessie she was the perfect girlfriend at first in the least we did everything together then around the year mark she changed and everything i did was a problem from the way i acted around other people to the way i dressed she always got mad at me for something it got pretty bad like she would gaslight me like no other shit everything  from verbally abusing me to physically she was controlling i had to be back by a certain time or i was automatically doing something that i shouldn't have been doing she would yell throw shit at mee every thing and i stayed because she made me feel like i wasn't worthy of anything more than that after almost 3 years of it i got out thanks to zashi and after that i felt like the only way to feel “loved” was through sex so i threw myself at a little bit of everybody so when a year down the line and weve never actually told the real story hizashi finally told me he was a dom and he could help me you know learn how to respond to someone being in a controlling state over me in a health way so thats why i did sub training with him it broke me at first i cried a lot like a lot a lot i went through so many emotions the first few months it was crazy but eventually we got to the point where i am today so don't think hes choosing me over you baby he just knows how fucked up she was to me and i tried to tell you that but you left and yes i did the same but look at it from my prospective coming from my family background and past relationships seeing you two together shit you would’ve thought the same thing yes a heads up that he was gay would've helped but yes i was still wrong for leaving and if you want me to apologize about it everyday for the rest of my life then i will i want nothing less than to spend the rest of my life with you and if i just have to get demoted to friend again i will itll suck but ill do it i love you jess and you know in your heart of hearts i would never do no fuck shit to hurt you or use you as a sex thrill she was long gone once i even started to have sex with multiple partners and shes so good at mulipulating people that she made you forget your damn princess neckless you had on jess i never called her that” then the timer goes off 

 

 “so you were in an abusive relationship i mean shit you didn't have to tell me but shit why didn't you kei” “because jess that shit was terrible and i wanna just forget about it” “but kei with our relationship dynamic you cant just not tell me stuff like that you left me in the dark what if something triggered you and now im looking stupid because i dont know what wrong” “i mean hiz knows” “i dont care if he know i dont wanna depend on him when it comes to you i dont wanna have to run everything through him to make sure its ok for you you say you trust me but not with that” “jess you have to understand why yall disconnected for a while it was because yall both have the same name relatively it triggered the fuck out of him to even be around you because yall look so similar i had to help him be around you again jess because of her so you cant fault him for not telling you yes he should've given you some background in the beginning  but he didnt have to break it down if he didnt want to”hizashi say  “yes but damnit all of the things weve done kei couldve went wrong real fast because of her” “and they didnt because i separated the two of you you could never hurt me the way she did baby that what im saying yes it took me a hot ass minute to be able to get the image of my best friend turning into the person who made me lose my self” he crying but he looks normal like the tears are coming out on their own kinda like when we did psychological play “you told me everything about your childhood charlie but she never came up that night” “i was going to but then you broke down and it went of the window” “we know this isnt going to slove all of what happened but you both have let it all out and rather you patch it up is on you” 

 

They just stare at each other for a while blinking tear after tear out “do you really still love me” jess finally says “yes princess i do”keigo responds quickly “even after i did all of that broke the collar and threw shit omg that was probably triggering fuck sorry” she says thinking about her actions that day “yes princess i can always buy another one and yes it was kinda but its ok you didn't know” “zashi im sorry i shouldve listened to you from the beginning and shouldnt have felt like you were picking sides and also throwing shit at you” “its all good i know how stubborn you get so i knew it would be a fight with you on this”

 

“Well can i formally apologize to you cause i said something that i realize was wrong and not true and i'm sorry for it i got super emotional just hear me when i say i care about you and i'll do anything for you i take the blame shit i'll sign the treaty of versailles if you want me to *i've been doing a lot of work on the wars so sorry for the government joke* i was in the moment i didn't really mean what i said to you so lets put our pride aside we can work this out if you want to” “jess as much as i want to accept that you know if you didn't mean the shit you yelled all me you wouldn't have pulled it out your bag of shit to hit me with i know what i did was wrong we got past that and it still gets thrown at me constantly” “ok but kei baby i was mad and upset it just came out” “i'll accept it if we decide right here right now that no matter the argument disagreement whatever were not allowed to throw this shit in eachothers face let's dead the shit and leave it here” “ok lets dead it right now” jess say holding her pinky out “ok” he locks pinkys “it doesnt count if you don't kiss” touya says “hey don't look at me like that she made up the rule” “shut up todoroki” she say meeting keigo halfway for a kiss a small one that could've turn into more if lasted a second longer 

 

After a few months and a couple sessions of couples therapy that were heavily recommend their finally fully back together they started slowly spending only their off days together not spending the night alot of talking to get back to the regualry scheduled program back between homes and nasty sex 

 

To be continued in the next yes master chapter…

Notes:

ok so the next full chapter will a yes master as stated but I wanna do a couples therapy/Christmas/keigos birthday extra first then the the yes master chapter just to fill in some gaps

Chapter 24

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨so I know I said next chapter was supposed to be an extra buttttt I don't have self control and let out all my creative juices out in this one so the yes master chapter will be next but it'll be with a twist so be prepared for that

“So this is our fourth session together and i feel that the tension between the two of you has lighten has the communication tools been helping” our therapist dr.ito says  “i mean it has definity been working” jess says “yeah after the last session we've been able to talk like normal again” i add “explain what do you mean like normal” “well yes we've known each other for what 9 almost 10 years now from college but our relationship started from our bdsm relationship so for a while i was afraid to talk about certain things after learning about his past relationship because i felt like i might say something wrong and it leads to something else” “so now we can talk about things we consider normal again for example the other day we bought up the topic of sex” “is that something that has always  been in the main topics of conversations  before everything” “yes 100% we even took a sex break in the beginning of our relationship because i was scared without sex we had nothing but that turned out to be not true” jess says “so you were afraid that without sex you had nothing all of the love and care youve placed upon each other was because of the sex i havent even known you two that long and i know that's not true so what was it really jessica that really made you feel that way”

“Well i guess because ive never had an as serious relationship as this one before and me being a working domatrix for so long i guess i thought he was just staying for the sex” “and when you heard form his past partner that thats all he was using you for you felt that insecurity come back thats why you reacted the way you did” “when you say it that way i guess so” “was this relationship in the beginning something transactional with money” “no i never payed jess for our activities” i say “have you ever payed for or been paid for sexual acts” “ive never payed for sex no but i technically did get paid for sex i had a sugar parent in  college but the sex came way later in that relationship” “so sex and sexual acts is the thing you two share correct as in the way the another couple bonds over a sport or activity” we look at each “yeah but once we became close weve always been very open with sex stories and things like that other than our best friend and the people i worked with at the dungeon nobody knew but him” “yeah no matter how outrageous it was i was always knocking on her door giving her the run down of what had happened between me and whoever minus charlie i never told you those stories” i add “why were you ashamed of what the two of you did” dr.ito says “no not ashamed but more as i didnt wanna tell my rich ass best friend that i doing all this crazy shit with an older guy for money” “keigo i wouldn't have judged you for that” “yeah now that you had a taste of being cut off jess you had to open a po box because you had so much shit coming in that the mail room hated you you were one of the only freshmen with car i didnt have all that so i felt like the moment i told you you wouldve to try to give me money or pity me and that's not what i wanted at all” “ok well your not wrong but i would've did it out of love not pity” “i didn't want it regardless hizashi tried doing the same thing and it almost lead to us not talking anymore” “why were you so prideful when it seemed like you needed the money” she say writing something down “because i didnt wanna be a charity case they both come from money not me i wanted to work for whatever i made” “so even if it was sex you was ok with it” “only for charlie yeah anyone else no not at all” “jessica you were cut off why” she say giving jess her attention “because my father and mother found out about me being a dominatrix from the two doms that i worked with coming to my graduation” jess answers “how did that go down” “i accidentally slipped up and introduced them as the people i worked with and my mother was very confused because i was not working and they had access to my accounts so they knew i wasn't making any money so the pervious month i had bought a bunch of different things for mistress jess new clothes toys and all and when they called and said asked what the charge was for i told them that me and hizashi did some light shopping or something stupid it was a dumb lie and they put two and two together and for some reason my dad had recognized the name of the store and put two and two together” “so you got cut off completely” “yup on the day i got my masters degree in psychology i got completely cut off and put out for “embarrassing our family name”” this is something i didnt even know ”so where did you go” “i had money that they didnt know about and i found a small apartment in shibuya for cheap not that far from where i was already working and that's when i became a full time working dom” “when did you start using your degree” “ughhhh it been 3 years now 2 years full time though” “are you back under your families care” “no never got that card back dont really need it now but no” “are you close with your family keigo” “well it's just me and my mother and were close” “jess how about you” “well not for along time but recently me and my brother has grown closer and me and my dad just waiting for my mom to jump from the hate jessica ship” 

“You both talk about this hizashi like he's the closest person to you both how did you meet” “um i met him at a party my childhood best friend dragged me too during the summer going into our 3rd year of high school and i met him there ”i met him at the dungeon we used to work at” “also somehow the first half of our friendship we didn't know that each other other best friend was the same person until we were dating for like 8 months”i add “you knew him that long jeez”Jess says”yup”  “have either of you dated him” “no he rejected me” we both say at the same time “wait really” jess says looking at me “yeah he had took me to this museum 3 months into us knowing each other and i had confessed and he said no because he wanted us to stay the way we were and didnt wanna lose me because we threw a title on something that didn't need it” “no shit verbatim same thing he told me” “so you both fell for him he must be the perfect guy huh” she say smiling at us “yeah he is like ugh if i wasnt with keigo i wouldve tried my luck again” “wouldn't have worked when you had your chance to i was his kitten” i say tauntly “oh shut up i'm literally the only woman hes sleeps with for the past 3 years” “you know what i can say the same just you know the only man hes been with for the past 3 years”i tease back “so wait you both still sleep with him” she say pointing her pen between us “yes”  we both say looking back at her “wait wait let me understand youve both confessed both got shot down both his best friend and both still have sex with him” she says processing the information “yes” we both say “please explain” she say sitting up in her seat “so ok we both have needs that other cant meet” “like you know im pansexual so as much as jess puts her back into sex when she the top its different with hizashi” i say “and with hizashi we bring out the worst in eachother when it comes to sex but in a good way” “so he itches that scratch either of you can reach” she say finally getting it and we both nod “and your both ok with sharing as long as it hizashi” “anybody else it wouldn't work” jess says

 “ok and coming back to the reason your here in the first place jessica you said you felt like hizashi was taking keigos side and keigo you felt bad because when he was with you that means she was alone” we nod again “jessica you said he was constantly annoyed at you but on your end keigo you said he was nothing but kind and loving to you” “yes he was but i know why he was there when everything went down with jessie so he knew he had to be gentle because i wasn't in a good place just loosing the only thing that made happy” “i was being a constant asshole to him and i deserved it most days but he was still there when i needed him like i got so used sleeping next to someone that i couldn’t sleep and the 2nd night i called him crying saying i couldn't sleep at like 5:30 in the morning and i know he just got home from working all night and no questions asked he walked down the street to my house crawled in the bed and held me till we had to get up to work the next day and that same day he bought over a hoodie that smelled like him and put it on my pillow and recorded himself when he was sleep so i could play it at night so i didn't feel alone” she says smiling at the gesture” “jess do you remember your dads christmas party” i say to her “nope after drink number 4 couldn't tell you a thing all i remember was i woke up next to tenko snoring obnoxiously loud and touya on the floor next to the bed” “well you were crying hysterically in the bathroom and touya went through the list he couldn't get you to stop shota nor nem could get you to stop when he called them so he called hizashi you were crying because you didnt wanna lose him and after he reassured you he wasn't going anywhere no matter how annoying you were you randomly asked if he was with me and when he said yes you asked about me asking if i was also crying in the bathroom in the middle of party then you told him to take care of me because i didn't have you anymore you didnt wanna know how i was but you told him tell me not to end my shit like i said i would if you left me” i say “i don't remember that at all” “you said you would end your life if she ever left you” “it was mostly a joke that i made when she told she didn't deserve my love” 

“why did you say you didn't deserve his love” “because this was the day he opened up to me about his past and he was so proud to tell people omg shes girlfriend and i would still only tell people he was just my best friend or my submissive when appropriate” “do you tell people he's your boyfriend now well and before” “yes the person i share a workspace with hates us because he's all i talk about and he's a just because type of person so we’ll be coming into work together and flowers or a random gift or he's picking me up and dropping me off at work i introduce him to my family for the first time as my boyfriend as my wonderful boyfriend keigo even my nail tech knows all about him” ”were you upset that she couldn't say the words he's my boyfriend” “no i didn't care what she told people i was to her because ever answer was correct i am her best friend and submissive as long as she was with me i didn't care but it was important to her that she got to the point where she could say it”

“So because we have hit the half way point and I wanna get to some more stuff im going to give my general consensus of this part of the  session you both were a match made in hell and i mean that in a good way so don't look like that you both love eachother so much it's ridiculous that you've broken up two times both over petty jealousy that could've been resolved in one simple conversation i can tell that jess you have abandonment issues that stems from not really having a stable relationship with you parents and keigo because you don’t have much of a family the family you’ve created you hold over everything else especially Jess also you two don’t really have a life outside of each other because keigo you went MIA for 3 weeks and the only person concerned was hizashi and it still took him 3 weeks to make his way to you go out make some friends that’s also not friends with Jess like some actual friends that you bond with over something that’s not sex please and keep up the good work I know you said your not doing your usual stay at eachothers houses for the week thing any more how’s that working being back together and not constantly together” 

“It’s fucking suuuckkss” I say “yes I know we said we would wait till after month two but only seeing eachother on our off days makes me wanna just take the next month off from working” Jess says “why does it suck so much keigo” “because I get home from a long day of hearing people trying to buy my company or pitching something that has nothing to do with us and I come home usually to Jess being there now empty house and it doesn’t help that when we do get to spend time with each other we have to leave at the end of the day I hate it so much” I explain “we spent every waking hour together from the first time I came over to his home to the day everything went down and now I gotta see this pretty face through a phone everyday” she say grabbing my face and looking at me while squeezing my cheeks “plus and I hate to bring up sex again but yeah that fucking sucks too” “I never said anything about not having sex I just said spend time alone” she says “yeah it was my kink parents idea” she says finially letting my face go “shota and nemuri correct” “yup shota put us a sex punishment in his words the same day we had the intervention” “why” “because after the first break up I came back on our anniversary and we met at hizashi radio station he put us in a soundproof room so she could yell at me all she wanted and no one would call the police and after we talked we kinda-“ “had sex” she says cutting me off “well yes” “twice that day” Jess adds “so before you went back down that road he stopped you” “yup they told us to wait till it felt like the right time ” “and I’m guessing it hasn’t felt like the right time yet” 

“Nope everytime we get cockblocked or change our minds right when we’re about to do it” I say “how many times have you tried” we look at eachother and really think “I wanna say at least 10 to 15 different times” Jess say “in the past month you’ve tried to have sex 10 to 15 different times when was the last time you tried” “this morning but we would’ve been late if we actually went through with it” I say “so give me the rundown why can’t you go through with it I sense that if you would’ve been coming to see me 3 months ago it would’ve happened this morning never mind being late” 

“Ok so we always think it’s time but then he on top of me or vice versa and we’re kissing clothes coming off and the minute we’re halfway naked nope can’t do it” “this morning we had the bright idea to just try in the shower we’re already you know so maybe but nope” “are you still sexually attracted to each other” “1000% yes”Jess says “how could I not” “ok then when was the last time either of you had sex with hizashi” we both sit back on the couch looking away from her “so you can get the job done with him but solo it’s a no go” “trust me we tired with him watching joining and still nothing” I say “he’s been our buffer since we can’t seem to have sex with each other we can at least watch the other and get the job done” Jess says “now that works like a charm every time” I add “this is odd you both have high sex drives and are still sexually attracted to each but you can’t do it is it because shota put the notation that when it felt right it would happen now your both just waiting for that moment” “yeah I think so”I say “so can I recommend something that could maybe help” “yeah”  “ok try since this is the way we’re describing it try getting the job done in front of each other” “yeah tried that” Jess says “ok how about switching roles your her submissive you be the dominant one you be submissive” “we’ve done that before but we haven’t tried since we got back together” 

“because somebody broke their collar” “I was mad I thought you recycled my pet name and I didn’t like that” “what pet name” “princess” i say “by the way Jessica body language changed slightly when you said it you haven’t said it in a while” “no not since we talked everything out I’ve just been Jess and the occasion baby” “why you stop using the name” “I don’t know honestly the only thing i use to call her was princess but I barely say it now” “ok you can stop saying it now” “you seem to get a little giddy when he calls you princess” “yeah it was my first pet name other than baby or love and it’s special to me” “hizashi will love and baby the hell out of us” “did you give keigo a special pet name” “other than keibaby nah” “which I love when she says it when she wants something ” “which is pretty often”

 “I’m sorry but you were ready to throw all this away for someone just being evil” she says looking at us “I really wasn’t ready to do anything really but I was hurt and what she said seemed so real for some reason I believed her over everything I know in my heart like I know he wouldn’t do any of those things to me but she was so damn convincing I automatically ran with it” “she’s great at that she convinced me that I deserved everything she did to me which I can now say I didn’t so I get why you believed her and I don’t blame nobody but her” “after the 3rd day I was ready to run back and say sorry but I couldn’t because it was a lasting effect and I was scared to see you I put on a front that I didn’t wanna see or know how you were but every time you would call hizashi when we were together I listen in hard to just hear if you were ok sometimes I would watch the video of us where we just pushed play on the laptop camera and did random shit for an hour because we were bored I missed the fuck out of you kei” she says looking at me with tears in her eyes “stop crying princess it’s ok I don’t fault you for it” I say wiping her face and pulling her closer “I never stopped loving you because of this and I never will” I add “goddamn your good at your job and I want you to know that” Jess says wiping her face “I’ve heard the same about you I was surprised to hear from Jenny about you” “yeah she said she wasn’t going take us on together so I asked for her best recommendation and she recommended you goddamn your good” “thank you and your both great patients your the first couple I’ve had in a while that didn’t just argue the whole time I can see the love you two have for eachother so if sex happens it’s happens don’t rush it and I know you miss being around the other but give it the time you two need to fully heal from this and go take this hizashi out to dinner or something because I know it has to be a lot dealing with you two go tell him you love him and thank you and I’ll see you two next week same time” she says closing the book she’s been writing in “ok thank you” we say before we leave 

“Heyy zashi” jess says when he answers the phone “hey I’m guessing therapy went well today” “yeah went great actually she makes me love my job more anyways your not busy right now are you” “uhh not really why” “she also made us realize how much you do for us and told us to take care of you for once so we’re taking you out for a late lunch” “ok where” “we’ll we’re like 10 minutes away from you so you don’t have to drive” “ok let me know when you’re outside” he says before they hang up 

When we get there we text him and he comes out shortly but with his new sub he says something to him “I know that look” “don’t we all that the I just got praise look and that’s not something that happens often ” I say looking at them “hello my loves” he says getting in the car “was that-“ I say “yes that was I thought we agreed on not talking about this”he says cuting me off “I know I know just never seen him before” I say making my way to the restaurant “so how was your day baby” jess says “good got everything set up for tonight’s show how about you I didn’t get to talk to either of you yesterday”  “didn’t do much yesterday after work other than doing some cleaning”Jess says “I didn’t do much either yesterday but wash clothes and put Jess clothes back up in the closet you ” “nothing after work yesterday went to after dark for a few hours and came home I was going to come over yesterday Jess but I knew y’all had therapy today so I didn’t” “still could’ve came over” 

“so how did I come up in therapy today”hizashi says looking at the menu “because we constantly bring you up and she wanted to know more about you and we realized you rejected us both” “I did indeed do that” “but why” I say “because at the time I still believed that asshole so I said no but aren’t I here now”he say referring to oboro “I mean yeah” “so why are you complaining I’m here now 99% yours” “99% why know what I’ll take it” Jess says  

“So have you tried again” “yeah this morning but still nothing” I say“ito recommended we switch roles so that’ll be our next attempt” Jess says “I mean that could work but I still say don’t rush it” “we’re not we’re just going to stop trying at the this point” “yeah at least till we can be with each other fully again” “I don’t know why y’all are in such a rush last time you we’re on your sex break it was 3 months and y’all did good with that” “yeah but it’s been 4 almost 5 months since I’ve had sex with my own boyfriend it’s getting outta hand at this point” Jess say “I really wish I had as high of a sex drive as you because god how” “how what I went 24 years without having actually good sex and now I want it all the time is that a problem“ “yes when your using me as the stand in” “well your in for a treat we’re just going to not have sex altogether” I say “yeah so you don’t have to stand in anymore because we’re just not having sex” Jess adds “yeah that I don’t believe but ok”

“So your going to stay here all night with me because you don’t wanna go home” hizashi say as we enter the studio “yup when you’re show is over the sun is up so we don’t have to go home and he has to leave me” Jess says “ok whatever your staying here kit is in the closet”

“I’m sorry is this a dog bed in your closet when did you have a dog-wait ew zashi pet play really”Jess says “yeah real nice coming from some dating somebody with the same kink” “ok you didn’t have to out me too” “oh my god kitten came from that omg wow I thought I knew y’all good grief”Jess says getting the staying with zashi duffel bag “you wouldn’t be saying that if you saw your pretty baby with a tail plug and blonde cat ears” he say winking at me “zashiiii” I say sitting on the couch “what I’m just saying” he say putting on his headphones meaning he can’t hear shit from us any more 

“You’re really into that”Jess ask covering herself in a blanket “I mean yes” “and you put no on your kink list for it” “actually I put maybe” “so are you still into it” “yes but you seem to not so don’t worry about it”I say “but like if your into it I can make it happen” “let’s actually have sex first before we start talking about new shit to add to our kink list and why the hell are you so far come here” “only if start calling me princess full time again” “ok princess bring ya ass here” she makes her way to between my legs making herself comfortable 

Why of all times I get horny it’s right now “don’t feel bad I’m having the same issues over here” Jess say scrolling through her feed “this sucks so bad” “absolutely…how about we try one more time before we just give up”Jess says “tomorrow one last try and we take it slow not rushing anything” I add “ my house or yours” “ yours that’s where it technically started”I say “your right we’re going to treat this how we did the first time we had normal sex” “I knew y’all wouldn’t last that long” hizashi say taking his headphones off and leaving the studio 

After a 5 hour radio show we surprisingly stayed up for we made our way back to Jess house after leaving the studio and slept in  

“Alright slow we can do slow right” she says in between kisses “mhm”I say laying her down on the bed “are you sure what if we can never have sex again and it’s my fault” she says breaking the kiss again “you keep talking it will be your fault ” “ok ok I’ll stop come back” I start with just our shirts work our way into things 

I start to kiss down her neck leaving bites and marks on her collarbone and 

shoulders then making eye contact with her while kissing down her body and back to pay some attention to one of the most sensitive places on Jess her nipples I lightly brush them with my thumbs before moving the thin lace out the way and licking and biting the left one while still teasing the other through the lace “fuck kei” she says back arching off the bed a bit I go over to the right one and does the same “please baby” she says “shhhh keep quiet” I say before having my free hand go down into her shorts and as expected she’s wet as hell 

Me fingering her made her do nothing but become more impatient for me to fuck her “fuck baby please I can’t hold out any longer I wanna cum with you in me” she says so desperately “and you will princess just not yet ok cum when you want ok” I say knowing she’s close “fuckfuckfuckfuuuucccckkk” she practically screams as she cums “good girl princess” I say pulling my fingers out “open princess” she opens her mouth taking both fingers in her mouth and licking and sucking them clean I take my fingers out 

“Cum for me one more time then I’ll fuck you ok” I say going down on her “fuck ok” she says accepting her fate after what feels like 10 minutes of me straight just eating her out she cums again “your going to fuck me now right daddy i did what asked” she says looking at me get off the bed “yes princess you did everything I asked you get what you want now sweetheart” I say taking my pants and boxers off and getting back in the bed 

“ok hey look at me” I say making her make eye contact because she’s looking between us “keep your eyes on me up here ok” she nods and keep her eyes on me while I push into her “fuck” I say when I bottom out 

I start slow long strokes and progressively faster as time goes past and fuck did I miss this “please” “what princess” she grabs my hand and put it on her neck I sit up to have better balance and start to choke her and she lets out the brightest smile I’ve seen in a while “crazy ass” I say leaning down to kiss her 

My grip around her neck gets a little tighter and her eyes roll back into her head “fuck please please daddy don’t stop fuck” “wouldn’t dream of it” 

The tale tell sign that she’s about to cum happens and we cum together but fuck it’s been almost 5 months that did not stop us we got some sex to catch up on 

“Fuck mistress that feels so fucking good” I say as she fucking rails me its just as fucking good as i remember “you missed mistress making you feel this good dont you baby” “fuck yes goddamn” i say before turning my head into the pillow “no absolutely not no holding back on any precious noise baby i wanna hear them all”she says pulling me by my hair and turning my head so it wasnt in the pillow she stops and now were in missionary “missed seeing your pretty face” she says going and leaving marks and bites all over my neck “fuck mistress dont stop please dont stop” i say feeling like i was about to cum “you wanna cum dont you” “yes yes yes please mistress please” “such a good boy kei go ahead” “ thank you mistress” 

I wake up to hearing loud music from a distance i get up and the moment i open the door i make out that its the beginning of skate by slik sonic i head down stairs and the see kei cooking “hey somebodies in a good mood today”i say seeing him dancing to the beat “i n a room full of dimes,You would be a hundred dollars,If bein' fine was a crime

Girl, they'd lock your lil' fine ass up in a tower,The way you move like you do,Ooh, it's like you do it for a livin',Do a lil' spin, do it again

Shit, look like you playin' for the win, oh, baby” he sings with the bottom of the spatula dancing towards me and i can't help but smile and laugh at him “hey princess” he says kissing me “hello to you too” i say before sitting at the island “how'd you sleep” he says turing the music down “great actually best sleep i've had in a while” “i bet” “well im cooking obviously and zashi on his way over because i made entirely too much for the both of us” “well i'm glad you cooked too much” “hizashi say walking in the kitchen “everyday i forget that i gave you a key” i say because he just scared the hell out of me “anyways by the way you both look like yall have been attacked the last attempt worked”hizashi says sitting next to me “yup it worked 6 times actually” kiego say going to the refrigerator

“So after you made the declaration “were not having sex till we can be around each other full time again” the next day you had sex” dr.ito says “yes we wanted to try one last time” jess says “and not rush into it take our time and see if it happens”i say  “and it happened”jess says “6 times”i add “that day or since that day” she say “oh that day were back in the full swing of things now just had to break the ice i guess” jess says “well i told you it would take some time what did you change from what you were doing the first time” “i took over for the first half anyway” “explain” “jess before would be the ringleader of when we would try but then everything would happen to fast so when i took over i gave us time to get back in the routine slowly” “extremely slow” “so you dont actively practice foreplay” “most times no but i had to make sure she was ready more than i was and she was nervous that it  wasn't going to work and kept talking but once i got her to relax and calm down she submitted and let me take over completely” “ok when you talk to me like that and call me princess and sweetheart i had no choice at that point” “so you changed your tone of voice when trying to get her to submit” “yeah it's a trick i learned from hizashi he uses a different tone of voice when he needs to gain control then when he's not so instead of saying hey look at me i say hey look at me ”  “it shouldn't be that easy”jess says “but it is my love”i say 

“Well next week will make it 5 months since everything happened and 2 months since i told you to continue to not cohabitate so are you ready to be around eachother 24/7 again” “oh yes definity if we kept the schedule that we had before it would be my week next week so i've been prepping for her return” “by doing what” “i put all of her stuff back in the closet and bought all her skin and body care stuff new because hizashi took all of it with him and gave it back to her i'm guessing” “he did not give me that stuff but i'll deal with that later” “jess have you made any of these types of preparations for when he comes back” “nope i haven't because yes i did take all of his stuff out of my room but when i got super sad one day i just put all your stuff up in the kink room so i just have to move it back” “why the kink from it's a whole guess room” “because touya and ten sometimes stayed all night and i didnt want it in there and who but me goes in the kink room nobody” “so my clothes are in the same place lube is stored greatttt” i say thinking about the clothes that are at her house “there's two closest in there it's in there with my mistress clothes” 

“You referee to ‘mistress jess’ as if she's not yourself why” “because she's not me i treat it as more of an alter ego type of thing believe it or not the only time i'm dominate in my life is when the mistress jess persona is on” “so mistress jess is the badass version of yourself that you created” “yup with the help nemuri i was able to create the badass i've always wanted to be” “but you can't forget Dr.Jessica Carter that's an entirely different person” i say “what does that mean” “oh thats right you've only met jess but in a professional setting im completely different from the way i dress talk and act i'm the child my mothers always wanted  and jess is the alternative rebel child who wears clothes that my mother hates and mistress jess the dominating powerful sexy person i created” “i don't think it can be that drastic of a difference” “you wont believe it till you see it so” jess saying taking out her phone “ok here's me a few days ago at work” she says showing her a picture she took before she left out for work “ok” dr.ito says looking at the picture “and here's what i look like during a regular day” she says showing a typical short skirt fishnets docs spiked and chained jewelry “ok im seeing a difference” “and here's a picture of me keigo and hizashi on our way to an event to the dungeon we used to work at” she shows a picture of when we were on our first sex break she had on a black latex jumpsuit red corset and black thigh high latex ish heels “ok i get it and is that much latex not uncomfortable to you” “nah it's not anymore but at first it was hell” she says putting her phone in her lap 

“I know you said you both said you put all of this behind you but have you truly because I would hate for you to be around eachother 24/7 and something happens and it comes back up” “I personally am over it honestly I can admit that I was stubborn and irrational when it came down to the situation but I can’t hold her assholeness on kei and plus I know the background of them now and I know that he’s not the person she said he is so I’m ready” “I’m ready I’ve been ready for this day” “has the thought of just living together ever cross your mind” “yeah but I just bought my house not even 3 years ago” “and the same with my condo” “I live closer to my job” “and the same with me” 

“So when you stay at the others house you have to travel farther for work” “yeah it’s a 40 minute drive to and from work” I say “yeah from his house it’s about 30 minutes to an hour depending on downtown traffic” “but at the expense of being together it’s ok” “yup we just leave out earlier” “so if you didn’t just move in to your homes not that long ago would you move in together” “no” we both say “what why not” 

“We like having our own space” “and there’s no halfway point where we could live and the commute is easy for either of us” “maybe in another 2 years or so but nah not now” “that's odd i would have thought that was like priority number 9 with you two” “we thought about it and even looked in to it but everytime we really sat down and thought about it it never really interested us we've lived together full time before so that's not the problem we just don't see it in the cards for us right now” jess says “hmm ok” 

Chapter 25: Extra #5

Notes:

Hello loves ✨this is a double feature

This is a keigo centered extra so enjoy some college age keigo

One day while just being the horny teen that i am i downloaded this app that was for people to find sugar parents it was a joke at first but after a particular encounter the tone changed

“Keigo you still have that creepy app on your phone”kenny asks me “yeah just never deleted it” i say turning away from my desk and looking at him on my bed “well some old dude just texted you” he says throwing my phone to me and getting off the bed “i got practice dude so i'll see later” he says walking out my door i take look at the message and it's from someone named charlie

I open his profile first and read the bio it says

“Hello there im 40 single with no kids and money to spend”

From his pictures he's looks tall he has a darker skin complexion he's starting to gray abit but nothing too crazy he was a good looking guy i have to admit it

Charlie :hello Keigo you're very handsome and i would love to spoil you rotten

Keigo: hey charlie your not to bad yourself

Charlie: thank you so we both know what the point of this app is and ive been REALLY picky about my selection

Keigo: and you chose me im flattered

 

Charlie: you should be

So this isn't really first rodeo with this i have a system to this

I want to ACTUALLY see the person im sending my money too an with modern technology we can do that without leaving the house if it's ok with you i want to do a video call just the two of us and then i send over some money to you then we'll go from there

Keigo: yeah thats ok with me just let me know when im pretty much free everyday after 4

Charlie: ok how about tomorrow 4:30

Keigo: perfect see you then

I don't know why i'm nervous to talk to this man he seems nice enough he texted me this morning and throughout the day so i shouldn't be nervous but when the ringing noise from my laptop starts i nearly jump out of my skin i take a deep breath then answer it

It takes a few to load but then i'm presented with his smiling face “oh you just get prettier and prettier don't you” he says looking at me “oh well thank you” “how was your day today” “pretty good had my business class today and i'm officially running out of professional clothing for that class and-” “i can fix that problem for you but sorry for interrupting” he says sitting back in his chair “um its ok but um me and my roommate are going to this party her department is throwing later” “what department is she in” “she's in the psychology department” “hmm and you i'm guessing the business department” “yup i am” “hmm you must be a smart one” “i've heard that a few time in my life” we share a laugh and i relax a little “anyway how was your day” i say “good got some things i've been putting off for awhile done today so that's always a good thing” “yeah it is a good thing” just then jess knocks on my door once so i know that means she's home “one second” i say getting up and go into the lounge area and she was sitting at the table “hey love i heard you talking so i didn't come in” she says looking up at me from her phone “yeah hey quick question what time is the party thing” i say walking to her “ ughhhhhh let me seee its at 5:30 so we have to leave at 5:20 i'm driving i don't feel like walking anymore today” “ok let me know when your ready” she gives me a thumbs up and i went back in my room “ok im sorry im back” i say sitting back in my chair “no problem you seem close” “yeah we are we kinda clicked as soon as we met” “so i'm not gonna take up no more of your time i heard she said you were leaving soon so send me your dress clothes sizes and an address your comfortable sending me and your venmo name and ill text you later ok” he says sitting up to the camera “ok yeah i can do that” “ok talk to you later” “ok” we end the call and i halfway thinks hes bullshitiing me but after i send me sizes and venmo he sent me $500 i thanked him profusely for it

After the rather boring psych department party “hey jess you still have that PO box” i ask getting back in the car “yeah you need it for something” “yeah im getting something soon that i dont want to come through the school” i say putting on my seatbelt “kei is it drugs” jess says looking at frozen putting on her seatbelt”no no god no who has drugs sent through the mail jesus ok so i met this person and they wanna send me something and i dont want them to have our address yet so the PO box is the safest bet” i explain to her without giving to many details “ok yeah ill give you the address when we get back”

For the rest of the week other than the normal “good morning” “how's your day” “do you need anything” “good night” nothing outrageous but today he sent me a delivery confirmation email saying i should check the PO box and to drive because it should be a pretty big box or multiple boxes “jess you got some free time right now” i say knocking on her open door “yeah wassup” “you feel like taking me to the PO box” “yeah come on i got some stuff coming today ”

When we get there jess opens the box and it's a slip that says “come to counter” so we do just that and when they come around the corner with 5 huge boxes two for jess 3 for me we get them in the car and it was alot of work they were heavy as hell taking 3 trips up and downstairs we flop on the couch “what the hell did you get” jess says catching her breath “clothes i think i dont they didnt say what they were sending what did you get” i say doing the same “i dont know they just told us its to start our personal kink kit” we open the boxes i had two boxes filled with clothes and one with shoes and jess had a box of clothes that personally seems like a texture nightmare and a bunch of kinky shit “you know what this means right” she says looking at me “of course i know what this means” “ok since you have more to go through lets do you first “ “ok”

One major thing me and jess share is that we have a serious love for clothes like my first clothing package here she made me try on everything and vice versa “oh all of this is like professional wear” she says going through the box with mostly pants in them “yeah i needed more i gotta wear this 4 times out of the week and i've mixed and matched as much as i possible can” we get everything out the plastic and lay them out “ok so try this shirt with these pants” jess says handing me the clothes i go and change and the pants fit like they were tailored to fit me this well and so was the shirt not to tight but not to big just perfect i look at myself in the outfit and decide to take some pictures to send him later “ok you ready” i say peaking my head out the door“yes yes yes” i walk out and do a few poses as she eggs me on “your ass looks great in those dude” “i know right anyways all of the clothes i got are pretty much same thing different color so go your turn” i say trying not to put all of these different same outfits

She runs in her room excited while waiting i decide to text charlie

To Charlie:
hey thanks for this it was more than i expected i really appreciated

From Charlie:
oh no problem is everything fitting properly

To Charlie:
yes everything fits great thank you again for this

From Charlie:
That's good to hear

Hey i would love to meet you in person if thats ok with you ofcourse

To Charlie:
Ummm im pretty busy this week maybe sometime after that

From Charlie:
Ok let me know when your free i’ll set everything even send a car to come pick you up

To Charlie:
oh how fancy im looking forward to it

After a long week of classes i'm really looking forward to seeing Charlie we set the day for Saturday and I’m glad it’s one of the weekends Jess is spending with her friend because I don’t want to have to explain where I’m going tonight

From Charlie
Hey love the car should be there in 5 minutes
To Charlie
Ok I’ll be outside waiting

I lock up and make my way down and internally hating the fact that we live on the 5th floor and the elevator is taking too long so I take the stairs and when I get downstairs the car that he said he was sending is there

The drive is quiet and this place is kinda far from campus but when we arrive I immediately feel out of place it’s a super fancy place like my broke ass couldn’t afford to even work here

“Um hello I’m meeting someone here”I say to the hostess “keigo correct” “um yes” “this way” they say leading me to the table and when I see him he looking away but goddamn he looks better in person “oh hello keigo” he says when I reach the table “hey” I say sitting down “you look nice tonight” he says before taking a sip of wine “thank you so do you” “how was the drive” “oh it was good thanks for that again” “it’s no problem at all”

The “date” is going well we seem to be able to keep conversation “so your from America” i say “yes for the first 16 years of my life but been here ever since” “that cool my roommate lived there for awhile” “your close” “yeah she’s one of the closest people to me” “you ever thought about dating her” he says with a small smile on his face “nahh she’s not the type to date and we’ll I’m not really into girls” “hm that’s new information” he says in a flirty tone “oh is it really”I say in the same tone “your tempting me keigo” “am I didn’t know I was doing that” “you know what you’re doing and your doing it well but I’m not falling for it” “ughh ok ok I’ll stop” I say laughing a little “you can be good and wait a few months ” “yeah yeah you won’t ✨ until I’m 20 I know but you better make it worth the wait” I say leaning on the table “oh that’s something I can always promise” he says doing the same “well December 28th can’t get here any faster” I say leaning back in my seat

“The check sir” the waiter says placing it on the table Charlie picks up the check places his card in the lather book and hands it back to him “I know you won’t tell me but how much was it” “it shouldn’t matter but ¥79,369” he says so casually “good grief” “get used to it keigo you free tomorrow” “yeah” “ok I’ll be picking you up tomorrow around 12” he says signing the receipt “ok hey is it cool if I stay with you tonight or is that against your system” “it is yes but give me 3 good reason and maybe I can bend the rules” “ok 1 you won’t have to go through the trouble of coming all the way to shibuya to come get me 2 we can spend more time together 3 look at me you can’t say no to this face” “your right I can’t but your in the guest room” he says standing up “I’ll take it”

We get in his car and the drive feels just as long as it took to get here his hand has been resting on my thigh the whole ride and at one stoplight his hand moves up and is now on my dick and I don’t know if he’s doing this on purpose or what “for somebody who accused me of tempting you you sure are doing the same” I say looking over at him he doesn’t say anything just smiles and continues to drive

After what feels like forever we pull into this beautiful house he parks in front of the house and we get out when we go in it’s beautifully decorated “man your house is beautiful” I say looking around “thank you” he takes me on a tour of the house and we make it to his room “I don’t think I’ve ever seen a bed this big” “it’s a California king you wanna lay on don’t you” he says smiling at me “yeah kinda” “go ahead”

I don’t lay on it fully I sit on the bed then lay back “man this bed is comfortable” “it better be all the money I paid for it” he says laying next to me “your really pretty keigo” “stop you're gonna make me blush” “come here” he says patting his lap

I straddle him“yes” I say looking down at him “remind me again how many months do I have to wait again” he says hands on my hips”uhh let’s see it’s October now and my birthday is in December and I’ll be back home then so you’ll have to wait till January so 3 months you think you can hold out till then” “I’m going to have to but your going back to Toyoshina” “yeah for break I’m going back home” “so I already cant have sex with till January and I can’t see you on your birthday this isn’t fair” “stop being dramatic before I leave and when I get back I’m all yours” “everyday” “minus the sixth of next month roommates birthday” “anything else” ”oh and we’ll school altogether” “I’m not counting school you have to do that” “no other than if my best friend zashi comes down no nothing else” “ok then now get off me before I not keep my promise” he says laughing “ok show me where I’ll be sleeping tonight” I say standing up “next door come on”

After I get out the shower I see a text from Jess and hizashi

From Jess💛
where the hell are you and why are you so far
To Jess 💛
Family friend came into town I’m staying with them tonight
From Jess 💛
Oh ok

From Hizashi 🎙
Having fun with your sugar daddy
To Hizashi 🎙
Actually yes we had fun tonight he’s super nice and I’m staying with him tonight
From Hizashi 🎙
Don’t do anything stupid and if something goes wrong or your uncomfortable call me or send the number 4 and I’ll be on my way
To Hizashi 🎙
Yes Sir I will
From Hizashi 🎙
I’m serious
To Hizashi 🎙
I know zashi my location is on and if I need help or anything I’ll call or text the number 4 I promise
From Hizashi 🎙
Ok love ya I’m going to sleep
To Hizashi 🎙
Love ya more

When I push send there’s a knock on the door “yes” I say putting on the shorts he gave me “everything ok” “yeah I’m good” “ok well I’m about to go to sleep so if you want anything from downstairs feel free” “ok thanks” “good night” “yeah good night”

When I got up that morning I had to remember where I was the bed was something great i get up and go see if he’s up and his room door was open and he wasn’t in there so I continue downstairs and he’s sitting at his kitchen island on his laptop “good morning” I say walking in to the kitchen “oh hey good morning” he says looking back at me “how did sleep” he says as I sit on the bar stool next to him “great any bed that’s not a twin xl and don’t have my friend Kenny next to me is perfection” I say stretching “how is it possible for two people to fit in such a small bed” “it’s not but we make it work when he comes over” “you never talk about Kenny who is he” “I’m sensing some jealousy in the air Charlie” I say smiling “no no no just interested in who you share a bed with” he says shrugging laughing “yeah well if you must know me and Kenny are close friends that have sex from time to time” “hm ok” he says looking back at his computer “oh don’t be like that” I say putting my head on his shoulder “like what keigo” “like this I tell you I have sex with someone and you give me the cold shoulder” “not giving you the cold shoulder just” “just what” “just it’s weird to hear that you have sex with other people” “ok then we won’t talk about it deal” “ok deal” “ok now that’s over your kitchen looks like it’s literally never been used” “because it hasn’t other than to make coffee or tea I don’t use it” “your too old to eat out every day let me cook for you” “you can cook I don’t seem to believe that” “ok order whatever you want me to cook and I’ll cook it right here in front of you” “ok I will I’m looking forward to this” he says opening instacart

The order gets there and I take everything out of the bags and sees what I’m working with “katsudon” I say looking at the ingredients presented to me “yup favourite dish so I will be super critical” “you just gave me the easiest dish ever but ok one katsudon coming right up”

“Ok be ready to be wowed” I say sliding the bowl to him “I can say it plated beautifully and smells decent”he say looking at it “ok just eat it Gordon Ramsey and if you hate it you don’t have to sugar coat it but if you love it I think deserve a kiss at least” “deal” he takes his first bite and his eyes damn near met his brain “mhm that good huh” I say smiling “goddamn ok come here” he says wiping his mouth I make my way around the island and he grabs my face in one hand and kisses me“this is the best katsudon I’ve ever had keigo” he says pulling away “well thank you”

 

“So while in class this asshole takes credit for my answer like he knew it” Jess says I’m only half paying attention “that’s crazy” I say texting Charlie back “keigo I shot and killed my entire family” “really I’m so proud of you” “and I planted a bomb in the building planned to go off the next time you say a dumb ass answer that has nothing to do with what I’m saying” “yeah you’re right” “boom” she says before throwing a pillow at me “Jess what the hell” “I don’t know who your texting but it’s not that important that you're not listening to me” “shit your right I’m sorry” I say putting my phone down and then it dings again and I pick it up she snatches it out my hand and runs into her room and closes the door right before I catch her “come on Jess I’m sorry for ignoring you just give me my phone back”I say through the door “you sure can” she say opening the door and handing it back to me “what did you do” “nothing” she says sitting back on the couch I go to unlock my phone and it keeps saying I’m wrong” Jess what did you change it to” “you promise to stop ignoring me” she says holding out her pinky “yes pinky promise” I say locking pinkies “you know back home me and me friend kiss to solidify the deal but anyways it’s our birthday yours first”

It’s the day before I leave to go back home for break “so what’s your holiday plans” I say to him over the video chat while I finish packing “ugh work holiday party and my brothers having a new year’s party and I’ll probably stop by on Christmas as well but don’t know yet”he says doing something “hmm out of town or not” “nah they're not that not far” “hmm well when I’m home I’ll probably be with Kenny the whole time” “from the same area” “yeah and don’t get all weird this time” “I won’t I won’t just don’t think it’s fair that he gets to spend your birthday with you and I don’t” “awe baby don’t be like that when I get back I’m all yours literally” I say zipping up my suitcase “you’re right I will oh also how are you getting back home tomorrow” “train” “the train do you know how many different trains your going to have to get on” “yes I do it’s not the first time I’ve took the trip” “I’m driving you back home and don’t fight me on it” “baby no you already do enough I’m not letting you drive 3 hours to drop me off and have to turn back around” “I’ll find a hotel and stay the night and leave in the morning” “Charlie no”

“I can’t believe you're actually driving me home” I say looking out the window of the car “get over it keigo” “I won’t and just for this I’m making you wait longer to have sex with me” “that’s just unfair I’ve waited long enough” “nope I don’t think you have Charlie” “Charlie I haven’t been Charlie for months now I don’t like that” he says looking between me and the road

For some time in the trip I give him the silent treatment then around the hour mark he pulls over at a gas station “keigo can you look at me” he says looking at me “ok well since you won’t talk to me I’ll talk to you….I’m doing this because I don’t want you taking the train all the way here alone with all your stuff I just feel safer if I drop you off and I’m sorry if I’m overstepping by doing this” “I’m not going to get robbed on my way back home Charlie I get that I look like a fragile child to you but I’m not I can handle myself” “and I know that but I wanted to do this for you” “you already do a lot for me now I’m taking you out of your way making you come all the way out here” “your not making me do anything keigo I wanna do this ok so can you just not hate me for wanting to make sure you get back to your mother safe”he says putting his hand on my lap “I don’t hate you Charlie”I say putting my hand on top of his“you keep calling me Charlie I’m going to assume you hate me” “whatever can we get back on the road it’s already going to weird that I’m pulling up in a car if we’re late she’s going to come to the car” “yeah we don’t need that” he says putting the car into gear

The next 2 hours go by pretty quickly “hey stop right here really quick” I say “I’m not dropping you off this far away from your house” he says stopping “no no wanted to give you one last kiss and I’m not doing that in front of my house” “good call” we kiss and it’s no different from any other kiss he’s given me ever but it still feels unreal everytime “ughh I’m going to have to go back to eating out all the time again” he says breaking the kiss “yes your are for now when I get back I’ll cook whatever you want” “I’m holding you to that”

“Zashi I honestly like him ” I say to hizashi over the phone while cooking “like him your not serious” “I’m serious man I think I do” “you only like him because he’s giving you whatever you want by the way how are you going to explain to your mother all the expensive shit he’s bought you” “I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it zashi” “I still think this is bad idea and you only like him because he’s giving you money kiego if you need money I can always-“ “no absolutely not hizashi no damn I didn’t call you for that anyway so forget I ever said anything about it bye” I say before hanging up

I hear a knock on the door and when I open it its Kenny “great your cooking” he says walking in the door“yeah” “who rained on your parade” he says leaning on the wall“hizashi he just tried to offer me money” “why because of the whole sugar daddy situation” He says as I going back to cooking “yeah he doesn’t like him and I don’t wanna talk about it” “I mean honestly he isn’t getting anything from you but your time I’m getting more sugar than him” he says slapping my ass “stop it I’m cooking and if you dont stop now you won’t eat” “ugh ok I’ll wait but I’m definitely fucking you” “keep it up and you won’t” “you can’t resist all of this kei and we have a bigger bed yeah I’m fucking ya daylights out” “you better keep that promise”

“Fuck what time is your mother coming back”Kenny says as he takes my shirt off ”6” I say doing the same “pleanty of time” “fuck Ken stop” “what what’s wrong” “I left everything on campus I don’t have condoms nor lube and I’m not fucking without either” I say sitting on my bed “well thank god your kinky roommate gave me plenty before I left their downstairs in my bag I’ll be right back” he says kissing me and running down stairs and back up “thank god Jess exist” I say when he comes back with both

“Fuck Ken oh my god” I say as he fucks the life outta me “you like that don’t take it keigo” he says “yes fuck don’t stop fucking me god” “call on god all you want he can’t save you right now” he say pushing my head down into the bed “Fuck I’m cumming yes god Ken fuck” I say cumming “no I’m not done with you yet” he says flipping me on my back“didn’t think so”

I was riding the high of getting fucked so high I didn’t stop him when he left this big ass hicky on my neck and I try everything but nothing helps and of I really think my “yeah I cut it off with Kenny” lie is about to bite me in the ass “hey woah neck what’s wrong” Charlie says when he answers the phone “nothing you know I burise easy well I was helping my mom with some groceries and I hit my head and neck on the trunk but I’m ok” I say hoping he takes the lie “good grief are you icing it” “yeah it’s all good you don’t have to worry I promise” I say with a reassuring smile “anyways how was your drive back this morning” i say changing the subject“good lonely without you” “keep that attuide its going to be a long month for you” i say placing the phone on my bathroom mirror “you seen kenny since you been back” he says and i keep a regular attitude “yeah he came over yesterday and stayed over” “like overnight” “yes overnight” “so its not over between you two” “omg baby its not like that anymore i told you that already do you not trust me” you shouldnt trust me not on this because i know im not breaking up with him for you“i do sorry for insinuating something” he says with a heavy sigh “ok then yes were still friends and we spend a lot of time together but there's nothing to be worried about” “ok ok i'll stop bringing it up”

“So your lying to him saying your not still having sex with me”kenny says sitting on my bed”yeah he gets all sensitive about it and ill just rather lie than have him hate you”i say laying next to him “im cool with that as long as your ok with lying to him” he says laying back “yeah i am for you” “you make me feel so special keigo” “you stop fucking me this good and i will actually stop having sex with you” “you know that's impossible” “yeah if you ever need a recommendation letter i will happily give you a good review just stop leaving marks all on me thats a dead give away” “yeah yeah i'll keep them below the belt” “no asshole as a whole when i get back” “youll be 20 and your going to have sex with him i get keigo secure you bag unlike somebody else i will not name imma support you fucking a old man for money” he say cutting me off “he's not even that old” “there's a 20 year age difference he old keigo”

“Keigo sweetheart you have some packages” my mom says from downstairs “who from i don't remember ordering something” i say walking downstairs “doesn't say maybe it's from jess or hizashi it is your birthday” she say handing them to me i go in the living room and open the first one its a ring well thumb ring that looks like it was a set but the other is missing and its engraved with the day me and zashi met and the note read ‘even though we haven't talk in 2 weeks i still love you and care about you a lot happy birthday keigo ps i have the other ~hizashi’ when i finish reading it i feel like crying so to stop from crying i open the next one the next one the note is on the top ‘kei my bestie my roomie i love you so much happy birthday ~jess<3’ i open the first gift in the box and its fucking rolex with a note in the box ‘im getting tired of seeing that watch you wear all the time so hears a new one’ i go to open the next box and it’s a bunch of sex related things ‘yes there is a room sepreating us but you are very loud so be safe’ i laugh and close the box and the last box can only be from charlie i open the wrapping paper and its a pair of KT initial cufflinks with no note but i know it was him “what did you get” my mom says joining me on the couch “oh ugh hizashi sent me this thumb ring and the cufflinks and jess got me a watch”i say showing her “thats more than a watch baby thats an expensive watch how can she afford this” she says looking at the watch “rich family” i simply say “hizashi too right they must really love you” she says laughing “they do” laughing with her “you and kenny going out later right” “yeah he should be here soon actually”i say looking at the time “hmm ok well go get ready i'll send him up when gets here”my mother says getting up “yeah ok” i say getting my gifts and going upstairs

To :Hizashi 🎙
Hey your gift came in thank you sorry for me being an asshole about everything i don't like not speaking to you zashi
From :Hizashi 🎙
Your welcome my love it was my fault i just have to get used to him being apart of your life im not going to make you feel bad for your decisions so im sorry
To :Hizashi 🎙
Your just looking out for me i know its out of love
From :Hizashi 🎙
Yeah it is i love you keigo
To: Hizashi 🎙
I love you too hizashi

To: Jess💛
Ma'am you did not have to spend so much damn money on a watch for me
From: Jess💛
Oh yes i did the watch you wear makes me itch so i had to replace it
To: Jess💛
Well thank you and are we really that loud
From: Jess💛
Your welcome and yes i can only hope i can find somebody that makes me moan that damn loud but because of how often it happens i sometimes can't sleep without it its like white noise got a whole paper done with just you screaming “KENNNY”😂 so keep up the good work in there
To: Jess💛
Jess i love you so much but i also hate you and i want you to know that
From: Jess💛
Hey i'm just saying it’s calming to hear i hope your not keeping you mom up though
To: Jess💛
Ew no we only do it when she's gone

To: Charlie
Hey baby the cufflinks came in thank you
From: charlie
No problem
What's the plan for today
To: charlie
Nothing special just going out with some friends
From: charlie
Ok have fun and happy birthday again

“Why are you not ready yet” kenny says walking in my room “because i had to thank the 3 rich people in my life for my gifts i already showered all that jazz just gotta put on my clothes” i say getting up “did he get you this watch” “no jess did she said mines makes her itch so she had to replace it” “well shit what was in here” he say looking at the ring box”zashi got me this thumb ring” “cute and i'm guessing charlie” he says holding up the cufflinks “yeah” “well my gift isnt as spectacular as theirs but happy birthday” he say pulling me back on the bed and handing me a wrapped something“stop it” i say unwrapping it “kenny dude this is fucking cute as hell” i say opening the scrapbook and seeing pictures of us through the ages 10 to 20 “you like it” he says resting his chin on shoulder “yes i do thank you” i say turing to him “i'm ok being your secret you know that”he says wrapping his hands around my waist “you deserve better than that ken” “yeah whatever hes giving something i cant so if i gotta be the secret from the secret i'm ok with it just dont let him take you from me” “nahh he could never replace you kenny” he kisses me and that ends up with me on top of him “were going miss the movie kei come on finish getting ready” he says pulling back “ugh ok i can never just fuck my boyfriend”i say getting up “nope not with your mother downstairs” he say sitting up “also that was the first time you called me your boyfriend in a hot ass minute i almost forgot” he say “didn't know i had to say it for you to remember” i say putting on a hoodie “just like to hear it every now and then the old man gets baby and i just get kenny” he says with a sigh “ok stop being dramatic ken we've been together what 2 years now and ive known you since we were 10 and i've never called you anything above ken or kenny and now its a problem” i say sitting in his lap “no not a problem at all” and just then i get a venmo notification “well how about we go spend my birthday money he just sent me will that make this whole situation go away”i say showing him the amount “oh yes definitely perks of having a hot boyfriend with a sugar daddy oh and i need to hear you say you love me” he says kissing me “ok i love you kenny” “feels good to hear i love you too”

“He's calling you now god clingy much” kenny says sitting on the couch “shut up”i say sitting on the other side of the couch “hey” he says when i answer the phone “hey baby”i say smiling at him “did you enjoy your day out” “yeah we went to the movies and did a little shopping and got food” “sounds fun you're alone tonight” he says “not exactly” i say looking over at kenny “ah got it well i'll call you tomorrow” “yeah ok” i say hanging up “damn he hates me that much” “yeah your getting something he's not”i say going back to lay with him “he's getting it soon he’ll be alright” “yeah i hope it's not terrible because i'm not good at faking it” “you did with that girl on prom night “yeah but that was different i had on a condom if you havent noticed im a bottom i'm not the one with the condom” “oh im aware of that baby but if he cant make you cum just think of me” “no i'm associating you with bad sex”

It's the day its been planned since like the third time me and charlie met up that today would be the day we have sex for the first time im nervous for so many reasons but im just going to have to get over it

“Ok go have sex with an old man ill be here when you get back” kenny says kissing me before i leave “ok i love you”i say walking out the front door and there charile is waiting for me right out front “god you just get prettier with age don't you”he says when i get in the car “ive aged one year since you last seen me stop” i say putting my seatbelt on we drive to his house and when we get there my mind is teeling me to hurry up and get this over with because the longer i wait the more im gonna wanna back out

Its slow and i don't do well with slow especially when i'm in a freak out mood hes taking to long to get this started i get that forepaly is important but god can we speed it up “baby please its been 3 months since the last time i had sex waiting for you so please can we speed this up by alot” am lying yes its been less than 48 hours since the last time i had sex but thats not the point “ok ok in such a rush arent you” “yes daddy please i cant wait any longer i want you now” i say rolling us over so im on top and taking control “well you want me so bad take me then”

and when i say this it's not an exaggeration not one bit he fucked me like there was no tommorow literally i was supposed to come back home last night but we didnt stop till this morning now im half sleep walking in to my econ class “long night”Tsunagu says when i sit next to him “yes yes it was” i say putting my head on the table “wake me up when it's over” i say before falling asleep “so you disappear all night and sleeping through classes keigo takami what am i going to do with you” i hear kenny say i open my eyes and see him smiling at me “Tsunagu i asked you to wake me up not to go get him” i say sitting up and stretching “don’t get on his case you wouldn’t get up” Kenny says hitting my arm “mhm skip the rest of your classes and come sleep with me” I say standing “no can’t today ill walk you back and I’ll be back later” “worst boyfriend ever”I say walking out the class“stop telling lies”

When we get back Jess is walking out the room “you look terrible Kenny did you keep him up all night” Jess says looking at me “something like that” he says laughing “I’ll tell the professor your sick or something stay with him” “ Jess if I miss another class I’m going to fail the class” “fine I’ll stay then go tell him I’m sick or something” she says walking back in the room with me “wanna sleep in my room or yours” I point to hers “ok”

After a great nap with Jess I wake up just in time to make it to my last class “ugh why are business classes never cancelled” I say buttoning my shirt I make my way there and sit through the long and antagonising class and when I make my way back to the dorm I see Kenny standing out front and when I get closer I see Charlie “fuck” I say before getting closers to them “yeah he was sleeping in his Econ class this morning and I’m guessing your the reason” Kenny says looking rather upset “heyy Ken Charlie what’s going on” “nothing just friendly conversation” Kenny say “yeah I’m here to take you out like i said I was” “ah yeah I forgot Kenny can you take my bag in my room for me” “yeah I will let me know when you get back” he says taking my book bag “I will”

“So he just has access to your room” he says pulling out of the parking lot “yes Jess is home so she can let him in” “mhm” “Charlie please don’t god you always say your over the whole Kenny thing and get upset every time you remember he exist goddamn I have a life outside of this you do know that I don’t have time to keep having to fight you about this” “I wouldn’t act like this if you just stop being around him constantly” “stop the car” “keigo im not” “no because you think you own me now that you got to fuck me and I’m not dealing with that stop the car” he stops the car and I walk back down the street to my dorm and he pulls off

“What happened” Kenny says looking at me walk in the door “he just really pissed me off ughhh fuck” I say pacing “ok talk to me” “I get in the car and he’s already bitching about you your my fucking boyfriend I’m not going to stop being around you for him fuck the money at this point I’m tired of this grown ass man acting like a child” “but one key fact here he doesn’t know that I’m your boyfriend” “well shit at this point he should fuck pick up on context clues why the fuck else would you always be with me I don’t even see zashi this much” “yeah you don’t but baby he’s going to be upset that I’m always around because he can’t be so of course he’s going to be pissed at my existence shit I would be too if I was in his place” “Kenny Kendall my love this is what he signed up for his bullshit system says nothing about me having to be monogamous with him just to tell him about other sex partner and when I did he can’t stop bringing you up I just wanna separate the two of you just get him to forget about me ever telling him about you” I say laying in his lap

From: Charlie
I’m sorry keigo it’s either you choose me or him you can’t have both
I can tell you care for him more then your telling me so it’s up to you

“What the fuck is wrong with this man” I say handing my phone to Kenny “just tell him we got in a big fight and we stopped talking go cry to him and it’s over boom separated” Kenny says after reading the message “but-“ “but nothing boy im not going nowhere so tell him the truth we’re dating but say we broke up and you chose him” “you’re not leaving me are you” I say looking at him “no keigo im not leaving you I promise just do it” he says handing me my phone back “ok get ready to see an academy winning performance” I say before calling him “keigo” “baby I’m so sorry I acted like that I’m a liar you didn’t deserve that I’m sorry” I say “crying” over the phone “what calm down what are you talking about” “ I never ended things with him and we just got into a big fight and he left me” “what you lied” “yes I’m sorry baby please I chose you baby you and only you” I look at Kenny and he’s fighting back laughter and I kick him “ok we can get through this ok wanna come stay with me tonight I’ll make sure your back in time for class” “ok” “ok I’m on my way” he says hanging up

It’s been almost 2 years since I told Charlie that me and Kenny “broke up” and that couldn’t be farther from the truth

“How long we got” “20 minutes” “fuck ok plenty of time” Kenny says sitting me up on the bathroom sink “fuck Kenny goddamn” “such a good little slut for me huh fuck” “yes fuck I’m your slut” “fuck that old man you belong to me and only me” “fuck yes I do shit don’t stop please don’t stop” I say feeling close to cumming he stops and changes positions “look at you taking me so well” he says making me look at us through the mirror “so pretty baby so so pretty” he says fucking the life out of me and my phone rings “fuck” I say knowing it’s him “hurry up” Ken says handing me my phone from the floor “hey” I say answering the phone on speaker “I’m outside” “ok give me like 5 minutes I just gotta turn in this assignment and I’ll be right there” “ok” I hang up and put the phone on the counter “he ruined it we’ll finish we you get back” Kenny say pulling out “ugh ok” I say getting dressed “don’t forget to tell him you can’t spend tomorrow with him” “I know baby I’m all yours tomorrow turning my phone off undivided attention to you” “ok go before I hold you hostage” “ok I love you” “yeah I love you too” he says walking into my room

It’s my graduation day and instead of a congratulations keigo text from Charlie I get

From Charlie
Hey keigo I know this is coming out of the blue but we have to stop this completely I’m getting married and I don’t wanna lead you on I’m sorry

“Well I guess that’s over” I say before standing to go walk across the stage

Notes:

Ok some answers to the chapter is going to be in the next so enjoy and thank you for reading

Chapter 26

“How are we doing this week ” ito says as we sit down and my phone rings “my apologies what does he want I’ll call him later” I say rejecting the call “who” Jess say “Charlie” I say putting the phone in my pocket “hm he must have felt that that we were about to talk about him I was going over some notes in a past session and you bought him but I wanna know more” ito says “ugh what do you wanna know” I say “when did the relationship start” “2 months into sophomore year of college” “wait but you were with Kenny then” Jess says “Kenny” “yeah my one and only long time boyfriend but yeah he knew about Charlie and didn’t care” “this is coming from someone whose in a relationship with Keigo Kenny was his literally his person” “he was your person but what happened” “he um was killed wrong place wrong time few weeks after graduation” “that had to be devastating” “yeah lost my childhood Best Friend and boyfriend at one time and the following week was our 6 year anniversary” I say remember details I forgot about

“We got into different graduate schools so she was gone Kenny was gone Charlie ended things on graduation hizashi was working like crazy so I was alone and then I met Jessie and I dove into that head first gave her everything so by the year mark nothing was good enough anymore and she changed and when she told me that I was deserving of the way she treated me because anyone that ever loved me left me and shit that’s what it felt like so I stayed 3 whole years till hizashi moved to Osaka and surprised me at school and helped me break up with her and get my life back together” “keigo you’ve truly been through a lot and I’m surprised you’re able to even be in a relationship at all” “yeah well those are the only two minus Jess”

“Kei don’t know if you know but your crying” Jess says wiping my eyes with her sleeve “I just haven’t talked about Kenny in forever and the other day my mother sent me a picture of the gift he got me for my 20th birthday” I say remembering some of the pictures in it “what was the gift” “a scrapbook of us from 10 to 20 it’s was cute as hell he put a lot of work into it that same year I got some pretty expensive gifts and that one was the best” I say smiling “have your mother send it to us” “I did I think she’s sending it either today or yesterday wanna see the picture of it” I say to ito “yes of course” she says “the front is a picture of us on his 20th birthday” I say looking at it before turning the phone “you look so happy keigo” she says smiling at the picture “I was fell in love with my best friend no offence baby” “none taken shit if Kenny was still here I would’ve never had a chance in hell he was your true soulmate” “he was” “do you still love him” “everyday Kenny was the type of person you could never replace and I never did I didn’t grieve properly I ran into another relationship and got hurt and after I focused on work and building my company and I’m successful and happy and I know he’s proud of me” “he damn sure is kei so fucking proud of you” Jess says grabbing my hand

“did Charlie know you were in a relationship” “not at all I told him we were just having sex at first then it got out of hand because Charlie would get jealous of Kenny so Ken came up with a plan so I could have both with no more jealousy so to Charlie he was my one and only … and I know you hear that and start judging me but I still needed the money and shit kenny was 100% ok with it so it worked out” I says “I’m not here to judge you keigo do you have a clue on why he was calling you today” she says with a small laugh “nah probably to just check on me he does that every now and then”

“Keigo just call the man back” Jess says handing me the phone “no what could he possibly want that he follows up a call with a I need favor call me back text no” “if you don’t I will” “ugh give me the damn phone” I says taking it

It rings twice and I hear a voice I haven’t heard in almost a year “hey kid how’s everything” “good everything’s good” “so you know I got married” “yes still have the student loans to prove it” “ok well we had a baby last year and we’re going out of town for the day for a no kids allowed wedding and your the only person I trust with the baby” “Charlie if anyone on this planet knows I don’t like kids it you and this is your favor” “yes keigo please” “yes we’ll do it he’ll send the address to where to drop off”Jess says taking the phone “Jess anyways thank you so much we’ll be back the next day” “no problem”

“Jessica why would you do that”I say looking at here crazy “because I love babies” “why their just a ball of stink and sticky” “no their not kei you know I want kids right” “I don’t think I signed up for that” “what you don’t want to have a mini us running around” she says like that’s a good thing “no not really” “you’ll change your mind sooner than later” “not on this no we don’t even plan on living in the same house anytime soon how are we going to raise a kid in two different houses” “Keigo Takami I’m the least traditional person in the world but you’re marrying me and we will be continuing the Takami bloodline” “so your taking my last name” “yeah well I’ll hyphenate it” “I’ll take it” “come on kei we gotta at least have one baby” “it’ll be my luck you end up with twins” “it’s just a part of the risk” “wait aren’t one of your parents a twin” “both actually” she says with a smile “yeah no the Takami name dies with me”

It’s Friday night usually we would go to after dark after work maybe happy pleasures or whatever the fuck we have planned but nooooo we have to take care of a baby

Sitting on the couch watching tv I hear the doorbell go off and Jess runs to the door “hi hello it’s great to finally meet you Charlie where’s the baby” she says opening the door “in the car seat can we come in” he says as I walk out the living room “hey kid” “yo where’s Marie” “she’s getting the bags out the car”he say sitting the car set on the floor and Jess immediately squats in front it and pulls down the zipper “ohh hi baby what’s his name” Jess says taking the baby out “his name is Kendall ”Marie says walking in the house “you hated Kenny so much but named your baby after him” I say looking at the baby laying on Jess shoulder “keigo stop” Jess says “just saying” I say taking the bags from Marie “well we bought everything we could think of and back ups of everything so you should be good on that we made a few bottles already that need to refrigerate and he’s pretty much sleeping through the night but the baby monitor is in one of the bags he’ll probably be hungry inna few hours am I forgetting anything”Marie says looking at Charlie “no I don’t think so thanks again for doing this” “it’s no problem really we’re happy to watch this precious angel”

Watching Jess with Kendall is super heartwarming “where Kendall there he is” she says playing peekaboo with him and he’s just laughing and smiling “your cute” I say smiling at her “see you do like babies” she says looking back at me “I was talking to you not the baby” “why do you hate babies so much is it an only child thing or something” “no just don’t like them” “come on keigo look at this face and tell me you don’t just wanna kiss it” she says as he simultaneously throws up milk “giving that he just threw up no I don’t” “come on Kendall we’re supposed to convincing him to give me baby” Jess says wiping his face “I like the process of making a baby not the result” “keigo are you baby hating again” hizashi says walking in the house “yes he is this cute baby is here and he’s just being the grinch but with babies” Jess says letting the baby crawl around “babies love keigo for some reason but he just don’t like them back” hizashi says sitting on the floor next to jess

Kendall crawls to me and I pick him up off the floor “dada” he says looking at me “nooooooooo not at all” i says and he starts laughing “daddy” he says putting his hand on my face “dude I’m not your daddy but I used to call him that too” and me and the baby laugh “keigo” Jess and hizashi says reaching to take the baby back from me and he looks like he’s about to cry when Jess reaches for him and holds on to me “ohhh kay” Jess says backing up “ok I like this one” I say tapping his nose and he laughs “he’s acting like somebody we know” Jess says standing up “don’t compare the love of my life to the spawn of Charlie” I says bouncing the baby from leg to leg “we’re talking about Kenny right” hizashi says “yes obviously they have the same name both highly attracted to keigo calls him daddy” Jess says “sounds about right and why do you talk about Charlie like you hate him” “because he could’ve went and got married after I finished getting my secondary education and also I was a bottom all 6 of those years baby if anything I called him daddy” i says playing with the baby “you really hate that you had to take out a loan to get your masters degree”hizashi says “yes highly see Kendall your dad gonna spoil you rotten then decide that he can’t anymore” i says to the baby “keigo stop talking to the baby like that please” Jess says “you think I won’t talk to our kid like this your highly mistaken isn’t she ken ken” I say “so what I’m hearing is we’re gonna have kid” “once we’re married and live in the same house sure why not” I say “that’s unfair but I’ll take it” Jess says sitting next to me on the couch “I get to be the godfather correct” hizashi says doing the same “no I think I’ll ask Jordan of course you're the damn godfather” Jess says “and my best man” I say as the baby seems to fall asleep on my chest “yeah hell no yes you knew him longer blah blah blah he’s literally my only friend other than touya and ten” Jess says “nope only friends I have is hizashi rumi probably wouldn’t make it Tsunagu dead Kenny dead so you take zashi my side real empty” “good god keigo you live such a sad life” hizashi says “I know right and it just got worse this baby definitely just took a shit omg Jess take him” I say holding him away from me “give me the damn baby” she says taking him and leaving the living room

“so it’s just me nobody else” “unless shota and nemuri wanna be on my side out of pity yeah just you and you bet not die on me either” “shota and nemuri would happily do it and not out of pity and I’m not going anywhere”

“Ok the baby is fed bathe and sleep so we better do the same” Jess says putting him in the portable bassinet “yeah uh huh sleep time” I say laying down in the bed

After what felt like 3 seconds of sleep Kendall is scream crying “what the hell dude” I say sitting up and Jess still out cold “how the hell are you sleeping through this” I get up and go pick him up “dude you’re just like your father keeping me up all night” I say taking him in the kink room only because it’s the connected room

“What you looking at” I say seeing something caught his eye he makes a noise and points to my wrist restraints “dude your acting more and more you’re like your father every second” I give him the restraints it no harm in it he shakes them and holds on to them like their his new favorite thing “you can keep them if you promise to sleep for the rest of the night…ok ok come on”I say walking back to the room “why does he have your restraints” Jess says half sleep looking at us “ like father like son” I say putting him back down and he falls asleep quickly “my guy” I say before laying back down in the bed “your going to be a great dad kei” Jess says cuddling with me “the way you just slept through him scream crying I don’t know man” I say laughing “I heard him you just beat me to it” “you don’t have to lie you were still very much sleep when I got up”

I wake up because I hear Kendall moving around Jess is still sleep “alright it’s 9:30 in the morning and you only woke once I call that a win” I say taking him in the bathroom “you are a stinky baby so let’s get you all clean” after bathing and putting on the worst baby outfit I’ve ever seen “don’t worry Jess went a little crazy preparing for you and bought you some outfits because this is just a no green and yellow in January” I say picking him up I go to the closet “ok we got this one with different sports things on it or the this one with the dollar signs on it” he grabs the dollar sign one “I’ve raised you well” I put the clothes on him and go downstairs and see they left a baby holder thingy “this great because I know your father can’t cook for the life of him so I’m gonna teach you ready” I say strapping him to me and he laughs

While cooking I hear Jess coming downstairs “kei where’s the baby”she say walking into the kitchen “don’t know haven’t seen him” I say turning around with him attached to me “oh there he is” I say looking down at him “dude one you just scared the hell out of me two this is literally cutest thing I’ve ever seen” she says “I’m warming up to this baby thing” I say turning the stove off “one night with a baby and you think you’re ready” “well yeah and it’ll be with you so why not but my circumstances still stand married same roof” I say grabbing plates “ok I can agree with that but my love were already 27 been together almost 2 years when are planning on giving this finger a friend” she say holding up her ring finger “don’t know yet” I say sliding her plate to her “I feel like that’s a lie you do know don’t you” she say suspiciously “maybe I do maybe I don’t” I say getting the high chair “just make sure you do it when my nails are done or I’m saying no” “I’m not taking no as an answer so figure it out” “baby names what we thinking” she says mouth full “haven’t really thought that far yet” “it has to be something nicknamable like kiego kei Jessica Jess Kendall Ken Kenny hizashi zashi you know” “ughh are we going Japanese or no” “could be” “how about haruka haru”she says “like from the swimming the anime” I say remembering she made me watch it a while ago “yeah” “Haruka Takami or Haruka Carter Takami like it either way” i says feeding Kendall “just yours and are you not eating” she says mid chew “not really that’s hungry yet”

“How the hell does this stupid car seat work” I say trying to get it to strap into jess‘s car “think it’ll be easier in your car”she suggests “it won’t fit in my car properly anyway” I say “I’m calling my dad” “no no no I’ll figure it out” “why not” “oh why do you have a baby oh he’s just my old sugar daddy baby no he is the only person in your life that sees me as a normal person of society and I’m not changing that” “ok ok got it” she says walking back the house

After I was just about to give up and say fuck it we can hold him the whole ride the other side back door opens “kid what the hell are you doing” jess dad say seeing me struggle “oh hey um struggling is what I’m doing” I say laughing “yeah I can see that switch sides I’ll show you”

“Ok so take this thing and put through the seat it’s a latch in the seat that it attached to now see” he say pulling the the thing and it’s not moving “that simple huh” “ don’t feel bad image moving across the world not knowing an ounce of the language or know anyone plus having a newborn and a car seat absolutely hell” “sounds like hell you ever miss it back home” “nah not really we did that’s why we moved back and in those 3 years I wanted nothing more but to move back here Jess was already a wildcard as is still is but in America god shaved half of head tongue pierced that’s where her fashion sense developed and Jordan wanted to everything she did so she shaved half her head he shaved his whole head he was to young for a tongue piercing so he got a nose ring” he says like it’s a fond memory “my kids are not normal in the slightest but can I really judge them the moment I got my college degree I hopped on plane with little to nothing to my name with their mother so shit they get the crazy from me”

“I felt like somebody was talking about me” she say coming out the house with Kendall “my baby with a baby your getting old I’m not ready ” “stop it I’m not that old yet did the car seat work” “yeah it’s all good now you had a tongue piercing” I say taking Kendall “well yes but when we came back I had to take it out for school” “anyways whose baby” “an old friend went to a wedding needed a babysitter” i say “ahhh you hear from your mother” he say to Jess “nope Jordan either” she says leaning on her truck “we talked the night of Jordan wedding and she said she’ll talk to the both of you try to you know make things right but I guess she hasn’t yet” he says leaning on the car as well “there was a difference you worked your ass off to make a life for us here so that’s why you weren’t around she on the other hand was controlling and just the worst even though it was your idea to cut me off it was easier to forgive you then it will to forgive her” “well if she ever calls just hear her out” “yeah sure I’ll try” “keigo you got her back now you keeping to that promise” he says standing up straight “yeah of course sooner than later” I say not trying to say anything that would give Jess a clue of what we’re talking about “what are we talking about here” Jess says looking in between us “don’t worry about it sweetheart anyways I got some stuff to do today keigo let me know when your free for golf” he says before leaving

“Um was that your dad” hizashi says walking up the driveway “yeah he helped with the car seat for this cutie” she says squeezing Kendall cheeks “ahh well ready to go uncle zashi is here to save you from you fathers horrible taste in clothes” “yellow and green isn’t his color at all but yet they still bought it” I say looking at him

“Alright ken which one” hizashi says holding up two shirts and he points to the blue one “you really like blue don’t you”hizashi says putting it in the cart “so zashi what you think about the name haruka” Jess says looking through the racks for what a kid whose last name” “mine ” I say throwing something in the cart “Jess is giving up the carter name” “nah I’m keeping it just have both” “ahh got it but i like that name”

After a long day of shopping for baby clothes to send back because if this is what they send here I can only imagine what the hell the have in the closet at home when we get back I get a text from Charlie

From:Charlie
Hey kid we’re on the way to come and get Kendall

“You sure we got everything”Jess says bringing a bag downstairs “yeah” I say putting the car seat down “I’m not ready for this cutie to leave yet”Jess says picking him up “yeah but you know he gotta go back to his parents” I say running my hands through his hair then there's a knock on the door I open it

“Hey kid how was he” he says walking in “great you're lucky we’re giving him back” I say “see it wasn’t as terrible as you expected” he says taking him from Jess “yeah he wasn’t also we bought him a full winter wardrobe because what you sent was horrible”i say “yeah it really was I thought keigo was just being dramatic but no that was a hate crime”Jess adds “and if you ever put this precious child in yellow and green in the winter ever I will fight you”I say “got it don’t want anymore problems with you then I already have” he says laughing “where’s Marie” I say “she’s staying with some family for awhile longer and they wanted to see Kendall so I came to get him” “oh ok well if you ever need a babysitter you know who to call” Jess says “yes thank you again also to cross a problem off the list” he says pulling his phone out and then I get a notification and it’s the exact amount that it cost to finish paying off my loan “Charlie-“ “don’t wanna hear it just say thank you” he says cutting me off “ shit ok thank you” i says still surprised “no problem kid” he says before leaving

“So I guess you don’t have to hold that against him anymore”Jess says laughing “fuck yeah I don’t god I barely put a dent in that loan yet and this is a god sent” I say sitting on the couch “how was your rich ass still in debt” she say sitting next to me “hey I just recently got rich lady

Chapter 27

Notes:

Hello loves ✨ I really like this chapter and look forward to next which will be a piece of hizashi’s life away from Jess and keigo and so far it’s pretty good and I can’t wait for you to read it

Hope you enjoy

Kiegos mom is coming down from Toyoshina for the weekend and this is the first time I’m seeing her as his girlfriend which is slightly freaking me out a bit which I don’t know why I’ve met her a thousand times before this but this feels different 

I had a emergency meeting with one of my patients so I couldn’t go with him to pick her up from the train station but I’m meeting them back at his house 

When I get there I stop at the door with the key in my hand I take a deep breath and open the door and when I open the door expecting to see someone I see just an empty condo “what the hell” I say closing the door behind me walking in I look in the guest room and I see that her bags are in here so they’ve been here just left I also see that keigo hasn’t changed the sheets still in the guest room so I do that 

I get the new sheets out the closet my dad calls me “hey what do I owe the pleasure” I say answering the FaceTime call and sitting him on the vanity “what are you doing” “changing the sheets in keigos guest room he’s mom is in town for the weekend” “really what are you alls plans for tomorrow night” “ughh to my knowledge nothing why” “I wanna meet the lady obviously I’ll get a reservation for 8” “why 8 good grief” I say putting the blanket on the bed “me your mother your brother Mileena you keigo his mother and I know you can’t go anywhere without hizashi so 8” he says and is he wrong no “oh ok well you're not wrong” “I know I’m not anyways where are they” “no clue at all had an emergency session today and couldn’t go with him to go pick her up and when I got here they were gone” i says sitting at the vanity in front of the phone “you nervous about meeting her” “no and yes I’ve met her before a few times but-“ “you never met her as his girlfriend and your scared” “well yes would you not all the shit me and him has been through would you want me to be dating your child” “well objectively speaking here if you weren’t my child yes I would marry my child off to you first thing smoking and yes a lot has happened in your relationship but your also working on said relationship really hard so as long as she can see that you have no problem” he says “thanks that’s was actually helpful” “you think you just woke up with those therapist skills of yours that came from me” “yeah yeah yeah that came from 6 years of schooling” 

 

“Jess you here” I hear kiego say from the living room “we’ll go impress her I’ll see you tomorrow” my dad says “yeah ok” I say before hanging up and going down the hallway “oh sweetheart you’re just as beautiful as I remember how are you” she says embracing me in a tight hug “thank you great I’ve been great how are you” I say returning the hug “great great” she says moving back to look at me with a bright smile “that’s good” I say returning the smile “well mother if you’re done trying to steal my girlfriend we bought food back” “ah yes we did” she says letting me go and going to the kitchen “hey princess” keigo say kissing my cheek as I walk past him “ah my dad wants to meet you so his making a reservation for us for dinner tomorrow night” I say walking to the dining area “ok you know what time” keigo says“nope we just got off the phone right when you got here I’ll probably know before the end of the day also I changed the sheets in guest room since someone I won’t say any names didn’t” I say sitting down “hey in my defense I completely forgot about that” he says from the kitchen “ok Jess kei has given me all the details you’ve made up in therapy your both even close with your father now but I’ve heard nothing about your mother” she says sitting in the chair in front of me “uh yeah still haven’t really talked to her since keigo went all the way to Toyoshina that night” “that was what a year ago” she says in shook “yeah almost me and my dad patched everything up so has me and my brother but she just haven’t came around and tomorrow will be the first time I’ve seen her in what 8 months” “well I just hope all goes well tomorrow but just know I’m team Jess if shit goes left” she says and it catches me completely off guard “well thank you” I say trying my hardest to not laugh uncontrollably “also I got a bone to pick with you keigo” “I haven’t done anything I’ve said like 20 words today” he says sitting down with the food “married and in the same house good lord” “what I feel like that’s a good starting place in a few months we will be together 2 years and we’ve already established that we won’t be living together for at least another year or so why is that asking for to much” he says and she looks over at me “I mean he’s right though I’m definitely team keep the Takami name alive but I don’t wanna raise a baby between two different houses and we still have some growing to do before we’re truly ready for a kid”I say “I guess I can wait a little longer for little haruka” she says with a small smile 

 

We pretty much did nothing but lounge around and watch a few movies tonight before we finally turned in for the night 

“Keigo no your mother is literally down the hall” I say moving his head from my neck “and if you keep it down she won’t know”he says hand now traveling up my shirt “come on man I’m trying to keep the sweet and innocent act up you can’t wait till Monday” I say falling into his touch “hell no Monday no that’s not going to work for me” he says now hand already making it’s way south “fuck ok” I say grabbing his face to kiss him 

 

His fingers working their magic and I’m trying to hold the kiss to conceal the noises that I’m making but I can no longer keep it cute when he breaks the kiss and goes down and starts to eat me out and god does his tongue feel good and with the finger combo I’m really fighting for my life here I grab the pillow next me and hold it up to my mouth because that’s the only way I’m going to be quiet at the this point then he takes the pillow and moves it “what the hell” I say “if I wanted you that quiet I would’ve got the ball gag out” he says before going back to attacking my clit with his tongue “fuck” I say before resting my head on the headboard 

 

After another 2 minutes go past the fight between me and full on screaming is becoming hard it feels like he’s hitting every spot at once “fuck kei please please let me cum please” I say begging for my release and he doesn’t say anything for another 2 minutes then he sits up and still fingering me to death to kiss me his fingers slip out and he starts sliding side to side on my clit fast and with intent “cum baby” he says and almost immediately I do and hard my body thrashing and squirming in place and he doesn’t stop overstimulating the hell out of me “I’m not done with you yet baby” he says in my ear before pushing into me and if he didn’t put his hand over my mouth I would’ve woken up the entire building “keep quiet or I’ll stop” he says before moving his hand 

 

For someone who wants me to be quiet he sure not fucking me that way the headboard is creaking and  bed is even louder “fuck baby goddamn” I say putting my head on his hip as a slow down indicator did it slow him down no not really he’s in his own world right now where the only thing that matters is making me cum and goddamn it his mission is about to be accomplished and from how ragged his pace is getting I can tell he close to“fuck I’m about to cum shit” he say and I silently thank god and with no warning no real prep we both cum simultaneously at the same time 

 

Hot and out of breath we learn how to breath again “I knew you could do it” he says with a sly chuckle “shut up man you don’t play fair I’m pretty sure the bed gave us away before anything else” I say “yeah probably” he says falling on the bed beside me “but if she did it wouldn’t have been the first time I’ve gotten the shame look a few times in the past from her” he says getting out the bed “at least I was quiet I know for a fact you and Kenny didn’t know what that meant” I say following him to the bathroom “yeah definitely didn’t” he says washing his hands while I used the bathroom and then there was a knock on the door “oh god” he says turning the water off and wiping hands and walking out the bathroom “yes ma’am” he says opening the door “oh I can’t sleep and wanted tea just asking if you or Jess wanted any” I hear his mother say while I wash my hands he looks back in the bathroom looking for a response and I shake my head no “no we’re good but let me show you where everything is” he says walking out the door 

 

I wake up sun beaming because we forgot to close the curtains before going to sleep “why mr sun might you blind me this early in the morning” I say putting my face in the pillow “it’s not really that early it noon princess” I hear keigo say from the other side of the room “really why did you let me sleep so long” I say looking at him but not really moving more than that “because I know not to wake you up before you do on your own especially since you gotta deal with your mother later” he says putting clothes in his closet “mhm yeah your right come lay with me” I say opening the covers “you actually need to get up nail appointment is at 3 remember”he says from the closet “yeah your right ughh ok” I say sitting up 

 

“Kei can you remind me to text my cousin Britney so she can send my more hair because I’m 2 seconds away from shaving my damn head” I say after another failed ponytail “yeah I’ll remind you but can you calm down and breathe and I promise your hair will pick up on the good vibes and work out” he says coming in the bathroom I stop and breathe and try again and it works well partly but it’s better than nothing at this point “I promise I’ll look better later but for now it’ll work” “you always look perfect now go before your late” keigo says wrapping his arms around my waist head on my shoulder “you keep holding me like this I won’t be going anywhere” I say looking at him in the mirror “yeah you’re right” he say letting me go “ok I’m out I’ll be back by like 4:30 5:00” I say walking out the room “ok dinners at 8 right” “yup hizashi meeting us here at 7:30 i believe that’s what time he said anyway” I say grabbing my bag “oh here” he says pulling his card out of wallet “nails it’s on me I don’t wanna hear nothing about it” he says putting the card in my hand “ok what’s my limit” I say looking down at the card “ there isn’t one now go” he says before kissing me“god I raised you right” his mother says coming down the hallway “yes you did I’ll see you later” I say walking out the house 

 

I make it a little before my appointment time and she seats me as soon as I walk in “so what we doing today Jess” she says looking at my hands “whatever you feel like doing today I’m giving you full creative control” I say looking at her “oh mama what’s my limit today”she says looking at me “according to keigo there isn’t one” “oh we love a rich man don’t we” she says backing out of her chair with a laugh

 

 “So we’re going full butterfly diamond design on these two and diamonds on the cuticle line but do you want a white or black French for the other nails ” she says telling me her vision “ugh white” I say “ok let’s get going” she says and she works her beautiful magic and they come out just how she wanted them like we couldn’t stop looking at them “I really did my damn thing with this set ok pictures and you gotta go before we just sit here and admire how great your nails look” she says taking pictures of my nails I pay and leave 

 

While driving back to keigo's hizashi calls me “hello love” I say answering the phone “it’s nail day let me see” he says and at the red light I hold my nails up to the camera “how the hell do you have a butterfly on your nail” he says “i know right she really out did herself the set” “yeah she really did also how did I get dragged into dinner with your family” “no clue but my father invited you so you gotta show up” “yeah yeah what are you doing with your hair tonight” “I don’t know I’m kinda glad we finished early because I can wash my hair and properly do my hair before we have to leave” 

 

And I do just that when I get back in the house I wash my hair and cut out a few steps because I don’t really have all the time in the world and I’m flat ironing it so I gotta be pretty speedy 

 

My 6:30 alarm goes off telling me I only have an hour left to get ready and I just finished my hair “goddamn I’m good” I say combing through my hair and cleaning off the counter and go to the closet where I’m met with a shirtless keigo “hey cutie what you doing” I say running my hand across his stomach while walking to my side of the closet “looking for a shirt” he say watching me strip out of my previous outfit “doesn’t look that way to me” I say laughing “I mean I was until you came in here distracting me what are you wearing anyways”  “no clue” I say standing in front of clothes “you should wear the new dress you got the other day “ I reach for black silk dress with the drawstring on the bottom “hm wear that shirt” I say putting the dress on and pointing to the white button up 

 

He looks at it and puts it on “serious question and this makes or breaks the relationship does this need a corset yes or no” I say looking in the mirror “Oh my that’s a lot responsibility you put on me but I have 9 years in Jess fashion questions under my belt and I’m going to go with yes wear the black on that has the clips instead of the string” he says with so much confidence “goddamn it I love you you know that” I say getting the corset out the drawer “yes princess I do know that” he says smiling putting on his shoes 

 

It’s 7:30 and we’re waiting for hizashi in the parking garage “we’re driving your car” keigo say “do I have to drive” I say dreading the answer “no I’ll drive just taking your car” “oh thank god” I say watching hizashi park “oh look at the pretty lady” hizashi says hugging Tomie “oh I forget how tall you are how are you” she says “I don’t know why but that felt personal” keigo says “I’m doing exponentially better now that I’m in your presence” hizashi says opening the car door for her “oh stop it” she says getting in his car 

 

“Why didn’t your mother just drive with us” I say looking over at him “because when I told her hizashi was coming over before we left she declared she was driving with him sometimes I think my mother wants to like-“ “nope please don’t finish that sentence because I saw the same thing and I don’t wanna put it in the universe” i cutting him off and we laugh 

 

When we arrive to the restaurant my entire family is standing out front “hello family this is the lovely lady that gave me Keigo Tomie Takami” I say introducing them “this is my father James my mother Janessa brother Jordan and my brothers wife Mileena” I add “it’s nice meeting all of you” she says “yes the pleasure is all ours let’s get in here” my father say linking arms with her and walking in “It look like your boyfriend is about to become you brother” Jordan says to me “oh god no but at least she would be a hell of an upgrade” I say and our mother looks back at us and we laugh

 

we get seated and the night is going great my mother isn’t being as much of a bitch as she always is which is surprising and after eating we just sat around talking “yes Jordan was literally a copycat when we were younger” I say “I wasn’t I always wanted to shave my head and you said you would do it” he says laughing the hand that has been on the back of my chair most of the night moves and comes back I look over to keigo and he’s looking at Jordan and when I go to look back something catches my eye that’s now in front of me that wasn’t there at first 

 

A ring a gorgeous ring at that wait dumbass is he proposing to you he’s checking off the damn list and your dunce ass hasn’t picked up on it yet your entire family Bestfriend and his mother here he has to be “wait kei what” I say looking at him “Jess princess the fact that it’s taken you this long to figure this out is astonishing” he says smiling at me “you’re literally one of the best things that has ever happened to me I love you so much you redefined what love was for me you made me wanna love again your my everything my person when I imagine my future you’re always there and I wouldn’t want it any other way you’re my Best Friend the person I share so many interest with the person I wanna hear talk about nothing or everything the person I wanna see when I wake up in the morning I wanna give you the world and so much more and all I want in return is your love so Jessica Miranda Carter will marry me” he says and the world around me disappear there’s nothing but the man in front of me smiling at me awaiting my answer which should be obvious “fuck yes kei yes” I say finally giving him the answer he’s been waiting for he puts the ring on my finger and I can’t help but to think about the fact that he still really loves me even after everything he still wants me to be apart of his life forever 

 

I can feel myself crying but they’re tears of joy I’m so fucking happy right now “come here man” i say kissing him but covering our faces “I love you keigo” “I love you too” “and please never call me my full name ever again” I say “next time I say it there will be an extra name attached to it” 

 

“Wait did literally all of you know” I say looking at the table “I was the first one to know” my dad says “helped pick out the ring” hizashi says “I told him about your “perfect proposal” “ Jordan says “so everyone knew” I say “yup feel bad about lying for so long” I hear from behind me and I know that voice all to well “what the hell nemuri sho touya what” I say hella shocked “you honestly think I was doing this and they weren’t here” keigo say “god your fucking perfect thank you” I say feeling the tears coming back “come on sit sit we have to celebrate” my dad says patting the seats beside him 

 

It feels weird to have all of my loved ones in one place but I’m so fucking happy right being around all of them just makes my heart so full in midst of conversation my mother gives me the ‘let’s step off’ look and reluctantly I join her we go to the front of the restaurant 

 

“Jessica I know I’m the last person you want to talk to tonight but I’m not here to ruin your moment i didn’t even think you would want me here but keigo insisted I come and I glad I came because I would’ve hated to miss my baby girl get the thing she’s been planning for since you went to your first wedding”she says smiling with a tear coming down her face “god I was a terrible mother to you and I’m so sorry I know can’t take all of the pain away but I wanna see you happy like that again god I don’t think I’ve ever seen you that happy in my presents honestly and that’s my fault I just didn’t want you to end up like me i wanted you to be textbook perfect because I wasn’t and that ruined any relationship we could’ve ever had and again I’m sorry your perfect in your own kinky way and  I mean that in every way possible and you got a good one” she says wiping her face “I know right I love him mom I really do” I say doing the same “he told me about plan baby haruka” she says laughing “yeah I really like the name” “did you mention the origin behind the name” “nah I didn’t tell him that was almost my name” I say remembering when she told me that was almost my name “so you just gonna take credit for my name shame on you” she says laughing “yeah I think I will… I uh I know you tried your best and as much as I want to fault you for that I can’t coming from a family where you had to fit the status quo and to have a daughter to do anything but that god I know that was hell wasn’t it” I say “yes it was very difficult trying to keep up appearances with a daughter who shows up to a corporate party with a skirt so short one wrong move everything was out and a smart mouth that I can only blame on your father but damn does my inner child well teenager wish I had the same gaul you have I would’ve never I left being a rebel to your aunt” “well you did up and leave the continent with your brand spanking new husband and  pregnant at that so yeah you left all the rebel to aunty franky” I say laughing and she joins me “yeah well ok maybe I was a bit of a rebel as well but never shave half my head and become a dominatrix rebel” “when are you going to let the shaving my head thing go mama it grew back see and it’s all even now” I say sitting on the bench 

 

“I will never let that go I tell you no you can’t dye your hair and you go and shave it off craziest thing you’ve done ever”she says sitting next me “oh crazier than me moving 3 hours from home and becoming a dominatrix oh or befriending a random stranger and going to a concert with them and practically spending a whole summer with them still tops those” “yes to me that was completely in character for you but I didn’t know hizashi was a random stranger you told me you met at orientation” she says turning to me “god I was a good liar no we met outside of after dark and he invited me to go see no name” “he could’ve killed you” “but he didn’t and that’s the part we’re forgetting ” I say “Jessica I know this isn’t something you hear everyday from me at least but I love you so much and the person you’ve become and god am I proud of you and everything you’ve accomplished look at you baby you have a good group of people around you shota and nemuri god I’m glad they helped raise you even if I didn’t know it hizashi I know he’ll always be there for you touya has always been like a big brother to you and I’m glad you had him and keigo he’s single handedly has made you the happiest I’ve ever seen you in your life when he came to the house and your father gave him the 3rd degree about him waiting so long to want to marry you he did nothing but prove that he would give you the breath out of his own lungs if you needed it I’m glad you chose him and he’s a cute one and this is the old me talking now and he has good social stance too”she says and  I know that mean ‘and he’s rich too’ “he takes care me so much so that I don’t even notice it anymore he knows I need something before I do I don’t need anyone else as long I have him” “keep him and communicate he planned on doing this last year but you know” “really” “yes he told us he’s been holding that ring since a while before your one year anniversary” “ugh why didn’t you be cool can talk to mom long time ago” I say laying my head on her shoulder “because I didn’t have that with my mother and I thought it was normal but it’s not we met with nemuri and shota a few weeks ago and hearing her talk about you made it sound like she was your mother and the bond you have with her I want with you and shota he made your dad feel like shit for a second he really took a parental role in your life he talked about in a way neither of us could he referred to you as his sweetheart that would try to get out of doing everything because she was the favorite which I 100% believe” “that was his fault he showed weakness and I used it to my advantage but we can still have that bond you want just gotta work with me” I say looking up at her “yeah imma work with you also I talked to Jordan yesterday so we’re all good” “ok don’t be surprised if I call you with a weird sex story we’re jumping right to there” I say laughing “oh god baby step me please” she wraps both hands around me 

 

when everyone comes out of the restaurant “ok go I’ve taken away to much time away from your new fiancé” she says giving me one last squeeze “kei guess what” I say wrapping my arms around his neck “what” “to my mother the craziest thing I’ve ever done was shave half of my head” “over spending thousands of dollars on kink related things and lying about it”keigo says “or being a dominatrix” Jordan says “or literally barely ever wearing clothes” touya says “or working in a dungeon for 6 years” shota says “can’t top running away to Tokyo with a stranger for a summer” hizashi says “yup all completely in character for me surprising right” I say “hizashi thank you for not killing my daughter because that was a high possibility and she just ran into the sunset with you” “don’t feel bad keigo did the same thing” keigo mom says laughing 

 

The drive back home felt surreal I couldn’t believe that I’m now engaged to keigo and made up with mom all in one night I’m so happy I can’t stop smiling “I haven’t seen you smiling this much ever honestly” keigo say stopping at a red light “dude you made tonight perfect how could I not be happy right now” “I mean it wasn’t perfectly perfect tenko couldn’t come” “I know but that couldn’t put a dent on how you made this the exact day I’ve dreamed of since I was a kid and why did you wait so long man my mom told me you’ve had the ring for awhile now “well I was going to on our one year but the timing didn’t feel genuine so I didn’t do it then second attempt was going to be in Ibiza but forgot the ring at home by accident then I planned to do on our 2nd year but your dad grilled me that that was to far away which he’s not wrong so I chose this random Saturday where everything just “magically” fell into place” “how much of this did you plan” “oh all of it but the emergence session that was all on your patient” “what is all of it” “my mom coming in this weekend your dad calling and  setting this up your nail tech giving you the set you’ve been wanting forever now but have told nobody because it’s in the special occasion folder to the dress you wore tonight when I say all of it I mean all of it” “you really thought of everything huh” I say looking down at the ring “yes i did I wanted tonight to be perfect for you” “I was really out of it because I should’ve known something was up” “yeah I thought your dad say the whole family plus hizashi was going to be a dead give away but no” “I mean he said and hizashi I know you can’t go anywhere without him and he made a valid point so I thought nothing of it” 

 

His mom is staying in my house for tonight so we have the place to ourselves “ you know we never take advantage of that wonderful mirror over there” I say sitting behind him facing the mirror “for what your talking about no no we don’t” “hm maybe we should now” I say handing traveling inside his shirt “maybe we should” he says leaning back into me I undo the buttons on the shirt then take my other hand and undo his pants “I haven’t even done anything yet for you to be this hard keigo” I say 

 

“have you seen you how could I not be” he says resting his head on my shoulder “yes and I’m flattered” I say “your going to be my good girl and make me cum” he says with this cocksure look on his face “ You think just because you put this pretty ring on my finger you were in charge” she says, jerking him slowly up and down “well if you did you were gravely mistaken… don’t forget who you belong to” “come on Jess we both know I could change the whole fuck trajectory of this whole thing if I wanted to” “I would love to see you try” I say tightening my grip he lets out a strained moan “why you struggling so much just accept it” I say before quicken my pace by a bit “I won’t submit to you” he says breath catching in his throat at the end of his sentence “hm ok be that way keigo” I before kissing and leaving marks along the side of his neck 

 

“For somebody who won’t submit to me your sure are enjoying this aren’t you” I say looking at him in the mirror “princess please” he says squeezing his eyes shut “princess isn’t here at the moment” I say speeding up “fuck I’m about cum” he says head falling forward “really” I say removing my hand “fuck you” he says “wow such a thing to say to the person in control of when you get to cum” I say starting back up “your not in control of anything” he spits back and i grab his face and make him look at us both in the mirror “you belong to me and you obviously forgot about that so I guess I have to remind you” I say before letting his face go and getting off the bed “you move I’m cutting off sex indefinitely” I say before going in the closet to get my travel kink kit 

 

I walk back out and he’s still in the same spot I left him I drop the bag on the bed “is that supposed to scare me princess” he says leaning back on his hands “no not yet anyway” I unzip the leather duffle bag and take out the restraints “hands” I say standing in front of him and he just looks at me “keigo we both know you I don’t do brat behavior so just cut it out already” I say getting the first cuff on his left wrist “I’m not a brat don’t call me that” he say sounding really offended “well that’s what your acting like” I say attaching the other cuff to his right wrist behind him “take it back” he says looking at me go through the bag “take what back you being a brat no” I say taking out a paddle “yes I’m not a brat you never call me that” he says in the whiniest voice I’ve ever heard this man conjure “we’ll never act like a brat but now you are I’m calling you what you are stomach now” I say and without a word he obeyed “I’m not a brat” he says with a huff “yeah ok” I say pulling his pants off of him 

 

“wanna get back on my good side” I say twirling the paddle in my hand “I’m not already on your good side” he say looking back “no not at the moment” I say taking my first swing “fuck can I get a warning next time” he says “brats don’t get warnings” i says going for the next “goddamn it” he says wincing in pain and without giving him time to prepare for the next one I go again and he moans “you ready to admit who runs this show” I say with the next hit no response so I go again “come on keigo the longer you take to do what I say the night will get worse before it’s gets better” I say looking at him looking for body cues to make sure I’m not going to far 

 

He never admits anything even after 100 fucking hits and if my arm didn’t practically fall asleep mid swing it would’ve been more “keigo” I say putting the paddle down “what” he says pouty turning his head to the side “all you have to do is say one simple sentence and I’ll give you whatever you want but until then I’m not” I say laying next to him “what do I have to say” he says looking at me all cute and shit “all you have to say is that you belong to me just says yes mistress I belong to you that’s it” i says moving his hair out of his face “but you already know that” “nope I want you to say it with your words right now” “ok yes mistress I belong to you and only you you run all of this I’m yours mistress ” he says making direct eye contact “eh I’ll take it I guess” I say sitting back up to undo the link in between the cuffs “sit up” I say to him 

 

When he’s sits up I link the cuff in front of him “so this is how this is going to go imma going to restrain you to the bed and strap a vibrator to you thigh having it strategically placed on the most sensitive part of dick on the highest setting and go get in the shower and while I’m in there if you don’t cum in the time it takes for me to come back you get to choose how I make you cum but if not then it’s  clean up sleep time ok” I say and he looks terrified “that’s going to be hell mistress really” he says “did I stutter I won’t make you suffer longer than 30 minutes promise”I say linking the cuffs to the bed post “fuck sometimes I think you hate me” he says sitting against the headboard “oh I could never hate you baby” I say putting the thigh cuff with the vibrator on 

 

“Ok see you in 30 minutes baby” I say turning on the vibrator on and leaving to go shower and to fill out the time I do the whole nine exfoliating shave my legs after I was done showering moisturised  I did full skin care pin curled my hair with 10 minutes to spear and now I need clothes I walk out the bathroom in just my towel and walk over to the closet and from the quick glimpse I got of him he definitely didn’t hold out 

 

I put on a hoodie and I sit in the closet till the timer goes off and when I come out the closet he looks frazzled “seems as though you have no self restraint” I say turning off the vibrator “I’m sorry mistress I couldn’t do it” he says rest his head on my arm “yeah I can see that” I say cleaning him off “I tried really hard I just couldn’t do it” “how many times” I say taking his cuffs off “twice” he says sounds ashamed “hm it’s ok I won’t punish you for it tonight anyhow go shower so we can sleep” I say “but you didn’t-” “doesn’t matter you made everything about me today this was about you baby now come on want me to sit in there with you” I say and he nods his head yes against my arm 

 

“Can I have a kiss” keigo say eyes close while washing his hair “can it wait till you no longer have shampoo in your hair”I say hopping down from the counter “no it pretty urgent” he say before kissing me “ew keep your tongue in your mouth” I say backing up “ive put a lot of things in your mouth including actually spitting in your mouth and my tongue is the thing I need to keep to myself ” he says before rinsing his hair “yes it’s weird” I say getting back on the counter “no you're weird your literally the only person I’ve ever kissed with tongue and was weirded out by it” he says putting conditioner in his hair “yes dude that shit is I don’t know but I don’t like it” I say “you know you do it when we’re like full on making out right” “I do not you liar”I say in disbelief “you do your tongue had been in my mouth more than once that I can promise” he says fully emerging under the water “do I really we’re testing that assumption later” I say “question” “answer” “hoodie whats under it” he says turning off the shower water “why” I say handing him a towel “just answer the question”he say wrapping the towel around his waist “wanna find out” “keep it cute princess” he says walking out the bathroom “why ask if you don’t wanna find out” I say sitting on the bed “smartass just answer the question” he say walking back out the closet clothed sitting next to me on the bed “find out for yourself” I say standing in front of him 

 

His hands start at the back of my mid thigh and slowly travels up to under my ass “I’m guessing nothing huh” he says bring his hands up to my lower back “ding ding ding” I say tapping his nose “your cute” he says looking up at me smiling “and your hair is still very much still wet” “dry it for me” he says placing his head on my stomach “no” “come on please mistress” he says pulling the mistress card “ugh ok go get the blow dryer” he leaves and I go sit on the couch and he comes back with his fancy ass dyson blow dryer “how and the actual fuck am I supposed to use this” I say as he plugs it in “like a regular blow dryer I’m confused” he says pushing the button to turn it on and sitting on the floor in front of me “I guess” I say as I start to blow dry his hair “we’re getting more domestic by the day aren’t we” he says holding on to both of my legs “I literally never imagined even being in a relationship for this long” “yeah me either but if it wasn’t for you know I never would’ve been introduced to kink and finding you again so it was worth it” “we really spent 4 years just not talking or seeing each other I would rather be shot than do that again” “definitely I meant it earlier when I said you were my person” he says leaning his head back in my lap “yeah” I say looking at him “yeah” he says smiling at me “ughhh stop being cute damn it” I say turning the blow dryer on in his face 

 

“Ok your all dry bud” I say smoothing his hair back and kissing his forehead “how long are we waiting” he says “for what the wedding” “yeah” “ughh are we in a rush” “no and we don’t have to set a date right now just an estimated time” “we’ll it’s February and in 7 months we’ll be together for two years and if we wait till next year entirely then we can do it then and work on the living together thing and after that haruka maybe” I say thinking out loud “ok so wedding at 28 living together before 29 and haru at 30” he says doing the same thing “I can do that yeah that’s the plan find a wedding planner after my birthday” I say playing in his hair “yeah ok princess that’s those are the last major events in our relationship for awhile” he says laying his head on my leg “I really don’t care if haru is a boy or a girl but I really want a daughter” he adds “I can see you as a girl dad only thing she’s going to steal my nickname” “yeah your right there” he says with a chuckle staring off into space “oh god your going to spoil her rotten to” “of fucking course…oh boy haru definitely gonna be a mommas boy for sure” “yeah just like you” “hey it’s not my fault I wanna be attracted to your hip”he says coming up on the couch and dragging my legs on the couch and laying on me “how and the hell are we going to explain the kink room to a kid” he says full on laughing “uhh well I guess I’ll have to cross that bridge when we get there” I say joining him “you going to survive not being able to have sex whenever” I say “damn it’s a sacrifice I’m willing to make” he say “yeah we need to think of more names it’s a high chance we could get two at once” “yeah we can do that later”

 

“How bad do you think ito is going to chew us out for this” I say playing in his hair “she won’t I already told her” he says sounding like he’s about to fall asleep “what when” I say looking down at him “remember the last when I came home later than usual I went to see her and I told her about the plan and she told me that it does seems a little rushed but at the same time she said she had a small bet with herself about how long it was going to take me to do it” he says getting more comfortable on me “the fact that everyone in our life but me knew is crazy when did you tell my dad he said he was the first to know” “yeah when we went golfing when we weren’t talking he asked if I planned on marrying you and obviously at the time that didn’t seem possible but I still told him yes then when I was waiting till you got off work to come and get you I went over to their house and told him the plan he got your mother and I told her to and then after he grilled me and I practically had to fight your mother to come to dinner she asked if sho and nemuri were going to be there and I didn’t really have an answer at the time and she said she wanted to meet them before so it wasn’t weird the night of set that up and don’t really know what happened there”

 

 “She said they made them feel like shit for a second because they seemed more like my parents then them but grateful at the same time that I had them also I know this is off topic but your hair is getting pretty long”I say smoothing his hair in his face “I know I need to get it cut just haven’t yet” he says blowing hair out of his face “I like it” 

 

“You remember like 3 months into us being together like d/s together and I had to leave for like a month for work” he says “yeah we tried sounding when you got back what about it” I say thinking nothing of it “well I kinda have to do that again in 2 weeks” “for how long” “6 weeks” “god kiego really” “yes I know I know but I have to go I wish I didn’t but I do” “the hell am I supposed to do for 6 weeks” “before the Halloween party you asked if you bought something for me to wear would I wear it so how about during the time I’m gone you find whatever you want me to wear and when I get back I’ll wear it” “well that’s something to look forward to still going to be lonely as hell though” “I know but it’s a part of the job” “it’s ok kei I’ll just have to survive with no cuddles no sex no kisses no nothing” “stop being dramatic I’ll call as much as possible we can sleep on the phone or if you just want the company call me and I’ll just sit on the phone with you I won’t be gone just a few hours away” “promise” I say sticking out my pinky “promise” he says then kisses me and that kiss ends up deepening and then he pulls back laughing “I don’t use tongue when kissing” he say mocking me from earlier “I literally didn’t” “yes you did” “whatever man” I say laughing

Chapter 28: Hate the club-Hizashi

Notes:

hello loves ✨this is the Hizashi chapter I promised and I REALLLY like it and I hope you do too

One thing that I have been lucky to avoid is oboro for so long before and after everything went down but he’s back permanently in Tokyo and it’s always amazes me how we ended up and in the same social circles 

 

It’s this big industry party tonight and for many reasons i didn't want to come one I couldn’t get a plus one to and two because keigo is leaving next week Jess is attached to his hip so I was coming alone anyway 

 

“Ughhh let’s just get this over with” I say before getting out of my car  and giving my key to valet I walk in and it’s pretty loud and not what I was really expecting but fuck it 

 

“Hizashi” I hear from a very familiar voice behind me after ordering a drink I turn to see Kiyoshi “yoshi my love how are” I say putting a smile on my face “great you're here alone” she says before ordering a drink “yeah my usual plus ones got engaged” “to each other wait are you not dating Jess” she says shocked “no never have her and keigo been together for a few years now” “oh wow I thought hm learn something new every day” she says laughing “anybody else from the station here tonight” she adds “ugh no clue if anybody meeka here” I say talking about one of the host on the afternoon bracket 

 

After two drink and talking to kiyoshi I made my way up to the upstairs area and immediately I see him we lock eyes and I keep walking “if it isn’t the person I work for hizashii” Meeka says when she sees me “I knew you were here I caught you show earlier you did good” I say sitting on the couch next to her “you I know I don’t believe that you were actually up in time for my show after yours” “you start at 2 you think I’m not up before 2 on a Saturday wow you think so poorly of me” I say slightly offended “I promise you if we switched timeslots the world wouldn’t see me till Sunday” she says and we both laugh 

 

No matter how many ways I sat I saw him he was constantly in my field of vision “meeka life is a lot right now and to be honest with you I would love to forget about it for the night would you like to join me” I say deciding to make a bad  decision tonight “oh I’ve been waiting for the day” she grabs my hand and we go to the bar and do an ungodly amount shots like whew and I’m beyond drunk but not incoherent 

 

“Hey shirakumo” I  say sitting next to him on the couch “zashi” he says “duh who else why don’t you take me home and fuck me” I say whispering the last part “whoa dude chill” he says looking around “nobody paying us no mind coming onn I know you want to” i say putting my hand in his lap “okayy let’s get you out of here” he says standing up 

 

We leave out and wait for my car “hizashi what's going on you only drink like this when your going through something” he says looking at me “nothing wrong a man just can’t get a little wasted without people thinking something wrong” “with you yes your here alone and you don’t drink this much ever” “blah blah blah why do your care shirakumo” “because over everything else your still my fucking friend and this isn’t you” 

 

When the car pulls up we get in and we drive in silence for a while “Jess and keigo got engaged” I say looking out the window “yeah” he says looking at me then back at the road “yeah and god am I happy for them like so much shit has happened to them and here they are planning the rest of their lives out together and there’s me lonely only thing I have is the station and that is so fucking sad but that’s my life” “stop it hizashi your not lonely” “oh shut up I am and you know it you think if I wasn’t that I would’ve held on to that wack ass promise you gave me for so long” I say turning to him “your not lonely hizashi you just never give off the I’m ready to settle down vibe” “I’m almost fucking 30 shirakumo 30 and I’ve never been in a serious relationship and I had that to share with Jess she was my plus one we didn’t do relationships and now she’s asking me to be the god father to their baby in the future in a minute they won’t need me and then i'm going to be 100% alone their all I got left” I say wiping a tear that escaped from my eye “I want what they have so bad I want someone to fight for me like keigo fights for Jess I want somebody who at the thought of me having to leave them for 6 weeks feel like their life is going on pulse till I get back home to them I wanna come home and see someone look at me with pure happiness and joy in their eyes I want it so bad and I don’t give off the settle down vibe because i don’t know how I’ve never felt that type of love before” “yes you have from me hizashi since were being valuable I did love you back when you confessed the first time I wanted to say yes and hold you and never let go but I was scared you have always been comfortable with your sexuality and me on the other hand I just couldn’t and I’m still working on it and I meant what I said man but I know I’ll hurt you because I can’t be out like you are and you don’t deserve to be anybody's secret so I freaked out when we were all out because the stories keigo told sounds like there was more there and he was hiding parts because I was there and it pissed me off that he got to have you like that and I never could” 

 

The hizashi was too stunned to speak I was left speechless by that but the whole girlfriend the you were just a phase what the fuck is happening by the time we reach the entrance to my street I was pretty sober from the drive and what he just told me we get to Jess’s house and both cars are there and the lights are on “want me to drop you off there” he says stopping at the bottom of the driveway “nahh keigo leaves in a few days I’ll leave them alone” he drives two house down “It’s ok if I stay here until my Uber gets here” he says as we get out the car “ok but my offer still stands” I say going to unlock my door “zashi your drunk and I don’t want you to wake up and this was a mistake” he say walking in the house “dude I can walk talk and much more I’m not drunk”I say putting my keys down “you just told me you were upset that keigo had me in a way you never could well come and get it this is a limited time offer” I add “so your saying I was right in my assumption that he definitely was something to you” “yes he was and always will be”i say sitting on the couch “you know i was actually hoping to see you tonight” he says “hmm really” “yeah last time i saw you you were so pissed at me and i hated it i was hoping to see you and we talked everything out and be friends again i miss you zashi” he says leaning on the back of the couch “i was hoping the opposite i didnt wanna see you because im already going through shit and you were just going to be the icing on the cake to make me fall but im glad i did because i really dont have anybody but you that i can talk to about certain things” i say leaning my head back and looking up at him “yeah can't really tell them that your mega jealous of their relationship” he says with a chuckle “i dont know about mega jealous just a tad bit”i say “i always forget how pretty you are” he say moving a strand of hair beyond my ear he looking at me like hes studying my face taking it all in as if he’ll never see me again “i'm taking you up on your offer” he says “how prepared are you for this”i say as  

he comes around the couch and lays me down on the couch sitting in my lap “very”he says “how many fingers am I holding up” he adds holding up up 3 fingers “3 dingus” I say laughing moving his hand “just making sure” 

 

He leans down and we starts kissing then he pulls back “let’s take this upstairs” he says i nod he gets off of me and I get up we go upstairs to my room when I enter the room he pushes me to the wall connecting our lips once again while kissing he starts to undo my pants and move his way down my neck then when he got me out of my pants he gets on his knees in front of me “you actually went through the jacob's ladder” he says looking up at me while slowing jerking me “yeah on my 19th” i say looking down at him 

 

He slowly takes me into his mouth and starts to bob his head up down and my lord in the morning it's been awhile since i've done anything since jess and keigo stop using me as a stand in and with Asahi its not gotten to the level where he's doing anything remotely like this 

 

This man has me gripping on to air at this point “shit fuck baby im about to fuck” i say knees feeling like their about to give out he doesnt stop just keeps going getting as much of me in his mouth at once and im well acquainted with his throat “fucking hell” i say trying not to cum but its difinitly  going to be a hard feat he looks up at me while he single handly almost made a grown man cry and i could no longer hold back and to my surprise he swallows “fuck” i say laying my head on the wall “were not done yet” he say grabbing my hand and walking backwards to the bed till he was sitting down and i was in front of him “hes definity a bottom right yeah has to be” he say taking his pants off “keigo?” “yeah he seems like very submissive it weird” the fact that he has no clue about that portion of our life and keigo still reads submissive bottom is kinda funny to me “yeah he's a bottom why this important right now” i say holding back a laugh “it's not just you said you were going to give me what you gave him so if he was the bottom then that what i'm doing”  “okayyy if you say so lube condom what kind” i say opening the fully stocked draw next to the bed “umm well shit ok um im allergic to latex and i've only ever used silicone based lube before so that i guess” he says looking at the different options “ok ready” i say getting the condom and lube out before closing the draw “you have sex that often that you have a fully stocked draw like that”he say scooting back on the bed fully “no not really anymore but im always prepared” i say  putting the condom on 

 

When i'm on top of him looking over his body waiting for me to do anything i feel like even the slightest touch will bring him down but i won't tortour him like that i wonder if i tell him about the whole kink scene would he be down to be my sub 

 

I put a generous amount of lube on my fingers before lean down and place small kisses on his neck before i bite the side of his neck the same time i push two fingers into him he hisses and arches his back off the bed “its ok baby relax” i say lowly in his ear and he lets out a soft moan and he relaxes in to my touch more and more as i slowly start to stretch him and the soft almost nonexistent noises that came out of him made me wanna do nothing but to fuck him until he was screaming my name 

 

When i felt that he was ready i pulled my fingers out and got myself ready for this with the first stoke his eyes met his brain and the moan was louder this time i start with long deep strokes and god does this feel great and from his face i can definitely see that the feeling is mutual “fuck zashii fuck oh my god” he says gripping on to the sheets “you take me so well baby” i say “such a good boy for me” i say before kissing the side of his neck “fuck yes i am dont stop please dont stop” he says “i wouldnt dream of it” 

 

I take my chance to get my wish of hearing him scream my name when he says“shit im about cum” “what's my name baby” i say and he looks like hes trying to make words but they wont come out “come on say it you wanna cum don't you if you don't say it i won't let you” “hi-hi-zashii HIZASHI FUCKK” he yells cumming loudly “that's my boy” i say before cumming myself 

 

Out of breath i flop on the other side of the bed staring at nothing “i missed you zashi” he says turning and wrapping himself around head on my chest “yeah i missed you too” i say as we both let sleep take over us 

 

I wake up because my phone is vibrating on the bedside table i reach for carefully to not wake up shirakumo who's still holding on to me and its a facetime call from jess “fuck” i make sure you cant see him in the camera and answer “why are you still sleep this late” she says “its 11:30 its not late” “for you it is long night” keigo says you dont know the half of it “yeah stayed entirely to long at that party last night” “hm well go back to sleep i guess ill call you later” jess says “ok” i say before hanging up i look down and he's still sleep so i drift back off “zashi” i hear while also feeling a hand in my hair “hm” i say looking at shirakumo fully dressed “i got called in at work so i gotta go but i didn't wanna leave without telling you” “ok you want me to drop you off to go get your car” i say sitting up in the bed “no no my assistant had the valet ticket he got it for me last night i got an uber it'll be here soon” “ok let me walk you out then” i say getting up we go downstairs and the car was outside “ill um call you later”he says with a smile “you better” i say returning the smile “ok” he says before getting in the car the moment the car door closes i see jess at the end of my driveway “fuck” i say to myself

 

“Meeka texts me asking if you were ok because you got drunk and just disappeared from the party and you're here with oboro wow hizashi” she says following me in the house “jess i'm a grown man i can make my own decisions”i say sitting on the couch “did i say you couldn't but i am questioning your decision when they are damaging you don't get  drunk like that alone and you end up coming back home with him of all people what the hell” “yes i got drunk yes he was here but shit he was concerned just as much as you are and he drove me home he was going to leave but i asked him to stay” “and you had sex with him” “yes ok damn its not a big deal jess jesus” i say getting annoyed “it is a big deal he fucking hurt you and the first chance you get you fall right back for him dont come to me later crying because he fucking ghosted you again” “some fucking friend you are but you know what fine i won't go back home with keigo and dont call me to come sleep in your bed because you dont wanna sleep alone when he's gone ok how about that” i say standing up to go back upstairs fully over this shit “i won't hizashi i wont,continue going down the path that get you hurt every time have fun” she says walking to the door “lock the door on your way out jessica” i say from the top of the steps she slams the door and that was that 

 

She pissed me off something bad like ugh i shower and get ready to go to afterdark after getting pass security i sit down at one of the tables to wait for asahi “you look pissed who did it” shota says sitting in front of me “jessica” “ouu whole name what happened” “so last night there was this industry party that i had to make appearances at and shirakumo just happened to be there and i got really drunk and he took me home because in my state at the time i couldnt and he was going leave and i asked him to stay we talked and i sobered up and we you know and he left this morning and when he was leaving jess shows up and gets on my ass about it and ugh she acts like she knows what best for me all the damn time”i say getting pissed all over again “you know she's just looking out for you if she didn't love you she wouldn't care but she does you and him have a rocky past and if you didn't already have a shitty day i would be on your ass too but i'll lay off this time but i know how bad fights get between the two of you and her mouth is very reckless but don't take it to heart” “im not supposed to take ‘its a big deal he fucking hurt you and the first chance you get you fall right back for him dont come to me later crying because he fucking ghosted you again’ to heart” “ what did you say back” “not to call me when keigo leaves to come sleep with her at night ” i say standing behind my statement “you two fight dirty everytime huh but this is something you two have to figure out but if by next week you two arent talking im telling nem to deal with you two also asahi here” he say before standing up 

 

“So what are we doing today sir” he say kneeled down infront of me “i'm thinking impact around 250 hits you think you can handle it” i say grabbing the hair at the back of his head to make him look up at me “yes sir” he says with a giant smile on his face he's more of a masociot then keigo “good boy”        

Chapter 29

Notes:

HELLO LOVES I know it’s been awhile but I’ve been super busy and I made sure to make this chapter super long 13,000 word to hold you over till the next update I’m going to focus on another fic for awhile and once I’m up to date with that I’ll be back but I’ll sprinkle in a extra or two to hold you over till the next big update

I leave today and yes this sucks because i'm going to away from jess for 6 weeks and but what is making this worse is her and hizashi not talking right now because of oboro and to be honest i dont care about the situation hizashi a grown man and if thats what he wants to do then have fun ive had my fair share of dumb decisions so shit who am i the judge 

 

“Could you just like not leave this happens again next year go then” jess say holding on to me outside of the train station “cant because im not going next year can't leave you to plan a wedding alone” i say looking at her “ugh ok” she says leaning her head back on the car window “ill be back before you know princess” i say kissing the side of her neck “ok go before you miss the train call me when you get there” she says pulling me into a tight hug “ok i love you” “yeah i love you too” we give each other one last kiss before i head inside the train station

 

And as soon as i walk in i see hizashi “took you long enough” he says standing up from a bench “wouldnt have to wait if you two stop acting like 6 year olds and just talk like adults” “you telling  that to the wrong person its her fault” “iTs HeR fAlUt grow up man it was dumb fight regardless of  who started it and YOU prolonging it by not even trying to figure shit out” “im not here to talk about that keigo i'm here to see my best friend off nothing else” “make sure you see your other one on your way out im pretty sure she's still out there” i say when we reach the platform “whatever text me when you get there” he says “i will and when i get back you two better had worked it out” i say hugging him “yeah that's up to your fiancée but im going to miss you” he says hugging back “yeah i'm going to miss you more zashi” i say before we let go the train comes and we say our last goodbyes and i leave 

 

While sitting outside the train station on the off chance there's a cancelation and i see hizashi come out the station “you can leave now he's on the train” he says walking up to me “why are you even here” “because i wanted to see him before he left because someone held him hostage for the past week” “thought that wouldn't be a problem because you were doing whatever with shirakumo” “you watching my house now” “no i saw him leaving yesterday when i was coming home why would i be watching your house like i care” “well what i came here to do is done so i'm out im not fighting with you today call me when you wanna act like an adult” he says leaving 

 

Bored with absolutely nothing to do i head to my parents house when i pull in to the driveway the car is gone and the house is very much empty “wonder where they are” i say to myself as i sit down on the couch 

 

To: Jordy🧬

Dude where's our parental figures 

From:  Jordy🧬

Now why the hell would i know i don't live there anymore why

To:  Jordy🧬

Im at their house because im bored and their not here

You should come over it been like 3 weeks since i seen you

From: Jordy🧬

 Sure i guess 

It'll be like an hour before im there though 

I'm out with mileena's dad

To:  Jordy🧬

Then why the hell are you texting see you later 

 

I sit on my phone doing random shit till i hear the front door open “jessica what are you doing here” my dad says taking of his coat “man i thought we were cool now can you please just call me jess like literally everyone else in my life”i say sitting up on the couch “i didn't name you jess so i'm not calling you that now can you answer the question” “dropped keigo off today and i was in the area i can't just wanna see my lovely parents” “lovely that's new” my mom says laughing sitting on the couch in front of me “expect more random visits he chose the time when i have the most time off to leave for 6 weeks” i say knowing i only have 2 weeks worth of patients this month “where's he going” my dad asks “i don't know a convention a expo and more conventions about i don't know medical tech things he doesn't talk about work enough for me know exactly even what he does sometimes” “wheres hiz-” “we are currently not talking at the moment” i say cutting my mom off “you two are never not talking” “wrong i stopped taking my anxiety meds like 6 years ago and he said that i shouldn't blah blah we didn't talk for like a month and the only reason we talked is because we had to work on the same night” “jessica why did you stop taking them” my dad asks “because i wanted to see how bad my anxiety really was i've been on it since i was what 10 i had no real measure of how bad it was and since ive stopped i've only had one big anxiety attack” I explain “so did you talk to a doctor at least before stopping” my mother asks “I’m literally a psychologist I have the licence and everything I know what I’m doing I didn’t just go cold turkeys like a psycho I lowered the dose every two weeks till I was not taking it at all and it worked my body got used to not having it in my system so it was a pretty easy transition” “but you still get the prescription” “yeah never know when that decision is going to bite me in the ass again and I got the dose lowered a few years back so I don’t get as much as I used to also Jordan’s outside” I say seeing his car pull into the driveway 

 

“Definitely thought I was going to beat you here” Jordan says sitting where my legs are “so you have both of your wonderful children here what are we doing tonight” I say looking at my parents “like Mileena is with her family for the weekend and I have nothing planned so what’s the plan” Jordan’s says “ughh ok let’s think” my dad says sitting back on the couch “yeah ok well it’s getting late wanna go out get dinner come back watch some movies and you guys sleep here tonight” my mom suggests “you’re definition of going out to dinner is somewhere fancy we are not dressed for that” I say looking at our outfits “Jessica I have the perfect dress for you come on” she says getting up and grabbing my hand “no I’m going to look like a preacher wife Jordan save me” I say reaching for him as she drags me upstairs 

 

“I got it a few months ago and it’s a bit to risky for me personally but I think it’s more your speed” she says going through her closest “risky for you is something above the knee and a ¾ sleeve” i say really trying to figure out how that my speed “ah here it is” she says pulling it down from the rack “voilà“ she turns with a sparkly black dress with a deep loose V cut in the front “Whoaaa ok yes very risky for you give me” I say now more excited reaching for it “go get changed” she say handing it to me 

 

When I reach the bathroom and I get a call from keigo “are other people around you” I say having the camera facing the wall “no I just got in my room” “ok how was the trip” I say propping the phone up and taking my shirt off “whoa um good where are you” “my parents house we’re going out and my mother gave me this super cute dress” I say taking off my pants “ah ok where the um dress”he says still frazzled “you gotta wait to see it” I say walking off camera to put it on “mom can you help me” I yell “this is your job and your not here you’ve spoiled me” I say peeking my head in the camera “hey it comes with the title” “what you need help with” “the zipper also how extensive is your makeup kit” “uh open that door everything is in there also you’re going to have to take the bra off” “i know you have boob tape” “uhh yes in here somewhere also hello keigo” she says walking past the phone “hiii” he says in the phone “here we go” she says handing me boob tape 

 

“Ok wow I thought I had a lot of makeup Jesus” I say looking at this closet full of makeup of different brands I take things that I usually wear out and put them on the counter “princess can I see you know I’m tired of staring at the wall” keigo says laying down on his side “wait like 5 more minutes” I take the bra off and put the tape on just to make sure everything stays in place “ta-da” I say stepping in the camera “did she buy the dress for you also and most importantly you look beautiful princess” “thank you and no she bought it for herself” I say sitting down on her vanity stool “yeah that’s definitely a reach from her usual attire” “yeah drastically different do you have anything to do tonight” i says starting to put on makeup “no probably order room service I’m tired as hell” “is Tanaka there yet” “nahh she comes in tomorrow so what made you go to your parents house it’s on the complete other side of town” he says yawning “if I went home I would’ve been alone after dark I one would get an ear full about he should not be named two it’s not like I could do anything there without you so I ended up here” “you know you miss him so stop acting like that” “no I miss my hizashi who didn’t make dumb decisions and until he’s back I’m not dealing with it” “what if he doesn’t stop and he and oboro starts a relationship you’re just never going to talk to him again” “well that’s never going to happen” “but what if it does this all got blown out of proportion we all think that this isn’t the best decision for him but if this what he wants to do who are we especially us to judge” “we were  completely different yes it’s not always been sunshine and rainbows but I never told you you were a phase” “you never said it but you never gave me the chance to tell you how I actually felt about the whole name on the leg thing and you just threw the “permanent partner” label on me that’s not what I wanted but I went along and eventually got what I wanted” “but-“ “but nothing you can be mad at him for a million things right now but don’t fault him for loving who he loves” he says cutting me off “I’ll think about talking to him about it soon”I say looking forward in the mirror 

 

We stop talking and he’s just here to keep me company “ok all done like it” I say looking back down to see him sleeping “I can’t even be mad when you look that cute” I screenshot before hanging up the phone “you ready Jess” Jordan says coming in the bathroom “yeah just need shoes you think she would let me wear her ysl heel shoe” “she’s already downstairs and I’m pretty sure she won’t notice and you can afford to replace them now” “very true” I go and find them in her closet and they fit perfectly “ok let’s go” 

 

“So have either of you been here before” my mom says looking at the menu “yeah I came here with keigo and the other one” I say doing the same “you really can hold a grudge can’t you” Jordan says “yes i can” “don’t worry I give it week before their back friends again” my dad says “I just have to resolve the issue before keigo gets back because I promised I would which is in 6 weeks and I’m not backing down that easily” “you know touya is out of town for work as well correct” “no no I did not” I say now realizing I have no one but hizashi here now “yeah wouldn’t be surprised if she goes over tomorrow” Jordan says laughing 

 

“Zashi I hate that I’m the reason your not talking to Jess can you just like talk to her and tell her that we talked everything out and it’s not like that” shirakumu says laying on my bed “now that would be a lie” “well yes we’re having sex butttt we’re not going any further we’ve agreed to not go any further than that” “to her the fact that your laying in my bed right now is a problem it won’t be that easy and I’m not about to kiss her ass” “ok not saying to kiss her ass I’m saying to clear the air with your best goddamn friend” “she started it she has to be the one to apologize and I’m not taking no half ass apology either” “why would she give you a half ass apology if she comes to you apologizing you better accept it” “you gonna punish me if I don’t” I say straddling his lap “I might just have too” 

 

When we made it back to my parents house we were trying to pick a movie “ew why do you own all 3 50 shades of grey” I say going through their extensive dvd collection “well I read the books and wanted to see how the movie adaptations were” my mom says opening a movie case “well to let you know that that is not standard practice and we do not claim that in our community” I say “so you don’t do anything that’s in that movie” she asks “well to an extent yes but it’s still shitty representation like the contract negotiation some of the different sex practices but no do not think that’s what I did for a living” “I didn’t think that when you did it professionally was the closest to it but with keigo” she say putting something back on the shelf “I’m sorry what” my dad says “well yes it would be the closest also dad don’t go and ask keigo about it because to him you’re literally the only person that sees him as a normal person” “well I would like for this conversation to go in a different direction I don’t wanna hear about my daughter sex life” it goes silent for about a minute “so is he the no I don’t wanna know” he says breaking the silence “both depending on the day but he’s a submissive leaning switch so” ”how do you know about that relationship” he says turning to my mother “when they first met she was not being the nicest and to make her uncomfortable he called me mistress and we left” “uncomfortable isn’t the word” “ok I guess how about we find a family friendly movie like-“ “Hamilton” me and Jordan both say “no no no it’ll be more of the J&J show” “come onnnn” “ok ok” 

 

After 2 hours and 23 minutes of me and Jordan giving an Emmy winning performance as Alexander hamilton and Aaron burr we decided it was time to turn in for the night “what are you doing up” I say answering keigo phone call “you left me” he says still half asleep “well I’m here now wanna stay on the phone all night” I say putting my iPad on the bedside table “is that your old room” he says “yeah from age 17 to 21” “hm I’ve never been in there before” “you never wanted to come back home with me” “do you really think you’re parents would’ve let me sleep in your room with you” “they wouldn’t have had  a choice and at the time you didn’t have the slightest interest in me” “no I did but Kenny didn’t wanna share” “wow so selfish” I say getting comfortable in the bed I haven’t slept in in 6 years “hm that’s weird” he says yawning “what” I say “ the picture behind you of zashi kissing that dude it’s me how didn’t you know that we were friends” “that's you” I turn to the wall behind me and it’s a picture I took from his parents house that he took at a party of him kissing a dude “no shit it is wow I took the picture from him before we left for school so I never put two and two together weren’t you and Kenny together then” “yeah but at the time we weren’t and that’s how that and the zashi confession happened” “hmm I’m going over tomorrow to talk to him” “can you repeat that” “repeat what I didn’t say anything” “princess I’m too tired for this goodnight” he says turning in his bed 

 

I wake up because I hear small whispers of Conversation “no no talk louder” I say opening my eyes to see my entire family at the doorway “sorry sweetheart it’s just it’s almost 3 in the evening” my mother says “ok that doesn’t explain the whispering and staring at me sleeping” i say sitting up “it’s concerning to sleep for that long” “I’ve seen her make it 4 before” keigo chimes in and I look at the iPad completely forgetting her was there “so you just sleep this late” my dad says “yes if I have absolutely nothing to do” I say getting out of the bed and grabbing the iPad “well if your hungry there’s food downstairs” my mom says as I walk in the bathroom

 

“good morning princess” “yeah I’m surprised you’re still on the phone” “yeah I left and came back and you were still sleep so I waited for you to wake up” “where’d you go” “met Tanaka at the station” “ah” I say looking at hizashi location on my phone “why is he never home” I say “who” “I was going to be nice and go talk to hizashi but he’s not home” “you a good hour and half away from home he should be there by time you get there” seeing where he was it does make sense that if I leave now I can see him as soon as he gets back “yeah can’t half ass this one” I say stretching “not at all and don’t turn this into an argument either” “I won’t” “what made you change your mind on apologizing” “well and I know this sounds crazy but you” “what you actually listening to me wow” “ok calm down but your right because I told him before the spa trip that I was falling down bad for my sub and he thought I was bat shit crazy but he let me make that decision and it turns out that it was one of the best decisions I’ve made not saying that whatever he and shirakumo got going on is that but he always let me make decisions judgment free so why am I the judgemental one” 

 

After the long ride in the rain back home I finally made it when I get to zashi house there two cars in the driveway but if I don’t do this now I won’t have the courage to do it again anytime soon 

 

I knock on the door and I hear “coming” on the other side of the door “you’re the last person I thought would be at my door in the rain what” “I was coming over to apologize and talk to you but never mind” I say turning back to my car “Jessica bring your ass back” “no see ya later” “it’s just me here I dropped him off at work not that long ago so come on” I turn around and walk back to the door “you look like yesterday” he say as I walk in closing my umbrella “yeah stayed with my parents last night don’t have much there” I say taking my hood off “where you wanna do this” “living room” i say walking towards it 

 

“So first I’m sorry I over reacted to this because I don’t wanna see you get hurt again and thought you were making reckless decision but obviously there’s more going on that I obviously don’t know about but me judging you for doing what you did was wrong and like I said I’m sorry I don’t wanna throw away us for something like this so if you’ll forgive me I promise to not be so judgmental anymore” I say looking at him across from me “well since you're apologizing I guess I said something that day that’s worth the apology I’m sorry Jess for also being childish when it came to this I get that you care about me but at the same time you gotta let me make my own decisions babe just how I let you make your own” “yeah I know but when it comes to you especially i wanna see you nothing but happy and I’ll do anything for that” “I know and im thankful for that but what would make me happier is if you would stop treating me like a frail person that you need to protect from the outside world” “ok I’ll try” I say laughing “now tell me what’s going on” 

 

He gives me the rundown about being jealous about me and keigo and how he and oboro are just fucking at the moment 

 

“That’s all just sex are you going to be able to do that” I say “yeah I can do it I treat it as a friends with benefits type thing he comes over we might go out or stay in talk regular friend shit and then we might fuck it’s not an every time thing” he explains “ok so no commitment does he even know about master or asahi” “no no and no he doesn’t need to know that part” “so when you go out to After Dark what do you tell him or what if he wants to come to the studio while he’s there” “I don’t have to explain myself to him but if that ever happens then I cross that bridge when i get there” 

 

“So I know we’ve cleared the air and talked but important question are we still friends” I ask in all seriousness “ oh no I just need to clear the air before I cut you loose yes dumbass were still friends” “don’t do that man my heart dropped to my ass good lord” “come here” he says patting the spot beside him “it’s going to take a lot more to break up the dream team” he says wrapping his arm around me “promise” I say straddling him “you move fast” he says laughing “but I promise” he say holding out his pinky we lock pinky and he kiss my cheek “I got demoted to cheek kisses ouch” “yeah you gotta work your way back up” he says hands resting on my hips “how anything you want” “hmmmm let’s see take me out to dinner tonight” “done anything else” “yeah you have to be ok with occasionally shirakumo coming some places with us it won’t be often but you can’t be an asshole the whole time” “as long as y’all don’t act like a couple the whole time I’m fine with that but also keigo going to be the jealous one next” “he knows nobodies taking his spot no matter who it is” “but ok it’s done I won’t act like an asshole as long as he doesn’t try to start a who knows hizashi best competition” “ok well then I think you deserve your ranking back” he says pulling me in by the back of my neck 

 

The kiss that was supposed to just be a small 1,2 turns into wayyy more than that 

He breaks the kiss to take off my shirt and I do the same he starts kissing my neck and down to my chest while slipping his hand in my pants “fuck” I say when he slips two fingers in me “you don’t even deserve this” he says picking up the pace abusing my gspot“you and your smartass mouth” he adds “then punish me” I say making serious eye contact “upstairs now” he says pulling his hands out of my pants

 

I smile and get off of him and go upstairs with him not that far behind me I go to open his room door “no kink room go” he says pointing to the door I go to the door and I haven’t been in here for a good while so it’s to my surprise I see a bondage bench and he has a lot of his impact and rigging equipment on the walls  “strip and sit on the bed” so this is the sub treatment hm I do what he ask and waits for him and I get antsy because I’m never really on the receiving end of this with keigo he already has everything ready and prepared and he’s also intermediate with it so I never feel intimidated but right now just him taking his sweet time getting back in here is killing me 

 

He come back out with just a o-ring in his hand “safe word” “hawks” “your getting no special treatment you must follow everything I tell you or it will get worse before it gets better you earn praise in here I don’t wanna hear a hizashi zashi none of that only master and sir you can do that for me right” he say holding my face so I’m making eye contact with him “yes sir I can” “good ok go lay on that” he points to the bench 

 

I go over and put my knees on the thing and lean forward my ankles wrist and torso are restrained to the contraption ”pick a number 1-8” “6” I say kinda scared of what I’m choosing “Ouu you chose my favorite hope you don't have to work tomorrow” he comes from behind me and squats in front of my face “open” he say holding the o ring up 

 

He latches it behind my head and stands back up “now I don’t gotta worry about your smartass mouth” Jesus these things are uncomfortable he goes behind me again and I feel leather of some kind up against my ass I braces for myself and I can hear it cutting through the air and it makes a loud pop against me and my whole body is jolted forward he does it again and again and again and another 30 times “you caused this now your crying and drooling all over yourself”he says looking at me “I’m sorry master please” I say as best as I could “yeah uhuh 1-8 minus 6” “one” “one ok” 

 

Unlike the last one I know immediately that this was a whip from how it wrapped around my leg with the first hit I’m finally getting a taste of my own medicine of all my years of kink I’ve never felt this much satisfying pain ever in my life  

 

I’ve lost count of how many hits and just melted in to the bench I chose another number and I’m just living in the pain of my choice “hey baby look at me” he says bringing me back to earth in front of my face I look up and he takes the o-ring out of my mouth “talk to me you ok” “yes” “you sure you went unresponsive for a second there” “did I” “yeah you did I asked 2,3,4,5,or 8 and I got nothing back but it’s ok we’re done ok” “ok” 

 

He gets me off of the bench and back on the bed I fall back on the bed “ow” I say “you know better lay on your stomach” I flip over on the silk sheets “you need anything” he says rubbing my back “yes” “what is it” I reach up grab his shoulder and bring him down to me so that he’s laying down next to me “I want praise” I say with the small amount of energy I had left “and you deserve it you did great for me today baby I know you’re still getting used to receiving pleasure and you did so good for me love” he says rubbing up and down my back “it felt really good” I say fighting with sleep “did it” “yes it hurts now but in the moment *chefs kiss*” 

 

I fell asleep without noticing so when I woke up next to a sleeping hizashi and shining sun I was a little confused and I get up and my whole lower half hurts like a bitch I go through the connecting bathroom to his bedroom and found clothes to put on and tried my damndest to make it downstairs “Jesus how does keigo just go on about his a day after this shit” I say to myself getting my phone off the couch and laying on it 

 

I have several missed calls from keigo so I call him back “you had one hour to call me back before I was on my way back home” he says answering the phone “I’m sorry I’m sorry after we ended the call earlier I came over to zashi house and I just woke up and my phone has been downstairs” “so you two made up I’m guessing” “yeah of course”i say laying down face first in the couch “uhuh why are you so tired” “do you know what a bondage bench is” “no but I can take a guess of what it is why” “that’s why i was gagged and hit an unknown amount of times lost count around 40” I say sitting up and laying back down “40 he must really didn’t wanna hurt you” “no no I stop counting after 40 it went on way longer than that” “where is he” “upstairs sleep” then I hear him coming down the stairs “never mind he’s coming downstairs” 

 

“I’ll be back gotta get oboro” he says getting his keys “I thought we were going out later”i says looking over the couch “his car is here he’s just getting his car and going home I’m all yours today now I’ll be back” “ok”  “what’s the plan for today” keigo says “i demoted to cheek kisses and to get “my ranking” back I have to take him out to dinner tonight and be nice to oboro if we’re ever in the same space” “now that sounds like mission impossible for you” “I know but I have to at least try”

 

“ I need to go home and get ready but I feel like driving is incredibly lazy but on the other hand my ass and legs hurt to bad to walk” “did you bruise” “if I didn’t it would be a miracle” i say standing and stretching “ouch you're definitely bruised on your hip” keigo says when the hoodie comes up “yeah well we can guess what the rest looks like you think I can get away with walking down the street in just this” I say pulling the hoodie all the way down it falls about mid thigh “it’s Sunday shouldn’t anybody be out so yeah” 

 

“Ohmygod ohgod why of all days to have family fun time in the front yard it’s today” I say walking past the house in between mines and hizashi “that was fucking embarrassing” I say closing my door behind me “what you just walked out of your neighbors house half naked and with a rainbow of visible bruise that’s just something you see everyday” keigo says laughing “leave me alone man I just scared those kids for life” I say getting up my steps “well that’s two new future patients” he says laughing harder “you really getting a good laugh out of my humility huh” I say walking in my closet 

 

“ok ok I’m done also Jesus that was funny anyways question” “what” “shota nemuri what’s that relationship I’ve always wondered” “to be 100% honest I don’t know we thought they were siblings but different family names then we thought they were secretly married or something but never got an answer for that but thier just two high school best friends that owns a bdsm dungeon and live together” “so they work together and live together and their not together hm odd” “yeah I know we’ve never even seen where they live either so the secretly married thing could be possible” “now that would be a surprise but they don’t seem like a married couple though” “yeah your right but who knows you should ask the next time you see them” “yeah no I’m ok nemuri scares me I always feel like she would make me rethink life if she got the chance and I go into gay panic everytime I’m around shota so I’m ok I’ll let it be the 8th wonder of the world” he says as I take the hoodie off “pussy”I say dropping it on the floor “call me what you want and why every time you on my phone you’re getting naked Jesus” he says covering his phone “you usually like when I’m naked what changed” I say walking off camera “I’m usually not two hours away when you are you're going to make this 6 weeks painful keep this up” he says appearing back in the camera “I could make it worse I’ve just chosen not to yet anyway god he really limited my options of what I can wear by a ton” I say looking at my clothes “we’re are y’all going again” ”I don’t know actually he just said I had to pay sooo I really don’t even know what to wear” just then I get a text from a group chat with me zashi shota and nemuri in it 

 

AD(After Dark⛓)

From: Sho🐈⬛

You two made up correct 

Even if you didn’t need you both @AD 

We got a big shipment of stuff today and we have no use for a bunch of it so come look through it before we put the rest in the rooms 

From:HIZASHI❤️

Yes we’ve made up 

And I gotta go home and change first 

To AD(After Dark⛓)

Yeah same 

 

“Well I guess I have to be mistress Jess for awhile tonight” I say going to the other side of my closet “further information please” keigo says “nothing like that but we’re going to AD to go see if there’s anything we want out of the shipment of stuff they just got also have you seen hizashi kink room lately” “umm is this a trick question i feel like this is a set up” “no actually because I deadass feel like I need to redo the whole damn room” “well I haven’t been in there in a while but it is pretty dope” “and mine is just a extra room with a bed like I need to step my game up maybe I’ll just leave it as is for now and wait till we move to do it” “I was thinking about some stuff about that andddddddd to be honest why go through the whole thing of having to sell the house and the condo and I move there my condo is paid off so I could always rent it which I doubt i'll do but it’s an option” “but it’s so far from work for you” I say zipping the back of my dress “not really nor do I really care but if you don’t like the idea then we don’t have to” “no no I like it however comma I’m only agreeing to this if you agree to bringing your couch and living room furniture so I can put it in that empty ass family room oh and your bed I want it here” “ok anything else” “uhhhhhhhh yes I don’t have nearly enough room for both of us to have a full wardrobe in here so we’re going to either get rid of some shit” “or and hear me out we reorganize your closet and collide the two worlds and I take the second one in your room because we both know we’re not getting rid of clothes”he says cutting me off is he wrong on I would have a full break down if I had to go and get rid of my clothes “yeah ok I can do that and once you take your stuff from here that can fit in here perfect left or right” I say holding up two corsets “uhh right but i know if your asking you want me to say left ” he says looking at the options “I absolutely hate how much you know me it’s scary sometimes” “it’s my job”

 

 “are you going to be free if I call to ask if you want something or if you’re ok with something later when I’m at AD” “uhh in a minute I have to leave to go to the opening of the convention so just text me and I'll respond” “ok well zashi is downstairs so I’ll call well text you then” “yeah ok have fun I love you” “I love you more kei” 

 

“Um why are the neighbors looking at us like we just committed adultery” he says looking out the window as I get in his car “ah because I walked out of your house in just a hoodie and they were having family fun time outside today” “ok then we deserve that then” he says pulling out of my driveway “we bring our kink bag every year and they always end up giving us a new one” I say looking at the two identical bags in the backseat “yeah but we always leave with both bags full so it comes in handy” 

 

We get there and bypassed security and head to the back lounge/office area to seeing damn near a sex store inventory “ok we went all out this year didn’t we” hizashi says as we walk in the room “yeah we went and cleaned out our kits and ALL of the rooms so we got way more than usual so have fun” nemuri says as she takes some stuff out of a box 

 

There’s two duffel bag dust bags that look very full sitting with a J on one and a H on the other we go and open them and there two brand new black leather duffel with a red lining “Jess do we need to continue to buy those for you because you really don’t need it” shota says “and why won’t I need it anymore” “because you’re not doing much kink traveling anymore because you know your about to married and all that jazz” “well yes but I still use them for other things and what if I decide to do public scenes again I’m just supposed to bring my stuff in my hands” “your thinking about doing public scenes again” sho says “wellll yes but I haven’t talked to kei about yet because as much as I would love to do them if he’s not comfortable with it then I can’t” “yeah you can’t do you want subs outside of him”nemuri says “yeah kinda I’ve been doing the same routine for the past two years and I wanna spice it up but like I said I don’t really think he’ll be ok with that like at all he hates the thought of me even having subs in the past before him and to actively have one while I’m with him would open a whole world wind of bullshit I don’t wanna deal with” I say thinking about how that conversation would even go “won’t know till you ask he was upset about asahi too but we said that we were separating that part of our lives from each other and he’s ok with it now” “hizashi it’s different wayyyy different he didn’t like the concept of you replacing him so that’s different then your soon to be wife doing these things with other men it’s completely up to him if she could come back full time” shota says “but regardless of what she wants to do or how she goes about it keigo has the final say in this” nemuri says “yeah he does i can't just make this decision on my own and i have a pretty good sense i know what the answers going to be but who knows”

 

We go through and pretty much take two of everything before we left and went out to eat i was pretty out of it for most of the night because as much as i want to do this i know keigo isn't going to go for this in the slightest and the fact that im even asking this could make him very insecure and i don't want that we just got back 100% i don't wanna erase all the progress we've made but this isn't some on the fly idea i've been thinking about it for awhile and put a lot of thought into if i wanted to do it forreal or not but its still hard to now have to think of another person when for so long my decisions had no effect on anyone but myself 

 

“What is it you've been weird all day”keigo says taking his jacket off “nothing nothing its nothing” i say very damn convincing “yeah ok what is it what happened you've been a space cadet all damn day even through text so what is it” he says sitting in front of the camera “nothing just been thinking about somethings nothing major” “no it has be something major because i've never known you to not say every thought that has ever ran through you head so just tell me” “ughh ok ok ok i don't know how to ask this” i say trying to think of the best way to say this “just say the words i'll make sense of it” “ok for awhile now i've been thinking about getting back into the full swing of kink and i'm not saying this because there's anything to do with us it's just its almost been 3 years since i've done the thing that i've been doing for 10 years full time what we have is great but there's certain things that i wanna do that i know you don't” “like what you've never asked to try anything new” “your not into public humiliation and public scenes that i know and i really miss doing that” “ok yes but you want other submissives essentially” from the way he said that it made me instantly regret even bringing it up “i mean i get that i'm not that experienced but i didn't think i was that bad” “no no baby no that's not why your my perfect sub the one i've been dreaming for there's just an aspect that i miss that's outside of you you know what forget it i'm sorry for bringing it up” i say completely giving up on the idea as whole “no i can't neglect this because that would be wrong are my feeling a little hurt that you've been thing about getting another sub or multiple yes but if im not satisfying a need i rather address it then to let you continue to feel this way” “its ok we can just forget i bought it up your not comfortable with it and i get that that's why i really didn't wanna bring it up because i know that's not something your comfortable with so im sorry” “i would be the most selfish person on the planet if i was to sit here and tell you no straight up you heard me say that i felt like i was being replaced when hizashi brought up meeting with a new sub and actively still have that type of relationship with him so that i can't ignore because you didn't so as much as its punching my ego i can't say no” “so you're ok with it” “yeah but i have some conditions” “ok what are they”i say grabbing a pen to write them down “one you have to go by a different honorific no one but me gets to call you mistress” “ok i can do that” “the new sub can't be anybody you've already dommed especially that dipshit remy” “didn't plan on that but ok i understand” “i don't wanna know anything about them” “ignorance is bliss” “they only can meet you at after dark or wherever not at the house” “kei your the only sub that has ever been in that room but ok” “and finally im allowed to come to the public scenes every once and awhile” “ok wait you wanna watch that” “i mean me watching  you toruture  a man till he came is the reason were here now” “well yes well if your coming and watching you have to be collared” i say thinking about the fact that i won't be present to actually make it know hes mine “scared somebody going to steal me” “they can try if they want to butttt anything else you” “uhh no I don’t think so” “ok so if you don’t mind I have some conditions as well” “don’t mind at all shoot” “first I want to add a clause to the not wanting to know anything about them condition you proposed” “ok” “I won’t tell you anything about them in the same way only thing we know about asahi is his name and he’s zashi sub so same thing I don’t want you completely in the dark about this I’ll tell you their name and it’ll be a don’t ask don’t tell type of thing” “ok I can agree with that” “next because no matter what I do outside of this relationship I’m yours we need new collars I’m thinking matching and instead of princess or kei on the outside it’s on the inside of the collar” “hm I actually like that a lot ok” “ok oh and what if I have a client that like others to watch would you do it or is that crossing the don’t ask don’t tell line” “yeah it kind of is but so is the me coming to live scenes so if the other person is ok with it being me then yeah” “ok well I’ll type up our new agreement and send it over and for you to approve and sign” “you and your contracts” “you know I love a good contract and they hold me accountable because knowing me I’ll fuck up and tell you ever detail of what happened” “yeah no don’t need that in my life” 

 

It’s been two weeks into this 6 week hell I’ve made for myself this is hotel number two honestly this is the worst part of my job if Tsunagu was still here this would be his job but unfortunately he’s not so here I am I always hate this part because I’m in 6 different hotels in 6 different places around fucking Japan and I’ll only ever see four product max through this whole thing that I maybe wanna add to switch and I’ve given this same presentation so many times I hate it and thank god for Tanaka because she’s been a huge fucking help 

 

I just got back from being out all of day and I wanna sleep but I have to at least shower first 

 

just as I was getting out of the shower Jess calls “hey baby” she says smiling at the phone “hey princess how was your day” I say day instantly feeling better “good good didn’t do much only had 2 patients but I had lunch with missy today that was fun how was yours” “busy did some networking listened in to some panels and presentations and went over my presentation with Yo but other than that nothing special” “Yo on first name basis with your assistance that’s odd” “don’t be like that” “like what I’m just saying” she says throwing her hands “you seem like you're insinuating something” “no not insinuating anything just i don’t know its weird” “why is it weird” “because you call her by her first name does she call you by your first name” “actually yes she does Takami is too formal” “hm ok” “whattttt it’s not a big deal why are you making it one” i say leaving the bathroom “am not” “are too you got an attitude I see it all over your face” “there’s nothing I trust you just she gets be to be with you for the next 6 weeks” “so your jealous is what I’m hearing” “why would I be jealous” “you’re jealous because she’s here and you’re not” “well maybe because we spent two months apart then 3 months barely seeing each other THEN when we could be together again you leave so maybe just maybe I am just a little” “princess I’ll be back before you know it then I’m all yours” “promise” “I promise”

 

“Ugh I just hate being this far away from each other and I have another 3 weeks of not seeing you god what did I do to deserve this” “yeah I know but at least you get to sleep in your own bed I’m going to need a serious massage when I get back home” he says stretching “at this moment same I’ve been sleeping weird for some reason” “because you sleeping by yourself and you become a contortion in your sleep and you have all the space in the world to do so also where are you going” “I got bored and went to torture my dad at work today and touya got back last night so I’m on my way there now” I say stopping at a red light “ah question” “yes” “when I get back I took off for two weeks wanna go back to the spa we went to” “Ouu yes please that’s sounds great but wouldn’t you want to spend those two weeks at home you just said you miss your bed“ “yes I did and the thought of sleeping in another hotel room stresses me out but then again as long as I’m getting that fucking massage I really don’t care” for some reason that makes me laugh “ok ok I get it 100%” 

 

“also I signed to contract and sent it back to you and I added something so look when you get a chance” “well I’m glad I haven’t signed it yet” “why” “what if I don’t agree with the added term and I’m stuck with it because I already signed it” “I sometimes forget you were supposed to be a lawyer” “and I would’ve been a damn good one to” “what I added wasn’t anything crazy so I doubt you won’t agree with it” I pull into touya driveway and look at the new term he added 

 

“Blah blah blah blah ok *revised* once a week Jessica Carter Takami has to dom Keigo Takami I really like how you changed my last name for everytime that it’s in here and I guess I can agree to that once I figure out everything else I’ll give you a day” “one yes might as well get used to seeing it and two see I told you it wasn’t bad” “yeah yeah I hope they aren’t doing anything inappropriate because when I called earlier that’s what it sounded like” “mh have fun with that I gotta meet up with some people I’ll call you later when I get back” “ok love ya” I say hitting the doorbell “make sure you add the i next time I love you too” he says before hanging up 

 

“Jessica”touya says opening the door“Touya” I say walking in the house “why don’t you have on a shirt” “because I’m in my house” “and you knew I was coming over nobody wanna see all that” I say plucking his nipple ring “ow asshole I treat you so well for you too abuse me every chance you get” “sir you bit me not even a month ago for simply breathing” “nobody told you to do that” “you two fight like kids” tenko says coming downstairs “ah the person I actually came to see” I say sitting next to him at the island “when is keigo coming back I’ve been back less than 24 hours and I’ve already seen you too much” “first 3 more miserable weeks second you texted me that you were back and wanted me to come over so just admit that you missed me and keep it goin third you leave again without telling me I will actually fight you I had to find out from my dad” “it was last minute I barely knew he was leaving” tenko says in his defense “yeah yeah I folded because of you two y’all disappear on a ”work trip” at  the same time I was trying to stay upset with hizashi” “that has absolutely nothing to do with us and it was an actual work trip well the first few days anyway” he says leaving the kitchen“first few days you been gone 3 weeks”i say turning in my seat  “you get to run off to Ibiza and spas and shit with your fiancé we can do that same”hes says sitting in the living room “literally not the point” i say jumping down from the stool “why were you upset with hizashi”tenko says  “oh um he went out got drunk ended up with someone who hurt the hell out of him” “what did that have to do with you” touya says eating a grape “I’m tired of seeing my Best Friend get hurt over and over by the same person and he keeps going back so I got upset and so did he we didn’t talk for like a week” “And you made up I’m guessing” “yeah kiego made me think about it differently and I apologized he apologized and we’re cool again” I say taking the grape out of his hand “I sometimes wish you didn’t exist” “oh well your stuck with me” 

 

These past four weeks has been hard for me because there’s only so much porn you can watch before it straight up becomes repulsive and I’m going to give myself goddamn carpal tunnel if I keep going at this rate 

 

I’m sitting in a panel answering questions with other people about the advancement of hospital technology blah blah blah I know you don’t care why am I telling you anyways my phone vibrates a total of 10 separate times in my lap before I flip the phone over to see 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Attachments:10 pictures and videos 

 

Now from the small preview I couldn’t fucking tell what the hell she could possibly be sending me so to my ignorance I open the message and is presented with my soon to be wife very much half naked and with her favorite toy in hand I quickly lock my phone and put back face down and it vibrates again and again in my lap I look 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I need you to hurry home so you can do this for me 

I miss you being in me so much 

Do you miss it as much as I do?

I miss screaming your name daddy 

Babbbyyy why aren’t you responding 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

You have some of the worst timing on the planet 

I’m busy right now I’ll deal with you later 

 

I put the phone down because I hear my name I answer questions after question as my phone continues to get notifications by the time the panel was over I’m pretty sure my phone has vibrates what feels like at least 100 times 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Nooooooo

Deal with me now 

*Attached 4 images*

I’m doing it again 

Wanna see

*Attached 1 video*

It feels so good 

Fuck I’m so close

*Attached 1 video*

I’m sleepy now 

Bye byes 

 

“Sleepy I fucking bet” I say reading the messages while walking back to my room I can’t actually look at the videos and stuff right now but the last one I can’t really see her face but one I can tell she’s in my house and infront of my bedroom mirror and also because of how hard her body is shaking in the video I know it sounds heavenly 

 

I finally make it to my room and I text Yo to tell her I’m going to sleep so I don’t have any distraction 

 

I sit in the desk chair and open our messages and I go through the first set and god have mercy she’s in a red lace set with her temp collar on sitting in front of the mirror in various poses for the first 8 messages then I made it to the first video I push play and to my surprise she’s making the lewdest noise and not that pretty porn star shit either losing her fucking mind and it went straight to my dick “god princess” I go to the next video when that one was over and it was so shaky because she was cumming she even drops the phone at end the next 4 pictures are just her laying there basking in her post orgasm glow dick now painfully hard as I watch her finger fuck herself and moaning my fucking name in the process this girl really knows how to get to me doesn’t she  

 

The competitor in me won’t let her win this so if she’s going to fucking torture me I’ll get her ass back 

 

But nobody wants to watch anybody just jerk off or a dick pic boringgggg gotta tap into the voice kink of hers the first one tapped into the sub in her but after the first time I was still very much hard so the second one I was the sub of her fucking dreams 

 

When I woke up didn’t really expect much it’s been a few hours but I was very wrong 

 

From:KEIBABY✨

Well it’s only right I repay you 

*Audio message 10 minutes*

*Audio message 15 minutes*

Enjoy mistress 🧡

 

“Ouu fun” I say sitting up in the bed I play the first message and i didnt know how much i missed hearing him like this fucking hell i miss him more than i realized and also my voice kink is worst than i orginially thought it was god he needs to hurry up and get home the first audio stops and i go to the next one and “oh my” hes the whiniest ive ever heard him i closed my eyes and imagined him restrained helpless being overstimmed to the point he was sheading tears begging and pleading for something he doesnt even know what and my eyes shoot open when i hear “please mommy let me cum” coming through my phone i pause it and rewind it to make sure im losing my damn mind and clear as day “i…i… wow ok goddamn he wins this round jesus christ” i sit there and think about the first time i made him say that and out of pure curiosity and really liked it but it just never came back up “i should really implement that again hm i wonder if hes busy right now” I FaceTime him and he answer on the second ring 

 

“Hey mamas”he says chewing on something when he answer the phone “three things since when has “mamas” been added to the nickname list two what are you eating three I don’t appreciate how you beat me at my own game” “well one I felt like it calling you that so you know get over it two I was being bougie tonight and got steak and lobster for dinner and three I know you didn’t have to tell me” he says before eating another piece of lobster “like I put in so much work and you still won so effortlessly” “you can’t beat me at my own game baby” “shut up man also um mommy” “mhm problem” he says putting his foot up in the chair “no just wasn’t expecting that one” “I know I noticed you kinda got freaked out about it after the whole psych play thing so I never said it again” “I did not” “you did I essentially told you,you take a parental role in my life sort of and I know that’s a lot so I put it in the back pocket” “I mean yeah it was a bit shocking but I wasn’t freaked out by it I don’t really care about that really I do baby you a lot so it was destined to feel that way” “you really do especially during scenes” “I know because you get all cute and pouty” “I do not get pouty” “but you do it’s cute” I say smiling at him “whatever almost forgot why are you in my house” “because I have a key to the front door” “yeah but you’ve never been there without me being there or on the way there” “well one I was just coming to check on the house and you didn’t clean out your refrigerator before you left so that was disgusting btw” “yeah I knew it was something I had to do yikes I’ll make it up to you when I get back” he says as he continues to eat 

 

I got back two days earlier because I had nothing planned for the next two days and I decided on surprising Jess at work today I called her assistant to see when she had some free time and it was perfect timing of my arrival and getting back to my car 

 

I get there and knock on the door to her office “um yes” I hear her say from the other side of the door “I’m so sorry to bother you Dr Carter” I say walking through the door she looks at me and she looks like the happiest person on the planet right now she jumps up from her chair and hugs me tightly “what are you doing here” “I was able to come home early what you want me to go back because I can” “no no no don’t go” she says laying her head on my shoulder “missed me that much” i say as she hold me like if she lets go imma vanish 

 

She just nods her head up against my shoulder “well I’m here so you can stop now” “I miss you even when you’re here so that’s impossible” she says lifting her head and looking at me “for somebody with a PhD you make no sense sometimes” “babe you have the same degrees I do and you make less sense pretty often” she says holding back a laugh “yeah yeah whatever it took you longer to get yours” “by 3 months” “still before you and that’s all that matters” “it’s your first time in here isn’t it” “yeah it looks nothing like I thought why so many different seating options” “because I want people to be comfortable and some of my younger clients like the chair that spins and it’s a split between the couch and the big comfy chair with the rest of my clients” I let go of her and go sit in the spinny chair “ok I see the appeal but and this might be the almost 30 in me but there's no back support so this would not be fun to sit in for longer than 30 minutes if that” I say spinning in it “your really cute” she says smiling at me “I know right” I say stopping myself from spinning and going to sit on the couch “comfortable but if I was to lay back and stare at the ceiling for to long I would definitely fall asleep” I say sitting back up and go sit in the chair “oh this is fucking perfect” I say leaning in to chair “ok Goldie locks” she says laughing and sitting in the her chair “I walked right into that one didn’t I”I say realizing what I just did “yeah you did” “you have anything else to do today” “yeah I have one client in like 2 hours why” “no reason just I’ve been gone for 6 weeks and you have a underground garage and I have a tented car if you catch my drift” “yeah but I also have the same thing and more room in my backseat” 

 

We get up and go down the elevator to get to the garage and when we get to her truck we immediately get in the backseat 

 

“Your car reminds me of the pussywagon from kill bill” I say taking off her shirt “I know that’s why I bought it” she say sitting on my lap and kissing me I kiss down her neck careful not the leave any marks because she has to get back to work after we’re done she works on the button of my pants and when she gets me out my pants she lifts her skirt more and slowly sits on me “fuck” we say in unison when  she slowly starts to bounce up and down on me hands on either side of her to assist her 

 

“Oh my fuck” she says throwing her head back “princess you feel so fucking good” “you-you too I missed this so much ngh” she says looking back up and we lock eyes and I see the dominance take over her she sits straight up keep the same pace on hand on my neck the other on the headrest behind my head “you belong to me” she says keeping this intense eye contact “and only me every inch of you belongs to who keigo” she loosened her grip around my neck and I take a deep breath before I say “you mistress you forever and always i belong to you” “good boy keigo such a good boy” she says “mistress can I cum please please please” I beg feeling myself getting close “fuck not yet wait for me you can do that right” she says out of breath “please mistress I can’t I can’t please”I say desperately “come on baby please I’m close to just wait for me” “fuccckk ok ok” we go for another 5 minutes before she says “fuck kei now cum with me” 

 

Out of breath her in my lap head on my shoulder I wrap my arms around her keeping her close to me “I really missed you” I say nuzzling against her neck “I know I missed more don’t leave me that long again it sucks” “I know but unless your going to come with me every year I can’t really promise that” “I can arrange that you know” “I can’t take you away from work for a month and a half to that hell” “it’ll be less hell if I go with you though or we compromise i only go for three weeks so it’s not the whole time also it’s not that much time apart” she says moving back to look at me “can we talk about this with my dick not inside you” “I’ll move once you agree to let me come with you next time please I don’t know anything about what you do for a living I wanna see you in your element” “ok ok next time you can come with me and experience the wonderful life of hearing about the next revolutionary heart monitor” I say as she gets off me “what do you think I do for a living” I say realizing she doesn’t know what I do really “I don’t know so I’m not even going to guess you don’t talk about work so like I never thought about it really but if I had to take an educated guess you produce technology for hospitals” “you just to took what the name of the general thing we do and flipped it doesn’t count” I say buttoning my pants “well what do you do then give me every detail” she say laying across the backseat with her head in my lap “well a general description is were involved in building and delivering products, systems, services, or solutions within a medical space” I explain and look down and she’s sound asleep 

 

I let her sleep up until the last possible minute that she could “hey princess wake up” “mmm no I wanna stay sleep” she saying turning and wrapping her arms around my waist “you still have work to do come on” she makes a weird noise and sits up “how long is the session” “2 hours”she says stretching “ok well I’m going to see zashi then I’ll be back ok” “yeah ok” she say reaching and opening her center console “gum” she say reaching back with a piece in hand “yeah” I bite the piece of gum while pulling down her skirt “hm thanks” she says sitting back down “you ready” “yeah I guess so” she says before opening the door and getting out of the car “don’t go through the trouble of coming all the way back here I’ll meet you at the station I’m supposed to go there after work tonight anyway” “you sure” “yeah yeah only because I have my car with me so go I’ll see you there when I’m done” she says standing in front of the elevator door “ok then I love you” “I love ya more now go the longer you stay the longer it’s going take me to get back to work” she says before kissing me “ok go” 

 

I drive over to the station and when I get there I run into meeka “heyyy keigo right” she says stopping in her tracks “yeah meeka correct” “yeah yeah it’s cool to actually meet you but you here to see hizashi right well obviously he has somebody back there with him so knock first” she says before walking towards the front I wonder who

 

I reach his door and knock and hear “yo come in” I open the door and see hizashi and asahi kneeled next to his desk facing the door “oh damn my bad zashi”I say “your bad what come in when did you get back” “um this morning I’m rude hey I’m keigo”he looks over at zashi “don’t be rude introduce yourself” “hey I’m asahi” he say “yeah you go see Jess yet or am I your first stop” “you know the answer to that question” I say sitting on the couch “hm yeah but you could’ve lied to me made me feel special for a moment” “so um doesn’t this kinda combat our agreement” “no not at just forget he's here” that’s kinda impossible but “ sure we’ll I’m here to kill time waiting for Jess to be done with work” “ah yeah she still coming after work” “yeah was it supposed to be a you two thing tonight” “nahh no touya got a movie room installed in his house so we’re going over to watch movies and stuff like that” “hm sounds fun”

 

After that we get quiet I don’t really feel comfortable with asahi being here it’s weird as hell we sit in a not so comfortable silence for about 30 minutes before I get a text 

From: HIZASHI🎙

Why are you acting like this

To:HIZASHI🎙

Like what 

From:HIZASHI🎙

You haven’t seen me in 6 weeks and you’re sitting across the room I haven’t been babe baby the entire time nor have you really been talking what is it 

To:HIZASHI🎙

Well I’m not comfortable being in the same room as him it’s weird 

From:HIZASHI🎙

It shouldn’t be 

To:HIZASHI🎙

But it is and why are you so comfortable with us being in the same room 

From:HIZASHI🎙

Because I don’t care it’s not breaching our agreement just sitting in the same room as him and he’s not even allowed to talk right now so it doesn’t matter 

To:HIZASHI🎙

But it does to me I don’t know him and what is this some kind of punishment or something 

From:HIZASHI🎙

Yeah kinda he was late so he has to sit here in silence

Doesn’t matter right now 

Your acting like you don’t miss me and I’m hurt by that 

 

I read the text and look at him like the fuck

 

To:HIZASHI🎙

Oh shut up I’m sorry that I’m not all over you with asahi sitting literally one leg stretch away from me 

From:HIZASHI🎙

If you missed me 

And still love me 

You'll come over here and kiss me 

 

I drop my phone on the couch and get up and walk around the side of the desk asahi wasn’t blocking and to go kiss him when I lean down to kiss him he pulls me down in his lap to deepen the kiss his hand sliding up my leg and gripping my inner thigh “I’m not doing this with him in the room” I say breaking the kiss and stopping his hand “ugh ok ok” he says throwing his hands up “good boy” I say kissing him again before standing up “keep it up we won’t make it to touyas” “Ouu I’m so scared”I say mockingly sitting back on the couch 

 

Time goes pass and I don’t know how much until Jess walks in “ohh hey zashi” she says just as surprised as I was “I’m not ready to leave yet give me like 30 minutes” he says not looking up from his computer “yeah ok cool” 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Has he been here the whole time

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yup the whole time

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Just sitting there

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yeah he’s being punished for being late 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Okkkkk

 

A timer noise goes off and asahi looks back at hizashi “go hallway I’ll be out in a second” “us or” I say as he made no clear indication and he looks at us and it read obviously “oh okay yeah for sure ” I say as we get up and leave the room

 

“Weird”she says when we close the door “yeah but I mean hot” I say sliding down the wall and sitting on the floor “you just want him the fuck you”she say “I’m not seeing the problem here” I say looking up at her “you in heat or something we just had sex two hours ago” “it’s been 6 weeks SIX so yes if that’s what you wanna call it then yes I’m hot and bothered” “good one” she says laughing “I promise you if he wasn’t in there I would’ve been bent over that desk” “did that last week” she says sticking her tounge out at me “lucky” a few minutes go past before the door opens and they walk out straight pass us walk to the front and hizashi walks back “ready” he says stopping in front of us “actually no I need to change my clothes and my bag in there so” she says before walking in the door “why are you on the floor” “didn’t know how long that was going take” “stop acting like this” “like what I’m not even doing anything you're the one acting different ” “different how keigo”he says sitting infront of me “since I walked through that door you’ve been acting weird I get that I just randomly showed up but I didn’t really feel that welcomed” “what you were expecting me to put him out and prioritize you” “damn ok not what I was expecting at all but ok” “come on ok that came out wrong I know you’ve been gone for a hot ass minute and I missed the fuck out of you and I acted a bit out of character because he was in there and I’m sorry but like you said I didn’t know you were coming so I wasn’t prepared to have the both of you in the same room if I would’ve know you were coming I would’ve canceled on him” “stop I have to stop acting like I’m the only person in your life that gets that type of attention” “oh boohoo shut up and the award winning performance goes to keigo Takami you know your the only one who gets that type of attention from me I told you he’s not replacing you when are you going to realize that” “he’s not talking about him dipshit” Jess says coming out the room completely changed “oh my god are you talking about oboro I thought we were over this were just friends who occasionally have sex that’s it that’s all” “actually I was talking about asahi but now that you bring it up he was jealous of me getting something he wasn’t now it’s the other way around” “ok let make a deal we dead this shit right here and now I’ll make your fiancée watch me fuck you how about it” “you don’t have to make me I’ll do that willingly” she says very seriously “deal” “ok then let’s go watch movies and then have sex with eachother till the sun come up” “now that’s a great welcome home gift” “I second that let’s hurry up and get that first part over with”

Chapter 30

Notes:

Hello loves✨ Ok so if you’re seeing this update and your a ATWR reader I know I said I was going to focus on that butttttt I lied but if your not from over there hey hi hello the writing juices have been flowing and I have an extra that’s done and ready so be ready for that and I have a basic outline for chapter 33 & 34so be ready

Jesus Christ im back year later I just noticed I never tagged this chapter this chapter includes actions of forced sex it is "flashback" scenes explains all of the consent actions and things like that those of CNC actions are present here yet and still

“Our first session back in awhile how have we been doing anything new” ito says when we get settled “minus the engagement and me and my mother talking everything out nothing crazy” “when did that happen” “same night as the engagement” “hmm so over the six weeks that keigo was gone everything went well no issues appeared” “well before I left her and hizashi got into it and wasn’t talking and when trying to convince her to just go and talk to him she said that when he stopped making dumb decision she would go and talk to him” “and he brought up how we couldn’t judge his situation because we ourselves have made some dumb decisions in this relationship in the beginning and I didnt know he wanted more at the beginning like genuinely I thought it was just for sex so I kinda treated it like that until he explicitly said it” “for context she cut her name into my leg and called me hers and I freaked out not knowing what she meant by that and when I bought it she gave us the label “permeated partners” which just entitled she would have no other submissive other than me and nothing else not entirely what I wanted but” 

 

“Ok Jessica if I’m remembering right this is your first real relationship” “yes” “so it’s understandable that you took this as oh i wanna just have you as the only person I do this one part of my life with but did you put that label with that meaning behind because you were scared to actually be with him romantically so if you made it just sex then you wouldn’t get attached and get your heartbroken” “absolutely terrified but me trying to act like it was just sex didn’t last long and I realized that when one day we had plans and he was nowhere to be found I was pissed but worried at the same time I didn’t know where he lived or worked at the time so I couldn’t go and just show up and he called and texted me throughout that week and I was to mad to be around him but when we were together at the end of that week I didn’t really care about it anymore I just missed his presents he apologized and tried to tell me what happened but I no longer cared why I just didn’t want him to leave again”

 

 “what happened after that did you to just confess” “well not exactly we went on a mini vacation to the small resort and at the time I realized I wanted Jess all to myself every moment of it and we went out night one and one of her old submissive comes over to that table and in front of me asks if she was looking for a submissive and called her mistress in front of me I was beyond upset after that and when we got back to the room” “before we get to that part he ignored me the whole rest of dinner and on the way back and that was another moment for me that I realized fuck I think I’m in love with him because anyone else i would’ve have cared but I hated feeling rejected from him we’ve never really had an argument before then that was that bad that he stopped talking to me” “what were they like before then” “we lived together in college and it was mostly like ‘hey it’s your week to blah blah blah’ and we would have a who was busier this week fight but never anything crazy”

 

“Ok continue what happened where Jessica stopped you keigo” “she asked why I was so upset because I knew she had submissive before me and that wasn’t my problem I knew that but she just told me i was the only person she’s been with solo in her 9 years of doing this and to me because he walked up and asked her she was going to accept if I had let the conversation continue but she called me baby for the first time that night and she told me she was mine and 2 years later were here”

 

 “why was he the only person you had as a sub at the time” “because I had just started being a full time psychologist and didn’t have time to have multiple at first but then the routine we established became a comfort to me and he was still pretty new to the scene and down to do pretty much anything so I didn’t need anybody else” “how long in between did we go from “permanent partner” to actually partners” “uhhh 2 months” “and in those two months how did things change” “we did more couple things like going out more often and seeing each other more often than once or twice a week but not much more” Jess says

 

 “hm Jessica do you feel like he’s still the only submissive you need” “ahhhhh well yes and no over the 6 weeks I asked if he was ok with me having other submissive” “what changed from your the only one I need to can I have more of you” “well ok ito imagine you’ve been doing relationship counselling for 10 years and then you start mental health counseling for about 2 years are you not going to miss relationship counseling” “well yes I would because I’ve doing it for so long it brings a comfort to me to now being in a new space you love the newness of it but once the newness wore off you wanna go back your comfort zone keigo were you ok with this” “at first my ego was shot because I felt like I wasn’t doing enough but I would be selfish of me if  I said no because she’s more then ok with my relationship with hizashi so I said yes with conditions and I’m ok with it” “if you didn’t have that relationship with hizashi would you have agreed” I sit and ponder with that thought for a second “no I don’t think I would’ve honestly or if I did it would’ve taken me longer to agree to it” “really” Jess says looking at me “yeah for the bulk of our relationship I’ve been all you needed and now I’m not if I didn’t have that relationship I honestly would’ve been pissed that you even asked” “wow ok so the ’if im not satisfying a need i rather address it then to let you continue to feel this way’ was conditional then” I can hear the annoyance in her voice “not necessarily” “but that’s what you just said if you wasn’t fucking hizashi then it would’ve been a no with no consideration of rather this was something I really wanted to do” “ok ok let’s calm down you both go to hizashi for a need that the other doesn’t meet and now that’s their a need that he couldn’t meet your seeking out that satisfaction now think of if we remove hizashi form the equation you would be all the other had if hizashi wasn’t in the equation would you say yes to him having a male partner outside of your relationship” “I mean ugh no but-“ “but nothing Jessica you can’t get mad at him for him feeling that way if you in his place would make the same decision” she sits back on the couch “I get why he said yes and why he would’ve said no you were taught to see both perspectives of thing so don’t make him feel bad for his reaction to you wanting something you said you no longer needed because you had him” she looks over at me “I’m sorry for getting upset it’s just I’m not really used to my decision affecting anyone but me so now having you to consider is still hard getting use to and I’ll work on it” she says very apologetic “yeah it’s ok Jess and I hate how possessive I get over you because even still now I’m a little hesitant because someone else is going to get that care that you give me and I want it all to myself” “it’s reasonable though up you were in an abusive relationship for a number of years and now you’re getting the love and happiness you’ve been in such desperate need of you want it all to yourself it’s 100% normal” 

 

After this weeks session with ito the weirdness of the whole sub thing is kinda back “are you sure you’re ok with this I don’t wanna engage in this and later this blows up in our face our current track record is one big fight a year I would love to avoid that from continuing” jess says sitting on the couch “yes I’m ok with it I just have to get over this weird thing of you doing it with someone else” “but I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable with this” “I’m not uncomfortable with the action but more of the after the action” “the aftercare why is that the uncomfortable part” “because that’s the part where I fell for you and I don’t want whoever the fuck doing the same thing” “I mean it’s kinda apart of the job I can’t not do it” “you really wasted you’re money on that PhD” “hey that’s mean”she says hitting my arm“Jess my love when it comes to aftercare your the sweetest person on the planet and yes it’s apart the job but i fell deeply in love with you because of that and I’m terrified someone else is going to do the same thing” “now I see why Charlie didn’t pay for your tuition good god even if they do you think imma leave you for someone I would see once maybe twice a week your stuck with me for the rest of days sir I’m not going anywhere” “one that was low like ouch really goddamn two I know you wouldn’t but at the same time my brain keeps thinking about it because this” I say grabbing her left hand “happened because we saw each other once or twice a week” “Keigo Takami I’m not going nowhere I don’t even have the desire to even look at anyone else the way I see you this will be strictly transactional between me and whoever nothing more nothing less ok and to be honest you’re the only sub I’ve had that I actually was attracted to so I’m sure you don’t have to worry about that either” “I mean there’s really no going up from here” “exactly have you seen you gorgeous beautiful handsome all of the above and nobody making me happy like you do so stop worrying and if it makes you feel any better most of the time I’m with these other people I will be brutally hurting them verbally and physically and like 1% care and niceness” “it does help a little actually” “ok then we cool on this” “yeah” “look at us communicating and shit ito would be so proud” Jess says before laughing 

 

We decided to not do anything for the rest of the day just lounge around and I can feel fuckary about to happen in my bones 

 

I wonder if I ask him to actually slap me if he would do it can’t help but to ask “Kei I want you to do something” “what” “slap me” I say turning to him on the couch and he slaps my thigh “no asshole slap me right here” I say patting my cheek “no what the hell no”he says offend for some reason  “ughh why the hell not you’ve done worse I’ve done worse to you” “doesn’t matter I’m not slapping you in your face the hell has gotten into you”he says looking at me crazy “every time I’ve said to hit me while having sex this is what I’ve meant so just do it” “no Jess I’m not slapping you I draw the line there”he says turning to me “come on do it do it just do it keigo im fully consenting to it” “what are you not getting about no” “so bending me over you knee and hitting me with a paddle is ok but slapping me is too much” “yes it’s disrespectful” “you’ve called me a dirty whore slut and more and this is disrespectful” “yes 100%” “ughh just once and I’ll never ask again” “no” “yes” “no” “yes” “no” I say “yes shit no” he says falling into the trap “come on one time just a swift ah” I say modeling the smack “Jessica no” “keigo yes come please do it do it do it do it” I keep saying and he looks slightly irritated “do it pussy I dare you” he takes a breath in and out slowly as if he’s calming himself down “don’t be bitch just slap me Jesus” he looks at me and I blink and then I feel his hand across my face and I can’t help but smile devilishly fuck that was hot “next time do it harder and stop being a little bitch baby about it” and lord do I get what I ask for the moment I finish the sentence a hard slap having me whip my head to the side almost hitting the back of the couch a slight ringing in my ear and the only thing I can think of right now is that I want him inside me NOW the moment the initial shock went away in a flash I was in his lap engaging in a full make out session

 

Which lead to us practically ripping each other’s clothes off and him pushing me back on the couch now on top of me “ wonderland ”

 

* a few weeks ago*

“Princess this might be a dumb question but you know what a CNC kink is right” “no question is a dumb question but that was in fact a dumb question yes I know that a CNC is why” “I’ve been doing a lot of research on it and I kinda like it” “does sub keigo like it or dom keigo” “the latter” “hm ok I’m down you know my limits” “but like can we set a cue for when we want it to happen say we’re like in the middle of something and you wanna switch over” “um ok makes sense how about wonderland” “why wonderland of all words” “because it’s easy to say and it’s my favorite ateez song at the moment soooo wonderland” “ok wonderland”

 

“bitch wow such a nasty word coming out a pretty mouth” he say pinning me to the couch with his hand over my mouth I try to talk but can’t really “shut your mouth nobody cares” he say taking his shirt and wrapping it around my mouth as a gag “fuck you” I say before he ties it to where I can’t talk anymore “fuck me ok” he moves back and roughly flips me on my stomach and I put up a fight when he tries to lift my bottom half up “stop fucking moving”he says pushing my head into the couch he gets me in the desire position he pulls my underwear down and I hear a slight tear and he uses what I’m guessing is my shirt as wrist restraints 

 

*back to that day*

“So like r*pe fancy or like k*dnapping type thing” ”the former I really don’t wanna call it that though because I don’t fantasize about that but yes that one” “I mean no one is here to judge you kei I just have to know what I’m dealing with so I can tell you what I’m comfortable with and what I’m not” I look through a list of things that deals with CNC and picking what I like and don’t “so with this I’m pretty ok as long as no foreign objects are inserted in me or if I were to go unconscious everything stops but call me what you want and do pretty much anything within the normal standards” “quick question hair pulling” “baby no just no”

 

He gives me no type of warm up to this just straight up the roughest back shots I’ve ever received and god does it feel fucking great “I’m going to fuck you dumb” he says and I wouldn’t put it past him right now “you’re fucking enjoying me using you you sick fuck you like being used huh princess like the good little bitch you are” he pulls me up by wrapping his hand around my neck pulling me against his chest “your crying really pathetic so pathetic you wanted this remember” I frantically shake my head no “yes you did stop lying you wanted me to use you till Im done with you” a louder sob comes from behind the gag “oh is the princess crying” I nod yes “you want me to stop princess” I nod yes “oh fucking well I’m not cry all the fuck you want to” he say letting me go and letting me fall back on the couch 

 

Should I really be enjoying this as much as I am I mean because fuck anybody else I would be fucking terrified but he is really instilling fear in me that I didn’t know he was capable of 

 

I feel myself about cum and it’s approaching fast and hard it’s overwhelming and I try pulling away from him “you can’t run from me princess; that’s not happening sweetheart” he says now using the makeshift wrist restraints as a way to keep me in place my voice behind the gag gets louder as the most sensitive part of me way being used in ways she’s never been used before 

 

That orgasm that has been making me cry out in ways I’m not used to making the one that is forced upon me at the moment makes everything feel like it’s stopped when I finally reach that moment of climax body thrashing and squirm around because he’s repeatedly hit the same spot that makes my eyes say hello to my brain this has to be the longest and strongest orgasm I’ve ever had 

 

When my orgasm finally stops I feel he’s going through the same thing throbbing inside me taking longer deeper strokes making sure every inch is inside me everytime “I’m going to paint those pretty insides white” he says before cumming in me 

 

*back to that day*

“So they say we should have a term or action that we both know that the scene is over” “ughh let’s think how about I love you” “but what if one day you use that against me in a scene something else” “ok ok umm how about ok this is a good one a kiss and say mine you know how you did when you essentially claimed me” “ok so 💋 mine” I say demonstrating to make sure I was right “yes exactly that then we go into after care” 

 

He pulls out pulls up my panties  takes the “restraints” off my wrists and pulls me to lay beside him on the other end of the couch he pulls the shirt from around my mouth above and off me dropping it on the floor “come here” he lifts my chin kisses me and says “mine” I feel small and cold I get closer to him to get whatever warmth I could get from him 

 

we just lay there for a while before I actually get fucking cold “my personal heater turned into a personal icebox princess you ok” he say looking at me “mhm just cold” “alright upstairs we go feels like I’m laying next to a dead body” he say making me laugh and he sits up and I can tell walking is definitely not a thing I can do at the moment at least without falling he gets off the couch and he squats infront of me “come on” I wrap my arms around his neck and he grabs my legs and stands and walk to the room “ this is the first time you’ve done this and I wasn’t sleep” “so much lighter I can’t tell you that much” he says getting to the top of the steps 

 

He takes us in the bathroom and sits me on the counter and examines my tub “it’s clean don’t look at it like that” “I mean you don’t use it often just had to check” he says turning the water on “heating pad where is it” “why” “because you're literally frozen dude” “it’s in the second draw bedside table” he goes to get it plugs it in and wraps a blanket around me he put bubble bath and bath salts in it and comes back over to me 

 

“it’s not enough” “pants” “no you” I pull him in with my legs lay my head on his shoulder “you ok” “yeah that was actually more fun than I thought it was” “yeah it was also I’m never slapping you again it felt so wrong” “felt just goddamn right to me that shit was hot dude I’m sorry we’re going to have to compromise on that one” “if my mother found of it I did that I would be in a assload of trouble” “you will never get your freedom till you take it mama would understand if she knew the situation” “nahh I don’t know about that one it was too much maybe every once and while but not often princess” “I’ll take it”i say leaning my head against the mirror  “you know the deal 1-10” “umm I wanna say honestly a 10 shit was fun I thought it would be weird and I was going to safeword out to stop it but I actually really really like the experience of it I felt useless but in a good way completely to your disposal and the constant degrading good lord have mercy” I say reliving the moment “now that was hard for me I was hoping it was cringy” “no not at all it sounded natural on my end “ oh is the princess crying” lord help me you took such a loving nickname and turned it into an insult” “you liked that huh” “yes and  “you can’t run from me princess that’s not happening sweetheart” now I’m really hot” “you really tried to run from me too shit crazy you know we don’t do that” “if you felt how fucking intense that orgasm was building up you would’ve ran to man” “doesn’t matter take it it’s always worth it” “not lying to you I thought you were going to pull out right before I came and I actually would’ve lost my damn mind” “I thought about it but I didn’t go through with it” “well thank you for that” “come on let’s get in before we flood this bathroom” we get in the tub and it felt so good “why don’t I do this more often” I say sinking in to the tub when he turns the jets on “this is why I rather live here” he says doing the same “don’t we leave next weekend” “yes thank god” “I can’t wait I miss being around you all day can’t you just like move in now” “love I rather get hit by car then to pack anything in that house right now or in the near future sorry” “so damn mean to me for no reason” “and you call me a brat don’t get your way one time and I’m the mean one” “yes very much so I want you here all the time why wait” “because we have a wonderful contract that says I don’t move into here until March 1st of next year” “ugh me and my damn contracts that I have to abide by” “yes you do” he say sitting up in the tub “could I make a clause in the contract” “no ma’am I already signed it the negotiations are done with” “when did you start following rules” “when I had to sign a contract for pretty much every aspect of my relationship I have to follow them” “not for every aspect” “we have two versions  for scenes one for you your future endeavors with kink one for when we were going to live together our current living arrangement the one for what we just did  am I missing any” “no your not,ok maybe we do have a lot of contracts but I like being held accountable and if it’s written down on paper I feel better that way” “I know that’s just how your brain works and I’m ok with that if I have to sign 100 more I will if you need me too” “I probably will” “why didn’t you go the lawyer route” “unlike touya I had free reign of what I could major in as long as it wasn’t in the ARTS so I thought about it I wouldn’t have to look for a job because I had a guaranteed job there with my dad but I just didn’t enjoy it enough to go into it like as a kid I did the mock trials and the camps and retreats to get kids interested in it and I was really good at it but after I took psych 150 my last year of highschool it sparked something in me and I wanted to know more and here I am” “wow I looked at the list of majors the school had and asked a teacher what I should he said ‘you look like a businessman’ and 8 years later I have two advanced degrees in it” “wow so inspiring” “aye I did everything in school I was the class president all through high school I did clubs all of it and nothing was interesting above getting the credit” “class president keigo hm” “yeah I was the yuki sohma  of my class” “a fruits basket reference so you do pay attention when I force you to watch anime with me” “yeah sometimes I watched the final season of that one and I cried a lot throughout the show” “wait you finished it without me” “you were taking to damn long I had to know how it ended” “the disrespect I swear” “you finished hometown cha cha without me so we’re not going to talk about disrespectful” “fuck I forgot we share a Netflix account ok yes i finished by accident I was rewatching the episode i fell asleep on and it kinda just kept playing” “kept playing my ass” 

 

After the soak and shower we go and put on clothes and I can hear the front door open “I really hope that’s just hizashi” keigo says before walking out the room I follow behind him and we see hizashi standing in front of the door looking up to the second floor “so y’all just forgot we were supposed to go AD today” “shit”we both say “20 minutes I swear” I say rushing back in the room after we get ready the quickest we’ve ever gotten ready “2 minutes and I was leaving and telling nem you forgot her birthday” “we got sidetracked my bad”I say walking down the stairs “yeah it was definitely her fault all on her” “I could guess that” we walk out and they make me drive to after dark “what got y’all so sidetracked” “take a good guess” keigo says looking at him through the rear view mirror “I mean obviously sex but neither of you answered you’re phones for like 3 hours straight” “yeah we were trying something” I say “what…wait I saw something about CNC on your computer was it that did you get Jess to come to the dark side of kink finally” “yeah he did because I wasn’t the one in control I’m not capable of that in the slightest” “and keigo is” “oh hell yes he is” I say stopping at a red light “hm watching you grow from this pleasure dom box has been my favorite Jess era” “it’s really fun to be on the receiving end every now and then” 

 

We make it to after dark and there’s way more people here then expected “more people are here every year” we walk around to see if we can find her and when we do she’s talking to some people but she slightly moves and sees us and stops all conversation and comes over to us “happy birthday mistress” me and hizashi says when she’s close “I don’t think I can call you that but happy birthday nemuri” keigo says “thank you loves but your late” “I know I know I take all the blame” I say “we got a bit tied up after therapy today”keigo says “I called you earlier no answer” “And I saw that but I really didn’t have function of my mouth and hands for a while”I say “huh ok I’ll accept that how else to celebrate my birthday then some good ole kinky sex” “you could get away with murder” hizashi says “she sure could now go have fun thank you for coming” she says before walking off 

 

we go and find where shota is hiding and we find him sitting towards the back of the main area “you know you could not come to these” hizashi says “and hear for the next two weeks that I’m the worst for not showing up to her birthday” “ I mean you spend everyday together and live together so you wouldn’t have missed it” “to her if I’m not here I missed all 24 hours of the day so to keep the nagging to a minimum I show up and  stay till it’s over” “ok if I don’t do this now I will never do it are you two like married or something it’s like the 8th wonder of the world” keigo says like it’s a relief to finally say “legally yes domestically no” “what” me and hizashi says “we got married when we were 20 to get our parents off our backs about it but not because of traditional reasons I love her but not like that” “so this whole time y’all have been married and never told us wow” “it’s not really relevant our relationship is the same as you and hizashi minus the sexual aspect of it” “I honestly expect you to just look at me like I was crazy not that” keigo says “wait wait so what if in the future you decide that you wanna marry other people” hizashi says and he gets the look keigo was expecting “what it’s a good question” “one I’m not really interested in a domestic marriage and where would I find somebody ok enough with this portion of my life” “ahh I know the perfect way go to university for four years and be roommates with the person disclosure alll personal information so there’s no secrets and bam it works I promise you” I say “yeah by the end of the first month living together I knew practically her whole medical history” keigo says “that’s a once in a lifetime opportunity and I did go to university and do exactly that and it’s with the person I’m legally married to” “well then I can’t help you that’s my only trick” 

 

After a long night of festivities we decide to stay after everyone left and got stuck with clean up duty “so are you coming back to kink or” nemuri say “yeah I am” “you got him to agree” “yeah I did but I haven’t started the process of actually looking yet wanted to make sure we were 100% on the same page” “are you coming back here or home practice” “here one of the terms in the contract is that I can’t do it out of the house which I wouldn’t anyway but yeah here” “so you’ll need your old room back” “I mean if it currently not occupied at the moment it would be lovely” “it’s exactly how you left it so when your ready let one of know what you need in the room and we’ll get it in there for you” “what time is it” “uhhh 12:30 why” “it’s no longer your birthday I can be mean to you now why did you never tell me you and shota were married” “because it never came up it’s not something we just talk about it’s not like we’re in a relationship just legally” “so what 10 years of knowing each other and it just never came up” “I’m sorry sweetie that I never told you but I forget most of the times to be honest with you until family comes into to town” “It’s crazy that I’ve had that theory since I figured out you weren’t siblings but to know it’s true feels weird” “so don’t think of it we did it because of family pressure but in all honesty he’s more like my brother than husband and when I say that out loud it’s sounds butt fuck crazy but he is” “I get it  me and zashi had a pack that if either of us weren’t in a relationship by 30 I was becoming Mrs.Yamada” “now your about to be Mrs.Takami” keigo say kissing the top of my head as he walked past me “he’s so happy to marry you” “I know it cute when we did our most recent contract when k sent it to him to read and sign he sent it back with my last name changed each time” “if Jessica Carter not going to do nothing else she going make a contract” “I love the accountability they hold” 

 

I wake up to my phone ringing I reach over and I see that it Rumi “heyyy kei I know it’s early but I’m currently in another time zone” “it’s cool wassup” I say sitting up “so one congratulations again on the engagement and two I’m coming into town for a few days you free” “thanks again and yeah just let me know when you get here I’ll make time of course” “yay ok I’ll text you when I get there”

Chapter 31: EXTRA #6 In the Room Where it Happened

Notes:

Hello loves ✨this is the extra I promised and I just finished the next chapter for next week sometime so enjoy 🕺🏾

After keigo said that it was a possibility that shota and nemuri were going to be at the engagement jess's parents wanted all of the awkwardness to be out the window they arranged to go meet them at their place of work before opening

It felt weird for them to walk in after dark they make it to the table where they were “it’s nice to formally meet the both of you” James said shaking shotas hand “same here” he says in return they all sit and it was quiet for a short moment before James says “so obviously you all know about the engagement as well and we know how important you both are to Jess and I don’t want either of you to miss this moment for her” “yeah” “yes we’ve had to come to the terms that this isn’t something she’s just going to grow out of and even if she did you two aren’t” janessa says “we love Jess just as much as you two her and hizashi are like the children we never had we took care of her in the ways you two didn’t and I’m not saying that to be an asshole either your busy people and you did the best for those first 18 years and we took over after that” “was it really ok to teach a 18 year old this stuff though” “well she’s a curious kid and she was legally an adult when we started so it was her choice we didn’t force them to do anything they didn’t want to and we almost turned them away but it’s quick to end up in a dangerous situation in this community so we took them in and taught them slowly the basics and moved up as they got older”

It gets quiet again “it’s crazy how she kinda looks like a mirrored version of you”janessa says to nemuri and she chuckles “yeah she loved the way I dressed and I helped her find her looks but it was heavily inspired” “so because you obviously experienced a different version of Jessica what was she like here” “ah well I feel like this is a general experience of just knowing Jess but spoiled she’s definitely my sweetheart but she definitely would figure out a way to get what she wanted”shota says with a fond smile “yeah I would say that’s pretty universal” “when she worked here and was in grad school she would have things to do here and because she had a test or something “draining” to do at school she would come in here like a zombie so she could get out of doing something like cleaning her room out because she just threw stuff in the general area where it belonged and try to get hizashi to do it” nemuri says “and because she knows how to get to me I would always end up doing it” “but like he said sweetheart so we can never say no to her” nemuri says

Hearing story after story about how she was practically their daughter hurt both of their hearts in a place they didn’t know they had they knew the relationship wasn’t that close but knowing that she had all of these experience with them hurts for more reason then one “um I wanna say thank you for taking care of her we’re very aware of our shortcomings when it came to being parents and trust me she has told us more than once and you both came and made sure she was loved and taken care of I really appreciate it” “the relationship she has with you nemuri makes me envious because I know I pushed her to be this “perfect” person and you let her be her and helped her find herself and thank you I can learn a lot for you” janessa says to which nemuri responds ”Jess is perfect she’s super smart she’s beautiful and she’s one of the kindest and most loving person I know so you definitely pushed her to be perfect” “just in her own way you have a wonderful daughter and I’m glad you’re finally coming to your senses also glad we got to have this conversation hearing about the two of you from her and actually meeting you is two completely different things” shota adds

“Yeah well now thats out of the way keigo should we let him go through with this” Janessa says “yes absolutely even though they’ve had their differences he’s single-handedly made her the happiest I’ve ever seen her”nemuri says“even though the worst parts of their relationship he stayed true to her and honestly I like the kid he brings out the best in her”shota says “yeah and they’re working really hard on their relationship in therapy and in other ways I feel like it’s good for them she really loves him and he really loves her” nemuri adds “I’ve only met him a few times and most of them being when they were still in school”janessa says “you two should go one day just the two of you he’s a good kid I trust him with Jessica”James says“he’s the only person she’s really been with romantically so I was a bit hesitant at first about him too because she’s not that experience in that arena but he really stuck it out through her figuring out a lot about herself in this setting because she couldn’t even say he was her boyfriend for a good while into their relationship I know that couldn’t have been easy but he was patient with her” shota says “this is a little off topic but how much older are you then Jessica” “5 and 6 years apart” shota says pointing at himself then nemuri “your not that much older than her hm does she know that”James says and they both laugh “yeah she does I told them they were to young for us to teach them this stuff and when she found out at the time we were only 23 with a fully operational dungeon we got an earful” shota says

Chapter 32

Notes:

Hello loves✨ Hope your thriving and if you aren’t at the moment I hope this brings some type of happiness to you butttttt I do have to put a small CW⚠️ There is some slight gaslighting nothing major but don’t want it to be a surprise to anyone and I hope you enjoy this short chapter there will be a short break between chapters because I wanna make the next one longer compared to the last like 3 so I’ll see you in chapter 35 enjoy 🕺🏾

“Sooo rumi is coming into town for a few days” I say casually to Jess as we get ready “oh yeah that’s cool when” “she didn’t give me an exact date but probably in the next week or so” why is she so calm right now “hm ok” “would you like to come with us or” “nah I’m ok you rarely get to see her I’ll sit this one out” she says walking out the closet “are you sure I’m sure she wouldn’t mind” I say following her out “it’s ok really” “ok” 

 

The weekend goes by and sitting at work not doing much Yo tells me there's someone here to see me “bet you weren’t expecting me” rumi says as she walks in my office “you really just like popping up places don’t you” I say getting up to hug her “your hair long why” “stop getting it cut awhile back and Jess says she likes so I’m kinda prolonging the process” “speaking of the lucky lady pick a date yet” she says sitting in the chair in front of my desk “nah we’re not in a rush so we’re going to do all of the planning end of the year beginning of the next” “why wait I mean it’s been 2 years already” “not till august” “yeah yeah keigo I know you you wanna do it now so why are you waiting” “actually we’ve always planned that when I finally did propose we would wait a while before actually getting married we’re still working on our relationship as we speak so I’m ok with waiting” “ok do you even live together” “not till next March but that’s just me being lazy and not wanting to move yet” i say and she looks at me with this weird look “what rumi just say it” “nothing just this feels weird your engaged don’t live together don’t have a date yet it just feels off and like she’s controlling everything” “what where did you pull that from” “I don’t know but that’s what it feels like” “I promise you she’s not we’re in this together and doing shit right I don’t wanna rush into this and we figure out this was a mistake later down the line so you can put the claws away she’s not doing anything to harm me I promise ” “ok just after the last girl I’m just worried” “and thanks for worrying but I’m not in that same situation anymore” 

 

After spending the day with Rumi it was finally time to go home “kei” I hear Jess say from the kitchen “princess” I say putting my keys down on the table next to the door “how was your day” she say when I walk in the kitchen “good rumi came by the office and we went to lunch” “sounds fun” “she actually wants to go out just the two of you” “why I mean let me not say it like that but why” “because you’re important to me and she doesn’t really know you and she wants to change that” “ok I guess that makes sense” 

 

I agreed to this outing with rumi for the pure reason that she’s keigo only friend that we don’t share we decided to meet at the mall to do some shopping I met her in front of the mall “sorry to make you wait” “no no I just got here as well” we go in and it’s pretty awkward not much conversation which I expected till we got into one of the last stores we planned on going in “I’ve known keigo just as long as he knew Kenny and to be honest with you hearing he’s getting married was more of a surprise than anything else he’s ever told me after Kenny then Jessie I thought there’s was no chance in hell he would ever be able to find true love” where is she heading with this “the marriage announcement I always thought I would see would be the two of us not anyone else’s name especially yours” excuse me what “he always told me about the roommate that if he wasn’t gay he would definitely be with and it hurt when I first saw you because I always thought I just wasn’t his type but obviously between you and Jessie that was definitely not the case” “where are you heading with this” “I’ve always loved kiego and I always thought I had a chance but then he was with Kenny and after he was gone I thought perfect time but nope here comes Jessie then after that and he called me and told me he was finally ready to move on and to get back out there and I came into town to finally tell him keigo im in love with you but I made the grave mistake of taking him to this bdsm club and him not paying me an ounce of attention once you showed up on that stage I knew I wasn’t who he wanted at that exact moment and now I’m congratulating him on getting married to you it’s crazy if I would’ve said hey let’s go to the quite restaurant maybe you would be the one getting the wedding announcement not the other way around so just saying this as a warning keep him this happy forever because the moment you don’t I’m taking your spot” she say walking off and out the store 

 

I’m left stuck for a few seconds because what the fuck who does that that’s something you take to the grave not tell you best friend fiancé I leave the store and go to my car and I call hizashi “yes my love”he says answering the phone “um rumi just told me she’s in love with keigo and the moment I stop making him this happy she’s taking my spot” “huh what the fuck” “exactly like what the fuck who does that and walk off” “so she drops that and leaves” “yes like if I wasn’t there I wouldn’t believe it either” “no I definitely believe it keigo told me she was being weird the other day when they were together” “do I even tell keigo” “you have to Jess” “but I mean how do I tell him his long time friend just confessed her undying love for him to me” he takes a deep breath in and out then says “same way you told me just without the theatrics” 

 

On the way home I thought about the way I could bring this up or even just say it in general when I get home I pretty sure it’s written all over my face that something is wrong “hey” “hey that’s not the face I was expecting when you got back what happened” he says wiping his hands “ok so while  we were out rumi essentially confessed that she’s been in love with you since day one and a lot of shit and told me if I don’t keep you this happy she was taking my spot” “the fuck for real” “yeah kei I wish I was lying right now” “that would explain her trying to make me feel insecure about us waiting till next year to get married and move in together” “I didn’t know she was the one that brought you to the club that night” “yeah she up and left halfway through your set without explanation” “she said once you saw me she knew she didn’t have a chance she was going to tell you then but you know” “why would she bring me there to confess” “ I know that’s such a weird place to do that” “yeah I gotta figure out what the hell is going on because she’s never showed an ounce of interest in me like that anyway” “well you were in a committed relationship for 6 years with a man so when did she really have the chance” “I mean yes but even you showed interest in me and sorry to bring her up but Jessie even knew I was with a man so that’s not valid” “I don’t know man today was crazy” “yeah I got talk to her because what the hell” he says reaching in his pocket for his phone

 

 “speaking of the devil she’s calling me now” when he answers the phone and she sounds like she’s crying “hello” she takes a few breaths and says “keigo she’s the worst” ive never witnessed something like this before “what happened rem” “she told me to stay away from you she’s threatened by our relationship kei she’s trying to tear us apart” “what the fuck” I mouthed to him and he’s just as confused “did she say that” he say playing along to see how far she’s going to go with this “yes I simply told her I was happy for you two and she went off on me I couldn’t believe it” “I’m sorry I’m not going to let this continue you’re going to call me with this outrageous shit when you just told Jess what you told her” “what” she says sniffling “she told me what happened so you can cut this shit out I’m not falling for it” “she’s lying you’re going to believe her over me keigo” “yes when your whole mission since you’ve been back is to get in between us yes I’m going to believe her the hell” “she doesn’t deserve you keigo it’s me you should be with why am I never an option for you” “because you never made yourself an option you think I would look at you that way rem your like my fucking sister and I’m hella confused on where this is coming from” “I’ve always wanted you from the day we met and you just never saw me it was always someone else Kenny jessi hizashi now Jess I’ve tried so hard and never even had a chance” now she sounds like she’s actually crying “rumi listen to me I love you I always have but even if you did tell me this the night you wanted I still would’ve said no I could never be with somebody who travels as much as you do it just would never work between us” “keigo even if I didn’t it was always her don’t try to make me feel better she’s been the one you’ve wanted since you met her” hearing that from her was kinda heart warming and he’s told me a thousand times but hearing it from somebody close to him is different “even Kenny was jealous of her she’s so special to you and god I wish I had what you had with her just once in my life I’m sorry kei I am” she say before hanging up “ugh I’ll be back” “you know where she is” “yeah” he says grabbing his keys and leaving out the door 

 

When I get to the hotel and up to her room “rem open the door” I say knocking on the door “what are you doing here” she says opening the door “now I can’t just pop up” I say walking in “here to land the final blow” “no I’m here to make sure my friend is ok so come on” I say sitting on the bed back against the headboard “Jess know you here” she say laying next to me “yes she does but she’s not the person I’m worried about right now” “I fucked up kei I tried to break you two up you shouldn’t care about me anymore” “but I do I mean I’ve met me I’m very desirable I get it” “stop I’m serious I got super jealous and tried my damndest to ruin your happiness” “that you did and instead of me never talking to you again and just letting you live with this guilt I’m giving you the space to apologize because you got wrapped up in your feelings and wasn’t thinking right” she looks at me with tears in her eyes the she looks down 

 

I sit and wait for her apology because I can tell she was trying to figure out the right words to say “ ok keigo i'm sorry I really am and seeing you that damn happy with her and knowing I’ll never get the chance to get to do that sucks but I should’ve never done any of this and I’m sorry genuinely” “you know I hate you sometimes right” “well shit ok” “you just said a lot of nonsense you know that you’re my only living friend of over 9 years and I do love you just not that type of love even if you were pegging after me since the day we met I probably would have still never said yes I don’t even look at you  like that like ew in the most respectful way” “how can ew be respectful” “like I don’t know my mother calls you the daughter she never had so like your my sister that I love and I’ll do anything for but not that” “ok I get it kei I’m getting friend zoned for the rest of our lives” “you better believe it” I say tapping her nose “your going to find your person the person who wants nothing then to travel the world with you and see your beautiful face everyday unfortunately it’s just not me” “thanks kei” she say laying her head in my lap

 

 “and the next time you try to gaslight me I will actually fight you”I say plucking her forehead “ouch” she say grabbing her forehead “and you need to apologize to Jess to your lucky she’s a changed woman because Jess a few months ago she would’ve hit you with some shit you never heard of” “she doesn’t seem like a fighter” she say looking up at me “she’s not but she verbally abuse the hell out of somebody when she gets the chance to” “now that I can see” she say looking back at the tv “I don’t care where you are you better be at my damn wedding dude” “I wouldn’t miss it for the world I can’t wait to see you all dressed up and valuable” “I’m definitely going to cry more than her that day” “oh we all know that” she says laughing “I love her rem like so much she has really changed me for the better” “I know she got you in therapy and shit your mother couldn’t even do that” “I know I mean but it comes with marrying a therapist she has her own therapist and we have one together and I occasionally go to our shared one alone sometimes” “your therapist wife has a two therapist” “every therapist has a therapist apparently” “how are there enough for each to have one” “have absolutely no clue”

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Hey princess I’m going to be late coming back we made up but she still seems a little off and I don’t wanna leave her alone yet 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I’m glad you did 

I know I barely know her but she didn’t seem like herself on the phone 

And it’s all good I’ll see you when you get back 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

she wasn’t but everything good now 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Ok good 

Also Kenny was jealous of our relationship 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yeah one day he came to the dorm when we were sleeping in my room and he claims I was holding you like i didn’t want to let you go and it was a whole thing

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Huh I mean you do and you used to make him sleep at the bottom of the bed most of the time

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

His exact argument but to frank you run warm but his ass was HOT and that bed was microscopic and you would practically sleep on top of me so it was room

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I was just jealous of y’all sex life still am honestly 

Had your ass bent over the sink in our shared bathroom 

That’s some G shit 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

If you want me to bend you over the sink and fuck you just say that princess 

Because I can arrange that

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I mean I wouldn’t hate it to be honest with you 

Maybe the next trip to wonderland could be set there

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I can work with that 

Shit I forgot to go to the P.O. Box to get your package from Brittany 

I’ll go get it tomorrow I promise 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I also forgot about it so it’s cool 

It’s not urgent it can wait

 

To: PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Question 

Is anyone from your family in America coming to the wedding 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Only my aunt franky Brittany and my grandmother 

Thinking about it our wedding is going to be super small 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yeah its only going to be my mom and my 2 “aunts” from my side 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Why the “” 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Because one is my mom childhood Bestfriend and the other is Kenny mom and she was also my moms friend in school 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Ahhh got you 

You ok with some people from my dad frim coming 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Why wouldn’t I thier like family to you 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Just asking is Yo coming 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I haven’t asked her yet 

kinda don’t wanna bring it up till we figure out a date so people can know when to take off and stuff like that

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yeah makes sense 

But touya wants me to come over so I’ll text you when I get there 

 

Rumi fell asleep awhile ago and I let her sleep she did a lot of crying today she has to be exhausted but when her phone rang she hopped  up “hey…uhh yeah of course…I’m not far from there …I can meet you there soon…ok see you soon” she says then hangs up “work” “yeah” she says getting out of the bed “want me to drive you” “thanks but it’s literally the restaurant down the street I’m ok” “ok I’ll walk out with you” I say putting my shoes back on 

 

When we get downstairs we have one final hug “hey you know I’m planning on getting married soon and I really need a reliable groom’s person you trying to take the spot” “wait I thought hizashi would do that” “nahh you are if you say yes anyway” “yes dude yes I’ll take time off when it comes time and be here full time up until the wedding” “ok then I’m counting on you rem” I say backing away from her 

 

Chapter 33

Notes:

Hello loves✨ this chapter has slight cw⚠️ depictions of pretty bad anxiety⚠️ but other than that smooth sailing the next chapter Will be a hizashi centered chapter ( at least that's what I have lined up not making any promises) anyways enjoy

The events of today are giving me the worst case of deja vu ive ever experienced in my life so remember 2 years ago when i fucked up and to make up for the fuck up i had to take jess to the spa blah  blah and i picked her up from a lunch with her mom well this time im at the same restaurant and I’m sitting across form her mother 

 

“So keigo how have you been”she asks me looking at the drink menu “i've been doing great glad to be back home  how about yourself jess told me about the new job offer” “ah yes a big firm back home has contacted me with an offer to come join them but i dont think ill take it honestly” “any particular reason if you don't mind me asking” “not at all i just don't really wanna go back i left that place a long time ago and i really don't wanna go back and plus i'm just getting my family back together the wedding and plus i don't wanna leave the firm i'm at” “what happened there that yall just packed up and left” “so much my mother was worse than me on a whole other scale and i was pretty much force to be either a doctor or lawyer and as long as i stayed this perfect image i had all of my mothers love i got in the law school i was at the top of my class and the year before graduating i had two semester left and i was done had no stress about the bar because i've been preparing for it my whole life and first day of my last year in college  i met james and we clicked and we had these big ambitions did everything together and fell in love and i got pregnant and i found out the morning of the bar so that threw me off completely but i put on the back burner went to take the test passed with flying colors came home to tell my mother and she found the test freaked out told me i was ruining my life and so much more hateful stuff so once her rampage was over i told her i passed the test which made the rampage worse somehow and she told me she never wanted to see me again and i haven't seen her since almost 28 years ” “jeez i'm sorry you went through that” 

 

“yeah so after that i told james and he told me to pick a place and japan was the first place i thought of and the day of graduation after we got our degrees we were on a plane here and honestly the best decision i've ever made we got here got married lived in a small place took our saving and put it into us starting a life here” “wait jess says her grandmother is coming to the wedding” “ah james mother that lady is a god sent when we went back for 3 years her and jess  got really close” “aunt franky and brittany” “my twin sister and niece franky was the jess of the family forsure your going to love her when you meet her and  brittany is well my only niece but definitely my favorite i don't know much about hair and it showed when i would struggle to do jess’s hair when she was a kid so when they met it was wonderful because she taught her everything” “ah she’s the reason I was kept up till 3 in the morning helping her with her hair” I say laughing “3 in the morning when did she start” ”I had to stop at work yesterday and she started when I left at like 3 in the afternoon it took her 13 hours” “your a trooper for staying up with her” “yeah only because she trapped me with my favorite foods and a good k-drama” 

 

After ordering the conversation takes a sharp left turn “so the only thing I really know about you is your name and what you do for a living and what I was told from Jessica when you were in university so I wanna know what changed you used to be with a man then what happened” well shit ok “well for a huge portion of my life I wasn’t attracted to women really I’ve tried been in a relationship with a woman before had relations with other women but it wasn’t what I wanted and I was with my only boyfriend Kenny then he unfortunately died but I’ve never been 100% straight or gay I’ve just been living and only been in love twice so it wasn’t really a change in sexuality just a change in who I was in love with” “only twice” “yeah my last relationship was abusive to me not the other way around”I say clearflying “so I thought I loved her but once I got out of it I realized I really didn’t so yeah just the two times” “that’s terrible keigo I’m glad you got out of that” “yeah it got pretty bad but with the help of Jess and hizashi mostly hizashi I’m 100 times better than I was then” “i was skeptical at first on if I thought you were a good fit for Jessica but the more I get to know you the I’m starting to think Jessica isn’t fit for you” “elaborate please” “Jessica always has good intentions but you’re ready put your life on the line for her and I honestly don’t know if she’ll do the same” “I believe she wouldn’t in the beginning maybe but now yeah she was surprised that I even proposed because she thought I wouldn’t because of what happened she works just as hard in our relationship as I do if not more she had a lot of work to do to even get to this point so don’t discredit her” 

 

After switching with to a lighter topic and eating the lunch was finally over and I can honestly say Jess mom isn’t that bad she just wants the best for her daughter “I’m here to pick up my lovely partner” Jess says rolling the window down parked in front of the restaurant “you get her to drive to wow you’ve really changed my child” “bold of you to assume I was driving” she says getting out the driver's seat “you enjoy my keigo” “yes I did we should do this more often” janessa says before hugging me “let me know when your free anytime I’ll make time” “I definitely will have a fun vacation oh and  I would love baby haru soon” “mom I love you but you got another two year and haru is on the way” “

 

We get stuck in non moving traffic “pick a number 1-10” Jess says “ummm 6”I say looking at my phone out of boredom “the Megan playlist great taste” her phone connects the Bluetooth and big ole freak by Megan thee stallion came through the speakers 

 

As soon as the song starts I knew Jess was about reciting this song word for words I switch over to my camera and record her and once the second verse starts she’s looking over at me “I want to fuck in the mirror, I like to look at your face when you in it

Come in the room and I'm giving commands I am the captain and he the lieutenant I need that neck like a mothafuckin' pendant

Need you to spit, make that motherfucker glisten Tell him "Shut up!" make that motherfucker listen I bet he gon' like it, he won't do no tripping” and once she stops she noticed the camera “I can’t stand you” “then let’s be glad your sitting down” I stop recording “gimme” she say reaching for my phone and I hand it to her 

 

Slowly moving through traffic and she’s gotten entirely to quite I look over at her and she scrolling on something “whatyadoing” I say putting my hand on the back of headrest “um…I was watching the video you just…um took and landed on this” she says turning the phone to me and I see a video of me getting my soul snatched by hizashi “oh yeah” “when was this” “looking at how short my hair is and the undercut I wanna say 4 years ago” I say looking at it “Jesus what transpired before this you look terribly bruised” “yeah during training I was doing pretty bad that day when I showed up and he did everything he knew I liked and by the end I was crying calling myself worthless and that I didn’t deserve his care and he fucked the thoughts outta my head if you turn on the audio you can hear me crying and he’s making me say that I was worthy of his love and care crazy day honestly” she turns the audio on and puts the speaker up to her ear “oh wow” “yeah” 

 

Listening to the audio I can see her getting uncomfortable in her seat she fidgeting and pushing her legs together “princess you good” I say the putting hand that was on the headrest on her thigh “mhm” “you sure” I say moving my hand up her bare thigh she bites her lower lip and sits up in her seat “yeah” she says putting my phone in the center console cup holder and crosses her legs at the ankle as a way to stop my hand from going up any further “the next exit is soon and we have awhile before we’re there so I’m giving you two options we pull over somewhere secluded handle this now or we wait till we get there” I say moving with traffic “how much longer” “a hour and a half” “I think I can wait” she says like she not really sure “ok” I move my hand and put it on the steering wheel 

 

About 15 minutes go past and she reaches for my hand and I move it before she can “you said you wanted to wait so that’s what you’re going to do” “ughh I thought I could but the image of you getting fucked and crying keeps playing over and over in my head” “I gave you your chance” “please kei at least just put your hand back I feel like I’m being punished for something” I feel like being an asshole so I don’t give her what she wants she should’ve took her opportunity 

 

He’s really the biggest asshole on the planet and it’s my fault I should’ve just taken my chance to fuck in the car but noooo now I’m sitting here contemplating just taking off my underwear to get rid of the discomfort and this traffic isn’t helping he said a hour and half what feels like an hour ago and traffic is not moving how much trouble do you think we could get in if I just handled this myself right here I look over at him and he has his head laying against the window looking forward tapping his thumb against the steering wheel to the beat of the song I slowly put my foot up on the seat and lift my skirt a bit and the small touches even from myself are driving me insane I slowly start by doing small circles on my clit bitting my lip to not make any noise to catch his attention then I slide down and easily enter 2 fingers in myself eyes rolling back 

 

I hope she knows I know what she’s doing she’s not as slick as she think she is her eyes are closed head flat against the headrest going a pace that I know is killing her from how slow it is but she’s not trying to be obvious “I hope you’re having fun” I say as we finally get past the invisible cause of traffic her eyes shoot open and her hand stops “you might as continue only time your cumming for the rest of the day” “but-“ “but nothing you couldn’t just be patient and wait so continue and if your going to do it do it right”

 

After my statement she stops and puts her foot back on the floor looking sad she goes the rest of the ride quiet and when we arrive I open her door and she looks at me like a sad puppy not getting out of the car “come on” “no” “you having this bratty attitude isn’t going to help your case so let’s go” she just sits there arms crossed looking out the front window I get closer to her in the doorway“Jessica you know better then anyone else I don’t do pointless attitudes so get it together get out of the car and be the good girl I know you can be and I might change my mind” I say lowly with my hand traveling up her skirt she trembling under my touch her breath catches in her throat “please” she says moving my hand to her pussy “do what I say and you might get your wish” I say moving my hand off her completely “now come on” I say moving back enough for her to get out and she does “was that so hard” 

 

We walk in and it’s the same reception from last time “hello welcome to Stars Resort and spa how everything going” the lady at the front desk greeted us “good thank you I have Reservation here under the name Keigo Takami” “ohhhh k I see you here you’ll be in suite 607 and here’s your key enjoy your stay” “thank you” I say taking the key from her “I’m sorry but you two been here before correct” “yes we have you checked us in last time too” “I see a congratulations are in order” she says looking at Jess hand “yeah thank you” “no problem and thank you for coming back to Stars Resort” we leave and get on the elevator and like always she clings to me like we’re magnets “she was flirting with you” “was she” “yes up until she saw the ring she was definitely flirting” “or was she doing her job” “your really oblivious to when people find you attractive and are showing interest in you” she says when the elevator doors open “I mean at some point when your constantly being sought out you don’t notice it and it’s not like your any better” I say walking down the hallway “yeah I’m not but you fall victim to it more then me” she says walking into the door “Does it matter I don’t want anybody else but you” “then stop being so damn mean and fuck me” “nice try but no” i say taking the bags to the room “keigoooooo” “no matter how many Os you add to my name it’s not going to help you”I say sitting on the bed “you only gave me the option of fucking in the car and I didn’t want to do that”she say straddling my lap “ok and the other option was to wait till we got here and fuck till our dinner reservation which you chose then decided to take it in to your own hands and try to sneak and please yourself so that’s on you”I say keeping my hands to my side “I wanted to wait but couldn’t and I could see and hear  that video so vividly like I was there and you obviously could tell how much I want you right now“ ”I sure can I can feel it to that’s why I gave you the options I did and you could’ve just asked me to make you cum in other ways that didn’t evolve me pulling over or did you want me to read your mind” I say and she makes the brattiest noise I’ve ever heard “you gonna have to learn how to use your words when you want something because you know I’ll give you whatever you want if you ask for it but not right now” she leans forward putting her head on my shoulder “please sir” she says grinding down on me back and forth “I’m sorry I shouldn’t have done it and I know it but please” she continues the movement and I’m really showing some self restraint right now because any other time I would’ve had her screaming my name by now but no 

 

She’s keeping this pace that I know is definitely going to get her there she letting out breathy moans in my left ear and this is best thing on the planet but am I going to let her know I’m enjoying this a bit more than she is no not at all “having fun” she moves her arms from my neck to grab my hands and put them on her hips“please don’t move your hands please” she says in a whiny moan “so desperate you’ll do anything to cum right now” I say pressing her down on me more and guiding her faster “please please sir please I’m so close” “why should I let you you don’t deserve it” “I’m sorry I was bad I won’t do it again but please god please just let cum I’ll do anything please” “don’t make promises you can’t keep princess” “I need your permission to cum please” that’s new I like it “then  you’re going to hate me” “please kei I need you please” “you need me princess huh” i says grabbing her face in my hand to make her look at me she nods her head yes frantically “words princess” “yes sir I need you” 

 

I break the self restraint I have and flip us so that she laying on her back I quickly remove my pants to give her what’s she wants I mean we already knew I was going to do that anyway but thats not the point I pull her to the end of the bed and flip her face down ass up she lets out a surprised gasp at how fast I did that standing up I start to fuck her and I’m fucking her in a way I’ve never fucked her before and shocking the hell out of myself “fuck fuck please I’m about to cum please” and I told her she’s about to hate me I pull out right when I knew she was about to cum “no no fuck” she says “I never said I was going to let you cum” “please fuck” she says now on her knees on the bed in front of me “I said I was sorry sir please you don’t make me beg for anything so I don’t know what to say but please” “ I really should do it more your really cute when you beg” I say smiling at her she makes a noise like she’s giving up and sits back on her legs “giving up that easy princess you must don’t want it enough” I say pulling my pants back up “is it just for today” she says lowly and sad “yup till the sun comes up tomorrow” “I guess I’ll face the consequences “ she says laying back with a long dramatic sigh “good girl” I say before walking out the room 

 

When I come back to the room she still in the same spot looking at the ceiling “was there a mirror there last time” she says pointing up “huh don’t remember but this is the same room I think we would’ve noticed that” I say laying next to her looking up at us looking back down at us “i don’t think I’ve ever been this horny in my life” “I’ll relieve it tomorrow” “could I do it myself” I look over at her “what you think” “come on kei I’m only laying back like this because sitting up on my legs like that only made it worse just once and by your pant looking tighter than usual you could also use the releases” “ah I could but I can wait” “Takami stop it if you could wait your dick would be soft by now” “Takami I never said I had to wait for you to cum never said that at all just you” “you bitch” “you see where that word got you last time so if I was you I would stop using it” “yeah last time I used it you fucked the hell out of me” “and I planned on doing that everyday and every moment we’re here but you ruined that for yourself” “ok let’s just change the subject maybe if I stop talking about it it’ll just go away” “not with the way I was just fucking you it won’t” “ I know”she say wrapping her arm around my waist and putting her head on my chest “do I have time for a nap” “uhh yeah” “ok wake me when I need to get ready” 

 

“Princess It’s 5:30 time to get up” I say sitting up with her still attached to me “ok” she says not making an effort to let me go “wanna pick my outfit for tonight” she says looking up at me “you never let me dress you” “I know but I’m too tired to think about putting an outfit together right now” “ok but you gotta let me go first love” she lets me go and grabs a pillow and sits with it in the middle of the bed “ok let’s see what we got in here” I say opening her suitcase “is this new” “yes I just came in right before we left” she says in a yawn it’s a completely mesh long sleeve dress “um is there something that goes under this or because if it’s not you know I have no problem with that but you know” i say and she just smiles at me “I know my fashion can be a bit outrageous but I’ll never go that hard it’s a black bodysuit that goes under it” “ok just asking do you have the harness thingy with you” “the chest one with the belt ” “yeah” “yes it’s in there somewhere” I look around and find the bodysuit and the harness “ok shoesss these one” I pick a pair of chunky platform boots that be she wears pretty often “it’s time for a new pair of these” I say looking at the scuffs on the back and slight lifting on the heel of the shoe “I know but I’m like emotionally attached to those one they were the first pair I bought and I just never wanna let them go” “well here’s your outfit for tonight” “hm I thought you would go for something more scandalous but I like it I should let you do this more often” “I can put together a good work outfit to I do the hell out of business wear” “it’s like your whole gig I was surprised you owned a pair of jeans”she says getting out of the bed “yeah it is it’s what I look best it” “not true you look best in me” she say winking while sitting at the desk “you’re right” I say standing behind her “i got you a gift” “did you” she say looking at me through the mirror “yeah open” I say sliding a black box  in front of her

 

She opens the box and our new custom collars “wait when did you order them” “ the same day you told me the idea you wanted I didn’t want to wait until you went through the whole process of finding them and having to wait for it to get here” “I would truly be lost without you” she says turning back in her seat she picks up the one of them and my favorite part about them is that from the outside their just regular black collars with gold rings on the front but the inside are lined with red silk in hers and mine blue and princess and kei stitched on the inside “can I wear it now” “only if you want to” “put it on me” she hands me hers I wrap it around her and put the tail of it in the latch “is it to tight” “no” I tuck the extra in the loop “it’s exactly what I imagined it it’s perfect kei” “I’m glad you like princess” 

 

After getting ready I’m waiting for Jess to be ready in the living room “ok yeah you're definitely doing this more often” she says coming out the room and the outfit looks better than expected “i um you looks beautiful princess” “stopppp” she says covering her face “what I mean shit you do come here” I take her hand and take her back to the room and stand in front of the mirror “beautiful everything about you is perfect” “keigo” she says putting her face into my shoulder “take my damn compliment” “thank you you know I hate getting compliments” “get over it because I will always do it” “pictures?” “Here” I hand her my phone and we take a plethora of pictures before leaving 

 

“You know a lot of firsts happened here”Jess says after we’re seated “yeah first time you told me you loved me first time you submitted to me first argument first time getting blackout drunk together amongst other things” “it feels like that was so long ago and it really wasn’t” after ordering and having aimless conversation “hey so i asked rumi to be my best man well woman” “i thought it was going to ask zashi” “yeah but i felt like that would be wrong for some reason” “shit” “what” “i asked touya to my groom of honor” “oh were fucked” “how did neither of think to bring this up” “i dont know” “b i n g o bingo was his name oh he could officiate it” “shit your right” “aren't i always”

 

we did something we couldn’t last time we were here we enjoyed dinner in the restaurant 

 

“So you wanna shower with me or wait till I’m done” she says when we get back into the room “nahh go ahead I’ll wait” “ok your lost”she says walking into the room “it was a nice attempt princess”I sit on the couch scrolling through the limited channels that they did have and turned on anything just as background noise and I just sit there waiting for to be done till I get a phone call 

 

“Hey zashi” “so I got the package that were at your house but nothing was at Jess’s” “yeah those one come tomorrow I believe and thank you I completely forgot that I had ordered them” “yeah no problem I’m surprised you answered I assumed y’all would be inside each other by now” “one I hate the way you said that two she did something that revoked her privileges for today” “wow and your standing by it good job keigo”he says like he’s talking to a dog “why did you say it like that I’m not a dog” “I’m sorry your more a cat person right kitten” “ok now I’m actually hanging up on you” “what kei you want me to stop” kei please for the love of all the gods stop “yeah it was nice talking to you love I’ll see ya when we get back” “noo don’t hang up on me” “why not you’re playing a game neither of us can win right now” “yeah but you know i love a good game love” “yeah the unfair ones where only you can win” “favorite kind also when are you going to ask me to be your best man” “never” “excuse me” “why would i asked the person officiating the wedding to be my best man thats ass backwards” “wait yall want me to officiate” “unless you don't want too i'm pretty sure we can find somebody else to do it” “wait so i would be the person that seals the deal between the two of you” “yeah that's literally the job description” “fuck yes i wanna do that are y’all not doing the traditional best man maid of honor thing” “yes and no I choose rumi and she chose touya we didn’t feel right having you just on either side so put yo ass in the middle” “I’m really honored I need to get ordained and shit” “yeah you do” 

 

We continue with regular conversations and mid conversation Jess walks out past the door half naked “she’s trying really hard to get me to fuck her” “she’s not going to give up either so I hope your self control is higher then usual” “yeah it slipped earlier but still didn’t let her cum” “I’m really surprised you didn’t just give her want she wants” “I don’t always give her what she want…well ok maybe I do but that’s not the point I have to not do that sometimes and this was one of those times” “ill love to know if you make it to the morning without fucking her” “I am and when I do I think I deserve a reward” “what do you want kitten” “surprise me” “and I’ll make it a good one too ah getting another call I’ll talk to you later”

 

After hanging up I make my way back in the room “what are you doing” i say seeing her laying on the bed taking pictures of herself in the ceiling mirror “hm nothing” “mm ok well I’m about to shower” “ok” 

 

After my shower I come out and she looks like she always does when we’re about to go to sleep one of my shirts that’s she stole without me knowing and the occasional pair of shorts her glasses that she barely wears hair up for the night and god she looks sexier like this then when she was just in her bra and panties 

 

I put on clothes and lay next to her wrapping my arm around her waist head in her lap “now you wanna be nice to me” she says looking down at me “I’ve been nothing but nice all day” “yeah ok it hasn’t felt that way” “your just not used to me not giving you what you want that’s not me being mean” “baby to me that is being mean you give me everything like literally everything and now your saying no to me I hate it” “maybe next time listen be patient and tell me what you want and I won’t have to tell you no” “hey man it's another thing I have to work on”she says braiding my hair “having fun” “yeah your hair is long enough for me to do this now” she says braiding my hair how she does hizashi when we go out “look at me” she says and I look up at her “pretty” she says smiling at me I sit up and angle myself up so that I can see myself in the vanity mirror “it is pretty princess” “I know it doesn’t help that your that damn cute” “as goddamn button” i says laying back in her lap 

 

“can you teach me how ask for things” “in what way love” “the way hizashi taught you” “your not going to like it” “I don’t care I wanna be able to ask for things without feeling weird” “wanna wait till we get home or here” “does it require any special tools because sadly I didn’t bring anything this time” “it doesn’t have to I can adapt” “before I decided why do you say I won’t like it” “well the way we did this was that he wouldn’t do anything unless I explicitly said what I wanted and I had to be clear on exactly what I wanted because if I wasn’t clear I wouldn’t get what I wanted I got what I asked for and I know you’re going to struggle with that” “yeah because you practically read my mind and just know what I want” “well even if I do if we do this I won’t unless you ask” “ok then we can try it while we’re here” “ok so for the time we spend here I won’t do anything rather sexually or domestic unless you explicitly ask me to” “ok I think I can do that” 

 

I’m fully capable of asking for everything I want so this isn’t really a challenge is what I thought when I signed a deal with the devil because other than waking me up this morning he’s literally done nothing that he usually would 

 

He walked straight pass me when I was trying my damndest to put on a necklace I leaned in for a kiss and he backed away I was surprised he even held my hand today after the spa day were just sitting here watching tv and I haven’t asked for anything and conversation has been very minimal all day and I don’t necessarily have a problem with that any other day but today it’s bothering me “so I have to ask for you to talk to me too” I say and he just look up from his phone at me and back at his phone “ok you were right I don’t like this” “I told you wouldn’t” 

 

Hizashi couldn’t have been this harsh to someone who just came out of a abusive relationship because this shit is killing me 

 

To:HIZASHI❤️

Dude your a fucked individual 

From:HIZASHI❤️

Well hello to you to my love 

To:HIZASHI❤️

I made the dumbass decision to ask him to do something you did to him 

From:HIZASHI❤️

What exactly 

To:HIZASHI❤️

To teach me how to ask 

From:HIZASHI❤️

Ahh yeah then I deserved the first text then 

I’m pretty sure he warned you before letting you agree to it

To:HIZASHI❤️

Yes he did but I didn’t think I was going to have to ask him to speak to me 

From:HIZASHI❤️

If you want something you have to ask you can’t just expect him to know what you want 

To:HIZASHI❤️

Oh shut it 

From:HIZASHI❤️

Get used to it because if he goes as far as I did your going to be crying by the end of the night 

 

“Keigo” “yes” “I if I say I love you do I have to ask for you to say it back” “no” “so I have to ask you to touch me as well I’m guessing because this is the longest you’ve went since we were here last” “yes” “can I get answers above yes and no” “stop giving me yes or no statement and questions to respond to” “ugh I’m not quitting but this is terrible” “you’re having a bad go of it because your not asking for anything” “ok first real ask of the day kiss me” he comes from the opposite side of the couch and comes in for a kiss then kisses my forehead “that’s not what I asked for” “princess you asked for a kiss so that’s what I gave you” “ugh ok can I kiss you then” “where exactly” “here” I say tapping his bottom lip “or is that not clear enough” “you know I can still say no even you ask” “no stop ok ok ok keigo can I kiss you on the lips that’s a weird sentence” “yes princess you can” I reach up “and can you kiss me back”I say stopping mid way “good girl” he says before I kiss him 

 

“Was that so hard” he says backing away “yes it really was” “you’ll get used to it” he say sitting back on the other side of the couch “no come back lay on me like you usually do” he says nothing and comes and lays on me “my sex ban is over correct” he nods his head “well I want-“ “before you say that I need you to know every step of the way you have to ask for everything you want me to do to you I won’t do anything you don’t ask for” “ok I think I’ll be more comfortable with this part then everything else I wanna have sex….with you” he looks up at me like hes waiting for me to finish an already finished statement “oh right now please” he sits up and takes my pants off and slides me flat on the couch he looks down at me awaiting my next request “um I don’t know um give me your hand” he puts his hand in mine and I placed it at the bottom of the hem of my shirt and guided his hand up lifting the shirt along the way and he’s following my hand with his eyes I stop once we reach my right breast and put his hand their “uh kiss my neck” he leans down and does just that with my hand still on his I squeeze my boob and when I release he swipes his thumb across my nipple “yes that continue that” he chuckles and continues to do it without guidance I reach for his other hand “I want you to finger me” I say putting his hand on my pelvis bone he goes and does just that I pull him to my face by the back of his hair “kiss me back” I say before kissing him 

 

You would think because I’m literally a professional dominant that this would be easy to tell him what to do “please kei” “what princess what do you want say it” “you in me please” but this is literally the most valuable I’ve ever felt having to say everything I want is actually very difficult for me “that’s what you want princess” he removes his hand pulls his pants off and presses into me 

 

Weve done some things that leave us both open and valuable being taken out of my comfort zone and subbing for him and letting him take complete control has made me lose my sense of what I like and don’t because I’m so used to him taking the lead with these things that I can verbalize what I want him to do and that’s literally the whole point of this and I can’t get the right words to say what I want 

 

I feel uncomfortable and I don’t like it I never feel uncomfortable around kei and at this moment I do I should stop this right yes i yes I have to but how I say the safeword then he’ll think something is really wrong and if I say yellow then that gives that I just need a break and I just wanna stop this all together I got so stuck in my head that I didn’t even notice that I was having a full blown anxiety attack 

 

“Jess hey hey princess look at me” I hear keigo say but I can focus on anything right now I can hear my heartbeat in my ears 

 

I’ve been here just waiting for Jess to fully get back to normal she’s completely shut down starting off into space non verbal and I don’t know what the hell to do it’s been close to an hour now and nothing has really changed I hear a knock at the door and I go open it “is there any change”hizashi says walking in I had no choice but to call him Im clueless right now on what to do and he’s the only one who I know that can help “no”i say closing the door “ok this was a pretty bad one I’m guessing what happened” “we’re in the middle of sex and at first everything was good and then she just disconnected from everything I stopped and she’s just been out of it since” “it’s ok kei the best thing we can do for her right now is just be here when she comes back ok I know your freaking out in the inside but I need you calm to ok” “yeah yeah I know I just feel useless right now” “your not you haven’t left her side since and you were able to gage the situation and ask for help your not useless” 

 

She’s now sleeping in my lap she’s still hasn’t said anything or fully been herself and zashi informed this isn’t the first time something like this has happened “yeah before she stopped taking the meds she had a similar experience freaked me out completely she had missed a few days and she went into this spiral and shutdown completely and unlike now I had no clue what the hell to do or any one to call so I just hovered over her and made sure she was ok and by the next morning she was back and when a few weeks later she told me she wanted to completely stop taking them I thought it was the worst idea in the world we got into a big fight about it and if we didn’t work together I honestly think would’ve been the end of the friendship just how she got upset about Shirakumo and seeing me constantly get hurt by him I never wanted to see her like this again and if that’s what she wanted to do then that was on her this is the third time since she’s stopping taking them that I know of anyway” “the second time being when I left that night” “yup she started taking them again that night but I’m guessing that she’s not anymore”  

 

I could barely sleep from how worried I am I keeping checking on her and I know that’s she ok well you know what I mean but I need to hear her say it that she’s ok 

 

The sun is starting to rise it’s going on 17 hours and I know that it’s not my decision to make but she’s always told me she was at a point where this wasn’t a problem anymore and this is the second time this happened in almost 2 years maybe it wasn’t the best decision to stop taking the meds 

 

“Dude you're thinking too loud” I hear her say next to me “are you awake awake” “ I am now woah when did hizashi get here” she says sitting up and seeing him “after you had an anxiety attack and shut down for the past 17 hours” “jeez that’s the longest I’ve been out before” she say stretching “I’m sorry but your acting a bit to normal for me right now” I say following her to the bathroom “I mean yes I’ve been out of for 17 hours but this isn’t the first time that’s happened it was once an normal occurring thing” “what I never mind what happened that caused this” “I got uncomfortable with yesterday and I was overthinking everything and just spiraled I’m ok I promise” she’s just acting like she did something you see every day and I personally don’t like that’s she’s not taking this more seriously “so instead of just stopping me you went down a long path that could’ve been avoided” “funny thing is I spiraled because I didn’t know how to tell you to” she says turning on the shower “no no not funny not funny at all what the hell” “keigo calm down I get it it was a scary situation and I’m sorry but it’s not that big of deal I promise” “I ok whatever” I say leaving out of the bathroom “she’s acting like what she just did was perfectly normal”hizashi says getting out of the bed “yes what the fuck” “yeah frustrating I know”

 

And now I have to deal with an irritated keigo he’s been aggressively ignoring me since this morning and I’m really not seeing why I’m ok now so you would think it would just blow over by now but no still highly upset with me and shopping with an annoyed kiego is not fun at all “how about this one” I say showing him a super cute dress and instead of a yeah princess that would look soooo cute on you I get “yeah cool” “your not even looking at it” he looks up and he just gives me the ok hand gesture and walks to the opposite side of the store “you can’t fault him for being mad at you”hizashi says “he’s upset over nothing I’m ok alive and well so we should just move on and act like it didn’t happen” “that’s not happening and you know it this is a main reason he told you you weren’t going to like this when your placed in situations where you have to choose thing and tell people what you want you go down a hill that hard to come off” 

 

ALL DAY THIS MAN HAS BEEN IGNORING ME I can count on one hand how many times he’s spoken to me and unlike yesterday I’m actually trying “ok I’m not doing this anymore keigo I get it ok yesterday was a scary situation and I scared you you were worried for me and i'm grateful don’t get me wrong but this isn’t warranted you’re acting like I don’t exist right now and I can’t even put into words how much I hate that so please can you just talk to me let out your frustration tell me how you think I need to get back on the medication whatever I’ve heard it all just please stop ignoring me” i say sitting infront of him on the coffee table and he looks at me and I can see he’s pissed at me “when was the last time this happened” “what” “when was the last time this happened” I know when I give him the answer it’s only going to make this situation worse “last month when you were gone” “Jessica what the hell” “yes I know” “you keep saying you know this isn’t fucking normal you of all people should know this” “yes I kn- yes it’s not normal but for me it is it happen when I was a kid as well just something that happens to me” “yeah it happened when you were a kid that’s why your parents got you help to help with it god I thought maybe hizashi was being dramatic when he said that when you came to him and said you were going to stop taking the meds that was going to be the end there’s no way you don’t see that this only happens when you’re not taking them” “I’ve been taking them for 13 years of my life I had no gauge of how bad it really was so I stopped after the first time this happened in my adult life I had the resources to do this safely and I did and I got so used to not taking them anymore that I had it under control or at least I thought these past two years I’ve struggled the most with it I’ve kept track it’s happened 10 times in the past two years and I’ve been alone for a few of them but I made touya swear he wouldn’t tell anybody because I didn’t want anybody worrying about me stupid I know but I hate how valuable I feel in that state so I rather hide it from you then to have you constantly worry about me” I say quickly wipe tears falling from my face “me of all people this is something you didn’t feel comfortable sharing with me I worry about you regardless of what happens or what I know about you so it’ll just be adding to the damn list and I don’t give a damn about any of that I plan on spending the rest of my life you and you think you were going to able to hide that from me forever” I feel like shit I got upset that he didn’t tell me about Jessie and then I turn around and do the same thing 

 

“I’m sorry but I-“ she says before she starts full on crying “I’m sorry princess I was being to harsh and aggressive I’m sorry” I say bringing her in a full on hug “no stop apologizing” she says wiping her face “I shouldn’t have kept this from you I know that but I have a lot of shit to work through about being completely open with people and i never cared that I was never really close to people until you and I’ve been trying like super fucking hard because if there’s nobody on this earth I wanna be able to be valuable and open with is you and It’s still a struggle I just wanna be just as perfect you are to me to you” “princess you are fucking perfect I don’t care if you can’t verbalize what you want from me because I make it my life mission to make sure you never need for anything can’t make a decision fuck it give me the option and I’ll help you figure what you want i here to help you through whatever so please don’t hide shit like this from me I was completely useless yesterday I made zashi drive all the way up here because I didn’t know what to do just how you don’t wanna have to go through him to know things about me I don’t wanna do that shit either you’ve told every bone you’ve broken your blood type and every medication you’ve ever taken but the anxiety medication and the severity of your anxiety we skip that part” “Well I mean yeah kinda” “well can we not I wanna help you with that just at your own pace im not going anywhere regardless I just wanna make sure your ok and how to help when stuff like this happens” “ok well one you did phenomenal yesterday you didn’t really have to call hizashi” “oh i didn’t show up for you he told me what the situation was over the phone and he was pretty frantic I was here more for him then you”hizashi says coming in the living room “100% understandable but even if he was he didn’t show it to me I was pretty out it and he still kept a calm atmosphere for me which I really appreciate” “didn’t want to make things worse”

 

Things have calmed down now relaxing after a very tense situation “Get it over with already just say it” she says “say what” hizashi says beating me to it “that I need to start taking the medication again all that jazz I know it’s coming” “ you already know where I stand on the situation but it’s not my decision” “yeah as much a I would love for to I can’t force you nor will I guilt trip you into taking it if this is something you’re ok with then I just have to be” “so I’m not going to get the famous speech I’ve heard a million times” “not from us no butttt keigo did call in the middle of a session with asahi so be prepared to hear it from sho and nemuri but no” “perfect are you staying” “might as well I’m already here and I packed stuff just in case you didn’t fully recover by the next morning” 

 

We’ve moved back to the bedroom “ I just thought about something we’re still under the same contract as when we first started correct” “uh yes it was a three year contract so it ends this year why” “we’ll by that I had no say in if you wanted to have another sub or not” “huh” “in the contract I had no say in if you were to have another submissive or not it’s clearly stated in there” “shit your right but that didn’t take in to account that we would be engaged by now” “yes but by that contact you didn’t have to ask me or even let me know we can’t follow all but one rule” “so if I would’ve just done this not even asked you you would’ve been 100% ok with it because it’s in the contract” “I did it for the first like 2 months of the contract” “really wait with who” “remember the girl I told you about her and hizashi” “so for 2 months you were still under 2 other kink contacts” “well one zashi terminated our before I signed ours” “why did you never tell me” “because one I didn’t have to and two I did tell you about the girl when I told you what happened I said it was after I ended my contract with him” “not the point why we’re you still with hizashi because you said that it was your first time having sex without it being as a reward the day we went to the no name concert so we’re you still his sub then” “not under contract but yes” “so wait you would leave me and go to him” “I only did that like twice” “was I that bad” “no but sometimes I wanted something more and then because we were still in the trial phase and we weren’t doing much” “wow ok I guess I can’t say anything because we weren’t together but I still hate it” “why I only did it because it wasn’t explicitly mentioned that we were monogamous if it said other wise I wouldnt have did it at all and obviously were still not fully monogamous” “yes but I guess because I only was seeing you and you weren’t doing the same feels weird” “and now you see how I feel about the new sub” “yeah are you sure your ok with this because if you feel anything how I feel right now I would change my mind” “do this thing called getting over it it was almost 3 years ago and we weren’t together yet so why does it bother you so much” “ok now I see why you would’ve said no if hizashi wasn’t here because I only had you and now knowing that you had two other people at the same time as me kinda hurts my heart” “aww come here my poor baby” I say bringing her in my lap like I’m holding a small child “at the time I was just your submissive and friend after you took me to that dungeon hung me from that ceiling and craved Jess in my left thigh it your the only person I’ve been with minus zashi just you princess don’t even really have the desire to be with anyone else other than you” “hizashi” “Jessica I constantly want to be inside you hizashi I only have the want every now and then like don’t get me wrong it’s something to want all time but I don’t , now you on the hand constantly all the time” “so other than the girl and hizashi was there anybody else then” I take a second to think “keiiii” she say sliding down in my lap “what I wanna make sure I don’t wanna lie” “I shouldn’t have asked” “no no I have an answer” “do I wanna know” “yes because you asked the question so pre signing the contract 2 trial phase one of the those two and before i left for the expo 2” “4 people kei so 6 all together I really should kept my mouth shut” “if it helps out of the 6 it was only one person of the opposite sex and I didn’t have sex with her” “I mean it really doesn’t because it’s making me hyperfixate on the one thing I can’t provide for you well properly anyway” “Jess you were the first woman I’ve had sex with and enjoyed  I would take that as a win” “even Jessie” “terrible I hated doing it first time having sex couldn’t even stay hard” “ouch that couldn’t have been fun” “oh not at all I only did it because Kenny didn’t want to take the risk of me figuring out that I was straight later on down the line and I mean I knew I wasn’t but if he needed that security then I was going to do it” “that would’ve been all the security I needed jesus…so after those two months nobody else but me right” “yes princess just you” “ok then I have to get over it and fucking change that fucking contract” “I mean it’s over next month just leave it and change it for when we do the next one” “we’re continuing the contract” “ah yes why wouldn’t we” “I mean I don’t wanna keep re doing them every 3 years” “then make them valid for longer” “but I only know how to do it for someone who just my submissive not my fucking fiancé” “what is up with you and the word fucking today and if that’s the case make it for an undetermined time” “your right I could what would I do without you” “honestly I don’t know” 

 

With everything back to normal I feel slightly better with the whole asking thing I still kinda get stuck with indecision but I guess telling him the last secret of my life had help a lot “can you help me with thing” “what thing” “this stupid tag” “turn” he say before ripping it off “thank ya can I have a kiss please” I say and he kisses my forehead again “I guess that is what I asked for” I say before turning to walk to the room door he grabs my hand spins me back around and kissed me “your doing better with it this go around” “I promised I would try harder so that’s what I’m going to do” 

 

The rest of the trip was different then how I planned other then the one time sex didn’t happen I planned to show him the outfit that I bought that he said he would wear when he got back and honestly I didn’t mind just the time we spent together even if for a bulk of it I couldn’t speak and the other he didn’t either but I wouldn’t trade this weekend for anything 

Chapter 34: Sex Room-Hizashi

Notes:

hello loves ✨ coming at you with a hot fire flame new chapter ok ew cringe ok new chapter for you lovely the next chapter will probably be on the one year anniversary of yes mistress the 18th of this month and I'm on my way home for the summer so the frequency of chapters might be going up with all the new found free time

anyways enjoy

I get back after the long ride back from the spa and after that ride i really dont wanna do anything for the rest of the day i flop down in my couch not having the energy to even walk up the steps i get a text 

 

From: Kumo🌧

Hey hey you back yet

To: Kumo🌧

Yeah just got back 

From: Kumo🌧

Wanna come with me to this thing later 

To: Kumo🌧

Uhhhh 

When

From: Kumo🌧

7 its ok if not 

To: Kumo🌧

Is it like a big party thing or a chill type thing

From: Kumo🌧 

Chill thing 

My company is doing a chill work party thing only employees and plus one 

To: Kumo🌧

Want me to meet you there or want me drive us

From: Kumo🌧

I'm already at work so meet me here 

To: Kumo🌧

Ok ill see you there

Dresscode?

From: Kumo🌧

No your regular rockstar attire is ok

To: Kumo🌧

Ok 

From: Kumo🌧

Can't wait to see you i've missed you

To: Kumo🌧

Oh really well let me show you how much i missed you after this is over 

From: Kumo🌧 

Yes that will definitely make up for leaving me for 4 days 

To: Kumo🌧

Hey i had to deal with a frantic keigo 

Ill make up 4 days worth of sex 

From: Kumo🌧

I'm holding you to it 

 

As much as i want to just lay here and not do anything for the rest of the day i always drag him to my events i have do the same thing i look and it's only 3 so i have 4 hours and I only really need an hour and half to get ready “just a quick nap” I set an alarm and close my eyes and drift to dreamland 

 

I hear the alarm going off and a knock at the door I turn the alarm off and go to the door “I thought you wanted me to meet you there”I say seeing him at the door “yeah I did 9 hours ago”he says walking in the house “what” “yeah it’s 11 something already waited for you all night and you never showed” he says sitting on the steps “shit I’m sorry I fell asleep and even set a stupid alarm but never mind how can I make it up to you” I say sitting next to him he puts his hand in the pocket of his jacket and thinks “show me what’s in that room you won’t let me in upstairs” I knew this would happen one day “are you sure” “yeah what are you like a secret hoarder or something” “no just come on” I say standing and going up the steps with him following me “before I open the door this is a no judgement zone alright” “zashi you can do no wrong to me I don’t care just show me what’s behind door number 2” he says poking my arm “ok” I open the door and let him walk in and turn on the light “oh wow” he says looking around “yeah” “so like you’ve been this type of kinky this entire time and the worse I’ve gotten is cuffed to the bed” he say looking back at me. “I mean yes this isn’t the part of my life I share often” “does Jess know” “yes we worked together in the same dungeon that’s actually how we met” “keigo” “former submissive” “and just left me out the loop I’m hurt zashi did you think i was going to judge you for this dude I kinda guessed this is what this was and I knew you were into something like this because your entirely to good at sex” “wait are you equating me being good at sex to me being into bdsm” “literally what I just did” “so if this was like a room full collection of weird dolls or something would you say the same thing” “honestly if you were like a secret fudanshi or something I still wouldn’t care zashi” “ok well I do have to tell you something now that you know about this” “ what” “I do currently have a submissive” “oookay what does that have to do with me” “i mean I just have to tell now that you know about all of  this” “I don’t care he’s not taking any of my time so I don’t care it is a dude right” “yeah he’s dude his name is-“ “no no don’t wanna know” “ok”

 

He walks over to the bondage bench “what is this contraption” “it’s a bondage bench” “hmm ever used it before” “yeah once” “so do you have like a cool name or something” “cool name what am I a superhero” “no like what does you submissive call you” “ahh master with the occasional sir” “master zashi” he says looking the wall of restraints and ropes “no zashi just master” I say sitting on the bed “I know but that feels too impersonal for me” “what you plan on saying it one day” “only if you let me” he says sitting in my lap facing me “only if you feel like going through the long contract process” “ughhh why” “because I’m not using anything in this room on you until we do and before you ask yes I have made both Jess and keigo do the same” “ok then i guess so but can I get a slight taste of master zashi you know know what I’m signing myself up for” 

 

What I should do is say no and make us go through the process of the whole yes no maybes before I do this but I mean a taste couldn’t hurt “ok your getting no special treatment you must follow everything I tell you or it will get worse before it gets better you earn praise in here I don’t wanna hear a hizashi zashi none of that only master and sir you can do that for me right” watching his face I can see him go through 60 different emotions at once “uh yeah” “is that how your supposed to address me” “oh um yes sir” “quick learner now I want you to go through that door into my room take off your clothes and sit on the bed and wait for me ok” I say and he nods “words” “yes sir” “ good go” he gets up and goes to my room I lay back on the bed and think about something I could do that’s simple and won’t cross any boundaries that i don’t  know about yet  over stimulation is very entry level or edging shit how about both yeah that’s perfect I get a few things that I’ll need and walk over he sitting in the middle of the bed waiting patiently 

 

“Come here”I say standing on the right hand side of the bed he crawls over and sits flat against the headboard “both hands” he puts his hands out and I put the restrains around his wrist and attach it to the bedpost I take out the lube and I can feel his eyes watching my every move”give me a safe word” “um rain” “ok do you know what the stoplight system is” “kinda” “ok well green mean yes continue yellow slow down / you need a break red full stop” “why red and a safe word” “you can use either i'm letting you know you can stop me at any point you won't be disappointing me or upsetting me i need you to feel safe above anything else” he looks up at me and i can see hes touched by what i said “so I wanna see how long you can last” “last how sir” “without cumming” his face reads scared but not a scared I should be worried about “i don't know if i can last that long” “30 minutes this has a controller and every time you feel like you're about to cum you tell me and if you make it to the end of 30 minutes then i'll reward you but if not then i won't  it's up to you” i say pushing the vibrating plug in him “sir 30 minutes is a long time” “i could make it longer” “no no” “ok then” i sit down on the chair that’s in the corner of my room and I push the button on the small controller he’s moving a lot should I get the spreader bar if by the first time he tells me to stop hes still moving this much i will 

 

He's fighting hard against the restraints but they won't budge “why are you fighting so much” “im im about to fuck” i push stop and i can see every muscle in his body relax at once hes breathing heavy “color” “green” he says laying his head against the headboard i give it anyother minute or so before i start it back up and hes moving around again so i get up to go get the sperader “wait wait wait master don't leave me” i hear him say behind me “im not going anywhere love” i reach in the closet door and get the bar thats sitting on the shelf by the door i go closer to him and he “fuck fuck im about to-” before he can finish the sentence i push stop “pull you legs up” i say “what is that” “its a sperader bar you're moving too much for comfort it wont stop you completely but itll be more of a struggle” i say fasten the restraint around his thigh “is that too tight” “no” “ok” i say then push the start button and go back to the chair 

 

Ok so he's not begging for me to touch him and he taking this pretty well i feel like this could work if we do go full out he's following directions well and the only thing is i know i couldn't do anything and leave him alone he seemed pretty upset that i was leaving maybe it was less not being alone and he just want me to watch him either way is ok 

 

Im broken out my deep thought by “cum im about to cum” i push stop and again his whole body relaxes his head leaning forward “how much longer” “15 minutes” i say looking at my watch “fuck this is insane” he says laying his head against the headboard “if you wanna stop just let me know” “no dont stop justa new feeling” “ok” 

 

I give him another minute or so before I push the start button again watching him tense up and holding on to control making noise a grown man shouldn’t be able to conjure and time just goes by he doesn’t stop me again he just goes the whole 15 minutes without stopping me again 

 

when the time was up I stop it and go over next to him I release him from the restraints “you did good baby” I say sitting next to him on the bed “what's the longest you’ve ever made somebody so that” “um 2 hours” “keigo” “yeah why” “did he make it” “nahh he tapped out around a hour and 45 minutes in” “do you think I could make it the full 2 hours” “right now” “no just like in the future” “uhhh I don’t think so you had a hard time with just 30 minutes” “but it was my first time” “it was also his” “so you think he’s better than me in this area” this feels like a trap but at the same time I think he gets off on me talking about how much better keigo is then him “yeah” I simply say with his now free hands I see him grab his dick and slowly starts stroking so you do get off on this ok “what else is he better at then me” he say trailing off into a breathy moan “uhh remember the first night we came back here and you gave me head” “yeah” he says picking up the pace “well it was good but keigo ah he just a fucking trooper when it come to it” “yeah what what else” “he’s a wayyyy better bottom than you does everything I tell him to such a good boy for me” “am I not” “ah you getting their more of a decent boy at the moment” “fuck what else” he says leaning his head on my shoulder “he’s a hell of a top to” “you won’t even let me do that” “baby i mean your not really equipped for that”

 

“And he fucking came right then and there” jess bust out in laughter and keigo looks terrified “of all the people in the world why me why lord why” keigo says making this im about to throw up face “hes threaten by you and he gets off by feeling inferior” “aashi your already sub right there but no me” “wait wait wait” jess says trying to keep her composure “ok so you told this man he wasnt equipped to top you and he came i cant fucking breathe what the hell” “wait you said he's threatened by me” “ yes he knows no matter how hard he tries he's not taking your spot” “i mean your right” he says with this cocky smile “he threated by keigo of all people keigo the man you tell to jump he going to say how high” “become hizashi sub for a month and ya ass would be the same way” “he wants that spot bad but i honesty dont see it happening he has the potential to be my sub dont get me wrong but i dont think i wanna complicate our relationship more” “just keep it for certain times establish the boundary  that you're not his dom like you are to aashi you’re just having causal kinky sex thats it thats all”jess says “can we stop talking about him now” “jealous baby” i say looking over at him “could never be jealous of man whose name you've never screamed” “when did you get so dominate” “always have been baby” “hm i like it” “then let me remind you who you belong to this time” “oh you can try” 

Notes:

I'm going to equate all of Hizashi solo chapters to songs because of obvious reasons

hate the club- kehlani
sex room- Ludacris and trey songz

also I love how I make their safe words either their name or something to do with their power in cannon

Chapter 35: EXTRA #7

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ so I'm working on a new chapter and this just wasn't flowing with it and I didn't wanna scrap it so here's an extra 🫶🏽

“Where’s the rest of ya” touya says opening the door ”kei had to work” I say walking in with hizashi behind me “so are we starting without him” “yeah he said he’ll be here soon”I say sitting at the island “where’s ten” “oh on his way he had to go get something from his house” “wait y’all don’t live together” hizashi say “nahh as much as I would love to can’t really risk it” “will you ever come out to your family” “honestly I would and I know I’m self sufficient and don’t need the money from them but at the same time I would hate to come out get a bad reaction and get fired soo I stay in my nicely decorated closet” “Jess your parents don’t even know your sexuality do they”hizashi asked me “yeah no I got cut off for being a dominatrix could imagine if I told them that” “I mean their pretty receptive of me and keigo” “yeah your right but I don’t know haven’t even dipped a toe in that pool yet so” “doesn’t mean it isn’t still your reality” “yeahhh but I don’t and I’m pretty sure they already know when I told them about the dude in university their reaction was “oh a boyfriend hm ok”” “ok yeah everyone thought you were a lesbian so the reaction was right” touya say “yeah once me and Kenny kissed and I got really into it and he goes I thought you were a lesbian” “why were you a Kenny kissing anyway” “truth or dare”

 

When tenko finally arrived we got ready to make our way to the movie room “you two question”touya says “who is keigo the most submissive to” he adds “me” we both say “excuse me” I say looking at him “ babe you ask me how I got him to be so submissive” “but that was so long ago doesn’t count” “from how defense Jess just got it’s hizashi” “no it’s not and I’m not defensive” “we can ask him when he gets here” hizashi says “no because if we asks he’s going to say Jess because she’s here”touya says “and that would me hizashi so we answer either way” tenko adds “yeah ok how can we test this” hizashi say entirely too confidently “uhhhh ok both text him at the same time commanding dominance through text and whoever he responds to first is the one who hold more dominance” “ok” 

 

I type a simple “Keigo” “ok I’m done” hizashi says putting the phone down “yeah same” “what did you say” touya says “keigo with a capital K i rarely call him that through text” “I typed a simple kitten” “ok on three push send” 1…2…3… we both push send and the messages send at the same time and not even 2 minutes later we get a text at the same time in the group chat 

 

From:KEIBABY✨

  I know this is a goddamn trap what the hell do y’all want

 

“And hizashi for the win” touya says eating popcorn “it’s ok baby don’t sulk about it” hizashi says following them to the movie room 

 

We start the movie without kiego and mid way through the movie he texts me and says he’s here “hey princess” he says walking in the door “hello keigo” “ughh what did I do now”he says attaching himself to me “you chose hizashi” “I didn’t do anything” “yes you did we had a bet to see who your more submissive to and you chose hizashi” “I don’t remember choosing anything and if you would’ve asked I would’ve told you” “ok who are you more submissive to” “you don’t wanna know the answer my love and it doesn’t matter I’m not marrying hizashi im marrying you so does it really matter” “yes keigo it does to me anyway I can’t do a lot of things you want and that was my area where I thought I was the one who was the more dominant one” “princess your number one in all other departments he can’t have just the one” “is it because he’s the first or is he just better than me as a whole” “because he’s the first and it’s hizashi if the first was anybody else I probably wouldn’t care as much as I do but while I was his submissive I went through a lot of different emotions and we grew closer through it that’s why y’all are both on the same caliber one of the same” “okay I guess I’ll take that” “and why does that matter anyway” “i don't know man it just does for some reason i just wanna be number 1 in everything to you” “you are and i would love to name everyone of them but i already missed half of the movie” “we've seen the movie a thousand times it doesn't matter” “let's make it a thousand and one”

Chapter 36

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ this is another short chapter because I’ve just been having random short ideas lately that I can’t expand on much hopefully I can do my usual 9+ thousand word chapters again soon

So today the day I meet my first potential submissive they came to after dark a few weeks ago and had some unique interest and sho and nem past them on to me 

 

Looking at the kink list they left here for me to read I was even shocked by a few but nothing I’ve never dealt with before 

 

It feels weird being back in full mistress attire again me and kei has gotten so comfortable I’ve done scenes in pajamas a few times which is something I never thought I would 

 

Sitting in the consultation room waiting for them to show up I just make sure I have everything I need for this to go smoothly 

 

I hear a knock on the door “come in” when the door opens I was actually surprised that they were a woman “hey Kaoru right” “um yes” she says sitting down “well hello I’m madam Jess and I’ve seen the list you left here but I wanna know from you what do you want from me” I say crossing my legs “well I’ve only had male doms in the past and when I came and did the consult with mistress midnight and I told her what I wanted and the look on her face I don’t know if you’ll be ok with” “well my love she recommended me for a reason I’ve done a lot of things and nothing on your list has really surprised me so let me know what you want from me” “ok well I was told you do public scenes and a huge sadist and I really like full on torture and being watched by others” “explain full on torture” “fully useless and out of control of everything I have a high pain tolerance and I like to test how far I can take it and the idea of people watching me just being utterly useless and beaten really does it for me” Kaoru says 

 

And I wasn’t in the slightest shocked based on their list seeing being held captive knife play degrading/humiliation  and a plethora of other things 

 

“I’ve done things similar out of all of the people here I do the more masochist catered things and I’ve been gone for a while and I’m hoping you allow me to fulfill your fantasies” “you’ve been gone for a while” “yeah um I did this full time and then I went into my professional career plus I got into a relationship and left for awhile” “oh so you haven’t done kink in that time” “oh no me and partner actively practices kink together” “ok well what’s the process of me becoming your submissive” 

 

I take her through the steps and conversation negotiations the whole nine and I set a time for our first session we plan on the first few to be private and then we’ll work on going public I’m really excited because she’s my first actually woman client and my first coming back and I can’t wait to start planning this out 

 

I come home to an empty house and as much as I want to change right now I honestly can’t get out of this corset alone 

 

Today was a meeting a day they were back to back person after person and these are the days I hate the most I get home and see Jess car in the driveway and surprised she’s back already 

 

“Mistressssss” I say walking in the door “yes my love” she says from the living in full mistress attire “ughhhhhh” I say laying on the couch “long day bud” she say running her hand in my hair “yes and boring so tell me the information that I’m contractually able to know” I say sitting up “ok well first I was kinda scared when nem told me she wouldn’t take her on because it was out of her realm-“ “wait her you got your first female submissive go you” “yeah I know exciting her name is kaoru and legally that’s all I can tell you” “ok kaoru the submissive sounds fun why are we in still in full mistress jess attire” “first madam jess and two i can't get out of this damn corset by myself” “madam doesn't have the same ring as mistress” “yeah it doesn't but not the point can you get out of this thing” she says turning her back to me “how did you even tie this” i say looking at the thounderfuck of a knot “like i always do why” “yeah i took you out the game for too long because what the hell” i say finally getting the knot out “i mean you always do it for me” she says stepping out of it “have you set a time and day  for kaoru yet” “yeah thursdays at 7 why” “well i'm home then so ill do my traditional submissive things” “like the whole nine” “what does that entail” “lacing corset and boots and you have to put onthe collar” “ok hypothetical what if I have to work late one day would you come to me or is that weird” “uhh would it be weird yes but yes I would” 

 

“ok ok i know i can't tell you anything else but i really wanna talk about her so much” “5 minutes give me the information like your recapping a jane the virgin episode” i say setting the timer “ok so i was scared because nem said she was out her realm so i was highly concerned but looking at her kink list it wasnt anything i havent done before but shes into some hardcore shit kei like we planned our first session and i have to go buy some things for that like the pain i've put you through is actual child’s play compared to what i'm about to do she said public and my dom heart went boom torture kei she wants me to restrain her to something and beat her black and blue can you fucking believe” she say right before the timer went off 

 

I can see the genuine joy on her face and as much i wanted to protest this from the description i just got i would rather her have kaoru then to do whatever they have planned on me “is the first one public” “no were going to get  comfortable with each other first but then we'll schedule a public scene” “ok let me know when that is” “wanna watch that” “yeah i wanna see what hardcore shit she has you doing but dont get any ideas what im picturing is a hard no” I say and she burst out laughing “yeah her yes list is pretty much your entire hard no list” “Jesus yeah have fun with kaoru  

It’s been 3 weeks since Jess has been working with Kaoru and their first public scene is today and of course I have to go why wouldn’t I she comes home after each session just bursting at the seams with excitement from whatever they’ve done that day and because she can’t tell me I wanna see it myself 

 

“Pull a little tighter”she says as I pull the strings of her corset “are you sure” “yeah just a bit” I don’t pull it and just tie it “hey” “it’s tight enough I would love for you to still be able to breathe” “when did you just stop listening to me” “I only listen when whatever your requests is for the best but tighten that would’ve broke a rib” I say lacing her boots “ok dramatic much” “just a bit” I say grabbing the collar “wanna take the necklace off” “uhhh yes” I take the princess necklace off and put it on the dresser and put the collar on her “this has to be my favorite thing you’ve gotten me” she say straighten it by the ring on the front “hm ok weird but ok” “what I mean it is” “and this where does it rank on the list” I say holding her left hand “ahh second but the bracelet too ok ok they tie for for second the other collar though I miss it a lot ” “I’m sorry whose fault that it doesn’t exist anymore” “I thought we said we were putting all of that in the past” “yeah everything but that” “replace it then” “now why would I do that” “because without that one sub Jess is gone” “really I mean I seen her last night but if that’s what you sureee” “no no me acting cute to get what I want and me submitting to you are two different things love” “if you say so princess” 

 

Arriving to after dark during operation hours is a different vibe entirely sitting waiting for the show to start I see asahi so that means hizashi isn't far “what are you doing here kei” I hear hizashi say from behind me “take a good guess” “ahh Mistress show is tonight” “yup it is” “come here” I move forward and he fixes my collar “silk lining fancy” “neither of us can show up for work with leather bruise on our neck so kinda have to” “you're right” “I seen asahi is he still here” “no we just finished” “ahh” “is this your first time seeing one of these” “no the night we reconnected she was working at the other dungeon and I watched her beat a man till he came” “ok well this should be interesting I seen that kink list and gave it right to her I’ve done some pretty dark kink things but that list was whew” ok I have to see this kink list now  

 

Jess steps on the stage with a half naked woman with some type of bag over her head and watching this is exactly what I expected from what I have been told and I didn’t know why Jess needed 200 clothespins but now I see why she’s saying and doing some pretty out of the box things “you’re just a useless bitch and an easy target” “would you shut the fuck up you wanted this” “your nothing but a play thing no other uses” are just a few highlights and she’s not even talking to me and my feelings are hurt Jesus she’s has so many bruises from Jess hitting her with a variety of things that she’s more bruises then skin at this point “look everyone watching you cry like a little bitch baby” she says taking the bag thing off her and I know that face anywhere and I honestly didn’t believe my own eyes at first but that was definitely her

 

When the show was over and Jess was done with aftercare I saw kaoru leave “why are you looking at my submissive like that” Jess says making me face her by grabbing my face “she just caught my eye mistress jeez” “pretty isn’t she” “your prettier” I say knowing that was a trap “come on let’s go” she says grabbing the ring on my collar making me stand up 

 

“Ok what is it” she says after she closes her door “what do you mean” “she just caught my eye really” “ok remember when I told you I had a three session contract with a submissive before” “yes what does have to do with anything” “because it was Kaoru your Kaoru” “what are you deadass” “yes when you took the thing off her face I was just as damn surprised I haven’t seen her in what three years but yes that was her” “what’s her last name” “kato” “fuck oh my actually god” “yeah she’s gotten in some darker stuff since then” “really” “yeah she was pretty much a identical match to my list that’s why we did it but jeez that’s a different person now” “first me and hizashi has the same sub now me and i never thought that would happen” “yeah so I wasn’t looking at her like that just surprised to see her but if your going to keep talking to me like you were in there then I definitely was looking at her like that” “she’s mine you can’t have her” she says pulling me by the ring across the center console “but she’s so pretty” “I know she is doesn’t mean you can look” “that’s not fair mistress” “my pouty baby you can’t get what want just because your cute” “I’m not pouty” “yeah ok you say that while your pouting let’s get home you help me out of this and I’ll give you an happy ending to your night” “promise”I say holding out my pinky “promise” she says locking them and kissing me

Chapter 37

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ I wanted to make this an extra buttttt I decided not to because we’ll I can so enjoy chapter THRITY-NINE wow that’s a lot ok anyways enjoy

Ah wait almost forgot the one year anniversary was a few weeks ago and I had just posted a few days before so I had no content for the day of but thank you for providing a space where I can let my creative flow for a whole year I hope for more to come🧡

Not paying attention and cleaning off the bed Jess flung her iPad of the bed and it caught mad air and slapped the wall and shattered and that was 2 months ago and she just hasn’t replaced it and has somehow taken over mine and I have no problem with this but I kinda need it so I’m currently in the Apple store buying her a new one

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Keiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Yes my love
From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Where are you
I’m bored and I miss you
To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
I’ll be back home soon
From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Can we go out later
it’s been forever
To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Yeah sure where do you wanna go
From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Uhh idk surprise me
To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤
Ok I’ll make it a good one

After the line and purchasing the iPad Apple pencil and case and make my way back home and on my way back home I seen a fair was happening so that would be a fun outing

“Princess” I say walking in the house “upstairs” I make my way up and she’s laying upside down hanging off the bed “why” “I told you I was bored what took you so long” “I stopped to get you something” “Ouu a gift what is it”she says sitting up I bring the bag in the room and she gets excited “you didn’t” she says looking in to the bag “I did” “dude thank you” she says taking the plastic off everything “your welcome” I say laying on the bed “you didn’t have to do this I would’ve replaced it one of these days” “babe it’s been 2 months” “yeah I know but-“ “but nothing it’s a gift” “ok ok thanks again” she says setting thing up

Laying on my back looking at my phone she’s having fun with the iPad not paying each other attention I suddenly feel her get off the bed and back on

“Hey” she says kissing me “hi” she’s planting kisses all over my face and neck “where’s this heading” “no where I can’t just shower you in kisses” “so I found a fair thing happening not to far from here” “really” she says in between her random kisses “yeah wanna go or do you wanna go somewhere else” “no no I wanna go I haven’t been to one in years” “ok we can go once the sun goes down” “yeah ok”

Her sporadic kisses went from pg-13 to her initiating a full on make out session and unbuttoning my pants “I lied this is leading somewhere” she says before giving me one last kiss and sitting on the floor in front of me pulling my pants down

It’s a rare occurrence that she wants to give me head like ultra rare but when she gets in the mood to god am i grateful “fuck princess” I say as I become very aquanted with her throat she keeps going saying fuck air gaging and I still to this day thinks she lying about never doing this before me because god have mercy

I’m super close and I know she can tell it feels over stimulating as hell “shit I’m about to cum” I say feeling every muscle in my body tighten up and to my damn surprise she doesn’t stop like I had an inkling that she would but she loves to torture me but no

Riding out the wave of orgasm was a short bliss because she didn’t stop and somehow she’s more aggressive this time it could just be because I’m so sensitive at the moment but god this is an entirely new sensation that I’m 100% not used to

And she doesn’t stop until she painstakingly dragged another orgasm out of me and to avoid her trying to go for a third I pull her up in the bed by her hand “aw I was trying for 4” “oh so you wanted to Kill me” I say looking at her “you made me cum 10 times in one sitting so you can shut it” “hey that’s different” “no it’s not asshole” she says laughing “that was an informal thank you btw” “the first thank you was appreciated but that one *chef kiss*” “you said something about a fair right I wasn’t really paying attention” “yeah when I was on my way back I saw it and you said you wanted to go out today and we’ve never been to one together” “yeah we have junior year” “you sure about that” “yes you were supposed to go with Charlie but he canceled so me and Kenny went with you” “I literally don’t remember that” “wow you unsentimental asshole we went with you because you were all sad and we felt bad and took you” “yeah no recollection of that happening” “ughh” she gets out the bed and goes in her closet and comes back with a scrapbook “ok junior year where is the picture…ah here you don’t remember this” she says turning the book around to me and somehow the memories of the day flood back the picture that bought back the most memories is the one we took in the photo booth

“Come on kei it’s like against the law to leave a fair without a taking a picture in a photo booth” Jess says while her and Kenny pull me to the photo booth “ok ok just stop pulling me” “no so you can run away” Kenny say sitting in the photo booth then pulling me in his lap “he has to be in the middle” Jess says guiding me so that I was sitting on the bench in a very uncomfortable way “ok ready” the first countdown is happening and I’m looking at the camera steal faced and before it took the picture Kenny poked me in my side making me laugh the next countdown started and they both kiss me at the same time “ew weirdos” “ok give me your hand and do this” he say making me hold up two fingers and they complete the heart for the next and for the final we all different faces

“Your boyfriend cute ken”Jess says looking at the printed photo “but your roommate whew fireeee”Kenny says doing the same “why are the people I surround myself with this weird” I say taking the extra copy “gimme you will lose it” Kenny say taking it and putting it in his wallet

“Shit I really forgot about this”I say smiling at the pictures she has on the page “is this a scrapbook of all 4 years” i says seeing tabs that say freshmen,sophomore,and senior “yeah wanna flip through it” she says sitting beside me I start from the beginning and there’s some pictures I haven’t seen before “when was this” I say looking at picture of her and hizashi “the summer in between freshman and sophomore year we went to this like kink convention in the states with sho and nem it was fun” “while you were at a kink convention thousands of miles from here I was stuck on a fishing boat for like a month with Kenny and his uncle that summer we did it ever summer actually” “you miss him” “who Kenny’s uncle” “no dipshit ken” “of course I do imagine seeing someone everyday for 14 years and now you no longer can see them and the longer it’s been the more you forget about your time together” “shit I don’t wanna get all therapist mode but don’t feel bad about that it’s normal for the brain to do things like that your not doing it on purpose your brain is just putting it in a archive folder that occasionally opens when you need it the most” “stupid brain” i say flipping to the next page “god it feels weird looking at these pictures” “why” “because it feels weird to see my only two loves in the same spot” “I don’t believe you’ve only loved two people in your 27 years” “like I love you two nahh I love hizashi but not as much as the two of you” “well I only got one” “no one else” “nope I literally planned on just marrying hizashi when we turned 30 because a relationship was the last thing on my list and you swoopped in and changed the way my life worked” “no I didn’t your the same person I met 10 years ago” “keigo I now think before I do things because I have to consider how it affects you I don’t even do that with my family because of you I’m excited to one day have a kid that’s not artificial inseminated I wanna add your last name to mine” “you really know how to make a man feel special” I say turning to one of the last pages it’s was a picture we took on graduation “we would’ve made a great poly couple” “we really would’ve to we talked about it but then you showed up with that dude” “wow you really lost your chance” “yeah but I got you now so it’s ok” “you really have been wanting me since we met” “I don’t know how many time I have to tell you this” “wanna pick out my outfit for later” “definitely your going to be so causal it’s not going to look like you” “keigo no” “Jessica yes”

I hate fully dressed down outfits I’m either full kink wear fully professional or sweats that’s it no in between “what are you in that drawer for i'm not wearing anything in there” “ah yes what I was looking for these look cute”he says handing me a pair of basic black denim jeans “ew kei jeans I don’t even think I can even fit those anymore” I say looking at the tag “it’s going to be dark and you get cold easily so go try them on so I can know if I have to find something else” he says showing me off I try the pants on and I’m upset that I can fit them I hate jeans so much “see now here’s what your wearing on top” “this I can get behind” I say taking the cropped black hoodie with chain details along the bottom and right shoulder “what am I wearing for shoes” I say putting it on” “umm I’m stuck so which one do you prefer” he shows me my chunky platform converse and a pair of old faithful demonias “converse are my comfortable to walk in” I say point at them “ok why are you so good at putting outfits together even though this would be cuter with a skirt but I’ll suffer” “rumi is a person who has ALOT of clothes but when it’s time to go out gets stressed and say I don’t have anything to wear so I’ve had to step in and work my magic 20 to many times”

When we get to the fair it felt like being a teen all over again the insane food and all the sweets and silly games that we took entirely to serious “which one do you want princess” keigo says after winning the hoop toss game somehow “that on” I say picking the small green and red dragon “thank you here ya go” he says handing it to me “he’s giving me meechie vibes” I say looking at him “meechie the dragon” “rawr”

“Farris wheel ?”I say seeing it and that the line wasn’t long “Ahhhhhhhhh I don’t really like those things”Jess says with a weird look on her face “come onnnnn”I say grabbing her hand and guiding her over to it “you are actually determined to kill me” she says we stand in the small line while people we’re getting off waiting to get on

We finally get on and before the doors closed “hizashi” we both say seeing him in the line “wanna get in with them or wait for the next car” the handler asks and jess sits on the same side as me and waved him and shirakumo in the door closed and I knew the day we were all back in the same area it would be awkward like I know this man gets off on feeling Inferior to me and now he’s sitting in front of me

“How long have you two been here” Jess asks locking her arm around mine “for like an hour did you two just get here” hizashi says sitting back and putting his arm behind shirakumo “no we’ve been here around the same amount of time hmm” and it goes quiet again so quite we can hear the people in the car behind us talking “so what’s the plan after this” hizashi say “somebody here doesn’t like roller coasters so I don’t know probably play more games” I say “I’m glad I’m not the only one who doesn’t trust fair roller coaster” shirakumo says“I don’t like them at all but especially ones at fairs and carnivals because they just pop from place to place I don’t know how up to code these things are”Jess says “I thought you lived on the wild side”hizashi says laughing at her “with a lot of things yes but life nahhhh I don’t even wanna be on here” “well keigo wanna get on that one over there after this” he says pointing out the window at the biggest ride here called ride from hell “hell yeah”

After the ride was over we walked over the ride and we caught it in time the line wasn’t long and they were ready for the next group

I’m left with shirakumo while the ride on that death trap “so um I know we didn’t really start off on the right foot and I never got to apologize for that I know how much you love hizashi and our history is not the best but um thanks” he says breaking the silence between us “thanks for what” “for letting hizashi not feel bad about this” “I mean I kind of did but after a lot of thinking I understand you more I get it your not there yet with that (being gay btw this sentence is confusing as hell without this note) and he is and your still navigating it so I get it but he doesn’t need that really he told you himself he wants love and this honestly isn’t that your keeping it to that one thing and still being friends so I can’t make him feel bad for it” “yeah just keeping it to that one thing what if I told you don’t really wanna keep it to that one thing though like I love hizashi I do and I know I can’t give him what he needs but the thought of him being with anyone else angers me inside because whoever they may be are getting something I want but don’t deserve” “I’m not saying this to be an asshole or anything but I don’t honestly seeing this work beyond what y’all have going on right now hizashi not ok with being anyones secret and that I won’t allow so and you want something enough you’ll work for it just don’t break his heart in the process because you won’t get another chance” “Jesus your blunt” “I don’t even sugarcoat things for my clients” “no I uh kinda needed to hear that because I want him to be happy and if that’s with someone else I have absolutely no problem with it it’ll just suck but I would never come between him and happiness” “I swear to god shirakumo if you up and leave and ghost him after this I will end you” I say and he starts laughing “I’m serious dude” I say playfully pushing him with my shoulder “I’m not I promise I’m going to enjoy my time with him because I know this won’t last forever” he says smiling at a hizashi as he and keigo walks back to us “thanks for this” he says now directing that smile to me “I usually charge for this but I let this one slide” I say returning it

“How was the death trap” I say fixing keigos hair “fun princess you should get on it” “no unless you want to become a widower”I say taking his hand “it’s not that bad you could do it”hizashi says “nahh ok peer pressure doesn’t work on me so let’s change the subject it’s Friday and 8:00 wanna go bother sho and nem” “definitely meet you there” hizashi say as we reach the exist

We get to after dark and to our surprise both sho and nem subs are there tonight so we’re waiting around “Jess show me your room I never seen it” keigo say spinning in a chair “come on” i say stopping the chair “wait you have your own room here’s hiz show me yours” “yeah hiz show him yours”I say with a laugh because I’ve literally never heard anyone call him that

When we get in her room it’s shocking to me how much pink is in here “pink” I say looking at her “I decorated this room a long time ago man” she says laughing “yeah wow why didn’t you bring me here that time I we went to that dungeon” “because it had been so long since I been here and unlike the one we went to their are no rental rooms here so there was nowhere for me to do that here” “ah” I say looking at the equipment she she has in here “ouch” I say after putting a clamp on my finger “yeah those are pretty hardcore kauro loves them though I wouldn’t use those on you because I can’t even take the pain of those” “so your calling me a bitch baby that can’t handle pain” “no-what you know what lift your shirt” she says taking the clamp from me I lift the shirt she lines up the clamp open it and clamps it on my nipple and I almost lost my life “what the fuck why it that so damn fuck get it off me” she takes it off “yeah bitch baby you are I told you they were painful didn’t wanna listen now look at you” “why are they’re three clips shit” I say still in pain “this one goes on the collar so if you move your head it pulls on them” “oh my fucking goodness yeah you can continue to have subs outside of me because no no just no”i say looking down my shirt to see my nipple Turing bright red“yeah we go pretty hardcore but not this bad” she says rubbing over my nipple under my shirt “being in here feels oddly familiar like it looks nothing like the other one we went to but like i don’t know” “I claimed you in a room similar enough to this one it makes sense” “you haven’t done that since the mark is completely gone now” “I mean I didn’t want it to be a permanent Jess in your leg” I know but now it’s fully healed can’t even tell where it was” “if you want me to do it again just ask” “I mean if your offering” “I’ll do it soon” “also I sat through a week of you relearning bondage just for it to never happen again” “ughhh I know and don’t tell sho that either” “I should but I won’t”

Notes:

Fun fact about yes mistress this was supposed to be a porn no plot type of thing and on be like 4-5 chapters but turned into the thing I didn’t want to stop writing for so if youve been here from chapter one thank you so much for the support

Chapter 38: WHAT IF- Jess and Keigo Never Got Back Together

Notes:

Hello loves✨ I’m a huge marvel fan and I relatively like the what if series and I wanted to do this with my little universe

Came up with doing this concept while listening to music so every what if has a song and this one has
Grieving by Kehlani and James Blake for the beginning where its not as detailed about their time apart
and INFRUNAMI by Steve Lacy

This would be cannon if I went this route instead of the forgiveness route in the original so everything past chapter 25 hasn’t not happened yet or never did happen at this point

I hope you enjoy

“you cant promise another one of your past flings wont come back to bite us in the future you can't and i need that certainty” was something that stuck with keigo because he couldn't give her that in the slightest so they didn't continue with the relationship

But they did eventually become friends again after some individually healing they were able to be around each other as friends and comfortable with just that “this is weird” “what” jess says from inside her closet “i'm helping you pick out an outfit for a date” “hey your the most fashionable person i know and i need help” “where did you meet this dude anyway” “uhh he and ten work together and tenko car broke down at and touya couldn’t go get him I was free so I went and met him there and now I’m going on a date with keiji zip me” she say walking out the closet “did tenko give you the ok or is he like a serial killer” I say zipping the dress “what how did we get here no he’s not a serial killer here it’s his insta he’s a regular person” she says handing me here phone “he’s too attractive to be single what’s wrong with him” i say going through his page “keigo well if that’s the case I should’ve said the same thing about you” “yes you should’ve at the time i was a gay man with commitment issues and got off to you beating the hell out of me there is something definitely wrong with me” “well yes but he’s normal lawyer type my father would be proud” “was he not proud of the ceo of a multi-million dollar company” “oh everyday he brings it up that “i let a good one go”” she says going back in the closet “hey he said it not me” “that ship has sailed bud now which one” she says showing me two different shoe options “do you plan on having sex with him tonight” “what does that have to do with what I literally just asked you” “answer the question” “I mean no but who knows” “then neither wear the black sandal strapy ones” “what how huh” “coming from a person who found you sexually attractive if you wear either of those they draw attention to your legs and plus the length of the dress it’s screams we will possibly be having consensual sex later the ones I recommended gives them attention but not to much and they look good having partly clothed sex” “dude what do you mean found don’t you mean find sexually attractive” she say getting the other shoes out of the closest “I meant what I said now hurry up it’s already 7:30 and why was the only thing you took out of that sentence” “yes I know we’re not together anymore but I still want you to be attracted to me”she say putting the shoes on “why” “because I just do now get out he’s going to be here soon and it doesn’t look good if my ex is walking out the house with me” “you should drive yourself” “keigo you got in a random car and went to see a man you never seen before I think I’m ok” “I’m different and stop pushing me” I say going down the stairs “text me when he gets here and when you get to wherever your going and when you get back or if you go anywhere else” “what are you my dad I’ll let you know when I leave and get back and if I need you I’ll call you don’t call me please” “I won’t I won’t but if he’s a creep and your uncomfortable I’ll come get you” “ohkay keigo I really appreciate it but I need you to go oh keiji your early” she says opening the door and he’s standing right there “oh um I should’ve called first” he says looking at us “no need dude I was just leaving have fun” I say walking out the door and to my car

From:Jess✨
Hey I know I said I wasn’t updating you but were going back to his place so I’m turning on my location
To:Jess✨
What why
From:Jess✨
None of your business
If I don’t contact you at least once tonight and in the morning come look for me

Watching Jess move on was actually a healthy thing for keigo he seen that he didn’t ruin her chances at love helped him move on as well

Walking down the hallway to keigo's door because he said he needed my help with something when I get to the door before I could knock the door opens and I’m greeted with him and the guy I’m guessing is koutarou tounging each other down “I’m just going walk that way and come back” “oh kou this is Jess”he says breaking the kiss “ah you were stupid” he say wiping the corner of his mouth “very but I’ll see you later right” “yeah definitely can’t wait” he gives keigo one last kiss and waves at me and walks away “your a top now” I say closing the door “ouch you say that as if it’s an insult and in this relationship yes” “yikes anyways what did you need from me”

It’s been a few months since they both started dating other people and it’s ok are they 100% in them no but they’re in them moved on fully and they were ok this way

Random Friday at after dark a traditional that will never end but this week sho and nemuri had prior engagements and hizashi was running late so it’s just them quietly enjoying eachothers company

“so hows everything with koutarou”Jess asks “oh um fine how about keji” “good good he uh told me he loved me the other day” “really how that go” “so fuck it I’ve never been dishonest with you no matter the past your my best friend I can’t tell him I love him because the only person I’ve ever told that was you and I can’t bring myself to even try to say it to him because it feels reserved for you and I know that ship has sailed but god I know there will never be anyone who comes close to what we had” “ah yes that may be the exact way I feel like I won’t be happy if it’s anybody but you” “thank god it’s not just me” she says getting closer to me “and truthfully has the ship really left the dock princess” “I mean no but keigo shit always seems to not work for us” “because you gave up on me” “I did not” “you did and you know it when the shoe was on the other foot I came back let you explain we talked it out and I didn’t leave again I kept my promise and you didn’t” “what the promise that I would never stop loving you yeah never broke that” “then why the hell are we wasting our time chasing something that will never happen outside of us” “because I don’t want you to hurt me again” “ok well just to let you know you’ve officially met all of my exs no one is going to show up out of the woodworks and if the other one shows up we’ve entered the walking dead universe so I can finally give you that cerianty you need princess just give me one more chance” “ugggghh what about koutarou and keji” “you just told me you don’t love him and I personally never really gave him the assumption we were dating really so it’ll be an easy end” she sits there chewing on her bottom lip “fuck it come here” she says before kissing me I pull her down so she’s no longer standing and sitting in front of me and puts her hand on the back of my neck and pulls me so she’s laying back and I’m on top of her “we can’t do this yet” “ok but can I ask why” “i already feel like shit about ending this with him after he told me he loved me I can’t do this to so let’s end that first” “ok I can do that” I sit back up and so does she we both pull our phones out

To:kou 💛
Hey um I know this is completely out of the blue and I want you to know that this has absolutely nothing to do with you and you did nothing wrong but I just don’t think this is something I can do anymore I enjoyed our time together and I hope you understand where I’m coming from

“You sent a text message you're heartless” Jess says pushing the call button

Waiting for him to answer the phone just made the per planned speech leave my head I’m pacing back and halt in my path when “ hey my love how are you” he says answering the phone as he always does “good good do you have a moment to talk” “yeah is there anything wrong” “no well yes I guess um so I don’t think this is going to work out anymore you want something I can’t give you and honestly my heart already belongs to somebody else and I can’t continue to lead you on the path you did absolutely nothing wrong and I need you to know that keiji I just can’t do us” “oh um ok Jessica is this coming from me saying that I loved you because if it is I’m sorry that I scared you with that but I’m ok with sticking around and waiting for you to say it back” “that’s the problem I can’t say it to you I’ve said that to one person and he’s the only person I felt love for” I say looking at keigo type away on his phone “and like I said your perfect I’m just not the person you need” “ok well I hope you and whoever this person is can work things out they’re lucky if they have you” “I hope so too thank you for u understanding keiji”

after hanging up i felt like it was the best decision for everyone involved i constantly would compare him to keigo in my mind and he never measured up and kei is really the standard hes perfect and the longer we're not together the more i wanna be with him i know the situation with jessie and i know now that he wouldn't actually hurt me and hes right he's never broke that promise since he made it even now he sat and listened to me talk about keiji get ready to go out with him and he did nothing but be there for me 100% and never made it weird or anything and proved no matter the situation he's not leaving my side

“Ok well that's done” jess says sitting back down “yeah same” i say looking over at her she's staring into the distance smiling “i dont think ive smiled in a while” “was he that draining” “a bit yes he's so conservative i had no fun with him at all like ugh you talk nothing about work your present when your with me him it’s all about work work work and I chose to not be a lawyer for a reason and he just keeps bringing up different cases and sex is just boring” “after our sex life i get that” “no like I know everyone isn’t down to fuck in public and all that crazy shit but it was just missionary that’s it that’s all nothing else” “yikes if it makes you feel any better I haven’t enjoyed sex like at all don’t even want to do it most times ” “you not wanting sex is definitely something I never thought I would hear” “it sucks being top all the time and he was never interested in switching”

“kei” “hm” “let’s start back at square one” “ok” “I mean it kei I want us to work” “and I’ll do everything in my power to do that princess”

Notes:

yes mistress fun fact - I had the random impulsion to k*ll Keigo twice but didn't because I'm not a monster butttt I might make that impulse happen in this series we'll never know

Chapter 39

Notes:

Hello loves ✨ so this chapter is super cute and I personally love it and is slowly becoming one of my favorite chapter to date

Also while writing my other fic ‘and they were roommates’ I added something about switch tech and went down a spiral because these are two separate universes with different timelines so I’ve had to renounce some cannon to MHA because I will not allow Jess Keigo and Hizashi to be born in 2005

It’s been awhile since Jess started domming part time again and every new sub is more out of pocket than the next we’ve expanded on what she can tell me so she has to give me name and their main kink(s)/fetishes and that’s it 

 

“Ok Yuko heavy degradation kink just wants me laugh at him while he masturbates” 

“So rika piss kink and humiliation” 

“Ready Aoki pet play the whole shabang leather dog suit bowl feeding barking walking all of it”

“Eiji financial sub just wants me to spend his money recklessly”

“Daichi age regression he said he regresses to about 5 to 7” 

 

So far those are all of them and she’s getting busy she dedicated her days off to fitting all of these people in once a week and by those also being my days off I spend alot time alone on Wednesdays and Thursdays “hey next week are you seeing all six” I ask tieing the corset “no just 5 why”she say “ nothing just asking”i says tucking the strings “your never just asking what’s wrong” she says turning around she’s taller than me at the moment because of her shoes and it’s not really helping my case right now “nothing really just miss you and we barely see each other these days”

 

“I know between work and this we don’t spend that much time together” “yeah you're always tired your working to much” “you're not wrong there but I love it” “so you love not spending time with me” “ok that came out wrong I hate that I come home and go to sleep because I’m working a lot and only time we see each other are the times like right now and when we’re leaving for work in the morning however comma I love doing the two things that bring me joy NOT saying you don’t but you know” “well your not doing me enough” I say walking out of the bathroom “what is my baby keigo upset because we haven’t had sex in what 2 weeks”she says in a almost mocking tone “no no 3” I say walking downstairs “come on kei one week was fully justified and I’ve just been tired recently” she’s following me “your excuse for everything now turn” I say so I can put the collar on her “okay can we deal with this later when I get back” she says lifting her hair “sure whatever” i says putting the latch in the loop 

 

Like every other time she’s working I sit at home most times alone with absolutely nothing to do and I’m kinda upset at the moment because of the way she handled our conversation earlier so I angrily clean the house the entire house something that’s a two person job I do completely alone because I’m aggravated when I was finally done I get a text 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I’m on way back 

I’m sorry for how I handled earlier I was being inconsiderate and I know your upset with me so if you don’t wanna talk to me I completely get it 

Also Iloveyou I didn’t say it before I left and it’s been eating me alive since I left 

 

“Ugh why can’t I ever be mad at her”I say to myself before responding

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yeah me too 

Iloveyoutoo

 

“So how’s everything been” ito says we went from going once a week to once every two weeks “we’ve had our moments but relatively good” Jess say “what do you mean by had your moments” “like we keeping getting in micro arguments nothing serious or anything but they happen pretty frequently now”she says looking over at me “by one keigo's demeanour today and how far apart you are today isn’t a good day” “nope” I simply say “ok let in what’s happening” “ok so I’ve been working a lot lately between my actual job and dominatrix work and I haven’t been the best partner and I know that and I acknowledge that but keigo is making me seem like I’m 100x worse then what I am” “you literally never have time for us to do anything together anymore I started just going to work on Wednesdays and Thursdays again because there's no point in just staying home all day damn because if it isnt I have to go to after dark it’s I’m too tired to do xyz we don’t even sleep in the same house anymore because I rather just go back to my empty condo then her big ass house” “a lot of anger keigo I’ve never seen you like this” “I don’t like feeling like this when I signed for her having other subs I thought the worse feeling would be is jealous that she’s domming them not that they’re getting more of her time then me” “Jess have you fully neglected your relationship with keigo because you have dominant x submissive relationship with other people” “oh my god no” “it feels like it” “ok yes have I invested a lot of time in this yes but I’m not neglecting keigo” “when was the last you two held up to the clause in the contract that you have to dom him once a week” “like a month but I’m not neglecting him” “sounds like your breaking your own contract Jess the contract you two set in place to not get you to this place and look here you are” 

 

“I’m not neglecting keigo have I been the worse  this last month yes but neglecting no” “he said you haven’t slept in the same house in awhile you don’t have time to spend with him and you don’t see it” “ok ok I’ve been neglecting him” she says like she’s just saying it to say it “she doesn’t even see the problem anymore just wants the conversation to be over” “we’ve had the same argument like 20 times now I don’t know how much I can say sorry and that I know that I’m wrong” “have you changed anything” “no she hasn’t” “no I haven’t” “ then obviously something has to change what are you willing to change to make sure this is the last time this argument is had” 

 

“I don’t know I just want things to go back to normal I hate fighting with keigo we don’t have good track records in this area” “ok keigo what would you like to see change” “I don’t care about you doing this it’s something that’s making you happy I don’t want you to quit but god would I  love to see you and not everytime I see you your sleep” “then what kei tell me what you want me to do and I’ll make the change and can you look at me” she says fully turning to me and I do the same “if your going to keep the same schedule then after your actual job no doing extra for that I don’t care if you need to go to wherever and get whatever for whoever it can wait till Wednesday or Thursday whenever you see them” “ok anything else” “you being preoccupied with what you can do for them and not doing the same for me has to stop if I hear do you think *insert name here* would like this again I might actually lose my mind” “sorry” “when was the last time you two had sex” “can’t even remember” Jess says “that’s also a problem sex isn’t a thing your doing with you AD subs but you come home and forget that you have a partner with who you’ve established us having sex this often is me showing you I love you to can’t even remember that last time you did it that seems like something you two need to do soon”

 

It’s always weird when your therapist says to have sex and it doesn’t happened right away but Jess is showing me that she’s actively making changes with this whole set up

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

After Dark 7:30 fully prepped 

 

Is all I received and I’m honestly a little happy because I haven’t gotten one of those text in 2 years so what the hell do I do I show up fully prepped to the T at 7:00 because this isn’t my first rodeo sitting in the lobby waiting for Jess I’m a little anxious but not in a bad way I see the lady who usually takes subs to the respect rooms she walks over to my table “hello kei mistress Jess is ready for you” she says and I just nod and follow her to the room so I’m getting the full sub treatment today I like it 

 

She stops at the door say “good luck” and walks off I open the door and see Jess back turned to the door getting something “mistress” I say closing the door behind me “ah kei long time no see I hope you haven’t forgotten how this works” she says walking to me with my collar in her hand and I kneel at the door without second thought “good boy kei” she says putting the collar on me “safeword” she say running her finger along the inside in the collar “hawks” “good good ok now go and get undressed and sit over there on that couch and look pretty for me while I finish getting ready ok” I’ll be the prettiest damn man you’ve ever seen I get up and do as told she’s putting stuff on the little rollie table taking stuff out of drawers and a lot and I don’t care what she has planned but god am I going to enjoy every goddamn moment of it 

 

“Come come” I walk over “1-10 1-8 and I know this is weird but 6-12 two times” she says with my infront of her “6,2&11,12” “ok riding crop,ball gag,blue and red” “can choose something else from the 1-8 don’t really like those anymore” “really ok well 1-7” “3” “blindfold yeah this is more fun sit” she slides a stool for me to sit on then puts the blind fold on me 

 

“I’ve been a terrible mistress lately so allow me to make it up to you my love” she says as I feel her wrap rope around my waist “I know I can’t change how the past month and a half has been but I promise to never make you feel neglected again” I can feel every knot she’s tying she’s tying them methodically and perfect from what I can feel “I put you to the side like an old toy because I got new ones when you’re my favorite always has been always will be” she moves around to infront of me “no one compares to you they never will their temporary your forever and I have to prove that to you because I’ve let you forget who you belong to” I don’t quite know if I’m allowed to respond right now but there was never a doubt in my mind that I wasn’t hers “you’ve been a textbook example of a brat lately but I can’t blame you you craved my attention and you got it” brat I wasn’t acting like a brat “your itching to say I’m not a brat right now and obviously the brat has left you because you’ve kept your mouth shut” she throws the two pieces to the back of me and goes back to my back this is surprisingly intimate and I like it “see kei I’ve missed these times together not having to tip toes around certain things check a list a thousand times before I did something be hesitant to do something that we didn’t discuss prior and I don’t have to do that because your my perfect submissive I know that everything that I do to you you’ll love because your my perfect submissive just for me not anyone else me” she says finishing the arm bind behind my back “so pretty baby you know that stand for me”

 

 I stand and she guides me somewhere then stops she’s standing behind me I hear a familiar camera shutter then she pulls the blind fold off and I’m in front of a mirror tied in blue and red ropes in a spider web pattern I don’t know how she did this that quick but it’s cool as hell she takes a picture of us in the mirror her behind me “Spider-Man” I say looking at it more “yeah I’ve been practicing cool patterns with zashi lately and you picked the perfect colors” she says putting her head on my shoulder “you know your perfect right like god look at you definitely one of Gods favorites perfect face every detail of it body perfect every inch of you I know she’s not calling me short but “every inch of you” makes me feel like I’m like 5 inches tall “I love you so much keigo im so glad you chose me to spend the rest of our lives together” she says kissing the side of my neck “so this is what we’re going to do because I hate knowing that I’ve been not giving you the attention you well deserve so every Friday 7:30 you meet me here ok” “ok” “now im going to bend you over the arm of the couch and beat you pretty shades of reds and purples like that plan” “yes 100%” “knew you would” 

 

She did just that I couldn’t even keep count at one point she had to remind me what number we were on “you did so good baby” she says squatting in front of me “I have one more thing I want to do well two actually but only if your up for it” “yes what is it” “ok so first I kinda did promise that I would do this again” she says taking the same pocket knife she had the last time she feels my thigh and when she feels where she relatively did this the last time and gives the knife one last clean then she cut Jess with a small heart puts the knife down and swipes the blood away with her thumb “mine forever” hm that’s new she says after kissing it “the second thing can wait till next week ok I have to clean up here and we can go home ok but first let me get you outta this”

She say reaching for the back knot 

 

I sit and watch her mindlessly clean the room I put my clothes back on and wait for her to be done “Jess ah didn’t know you had anyone in here oh kiego Jess quick question” hizashi says walking in “how can I be assistance to you” she say gathering the rope we used “I need help with something and you might not like it” “what hizashi” “so new sub satoru likes to be yelled at by like multiple people and I need your help with that” “ask may about that that’s her whole gig” “I did she’s super busy and can’t help right now” “I hate doing those ask midnight” “just this once please” “ok ok when” “in 30 minutes” he say looking at his watch “no we’re going home I haven’t even done proper aftercare yet” “you already agreed an hour tops” she looks at me “I’ll meet you at home go” “are you sure I don’t-“ “go I’m telling you to go go yell at that man I’ll see you later” “ok” I kiss her and leave “ugh I want half of whatever he’s paying you” 

 

Notes:

Fun fact about yes mistress I don’t know if this is clear or not I’ve thrown in hits every chance I get but yes Kenny Jessie Charlie and Jess are all of Africa American decent so yes keigo definitely has a type

Chapter 40

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ I have no clue how long it’s been but I’ve missed you all and this chapter is pretty long and kinda all over the place but easy to follow I’ve been working on it on and off for the past month and I especially like the ending so I hope you enjoy

The relationship between Jess and Jordan has gotten better and better by the month and with them getting closer the more Jess is bugging him to become self sufficient “Jordan you're almost 24 it’s time to do something dude”Jess says looking through the cabinets in Jordan kitchen “Jess can we not” “but Jordan we are your married now time to grow up kid” “I’m perfectly fine with my current situation” “what living off our parents and doing absolutely nothing all day” “says the person cooking in my kitchen on a Wednesday midday don’t you have a job” “yes I do have a job where I control when I have to work not the point there has to be something that you wanna do” “ughh no I don’t I don’t have the burning passion for something like the rest of you I did my undergrad in social justice hated every moment of it I don’t wanna go the lawyer route no matter how much dad tries to tempt me to go to law school” “you don’t have to be a lawyer there's plenty of things you can do that’s not that” “like what I don’t do science so can’t follow in your footsteps I don’t even know what switch tech does but can’t do that and I don’t have the voice for radio” “you wanna be a nepotism baby so bad you don’t have to do what we do” “hey it would be easier” “your not lying there took me 2 years to get where I am with this keigo started the company from the ground and hizashi worked at like 4 different stations before getting his own” “I literally dont care about anything enough for all that in the slightest”

“ok let’s make a deal”she says wiping her hands “I’m listening” “you become my personal assistant for an undefined amount of time while your doing that you have to find something anything that you wanna do with your life rather that be a passion project new product a book a regular mundane job anything that’s the only way I’ll release you from the contract” “you make being your assistant seems like hell you listen to people for a living” “oh no not my day job the other one” “oh no not that one” “of course that one I’ve been a terrible partner lately and I need help you don’t have to do much just pick up things clean and keep track of who and what I have to do that day” “I’ve been traumatized enough by that job why do you wanna add to it” “you won’t see or hear anything that I’m doing it’s two days out of the week the third I don’t need you there” “I’m not giving you my weekends” “don’t work on weekends Wednesdays and Thursdays” “why in the middle of the week” “I don’t schedule psych clients on these days that’s why so do we have a deal”

“How much am I getting paid” he says head in his hands “I make an average of ¥138,949 to 277,899 between the two days so-“ “wait a week” “yes a week” “Jesus Christ” “yeah so how about every two weeks ¥200,000” “I get more of an allowance from dad” “ok so I’ll just go tell dad it’s time to cut you off then he said he’s been thinking about it too” “asshole alright I’ll do it” “great so meet me at the address I’m about to send you at 5 I’ll let them know your coming” she say sliding a plate in front of him “your leaving” “yup gotta get ready” “what do i wear to a bdsm dungeon” “whatever just dont try to stick out and when you get there if anyone asks who your there with say mistress jess ok cool” she say walking out of the house

“So you threaten him into being your assistant” i say looking through jess side of the closet “no no i didn't threaten him” “you said you would make your dad cut him off sounds like a threat to me” “no just a push towards what i needed him to do” “is that what's having a sibling is because if it is i'm glad i don't have any” i say handing her the latex body suit“that's exactly what having siblings are like i had to pay him to not tell when he found out so why not do the same and i need the help and he's not doing anything else and until he finds that something he's stuck with me” “dont torture the kid please” “your wish is my command” shes says turning so i can zip the back

Jordan walked into afterdark for the first time hes was confused why the security was so tight why did he have to walk through a metal detector to get in and why was it so dark in there why is it a stage and seating area “your new who you're here with” a lady says walking beside him he freezes for a bit before answering “um mistress jess” i never want to call her that EVER again “ah your into some hardcore shit huh” “oh no-” “you dont have to hide were all into some different things heres” “ah mistress may youve met my brother” “brother i'm sorry just assumed nevermind”she says turning around and walking away “what is actually wrong with you” “alot now let me give you the tour then we can go over the contract and i can give you the list of things i need done for tomorrow” “weve been apart for like 2 hours how do you have all of that already” “i work fast now this is the lounge area you will spend most of your time here unless im doing a public scene there”she say pointing the stage “a public what” “doesnt matter right now youre not allowed in this area when those days are scheduled so be prepared for those days with a movie or something theres a bar no food or alcohol though”she say walking infront of him “and this is where the rooms are names are on the door your japanese is terrible so-” “no it is not” he says cutting her off “yes it is you gave up learning after your 3rd year in high school” “i speak japanes with melianna all the time” “ok what does that door panel say” she say pointing to the door on her right “um this one” “yes that one” “ok it says hanging room what is a hanging room” “wrong close but wrong none the least suspension room” “that proves nothing” “it proves my exact point anyway the first two rooms are suspension rooms the next two rigging rooms now me and hizashis rooms are right across from eachother pass here you won’t go but that door at the end of the hallway is where 9 times out of 10 you will find nemuri and shota just knock first”she says pointing at the end of the hallway “the room we’re entering now is the consultation room” she says opening a door

“Why did you not become a lawyer again”he says looking through the 4 page contract “because I kinda hate that whole profession but love contracts and if I did I would be that lawyer now this was kind of last minute so forgive me” “four pages front and back is last minute jeez” “yes if you were anyone else it probably would’ve 10 at the minimum anyways let’s get this over with I have a client in 30”

They go through the ins and outs the way he’ll be relieved of the job and everything else “ok Jordan I have a public scene today so I need you to go back over the aftercare prep section and do that in my room can I trust you to do that” “who's the client today”he’s says looking at the detailed aftercare list for each client “Aoki number 4” “candles,milk chocolate chip,heated blanket and discreet collar what is that exactly” “there’s a small black collar on the like hardwear draw in the back of the room it’s a pink you won’t miss it” “ok I got this how long is the never mind it’s right here ok see you in 45 minutes” he says looking at the briefing for Aoki “don’t let me down kid” she say before leaving the consult room

“Jordan hey what are you doing here” hizashi says walking into Jess room “I’m Jess new assistant” “how did she con you into that” “long story what you need” he says taking the candles out the cabinet “ah right that I need some of her sensory stuff” “third draw I believe” “thanks” he says going to the draw “how long she got you hostage” he says taking one of everything “until I find the something I can do with my life”he says plugging in the heating blanket “yeah you don’t have to rush you got time really think about it before you commit to something ”he say closing the draw and standing “anyways tell her I’ll replace everything later”he says walking out the room

The time has come for him to leave the room so Jess can come back going in the lobby he sees keigo walking in

“Hey Jordan, how's your first day” I say when I see him “pretty easy so far I feel as though it will get harder though” “yeah?” “yeah I just looked at how long I have to be here for and not leaving till 2 today” “yikes have fun with that” “yeah but um quick question” “wassup” “what is a public scene she had one today and I have no clue what that is” he asks innocently “um whatever the submissive is into she does it to them in front of group of people over there”I answer plainly “make sense anyways Jess is back there doing aftercare right now if your looking for here “ah imma plus one for something with hizashi I’m waiting on him you seen him” “yeah not that long ago he should be in his room” “thanks” I say before walking to his room I knock and I hear “come in” from the other side

“yo you ready” I say walking in and closing the door behind me “yeah just give me one second have to change” he says taking off his button up “I personally think you look better without a shirt” I say sitting beside where he’s standing in front of the couch “you do huh” he says bending down in front of me “yeah I do” I say putting my finger in the waistband of his pants “keigo have I told you how much I’ve missed my kitten” “once or twice” I say undoing the belt and pants button “your already pretty but with the ears the tail cute as a goddamn button baby”he says guiding my hand down his clothed semi erect dick “you told me kitten couldn’t happen anymore rules are rules” “rules are meant to be broken kitten” “when do we have to be there” I say as we both pull his pants to about mid thigh “an hour” “more than enough time” I never wanted to suck dick so much in my life then at this moment maybe because it’s been awhile but him standing over me calling me kitten just made me want it more than ever

“Holy fucking shit your better at this then I remembered” he’s says regaining his balance by putting his hand on the wall behind me “oh my goddamn kei your doing so good for me baby fuck” I look up and he looks like he’s going through it right now eyes close tight hand balled into a fist and I’m loving every second of it I love bringing this man to his knees in pleasure it’s one of my favorite things ever

“Kitten please fuck I’m about to cum” he says and pick up the pace with my hand by a lot he’s slightly thrusting into my mouth he’s coming to his complete end when pull him from my throat moaning my name and all I’m living in this moment there aren’t to many times when I get to bring him this much pleasure “fuck kei you did so fucking good at making master cum good boy” he says wiping off my mouth and kissing me “I must have did an exceptional job I’m getting praise this easily” “yeah you did you have any plans after this”he says referring to the event we’re about to attend “no why” “your coming back home with me tonight” he says kissing me again and going to change his clothes “any particular reason you want me to stay with you tonight” “do I need a reason” he says pulling up his pants “I mean is this some way to get material to use with sh-“ “have I ever used you for anything keigo” “I mean no” “then why would I start now I got some new equipment I’ve never used before and I know you're into it” “oh should’ve started with that what ya get” “a sounding kit” he says putting on his shirt “ahh haven’t done that in a while ok”

When we walk out the room and Jess is about to walk in hers “I thought you two would be gone by now” she says closing the door “had to change my clothes and got a bit side tracked” “side tracked yeah ok well I’ll see you later” she say reaching to open her door “actually you won’t I’m taking kei for the night”he says and she stops dead in her track “woah woah woah no your not” “yes I am you still have what two more clients tonight” “ok and by the time your done with that party or whatever it is I’ll be on my way back home” “no you won’t and we both know that you have to prep for Kaoru tomorrow after those two you won’t be gone anytime soon” “and that gives you the right to take keigo you had him Friday” “because you got busy and I had to fill in for you not my fault” “had an actual work crisis so that doesn’t count” “Jess your next client is here do you want me to tell him you need a minute”Jordan asks “no send him back” she says then turns back to us “If I could say something here-“ “good evening ma-“ her sub says from behind her before she cuts him off “go in sit down and shut up don’t you see I’m talking Jesus” she says not even looking at him in the most annoyed tone I’ve ever heard from her shit I would actually cry if I was him “I’m sorry baby what we’re about to say”she says in her usual nice tone “oh yeah right I’m not a kid you share custody of your working all night and hizashi is trying something new and wants to get to know all the in and outs that’s it I’ll be back in time for you having to get ready tomorrow” I say “ugh ok” she says giving in “and you are the kid we share custody of we have a scheduled and everything” hizashi says “no really we do this has been on the schedule for like a month now and now he wants to go over his scheduled time” she says adjusting her collar “what’s wrong with it” I say “nothing it just twisted a bit anyways you two need to go and I gotta deal with him so see ya later” she says pointing at the door

We make it to the event I’ve been to my fair share of these things with hizashi I know that it’s just people wanting an excuse to drink and network which to me don’t sound like the two mix but whatever floats they boat “a schedule really” I say bringing that back up “yeah really” “why” “because we just do it started as a way for me and Jess to know each others schedules you know just in case but turned into a I want solo time with keigo chart after awhile”he explains “why was I not aware of it sounds like something I would like to be involved with” “can’t something’s on there you can’t see yet my love” he says sitting back on the couch we’re sitting on “well you should’ve kept that to yourself because I will make it my personal goal to find out where it is” I say doing the same“you can try but you won’t”

Sitting there now alone because hizashi somewhere talking to somebody I’m just looking at one of the randomly placed tvs cycle through the pre-programed announcements when I feel someone sit beside I look next to me and its shirakumo “oh hey” I say scooting over because I was a bit too close for comfort “this isn’t your usual scene you look so out of place here” “yeah it’s not I’m here with zashi” “yeah guessed that much haven’t seen him all night feels like he’s avoiding me” he say sliding down in his seat “why would you say that” “well I mean he knows we work in the same field and knows that we are often invited to the same things and the last like 3 he’s not told me he was going and I find out after that he was there and when I bring up them up he acts like he they didn’t happen haven’t talked to him in like two weeks as well did I do something” he says mindlessly rambling

Do you honestly think if I knew something regarding this I would tell you I don’t know anything but not the point “he hasn’t said anything to me about it” I say simply hoping that ends this conversation “it’s not you would tell me anyway” yeah no shit “honestly he hasn’t said anything to me we don’t usually discuss your relationship with each other” I say “I just don’t know what I did ugh I’m going to go find him” he says about to get up “no no don’t ambush him especially not here I’ll go find him and the rest is up to him” I say getting up instead “yeah ok I’ll stay here” he says sitting back

I go and look around for him and finally find him talking to some people on the second level “hey zashi” I say tapping him “oh yeah excuse me” he says then we walk out of sight of the people he was talking to “I’m sorry I left you if you wanna leave we can” “I mean I would love to but that’s not why i came looking for you” “ok what’s up” “shirakumo is down there looking like a sad puppy because you’ve been ignoring him for some reason and he wants to talk to you” “you said you wanted to leave come on” he says neglecting everything I just said and grabbing my hand and leading me towards the stairs“I what did you not just here me” i say following behind him and nothing when we walk past shirakumo I mouth sorry and we walk out the door

Usually I wouldn’t care about whatever they have going on because that’s their issue not mine but the way zashi acting towards him I kinda feel bad for the dude I would be devastated if I was in his position right now “nope tell me what’s going on” I say taking the keys out of his hand before he can put them in the ignition he lets out a dramatic sigh and sits back in the seat “keigo I really don’t wanna talk about right now” he says looking at the roof of the car “well I guess we’re getting comfortable in here” I say putting the keys in my pocket “ughh okay I been avoiding him for awhile now because I’m stupid and let myself almost slip up” “and do what” “tell him I love him” “what’s the problem with that have you never told him you loved him you’ve been friends since you were kids you have had to say it before” “no no not a hey dude I love you childhood friend an I love you I want you to never leave me I love you” yikes got it “ I mean would that be so bad” “terrible the worst thing that I could possibly do say feel I needed a clean way out” “so you ghost him come on man” “whatever you don’t understand this feeling I know that we won’t work out but I want him a around for eternity” “I beg to differ hello did you forget my whole breakdown when you told me you wouldn’t be my boyfriend PLUS even though you told me no twice I figured out a way to keep you in my life for an eternity so I mean I think I know exactly how you feel at the moment” “keigo I didn’t ask for you to be right, right now I know you know exactly how I feel but the problem is I can’t do what you did I’m going to have to cut everything off with him sooner than later he’s already come to terms with never coming out publicly and I’m not dealing with that I’m not sneaking around and hiding who I am for anybody” “so let me catch up here he’s not going to be out publicly ever and yes I know you don’t want that and he told you that and you started avoiding him” “pretty much”he says looking at me “ok well I’m no Jess when it comes to saying exactly what you need to hear when you need to but you need to tell him that you wanna end this relationship or whatever it is and just going back to regular ol friends and talk it out with him because you just ghosting him isn’t going to work for either of you” “ok but I’m not doing it tonight” “don’t have to but soon and until you do it I’m off the table” I say taking the keys of my pocket

“excuse me” “you heard me kid figure that out first then I’m all yours” I say putting the keys in his hand “is that a threat”he says getting closer to me over the center console “no my love it’s a promise” I say kissing him and he deepened the kiss “what if I go in there right now and talk about it to him could I come back and fuck you in this car” he says breaking the kiss leaning his forehead on mine “well because his car is parked by yours and he’s standing behind you I think you have no choice hurry up”I say seeing him behind hizashi

Hizashi takes a deep breath and then opens the door and gets out

“Avoiding me but making out in the parking lot real classy zashi” “kumo I haven’t been avoiding you” “then what do you wanna call it dodging me ghosting me what hizashi” he says with some aggression “ok maybe I have but it’s just been a lot what do you expect you tell me this will never work because you don’t wanna you know so I been trying to get the whole idea out of my head and being around you wasn’t helping” I say not trying to give to much context I’m not trying to accidentally out him because I’m being loud and someone hears “ok so tell me that don’t lie to me and stop talking to me Jesus fucking Christ you make everything so difficult” “me I make everything difficult no no you make every difficult every single time we try to make something anything work you always try to find the out oh I’m moving to the states oh it was phase I’m not like that anymore I don’t wanna go public all I want is for you to choose me but no you rather get what you want then leave”I say getting pissed off because he’s playing victim yes I’ve been avoiding him the past couple weeks but this is his fault “hizashi you don’t think I want this to work as well-“ “no I don’t think that because if you did you would do what it takes to be with me not leave every time you get to deep every time we get close you push me away and I’m not about to keep wasting time like this” “well I’ll stop wasting your time then hizashi im sorry I can’t be what you need” he says before walking around to the drivers side of his car “and I think you should tell Jess keigo you want more than just being their third” he says before sitting in his car and pulling off

“So we’re not going to address the you wanting to be more gig or too soon” I say as he drives “not right now I don’t”he says in a deadpan tone “ok ok I get it I mean if you do spontaneously want to I’m all ears” I say he doesn’t respond “do you wanna-“ “I wanna not talk for the rest of the night that’s what I want can you do that keigo” he say annoyed “I guess so” i say now also annoyed

For some reason we’re at my house “we can talk about everything at a later date” he say parking the car“nope” I say taking the keys out the ignition and getting out the car “keigo I don’t have time for this right now” he says following me “you would think I would care but I don’t hurry up” I say pushing the elevator button

“What are you doing here I thought I was going have the house to myself tonight” Jess says looking at us walking through the door “they got in an argument ended things and now he’s being pissy” I explain handing her his keys “ah okay” “okay nothing and I’m not being pissy about anything I just don’t feel like talking about it right now can anybody respect that” “yes I’m respecting it by not letting go home being alone and beat yourself up about it” “I would rather be alone right now” “well you're not you don’t have to do a damn thing forget we’re even here if that would help but we’re not leaving you alone”Jess says making me sit next to her and he walks the to the back “why are you being unsympathetic right now” Jess say when we hear a door close “what do you mean” “I get we all saw this coming from a mile away but your not really helping the situation by trying to force him to do something” “I’m forcing him to do anything only thing I forced him to do was come up here that’s it nothing else” “was the argument bad” “wasn’t a screaming match but he played victim and that pissed zashi off and pretty much went down hill from there” “anything else” “nothing other than shirakumo saying he needs to tell us about he wanna be more than our third” “ahh we wanted to talk to you about that together” “ok I feel like a kid finding out my parents are about to get divorced what the hell is going on” “remember Ibiza” “yeah we’re we debunked the we only enjoy having sex with eachother because we’re in love yeah what about it” “and he said heart why’d you have to choose them yeah well that wasn’t just a shits and gigs thing to say it was a like a wholehearted statement he’s always loved us both to be in a relationship with either us but he didn’t wanna ruin anything but now that he’s our shared partner he knows that nothing will change and we talked about it because he was more worried about me being the receptive on the whole ploy thing and I said it was up to you but I’m 100% down if you were” “when did this conversation happen” “when you were on the convention run when I apologized he told me the jealousy didn’t come from now that we were engaged he thought he lost his opening” “hizashi yamada thought that piece of gold would close that door that we’ve kept wide open with a neon sign saying coming in over it” “yeah but we’ll deal with that later we got him to deal with right now he’s in the room”she say nodding toward the bedroom door “yeah let’s cross that bridge first” I say getting up

We go in the room and he’s laying on the bed face down we lay on either side of him “what” he say without moving “nothing” Jess says sitting up against the headboard “by the way why are you home so early” I ask Jess recalling Jordan saying they weren’t leaving till 2 in the morning “oh daichi canceled so we got done early”she explains “ahh how is that by the way he’s the age regressor right” “yeah it’s going great we’ve expanded on some of the stuff we do because I disclosed to him about my professional background and it’s helping him a lot to be able to fully regress and heal that part of his life” “what does your session with him look like I know it’s non sexual so what do you together” “mostly it’s just a space for him to feel safe in that mind space but we play video games and other things but yeah completely non sexual” “you’ve completely breached your contract” hizashi say turning so he’s laying on his back “no we re did the whole thing because it wasn’t working out now it’s just a don’t ask don’t tell basis” Jess says

“you talking to us now or still ignoring us” I say looking at him “I remember when you told me that you went through all the loops Kenny presented you with to prove you were serious and wanted nothing more to be with him” he says looking at the ceiling “yeah had terrible sex with that girl came out to my mom was open and being honest about our relationship and my sexuality” I add “you even did the same for Jess did everything in your power to make sure we all knew that you would give her the fucking solar system if she asked for it and he couldn’t even try to attempt I know everyone don’t or won’t be as open as me but shit who cares what others think and say I was willing to be there and wait for him to get to the point of being out to more than just me but he wants to hide forever and I’m not doing that” “and you don’t have to and you won’t settle for someone who don’t even wanna walk to close to you in public but wanna be your everything behind closed doors your going to find the perfect partner one day and till that person appears you have us” Jess says sliding that last part in casually “yeah I’ll always have you two I guess I can be honest on why I actually rejected the both of you”he says sitting up “Jess if I told you yes I was scared I would lose you and I fucking hate even the thought of that keigo first time I knew it was get back plan at Kendall and the second time you were entirely to vulnerable for me and I was scared when you were in a better mindset that you would leave and yeah I would rather you not leave me”he adds “dude I would’ve wanted to stay with you more because you helped me so much then” “and I always thought if/when we ended up together we would be the next shota and nemuri I wouldn’t have let my dream die man” Jess says

“Ugh you two are going to ruin any of future relationship I have you know that”he says “yeah we really raise the bar around here” Jess says “ok so we’re doing this”I say looking them “yeah I know Jess is itching to make the contract” “ah you know me so well give me 20 minutes to get the base contract down and we’ll do the terms conditions and negotiations after that” she says like the happiest camper “yeah you do that I’m taking a shower”hizashi says getting out of the bed after Jess “also sorry our plans got derailed tonight love”he says before walking in the bathroom “don’t worry about it you can make it up to me later” I say getting comfortable on the bed

After his shower and Jess excitedly telling us she was done with the base contract “ok so I know it’s pretty short but we have to as a collective agreement on everything else to go in it” Jess says as we look at the contract on my iPad “Jess my love it’s 6 pages as is this is not short”hizashi says scrolling through “you should see the one we have for our living arrangements 20 pages front and back this is nothing” I say reading it “sweet Jesus ok how does this work” “same way we do he for new subs we express things that we want/need for this so is there anything?” She says adding the first bullet point “ok well I want nothing to change you two are still the primary relationship here with or without me” hizashi says “ok elaborate” “I don’t want because I’m now here for you to stop doing the things you usually do together alone going to see ito dates your Friday sessions all of it would I love if we did things together yes but I’m not up rooting your relationship” “ok I completely understand kei anything” she says typing “um I don’t know really I know that there will have to be some adjustments that we make like things that we do and xyz but I can’t say anything that I feel like we need to solidify in writing we’ve essentially already been in this dynamic for the past 2 years so nothing will necessarily change but the title” “I mean your right” she says sitting back in her chair “so just add what he said and we leave it at that with kink and other things we can sit and come up with a thousand and 22 things to put but for a relationship we can’t set rules for something like this” “he makes a good point we’ll figure it out as we go” hizashi says in agreement “ok well to go over the main points the more important ones that I already have here this contract will last 2 years you don’t have to be fully monogumus to us if in these two years you find a partner you can terminate the contract at any time we can always reinstate it after the two years if we still would like to continue if anything shall happen between the three of us we have to reslove it with that person no going to the other and complaining about it just resolve it” “oh you wrote that one for yourself”I say knowing out of the three she would be the one to do that “no it’s a general statement” “sounds like you though” “excuse me” “you do it all the time zashi does something you don’t like you’ll tell me before you address it to him and I’m pretty sure it goes the other way as well”I say looking at hizashi “absolutely” he says in agreement “ok ok ok whatever but that’s the important parts the rest are just the living plans and shit like that” “off days my house why” “we work on the same days at AD so we can stay there and get ready together” “what’s the real reason” “I don’t wanna drive” “I knew it ok two days at my house” “yeah and if you want you can always just come be with us”I say putting my arm on the back of the chair “ew no” he says with a smile on his face “ok well that’s pretty much it we can sign if your ready” jess says “ok yeah” he takes the apple pen and signed the line next to his name I go next then Jess “ok now that that’s done hizashi can you please for the love of god make us food please” Jess says “keigos the better cook” “she didn’t ask me” “ughh the things you do for love” he says getting up and going to the kitchen “love you” we both say the same time “yeah yeah”

Notes:

Fun fact because this was supposed to be a one shot type of thing in the beginning the actual plot of this is free balled from chapter to chapter so if you ever feel like a lot of new information is being added it’s because I just thought of new things about their lives

Fun fact number two shirakumo was not supposed to last this long in the slightest but I mean you won’t hear that name again

Chapter 41: EXTRA #8

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ I know its been awhile but I'm back with an extra I have a few chapters planned that need a bit more of keigos background and to show what Hizashi was talking about in the last chapter

anyways I hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

It's been a few years since keigo's dad has been locked away for good and for the first time he's felt safe he and his mother changed their last names to her maiden name and they moved just because on the off chance he wanted to get to them he couldn't his mother had enough saved for them to move near an old friend of hers whos helped tremendously in the process and it was time to move keigo had no attachment to where he lived it was a small apartment that had nothing but bad memories attached to it 10 year old keigo knew enough that this move was the best thing that could ever happen for them

They don't take much when they left just clothes and important things to them left and didn’t look back

They moved in a smallish house on a rather quiet street and the moving and unpacking thing didn’t take long because they didn’t bring much over the previous owners left all the furniture so that wasn’t a problem “well kei this is a new start for us both are you excited” my mom asks me “yes I am I like here already” I reply to her I’ve never seen her this happy ever “well remember the friend I have that helped us get here” I nod yes to her question “well she lives right next door and she has a son your age wanna go meet them” “yeah we should go over” “ok let’s go”

I never really had a luck making friends beyond “yeah we’re in the same class” so i hope this is different

We walk over to the house next door and knock on the door and I’m guessing the kid that answered the door is who my mom was talking he’s a bit taller than me “Ken who is it-oh tome you made it” his mother says coming around the corner “come on come in I’m glad you're here” she really nice and has a bright smile “thank you for having us Izumi this is keigo” my mom say while we switch over to house shoes and I look up and once again met with her son “it’s nice to meet you ma’am thank you for helping us” I say “oh you're more than welcome this Kendall you're the same age you two should get to know each other while we catch up” she says and we go to his room

“So where you from here”he asks sitting on his bed “we moved like 30-40 minutes from here” I say sitting on the floor next to the bed “ah you have a cool name what does it mean” he asks me “opening,understanding not that cool of a meaning” “sounds pretty cool to me dude at least you have a name with a meaning I’m named after my dad he’s from america” “really have you ever been” “for his funeral last year but other than that no” “yikes sorry about that” “don’t be we saw it coming so it wasn’t that hard”he says like he just didn’t tell me what he just told me “anyways wanna play video games” he say turning on the tv

We didn’t talk about much else besides random things about different games and pretty much after that day we’ve been pretty inseparable and because we’re neighbours it made us closer when school started we ended up in the same class which was great considering I knew no one at the school

“Ken whose he” this girl asks while we were walking down the hallway joining us “oh rem this is keigo keigo rumi she’s a year above us” “hey your new right” “yeah just moved here over the summer” “ahh right ok” she says while we continue to leave the school

Rumi and Kenny we're already friends so by association we were friends now she joined us on the commute home being as she lived down the street from us we did everything together it was always the three of us

“Kenny what’s so important that you’re waking me up this early” I say sitting up in my bed to a frantic Kendall pacing in my room “keigo when I tell you this I don’t want judgment ok” “dude in the past 5 years I seen and heard you do a lot of things nothing will surprise me what is it” “ok ok I think I’m gay” he says sitting on my bed trying to read my face for any type of response “okayyyy” I say guessing that’s it’s something else “what do you mean okayyy” “I mean I kinda guessed that” “what” “I think I’ve kissed you more than 20 times now there is not straight explanation with that” “I just like showing affection through physical affection” “ok then name your other friends you’ve watched gay porn with and kisses on more than one occasion” “ok keigo shut up but if all of that makes me gay then so are you” “you’ve cracked the case Sherlock now get out it’s too early I’m going back to sleep” I say laying back in my bed “wait so your gay” “yes Kendall” I say muffled from the blanket being pulled all the way up “cool cool cool” he says as I feel him laying at the foot of my bed

“you think our moms will be ok with us being you know” “why wouldn’t they be were the same person” “yeah your right but is it valid that I don’t wanna tell her yet” “100% tell her when your ready”

That was the last time we talked about sexuality for a while but it came back to quickly “so Izumi tells me that Ken is gay” my mom brings up randomly during dinner “uh yeah” I say kinda nervous because I know he wouldn’t but can’t help but to think he outed me “and your ok with that” “yeah of course he’s still Kenny regardless” “ok just making sure you weren’t going to stop being around him because of it” “oh no never”

We somehow got closer if it was really even possible for that to happen we started to hang out without rumi more because we weren’t in the same school anymore and the time alone was fun and the more we were together the more I fell for him but I wouldn’t tell him that of course

“Kenny you’ve been here for the past week you have to go home”I say “only if you come with me” he says looking at me like a kid trying to get something “no I know the only reason your staying is because of what happened” “no it’s not” “yes it is im ok what happened a last week is over I promised everyone that I wouldn’t do it again” “you’ve purposely gotten into fights like 5 times in the past month and got your ass handed to you last week somethings not right and you won’t tell me what” he’s not wrong I’m kinda not doing well right now mentally but I don’t wanna burden him with that “Kenny I’m ok I promise you have I ever broken a promise” “I mean no but there’s something telling me not to leave you alone right now especially with your mom working so much right now” “ok ok I guess I’m not winning this one” I say giving up because the fact that he doesn’t want to leave me alone right now out of his own motives is making the light at the end of this dark tunnel a bit brighter “great I wasn’t going anywhere anyways” “Ken thanks” “I’ll be by your side forever kei so you don’t have to thank me but you can definitely cook I’m starving” he says laying his head on my shoulder “I guess I can do that”

the end of the school year was coming and high school was on the way“are you going to continue to act like a pussy or ask him out dude like formally not whatever you two have going on right now” rumi asks Kenny while changing “I mean he’s not out yet to anyone but us and I don’t wanna be a secret and have to hide everything” “you didn’t hear this from me but you might lose your chance if you don’t hurry one of my friends is going to try asking him out tonight” “and you think he’ll say yes” Kendall asks with a bit of insecurity in his tone “probably not because I don't think kiego is the have a girlfriend to hide his sexuality type of person but then again who knows” rumi says gauging Kendall’s reaction there was no friend it was her she’s been just as down bad for keigo as Kenny but once he told her he was gay she knew her chances was out the window but it’s been a few months and he’s not out yet so maybe he’s really not

“why are you not ready we have to leave in 10 minutes” keigo says coming in her room “yeah yeah give me 5” she say going back into her closet “let’s wait for her outside” Kenny says “yeah rem hurry up” kei says before walking out the room “so um kei I want to ask you something” “wassup” I ask “so um I really like you and I know this is coming out of nowhere but I do and I want you to be my boyfriend but I don’t think I can be with you if your not out and that’s ok but I don’t wanna hide” “ok I’ll tell my mother tomorrow” I simply say “what just like that”he says shocked “yeah I mean she has an off day tomorrow so I’ll do it then” “ok so you wanna be my boyfriend” “kinda already thought I was just waiting for you to ask” “Jesus Christ keigo” “now your religious” I say laughing at how in shock he is right now “it’s not funny I thought you would reject me” “nah I’m not letting you go that easy”I say smiling at him

I’m 17 in a two year long relationship and with my best friend at that i'm out and I couldn’t be happier right now “so you told miyano we were just friends that’s it he says walking into the empty classroom “what are you talk about” I say to a furious Kenny “just talked to miyano and he told me he was going to tell one of his friends that you were available because when he asked you said that we were just friends” “are we not friends I’m confused I didn’t think I was losing my friend when I said yes to you” “keigo don’t play stupid with me right now” “what he asked me if we were close and I said yes of course we’ve been friends for the past 7 years and that was it I didn’t explicitly say yeah no him I would never be in a relationship with him no just that we’ve been friends for 7 years was I wrong” “go tell him right now that we’re dating he’s still in the gym” “why would I do that aren’t you supposed to be in practice right now anyway” “you told me you wouldn’t hide our relationship so go and tell him” “you want me to disrupt basketball practice and go to miyano and say I’m sorry you can not set me up with any of your friends because I’ve been in a committed relationship for the past two years so sorry for giving you misleading information” I say sarcastically “either you tell him prove to me that you value our relationship or this is done” “your not serious right now” he doesn’t say anything just leaves to me this is stupid I don’t need to prove how much I value our relationship by telling someone I don’t care about that we’re in one

I half think he’s lying about the us being over thing til he no longer comes over or walk home together or anything really it was stupid it’s been two months and now it’s summer and still nothing

“Why are you dragging me to this party” I say getting in rumi’s car “because I need a wingman and what else do you have to do” “shut up”

We get to the party not far from her college campus and it’s a lot of people there alcohol everywhere loud music a true college party

Parties are always the worst without Kenny because rumi will wonder off and you wouldn’t see her till the next day “got ditched here to” a tall blonde dude say next him pouring something out of the cup he was holding “yeah haven’t seen her in an hour” “girlfriend” “nope best friend” “ah yeah I’m hiding from mine at the moment” he says leaning on the sink “why” “ah confessed he rejected me and now I wanna crawl into a whole and die” “ah just got broken up with because I wouldn’t tell somebody on the basketball team we were dating” “brutal” “yeah but I’m just waiting for him to give me the slightest attention to apologize” “him ok then not brutal your just an asshole” “ouch ok” “what it’s difficult being with someone who doesn’t want people to know your dating so you couldn’t granted him that one wish” “yeah I could’ve but I don’t feel the need to broadcast my relationship to every soul on the planet” “if you love him you would that’s all he’s asking for you could give him that” “maybe your right” “hey hey keigo come on we’re playing games and bring you cute friend” she says the last part not so quiet as she thought

“My name is hizashi by the way”he says sitting next to me In the circle which only indicates spin the bottle “keigo” the first round is going smoothly do I think this game is a bit unsanitary yes but hell if I care the moment the bottle finally lands just slightly to the left of me I look at hizashi and he shrugged and leaned in we kissed and the ritual of oohs and ahh around the circle and we go on about the game “if you can kiss me in front of all of these people you could’ve told that one person he was your boyfriend” “hey I barely know you don’t go making sense” I say laughing

We exchanged numbers and we talked all the time “you still haven’t talked to him” he says as we walked through the museum he invited me too “nope he doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore we’ve been friends forever now and this is the longest we’ve gone without talking so I guess it’s really over I’ve spent more time with you only times I see him is when I’m forced to go over for dinner or vice versa I should just date you at this point” “no you won’t” he says looking at the art on the walls “why not” “because your a friend and I like it that way” “well ok then” broken up with and rejected my love life is thriving

My mom has to work her night job so as per usual I’m alone I’ve got used to being alone again so am I a bit spooked when someone walks in my front door yes kitchen knife in hand I’m ready to battle for my life “Jesus fucking Christ Kendall you scared the hell out of me” I say walking out of the kitchen seeing him close the door “so your religious now” “no what are you doing here” “I got bored” he say sitting on the couch “ok so your talking to me now” “no still not until you apologize and admit that you were wrong” “so why are you here” “because I can I have a key don’t I” “you walk out on me pissed and haven’t said a word to me since in the past 5 months and now your on my couch “because you can”” “sounds about right” he says changing the channel

As confused as I am I’m actually kinda happy he’s here I finish cooking and go sit in the living room with my food “so do you ever plan on apologizing” “at the moment no” “hm so you didn’t really love me like you said you did” “wrong I love more than anything but I don’t feel as though I have to broadcast our relationship to the world” “if you meant that first part it wouldn’t feel like a chore to tell one person that were in a relationship” “didn’t say it was a chore just I don’t want to have to make it point to tell everyone” “yeah I knew coming over would do nothing but piss me off” he says standing up “nope you're not going anywhere” I say pulling him back down on the couch by his arm “what if your not going to apologize then why would I stay here and put up with this” “over this time apart I went to a party with rem and gained a new friend kissed him on the first night of knowing him and I had already told him about us and after he told me if I could kiss him infront of all of these people I could tell one person we’re dating and he’s right” “you what I leave you alone one time and your kissing random people” “that’s literally not the point” “yes it is you essentially cheated” “what I no I didn’t that’s not the point he was right I didn’t hesitate at that moment but I did with you and lost you so I actually am apologizing just was waiting for the right moment to” “no time like the presents” “Kenny Kendall I’m sorry I get that you don’t wanna be hidden in any aspect and that’s what I essentially did but you have to understand he didn’t ask me if we were dating he literally asked me if we were close that’s it that’s all so I didn’t feel the need to say it then” “that was his whole question” “literally he came up to me and asked “hey keigo are you Kendall like close close” and I said yes” “that’s a weird way to phase a question so now I feel like shit because the question was vague and I would’ve answered the same way” “now you see why I didn’t make this as big of deal if he asked if we were dating I would’ve said yes but he didn’t and I really don’t feel comfortable just walking up to him and saying it just out right” “why not” “because that’s weird stopping practice and saying hey miyano I’m dating Kendall so no you can’t tell your friend I’m available” “ok that does sound weird” “yes it does so can you just forgive me and we forget it ever happened” “only if you promise not to hide our relationship” he holds out his pinky “I promise Kenny” I say locking pinky’s “you know I never noticed that you’re the only person that calls me that till we weren’t talking” “yeah I know keep it that way”

“Wait why is your envelope bigger for university of Tokyo ”I say looking at Kenny’s letter from the colleges we both applied too “is that good or bad” he says switching our envelopes “I don’t think it’s good” “well we applied to 6 other schools together so maybe we’re just not going to Tokyo”

“Ok so you got accepted into Yamagata”I say reading the letter “you got denied”he says putting it back in the envelope “you got denied from Kyoto” “yeah you too” “shit I really wanted to go there” Kenny says going to open the next we pretty much didn’t get into any school together but we have one school left “ok their both in small envelopes and by our previous ones this isn’t good news” Kenny says ripping the top “it could be good” I say doing the same

We read the letters and he got in and I look up and he smiling at the letter “you got in” he says smiling ear to ear “you did too” I say smiling as well “we’re going to shibuya” “yeah together and you can finally meet hizashi” “yeah I can meet this guy that you kissed and practically confessed to within 3 months” “hey he’s a great guy you’ll love him” “anywaysss let’s go tell our moms”

Notes:

cute right I like talking about Keigo and Kenny because relationship was so pure and I love the friends to lovers trope (if that's not obvious already😂)

Chapter 42

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ I'm back with a tear jerker like I cried while writing it so I can not at the time go back and read this yet so if its any typos give me awhile and ill go back and fix it later don't think I need to put a content warning other than keigo is going through the grieving process and its a lot of crying but nothing that I think I need to warning about

anyways enjoy loves🕺🏽

The anniversary of Kenny’s death is this weekend and it’s usually not that hard to deal with but with going to therapy on my own to deal with that it’s made that day hard to even think about

Keigo has not been in high spirits as he usually is and when I bring it up he puts a smile on his face and changes the subject I can tell he’s trying to not let whatever is affecting him affect me but it’s bothering me more that he’s not talking to me about whatever it is

“Hi sweetheart how are you” tome says when answering the phone “hey I’m good how are you” “you sure about that you don’t sound like you’re good” “I mean we’ll I’m not kei has been in a mood lately and I know that it’s something because he’s not talking about it and maybe it’s just the therapist in me” “what’s the date today ahh that’s why it’s the anniversary of Kenny’s death this weekend” “oh shit I forgot about that” “yeah so he’s going to be a bit down don’t take it to heart” “yeah it makes sense now”

 

I don’t have to be at work right now but I’m still here everyone in the office is gone I’m sitting in the dark office just wanting to cry but not being able to I don’t want to be sad around Jess because I’m crying over my dead boyfriend can I even call him that well we never broke up but he’s not that anymore I’m getting married next year I’m fucking in love with her too and yet and still I’m sitting here fighting back every memory of me and him together the good and not so good

I reach in my desk bottom draw and take the scrapbook he made for my 20th out of my desk and go through looking at the pictures of us together and tears start to pour when the picture of me Jess and Kenny the first Halloween we spent together we were Mario Luigi and princess peach I only start crying because the only two people whoever loved me unconditionally that’s not blood related to me also loved each other how can I be so goddamn lucky “hey kei what are you still doing here” I hear Jess say from my door I wipe my face “what are you doing here” “yo called me and said you were still here she was worried about you” she says walking over to my desk “ah no I’m good” “are you really” she says sitting on desk in front on me and those words broke the dam of emotions and I broke down crying

Seeing him cry like this is heartbreaking his head in my lap just crying uncontrollably i don't know how to comfort him properly because he's never this vulnerable around me like ever not in the 10 years of knowing each other have i ever seen him cry to this degree when kenny died i was visiting family in the states so i never seen him grieve over ken but i know it had to be tragic and i still feel bad to this day that i wasn't here for him when it happened

After a while his heavy crying turned into quite tears to him just regulating his breathing i didn't say a word because the last thing i want to do is make him feel pressured to talk yet

He sits up and wipes his face with his sleeve and lean back in his seat reclining a bit “i never grieved his death that was honesty the first time i've cried because of it and it been 6years this weekend and i've never once shed a tear” he sways side to side in the chair looking at the ceiling “i used to say i didn't cry because he wouldn't want me too he hated when i cried every time he would give me time to cry get it out and do everything in his power to make me smile and happy again and he couldn't do that anymore so i never cried no matter how much i wanted to my eyes would burn but no tears then i saw that picture” he says point to his desk and i see our first halloween picture “and i realized just how fucking lucky i was to get two people who love me unconditionally two most dont even get one” he sniffles and sits up grabs my hand and pulls me to his lap and hugs me “im sorry i didnt let you in im working on being more open about my emotions with ken because i repressed them for so long and i dont want you feel like you have to measure up to or im comparing-” “i never once felt as though you were doing that he meant alot to you i cant fault you for anything in that” “ i know but-” “but nothing kei you lost your bestfriend and lover in the same day shit i lost a close friend to that day i get it if i were to unfortunately loose you the same way fuck i dont think i would recover honesty i know youll always love him and grieve cry over him i knew what i was getting myself into” “I love you” he says holding me tighter “I love you more than you can ever know kei”

“So how about we go down to Toyoshina this weekend or is he not buried there” jess suggest “no he is i just haven't been there since the funeral” “you never went back for and did the whole ritual thing”she says and i kinda laugh at her because for somebody whose undoubtedly the most smartest person i know is still so ignorant to many things “what the hell are you talking about” hizashi say” “i think sometimes yall forget i was raised by americans in japan i don't know many customs still to this day” “yeah but no i never went back my mom goes with his family every year but i never went back” “do you wanna go or no” hizashi asks me and i have to help with me getting through this delayed grieving process “it's going to hard for sure but yes only you two come with me” “do you think would make you do this alone” jess says “no but i don't want to it alone so not for a single second am i to be left alone while were there” “ok I promise”

I don’t know why I’m so nervous to go back home maybe because of what time of year it is or because this is the first time Jess and hizashi are coming to my hometown and meeting close people to me it’s a lot of things and I don’t know which one is worse honestly

We decided to take the train there because none of us wanted to drive 3 hours and when we get there my mom is waiting for us at the exit “how are you sweetie” she says while hugging me “slightly better now” I say because no matter what emotions I am having being back with my mom makes everything better “ok your going to be ok tomorrow” she says pulling back and looking at me “yeah I should be” she smiles at me and brushes my hair back “you really need to cut your hair” “yeah he does I made the mistake of telling him I like his hair long now he won’t cut it” Jess says closing the trunk “I’m also team cut it “ hizashi adds “wow didn’t know everyone hated my hair” “I don’t hate just its reached a weird length” Jess says with an almost disgusted look on her face “yeah you can’t go see Ken like this”my mom says “will you cut it for me” “yes I will” she says before letting me go and getting in the car

“Rumi is coming down tonight she called Izumi yesterday” my mom says as we cook together “hm she didn’t tell me she was coming” “I mean she comes every year” “ah also didn’t know that” “don’t be like that we understand that this is hard for you and it was going to be some time before you were going to be coming to visit him” “I did everything in my power to forget what happened to just think of it as he's not really gone and I know seeing his name on that gravestone is going to solidify it and I wasn’t ready to face that fact but I think no I know it time I can’t keep running away from it” “we’re all proud of you kei especially Kenny you're successful you have great friends a wonderful partner and have been through more than any one person should and your still here” “I just always thought it would be me and him till the end of time and” “now you’re about to marry your best friend surrounded by all of the people that love you there are only four people I’ve seen you around that I could tell truly loved you that girl upstairs loves you to the moon and back and she loved Kenny just the same” “yeah she’s the best right”I say smiling to myself “ok why was I never informed on how cute of a kid you were”Jess says coming in the kitchen from upstairs“he was the cutest wasn’t he” my mom chimes in “I’m hearing a lot of past tense here” “I mean your cute but little baby keigo top tier” Jess says sitting at the table in the corner “I can’t believe we’ve known you for this long and you’re just letting us come here” hizashi says “it’s far from where you both lived then still is” “you’re saying that like that was a problem I traveled back and forth from Osaka to shibuya during the summers to uhh work yes work” Jess says in the most suspicious tone ever “my love they called you the sex guru I also know why your parents cut you off you don’t have to hide that” my mother say putting a bowl on the table “ahh yes you were there when that happened” “sex guru?” Hizashi says turning to me “we were clueless to most if not all things about sex and-“ “for someone who at the time had one sexual experience knew everything and more I was like their sexual yoda” “and your not a sex therapist correct”my mom say “no I am not I know a lot and could be very helpful but I like everything in my life not revolving around sex or kink but would I do it just to have one more degree than keigo yes yes I would” Jess says “yeah you got me there because I’m not doing another minute of school””wasn’t Kenny a psych major” hizashi asks “yeah that’s how we met we had all but one class together pretty much the entirety of undergrad after the first day of classes were over we started talking and walking back to our dorm and not paying attention because we’re just a gabbing it up I’m at the door about to unlock the door when keigo opens the door and goes “oh youve met already” ” “I didn’t know they had classes together and I didn’t know when she was getting back but I was going to introduce them that day” “I met him not to long after they got to school my internship wasn’t that far and we all went to a this music festival the station was running””still don’t know how it took all these years for you three to know you all knew each other” “i dont know because looking back its no way i would tell keigo over breaks i was going on vacations with my bestfriend and zashi would tell him the same place and he never put two and two together” “i never claimed i was the smartest but its not just me yall would be together and texting me at the same time so we all just were just lacking some common sense” “again hizashi thank you for not being a serial killer” “yeah we both be very much dead if he was” “it wouldve been so easy if i was concerningly easy actually” “ok enough about how you couldve easily murdered us whatever is infront of us smells beyond great” jess says “well thank you i know your vegetarian and your favorite food is mapu tofu” she say lifting the lid off the pot “i made sure everything was vegan so you can eat it hizashi” my mom says “thank you ill return the favor the next time your in kyoto”hizashi says

It the morning and waking up in this bedroom left me with a weird feeling i wasn't just back home visiting i'm here to visit the grave of my best friend looking around the room that hasn't changed in the slightest same posters and pictures on the wall old books this room held some of my best memories with kenny alot of first some lasts first time we said i love and the last time we said it right before he left out and never came back i look over at jess and feel like the weight of me about to go down a path of sadness washes away just looking at her brings me so much peace and i thank god everyday for putting her in my life even if it took going through a bunch traumatic bullshit if it leads to her i'll do it all over again 50 times over

“You ok” she say breaking me out of deep thought “yeah i actually am thanks to you” “i haven't even done anything” she says laughing “you just being here is all i need princess” “ill be here forever kei you don't have to worry about that ok” she say with a genuine smile that makes me smile “ok”

We get ready and we head over to kenny i have everyone who i'm the closest to here my mom jess hizashi kenny's mom and uncle and rumi

It's been so long since i've been here that i don't even know where he is but when we stop in front of the gravestone and i read “here lies kendall “kenny” miyamura”it makes a tear escape my eye i was the only person to call him kenny and the only reason jess and zashi do it is because that's how i address him at all time and to see it there in stone made me feel like a piece of my heart was with him forever we enjoyed some time together and when it was getting later i decided that i wanted some alone time with him “well be at the car ok” jess says before letting my hand go and walking away

I sit and look at the sun start to set a bit “i know i know it shouldn't have taken me this long to come see you but it's hard man… i miss you like crazy you know that kenny but let me catch you up me and Tsunagu started a tech company but he's also dead now but switch tech lives on i live in a penthouse like the one we always dreamed to live one day uhh i was in a pretty shitty relationship for awhile but i'm not anymore im still friends with hizashi and rem of course charlie hada kid and named him after you crazy right … im getting married to jess next year” and the moment i said that a breeze blew past but it felt like it just affected me “yes jess jess i love her ken i really do she brings out the best in me just like you did she loves me more than i can ever recipicte she got me to come here and i want to spend the rest of my life with her kenny just how i wanted to do with you” i wipe away a few tears “i took everything you taught me about loving someone and apply it with her i learned my lesson having to spend months away from you because i fucked up us not talking because of me god i would do anything just to hear you say you love me again just for you to be here shes just like you sometimes and its scary super clingy but yet treats me like a baby will do anything to make me happy that weird noise before you nevermind ill keep it pg for today but you know what im talking about i love her and i know you did too and i dont how but i know youre responsible for this so thank you ken i love you baby dont ever forget that ok youll always be the first person i ever loved and i love you till my dying breath you hear me kenny i love you you can never be replaced” the tears coming down harder i break down more and just repeat to myself i love you over and over hoping that someway somehow i can hear him say it to me again and nothing of coure but i feel the warmth of people around me

I look around me and jess hizashi and rumi are sitting beside and behind me “we heard you crying and came back” rumi says from behind me “can you tell me you love me please” i say direct to no one particular “i love you keigo” “i love you keigo” “i love you kei” they all say and the sky turns pretty shades of reds and oranges “you weirdo why is your favorite color still orange” i say laughing because that felt like the answer i've been waiting for i stopped crying and felt a wave of relief and some acceptance in my heart he still loves me and he knows i love him that's all that matters

“Thank you” i say as we walk back to the car “there's nothing on this planet i wouldn't do for you”jess says holding my hand “your bestie i couldn't let you be alone”rumi says unlocking the car “i haven't cried in years and hearing you cry and repeating i love you made me cry”hizashi says “i knew that i wouldn't be able to hear him say it but anything to just know and the sky being red and orange was all i needed and of course you three i dont think ill ever be able to show you how much i love you” “we already know you love us kei your marrying me you haven't even been in a actually relationship with hizashi and you won't let him leave and rumi is you longest friend and out of all the people in your life you want her on your side when we get married i think we know how much you love us” jess say “yeah because we've had a hard year and you still chose me all the proof i need”rumi say getting in the car

Notes:

sad right ugh im listening to be with you by ateez rn so that's also not helping I don't think ill ever give a cause of death for Kenny because one I can't think of anything and two I feel like Ive talked about him a lot so I think ill pull back on the sad shit for awhile and get back to the roots of this plot which is kinky sex with a smidgen of angst

Chapter 43: EXTRA #9

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨I kinda wanted to scrap this but im not because I might need this for later mentioning so ill post it and give you a more traditional YM chapter soon

I hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

I never met any of keigo family outside his mom so it's a bit nice yet scary like i know kenny's mom and uncle mean alot to him so sitting at the table right now i feel a bit pressure to impress them “so you coming out with me this summer keigo” his uncle asks him “i swore to never get back on that boat after i threw up everything i ever ate the last time” keigo says putting his arm around the back of my chair “you have a son he's coming with me during the summers” “if he's anything like me then he won't do well on water” i say because i have terrible motion sickness on the ocean “you were the one who took kenny on your family boat and also empty out their entire stomach” “yes but i made it to a bathroom unlike kei” i say remembering that i took kenny with me one year during spring break “hey that's not fair i didn't know i was about to it just happened”

“So jess you're a psychologist” kennys mom asks me “yes for the past 4 years now” “only 4 was it hard to find a job after college” “well after undergrad and upper degrees it took awhile to get my own clientele and private practice” “ahh” “yeah and i made it 10 times harder not having finacle help from my family anymore” “what happened” “well they found out I did something that wasn’t quite to their standards and cut me off so after being a beyond privileged person to having pretty nothing no help other than hizashi and our close friends” “I don’t think there’s anything you could do that is warranted for that” “well because I don’t want to start our relationship with a lie I will tell you why I’m a dominatrix and my parents found out and that separated us for a while but alls well there now” the room goes silent and for a second i think to myself maybe a small lie wouldn't have hurt “a dominatrix hm” kenny's mom says and keigo moves his arm “its not what your thinking it is-” “she caters to a fantasy that someone desires am i correct jessica” she says cutting of keigo yikes my full name i barely know the lady and that still hurts “uh yes thats exactly what it is” “how long have you been doing it” “um 10 years” “so you still do” “yes took a year off yes i still do” “are you ok with that keigo” “i yes yes i am” i feel like im in trouble somehow and i know im not im a 27 year old adult i can do whatever i want but this lady has some type of presents thats making me feel like im in trouble

“are you sure youre ok with the woman you want to start a family with is also doing those types of things with other people” “yes i am its something thats apart of her shell always have the desire to do this and its not as though shes having sexual intercourse with these people and it doesnt interfer with our day to day life its just like another job” “would you tell your kids about this lifestyle” “i dont see any reason they would have to hide it” hizashi says “excuse me” “its apart of them and alot of people that will be in the child's life me included and i know for a fact theyre not having sex be a taboo subject in their house” “i mean it wont rather we like it or not their going to have sex sometime and i would rather their safe and not like us who just had to figure out us being one a non hertonnormative couple plus many other factors i want baby haru to feel comfortable to just some to us and tell us anything and not be in their bestfriends room pacing freaking out wondering if were going to accept them and be terrified that that one part of them is going to change how the people who are supposed to love them most are going to accept them we were together for 9 years and you never once let your son know that you were 100% ok with his sexuality and you never will i dont want that”keigo says and i can tell a nerve has been plucked “i accepted him and he knew that i loved him regard-” “im sorry but did he i mean no disrespect but me and ken were pretty close and hes told me that he couldnt be his true self when he was home because he was scarred that it would trigger something and you wouldnt love him anymore thats why he came with me that one spring because my family might be alot of things but their very accepting they treated kenny keigo and hizashi as if they were they own when we were together” “i may have had some reservation about it but i loved my son more than anything on this earth and i would do anything to let him know that but i cant and keigo your right you're both right he was always hesitant about telling me things about your relationship because i wasn't there yet and i did everything to make sure he felt loved and it wasn't enough sometimes” “yeah it wasn't izumi but we know you love kenny but your not going to put your views on and other things on my child jess is and i don't say this about many people perfect in every way i've seen her at her lowest and highest and she's done nothing but love your son and mine so your not about to give her the 3rd degree about anything your doing the same thing you did when they came out to us and i stopped you then and im stopping you know keigo sees you as a someone he looks up to and respects your opinion so don't make him change that” tome says and honesty i hate that this one part of my life caused this i wish i just said oh they didn't want me to be a therapist and wanted me work in the family law firm or something anything because its the anniversary of her son's death and we just told her in more ways than one you didnt love your r son enough and i know this has to fucking suck

“I'm sorry i know this is our first time meeting and i've probably ruined any chance of us having any type of relationship but in no way am i saying that he didn't know that you loved him when we got the internships in our senior year he wanted to do nothing but to call you and tell you and for many other things when you would send him packages for his favorite things he would smile and show us everything you sent him even by the third year i never got tired about hearing the story behind the imported gummy worms i bought him a bunch when i went back to the states for the summer no matter what you felt about his sexuality or his relationship with kei he knew that you loved him rather he felt it everyday or not or if you said it to him outright but one thing i can say is that i won't change who i am to please anyone me and keigo have done everything to make sure that were ready for all of the new chapters coming up in our life i plan on disclosing to my kid about what i do when theryre at the right age i wont make sex a taboo topic in my house nor will i ever for a single day of their lives give them a doubt that i love every piece of them from good to the bad and when it comes to keigo i will do everything in my reach to make sure hes loved and that hes my first priority until haru then you bumped down to number two but not the point none of you ever have to worry about kei getting hurt because on the long list of things i do for him hurting him isnt on that list anywhere i hope today hasnt ended any chance of you being in our lives as a unit” “i could never hate or dislike you jess you make our keigo happy and you made my kendall happy aswell so dominatix or not youll always have a relationship with me” “so you won’t hold this against her in anyway”keigo says “no I won’t now if you didn’t also stand your ground behind her maybe not but obviously you’ve collectively agreed on every future decision you’ll be placed with so I have no say in anything other than I will say I think you would’ve been great lawyer” “it’s in her genes both parents are great lawyers”keigo say holding my hand in his lap “i would’ve been a damn good lawyer but also hated everyday of it”

Notes:

ok this chapter makes jess look like an asshole but I mean she came at her wrong and I couldnt for the life of me think of any dialogue for his uncle so he speaks once maybe twice but its ok OK ok

Chapter 44

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ needed a new cute chapter so that’s what I’m bringing you next time I’m planning on bring something back I haven’t done in 26 chapters and I know that’s going to take a while so be on the look out for that

Enjoy🕺🏽

This weekend was pretty heavy a lot of emotions that i haven't dealt with and i'm glad it happened it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I know like I said this weekend is a lot but Jess has been abnormally nice to me this past week and to keep it a buck 50 with you I don’t like it it’s freaking me out 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Hey are you busy right now

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

No not at the moment 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Client canceled on me wanna get lunch together 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I would love that where

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Whatever you want I don’t really have a specific taste for anything 

She’s lying she always knows exactly what she wants 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Ok then let’s get yakitori then haven’t it a while

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Ok I wanna come to you so I’ll pick it up

We’ve been together almost two years and she's been here twice neither time for lunch but ok suspicious 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Ok I’ll tell Yo that your coming 

 

About 30 minutes past before Jess walks in “hello my love” she says walking in with the biggest smile “hey princess” I say getting up “I haven’t seen you in two days I hate it” she says hugging me “I know but it’s just one more day then I’ll be back home” I say sitting in the chair infront of my desk “this is why I think we should reconsider the whole you just moving with me thing” she says sitting down in the chair next to me “this doesn’t happen often we’re just in the testing phase of a new product and we’re here late and we get here early I won’t have to do this again for a few years but if you wanna look for another house we can” “no I really don’t want to but I want it to be comfortable for you to get here and come back home at night” she say handing me my food “I’ve told you I don’t mind the commute in the slightest and I don’t wanna come back home at 4:30 in the morning and have to be gone 3 hours later that’s just not fair for either of us” “ok ok I just know it’s not really convenient but if your ok with it” she says hanging her legs off the side of the chair “that chair is extremely expensive and you just hanging all over it” “yeah I know but this isn’t the chair you should be worried about because you fucking me in that one” she says pointing to my chair behind the desk “ah that’s why you wanted to come here I knew it was an ulterior motive” “yeah if I just wanted to eat I would’ve came over tonight” “you’re going to have to be quiet” “I know I love a challenge” “Hurry up and finish eating I got a meeting at 2” 

 

All of the windows to my office is closed so no one can see in here and the door is locked when I turn back to desk Jess is sitting in my chair “I don’t know why your sitting down” “why not not am I not pretty enough to sit” she says in a mocking tone twisting in the chair “you don’t want me to answer that” I say pulling her up from the chair and placing her on the desk “the desk you’re going to fuck me like whore huh” “shut up”

 

I like aggressive keigo I don’t get him much but when I do god do I love it “fuck kei right there don’t stop please please please don’t” I say head leaning on his shoulder fucking in his office was hot in theory but in practice indescribable the act of having to be quiet and the time crunch so he’s only goal right now is for me to cum before 2:00 and god is he these past two days has been hell so when my client canceled I had to take my opportunity it was really my only goal I even canceled on my kink clients this week because when he comes home Friday we’re not leaving that fucking room but I couldn’t wait another two days for that “you just couldn’t wait huh so fucking needy” he says laying me back on the desk “no I’m not waiting for what’s mine” I say pulling him by his tie to kiss him 

 

Hand over my mouth because the new angle of fucking me up bad right now I’m so close to cumming and he knows it keeps the same pace angle the same everything till I’m left breathless and speechless laying on his desk

 

He gets himself together and then pulls me into his lap while sitting down in his chair “why are being unusually nice lately” he says holding me by the waist “what do you mean” “this is not something I could’ve gotten you to do in a million years no matter the request you do with no nothing what is it” “I mean today was more for me then anything and everything else is just me not wanting you to feel neglected again especially after this weekend giving you my undivided attention which is something I don’t do often these days” “don’t say that after we talked everything out you have actively changed past behaviors so I’ve felt your undivided attention even before this week but I told you to clear you schedule this weekend no explanation further and you just did” “hey I haven’t seen you in two days you could’ve said clear the rest of the month and I would’ve” “missed me that much” “yes I have what time do you think you’ll be done tonight an estimate don’t need a definite answer” “well my meeting should be over at least by 3 hopefully anyway then we go into testing today like actual testing so that should take a few hours so I’ll says 10 at the latest today because we stayed entirely to late last night” “ok then I’ll stay with you tonight you won’t be back too late and whatever you want name it and I’ll cook it because I know for a fact you probably have had the worst food habits this week” “I can’t lie they have but let me think on it and I’ll let you knows by 3” “ok let me know” “I really don’t want you to leave to be honest” “I’m free for the rest of the day want me to stay” “are you sure” “yeah I don’t have shit else to do I’ll stay here till like 5” “ok well I’ll be back in a hour ok” he says looking at the time “ok have fun doing whatever you do” I say standing up “while I’m gone bring back mean Jess this weird nice Jess is creeping me out” he says before walking out the door 

 

His office huge for some reason like I don’t quite know why I think it’s a CEO thing just have huge offices how much is this business worth I might need to get some shares doing a quick google search and seeing that it’s a mix of high ass numbers that would definitely put kei in the 1% and I can’t say that they could be wrong because I don’t know his financial situation but I know that condo is hella expensive to pay month to month and he paid straight out and he’s not blinking an eye at keeping the utilities there on when he moves in with me I mean I’m very comfortable like paid for my house and car out of pocket but I would’ve definitely sold that house of we were moving somewhere else

 

Going down my just how rich is my fiancé path I guess it’s been an hour because keigo is walking back in the office “how was the meeting” I say not looking up from my phone “just a progress report meeting how have you occupied your time” he says walking behind the desk “serious question and I feel like because we’re going into this new chapter of our life together I feel comfortable asking this” “what” he says sitting on his desk “ok I did some research and because I don’t know much about switch tech and this place makes a lot in a year and -“ “write a number down and I’ll tell you higher or lower” he says handing me a sticky note pad and a pen “ok I’m going based of usd here so” I say writing a number and showing him the paper “ way higher than that” 150 million is to low shit ok “higher” ok no to 200 million let’s get outrageous “in a year or so maybe but not now lower” ”I give up what’s the number” “ok so the company generates a little over a 5 billion a year it’s crazy never thought I would get to this point but at the moment we’re that net worth of the entire company but by the time I’m done paying all of my employees and other things profit for me is around 500 million usd monthly” “monthly I don’t even make that in a year Jesus I’m not in the right business” “when I told you I could support us both I meant it princess” “if this wasn’t a passion of mine would definitely be an housewife” “you know I plan on taking over like bills and shit when I move in right because I know you won’t let me give you money so whatever you make is yours after march of next year” “only having to only pay for my work space rent and my two assistance what am I going to do with all my new found wealth” “whatever you want now I have work to so switch with me” “yeah you do whatever that is I’m about to walk around your office only ever seen in here” “have fun” he says pulling the back of my skirt all the way down 

 

I walk around with no goal in mind just want to look around and the design of the floor is pretty cool like it looks fluid and clean like keigo's general aesthetic but like the branding also looks cool as hell and the art around the office is beautiful I love the atmosphere in here “hey Jess can I call you that sorry” Yo says going through 16 emotions at once “hey yes you can call me that it’s ok” I say giving a comforting smile “ok just we have a like a non formal thing going on in here and I didn’t know if you were ok with that” “yes I prefer it actually how are you” “good I’m good sorry I wasn’t here when you arrived do you need anything” “no well actually do you know the person who did the switch tech branding I like it a lot” “um not off the top of my head but I can look into it and get you the name” “thanks they did a really good job making me wanna do a re branding” “I was pretty new when they did it but I know now they’re like a video game animator and video editor” “I hope they still do this type of stuff to” “yeah Ill get you the name and contact info right now I’ll be at my desk if you need anything” she says walking away 

 

“Dude your office is super cool” I say walking back in his office “thank you I designed it myself” he says typing on his computer “really hm” “what you don’t believe me” he says looking up “I didn’t say that” “you sound like it” “I’m sorry that I don’t believe that you did the interior decorating in here” “my condo to just accept I’m better at interior design than you” “the condo I believe like you walk in and can tell that a man lives there here there’s a flow and it’s makes me wanna get things done” “are you mad my house has more color than yours” he says resting his head on his hand “oh be quite my downstairs is black and gold very colorful in my opinion” “unlike your colorful personality” “colorful person- those are fighting words Takami” “don’t pick fights you can’t win Carter”he says leaning back in his chair “you win this battle but you won’t win the war” “I always win don’t i” he says smiling 

Notes:

Keigo the capitalist monster we love it 😂😂😂

Chapter 45: Yes,Master chapter 3

Notes:

Hello loves✨like I promised Yes,Master for the first time in gods knows how long

i hope you enjoy because i enjoyed writing it 🕺🏽

Jess has been doing a lot for me lately and I know from previous experiences that she doesn’t always like to be the dominant one and yes it’s literary her job and that actually furthers my point she has no room for submission lately so of course I have to do something just have to figure out how to do this because first time it was already agreed upon that we were going to be doing a dynamic switch and the second she asked for it directly soooooooo HOW THE FUCK DO I PLAN FOR THIS 

 

Ok keigo we got this we can do this the last one was on a whim improved now lets sit and plan something that our princess deserves ok…… what and the actual fuck can i do ughhhh i wonder if she goes through this much stress trying to plan a scene… ok what can we do to surprise her i'm not taking her to wonderland i don't have it in me to be that aggressive and just like that i light bulb went off in my head that fucking sex bucket list what was on it again i remeber anal in general full body rigging and sesory play I CAN FUCKING DO THAT 

 

I start on getting ready for this because i have to be ready to make this one of the best nights shes ever had it's going to be hard to compare to me making her cum 10x in one sitting while tied up that was definitely one for the books 

 

Keigo has been secretive about something lately but i can whatever it is i know it's for me because he's been terrible at hiding how excited he is about whatever it is random packages sent to the house and he wont let me open them or be around him when he opens them and i'm going to let whatever it is be a surprise because whatever it is means so much to him so i won't go snooping even though i want to but his surprise are always the best so i wont 

 

He cancelled on me for this friday so after a day of doing a lot of nothing i just went straight to the condo later on in the day and when i walk in to the whole kitchen and living room being only lit with candle light and roses all over the floor and the window wall open fully which is rear the table set for two i smile at the gesture but i see no kiego “you know it's a fire hazard to leave candles unattended”i say walking down the hallway “that’s why they’re battery operated now leave me alone” he say closing the door behind him so i cant see in the room “so this is why you cancelled on me” i say smiling at him “yes i didnt feel like getting my ass handed to me today” he says before kissing me “i was definitely going to do that” i say as he brings me back to the table “ok so everything has been focused on me lately so i needed to turn the tables back around” he says putting a bowl in front of me “katsudon?” i say looking at it “yes one of my many specialty” “i haven't had it in years” i say before i started eating and no surprise it was good as hell 

 

Around the midpoint of the meal i think he was determined to kill me because mid bite he goes “you know im fucking the hell out of you toinight right” he said like it was so mundane and regular conversation like sir jesus christ “i guess i do now god” i say getting myself together “youve been madema mistress for too long i need to bring you down from your high horse” i… what the hell do i respond to that hes not wrong but shit “so after were done eating go ahead shower and i bought you something pretty for you to wear” “ok” i say to speechless to say more we continue eating and when were done put the dishes in the sink and im about to help in the clean up “no no go ahead i got it” he says taking the sponge out of my hand i go in the room and it looks just like the rest of the house its hella romantic 

 

i shower and when i get out i look at the item he bought me i call it an item because its not clothes in the slightest just a red lace see through bra and matching underwear i sit at the foot of the bed after putting it on and i'm excited i feel so damn special last time i got burned out and i was just domming him and now with the added 6 is a lot 

 

He comes in and walks straight to me “i knew it would be pretty on you” he says standing in front of me he's making small touches on my neck and shoulders that if i wasn't hyper focused on each one i wouldn't feel it  “remember your sex bucket list” “yes” “well i decied you waited long enough so lets say we get 3 things off tonight how about that..before you answer i have to tell you what it is first” he says hand lightly travling across my chest “sensory play full body bondage and anal now that last one i need explicted consent from you right here right now that that is something you still wanna do” he say squatting down so he’s eye level with me “yes keigo im giving you explicit consent that i want to do that and everything else you named and if you wanna freestyle in there too that's ok aswell” i say smiling at him im what they call an edger beaver its been damn near a year since he did this if he wanna hang me from this damn bedpost he is more than welcomed to do just that “you ready” “no” i say and he face looks confused “my collar you want me to be submissive with no collar wow your rusty” “shut up” he says standing and getting a collar that looks similar to one i broke “the other one is tied to you being dominate so i replaced the old one” he says putting it one me “ok now are you ready”he says taking my princess necklace off  “yes” I say smiling “ok now give me one minute ok” he says walking away “no where you are going” I say grabbing his hand “to the closest princess” he say kissing the back of my hand I let him go and he starts walking to the closest 

 

He comes back with a small table similar to the one I have in my room with an array of things on it from rope to candles “ok first blindfold” he say picking it up and putting it over my eyes I feel his presents then i dont i can hear him walking out the room and that's about it “don't be alarmed i'm back” he say before gently pushing me back so i was laying flat on the bed 

 

Laying out flat eyes covered i can feel him getting on the bed and the anticipation of not knowing what he's going to do is making me anxious but in a good way i can feel that he's sitting around my mid thigh im focusing so hard on making myself hyper aware of any touch i still shocked by feeling hot wax dripping over my chest and torso in an s shape then no particular order

 

 When it drops from the candle it hits my skin then slides down my body while it dries it's a sensation i've never felt and i done all types of play that i do on my subs that i can physically possible do including this but of course i'm not blindfolded when i do it and sight being taken away from this experience makes everything go from fun to arousing in a new way 

 

While in deep thought about how fucking good this feels im jolted by feeling something cold run from my neck to right above the waistband of my underwear it a pause the water pooling there then he moves back and over the very thin fabric i can feel the cold piece of ice that hes using as a standing in for his tongue sliding it up and down making me want him to abandon the ice all together 

 

He comes back up the same path he went down and now with his very cold mouth kisses me he tries to pull away but before he could i bought him back “ill give you what you want in a minute ok let me take care you first” he say leaving one last kiss on my lips 

 

He flips me on my stomach then does the same wax routine but instead of ice he starts giving me a much needed massage like god have mercy was it beautiful it was perfect the pressure everything i'm slowly resenting him for not giving me a massage earlier in this relationship 

 

All resentment left my body when he goes from my back to my thighs and he's purposefully grazing against my vagina then just full on massaging my inner thigh and he so smooth with moving the underwear to the side because if i didn't feel the burst of cold air against me i wouldn't have noticed i can feel a piece of cold metal touching me and from the shape i know what it is he guides me to arch a bit to make this process a bit easier he pushes the plug in and unlike before this just makes me submit a bit more to him he helps me sit up in a kneeling position on the bed and got to rope work up my arms like last time then moving in front of me and did a corset tie around my torso in black and red rope 

 

The concertation on his face was cute so cute in fact i chuckled a bit then when he looked up i looked away like nothing happened “something funny princess” “no sir not at all” i say looking back at him with a serious face i couldn't hold for the life of me “sit regular” he says when he tied the last knot on the torso “now i would love to know what made you chuckled princess” “he says wrapping the rest of the red rope around my right mid thigh “promise you won't punish me for it first” “im not making a promise i can't keep” “ugh anyway you concentration face is cute” “cute huh” “yeah cute what master you don't want to be called cute well it was-” “i would shut up if i was you” he says tying off the last bit of red rope “yeah definity your right” he looks up at me with a and your still talking face 

 

When he was done it was fucking pretty as fuck like super cute he takes a few pictures in the last one i smile like super hard because why not and he cant help but to break out of the hard act and smile back at me  “fuck your cute” he says kissing me “really upset that i cant make this my lock screen” he says looking at the picture again smiling at it “im giving you consent that you can if it makes you smile that hard” “ill think about that later” he grabs my shoulder and pushes my forward im on my stomach ass in the air sliently thanking god that he didnt tie the legs to be uncomfortable to bend my legs 

 

He removes the plug and that lost of sensation was very new i can hear the bottle of lube being squeezed and then a finger is slowly pushed in me also new like i said i hated any and everything regarding ass play on myself but hizashi  theory may be a bit true because its actually pleasurable right now to be getting fingered there right now it's no pain because he put the plug in first which just made his rating go up tremendously

 

He adds a finger and it makes my body tingle all over i let out more of a groan than a moan at the stretching feeling and one of the reasons i hated this so much the first time is the asshat did not give me even a millisecond to even get acquainted with the feeling of something being there and this is making me want more and i can tell that he's picked up on that because he moves his hand and i hear a condom wrapper open which this will be the first time we have sex with a condom like ever “its just for now” he says more to himself then me 

 

Hes adjusting how im laying then he slowly pushing into me at first it was more shock than anything because for some reason i just realized how big his dick is by it now being in my ass that it makes me shiver a bit how does it not feel this big when were fucking regular jesus hes starting with slow long strokes and its literary antagonizing because the sex demon in me is yelling 🔥 FASTER HARDER DEEPER 🔥and the sensible person in me knows he knows better than anyone how to make this feel as great as it can be so i wont rush the process 

 

After a short while he proves to me once again that this is the position he does the best in and i never thought anal sex let alone condom sex would ever feel this good “please kei dont stop please please” i say in the most whinnest voice ive heard myself make during sex anyway he pulls me up by th top of the arm bind so now im fully up against him and the new angle is just as fucking great if not better honestly “you like that princess” “yes sir i do so much” he kissing my neck leaving marks and bites that drive me fucking crazy he lowers me back down and pulls out then with an ounce of warning he fucking me like i mean FUCKING ME anal is cool and all but nothing will ever top just regular ol’ fucking 

 

He's definitely is holding up to that fucking hell out of me because the sex demon is me is LIVING for this especially after so long well its been two days since his office but that doesnt count that was nothing compared to be being fully restrained and face being held against the pillow while getting fucked into oblivion i dont even know how i havent came yet i guess my body just doesnt want this to end yet

 

We go through many positions all up and down this bed its fucking blissful but unfortunately we are definalty a product of our growing age because its now been a hour and a half and we both got two orgasms under our belt and out of every peice of air in our lungs 

 

“Goddamn that was um that was great” i say as he removes the rope from my arms first “great as in a 10 out of 10 or what” “were going to need to raise the scale because i think that was possibly the best sex weve ever had in the two years weve been having sex a fucking mazing 10s across the board babe” “thank you i stressed out about it because i had not a clue how to top the first two times because what can top making you cum 10 times in one night” “its a hard one to beat but tonight definitely beat it by alot well not alot that was still very life changing didnt even know i could do that that many times” “i knew you could that's why i did it” he says getting all the rope off me and the bed and then lays next to me laying his head on my stomach “ill clean up tomorrow don't worry about it” he says getting like im about to go to sleep comfortable on me “my love i love you more than anything on this planet but it hot and i need to shower so please get off me” i say laughing because he just holds me tighter “no not yet” he says now sounding half asleep “ugh why can i literary never say no to you” i say giving in and just letting him sleep 

Notes:

Did ya like it 😉 it took me forever to remember I even wrote these because its been so long i had to get a whole refresher on how the whole dynamic worked but still very fun

Also I re-wrote the first chapter and if we’re being vulnerable at the gig it wasn’t that bad other than some directional flaws and some spelling errors and for that to be my first time writing kink it’s not to terrible but I will be redoing the first 4 chapters to make them seem more cohesive with the other 43 chapters not and stand alone chapters

Chapter 46: EXTRA#10

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨this was going to be a full chapter till I remembered where I left off so im making it a extra because it still is significant to the plot so you know enjoy and I have a chapter that's around 65% done so look out for that

“So because we've made significant growth throughout our time together i just want to see how far we've gotten individually ok” ito says “ok so when we first listed down what was something we wanted to working on while being here and i'm going to name some of the things you both said for the collective and individual section” we haven't shared those things on the list ever and its been so long that i don't know what i wrote anymore

“ok starting with jess you said you wanted to work on your ability to communicate your needs have you felt like you've made any progress there” i know that she has but i don't know if she think she has personality “honesty no i dont think ive made much progress in that area from my perspective i still kind of think that he just knows what i want and we went through a whole thing where i wanted him to help me with it and i freaked out and shut down for like 17 hours and ive tried but i dont think ive made any progress in that area” “can i object to that” “yes sure your prospective might be different from hers” “well you have i might not be as much as you want it to be but youve definity made progress there are you at 100% at hell no but its getting there” “ok the next one is that you want to feel like you truly don’t have to worry about anything coming between you again how are you with that “ “more than I expected honestly we haven’t had a big blow out argument nor has anything made us feel like we couldn’t trust eachother I’ve had to get over my constant fear of he’s going to lose interest in me or just leave me” Im honestly glad she’s no longer feeling that way shit “ok last one for individual are you still insecure about not being able to fill in the spaces in his sexuality can you actually expand on that” “he’s expressed to me on many occasions that before we got together he pretty much hated having sex with the opposite gender and his sex ratio always leans male more than female and its not as big of a thing anymore but its still a thing i struggle with” “keigo do you tell her about your past experience with woman as a way to say at any given moment i can hate sex with you too or out of the people of the opposite sex YOU are the only person that i enjoy it with and you should be more proud than anything” “the ladder and i dont i hope she doesnt think its the first one yes ive enjoyed sex with men more than woman but shes a complete outlier in that statement” “yeah i never took it as the former more of theres sexually needs that he has that ill never meet and there will always be something i cant satisfy for him” “but dont you” “well yes but theres a grand difference and i get it i'm not saying that it’s something I stay up at night over but it is something I know I can’t satisfy but I’m ok with that”

“ok keigo one of your individual goals was to prove to Jessica that you’re 100% for her and even I can say that you were when you wrote it but Jess do you feel as though he’s proved it” “yeah he has and because of the time he wrote it I can’t feel too guilty about having him feel like that” “your second one is a bit more heavy so could you explain it you said that you wanted to finially feel like you’re enough to be in this relationship instead of over compensating with things on the outside” “whew i forgot i wrote that well because of jessie i felt like i needed to shower jess in things material things and services and you name it for her to not notice i had no clue in the damn world what to do in this relationship because she hasnt really had previous relationship it was easier to hide that there are many areas at the time i didnt know what to do but i just put on a good show to make it seem like i did know what i was doing” “like what” jess says “uhh when i no showed you i had no way of communicating to you that i was going to have to cancel because i felt like you wouldve been somehow disappointed in me by putting work first i dont know it sounds stupid but i wouldve did anything for you to forgive me for that i left because you and toyua were to close and instead of telling you it made me uncomfortable i left and went over the top to make you forgive me even coming here was apart of that its a bit crazy i know but now i dont have the same issues with that i'm better with communicating with you and i don't feel as though i have to do beyond extra i mean now i do it because you deserve it” “did you feel like that was a way of him over compensating” “i mean no he's always been a all or nothing type of person but it did feel extra but i thought because it was a new relationship not that” “and now knowing that how do you feel about it” “i mean he could never do anything to really disappoint me like i was more worried that day he no showed then disappointed and when i got with keigo i knew what i was getting into i saw first hand how he was with kenny so i knew he had some spots of not knowing how to be 100% commutative in a relationship but i'm not the best there either but keigo shows his love by showing and not all the time saying it so to me there isn't a change from that statement now may the intent be different now yes but he still will do literally anything to show how much he loves me weather thats take off work for a week so we can go somewhere and just be together or buying me things that reminds him of me or anything period”

“Ok now the one that you both shared with me at the beginning you both said that you both have pretty severe commitment issues now do you feel like anything has changed or at least made any progress in that area” we both go quiet for the first time the whole session “ok let me ask it differently jess before keigo the only thing you've committed to was a profession you did all of your degrees at different schools you moved around a bit before you now home and keigo after and before jessie other than kenny you hopped around with different domestic and sexual partners even at the begining of your kink relationship with jess you were entangled in 2 other different kink relationships at the same time so my question is now have you gotten over the need to hop from one thing to another and ready to just settle down with just eachother”

“I mean we've been together for 2 years now i would think i didn't have that issue anymore”jess says “well jess you struggled with it the most and yes you've done the work to be in this relationship but you also have hizashi and your submissives and it's strange that you bought up wanting to have other submissives after you two decided to do the thing that is the most grandest gesture of commitment so are you scared of only being with one person” the look on jess face right now is calm and a bit unreadable even for me “honestly hearing you spell it out like that sound about right but im 100% committed to keigo, hizashi my submissives are not me saying im not committed to kei if you asked me that last year maybe yeah i wouldve went down a spiral and went down a path i don't want to but right now honesty i can say that there is no one i rather be with” hearing her say that with so much confidence and sounding so sure of herself really made me almost cry and i hate that “i feel the same our relationship with hizashi doent stop or change the way i feel for jess we would be in the same relationship we are right now with or without him being there so yeah i think i know im 100% committed to jess” ito smiles at us “the jessica and keigo who walked in my office 8 months ago and the two that are sitting infront of me right now are completely different people and im so happy for you two i dont usually say this to my clients but im going to be honest with you when i had you do this the first time and i read this i thought there was slim to no chance you two could ever repair this relationship back to where it was before you knew eachother fully jess your growth of thinking about how your actions affect the people around you keigo you being able to being open with people about things you struggle with and you two being able to get through every rough patch since being here in a healthy way and not the way either of you would before and I’m proud of you two”

Chapter 47: Multi-Verse of Madness

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ this is not what I thought would be the next update but I had this very ambitious idea that I just had to do so let me give some context for this

ok so I have two active NSFW works open this and IN PRIVATE and yesterday I had the bright idea to let the two only woman characters meet and write my first wlw piece because why the hell not so its a sexy crossover with a twist because I didn't want to over explain who these two people are I made it so that things that are special to jess here in yes mistress things special to jaay to in private so if you wanna see the other perspective head there

also Jaay goes by she/her/they/them pronouns

Yo finally gave Jess the info of the person who did the digital branding of switch tech so jess took a look through their socials to see who they were

“Ok so Yo was right she’s an animator and editor… they did the photos for the new Olympic gym does they even do stuff like this anymore” she says going through her professional instagram she sees a tag on one of the photos and taps it and it’s her personal page “Jesus Christ she’s hot” jess says out loud to her empty office “wack she has a boyfriend no fun jaay” she says twisting in her chair

In all of Jess’s years of being categorized as bi has she been this fucking attracted to another woman she scrolls for a while before she felt like a damn creep and just emailed her about what she originally came looking for her for

“Hello Jaay,
So my fiancé (the ceo of switch tech) gave me your info because I really liked how you did his digital branding and was wondering if you still did stuff like that because I would love to commission you to help with my digital branding

~Jessica ”

“Hello Jessica,
Thank you for considering me for helping you with this. I can definitely help you with this. I'm available for in-person and virtual meeting all this week just let me know when you're available and we can start working this out

~Jaay”

“Thank you so much how about tomorrow at 12 at my office”
“Definitely just send me the address”

I don't even have to work today but i still show up like i did i get here a 30 minutes before 12 because mine or missy assistance are here so i have to let her in myself
Jaay walks in the front door of the office and jess meets her in the lobby “hey um jessica right” jaay says when she sees her “yeah you can just call me jess though” they walk in her office and before jaay sits down she realizes who she is “wait i think we went to highschool together” “did we i didn't go to high school in japan for long” “oh right sorry im not from japan well was born here but i grew up in america when i got to high school you were in your junior year jfk high school” “ahh ok ok then yes we did go to the same high school” jess says sitting down “ok yeah anyways i looked over your website last night and i did a few mock ups of what we could do for the site because i almost thought you were a lawyer based on your website layout so i did something that will feel familiar to your already clients and more inviting to new ones” jaay says getting straight to business

God she hotter in person like how is that even possible jess thinks watching jaay talk so passionately about changing the layouts of things if she keeps looking at me like that i might pass the hell out god how is she hotter than she was in high school jaay thinks to themselves explaining things about the options of colors she could do “jaay im going to be honest with you unlike keigo i haven't a clue in the world what i want for this to look like but You have completely changed the way it looks in less than 24 hours so when i say you can do whatever you want with this i mean it” jess says because it all looks good she honestly trusts jays artistic abilities to make it look good “are you sure i still want your input i don't wanna change it and you hate it” “the first options style i like alot and for the color honesty if it was up to me it would be black so i'll leave that up to you” they laugh together then jaay closes her laptop “well ok then i dont think ill be able to get it done tonight but definitely done by tomorrow i'll keep you posted with updates” jaay says standing up “thank you so much i know your a busy person” they shake hand like you do with any other business meeting but the eye contact theyre holding is beyond that “im going to be fully transparent and say i know that you have a boyfriend i would hate to over step but i would love to have sex with you” jess says never being the bold ever in her life something about jaay is making Jess DOWN BAD for her “and ive had a crush on you since high school and i would be highly honrored to do so with you” “well how about you go back home and talk to him about and i do the same and we figure out a way to solve both of our issues” “yes i will let you know the response thank you for this opportunity” jaay says before leaving

“Keigo” jess says when she walks in dropping her things by the door “um yes” Keigo say from the kitchen she walks in the kitchen “did i do something” “nope not yet” she says wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him he picks her up and puts her on the counter top “fuck me” she says between kisses and he does got my girl hooting hollering and crying from how he's fucking her he cums first on purpose because when hes done he drops down to his knees and starts eating her out jess is losing it she breaks the vase on the counter behind her when she cum he takes her off the counter and transports her to the living room and they both lay on the couch “so you cheating on me or something” he say laying beside her “what no why would ask that” “because in all the years ive known you that was completely out of character for you” “i mean no i didnt cheat on you jesus but since we're on the topic” “what hell jessica where are you going with this” “i had a meeting with the person that did your digital stuff today and shes fucking hot and i wanna have sex with her so bad baby” “ok” “she has a boyfriend and they have to ask him if its ok and i cant just do this without your consent” “princess two hours before you got back i was literary doing the same thing we just did two house over so how could i say no and two this would be the first woman you were sexually attracted so of course just one condition” “anything” “when you done with her come back and fuck me ok” “aye aye captin”

Early in the morning jaay let jess know that she was done with the site and need final approval before they could launch it the set to meet same time same place

Now did they both dress a bit more provocative this time around yes yes they did and jess knew what she was doing missy wasn't going to be in the office today so she planned to not have to go far if they were on the same page

Jaay is going over the final design purposely leaning over the desk a bit to point out things she's changed and added but most importantly her breast duh i feel like a man but god i can't look away jess thinks as she tries to focus on the computer screen “i mean it looks good and easy to use thank you so much” “yeah definitely no offense to whoever made the first one but god trying to just make an appointment was hell” “well your good at your job” “thank you so are we ready to launch” “yes i think so” jess scrolls through the website while jaay does the finishing touches to launch “ok we're up and ready and also my boyfriend say he was ok with it” she say while putting her laptop back in her bag “keigo said the same” “well can you do me a favor” “anything” “sit on the desk and move that chair please”jaay says taking her jacket off jess hops on the desk and jaay comes behind the desk and gets on her knees in front of her “god your beautiful” they say taking off her underwear jess is left speechless by jaay because she wastes no time gettin to business she puts her legs on their shoulders and wrapped her arms at jess waist bringing her closer and turns my sister girl OUT the fact that this very hot girl is putting her everything into making her cum right now she cant take her eyes off them and when she looked up at them it almost drove her over the line but she cant cum yet she brings jaay up by her hand and kissed her jaay knows jess is trying to stall her cuming and shes not having that in the slightes she deepens the kiss by making jess lean back on the desk and starts to finger her and it didnt take long to get her cum “i wanna return the favor but this is my first time with another girl” “dont worry ill teach you” she say kissing her once more before switching sports with her

“Ok give me your hand” jaay say “ok general feel first” they say slowly moving jess hand up and down their vagina “now right here.. Is where it feels the best”they say breathlessly making small circles around her clit with jess fingers then moving down and letting her press two finger into to them after doing that for awhile jess takes over by herself and start replicating things she likes when she gets head and she definitely doing a good job from what she can and jaay isn't a faker coming from being with bokuto who loves constant praise and reassurance while having sex shes highly experienced with giving praise during “fuck your a quick learner gooddamn” they say looking down at her jess looks up to see pleasure all over their face “youre such a good girl you know that” they say smoothing stray hairs back jess has never been this affect by the term “good girl” ever it just makes the goal of getting jaay to cum go up in intensity so she goes for the move that keigo does on her all the time hyperfoucing on stimulating the clit and fingering at the same time jaay is now sounding more away from subtle moans and praises to out right moaning repeating im going cum im going cum over and over till she started squirting jess moves back and continues clit stimulation and it primary just gets on jess all over her chest “oh shit im sorry” jaay says sitting up “you think you could do that again”jess says looking her dead in her eyes “i think so” do you live closer or do i” “i live an hour away with 4 roommates” “keigo wont mind come on” jess says standing up and changing into a hoodie she had in her office “meet me here ok” she says putting the address in her phone “got you”

They arrive at the same time “hey princess oh hi” keigo says coming down the stairs when they come in “hi my love this is jaay jaay keigo” “oh that's what you look like” “yeah this is what i look like” “hes cute”she says to jess “i know right” she says then remember why shes there “ok kei were upstairs” “yeah have fun” he says watching them go upstairs

“Ok right i never told you i'm a dominatrix so dont be shocked when you see this closest” “yeah ok” hand in hand they go in her kink closet that looks like a small sex store “ok pick your poison” she says leading her to a shelf of in the box dildos “uhhh this one”they say holding up a brown one next to jess face “i used this same one on my boyfriend” she says handing it to her “same ok get naked to your comfort level please”jess says taking her hoodie off

“Ok you ready” “yeah show me what you got newbie” jaay say laughing before sitting up to kiss her “oh this is my area of expertise lover” and she prove it to them “fuck im about to cum” jaay says and to replicate results jess goes in for clit stim and she doesnt squirt again “wack come on you said you could do it again” “lets try again i can do it” jaay says and the go again and it was time again and jess pulls out her mystery mousekatool a wand that she bought out for help if need be and the moment it touched her the string of curses happened and BAM “yay i got you to do it again” “fuck you are good at this lets switch I wanna make you do the same”

They switch and jess has never been on the receiving end of a strap and it’s actually fucking great maybe it’s just jaays fine ass

Without the extra help jaay gets Jess to squirt “fuck that’s hot girl” “no you are” Jess says before kisses them “we have to stop now before I end up staying all night” “I never said you couldn’t” “I wish I could but I promised my friend I would come over to dye his hair”jaay says laying next to her “and you said your an hour away don’t want you driving in the dark” “I can stay for a while though” “yeah you can actually show me how to use the website now” Jess says laughing “yeah your right” she says doing the same

“I’m jealous you know that” keigo says after Jess closes the door letting jaay out “why my love” “because how are you just naturally good at sex screaming they were screaming” “baby not everyone is blessed by the sex gods” “just first try and bam great at everything” “I made her squirt twice cum three time I’m like the best to ever grace this world” “i actually hate you right now” “you love me and you know it” “at the moment no no I don’t” “well how about I fuck you to you do” “yeah let’s do that “

Notes:

let me note that this is a one time thing and these two people will never interact again after this

this took me like 15 mins to plan in detail and like 6 hours to complete so just know a lot of hard brain work happened here and the next actual chapter should be done soon

and god did I have a struggle with the pronouns in this because "she looked at her and she" sounded like hell thank you past me for going with she/they for jaay

Chapter 48

Notes:

HAPPY HOLIDAYS LOVES✨ I literary wrote this in like 3 hours because I never gave a happy Christmas story here so we go this is not where this will be headed for the next chapter just wanted to do a Christmas gig before Christmas so I hope you enjoy this one 🕺🏽

This is our second Christmas together and the pressure is on my mother is coming down Jess family is coming over ,Shouta and Nemuri and so is Hizashi moms are all going to be here for Christmas 

 

“Two moms huh i can see it” Touya says looking at Hizashi “yeah two moms and no clue who my bio dad is”Hizashi says hanging decorations on the tree “lucky” me and Touya says at the same time “i know right” “so is Ten coming or is it still TBD” Jess says looking through a box of decorations “i mean i told him he could but because your mom and dad are going to be here he doesn't want to risk it” “like they care” “and i told him that but he's still hesitant” “your father isn't the head of the company anymore so why not just come out to him so we can stop all of this” “i did the day he renounced his position haven't talked to him since but i did” “so what's the problem” i say confused “i have no clue but he's met my siblings officially as my boyfriend so were getting somewhere” 

My mom was the first to show up because she insisted on driving up here because she didn't want to get on the train with gifts which is reasonable but she also denied me just coming back to get her myself then Shouta and Nemuri came then James and Janessa Jordan and Mileena  then Hizashi mom Hana and Hanako and surprisingly Tenko as well which i can see made Touya very happy everyone is happy and conversation is flowing “Keigo were going to be opening gifts soon and i got you something i can't quite give you while your mom is around” jess says standing beside me i look over at her and we go upstairs 

“Ok so what did you get me lady” i say sitting on the bed “open” she says handing me a wrapped square  i open it and it a framed colleague of all of our many sexual experiences “i wow ok i see why i couldn't open this downstairs where do you plan on me putting this” i say smiling at her “well until you move here in your room at home then we can put it in the kink room” “i move in in a few months so let this be the first piece of decoration in the new and improved kink room”i say putting the frame beside me on the bed “damn three months huh” “yup three months and i'm here all day everyday” i say pulling her to me “finally now let's get back downstairs for they think we're doing something were not” “would that be that out of the normal for us” “no but not the point” she says grabbing my hand and leading me back downstairs 

“Yall were two seconds away from a 'they're having sex' allegation” Hizashi says when he see us “hey for the first time we weren't” i say before going to my mother who's trying to get my attention 

The gift exchange we was now in full affect “and the last one is for ou me” jess says getting the last present from under the tree this is my favorite part of christmas is seeing everyone's face when they open my gifts because i'm one of the best gift givers like ever jess wants to hold the title but sadly she cant everyone opening my gifts at the same time “keigo shit dude thanks” jordan says opening his gift of the new airpod maxes and a new apple watch few weeks ago i saw his cracked apple watch screen and he's just as big of a  fan of music as jess and he's stuck in after dark for obscene hours and i know hes not use to all of the noises that is produced there so the noise canceling is a bonus “Keigo PXG clubs these are the most expensive clubs available and you bought the whole set jesus” James says pulling one of the clubs out when we went golfing not that long ago he was eyeing these clubs form across the field of this other big shot and are they out the ass expensive for just one and i bought all 6 of the clubs yes because i can  “a Rolex Keigo you spoil me”Hizashi says taking it out the box  “look at the back of the face” on the back of it its the date of the day we met just like the thumb ring he got me for my 20th birthday “i will not specify whats in this box but thank you Keigo” Shota says smiling at the paddle that says master on it i felt weird for buying it but jess said i was ok “this is badass Keigo” Touya has the most rocker style I've ever seen a lawyer have and i think its cool as fuck so to match it i got him this bad ass leather jacket that has metal detailing on it (i also got one for Hizashi but he doesn't know that yet) next and this one was the most goddamn expensive because i bought 7 but honesty i know thats its the first one for each of them and i couldn't get just one of them one “Kei i swear to god your lying to me right now”Jess says opening the box and seeing the infamous Hermes Brikin bag “whoa Keigo what the hell” Mileena says holding the bag up out the box “oh my”Janessa says putting the top back on the box out of shock “are you serious”Nemuri says looking at me  “no way”Hana says  “excuse me” my mom says  “do you know how expensive these are” Hanako says “yes i do in fact know how much they were” i says laughing at how they all are in genuine disbelief “Keigo what” Jess says looking back at me “what” “do you know how long i've wanted one of these” “yes that's why I got it” she just stares at the bag for at least another 5 minutes and none of them noticed but there are also gift certificates to the spas nearest them in the inside of the bag but it ok

No one gifts matter because i had the best gifts and im not going to name what everyone got but just know no one left empty handed this Christmas but i also had one other gift i hadn't given because they're pretty personal to our relationship 

“I still can't believe you bought 7 of those bags”Hizashi says sitting on the bed next to me “but did you see the reaction it was worth the obscene amount of money” “and thank you for the watch” “its not a problem in the world but i do have something else for you” “ughh no more” “i mean i could not give it to you” “no want it just you've spent a fuck ton of money as is” “don't worry about that just open it” i say handing him the box “a leather bracelet” “yes you don't do collars and i respect that 100% so i got you something your more comfortable with” “silk lining with zashi one it I'm finally one of the gang huh” he says smiling at it fondly “thank you kei” “your welcome zashi” 

Notes:

we love rich bitch Keigo and like I said three hours so ill come back later to fix anything/add more because I know me

also I redid chapter 11 because god was it a mess so if you wanna re-read it feel free

Chapter 49: Partition-Hizashi

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨back in 4 days who is she but this was bought to you by partition by Beyoncé while listening my brain just went “Jess and Hizashi solo chapter” so I hope you enjoy 🕺🏾

“Hey kids I have this party thing this weekend who’s in but I can only take one of you” i says laying on the bed “not it i can not do another party zashi” keigo say “ i'll go it's been awhile since i've been the plus one” “you sure its a party party not a networking thing” “yes i'm sure i wouldn't have said it if i didn't want to and i got a new dress that i wanna debut so it's perfect” “its black i'm guessing” “and barely can be categorised as a dress its so short” keigo says “sounds about right”

The party is tonight and because it is a party party we have to put in a bit of extra work in get ready “jesus he wasn't wrong” i say looking at the dress on jess and i personally have not a problem in the world with it but god is it hard to watch her get ready in it and not stop everything and just admire how fucking good she looks in it “what is it to much i bought a back up outfit just in case” “no no its perfect” i say finally breaking out of the trace her thighs have me in “great cute isnt it” she says walking in the bathroom “i look hot dont i” she says as i sit on the vanity bench next to her “yes you do i cant take my eyes off you” and i really can't i watch her do her pretty extensive makeup routine “youre just gonna watch me the whole time” “i mean i'm waiting for you to be done so you can help me with my hair” “im starting to think you just do this on purpose because you do it when i'm not here” “but you do it better” i say in a whiny tone to really bring it home “ugh what do you want this time” she says standing behind me

She starts to just idoly play in my hair and i never disclosed how this fucks with me because its creepy to say everytime you play with/do my hair i get hard “just one braid on this side please” i say before she sections off that part of my hair she always does more than what i ask because she likes to add cool things this time it was just a smaller braid above the bigger one “ok my love your all done” she says kissing the music note behind my ear she goes to walk out the bathroom but i bring her back “why are you leaving me” “because i have to finish getting ready and so do you come on” “we have ample time what's the rush”i say having her sit in my lap “zashi come on i didnt get this cute just for you to fuck me and us not to go” “so you want me to fuck you” “that's not what i said” “that's what i heard” “come on when we come back but i look to cute to get fucked in the bathroom” “10 minutes and you'll still look cute when were done i promise”i say and she leans back on the counter exposing more of herself to me “ok but your not fucking me” she says pushing herself up on the counter shes at the perfect height of me just having to lean forward and be face to face with her vagina “go on and put that wonderful tounge ring to use” she says and as much as i want to not give in to her but my sexual desire is overpowering my want of dominance

I bring her to me to kiss her then kiss down her neck leaving one prominent mark on the left side of her neck

This isn't my first time doing this in the slightest but it is the first time with Jess she hasn't given me the chance to and i don't know why i haven't just done it yet but whatever not the point i know im doing a good job because of how vocal she is right now “fuck zashi yes right there” she says hand gripping a handful of my hair only furthering my passion im about to burst out my pants so i pull out my dick to relive myself and with her gripping the hell out of my hair and how much she is loving this it’s easy to get me to my end and she wasn’t that far behind me

“See 15 minutes I went over 5 minutes and your still pretty” I say kissing her “and left this big ass mark on my neck” she says looking at in the mirror “not even that big and leave it” “why want everyone to know I’m taken” “between that and the big ass ring on your finger they’ll know stay away”

Neither of us wanted to drive so we called a car to drop us off and sitting in the back of this dark suv exhibitionist in me wants to come out because I can barely see the person driving so I know he can’t see us

I casually rest my hand on her thigh and be legs being crossed is messing up my plans but then she uncrosses them making things way easier she’s so distracted by her phone she’s not paying me much attention until she feels me start to circle her clit she looks at me and because of her phone screen I can see her face fully go from not paying attention to what’s going on around her to fully aware of receiving pleasure she opens her legs a bit more before reaching to give me a taste of my own medicine she copying my exact movements and pressure I can see all of our training of working on synchronised movements for all those years are definitely coming in handy because when I speed up so does she without missing a beat I press harder she grips tighter she grabs my forearm with her other hand signalling she about to cum and right before we both reach climax “hey you want me to drop you off at the front or the back the guy I dropped off here earlier prefered getting out at the back” our driver says looking in the rear view “front is ok thank you” I say not stopping because I know neither of us could survive being this close to not be able to cum and by the time we pull up to the front we were fully back to normal with no signs of what we just did I gave him a bigger tip than usual

“Ok you can’t disappear on me because it’s entirely to many people here” jess says as we walk into the party because it’s not but “important” people here this is no vip just general so it is more cramped than usual but it’s two floors but for some reason the second floor has more people so we stay on the first floor and because everytime a new person walked up to talk to me we all took a shot me and jess get pretty turnt real fast “jess you know your like my favorite person like ever” I say over the loud music “zashi omg same I love you so much don’t ever forget that” “you wanna have sex in the bathroom” “yes definitely let’s go… now” she says grabbing my hand and we stumble our way to the bathroom and once we hit the stall I lock the door and pick her up and stabiliser her on the door fucking her to point I had to put my hand over her mouth because she was too loud as she gets closer she just keeps repeating “I’m about cum” into my neck when she finally came we just stand there still very drunk breathing heavy we get ourselves together and walk back out and it’s emptier than when we were out here last I look at the time and it’s 3:30am so we take our drunk asses outside and sit on the bench outside

“Who the hell is calling me this late” I say reaching for my phone “hello” I say without even looking at the phone “oh hey keigo can you pick us up” hizashi says and I can tell he’s plastered “please” I hear Jess say in the background “ok don’t move an inch I’ll be there soon ok” I say getting up out the bed “ok thank you I love you”he says and hang up if I didn’t love these two they would be shit out of luck I look at their location and see where they are and get there and see them “ok come on” I say walking over to help them up “kei guess what” she says before sitting in the car “what princess” “we had sex in the bathroom” “sounds fun” I say before closing the door

I start on my way back home at 4:00 in the morning and they’re both asleep in the backseat. When I get in my parking spot I turn and out like a light now if it was just one drunk person I would be ok but no its two so I can’t just carry them upstairs so I have to wake them up “hey hey yes you two wake up you can go back to sleep upstairs” they slowly wake up and get out the car walking back to my building Jess clinging to me like a magnet hizashi holding my hand yawning with every step we finally get upstairs and they b-line for the bedroom “no sleep yet shower first” I say guiding them to the bathroom hizashi the guest bathroom and Jess mine having to watch both of them to make sure they don’t die in the bathroom I get them out and dressed “kiego” “hm” “your the best boyfriend ever you know that” hizashi says falling asleep “best fiancé ever” Jess says doing the same

I wake up head throbbing “when did we get here”Jess says sitting up in the bed “I couldn’t tell you” I say getting out of the bed we walk down the hallway and see Keigo sleeping on the couch “he’s a fucking saint” Jess says kissing his forehead before going into the kitchen

Keigo slept through us cooking and before we could wake him he pops his head up “what time is it” he says stretching “3” “why are you sleeping on the couch” Jess asks “couldn’t fall back to sleep when I got back so I came out here and watched tv till I fell asleep” he says getting up off the couch “thanks again for getting us last night” “yeah I couldn’t just leave you out there all night and lose my crown of the best boyfriend/fiancé ever” he says sitting on the counter in the kitchen “well you are” Jess says “also you need to stop having sex with my fiancée in unconventional places a club bathroom really she deserves better ” he says plucking me when I walked past him “ouch asshole you fucked her over a rail in a club how is that not the same” “you both fuck me in unconventional places it’s like our trademark at this point”

Chapter 50

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨been watching a lot of love in the air and the episode where sky was sick made me wanna do a sick chapter its short but cute so I hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

I get a call from a number that I only have for emergency “hey missy” I say answering the phone “hey keigo um is Jess ok” missy says “last time I checked yes” “well she’s not looking to hot I had her assistant cancel her appointment today because I don’t think she’s ok to do anything” i'm already on my way to my car by the time she say she cancelling her appointments we pulled an all nighter last night so I haven’t been home and we barely talked so I have no clue her condition so I’m rushing there immediately “um thanks for telling me I’m on my way now did she drive” “yeah but I don’t know how” “ok thank you I’ll see you soon” 

“Zashi can you meet me at Jess office missy called and said she looks sick and she drove somehow” “yeah yeah Meeka can you do me a favor” he says before hanging up we get there pretty much at the same time “how did you let her leave out like this” he says getting out of Meeka  car “I didn’t I was at work all night I thought you were with her” “had to fill in for Mikey last night haven’t even slept yet” he says as we get in the elevator 

“Jordan you free right now” “yeah till later Jess is pretty booked tonight” “well one you gotta cancel on everyone she’s sick she’s not going to able to work tonight or tomorrow and can you go and buy meds and sick people things” “yeah yeah I got you is she ok” he says sounding worried “about to find out now I’ll see you later” I say hanging up and walking in her office she’s literally sleep on her desk she looks like she’s sick clothes not put on properly hair everywhere “hey princess” i say and she turns her head she hums and response “we’re going home ok” “no no I have have um a lot clients today” “no no love you don’t anymore we’re going home ok”hizashi says getting her up out the chair “why I’m fine” “if you were fine you wouldn’t have on two different shoes” “it’s a funky new look” she says smiling “oh princess let’s get you home” I say helping her to the elevator 

As soon as we got her in the car she was back to sleep “hey keigo is she ok Jordan just called to ask to have all of Jess appointment cancelled” shota says when I answer the phone “yeah she’s completely out of it I think it’s just a cold or something I just got her from work” “she went in” “yeah me and zashi had to work all night so she was left unsupervised and drove to work” “Jesus well I was worried because Jess is like historically known for never getting sick so just let me know know if you need anything” “yeah I know and thank you I will” we hang up 

“Jordan just texted and said he’s on his way” hizashi says closing the door behind me “ok” i says getting her on the couch I would rather her be upstairs but it’s closer to everything she reaches for the loose knitted blanket on the back of the couch and covers herself in it “keiiiiiiiiii” “yes princess” “im hot like really hot” she says pushing the cover away from her which only proves more that she sick because that blanket provides no warmth in the slightest  “she has a mean fever she's hot to the touch we've been gone less than 24 hours how did she just get sick like this”he says feeling her forehead “i don't know she was fine when i left yesterday morning” i say feeling her forehead “i'm not sick i never get sick” “love your sick” hizashi says sitting where her head is “am not im just really hot” “why didn't you just tell us you weren't feeling well” “because you were busy and i was fine i am fine ” she says adding a d to the word f-i-n-e “yeah whatever you think i care about being busy” hizashi says pinching her arm “ouch your going to pinch a sick person” she say rubbing her arm “now your sick” “yes ok my immune system has failed me but i only had two clients today so i thought i would be able to get through them and be fine by tonight i have to meet Kaoru tonight” “im pretty sure Kaoru would be perfectly fine with her dom cancelling because shes sick” i say “yeah but weve both been looking forward to todays public scene” “you can do it next week and if she has a problem with it being cancelled i think you should drop her”hizashi says pushing the hairs that didnt quite make it in the ponytail out of her face “shes my second favorite i could never” she says “well that means youre her favorite so you dont have to worry about that just right now worry about getting better ok” “yeah definitely can you do me a favor” “anything princess” “can you had me that trash can” i reach behind me for the small trash can and hand it to her “thank you” she says before vomiting “oh my GOD” hizashi says moving from her “jesus fucking christ are you ok” i say when she finally stops “no i dont think i am” she says laying flat on the couch 

We had to get rid of the whole trash can after that and she's been sleep on and off since “yall look traumatized” jordan says putting the bag of stuff on the coffee table “your sister is lucky we love her” zashi says “how bad” “we had to throw the whole trash can away” “ew ok well i canceled everything as soon as i got off the phone with you and so that's taken care of and i raided the cold aisle at the store so whatever is wrong with her will be taken care off but dont know if you know this but her biggest enemy is hot liquids so soups tea whatever she doesn't do and i wouldn't force it unless you wanna throw away another trash can” “i just thought she was a weirdo that drank and ate cold things in the winter” i say thinking about her winter food habits “yeah she's weird like that” jordan says taking out a plethora of things from a bag “jordan”jess says waking back up “yes” “was Kaoru upset we had to cancel” “no she actually asked if you needed her to do anything which i declined but she was worried about you more than anything daichi just said ok and aiko said he just about to cancel so it worked out for him” “see my favorite and why was he canceling” “he didnt say” “are you staying for awhile” “why” “becasue these two havent slept in a mulitude of hours and they need to” “oh yeah they do look half dead yeah ill stay with her you two go” me and hizashi look at eachother and am i fucking exhausted yes jordan is her i can sleep for awhile wake up and take back over its ok keigo “yeah we should ok but if something anything wake us up please” i say “yeah yeah i can take care of my sister go” jordan says sitting on the couch with jess

We sleep for a few hours which was great and well needed honestly and hizashi was still sleeping when i woke up so i let him sleep and went downstairs to check on jess and jordan 

Just the tv can be heard downstairs when i round the corner from the stairs going into the living room jess and jordan are in a deep sleep on the couch none of us has eaten so that's the least i can do right now looking in the refrigerator seeing we desperately need to go shopping i feel arms wrap around me “hi” she say laying her head on my back “hello patient zero how you feeling” “that's not funny” “but it is now answer the question”i say turning around“like shit honestly” she adjusting and putting her head on my shoulder “why didn't you just call me i would've came home” “i don't know i thought i could thug it but i couldn't obviously” “was it overnight or did you feel like this the day before yesterday to” “you don't want the answer to that” “you really stress me out you know that” “but you love me” she says smiling at me “youre fucking lucky that i do because throw up shit was disgusting” “very i hate throwing up if i asked for a kiss would i get it” “yeah no not happening” “no fun” she says letting me go “you hungry” “not really kinda lost my appetite” she says sitting on the counter “but i know thats not going to stop you from making me eat so whats on the menu” “good girl what do you want” “i dont know jordan” she calls out to the living room “yeah” he says walking in “food what do you want” “ummm  i dont know what do you vegans eat” he says sitting at the bar “the only vegan in here is upstairs” “well then i really could go for a burger” “that actually sounds appitizing” “here order whatever you want im going to go shower” i say handing jess my phone “ok” she says hopping off the counter 

“You should just go in it would probably be easier than working from home” Jess says “I can promise you you’re more important” “then the heart monitor that sends a signal to the person doctor at any abnormality” she says reading my laptop screen “you heard me the first time” “I’m ok I feel a bit better go they need you” “Yo knows everything she’s been there with me the whole way through and if the investors have questions or a problem they can personally contact me” “I think you just wanna spend the day with me” she says laying her head on my shoulder “I would rather not stay in the same house as a sick person but I love you too much to leave you by yourself”I say put my head on top of hers “if you get sick after me I promise to take good care of you” “you have absolutely no choice” 

Notes:

also between spring semester starting and a surprising turn of events with an ex I wanna do an extra of jess and Keigo first session so look out for that I have the basic concept down already so hopefully it doesn't take me a whole month to get it out 😂

Chapter 51: YES MISTRESS INFO CHAPTER

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨Im working on a chapter now but I've been rereading a lot of this and whew some of the information is not clear or not there and that's on me so I decided it was time for a in-depth info dump of these people so I hope you learn something new or get some clarity on somethings

JESS

FULL NAME- Jessica Miranda Carter 

BIRTHDAY- NOVEMBER 6TH 1994

AGE-27 at this time of the plot

NATIONALITY-JAPANESE

RACE-BLACK

OCCUPATION:MENTAL HEALTH COUNSELOR;DOMINATRIX

DEGREE LEVEL:DOCTORATES 

FAMILY RELATION-

FATHER-JAMES CARTER :AGE 52:OCCUPATION: ATTORNEY/LAWYER :BIRTHPLACE: CALIFORNIA

MOTHER- JANESSA CARTER:AGE 51:OCCUPATION:FAMILY LAWYER: BIRTHPLACE: CALIFORNIA

BROTHER-JORDAN CARTER:AGE 23:OCCUPATION:JESSICA'S ASSISTANT 

ADDITIONAL FAMILY:

MILEENA CARTER: RELATION:MARRIED TO JORDAN:AGE 23:OCCUPATION:STILL IN UNIVERSITY

VERONICA MARTIN AKA FRANKY:RELATION:JANESSA TWIN SISTER :AGE 51 :OCCUPATION:PEDIATRICIAN:BIRTHPLACE:CALIFORNIA

BRITNEY MARTIN:RELATION:JESSICA'S COUSIN :AGE 28: OCCUPATION:MIDDLE SCHOOL ENGLISH TEACHER:BIRTHPLACE:CALIFORNIA

JACKSON CARTER:RELATION:JAMES'S TWIN BROTHER; JESSICA AND JORDAN UNCLE:AGE 52:

TOYUA TODOROKI:RELATION:JESSICA CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND:AGE 27:OCCUPATION:ATTORNEY/LAWYER

TENKO SHINMURA:RELATION:TOYUA’S PARTNER :AGE: 27 OCCUPATION:BUSINESS LAWYER 

KAROU KATO:RELATION:SUBMISSIVE:AGE 26:OCCUPATION:?

KEIGO 

FULL NAME: KEIGO TAKAMI

BIRTHDAY: DECEMBER 28,1994

AGE:27 at the time in the plot

NATIONALITY :JAPANESE 

RACE:JAPANESE 

OCCUPATION:CEO OF HOSPITAL TECHNOLOGY MANUFACTURER SWITCH TECH 

DEGREE LEVEL:DOCTORATES 

FAMILY RELATIONS:

MOTHER:TOMIE TAKAMI:AGE 50:OCCUPATION:RETIRED

FATHER:SHINYO UKAI:AGE 51:OCCUPATION:INCARCERATED 

ADDITIONAL FAMILY

KENDALL “KENNY” MIYAMURA:RELATION:FORMER(DECEASED) PARTNER:AGE 22

IZUMI MIYAMURA:RELATION:TOMIE FRIEND;KENDALL MOTHER:AGE:51:OCCUPATION:RETIRED TEACHER

RUMI USAGIYAMA:AGE 29:RELATION:KEIGO CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND: OCCUPATION:TRAVEL AGENT 

CHARLES “CHARLIE” JONES:RELATION:FORMER SUGARDADDY :AGE 48:OCCUPATION:STOCK BROKER

HIZASHI 

FULL NAME- HIZASHI YAMADA

BIRTHDAY-JULY 7TH 1994

AGE:27(at the time of the plot)

NATIONALITY-JAPANESE

RACE-JAPANESE 

OCCUPATION:RADIO SHOW HOST;DJ;DOMINATE

FAMILY RELATIONS:

MOTHER1-HANAKO YAMADA:AGE 50:OCCUPATION: (MUSIC)PR MANAGER

MOTHER2-HANA YAMADA:AGE 49:OCCUPATION:MUSIC PROMOTER

ADDITIONAL FAMILY 

SHOTA AIZAWA:AGE 32:RELATION: KINK MENTOR AND FRIEND (to jessica as well)OCCUPATION:KINK DUNGEON OWNER;DOMINANT 

NEMURI KAYAMA(AIZAWA): AGE 33:RELATION:KINK MENTOR AND FRIEND (to jessica as well)OCCUPATION:KINK DUNGEON MANAGER;DOMINATRIX 

SHIRAKUMO OBORO:AGE 27:RELATION: FORMER FRIEND:OCCUPATION:PROMOTOR 

PLOT INFO 

• Keigo(17) and Hizashi(17) met in their 3rd year of high school at a party keigo went to with Rumi 
• Jess and Hizashi met at after dark the summer before she started college 
• Jess and Keigo were college suitemates from freshman year to senior year undergraduate 
• Jess(22) got cut off financially by her family  during their undergrad graduation
• They got into different grad schools so they lost connection for 4 years 
• After Kenny died (22) Keigo (22)started dating Jessie(22) for 2 and half years after they ended things Keigo(24) went into his hypersexual era to cope with the abuse he went through with Jessie
• Hizashi (25)finally told Keigo (24)he was a dom and helped him have a healthy relationship with sex again
• Rumi (26)wanted to finally confess to Keigo (25) and (for some odd reason) took him to this kink dungeon where Jess(25) was working 
• That night Jess(25) and Keigo(25) re connected 
• Keigo (25) became Jess(25) submissive 
• They became “permanent partners”a year into their 3 year contract
• August 27th Jess(26) and Keigo(26) made it official and became boyfriend and girlfriend 
• They've broken up twice in the 2 years they've been together 1st time because of the assumption of Jess(26) using Keigo(26) to get back at her parents and she was actually into Toyua(26)(duration-2 weeks)2nd time Jessie(26) saw them outside of Keigo(26) condo and said a bunch of lies and Jess(27) left (duration 3 months)
• They started couples therapy with Dr.Ito
• Got engaged aged 27
• Jess started working as a part time dom again 
• Jess has two submissives Keigo(27)and Kaoru(26) (before Jess were either of their dom they had a prior kink relationship) anyone else she works with at after dark is a client 

Notes:

life has been turnttina lately so I've been neglecting writing for so long and I apologize for that hopefully everything stays normal so I can knock out all these ideas I have been brewing up

Chapter 52

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ this chapter is just something that has been in the WIP pile forever and I finally sat down and wrote it out I promise for more spicy chapters soon 🤞🏾just had to get this one out because its been on my mind so had to get it all out

Everything has been going great i honestly can’t remember ever going this long in my life every being this happy relationship with Jess is excellent hizashi phenomenal work has been going great everything is just great 

 

“Who the hell is this…hello” I say, answering my phone “keigo?” A man on the other side of the phone says “uh yes” “I always wondered what you would sound like when you were all grown up” I move the phone away from my face looked at the screen then put it back “who is this exactly” “it’s been so long you’ve forgotten how your own father speaks” I freeze in place I haven’t talked to or seen this man in 20 years “so how are you keigo”

 

 “how did you get this number” “your a pretty well known man keigo it wasn’t that hard” “why are you calling me” “calm down I don’t want anything from you it would be no use in here anyway I just don’t wanna die never having a man to man talk with my son” what the fuck I don’t know how to feel right now this man has done nothing but bring hate and violence in my life why don’t I feel like I used to around him “so like I said how are you keigo” “I’m good great actually” “really how so” “um me and my fiancée has been in a really good place and life has just been good to me lately” “fiancée wow you're too young to be getting married” “I’m almost 30 I think it’s time” “so tell what she like” “she’s greatest the kindest smartest person you could ever meet she brings out the best in everyone she’s around and I love that about her” “how’d you meet” “college” “she’s from a traditional family” “traditional in America standards yes” “what do you mean” “her parents are from America so her traditional and ours is different” “hm a foreigner” “she’s was born and raised here just not her parents” “ok ok”

 

 “I’m sorry but are you actually dying or something because why now” “I was a piece of shit dad and I’m going to die one day in this hell hole and I would die with the regret that I never was truly there for you I was a shit person when I was out but I’m a changed man now and I saw your company in the news for the new heart monitor thing and I was proud to see my son doing such revolutionary things” “but why now” “like I said I don’t want anything from you we never have to speak again after this just wanna know how my son turned out”

 

“So tell me about keigo…please” he sounds sincere and the kid in me that wanted nothing but this my whole life can’t help but oblige to his request “um where do I start well first I did good through all of school I have my doctorate in business I own a company” “I could’ve gotten that from a google search” I laugh and think of something “well I’m not straight I had a boyfriend for 9 years before he died was in a shitty relationship with this girl for a few years hopped around from partner to partner then finally committed to Jess my fiancée and we share a mutual partner which is also our best friend ” “see that’s what i'm talking about the boyfriend what was his name” “Kendall” “miyamura” “yeah how’d you know” “I knew his dad did you treat him right” “yeah I did cherished everyday we shared together” “how about Jess” “I do everything in my power to make sure she knows I love her unconditional everyday” “keep it that way contrary to what you probably remembered I loved your mother very much I just lost my way and lost everything I ever cared about” the man on the phone and the man I know as my father are two very different people that much I can tell “don’t make the same mistakes I did and I’m not talking about the shit I did that ended me up here I know you know better but never forget that your family is the most important thing in this world more important than money fame and whatever else I lost my family and I don’t want the same for you” 

 

The sound indicating the phone call was ending soon rang and I know this will most likely be the last time I ever talk to this man again and I’m grateful for the chance to have a better picture of him in my brain “well I don’t have much time left for the call so I’ll let you go” “yeah ok” “yeah……I love you keigo” he says right before the call ends 

 

“What’s wrong kei you’ve in Lala land all day” “I’m sorry princess I don’t know my dad called me today and I’ve just been processing that” “wait really what did he want” “just to talk to me” “well did it go well or” “it went great actually he just wanted to know how I was and he apologised essentially” “well that’s good right I mean he’s been arrested since you were a kid” “yeah 20 years already” “how do you feel” “I feel like a chapter of my life finally ended I always wondered if my father was still around if he would proud of me and he said he was i told him about you zashi and Kenny and he knew Kenny’s dad and he told he loved me I never heard him even utter those words before” I can’t help but smile “your hard not to love” “thank you princess” “no need to thank me princess”she says while smiling devilishly “excuse me” “what’s wrong princess” she says again “you think your funny” “I’m not doing anything” “yeah yeah” “i love you princess” she says kissing me “ok you wanna be funny huh” I say going for the thing she hates the most being tickled “ok ok I’m sorry” she say laughing hysterically 

 

I finally stop and she's still recovering “that was painful” “you seemed to enjoy it” “i didn't deserve that” “but you did” “so what did you tell your dad about me” “i told him that you were the smartest*kindest*greatest* person i know*”i say in between kisses all over her face “ugh you so damn cute you know that” she say grabbing my face “i know you tell me all the time” 

 

It's been a few weeks since i talked to my dad and it's been a twinge of guilt for having a positive image of him in my head when he put my mom through the ringer so i take the trip back home to talk to her because this isn't really a over the phone conversation 

 

“So what are you doing back here” “i can't just wanna spend the weekend with my mother” “keigo you've lived in on your own for the past 5 years and you've come home 3 times to spend the weekend here 2 of those being in the past 2 years so what is it'' she says sitting directly next to me on the couch “ok so a few weeks ago dad called” “he did how did it go” “it went well surprisingly and i've been feeling guilty about it” “why” “because of all the stuff he put us through you specifically” “well you shouldn't but i understand i felt the same way… i've talked to your father as well and it felt wrong at first but the more i talked to him the more i see that hes now the same person i fell for all those years ago” “ew” “what nothing like that just it was good to know the person i once loved isnt gone completely” “when you talked to him did he ask about me” “everytime but i never gave him much other than just general information i didnt want to overstep and say too much and you dont want him to know” “i brought up ken and he said he knew his dad” “yeah we all went to school together his dad is well was your godfather and vice versa” “I thought his dad got here when he joined the military” “no no Kenny dad dad was in the military and he got stationed here and kens grandparents met and you get the rest” “ahh…would it be weird to visit him” “no kei it wouldn’t be if that’s what you wanna do if tell me when you wanna go I can set everything up for you” “yeah ok I’ll let you know when I can come back” 

 

Before going back home I decided while I’m here to go see Kenny 

 

“Surprise surprise I’m back” I say sitting in front of his tombstone “ugh where do I start well first when we were here last your mom tried to like give Jess the third degree about being a dominatrix which didn’t go well but in the end was ok she finally accepted our relationship a million years to late but whatever I also talked to my dad….yeah did you know that our fathers are the other’s godfathers weird I know right….he apologized and told me he loved me I’m almost 28 and I’ve never heard that from him and he didn’t leave room for me to say it back I don’t know if I would’ve because I don’t he’s the reason for some of the worst moments of my life thinking that love was supposed to hurt and I deserved nothing more but if he was a great dad I probably would’ve never met you when I did so I guess I have to thank him for that I’m going to visit him soon because the conversation over the phone went great but the only images I have of my dad are terrible and if he’s truly a new changed man I want to see that and not the image kid Keigo came up with that’s burned into my brain” I stop talking and just sit and watch the clouds move 

 

I sit in silence for a few hours till my phone vibrates in my pocket 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

KEIGOOOOOOO

KEII

📣📣📣

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yes princess 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Are you still coming back today 

I’ve been really brave about it 

But I’ve been missing the hell out of you ALLL weekend 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

😂yes princess I’m coming home today just wanted to stop by Kenny first before heading back

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yay

Ok tell ken I said hi 

 

“Jess says hi” I say smiling down at the phone “ok it’s a three hour trip back home so I’m going ok I’ll be back after I see my dad for the update ok” I say standing up “I love ya Kenny” 

 

“So your going go see him” Jess says “yeah I want to see this man I talked to on the phone” “ok want me to come with you well not to the visit but to Toyoshina” “I would like to go alone but I’m afraid you're not going to be so brave next time” I say mocking her text from earlier “yeah I don’t either but I’ll try my hardest” she says cutely  “thank you princess” “you welcome lover” “ew I hate the word lover” “what why” “it insinuates we have sex” “I hate to break it to you but we do and a lot” “it just feels icky” “your so weird dude” 

 

I make my way back to Toyoshina the following weekend am I freaking out about going to see my dad yes very much so but I have to do it I haven’t notified him in any way of me coming just want to see the man 

 

I sit in the semi private room anxiously waiting for him to enter I hear the door open and am met face to face with the man who brought fear into my heart as a kid but he doesn’t look as scary as I remember god I look just like my dad he sits down and we just look at each other for a minute “I had no clue who to expect but am I happy to see you Keigo” he say smiling “yeah I just wanted to see you” “I’m glad how are you ” “good good god I look a lot like you” “yeah I always feared your mother would grow to hate you because of it fortunately she didn’t” “yeah” “so you said you were getting married you have a picture of her” “oh yeah” I say pulling out my phone and showing him a picture of me and Jess “you two complement each other well” he says looking at the picture “yeah” I say when he hands the phone back “when did you change your name your website and stuff says takami” “a year after you got arrested” “makes sense when I saw the news article i almost didn’t think it was you” “I haven’t been Keigo Ukai in so long it doesn’t sound right anymore” “yeah takami has a better ring to it anyway I wanted it to be your name from the beginning but we went with mine instead your doing such good shit for the world I’m glad I didn’t ruin you” him saying that almost made me laugh because he did but with a lot of self  work and the best therapist money could buy I’m soo much better then when he left “yeah I always wanted to help people in anyway possible” “you have a good heart like that that’s rare to see that you are where you are and I can tell it’s not about the money for you I half expected you to be one of those asshole ceos that’s only in it for the money” “nahh this whole having money thing is still new to me so I don’t think I’ll ever be that way” silent takes over again “this is probably the last time I’ll see you” “I understand but why” “I don’t feel the need to try and start a relationship with you especially now” “I appreciate the honesty I’m just glad I got to see you once as a grown adult thank you for that” he says then the guards come back in “it was nice seeing you” I say when he’s leaving he smiles at me one more time before leaving 

 

“2 weekend in a row I’m spoiling you” I say sitting with Kenny “so I met him and I don’t even think I’ve ever told you this but he asked about me changing my name which I did when I was 8 I think I completely forgot that I even had his name Keigo Ukai just doesn’t seem like me…I told him I didn't want to start a bond or anything or even see him again just wanted to get this over with he’s a nice guy I just don’t care to have that relationship especially with him being in prison just wanted to see him and talk to him but that’s it…it feels so good close that part of my life no more being afraid of him no more wondering why he did what he did if he changed nothing just free of all thoughts of him…I wish you were closer to Kyoto i would do this like every weekend I won’t be back next week but I’ll be back soon Kenny I love you”

 

“Keigo is finally home” Hizashi say kissing me at the front door when I close it “thank god did you go see Kenny” Jess says coming from upstairs “yeah before I got on the road back here” “so how did everything go”Hizashi says as we sit on the couch “good I told him that this wasn’t a gateway into a father son gig just didn’t want to always think of him as the man my 7 year old brain made him to be forever” “how did he take that” Jess says “good he understood completely thank god” “so do you look like you’re dad because you look nothing like your mom” Hizashi asks like it was a burning question “I look exactly like him like it was scary how much” “your dad is hot noted” Jess says “oh but when I say the same about your dad I’m wrong”Hizashi says “yes you are that’s weird” “what you make no sense dude” “this is random but I don’t think I’ve ever told anybody this but when we were in the process of looking to move my mom decided to change our names to her maiden name” “so you haven’t always been Keigo Takami”jess says “nope from the day I was born till I was 8 I was Keigo Ukai” “nope don’t like it” “yeah sounds forced” “Jessica Ukai yeah no don’t like it thank you for becoming Takami”

Notes:

I pulled Ukai from the door plate in the MHA chapter where hawks and jeans go to his house and I flipped his moms and dads names around and if you wanna visual of keigo dad just google HAWKS DAD MHA FANART

Chapter 53

Notes:

HELLO LOVE✨ and happy two year anniversary I still can’t believe this porn no plot has grown into what it is today I thank and appreciate everyone of you that come back every chapter

I’ve been working on this chapter for longer then I’ll like to admit but it’s ok because it’s done just want to setup that once we get to the part that says THE SET UP it’s from kaoru perspective

I hope you enjoy 💃🏽

I’m doing the planning for a scene me and kaoru have been building up to so I of course have to ask kei if he’s cool with that before I just go and do it 

 

I go downstairs to ask him about it but he’s on the phone “No no no that’s not what I asked is it” I hear keigo say while he’s pacing in the living room “you keep saying I know I know but I asked for a specific thing and to think you can bullshit me I’m not in the bullshit business we do important things here and we can’t have bullshit product” I have NEVER heard kei use this type of tone his demeanor just gives off a type of dominance I’m not use to him exerting i almost forgot what i came down here to ask“exactly now you send what we always get no mistake and I’ll stop considering finding a new vendor got it great” he says and just hangs up “hey princess” he say with a tone and attitude I’m used to and we can’t forget the smile “no no where’s the man that was just on the phone” “I could literally never talk to you that way and you know it” “why the hell not god that was hot” “yeah yeah no matter how hot you think it is it’s not happening” “boooo your boring” “whatever I thought you were getting ready to leave”he says sitting on the couch “yeah but I have a question” I say doing the same “shoot” “so today is a kaoru day and we’ve had this whole Stockholm Syndrome thing going on we’ve been leading to like full on infatuated with captor-“ “princess what’s the question” “ok ok I was planning on doing something that I need your consent to do” “what exactly” “you remember that spontaneous thing I did a few months ago” “what have sex with the person who did our digital branding yes yes I do why” “well that but not as full out and with karou” 

 

“So she falls in love with captor you and makes a and I’m guessing here sexual advance then you follow through with it”he says with the little informative i've given him “i mean yes exactly can you like see inside my brain or something” “no and even if i could do you think i would tell you” “i would hope so but not the point are you cool with that or do i have to plan something else” “what did i tell you the last time you asked about having penetrative sex with her the last time” “i don't care because i'm not the one paying for the service but i still have to ask and i feel like i have to ask because of your history together” “why because for three weeks i was temp dom for her i promise you you have more authority over her than i ever would now if you're asking me because you want me to say no so you don't have to do it then no i'm not comfortable with it” “ok then you can't read my mind great it's scary sometimes” “then why are you still sitting here go get ready” “ughh i dont feel like thinking about what to wear come pick out my outfit today” “i shouldve never did this for you youre abusing your power come on” he says getting up “but your so good at it” I say following him upstairs 

 

“What are you in the mood to wearing today” “anything other than I don’t wanna wear pants or a jumpsuit” i say sitting in one of my empty closets inserts “so skirt or dress got it” he looks through the clothes and stops at a jumper dress that i've never worn for some reason “a shirt goes under this right” he says turning to me “yeah” “are you doing anything that could possibly get you dirty in anyway” “ummm no i don't think so why” “ok white shirt under and stockens because it's going to cold when you leave” “yes sir will do” i say getting down “your cute” he says leaving the closet “thank you wait no kiss before you go” he walks back and kisses me “were still scheduled for friday” he says when we separate “yes my love we are got whole 2 hours planned for friday” “two wow im looking forward to it” “you should” and in a blink of an eye I’m in back on the closet insert I was in previously “just say yes” “and if I don’t” “then it won’t happen princess” “then my answer is fuck yes” and like a proper man gets down on his knees and sliding me almost off the damn thing I’m sitting on pulls my shorts and underwear off at one time and wasted no time 

 

For 25 years I went without enjoying sex but this man has singlehanded made an activity I rather stay away from something I want constantly “oh my fuck kei goddamn it” I say he tortured my clit with his tonge I can’t do nothing but take it because I’m literally in my closet insert “if you want me to drive we have to be gone in a hour” zashi says before kissing me then the top of kei head and walking to look in one of the bags he has in my closet “oh fuck I’m about to cum fuck fuck fu-“ I cum and forget that I’m in a goddamn closet and throw my head “please don’t” hizashi says putting his hand on the back of my head before it’s make contact with the wall “how do you move so fast” I say winded “don’t worry about that just get ready”he says then walks out the closet “you heard the man” keigo says getting up 

 

The Setup 

The setup is always the same i come into after dark at 6:20 for the first 10 minutes i just sit in lobby area might catch the beginning or end of a public scene 6:30 sharp the lady who i never got a name for walks over to me “follow me” she walks me to jess’s door “good luck” she says with the same smile she always gives she leaves and I walk in the room with Jordan 

 

“Kaoru my love how are you” he says when close the door we’ve gotten pretty close through him being the first person I see before Jess comes in so it’s a nice way to ease into things “I’m good do you know how naked I have to be today” “she said you can keep the skirt but no shirt do you want me to turn the heat up a bit since your not wearing much ” “umm no it’s pretty warm in here today” “ok let me know when you’re ready” I do a few stretches because I’m about to be sitting on the floor blindfolded and tied to a pole on the wall “ok I’m ready I say walking to the spot I sit and Jordan goes through the quick wrist tie “how does it feel” he says letting it go I resist against it a bit just to see if I move to much will it come untied “yeah it’s good thanks” he takes the excess and tie my arms just above my head “hows your wife i forgot to ask” “oh she's good you were right on with whole unplug weekend she really needed it” “yeah law degrees can be tricky i dropped my lawyer ambitions after under grad” “yeah same and thats how i ended up here” “i feel like this would be a better gig then that” “yeah when coming from a family of lawyers and psychologist i am wasting my time not doing the same” “well if its any consolation your great at this so i mean your obviously talented in this area maybe look it to this i mean im only one of the people jess sees weekly and im paying a pretty penny so you would be more than comfortable” “you are not the first person to tell me that but i dont know how that would look dom assistant husband and lawyer wife” “hey not saying you have to go full time your still young just saying” “yeah I’ve been thinking about going back to school and just finishing the law degree because as much as I hate it I kinda love it” he says with a small smile “alright business mode now lean forward” he says before putting the blindfold over my eyes “ok madam Jess will be in here soon so let’s run through it safe word”he says putting the collar on me“Waldo” “ok how do you know the scene is over” “when the collar is removed” “right now at anytime she will ask what’s your favorite color and you respond with” “red if I wanna stop yellow if I need a break green to continue” great now I’m leaving you be alone for a while but when  you hear the door close behind me the scene has started good luck and have fun” 

 

The scene 

I’m in here for god knows how long (an hour) I’m alone and I miss Jess madam is a bitch she only hurts me and degrade me Jess is nice and caring 

 

I’m just sitting here in the dark (2 hours now) I’m thinking about the last time Jess was here and she was nice enough to let me cum unlike madam who NEVER lets me no matter how good I am 

 

I hear the door open and the only other sound is the sound of heels tapping across the floor slowly and far from me 

 

“Your quiet today” she’s getting progressively closer “I guess you learned your lesson from  last time from making all that noise don’t wanna get punished again huh” yeah no shit who wants to be strapped to a chair and over stimulated while being constantly whipped on their inner thigh… that was fun actually she doesn't say anything else just walks closer and closer to me it the same pattern as always tap tap…tap tap… tap tap until she's in front of me 

 

“The bruises from madam are still here a bit”she says lifting my skirt wait why is she referring to herself in the third wait jess is back “she makes such pretty marks on you you're really pretty you know that my precious angel” she says rubbing her thumb across my bottom lip “i'm so glad you were just so helpless that we were able to catch you” hand now gone away from my face and replaced with a barely there kiss “now i get to use you anyway that i want isn't that right my angel” “yes im yours to use” “such a good girl you know that” she says just above a whisper by my ear hand going up my skirt “open for me angel” i change how im sitting a bit so she has access to me “good girl” she says kissing right by my ear and slowly rubbing the already sensitive area of where i was beaten last week which only makes me more aroused from the pain being reignited “so wet for me angel”she slides my underwear over and sticks two fingers in me “you're so pretty you know that” i say nothing but nod my head “you were so much to handle when we first got you but look at you now letting me touch you anyway i want to like the good girl i know you are” shes really close to making me cum its actually scary how in tuned she is with my body the moment my body says it needs something else she adopts QUICKLY “come on angel cum for me” she says before kissing the side of my neck she doing it exactly how she taught me to like it no clitoral stimluation just penitration it took a lot of training to break that and now when it does happen its overly sensitive and over the hell stimulating “fuck im cumming im cumming” i say crying out becasue it was coming hard that i felt it through my whole body 

 

She slides her fingers in and out of me slowly till my body fully relaxes again she pulls the blindfold off  then she pulls her fingers out of me and their soaked running down her finger she looks at me in my eyes and i know she wants me to do i open my mouth and she smiles at me “good girl angel” she puts the two fingers in my mouth and I use my tongue to lick them clean “you enjoy tasting yourself so much don’t you” she starts to kiss my neck again then she goes down to my chest then she goes from her relaxed sitting position to laying in front of me “you enjoy tasting yourself so much how about I try” she pulls me forward a bit and pulls my underwear off and she and I wish this was just me being over the top she starts to give me the best head I’ve ever had in my life she hasn’t let one cubic inch of me go untouched if she was tongue fucking me she was going ham on clit with her right hand and vice versa “ngh please Jess it’s too much I can’t I can’t” I say feeling the pressure of another big orgasm coming “please please fuck oh my god” I’m screaming more than I’m moaning at this point because I feel like I’m going to explode if she doesn’t stop immediately it feel so good I start crying like actual tears because this lady is trying to kill me “I’m about to fuckkkkkk” I say coming so hard I lose vision for a moment “I hope you don’t think I’m done with you yet” she says going back down I think she trying fucking kill me 

 

She goes for another 4 orgasm making it a total of 6 orgasms today I’m completely drained in every aspect of the statement I’m barely even conscious right now 

 

I feel her pull and release the collar taking it off of me and untying my hands from the pole my arms drop to my sides feeling heavy from being suspended for so long she brings me forward so I’m laying in her lap it feels so good to be laying down with her hands rubbing in my hair combing her fingers through my hair saying sweet things like “you did good today” “my pretty angel so pretty” “my good girl” coming down from any scene that we do it always the same no matter how hard she was during the scene she turns to the sweetest nicest person you’ve ever met I’m actually jealous of her permanent sub because they get this Jess all the time 

 

“How we feel kaoru” “great honestly” I say voice slightly distorted because of the way I’m laying on her thigh “good enough to start putting clothes on” “yeah” I say sitting up “ok but first 1-10” “10s across the board” I say standing “great great i'm glad you enjoyed” “you know I used to sub for a guy who would ask me the same thing after we were done it’s a good way to recap everything without a lot of talking” “yeah it is but we do have to was there anything you didn’t like or was uncomfortable with” she says gathering the rope “no I really enjoyed today it was just how we planned it I just didn’t know you were going to be accomplishing it that way loved it though” I say putting on my shirt “yeah had to switch it for you” “you have a plan for next week” “not exactly but I’ll send over the plan at least 48 hours before just know after that one we have another public one scheduled” “right almost forgot after that I have-“ “you have a work trip that you have to be away for I remember” “yeah yeah ok am I free to go” “ugh no not yet” she says with a smile on her face “this is weird but did you actually enjoy the oral or are you just saying that” “best head I’ve ever gotten EVER no lie I promise” “ok I’ll walk you out” she says with this new sense of pride we walk out and I never ever thought I would see keigo again but there he was with Jordan in the lobby I don’t plan on having an interaction so I look away and keep heading for the door “I’m sorry kaoru kei what are you doing here” Jess says stopping us in our tracks “mistress um hizashi texted me and said he had to work later than you so I was coming to bring you home” hmm never thought he would be a service sub and why does he call her mistress “oh damn ok yeah let me walk her out then I get my stuff and we can go home” “take ya time princess” “literally told you not to call me that here” “right right” wait the necklace she wears sometimes say princess and it’s outlined on her chocker that she wears all the time it takes me but a second to put together that he’s the not only just the other submissive but the person who’s responsible for that big ass ring she wears lucky bitch  

 

“Sorry about that but I’ll see you next week at the same time?” “yeah um question” “whats up” “the guy back there how do you know him” “he's my fiance and other submissive” “oh wow that's crazy we had a temp contract a few years back that's a crazy coincidence” “yeah he was at the first public scene we did and he recognized you then i didn't want to bring it up and make shit weird” “no not weird at all god i know yall sex life is crazy” i say out loud for some reason and it makes her laugh “yeah pretty crazy” “ok i'm going to go” “wait how did you two meet” “oh um he used to date a friend of a friend” “jessi” “yeah if i knew him better when they were together i would've told him to run she's a terrible person” “ok thanks just always wonder how it went down” “yeah see you next week” “yeah next week”

 

Notes:

Did ya like it my knowledge on SHS kink is still very minimal but with the help of people on Reddit I was able to make something shake

Chapter 54: Extra #11

Notes:

Hello loves✨ this was a full chapter but google docs glitched and took the whole first half and I don have it in me to re write it so here the main event of a used to be full chapter

Enjoy 💃🏽

“Hey babe remember the client I told you about a few days ago” “yeah um the financial sub right” “no no the one who likes to be degraded for having a small penis” “ah yes what about him” “so it is apart of my disclosure that you exist and to you know set boundaries and all and he wants to watch us to do it together” “I’m excuse me” “yeah we’re getting nowhere with me just laughing at him so he asked if you would come in and degrade him together” “why me ask hizashi” “no no he asked for my fiancé” “what how would that even work” “I don’t know we just go back and forth laughing and insulting him its not that hard” “how much are you getting paid for this” “2 grand usd” “I am so glad by the time we were in a full time contract you were in love with me because good lord” “hey just because I’m now a financially stable person doesn’t mean my prices changed not the point right now will you do it or not” “yeah fuck it why not”

 

I don't know why i just cant say no to her like this isn't something i can do i love to be the degradee but its hard to be the degrader i'm just not a mean person  i try not to talk about people no matter how they wronged me so i dont think ill be much help but for her i'll try 

 

Im sitting on the couch in her room waiting for this to happen im trying to come up with stuff to say now before he gets here but its not working because like i said i suck at being mean “i promise you kei once you see it they insults will come naturally” jess says “you know i can't just be mean” “i know your a pure angel who just for the life of him call his soon to be wife a bitch no matter how hard she tries” “it's not happening i need you to know that” “why not i fulfill every sexual desire you have  why not do the same for me huh” she says sitting in my lap facing me “because you want me to actually borderline abuse you and i'm not doing that” “slapping me and calling me your bitch isn't abusing me what i do to you to the untrained eye is borderline abuse” “what there's nothing wrong with having my beautiful dom beating me wonderful shades of red and not wanting to reciprocate” “ugh your no fun i should make you watch while i make hizashi do it” and the thought of that was wow my god “if that wasnt a promise i need you to know i dont take threats lightly”I say wrapping my arms around her waist “that sounds like a threat itself” “don’t keep that promise and it will be” I say before kissing her completely forgetting why we’re here before the kiss could get any crazier the door opens which makes us direct our attention to it  “madam is it not time yet i could go back out”the man im guessing is here be humlitaed  “madam really sounds weird”i whisper to her “you made me change it no come in sit down and face the door”she says standing up he sits down and doesnt look back me and jess have a very serious eye conversation “you ready” “no no i am not” “get over it and just be mean” “ok ok lets go” 

 

We both stand in front of this man who's looking up awaiting his next instruction “pants off now” Jess says and he quickly obliged and I wasn’t trying to look at him till he sits back down to keep any first reactions to when we got to started he sits back down and I look down and couldn’t help but laugh “fuck off jess you said it was small not non existent” I’m in a laughing fit because I’ve never seen such a small penis in my life “how are you even going to jack off with that dude Jesus” “he uses two fingers to do” Jess says “no fucking way” I look at him and he’s going for it two fingers and all “it’s so pathetic might as well just stop using it” Jess says “don’t even thinks it’s enough nerve endings for him to be enjoying that of any kind” this man is looking about two insults away from cumming “have you ever had sex” he shakes his head no “are you straight” he nods yes “dude go ahead and give that up you’d do better as a bottom I promise it’ll be more worth it than that” he makes this choked noise Jess taps me to move back and my guy came everywhere like I was surprised he was even able to do all that he sitting there eyes closed and breathing heavily Jess goes and gets disinfecting spray and paper towels and comes back “here clean this up and get out” she says putting the stuff in his lap“yes ma’am” he’s say standing and pulling up his pants

 

 “I knew you could do it” Jess says as we sit on the couch “you were right once I saw it the insults just flew out” “you’re a natural” “I’m never doing this again” “yeah I know I’ll makes hizashi do it next time if he comes back” we watched the man clean his own cum up off the floor which he did quickly “thanks again for this it was fun” he says before leaving the room “mr I can’t be mean did phenomenal” “hey I said I try not to be mean but I’ve seen some small penises in my day but god that’s like a medical marvel” “yeah I don’t know how it works in the slightest you killed it with the bottom bit by the way” “nothing i said was forced all natural like if my penis was that small i would be the bottom bitch like i wouldn't even try to be top or even straight for that matter” “so you can say the word bitch” “yes i can doesn't change the fact that i'm not calling you that” “ughh ” she says getting up and putting the chair in the closet “why is she being dramatic” hizashi say walking in “i wont call her a bitchand she upset about it” “why not” he says sitting next to me “becasue no matter how crazy our sex is im still not crossing that line…again” “exactly youve did it before just do it again”she says sitting in hizashi lap “what was the cricumatances of the first time it was said” “forced sex” “and you want him to say it ouside of that” “yes” “were you comfortable the first time you said it” “in the moment yes but it was because of what were doing” “well then the judgment is in Jess you have to be patient and let him say what t when he’s comfortable saying it plus you dont like degrading him” “thats not really my dom style with him” “then you cant be mad at him for not doing something you dont even like doing” “whatever” she say finally giving up “but it is your dom style and thats what she wants so you can do it for her”i say  “i could” “can you”she says looking at him “well since you asked i can make it happen” “and i can watch”i add “yeah that was a given” he says wrapping both arms around jess

Notes:

I have another chapter that I’ve been working on since yes master chapter 3 and never finished and I have no clear aim for it but it’s some of the best smut I’ve written in a while so I will be doing 2 extras back to back

Chapter 55: EXTRA#12

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ I forgot to post this last week but this was the second extra I promised awhile ago

this originally this was going to be the chapter after yes master chapter 3 but I didn't like how it was going and let it collect dust bought it back as a main chapter then didn't know what else to do for it so now its an extra

hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

Hizashi being the wonderful partner he is  he decided he was going to make breakfast for them at keigo's house when he walked in no one is up yet which is surprising he walks in the room and sees them in the deepest sleep he’s ever seen rope all over the floor a candle that melted down to a puddle on the bedside table he debates waking them up for awhile but after noticing that neither of them have showered after their escapades last night so he had no choice 

“Hmm seems like fun” he says picking up a plug off the floor “hey rugrats get up” he says picking the rope up off the floor Keigo wake up slowly then Jess “when did you get here” “like 5 minutes ago” “mhmm” Jess says turning over and going back to sleep “nope no more sleeping up go shower” he says making them both sit up “your not my dad leave me be” Jess says protesting “that’s not what you said earlier this week now come on get up shower your sticky I’ll clean up in here go” he says finally getting them up “ok ok ok” Keigo says going down to the guest bathroom “how was it”hizashi says gathering the rope around his arm “10/10” “your still in the same things from last night and neither of you cleaned up after which means no aftercare happened” “no but last night was an exception can't really get mad at him after we were done we both fell asleep until you got here”she says turning the shower on “hm i'll let it slide i guess”he says going to put the rope back in the closet 

After i was done showering and putting on clothes hizashi had cleaned the whole room “you didn't have to do this i would’ve did it once i was done in the shower” “it's all good dont worry about it love” he says before kissing me and leaving out the room “wait where you going” i say following him out the room “what i came over here to do i planned on cooking you two breakfast” he says going in the kitchen where he has a few bags on the counter “hm ok but you're not tired you show ended like 4 hours ago” “i mean no not really after the show i stayed did some prep for meeka then got to the store as soon as they opened i havent crashed yet” “are you sure you want to cook i can take over and you can relax” “keigo i promise im awake enough to make food and i'll sleep after ok” he says taking thing out the bags “ok i'll leave you be” 

“hey limpy how was your shower” hizashi says looking past me i turn and jess is coming down the hallway “leave me alone zashi” she says before laying on the floor in front of the couch “you missed the couch by like 2 inches” i say looking over at her “i'll go back to sleep if i lay on the couch so floor it is” “what did you do to her” hizashi says laughing “what she wanted me to” “and you did it fucking beautifully you know that 10s across the board but i am damn tired still” she says sitting up “well you and zashi can sleep together when were done eating” “no you? You have to be somewhere” “yeah my head researcher texted me and said there's an update that he wants to make and i need to go to the office for a while” “nooo kei they've occupied you all week what's so special about the thing anyway” “it's a new heart monitor that directly contacts your doctor and emergency personnel if abnormality happen” “i…i-shit ok it is important but ugh i have no fight in me to tired” she says laying her head back on the couch “i won't be long promise and if it takes longer than anticipated i promise whatever you want ok name it its yours” “all i want at this very moment is to be in the bed in the middle of my two partners sleeping nothing material just sleep” “in that case let's eat so you can get your wish quicker” hizashi say putting plates on the table 

Now the 2 hour max trip back to work turned to 5 because the trail of the now version 3 of this you dont care it took all damn day that's all you need to know when i get back home its still quiet like when i left i go back to the room and hizashi is hanging upside down off the bed scrolling on his phone and jess is watching new girl on her laptop “took you long enough” hizashi says looking at me “why are you hanging off the bed sit up” “im bored as hell” “so your going to have all the blood  rush to your head to have a bit of thrill” “exactly” “and why aren't you just watching it on the tv” “this show came out 11 years ago it just feels wrong to watch it on a 4k tv it belongs on a 13” screen nothing more nothing less” “ok i guess that only makes sense to you and you only” “did everything work it took you forever to get back” “yeah its good but it’s 2:00 on a Saturday what are we doing today” “the music scene is quiet this weekend so I got nothing” “for some reason ad is closed today so we can’t go and like watch a public scene later” “ah yes normal couples activity going to be voyeurs” “why is AD closed today” “i don’t know they just told me not to schedule any appointments for today” “you two act like you cant just call the people who own the place” “your right what would we do without you”jess says before calling nemuri “hey love” “hey quick question why is AD closed today” “me and sho are doing a joint public scene at club red tonight” “ahh could we come or is it like a closed event type thing” “no its open why” “becasue we have absolutely nothing to do today and that sounds fun” “yeah well its at 6” “great see ya later” jess says before hanging up “so we have that lined up you might as well start getting ready now its going to take you the longest to get ready”

As expected it took us 4 hours to get ready we were almost late but we got there in perfect time of shota and nemuri to be coming on the stage with their subs i've never seen them actually be doms before and watching them is like watching jess and hizashi they move as one every move seems to be calculated and rehearsed but i know that it's not their doing a heavy impact scene it's really intense but both subs look like their in heaven 

Watching them is doing things to me I’ve had to readjust myself for the 3rd time this show “you are a true voyeur aren’t you” hizashi whispers in my ear putting his hand in my lap I move his hand because it’s not going help me right now and he put it back thumb brushing up and down on the tip of my dick while he maintains a tight hold on my dick and thigh in one hand Jess looks over and smiles she rests her forearm on my shoulder and lace her fingers in my hair pulling 

This club is different the public scenes are held in a semi private room and we’re sitting in the back of the room so they are taking the opportunity to tease the hell out of me “please stop” I whisper head on hizashi shoulder “you really want me to stop kitten” he says fully stoking dick through my pants “fuck no please” I’ve had to bury my head in his neck to keep from distracting the scene I feel so desperate right now trying the match him with my hips so I can just hurry up and cum to lessen my embarrassment “cum baby go ahead” he says and I did exactly that thanking god I wore black pants but it feels disgusting to sit here like this “I’m going to the bathroom” I get up and walk out the door and make my way to the bathroom I walk in the bathroom and then I’m pushed into the first stall when you walk in “what the hell” I say turning to see hizashi behide me “pants pulled down now” “I’m not fucking you in this bathroom” “who said anything about fucking” he squats down pulling my pant and boxers down with him and he takes my dick in one hand while he’s using the other to stabilize himself on the wall 

I’ve known hizashi for upwards of 10 years now and never once has my dick been anywhere near his mouth so to be in this bathroom with hizashi having my entire dick in his mouth feels like a fever dream “oh fuck zashi” i say as my grip in his hair gets tighter he audibly moans he keeps going like his life depends on it “hizashi fuck I’m about to cum” he looks at me and smiles around me and I lose it and when I tell you he didn’t let a drop hit the floor 

He stands up and opens his mouth and sticks his tongue out “my mothers didn’t raise a spitter” he says before kissing me “well thank god for that”i say’s laughing “what possessed you to do that” “well I don’t know if you remember but you got moved up from best friend to submissive to boyfriend and boyfriend gets special privileges” “well shit i should’ve did that a long time ago” I say bringing him in for another kiss he turns us so I’m up against the door “I’m gonna fuck the shit outta you when we get home” “why fucking wait when I’m ready now” “i'm not doing that right now with absolutely no lubricant” “did you forget i'm a professional whore here” I reach in my jacket inner pocket and pull out my wallet “travel lube baby” I say pulling out 2 packs “god I love you” he says before he spins me and now I’m facing the door he pulls my pants down all the way and pulls my bottom half out so my back is arched I can hear the package being torn open then he takes two fingers and presses into me “you don’t even need this your just already ready for me huh” he says kissing on my neck after a few stokes of his fingers they’re easily replaced by his dick “fuck” I say as he slides his full lengths in me “kitten your so good for me you know that your trailered to me just perfect” I can vividly remember the first time we had sex oh god was it terrible if you want a description listen to the chorus of ego by Beyoncé it perfectly describes it now it just works sooo much better 

“Please please please” I say in a mix of moans and whimpers “what baby what do you want” “me..cum…please” “you can wait a little longer for me right” “no no I can’t I’m sorry” “come on be master good kitten and wait ok” he says taking my dick in hand and squeezing the base to stop me from coming “ahh please master please fuck” I say desperately he’s holding back no punches he’s fucking me like I’m being punished and fuck I love it but I NEED to cum like right now but I’ll do anything for praise “I swear to god if you cum now you won’t like me” “stop threatening me..I’m not going to” I say using my hands as a shield from the bathroom door “good now shut up and let me fuck right ok” he flips me and now my back is against the door he scoops me up by my ass and distributes most of my weight on the door I wrap my legs and arms around him and he starts to plow my shit “fuck kitten you take me so good goddamnit” he says leaning his head on mine I can tell from the grip on my hips that I’m pretty sure is now bruised he’s about to cum “kitten now” he says knowingly a few strokes away from coming i cum and then drop my legs and slide down the door “I gotta return the favor” I say JO him till he cums in my mouth “my mother also didn’t raise a spitter” I say doing the same thing he did “fuck your hot” he says kissing me “I know now let’s get out of here”I say pulling my pants up “yeah we’ve definitely missed the rest of the scene” he says turning to use the bathroom

I wash my hands and when he’s done he does the same and we walk out and Jess is sitting in the lobby on her phone “how was the ending” hizashi says making her stand up and taking her seat pulling her back down into his lap “you would know if y’all didn’t leave me to do god knows what” she says crossing her arms outing “princess just upset we left without her” i says sliding my hand up her dress “yes that shit sucks kei move” she says moving my hand from under the dress “don’t be snappy with him it’s my fault I couldn’t resist him” he says winking at me “you two owe me” “alright rock paper scissors” “best 2 out of 3” “ok” he won the first round with rock and I got the second with paper the last round we went twice before he won with scissors 

“Ok next time we’re out it’s me and you ok love” hizashi says kissing the side of her neck “how the fuck am I so lucky that I have the hottest partners like ever” I say “you really got lucky both very attractive and great at sex what else could you want”she says“nothing at all” 

We sit and wait for sho and nemuri to be done with aftercare and just have pointless conversations while we wait “I thought you two left” shouta says showing up beside us “no we would never leave without saying goodbye sir”hizashi says “seen you two leave my poor Jess by herself for the last half” nem says leaning on sho shoulder “exactly just left me to my lonesome” Jess says going to her like a child hugging nem “did you enjoy the show sweetheart”shota says to Jess “yeah I haven’t seen you two actually dom in forever” “you’re not gonna ask if I enjoyed the show” hizashi says  side hugging shota from his seat “it’s obvious you enjoyed couldn’t even keep ya hand to yourself” he says resting his arm around his shoulder “it was a great show from what I saw anyway” I say because I felt left out “just give me a scale of 1-10 you two how good is it” nem says looking at the both of them then me “10” they both say at the same time “yeah I can tell” she says smiling at me “we need to go feed sushi”shota says looking at his watch “who” hizashi says “our cat have you never met sushi” “we don’t even know where you live”Jess says “wanna meet him then we can go out after” “hell yeah” jess says “just because were not in our home base doesnt mean the rules changed” shota says “right right im sorry but take me to this cat” jess says 

We follow them to their home and i really didn't expect it to be grand or anything but its a small apartment building not to far from after dark we go up to the fourth floor and they open the door when i walked in it felt like home very cozy and warm no big bright colors or big statement pieces just comfort “make yourself at home”shota says “sushi come here baby” nemuri says and a orange cat comes from the back of the home “hi baby did you miss us” midnight says picking the cat up “hi cutie” jess says going to pet the cat and he lets her pet him once then moves away from her and closer to nem “he hates me sushi we’re like siblings why do you hate me” “ha that funny” hizashi says going to pet him and he dodges his pets “at least he let me touch him” Jess says laughing at him I take my chance and I put my hand near his nose first he takes a few sniff then I got to pet the top of his head and he doesn’t move just enjoys it “he’s good with kids and cats how” “god’s favorite duh” I say scratching sushi chin

Notes:

ive really been on a roll lately in the suit department Im working on a pretty smut fill chapter for one of my other works (in private ) and I feel like its the greatest smut ive ever produced in my smut writing career 😂

but this was the one that put the fire in me to just write the nastiest shit ever so get ready for that

Chapter 56: You make me feel SPECIAL-Hizashi

Notes:

Hello loves✨ I’m back with zashi a chapter i finally was able to push out 2 out chapters and I was on a hizashi high so this one is from his pov the other is keigo and I’ll drop that sometime this week

Anywaysssssss enjoy 💃🏽

Songs for chapter
When I was your man-Bruno Mars
Special-Sza
Say it -Ne-yo
Feel special-twice

He was happy finally over oboro didn’t even think about him anymore it felt like a weight has been lifted off his shoulders he’s happy with Jess and keigo their equally putting in the work to make sure each other are comfortable in this relationship 

he’s just about to leave the station after his show it’s 7 in the morning no one should be up and texting him this early but he gets a text just as he stood up from his chair 

From: Meeka

Hey hizashi I don’t know if you seen this yet but I didn’t want you to be blindsided by this 

He clicks the link and sees something he thought he would never see it’s a insta post from this guy he doesn’t know but he knows the person he’s kissing in the picture it’s oboro the caption is simple “I guess this is a hard launch” he felt like he was shot he instantly sits back down and just stares at the picture he’s kissing and holding hands with this rando on social media he told him he would never do anything of the such and hizashi never even asked for all of this he locks his phone and gets up he can’t be upset over this he’s in an even happier relationship so who cares about him he’s going to go home and sleep in the same bed with people he knows would at the drop of a dime tell the world he’s their partner and kiss and hold hands in public 

He makes it home and just seeing their cars in his driveway made him feel better because fuck oboro all he did was cause unnecessary drama in his life in the first place 

He gets in the house to the deafening silence and then upstairs to seeing them both sleeping comfortably in his bed he shower’s gets dressed and lays in the bed behind keigo and keigo like a magnet immediately filled any empty space between them which made him start crying uncontrollably waking them both up “what’s wrong zashi” keigo says turning to him he can’t even get words out of his mouth just sobs “come on sit up for me baby what’s wrong” Jess says making him sit up he just hands them his phone to the picture “what the fuck”keigo say sound angry “that bitch who the hell even is this man” Jaay say going through his profile “I don’t know but whoever the hell he is he’s one special person he got him to come out and be public I couldn’t even do that” “hizashi I mean this in the most disrespectful way possible fuck him ok I’m honestly trying to keep my cool because I felt bad for him at first but now he has my baby crying over him being  too pussy to give you what you deserve but like I said fuck him ok you got us and I can promise all the pain and bullshit he put you through stopped at him” “your being to nice he’s a bitch he talked all that shit about being with you and just knowing he couldn’t give you what you wanted and then not even a full two months later he’s going public with this rando baby I know for a fact this is bullshit he’s trying to hurt you he knows your happy and wants to break you because he knows you’ll always have that soft spot for him he can honestly fuck off dont even think about whoever the hell he is”

Hizashi just cried for awhile while they held and comforted him he eventually falls asleep from a 6 hour shift and an hour of crying he just kinda passed out “I want to actually fight him like cause physical harm to him for this” Jess says looking through the dude’s instagram “as much we both would love that the moment he would touch you in the slightest I’ll be bunk mates with my dad so let’s not” “ughhh you saw how defeated he looked I hated that he doesn’t feel special because some piece of shit asshole they don’t even look like they like each other for real” “yeah they look like an odd couple but I mean like you said this doesn’t seem legit because it’s been two months since they officially “broke up” how is he hard launching with someone already” “that son of a bitch they’ve been together this whole time” Jess says there’s a post from 4 months ago with a caption of just ❤️ and it’s a faceless picture of oboro what gave it away that it’s him is that he’s wearing the bracelet we helped zashi pick out for his birthday “ok inspector gadget let’s stop now ok I get it that you wanna get to the bottom of this but the more information we find out the more he’s going to be hurt and is that something you wanna do” “no I don’t but it really pisses me off that he’s just been playing him this whole time” “me too but our main priority is to make this man right here feel better nothing else” “you’re right ok so what ya thinking” 

I wake up and I’m alone which sucks because who leaves their sad partner alone I go to the living room and they look like their about to plan a heist “what’s happening” I say sitting in keigo lap “nothing” Jess says locking her iPad so I can see what on it “come on what is it I can’t take anymore surprises today” they look at each other for a second “ok we’ll we didn’t appreciate you not feeling the best about yourself because of him so we were trying to come up with a plan to make you feel better” keigo says wrapping his arms around me “mhm thats really nice but you don't have to” “why not you would do the same for us in a heartbeat”jess says “i know but this was just whatever its ok dont plan to do something extravagant” “hizashi the day i came to you and told i wasnt worth being loved and cared for what did you do” “ugh i hated hearing you say that so i scraped everything that i originally planned for us to do that night and let you explain why you felt like that then i fucked the words out of your vocabary then cooked for us” “and when that douchebag broke up with me after he found out i was a domme and i told you that there was no way i would ever experience true love because im freak that loves to hurt people” “you told me this over the phone while i was at work and i told them i had to leave for a family emergency and they almost fired me but didnt anyway i met you at ad and you told me in depth what happened i told you that you didnt belong with that pretentious prick anyway and to forget about him that youll find someone who loves you for all of your kinky ways which you did might i add but then we went back to my house and i fucked the way you deserved” i say thinking about that night again “and you want us to sit here and just say ok gotta let feel his feels” jess asks“i mean yes” “no were leting you get everything out and then fucking you till you forget his name and memory then cooking for you” keigo says why did that just make my heartskip a beat “and were not taking no for answer” “ok okay i won't fight this but i do have to shower again before the latter half happens” “ok now talk and i wont get all therapist on you i'm off the clock just get it out” 

“Ugh ok” i say sitting in the middle of them on the couch “i was finally over it i have you two and he wasn't a thought in my mind anymore it got overshadowed by all of the time we've been spending together and then meeka sent me the post this morning after my show and a cloud of self doubt just rained over me” i don't look at either of them just at our reflections in the tv “was i not special enough?Would he ever have done that for me? What could I have done differently to get there with him? All of that going through my head on my way back home and i got back here and saw your cars in the driveway and it made them go away but when i got in the bed the cloud came back full force with the thought that you two do the same and that broke me and i couldn't stop thinking of it because if i wasn't special enough for him what's keeping you to from leaving me too…and i know that stupid to even think about but it was the only thing on my mind over and over ‘you're not special’ even with you right there holding me and telling me you love me it wouldn't leave and even now i still hear it your planning on doing the same things i do for you and i feel terrible for even making you feel like you have to do this noone ever goes above and beyond for me like you two even when its annoying and we get into fights over it it make me feel so damn good to know that i have people who care about me enough to sit here and plan anything for me or get mad at me for dumb decision its always just been me i met him and the world felt less lonely but his family constantly traveled and he did the same once we were older and then magically you two show up a few months apart and made all of my “alone time” full if i wasnt with you i was with the other and he became not needed anymore then he came back with that girl then he showed me such great kindness and bought me back home told me some heartfelt shit and gave me another false hope and then when shit got too deep he told me it would never get there and i left and never planned on going back because hes planning on not being who i need him to be but low and behold he is all of that and more for some else i meant nothing to him and it pisses me off so bad that i was too dumb see that i wasnt the only person getting his time” i feel like crying again but nothing come out “i shouldve listened to you jess and never went back” i say putting my head on her shoulder “hizashi as much as i would love to tell you i told you so i cant because i made a pretty risky choice and you let me make the choice and it turned out to be the best thing ever and we have to make decisions everyday and me stopping that one could have led to anything that isn't what we have now we finally have our zashi to ourselves do you know how long we've been trying to get this to happen both separate and together”she says wrapping both arms around me “exactly him being a dumbass finally got us together the way god intended” keigo says“this is actually like several sins wrapped in one dynamic sodomy she speaks and makes decisions and worse poly” i say laughing at him“who are we to go against jesus dying wish of dying for our sins he died for this relationship” jess says “would you like for me  to deliver that message to your hyper religious grandmother back in the states” i say looking up at her “oh hell no never” she says laughing back “super religious” “very open minded great woman but everytime I go back after those three years I was there church every sunday and i could only wear the clothes she bought me because she thought my way of dress was beautiful and unique but was too much for church” “when was the last time she seen you” “ughh in person when i went back after i got cut off” “ok so when she comes down for the wedding she wont go in to shock from seeing how said style has evolved” “yeah i send her pictures all the time so she doesnt go into full fledge shock when she sees me exposer therapy if you will” 

They just start talking and honestly them not making me try to dig deeper on anything and just taking what I said at face value because I can’t go any deeper than what I said and them reassuring me about that they want this and don’t want me to be with anyone else made that stupid voice finally shut up and now I’m really looking forward to seeing what’s next “I’m going to shower now” I say getting up “right now ok” Jess says “yeah I want to see what you two had scribbled on that iPad” “ok your cool bottoming today” keigo says “why do you think I’m showering again”i say kissing him “no fair how does he get the first kiss of the day” Jess says “are you gonna be this cute when I get out the shower” “you know how I dom don’t act dumb” “yes I do and I can’t wait” I say before kissing her “go we have to set up” “ok ok” 

I shower and I can hear them moving things and unzipping things this is the first time we’re doing a planned out scene (well that’s what I’m calling it because I have no clue what I’m in for) in my home so i'm excited to see how they use the space 

When i get out the shower they're not in my room but across in the kink room “awe man I’m getting the true sub treatment today” i say sitting in keigo lap facing him “nahh just don’t how to navigate what we need to do in your bed” he says wrapping his arms around my waist “mhm” I say not wanting anything else but to kiss him right now so I do 

“I'm sensing some favoritism here” Jess says watching the two  for a while till she got bored of just watching and wanted in on the action she started with just light touches on the chest to fully abuse hizashi nipples  hizashi not use to the pleasure being fully directed to him so his tolerance for over stimulation is way lower than the other two so he knows whatever they have planned is going to hell for him 

Jess kissing along his neck takes her hand from his chest to his waist removing the towel from around his waist and moving it to the floor him now being the only fully naked one he’s a bit vulnerable but Jess starting to stroke him made the vulnerability leave his body 

He yet to part from keigo lips not wanting to but he wasn’t ready for what came next he was getting close to coming already but keigo wrapping his hand around ass and some how fully lubricants fingers are slowly entering him and he’s no bottom he prefers to not bottom but top keigo is just so fucking attractive that he can’t stop bottoming for him so he’s now used to the sensations so he takes two of keis fingers with ease wanting more but he’ll take what’s he’s getting now they’re both trying they’re hardest to get him to cum and it’s working he about a millisecond away from coming 

“There is no one else on this planet who is more special than you*you have two partners that love the fuck out of you*your very successful* and your so fucking special to us and we need you to know that” keigo say’s finally parting from me to replace Jess kisses down my neck (*) “I’m about to cum fuck” I say throwing my head back on Jess shoulder “tell me your special” she says and I can’t say it half because I can’t speak at the moment and half I don’t feel like I am “say it baby just say it”keigo says I struggle to try but nothing comes out then they both stop right when I was about to cum “your not coming till you say it” Jess says in the harshest voice I’ve ever heard her speak and we’ve gotten into some pretty bad arguments but this was different “it’s the only way you have to say and mean it and  just because you said if we don’t believe it we won’t let you” keigo says in a much nicer voice making eye contact with me“okay I get it” I say breaking eye contact with him I feel stupid for even feeling like I can’t say the words I’m sp- see I can’t even think the words I could always safe word out if this gets too much and I can’t say it 

Jess is finally checking off her sex bucket list with getting to fuck me I knew it was going to happen one day but I definitely thought the things out of her mouth would be nicer “your taking me so well baby I guess you’re really becoming the bottom we’ve been doing so much training for” if it wasn’t so fucking sexy coming out of her mouth i would feel more hurt about her statement “your really doing a great job baby so good at taking dick aren’t you” keigo says from beside me and fuck Jess is fucking me into next week and there both just saying the nasties things to me is making wanna cum so bad but I still can’t get the words out “say it hizashi just once” Jess says knowing I’m close from how I’m now meeting her every stroke “come on baby say like you mean it” keigo says and I wish to all the gods above and below that I could say right now but I can’t so they stop and I’m not left with the empty feeling for to long before keigo replaces her “a perfect fit every time baby tailored to me if you will” keigo says with his first few strokes and the sounds he’s dragging out of me are like from the nastiest porn you can find “no one else make you feel this good do they” I shake my head no not being able to get the words out fully “say it hizashi” “no no one makes me feel as good as you do” I finally get out “I make you feel special baby” “yes yes you do” “then say it and I’ll let you cum” “fuck please baby I can’t say it just please let me cum please” I say begging because the sensation of the build up of this orgasm was really doing a number on me “say it baby just once that’s all we’re asking” Jess says in the nicest voice I’ve heard from her yet “I’m spec- fuck I can’t I can’t say it please just let me cum please please Jess please” and with one particular stroke I’m cumming with out saying the magic words I can feel the disappointment in the air keigo pulls out Jess removed the hand that’s been on the back of my neck “fuck im sorry im so sorry I tried to hold it but I couldn’t i'm sorry please don’t be mad at me please” I say once I turned around looking at both of them with very bland expressions of their faces not amused with me at all “say it hizashi” keigo says “I can’t I’m sorry” “you said I make you feel special right then fucking say that you are” he say with a pretty tight grip on my face “I can’t I don’t feel like I am” “then I’m gonna make you cum so many times the only words you’re  going to be able to say is I’m special” he says pushing me on my back I have no choice but to take that as a very serious threat from him 

I don’t know how he has it in him to be fucking for this long but I’ve came 5 times he’s cum once and Jess has only produced two of 6 and goddamn it she really doing her big one to get that 7th one outta me she in her dom bottom era she’s making me put in all the work “come one hizashi you wanna sit here and act like you aren’t the most special person in the world you don’t believe because you’re not putting in the work fuck me like you mean it and don’t bullshit me do it right” and I take that as the biggest threat because we’ve never had bad sex and today won’t be the first time either so I’m fucking her like my life depends on it and she’s more than enjoying it she sounds so perfect keigo can’t help but to touch himself and if I can make her make this much noise and make her cum twice already and I’m about to make him cum for the second time with no assistance fuck maybe I am special 

Ive fucked her through two orgasm now and I’m about to cum and instead of the words I’m about to cum I just say without my brain and mouth communicating “fuck I’m special” I say pulling out and JO my way through it “say it again baby” keigo says getting closer to me “I’m special” “your what baby” “fucking special so special”I say coming on Jess thigh “that’s right baby you are and don’t ever forget it” she says sitting up and kissing me “goddamn I need a shower” i say laying flat out on the bed next to Jess “we all do it’s been 4 hours” he says laying next to me “you did good baby I’m proud of you” Jess says turning my head to kiss me “oh now you wanna talk to me nicely” “ I say in a whiner voice than I intended “baby you didn’t deserve nice me then you were acting like you were less than perfect for us” “I know that I am it’s just hard to say” “hard to say what” keigo says straddling my lap “that I’m special” “your what” he says with the biggest smile on his face and I can’t help but reciprocate “special baby special” I say wrapping my arms around him and pulling him down to kiss him “one more time for me” “I’m special” “I love you” “I love you too and I love you” I say turning to Jess “I love ya too now you two have fun I have cum literally all over me and I feel gross” Jess says getting up out the bed 

“Your so pretty you know that” he says kissing me all over my face “my favorite part of you” I can’t help but laugh at him because he’s cute “you can’t possibly be able to continue for this long” i say feeling his dick get harder against my stomach “I could go all day baby” he say grinding down on me “I think I’m done bottoming for a while” “who said anything about you bottoming if you catch my drift” “oh I caught it” I say grabbing his waist and flipping us so that I’m on top of him “I got your message loud and clear baby” i says reaching for the almost empty bottle of lube and using what’s left to get him ready for me 

“Holy shit baby right there” “you like that kitten huh” “fuck yes I do” he says grabbing on to the sheets making one side come up off the bed “feels that good baby I make you feel that special” I say throwing his words back at him making him laugh “yes baby that fucking special” he says wrapping his arms around my neck bringing me in for a kiss and he lets out the nastiest moan mid kiss meaning he’s about to cum “come on kitten let’s cum together” I say sitting up and grabbing him by his waist and drilling into him and we both cum again for the up tenth time today 

After showering they kept their promise of cooking for me which I don’t know how they have the energy I’m 20 seconds away from falling asleep myself “so I mean did it work” Jess says getting something out of the refrigerator “yeah we got you to say it but did it work for the purpose we wanted” keigo says looking at the food in the pot “yup it indeed did work I’ve blocked him and that rando on everything and I can’t even remember anything we ever did together” i says as they both look back at me with the most proudest look in their eyes “also I never wanna do that again” “we can’t promise that because it obviously worked” “and you go to self deprecation city pretty often so I can’t promise we won't have to do it again” “I know how special I am to you two so let’s not” “don’t make us feel like we have to and we won't but I can’t say we won't do it again” 

It’s been a few days since I was fucked till I knew how special I was and I’m still on cloud nine from that so much so I felt like I needed to be shown off today so I told them to meet me at the mall because I need to buy essentials to leave at their houses so I don’t have to keep traveling with it because I can promise you they have made themselves at home in my bathroom between the three of us it’s a small beauty supply store in there

I’m  standing infront of the mall waiting for them they just called and said they were parked and walking up and I’m looking around to see where they are and I’m presented with the people who caused this in the first place and my stomach turns and not in a way of anxiety or love of any kind but disgust shit I guess it did really work I can only think about the bullshit he put me through and it’s made him not that attractive of a person “hey hizashi how are y-“ he’s cut off by “hey lover ya ready” Jess says from behind me “yes my love I am you look beautiful as always” “no fair no compliments for me” keigo says grabbing my hand locking our fingers “keigo you know how pretty you are” I say kissing the back of his hand “I know it but you can remind me every now and then oh shit did not notice you at all” he says finally acknowledging ***** “yeah it’s ok I can see that your busy” ***** says “y’all are mad rude by the way” his mystery man says “you’ll see why sooner than later anyways let’s go we got dinner with my parents in 5 hours” Jess says grabbing my hand “ok ok lead the way” “I would say it was nice seeing you again but it really wasn’t” “keigo love please” I say pulling him with me “what it wasn’t he was an asshole to you” he says as we walk into the mall 

 ***** and mystery man stand there and watch them walk in the mall “what happened between the two of you that his friends hate you that much” “they’re not his friends they’re his partners and I was a bad friend to him and I deserved that definitely” he says walking into the mall 

Notes:

I finally got to give the bottom zashi I’ve been waiting to give and this was the most appropriate time for it 😂

Next chapter is swf so I had to make the smut a bit crazier

edit dead just realized why ive been having Zashi brain rot I posted this during his birthday month 😂

Chapter 57

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ok I know its been forever and I said I had chapters ready and I do BUT I had a missing piece of the timeline missing which was this chapter which took a whole unexpected turn that I didn't plan but this is what my thumbs came up with and its good so I can't be too mad

because I have chapters 59 and 60 done already ill do Tuesday releases for them

🕺🏽enjoy

Ok this is my re do it’s been a full year since the last one and I can not make the same mistakes. It’s the annual firm banquet. I fucked up last time i almost ruined the best thing that has ever happened to me. But I will not be making the same mistakes again. 

I’m terrified about tonight. He left last time I didn’t see him for two weeks. I thought the worst. And that was A WHOLE YEAR AGO. My brain has been yelling at me over and over it’s going to happen again it’s going to happen again it’s going to happen again and I’m freaking out because it’s a non ito week and I could really use some ito right now. 

I’m kinda freaking out here. I mean this isn’t my first banquet but I honestly don’t know what to wear. Like what screams I have a normal job but I don’t want you to ask me about it. Ugh I’ll figure it out your no help you know that. 

We all get ready and everything is going smoothly. We got to the venue. The same venue. I’m not going to make the same mistake as last year I WON'T 

We look great. Like a unit coordinated colors and everything and I can’t help but think it’s going to happen again. It won’t we’ve grown, we're more secure than that he would never. It's going to happen again. 

I should’ve worn a different jacket, this one is too much. Or is it not enough ughh I hate being a fashionista. 

“Hello my loves we’re here” Jess says when we walk up to the Carter table “you never fail to be late” James says standing to hug her “your lucky im here” she say with no heat behind it returning the hug “mother as beautiful as always smell good too what is it” “I’ll have to tell exactly which one later but it Valentino” she says returning the hug “Jordan don’t forget I actually need you tomorrow I know you don’t tradish work on Saturdays but yeah” she says wrapping her arms around his shoulder resting her chin on the top of his head“I know same time right”he says looking up “yeah sorry mileena I’m stealing him for a few hours tomorrow” “it’s ok I’m going to be with my mom and sister for a girls weekend” 

After we get through the hellos around the room we sit through the awards portion then it’s free for all food drinks etc Jess is off taking to someone and I’m trying to make sure I’m in her line of sight  I don’t want her to think I left “dude calm down she doesn’t think your going to do it again your freaking me out” Touya say’s picking up on my vibe I guess “I know but I majorly fuck up last year and I have to make sure she never goes through that again” I say leaning on the bar“and she won’t because next time I’ll hurt you” he say leaning on the bar next to me“yeah I know and it’s not in the good way” I say me and Touya have gotten relatively closer in the past year “you don’t look like you’re into the shit you do”he says looking at me up and down “I mean some of it isn’t exactly things I need the general public to know about me but you look like it though and aren’t so we’re even” “yeah I’ve gotten that before but I stick to the basics y’all can have all your weird sex practices” “omg just kiss already” Ten says walking up to us “i would if Jess and Hizashi wouldn’t kill me” Touya says wrapping his arms around ten it’s really cool that he can finally just be him

I’m talking with one of the newest members of the firm she was asking if I could recommend her a therapist and I honestly wasn’t much help because I couldn’t stop checking to see if Keigo was still here I know he won’t leave me but this setting is still anxiety inducing I don’t want to freak out and he thinks I don’t trust him and the growth we’ve had but I can’t help but feel like history will repeat itself “so do have any recommendations or” she says breaking me out of thought “I’m sorry yes um sounds like you need a psychotherapist I know the name is a bit intimidating but it’s just the title you seem like you just need a unbiased person to talk to I know a few trusted people so I’ll ask them if they are currently taking any clients right now and send over the available one’s”I say snapping into professional networking Jess “ok we’ll my email is on my card do you have one just in case”she says looking in her bag “oh yes I do can you come with me to my table it’s in my bag” we walk over to the table I go in my bag and we exchange cards and go our separate ways and when I look back to where keigo was he’s not there hizashi is now in his place 

Fuck fuck fuck no he wouldn’t he promised to never leave me again so just calm down maybe he talking to somebody let’s look around I look around the room looking at every person I don’t hear or see him anywhere and i can hear my heart beating in my ears and my breathing is starting to pick up fuck keigo why what did I do this time I have my head in my hands freaking out over ever choice I’ve made the whole night over analyzing every move and trying figure out when it all went wrong “you good princess?” i hear to the right of me and his hand on my lower back I can feel he’s close so I just lean into him “I am now” “what happened” he says now holding me “where’d you go” “bathroom why missed me” he says jokingly “I thought you left” I can feel the smile leave his face and his grip around me loosened “I told you i would never do that again and you still don’t believe me” he say and was pretty silent the rest of the night after that 

Our whole dynamic has just been off since Saturday and I’m super thankful Ito was able to see us a day earlier because he’s been super short with me since and I don’t want this to turn left so I’ve been waiting to fully get into it today with her 

“Ok so what’s going on body language is off and with Jessica calling to see if I can see you on Tuesday instead of Wednesday because she didn’t think you two could wait that long it’s something big talk to me Keigo first” she says sitting infant of us“I’ve been trying my hardest to correct my past mistakes by coming here and changing and fighting to prove to her that I won’t repeat past mistakes and she makes me believe that she’s not seeing me in the light of breaking the promise of not leaving her I fucked up I know but I haven’t done anything since she forgave me for that for her to believe I would ever do that again even when she did the same thing I did nothing to show her that I’ll just leave her and we’re back where we were a year ago and she thinks I did it again it feels like shit to know how much progress your making and the other person to still make you out to be the person you aren’t anymore” he gets out and he sounds actually upset “Jessica”she says turning to me “I’m sorry i am like genuinely sorry but fuck I was scared ok everything has just been going so well for us and I just felt like something bad was just ought to happen I know how much you’ve changed in this year I promise you I do but I don’t know I didn’t see you anymore and I was pushed back to when I looked up and you were gone” I can’t hold back the tears anymore “and I blamed myself wanting to apologize for whatever it was that I did and then you were there right next to me and I felt even fucking worse because I lost trust in because I didn’t see you for 3 minutes and I hated that I didn’t trust you what type of person automatically thinks like that when you’ve done nothing but reassure me that it was a one time mistake that we agreed to leave in the past fuck I ruin everything” I say just cry at this point and he immediately hugs me holding me as I cry

 “Jessica this ache you feel right now is proof that you love this man and we all know it but you have to stop letting your anxiety take over in these types of situations you two promises at the beginning of this year to what dead the issue and never use it against the other and 7 months later you lose confidence in him what else does he have to do for you to feel secure in this relationship because soon you too will be making the ultimate commitment and you don’t want to be too far in and you lose him” I only cry harder because I don’t ever want to lose keigo he’s my everything and after experiencing this type of love I will never recover 

“It’s me it’s always me he did nothing wrong he just went to the damn bathroom and I thought he was gone I’m the problem here since that day he’s barely talked to me or showed affection this is the most he’s touched in the past 3 days I hurt him and I don’t wanna lose him ever I’m sorry keigo please forgive me” I say looking up at him “Jess even right now at this moment there isn’t a thought of I want to be anywhere but right here with you I’ve been distant because I didn’t know how to approach this without straight up asking if you didn’t trust me I still love you and I always will it just sucks you think i would do that”he says wiping the tears from my face “I love you too and I do trust you I just felt lost in that moment my anxiety took over and thought the worst” 

“Jessica did you feel like he could possibly recreate history before you noticed he was in the bathroom” “the entire week and I know I should’ve said something but it was just a small voice in my head going it’s going to happen again over and over and it just got louder as the day approached” “anytime anything like that is going on in your head get it out go to him and sit down and say hey I feel like xyz talk it out stop keeping things in your head we’ve determined the longer you sit with something the more it triggers your anxiety so just get it out no matter what it is something you don’t like or just getting reassurance that something isn’t going to happen just talk him use your words ok” she says “okay” “now keigo do you forgive her” she says looking at him and I lift my head from his shoulder to look at him as well “yeah I do” he said pulling me closer “your going to go back home and be your usual all over each other selves” she says smiling at us “yeah I’m also sorry about that” “it’s ok I get it” I say putting my head back on his shoulder “ok now back to our normal routine” 

We get in the car and he looks like he’s in deep thought “what’s on your mind kei” i say locking our fingers together “oh nothing just figuring out your punishment” I hear the word punishment but it takes me to long to process it “oh ok…wait what” “yeah you think you’re getting off that easy yeah nah you went a whole week and half  without telling  that you were thinking I was going to leave when we have a contractual agreement of” “you have 48 hours to sit the other one down and work out any grievances if not done within that time the person has to be punished for not complying fuckkk why did you have to remember that one of all the terms” i say sliding down the seat “because we both know it was made for you to make sure you didn’t do exactly what you just did” “ok I’ll accept my punishment like a champ but do I get a reward at the end if I’m a super good girl” I say looking at him “no” “oh come on please you’re going to be rough with me I can’t get the princess treatment afterwards” I say reaching over putting my hand in his lap “mmm no” he says putting my hand back in my own lap “remember that when you’re begging for me to be nicer to you when it’s your turn the be punished” I say crossing my arms 

Am I jumping for joy in the inside and also dying in the inside because yay aggressive keigo but I have a full day at AD tomorrow and I know everything is going to be uncomfortable to work in after this 

We get home and hizashi car is in the driveway so that’ll stall my punishment well at least that’s what I thought “hey my baby she broke contract has to be punished for it so we’re upstairs” he says kissing the top of hizashi head “mmm have fun good luck love” he says look back at me from the couch “your not even going to try and save me” “yeah no you put me through hell last week have fun and I don’t think you want me to help him” “ughhhhhhhh” I say getting “dragged” upstairs 

“Go ahead and take all that off” he says before walking in the closet and I’m guessing to the kink room “like completely naked” I call out taking my shirt off “no just all outer clothes”he says from the other room “if i known I was going to be like this I would wore a matching set for you sir” I say getting my pants off almost falling “doesn’t matter either way” he says coming back in the room and spinning me and pushing me forward on the bed he restrained my hands behind me and  wraps the leather band on my right thigh that I know is my arch nemesis because it holds the wand still we’ve tried others and I can always find a way to move it but this on it’s tough whoever made had me in mind because she doesn’t budge 

He places right on my clit at times like this he was like a typical man and couldn’t find it but he does every time “what did you do to deserve this” he says hands no longer on me I can’t even feel his presence around me but soon a small vibration started going through my whole body “I broke contract” I say trying to look behind me to see him “look forward how did you break contract” he says from somewhere behind me “I went a week and half without telling you about something that was bothering me” I answer and it goes up another level “so you deserve this right?” he says going up another level completely shutting off all word processing “answers the question” he says going up another level “yes yes I deserve it” “why didn’t you just say anything about it to me ” “because fuck I knew you wouldn’t so I just left it to nerves and nothing else but in that moment of not seeing you shit all reason went out of mind” “bullshit real reason go”he says making it go to its highest setting “shit ok I didn’t want you to realize that I wasn’t fully over you leaving that night I know we agreed to let it all go but I couldn’t and I hated that I couldn’t forget just as easily as you did with me leaving but fuck kei that shit hurt like no other can you blame me for being scared” he doesn’t respond immediately and I wish he just didn’t at all “yeah I can” he says turning it off and taking everything off of me “keigo wait please” I say but he just continues out the room and downstairs “FUCK” I quickly get dressed again and follow behind him 

“Please just talk to me don’t shut me out” I say walking in the kitchen “what like you do all the fucking time” he says looking at me “I’m sorry that I can’t just forget what happened you can’t actually sit here and tell me you’ve completely forgave me for leaving” “that’s what’s crazy is I did I forgave you for leaving me and not talking to me for 3 months but I guess I can’t get the same courtesy” “ok what the fuck is going on in here”hizashi says walking in the kitchen “don’t worry about it” keigo says “nahh it sounds like something i should be worried about”hizashi says looking at the both of us “come on just get it out I’m not letting this result in you two going through another not talking to each other spell” he says sitting at the table

“Ok whatever Saturday I thought he left again and we talked everything out with Ito I thought everything was ok and now this” I explain sitting down across from him “don’t forget the part of you went all of last week thinking I was going to leave started to have a fucking anxiety attack when you thought I left and just admitting to me that you still havent forgiven me for leaving that night”he says sitting across from me “ok well yeah that too” “Jessica your ‘I don’t care’ attitude is a bit annoying I hope you know that” hizashi says “I’m sorry ok but I just don’t know” it’s too much going on keigo is one sentence away from hating me and I just want to shut up and not further ruin everything “just tell me why Jess have I not proven myself enough to you I know you’ll always be hurt by that and I’m not saying erase your feelings about it but fuck what else do I have to do for you not to hold that over my head anymore” he says sitting back in his seat “I don’t know keigo I really don’t can we just talk about this later” “yeah whatever” he says getting up and leaving the kitchen

“Why do you do that” “do what hizashi” “constantly try to push him away do you want him to just give up on you” “why the fuck would I want that I’ve never been so certain of anything in my life I want nothing but him always it’s just ughhhhh I want to forgive him for it I want to forget it altogether but I can’t and not because I can’t trust him because I do I just don’t want to get hurt again” “no matter how you feel about the situation that’s on you but keep acting like this and I can’t tell you how long he’ll keep dealing with how you handle problems like this” 

He right why would he keep wanting to deal with someone who can’t be a fucking adult and talk to him when something is bothering me I deal with peoples problems 4 days out of the week I tell them to express themselves and practice forgiveness for things people in their lives are actively trying to repair and I can’t take my own advice he’s done nothing wrong shit I don’t even blame him for leaving that night I would’ve too and I know he would’ve forgave me and never held it against me why can’t I do the same he’s been with me every single day he’s changed how he handles situations now he open about everything a slight discomfort and he doesn’t hesitate to tell me so we can adjust I do the same but with certain things I can’t because shit like this happens he’s not talking to me not even looking in my direction but you know what he hasn’t done he didn’t leave old keigo would’ve walked through that door but he didn’t and I still have the thought in my that he would leave I’m such a bitch 

“Keigo I know it fucking sucks to be known only by pass mistake I’ve lived that life and I never wanna go back to that and I hate that I’m putting you through that so I’m sorry I wish it was a bigger word that I could use to show how how much I’m sorry your the best thing that has ever happened to me and I don’t wanna lose you I know if i continue to just sit around and not talk you like we’ve been desperately working towards I will and ugh I don’t even wanna think about that” I say trying to shake the thought “ok so you’re right I didn’t 100% dead the issue that day and not because I didn’t trust you I don’t hold it over you it’s just it’s a defense mechanism because if something were to happen I could just be well he did it once why wouldn’t he do it again and all of our biggest arguments has been because of me I left you because of someone who never cared about you and you’ve never went and bought any of it up because you’ve seen how much I’ve grown well obviously it’s not that much but yet I can’t let this one thing go keigo if you wanna go and be alone for a few days without me I promise you i wouldn’t blame you i sometimes wish I could get away from me” I say and he looks at me with no expression on his face “if I wanted to leave I would’ve already” out of all I just said that was the only ok I deserve it i fucked up and I can’t be picky right now 

More time goes pass and still nothing and it’s kind of killing me 

I wish I could just go on like I usually do and just forgive her and move on but I can’t I’m in my feels about this one like real bad I know it was a major mistake and if she just said I’m still hurt by it but I don’t believe you would ever do it again I would’ve been understanding about it and just talked about it but she’s still hurt over it and hasn’t forgiven me about it 

“Talk to me baby” hizashi says sitting next to me on the couch “it hurts so much” I say laying my head on his shoulder “like I was freaking out that night too because I just wanted it to be perfect and for her to know I would never do anything like that again and I’m out of her line of sight for 5 minutes and she’s already trying to figure what wrong move she’s made i know my actions were immature but goddamn” “yeah I wanted to actually kill you that night because it was dumb but I’ve seen how they act together so I know how it may seemed from the point of view of not knowing they’re relationship and on top of that her family not being the nicest at the time I get it i would’ve handled it a bit differently but I get it and I get you being extremely hurt right now and wanting the space and also if you staying in this house after all of this isn’t proof enough that you won’t do anything like that again I don’t know what is” 

It’s super late and still nothing I can’t force him to talk to me he’ll have to do it when he feels inclined to I’m laying in bed on my phone when I feel someone getting in the bed guessing it’s hizashi I don’t pay any mind he wraps his arm around me bringing me as close as possible I go to grab his hand but I don’t feel his usual rings just one “kei?” I say feeling his engagement ring “hm” he says nuzzling into my neck I’ve never felt this happy to feel him this close to me “just didn’t expect you to sleep in here tonight” “I’m not going anywhere princess so get over it” he says sounding half asleep already I envy how fast he can just fall asleep “I’m sorry” “stop apologizing and just work on forgiving me so we can finally move on from it I love you regardless and I’m not going anywhere” 

Notes:

I actually just turn my brain off and just let my thumbs do all the work so blame them not me for the kinda sad chapter not me but I PROMISE the next two are the regular happy couple your used to

Also the contrast between hizashi talking to Jess and keigo is intentional he’s not just being a dick because Jess is in the wrong and nice to keigo because he’s the one affected
It’s because he knows Jess doesn’t like to be babied and told she’s right when she’s wrong she needs the tough love to get to the finish line and he wouldn’t speak to her like that if it was any other situation but when they both know she wrong yeah she gets full dickhead hizashi

Chapter 58

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ IM BACK for this weeks upload its a pretty big shift from the last week but its lighter and back to normal and next week is a travel chapter so its LONG like 14,000 words so buckle up for that

🕺🏽enjoy

I hate to admit how close I am to Jess family with her dad we go out to golf once a week or once every two weeks depending on how busy we are we frequently talk on the phone and though text messages throughout the week I go out with her mom to lunch at least twice a month and I frequently just hang out with Jordan to keep him company during his shifts at AD but I now have another partner whose parents I’m not that close with and I hate that because hizashi is close to my mom and I’m close to either of his “baby give me ya moms number” i say handing him my phone over the back of the couch “ok but why” he says putting them in “I wanna take them out soon” “why” “what do you mean why I’m your my boyfriend now I gotta get them to love me” I say leaning over the couch “they already do they ask about you all the time” he says handing me my phone back “yeah but I don’t have a relationship with them I didn’t even have their number” “I mean after the wonderful gift you gave them I think they like you more than me” “exactly now it’s time to hone it in and make your moms LOVE me like you do” “oh they’ll never ever love you more than me” 

 

I fight with indecision on how to invite them out because a text seems to informal for a first time solo meeting and a call from an unknown number is definitely going to get declined so because I do know that they work in the same company I decided to show up around lunch with a wonderfully made vegan meal approved by hizashi himself and flowers for them so they don’t feel pressured to meet me out anywhere I’ll come to them for our first meeting “hello how can I help you” the receptionist ask when I walk up to her “hello I’m here to see Hanako and Hana Yamada” “you came at a perfect time they just got out of a meeting they’re office is at the end of the hallway” she says with a smile pointing down the hallway “thank you” 

 

I walk down the hallway and they see me through the window when I reach the door “keigo what are you doing here” Hana says opening the door for me “I’m here to hand deliver flowers and food” I say handing her a bouquet of roses and hanako a bouquet of tulips “oh they’re gorgeous thank you and whatever you have in that bag smells wonderful” hanako says smelling the flowers “thank you I made it just for you and next time I’ll make sure have the flowers cut and in a vase already for you” “oh I’ve always hoped zashi would find someone this sweet” Hana says “I know and he found two of the sweetest people how could he be so lucky” hanako adds “well I know that know me as his best friend but because of recent change of events I’ve been upgraded to the next level and I wanted to make sure I had a better relationship with the two of you” i says handing them both the carefully packed lunches “imma get a cavity if you keep talking like this” Hana says 

 

“You cooked this” hanako says after she finishes her first bite “yes ma’am I cooked it this morning” I respond “hizashi talks about you cooking all the time but this is so much better than I ever expected how did you learn to cook like this” “um only child with a mom that worked multiple jobs so I had to learn fast how to make something that was edible really quick and when I met hizashi I started to learn how to cook more vegan options for him because I was not used to cooking non vegan things” I answer “so you learned for him” “yes me and my mother aren’t anywhere near vegan nor was my boyfriend at the time you remember Kenny” “yes it was so sad what happened to him” “yeah I don’t know how you ever recovered from that” “I don’t either but with a lot of help from your son Jess and therapy I’ve been slowly getting through it but yeah the people I cooked for ate meat and animal products then he walked in and I felt bad that I cooked one day and he couldn’t eat because he forgot to mention he was vegan somehow and I’ve been finding all the alternatives I can for him” “well keigo I need you to know this is the best curry I’ve had in all of my years of veganinsm” “thank you I’m glad you like it” 

 

We sit and talk for awhile and I know the serious topics are on their way because they’ve tip toeing them the whole conversation “keigo why did you do this today” “because in all honesty I’ve a pretty great relationship with Jess’s family Jess has a great relationship with you two and hizashi has a great relationship with my mom and I can’t say the same for me and you two and now that we’re officially in a relationship I wanted to start to build more of a relationship than I had when I was just his friend” I answer and they look at each other having a very obvious conversation with eye contact “I’m pretty sure you know his relationship track record better than we do but we know that it’s not great flings and short term partners but nothing worth even meeting us so for you to be here is big but I have to ask why are you allowing this relationship you and Jess are engaged why do this with him” “because we love him sooo much me and Jess have been wanting nothing more than your son for a long time he’s like the missing piece to our puzzle we’re not doing this out of pity or greed we’ve been trying to get him to be our collective partner for 3 years now and he’s finally let us we’ve been proving to him everyday that we want him with us everyday and that we love him very much in every way possible rather that be staying up so we can sleep together after his show or something as small as making room for him in our closet so he doesn’t have to live out of bag when he’s at one of our house and I can promise we won’t abandon him if he leaves this relationship it was on his own and you will find me and Jess devastated somewhere” they smile at each other then me like they can give the final stamp of approval “all I ask of you keigo is you keep our baby happy like you’ve been doing we can see it in him that you two have drastically changed his mood for the better he looks happier than I’ve ever seen him since your new arrangement and as long as that never changes we can promise our relationship will be great” “and you have to make us this curry again and soon” I laugh out of relief “I promise and i would love to cook dinner for you two soon as well when your free of course” “we'll let you know” 

 

Since I have nothing else planned after lunch with them when I left I went to the studio with zashi “I don’t like you right now” he says as soon as I walk through his studio door “you go with flowers and food one time and they love you to pieces but when I do it it’s just a normal day in the office ” he adds “well hello to you to baby yes my day has been going wonderfully how about yours” i say sitting on the couch “your just the most loveable person ever huh” he says walking around his desk and sitting with me “I’ve heard I’m great with parents and here eat” I say handing him the same thing I gave his moms “oh god he loves me” he says looking up “you thought I wouldn’t save you any” “I didn’t know if you made enough”he says taking the first bite and feeding me the second and I’ve just had to accept that this is a part of his love language to if he’s eating your eating you can have the exact same thing infront of you and he’s going to subconsciously feed you the next bite “so how did it go” “great overall they did ask the famous question of why but they were satisfied with my answer” “what was your answer” “ because we love you so much that we want you to ourselves” I say before eating the next bite in front of me “no other reason” “what other would we need” “I don’t know no qualities of me as your boyfriend stand out” “if the question was what do I  love about you as my boyfriend I would’ve said those a million and one things but the question was why would we include you in our relationship”I clearify “oh” he says mood changing a bit “come on don’t be like that we have to expect questions like that” “I know I know but I mean I ask myself that question enough I don’t need other people asking you the same” he says putting the spoon down in the bowl “do I need to call Jess and set up another special meeting” “as wonderful as that was i would love to opt out of that” “exactly now finish eating and stop worry about that” he takes another bite looking off into space “look at me” I say and he turns stills chewing “you know we love you right” he nods his head mouth still full “so why doubt anything if we didn’t want this then we wouldn’t have did this and we'll do whatever it take for you to finally feel secure in this relationship” “I know it’s just hard even for me to understand why me of all people sometimes” I say nothing just call Jess “hey you busy” I say and he grabs the phone “it’s nothing don’t pay him any mind I love you bye” he says hanging up the phone “I really don’t have another special in me please I’m begging” “then stop acting like this or I will even if I have to do it myself” “I know you both love me very much I do I know it and I very much acknowledge it I do but I know how much you two love each other and how your relationship is progressing your two year anniversary is next week and your going to be wedding planning soon and planning on having a kid soon and I just don’t know where I fit into all of that” “you’re going to be very active in us planing the wedding because knowing Jess well have a wedding that looks like it’s a funeral and you’ll be the one marrying us and you’ll be there every step of the way in mission haru and so please don’t worry about any of that even of this wasn’t our arrangement you were still going to be doing everyone of those things” “ughhh I love you you know that” he says putting his head on my shoulder and I put my arm around him “yeah I know and I love you very much don’t ever forget that” “I won’t” then there’s a knock at the door “shit i forgot about him today”he says looking at his phone “asahi” “yeah I hate the timing of this I’ll tell him to leave” he says standing up “no no it’s ok baby go ahead all I ask is make sure you finish eating ok” “are you sure” “yeah I’m sure go ahead as your former submissive turned boyfriend I know how much I looked forward to our meetings and I don’t wanna deprive him of his I’ll see you later at home ok” “ok ok I I’ll see you later my love” he says kissing me before I opened the door “I love you and please I can’t do another special ” he says after he let asahi in “I won’t unless I feel like I need to and I love you too” I say before walking out of the studio 

 

“What was earlier phone call about” Jess says as I zip the back of her jumpsuit “oh um hizashi was going on a self doubt rant and I thought he needed another special intervention” “which I don’t so please don’t get any ideas I got the point the first time” he says from the bathroom “what why not if keigo thinks it needs to happen again obviously you didn’t get the point” Jess says handing me the corset she’s wearing tonight “I did get the point I’m very special to the both of you but you gotta think about what it’s like for me to be the new edition here” “and us fucking you till the words “I’m special” were the only words in your vocabulary wasn’t enough for you to understand that we want nothing else more than for you to be our boyfriend” “if that didn’t work I don’t know what will” I say teasing him “yes it worked but he went to see my moms and they asked why and I already went through the billion reasons why you two want me here but shit maybe I missed the one where you didn’t” “there isn’t any reason that we wouldn’t be anywhere else but here with you this relationship only works with you your indispensable no one can replace you baby” Jess says “I know” “then act like it” i says kissing his forehead “I will do anything to make that not happen again you know how much I hate overstimulation and edging and that what you do” “it wasn’t exactly a reward it wasn’t meant to be enjoyed if that was the case we would’ve fucked you one time each showered and ate that wasn’t the point if you made him repeat over and over that he was loved and deserved to be loved and the entire time fucking me told me how lucky any person would be to have me it was your turn to get it in return you think we want another one of those sessions” “speak for yourself you heard me in that video would I like to be in that head space again no but getting fucked like that again hell yes” “I mean yes I would love it again but not the point we took what was said to us and applied it no matter who it is that questions our relationship it’s a not going to affect anything we have going on we love you and you love us so we’re not going to let any outside influences ruin that ok” she says squatting down in front of him “yeah okay  I got you I love you” “I love you more” she says with a smile “you mean it” “you know I don’t say things I don’t mean and you also know I don’t just throw that word around” she says then kisses him twice “this is a really cute scene but we gotta leave soon” “yeah I know me and kaoru have a public today” “and I gotta verbally and physically harm a woman till she comes” “then come on I have a heated match of chess waiting for me I have to beat Jordan today” “as much as I’m always team you baby he was on the chess team in high school and got plenty of awards even made the national team” “shit way to hype ya man up” I say before walking downstairs 

Chapter 59

Notes:

hello loves✨ how are you?good?good. I know this is a late upload because I forgot what day it was but im here for the last of the three pre done chapters I have its a little over 15,000 words and I hope you enjoy

also if there are any grammatical errors please thug it out its 15000 words 22 pages so bare with me for awhile🕺🏽

OMG ill put it here and on the next chapter but I made a Pinterest board so you can see how I envision these people https://pin.it/2VJawuQ

What’s a better way to spend our 2nd year of being together then to go meet Jess extended family in California 

 

It was a last minute trip that her family invited us to and she was really excited to go see her grandma and aunt so all plans I had were out the window the moment she came excitedly bouncing in the living room asking me if I wanted to go with her “it’s for a week my grandma birthday is on the 26th and my mom and dad wanted to surprise her” “of course i would love to go and meet all of your family” “that sounds sarcastic” “it wasn’t I have to meet them before the wedding anyway” “right right shit you haven’t met them yet ok ok this is huge then” “yeah you think they’ll like me” “yes 100% you were the worst best friend in college” “wow ouch what was that for” “Kenny went with me and hizashi went too but you never wanted to come with me why” “I don’t know just was scared to go all the way to the states for the first time” “bullshit actual reason go” “ugh ok your family scared me you were all rich and comfortable and I was far from that my income at the time was from a man 20 years older than me they intimidated me” “thank you for the honesty but I promise you we’re not like that the more pretentious side of my family I don’t even know my aunt is a pediatrician my cousin is a middle school teacher and my grandma is a retired accountant all normal regular jobs now you walking in with the multi million dollar company will be the odd ball here” “I’m just gonna stick out like a sore thumb either way aren’t I” “yes now I gotta ask zashi if he wasn’t to come” she says getting up

 

“wait wait wait I feel like you’ve forgotten something” “oh right” she says then kisses me “well thank you but not that” “what am I forgetting” “what’s next week” “my grandma birthday” “andddddddddddddd” “I don’t know what you want from me here” “wow Jessica I thought you loved me” “what I do what am I forgetting” she thinks really hard “omg you really forgot” “forgot what” hizashi says coming from upstairs “what’s next week” “how could she forget that” “omg what is it baby just tell me” she says bringing him down on he couch“you gotta take that up with him” “kei my love my wonderful fiancé can you just tell me” “ugh I don’t want to because you should remember” “and I’m sorry you know I’m bad with dates” “when was the day that we met” hizashi says “may 14th 2012” “the day we met” “August 29th 2012” “the day you got your first submissive” “ummm march 9th 2014” “and you can’t remember our two year anniversary wow I’m less important than your first submissive I’m hurt” “what that’s not next oh shit it is I’m so sorry baby will you ever forgive me” she says latching onto me “no not at all” I say laughing at her “how did I forget that im so sorry” “we’ll celebrate properly when we get back home” “are you sure” “yeah also you need to ask hizashi if he wants to come with us” “hizashi wanna come to California for with me for my grandma birthday for a week Sunday to Sunday” “yes I just have someone cover my set Friday” “ok my dad is buying the tickets and paying for the hotel so we just have to show up” “I feel like a kid again”hizashi says“I could’ve-“ she puts her hand over mouth “shhhh no no the man wanna pay for 7 peoples flight and hotel that’s on him just enjoy it” “ok ok I’ll  shut up” 

 

We had three days to pack before we leave and that a lot because we don’t have a set itinerary I just know where going out for dinner on her birthday on Wednesday and I want to at least take Jess out on our anniversary but because I don’t know what were doing I don’t know what to pack and we leave tomorrow “princess I don’t know what to pack” I say staring at my clothes in my closet “keigo it’s not the end of the world just like two formal outfits and the rest casual attire” she says on FaceTime shes packing at home “ugh but what if I have to do more things that require formal attire” “this is a family vacation not a work trip” she says holding up a skirt that looks like a belt “ok imma just take three formal outfits two semi formal and 6 casual outfits” “we’re  gone for 7 days” “never know how I’m going to feel when I wake up fuck I gotta pack shoes” I say getting up off the floor 

 

I’m glad I’m not the only one over packed all 7 of us show up with 2 suitcases (a full size one and a medium sized one) and a carry one 

 

Our plane leaves at the weird time of 4:45 pm and we’re set to arrive at 11:30 am going backwards in time is always hard because babe I’ve already lived this day and now I gotta do it again but it’s ok I guess “I’m scared to go to the bathroom can you go with me”Jess says moving my headphone back to get my attention “princess it’s right there” I say because it’s literally two rows ahead of us “please I really have to go and I can’t go alone” she says and I can tell she’s been trying to get herself to get up for awhile now but she couldn’t get the strength to stand “ok come on princess I’ll go with you” “thank you thank you” she says kissing my cheek then standing up and taking my hand and I can tell she was dead serious about being scared by how tight she’s holding my hand “wait for me don’t leave please” she says before closing the door “I thought she would grow out of her fear of heights by now” her dad says walking up to the bathroom “nope still terrified” “the first time we came back we didn’t know about it yet and she literally cried the whole the whole flight and again three years later when we came back home” “we’ll she’s grown out of the crying but not the fear of heights” I say laughing at the image of her crying for 10 hours “and I never will it’s scary up here” she says coming out the bathroom immediately grabbing my hand “it’s safer up here then in a car but I don’t see you scared of driving” “petrified of driving but I have to do it”

 

We arrived in California and it looks exactly how I always imagined I’ve only ever been to the states once in my life and it was when I came here with Kenny to Maryland to spend the summer with his aunt(dad’s sister)and cousins when we were younger 

 

“We’re all on the same floor different rooms we’re going to go meet some old friends later so you kids can just do whatever today we’re going over to Franky's house tomorrow so don’t do anything crazy tonight” janessa says handing us the room keys “does anyone know we’re here” Jess asks “no not at all complete surprise but she kept saying how nice it would be to have all of her kids and grandkids here for her birthday” “got you so if aunt franky were to be calling me right now it would be best to not answer right” “Jordan says looking at his phone “yeah don’t answer wait answer act normal it’s 4 am at home” she says as we enter the elevator “ok hey auntie franky” he says answer the phone “no no it’s ok what’s up I was up anyway” he says continuing conversation while we exist the elevator and walking down the hallway to our room “yeah definitely I’ll make sure to call her at the right time tomorrow we’ll Wednesday” he say before entering his room and we enter ours 

 

“Ugh I hate long flights”Jess says  “10 hours non stop is a lot my legs hurt so bad” hizashi say’s stretching “my whole body hurts and I’m actually exhausted” “yeah same rock paper scissors on shower order” Jess says as we stand in a circle I won first which means I’m last and they go and hizashi is second Jess is first “ughh baby can we switch” she says sitting in my lap “no ma’am I don’t even feel like opening that suit case yet” she lets out a dramatic sigh and slide off my lap on to the floor where her suitcase is 

 

We all shower and decide to sleep setting multiple alarms so we don’t do the same thing we did in Ibiza I don’t sleep for as long as planned because my brain kept telling me we overslept when we didn’t nowhere near close to it but here I am up alone so I decided to go sit on the balcony we’re not that far from a beach so it’s a beautiful view I’m not alone for long before I hear the sliding door open “it’s so bright out here” zashi says going to sit in the other chair then deciding I was his best option “here” I say passing him my sunglasses “thanks god I’m hungry” he say laying back on my shoulder “same what you want” “what I want it 10 hours away” “well as much as i would love to get that for I can’t right now” “I know I looked at the room service menu earlier and I can’t eat a damn thing on it” “hm look through and see what you can eat” I say handing him my phone to the folder that has all the delivery apps 

 

“You left me you traitors” Jess says walking out to the balcony and sitting on the other chair “god I can’t see gimme” she says with her eyes closed taking off her glasses to replace them with my sunglasses “better what did I miss” “looking for food” “mhmm it’s super vegan out here it shouldn’t be hard” “it’s not but none of it looks appetizing” he says leaving the page of the 5th vegan restaurant “sometimes I hate being vegan not really but I do when I’m away from home” “just get whatever today and I’ll make auntie franky cook for you tomorrow” Jess says standing up “where you going” I say before she walks back in the room “Jordan’s at the door” she walks in open the door then come back “hey  we found a seafood restaurant and wanted to ask if you wanted to come with us but  I can’t for the life of me remember of you can eat seafood”Jordan says looking at hizashi “nahh I can’t thanks for thinking of me though”hizashi says “neither can I” I say “seafood allergy vegan and that sounds good as fuck” Jess says “wanna come with us” she looks back at us “you remember what you gotta do after you eat it” “yes I have to wash my hand thoroughly after I’m done brush my teeth and change my clothes when I get back” she says going through the list “ok have fun” “ok see ya later i love you” she says kissing hizashi then me “give me like 40 minutes I need to change” she says going back in the room with Jordan “how bad is your allergy that she has to change” “it’s gotten pretty bad I didn’t know how bad till I got back from convention hell went to the doctor and did an allergy test and they said I can’t eat it anymore” “you could eat it at first” “yeah it didn’t develop till later in life” “that sucks” “yeah but back to you what do you want to eat” “ugh I don’t know let’s just get pizza or something because all I can think about is Jess aunt cooking right now”

 

The day of meeting Jess extended family is here we’re in the car now and I’m nervous what if aunt franky doesn’t like me or worse her grandmother hates me did she feel this way when she met my family 

 

The nerves only get worse when we park outside of the house of our first meeting of the week aunt franky “don’t worry she’s going to love you” Jess says holding my hand and I don’t feel to nervous because this is their first time meeting mileena as well so I don’t think alll of the heat will be on me we get to the door and James knocks and a few seconds later a woman who looks identical to her mom opens the door damn they are twins she looks at us and it takes a second to set in who we were before she lost it hugging her sister tightly then James “what are you doing here oh my baby’s are so grown up now” she says hugging Jess and Jordan at the same time “oh hizashi just as handsome as always”she says going to hug him and she see me and mileena just slightly behind “ok mileena you are even more beautiful in person”she goes for the hug with her first “keigo” I freeze for a second of course she knows my name why wouldn’t she she’s very active in jess life she calls to check in multiple times a week so why am I scared that she knows my name “pictures do you no justice” she says before hugging me and I let out a breath of relief

 

 “come in come in” she says making everyone go inside the house holding on my arm “I was just about to start thinking about what I was going to cook tonight” “Frank honestly anything from you would be great”Janessa says “mhm whatever nessa” she says a with a bright smile “dietary restrictions or allergies” she says looking around the room “vegan” hizashi says “seafood allergy” i say she looks at me “really” “yeah I love seafood but recently was told I need to stop eating it” “poor baby” she says putting her hand on my arm laying her head on my shoulder “auntie are you trying to steal my fiancé” Jess says laughing “no but he’s my right hand for today I have an idea on what to make but I need to head to the store come on” she say grabbing her purse and keys “we’ll be back” she leads me out to the car “you drive” “yes maam” “ok here you go I’ll let you know where to go” she hands me the keys and goes to the passenger side 

 

“So keigo how are you” “I’m doing good you?” “So much better now that my family is back home it’s always been the worst to have my niece and nephew be so far away from me” “yeah I can only imagine being this far away from my family” “turn up here do you have a big family” “no blood relative wise just me and my mom but I have people who also been there since I was a kid” I say turning “you plan on expanding your family” “yes ma’am and soon I hope” “have you two been trying” “not at the moment but we’ve talked about the timeline of when we will” “your the first person she’s bought back that wasn’t just a friend of hers and your engaged already how long have you two been together” “um 3 years total but 2 years romantically” “isn’t that a bit fast” damn franky I thought we were friends “I’ve known Jess since I was 18 and other than Kenny she’s been the only person that I’ve loved to this degree and I’ve been and in my fair share of shitty relationship and I’ve never felt love like this ever and I don’t want anyone one else to do so so yeah it was pretty fast and we’re planning on not getting married till after the 3 year mark” I can’t tell if she’s satisfied with my answer or not but the silence is killing me “I’m not doing this to make you uncomfortable in any way just after Jordan and mileena getting married only after a year of being together I just don’t want you two to realize that your better of just friends” “i can promise that’s not going to happen we’ve had more downs then I would like to have and a lot of failed attempts at things but we’ve done a lot to make sure that we’re on the same page about this all and I know you’re just concerned about the happiness of niece and I can promise you one thing I don’t strive to do anything to ever hurt her I have in the past over insecurity I’ve had to get through and I’m doing my best to make sure the only emotion she ever feels is happiness” franky signals for me to turn into the parking lot of the grocery store “Jess is very important to me and you’re very important to her I see how happy she has been since you’ve been back in her life full time and I need you to promise me it’ll never change” she says as I park “first and last name please”i say turing to her “Veronica Martin” “Veronica Martin I promise you that I will always make sure that Jessica will always and forever be the happiest girl in the world I’ll take good care of her I promise” “ok as long as you keep that promise to me you’ll be on my good side” she says smiling at me “okay” I say smiling back “now let’s go in here and buy some food” “yes ma’am” “stop with the formalities we’re family” “okay” 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

How’s it going???

I hope she isn’t grilling you too bad

Just be honest and don’t take anything heart she means well 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Princess she loves me we’re good 

She did make me think she hated me for a second but we’re good 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Really ok 

Whew I was getting worried that she was intimidating you 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Nahh she just wanted to know the man marrying her favorite niece 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

He’s great I hope she knows that 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I hope she does too

Iloveyou 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Iloveyoutoo 

 

“So what do you do for a living” she says looking at the selection of spices on the shelves “I’m the ceo of a hospital technology company” “how fancy how long have you been there” “it started off as just a undergraduate senior project that me and a friend had to complete together but after 2 years of endless working we were able to get of the ground and get we are now” “so about 9 years are you profitable” “very” “question” “yes” “when was the last time Jess paid for anything” I can tell this is a JUST how rich are you question “at the moment because she won’t let me pay for anything in the house until I move in full time now but everything else never she’s doesn’t even bring her wallet out anymore” “you don’t live together yet I thought you did” “we do we switch weeks between each other house” “so you haven’t moved in full time yet” “no not yet but beginning of next year I’m moving in to her house we thought about finding a home that would be our together but we just got our now homes not that long ago and we decided i would just move into hers since my condo is paid off” “your going rent out your condo” she says putting the hand full of spices in the cart “nahh the utilities aren’t that much that I can’t keep the place fully functional” “really I couldn’t imagine doing anything like that and paying for bills in a another house” “auntie I don’t brag often but it’s not going to get to any point where i would even notice the difference” “my baby girl found her a wealthy man huh” “yes yes she did” we share a laugh and continue to walk the aisle 

 

We get back to the house and everyone is either in the living room or dining area Jess sitting at the end of the couch she stood up and I stopped moving she gets up and kisses me “what’cha get” Jess says following me into the kitchen “I was told not to say” I say putting the bags on the counter “since when have started keeping secrets” “when I told him not to tell you now get out my kitchen and hizashi my love foot off the chair” “sorry” he says putting his foot down “you sure you don’t need any help” I ask after getting all the stuff out the bags “yes I got it go relax” she says and I leave out the kitchen couch full so my brain goes hizashi lap is empty goes to sit but remember our previous agreement and just sit on the floor in front of him and Jess 

 

Previous agreement 

• No talk of sexuality 
• Our relationship dynamic is died down in front of family to not warrant any confusion and arise of questions ie no PDA between any of us to hizashi

I hate that we even have to have this agreement but to not have to deal with this trip purpose being overshadowed by us all being in a relationship and hizashi is the one that came up with this so don’t come for me and for clarification we’re only keeping it low key while we’re here James janessa Jordan Mileena already know about our relationship because it would actually be impossible to hide from them and with the help of their input of how this could possibly open up a world wind of questions and doubts about our relationship it was just the best decision but it is killing me to have to keep my touches platonic 

 

“Wanna go sit out back” Jess says “yeah” I say standing up we all go out back to the deck out back but instead of sitting there Jess and hizashi goes down the stairs to the yard they’re a bit ahead of me so when I turn the corner from the stairs and see them kissing I see the true purpose of our trip outside 

 

“Ahh I get it now” “what it’s your fault I got so use to constantly being affectionate it’s killing me” he says coming in for a kiss “we’re too grown to have to be hiding being affectionate” I say when we separate “entirely but we have a complicated relationship and this week is about my grandma not us being in a super hot relationship” Jess says kissing me “yeah it’s only when we’re around them we have plenty of time” hizashi says kissing her again then me “where those three go” we hear franky say from the deck “down here I was showing them your amazing garden” Jess says walking back from under the deck “oh come back in foods done babies” she says before going back in “I didn’t even see the plants” hizashi says turning and seeing the actually beautiful garden behind him“ yeah it’s pretty as hell” I say before going up the steps 

 

We all eat around the table conversation primarily between the (older) adults and it was all great and dandy till “so Jessica what’s taking so long on giving your parents a grand baby” franky we talked about this earlier remember the timeline “well we wanted to do other things first before we bought a baby into the world” “like what your both very successful in your careers your so what is it your closer to 30 than these two might need to get on it” she says referring to mileena and Jordan “yeah I am but it’s not like we’ve been together since our early 20s we started dating at 26 we only just started talking about having kids a few months ago” Jess says with a twinge of annoyance in her voice but still very respectful “franky they’re not like us they’re doing it the right way it’s ok for them to not be parents at this moment” janessa says “you were her age when you were pregnant with Jordan and I already had Britney by 28” and now I’m starting to see the more traditional side of her family “am I and I mean this in the most respectful way am I being chastise for not having kids in my early 20s like the rest of you” “exactly franky you gotta remember we didn’t plan Jess like you planned brittney having her was the best thing that ever happened to us but she damn sure changed everything in our lives and I don’t want her to miss out on life because she’s trying to live up to some weird misogynistic standard of she should have a bunch of kids by now she just got her career started just got her first home on her own and a man that loves her dearly so I’m sorry that my daughter didn’t give up her very eccentric life to have kids to please you” James say in the most matter of fact tone I’ve ever heard it was actually kinda crazy “i never said she should’ve given up on her lifestyle to have kids just it’s not too long before it becomes harder to have them biologically” “auntie I have 3 advanced degrees a private practice and am fully self sufficient and have been for many years now I’ve had many great academic accomplishments in my life been to amazing places have had some of the most amazing experiences experienced love many people never get to and honestly that is all more worth it then having a child entirely to early in life I’ve never felt really ready for that and I take no offense to my dad saying that my arrival was something that stunted their life experience cause I know it did and I also see why they ran away from here and never wanna come back I’m 27 not 40 I still have years before I need to really worry about my biological clock and I’m 100% ok with adoption and surrogacy” the room goes quiet and awkward as hell because why Jess just eat that lady up like that 

 

Her hands are shaking and her leg is bouncing under the table I grab her hand and hizashi has placed his hand on her thigh to stop the bouncing the last thing we need is an anxiety attack right now of all times Jess is far from confrontational so I know that was a lot for her 

 

When we get back to the hotel Jess just goes out to the balcony closing the glass door behind her “she physically shut us out” hizashi says “yeah I don’t think she wants to be around us right now” “do you blame her” “yeah nahh I don’t that was a lot I just want her to be too beat up about it” “yeah franky is her favorite and this is def gonna drive a wedge between them” 

 

I need someone that wasn’t present tonight to vent to so I call touya immediately after I close the door “what it’s to early to be talking to you”he says placing his phone down and I can see he’s getting ready for work “stop being mean to me I need my older brother right now” “lord what happened do I need to be on my way” he says picking the phone back up“my goddamn aunt man she really pissed me off  tonight” “why what did she say”he says buttoning his shirt “ok so first she takes keigo with out to the store to practically attack him to see if he was “fit” for me then at dinner jump down my throat about not having kids yet” “you just got in a relationship like 4 seconds ago why would you already have kids that don’t even make sense” “EXACTLY saying that we don’t have as much time as Jordan to have kids well duh there 24 and met when they were 20 me and keigo didn’t start fucking till we were 26” “franky is your mom’s sister right” “yeah” “makes sense that’s how she was raised you can’t be that mad at her she was still extremely outta pocket for that though” “she’s from the family that exiled my mother for being pregnant with me a 24 and “ruining” her life but I’m getting the bio clock is running out talk because I’m not 27 with 2 kids i honestly want kids I do but if I don’t have them I could still die happy and with no regrets” “would keigo” “yes he didn’t even want kids till earlier this year” “that’s crazy that she upset that you didn’t do the same thing that got your mom disowned” “exactly and it’s pissing me off this week is supposed to be super happy and cheerful but no I can’t fucking kiss or touch my boyfriend outside of this room because as open minded as this family says they are they would have a stoke if they found out me and fiancé are also madly in love with another man and I’m getting barraged with questions about babies I’m not even ready for” “baby girl come back home so you can be free of the conservative traditional life” “god I can’t wait to get back home my anniversary is on Thursday and im not going to be able to celebrate properly I should’ve stayed my ass home” I say putting my head down on the table “and miss out on seeing your grandma I don’t believe you” “shut up no one said to be right” “don’t let this one thing ruin your trip you don’t even have to see her again while you’re there just focus on grandma birthday and you being with the love of your life for 2 consecutive years”

 

“ugh I love him” I say sitting back up “go tell him that it’s 7 in the morning I need to go to work like a normal adult does” “ok thanks touya I appreciate you so much” “just tell me your love me and I’m the best older brother ever” “you will never get the satisfaction” “whatever I’ll just go on about my day not feeling loved it’s ok I guess I am up on the phone with you letting you get all of your emotions out like the good friend that I am but it’s ok” “I love you touya” i say like I’m being forced “it’s ok you don’t have to say it like you mean because I’m the person you chose to stand by you when you get married so I know you love me dearly” “I do so much I don’t know what i would do without you” “and I love you too but I seriously have to get to work so I’ll talk to you later” “okay” we hang up and my first thought is god what would I do without him and my second is I’m about to go give my man the nastiest head he’s ever gotten why those two thoughts back to back I don’t know but I need to act on that second one fast 

 

Jess finally come back in the room after we’ve both showered and changed “princess the bathroom all yours” i say sitting at the foot of the bed “yeah I don’t really care do you mind” she says getting on her knees in front of me taking her glasses off “no not at all” she gets me out of my pants and proceeded to give me the best head I’ve ever gotten EVER “fuck princess oh my god” I say looking down at her she looks up at me and if I was standing I would’ve fell she looks so pretty with my dick in her mouth crazy sentence I know but fuck she does “damn girl” I say seconds away from coming “I think she want it baby” hizashi says wrapping his arms around me from behind “don’t you sweetheart” he says and she hums yes in response sending a shiver down my spin “then give it to her baby she wants it so bad she deserves it” he says kissing the side of my neck and I cum in her mouth the way she moans when I do it  makes all logic leave my brain “tell him thank you sweetheart” hizashi says tilting her head up so she’s looking up at us all of the makeup on the bottom half is a mess red lipstick all over her chin and cheek eye makeup half gone and smudged from tears falling when she got as much of me in her mouth and she looked fucking beautiful “mmm thank you baby” she says laying her head on my thigh “you deserved it princess you did so well for me” “just well” she says sitting up sitting back on her legs “you did great baby girl” I say fixing myself and bringing her up in my lap “you love me”she says looking at hizashi “I love you baby”he responds “you love me”she says looking at me “I love you princess”

 

“sorry for my aunt being an ultra conservative ahole” “I mean mines did the same to you so we’re even” “god could you imagine if she knew I was a domintrix” she says laughing “I don’t even wanna think about that because instead of when are you going to have kids it would’ve been do you think your lifestyle is suitable for having a kid” hizashi says “yeah and i dont want to explain that i don't plan to stop just because i have a kid”jess says “you're going to be madam jess till your 80… that really doesn't sound right mistress jess just has a better ring to it” “i know it does but im only mistress jess to my sweet baby keigo” she says pushing my hair back “exactly only me” i say wrapping my hands around her waist and laying my head on her chest “you spoil him too much” “and you don't kei get whatever he wants from you” “no he does not he gets that from you” “can i have a kiss sir” i say looking back at him “of course you can kitten” he say lovingly before kissing me “you are the biggest hypocrite” jess says laughing at him “what my kitten asked for a kiss” he says laughing back

 

“this is a real cute scene you know that” James says scaring the hell out of us “just 20 minutes earlier and you would have hated your decision  on just walking in here” jess says reaching on the desk for make-up wipes “mm i see but anyways today was a mess and i know it took a lot out of you too stand up to your aunt franky like that” “yeah it was either that or actually exploded so” she says wiping her face “yeah but I wanted to check on you sweetheart” “I’m good it felt good for you and mom to be on my side for once so I appreciated that” “well as much as you think we’re not we’re always gonna be team Jessica especially against the stuff at which we’re the driving reason we left” “is this the first time you've had to do that because the way you and mom were talking it didn't feel like it”  “no its not actually weve been having this fight with her since you turned 20 when you were with that god awful guy from school she called after you told her and told us that we should be talking to the kids parents and seeing how our values match up because soon you would be having kids and we needed to know the type of people were having enter our family” shocked wasnt even the word that could describe the look on all of our faces at this moment “and you continue to let me have a relationship with her for 8 years after that conversation” “yeah at the time our relationship wasnt the best either so i couldn’t see you actually believing me at the time if i did tell you” “that i wouldve believed definitely because when i was living here and had that boyfriend in highschool she would ask me a bunch of weirdly intrusive questions to ask a 10th grader” jess says “yeah it was a lot but now you see why we werent really involved in this part of you life because we never wanted you to  feel like how we did when we were age” “yeah thanks for that because if ya think i didnt like ya then add constant asking about marriage and kids all the time and whew” “we knew you would come around to the idea one of all of this on your own and even if you didnt we knew by 30 you two would be married either way” he says pointing at her and hizashi 

 

“yeah now you gotta settle with keigo…and me” hizashi says laughing “as much as this relationship confuses me it also makes so much sense for the three of you” he says with a genuine smile “what confuses you” i ask “i don't know just how do you work out issues like what if god forbid something happens and jess and hizashi wanna break up and keigo and hizashi wanna stay how do you settle that and even smaller than that you two anniversary is at the end of the week does he attend the celebrations or not” “well we would have to cross that first bridge if we unfortunately get there and the second one their relationship is still the same that was something i made very clear so anniversary their honeymoon stuff like that will just be them” “hm ok i get it now” “also jess your dad remembered and you didn't” “oh my god i know i'm sorry that i forgot that it was this week i didn't forget that it was coming up” “jessica how could you forget” her dad says playing along she makes a fake crying sound and walks in the bathroom “i thank god everyday that she gave me another chance at being in her life anyways its late so ill leave you kids be for tonight”he says before leaving the room

 

Its pretty much another free for all day and so i decide to go out with jordan to breakfast because neither of our partners were awake with us “how ya doing after yesterday” he says looking at the menu “pretty good i wish i didn't feel like i do right now about her but i can't help but feel like shes pushing the same things on us like they did mom” “yeah we haven't really had the conversation about having kids yet and she asks every time she calls if we're trying yet” “its weird right or is it just me” “no its weird 100% we haven't even been married a year yet and she's on our asses about it mileena parents haven't even asked us about when or if were having kids yet” “its super weird and i personally would like for it to never happen again but enough about that the law school you applied to did you hear back yet” “no not yet it'll probably be another week or so before i do” “you're going to be leaving me soon im gonna miss you”i say knowing when he gets in it means his assistant contract is over “ill still be with you till i at least graduate and get a job im gonna need my by weekly pay while in school” he says smiling at me “so the dream team not breaking up yet” “nahh not yet” “hm in march ill be able to raise your pay too” “trynna make me stay forever” he says “maybe”

 

We talk about a little bit of everything while waiting for our food till “excuse me i hate to interrupt but by any chance is your mother name janessa martin”a older lady says to us “at one point of her life” jordan says “god you look just like your mother”she says looking at me “thank you but who are you” “oh i'm sorry i know this must be weird weve never met um can i sit” “yeah sure” our table is meant for 3 people so there is a spear chair “ok so weve never met because i haven't talked to your mother in almost 28 years”she says and i put two and two together and obviously this our “grandmother” “i was an unreasonably person i told her that you were the worst thing that could ever happen to her and it made me lose my daughter and missing out on two beautiful grandchildren” she says and i feel no remorse in me and when i look over at jordan i can see he's not entertained either “yeah you did and the way you raised her you almost made us miss out on having a mother that loved us unconditionally”jordan says “yeah not to kick you while your down but how you raised you kids made them hard to love and im so glad she relaized that how you raised her was wrong so we can have a good relationship with her” “not the first time hearing that but i stand by pushing them to being the best possible versions of themselves look at me i have a daughter whose a pediatrician and the other a well known lawyer neither of them talk to me anymore but i know that i did my job” “im sorry but you think thats a job well done both of your only children dont talk to you but oh because they have successful jobs it’s ok” i say not seeing how that’s a good thing “no it’s not but I at least did one good thing for them I could’ve ruined them and they could have a bad relationship with their mother and struggling in life” i mean we’ll shit she not wrong “so what do you do for a living I know brittney is a teacher but i know nothing about the two of you only thing I know is your names both start with J “Jessica Jordan psychologist and he’s my assistant for the time being” i say “I’m waiting to hear back from law schools I applied to” he adds “both have on wedding rings how long” “10 months” “engaged” “aw can I see you partners” she says and as much as we don’t really want her to have much information about us we can’t help but to show off our loved ones “oh she’s gorgeous Jordan is this from the wedding” he nods in response I show her keigo and her face lights up a bit “switch tech ceo correct”she says looking at the picture “yes that’s right” “he’s doing some great things in the medical field a few former colleagues of mine have used the heart monitor and says it has saved so many of their patients” yeah my man be saving lives “I’m glad to see the two of you are doing well I appreciate this thank you” she says standing up and leaving right when our food comes out 

 

“Do we-“ Jordan says “we’ll deal with that later” i say knowing what he was about to ask “okay” he says dropping it “but it’s like 8:00 in the morning” “I know Jordan just eat the eggs bro” I say and he laughs and starts to eat 

 

From: Mother Dearest 🚺

Your father took hizashi and keigo golfing with him

To:Mother Dearest 🚺

It’s 9:00 in the morning they weren’t even up when I left

From:Mother Dearest 🚺

Well they just left an hour ago 

To: Mother Dearest 🚺

Ok definitely about to come and bother you then 🤪

From:Mother Dearest 🚺

Sweetheart it’s 9:00 in the morning 

To: Mother Dearest 🚺

Even better 🤭

 

After we ate we decided to go walk around beach for a while before coming back to the hotel 

 

Jordan goes back to his room and i knock on my moms door till she answers “10 in the morning and you have so much energy already why” she says letting me in “because I’m excited for our first official mother daughter *dramatic deep breath in and out* talk” i says sitting on her bed “oh lord what is it” she says sitting in front of me on the bed “so me and Jordan go to the restaurant across the street for breakfast because we were both up obscenely early this morning and you will never guess who greets us” “ummm i don’t know a random celebrity” she says not even trying “no somebody you haven’t talked to in almost well no you haven’t talked to them in 28 years” “god that was a long time ago who” I just look at her till she eventually gets it “Oh oh ohh what did she say did she make you two uncomfortable or offensive because I know I haven’t talked to her in 2 decades but I will go and tell her about herself” “no she just asked about our jobs and how long we’ve been married and that she knows she was a shitty parents but she stands beside her choices which I still don’t get because neither of you two talk to her but she just content with not talking to you because you have prestigious jobs” “wait so instead of asking about your wellbeing or anything that matter she asked your jobs” “yup you know your side of the family is just like really bad you know that” I say putting my head in her lap “yeah sweetheart I know that’s why I packed up my life and left I love my sister I do but I keep contact minimal because she holds those same values as our her mother holds and I never did I may not have enjoyed you shaving your head getting your tongue pierced and moving 6 hours away to work in a bdsm dungeon but i wouldn’t go back and change any of it because you got to live and see life for what it is I didn’t my only goals in life for my whole life was get good grades get into Ivy League get to law school pass the bar get married and have kids which I did all of but I wish in between that I wish it was like get good grades be a kid you know” she says looking off into space “when are we going to get pass me shaving half of my hair off not all of it just half and all of that did not happen at the same time” I say looking at up her 

 

“it felt like it happened all at once my sweet baby was growing up fast and I was scared that you would do the same thing I did when I was at that age I still to this day don’t know what possessed me to cut you off like that I hated myself for it because why would I as soon as you graduate take away your finances it was so dumb but you turned out to be pretty responsible and work your ass off to make it on your own” “yeah don’t beat yourself up over I forgave you along time ago for that because it was very much needed I love being able to say I was able to get her with no assistance from you guys because I was always handed things because you guys had the money so being able to get 2 degrees a private practice a huge home and a car on my own feels dope as fuck” “yeah and we’re so goddamn proud of you and we know as much as you presented that you hated us we knew that you didn’t” “yeah if I did you would’ve never saw me again but I crave your approval so I could never fully go no contact because I always just wanted to hear that you specifically was proud of me” I’ve never said that out loud before but I mean it “and I’m sorry I took so long to tell you” she says planting a kiss on my forehead

 

 “I showed a her a picture of kei and she knew him from his company and said that the heart monitor he made has been like really saving people” “yeah I’ve been hearing the same he bought me back to the office one day after one of our lunches and on of my clients saw and told me how thankful she was to him because it helped them detect early signs of a heart attack and they were able to counter it before it happened he’s doing some revolutionary things” “I know it makes me feel a bit guilty that I was upset that it kept him away at work for a week during its final testing” “he’s that involved with testing and stuff” “every step of the way from the sketch to the final product” “him and hizashi are the only people I’ve ever felt safe with you being with well romantically anyway they take care of you so well and and they’re just great people in and out” “yeah I’m very lucky in that department” I say smiling I love how supportive of this relationship my parents are and their very vocal about it like golf has always been a James keigo thing but he went of his way to invite hizashi as well even though I’m pretty sure it was against his will but not the point

 

“I have a habit of fucking things up so can I ask genuinely what’s the secret to a long healthy marriage” “hmm let me think” “I mean you and dad have been together for 30 years now what’s your secret” i say sitting up “one thing I can say that is a bit rooted in misogyny is make sure he happy do small things for him to show you care and I mean from laughing at unfunny jokes and tying his tie in the morning before work and your father reciprocates by surprise dates and gifts and taking care of home things but if it’s something you know will make his life a bit easier just do it and I’ve been around you and keigo enough to know that you don’t even use your brain around him so I know he’s holding up his end of this do you” she says and I mean she’s not wrong and the more I think about it I don’t really “no see I’m a terrible wife already” i says throwing my hands up “no your not come on think what is something you do everyday or anytime that you do just to make his life a bit easier” “ummmm oh our work calendar got linked somehow one day and I remind him of meeting and other notable things he has to do that day” “see that’s one I know there’s another” “let me think ahh here’s some nuclear family bullshit every since we were in college he’s hated ironing so to prevent him from going out into the world wrinkled as hell I do the ironing ou and the laundry” I say “see there ya go see they might not seem like huge things to you but you telling him hey you have this meeting and this lunch today while handing him a freshly washed and ironed shirt in the morning makes his day just 10x more easier now how about hizashi” “god what don’t I do for hizashi days after his show if he doesn’t come back home with us I text him at 11:20 and call him at 11:30 because he thinks waking up at noon is a sin and a waste of the day and I have to frequently text him while at work to make sure he eats pre-check restaurants to make sure he can eat there” “those small things mean so much to him and he probably doesn’t even think about those things anymore because you’re there just making sure those things happen you make his life just that much easier your a great partner so don’t write yourself off like that” “ugh what would I do without you” “I don’t know but I’m just glad you came to me for this” she says smiling “who else would I go to for this” “I don’t know nemuri for instance” “she wouldn’t be much help here her and sho are married by law but not romantically I needed advice from someone who's been married for a while” “oh and I know this is gross to hear from your mom but another way to keep a healthy marriage is to have plenty of se-“ “no no no no didn’t need that part” “what all I’m saying is it’s the secret key you want something done around the house or just want something in general just give him one good *wink* and I promise it’s done it works every time” she says laughing “mom please stop” I say joining her laughter then my dad and my loves walk through the door 

 

“What a joy seeing my two favorite girls laughing” he says “hey princess did you miss us”keigo says hugging when I’m in front of him and I nod “This is the longest you three have been apart no contact ever isn’t it”my dad says “yes it is first you steal keigo to do the most boringest sport ever and now you take hizashi too he’s not a golf guy” i say to my dad “I am not but when there are korn tickets on the line I can’t help but stand in the sun and play a actually interesting game of golf” “I’m sorry did I hear something about tickets to see korn or am I hearing things”I say not hearing anything else he said“no I was able to make some calls to some people I know out here and get them for you I’ve had been forced against my will to listen to them for years and I know you’ve never seen them live so” “i yeah I think this warrants for this statement you have to be the best dad ever you know that omg i bought the perfect outfit for this too oh my god I’m excited” “oh my god James she loves us” my mom say’s shocked as he dramatically sits on the bed “yes I do I love you very much” I say hugging them both “we love you too sweetheart” my dad says hugging me back “ok I’ll leave you two be” I say letting them go 

 

“I can’t believe I’m going to see fucking korn in real life with my own eyes and ears” Jess says laying on the bed am I excited for this concert hell no I’ve been to my fair share of metal band concerts and it’s 100% not my scene like at all do I know the music yes I’ve lived with Jess long enough to know that they are her favorite band I know the music I like the music but I don’t like mosh pits and the general vibe of metal bands fans like at all but for my princess I will succumb to loud obnoxious yelling for three hours and never complain to her about it because being able to watch her be happy is worth it in the end 

 

“Keigo doesn’t wanna go” hizashi says sitting next to her hey dickhead I was prepared to take that to the grave “what really you don’t wanna go” she says and she looks crushed by the statement “no not true”i say back quickly “bullshit”he responds “ok he’s right I really don’t but I’ll go for I wouldn’t want to miss the look on your face when you see them” “no I don’t want to force you to go if you don’t want to I promise you it’s ok if you say you don’t wanna go I get it’s not your scene at all”she says standing “ are you sure” i say because if she’s giving me a free pass I’m gonna take it “yeah I’m sure I don’t want you to be miserable for hours for me if you go I want you to have fun not be miserable”she says wrapping her arms around my waist “ok because I didn’t even pack clothes to wear for an metal concert” “you really need to dirty up your style a bit” hizashi says “why so I can look like you” “and what wrong with how I dress” “nothing it looks fucking hot on you just not my style baby” “I like how kei dresses it’s honestly hot as fuck like hizashi your style is just the masc version of me but keigo his whole business professional professor vibe he got going on makes my knees weak mmm” she says looking at me like she I’m the most delicious thing known to man “and I love that you always have my favorite parts of you on display for me to see” “oh then your gonna love my outfit tonight then I just wish I had my fur boots with me” “that store we went to the first time you bought me here still open” hizashi says “omg let me look” she lets me go and then searched something on her phone “fuck yes their still open but I’m not going to be able to get them back” “I’ll have them shipped back to the house come on” I say grabbing my phone and wallet “what really” she says stunned “yeah come on” 

 

We get to this store that in a strip mall and from the outside you can tell it’s vibe metal band posters all over the windows so you can’t see in but somehow can see out when you get in the store “ahh feels like home” Jess says walking in it’s a emo kids dream in here Jess and hizashi run loose in the store I look around and the merch section here is fucking insane and I know I mostly dress more professional most days but when I dress down I do mostly do dress like more or less street wear style so I will be buying many of these band tees “I have to go and buy a new suitcase” Jess says when she’s near me “just get whatever you princess we’ll worry about that later” “whatever I want” she says smiling like she’s about to wild out “there’s no limit go crazy you too kid I’m feeling generous” I say to her and hizashi “perks of having a extremely rich boyfriend I can get used to it” he says picking up a vintage style korn tour tee 

 

We get pretty much everything in the damn store spending A LOT OF MONEY but I mean what’s 10k really but to them it must be a lot because the owner came out and personally thanked me and told me come back even threw in some free shoes for Jess now we have to go buy three new suitcases maybe 5 who knows it’s a bunch of shit “these ones should work right” I say looking at the same brand of luggage I already have “yeah but 5 extra bags is crazy I think we went overboard in the store” Jess says “princess when is the next time you plan on coming back here” I say turning to her “never honestly” “exactly I’ll have them shipped home Friday through the mail and call to see if touya or ten can go pick them up for us ok I told you not to worry and you’re worrying” “ok ok I’ll stop worrying also I want the pink one” she says and we both look at her “what a alt girl can’t like pink” “no no just didn’t expect you to want pink” “I mean yeah no but your whole ad room is pink so I guess I’m not that surprised” hizashi says rolling the two big pink suitcases to her “I’ll only need one extra I just mainly got clothes” “yeah same but for good measure we’ll get an extra carryon bag” I say 

 

“I gave the extra ticket to Jordan so that’s taken care of I have the perfect outfit for tonight thanks to you it’s complete and I can look HOT tonight” Jess says looking in her suitcase for said outfit “also I bought our collars you know just in case and I wanna wear mine tonight can I” “submissive collar or dominant collar” i ask sitting next to her on the floor she looks at the case she keeps them in and her options are a simple black on the outside heart ring loop on the front inside silk lined personalized to say princess and the other a more out there design it’s a red band with the word princess in gold letters on it “I really wanna wear the submissive one tonight but it doesn’t go with the fit so well go dom one” she says closing the case “what are you wearing tonight anyway” “um this with this and these oh and these too” she puts 5 items in my lap “ok so this shirt is very see though I see why we got nip covers did you do this to the stocking or did you buy them like this please say you didn’t pay for this” I say looking at a pair of destroyed stocking like I don’t even know how she’s going to put them on “I did it” “oh thank god i don’t know what this is leg warmers and 3 belts ok bottoms what are you wearing” “this is the bottom it’s a skirt” “baby that’s a headband” i say holding it up which makes her laugh hysterically “I promise you it’s not” she says finally calming down “and I thought you said you like your favorite parts of my body being on display” she says moving her hand in my lap “I do but love you can’t tell me this isn’t a headband” I say making her laugh again “I have one question would I have to move it if I were to theoretically were to fuck you in it” “um yeah no not at all” “so can you grant me one request” “anything” “please be careful tonight” “I promise I will be careful” “and I’ll be there nothing is going to happen to your princess” hizashi says coming out the steaming bathroom I don’t know how he takes such hot showers “you need to hurry and give me a name only you call me kei has princess you call him kitten so when am I going to get my new name” “I don’t know it has to just happen” “yeah mines did come from the pet play thing it was before we were doing a heavy impact scene and I accidentally scratched his arm trying to fight the restraints and he said I was like a scared kitten not wanting to accept help and I’ve been kitten ever since and you do I mean he calls us both love but you mostly” “very true” he co-signs “I refer to you as my love and him as my baby if I’m not calling him kitten so I have given you a name I see it’s not the obvious because I started off calling both love which I get” he adds while putting his pants on “I’m mean yeah you do call me love a lot don’t know I didn’t notice it you actually always have hmm I retract my statement from the log” she says pulling up her stockings “yeah because that’s what you are my,love”he says kissing her “I’m starting to see that favoritism thing Jess was talking about” i say standing up “I said you were his favorite not the other way around”Jess says separating from him“or or how about and hear me out your both my favorite” “no you have to have a favorite and we all know yours is kei I’ve come to grips with that because I know I’m favorite in other areas” “like what” I say looking at her “I’m his favorite best friend I’m his favorite work partner and his favorite woman to have sex with” “she got you there” he says looking at me “it’s ok you can have those ones I’ll have the rest” I say leaning my head on his shoulder “so if he’s my favorite and you’re his that means that I am yours right”he says  leaning his head on mine looking at her now I know the answer to this question is yes because duh he’s her favorite he always has but like she’s got a few categories where she the favorite it’s the same with me and I’m ok with that “I genuinely don’t have a favorite I love you both in different ways your both my favorite” she says putting on her skirt and she actually means it and it’s not a cop out answer “princess that’s a goddamn headband” i says seeing it completely disappears under the hoodie she put on after her shower “it’s the same length I always wear” she says pulling the hoodie up it stops literally at the bottom of her ass and I can’t stop staring at her legs “fuck” hizashi says “right” i say looking at him for a split second then back at her  “I feel desired right now I like it” she say’s letting go of the hoodie and it disrupting our view “then why did you cover back up then” hizashi says “because I need to go get situated with these in the bathroom and you two stay out here no peeking” she says taking the pack of pasties to the bathroom with her “yes ma’am” we both say as she closes the door 

 

“Did you” “yeah they were so” “I know man I don’t think imma make it through the night” “you have too can’t leave Jordan alone even if he’s 24 if he gets hurt while y’all off fucking in the bathroom she’ll never forgive you” I say “I know I’ll have to wait till we get back” he says putting his shirt on “I’m so jealous on how cool clothes look on you” I say looking at him “I get that a lot but I agree with what Jess said about your style earlier your fashion is hot as fuck on you and I wish I could pull it off as well as you do” “oh well thank you” “I love taking it off of you too” “alright now cut it out I have to wait about 7 hours to even think about sex” “what we don’t have to fuck right now I can always bl-“ Hes cut off by the door being knocked on “goddammit” I say going to open it because it’s Jordan “she ready yet”he says walking in“nope” I say closing the door behind him “Jess hurry up” he says knocking on the bathroom door “what I’m ready just have to put on shoes give me a second” she says coming out the bathroom in the full fit accessories included “Jesus fucking Christ” I say seeing her whole out fit in full effect and I couldn’t be more attracted to her Jess sense of style is always and forever be my favorite thing about her because she really just don’t give a fuck and she has a perfect body and she loves showing it off to the world and I’m fine with it because they can look all they want but they can’t touch her because she’s mine “I know right” she says spraying perfume “Jordan makes sure nobody gets to close for me okay” “I’ve been doing this for years she’s in good hand’s tonight now come on before we’re late” “ok ok see ya later baby” she says kissing me “we’ll text when we get there” hizashi says doing the same before walking out the door “wait princess here” i say handing her my card “have fun okay” “I will I love you” she says putting it in her wallet then hugging me  “I love you too I can’t wait for you to get back and to fuck you senseless” I say in her ear fixing her collar before letting go “now go have fun princess” “i fuck ok yeah I will” she says before walking out the door 

 

To fill my time I pack the other suitcase so they don’t have worry about because I’m just the most perfect partner like ever 

 

Just when I zipped the last one after getting everything together someone knocked on the door “oh hey mileena wassup” “um well I’m bored and hungry and wanted to know if you wanted to come with me to get food from the restaurant across the street” “yeah let me get my phone and wallet” 

 

We get an outside table and it’s a cool restaurant beautiful view me and mileena never been alone together but I mean shit were in the same position marrying into the family so why not get to know her more “so how’s new job going” I ask “great i feel like I would be harder if my uncle wasn’t partner at the same firm” she says ahh nepotism “any big cases yet” “ahh few defamation lawsuits and other lawsuits but nothing newsworthy haven’t lost a case yet though” she says very proudly “haven’t even been a year yet and already undefeated” “yeah James and Janessa were really helpful when I was in school so I learned from the best” “yeah they’re pretty great” i say and conversation dies down by a lot then our waitress comes over to take our order then she looks like she’s gotten the confidence of the world “ok so I’ve been figuring out a way to ask this because it’s a huge ask and you can 100% say no if you want to no hard feelings it’s just I don’t really like the work that I do I see people everyday lose something that’s meaningful to them from houses money cars everything and it fucking sucks and I know with the new heart monitor thing a lot of extra press and stress has been put onto the company and I can be really helpful” “so your asking to work on my legal team” “yes I graduated top of my class in December it’ll be one year that i would be working full time at a company with a great reputation I also did my internship there you’re a great person and your company is doing great things and I would love to be part of your team” “well I already have a fantastic lawyer she’s been with us for awhile but she has been looking for a assistant lawyer well partner if you will so I’ll put in a good word for you but I can’t make any promises” “ok okay I’ll take it thank you so much” she says 

 

“I wonder what keigo is doing” I say while we’re waiting for the next opening act“he’s probably sleep you know when he gets bored he sleeps” hizashi says “yeah your right”I say locking my phone neglecting the idea to text him“he’s with lenna they went to get food”Jordan says  “together alone why”I say very confused “she’s been wanting to quit her job because she hates it how she feels when she wins a case that cost the other person something major and she just wants to deal with smaller things like putting out statement and shit like that she wanted to ask keigo if she could join his legal team”Jordan adds “oh yeah makes sense that’s another reason I didn’t want to be lawyer” “it’s kinda the reason I want to be one” “weirdo”i say right before the next act started 

 

I get back to the hotel room after we eat which was enjoyable mileena a very sweet person but she does talk a lot I shower and then change and head to bed my phone go off and Jess has sent me a few pictures from the night and a video of her screaming to good god “I’m glad she’s having fun” i say to myself smiling at the crazy ass .5 pictures her and hizashi took 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

You look like you’re having the time of your life 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I am 

Like so much 

But I’m really looking forward to what you promised 

Fully clothed to I look to hot to not be fucked like this 

And you can rip through the stocking 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

👌🏼

 

The show is over. I've had the best damn time of my life. It's 12:30 in the morning and I don’t plan on sleeping ANY TIME SOON in the Uber back to the hotel Jordan sat in the front seat with me and hizashi in the back duh omg does keigo usually give this much information when he’s setting the scene god anyways hizashi hand in mine on my thigh and I’m like a damn animal in heat or something I need to be touched NOW

 

He’s on his phone so the best way to get his attention is to text him 

 

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Hey

Hey

Hey

Can you please touch me 

Please

From:Zashi🫦🍒💚

I literally am what do you mean

 

He sends then plucks my thigh

 

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Not there go up further

Higher 

Higher a bit to the right

Fuck yes there 

 

I say giving him directions and he first make full contact with her then pulls back and hovers his hand there for a moment then just moved it I look at him then back at my phone when it vibrates 

 

From:Zashi🫦🍒💚

I asked for permission from kitten and he said no you can’t have that yet 

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

What happened to fun zashi ☹️

From:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Kei said no and i wouldn’t dare go against his word

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Kei what is happening here don’t go submissive zashi on me here 

From:Zashi🫦🍒💚

No can do lover

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Ughhhhhhgh

 

We make it back to the hotel room and I swear to god he better be awake because I have already went 3 days without anything and I was promised a great time so I better get it “he’s fucking sleep” I scream whisper to zashi and he laughs at me I will never get the chance to look this hot and get railed again I just go in the bathroom defeated I’m about to take the first makeup wipe to my face when it’s literally a centimeter away from my face he opens the door “your up” I say turning to see him closing the door he doesn’t say anything just spins his finger to signal for me to turn back he gets behind me kisses my neck then squats down and rips through stocking with ease and moves my underwear over to the side 

 

He sits there for a minute thumb going in and out of me till I was practically begging for more “please please I’ve been such a good girl please” I say widening my stance he take a long drag from front to back of me with his tongue then back to my clit I feel him move around I look down and see he’s now sitting on the floor facing the bathroom door and I’m “sitting” on his face standing he rest his hands on my hips and starts with long strokes from front to back a few times before taking two fingers and making me lose my balance a bit he focuses on my clit heavily licking and sucking making me scream in pleasure “holy shit baby fuck” I say leaning forward on the sink im going through a sensory overload right now it feels like every pleasure nerve is being lit on fire “shit shit shit fuck” I reluctantly move his head away from me because I knew this feeling well enough I squirt all over the floor 

 

He doesn’t say a word just stands pushes me forward uses his knee to spread my legs a bit “so you’re not going to say anything” “what do you want me say princess” he says pushing into me “fuck tell me you love me” “I love you so much” he says leaning forward putting his hand on the counter “you look so fucking beautiful princess fuck i love the idea of the world lusting over you but only i can touch you make you feel this good” he says and i feel like im about to short circuit “shit im about to cum again please please” “go ahead baby” and with the command i was cumming uncontrollably the next thing I know is I’m being put up on the counter “I’m clocking out don’t fall” he says before kissing me and walking out the bathroom 

 

Keigo walks out the bathroom to the room getting hizashi attention from his phone “where is she” “still in the bathroom exhausted your turn” he says laying back down and immediately falling back to sleep hizashi getting the clue goes in the bathroom finding Jess is a similar state half sleep again the bathroom mirror he knows what he has to do just has never done it and she wasn’t wasted he starts with getting the make up and doing skin care then getting her out of her clothes and in the shower which woke her up a bit he washed her then himself then drying them off and dressed for bed small things like this are his favorite because his love language is acts of service so anytime he gets to do things like this he feel real good afterwards 

It’s Jess grandma birthday today and Frankie really messed up any confidence I had for meeting her today we all go shopping for a gift for her “dad what should we get jewelry clothes shoes home appliances” Jordan ask when we walk in “all of the above honestly” “ok who's getting what” Jess says “we’ll do clothes and shoes Jordan mileena home appliances she’s been wanting a stand mixer for awhile now Jess keigo hizashi jewelry Jess knows what she likes” her dad says breaking us up into teams and we separate in different places in the mall “she’s a watch and bracelet sliver girl so let’s look for that” Jess says when we walk in the jewelry store “is there a Tiffany in here” I say looking at selection they have and if I’m going to buy a first impression gift it has to be big “yeah wanna go look in there” “yes” we leave that store and go to the Tiffany store and we look at the bracelets “that one is pretty” Jess says pointing at one with a heart charm “for yourself or your grandmother” I ask looking at one that’s similar “I mean myself but it’s not gold it wouldn’t match all of the other jewelry you’ve bought me” she says “we actually do have that in gold if you want to see it” one of the clerks asks “you want it” “yes can I see” she says walking away to another section with the clerk “excuse me can I see that one” I say asking another clerk to show me a bracelet 

 

Hizashi disappear a while ago where no clue but he must have seen something I pay for the bracelets and at the same time we’re coming out hizashi coming back with a Rolex bag “whoa y’all are spoiling her aren’t y’all” Jess says “you said she liked silver watches and bracelets he got that I got the watch” “the first impression y’all are about to make is crazy” she says 

 

We change and head to the restaurant James set everything up one of her close friends know were here and she’s with her to make it less suspicious 

 

We get there first so it can be a true surprise and the look on her face is priceless when she turns the corner she starts from the head of the table hugging everyone and I can’t help but focus on the extra person with her “Jackson when did you get back”James says hugging him“mama said she wanted all of her kids home for her birthday so I had to come home” and I’m guessing this is the other person making our possibility of having twins high as hell “that’s my uncle Jackson dads twin brother I have no clue what he does for living but there isn’t many places on earth where he hasn’t lived” Jess says before turning to give him the biggest hug “aww my jessi is getting so old I remember when you was little baby” he says looking at her “god this ring is blinding me it’s heavy ain’t it”he says jokingly “a little” she say dropping her hand like it weighing her down “you’re the one responsible” he says looking at me “yes I am” I say shaking his hand “take care of my girl okay” he says prolonging the handshake “I can promise you I will” “ok I’ll hold you to it” he say before moving over to Jordan and milenna “he loves you” Jess say’s whispering then her grandmother lets out a big gasp when she gets to Jess “aww my baby get over here” she says giving her the biggest hug imaginable “I missed my girl so much and you look as beautiful as ever” “I missed you more but Ma I have the pleasure of introducing you to keigo and you already know hizashi” “oh yes hizashi my little song bird handsome as always and keigo” ok breath don’t freak out it’s ok “I’ve been waiting to meet the man putting this big ol smile on my baby face I don’t know how you’ve done it but you’ve made little doom and gloom Jessica do a complete 360 thank you” she says holding my hands and I breath for the first time in what feels like forever “I can’t wait to see the wedding” she says smiling “I’ll make sure you have a front row seat” I say back she lets go then goes over to Jordan and mileena then to her seat 

 

The night goes by fucking beautifully and then “so we’re waiting till after the wedding for kids” her grandma friend ask “um yes” Jess says hoping this conversation doesnt go down the same path as the one weve had previously  “oh I envy you I wish I would’ve waited like don’t get me wrong James and Jackson are the best thing that ever happened to me but I wish I waited till I had a steady career and a better financial situation before I had them I’m glad you’re waiting it’ll be better foundation for them” her grandmother says “thank you mama you wouldn’t believe the fights we’ve had with my sister over her waiting and they’ve only been together for 2 years now and everyone thinks they should at least have one kid by now”janessa says “oh no baby I know you love your aunt franky but even if you and keigo got together at 20 i would tell you the same thing you send me pictures of your vacations and all the fun stuff you do not saying a kid would stop that bit it would put a halt in it for awhile you both are in great places in your careers so now would be the best time to do it not right now but you get me” “yeah i get it i wanted to wait till i was secure to where i dont have to do the same thing my parents did i didnt want to be building a career and having a young child because i know doing both was hard and ive only just got to the point where my career doesnt take over my life so i could be more flexible”jess says “you want as a kid as well keigo or you just doing this for her” Jackson asks me “yes I also want this I didn’t see a child in my future before being with Jess and now I do and I’m excited to start a family with her” i answer and he give me the “you said the right thing” nod 

 

It was time to open gifts which she was very excited for because no one came to play Jordan and Mileena with got her the kitchen aid stand mixer with all of the accessories James and Janessa came through with all the clothes and shoes Jackson got her really cool dishware from his most recent expedition then it was time for our gift we send it to the head of the table “who wraps gifts in black paper and puts it in a black bag” Jordan says “what did you expect from that trio” James says laughing we did it mostly for the theatrics of unwrapping the famous Tiffany blue box and the green Rolex box 

 

She opens the watch first and had to catch herself from letting out a gasp mixed with a yelp in the middle of the restaurant “that’s a $40,000 watch” her friend says looking at it“Jess bought both of our first Rolex and we can’t reciprocate to her so it’s only fair you get it” hizashi says “thank you I can’t imagine what’s in here oh dear god” she says as she unwraps the other box and sees the Tiffany box “keigo picked it out for you”Jess says  “well you have great taste in jewelry” she says smiling ear to ear 

 

I’m a fucking HIT her grandmother loves me Jackson fucking loves me we’ve planned to go golfing when he comes to Japan next month and we’re almost out in the free leaving with a great first impression then we get pulled aside by her grandmother “ok spit it out what’s going on here” she says pointing between the 3 of us “huh what do ya mean” Jess says like she’s in a Disney movie “I’ve been seeing all night you two always act like that but these two aren’t as subtle as you think” she looks at me and hizashi “ok so we’re like you know” Jess says “so you two are but you two are engaged so are you two” she says as we just nod as she puts it together “why did you just tell me” “because it’s complicated to explain to people and not have them delegitimize our relationship” “I would never do that I get it you got a lot of love to give and you want to share with your two best friends it’s ok baby you shouldn’t have to hide but it’s also not my place to say anything to anyone else so this stays between us” she says before hugging us each

 

“It’s midnight we’ve officially been together for 2 whole years can you believe it” Jess says laying her head on my shoulder wrapping her arm around me “yeah I can even though the bad I knew this moment would always happen” I say kissing the top of her head “I still can’t believe you’re the person I’m doing this with if we could tell 19 year old Jess and keigo where we are now they would probably go” “ew” “ew” we both say then laughing “who knew it would take us 4 years of low contact for us to notice we actually loved each other” “ugh I hated that I don’t talk about it really but that time was hell and i missed you like crazy but so much shit was just happening at once we got into different grad schools I got cut off came here then while I was here everything happened with Kenny and you kinda went off the grid when I came back I wish I knew that you knew zashi then so I could’ve been there for you then” “yeah I think a huge reason I even got with Jessie was because I missed the fuck out of you and she was a quick replacement a shitty replacement but quick and I was to scared to contact you because I was entirely to vulnerable at the time and I didn’t wanna unload all of my shit on you when you had your own shit going on”

 

She looks up at me “I guess I can admit this now because it’s too late for you to think I’m creepy and run away but I had been going through a particularly difficult time and I got in my car and drove all the way to Osaka to your school in the middle of the day because I was hoping for the off chance you would be out and about and I would run into you and have you back and I sat around in different places though the day and I finally saw you it was like 5:30 and you we’re leaving some building with tsunagu and I was like finally then I saw you with who I now know is jessi and I don’t know I chickened out and just went home because I felt rejected somehow” “why I mean you drove like 2 hours and sat around for hours to see me why leave” “because I didn’t show up just to get my friend back well I did but I showed up because I had just gotten broken up with by a guy I didn’t even love and I had the realization that the only person other than hizashi who continuously friend zoned me that I’ve ever truly loved was you and I drove there and was prepared to confess my love to you because no one else had ever made me feel that way before but you were not particularly available at the time so I left and I thought I would always live with the regret that I could never tell you how much I actually loved you” she says and it breaks my damn heart “but the universe is always on our side because you’re childhood best friend decided to bring you to the club i was working at for one night only to confess and as weird as that is I’m so thankful because you were there and curious and 3 years later we’re celebrating our 2nd anniversary together so as shitty as those 4 years apart were I’m so glad I have you back” she says locking our hands with a few tears coming down 

“since we’re getting vulnerable tonight you changed your number mid grad school and I had texted you one night not knowing the text was full of me just saying how much I missed you and loved you blah blah blah but the person who now has that number texted back hey not Jess but you really need to find this girl and tell her how you feel so what did I do I went to after dark in the middle of the night and I waited I knew you’re schedule from when we were in school so I showed up hoping it was the same and it was you were leaving and you were on the opposite side of the parking lot and I got out and started walking but then as I got closer I could hear that you were on the phone with Jordan and you sounded panicked so I turned around and went home” “omg that was you yeah Jordan call me freaking out at a party  and I had to go and pick him up shit the universe was against us at first huh”she says laughing “yeah nahh it wasn’t I thought about following you but that was just creepy from all angles” “yeah probably would’ve been a weird night” “I would do it all again if it meant we ended up like this again” “I would to I would CHANGE a lot but I would do it all again to have you and hizashi yeah I would definitely do it all again” she says laying back down we’re silent for awhile then she declares “I forgive you” “don’t just say it because you feel like that’s something I want to hear” “I’m not I forgive you this week has been a lot and this past year has been alot and I need you to know before we get any further into our third year together that you’ve done nothing but make me feel secure and loved and even at the worst times you made sure that those two things were there I know you told me to stop apologizing but I’m sorry” “I forgive you and thank you for forgiving me” 

 

The trip was fun iffy at times but great all in all our extra bags got back in one piece we got back in one piece and now I have to plan how I’m going to make up for our anniversary I mean the dinner was great sex that night was A1 too you don’t get to know about that though because honestly don’t feel like telling you but I’ll tell you about the next time ya freaks ;)

Notes:

I love a good travel chapter ill do my first published read through sometime this week so if its something crazy with errors or my pee brain left something out just come back later

Chapter 60

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨I did not notice how long its been since I last posted but I moved back to uni got covid first week and also a TA its been a lot BUT I HAVE FOUR CHAPTERS DONE and ready to go so from today to the 17th of October there will be a new chapter and they're all interconnected

also the Pinterest board for the jess keg and hizashi https://pin.it/2BouzSZ

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Kaoru canceled on me on thursday and it was last minute she told me some work stuff came up and she can't make it and then we reschedule for her to come on saturday but same thing i don't know exactly what she does but i know it's something in marketing so the industry is demanding so i can't fault her and i'll just make sure her next session is very praise heavy and more gentle.

I get a call and it's late like 2:30 in the morning late i reach over kei i get my phone and i see that its kaoru immediately concerned because she never calls me only texts “madam please help please” i hear and she's crying i've never gotten out the bed so fast “what's wrong angel” “i need you im sorry its late but i need you please” “no no angel its ok im always here for you send me your address and ill be there as soon as i can” “thank you” she hangs up and i quickly get ready “hey kei i gotta go i'll be back ok” “what where” he says looking at the time “Kaoru needs me she's not doing ok right now i gotta make sure she's ok” “yeah yeah go ahead want me to drive you”he says sitting up “no baby you stay here i got it i'll let you know when i get there” “ok go get to her” 

She sends me the address and i've never been where she sent it was about an hour drive and i wasn't expecting to pull up to an office building but i park and shoot kei a quick message that i'm here and rush upstairs i get off the elevator and she said she was at the end of the hallway i see her name on the door i calm down a bit and walk in 

“Angel i'm here” i say sitting next to her on the floor of her in the corner of her office she falls into my arms and just starts wailing its really breaking my heart to hear her cry like this she's holding me tight and keep repeating that she's sorry i don't know what brought her to this point but i damn sure wanna fix it as best as possible “don't worry angel i'm here you don't have to be sorry”

She cries for an hour continuing to repeat “im sorry” 

She calms down “im sorry jess i really am”she says wiping her face “for what baby” “its really late and i know you worked all day and i called making you come out this late” she says sitting up and looking at me “angel when i told you i was here for you anytime i meant that im not one of those doms who only care about you we are in session youre my responsibility 24/7 i don't care how late it is when you call i'm coming ok” i say and she nods at me “wanna tell me what's going on” “i've been really overwhelmed here my boss keeps giving me more and more to do and not enough time and i just want to quit but i can't and i know that i can do it but it just so much and not enough time and i don't want to be a disappointment and lose clients and then get fired i like working here but no matter how much i do here and get more money for the company my boss treats me like shit he doesn't even know my name” she says and it pisses me off because yes i do say and do some of the most degrading shit to her but thats because she comes to me for that and this piece of shit has broken her that usual light that i see in her eyes gone she feels small and fragil because of this dickwad and if it couldnt lead in her losing her job i would sit here all night and wait for him to show up cuss his ass out and force him to apoloigse to her then take her home and make her cum so many times she falls asleep 

“have you talked to HR” “no he only treats me this way and i don't want to report it and nothing happens to him and it gets worse because he knows its me” “so just you” “yes ma'am” “what's protocol for hr complaints” “its a website where you set up an appointment or submit it through there” “can show me angel” she gets up goes to the website on the computer i look over the website to see if its anyway she could do it anonymously and after some searching i find out that any online complaints are done anonymously “so you can just do it here you don't have to write your name and you can write it in a way that it doesn't sound like it came from you” i say making her sit in my lap “are you sure” “i wouldn't lie to you love” she looks at the screen and then starts typing she writes it out like it was something she witnessed and then sits back looks over it then pushes send “if this turns out to bad and he comes after you you tell me and i'll take of the rest ok” “ok” “did you drive here” “no i didnt drive yesterday” “ok ill take you back home” “i already asked of alot of you today but can you stay with me for awhile i just dont want to be alone today” “have i ever told you no” “yes all the time”she says smiling  “ok i do but not the point of course i will stay with you im off tomorrow we can spend the day together” i say moving the hair out of her face “really can you do that i mean i dont wanna cause trouble at home” “angel ill let keigo and hizashi know i can promies you it would be trouble there” “okay” 

She packs her stuff up and we leave she seems 100x better than when i first got to her her home is 20 minutes from her job we go in and her apartment is really minimalist vibes like the complete opposite of me i like things she obviously doesn't “i'm going to wash up and change make yourself at home” she says going to the back of the house i sit on the couch and decide to update them before i forget 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Hey babies kaoru was overwhelmed with work stuff and wasn't doing to hot and doesn't really wanna be alone rn so i'm going to stay with her today (kinda promised already) but she okay and feeling better now i'm back at her place now ill update you if anything changes

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(keigo)

Ok im glad shes feeling better do you want me to bring anything over for you 

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(hizashi)

Yeah same you left so quickly i knew it was something urgent 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

If you could bring me clothes later i kinda just threw on anything before leaving 

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(hizashi)

I'll bring it before i go to the studio later

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Thanks i love you both 

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(keigo)

Iloveyou2 princess

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(hizashi)

I love you too love

And a few minutes later kaoru comes from the back in different clothes and looking refreshed “you should get some sleep angel you've been up too long” “i know but i'm not really that sleepy yet i've drank a lot of coffee to stay up i have not crashed yet” “how often do you do that” “i don't want to tell you because i don't want it backfire on me” “you saying that has already done that how many times” “at max two times a week only when i'm really busy not all the time” “jesus christ girl you need to sleep every day” “i know just deadlines come so fast and i have to make them” she says laying her head in my lap “manage your time better you need sleep your job is important but not more important than your health” “yes madam” she says pouting up at me “what angel why the pout” “your scolding me im supposed to be happy about that” “you deserved it you need to take care of yourself” “i know i try” “try harder”

“have you ever had a 24 hour submissive” “no personally i don't like it much having to tell someone what to do all day long would drain me my mentor has 2 24 hour submissives and i dont know how he does it why” “i just always wondered i personally would hate to be told what to do all day and have to check in before i took my next breath” she says holding my hand “you need 24 hour supervision not sleeping for days” “just like one day max i always crash” “dont try to justify your wrong actions” “its not wrong but smart if you think about it” “i spent the last 7 years learning how the brain works and why you need sleep” “ughhh out of all professions my dom had to be a psychologist” “yup and I’m not letting you get away with that” “I want nice Jess who calls me angel  and let’s me cum my next session I think I’ve earned it” she say looking up at me “I’ll think about it” “think about it I’ve been so good for madam and I can’t get one Jess visit” “your really a brat outside of my room aren’t you” I say and she gasps covering her mouth with the she has mine in “a brat never” “yeah you are aren’t you” “first time hearing about this whole brat thing I’ve always been called good girl best girl if you will” she says smiling “and you are my angel even if you are a brat” “I’ll take it…I really wanna kiss you but I can’t” she says looking between my eyes and lips “angel-“ “you don’t have to say it I know you can’t I just thought I should say it” she says sitting up “i'm sorry for overstepping madam” she says looking down into her lap “fuck give me a minute” I say getting up 

“Come on answer”I say pacing infront of her apartment door “hey princess everything ok” kei says when he appears on the screen “yeah yeah good everything is good kei just umm I really wanna have sex with her and I don’t think I can because we’re not in our usual environment and it feels weird to wanna do this I swear keigo I didn’t think anything like this would ever happen I know this is something you were sca-“ “girl go fuck that girl and get off my phone with this nonsense that was a fear for if you got a male sub I don’t care go be gay for the day your angel needs you” he says winking and laughing “fuck I love you so much I’m going to come home later and whatever you want I am yours to use goddamnit” “I do that anyway princess go have fun I love you and go to sleep after you didn’t get much sleep” “ok I will I love you too” I say before we hang up 

“Jess I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said anything” she says when I walk back in “shut up” I say kissing her she’s surprised at first then falls into a seamless flow we stumble back to the couch “but-”she says breaking the kiss “i thought i told you to shut up” “yes ma’am”

I don't quite know what is taking over me right now like is kaoru very attractive yes yes she is have we had sex before yes yes we have but right now i guess because of all the stress she been under i just want to distract her in a new sense of the word 

She's grinding on my leg and a light bulb goes off in my head “so desperate angel cant even wait for me to give you what you need and we both know that's not how i taught you to cum” “please madam please” “show me how you get off when i'm not around” i say and she stops grinding “what wrong too embarrassed to show me” “i really don't know how” “excuse me what do you mean you don't know how” “it never feels right i don't know how i've never made myself cum before” “angel now you have to show me you can't expect me to make you cum and you can't make yourself cum come on show me” i say getting up and pulling her along with me to her room “come on go ahead act like I’m not here ” i say sitting in the chair she has in the corner 

she shyly sits up against the headboard and takes her phone off the nightstand and pulls out a light brown dildo around 7” to 8” then pulls her shorts down to her ankles I can’t see whatever porn she watching but it sounds pretty mild it’s videos mostly where the girl is the most vocal she doesn’t watch any video fully giving me the impression of she’s on Twitter or something like that after the first few videos and rubbing the tip of the dildo up and down her vagina she slowly pushes it in her having a full body reaction to being stretched around it she gasps a bit when she gets it in fully switching videos again she starts pumping it in and out of her legs fidgeting and I’m not really believing she can’t make herself cum because I’m seeing all of her tells and then I see she’s fighting it backing away from the pleasure she’s feeling to getting her there 

It’s been about 15 minutes and she looks like she just given up trying at this point no longer holding the phone covering her face hand still “your running from coming your just edging the hell outta yourself” I say getting up and laying next to her I put my hand on top of hers and start guiding her hand “don’t run from how good it feels I’m not going to stop you” she starts the cycle of moans and curse again getting closer and closer and then I feel resistance against my hand she’s trying to stop again “just accept it angel don’t stop” the moans and cries get louder of course and she finally cums “you did it angel now everytime after this do it just like that” I say and she’s sound asleep I kiss her forehead and then clean her up and the moment I get off the bed “noooooo come back” she says half sleep “I’m not going anywhere angel im right here” I say getting back in the bed and she latches on to me so this is how kei feels huh  

I fell asleep not to long after her and woke before her I somehow ended up as little spoon in this equation I reach for my phone because it’s the reason I woke up see a few texts 

From: Jordy🧬 

Did you hear from kaoru about coming in this week

To:Jordy🧬 

I'm with her now she had an emergency early this morning ive been with her since ill ask her if she still wants her session this week and let you know

From: Jordy🧬

Got you 

Is she okay 

To: Jordy🧬 

Yeah she is now 

 

From: Zashi🫦🍒💚

I'm leaving out soon keigo picked out the outfit its super cute don't take it off till i get back home

To: Zashi🫦🍒💚

Yes, sir 

Let me know when your here 

*insert address*

From: Zashi🫦🍒💚

Ok i'll be there soon love

 

From:KEIBABY✨

Mistress I know you’re with kaoru rn but I miss you and i need attention zashi just left me 

To: KEIBABY✨

My baby misses me this much 

From :KEIBABY✨

Yesssssssss

I’m off today so I’m bored and I miss you 

Are you coming back today or tomorrow 

Because if it’s tomorrow I don’t think I’ll survive 

To:KEIBABY✨

I’ll be back home later tonight baby 

We’re both off tomorrow till I have to go in to ad 

I’m all yours baby 

From: KEIBABY✨

Ok also master said If I was good today that he’ll let me watch him do the thing you want me to do but I won’t 

To: KEIBABY✨

Really then you gotta be a super super good boy today 

Also you gotta pick a comfortable outfit for me to wear tomorrow if he’s doing what I think he’s doing 

From: KEIBABY✨

It’s exactly what you think it is 

I feel movement behind me and I look behind me and she’s slowly waking up “your up kaoru how’d you sleep” “what did i do” she says stretching and pulling me closer to her “huh what do you mean” “you’re first naming me I did something” she says and I laugh turning and embracing her “you did nothing wrong angel” “what time is it” “late 1 ish” “I’m hungry” “we’ll hizashi is on his way with my stuff so we can get ready and get really cute go get food at a cute restaurant and then I take you to my favorite store and you pick out a few things that we can play with on Thursday” “am I playing with you or madam it really depends on what I pick out”she says with her hand on ass“me and what are doing” “nothing just I don’t get to touch you that often” she slides her hand under my shirt “kaoru” “what I’m doing nothing wrong” her hands slide down my side then up my stomach “I just wanna please you that is all you do so much for me and I never get to return it just this once can I please” “yes but you gotta be quick” “I’ll be done before he gets here” she says going under the cover and fuck she’s good at giving head like holy shit “fuck kaoru oh my god” 

Shes working the hell outta her tongue and it’s taking everything outta me not to literally beg her to let me cum I cannot let her bring out sub Jess hell no “fuck angel just like that baby don’t stop you’re so close to making me cum goddamn it” I have a pretty tight grip on her hair because I’m a blink (BLACKPINK IN YOUR AREA I’m so sorry) away from coming then there’s a hard suck on my clit and that was all she wrote a string of curses and me practically screaming is the only thing that comes out my mouth and just when I come down from my high I hear my phone ring I reach for it and it’s zashi “hey love I’m coming upstairs now” he says “ok I’ll meet you” I say then we hang up “see I told you” she says kissing my thigh then getting out the bed “I’ll shower and starting to get ready” she goes in the bathroom and I go out to meet zashi 

“You really just grabbed anything when you were getting ready” “literally got dressed in the dark I think these are kei’s pants” “yeah don’t go anywhere in that outfit like I said the outfit he chose is really cute so don’t take it off till I get back later and send me a picture once you change” “message received also I heard from a small adorable birdie that you were perhaps going to do something that I’ve been wanting to do for soooo long”i say wrapping my arms around his waist “yeah gonna make you my bitch tonight in wonderland” he says before kissing me “when are you getting back tonight” “no later than 10” “that’s so late sir come back sooner” “or how about you wait for me to get back whenever i get back like good girl i know you to be” he says making me make eye contact with him with his hand on my chin “ok i'll be patient” “good girl now i gotta go love have fun” he kisses me “ok ill be waiting for you” “ i know you will be i love you” he says kissing me again “ i love you too and thank you again for bringing this” “anything for you love” i watch him go down the staris then i go back in the apartment 

The hype over this outfit better be right now has keigo ever given me a bad outfit no but the constant hype of “it is so cute” and zashi not even wanting me to take it off till he got back home tonight it has to be fire. After i shower i go and look at the outfit its a mini skirt i didn't even know i owed it black and pink plaid a black shirt one pink heart thigh garter and one black one same for the socks also my pink and black demonias(one each) and to top it off my old temp collar it's one of those pink collars with the heart ring  (visual on pinterest board) “ok this is kinda cute” i say to myself before i get ready

“Fuck your hot”kaoru says walking into the room “thanks angel”i say taking another picture in her mirror “come come all of the pictures of you youre half naked and bruised and you look super cute today” i say making her stand infront of me naturally were about the same height but with the extra 5ins from the boots im kinda towering over her making her look so small and cute 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

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Ft. my angel💚💚

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(hizashi)

I can't wait to ruin you later

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(keigo)

You look super cute🩵🩵

I did good right??????

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Yes baby you did good i look hot asf 

Where did you find this skirt 

From:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷(keigo)

It was in the kink closet and you don’t wear pink in kink (haha) so I guessed it just got mixed up and moved it 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Hm well I’m glad you found it 

We go to a restaurant in her area it’s pretty busy but we get seated fast and our order was taken fast as well “so do you just have all outfits just per planned or did you tell them what to bring” “believe it or not keigo is really good at putting together outfits sometimes things i wouldn’t think of like the pink and black boot i would’ve just wore one or the other” “I actually can’t I didn’t think  the man owns anything none business attire let alone could put together such a cool outfit” “when you see me 9 times outta 10 he put it together” we talk about a little bit of everything while eating “so you’ve know him since freshman year of college but didn’t start dating till 2 years ago and the same time I had a three week contract with him you two were in the beginning stages of your trial run and now I’m your sub wow that’s a lot” “yeah it’s been a wild ride our relationship but it’s all been worth it” 

After we ate we went to happy pleasures “go whatever you want”i say to her when we walk in “jess you're here by yourself this week” “nahh my submissive is over there letting her choose her own adventure” “oh how nice of you” she says very sarcastically “i am she deserves it”i say laughing “this the same submissive you buy all the high level pain things for” “yes and she loves it” we both laugh then i go and check on kaoru “just one thing so far”i say seeing she only has a controlled vibrator “yeah everything else you already have in your room” “ok what do you want your next session” “i want the usual set up but no physical contact and just this edging for the whole hour and half then you know if you think i deserve it can come at the end” “so simple i thought you would think of something more extravagant” “i mean i leave the big drawn out scenes for you but ever since you've rewired my vagina to only cum without any clit stimulations i think it would literary be torture she's been neglected for months” i picture her in the scene shes set up and now im excited 

Breaking away from my daydream state I notice she's gone and I find her in the section where all the mythical dildos were and she was just staring at them “curious?” “the textures and the shapes how does this even fit in anyone” she say pointing to a 12” tentacle “you would be surprised” “this one is so intriguing but i don't think it would fit but that also makes me wanna use it”she picks up a 8 Inch Ravager Dragon Dildo “if i buy it would you use it on your own time and send me a video of you using it” “100%” “get it and we can go get lube as well because your going to need it for that”

“Thanks for today Jess I really needed it” “no problem angel I told you already you’re my responsibility 24 hours of all 7 days of the week not just Thursday for 3 to 4 hours so when you need me I’m always going to show up” “what did I do to deserve you” she says hugging me “have an extremely masochistic kink list and get rejected by three people who objectively do more hardcore shit than me” i say hugging her back “that’s scary actually” “yeah I feel bad for their subs sometimes” I say because I know yuji and kitty go through hell daily “ok well I know you’re like on the other side of the world from here and it’s getting late and I guess you got a fiancé and a boyfriend which is cool asf waiting on you” “I know right but I do have to go your going to be good tonight” “yeah just needed to be distracted for a while gotta go back to work and just get what I need to get done and eventually move to another company” “yeah don’t forget to keep me updated about that” “I will now go before I hold you captive” “ill see you Thursday” “yeah” “ok”

To be continued……

 

Notes:

next chapter I will tag it there to but next chapter is a CNC (consent non consent) much like chapter 31 but a bit more into the fantasy so if things like that triggers you I recommend skipping it I know I said these next 4 are interconnected but that one not really so you won't miss anything if you sit next week out

Chapter 61

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ I being as though the last chapter was originally an extra turned full chapter this one is a bit short but next week is longer so just hold out for 7 more days for the 4,000+word chapter
⚠️this chapter contains some potential triggering topics such as CNC of the r*pe kink fantasy, forced sex, forced submission, victim blaming, derogatory name calling, and slapping⚠️everything has been perviously discussed a bit in extra #11 and you know "off screen" if any of these topics make you uncomfy I promise you you can sit this one out its only connected to chapter 61. 63 and extra #13 dont mention this or even hint at so your not missing anything💋

enjoy🕺🏽

Jess gets home around 7 hoping that zashi was already there she was very excited for him to cash in his half of the deal she was told to be in still fully dressed and to be patient she doesn't know how long the patient bit is going to hold up but she can definitely be fully clothed 

“I feel like its been years since i seen you” keigo says when he sees her sit in the living room “i know it's been so long since we've spent so much time apart” she says pulling him down on the couch and straddling him “did you have fun today” he says wrapping his arms around her waist “yeah we've done some planning for thursday so im looking forward to that” jess is honestly never really a hornball i don't know it could be because she got fire head earlier in the day or if its because shes just hyper attracted to keigo (which we been knew) or because she ovulating whatever the case may be she wants him to do quite literally anything to her this moment he talking about what he did today and she cant help but to kiss him stopping him mid sentence the kiss is sloppy and greedy 

She takes his hand and puts it under her skirt and he goes and sticks two fingers in her making her moan into the kiss and then he stops “fuck i cant” he says throwing his head back on the back of the couch “i swear to god this better not be because of zashi”she says and the only response she gets is a frustrated grown out of him “dont i outrank him” “yes you do but i really wanna watch later and if i do this i won't get to” “theres no way i outrank him shit or you when we were in california he said he couldnt do the samething you just told me no for because you said he couldn't what the actually fuck” she says getting off of him

It's now a little pass 8:30 and she's laying on the couch watching tv kei is upstairs showering and she's just waiting to hear the door open but instead she hears her phone ding 

 

From: Zashi🫦🍒💚

I'll be home in a hour

To:  Zashi🫦🍒💚

Hurry back please

From: Zashi🫦🍒💚 

Be patient

I'll make tonight worth the wait

To:  Zashi🫦🍒💚

Okay i'll be patient 

 

Its 9:20 on the dot and she hears the door open and she sits up from the couch to see the man shes been waiting for “somebody's edger to see me”he says walking over to her on the couch “i am i've been thinking about it all day” “well let me shower and get upstairs ready and then it'll be time ok” “okay” shes getting super excited again because only in a handful of minutes will she be getting something shes been craving for a trip to wonderland

40ish minutes go past and hizashi is coming down the steps “hurry the hell up you two i don't got all damn day” he says and the look keigo and jess share can only be compared to two highschool girls getting noticed by their crush

They follow him upstairs and into the kink room “you over there kneeling you on the bed” he says pointing to where he wants them “now you shut up and enjoy the show” “yes sir” keigo says “you've been begging and pleading for this for so long are you ready to finally get you wish” “yes sir i am”

He looks different and sounds different shes not used to it but fuck she wants whatever hes about to give her 

“I really don't want to hear a sound from you today”he says warping a silk tie around her mouth and putting a clicker in her hand “don't look at me like that you asked for this” he says with a tight grip of her face he pushes her back on the bed “you walk around like this just enjoying the attention you get you love men looking at you desiring over you” he says looking over her body “then why do you look so scared now huh” his hands are roughly gripping all over her thighs lifting the skirt in the process “isn't this the attention you were asking for” as previously discussed with his dom style his specialty is CNC so of course she had to be taken to wonderland by him 

she shakes her head no “but it is tho you go out looking this cute and i'm supposed to have self control no won't be happening” his hands are now pulling her underwear down while she fights it “stop fucking moving bitch” he finally gets them off of her “ stop acting like yo dont want this” and with no warning pushes into her making her scream behind the “gag” “for someone who didnt want this you sure are enjoying this your pussy is betraying you” shes still trying to get away from him but he has good grip on her “if you didnt want this it would be alot harder to fuck you right now” 

Jess fantasy is being fulfilled  to the T she loving every moment of it and also knows aftercare is about to buss buttttt there is one that has yet to happen and she knows that he know what that is 

Now on her knees in front of him with his entire dick her mouth “please sir-”she says when he finally give her a moment to breath then the moment she's been waiting for a hard smack across the face “did i say you could fucking speak” he then thrust back into her mouth 

 Keigo is watching fully fucking hard like fuck sometimes  he feels icky liking things like this (when its between two consenting adults) but watching the woman who has so much control over herself and himself be rendered useless is hot as fuck the one time they did this was good great even but watchin her gradually fall apart and become a malleable toy for zashi is like watching an artist create their masterpiece 

“Say it jess” hizashi says with her now in doggy “no” she says and he thrusts in her particularly hard pushing her forward aggressively “i wont ask again””fuck im your bitch” she says like she didnt really mean in(she did) “now was that so hard”Hizashi never planned on not letting her cum by the end of this but he had to make her work for it (someone is still bitter about special) “ since you admitted to being my bitch ill allow you to cum” hes now fucking her the way she likes hard and “fast”the screams and curses she lets out strains her throat so much (and well the dick with 4 piercings in it being rammed down there not that long ago)

She cums with streams of thank yous coming out of her mouth 

Hizashi lays next to her “your mine love” he kisses her forehead and brings her close to him “kei can you start the bath for me” “yes sir i can” he says getting up and going in the bathroom “how you feeling love” he says caressing her face “thank you” is all she says “you're welcome sweetheart but that's not what i asked” “i feel great thanks to you a little sore but great” “hey what can i say i'm good at my job”he says making them both laugh “zashi…did i do good”she says looking him in his eyes “yes love you did so good for me the best CNC scene ive done by far you did great”he says then feels what feel tears on his chest and “whats wrong love talk to me” he has some urgency in his voice hoping and praying it wasnt sub drop “nothing it just fuck that felt good”she says wiping away the involuntary tears away “jesus christ you just scared the hell out of me i'm glad you enjoyed it” he says holding her tighter 

“When you're ready everything is done on my end” keigo says coming back in the room hizashi picks jess up and carries her to the bathroom “you did good today too baby i'll reward you later ok” he say walking past keigo giving him a quick kiss as well 

Hizashi undresses both of them and then they get in he has her in his lap giving her kisses along her neck collarbone and shoulder while giving her praises of “you did so good today love” “i was so rough with you and you did amazing im so proud of you” “i love you” gentle touches here and there and the only thing jess can even muster was soft moans and whines especially when the touches went from cute small rubs and pats to him spreading her legs and gently started to massage her vagina “i'm never that rough with you baby i didn't hurt you did i”he says pushing two fingers in her “no you didnt” she says face in his neck “ok even if i did i'm pretty sure you still would've liked it” he's pushing in and out of her repeatedly but so slow that it's just pleasurable but she not coming like this and they both know that and it's really not the goal “zashi” “yes love” “10” “huh” “ 10 outta 10 she just rated your performance” keigo says walking in the bathroom to get his forgotten phone “ahh yes your weird need for external gratification” “hey just because i enjoyed it doesnt mean she did can i have a kiss princess” he says bending to reach her and she does the same kiss him “alright you two lo-” “am i not right here”hizashi says cutting him off “oh my god im so sorry” he says sarcastically and kissing him as well “now ill leave you two be” 

They sit for awhile longer then shower then go and lay on the couch  “i'm so tired ”jess says yawning “can't sleep till you eat”hizashi says “i don't have energy to chew just let me sleep” “no now sit up i'll take some of the hassle and feed you” keigo says and she groans sitting up “i just wanna sleep” ‘you will soon love” hizashi says and in true fashion Jess gets babied by her two (extremely hot) partners and they feed her and then cuddled her on the couch because she couldn’t make it upstairs 

Notes:

there is a TikTok audio where it goes "wtf is this kid doing ..THE VOICES" and I need you to know I wrote this chapter out on the lined sticky notes in some of my worse hand writing like a mad man

Chapter 62

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨ I've finally reached true ficwriter peak of good lord life has been all over the place with funerals and more death and a lot of "pms" and I'm just noticing what day it was but Im here with chapter 63 this is the chapter that started off this quad of chapters it was just supposed to be this one chapter but it melted in to three so I hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

I’ve known hizashi for 10 almost 11 years now and we’ve never fought like ever about anything small disagreements here and there but nothing ever to the capacity of yelling at each other and definitely not to the degree of how him and Jess get into it I actually wonder how they still love each other after their arguments but us never you envy us don’t you ha!

It’s a normal regular week they’re all staying with keigo this week it’s a normal static week same routine but something shifted this Wednesday hizashi said “hey I don’t have anything planned for Wednesday so me and you out and about for the day” officially making plans with keigo that on Wednesday while all brushing their teeth gets cancelled “oh right baby sorry I gotta take a rain check something came up” keigo being a very understanding partner he’s perfectly fine with this “yeah it’s cool don’t worry about it” they went on about their day and keigo just decided to do some home shopping and cleaning since he now had free time after helping Jess get ready for her day in after dark

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Hey need anything from the store that’s not on the list already 

Doing home shopping today 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

No everything I need is on the list 🩵

 

Nothing from hizashi which isn’t normal 

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Ok let me know if you think of anything 

 

To:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Need anything that’s not on the list doing some shopping 

 

Still nothing just thinking that’s he’s busy he thinks nothing of it and go on about his day he goes and gets everything on the list and others and head back home to put everything up and start cleaning laundry bathroom kitchen room guest room living room the whole condo he even swept the balcony he never uses with the entire house clean and shit he might as well finish his house husband work by cooking so he does Jess and hizashi should be back as soon as he’s done 

“Ahh you are alive” keigo says when hizashi comes up behind him when he comes in the house “ouch don’t think I deserve that” “I texted you twice today no response what else am I to think huh Yamada” he says turning around to face him “really” he says taking his phone out his pocket and looking “oh shit you did I’m sorry kitten”he says putting his phone on the counter “yeah yeah” “ya mad at me baby” hizashi says laying his on his shoulder “of course not just mandatory that act like I am for a while” 

They’ve known each other for too long for things like that to bother them to the point their yelling at each other 

The text thing was brushed off he got busy and time got away from him no big deal but when they plan to finally take that all day solo date a week from the first rain checked one “please don’t hate me” “I could never why wait not again” “I swear last time I promise it happens again punish me in anyway other than special not that but anything else” “ok I guess whatever or whoever you keep cancelling on me for better be important” “I wouldn’t cancel if it wasn’t” 

He not bothered by it he just now has an excuse to go and sit with Jordan all day playing chess in between him working either way he was having a good day 

Another week goes past and another date planned and also another “baby” “just tell me you hate me and don’t wanna be seen with me at this point” keigo says knowing what’s going to follow that ‘baby’ just from his tone “I promise you I don’t hate you you know I love so much and I wanna show you off to the world but I swear-“ “swear this is gonna be the last time yeah yeah save your breath I need actions buddy” “this weekend Saturday we ditch Jess just us all day nothing could get me to cancel I promise” “actions not words Yamada” 

“What and the fuck has he been doing I mean hes not covering for somebody at the station and he’s not at after dark so what the hell is causing him to cancel on me three times” I say helping Jess get ready “I don’t know he hasn’t said anything to me about anything and I’ve talked to his moms recently and their ok so it can’t be family related so i don’t know have you asked him”she asks “ I mean no just he said it was important and he didn’t say exactly what it is” “then ask him what’s been coming up because he hasn’t been with me” 

Now it’s in his brain where the hell has been going because he hasn’t been too descriptive about where he’s going when he usually is 

But he didn’t bring it up yet anyway because he needed to see how Saturday was going to play out he knows he going to be working till 5-6am and he’s not coming back to the condo so he’ll see him after 11 

And here we are Saturday afternoon it’s 3 pm no call no text no nothing his location has been at the studio all day so he thinks he fell asleep at the studio last night and just really needed the sleep so he’ll go to him with food and questions 

“Hey keigo” Meeka says when I walk in “hey meeka zashi still here” “umm I just got here not to long ago but his car is parked out back so I guess so”she says looking back to his studio “ok I’m going back” i say walking back to his studio the shades are closed so I can’t see in I knock no response so I open the door and of all the things I wish I opened the door and saw he was sleeping on the couch and had to console him that he slept pass 12 pm but what I saw was much worse I mean he’s still sleeping on the couch but with asahi head in his lap also sleep “what the fuck” I say making hizashi wake up “shit what time is it” he says looking at his watch “he’s the reason you’ve been cancelling on me got it have fun” I say putting the food down on the table by the door and leaving “son of a bitch keigo please kei don’t go just listen please” he says catching up to me “what 5 minutes go” i says stopping “ok ok yes he is the reason stop” he says pulling me back because I really don’t wanna hear it anymore “he’s been going through a lot and I’ve just been helping him ok I didn’t even plan for today to go down like this I was supposed to come home and be with you but he showed up after I was done in shambles I had to make sure he was ok and we fell asleep baby I’m sorry ok just don’t” “don’t what leave I’m sorry I really wish I could keep that promise right now but I rather leave then to say something I’ll regret later” “no keigo fuck don’t go yell at me whatever I don’t care I deserve it anyway” “ok well why not just tell me hey baby asahi is having a tough time right now and I just wanna be there for him and i would’ve been like ok yeah make sure he’s ok we can figure out another time to do this but no no just hours before every outting you’re telling me you have to reschedule and today I was hopeful and ready to spend the day with you even if that meant coming here and hearing you complain about sleeping the day away but no instead you no call no show me because he showed up I get that  you get some weird gratification from helping blondes in distress but please leave me out of it just figure your shit out here I’ll see you later” i say leaving

“Where’s zashi” jess says when I walk in the house“I don’t know still at the studio I guess” i answer sitting on the couch “what happened” “got to the studio after waiting all day for him and he was there with asahi” “ohh okay” “yeah normally that would be my reaction as well but not this time and I know this has nothing to do with you but I’m a bit upset and I don’t wanna take it out on you so can I get a minute to myself”I say feeling myself get close to a feeling of anger and none of this is her fault so I don’t wanna lose it at her when it has nothing to do with her “yeah for sure baby I’ll be upstairs ok” she says kissing the top of my head then going upstairs 

I’m not pissed that he was there today or that he was helping him shit I don’t care about that honestly but what is pissing me off is that he didn’t just say I’m sorry I keep making promises I can’t keep but I’ll make it up to you when I can but no week after week made a new one broke it doubled it and broke it again that’s what’s bothering me does he think I’m that shallow of a person that I’ll be like no fuck him you promised me something so you need to hold your end no i wouldn’t 

You know I blame you right I was just bragging 16 paragraphs ago about never doing this and here we go your a jinx you know that 

I lay on the couch alone for what feel like forever “JESS” “yo” she says coming from the kitchen “when did you I don’t care come here” I say sitting up so she can lay where I was I lay on here stomach and wrap my arms around her “talk to me” she says playing in my hair “it feels like shit the more I sit with it and it could just be me being spoiled but I’m used to nothing else mattering when it comes to me from him no matter the time of day or whatever he had going on if he said he was going to be there he was there you know how fucking special he makes us feel and shit I feel dumb because the boy just needed someone and I’m over here mad because I wasn’t his first priority” “oh don’t feel bad I was pissed you were working on your world renowned heart monitor that’s actually saves lives and I was moved down to number two for those 2 weeks so I mean I get it but either way during those two weeks you never once made a promise you knew you couldn’t keep the days you said you were coming home you came home and at the end you fucked me crazy  so there wasn’t much for me to be upset about at the end you can be mad at the constant breaking of promises and essentially lying you can be livid because this isn’t just your best friend anymore he’s your boyfriend now those things don’t slide anymore and he knows that so you be pissed at him like you be pissed at me get it out we don’t do half ass arguments in this house you get it out fuck make up and go on with life got it” “yeah ok” 

An hour or so goes by and he walks through the door and goes upstairs immediately “you avoiding me now” I say following him in the room “no just wanna shower and change before we deal with this” he says not even looking at me “look at me zashi” he doesn’t just continues to undress “hizashi I’m serious look at me” “what I said I wanted to shower and change before we got into this can I have that one thing please” he says looking at me looking like he’s been crying for hours I put my hand on face making him make eye contact with me “hey hey-“ “please just this one thing” “ok ok” I move back and he goes in the bathroom I go back downstairs feeling like a dick but I can’t not have this conversation 

About 30 minutes go past and he’s coming down the stairs “I’m ready when you are” he say sitting next to me I turn and face him “zashi i know you meant no harm at all your a naturally helpful person when someone you care about is in need you run to their side and make sure they’re ok and back to themselves and it’s one of the things I love about you among the trillions of other things but god did I hate that feeling of getting excited about spending the day with you and then every time with no explanation saying “oh next time” I’m more mad about that then you being with him that I don’t care about that but I do wish you just told me what was happening and not leaving me in the dark I’m not just your helpless best friend anymore in my helpless boyfriend now i don’t want to pissed at you or feel shut out and rather you think you are or not you are i know I can’t be your number one all the time-“ “oh shut up your always my number one” he says cutting me off “ then why haven’t you been acting like it” I say “I know I haven’t and it’s been making me feel like shit to keep having to tell you I can’t do something but” “but what” “but he’s been going through it his dad recently passed then his sister had to be hospitalized and his job has been threaten to fire him because he needs leave and it’s been putting him in a terrible headspace and I told him whenever he needed me to call and it just so happened to always end up on the same day I told you it was just you and me it’s happened other time other than those days too but I’ve been worried sick he’s going to do something stupid this entire time and I just need to be there with him” “why not just tell me that from jump” “I don’t know I didn’t want you to feel like I was choosing him over you when I’m not I know it seems like it but I’m not” “hizashi you’re here with me everyday we sleep in the same bed eat at the same table wake up and leave at the same time in the morning for work I consume 50% of your day you think I’m that selfish that i would think him needing you for a few hours was you choosing him wow you think so lowly of me” I say “punching” his arm “your fragile ion wanna make you feel like I’m ever choosing someone else when you’re always my number one” “what about Jess” “ahhh she’s like my 0.5” “I heard that” she says from the kitchen we laugh it off 

“don’t do this shit again next time I’m yelling at you” “I don’t like being yelled at kei so I promise I won’t” he say leaning forward pushing me back on the couch and sitting on my lap in the process “keep this one and I won’t” “I will” he says before kissing me and grinding down on me “fuck I’m still pissed at you” I say grabbing him by the back of his hair “then fuck me till your not”he says kissing me again “not on my couch take that upstairs” Jess says pulling him back by his shoulder “party pooper come on baby I’ll show you how to keep promises” I say pushing him off me “you bitch” he say chasing me up the stairs 

When we get in the room I pushed him down on the bed and I look at him from his face to the obvious boner in his pants “hey mr.X-ray vision I look better actually naked” he says taking off his shirt “you’re fucking right you do” I say getting him out of his pants then undressing myself and when I do he flips us him standing and me on the bed “apology head” he says getting down on his knees he starts jerking me till I was fully hard then takes a long lick from the base of dick to the tip then gets me fully in his mouth I make a noise no grown man should ever make but fuck “Jesus fucking christ” I say throwing my head back

He’s sucking me like he wants to suck the the life out of me “fuck baby I’m about to cum” I say placing my hand at  the top of his head “you forgive me kei” he says laying his head on my thigh and jerking me with conviction “fuck no, not yet” I say pushing his hand off of me and making him lay on the bed 

He scoots back and I see something catch the light “is that- that’s why you insisted on getting in the shower first ” I say pushing on the plug he already had in making him bite down on his bottom lip “what I had to be ready to properly apologize for making you mad at me baby” he says rubbing his hand up and down my chest “fuck I love you you know that” “yeah I know but I want you fuck me like you hate me” “oh I already planned on doing that” 

I slowly pull the plug out dropping it on the bed and his eyes are glued to my dick waiting from the moment i enter him “when did you become so dick hungry I remember when you wouldn’t even let me near you” I say with the first stroke that makes him fall apart at the seams “fuck only dick that I’ve ever wanted” he says laying fully on his back eyes rolling back “just mine baby i dont believe that” “goddamn it i'm serious ive never had the want or desire to bottom but fuck once you did that one time i wanted it more and more you make me feel things i never felt” “mhm I hear that a lot” i say leaning down and kissing his neck and he smoothly flips us so he’s on top “I’m sorry I made you not feel like your my number 1” he says riding me “you are always my #1 even when you weren’t mine you were my number one” “I know baby that’s why this pissed me off so much if I’m your number one then why didn’t you just tell me” “we just got together months ago and I didn’t want you to feel like I could easily put you aside for someone else which the way I handled this it could easily be seen in that way” “yeah it wasn’t like that hasn’t been running through my head this entire time fuck” this conversation is very serious but good god is he riding the shit outta me like it’s becoming increasingly harder to pay attention and take it seriously when he’s literally using me for his pleasure “holy fuck kei im sorry I really am I’ll make oh my god make it up to you I promise you fuck I’m about to cum” and with that the conversation ended and nothing but a string of curses moans and screams could be heard in the room till we both came all over and in each other 

“I’m sorry again” he says still laying on top of me “I forgive you just don’t make me feel this way towards you anymore” i say wrapping my arms around him “yeah I know I won’t I just felt like I was being pulled between two things and ripped in half” “baby what” I say laughing at his analogy “like I know I promised you something but then he would call crying and saying scary shit  and I had to choose and I hate choosing especially when i want both” “then have both help him make sure he’s ok and knows your presents is there and be here with me like I said earlier I’m with you for most of your day I won’t be mad just because he need a few hours I’ve been your submissive at one of the worst times of my life I know how important your presence is in those moments I will never be that person when it come to that now if he was just one of you clients you saw when ever they showed up this part of the forgiveness processes would’ve been days maybe weeks from now but asahi has been with you for a year a few times a week every week he depends on you for a lot of things thats as much as a job as put your hands up just like I tell Jess these people are emotionally dependent on you you don’t hear me getting mad or upset at jess because kaoru called in the middle of the night needing Jess to come meet her at her office because she was going through it and jess staying with her” “no” “then why would you think I’ll do it to you” “ughhh I don’t know maybe because I don’t know I can’t come up with a reasonable explanation for doing what I did because I don’t even know why I did what I did” 

They sit there for awhile before the next word is said just enjoying the closeness and time together “i won’t promise another exact date but soon I will make up for this just me and you when everything calms down” “I’ll hold you to that” “also tomorrow I’ll show you your my number one”he says in his usual dom voice “and how do you plan on doing that” “by doing the same things I did for you too feel so spoiled in the first place” “mhm do I need to tell Yo im not coming in on Monday” “yes tell her she gotta take over till Wednesday” “Wednesday” “yeah because you’ve been topping me a lot lately so imma fuck you everyday for the next 3 days you cool with that” “I would never say no to that” “deal I’m yours he had to go back home for the funeral and stuff so I’m all yours lover” “you know how much I hate the term lover” “I don’t care your my LOVER lover” “your lucky your cute” “ and you love me lover” “y’all are weird” Jess says walking in the room and sitting on the bed

 “keigo doesn’t like being called lover did you know that” “ yeah he says it insinuates that we have sex” “your dick is still in me and we be fucking your my lover” “mine too” they are now both attacking me with kisses “oh my god you two are a lot” I say laughing failing to get away “admit that you’re our lover and we’ll stop”jess says inbetween her sporadic kisses “ok ok you’re both my lover” they leave a few more kisses then stop “now hizashi get off him and shower it’s your turn to cook tonight baby” she says kissing his cheek then getting off the bed “ughhh I can’t can you take over and I’ll do it everyday this week” “nope figure it out” she says stripping and going in the bathroom “was this enough for you to take over for me tonight my offer still stands” “nahh lover you on your own” “I’m ordering out I don’t even think I can stand long enough for cooking” he says getting off of me and walking slowly to the bathroom 

3 days later…..

“I mean I could take him from you he just doesn’t fit into my schedule” I say on the phone with hizashi “come on Jess please if I can make him come in on another day would you do it” he says and I can hear kei in back trying to get his attention for the past couple days he’s been attached to his hip since he took him back to his house Sunday and I definitely see why kitten stuck as a nickname “yeah but only this once I’m at my cap for clients but since you won’t be here I’ll do it you’ll be back before his next session though”I say writing a reminder to myself to let Jordan know “uh yeah definitely I’ll be back by then what keigo” he says in a annoyed tone “noo baby don’t act like that I’m sorry kitten” he say sounding like he’s forgotten about the phone entirely and moved “come here” I hear him say sounding closer to the phone again “i’m sorry I didn’t mean for it to come out like that that’s my bad ok” I can’t quite hear keigo at all because he’s talking very low “what can I do to make you forgive me…a kiss? Ok come here” I can actually hear them making out on my phone right now slight moaning and all and I hear a belt unbuckle and I’m about to hang up because i dont want to hear that ”no no not right now keep being my good kitten and I’ll do that later ok..ok” he says then I hear them kiss again “yeah love I’m sorry I’ll see you later right” he says finally coming back to the phone “yeah uh see you later” I say being hung up on “and I’m the soft one” I say to myself sitting up in my chair 

Chapter 63: EXTRA #13

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ I almost forgot about you again but I didn't this is the last of the four pre done chapters so there will be another short break but I have CH 65 66 and 67 already in the WIP phases so hopefully those will be done in a timely manner

enjoy 🕺🏽

Jess has always been a semi regular person when it came down to her menstrual cycle keep track of it analog and electronically so when she was almost a whole week late and that could only mean one thing and she didn't wanna bring it up to anyone just in case it was just her body changing with age 

Another week shows up and nothing still and her chose to wear this tight ass corset is now making her go crazy just a tab she sneaks out of AD and goes to the nearest store and buys 4 pregnancy test she gets back just before her first client of the day and she's a bit distracted the whole time just freaking out “ im on birth control and we've never had sex with a condom why now” “i haven't worn a lace up corset in damn near a month and now my possible baby could be getting smushed”  

She had so many emotions going through her body at the moment that it was incomprehensible she was freaking out that she was pregnant she was happy at the potential of being pregnant she wanted to cry but also bounce up and down with glee but not yet because she had to make sure first before she handled any of those emotions  

She had sometime between clients today so she took all four of the pregnancy test and is now waiting in the back room (sho and nem office) waiting for the results “hey sho oh shit Jess have you seen sho” “umm no I haven’t” she say hiding the test “hands” nem says walking up to her she shakes her head no “Jessica now” Jess hands it to her and she sees what it is “what whoa are you oh my god am I going to be grandma midnight” she says sitting next to Jess “I don’t know but I’m late and we have a lot of unprotected sex” “so whose is it” “god keigo is the only one I have sex without a condom” “ok ok we’ll how much more time we got” “2 minutes” she says looking at the timer on her phone

They wait two minutes and look at the test and see it is as big as day…

She feels so kind of relief and sadness at the same time keigo picks her up from AD and she doesn’t know how to bring it up to him “princess what’s wrong” he says not pulling off yet “i um my period is late and I took a few test earlier” “are you pregnant” “kei-” fuck I mean I’m excited but this is a complete surprise” he says cutting her off “keigo for the love of god I’m not pregnant I took a few test and they all came back negative I’m not pregnant” “so no baby haru”you can see the excitement leave his face  “no not yet” “oh thank fuck” he says exhaling and sinking in his seat “well that’s definitely the reaction I was looking for” “no no princess I promise you I want this but fuck was I scared we have a plan for at least another two years from now and right now at this moment Im not ready we’re not living together or married yet my only two requirements” he says grabbing her hand “so it wasn’t a thank fuck I really don’t want to have a kid anymore thank god and a thank fuck I’m not ready yet thank god for the extra time” “the ladder yes” “ok nem walked in and asked if she was going to be grandma midnight and now that’s all I can think about” “baby haru is going be one spoiled baby” “yeah they are when they get here we have to come up with another name just in case it twins” “what was the guys best friend name the shark one” “rei” “yeah baby number two rei” 

Notes:

I just felt like it was only right to give them at least one pregnancy scare lol

Chapter 64: WHAT IF... KENNY NEVER DIED THEY JUST BROKE UP

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ remember I told you I had three chapters in the wip phase and I wasn't lying BUT they all flopped and this one came to me in a random thought and I got it done in one day and until something sticks im sorry but its going to be awhile because they just aren't going how I plan them

 

I hope you enjoy this alternative universe where Kenny still here tsunagu is still here and jess hizashi and keigo have been friends wayyy earlier than original storyline🕺🏽

Our relationship was picture perfect people around us would always say how jealous and envious they were of the infamous kenny and keigo and i mean yeas the first 8 years when we went to the same school lived in the same house or right next door to each other but these past two years of grad school has been absolute hell 

“What do you mean you can't come down this weekend we've been planning this for weeks now” i say to him over the phone “i know but this project is taking longer than we expected me and jess have been pulling all nighters all week and we just put a dent into the research” he says obviously tired “all the more reason to come here get away from the computer for a weekend and come back with a empty mind” i know how important this research project is for them but fuck i havent seen my boyfriend or my best friend in months “give me the phone… kei babes we want to come down so bad but we cant we only have a week and half left to be done and every minute counts but look on the brightside when were done it'll be time for winter break and your birthday and we'll all be together then” jess says trying to reason with me “ok i guess so i'm sorry for being selfish i'll see you at the end of the semester” i say because it's only three weeks left and i wont die because i have to wait longer to see kenny and were all going on a mini end of the year trip so i can be with everyone after such along time 

They've been buried in work for the past month and these past two weeks haven't been any different but they just turned in the assignment and were free from litreview hell “this trip to okinawa is more than needed” i say to hizashi and tsunagu as we walk through the airport “i know you're only saying that because your bursting at the seams to see kenny” hizashi say “ok yes but i also really miss jess” i say laughing “hizashi be prepared to be ignored for the next week” “i already know he's not going to need us anymore since he has his kenny back” “hey not true you both mean alot to me also the only reason your not bouncing around right now is you see jess at work” “yeah you're right” he says smiling we were to all meet in the airport in osaka and getting to the gate and not seeing the other two people of this party is concerning because the flight leaves soon “hey where are you” “we just got off the plane but were not far i think i can actually yeah i can see you” kenny says and he turns around and sees the man he hasent been sperated from since he was 10 kenny smiles at him when they look eyes meet “ oh how ive missed you baby” kenny says hugging me tightly “ugh one more semester and we never have to be separated ever again” 

Ha ha ha i remember that trip it was fun and the last time we ever enjoyed each others company i mean we do now because we no longer have many obligations to the other but ill just let you read it 

We've been living together in this small apartment not to far from our childhood homes and kenny has been working his ass off gaining clientele and working on getting a private practice and me and tsunagu have been putting in the work to getting switch tech off the ground and with us both being very stressed by outside factors home life got wicked to 

“Oh my fucking god keigo could we drop it everytime its the same thing im with you why would i care about him” “all im saying your out with this Yuta guy all the time you see him more than me i know ive also been busy but i would love to come home your here” “we work in the same place we hang out after work i dont even think hes attractive kei it been 10 years have i ever given you a reason to think im not trustworthy” “no” “then why is this bothering so much” “because i never thought in the 15 years ive known you would fucking lie to me” i say dropping my phone on the counter of the picture that was sent to me of him and yuta making out in a bar “fuck” he says as i walk towards the bed room “keigo weve been arguing alot and i dont know i fucked up thinking it was something better and its not i swear it was just that kiss nothing else i immediately regretted it im sor-” “i don't care really ill be back later with the rest of my stuff because yes weve been arguing alot and shit has been tough but never have i once went and did anything like this so have fun with him i hope he was worth losing me” i say before i left 

I went back home and never looked back i only saw him because we have the same friend group and i would never make them choose 

That was a year and half ago and of course i'm now stuck in the same room with him right now because our friends had enough of us not talking to each other

“Keigo im sorry i know i fucked up but fuck i hate living without my baby” he says sitting next to me “i hate it too but its your fault why did you do it i mean i know it was alot going on at the time but fuck ken why was i not enough what” “no my baby you are more than enough im just a dumbass that didnt realize what i had till it was gone i dont like growing and doing  things we said we would do together and you arent there with me the start of my practice you finailly getting the funding and donors to get switch up and running i hate that i had to find out your dreams were coming true through a goddamn google alert i know i dont deserve you but please just one more try” if you read the title and thought “aww man keigo doesnt get to be happy in any universe” you thought wrong “you dont have to beg ken this life shit sucks when you arent with me but if you ever kiss anyone other than the pre approved four people i will kill you” “who exactly are talking about” “me jess tsunaguand zashi duh” “oh i was going do that anyway” “theyre really hot like fuck” “jess really makes me question my sexuality sometime shit all the time” “we should like if they would consider you know” “youve been trying to have them join our relationship since we met them” “and im not going stop trying till you say yes” i say kissing him “its not happening you an jess love eachother too much you not leaving me for her” “*gasp* i would never but she is like my twin flame so you have the right to be concerned” i say laughing “whatever maybe one day but not today i just got you back i'm holding you hostage” “that year never happened we've  been together for 12 years next month i expect a big gift and good dick” “i hate to repeat myself but i was going do that anyway”

“You kiss and make up yet”jess says peeking her head through the door “yes” i say smiling at her “good now i can enjoy my birthday” she says coming in the room immediately separating me and kenny and sitting in his lap and hizashi in mine “i've never felt like a third wheel more in my life since I’ve met the 4 of you i need new friends”tsunagu says coming in the room behind them “if that was true you would've gotten away from us 8 years ago” kenny says pulling him on the bed with us “now that we're one big happy family again let's get go shopping because the limit on my credit card just went and my lovely father said to buy whatever makes me happy and then when we come back lets get concerningly drunk” “sounds like a plan” “for the latter half keep ya boyfriend off of mine” kenny say to jess “for what you not going keep your hands off my girlfriend” hizashi says “at this point yall all one couple that doesn't want to admit it”tsunagu says being stuck in the middle “if kenny wasn't so stingy we would be”jess says “jess i love you so much but you will never have my keigo” “in a different timeline hes all mine” “yeah right we end up together in every universe” “we sure do my love” i say and we kiss over tsunagu “ok im getting tried of all the mush and kissing” he says getting up “i think its time” “yeah i think so” we all get up and kiss tsunagu all over his face and neck “if you felt left out just say that” i say laughing at him viciously wiping the places we kissed “come on let’s go ill buy you whatever you want” jess says locking arms with him and leaving out the door 

 

Notes:

the 4 person relationship def happened don't worry in some other universe keigo has only a little trauma 🤏🏾 and three partners that love him to pieces

Chapter 65

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ its been a month don't jump me but I have three chapters this and two others that ive been working on in the process so ill go back to Tuesdays after today

enjoy🕺🏽

ps.. i title these in my docs but ive commited to the no titles but the alt title is OLD FLAME

Sitting in my office checking on progress of certain things and blah blah and I get a phone call from Charlie “I’m not watching Kendall don’t ask”I say when I answer and he laughs “I wasn’t going to but I was going to ask if your free Thursday for dinner” “as long as it’s after 6:30” “ok I’ll let you know where soon” “mhm okay I’ll see you Thursday” I say writing on my calendar “you get no easier do you keigo” “that was only when I first met you” “I missed you kid” “you always miss me” “I know but I’ll see you soon ok” “yeah see you soon” 

 

Now I’ve agreed to this completely forgetting that Jess and zashi might not agree with this “hey I’ve agreed to something without asking if it was cool with yall first” I say sitting between them on the couch “god I’m going to lose my mind if you’re leaving me again for an extended period of time” Jess says “no no just Charlie asked to go to dinner Thursday and I don’t know if y'all are ok with that” “oh why wouldn’t we be it’s Charlie”zashi says“yeah I don’t care unless you plan on having sex with him then I still don’t care you just gotta tell me ever detail when you get back” Jess says with a wicked smile on her face “why would I be having sex with him he married why would that even happen” “so you are too technically and as your wife I’m telling you if it happens I don’t care just come back home and tell me everything I never got the Charlie sex stories in college because you told me he was your dad’s brother” “fuck I did tell you that not the point i don’t think that’s going to happen” “but if it does come back and tell us everything” hizashi says 

 

It’s Thursday I’ve got Jess and zashi ready for their night at AD and now I’m getting ready to leave should I bring a change of clothes just in case no no no don’t get your hopes up and nothing happens…..fuck it just in case 

 

I leave out throwing my bag in the trunk and heading to the restaurant 

 

The whole ride different times of us together flash in my head and I’m embarrassed to say that I actually had to turn the music up to distract me because one more flashback and my dick would’ve been bussing out my zipper 

 

I make it to the restaurant and I’m lead to the table where Charlie is and he stands “hey kid” he says hugging me “I’m almost 30 when will I ever outgrow that name” I say hugging me back fuck he smells good “I’m a full 20 years older than you you won’t” he says letting his hands linger around my waist for to long before I sit down 

 

Ok before you look at me all crazy this man is hot asf like imagine Idris Elba and training day Denzel Washington had a kid it would be Charlie and he fucks like no other so before you judge me remember to mind ya business 

 

“I’m surprised a busy man like yourself had time for me” I say scanning the menu “you know I always make time for you keigo” “then explain why it’s been so long since the last time it was just me and you” “you acted like you hated me and would rather die than be seen with me and I had a kid” “I never hated you you left me remember” “I didn’t leave you just I knew you were being held back by me being there and I met Marie but I never left you if I left you we wouldn’t have been in contact all of these years” “yeah yeah still broke up with me on graduation” “ok yeah that was shitty sorry about that” 

 

We eat catch up and I don’t know if it’s because I almost ruined my favorite pants on the way here or what but he’s been on his A game with the flirting and I’m falling for it “here’s the check” the waitress says putting it on the table and I almost reached for it completely forgetting who I was with for a second “keep ya hands over there” he says putting his card in the receipt book and handing it back to her “what’s crazy is Jess has my card anyway” I say “why” “she went to get her nails done today I just forgot to get it back from her” “ahh such a good fiancé…you coming back home with me or not” “I was waiting for you to ask but I drove send me the address” “I never moved and I didn’t I’ll tell the driver to go on I’ll drive with you” he says hand on my back small kiss on the side of my neck “let’s get out of here” I say moving his hand off me and walking out the restaurant “always in such a rush aren’t ya kid” “you know I don’t do well with slow better than anyone else” 

 

We get in the car and like magnets our lips collide “you can’t even make it there before you try to get me outta my clothes” I say as he pulls my shirt out of my pants putting his hand on my bare waist while kissing my neck “I don’t know what you do to me kid I can’t help myself” he says grip tighten like he’s resisting “then let me get to the house and you can have me baby” I say kissing him again he let’s me go I send 

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Hey you were right I’ll see you in the morning 

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

You whore

Have fun

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

😆😆😆😆😆

Record if possible  

 

And I leave the parking lot and I go to his house it’s a 20 minute drive from the restaurant his hand has been on my thigh the whole time and every single light he’s reaching over to kiss me “one more light and you're all mine” “yeah just for the night” “oh how nice of you” the light turns green and I make the final turn into his neighbourhood and in his insane driveway I turn the car off and the moment I’m on that side of the car we’re back to kissing stumbling to the front door he unlocks it back to me we walk in the house and I can feel a feel someone presents I look over and see Marie on the couch watching tv “shit I’m sor-“ “keigo it’s fine I told him to call you have fun the rooms soundproof” she says smiling at me “is Kendall here”I’m not getting fucked in the same house his wife AND HIS KID is in “no he’s with my sister for the weekend” “come on I was promised that you were all mines tonight” he says grabbing my hand “yeah let’s go” I say he turns towards the steps and I mouth thank you  to her she winks and laughs at me and we go upstairs 

 

We get in the room and I’m immediately stripped by him and I do the same to him “why would she tell you to call me” “she said I talk about you to much” “is she terrible in bed or something” “not in the slightest but I miss you the way you taste how you sound when I reach the right spot the way your back arches and how pretty you look leaking my cum” he says kissing all over my neck and chest “fuck” I don’t know why that affected me that much his tone of voice made me know that he meant every syllable of every word “fuck is right” he says pushing me back on the bed and flipping me over once I was in the middle ass in the air all I feel is he wet tongue on my ass “fuck i forgot how good that feels” I couldn’t pay either Jess or zashi to ever eat my ass so it’s been YEARS since this has happened and he’s acting like we didn’t just eat “fuck I missed you” he says going tongue deep in me and it’s not enough to make me cum but enough to make my dick to twitch under me “as great as this feels baby please enough foreplay I need you please” “nothing ever changes with you keigo always been a cock slut always will be” he says sitting up and dropping a generous amount of lube on my ass then i feel his tip sliding in me then back out then he gets about half of his dick in me and I remember the fucking girth of his dick the sting of the stretch was making me see stars he goes slow for the first few strokes and I’m not complaining because after every thrust in me he’s hitting the exact right spot “see that noise I missed it so much” “missed it so much record us so you never forget it” I say he grabs the nearest phone “I wonder how fiancée and boyfriend would react to seeing you stretched out on my dick like the good boy that you are” he says looking at my Lock Screen “time” “9:20” “pull out give me” he pulls out and I sit up “you cool if I call them” “sure why not” he says kissing all over me again 

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Wanna watch me get fucked 

I don’t know how long he can resist so hurry and answer 

 

I immediately get a call from zashi “we just got back in house” he says sitting in the bed Jess shows up in frame and I’m already a fucking mess he didn’t get me much time after that second message before he said fuck it and flipped me and started back up the phone is at the head of the bed both of us in shot and he’s went from slow to fucking me in to this fucking mattress 

 

Their eyes being fixated on me makes this 100 times better a hint of jealousy is written all over hizashi face “come keigo you have your audience let’s give them a show” he pulls me up by my shoulder so now I’m flush against his chest full body in view for them the sounds outta me would make your favorite nsfw boyfriend asmr channel look like it was softcore porn “fuck daddy shit I’m about to cum please let me” “I’ve barely fucked you no way” “i - please fuck” “why should I then the fun would be over” “it won’t I promise I’m better with over stimulation then I was then please”  “is he telling the truth” he asks and both speechless they just nod yes “then go ahead” with a few more hard strokes I came so hard on the sheets in front of me and he didn’t stop he just flipped us so I’m on top of him and grabbed the phone “come on you know how I like baby” he says pointing the camera at me 

 

I place my hands down on his chest and with what little strength I had left in my legs I got in a squatting position and bounced up and down on him I love how this position feels because one I can control the speed and how much of him I take I do hate how fucking much my legs burn but I get over that (mostly) “fuck kei” I hear Jess says and I remember that their watching and it give me the exact leg strength to ride this man till he pushed me off because he was about to cum back in doggy he fucks me hard and fast nearing his end and showing it off them the second time I came it was unannounced and felt like I was about to pass out then I feel him coming in me if I was a woman I would 100% be pregnant right now I feel the phone hit the bed and hear “hey what the hell” then a flash turns on and he pulls out and I feel the cum just leaking out of me and it’s honestly kinda hot 

 

I reach back to my phone and bring it up to my face “you look fucked outta your mind”Jess says “I am shit that’s hot” “would you rather it be cold”he says wiping all the cum and lube off of me with a hot ass rag “that was like really fucking hot baby” Jess says looking like she’s the horniest she ever been and it’s making wanna get in the car and drive home “you have fun there she can’t keep her hand to herself we’ll see you when you get back I love you kitten” “mm I love you too baby ” I say as he’s started my favorite post sex ritual a fucking massage “I love you too keibaby” “I love you more princess” we hang up and my mind is melting from this massage “they were really cute watching you ride me it was obvious she was jerking him off the whole time he also looked like he wanted to kill me a bit” “your fucking his kitten I’ve been just his for awhile now he not used to me being with another man” “didn’t he say it was ok” “yeah but agreeing and seeing are two separate things goddamn I missed these massages” “you really needed it you been stressed lately” “no just been awhile since I had one” I said half falling asleep “well relax and enjoy it” 

 

I fell asleep and woke up next to Charlie on his computer “I’ve known you for 8 years now and I know nothing about what you do” “it’s a boring job that pays well” “we’re in the same boat”I say sitting up and stretching “you’re the creator and ceo of a multi million dollar company you don’t get to say that” “hey I mostly just sign off on things and sit in meetings when we’re not in the developing stage of a product” “I’m like the most successful sugar daddy ever my sugar baby grew to become richer than me” he says with a laugh “i learned from the best is whatever your doing on this laptop important right now” “no just an email” “great” I close the laptop move it and straddle him “no audience just us before I go” I say still naked from last night “is this really the last time” he says kissing my neck “It might so you better fuck me like it is” he pushes me back now on top of me getting his pants off “you always know exactly what to say out of that mouth of yours” “I know what to say to get what I want”I say wrapping my arms around his neck “I’ve spoiled you”he says before kissing me “rotten” 

 

It’s different from last night it’s more passionate and if this is the last time it would be one hell of a last time we both last longer making it drag out for a little over an hour of position changes I miss you and curses filling the air 

 

“One hell of a night kid” “and morning but I gotta go” “I know I’ve already went over my time” “it was worth it” “yeah once a month just me and you dinner that’s all” “make the time for me and I’m there” I say kissing him “I always make time for you keigo” “I know” “ok let me know when you get back home” “ok” “ok see you later kid” “see ya old man” 

 

On my way home I just replayed all of it. Did that really happen? How much possession am I going to be walking into when I get home? Will it happen again? I mean why not they both have their own person that they have to themselves Why can’t it? I mean it’s just dinner and sex they do way worse with asahi and kaoru why am I over thinking this they were super chill about this they told me to do it they watched but that look on zashi face was it kinda hot to have him be jealous that his kitten was being used by someone else that wasn’t him yes but did I go to far Jess of course enjoyed it but I can’t say the same for him 

 

I park in his driveway and walk in to music playing and food being cooked “if your trying to make me fall in love with you more it’s impossible” I say walking in the kitchen and seeing zashi cooking he looks as beautiful as ever hair up black tee shirt a pair of the Christmas pants Jess has bought us over the years “I can always try” he says “you don’t seemed thrilled to see me” I say sitting on the island he doesn’t say anything just turns the burner off and turns to me sliding between my legs “why would I be thrilled to you I’m actually kinda not at all” he says no heat behind it “why not your kitten has been away from you for so many hours and you don’t miss me master that’s mean” “getting used like the slut you are by someone else while on the phone with me doesn’t get you the kitten treatment” “I don’t say the same about you giving attention to other subs and not me now do I” “not the point I hated it”he says moving away from me“you sure about that your dick was hard throughout the whole call hi baby I’ve missed you” Jess says coming in the kitchen giving me kisses “see that’s how you greet me I missed you too princess” I say as she leans her back against where I’m sitting on the island “she a cuck she doesn’t mind watching I didn’t like it” he says going back to cooking “hey I’m sorry I like watching my baby get slutted out it’s hot as long as it’s a another guy” she says wrapping my arms around her “well I’m sorry zashi I didn’t mean to make you uncomfortable” well that deaded the ‘will it happen again?’ question “just next time I don’t wanna see it happen” next time “yeah and tell him to send the video he took when he put us down” “so like yall are ok if it hypothetically happens again” “it’s Charlie I don’t care no one else though” Jess says “baby?” I say because he looks like he’s fighting demons while adding the tofu to the pot “ok but one condition” he says looking at me “I don’t wanna know what you do you can tell love I just don’t wanna know” “okay my lips are sealed” “zashi you must of did some soul searching last night because you definitely enjoyed that last night” “I didn't despite what happened after the call ended” “why not” “because kei is mine and seeing him with another man pissed me off I thought it would be hot and I would be just like all for it but hearing you call him daddy and beg him to cum  and he kept fucking kissing you it all irritated me” he says aggressively chopping “ok how about we put down the knife baby look at me I am yours and if it bothers you this much then I won’t do it again” “I’m not going to say no because it’s really not fair but I just don’t wanna know just how you don’t wanna know about asahi” “ok I’m sorry I made you uncomfortable” “I accept the apology only because you’re cute and I got a good bj out of it” he says winking at Jess “see that’s not fair it’s been months princess” “maybe next time it’ll be you” she says kissing my hand “hey baby you still haven’t kissed me told me you love me” he puts the last bits in the pot then boxes Jess inbetween us “I love you kitten my baby” he says then kisses me hand on the back of my head slightly pulling at my hair “I love you too” I say “ugh I love this” Jess says looking up at us 

 

To:Charlie 💵

Hey I’m home 

From:Charlie 💵

Ok I had a great time with you kid 

Hope it wasn’t the last time

To:Charlie 💵

Can’t get rid of me that easily 

(Got the ok)

From:Charlie 💵

You missed the massages that much

To:Charlie 💵

At least you know my real reason for coming back ;)

From:Charlie 💵

I’ll make them just as special as always

 

“See this is why I changed your password all those years ago” Jess says taking my phone out my hand “I know I’m sorry keep it” I say laughing 

 

To:Charlie 💵

Hey Charlie it’s Jess can you send him and or me that video you took last night it would be greatly appreciated 😘

From:Charlie 💵

*attachment 4 2 video 3 photos *

To:Charlie 💵

Thanks 😉

It’s been hours since I got back and zashi has still be short with me and I hate it so much “it bothered you that much”I say to him while he puts the laundry away “yeah I’m sorry if I’m acting distant but I just wanna get this stuff done before I gotta go to the studio for the night” he says folding some pants “get it out talk to me don’t be mad at me” I say and he looks at me then I see the same look I saw last night “tell him next time don’t leave any marks on you  your not his and that shit he pulled with Kenny not happening over here” he says very aggressively like never seen him this aggressive in my life “ok I’ll let him know and it won’t baby this isn’t going in that direction at all and if it ever did I’m choosing you everytime” “ughhh I hate feeling this possessive but I do and it because your only supposed to be mine” he says closing in on me against the wall “I am yours it’s just sex with him nothing else” “why do you want him so bad what is it I get when it was for the money but what is it now” “I don’t know it’s just good sex that’s it” “the why were you yelling how much you missed him huh baby if it’s just sex”he says looking down at me pinned against the closet wall and im trying to figure out when I said that while they were on the phone and remembered this morning “I don’t know heat of the moment he kept saying it so I just said it back” “no you meant you missed being a fucking brat and still getting what you wanted” “I mean yes but I don’t wanna lie and say I didnt miss the time we spent together but it’s wasn’t oh let’s run off in the sunset together I miss you the only man I wanna be with for the rest of my life is you I just like fucking him”I says pulling him closer by wrapping my arms around his neck “it can’t be that great baby” “but it is I’m sorry” “ok but this shit cut that out only we can do this” he says pressing on the red mark on my collar bone “ok master I’ll make it stop but you gotta promise me one thing” “anything kitten” “you keep this possessive shit up i like it” I say smiling at him “I bet you do you like to be claimed that’s why this can’t happen no more” “I know I know” “and the only reason I ain’t fucked you and made you repeat that you’re mine is because I seen the size of his dick and you need time to recover” “yeah it’s been awhile and I forgot about the width whew” “ok I don’t wanna know” he says moving back “no come back” I say pulling him back to me “what kitten” “I’m yours committed to only you and if I would’ve known that this was how you were going to feel after I never would’ve called last night so please before it happened again tell me 100% are you ok with it” “as long you don’t talk about it to me and he doesn’t mark you anymore I’m ok with it” “ok whenever it gets to much tell me and I’ll drop it immediately” “ok I promise” 

 

“ok now I’ve been waiting to do this since I walked in the door this morning” I says sliding down getting on my knees “you’re ridiculous you know that”he says looking down at me with a smile “call me what you want but I want your dick in my mouth now” I say getting him outta his pants “fuck him but I can get use to all of this head” 

 

He’s thrusting into my mouth so deep I’m crying and I fucking love it “that’s right kitten in your rightful position on your knees with my dick down your throat all mine” he says holding my head that I couldn’t move when I ran outta dick to put in my mouth 

 

It’s intense and I might not have a voice when I’m done but well worth it when he cums and lets out the cutest whimpery moan hand gripping my hair as he comes in my mouth so much that it leaks out the side of my mouth when he pulls out i swallow and fill my lungs with air again “your better at this than your girlfriend ”he says wiping my mouth “fiancée and you wasn’t saying that last night ahh love i love it keep going” she says mocking him walking through the closet to the bathroom “you two just like arguing with each other” I says standing “it’s our love language” he says kissing me 

 

So I mean am I the luckiest man on the planet yes yes I am and you can be mad but just know that that means more of me being a bratty bottom for you to enjoy also it been wayyyy to long since I’ve let you see a mistress x Me scene I won’t hold out anymore just be patient *wink*

Chapter 66: KINGSTON-HIZASHI

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨Im back with a hizashi chapter and I'm warning you now the next chapter is a bit emotional so I can't say sit it out but you know prepare for maybe crying but I didn't cry while writing it so maybe its not as emotional as I think

ANYWAYS ENJOY 🕺🏽

CHAPTER SPONSORED BY KINGSTON BY FAYE WEBSTER

I hate that I start everyone of my chapters like this but fuck am I happy I go through life with a different out look on everything I’m always thinking about Jess and keigo I go all day waiting to get back home to them I wanna spend every moment of everyday with them and I love touching them kissing them talking to them all of it 

It’s Friday the day when I have my show from 12-5am and it used to be nothing just working at the oddest hours but now it sucks because I can’t be home 

Im 2 hours in my energy levels are low and I’ve played more music than I’ve ever played just so I don’t have to talk a lot 

“Here everyone favorite segment the late night confession corner if you're new here you send in your deepest darkest secrets anonymously of course to set you free….. ok from caller 6543 they’ve sent in that they recently finished a show they started with their partner without them ouch I’ve been on both ends of this but mostly I’ve come home and my partners have finished the show and try to act like they didn’t” 

“Next one is from caller 9024 they’ve just confessed to wanting to move out of their home with their 4 roommates/close friends honestly I don’t think anyone expects you to live them forever so I mean unless it’s some more sinister reason behind it that’s perfectly okay” 

“Ok ok let’s see caller 4594 hm” I say because these are by the last 4 digits of the phone number and that’s definitely Jess number “they’ve confessed that they love me so much but won’t be able to stay up and wait for me to come home tonight” I read and laugh because this had to go through my producer before it got to me “it’s ok my love I understand thanks for staying up this long goodnight and I love you both” I say closing out that segment it gave me some type of boost in energy to hurry up and get back home 

“ Ok last segment of the show we have a few burning  questions about your favorite late night host…ok first are you actually as tall as you look in pictures yes last time I checked i was 6 '1 185cm… uhh if you weren’t a radio show host what you be doing music journalism both parents are also in the music industry I was destined to be in this world one way or the other…earlier you said ‘I love you both’ do you have kids no I do not have any children but I have two wonderful partners who I love very much… because you’re show starts so late and ends extremely early in the morning what do you typically do before and after before sleep a lot eat sleep some more come in and set up everything and after go home shower and sleep till like 11:30 sometimes listen to meekas set and then go on about my Saturday…we have time for one more question and I’m out I follow you on socials and love your style how did you develop your style also do you do you own hair for events? I have an unhealthy obsession with all rock alternative and metal music so being in that from a young age and seeing how everyone dressed at the shows and on stage and I took what I liked and made it in to whatever you call my fashion style and for the second half most times yes if you see me and it’s just one braid on the side of my head yeah I did it but if it’s some cool design or something yeah my love Jess does it for me that’s the lovely lady you see all though my socials she’s fucking awesome at hair so yeah that’s all her… well people that’s all I got for you for I’ll leave you with one last song for the night Kingston by Faye Webster have a good night good morning good afternoon be safe and stay hot and sexy hizashi outtt” I say signing off and getting the confirmation I was off air 5:00 on the dot 

I leave and ready get home shower and sleep but I’m greeted with low music and the smell of food when I walk in my house “keigo I think it’s impossible to get me to love you more” I say kissing his cheek as he cooks “but I’ll never stop trying” “why are you up so early you aren’t tired” “exhausted but I didn’t cook enough last night for you to have something to eat when you got back” “you didn’t have too” “but I wanted to so go shower when your done it should be done” he says kissing and shooing me off 

When I get upstairs Jess is for some reason up “why I thought you were going to sleep” “I was sleep but then I heard you sign off and keigo went to cook so I kinda just woke up still very sleepy though def sleeping past 12” she says rubbing her eyes getting out the bed to kiss me “mmh your confession was cute” “I knew you would like it you sounded like you were bored and about to fall asleep so I thought it would cheer you up to hear from us” “it did now go back to sleep” “I’ll wait for you” she says going downstairs 

I shower and come back downstairs to see them in their usual I wanna be in your skin position  in the breakfast nook seat “I don’t know why our house are literally copied and pasted but I don’t have this” Jess says as I sit on the other side where the food is laid out for me “realtor said it was the only one who had one on the street” “not fair” she says laying her head on his shoulder they look like they’re both a minute away from falling asleep but just don’t wanna leave me alone “you can go upstairs and sleep I’ll be up when I’m done” “no *yawn* it’s ok we’ll wait for you” keigo says 

After I finish eating I put the dishes up and we head upstairs it’s roughly 7:30 i can already tell it's going to be one of those days i waste the day away sleeping and i gotta just accept it

I wake empty bed and wondering how long its been i reach for my phone “4:00 fuck its late” i say getting out of bed i walk out of my room and hear them downstairs “why did you let me sleep so late”i say walking into the office converted into my music room “we woke up at 1 something and we did nothing yesterday you were up all yesterday and night till this morning i wasnt waking you up” jess says looking through my extensive vinyl collection “but we could’ve done something together today but no i slept the whole day away” i say sitting on the lovesac with keigo “theres always tomorrow”keigo say looking at me “how about we do something now then you wanna do something together come on” jess say sitting on top of me “stop being so mean im serious we havent a date night in weeks because of my schedule” “im serious right now anything you wanna do well get ready and do it”she says and i look at kei “whatever you say it and well do it” he say waiting for me to answer “um i dont can i at least see whats happening tonight” “of course but whatever you want and were going right now” jess say and i take my phone out and look some parties happening but i dont feel like clubbing really i see theres some new restaurants opening but no vegan options and then boom my lovely dj meeka is djing at a one night music festival that doesnt start till 10 so that would give us time to get ready “meeka is a doing a set at a music festival i could easily make a few calls to get us in” i say looking at the lineup “ok make the calls we’ll get ready” jess says getting up and dragging kei with her “you sure it starts at 10 and not over till 4” “you said thats where you wanted to so thats where we’re going”keigo says walking out the room with jess 

I call my producer to see if we been invited already or if there was a ways to get in this last minute and thankfully we were already invited being meekas is working the festival 

“So we have our way in fuck you're goddamn” i say walking in the bathroom and seeing jess  (auto correct changed that to jesus lol) and keigo jess obviously chose his outfit because it a complete 360 from what he's used to its a tight pair of black jeans with a red and black wrap skirt that sits about mid thigh with a vintage slipknot tour shirt on with a white button up on under it “i know right he looks hot as fuck doesn't he” jess says tucking the shirts in “fuck yeah he does I've never seen him dress like this” i say not being able to take my eyes off of him “she wanted me to just wear the skirt not happening” he say running his hand through his hair “i mean this skirt with a pair of fishnets and boots hot” “that would be for your eyes only princess not for the world” he says kissing her “what about me” “you've already seen it so no”he says winking at me “ excuse me what when”jess says  “i'll show you picture later” “ok he’s done i need to get ready and so do you” jess says walking out the bathroom 

“i don’t know if i'm going to be able to top what you pulled off with him” I say looking at my clothes “I looked at the lineup  and it’s pretty tame compared to the festivals we usually go to so even I'm going to be more casual but he asked me to dress him so” she says zipping the back of her skirt “I love that you consider anything you wear casual” “it is more casual than what I usually wear see my whole ass is covered” she says turning her back to me “I love the contradiction between your style and your job” I say because she has this job and degrees that hold weight and prestige and in her time away from work she dresses like a rage princess “hey I’m breaking the curse of dressing how like the job you want I’ve dressed like this through all 3 degrees and getting my own practice so if one of my clients see me outside of a session and doesn’t like it then they can drop me if they want to” “i know but are we going to able to post kei in that outfit” i say because as much as i would love to live in a world where it didn't matter what you did in your free time when you were at the height he's at but i dont want one wrong post to be a pr nightmare for him and switch “i have no clue you're going to have to him” “ask him what” he says walking in the closet “if we can post pictures with you dressed very un-conservative” “yeah why not” “i mean you don't have the same wiggle room that i have how you present to the world could end a lot of things for switch” “i love how this outfit is what yall are worried about if anyone of my donors or contractors see me in this cool ass outfit and drop the openly gay man who makes them a lot of money may i add then thats on them i wont stay in that stuck up CEO persona box outside of that office and if me being in this skirt upsets someone then oh well” he says and he's not wrong keigo doesn't necessarily  hide his sexuality even before the new breakout product his company was know as the safe space for LGBTQ+ to come and work and not worry about the discrimination so i don't think the skirt should be a worry “and i mean you've met my biggest donor that day you came to the office and how did i introduce you?” he questions “as hizashi you boyfriend” “exactly” “hmm i've met that guy before he must be so confused” jess says laughing “ yeah he is but he hasn't questioned it yet” he says getting closer to me “baby i love you and i'm never going to hide you from anyone nor will i hid my affection or attraction to you and if that ends up being the detriment of my career then oh well” and I’ve know this man for 10 years he’s never once made me feel like something he’s had to hide has never had a problem with showing his true emotions so when he says that even if this relationship is the end of the thing he put so much work into I can’t do anything but believe him “i love you too but I’m not watching switch fall because of me but I appreciate the grand gesture” “it wouldn’t because I’m too damn good at my job” he says with that cocky smile that I love (this man is so down bad like stand up) “do we really have to go I think I have something better in mind” I say hands migrating around his waist “no you can fuck him or be fucked by him later I didn’t put this fire ass outfit together for no one to see it” jess says hanging on his back “we’re going no matter how much he wants to fuck me this was his idea and I wanna see Meekas’s set” “ughh ok Ill wait” I say then kissing both of them 

We head to where it’s being held and they somehow got me to drive because “I don’t drive enough” which isn’t wrong but I mean they always offer to drive so I don’t do much driving for us “can I wear this jacket back here it’s colder than I expected” Jess says in the back seat “no” I say looking in the rear view mirror “oh okay”she says surprised putting it down “my custom station leather jacket is in the trunk I’ll give you that one when we get there it’s works better with your outfit” “next time lead with that asshole” she says plucking me just when the light turns green “what that one doesn’t go with your outfit” i say reaching back and pinching her thigh “liar you just want to publicly claim her” keigo says not looking up from his phone “one ok and and two are you working right now” i say looking over for a second and seeing he’s typing an email “ yeah i had to….. um….send this email…real quick……” “on a Saturday it’s 9:30 what could possibly be going on” Jess says making a good point “…..my lawyer was asking me about a um…..” “god you can’t multitask to save your life” “no I can’t and you know that but anyways she emailed about a article that came out awhile ago that was shit talking us and asking if I wanted to sue and all that jazz” “what could they possibly say” “um to sum it up they called me a product of nepotism and didn’t deserve to have the glory of being praised when all i did was put my name of on something someone else did” “im sorry what”i say stopping at the next light “yeah what” “yeah and im not really bothered for the reason of that person obviously has done not an ounce of research for the reason of nepotism ha funny i wish and i mean I guess I don’t deserve the glory of co creating and being apart of every step of the exact product he also praised in the same article” “so more of a direct attack on you then switch that’s fucked are you going to sue that’s straight up defamation”Jess says  “yeah because it’s personal I asked touya to help me with that and he told me to meet him Monday and I asked pr to set up an interview with them because I would love to met the person behind it”he says looking back down at his phone “can I be there when you met them” I ask kind of pissed off at what they said about him “nahh I’m a big boy I can handle it” he says winking at me “I’m not wrong for being pissed off am I” Jess asks “no and I know I seem real chill about this but I’m really really furious about it because I’ve worked to hard for someone to discredit my life’s work and caulk it to me being some nepotism baby who was handed my job I earned my title and everything that comes with it but I’m not going to let it affect me tonight especially” he says taking a deep breath to calm down “but I’ll deal with that later so don’t worry” he says holding my free hand 

We make it to the festival and I can tell that kei isn’t really present and its fucking annoying because I can’t change it this is something that he has every right to be pissed at but I want to distract him from it and not think about it “take it” he says handing Jess his phone “why” she says putting it in her bag “because I keep reading it and i don’t wanna fuck up tonight with my shitty mood” he says being  more clingy than usual standing behind Jess and wrapping his arms around her shoulders “you won’t I promise you” I say placing my hand on the nape of his neck brushing my thumb through his hair “thanks but I will if I keep looking at it” he says and the current band is a group I don’t know nor really care about “love you cool to be by yourself for a while” I say “um yeah just not too long though” “I won’t take long I promise” I take keigos hand and lead him a bit away from the main stage crowd and it’s maybe one or two people walking past everyone and then “get it out” I say sitting on the picnic table that’s place there “I’m sorry I’m fucking tonight up with this it was supposed to be a fun date night and I ruined it with this” he say sitting next to me “that’s not the information I requested I told you to get it out your not fucking up anything im giving you the time and space to get it out because your in your head and it’s affecting your mood so get it out” he looks down at the ground “im rightfully pissed I know but it’s not just the fact that I’m mad they decided to talk shit about me because I don’t care say whatever you want about me but it fucking pisses me off that he looked at me and just wrote me off as some rando that was handed my title because daddy stepped down I worked hard to get where I am day and night tsunagu worked his ass day and night till his final day to make this company where it is and some ignorant dipshit just wrote out of they’re asses for clicks and shit I’m more worried about how this affects my character more than this fucking outfit” he says and I hear one to many sniffles I bring him in to embrace him “kitten that asshole just wanted to get under your skin no one who knows you as just ceo keigo takami would ever fucking believe that shit was true your the hardest working person I know and you deserve the whole fucking world and I’ll damn sure make sure you get it” he starts crying a little harder and it breaks my heart “when I first told Kenny that we were going to take this one project and make it into this huge company he told me people would try to discredit me because I was a poor kid from a broken home but fuck I never in a million years thought I would be discredited because I was handed my job which isn’t even true I created the company I’ve co created every single product we’ve made and sold i make the calls for the orders for the materials I sit up all night when we’re testing and brainstorming new ideas and I know I’m not the person they drew me to be but fuck it hurts” I hop down to be face to face with him I’ve heard this tone of voice before and I hate it “hey kitten look at me” I say lifting his head up to look at me “your not the person they made you out to be your the definition of self made you didn’t have outside help you did this shit yourself yes you have tsunagu as your partner but the business part was ALL you from the name to the layout of the office I was there when you got super excited about being the ceo of a imaginary company I remember the light in your eyes when you told me how much the things you wanted to make would help people all over the world and you are your fucking revolutionizing the hospital technology industry and as much as I think your job seems boring your the fucking rockstar and I’m your number one fan at all your shows so fuck them because as long as the people closest to you know the real you outside sources don’t matter I know it hurts and I know you want to do everything to prove your not that person but they don’t know you and don’t deserve to know you” he sniffles and laughs “you think imma rockstar” “I’ve met actual “rockstars” and your still more badass than them” “it’s very much impossible to make me love you even more but you never stop trying”he says placing a hand on each side of my face and smiling “and I never will” I says smiling back and kissing him “now let’s get to Jess before she kills us for leaving her” “yeah we should do that” 

“Feeling better” Jess says when we’re back to her “yes princess I do” he says clinging back to her “you better be leaving me in this crowded ass place with that wack ass band” “I’m sorry love” I say kissing the back of her hand “I’m only forgiving you because whatever you did fixed him” “so I see hella food trucks and we haven’t eaten like at all today and we have another hour till meeka set and I won’t make it” keigo says laying his head on Jess shoulder “come on let’s eat and get all our energy ready for meeka” I say then we go over 

We have a rocking ass night and we get back at 5:30 in the morning and end up falling asleep in living room all over the couch I’m madly in love and happy so I don’t care that all of my pov days are sappy get over it😜

 

Chapter 67

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨Heyy pookie I know I know I forgot about you again but in the week that I’ve been forgetting to post I’ve been working on a new chapter soooooo give me some time and I’ll make it up to you anyways enjoy💃🏽

Alt title: THAT BITCH ****** don’t wanna ruin the surprise 😉

It’s been a week since we went to the festival and I’ve talked to touya and we’ve already got the lawsuit in order but I wanted to meet the bitch who tried to discredit my years of hard work 

 

“Keigo I set up the conference room for your meeting later” Yo says peeking her head in my office “thanks Yo can you take them there first and then let me know when they’re here” I say because I wanna walk in and see who this asshole is “yes of course is this a meeting I have to sit in on” “no I would rather you don’t”

 

The hours go by and I hear the knock on the door “she’s here” Yo says and I get up she’s here who the hell is this person I walk down the hallway and into the conference room with all the confidence in the world ready to destroy this lady (disrespectfully) and I’m met with the devil herself 

 

“What the fuck are you doing here” I say sitting infront of the woman who put me through actual hell for 2 years straight “wow so rude for someone who invited me here” she says crossing her legs “I should’ve guessed it was you only your hateful ass would do something like this” “keigo is that anyway to treat the only person who ever truly loved you” “Jessie cut the bullshit what you wanted my attention that bad what” I say ready to just call security and get a fucking restraining order “you know what I want keigo” “what Jessie money what could you possibly want from me” “oh quite it you know all I want from you is for you to come back where you belong with me” she says with an innocent smile when she’s far from it “bit- Jessie that’s not happening when I told you I was done with you I meant it so you can give up that pipe dream” “pipe dream kei baby you’re not done with that replacement you randomly found yet she doesn’t actually love you she’s just in it for the money I on the other hand really love you” she says and I’m a man who was raised right and told not to hit women but I’ve never had the strongest urge to hit a women in my life “one don’t ever call me that ever again two she’s not a replacement if anyone was a replacement it was you if we never gotten into two different grad schools we wouldn’t even be on first name basis so don’t ever talk about her ever again and honestly I’m done here so I’ll have security escort you out have a shitty life Jessie” I stay standing and walking towards the door “looks like someone finally got some balls hizashi isnt as useless as I thought he was” “keep his fucking name out of your mouth” “or what keigo your going call your “fiancée” on me oh or the man you’ve been begging to be with since you met him he finally gave you the time of day huh I was actually surprised when I seen you three all over your socials I mean I never thought you were worthy of being known publicly as my boyfriend I think they do it to pity you your such a pity story dad in prison fucked a random old guy because you were so poor first boyfriend died in a tragic accident best friend and business partner also died in a horrible accident and what the two people you thought were the closest to you left you behind and somehow show back up at the same time seems weird to me” she says getting closer and closer to me “hmm so you do actually know how hard it was to get where I am and just wanted my attention your really just an attention seeking bitch with no life huh” I say smiling I used to be afraid of her and now I’m not I see her for the crazy bitch that she is and this will be the last time I see her “well Jessie you got what you wanted my attention and your going to wish you fucking just left me alone in my pity relationship which is better than none honestly which I guess you’re alone can’t find another valuable soul to manipulate you had your fun and now I’m going to have mine” I say then walk out the door sending in security

 

 they get her out and I’ve made sure to put her on the do no enter list and call touya about the restraining order because I can’t keep dealing with her and I have proof of all the bullshit she’s done to me so even if she tries to pull some shit she’ll lose 

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Just finished meeting the bitch who wrote the article 

Your never going to guess who it is 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Jessie 

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Jessie

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

I mean just take the fun outta of it but yes 

Wait how did you know 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

She found my insta and dm’d me this morning I didn’t see it till like 10 seconds ago but she said in short she said she got your attention and she was going to get you back today and other threatening things I told her have fun trying and took screenshots just in case she tries to delete it 

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Same I told her to fuck off and also took screenshots

Not my first rodeo with her 

 To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

I thought that article would be the worst thing I’ve been told about myself but she said some pretty fucked up things to me and she almost broke me bringing you up but I stood my ground

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Fucked up how

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

She called you a replacement and that fucked for a whole other reason I don’t wanna think about right now she said you both are only with me because you pity me (especially you zashi) also essentially called you useless (zashi) that I wasn’t worthy of being publicly shown off as a boyfriend and oh and threw every piece of trauma I’ve ever experienced in my entire life in my face to wrap the bow around the fuck fest of an afternoon 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I will actually hurt her like just say the word and I’ll fight her and use these dom skills for something other than pleasure 

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Can you come home 

If you say yes I’ll be on my way back home right now 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

^^^^^ I’ll cancel my last appointment if need be 

 

I look over my schedule and I don’t have shit else to do and honestly the only thing I want and need right now is to be with them 

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

I’m leaving now meet at mine 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

See you there 

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Leaving now

 

“Hey Yo I’m going to head out for the day and unless it’s like urgent just leave it for me on my desk” I say walking past her desk “okay have a good day see you tomorrow” 

 

Am I scared of her no because she can no longer hurt me but fuck did it hurt to hear her say all of that yes like a bitch I know it’s all lies but I don’t know I’ve been through to much in one life time to have to keep getting it thrown back at me especially by someone who claimed to love me 

 

I get back home and I don’t see they’re cars and I don’t wanna be alone in any aspect right now so I sit in my parking space till I saw their cars park on either side of me I get out when they’re out of the car “hey my baby” “how you feel lover” and the mix of genuine concern on their faces and the fact that it’s 2 pm on a Tuesday and they dropped everything to be with me was the stone that broke the dam and I lost control of my tears “I’m going fucking kill her” Jess says putting my head on her shoulder holding me tightly “not if I don’t get to her first” he says as he kisses the top of my head rubbing his hands on my back as I sobbed “I wish I could carry you my sweet baby you didn’t deserve that at all” “you didn’t and I can come on kitten” and I hold my arms out and he picks me up I’m latching on to him like a baby because I don’t wanna be away from either of them for a second I also hold Jess hand as we go upstairs yes while still crying like a baby I’m sad damnit leave me alone 

 

We get upstairs and he takes me in the room “let’s change none of us are dressed for cuddles” Jess says being the first to start the stripping process “yeah I know you’re crying and I don’t even wanna be this far from you but I’m not cuddling you in the suit” hizashi says following suit “yeah you're right” my voice sounding small even to myself and I can see them do that weird eye conversation thing they do but I don’t have it in me to think about whatever they’re talking about right now I change and get back in the bed before the two of them and they came back at the same time “hey baby I know this is hard and it’s been awhile since I seen you like this so can I ask you a question” zashi says sitting in front of me and I know the question and I haven’t had to answer it in years but I think I need to honestly “ok so i hear it in your voice and see it in your body language that’s your not feeling comfortable being awake right now do you wanna sleep” he asks and to give context I used to struggle giving up control so a way to make it more comfortable for me to go in to sub space without feeling like I was I would say “I wanted to sleep” I don’t know it was something we came up with on the fly that stuck “yeah I think I need to sleep for awhile” I say and he reaches back to Jess and she hands him a collar one I haven’t seen in 3 years it’s not my usual collar I wear all the time but the one we used during training he clicks it around my neck and I can already feel myself slipping into subspace “it’s ok to sleep baby we’re here” Jess says getting in the bed next to me “mistress can I ask you a question” I say laying my head on her shoulder “anything baby” she says taking her hand and running it through my hair and looking down at me “are you only my mistress because you pity me” “pity you why would I pity you baby” “because I’m just a charity case that needs to be taken care of” “your no one’s charity case and you take care of me more than the other way around” “I’m pretty sure you feel like that master” “feel like what that your a charity case” “yeah you only told me you were a dom because I came to you crying if I didnt do that you wouldn’t be my master now and you wouldn’t be stuck taking care of me” I say and I can see  boyfriend zashi and master fighting for control “kitten I take care of you because I want to not because I was forced to you're my longest standing submissive if I only did this because I pitted you this wouldn’t have lasted 3 years” he says master ultimately winning the fight “same and I need you to really pay attention when i say this anything she said to you wasn’t true I love you more than anything else you made me believe in love beyond platonic and family love so anything she’s said to you about you being not worthy of being shown off and you being a pity choice I promise you she’s just a bitter bitch that’s upset she can’t have your love” “mistress language” master says hitting her leg “what master you were thinking it I just said it ” she say hitting him back and it makes me laugh “my impressionable kitten is right here and you’re cursing” he says wrapping his arms around my waist “master you’ve made me say curses before” “that’s only when I make you feel really really good it’s ok then not any other time don’t even try it” 

 

We sit there for awhile all attached to each other in some fashion “I know the question was dumb and I knew the answer before you said it but I just really needed to hear it from you” I say and I know they’re hiding it but they wanna be angry and rage out because she made me second guess my whole relationship “I hate how much she still gets to me like no amount of therapy and thinking I can just put up a mental wall up when she’s says all of that mean shit to me but everytime I’m thrown back to feeling powerless against her no matter how hard I try I always end up feeling like shit when she leaves” “baby if you were powerless against her you wouldn’t have walked out of meeting with her in one piece you would’ve granted whatever she wanted and we would’ve had to deal with the consequences but no you told her off and walked out stronger than you were when you went in there your so much better at facing her now then you were then don’t discredit yourself” master says and he’s not wrong but if I wasn’t powerless against her I wouldn’t be sitting here crying “I couldn’t grant her request even if I was forced to” “what did she want” “me she told me I needed to come back where I belonged with her” “that bit-“ she’s cut off by master covering her mouth “you know that’s not true right” “yeah because I’m where I belong right now with you two” “exactly no where else and if she thought it would be that easy to steal you from us that bit- she’s mistaken” mistress says catching herself making me laugh because she really wants to call her a bitch again “there’s that smile I love so much” master says kissing my forehead “I can’t help it mistress is really funny when she’s not being mean to me” I say and she gasps so dramaticly “me never but I could be if you wanted me to” “no you can’t be mean to your baby” I say looking up at her “ I know your too cute to be mean to” she says kissing my nose “I feel better now thanks” “can I be honest I don’t” Jess says “why not I mean I can guess why but” “since the day I found out about your relationship with her I’ve hated the fact that I believed her over you and she wrote that piece of shit article just to show up and put you down and even more and I can’t fix it  I left you because of her what if they didn’t set up the intervention and we never made up and she got to you again and you were right back where you were before because she told you that everyone that loves you leaves and I did and she proved it to be true I would’ve never forgiven myself if I knew I pushed you back to that” Jess says and I know she still beats herself up about that and I don’t know what to say to comfort her “Jess look at me one I wasn’t letting that happen two you didn’t know so you can’t fault yourself” “I know but you both tried to tell me I never wanted to listen because I didn’t want to feel stupid because the reality she told was true and it’s not and knowing that she showed up today thinking she could get away with that shit pisses me off because yes your suing and getting the restraining order and stood your ground in front of her but she still made you feel like shit and made you cry and doubt us loving you and you never do that so that’s how I know how deep her fucked behavior actually penetrated you and I can’t fix it” “mistress there’s  a bunch of things I wish I could just fix but I can’t because something’s can’t be fixed I’ll never end up back with her because you two showed me that love isn’t supposed to hurt and I appreciate the fuck out you for that and yes I feel like shit but you dropped everything and came home to make me feel better you did fix it princess” “you know that I’ll always drop everything for you because you do the same for me “ She says wiping a few tears from her face “are we done with the sap” zashi says wiping a few tears hisself making me laugh abit “yeah I think so” I say sitting up “ok now are ready for the part your going to hate”Jess says sitting in my lap facing me “god I know I’m special I can’t do that” “you wish we were going to go that easy” “why must we be this way why not cry comfort and fun sex not cry comfort punishment” “because that’s how we are”master says 

 

They bring in one of my dining room chairs in the room “do you-“ “I don’t care how much it was there’s a towel sit” mistress says and I sit she brings out my wrist and ankle restraints “it’s been too long since I’ve done this” she says securing the ankle restraints “you’ve gone soft” master says walking back in the room “oh shut up you have too” she says standing up “nahh that’s a lie right kitten” he says putting his hand on my shoulder “yeah master definitely hasn’t gone soft mistress” “it would take you being held a gunpoint for you to ever my side in this argument over his” she says brushing my hair back as she walks behind me “not true I just don’t have a frame of reference mistress you’ve always been like this with me so I don’t know if you’ve gone “soft”” I say with air quotes while she restrains my hands behind me “well she has she used to be one of the hardest hard dom I’ve ever met and yet she’s never once not let you cum in the past 3 years” “I mean you haven’t either” I say thinking about our time together “I think should I start now” he says walking back out the room “and he calls me soft” mistress says sitting on the bed beside me “do I really have to be fully restrained” “yeah it’s apart of the experience” she says “but then I can’t touch you” “I know that’s the point baby” she says winking at me “so this is a punishment just like I said” I say throwing my head back they both know I love touching them sexually or not and they choose today to take away my favorite thing “ready mistress”master says coming back in the room “yup” “ok so remember how I came home crying that I wasn’t special and you two came up with the fantastic idea to edge me till I said I was then made me cum as many times as I could before we stopped” “yes” “so when we were talking earlier about how we were going to comfort fuck and feed you I said that because we seem to like to torture each other let’s do something you enjoy yet hate at the same time” he says looking at mistress then me “so we’ve restrained you taking away your ability to touch us” “and we’re only making you cum in ways that don’t involve us actually fucking you” “I’m sorry what” I say because WHAT “you’ll see” 

 

She straps a dildo thats same length and color of my dick to my hip right in front of my own dick “what’s actually happening right now” i say more confused than ever “so I’ve seen it few times and i think it’s pretty cool essentially were going to do everything with this and not your actual dick” “did I do something to be actually punished” “no apparently if you focus hard enough you can cum without actually being touched” “and if it doesn’t work we’ll scrap it unless you wanna hard stop and I figure something else out” “I mean I’m a bit confused because I don’t think this will work” “ok ready” she says sitting in my lap “As ready as i'll ever be” i say and she kisses me and sinks down on the dildo and starts to ride it and no matter how hard i try to focus i can't get into this like this shit is hot she's riding me hands fully restrained using me to her content except she isnt and the only reason that im even simi hard right now is because shes enjoying the fuck out of this “fuck i think im about to cum” she says putting her head on my shoulder i wish i could say the goddamn same she cums a few mintues later and takes the full strap and for the first time i feel her shes insanely wet and my dick stands to attention at the now friction from her rocking her hips “you wish that was you that made mistress cum that hard dont you” master says from behind me hands travling down my chest “yes i do so bad this sucks” i say and she gets up and master takes the strap into his hand and starts to jack it off and now its just tortuer because my dick is RIGHT there but no they must drive me crazy “holy shit” i say being dragged out of my inner monolouge a sudden sensation of my dick actually feeling something i look down and nothing im not even being touched his hand hasnt left the strap and i feel like its me “there you go kitten just feel it” and i don’t know how this is working but i can feel ever pass of his hand somehow and its kind of freaking me out “i think im about to cum what the fuck” and after a few minutes I did “how what huh” i say “i dont know either i didnt even think it was possible i guess it works best when you can see the action happen” jess says removing it from me “but it was fun right”master says “no not at all mistress just came and i wasnt even the reason and i cant touch you” “oh boo hoo” she says walking in the bathroom “see mean so mean” “you think you got another one in you” master says removing his pants “always” i say and he sits in my lap starting to kiss me and i go to touch him forgetting my arms are stuck behind me “not yet kitten master wants to just use you right now you ok with that”he says lifting reaching under him for my dick “im your toy” “no your my baby” (im sorry if any atiny read this because i just turned a really cute topaz moment into smut) he slowly starts to take me “fuck i love you dick kitten” he says now flush against my lap “fuck it loves you too” 

 

This is hell i hate it so let me paint you a picture imagine you were at pet shelter and you couldn't pet the super cute dog or cat but it was begging you with its cute big ol eyes for you to pet them and you couldn't they are nudging you meowing and barking but nope cant touch SEE YOU HATE THAT THOUGHT NOW IMAGINE HAVING YOUR HOT AS FUCK PARTNER ON TOP OF YOU USING YOU (sexually) AND YOU CANT EVEN MOVE THE ONE PEICE OF HAIR THATS IN THEIR FACE i feel like this is the worst and if he wasnt my master and boyfriend i would be pissed right now because i just wanna touch his whole body right now and CANT “fuc\k iim abou to cu” he says not being able to complete a single word head on my shoulder and just when he gets right there i feel my hands become free “oh thank fuck” i say hands immediately going to his face being his face up to kiss him will i get scolded about this later yes but I’ll risk it 

 

The only reason the kiss is broken is because of the moan he lets out when he starts to cum “oh my fuck” he says and I could care less that there is cum running down my stomach and that he’s stopping before I could cum the only thing I want his mouth on mine “so needy kitten”he say pulling me back by my hair and taking charge of the kiss when we re attach “hey master we have something else to do remember kiss him later” mistress  says now pulling him back by his hair “right forgot about that” he give me one more quick kiss then gets up “at this point we just need to get it tattooed” Jess say kneeling infront of me rubbing my right thigh the Jess scar is completely faded again because she doesn’t do it deep enough that’s it last more than a month “kei would never get a tattoo” master says locking to cuffs again behind my back “yeah i know Mr knife kink is scared of needles” she says cleaning the knife and my leg “hey not the same thing” “I could literally stab you right now it’s the same thing”she adds “but you wouldn’t stab me so that’s all that matters” “you ready” “yes” 

 

She gets closer to me and starts the pain is not that bad because it’s four letters it’s done quickly the traditional wipe and “mine” happens and I jump a bit when I feel the first line of the Z on my left leg “you thought I would be left out from this” “ he says putting the I “no just didn’t expect it” I say and he wipes it with his thumb and kisses it “now you have a reminder of where you really belong” Jess say “you ever forget just look down” zashi says “I could never forget but I love the reminder” i say smiling at them and looking at their names cut into my thighs “ok now go shower while we cook” mistress says removing me from the restraints “can we just sleep for now and then eat later” i says feeling the day catch up with me “yeah we can skip lunch for today to sleep but you’re covered in cum and blood so you have to shower” master says “yeah kinda have no choice there”

 

As I shower I find myself staring down at my legs the water and soap making the new cuts burn and sting reminding me of their love and I hate that she made me even doubt their love for me but hey even if I was a pity choice in the beginning I can promise they’re here because they really love me and not around because they can use me so I hope she has a horrible terrible life and I will make sure she won’t be able to get to me EVER again “hey everything ok in here” I hear Jess say coming in the bathroom “yeah I’m good” “ok we’re waiting for you” she says about to walk back out “hey don’t leave yet” “what ya need baby” “you a kiss please” “why must you always ask for a kiss while you have shampoo in your hair” she says kissing me “last time I asked, I asked you to marry me so I think it’s a good thing” I says going under the water “yeah great night still don’t believe I use tongue with kissing” “you do just admit it” I say turning the shower off  “no I don’t it’s weird” she says handing me my towel “you do love every time”zashi says coming up and holding her from behind “do I ever have anyone on my side anymore” she says throwing the other towel for my hair at me “the violence I don’t deserve it” I say drying my hair “you don’t but one day you’ll take my side” “I’m always team Jessica and don’t forget it” “oh god please never call me that again” she says cringing “why not Jessica” zashi says “yamada stop it” she says knowing he hates being called his last name as much she hates being called Jessica “you two just love fighting with each other” I says walking out the bathroom “yeah when we stop I actually hate her” “exactly we fight to show love” she says kissing him “yeah yeah which one of you wanna blow me” “excuse me” they both say “what my hair I don’t feel like blow drying it” I say holding out the blow dryer “add the word dry next time” zashi says taking the blow dryer “I mean you can do the other thing too” I say winking at him “I’m definitely not doing it now” 

 

Notes:

Yeah it was Jessie I had to 😂

Chapter 68

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨short and unresolved ending who am I but I wanted to update all three of my babies at once and im still working on the ending sooooooo don't hate me hate Marie

enjoy🕺🏽

It’s been the agreed month since I last was with Charlie and we’ve planned to meet same time as last time 

 

To: Charlie 💵

Hey so I know I see you tomorrow but I know I’ll forget to tell you in the moment

I got Hizashi to agree to this under a few conditions that doesn’t really mean anything to you but

the no marking one so no more marks bites all that has to not happen when we’re together 

From:Charlie 💵

Can I ask what the other conditions are other than that one 

To:Charlie 💵

Well it’s really only one other and it’s that he doesn’t wanna know about what we do together 

From:Charlie 💵

Yeah I could've called that one he didn’t look too happy last time but ok no marking I got it 

Usually on Thursdays I get them ready to go out to AD but this week zashi took the night off because he’s been busy all week and his show is tomorrow and he just wants to do nothing till then so I send Jess off and go upstairs to get ready to meet Charlie and I walk in the room heading to the bathroom and I’m pulled back “when do you have to leave again”zashi say in my ear one hand still on my wrist and the other on my waist “7:30” i say and i can tell where this is heading he’s kissing the side of my neck and hands moving all over me so much that I can’t keep up “i wish you could just stay here with me all night and i could collar you and treat my kitten to all of his favorite things but no you have to go be a slut and let some other man touch what’s mine” he spins me so I’m facing him hand on my ass squeezing then hitting it so hard my dick wakes up from how good the sting feels “we have 30 minutes before I really need to get ready you can still do that” I say wanting whatever he wants to give me “I’m not rushing so you’ll just have think about it all night while your with him” he says with grin on his face when I go into a pout because he literally being so mean right now “master please” I say laying my head on his chest holding him at the waist “as cute as you are it’s not happening you’ll just have to wait go get ready” I let out a fustraded  groan and let him go going in the bathroom 

And if you thought I was leaving this house without him doing anything he wanted to me you’ve obviously lost the plot I walk out the bathroom after my shower and did I purposely drop my towel when I was at the edge of the bed and bending over to get it ass in the air flashing the blue gem plug “kei come here” he says and I turn looking at him looking at me with that look in his eyes that I know all too well the ‘I’m about to make you regret that decision you just made’ I never regret it but I do come out with what I want “huh” I say walking over to him and he doesn’t say a word he just sits up sitting up on the bed feet on the floor and when I’m close enough he pulls me over his lap removing the towel “you’re such a needy kitten aren’t you your getting ready to go see another man and yet still begging for my attention” he says pushing on the plug while he speaks then once his sentence ends a hard hit across my ass sends me forward “count” he says going for number two 

I count to 50 and he finally stops this is routine for me you think the shit he does with Jess is crazy you should’ve been there during our training days what they do is child's play I might tell yall about it one day but like I said routine we start with 50 stop for a second and do another 50 making it a even 100 and that’s just the warm up the highest we’ve went was 450 we were aiming for 500 but I tapped out because I felt like my ass and legs were no longer on my body and the pain no longer translated to pleasure it was just pain 

We get to 250 before my phone dings and it’s out of my reach and nothing on there could possibly be better than this “can’t wait to see that pretty blue plug later” hizashi reads out “I wish I could he his face when he pulls down your pants later looking for this plug and seeing my hand print on both cheeks and my name still visible on your thigh showing who you really belong to kitten” he drops my phone on the bed he pulls me up so I’m now straddling his lap hands on my waist “say the word and I’ll cancel” I say when I see the look in his eyes same look I got when I was with Charlie last time a beautiful mix of jealousy lust and possession “I won’t make you do that” “you wouldn’t be making me do anything” “no go and have fun you’ve been looking forward to tonight but just so you know I really don’t want you to go” he says letting me go I grab my phone with full intent to cancel on him because if he wants me here then I’m staying here “no go get ready love is prepared to hear all about it tomorrow” he says taking the phone from me “are you sure” “yes baby go” he says then kisses me 

I get ready to go and I don’t wanna leave really now but it doesn’t seem like he wants me to stay and cancel “have fun ok” “I won’t have as much fun knowing your alone and didn’t want me to leave” “kitten remember when I was going to cancel on asahi and you told me not too I’m just returning the favor go get all that brat energy out cause I don’t want it” he says smiling “ok I’ll go but if you want me to come back tonight instead of tomorrow text me and I’ll come back” I say opening the door “I’m big boy I’ll be ok and love will be back in a few hours so I’ll be ok I promise” “ok ok I love you” “yeah I love you too baby” 

I leave out and drive to the restaurant I’m meeting Charlie at and I’m a bit early so I just sit in my car 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Are you free right now 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Yeah everything ok

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Just wanna talk to you before I have to be with Charlie 

She FaceTimes me “hey baby are you ok” she says when the call connects “yeah just feel bad leaving zashi” “why I just talked to him he sounds ok” “I mean I don’t think anything wrong but I already know that this bothers him and-“ “keigo i'm going to stop you now” it kinda shocks me that she pulled out full first name “yes he’s not the biggest fan of it but if it bothered him to the point that you think it does I can promise you he wouldn’t have agreed to let this happen after the first so stop worrying about it I’ll be home in like 2 hours he won’t be alone” “ok” I say and adjust how I’m sitting because the plug mixed with the sting of the 250 hits I got earlier are a hell of a combination “what’s wrong with you” “plug 250” I say simply because she knows “god how are you sitting” she says laughing “I can’t even believe I’m sitting right now to be honest” I say and she laughs “did you tell Charlie about the no marking” “yeah I texted him earlier” “ok just remind him I kinda didn’t appreciate that either” “I will princess the only marks that will be left on me is the ones your boyfriend inflicted” “ok Jordans telling me to hurry up so I gotta go but I’ll see when you get back ok” “yeah see ya later I love you” “I love you too” she says kissing at the screen and hanging up 

I look at the time and I go in and seeing Marie at the table next to him what the fuck “hey keigo” he says getting up to hug me a very safe one arm hug like this lady wasn’t home when he blew my back out and he hasnt called me by my name in forever as much as i hate the nickname what the fuck “hey and hi Marie” i say sitting down “i know you weren’t expecting to see me as well but I was told your partners has set some conditions if you will and decided I should do the same” she says ok could’ve shot me a text or something “yeah definitely” i say feeling like I should’ve stayed home 

After the waiter comes and get drink and food orders I feel the seriousness come on “so I know that you know this whole thing was my idea I’ve known about your relationship since me and him met and I know there is something that you provide for him that I can’t” yeah no shit what are the conditions lady  “so I told him it was ok for you to come back to the house but honestly that was too much for seeing my husband going and doing whatever you two do so one condition I’ve come up with is that you have to go back to your house or hotel or something” she says “ok anything else” I say because this could’ve been a text message “yes um and It doesn’t make sense for him to still be paying things for you you’re doing well enough it doesn’t make sense that he paid off you student loans and paying for these nights out i mean i get it when you were younger but youre grown with you own money so you can stop using his” she says and I excuse myself to the bathroom and I hear him say something in the cadence of what the fuck Marie but I don’t care that was mad fucking rude 

I go in the bathroom and lock myself in the stall feeling like kid keigo all over again feeling like shit because someone did something for me financially and I know it shouldn’t hurt because I didn’t need him to do that nor do I need anything financially from him now but she looked at me like I was a only sleeping with him for money or something and yes for 3 years it was the case but now it’s not and now I wanna go home 

“Kid I know you’re in here talk to me please” I hear him say and open the door “you knew this and let her ambush me like that” I say walking out the stall “the second term I didn’t know I would’ve never agreed to that and you know that” “do I you sat there and let her talk to me like I was some fucking escort that you pay for sex I didn’t need you to pay for that loan I could’ve did it myself I don’t need your fucking money Charlie you know that and you let her talk to me like that you know what tell her not to worry about it I’m done” I say walking past him “no keigo please don’t go you know I don’t think of you that way let’s skip this I reserved a hotel for the night let’s go talk this out there ok” he says holding my hand “nahh I’m good have a nice dinner with your wife though” I say shaking out of his grip and walking out the restaurant and head back home with a few messages and calls from Charlie that I ignore and just head back to Jess’s house 

“Um what are you doing here” Jess says looking like she just got back home “night didn’t go as planned” I say not in the best mood “hey love what are you doing here baby”hizashi says coming downstairs not expecting me to be here “didn’t wanna be around him anymore” “what happened” jess says leading me to the living room “I get there and Marie is there and from the jump the vibe was off and she said she want to have some conditions like you two did which ok whatever and the first one was ok can’t go back to the house because she wasn’t comfortable with it which I get but then she says that he shouldn’t still be paying for stuff for me because I’m doing well for myself and I’m perfectly capable of doing so but she talked down to me like I was a escort or someone only around to take his money and it pissed me off bad because he let her talk down to me like that then tried to come back and apologize in private” I explain and get no response from either of them Jess just pulls out her phone “princess no” I say seeing her put the phone to her ear “ah no move” she says getting up off the couch 

I’m not doing this again this is the second time kei has been in a not too good of a mood and the first time I left it to touya to make sure that bitch never got to him again but this one I’m handling myself “hey Jess did he make it home he won’t answer me” he says as soon as he answers “don’t act fake concerned now when you let your wife ambush keigo like that what the fuck is wrong with you I let him go through with this because he has fucking fun with you but you ruin it the second time yall go out” “Jess I didn’t know it was going to go be that bad she told me only the first one the second condition was a surprise to us both I would’ve never agreed to that” “that’s not the fucking point Charlie you sat there and let her treat him like a fucking sex worker and he’s not I knew this was dumb I shouldn’t have let this shit slide at all” I say frustrated because I know how much keigo hates feeling like financially dependent on someone even if he’s not “Jess please I know youre pissed at me but believe me that’s not how I feel” “but your wife does and it’s only going be so long before you abandon him again because of her so respectfully fuck off and if he doesn’t contact you stop trying” I say hanging up on him 

“I’m sorry kei im tired of people hurting you and getting away with it” she says sitting back down “you need to get out of that outfit let’s go upstairs” i say not wanting to talk or think about this anymore “yeah right ok” she says catching on “you didn’t eat did you” “no I left before it came out” i say standing up “ok we’ll get her out of that and I’ll cook something” zashi says kissing my forehead and going in the kitchen 

“How was your night” i say getting her out of the corset “good not too eventful it was a public scene with kaoru the usual” she says looking at us both in the mirror I don’t know where else to drive this conversation because I’m still in my head a bit “pick a number 1-10” she says facing me once I get the corset off “um 6” i say confused on where this is heading then she grabs my face in both hands and kisses me “your the cutest patootie on the planet* I love you so much * your my favorite person ever *you are the strongest person I know * best sex like ever * the love of my fucking life and a bonus” she says kissing me one more time with a big smile on her face making me do the same “there’s my favorite smile stop letting people take it away from me” she says pouting looking at me “I’m sorry I just hate that no matter how long it’s been I still hate people throwing things they’ve done for me financially at me and it’s I don’t know” “when did it start” “since I formed my first memory my dad’s family would do it constantly they would do something like send money for us to pay a bill and or something and then hold it over us even after we paid them back or whatever that’s why we have no relationship with them I tried my hardest to never have to make my mother ever go through that again I hated it so I know it was worst to her so I don’t know it sucks because I didn’t ask him to pay the loan I would’ve done it eventually” “I’m sorry she brought that up” “yeah she said it doesn’t make sense that he paid it off and pay for dinner and stuff” “I’m sorry but does she not know that he was paying for your education until she made him stop him paying the loan off was deserved and what the hell is him paying for dinner doing the man is loaded so why does she care” “I don’t know and I really don’t wanna talk it because I really need to take this plug out” I say unzipping the jumpsuit she’s wearing “omg yes go do that” she says pushing me towards the bathroom 

To be continued…..

Chapter 69: Tummy Hurts- Jessie

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ I know your looking for the second part of the Charlie chapter BUT hear me out tummy hurts by Renee Rapp has been on replay for the past hour and half and the more I listened to this song I saw delulu Jessie losing her mind over keigo so this is her pov of chapter 68

hopefully I can get that part two out to y'all soon but until then

enjoy 🕺🏽

She hated it. She hated seeing keigo happy without her. Vacations,custom gifts, physical affection, all of it she misses it and hates to see Jess get it. Why her ? she asks herself every time he posts a new photo of the two of them what does she have that she doesn't have? Why does he look happier with her when she was the one he promised he would never leave? It was an unhealthy obsession she would watch their socials every new post she would look at for hours because that should be her with the ring. Did he truly not love her like he said he did all those years ago? Why did they get back together after she tried to break them up? He should've come back to her but he didn’t. He didn’t contact her to even yell at her she wanted his attention more than anything else

“Jessie why are you even looking at that it’s been like 5 years don’t you think it’s weird for you to still be stalking his ig” her friend says sitting next to her “their babies would be fucking beautiful” Jessie says completely ignoring what her friend just said she just can’t stop staring at their pictures from their engagement “come on that picture is several months old stop being creepy” she says taking the phone from her “why did he leave” “like you said he didn’t love you anymore can’t make someone stay with you if they don’t love you anymore” she says so matter of factly that it feels like a knife in the chest 

She displayed love like she saw it growing up. Her mother was the breadwinner. She ran the household, controlled everything and her father went along with whatever her mother said. When she asked her dad if he was happy and loved her mom he said yes of course with a big smile on his face. She saw being controlling and a tad bit of violence as a way of showing love because you care so much and she did that with keigo and he didn’t act like her dad in the slightest. Well he did whatever she told him be he wasn’t happy or apparently not in love with her and it confused her.

She wanted his attention more than anything. She knew what to do. She worked in journalism under a name not of her own. She had written this raving article about the newest product he put out but that wouldn’t get his attention no no that would do nothing but get lost in the hundreds of other good articles she had to sprinkle in some things she knew not to be true about keigo himself.

When the article was out and rapidly getting hits and comments from people sharing it on other platforms. She knew it would reach him eventually. But when the official Switch Tech site dropped a statement debunking everything she said bad about him she knew she got to him and he was paying attention to her. Her stomach ached at the thought of him reading it. He was reading the words she wrote but what made her really lose it was the email she got from his legal team saying that keigo himself wanted to meet with her to discuss the article and  legal action will be taken against her. “He wants to talk to me” she cheered and spun around in her chair 

The day had come and she just knew he was going to see her and fall in love all over again.She gets her hair done she gets all dolled up to go see him. 

She sends these long messages to Jess and hizashi because she was so sure that keigo was coming home with her now that she had his attention and going to see him person 

She gets there and is ready to go home with her man and by the end she's escorted out by security. She reaches her car in the garage and she can't help but cry. He hated her. He didn't look at her the same way he looked like he feared her. The way he spoke to her was foreign she's never heard him speak with such malice ever, not even when they broke up and he looked her in the eyes and said I never loved you how you thought I did and the cause was that bitch Hizashi turned him against her with just one visit. Before he got there he was hers and he left with him and never was the same. A week went past and she came home to him sitting in the living room with all of his stuff packed and ready to go and he told her he was leaving and never coming back. She thought he was lying and would be back in a month but he didn't and he truly hated her now. “What did I do so wrong?” she questions herself crying harder

In the middle of her crying she saw him leaving. He got in his car and drove off and without thinking she followed him. She made sure to keep her distance; she just wanted to talk to him again. Her logic was he would see she really loved him and would come back to her “duh” she says cheering herself up when they pull into a another parking garage she parks a few cars down opposite of him and just wait for opportunity when two cars show up parking on either side of him he gets out and he looks distraught did i make him feel that bad i only did it to show i loved you she thinks watching his face as he starts to cry falling into the arms of jess “im going to fucking kill her” is all she can hear jess says over the sobbing of the one she loves she can see hizashi say something but cant make it out over the crying

He never cried to me like that whats so fucking special about them why cant he love me like that  she thinks watching them from afar. She watched hizashi pick him up still holding jess hand and go into the building she couldn't follow him this time she was stuck in place he was really over her and he was now the responsibility of them not her.

The hurt she felt made her feel nauseous till she had to get out to vomit in the parking lot. She sits back in the car and cried even more repeating “love me” “why her” between sobs 

It's been awhile of wallowing in her own pain and she couldn't even try to see him because of the restraining order. He's blocked her on everything and Jess and hizashi have done the same thing so she can't even see his face anymore. And she hates the decision of never taking pictures of him when he was hers because she just wanted to see his face again 

“Girl i don't even know why you did any of this he told you already a long time ago he was done why even try when he's happy with someone else” her friend says who forced her to come out the house “one day they're going to have children and that child is going to grow up and fall in love with someone and get their heartbroken the same he did to me i can't believe he did that” “i can youve been broken up for four years and your still proving him right by curing his future children if i haven't known you for so long i wouldn't put up with this” 

Notes:

writing this I really had to embody someone who actually believed that they were in the right how she thought she was right I don't know man but I just really felt like I had to show how insane that girl is because how she acts in chapter 68 and how her thought process is in here don't match but that's just how she saw things from her pov

this is also the quickest thing ive written granted its only a thousand words but I blasted though this why it was fresh in my brain

I will never write from her pov again because she is a memory now so everyone say goodbyeeee Jessieeee

Chapter 70

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ HEY HEY HEY DONT JUMP ME IVE BEEN BUSY AND THIS CHAPTER HAS BEEN PLAGUING ME so im done and I don't ever wanna look at it again I hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

Welcome back small recap went out with Charlie his wife Marie was there basically called me a whore and ruined the whole night 

So of course I got showered with love and affection by Jess and hizashi and I moved on it’s been a week since it all went down

 I arrived at work on this lovely Friday morning and there is a beautiful bouquet of flowers on Yo’s desk “ouu Tanaka has a admirer” I say walking to her desk “I wish but they’re for you” she says handing me the note “hm ok thanks let me know when the meeting starts” I say taking them from her desk in my office I think Jess and zashi sent them to me I put them on the table by the couch in my office and sit at my desk to read the note I’m sorry kid I don’t want this to ruin our relationship please call me -C my smile automatically drops going to throw the letter in my draw I see the infamous 10-20 binder in there “ughh Ken what should do” I say taking it out and going through it and I just flip through it then I see his 20th birthday when I splurged a bit because he who shall not be named had to leave for a business trip and gave me a little extra then usual and I spent it all on Kenny the back of the picture said my 20th birthday where my lovely boyfriend spent all of his SD money on me and it makes me laugh “should I forgive him Ken” I say looking at the pictures we stuck in here after 20 “I don’t know if I should I mean it’s just sex good sex but just sex and if Marie sees me as just some sex object that is using her husband I don’t think it’s appropriate to” I’m broken out of thought by yo knocking on the door “hey keigo there’s a Charlie Jones here for you” she says walking in the room closing the door “I can tell him your busy if you don’t want him here” she says and I guess it’s all over my face that I really don’t wanna deal with this “nah you can let him in” “ok” she says “but if I push the button that calls you come in and say I have a meeting or something” “got you” she says walking out I put the book back in my desk

 “hey kid” he says walking in my office “nice office” he says sitting in front of me “yeah I designed it myself” I say leaning back in my seat “I see you got the flowers” “yup did you come here to make sure I got them” “not really I came here to apologize in person” “Charlie I essentially got called a prostitute by your wife and you think flowers and a surprise visit is going to get you a it’s all good” “I just don’t like not being on good terms with you and that day was a lot I know you hate being talked to like that and I saw how hurt you were when she said it and I can’t shake the feeling Jess called and is pissed at me I can only imagine how much hizashi hates me right now but all that matters to me is that we’re good” “Charlie you let her talk to me like that you let her drive us apart since day one of you being together and I’m obviously not going to sit here and give you an ultimatum because that’s your wife you have kid together and I have two amazing partners so I don’t need this I wanted this to work out but I can’t shake her seeing me as away to treat some need you have well I guess that I am but you know what I’m talking about” “kid you think I don’t want this I want this so bad but if you can’t do it any more after that I get it I just don’t wanna not be on speaking terms with me” something tells me to tell him we’re good and I’m done with this arrangement but I get a text from Jess 

 

From :PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Don’t hate me but I told him to go see you because you're a grand gestures guy and I know you don’t want this to end and I wanna see my baby happy 

 

Oh and zashi is also 100% ok with whatever you decide so let me know what you do 🧡

 

The orange heart something she never uses felt oddly like ken also agreed with her ughh you couldn’t stop being right even in death huh Ken “I don’t want your money” I say putting my phone down “I know you obviously don’t need me for that anymore” he says looking around “I also don’t want her to think I’m some sex object because she falls short in the sex department” “hey be nice” “for what she wasn’t exactly nice to me” “touché” “but seriously I don’t really wanna talk to her ever again but I need you to make that abundantly clear that if anyone is here the object used for sex it’s you” I say leaning forward on my desk “is that your way of telling me this isn’t over” “yeah” “are you free tonight” “nope but I’m free tomorrow” “ok I send you the location just meet me there and I’ll make it up to you” 

 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

We talked plan on meeting him tomorrow 

 

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Ou my turn to leave marks all over you 😜🫦

 

I’m pulling up to this fancy ass hotel still sore from last night did she have to go that hard I get out the car get my bag and head to the room he told me he was in 

I knock on the door and a few seconds later he opens it “took you long enough old man” “give me a break kid I was setting something up” he says pulling me in a hug arm wrapped around my waist which it always surprised me that no matter much I’ve bulked up in the years he still can wrap his whole arm around my waist “what were you setting up your not even supposed to be paying for this room” I say before he kisses me “she can’t tell me what to do with my money and if I wanna spend my money on you I will” he said kissing me again “what ya get me” I say “come in the back” he says grabbing my hand and leading me to the back 

We get to the back room and there’s a plethora of bags and boxes on the bed “the ones on the table over there are for Jess and Hizashi I need to be on everyone’s good side” he says standing behind me wrapping his arms around my waist “so all the ones on the bed are for me” I say turning my head to look at him “yes baby” he says and i wiggle out of his grip and crawl in the bed in front of all the stuff 

It’s a bunch of different things a few designer suits two watches new cufflinks shoes and I know you’re looking at me like wasn’t you just mad about him spending money on me gets thrown back at me I never said I hated gifts “have I earned your forgiveness yet” he says sitting on the side of the bed “ahh close but not yet”I says straddling him“come on baby what else whatever you want it’s yours” he says loosely wrapping his arm around my waist “I haven’t eaten today-” “it’s 7:45 at night why haven’t you eaten anything today” “because I woke up mid lunch and had things to do before coming here” his grip tightened around my waist and he stands from the bed with me attached to his front “we’re not doing anything else tonight till you eat are you insane” he says walking to the living room of the suite “what I mean that benefits our later activities as well” I say resting my chin on his shoulder stomach growling “no it doesn’t” he says sitting me on the couch “now here’s the room service menu whatever you want I’ll have it sent up” he adds handing me the menu 

I look at the menu and everything sounds delicious or I’m really fucking hungry only thing is they also serve a lot of seafood dishes so I would have to make sure to mention that when ordering “I want whatever this is sounds good” I say pointing to a dish I assume is French “ok anything else” “for now no and can you make sure to mention my seafood allergy yes it’s new and very hard to abide by but don’t wanna die so can you make sure they know” I only over explain because anyone who whose known me before the beginning of this year knows that I love seafood so it’s been a shock to people especially my mother “I’ll make sure they know” he says taking the menu to the room where the hotel phone is 

 

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Miss me yet??

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Vry muh 

*very much

Currently getting jraf ato 

*Attachment :1 photo (hizashi head buried between her legs)

To:🩷omg🩷we're🩷in love🩷

Then why are you texting me 

Enjoy 

Also he’s bought both of you forgive me gifts so look forward to that 

All I get in response was a bunch of keyboard smash that I can’t make out after that he’s must really putting that tongue to work tonight charlie comes back out and sits down next to me “the food should be here shortly and I’ve stressed the seafood allergy thing so we should ok on that front” “I’m suing you and the hotel if I end up in the hospital” “no need to sue I’ll give you whatever you want” he says closing in making me lay flat on the couch so he’s hovering above me “Marie is going to kill you”I say because I know he means it and I know she hates it “until she goes and gets a job of some kind and contributing to the money in my account she can complain all she wants” he says before kissing me “didn’t you meet at work” I say as he moves down my neck “yeah but she quit after Kendall was born so she’s now a full time housewife” he says unbuttoning my shirt “so like I said I can do what I want with my money all of expenses are paid I’ve already put away more than enough for all of Kendalls schooling k- bachlors and more than enough saved up for any emergency or random expenses so if I wanna blow a few thousand on you I will because I love seeing that twinkle in your eyes when you get a gift“

His hands slide up and down my chest then going down to my belt unfasten it “I don’t wanna be the reason why you end up divorced”I say lifting my hips so he can get my pants off “you won’t I know her she’ll be mad for a few days then something she wants or her family needs will come up and she’ll act like nothing ever happens so I could fulfill that need or want” “and she calls me the user” I say out loud by total accident and it didn’t hit me till he stops all movement kinda stuck in one place “that was mean I’m sorry” “huh um what are you apologizing for” “for saying why are you stuck like that are you ok” “yeah yeah um just” he says brushing his thumb over the scar of Jess name “just what”I say knowing how possessive he is and now he can’t make any marks and clear as day both of them has done something he could never “did it hurt” he says lightly touching them “a little mostly just stung” i watched as his eyes were glued there then the varying shades of red and light purples catch his attention and i flipped over on to my stomach “which one” he says brain not really working properly “jess she did it last night pretty isn’t it” i say pushing my ass back into him I’m practically naked so I can feel in full detail how hard he is right now “if you were nicer to me last time you would’ve saw zashi handy work maybe another time” I say slowly grinding my ass against him “all this is showing me that you can be a good boy and not just a brat” he kind of throws me off with his response “yeah I could be a really good boy for you if you really want me to” I say pushing my ass back further deepening the arch in my back “don’t think that you could even pull that off”he says hands rubbing all over my hips and ass “I can and I’ll prove it” I says and he starts lowering himself down till his breathe is sending chills down my spine “then prove it” I hear him reach for his belt buckle then the door is being knocked on “go in the room” he says helping me up 

He handles the interaction because well I’m in nothing but boxers I put my shirt back on knowing there really isn’t a need for pants “keigo they’re gone” I hear and come back out he’s sitting at the table and so many thoughts go through my head about this whole good boy situation 

Thought number one sit where he has the food place and wait for him to tell you to do anything 

Thought number two sit in his lap and say fuck this food I want dick immediately 

Thought number three kneel in front of him and wait for further instructions 

And with that last thought I actually heard hizashi say are you out of your damn mind your submitting to him not happening get it out of your mind in the back of my head so I just went with the first one I sit in the chair across from him the food looks and smells delicious and I just want to eat it but I will wait he goes to take his first bite then stops when he notices I’m eating “is there something wrong I could send it back if you want something else” he says putting his utensils down “no it looks really good” “then why aren’t you eating” he says confused I look down at the food then at him “you didn’t say I could eat yet” I say and he looks at me like I’m a different person granted he doesn’t have many conversations with me not being in full brat mode so my tone of voice is softer and not dripping with sarcasm “so you won’t eat until I say so” he says before taking his first bite “yup I mean yes” the look on his face is priceless “I don’t know how I feel about this it feels like it’s to much power for one person” he says still eating “no back talk no smart ass remarks just obedience hm” he wipes his mouth and sits back and I haven’t done this type of submission in a few years so it’s hard to not just pull out the brat or the cute whore but I have a point to prove “eat before it gets cold” he says nodding at the plate “thank you” I say and start eating 

We finish and I sit there while he’s looking at me intently feeling highly observant like I’m a piece of art he’s studying “when you’re home your like this” he says “not always but when I’m supposed to be yes” “what does that mean” “because sometimes we switch responsibilities I’m not always like this and when I am I have things that I have to do and a way that’s I’m supposed to act” “so was that a punishment or something else” “what the names or bruises” “both” “the names were more of a claiming thing after a bad day and that was more of an reward than anything punishment and I would’ve had to cancel” I explain and he just watches me again “come here” he says pushing his chair back patting his lap I sit in his lap legs on one side of him arms around his neck

 “I don’t think I like obedient keigo” he says hand on my thigh “everyone likes obedient keigo” “I don’t think I do I miss my sarcastic brat bring him back this doesn’t seem like it meant for me” he says and it’s not but I have this undying need to be good for everyone “thank god because it was really hard to keep it up for you” I say “so you can be good boy keigo for everyone else but me huh” “yes they literally trained me to be best boy keigo and with you I get to brat out and still get what I want gotta have balance” “whatever you want kid name it and it’s yours” “can I give you head?” I ask knowing the answer “no you know that I don’t really care for it” “come on just once” I say pulling out the pout and whine “I’m not going to say yes to something I’m not going to enjoy” “please you just said whatever I want I could have it already going back on your word Charlie that’s mean” “alright but it a waste of time I’ve never enjoyed it” “give me 5 minutes and if  you still hate it then I’ll stop but if not I’ll continue to you cum” I say as I slide down under the table a bit pulling his dick out and he’s not fully hard and I honestly think that will work out in my favor I start and I get a groan here and there but his dick is fully hard and I can taste the pre cum all over my tongue but it wasn’t till his hand landed on the top of my head pulling me back by my hair “you hated it that much I’m sorry I guess I couldn’t make it good for you” I say thinking he had enough and wanted me to stop he pulls me from under the table and puts me over his shoulder “not the case baby I just wanted a change of scenery” he says taking me to the room 

He sits on the bed and leads me back on the floor in front of him “continue just how you were” he says and the sight of this man leaning back shirt half unbuttoned pants only pulled down enough for his dick to be out and that’s about it and it’s very appealing and it’s making my dick stain my boxers “as you wish” I say before going back in 

The noise and movement has went up a lot now i'm pulling noise I’ve never heard from this man his hand is in my hair pulling my hair but not necessarily head pushing but like he just needed something to do with his hands but his hips are starting to thrust up making his dick go deeper down my throat till I taste nothing but his cum all over my mouth he's panting out of breath with his eyes closed when i sit back only legs looking at the sight “i NeVeR eNjOy HeAd It PoInTlEsS” i say mockingly “shut up i don't know what you just did but that's not what i'm used to” he says looking at me “i know because you used to people giving you pretty pornstar head i don't do that” “yeah i see that”  he says guiding me into his lap “been trying to tell you that for 9 years now” “I’ll listen next time” “I bet” the kissing starts off slow and cute till his hands reached in my boxers and his attempt to finger me stalled by the plug sitting there “you said blue but only had red available today” he flips me so I’m laying on the bed ass up “it’s looks just as good as imaged” he says slowly pulling it out and replacing it with his pointer and middle finger “nice and stretched out for me baby” he says grazing my prostate with each stroke

He replaces his fingers with his dick and the surge of please is indescribable “holy fuck just like that” i say as he has found the perfect spot perfect speed and pressure “nothing and no one will ever come close to feeling and sounding as good as you keigo fuck” he says leaning forward hand next to my face “fuck switch i wanna see your face” he says pulling out i flip over he puts my left leg on his shoulder and not wasting a second to start fucking me again 

We go a while longer before we stop from 2 orgasms back to back laying on the bed with nothing but heavy breathing in the air a phone rings I look up it’s not mine “yes Marie” he says putting the phone up to his ear “I already told you i wasn’t coming home till the morning” he says sounding a bit annoyed “Marie I already told you this doesn’t concern you” he says getting out of bed putting his pants on before walking out the room 

I do slightly feel bad that my existence cost so much turbulence in their relationship but  if she didn’t tell him it was ok in the first place I wouldn’t be here right now “I’m sorry about that and I’m even more sorry for this but I gotta go the room is payed for get whatever you want if you get hungry again I got a late check out so you don’t have to rush out tomorrow” he says getting dressed “I get it go home I’m not worth losing your wife” I say because if I was him I wouldn’t left 10 times faster “your worth everything kid” he says kissing me “let me know when you make it home tomorrow” he adds “I will” I say and he’s out the door 

“Fuck who is that” I say hearing my phone ringing “Jess not the time to be answering phones” zashi says after I pushed him away mid stroke “it’s mad late it could be an emergency” I say getting to my phone seeing its keigo “hey baby everything okay” “no I’m all alone in this big ass hotel room missing my doms” he says and the way he’s holding his phone I can see he’s still naked “alone why” zashi says taking the phone “he had to leave after we were done” there didn’t need to be many more words exchanged before we started putting on clothes “we’re on our way” I say picking the phone back up fully clothed “I’ll drop the pin room 806” he says before hanging up “come here” zashi says with something pink in hand “I need you just as open and wet as you were in that bed when we get there” he shows me one of those vibrators that go inside and rest against the clit I sit on the bed pull the sweatpants down and he puts it in with no trouble granted we’ve been going at it for like two hours now 

The car ride was hell because he acted like the damn thing had a lower setting thank god the hotel was only 15 minutes from us we get up stairs and knock on the door he opens the door “did you fuck in the car or something” he says looking at me I’m pretty sure it’s all over my face that I’m a second away from coming “no but she does a have a vibrator on its highest speed on right now” zashi explains because I can’t speak I’m surprised I’m still standing “ahh ok” he says “so baby you can join us or not but I gotta finish something I started” zashi says throwing me over his shoulder “have fun I’m done for the night I just wanted company” he says following us to the bedroom 

“He bought all of that” Jess says looking at the mountain of gifts in the corner “yeah” I say moving some of the stuff from the couch so they can have the bed “you say that like that isn’t thousands of dollars of stuff” zashi says getting undressed “this is on the lighter side of the I’m sorry gifts I’ve received” “you spoiled brat” jess says after he pulls the vibrator out “yeah I know and it’s his fault” 

We get home the next day and I let him know I was back home 

 

From:Charlie 💵

I'm glad to hear you made it back home 

I’ll make up my leaving next time 

To:Charlie 💵

Yeah I know you will 😉

Chapter 71

Notes:

Hello loves✨ I have an explanation on why it’s been 6 months since the last update I’ll keep it short ok ready GO depression,stress from uni work, finals, moving, Paris, lowkey falling in love, writers block, started working, oh and depression again,then got ghosted, found out im finishing uni alone 🆕 so yes I’ve been working on this and 4 other wips and other wips that will never see the light of day so actually sups sorry that I just dropped off the face of the earth I don’t even know what the last chapter was I’ve been so locked out….. hopefully this gives me the push to be more creative and think of new things anyways

ENJOY💃🏽

“Look look look” keigo says placing his laptop between me and zashi bouncing with joy “what happened” zashi says before reading the headline of the email that kei was getting some honorary award “i have no clue what this means but im so fucking proud of you” I say turning in the bar stool “same by the way your actually jumping for joy I can tell this is huge” “yes yes it is this is like two steps away from a Nobel I deserve to be this damn happy” he says now dancing around the kitchen “damn right wanna go out to celebrate” I say leaning over the island “yes I don’t care where I just wanna look pretty and be the center of attention” “and you will be” I say smiling at my giddy baby “hate to dampen the mood but the day of the ceremony I won’t be able to go” zashi says looking at the email “what why not” kei say silly dancing coming to an end “the live show is that day I couldn't make it even if I tried” “right I forgot about that it’s that’s soon” I say “yeah fuck I wish I could cancel but we’re hosting it I have to be there” “it’s ok I can’t expect you to cancel something like that it’s been planned for months it’s ok I swear” “you’re sure because I’ll try and figure out away to be there” “well be an hour away from each you can’t do that” “I’ll be there I’ll move my appointments around” I say seeing it’s a two day event a convention and award ceremony “you sure” “yeah wouldn’t miss it for the world” “ugh the first big achievement as a boyfriend and I can’t even make it” zashi says pushing his hair back “it’s ok just make sure your there for the Nobel” he says jumping around again

It’s been two weeks and his excitement level has not went down at all trying to find the perfect suit for the ceremony and writing the acceptance speech “baby I’m not really seeing the difference here other than the lining in that one is different” I say looking at 40th suit today “the last one was a standard plain print suit  this one is made from a smoother material giving a bit of texture to it and yes the lining is different” he says looking at himself in the mirror “I see the difference kid but i still think you should go with the first one” Charlie says on the phone I had to call in reinforcements because zashi is busy and I don’t know anything about men’s fashion “I liked that one too but it was too I don’t know ” he says taking the phone from me “but you always wear this style of suit show out a bit the green looked nice on you and the tie instead of buttons looked good on you” “did you like that one too” he says turning to me “yeah it’s crowd favorite sent a pic to zashi he liked it too and we have a enough time to get the waist taken in a bit” I say “ok let me try it on again” 

“I do really like this one” he says looking in the mirror “see and all we would have to do is take it in and perfect” I say pulling the fabric back giving it a more form fitting waist and not so boxy he looks at himself for a minute “okay I go with this one” “ok perfect let me do the measurements and I’ll get to the alterations” the tailor says 

The suit is acquired the speech is almost done accommodations for the researchers the engineers and yo are taken care of and you would think my beautiful fiancé would be just cruising till the day sadly no he’s freaking out over everything and for what I don’t know “kei if you didn’t deserve it they wouldn’t have chosen you to award” “I was there at the last development conference there some wayyyyy bigger things presented then us bigger names global companies household names and me keigo takami won” “yes you keigo takami won you worked your ass off fuck those household names switch tech is now a household name this impostor syndrome you got going on cut it you deserve this the medical world just shut up about you and switch and I know after Saturday they’re going to be all over you again you deserve this your team deserves this I may not know a lot about anything you do but I do know that during the process of making this you lost sleep only thought about it and now it’s here and doing exactly what yall set out to do…I don’t even know who else was nominated for this award but I can guarantee that none of them deserve this more than you my love” I say holding his face so he’s looking at me “I’m going marry you so hard” he says smiling at me “i know now finish getting ready zashi is taking you for the night I’ll worry about the packing and everything else just relax and be proud of yourself because I’m proud of you zashi is proud of you ya mama tsuganaga kenny all of us” “ugh your gonna make me cry stop” he says lowering his head to my shoulder “such a baby” i say hugging him “now come on you asked me to make you pretty for zashi and we’re running out of time” I say making no effort to let him go “ok thanks princess” “no need to thank me baby it’s my job” 

Keigo is never nervous always very calm and collected but on the drive he’s zoned out doing that inner monologue mumbling and I need him calm because once we get there it’s straight to the convention portion of the event “say it out loud I promise it sounds worse in your head” I says snapping him out of his daze “nothing it’s I’ve been stuck with how I wanna do the speech acknowledgments I don’t wanna leave anyone out or make anyone feel like they’re less important” “your whole team is like 10 people it shouldn’t feel like you making someone out to be more important” “yeah but do I do the researchers first then the engineers or vice versa” “I think your just overthinking this” “yeah I probably am” he says biting his thumb nail “you read the speech to me a thousand times now it sounds perfect no one is going to feel less important because you said one group before the other your stressing yourself out for nothing I promise” I say taking his hand “your right your right I’m freaking about nothing again I’m sorry” he says relaxing a bit “don’t apologize it’s completely normal to feel nervous about these things just don’t stress yourself out over it” 

We arrived ahead of schedule so we have a bit more time than we originally planned for getting changed before the convention it was hell trying to find clothes for this because yes for work I wear business attire but I just didn’t feel like they screamed I’m marrying the man that everyone is here celebrating so I had to do a lot of shopping to find the perfect outfit especially for the award ceremony tomorrow I searched for days a dress that was the same color green as his suit he hasn’t seen it yet but I know he’s gonna love it 

After a light makeup and unwrapping my hair i was ready and joining keigo in the main area of the suite “yeah we had a bit extra to get ready before we have to be downstairs” keigo says to who im only guessing is zashi on the phone “i wish i could be there with you I’ve known you too long to not have seen you in full business man mode” zashi says i peek into frame he walking around the fairgrounds for tomorrow live event “it’s nothing to much different then regular me” “no your not you get all demanding and you voice changes” i say recalling when he was on the phone with whoever that was (opening to chapter 54) “that was because he was sending poor quality materials im not always like that and you look fucking beautiful baby look at her” he says moving back and flipping the camera for zashi to see me “hey I had to look good for my debut as world renowned hospital tech guy fiancée” I say turing for the full effect couldn’t a find a dress or skirt that really felt worthy of the event so I went for a black pant suit the pants are flared at the bottom the jacket a tailored fit white shirt underneath and a custom gold chain that had HJK on it as an accent on the side “love, the chain detail is crazy it came out better than i thought” zashi says “what does it says” keigo says getting closer “it’s our initials i have one with mistress jess on it and since i don’t formally go by that anymore i got some new ones and wanted to debut this one tonight” i say looking down at it “i love you I don’t think i tell you enough” “you tell me a hundred times a day i know” “just for that imma make it a thousand times” “ugh stop being cheesy when im not there” zashi says making us laugh “shit we have to go I’ll call you when we get back okay” “yeah gotta make sure everything is ready for tomorrow then I’m heading to the station to prep for the show tonight” “make sure to eat and sleep when you can” I say because he has a packed schedule for the next two days “I will love i promise” “okay I love you” “same I love you” “and I love you both go have fun talking about bandages and gauze” he says with a proud smile on his from his joke “yeah yeah we make the best bandages and gauze you’ve ever seen” “whatever have fun” he says before hanging up

“do you actually make banda-“ “no princess we don’t” he says like it pains him “what I didn’t know the heart monitor was the first thing you’ve ever mentioned how would I know” I say pushing his arm “and I can’t fault you because I don’t bring work home it kinda follows me sometimes but if someone asks you anything about something other than the monitor come and get me” he says leading me out of the room “you plan on leaving me alone here” I say turing looking at him “I don’t plan on it but we might get separated who knows” “I get lost at this convention you will find me crying somewhere” “you won’t cry you might get bored and fall asleep though” “both will happen I’m certain of it” I say as we get on the elevator I’m too old to still be scared of elevators but I am but I also hate taking the steps so I just have to suck it up

We reach the convention hall and it’s packed with people talking about things I’ve never even thought about before and I’m pretty smart myself but all of the small pieces of everyone elevator pitches are not clicking in my head “how you feeling bored yet” keigo says as we walk over to the switch booth “no not bored completely out of my element yes it feels like everyone is speaking another language in here” “in a everyone is speaking too fast and my Japanese is failing me way or I’m out of my realm of knowledge way” “the ladder the former only happens for some reason when you and zashi talk to me at the same time” “if that’s the case I’ll explain anything you want to know more about in a non jargon way” he says dropping my hand and putting his arm around my waist leading me through the crowd near the switch booth 

It was a different keigo standing infront of me like granted I could always ask more about what he does for work but even if I did seeing him work the room was extremely dominating he was confident quick on his feet explaining things in a way both people who’s been in this industry for years can understand and a person like me could at the same time I’ve never been more prouder to call this man mine I sneak a few pictures of him to send to zashi and I never wanna forget this version of him 

He’s been bombarded with questions and people just wanting to talk to him for a while now and I wanna walk around and see more of the things here so I signal to him that I’m gonna do a lap around before going and just looking around I stop at a booth that’s trying to integrate robotics with prosthetics some real doc ock shit and they were doing a demo and it was really interesting so I sat and watched the full demo and stuck around for the q&a full attention to them but was snapped out of it when I feel someone walk behind me a bit too close I turn and I’m ready for the “excuse me” “no it’s ok” exchange and I’m greeted with remy the man that caused our first argument and the reason we finally committed “oh mis- Jess I didn’t expect you would be at something like this” “yeah same” keigo i know you can read my mind break free and save me please “oh well i work in the marketing department of one of the companies that are being awarded tomorrow so that’s why i'm here” he says like a dog looking for praise “oh that cool” I don’t really care why he’s here I just really wanna hear about these robot prosthetics “excuse me Jess Keigo has a panel to do soon and he wanted me to find you and bring you too it” Yo says saving me “oh okay” “wait as in keigo the switch tech guy why is he looking for you” “it would be weird if I came all this way to support my fiancé and miss anything he’s involved in come one Yo lead the way” I say leaving him speechless till he catches up with us “wait what your marrying the ceo of switch tech that doesn’t make sense” “it’s a pretty simple concept your smart enough to figure it out” “no it doesn’t make sense because why him what happened to that guy from the spa” “it’s same man I don’t know what to tell you” “no but that’s not fair” “what’s not fair hey princess” keigo says meeting us at the door where the panel is being held you could see all of the dislike for keigo all in remys face and it was actually kind of funny “hi baby are you ready for the panel” i say not giving remy any more of my attention “of course but i needed my princess here” he says wrapping both of his arms around my waist “we almost beat you for that award” remy says inserting himself “keyword almost better luck next year though” “keigo they need you up there now” yo says “yeah okay im coming sit somewhere i can see you okay” he says kissing me then walking in and remy stomps off like a kid making me laugh 

I sit in the middle section in the center texting zashi till the panel started it was more of a interview of the three companies and q&a from the audience and no matter the questions he would make sure to look directly at me for majority of the time and under his gaze I felt the most subservient I’ve ever felt in my life the panel was over after more pleasantries a firm hand was placed on my lower back leading me out of the convention “i feel like your still needed in there” I say when he pushes the elevator button “only place I’m needed right now is with you and I’m behaving right now because too many people know who I am here” he says when we get in the elevator the way he’s holding on to my waist isn’t the usual comfort hold no no it’s the possessive waist grab 

We make it down the hallway and the moment he closes the door I’m against it he’s immediately on his knees getting my pants undone and down he puts my right leg on his shoulder kissing my inner thigh “fuck, mistress punish me later but I need you” he says looking at my vagina like it’s the one piece “then take it” I say pulling him closer with a harsh grip in his hair 

He in fact takes it I can barely stand anymore if it wasn’t for his firm grip around my waist I would’ve fell a while ago “fuck baby right there” his tongue is sent from heaven “you make mistress feel so good, such a good boy for me” the way his tongue locks on to my clit and licks and sucks it makes my eyes roll back and my knees buckle “ngh baby I’m about to-” my breaths are short and are accompanied with whiny moans that even sound attractive to myself I look down and he’s in his own world moaning as much as me when I cum all over his face I see his eyes roll back i thought he came himself but when he let my leg down and I can see he’s hardddd still fully closed like the good boy that he is “ let mistress help with that baby” I say slipping back in to my heels pressing my foot into his dick the look on his face was priceless and the sight in general was honestly he’s sitting obediently hands on either leg looking up waiting for orders and not trying to grind against my foot “you did so good making mistress cum just now you think you deserve to do the same” I say pressing harder with my foot making him moan “yes yes I do please mistress I’ve been so good I didn’t act up at all when that bitch showed up” “hey watch it no swearing”I say pressing harder making him wince a bit “right right sorry but i didn’t show how angry I was and and I did the big panel and q&a i deserve it mistress please” he says hugging my leg laying his head on my thigh “I mean you did do great at the booth and you didn’t act up with remy and you did great at panel so i guess you do deserve it and how can I say no to this cute face” i say petting the top of his head “thank you mistress i promise to make you cum again” he says picking me up and carrying me to the bed 

He strips as I remove my jacket and shirt when we’re both naked he crawls up the bed leaving kisses as he makes his way up my body he kisses my lips then sits up and takes both of my legs holding them by my thighs and starts with slow short strokes

His face is always the most readable during sex it’s one of my favorite parts of having him as my sub because I can tell when I’m going to far or not far enough just by the faces he’s makes and right now he’s in his mind trying to think of anything that’s not the fact that he’s fucking me right now so he doesn’t cum “you wanna cum don’t you” I say when he stops for a second only furthing my point “what no” he says starting back up but the stuttering in his hip with every plunge in me is betraying him “your shaking like a leaf kei just tell the truth” he closes his eyes tight hanging his head low “fuck,yes I do but I can’t yet” he says the strength in his arms seeming to give out by how he completely on top of me now still fighting to not cum “I mean you’ve been such a good boy for me today so cum” “it’s been like 6 minutes and I said I would make you cum again I can’t ” “am I hearing back talk your mistress gave you an order and your disobeying” I say grabbing his face he whines and drops his head on my shoulder and picking up the pace causing him to cum sounding like he’s crying 

“Aww my poor baby crying because he got to cum poor thing” I say holding him with both arms as he laying flat against me “leave me alone” he says muffled in my shoulder “you want me to leave you alone then get off of me” I say letting him go “no” he says putting my arms back on him “big ass baby” I say holding him tighter than before

 “why was he with you” he ask “I was at a booth showing off how they were integrating robotics with prosthetics and he bumped into me there and started talking to me I was trying to get out of of as fast as possible and yo saved me and he followed us to your q&a” “I hate him” “I bet” “why did he have to be one of you old subs” he says rolling off of me “he had hella money and simple requests” I say turning to look at him sulking in the pillow “the keigo I saw an hour ago and this one are two different people” I say laughing at how cute he is pouting “that’s because that man you saw earlier was the ceo of switch tech keigo takami he’s very charismatic and smart and cool now I’m just kei a man that wants to be babied by his very hot dominating wife” he says and the way the word wife slide off his tongue made me feel so giddy “stop we haven’t even started planning yet” I say having a hard time hiding the smile on my face “don’t care I’ve been calling you my wife to everyone since you said yes don’t need a party and a piece of paper to call you my wife” and with that I went into full giddy shy mode hiding my face because what “ahh I still make my wife shy I’m great at this husband thing already” he says like it’s a personal victory “shut up” I say getting out of the bed “aww my princess come back” he says pulling me back in the bed by my waist “you have to stop calling me that” “what my wife why I mean you are aren’t you?” He says arms linked around my waist head resting on my shoulders “Not legally no” “who cares about that I know it’s in your genes to care about the law but no one not even you can get me to stop calling you my wife” he finishes off the sentence with a kiss on my neck “now i thought I was done but enough time has passed round 3 come on” he says rolling us so I’m on top of him “i was waiting for you” I say lifting my body where he’s aiding me sitting on his dick “I’ll give you a taste of wife sex” 

The next day has a arisen and all of the companies being awarded later tonight are all invited to a networking brunch and I have two options for outfits but they both feel too much “Jess either works perfectly” zashi says “the first one is too much for a networking brunch trust me” Toyua says “yeah i thought so but this feels so not me” I say looking at myself in this ankle length flowy dress it’s sage green very cottage core “I mean yeah but you can’t exactly go in there in a mini skirt fishnets and a bikini top” toyua says “I mean but why not” I say looking for my shoes “because youre the wife of a ceo who doesn’t leave the house without a tie on” “very true but whatever we have to leave soon and he’s not back yet and I need help with this shoe” I say trying to buckle the mary Jane docs but my nails isn’t going to let that happen and just then I hear the door unlock and open “princess you’re ready….son of bitch you look beautiful” he say walking in the room “thanks help” I say holding my foot out at him he immediately bends down on one knee buckling my shoe eyes never leaving me “your making me think you hate the way i usually dress” I say breaking his cycle of looking at every part of me “keigo choose your next words wisely”Toyua says from the forgotten phone call “no you know I love my little edgelord but i don’t think I’ve ever seen you look like this ever in my life”he says feeling the boning in the top  “you think I should dress like this more” “no no not at all I want you to dress the way you want and I just perfected the jess fit formula don’t try switching it up” “trust me I won’t I feel out of place and not like myself at all but I have to fit the brand” “if you don’t feel comfortable don’t wear it  I don’t want you feeling uncomfortable the whole time” “I won’t be uncomfortable just not used to how I look like this” “then let’s Jess this dress up then” he says turning to my suitcase he pulls out a harness the hjk chain and my fishnets and the boots I’ve been wearing since I was 16 

If I wasn’t sure I was marrying this man before this moment I can promise you I was 100% sure I was now the harness took it to another level already but the chain with the stocking and boots were crazy with this soft ass dress that he pinned to now have an asymmetrical line in the front showing my left leg off perfectly “we’re 15 minutes late but I rather have that smile on your face then you try to mask how uncomfortable you are now let’s go princess” he says kissing me 

I felt so much more like myself and it’s all thanks to him “which one of past endeavours taught you how to make temporary alterations to clothing” I say because looking at the slit you wouldn’t know it’s being held together with safety pins “Kenny had a small obsession with alterations for most of high school and I mean when you’re the test dummy for most of the experiments you pick up a thing or two” he says putting the name tag on me “oh the fame has gotten to you… don’t need to wear the tag not me” “well yes a bit they know me and my face but think of this like how you put your tag on me when your at work same thing princess” he says keeping it pg in front of the nice lady holding down the name tag table 

We walk in at the same time as some others so I don’t feel too bad about us being a good 20 minutes late. The hall is broken up by groups of the 6 different companies that are being awarded in the different categories switch is the smallest by far with our 10 13 including us and yo compared to the huge 20 plus of the other companies “keigo takami how the hell are” a man says hand extending out to kei “Fumihito how are you” he says shaking his hand “good good so tell me who you fucked to win this year” he says with the straightest face I’ve ever seen in my life and I was a millisecond away from tearing him a new one before him and keigo laughed and hugged “unlike you I don’t have to sleep my way to the top” he says backing away from him “hey keep that between us now tell me who this dazzling woman is next to you is” “my pleasure Fumihito this my soon to be wife Jessica” keigo says wrapping an arm around my waist “hello gorgeous-“ “she has a name dickhead” kei says cutting him off making me laugh from how not professional he’s being rn “your right my bad hello Jessica”he says extending his hand to me“hi” I say shaking his hand “I know your wondering we went to grad school together now company rival” kei says “rivals my ass” “and again who’s winning the groundbreaking discovery award this year” (wack name ik but im sick and dead can’t think of anything better) he says smugly “whatever we’re working on some crazy shit right now everyone going to forget all about your stupid heart monitor” “yeah whatever by the way it’s working good with your granddad right” “yeah great actually he’s been way better now that he doesn’t have to worry about the unknown happening and no one knows till it’s too late” “I’m glad to help” “I’m still going to whoop your ass next year” “yeah yeah in your dreams” 

The energy of this event was wayyy more casual than I was expecting they all know each other so all the formalities are dropped and it’s really a big hang out for the winners before the super serious award ceremony later tonight 

I was looking at the table that had what every person was winning and for what and I don’t even think about half of the stuff these people have made but they all make a huge impact on medical care “princess?” I hear a voice that’s not keigo say “excuse me” I say to the three women standing behind me “I’m sorry is that not your name I heard takami call you that earlier and just assumed” “oh no sorry it’s Jessica” I say knowing that we haven’t talked to them and that the only time he’s actually said my name all brunch “oh sorry I just heard from my husband that you were his wife and wanted to introduce myself and i assumed” “no no it’s honestly his fault he refuses to just use my name when we’re in public but yes I’m Jessica” I says shaking her hand “I’m Yuna this is Sakura and Mio” she says pointing each one out “so do you work at switch tech as well” mio asks looking at the name tag “no I’m a psychologist” i answer “really that’s great how long” “almost 7 years altogether but 4 years full time” “that’s really cool i always wanted to be pediatrician but I got married and had kids”yuna says  “how many kids do you two have” Sakura asks “none” and the way the smiles dropped off they’re faces was very telling “oh really but your married”Mio says like one equals the other  “engaged actually” “ahh I’m going to ask something and I swear I’m happy with how my life is and my family but how is it” “how’s what exactly” “your life you have your own career a fiancé that’s head over hills for you no kids I got married at 19 first kid by 20 and I love my children I do but whew” Yuna finally gets out and I feel bad for her a little “I mean life is good I’ve known keigo since we were 17 we were together everyday till 22 then we went to different grad schools lived different lives then at 25 reconnected and started dating a year after that and engaged the following year we do a lot of traveling and we don’t technically live together even though we just live with each other one week in each house”I say giving them the short version “your what 28 and don’t have any kids no family pushing you” “yeah but I’m pretty firm on not having kids just because someone else wants me too” and I feel like that was the final nail in the coffin of “damn I want her life” “excuse me ladies I hate to steal her away” keigo say kissing the side of my neck as he walks from behind me “oh no problem it was a pleasure to meet you” Yuna says and the other women follow  “same here” I say as I’m guided out of the hall by his hand on my back 

“I feel really bad for them” “why” “because they all had dreams and goals but it all got squashed because they got married and had kids and now their whole lives are they’re kids and husbands that’s it they asked how my life was because I had my own job and no kids” “okay yeah that’s sad” “like thank god that’s not my life but I feel bad for the women whose whole life is just that” “yeah very sad truly but can i please run this speech by you one more time before tonight” “right yes yes go” I say giving him my full attention 

The speech is perfect he looks perfect and I look damn good myself I tried my hardest to find a dress that’s the same green as his suit jacket and I spent I pretty penny on it maybe the most expensive thing I’ve ever bought that wasn’t made of latex it’s a few seasons old but it was perfect for tonight’s super formal event “princess there’s a whole company of models right now praising the gods that you choose to be a psychologist instead” he says walking in the bathroom “you really always know what to say huh” “of course when the person I’m talking about looks this fucking beautiful I can’t help it” he runs his hand along my back that’s exposed “well I’m just stunting like my daddy” I say turning and looking at him “what” “what do you mean what the 2006 birdman and lil Wayne song stunting like my are you serious you’ve dated too many black people for you not to know this song” I say highly confused on where the disconnect is coming from “I definitely never heard that song before what does that even mean in this context” “ugh I matched your freak” “I feel like your speaking a different language right now” “Im marrying an old man forget about it let’s go” I say throwing my hands up and walking out the bathroom 

We walk into the hall arm in arm and I suddenly feel nervous likes it’s me getting the award “so I looked it up and yes to both”he says putting his phone in his pocket and pulling out my chair 

The ceremony goes on well and the closer they get to the award we’re here for I get even more excited for all of the team I almost cried when I saw that the head researcher brought his daughter with him only keigo goes to accept the award but it would be insane for the people who physically made it not to be here as well 

They announce and call up keigo for his award he kisses me and goes up he reads his speech perfectly only looking down once or twice it was all Perfect he got towards the end of the speech and looked directly at me “I have many more people outside of the wonderful people I just named from my team that helped with the development of this and i mostly want to thank the man who helped bring switch tech to life Tsuganaga I wish you were here to help accept this award and of course my fiancée Jessica there were definitely days where I doubted I could even do this and she was there giving me the push I needed rather that was a your the best pep talk or making sure the team ate a proper meal she’s the absolute best and I like bragging about her but once again thank you all for this award” he says and room roars in applause and I’m left crying because i didn’t do anything to be thanked up there yes I may have took the day off one day and cooked for the whole team because I know they weren’t eating properly “Jess here” yo says handing me a tissue “ugh thank you” I say trying to stop the tears before kei gets back to the table “now that he bought that up we should definitely have a team dinner when we get back” one of his engineers says to the table “yeah I’ll cook again” I say getting the tears to stop for now “great because I didn’t want to ask but we’ve been bugging keigo to ask you to cook for us again” the lead marketing lady says “he hasn’t said a word to me I’ll let him know when so he can tell you” I say laughing 

“You know I’m like so proud of you” I say as we walk around outside “yeah I know you cried the moment I got on stage”he says softly chuckling “well of course tonight but like in general” “yeah I know I saw the printed out article you have up in your office at home” “like I remember when this was just a hypothetical thing you created for a class now it’s this huge company that you built your staff loves and respects you your colleagues respect you and more than just your wife but as your best friend I’ve never been prouder to know you” I say feeling really emotional “fuck Jess thanks” he says wiping away a few tears “I sometimes forget how fucking sappy you are goddamn” he says stopping us and hugging me in the middle of the sidewalk “what it’s your fault” I say now crying as well hugging him back “i love you and i'm so thankful your in my life” he says now sobbing “ugh im ruining my makeup i love you so much and i'm glad the universe put us together” I say sobbing now “fuck we gotta get back in the room this is embarrassing” he says letting go and wiping his face “so embarrassing” I say dapping my face 

We walk back to the hotel in silence holding hands we do our night time routine in silence shower together with a bit of making out and we’re doing what I think they call making love 

It’s slow lots of kissing and ‘I love you’s  some marking but it’s all slow and I could honestly cry again “you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me” he says stoking so slow that the bed hasn’t even creaked yet “I can’t imagine life without you” I respond somehow feeling really close and usually I don’t cum unless I’m being fucked into the springs of the mattress “want me to speed up” he kissing the side of my neck “no stay just like this” say nearing so close to the edge it’s overwhelming he doesn’t change speed or anything and I cum in away don’t think I ever have it was powerful and passionate and feeling him cum in me at the same time only made it feel better 

With all that the weekend we’ve been waiting for has come to an end but not without your favorite party animals going to the music festival brought to you by put your hands up radio 

It’s the last day and zashi has no idea we’re coming “hey hey you look fucking rad here’s your passed his trailer is over here” meeka says when we finally find her we knock on the door we hear the famous “yo” and walk in “aww you’re wearing my Christmas gift” kei says when we walk in “what are you doing here” he says bringing us both in a hug “my favorite dj is playing in an hour what do you mean” i say kissing him “better question leather jacket no shirt naughty boy” kei says pinching his side “hey your boyfriend hot get used to it” he says doing a full spin the custom leather jacket with pants to match and insane boots “very hot can’t wait to get you out of that outfit later” i say running my hand down his chest “you’re not the only one when did yall leave this morning to get here and dressed in time”  he says spinning me and holding me from behind “8 we got home around 12 because of traffic had to kinda rush to get ready but we’re here” kei says sandwiching me in between them “im glad but i need to hear all about this weekend and see the award when we get back” “it’s your dinner night too”i say  “fuck that were ordering out or going somewhere because I’m cooking” “I’ll cook tonight but you’re taking my next turn” kei says “deal” *knock knock* “boss we need you out here” meeka says “okay come on let’s go” 

We had an amazing time at the festival now all of us are just normal people “I feel like I need to have a huge career accomplishment now” I say eating a grape “what are you talking about”zashi says taking my next grape “I mean huge honorary achievement award hosting your first festival I need to like do something” I say “/gen question how would that work if you work with individual people” kei asking getting something out of the refrigerator “if I would to treat a patient that had like a unknown diagnosis and I did all the observations and reporting on figuring out what was the cause I would like get a mental diagnosis named after me like the alzheimer guy” “that’s someone name” “yeah but I don’t think I personally wanna be the name of anything that impairs someone’s life like that” “yeah sounds depressing but tell me all about this weekend” 

“So why was remy there again” “he worked for one of the companies there” i explain “you had like two or three sessions with him why is so attached to you” zashi says “yeah I know he was never a submissive just a client that paid a lot of money” “I was never not your submissive so I don’t know that life but your not hard to get attached to” kei says plating “you had 5 years of Jess before I was your mistress so your different” “kaoru despises 24 hour dynamic according to her chart but she texts you constantly throughout the week to update about her life” “yeah I didn’t even do that” “okay I get it but also she’s my submissive that’s expected” “your mommy kink is stronger than you think” “leave me aloneeeee about that” “this is my first time hearing about this” kei says placing food in front is us “and it’s the last time” 

Notes:

I opened this doc march 1st and I just finished it as of August 18th this may be the longest its taken me to write one chapter but life be lifing

Chapter 72

Notes:

HELLO LOVES ✨
okay okay I have no idea what the last chapter was or when it was posted but ive moved back on campus and have a hell of a work load and I legit have forgotten that I don't just write these for fun and that I have children (you) to feed and Ive been working on this chapter for almost two months and its been sitting collecting dust with the "not posted yet" tag.....I don't have a follow up yet but hopefully I don't take to long to come back

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I hope you enjoy 🕺🏽

Jess and hizashi got called into the office early by shota AND nemuri “what did you do that they made us come in an hour early” zashi says to Jess “I didn’t do anything! I feel like I’m getting called into the principal's office”she says as they walk down the long hallway “certified rebel Jess scared to go the principal's office” “rebel at home not school never at school… on purpose anyway worse thing I’ve ever done was get dress coded” she says as they reach the door

Zashi opens the door “you two sit” shota says leaning on his desk they scramble to the chairs in front of the desk and sit “so we’re going on vacation” nemuri says “really where” zashi says “not important right now…we need a favor” “want us to watch sushi” “no he’s going with us” “okay then what exactly” “so this is our first vacation in 8 years where we aren’t doing something related to this place and we want to leave work in Kyoto soo we’re entrusting you with kitty,yuji,kenji and Riki” “I’m sorry what” jess says “yeah well usually I would only trust them with nem but she’s going to be with me and all four of them are 24/7 subs and I wanna leave them in good hands I know you two don’t personally like 24/7 dynamics but we trained you ourselves and I don’t really trust them with anyone else” shota says “so you want us to…okay” “I know it’s a lot and unlike shota my two pay me so zashi for the two weeks that money goes to you” “wait wouldn’t it make more sense for your subs to go with her and his with me since they’re used to sir mistress” zashi says even more confused “yeah it would but you match my style more and she matches his so it’s just best”midnight says “we already talked to them they’re okay with it and know to be on their best behavior”sho says walking around his desk “it doesn’t seem like we really have a choice do you have like an outline of daily task or something”jess says still processing all of this “you don’t and we do” midnight says handing them both 1” binders “everything is there you have a week to get ready we’ll all meet the day before we leave”

Looking at what they require throughout the day it was overwhelming and the main reason Jess has never done a 24/7 dynamic the binder is perfectly organized with what’s to be expected of the subs and then as the dom they needed to check in every four hours kitty couldn’t choose what she wore at any part of the day she had to send options and Jess had to choose she also had to send a picture of everything she ate (has trouble with eating properly) she pretty much can’t breathe without checking first her playtimes are pretty much the same things Jess does with kaoru so that won’t be the hard part but the having to be fully responsible for her ALL DAY LONG is stressing her out

yuji on the other hand is a service sub so he's with her from 9am till midnight I mean she can always use the extra help during the day especially with keigo being out of town for a work thing (needed to get him outta here for a chapter) so he’s just gonna be with her at work and AD all day his playtime is a bit different than what Jess is used to because he is a service sub he kinda just does whatever you tell him she had no clue he was a non sexual sub (unless it’s a punishment involved) but sho did say “if you wanna brush up on any skills he’s your test dummy” so that’ll come in handy

so he’s the easy one of the two but he does come to ad everyday so that’s going to be taxing when she realistically only goes three times a week once for randos once for karou and once for keigo but all 7 days is something she hasn’t done since grad school

Hizashi has it entirely too easy he has two men who are trained to do whatever comes out of his mouth nem said they will do ANYTHING you need coffee got it you need them to come pick up your car and go get gas and come back done you want them to have sex in front of you while you call them derogatory names done and done they also have to check in every hour on the hour and go to ad everyday
(I’m switching to first person Jess)

“Ughhhh kitty why do you require so much” I say reading over her profile “is yuji that complicated”zashi says sitting on the bed as close as possible to me“no he’s the easy one he’s just a full time assistant” I say getting even closer “I wish I got nems” I say putting my head on his shoulder “I love you more than anything and know how stressful this is gonna be for you but I’m so glad he gave them to you i couldn’t deal with how much attention she requires” “I don’t know if I’m gonna survive two weeks of this, i can barely make decisions for myself without having a mental breakdown”

Sho and nem leaves tomorrow and we’re all meeting today for what I don’t know “okay kaoru I’ll see you next Thursday” “yes will it be okay to push it back an hour it’s my moms birthday and I’m going out to dinner with her” “yeah but you sure you wanna come here after that” “yes I’ll need it after having to be with my brother for any amount of time” “okay I’ll tell Jordan to put you down for 8 or wanna do 9” “yes 9 would be perfect” “okay see you next week at 9” I see her out and make my way to shota room I knock

“come in” I walk in greeted with kitty and yuji kneeling in front of sho “you’ll always be mistress in my mind what are you going by now” he says facing me “madam Jess” I say pointing to the custom chain on my hip “right right okay I’ve already told you how things are gonna work for the next two weeks madam Jess is going to be responsible for the two of you for the next two weeks don’t think this is a time to act out” he says with a pointed look at kitty “and forget how your supposed to behave I will be in contact with madam while away so if even one rule is broken when I get back you won’t be excited to see me” I’ve observed sho with subs before but it was more in a teaching setting but this is different “you’ve both worked with Jess before i expect you to treat her with the same respect you give me” he says getting closer to kitty “you gonna be a good girl while sir is away” he says petting her head running his hands through her hair she rest her head on his leg looking up at him “yes sir” is this my first time hearing her speak i think it is “how about you yuji” he says giving his attention to him “yes I’ll be good but are you sure I can’t come with you I’ll be good i swear” he says scooting closer to him resting his head on the opposite leg “I know you would but it’s not that type of trip i promise you’re in good hands I trained her myself and I’ll make my return a good one if you stay on your best behavior of course” he says squatting infront of them making sure to keep eye contact with both of them as he spoke “now Jess I believe you have other things to attend to” he says turning to me standing there awkwardly “right yes I do have somewhere to be I promise to try my best to fulfill your needs” I say bowing and turning to walk out “are you sure she’s going to be the best fit for us why not hizashi” kitty says “she’s just being nice right now because I’m here but you’ve seen her work before out on the main stage”

I walk out of shos room the same time zashi leaves out of midnights room “this is going to be the easiest money I’ve ever earned” he say when he see me “salt in the wound” “hey not my fault you didn’t go down the pet play route” “shut up you’ve already corrupted my fiancé you won’t get me” “you've done worse and i promise you’ll understand when you see your kei baby crawling to you with a tail and cat ears on”he says walking behind me whispering in my ear “shut actually up” “never”

I wake up to my phone dinging I have a few text messages

From: KEIBABY✨
Just woke up in an empty bed
DAY= RUINED

From: Jordy🧬
Can’t remember is kaoru coming in at 8 or 9 next week

From: kitty
Good morning madam Jess
I woke up at 7:00am, I’ve already showered and now awaiting your decision for breakfast and clothes for the day

From: yuji
Good morning madam Jess
I woke up at 6:50am, I am ready for your first order of the day

“Why the hell are they up so early” I say sitting up and responding in the order they came in

To:KEIBABY✨
At least you haven’t been woken up to decide what someone has to wear and eat for the day

To: Jordy🧬
9

To: kitty
Good morning kitty

I had to look in the binder to see what her breakfast options are

To: kitty
For breakfast let’s do something rather light miso and rice
Send your three outfit options for the day

To:yuji
Good morning yuji
Your first order of the day will need to be fulfilled by 9am today I need you to bring me breakfast to my office *insert address and order* get whatever you would like as well

I get up and get ready for work like normal but with my phone in my hand at all times because i can’t miss a text or that girl will be sitting in place naked and hungry

I pick her outfit she sent over the picture of her breakfast and I was out the door when i arrived at work I half forgot about yuji till I saw him at the door of my office with my food in hand “ahh good and your early” “yes ma-“ “ I’m just Jess here got it” “yes Jess” he says like it’s hurting him “I wanted to make sure you had time to eat before you had to start working” “how thoughtful yuji wanna come in or do you have somewhere to be” I say unlocking the door to my office “nowhere to be at all I’m typically with sir all day long” “yeah I saw that if you don’t mind me asking what do you do for work” “I don’t mind at all my dad was really rich and then he died and all of his money went to me so I don’t work a typical job I serve my master all day I like that better” he explains as he stands behind the chair in front of my desk “sit” “thank you” he says sitting down I hand him his food and we eat in a comfortable slience “can I ask you a question je-I can’t do that madam Jess” he says like it’s a cardinal sin “yes go ahead” “do you have your own submissives” “yes I do my fiancé and kaoru the girl I do shows on the main stage with” “so your fiancé is like me and kitty” “not exactly this is my first time having a service submissive and a 24/7 submissive” I answer honestly “hmm the guy with you at ad all the time isn’t your service submissive” “my assistant no that’s my brother” I say and I can see his face grow red “I’m sorry madam I thought wrong I’m sorry” he says hanging his head low in embarrassment “yuji it’s okay it’s a reasonable observation don’t worry about it” I say reaching out for his hand “your not gonna tell sir about this” “no why would I it was an honest mistake” “rule number 6 don’t make statements you don’t know if they’re true or not” “I mean if you want me to tell him I will but I wouldn’t say that fits ” he looks up at me with urgency and came around the desk kneeling infront of me “please don’t I’ve been so good lately and even today I got up before the required time I came here early please madam” he looks at me “you have been very good yuji I won’t tell him it’ll be our little secret okay” I say petting his head he lays his head in my lap and i continue to pet him for a bit before I realized it was almost time for my first client “okay be a good boy and sit in the waiting room okay I have to work soon I’ll let you back in once they leave” I say lifting his head so we’re making eye contact “okay”

When I check the time for my first client to see how much time we had left I see the second check in of the day has been sent “so I think that’s a good place to leave for next week make sure to bring you journal with you next time” I say seeing we’re out of time

I walk my client out and bring yuji back with me while responding to kitty check in“do you need anything madam” he says once I closed the door “yes actually that clock right there I think the batteries are dead because it’s been 8:45 for two days now can you replace them and reset it please there’s a few kinds of batteries in that box on the self ” I say sitting at my computer to start digitizing my notes from the session “yes” he says going to the clock

I zone out while working so I kinda I forget he was here “madam…madam Jess” “oh yes sorry”I say snapping out of it “i have to go to the store to get batteries you don’t have any that fits the clock”he says pointing to it laying on the couch “makes sense yes it’s a convenient store down the street you can go to” “also while I’m out do you need anything else” “umm no thank you though” I say “okay I’ll be back as soon as possible” he says bowing and walking out of the door

I continue working and soon after get a call from kei “princessssssss” he says once the phone connects “you dragged that out so long and are you in public” “oh yeah my day has been shit today thanks for asking” he says as he stopped walking in the middle of the sidewalk “oh my dramatic little baby why has your day been shit” “one I woke up to neither of my partners being in the bed already a bad start but then I opened my toiletries bag to see one of my products exploded everywhere I was late to the meeting this morning” he continues his bad news bears rant as yuji walks back in placing a bag on the desk beside me and going to finish his appointed task “and now a really attractive man is waiting on my wife hand and foot and that’s my JOB ughh I’m about to cry in the middle of this crosswalk” “this is really the most dramatic I’ve ever seen you you need a nap or something” “what I need is my wife to be magically in the bed when I get there” “not happening captain yuji what’s in this bag” I say out of curiosity “oh um sir gave me a list of things you like so I can know what to get you without being told” he says putting the clock back on the wall “I’m going to jump im going to do it I called zashi earlier and that guy did the same thing this is my responsibility” “well your responsibility right now is working with that distribution company nothing else” I say going through the bag and in true dad fashion all of the things in here I haven’t really sought out in a few years but I still love them all “thanks yuyu i appreciate it” “it’s my job to serve” “I’m going to kill myself” “keigo takami” I say to the declaration he just made “what you’ve nicknamed him already I’m getting replaced I gotta go because I will start crying” “omg keigo your so emotional today did you not sleep last night” I say knowing he gets super emotional when he hasn’t gotten enough sleep “no I only slept for like 4 hours and had to be up at 6” “your back in your room shower and sleep and call me back when your rested because I can do no right when your like this” “okay you're right I’ll call you later”

It’s been four days out of 14 and the routine has settled with me pretty easily having yuji with me all day is surprisingly really helpful and keeping up with all the things kitty requires is still annoying but we had our first playtime last night and I made her eat her words about wanting zashi over me so the underlying brat in her check ins is gone

I really didn’t have anything for yuji to do today so he mostly just cuddled my leg all morning after we had breakfast I didn’t have a client till 12 so I didn’t mind it “I like it when you call me yuyu” he says breaking the silence “sorry for speaking without being spoken to” he says just as languid as his first statement “I know I’m supposed to make you follow the same rules as sir but I can’t punish you for thinking out loud” I say laying back in my chair petting his hair “that would have costed me 100 hits if I was with sir” “ouch” “it’s okay I like it” he says with a lazy smile “so I should report it” “no it’s going to be more because I’m supposed to be on my best behavior right now” “and you have been sir is getting suspicious of how good you’ve been” “I really like working for you so I wanna stay good for you” he says looking up at me “really? you're not just saying that because you really have no other choice” “yeah no i'm not just saying that when we are left with mistress midnight she's like mean to us and i mean kitty likes it but i don't really like it.. I like how gentle you are just like sir” “not two things i've heard in the same sentence like ever” i say because im not his sub obvi but just with us hes even really strict so i wasn't ready for gentle “i know on the outside he seems really hard mean and strict but when it's just us he's different” “i think that's why you were left with me hizashi isn't really gentle” i say and though with keigo hes very gentle and “nice” at times but other than him he's also very strict with his subs like asahi had to sit kneeled for 3 hours for being late “like i said i'm glad i got you madam” he goes back to just being quiet and enjoying the closeness which i don't mind at all

I decide to send a update to sho with a picture of yuyu laying on me

To:Sho🐈⬛
*attachment 2 photos*
Sir i'm going to steal yuyu from you
From: Sho🐈⬛
Yuyu?
You've given him a nickname?
Why would you do that?
Don't get too attached hes my sub
To:Sho🐈⬛
Spam texting me i must have plucked a nerve yikes
From:Sho🐈⬛
Jessica i will cut this trip short and come back to punish both of you
To:Sho🐈⬛
Hey hey hey no need to do that!!!!
It was a joke!!!
Keigo would kill me he's already mega jealous of him
From:Sho🐈⬛
Exactly
Now it should be time for kittys checkin make sure she eats
She tends to wanna skip lunch because shes busy at work and if she gives you the excuse tell me and i'll handle it
To:Sho🐈⬛
Yes sir i will

She pulls the exact stunt and i send it over to him because that's what i was told to do and shortly i got a picture of her lunch for the day and it was time for me to send yuji out before my client comes in “yuyu its lobby time” “really okay” he says getting up “would you like for me to get lunch while I wait” “yeah wait till I walk the client out though I don’t want you waiting with the food after lunch I have a virtual meeting later so you can stay just have to be quiet” “yes ma’am” he says standing up he walks out with me sits in the lobby in the seat closest to my door i chat with missy till my client walks in

An hour later im walking my client out and usually yuji walks into my room office while i check them out at reception but hes not there in his usual seat then my phone pings

From: YUYU
MADAM HELP
I'm in the bathroom

I rush to the bathroom “yuji where are you” i say walking in the mens room with urgency “in here” he says opening the stall door “what’s wrong yuyu” I say looking at him looking pretty in distressed “I’ve been very bad madam” he’s looking down not meeting my eye “bad how yuji” he winced at the use of his full name before moving his hand that’s been over his crotch “I didn’t mean to I swear” I look down and sees that he really hard they have this weird rule that he can’t get aroused unless sho is the cause (hypersexual past) “what caused this” “you madam” “how did I do this” “your shoes are really pretty and I kept thinking about them and how pretty they would look mmmm” he says moaning at the end “would look pretty where yuji” I say grabbing his face making him look at me “stepping on me” I mentally go through the information sho gave me on yuji and it was repeated that he has thing for getting stepped on and feet in general “in my office now go” I say pretty sternly which for anyone else it wouldn’t make them think twice but I talk to yuji in a more mom talking to her toddler way

He walks back to my office like a child in trouble “kneel” I say closing the door behind me I purposely push my desk chair back further before I sit down “here now” I say and he’s eyes are glued to the floor as he knee walks over to me “faster hurry up” he gets on all four and crawls over to me he tries to hug my leg like he usually does but I move it before he can he lets out a cute little whimper placing his hands on his legs “you go and break rules then try to blame it on me”I say crossing my legs “I wasn’t blaming it on you” he says finally looking up “did I say you could speak” his head falls with a very sad “no I’m sorry madam” “firstly I will be reporting this to sir” he looks up very quickly “ no madam please please don’t I’m sorry I didn't mean too I’m sorry please” he says hands in my lap begging in a way I’ve never seen like this is an urgent matter to him “I have no choice I’ve already let so much slide I can’t let this slide” he lays his head on my knees “okay” he says and I almost feel bad for him “secondly you have to sit over in the lobby during my virtual client” I say and another whine comes out of him “can we at least eat lunch together” he says chin balancing his chin on my knee with the most serious case of puppy eyes ive every seen “yes I won’t make you eat by yourself” “should I go get food now” “yeah go” he gets up and my usual cheerful yuyu is so walking around like a sad puppy

To:Sho🐈⬛
Yuji broke a rule and I had to be mean to him and he’s so sad and cute HELP
From:Sho🐈⬛
What happened to my hard dom daughter
To:Sho🐈⬛
KEIGO HAPPENED
HELP
From:Sho🐈⬛
Okay okay what did he do
To:Sho🐈⬛
The stupid no getting hard rule was broken
From:Sho🐈⬛
Aren’t you at work
What did YOU do
To:Sho🐈⬛
Nothing he was in the lobby I had a client when I was done he sent me a HELP message from the bathroom he said he was thinking about my shoes too much and got hard
From: Sho🐈⬛
Ahhhh
So you have to give the punishment
Typically that would be him being caged again and impact around 500
To: Sho🐈⬛
Caged like dog cage or chastity cage
From:Sho🐈⬛
The ladder it's in my room you have to put it on him and he has to wear it till I come back
To:Sho🐈⬛
That’s such a serious punishment 0 fun points
From:Sho🐈⬛
Then what would you do Ms.creativity
To:Sho🐈⬛
Well all of that stuff but I like to play with my subs a bit so since he literally almost came in his pants about the thought of me stepping on him doing it and righttttt before he comes I stop ruin the whole orgasm then I would do what you said
From:Sho🐈⬛
Spoken like a true sadist
This why I gave you kaoru
Have your fun but the other half needs to be done
To:Sho🐈⬛
Yay okay
And kaoru was made for me MY ANGEL

When I send the last text my sad puppy walks back in he sits on the other side of the desk “here you go madam” “thanks yuyu” I say and he perks up a bit “I talked to sir about your punishment and he told me what a typical punishment is and to have fun so look forward to that later” the look of terror on his face “excited” I say with a smile plastered on my face “yes madam”he says not excited at all “you should be”

I have kaoru later in the night then usual and we have a light scene planned so I can go all out with yuji punishment “Jordan watch him while I go get something from shos room “can’t I just go get it you know I don’t like watching your subs before you punish them they always try to bargain with me” “yeah last time I did this you got keigo to buy you a new laptop ugh okay go get his chastity cage” I say handing him the key “oh um actually I’ll stay here have fun” he say retracing his hand “exactly ill be back in a minute”

I walk down the hallway and see zashi leaving out nem room “mm love you don’t know how much I’ve missed you today” he says kissing me then putting his head on my shoulder hugging me “bad day” I say pushing his hair back out of my face “long day this 24/7 shit is catching up with me” “if I had kitty all day I would feel the same but yuji isn’t that bad but I do have to punish him tonight” “mm tell me all about it later when we get home” ”yeah got get a cage” “dog or dick” “dick” I say walking in the room “now where is this thing” I say looking around for the locked cabinet I look behind the curtain I’ve always wondered what mysteries were behind it and it’s a huge cabinet I unlock it and it’s a beautifully organized kink closet with everything you’re kinky brain could come up with “holy shit” I look around in awe till I see the box labeled “YJ” I open it and the cage was right there “hmm should I get one for kei” I say to myself looking at it “nahh” I say closing the box and locking the cabinet back up

“Okay Jordan I’m back your free to go if angel gets here early play chest or something” “no she beat me last time” he say getting up “someone finally beat the champ” “she cheated your angel is a cheater” he says walking out “rude”

“Okay yuji I’m pretty sure you know what’s in that box over there and we’ll get to that later but first tell me about that fantasy you were thinking about earlier” it feels easier to be super hard dom now that I’m not in my work clothes “um I was kneeling in front of you and you um you” “I did what yuyu tell me” I say leaning forward in my seat “you ran the tip of shoe down my chest” he says I put out my left leg out and did exactly what he described “like this”I say and I can feel him shudder under my touch “yes madam” he says shakily “mmm what next” I say foot now resting on his lap “um fuck shit I’m sorry” he says “now your cursing what’s that 50 a word whew racking up the hits tonight huh” I say and I can hear the fuck under his breath “huh what was that” I say turning my ear to him “nothing I said nothing” “hm okay then finish what’s next” he takes a few deep breaths before he starts again “okay you pressed your foot into mmm” he’s cut off by feeling the pressure of my foot right on his dick his eyes are closed tight trying so hard to not get hard but I can tell he’s not going to be able to keep it up for much longer “I’m going guess I got right on the first try what next yuji” I say pressing harder “you let me grind against your foot till I came” he says “yeah that’s it okay have fun” I says and he looks up at me trying to see if I’m lying “you better start before I change my mind” he puts one of his hands on my foot pressing it down further then starting to grind on shoe and the look on his face is euphoric like he’s been dying for this moment

He’s a weeping mess and how he’s moving with no real rhythm I’m wondering when was the last time he was allowed to pleasure himself or even came for that matter should I let him cum and get cussed out by sir nope but he looks so cute and desperate I should just let him right girl snap out of it this isn’t for fun well for him anyway I’m broken out of my thoughts by him getting faster and making sounds that sound way too close to I’m about to cum I remove my foot from him completely and he drops his head on my thigh and actually started crying “are you like actually crying right now” I can feel the tears on leg he doesn’t answer just continues I feel a little bad because I’ve never experienced this before I mean I’ve had my fair share cum and cries but he’s sobbing and he shouldn’t have came “yuji look at me” I say lifting his head “why are you crying” it takes him a minute “I just can’t do anything right today” he says crying harder “what are you talking about let me in” he does the weird shuddering breathing you do when your crying really hard “I came” he says full out crying like it’s concerning “oh um when I pulled away before you could” “when you first pressed down” what the fuck how did he hide that so well “I hm okay just sit here I’ll be back” I say standing up grabbing my phone and leaving the room

“what the fuck yuji” I says putting the phone to my ear “Jess my problem child how may I help you” shota says when he answers the phone “I’m sorry to keep bothering you on vacation but um yuji” “what did he do now” he says with a long sigh “okay so you told me to have fun and I did but then he broke down crying because he came like way before I even did the whole edging thing” “yeah he’s not supposed to do that without my permission like you can’t even let him do that continue the punishment as planned and I’ll deal with him when I get back okay” “yeah sure but how do I stop the crying like I can hear him still crying” “give him the phone” “okay” I walk back in the room and he’s in the same spot head in hands sobbing “hey yuyu” he looks up and I wanna hang the phone up and just comfort him but not my call here “yes madam” i hold out the phone and he reads the name and grabs the phone

They’re on the phone for like 20 minutes before the phone is giving back to me “yeah so just do what I told you earlier he knows it’s going to happen and what’s going to happen when I get back” “yeah but I don’t feel comfortable doing any of that right now” “yeah I know it’s Thursday kaoru should be there soon right put him in my room he’ll calm down then do it when she leaves” “okay yeah okay” “update me later” “okay”

I take him down the hallway and I see kaoru walk in I stand by the door waiting for her to get to me “you look pretty” I say when she’s closer “thanks you look tired you okay”she says walking in the room “yeah long day you ready” I say closing the door “you sure your up for this I’m already late i wouldn’t be mad if you had to reschedule” “no angel don’t worry about me right now worry about the fact that you still have on clothes when you know you shouldn’t”

After funtime with kaoru I walk her out and head back to yuji it’s 11 at night and the last thing I wanna do is go through a hard core impact scene right now but I have too “love hey what’s wrong” “tired still have to do the punishment” I say not having much energy for words “what’s the punishment I’ll do it you go in the office wait for me and I’ll drive us home okay” “I have to do it but you can help” I say stretching out a yawn “okay what is it” “600 impact” “shit okay dynamic duo hasn’t done one of these in a while” “I know but it helps that I’ll only have to do 300 instead of 600” I stretch my arms a bit more because I just did light impact and this is going to be double what I just did

“Yuyu you ready” I say walking in sho room “yes madam” “masters here because I need the help your okay with that” “yes madam” “okay gotta get the cage on first pants off” it’s a pretty simple thing to do “I’m pretty sure he told you that it can’t come off till he’s back right” he nods “is that how your supposed to respond to her”zashi says because I don’t have it in me to do reprimand him “sorry yes he told me already that I can’t take it off till he gets back” he says correcting himself “good this is all done and locked…can you take over don’t feel like speaking anymore” “yeah on the bench hurry” zashi gets him strapped to the bondage bench while I pick out a 2 paddles from the cabinet I walk back to them and yuji can’t see us from how he’s laying I just lay my head on zashi chest I haven’t been this tired in a while and it’s only because I don’t typically work Wednesday or Thursday’s but i always take appointments when kei is gone because I need something to do but it’s killing me “I know love let’s get this done and we can go home” “mmm what would I do without you” I stay standing straight up showing him the two options one is a older leather paddle that we’ve both used before and the other is a new one the only real difference is the thickness one is going to pack more of a punch that the other “I take this one” he says taking the thicker one which it’ll still hurt but it’s more of a thud then anything “okay cool” I put on the wrist strap on stretch a bit more then I give a nod to zashi “okay you know how to get us to stop right” “yes use my safe word” “good now we’ll start” “switch every 50”

After the warm up 10 we got into full gear I guess the sound of the paddles hitting skin and moans coming from him gave me a bit energy around 250 during our switch I go and look at his face to check in “yuyu color” “green madam” he looks at me with a face I’m familiar with he’s completely in subspace right now anything we throw at him he would take so I take my new found energy and decide to put it to good use “sync with me it’s more fun that way” I say switching paddles “okay you sure you got it in you” “why does everyone keep asking me that yes I got it in me let’s do this” he looks at me with check the attitude written all over his face “right sorry” I say locking in

Us being sync made the next 350 go pass way faster a few seconds after the last hit we take him down and lay him on the couch he falls asleep which is pretty normal zashi starts to clean up the room and put everything where we found it while I started with aftercare he bruised pretty bad you can see that we switched patterns and tools and it looks pretty cool I take a picture for sho of course not for my personal collection

To:Sho🐈⬛
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He took it like a champ
From: Sho🐈⬛
The dynamic duo handled the task well good job
To:Sho🐈⬛
How could you tell?
From:Sho🐈⬛
One I taught you everything you know two I can tell the difference between the two of you
just looking at it you were on the right hizashi was on the left you aren’t as heavy handed and you know this so you focus on spot at a time to really bring the pain hizashi while more heavy handed a bit messy with placement which allows the pain to build up more when you don’t know where the next hit will land
To:Sho🐈⬛
That’s scary sir but accurate
From:Sho🐈⬛
I know my children
To: Sho🐈⬛
Yes your children that are only 5 years younger than you
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Yall don’t act like it

Yuji wakes up and sits up and does thing that kei does when he’s in subspace and want to cuddle I sit on the couch and he crawls in my lap putting his head in my neck “you did good yuyu” “thank you I’m sorry i caused so much trouble today I won’t do it again i promise” he says looking at me “I bet” hizashi says sitting on the couch next to me “so can we go back to you being nice and calling me yuyu” “as long as you don’t continue to break rules of course” “okay I don’t like when you call me yuji” “what do you do to your subs” hizashi says “treat them like people unlike you” “my subs don’t like to be treated like people including the one we share” “yes he does” “kitten indeed does not but your making him hide it damn shame mistress” “why did you change your name everyone calls you mistress but we were told to call you madam” yuji says “um my fiancé is a very jealous man and doesn’t like when my other submissive call me mistress so i switch to madam but I’ve been mistress here for 10 years so other doms and their subs still call me that but formally madam Jess now” “it’s not fair that only he gets to call you that it’s on all of your stuff is he replacing the things” he says like he wants to fight kei for making me change my name and it makes me laugh “yeah he’s replaced most of it” “you should’ve made him replace the waist chin” zashi says “it was a surprise even though I could’ve just taken his card not like he would’ve cared”

The next three days I have off but that doesn’t really mean anything to yuji so did I wake up to him knocking at my front door with breakfast “yuji you take no time off do you”I say opening the door “no no I do not” he says walking in “is master still here I also bought him food” “yeah go in there I’ll be back” I say pointing to the living room “okay”

I go upstairs and wake up hizashi “he’s here why” he says brushing his teeth “breakfast” I say doing the same “if i endured what we did to him yesterday I would’ve called out sick”

Downstairs we eat together “so your like always with sir huh” zashi asks “yes from 8 am to midnight but madam only 9 to 11pm” “how old are you yuyu” I ask because i always wondered “31 kitty’s the same age as well” “three years older than us how long have you been with sir” I ask since we seem the be have the question hour “since I was 20 so 11 years we met at a event held at the club he used to bartend at I’ve been with him ever since can I ask a question” “shoot” “so you’re not the fiancé” he asks “no I’m the boyfriend the other blonde one is the fiancé” zashi answers “the guy that did the rope training with us earlier this year” i explain “ahh okay okay i was confused because you said your sub was you fiancé and master doesn’t seem submissive”he says and i laughed a bit to hard for zashi liking “what’s so funny love” he says like the sadist fuck (affectionate) that he is “nothing at all I didn’t even laugh” “what i thought” “madam are you a submissive”yuji asks making me look back at him “no” “yes” me and zashi says at the same time “what’s the point in lying love” “im not a submissive I’m a switch” “professionally she a dom I’ll never take that from her but the real Jess is just a cute submissive baby aren’t you sweetheart” he says before kissing the side of my neck sliding his hand between my thighs “zashi not now” I say trying to move his hand to no avail “no it’s okay I’ll leave” yuji says standing up slower than usual and i remember the cage “it must be painful” I say looking at his hands covering his crotch then at his face “it only hurts for a minute but I’m okay I’ll go now” i catch him before he gets to far “did I say you could leave” “no maam but this seems like something i shouldn’t be here for” he says eyes fixated on hizashi hand “if you want to leave because this makes you uncomfortable then go but if you really want to stay but scared to get in trouble by sir it’ll be our little secret” he has an internal fight then sits back down “good boy”

I didn’t think having yuji at the house would led to him watching me get fucked at 10 in the morning but here we are “fuck baby please don’t fucking stop” I say legs on his shoulder and in my fucked out bliss I get an idea my foot is close enough to yuji and he’s fully enjoying the view I drop my foot from zashi shoulder and it land right on his lap I hear him take a deeep breath I can feel the metal under his pants and the rocking of me getting my shit rocked is only creating more fiction for him “madam please I can’t cum”he says with his eyes closed TIGHT “your so sensitive yuji i see why you get caged” zashi says looking back and seeing all is this is being caused by my foot being on him “got yourself in so much trouble over this” he says lifting my leg so my foot was eye level with yuji i can feel his heavy breathing hot on my foot “it’s so pretty” he says breath picking up “it is isnt it yuji” and right before i could cum my phone rings loud on the table with shos name plastered on it “fuck” zashi says pulling out and pulling his pants up thank god this was a I’m too impatient I need you now type fuck because we’re still clothed mostly I sit up “hey hey lock in or do you wanna be in more trouble” I say to yuji he shakes his head collecting himself and I answer the phone

“Hello shota what do I owe the pleasure” I say when he appears on the screen “what did you do” “what I didnt do anything why do you think I’m always doing something” “you look guilty where’s yuji” I bump his leg with mine then turn the camera “he’s right here” “yuji tell me now what did she do” behind the camera me and hizashi are mouthing “say nothing” “you have three seconds” “nothing she did nothing we ate breakfast and now we’re sitting around talking” he says as naturally as he can “mmhm okay I believe you for now Jessica don’t forget kitty’s appointment tonight” “I’m not but can you like maybe take over tomorrow keigo gets back tomorrow and I haven’t seen him in a week and I will forget she exist” “yeah I’ll take over tomorrow…where’s hizashi” I turn the camera to the other side of me and nem pops up “how are they doing I haven’t heard from you today” “they’re doing good you two are on vacation unlike Jess I don’t wanna bother you too much I can handle them” he says laying on me “I told you I still wanted updates hizashi” “I know and I give you one at the end of the day I haven’t seen them today yet and I might not I have to work tonight can’t do both” he says and the look on her face makes him sit up and take the phone “mistress i would have them with me but I work from 12-5 AM” “Jessica” she says and I really wish I could disappear “yes mistress” I say appearing back in the camera “what’s your schedule tonight” “just kitty maam” “okay kentarō and rin are with you tonight” “so four people in total great I’m so excited” I say as sarcastically as i possibly could “yeah whatever you have the day off tomorrow anyway what’s four people tonight” “I don’t see you tomorrow yuji says looking at me like a lost puppy “no you’ll be with me for some of the day but I’ll mostly be with keigo tomorrow so your free to do whatever your heart desires what am I doing with kentarō and rin anyway”

I get ready even though I don’t want too “mistress I never noticed this” yuji say reading the inside of my collar “yeah kei got it for me” I says putting on my boot I would make yuji do this like keigo would typically do but I don’t have time for him to pop a boner right now “he doesn’t like me very much does he” “I wouldn’t say that jealous of you yes but i wouldn’t say he doesn’t like you” “love I’m leaving” zashi says “yeah okay I’ll see you in the morning” “sorry I can’t go with you to go get kei” “it’s okay when you wake up he’ll be here” “yeah okay I’ll see you later text me when you get there and back” “yeah I’ll do that I love you” “I love you too see ya later yuji take good care of her I’m counting on you”

Kitty play times are kinda similar to what I do with angel but no cnc/ stockholms so orgasm control and direction impact more praise than degradation she’s a bit(a lot) of a brat so gotta deal with that to so I’m not worried about her but my two new editions I have no clue what to do with them she said I can whatever so honestly I’m going to make them clean and polish my tools and toys while I use shos room for kitty playtime “Jordan just watch them I guess they need to clean all of that I’ll be back in an hour okay” “madam what am I to do” yuji says hopping up “um Jordan don’t you have a test coming up” “yeah I was going do some review for it now” “great yuyu help him you three be on your best behavior I’ll be back but till I’m back he’s in charge” I say before leaving kitty waiting outside my room “your late” I say closing the door “no I’m not you said 9 it’s 8:50 I’m ten minutes early” “kitty your late when I said 9 I meant 8 and you know that or did you forget everything I taught you a few days ago” I say getting in her face she cowers back into the wall with the heel of this boot I’m towering over her easily “no madam i didn’t” “you won’t make the mistake again correct” I say tilting my head “right sorry madam” “great walk” I say moving back so she can walk down the hallway

“So it says here lateness comes with 30 minutes of edging for every 15 minutes your late and since you were a whole hour late so 2 hours yikes” I say reading the picture I took of her requirements “it wasn’t a full hour that’s not fair” she say making me look around “who are you talking to” I say looking back at her “but it’s not fair madam you weren't even ready yet” she say with a stomp crossing her arms “come here” I pull up my message sent at 5:30pm to Jordan “read it out loud timestamps and all” “at 5:30 you said hey can you make sure to come in a bit early I have kitty yuji and midnight subs today at 5:36 he replied damn okay what time you need me to be there and at 5:40 you said 6:30 ish I’m leaving out soon to prepare some stuff for kitty she getting there at 8 so I’m leaving out now and he replied at 5:45 okay preparing for an exam so I’ll be there early too and you thumbs it up” “so I got here early and because you’ve had such a good week I prepared a nice fun activity for you but nope” I say and she lights up till “nope” “but madam please like you said I’ve been good all week i deserve it” she says wrapping her arms around my waist laying her head on my chest “yuji already has a big punishment waiting for him when sir gets back you want me to call him about you too” “but he told me you already punished him” she says looking up at me “I did but sir is also punishing him so either you be the good girl I know you to be and let me do the punishment or I call sir and you still get punished tonight and again in a week” “I’ll be good” she says laying back on my chest “okay since you wanted to wear such a pretty skirt for me just take off your underwear for me”

After two hours on the chair of pleasure ( a chair with a controlled vibrating grind pad on it) I send kitty off and I’m stopped by the clubs receptionist Saki “hello mistress you have someone looking for a quick consultation over at table 8” she says standing in front of me “saki you can tell them to come back Wednesday on my open house day but not today” “mistress he said he’s not really taking no for an answer” “who the hell does he think he is” I say walking over to table 8 hot and ready to cuss out whoever the hell is at this table when I turn the corner I see the back of their head “okay first I don’t know where you think you get off thinking you can boss anyone around- holy shit what are you doing here” I says entire mood changing once I seen the love of my life’s face smiling back at me “geez mistress it’s been a week and this is the treatment I get” he says pulling me in his lap “when did you get back” “not that long ago i couldn’t wait till tomorrow to see you” he says “so since your here and I’m here and this is my dedicated day to be here can we take this back to your room and you can keep yelling at me” he adds and everything in me wanted to run back to my room “ugh I can’t but we can go home” “what were open for another what 2 hours” he says looking at his watch “yeah but come on” I say standing and holding his hand leading him back to my room “madam your back do you want me to go get you oh” yuji like the adorable puppy he is hops up as soon as I walk in and as soon as he seen kei all the excitement left his face “get me what yuyu” “I was going to ask if you wanted me to go pick up dinner since you have to stay here later tonight” he says head down “yuyu your here overtime anyway i couldn’t ask you to do that go home enjoy your day off tomorrow” I say and with my free hand lifting his head up to look at me “but I don’t want the day off I already have Sunday off” “I know you don’t but I need the day off and if I need anything your the first person I’m calling okay” “okay” “now pack it go home and let me know when you get there okay” “yes ma'am” he says getting his stuff together “what about us” kentarō asks “are you done with the task I gave you” “no” rin says cleaning one of my leather whips “then why are you speaking right now and hurry up it’s been two hours Jordan you can go too” “you sure I can stay” “nahh I already promised you would have this day off and feel bad that I made you come in” “it’s all good you just owe me a day off soon” “deal”

Not driving home was honestly the best perk of kei being home “mmm i miss not driving” I says sinking into the passenger seat “I bet” he says and I hear the pouty baby I missed all in his voice “what is it keigo” “nothing”he says holding his head with his hand against the window “what you’ve been gone a week and not a finger on me did you get replaced by the government or something” I say jokingly “no but I did get replaced “what are you talking about” “yuyu” he says mockingly “keigo please” i say with a chuckle “see keigo not kei or baby or whatever keigo” “kei baby you don’t even get like this about kaoru” “I don’t care about her that sounds rude but I don’t she doesn’t do anything that imposes on my duties as your husband or submissive him on the other hand does” hearing him say husband still makes me feel like a giddy goose even though we haven’t officially gotten married “it’s just for another week then i probably won’t have to do this again” “whatever I don’t like him he likes you too much” “I mean don’t you” “I love you there’s a difference” “and I love you too and I’m just doing my job and he’s apart of that right now why am I not seeing all this hostility towards zashi he has two new subs too” “I don’t like them either but they haven’t came to him stepping on them or been present while you two were having sex” “okay the second thing you are never to repeat to shota two I don’t know I don’t have a second point but none of that will happen again everything should be normal again” “i still don’t like him” he says as we pull up to the house

After a night of possessive “your mine” sex(it’s been months of me trying to finish this chapter I'm all sex scenes out) I wake up to a happy keigo and no check in text thank god but I do wake up too a “do you want me to bring breakfast?” text from yuji and I had to remind him that he had the day off and if I needed him I would contact him I got a sad “yes madam” back
I’m glad to have the next 2 days off and being able to turn off my brain because my own live in submissive can read minds somehow so I don’t have to think “you have the day off sleep” hizashi says taking my phone and putting it on the bed side table “ don’t you have a check in soon” “even if I did they would be talking to themselves for the next 5 hours” he just got back not too long ago exhausted from being everyone’s favorite late night radio host “they have weekends off” “mmm I don’t plan on leaving this bed at all” I says getting comfortable sinking in the bed

The next week goes by faster than the first one it’s friday and soon yuji will be leaving to go pick up shota and nem from the airport and he’s been clingier than ever he’s at the house with me because the airport is closer and he didn’t want yesterday to be the last time he was with me so is he cuddled into my left side while I doom scrolled fish fileting videos “madam I have to leave but i don’t want to” “why not sir is back I was just a temporary replacement” “yeah but I had fun with you and I’m not really looking forward to being punished again” “ahh forgot about that yeah but it can’t be that bad can it” “madam I can promise you it will be” “yikes but you do need to go i wouldn’t want to add being late to picking him up to the list” “you’re right” he says sitting up then standing “well thank you madam for taking care of me these past two weeks just because I’m not your submissive anymore doesn’t mean you can call me for anything I’m forever at your service” he says doing a full 90° bow in front of me “and thank you yuji for being a great submissive and I’ll hold you to that” I say with a smile “okay I’ll see you later” he says waving “see you later yuyu”

And just like that I’m back to my only two pretty low maintenance submissives I won’t lie and say the following Monday I didn’t miss yuji sitting beside my all day but I’m really glad it’s over

Coming into AD on Wednesday I was immediately greeted by both kitty and yuji “madam I’m sorry I was so bratty” “madam I’m sorry I broke so many rules” they say bowing in front of me “I accept the apology sir making you apologize” I say making them stand up straight up “yes ma'am” they say latching onto either arm “it’s okay lovelies I missed you two this week actually” I say walking down to my room “really?” “Yes I did” “you probably only missed yuji and not me” kitty says laying her head on my arm “kitty actually i missed you yesterday I almost got ready for you and everything” I say laying my head on top of hers “what’s going on here” sir says looking at us and they drop my arm and take a step to the side “nothing sir we went to apologize to madam like you told us” yuji says “I don’t remember the part where I said attach yourselves to her” he says crossing his arms “it was all me sir they didn’t initiate it” they all look at me kitty and yuji with a more questioning look and shota with a look of trying to see if I’m lying or not he usually can tell when I’m lying so I don’t think it’s going to work this time “mistress stop doing things with my submissives that they’re not supposed to do” “yes sir sorry won’t do it again” “ mmhm you two go back in my room” they walk back to his room “i'm leaving them to hizashi next time you’ve gone soft” “ouch sir they’re just so cute how could you not cuddle them” “very easily they’re my submissive not partners I think you blurred the line” just then my first client of the day walks up to us “good evening madam” “don’t you see me talking…. Go get out of my presence till I want to deal with you ugh” I say opening the door and closing it behind him “see that’s what I was leaving them with not Ms.cuddly I give you nicknames mistress” “hey you wanted that you should’ve paid me” we stand there looking at each other for moment then I open my arms for a hug and he doesn’t move “come on it’s been 2 weeks I know you missed your favorite child” I smile at him and he breaks and pulls me in “it’s unfair that you're the only father figure I have I’m not even the favorite she has a dad I don’t” hizashi says from behind me “come here you big baby” sho says opening the hug for him “why are y'all clogging up my hallway with this” nem says from behind sho “a group hug without me I feel betrayed” she says walking around me and zashi open up the hug “okay I didn’t sign up for this” “shut up you know you love us” nem says we stand there for another second or two then we hear saki signature throat clear and we break apart like kids getting caught doing something “mistress Jess when you’re done with him” she says pointing at my door “a couple wants to talk too you master hizashi asahi is here sir mistress midnight you said you wanted to have a meeting about the public scene stage” even though sho and nem owns this place she really runs the show “yes right saki we can do that now” sho says letting her walk ahead to the office while me and zashi go to our respective responsibilities

Chapter 73

Notes:

HELLO LOVESSSSS✨when was the last time I was here IDK but I’m back been real stressful couple of months but I got this one chapter done *crickets*
Ok so run down really quick there is a mild tinnie tiny depiction of subdrop but not to much at all and it’s quick so it shouldn’t be to taxing to read (hopefully)
ANYWAYS enjoy💃🏽

I’ve been on the go lately just came back from a work related trip and just when I was getting back in to my normal routine “so i finished the prototype for that machine we were talking about I want you to come check it out” my head engineer says to me stopping me on my way out for the day “uh yeah okay” I say following him downstairs to the lab text Jess that I’m going to be home late 

That one late night turned into a week's worth of late nights. Missing dinners, having to cancel on Ito,having to cancel on Jess for our usual Friday time everything just thrown off entirely 

It’s now Saturday I told my staff to not contact me unless the building was on fire because I don’t have another long night in me 

As tired as I am I still fulfil the promise of helping Jess get the closet situated because time is moving faster than I would like and I will be moving in within the next 6 months and it’ll be better to start to adjusting process now then when all my shit is moved in 

I walk in the closet and I see the love of my life sitting on the floor with at least 10 extra pieces of clothing over her pyjamas looking through a box “princess what are you doing” I say and I can feel the cheesy smile on my face “oh um there’s this lady who helps people declutter and she says if it doesn’t still bring you joy then get rid of it and I really like these things but I don’t know if they bring me joy so I’m wearing them to see”she says not even looking up from the box “whatever you say…what do you need me to do” “um that section right there is for mistress so can you start putting the clothes there” “yup” 

I get 85% of the clothes in the closet before I genuinely didn’t wanna help any more like at all “okay I think I’m done” I say laying back in the bed “there’s still clothes in there though” she says coming back in the room after taking the donate bag downstairs “yeah but I’m done” “um okay” she says doing the “wtf is happening” shuffle before walking back in the closet “okay wait like I get that this isn’t really your responsibility but you said you’d help and your just quitting halfway through” she says walking right back out “what I don’t feel like it anymore and like you said not my responsibility” and there it was the reason I gave up before I was done (something I NEVER do) and she seems to pick up on it too “you fucking brat” she says walking back in the closet and not even a full 5 minutes later I get a message from Charlie 

From:Charlie 💵

Kid I’ll be there in 20 

Be ready 

Then right after hizashi 

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

When we get back tonight expect a punishment 

To: MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Tf?!?

 for what I haven’t even done anything 

I haven’t even seen you this week 

From: MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Who are you talking to?

To:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Who else 

YOU

From:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Keep that same energy when I see you later

To:MY BABY🩶🖤🩶🖤

Whatever

I get up and get ready and got the I’m outside text 

“Kid what did you do” he says as I close the door “I didn’t do anything I don’t even know why you’re here” “Jess texted me” “for what” “she said and I quote “Charlie please come get him he’s being a fucking brat and I really don’t feel like dealing with it” end quote” he says reading from his phone “I’m not a fucking brat” “hmm I see it seatbelt”he says before putting the car in reverse “see what?!? why is everyone being so damn dramatic today” 

We drive for forever and finally arrive at this super fancy mall only designer brands are carried here this isn’t the first times he brought me here but it’s been forever since I’ve been here like Kenny still alive forever 

We get out and start walking in “what you plan on spending money on me till I stop being a “brat”” “oh I’m not spending anything on you I here for myself” he says going towards a niche suit department “excuse me” “what I know i usually don’t mind the brat and give you whatever you want no matter what but you don’t really seem like you deserve it I was already planning on coming out here today…I’m just taking you out the house so your fiancée doesn’t murder you” he says opening the door for me “doesn’t seem like i deserve it since when have I had to deserve something” “not really helping your case kid” 

Now I know you’re reading this saying keigo lock in you’re a fucking millionaire you don’t need to spend his money but I may be a millionaire and a recpitant of many degrees but I’m still very dumb I left my wallet in her house and I’m sorry I don’t have American Express card on Apple Pay 

So I’m stuck watching him try on suits and tuxedos and window shopping because I have no access to money today “maybe next time I can spoil you like usual” he says walking up to me with a few bags in his hand “you could’ve just did it today” “as cute as you are not happening come on” we go look at shoes next and I’m not a shoe guy that’s not my thing I had a bigger boner in the suit department then in here but there’s some really cool boots here that I think would be the perfect addition to my collection “hey get me these please” I says handing him the shoe “are your ears not working today I said no” he says handing me the shoe back “come on I said please I never say that” he just walks off 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Okay I get it you win whatever 

Just tell him to buy the boots for me and I’ll stop

From:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I have no clue what youre talking about one 

Two no I dont win till I get a tearful apology 

Three no you don’t deserve it so no 

Put them back 

To:PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

It wasn’t even that deep for all of this 

*insert pic of boot* 

Please mistress just this one thing

From: PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

No 

いいえ

아니요

NEIN

Is that enough ways to say no for you to get it 

I give up I put the boot back and leave the store sitting outside of the store pissed if they think this is the way to make the “brat” go away they're wrong

“You look like a kid that got told no” Charlie says coming out the store “you really didn’t buy the boots” “yeah no I didn’t do I have about one or two more stores I wanna go to” he says walking in the direction of the next destination 

So I just walked around this mall with the man who’s money I’ve been spending for the past 9 years and SPENT none of his money and all because I didn’t feel like putting the rest of her clothes in the closet 

(Switching povs)

“So tell me what happened so I know how hard to go” hizashi says sitting on the bed “okay so I asked like two weeks hey can you help me merge closets whatever he says yes just let me know when last Sunday I said I would do it today and he said okay now we didn’t know his week would play out this way but not the point we’re doing fine he’s moving the clothes from that closet to this one and then just stops and lays on the bed I wouldn’t have said anything if he didn’t just declare he was done and when I asked why he was just quitting halfway through he’s like not my responsibility and I don’t feel like it” “wow seems pretty mild but from Mr. ill do whatever you say no questions asked that’s like top line brat then the messages he sent me he must really need to let go” “yeah he’s had to be in charge all week no time to let go that’s why I’m not truly mad or anything because I get it I do but wow brattin out wasn’t the way i thought he would go” “yeah is Charlie going along or is he just making the brat worse” he asks “yeah he is making him walk around a expensive mall without buying him anything so that’s probably also making it worse but I believe master can tame any brat” “damn right” 

(Switching povs)

We pull in the driveway and I really don’t wanna go in “you can’t stay in here forever” he says looking over at me “why not what if I wanted to stay in this spot for the rest of my life” I says looking back at him “as tantalising as that sounds not happening kid go ahead” and on cue hizashi opens the front door standing there like a disappointed dad “ughhhhhhhhhh whatever” I says getting out “good luck kid” he says before pulling off 

“You going let me in or just stand in the way and look at me all mad” the look in his eyes actually shook me and I locked into who the hell I was talking to what the fuck is wrong with me “you wanna fix you attitude” he says grabbing my face with enough pressure to leave a stinging feeling when he let go “are you going let me in” he looks at me moves to the side to let me in 

Jess is sitting at the bottom of the stairs full mistress attire making me realize zashi is in tradish master clothing fuckkkk i really fucked up didn’t I “kneel” Jess says flatly and I do so no need to dig the hole even deeper “you know what I hate most….this isn’t rhetorical answer the question” she says in a tone of voice I’ve only heard her use for her clients it’s sharp with annoyance dripping all through it “brats”I say lowly head down but not for long my head is pulled back by my hair from behind “I’m sorry what did you say I didn’t hear you” she says the hand in my hair is strong and pulling tight making it hard to concentrate on anything else “brats you hate brats” I says once he pulled tighter at how long I took to respond “exactly you got the answer right so and I really wanna know the answer here why did you think ahhh todays the day to become the biggest brat mistress has ever seen huh” “I don’t know mistress” I says tears welling up “so you just choose to do this with no reason cool cool well I have all the reason to send you upstairs and let master do whatever he wants to you up there right” “fuck, yes mistress” “woahhh now you cursing sheeh master what are we going to do with him” she says looking up and the thing thats hurts more than anything he’s going to do to me is the collar she’s wearing is just a generic one “mistress where’s your collar” i say knowing that it won’t do nothing but make everything worse but i don’t care right now “oh the pretty one you got me” she says placing her hand over the one she has on and I nod the best I can with my hair being pulled “well i only allow subs that follow rules feel like they own me” she says before standing “upstairs im done looking at you” she says walking down the steps he lets my hair go and I go upstairs 

I’m stuck fighting with myself about rather I should take my clothes off because she didn’t say too but I really don’t wanna get cussed out because I didn’t follow a rule I’m paralyzed with indecision standing at the foot of the bed in the kink room “contemplating all your life choices” I hear master say behind me “I didn’t know rather to strip or not” I say facing him and kneeling “did she say too” “no” “then you did one right thing today” 

Mistress is nowhere to be found and I highly doubt she isn’t going to be apart of this if she got fully dressed “so you know better than anyone what’s about to happen right” “yeah can we hurry this up though” I say then immediately cover my mouth wtf keigo “no don’t try to cover your mouth now got so much to say today don’t hide” he says squatting in front of me “sorry master” “wasn’t good enough strip” he says standing back up he goes in the closet then comes right back out with the one paddle that I absolutely hate like so much like I despise it “what you thought I was going to do something you enjoy you’re cute all fours on the bed” I turn and do as told and and i regret every word that has left my mouth today 

The first 60 hits had me in tears struggling to keep myself up on all fours every hit feel like dying and he hasn’t let up once until now i collapse on the bed “ouch looks pretty bad” I hear mistress say as she lightly touches me “you think it’s enough” “no not at all” she says and I die a little inside “well you heard her get up” master says and start sobbing getting back into position 

Now you may be reading this and going keigo safe word out your in pain they’re hurting you but no no one i deserve this for my behavior today and two I’ve been craving this attention for a while now so I’m going to endure the pain and enjoy every second of this 

Now back to the actual torture I’m enduring “master you know what this is actually fun” mistress says stoke my dick with all the force in her body “I know it is I don’t know why you always let him cum” he say before a particularly hard hit “mis-agh” i say “don’t wanna stop just don’t cum not that hard” the hell it is….I’ll remember that 

I fight for my entire life to not cum and as hard as it is thinking about work did help almost made me go soft but that’s hard with Mr. and Mrs. Heavy handed over here 

“Please please please I can’t” I says dropping down so I’m holding myself up on my elbows “ah I love that song” she says humming please please please by Sabrina carpenter not stopping “sit up properly” master say “I can’t please” I say desperate “I’ll take whatever else you give me but I can’t hold myself up anymore” I add looking back at them they look each other and I’m too out of it to even try to care about what they’re thinking about “color kei” “I wanna say green but I don’t know” “okay” all hands are off of me “talk to me” master say sitting me up right words are never my strong suit once I’m in subspace “okay let me simplify is it more pain then pleasure right now” I shake my head no “is it too much happening at once” I nod yes “okay do you wanna stop” “do you think I’ve been reprimanded enough I was very bad today” “that’s not what he asked you” mistress says and I don’t know why but I start crying again “yeah we’re done” 

I don’t know what is happening around me but I know that I’m being held by my master “ do you……drop” “I don’t … so”  I feel like I’m missing pivotal information in the conversation they’re having but I’m still floating the pain is starting to set in and I’m not having the usual euphoric feeling instead I just feel pain the last time I felt this small and in this much pain is when I got into a heated argument with Jessi and she hit and threw things at me I was being a bitch that day like I was today maybe I deserve to be hurt I didn’t earn special treatment “hey hey kitten come back to me” I hear being broken out of my train of thought I flinch when mistress reaches out to touch me “baby we’re done it’s all over okay it’s just us”  she says giving me space “did we go too far love” she says “no I deserved it” “not what she asked kitten did we go to far?”master says and I think for a beat “I think so” “when did it become too much” “I don’t know i didn’t notice till you asked what color” “did it happen again?” “Yeah” “ did what happen” mistress say looking at him “early on and in our training the first punishment and a few after he got like this, all of this is bringing back past traumas with physical abuse” master explains and it hasn’t happened in so long that I never mentioned it to mistress “is that why you don’t want me to touch you” she say looking very hurt “no no mistress it’s not that” I say I feel like she would understand if that’s all I said but I feel the need to over explain “it’s just…I don’t want to associate this feeling with you my ass hurts so much right now I want you to kiss me and make it feel better but I know it won’t and I don’t want this pain and you connected” “let me prove it” “prove what?” “That I can kiss you and make you feel better it’s gonna take a lot of kisses but I’m up for it if you are” she says with a small smile on her face “okay” “master can you help too” “yes mistress I have some making up to do I hurt my kitten pretty bad today” 

First a hot bath cuddled up with mistress while she washed my hair and gave me an assortment of kisses all over my face and neck then I was given a much needed massage from master then we cuddled till i fell asleep 

When I woke up the next morning feeling like I’m still in subspace but the kind that I like “kitten you can get no closer than you are” master says voice still filled with sleep “I feel like I can move your arm” he moves his arm up and I’m as close as I can without being in his skin “see” he just hums in agreement while I melt into his embrace “my cutie pie baby pop” mistress says sounding above me somehow and the very familiar sound a phone camera “sleepy heads wake up it’s 11:40 and I don’t wanna hear master complain about missing out on the day and my pretty gum drop hasn’t eaten in days GET UP” she says trying to pull us up off the bed “you didn’t eat yesterday” “no” my stomach is killing me but I really don’t want to get up “alright” he says sitting up with me still attached to him “come on mistress woke up early and made breakfast for hours” she says pulling me out of bed “okay okay” 

We all sit down for breakfast “thank you mistress” I say leaning my head on her shoulder “you’re so welcome sweetheart…how are you feeling?”she says after swallowing “floaty” “mmh sounds about right” master say smiling at me “I didn’t mean to scare you last night I’m… not going to I’m sorry but you know” I cut myself off because they both give me that look of how many times do I have to say don’t apologize “I’ve never seen you like that before so I was a bit scared but hopefully I proved that mistress can make anything go away” “she can and she’s the best because of it” 

I pretty much stay in this headspace all day getting treated like the only man in the world but I the next day Monday I go in feeling better about all the work stuff and working on the new product I guess I really just needed to be a subby baby for a day to feel better 

 

From: PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Hey 

Remember when you left for the convention run you said i could find a pretty outfit for you to wear and you would 

Yk wear it for me 

Well the last piece just came in 

Soooooooo

Look forward to that😉

Notes:

Did you enjoy “brat” keigo? yeah it wasn’t too extreme but like they said it’s insane for him

Also this MAYBE the last chapter of the year so just incase the idea I have in my head doesn’t work out HAPPY HOLIDAYS and happy NEW YEAR thank you for coming back and enjoying my work i appreciate so so so much 🩷🩷

Chapter 74: Just like daddy- Hizashi

Notes:

AHHHHH HELLO LOVES ✨i finished it and this will actually be the last chapter of the year with 2 hours left in 2024 i wanna say thank you for another great year and i hate to say it but i can’t hold out any longer on the last arc of this wonderful story and i have about a years worth of content left before the ending i know the ending it’s very cute and fulfilling

ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS CHAPTER
ENJOY 💃🏽
Song of the chapter just like daddy Tupac

It was finally my time to be the um not trophy wife idk trophy boyfriend whatever it was my turn to be the sexy person on keigo arm at an event he asked us last week if we were free to join him to this networking thing that’s happening “can’t sweetheart I got karou and daichi that day” “I’m free and even if I’m not I will be” I’ve been feeling horrible for not being able to make it to the award ceremony so this is my time to make it up and may not be the same level of importance but I’m going to be there 

Now you may know me as the fantastically dressed hizashi and you would be right and I pride myself in that but I don’t have formal clothing like he said business casual and my dom clothes are technically that but I don’t want to wear any of that 

To: KITTEN🐈

I don’t have ANYTHING to wear on Thursday 

From: KITTEN🐈

I get off in 40 

I’ll pick you up from the studio 

He picks me up in his car and we don’t typically drive his car because it’s a two seater so I’m not in it often butttttt it’s a really nice car never took him for a sports car guy the car just fits him it’s an all black Aston Martin DB12 Volante

“How are you lovely” he says when I get in the car “I’m doing good other than I have no clue how to dress for Thursday” I say after leaning over the console to kiss him “mm well I’ll solve that problem now” he says taking off we drive for a while casual conversation about our days till we make it to a place that looks like his personal heaven 

“Keigo what are you doing here” a guy who looks really familiar but I can’t put my finger on who he is “Hakamada is vi here” “you cheating on me” he says “offended” “no never but I’m shopping for my favorite rockstar today” he says and he calls me that all the time but for some reason I feel giddy that he’s talking to his tailor about me like this “ahh yes let me go get her” he says walking up stairs “where do I know him from” “tsunagu younger brother it’s scary how much they look alike” just then a girl with jet black hair and pearl neo champagne bangs and peek a boo she has tattoos all over her neck and arms and I see why he specifically asked for her to help me “takami what’s the occasion” “how many times do I have to tell you just keigo” “occasion” she says looking at me very intensely “business casual networking” “what’s your sizes” she says moving my jacket back looking at my arms I tell her my sizes (I have no clue how men’s clothes work) and she hums “okay follow me” she takes towards the dressing rooms and picks up two items on the way back “here try this on” she hands it to me 

I change and look at myself the shirt is a tank top it’s a perfect fit not too tight anywhere the front has this cool draping and the pants are a looser pant than I’m used to it the waist is a bit to loose but other than that it’s a perfect fit “here try these too” she says sticking a shoe box in the curtain it’s a pair of boots like none I’ve ever owned and it adds more of my style to the outfit 

I go out and she has her hawk like gaze on me looking at every detail “I can make a few minor alterations I’ll be back with my kit” she says while zipping the quarter zip at the neck before turning and going up stairs “do you like it” keigo says standing behind me while I look at myself in the big three way mirror “yeah I do I’m not used to looking like this…do you like it” “i really do” the look in his eyes is something I’ve never seen towards me anyways it’s usually focused on Jess and I know what comes with that look “she’s gonna come back and ask if there’s any changes you wanna make and it’s gonna be hard to tell her to fix the waist if you’re hard” he says hands holding me by the waist his grip tight and possessive “okay I’m back what are you thinking for alterations” she says appearing out of nowhere “oh um the waist of the pants are too big” I say flustered for some reason 

At the register I’m still stuck at how he held me I’ve felt it before the possession the desire but this time it didn’t feel like my kitten not wanting me to leave but instead I was the prey he cherished and wanted to protect “so I was thinking accessory wise keep the neck empty watch bracelet combo like you’re wearing now but pick one metal rings stack’em maybe a belt chain or two just to add the rocker back you the one he got the leather jacket customized for” “yes” “if you’re feeling freaky throw that on too” she says while packing the outfit up “¥313,123 is your total” I reach for my wallet and he holds my hand “here you go” he says handing over his card “you’ve lost your mind huh” he says putting in his pin “what it’s an outfit for me” “that you only need because of me” he say putting the card back in his wallet “you never let me spoil you let me” he’s not wrong i typically would either pay for us all or buy whatever myself Jess on the other hand has no problem leaving her wallet in the house “okay” 

On the way home I can’t help but look at the picture I took of myself in the outfit it’s a gorgeous outfit and I’m sooooooo not used to seeing myself this dressed up a dress pant and shirt is usually the extent I go but this is a really cool outfit “I can’t wait to see the whole thing put together” he says looking at me while we’re at a red light “yeah me too” I look over at him and the say look is in his eyes “do you know what you’re wearing” “I don’t know I have to go in Thursday so whatever I wear to work that will be what I wear there” he says going now that the light is green “but I’m going to be so dressed up” I say feeling a pout on my face “no one will pay attention to me with you looking that great so it doesn’t really matter what I wear” “maybe you're right” “they know me they've seen me a thousand times but my beautiful boyfriend walking in looking like a runway model I want all eyes on you men and women so I can crush they’re dreams of wanting you by letting them know you’re mine” I see he grip on the wheel tightened and I can tell he’s holding back from something and it’s driving me crazy 

The next two days go by fast and now Jess is helping me get ready “how are doing your hair” she says brushing it out “um I’m thinking up in a bun” “can I make it fun” she says looking at me in the mirror “yeah why not” she adds three braids to the right side of my head and the rest in bun “okay hair check what’s next” “accessories can you help me pick them out” “why he bought you new ones for tonight he didn’t tell you” “no where are they” “omg wait I’ll be back” she leaves and comes back with a mahogany jewelry box I open it and there is a pleather of rings some look custom with cool gemstones others look like they’re from chrome hearts the bracelets were similar to the ones I wear all the time but all in sliver there was watch from a brand I’ve never heard off but Jess says it’s mad expensive and in the bottom on the box is a “buss down” chain link choker style necklaces “i thought she said to keep the neck empty” I say taking it out of the box “and it will be to most but we have a very possessive partner and he like claiming us with pretty necklaces she says pointing out the princess necklace around her neck she puts it on me and it’s sits right under the neck line of the shirt 

I’m not a collar person, never have even worn one and I know this isn’t one but it holds the same value as one and I don’t feel uncomfortable with it right now maybe because it’s a very expensive item or because i like being claimed…. That’s new 

From: KITTEN🐈

Hey I’m on my way

“Okay let me help you get ready really quick” I say putting on my last two rings her outfit is rather simple tonight so it doesn’t take long and by the time we were done kei was pulling up in the driveway “how are you both so gorgeous” he says getting out the car “you changed?” Jess says handing him her collar to put it on her “yeah I had time to go back to the house to change” “you both look really sexy tonight stand here I want a picture” she switches spots with kei and he’s standing next to me he wraps his arm around my waist his hold tight like the last time “cute okay have fun I gotta go” she says kissing us both and getting in her car and leaving 

We get in the car and head to this very fancy hotel “hello sir are you here for the event or a guest” the valet guy says when we get out “both thanks” he says and i didn’t know that at all “no problem at all enjoy yourself” he gets in the car and we walk in the hotel “we’re staying” “you think I’m going to make it all the way back home before fucking you in that outfit” he says as we walk to the hall 

Holy shit there is no way he just said that and i actually got flustered no way what has he done to me I don’t submit even when I’ve bottomed for him I never submitted to him but right now I feel like I’m submitting “wow so bold I like it” “I bet you do” he leads me over to a table where it’s a bunch of names tags and he picks up his name and puts it on me “last time I checked I was Hizashi not Keigo” “yeah I know Jess said the same thing but you think I’m sending you in there looking this good without everyone knowing who you belong too” “possession is a good color on you” “I know submission is a good color on you as well” we walk in and the room is full of suits and pretty women on their arms it feel like they all turn to look at us when we walk in “see I told you everyone would be stunned by how beautiful you are” he says before we walk up to a group of people “ahh takami it’s great seeing you I don’t think you’ve met my wife fumiko” “it’s nice to finally meet you I’m Takami and this is my partner Hizashi”he does it all the time he says it with so much confidence that it’s hard to even question our relationship but right now hearing it made me really happy “it’s nice to meet you I was hoping to meet you fiancée tonight” “yeah she couldn’t make it tonight maybe next time” “it’s nice to meet you Hizashi” 

All night was a bunch of conversations I couldn’t keep up with exchanging of business cards and my hot ass boyfriend parading me around to any and everyone here hands never leaving me I’ve been “my partner” “my boyfriend” “my favorite rockstar” have we gotten a few weird stares yes but i can’t think about it too long with him showing no restraint with pda “hey I won’t drag you into another boring conversation so stay here and Ill be right back” he says kissing my hand and heading off to a group of people I stand near the bar looking at my phone because I don’t know anyone here

 “how does it feel to be the main topic of the night” a lady says sitting next to where I’m standing “I don’t know what you mean” “oh please the biggest name here brings his boyfriend to this event when everyone is awaiting his fiancée there isn’t a person in here talking about it” I almost feel bad this night isn’t about me and here I am stealing the attention “it’s not a bad thing it’s just good finally put a face to the name he talks about you all time are there a few assholes in here being negative yeah but mostly positive especially with you looking a fire as you do” “she eases the nerves she lit on fire with her last statement “I can’t imagine when I would come up if he talks about me so much” “I specialize in hearing technology and everytime I sit down with him he brings you up his favorite rockstar that listens to music too loud all the time” I smile at her words “it kind of comes with the job” “radio host right” “yeah” I say sitting in the seat next to her “yeah makes sense I’ve heard your show a few times one of my engineers loves playing your set when he’s working late your taste in music is completely different from mine but still good music” “thanks I hear that a lot actually” I say with a small laugh “so are you also dating Jessica is it?” “Yes I am” “mmh different from my arrangement” “your- your arrangements you’re poly” “yeah 25 years now different from yours though I have a boyfriend my husband has a girlfriend” she says with a smile on her face “25 years wow it’s barely been a year” “yeah it’s fun and I can tell he really loves you both I will say I was honestly surprised when he told me about you he doesn’t seem like the guy that would be poly very straight edge person” this lady couldn’t be more far from the truth

 “akio are you corrupting my boyfriend” kei says walking over to us “me no never” she says dramatically “i somehow don’t believe you”he says leaning down and kissing me “I’ve just been getting to know your favorite rockstar” “he’s great isn’t he” “he is” 

We have a bit more casual conversation with akio and other people before leaving “did you have fun” he says lacing our hands together “i mean sure I didn’t hate it” “yeah pretty boring” “but i did like seeing you all sexy business man it’s really attractive even though i have no clue what you’re talking about” I say as we walk in the elevator 

(Sorry but switching to third person because I was struggling writing in first for this part) 

The elevator doors slid shut with a soft *ding*, and for the first time that night, Keigo let out a long, audible sigh. He glanced at Hizashi beside him

"You know," Keigo said, his voice low, the tension in the air thickening as the elevator hummed its way to the top floor. "I don’t think I’ve been able to focus on a single thing all night." His eyes lingered on Hizashi, lips curling with barely contained amusement. "It’s not your fault, though. You looked... irresistible."

Hizashi raised an eyebrow, his usual cheerful smile still playing at the edges of his lips, though there was an unmistakable heat flickering in his eyes. "Irresistible, huh? I thought you were pretty focused while we were mingling."

Keigo chuckled softly, leaning in just enough to close the space between them, his voice dropping lower. "Oh, I was focused. Just... not on the people or the conversation...All I could think about was how much I wanted you." He paused for a second, letting the words linger, the weight of them settling into the small, intimate space of the elevator. "Every time you smiled, every time you laughed, all I could picture was you. But not like that" he waved a hand vaguely at the event they'd just left, "but in a way that makes me want to drag you up to this room and ruin you."

Hizashi’s breath hitched, his playful demeanor slipping for a brief moment. Keigo knew exactly how to push his buttons. He leaned back against the elevator wall, eyes dark with desire, watching Hizashi's reaction closely. 

"You’re a little dangerous, ya know that?" Hizashi finally murmured, voice a bit husky as he stepped closer, chest brushing lightly against Keigo's side.

Keigo's smirk widened as the elevator began to slow. "Only for you, baby." He says as the elevator doors open they walk down the hallway hand in hand. It’s a short walk to the room and Hizashi has seen some big hotel rooms but this one was wayyyy more than that. It was similar to Keigo condo huge floor to ceiling windows along the way, a baby grand piano by said windows and its beautifully decorated. “I didn’t think there would be a piano in here should’ve guessed from the price” Keigo says letting go of my hand finally “it’s beautiful i used to have one when I was a kid” Hizashi  say walking over to it “really” Keigo says following him “yeah it was my moms when we moved when I was 13 we had to get rid of it because we were downsizing but I used to play it all the time” he says sitting at it Keigo sits next to him. He lets his fingers flow freely playing a song from muscle memory alone.

 It’s beautiful and all Keigo could do was look over at the man he loved. It was a weird feeling for him; he's always loved hizashi from the moment they met. They spent the past 11 years together and the man was still full of surprises. Guitar he knew even knew about his violin skills but he’s never seen him at a piano “still got it i guess”he says lifting his fingers from the keys “yeah it was just as beautiful as you” Keigo says with a fond smile on his face “where did my horndog kitten go you’re being to nice and loving” Hizashi says with a small laugh not knowing how to receive all of this attention so he’s trying to deflect with comedy. 

(Okay I’m switching back to 1st person)

“Oh I’m still here and I’m going to fuck you” he says putting his hand on my thigh to emphasize his point “but I feel like I don’t shower you in love as much as i should” he adds “you do don’t overthink it” “there you go again not letting me spoil you” Keigo say getting closer to me on this tiny bench “you do that enough” “obviously not I need to spoil you rotten” he says hand making it up my thigh 

I could no longer take it; I needed to act on something I’ve wanted to do all night. I leaned in for a kiss and it was granted by Keigo meeting me in the middle. Out of habit I try to take control but the dom in me lays dormant. And he really clocked out once Keigo pulled my leg over his so I was straddling him. 

The clank of the key cover closing and my back against the piano there was nowhere else I would rather be “you going to let me spoil you tonight baby” he says kissing my neck and unbuttoning my pants “fuck why not” I say winded by how fast everything is moving 

Keigo unbuttoned the pants but didn't reach in them or pull them down. Instead he presses his palm into my now fully hard dick. A moan comes out which breaks the kiss for a second before keigo possessively captures my lips and continues the kiss. “Please baby I need more” I says wrapping my arms around Keigo neck and leaning back further on the piano 

We lock eyes and the look in his eyes is like when you look at your favorite food that you haven’t had in awhile before you eat it. He unzips the back of the shirt and takes it off of me. He starts by leaving a trail of kisses across my chest then focusing on my left nipple. A hiss-like moan comes out of me because the bastard bites my nipple ring “don’t act like you don’t like it” he says going to the other one circling it with his tongue then when I least expect it he slightly pulls at it with his teeth. 

My dick feels like it could explode from the lack of attention his hand is now just resting on top of it. Just to find any friction I start to slowly grind upwards into his hand and it felt fucking amazing…till he moved his hand “you said you would spoil me and now you’re teasing me” I say voice sounding foreign to my own ears and I can tell it does to him as well “why are you in a rush?” He says, cocking his head to the side in curiosity “why are you going so slow?” I say mocking his actions “only because I like making you work for it” he says making us stand up.  

Clothes scatter across the floor as we make it to the bed lips only leaving each other for seconds at a time. 

When we make it to the bed he pushing me back on the bed and I can tell his next move is to give me a blowjob and as great as that sounds. I’ve been wanting his dick in my mouth since he introduced me to the first person tonight. I swiftly switched our spots getting on my knees between his legs and wasting no time getting him in my mouth. 

He's somehow gotten my hair out of the bun and his fingers are tightly laced in my hair. His hips thrusting up making him go deeper in my throat. “Son of a fuck— baby I’m going to cum…shit” there’s no sign of my kitten anywhere this is a man I’ve never met. His voice is different, how he’s expressing pleasure is different, everything is different and I like more than I’ve ever liked these behaviors from any other man. I was going to keep going till he came but he pulls me up but my hair and kisses me flipping us so he’s back on top. “I can’t be selfish and come before you baby” he says, reaching for the lube. His fingers reach my ass and are pleasantly surprised to me met with metal “you prepped for me baby” “yes…princess helped me” I say and his eyes roll back then close imagining it “you’re fucking perfect” he says pulling it out of me “Fuck me please….i need it I need you” 

He has one of my legs up foot on his shoulder holding my hand over my chest and one hand on the bed for balance. The sounds in the room are pornographic between my moans and his skin slapping together. It's perfect. “Fuck I love you” I say being the first cohesive sentence I’ve said since his dick entered me “I love you more baby” he says leaning down kissing me 

I still don’t bottom often. I think it’s been once since our first fight (chapter 62) so everytime I do I feel like the sex demon in me thrives. He laughing like a maniac and yelling at me to make him GO HARDER DEEPER FASTER. And honestly I #needthat. “Please please I’m okay fuck me like you mean it” I say. He pulls out and flips me over holding my hands behind my back for leverage and starts FUCKING me. We get ten times louder, the bed sounds like it’s seen better days and sex demon in me is living.

“I’m gonna—cum fuck” I say face in the mattress “no” he says like it’s something I can control while he fucking me for all I’m worth “-what” “I said no wait” he rolls and now we’re in reverse cowgirl “you wanna cum work for it” his hands still hold mines behind my back. I start bouncing up and down and I’m so fucking closes and I can tell he is too his hips are matching me meeting me in the middle with every down “fuck fuck I’m coming” I say feeling like I was on the edge of death. My lungs stopped working with the release making me light headed but the orgasm better but nothing feels better than feeling and hearing him cum in me. I can feel every drop in me and I love it 

The room is now filled with heavy breathing. He lets my hands go and lay back on him “mmh you did good for me baby” he says pushing my hair back “mmmthanku” I say mouth too tired for spaces 

I drift off in his arms. And only wake up when I feel myself being moved. I open my eyes and I’m clothed and he’s pulling the blankets over us “where did these clothes come from?” “I had princess bring them she’s in the bathroom” I didn’t have enough energy to respond. I just got closer to him and went back to sleep.  

“you have to stop fucking people like this” Jess says getting in the bed “what it’s not my fault I was blessed with put you to sleep dick” “omg your head just got bigger” “your just mad it’s not you that got fucked tonight” “shut up and go to sleep” she says turning her back to them

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Chapter 75

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HELLO LOVES✨ okay before you dive in to this remember I literary turn my brain off and free write when I write each chapter so this is a two parter and I haven't written the second part yet because this went soooo far from what I planned so it could be next week or a month from now you'll see what I actually wanted to do with this chapter BUT its still good regardless

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Remember that cryptic ass text I got from Jess like two chapters ago. Well, I think I just found what she was talking about. So I'm minding my business putting up the clean clothes and this box slides from the back of the closet…. No I didn't see it and grab it and open it. No it fell open on the floor and no i didn't see the cat ears in it and got so excited i dropped it… 

“kei you okay” jess says walking in on me picking it up  “yeah yeah i'm okay whats up” i say holding the velvet box and ears behind my back “what's behind you back” “nothing” i say as she gets closer to me “okay then hands” i grab the ears and box in one hand and show her my left hand “i always wear my ring you don't have to worry about that” i say as a distraction “yeah not really worried about that right now both hands” “i can’t really do that right now” “keigo” i feel like a child being caught doing something “okay I might have found something you were waiting to show me” i say showing her what’s in my hand “you just love ruining surprises don’t you” “hey don’t put a suspicious box in places where i can find it if you don’t want me to find it” “i hid it in the back of my side of the closet next time i'll hide it in the laundry machine” she says taking it from me “hey i look in there” “yeah when i tell you to switch the clothes around” she says closing the box “sorry i was just curious pretty box…pretty cat ears…are they perhaps for your favorite pretty boy”i say pulling her closer to me by wrapping my arms around her waist “it was” “what do you mean was” “you werent supposed to see to see it till i was ready” “i said i was sorry i thought it was just a box from something i bought i wholeheartedly wasn’t snooping at anything” “whatever” she says turning and walking out the closet 

“wait wait mistress” I say following behind her “what” she says turning around to look at me “i really can't have them” “no” “mistresssssssss” “what it was a surprise I had this whole thing planned and you ruined it” “i barely even seen them I got to excited dropped them and you came in the room” I say pleading hugging her “you really didn’t see them” “I only made out that they were cat ears before I dropped them” “okay you can earn them back by being on you best behavior on Saturday” “what’s Saturday” “the open house carnival did you forget” “yeah I kinda blocked out hearing that both of my doms are going to participating in event where I have to sit and watch them seduce random people” I say letting her go “we’re no seducing random people were just going to be doing impact play with whoever comes over” “same thing” “such a dramatic pouty baby” “am not” “are too and if you behave like you know how to then you can show me how pretty of a kitty you can be” she says pulling me to her by my waist band “so are you going to be a good kitty for us” she says eyes locked in on my lips “yes” “mmm yes what” “yes mistress I’ll be a good kitty for you” “good now kiss me” 

I’ve been dreading Saturday all week I don’t want to go but neither of them are letting me get out of going “can I at least go to the other stations while I’m here” I say in the parking lot getting collard and almost getting choked out by Jess making it too tight “I’ll take that as a no” I say coughing “yeah get the thought out of your head” zashi says 

We walk in and it looks so different in here the huge main area is decorated with different very basic kink and fetish attractions 

The doms who are employed here all here at once some of their subs with them many of them not (lucky) once we got further in yuji walks over to us “madam jess master hello” he says bowing “hi yuyu” mistress says with this big smile on her face and he looks like a giddy goose getting attention from her “sir has you two over there. there are a few tools over there but he say your free to use your own if you prefer” “thanks yuji” master says petting the top of his head before he walks back over to shota

 “I hate this already” I say to myself as they set up at the “spank me” booth “what did you says kitten” master says taking stuff out of his bag “I said—nothing” i almost repeated myself till I saw the same paddle that he used in my last punishment and decided against it “hmmm i thought I heard you say something” “fix your face and posture I will make you kneel all night” mistress says coming back with her mistress paddle instead of the madam one “going by mistress tonight” master says “yeah sir keeps forgetting I changed my name and I’m mistress Jess on all of the promo for tonight so” nonono I rather never wear those ears then have to sit here and hear every person that shows up call her mistress I stand up and walk about two feet away from the booth “I’ll give you four seconds to sit back down without repercussion after that and the only way were stopping is you safe wording out…1…2…3…exactly” I’m mad at mistress right now but not dumb enough to disobey with that threat which really isn’t a threat but a promise 

Once people started to come in this was the most visited booth in the room I watched man after woman after person bend over this table and get spanked by MY doms and enjoy it to much 

Once it got a bit slower for the table “mistress” I say getting her attention “hm” her eyes still ahead not even looking at me “bathroom” “go ahead” I walk away from the booth to go to the bathroom I don’t even have to use it but I’m so mad that I just needed a break after I take a breather I walk out the stall and yuji walks in “needed a break too” he says looking just like me “yeah I don’t like any of this” “yeah I fucking hate it…don’t tell sir or madam I said that but I dont like he’s mine why is he touching them and ignoring me” yuji says leaning against the sink “exactly they haven’t even looked at me since the doors opened” “i usually only have to share sirs attention with kitty but she’s at home she doesn’t even have to check in again tonight and I’m here watching him seduce all of these people” “you fucking get me they say they aren’t seducing them but they are it’s really bothering me but I’m staying on my best behavior because I want my reward but it’s hard” “what you getting out the deal I get to come home with sir for a week” “pet play” “thought madam didn’t do pet play” “exactly this maybe my one chance to do it so I’ll suck it up” “same you better get back before they start looking for you” “yeah your right” 

When I walk out the bathroom there’s a another big group in here I finally make it back to “spank me” and I see MY mistress spanking a man she bends forward I’m guessing for a color check in and all I see is a sparkly red pair of underwear her dress isn’t that long it’s a black latex (duh) dress that frills out at the bottom and sits right below her butt when she’s standing up straight “I would give my life savings to stick my face under her dress” a random guy says to another “you think she’ll let you if you ask” “should I do it” “fuck yeah” 

I walk over to her once the man is off the table “kitten not now go sit back down” she says still looking away from me “he’s going to ask you something very inappropriate and I really wanna go home now” “just sit I’ll handle it” she says brushing me off

The dip shit asks and gets put out of the event altogether whatever I still don’t wanna be here anymore but I’m forced to be here till 3 in the morning “now you’re giving me the silent treatment” master says after I haven’t said a word to him after the last question he asked me “okay be that way” “hey we can go now” mistress says coming back over “he’s apparently not talking to us anymore” “okay whatever don’t really care I’m tired and wanna go home” she says grabbing her bad and walking towards the door 

The drive home silent getting undressed and getting ready for bed silent I don’t even cuddle with them in the bed I really hated how they acted tonight and I’m just giving it back to them 

The next morning doesn’t just erase how annoyed I am at them “keiiii come on at tell me why your acting like this is it because of the name or because I was doing impact with other people or that dickhead which one” she says shaking me it was all of it plus you ignoring me all night and acting like i didn’t matter enough to even look at me when you spoke to me “ughhhhh Keigo I’m sorry for whatever it was just talk to me” “will you talk to me kei or are you mad at both of us” he says putting his hand on my nape fingers in my hair thumb rubbing circles behind my ear “ouch kitten me too” “you think you get some special treatment” she says “yeah” 

They try for another hour before they give up “I hated every moment of yesterday and neither of you cared not one check in didn’t look at me barely spoke to me and you’re confused on why I don’t wanna talk to you” I finally say “I fucking told you but noo you wanted to be Ms hard ass yesterday” master says “I didn’t think it would lead here” “it always does this is the last damn time I listen to you about how to dominate my submissive” “YOUR submissive” “yes my submissive” “he’s not your  submissive he’s ours and don’t make it seem like I’m some type of fuck up or something” “you always forget he’s not one of our clients we can’t just do whatever and they’ll be happy with the outcome” they start really arguing so I just leave because I don’t want to witness the bloodbath of Hizashi Jessica fight 

After about an hour of fighting and an hour of silence they finally come to find me “hey kei can we talk” Jess says walking in the room “yeah” “okay your right and Hizashi was right I went to far yesterday when you said you wanted to leave I should’ve packed up and left when you said you weren’t comfortable going in the first place i should’ve said okay and let you stay home last night I completely acted like dick to you and I’m sorry” “I’m at fault just as much as her I knew you would hate all of this and still made you do it and enabled the behavior I’m sorry kitten” “was it so agreed upon plan to straight up ignore me yesterday”

“Not really the plan no it was more of taking away the special treatment”she says thinking that would justify any of it “so yes would be the answer to my question” “okay yes but we were expecting maybe a bit of brattin out or you just get really possessive but it backfired horribly” “yeah no shit” “kitten where did we go wrong” he says “well one making me go but whatever you completely ignored me like the moment the doors opened I was nothing but a shadow in a corner and you were busy I get it but fuck not one “how are you feeling” color nothing” I say looking at him “you made me sit there and have to hear everyone of those people call you mistress and i know to you that's not that big of a deal but you also got upset that my assistant calls me by my first name so we have that I came to you directly and said I wanna go home and you told me to sit down even if you just told me to go to either of your rooms or that I could just leave and come back to get you later I would’ve been happy” they look like kicked puppies not trying to make eye contact with me “and when you did speak at me you didn’t even look at me if this is how you treat your other submissive I would fucking hate to be them” I can tell that this is the first time they’ve gotten a bad review because I can tell that last part hit them right in their ego 

“Yeah we deserved that” he says picking at his nails “I’m sorry kei I should’ve straightened everything out about the name” “and i should’ve been more proactive my first check in shouldn’t have been at the end of the night” “the only person that seemed to care was yuji which was surprising” I say changing how I was sitting on the bed “wait you talked to yuji about this” his face looked like he was praying I said the wrong name“yeah he was feeling the same way we crossed paths in the bathroom” “fucccckkk” He says laying back on the bed with his hand over his face “goddamnit” Jess says getting off the bed to get her phone “fuck fuck fuck” she says putting her phone to her ear “hey sorry I didn’t— yes sir…..yes okay…see you soon get up we got to be there in 30” Jess says sounding defeated “fuck this is what we get” “I’m confused” I say genuinely lost “you talked to the one person who is contractually obligated to snitch on us to the one person we really don’t wanna deal with” “both of them are there” Jess says from the closet “fuck I mean you couldn’t have like just pulled us to the side last night…no I’m not putting this on you it was our fault and the consequences of our actions are coming to bite us in the ass” he says going to change “you too get ready” Jess says zipping up her skirt 

We get to after dark that’s typically closed on Sunday there’s a few people here to clean and take down the stuff from yesterday we go in the back to shotas room we walk in and shota and midnight are sitting in the middle of the room and they look very disappointed “kneel” shota says and they scramble in front of them Jess in front of sho and zashi in front of midnight I’m kinda just frozen by the door “I was told this morning about treatment of your submissive by more than one person keigo come here” he says looking at me I walk up to them standing behind my doms “tell me what happened yesterday don’t leave out a detailed” midnight says and I’m just as scared of them as they are so I tell them everything from me not wanting to come to what happened right before she called “shota I can’t believe this we didn’t train them to act like this” midnight says “not at all especially not to your submissive have you two lost your mind I should not be getting calls and messages from other doms and submissives saying you two gave better treatment to the random people that came in then your own submissive” “it wasn’t like that” “Jessica I don’t remember saying you could speak” he shuts her down fast and i didn’t know my one 5 minute conversation with yuji would get them in this much trouble 

“We thought of a worthy punishment for the both of you and I don’t want to hear anything other yes mistress i understand when I’m done” she says and they say “yes mistress” in unison “neither of you are allowed to work for the next two weeks you will be going through a full retraining to earn back the names of mistress and master am i clear” I can tell they wanna fight it I can tell they wanna protest but they swallow it down “yes mistress i understand” they both say “so that means your gonna have to wait a bit longer to get your reward Keigo but they obviously have forgotten how to do their jobs” shota says “so Keigo can you do me favor and wait outside of the room for me” midnight says “yes ma’am” I leave and wait in the hallway and it takes a hot minute before either of them come out of the room “I want you here and ready by 6:00 not a minute later” shota says “yes sir” they say and just looking at them I can tell they got punished as well Jess has red marks peeking from under her skirt and the way hizashi can’t stand still is all I needed to know “now go ahead just like we practiced” midnight says making them turn to look at me “we’re sorry for being bad dominants to you we promise to never do it again” they say to me in a full 90° bow “it’s—“ “no no don’t accept it till they prove it” sho says cutting my off “okay” “now go get out of here” 

Now I’m the on other side of silent treatment they haven’t really spoken to me since we left ad “soooooo” I say watching them treat each others faint bruising “sorry we’re not mad at you I just really don’t like when they’re upset at us I feel like shit” “yeah he showed us pictures from last night and made us read the messages from the others and I already felt bad but now like she said I feel like shit” “what did they say” “the sub of the dom next to us pointed out that you tried to get our attention more than once and was ignored and I don’t even remember that” “they said we were to busy to even look back” “I mean I did after like each person I tried even when you came where I was to switch tools you still ignored me” I say looking at Hizashi “one of the guest doms over heard us talking when we’re getting ready to leave and how you weren’t responding and Jess said she didn’t care leave” “also yuji wasn’t even the one to bring it to his attention it was mistress may she seen the whole situation with that guy and heard you say you wanted to leave and how I just disregarded you which I’m really sorry for I don’t know what came over me yesterday but I was really a bitch ouch” she winces at zashi touching her

 “yeah you were” “didn’t expect for you to agree” “just because I won’t call you one don’t mean I can’t point out when your being one” “whatever but are you gonna be cool with us not being home as much for the next two weeks” “I mean no but I’m not going against sho” “next week is a condo week can we just double up once this is over because I don’t have the extra 30 minutes commute in me” “yeah do you know what your going to be doing” “the same shit we had to do be able to get our first submissive”Jess says “we’re getting fully re trained in every part of being a dom aftercare, skills, all that jazz and  sub training which I’m not looking forward too especially because we’ve already pissed him off” Hizashi says “sub training as you have to be his submissive” “yeah they always say you can’t be a proper dom till you’ve submitted and like real but he’s going to be so mean to meeee” Jess says laying in the bed “yeah I’m really not ready to sub for midnight again I never thought i would have to do that again but like they love us more now right” “I hope so” 

Week one was the most time Keigo has spent by himself  in the past 3 years they would leave out together in the morning and he wouldn’t see them till 12 in the morning shota has been WORKING them and not being as nice as the first time 

“Jessica is that how i taught you to swing” shota says in the middle of their “endurance training” “no sir im sorry” she says adjusting her arms “stop apologizing and do it right the first time hizashi straighten your back” “sir it's been two hours can we take a break”hizashi says dropping his arm like it weighed a ton “I’ll tell you when you can take a break keep going” 

Midnight wasn’t any better “you call that a command riku do you feel like you really wanna follow his orders” midnight says to one of her many submissives “no mistress” “do better hizashi” “Eat” Jess says to kenji it wasn’t a real command she didn’t want to be doing this and wanted the day to just be over “that’s same attitude is what got you here in the first place fix it fast” “mistress come on it’s been a long week and I’m so tired and I wanna go home and I don’t want to do this anymore” “wow so you do get it” “get what” “how Keigo felt that night hmm so just like you I don’t care start over” 

They’ve been freed for the weekend and they felt defeated “so how was it” i say watching them flop down on the couch “horrible”zashi says face down “i feel like theyre just being unnecessarily mean on purpose like yes what we did was bad but fuck” “and the worst part will be next week” “i would think that next week would be the easiest” “being sho sub is fucking torture i would rather have midnight” “no you dont take it back i love you too much to make you go through such humiliation” zashi says “yeah i would take him  over midnight anyday she actually scares the hell outta me” I say “I just don’t want to do it” “but like why not yuji and kitty seems pretty happy” “yeah and they are and the only reason I don’t wanna do it because last time was too much” “what do you mean” “okay you know I really struggle to let go and because he’s like my dad it’s easier but because I look up to him so much I feel weird submitting when alls he’s taught me to do is command respect and attention so subbing feels like I’m letting him down somehow I don’t know I’m weird and seek validation too much to let go and with this week being him just mega disappointed in me I fear it’s going to get even worse next week” 

And she was kinda right but also not really 

Shota showed her that side that yuji was talking about she knows that deep down he’s just a big softie “Jessica come here” “yes sir” “sit” he says tilting his head at a stool near him “i haven’t did proper shibari in a while feeling up to it” he says looking at his shelf filled with rope “yeah sounds fun” she says and he looks back at her “sorry yes sir I’m feeling up to it” “much better” 

Everytime he did any type of rope work on her it felt intimate but not like sexy time intimacy but she trusted that she was in good hands and can let go 

“Do you know why I’m making you do this” he says tying her hands behind her “you’re bored sir” “not this at the moment but the retraining” he clarifies “oh well no sir I don’t exactly know why” “I saw how well you treated yuji and kitty while I was away they talk about you all the time and as much as wanted you to be stricter with them I left them with you for the reason of no matter how hard you are on your sub they know at the end you're going to be the best to them I had major doubts that Hizashi could take care of them as well as you” he says moving to the front of her she looks at his face for anything but he has that natural expression as always “and I knew that if they left you happy that keigo must be the happiest man alive and usually that’s what he looks like but then I saw him at the event and he looked miserable like yuji just looked like he was a second away from risking punishment to just get me to himself but Keigo no he looked like he was being forced to be here” jess feels like she’s either going to cry or start yelling neither are really good options at this moment

 “and then I heard about your behavior that night and I was shocked Jessica I really was because my golden child was acting like anything but-“ and here comes the tears “don’t cry sweetheart” he says wiping the tears away “I was really disappointed in you though like really midnight wanted to take you this week and really prove a point but I said no because I know you’re better than that one mistake but I still couldn’t take it lightly” the tears never stop as he works the rope down her legs “I’m sorry I disappointed you sir” she says sniffing after every other word “I know you are but we pride ourselves on this being a safe space for submissives Keigo didn’t want to be here that night he asked you to leave more than once and generally was uncomfortable do you treat kaoru like that too just neglecting her limits” “no sir never” she says lightly sobbing now “any of the other clients you have” she shakes her head no “so you know Keigo doesn’t like people calling you mistress and instead of coming to me and getting the name straighten out you just went with it ignoring one of his boundaries even if I think it’s a bit much he’s not my sub he’s yours and his needs should come before your constant need to please me Jessica” he says looking up to her crying face “why are you crying” “because I was shitty-“ “hey” “sorry I was a bad dom and and i disappointed you and mistress and that sucks because this is the one thing that I do really well and I can’t even do this right” she starts sobbing hard 

He sat on the ground and brought her down with him holding her and comforting her 

Once the crying let up a bit “we've had this conversation before” “did we” “yeah the first time we did sub training but you were sad because of something and I wasn’t too happy with you and I did this same tie and you cried then too” “yeah I remember that you let me have a test sub and I didnt do to well with him” “yeah yeah but i couldn’t be too mad at you it had been 8 months of training and your first solo gig” “now it’s been 10 years and I’m making mistakes” “we all make mistakes I’ve had bad days where I’ve taken it out on yuji before and had to look at him look like a sad puppy all day I’ve made mistakes with kitty like one day I got upset at her that she didn’t eat on time set up a whole punishment turns out I never sent the message” he says laughing to himself “just how your sub makes mistakes you're going to as well Keigo isn’t going to hate you forever for this and I’m not going to be disappointed in you forever I take pride in the fact that one of the best dommes in the country was trained under me that she looks up to me and that I get to call her my daughter even if it’s not biological and this is not the only good thing your good at your good at everything you try” “I know it’s really unfair to other people how good I am at everything” she says making them both laugh

 “now that that’s out the way I need you to clean and oil all of my leather tools” he says untying her “wha- but sir that’s gonna take forever” “yeah I know get to work”

It was a long night but there was no one’s night was longer than Hizashi not only did he have to completely reorganize her closet he had to clean a gallon bucket full of used toys and toys while being micromanaged “you think that’s really the best place to put that” she says watching him hang the impact tools “these aren’t clean enough do it again” she says inspecting the fully clean toys 

his everything hurts he was tired he felt like he couldn’t make the decisions to breathe and not get seconded guessed “love i know you hate driving but i actually can’t right now” “yeah i can’t either called kei he’s on his way here to drive us back” she says yawning “we really don’t deserve him” “not one bit” they leave out of ad and Keigo is getting out of the back of car “whew rough night” he says looking at them “yeah thank you for doing this” jess says handing him her keys “there isn’t much you could ask for that I won’t do even if that is getting in an uber at 12:30 in the morning to drive you back home” he says opening the back door as they both climb in

 “I love you”Jess says when he pulls out the parking lot “I love you more princess” “hey what about me” “I love you too baby” 

After a long week they heard the words they’ve been dying to hear “okay I feel like you’ve been sufficiently retrained” midnight says “you’re officially madam Jess and master again I never want to see that behavior again do you hear me” shota says “yes sir” “okay call your subs let them know you’re back in action” 

From: PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

Tomorrow  

You and me 

And you FINALLY 

Get to show me how much of a good kitty you are

To: PRINCESS🥀⛓💍🖤

I promise to be soo good for you mistress 🧎🏼‍♂️

Chapter 76

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨IM BACK WITH PART 2 and its goooddddd and im working on the following chapter hopefully it'll be done before this month is overbut until then

 

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Okay mini recap if you will a while ago Jess told me that she got the last piece to the thing she wanted me to wear from the deal I made with her earlier this year 

And I may have found it and she caught me looking at it and told me i could only wear it if I was good at the lil carnival and that went real bad real fast so bad I didn’t speak to them the rest of the night and the next morning and when we did talk i disclosed that I talked to yuji about my discomfort and they got called into the principals dungeon and got stripped of all titles and clients/submissives including me 

They had to do a two week retraining and sub training blah blah blah blah now I’m on my way to her house fully prepped and wearing something that’s more comfortable than i thought i walked to the door she told me to knock and not use my key so I’m waiting for her to open the door and when she does I didn’t see my wife no no I seen my mistress 

Every part of her body is covered in latex from the neck down I can’t tell if it’s all one jumpsuit or what but it’s contouring her body perfectly “hey eyes up here” she says grabbing my face breaking me out of thought “sorry mistress…you look so good right now” I say and if I’m being honest I think I’m drooling “just good” “great beautiful gorgeous sexy fuck” “watch it” “sorry mistress” “get in here” she says letting me go and moving back 

As soon as I get in I kneel in front of her “so you’ve been waiting for this for like 6ish months now” she says taking the velvet box off the table beside the door “and it took me awhile to get the perfect thing for you and i remember master telling me I didn’t know pretty till I saw you on all fours and cat ears by and honestly I needed to see it with my own eyes” I’ve been with her for 2 years her sub for 3 and I’ve never once seen her look at me like this her eyes are filled with lust and hunger like if she could she would devour me “but first clothes off” she says standing right forgot about that  

She sent this box to my office this morning and I don’t know what i expected but it definitely wasn’t this “look so pretty on you” she says looking at the black silk panties they fit everything in them pretty snug but they were a higher cut in the back because my entire ass was out “thank you mistress” her eyes on me made my skin hot I got embarrassingly hard when she first opened the door and these aren’t hiding that at all “okay now for these” she says opening the box and showing me the cat ears and they’re my exact hair color the headband was also the same color to keep the fantasy alive and the inner portion of the ear was a bright white they were perfect 

She puts them on my head and well I was gone from there 

I’ve seen Keigo in subspace more times and more ways than one and this was different after I fixed his hair around them he was fully immersed I almost think I heard him purring when I put his collar on “you really are a pretty kitten aren’t you” I say taking the whole sight in his perky ass on display begging to be bruised dick begging for attention eyes fixed on me waiting for the next instruction “how about we go upstairs and take some pictures of the pretty kitty to show off to master” he gets visibly excited “okay then pretty kitty let's head up” he walks on all fours up the steps beside me waiting at the top to see which room we go in and I’ve done very minor changes to the kink room and I wanna show off the new silk bedspread I got for in there 

“On the bed kitten” I pull my phone out and there’s already a few messages from zashi that i ignore for now “pose however you like” and i honestly lose strength in my knees for a second he completely lays on his stomach right arm out left under his chin ass high in the air the panties accentuating the curve of his ass “fuck” I say under my breathe bending to take the picture his eyes are primal but he’s begging to be the prey 

He goes into the next pose making a real show of him flipping and laying on his back arching his back off the bed on leg bent up and this pose was better picture from the side “you’re gorgeous kitty” and he actually lets out a small meow sound and I always thought pet play was weird maybe because they all wanted to be big dogs and it was idk but I didn’t like it but hearing him purr and meow is doing something to me I’ve never experienced 

He doesn’t go into another pose instead he crawls across the bed to me he looks mischievous and he had a plan “what kitty” I say when he was in front of me he takes my hand and takes my pointer and middle fingers into his mouth and i know it’s pretty obvious but I’ve never said it before I have a huge latex thing I wouldn’t say fetish but I love it I love how it feels on me how it sounds and rubs against me when I move and now he has my latex covered fingers in his mouth and I’ve been boarding on turned on since he walked in but now she’s fully awake watching him pull my fingers out of his mouth making the latex even shinier with a thread of spit connecting us 

I pull away before he could put them back in his mouth “mm please mistress” he says pouting “tell me what you want” he looks at my fingers and says nothing “words kitty” “in my mouth fingers” I bring them closer to his mouth and tongue first sucking my fingers into his mouth I push him back straddling his lap pushing my fingers deeper in his mouth his eyes rolling back into his head it came out to be a wonderful photo

He’s so far gone and we haven’t even done anything yet his are pupils blown out he’s extra whiny and drooling all over the place and he only had my fingers in his mouth and i would’ve let him enjoy it a bit longer but he started grinding up on me and we’re not there yet “no no kitty” I say lifting my body up from him “please mistress I’ve been so good” he says running his hands up my thighs and rule #4 of being a good dom is never let the sub see you flustered you have to stay composed at all times and it takes everything in me to stay true to it when his hand is now between my legs he knows how to get his way “please mommy I know you like it too” goddamnit Keigo “kitty isn’t being as good as i was promised she would be” “not fair i just wanna make mommy feel good” he says pouting and crossing his arms across his chest “i would feel even better if my pretty kitty listened to instructions when she’s told the first time” I say leaning down in his ear “now are you going to be a good girl for mommy or not” “I’ll be a good girl” 

Okay okay let’s take a pause here no this isn’t just the typical typo and yes you read that right let’s go back to a few days ago 

“So Keigo you know I don’t do pet play so this is going to be new for us both so tell me what you want from this experience” I bought him to the consultation room because I was being extra and really falling flat on the planning our first playtime back from my retraining “nothing different then what we usually do just with the ears on” “I somehow don’t believe you want to be hit and degraded in that state” “well no but I’m never above being put over your knee” “then what” “I wanna feel pretty and admired like your prize kitty” “okay I can do that” I say writing it down “is there anything you’ve always wanted to try but haven’t done so we’re both doing something new” “yeah but don’t see where it’ll be appropriate for this” “what is it” “forced fem or just feminization” “okay write that down” “you would want that” “Jessica yes” “who are you talking to”I say looking up for the paper “I’m sorry mistress or should I say-“ and I thought he was going to say madam as a haha joke but no no “ mommy yes I would love for you to call me your pretty girl” I almost came untouched hearing him call me that “okay” 

Enough context okay back to the present 

I had to regain control in some way before I just caved and gave him what he wanted “mommy please” he says torso across my lap “what pretty girl use your words” “I need more” “you were just begging for my fingers a minute ago” I say touching the spot he’s begging for he falls apart legs giving up changing the angle making it just that more intense for him I think I even seen a tear fall “can I cum please” “no I’m not done with you yet” I says pulling my fingers back from the sweet spot dragging a cry out of him and a line of pleases “you don’t wanna ride me instead okay I’ll make you cum like this” “wait wait that I wanna do that” he say pushing himself forward so i couldn’t continue 

After getting everything assembled he was eager to straddle me “pretty girl wanna send master a treat” he nods handing me my phone “okay then show off for him then” he sits down on me I went a bit thicker today just to add to the stretch “mmm mommy feels good” he says slowly bouncing up and down I found the perfect angle for the camera and honestly the visuals are driving me crazy the creak of the latex when he comes down his hole swallowing the full length I feel like I’m going insane 

When he speeds up I look up at him and his eyes are crossed mouth hung open I move the camera up to his face “my pretty girl fucked outta her brain” “mommmmmyyyyyy” he says hiding his face from the camera in my neck “what you don’t want master to see his kitten being a slut for mommy” “can I cum please” “yes but look at the camera while you do it” he looks up at the phone and while he cums makes direct eye contact with himself “good girl made a pretty mess too” I show us both covered in his cum sweat and drool 

I clean up got my baby bathed and in a clean bed I’m in pajamas and i decided to finally check in with zashi 

From:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Don’t forget to take pictures I wanna see the pretty kitten too 

He should be there by now 

Don’t gatekeep kitten

Ugh now I have to work without seeing MY kitten

 

His show started about two hours ago now and I think a cute pick me up will be helpful 

 

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Sorry for “gatekeeping” OUR kitten

Kitty needed all of my attention 

She was very needy tonight 

*attachment 5 pics 2 videos *

 

I tune into his show because he always checks his phone while working “if you’ve been locked into the music scene lately you can tell that it’s been pretty boring no new releases just tour…. fuck” he says so low that if you weren’t hanging on to his every word you would’ve missed it “sorry just tour annocments and it’s award season but nothing fun to talk about so we’re going to head into our next song BMF by sza” and when the song started my phone started to flood with messages 

 

From: Zashi🫦🍒💚

Holy fucking shit love you can’t send me stuff like this while I’m working 

Fuck the videos 

My dick is so fucking hard right now

 I should make you come here and fix what you caused 

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Sorry daddy pretty kitty sleeping on me can’t leave 

*1 attachment*(Keigo is sleeping on her and still has the ears on which he refused to take off)

From: Zashi🫦🍒💚

Sleep now 

Your going to need all of your energy when I get home

To:Zashi🫦🍒💚

Can’t wait to wake up to you fucking me daddy

I’m not usually a send you nudes while you at work girl I mean I do it but it’s not my thing but I think all the events of tonight and not being touched once is driving me a little crazy so did I send him a few pictures and videos I took a few days ago when I was alone in his house and found his station branded leather jacket and did i forget to mention I was naked and very horny yeah use your imagination about what just got dropped in his phone

“Okay everyone that was BMF from sza off her deluxe Lana” I know Hizashi like the back of my hand his radio persona is slipping I’ve officially broken him and he’s going to break me when he gets in this house in the morning YAY

Jessica drove me crazy my whole show from the picture and videos of my kitten taking dick like a champ while being called a good girl to her fucking herself in my jacket i had to take a bathroom break just to calm down because just jacking off would not help me in the slightest right now 

I get home and run upstairs I open the room door and she’s sleeping peacefully on the bed thankfully not attached to Keigo i gently lift her out the bed bridal style and bring her in the kink room but there’s no sheets on the bed so to the guest room I go I lay her on the bed and she opens her eyes “mmm you’re home” she says trying to kiss me “kiss me” “after the shit you put me through last night” “yes I’ve been a good girl I did exactly what you wanted” she says taking her shirt off “no being a good girl you would’ve just sent the more tame pictures of kitty like I asked and left it there but no you can never do what your asked” “then fuck me till i remember how to follow directions” she says putting my hands on her breast 

I wake to someone watching porn which is weird as hell but I look around and I’m alone in the room I get up and look in the kink room nothing but the guest room door is wide open I walk in and see Hizashi fucking the life out of Jess “youre loud” I say closing the door and going back in the bed to sleep….what I see them fuck all the time nothing new now get out I’m sleepy

Notes:

two things I rewatched love and leashes the movie where I wholeheartedly think they found this fic and made it into a office love story but I digress and I somehow made yuji exactly like the sub in the movie like bar for bar and I haven't seen the movie in three years but I somehow did it the foot fetish pet play how he act everything

and secondly mickey 17 came out recently I seen this clip (https://x.com/elles_thots/status/1898143479492190368) and this is legit a Thursday in the jesskei household and like the height difference is perfect the small acts of affection the getting her ready to go out like its perfect they also stole that from me but its okay lol

Chapter 77

Notes:

HELLLO LOVES✨ IM BACK WITH A SINGLE CHAPTER.... so I've been putting off the wedding arc for too long and I have to kick it off at the top of the year so it's a brand new year for us and them

alt title Girls time/Wedding planning

all visuals will be in the ending note
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I don’t know if you know this but I’m the furthest thing from a traditional girl I never dreamed of having a husband and kids or what my wedding would look like or fuck if anything I always planned on just eloping and calling it a day if I ever got married but now Im a changed woman I have my fairytale love story with my handsome prince of a fiancé who wants to give me the wedding of my non existent dreams 

After months of looking i finally found a wedding planner that wasn’t a stuck in dynasty era and did non traditional weddings and her portfolio was the best I’ve seen 

“So just going to ask some questions so we can start planning this wedding” “okay” Keigo says and we’re doing this on our lunch break because it was the only time she was available so he’s still kinda in work mode and it’s kinda hot “so what are we thinking about for the budget could be just an estimate right now” she asks and I haven’t thought about anything really so I don’t even know what anything cost “there isn’t one” he says crossing his legs “I’ve had people say that and when we to the point of paying for stuff it gets taken back so are you sure” “whatever she wants she gets it no matter what it cost that will also apply here” “okay” she says and looks at me with a “ikdr” look all over her face “okay so do we have a color scheme yet” “nope i honestly have no clue what i want for anything so that’ll probably answer most of your questions and i know that probably makes your job a lot harder” I say rambling “you’re right it does but it’s okay nothing to worry about you don’t wanna get married till the summer anyway we have time for you to figure out what you want” she says reassuring me “how about this you and your girlfriends have a girls weekend you watch say yes to the dress look through wedding dress books make a Pinterest board go try on dresses go to a florist see all the flowers and then come back and we can go from there” I don’t know why but this lady reminds me of my therapist like my solo therapist who also happens to be someone in my grad cohort why am I telling you so much today 

We leave and actually go get lunch “I feel like I wasted her time I should’ve started along time ago looking at wedding stuff” “you didn’t waste her time and like she said it’s okay” “and I don’t even know what I want I’m living the dream of having a mega rich husband who will pay for a moon wedding if I wanted it and I don’t even know the name of a flower and I don’t have any girlfriends like I have a few colleagues and a submissive and that’s it and Toyua would rather pull out all of his hair then to scrapbook with me all weekend” “Jessica who are you texting” “oh just Brittney” I say actually looking up at him “your cousin Brittney” “yeah who else” “your woman cousin who you talk to more than me” “I mean yeah but” “have you even told her we started planning” “no not really” “then what are you yapping about” “key and kany I live alone just came out” I say showing him on my phone “just ask her to help you” “she’s all the way in California how could she” “see if she could come down here” “that’s a lot I already have to have them coming down for the wedding” “tell her to just pack a bag I’ll take of the rest” 

I don’t talk about her much but Brittney is the only family member outside of my immediate family that I talk to pretty much everyday we’re both heavily in fandom spaces and it only bought us closer as we got older because we can be almost 30 girlies yelling about our favorite kpop groups and k dramas but we don’t really talk about life things only rare times when big family things happen or we really just need a impartial listener but our text threads are literally just a Korean media section of a news website so asking her to help with my wedding seems like a duh who else but still feel weird asf 

I FaceTime her and she picks up on the second ring “yo” she says putting her phone up against something “so I started wedding planning” “okay how is that going” “like shit” “yikes why” “I don’t know what I want and the planner recommended that I have a girls weekend or something to just throw myself in it but your literally my only same sex friend well cousin” “yeah where is this going” “will you come here and help me” “what” “I know it’s a lot and you probably have things to do” “no no I mean when I’m already upset I wasn’t here when you were here last time and the wedding is so far away” “fuck okay could you come this weekend” “yeah let me look at flights” “no no I’ll handle that just pack” I say excited 

We talk awhile longer before she hangs up to pack and I go and buy her tickets “oh I was just about to come looking for you” I say as he walks in the office “what ya need” he says sitting in my lap “your card for the plane ticket” “oh you asked her” he says typing his card info in the computer “yeah she comes Thursday” “yikes on kaoru day”he says looking back at me “Jordan has an exam this week so I gave us the week off” “you can do your job without him there you’ve done it for years now solo” he says laughing at me “I know but now without him there to do all the prep stuff it’s a lot I didn’t realize how much work that was so I gave myself a break too” “mmm it’s all set” 

“good now did you need something” “yes well not necessarily need something butttt” he gets up and walks in the room with two big bags “what is all of that” “so I went a bit crazy when I dropped you back off at work and i bought a bunch of wedding magazines dress magazines regular fashion magazines just in case I got a flower guide so you can see what you like the most I had yo look up a few dress stores that you can go to just let me and I can set that up oh and this is just a bunch of crafting stuff binders glue stickers paint markers” he says crouching infront of all the stuff “oh and I called your mom nem and my mom she can’t make it for the crafts but she said if you go dress shopping she’s dropping everything and coming down but both of your moms said yes they’ll be here Friday and Saturday me and zashi will be gone this weekend so you can have all the girl time” he keeps rambling on and on and I can’t help but to fall somehow even deeper in love than before he’s so attentive and I’m so glad this is the man I’m marrying 

 “and I don’t want you to think that I’m just putting all of the planning on you because I’m not but this day is more about you then me so after this weekend I’ll full in but i want you to know what you want first” “do you have any idea what you want” “absolutely” he pulls out a paper from the crafts bag and it’s scrapbook collage style on a piece of paper of random flowers and a huge 8 tier cake and with white flowers on it and a generic bride and groom with out faces pasted over theirs it’s all very fairy princess style “this isn’t my style at all but it is very beautiful like i know this is kinda just you fucking around but this is really good” “I know what did you expect your marrying a gay man” he says sitting back in my lap “true your doing the same old fashion lavender marriage” “ahhhhh not quite” “are you de validating my sexuality” “no not at all but I’ve been an openly gay man since I was 14 and like 6 people know that you like the same sex and your not a lesbian” “all three of those things are true and i have nothing to retort it so I’ll accept it” “my pretty princess knows when to give up” “don’t get used to it” 

After stress cleaning my whole house and putting a lock on the kink closet it was finally time to go get her 

I’m literally trying not to explode from how happy I am to see her I was 23 the last time we seen each other and 28 is creeping around the corner I get to the airport and drive to her airline thingy and damn near jump out the car while it’s running when I see her “ahhhh” we both scream when I get out the car we hug tightly rocking side to side and dancing “it’s been tooooo long why did grandma have to be a bitch to aunty” “I know she didn’t think that through at all” “not one bit but fuck her I wanna met the husband to be” “he’s at work now but he gets off soon he’ll meet us at the house” 

We talk the whole way home laughing catching up and I haven’t done this in a very long time and god I’ve missed it “I’m back” I say as we walk it still remains that no one on the American side knows the full extent of our relationship so the yell was really a warning 

“Hi princess” Keigo says coming from upstairs “hi baby you already kinda know each other but Keigo this is my favorite and only cousin Brittney and my Brittney this Keigo” “it’s nice to meet you” “why are you being so formal were family cutie” she says hugging him “oh okay” he says hugging her back “I was just about to ask about dinner recommendations zashi said it didn’t really matter” “um not in the mood for anything specific” “how about you anything you got a taste for” he asks Brittney “what’s your speciality” “katsudon” “okay whatever that is” she says “any food restrictions or allergies” “nahh” “okay katsudon it is” 

I show her to the guest room “girl your house is wayyy bigger than I thought” she says looking around the room “yeah everyone says that when they come here and I didn’t need all this house when I first got it but I will soon” “are you pregnant?!?”she says giving herself whiplash to look at me  “Hell no god no but I mean we do want kids and this will be a nice family home” “yeah it’s plenty of room for the Carter family to bloom-wait are you changing your last name” “I’m adding his don’t know what we’ll do for kids yet” “you can’t give up the legacy” “it’s not even your name why do care so much” I laugh at her “I mean yeah but still” “I mean it would generally be easier for the kid if they have his last name and mileena is a carter so Jordan’s babies will carry out the name” “I guess you're right” “so dramatic” “and you love me now get out I need to shower and change” “okay showers through that door meet us downstairs when you’re done” “okay” 

“Hey cut it out” I say walking in kitchen to the two of them making out “what a man can’t kiss his boyfriend anymore” Hizashi says going back in for a kiss “not while Brittney is here no” I says pushing him back from kei “ughhh Americans are not as open minded as they say they are” “yeah no shit” “hey quick question does she like hate me” “what no why would you say that she hugged you and called you cute as soon as she saw you” “yeah just feels like she doesn’t like me” “you’re being paranoid kei she can’t hate someone she barely knows” “I don’t know maybe I am” he says going back to cooking 

We all sat around the kitchen dining table and ate talked enjoying the time together “keigo this is really good” Brittney says “thanks it was my best friends favorite when we were kids so I used to cook it all the time” I could see it physically pained him to call Ken his friend so yes franky knows about Kenny but Brittney was aboard in college when all of that went down so she never met him or knows his relationship with Keigo “ahh that’s cool so you grew up and became vegan” she asks zashi see I told you we don’t talk about outside things often “oh no not me I’ve always been vegan both of my parents are so only thing I know” “sooo Brit Kei bought a whole bunch of craft supplies and my mom and well my mentor I guess is coming over tomorrow so we can start” I say changing the subject “fun how close are you with this mentor” “very she’s like my bonus mom in a way” “hmm okay” 

“Do I really have to sleep in the other room this is ridiculous she’s not going to come in here” Hizashi complains “I know but you never know and you two can’t keep you hands to yourself” “come on love please” he says trapping me in his hold “it’s just one night you two are leaving me tomorrow cuddle then” “you know 90% of the time I’m in your skin why are you depriving me of this” just then knock knock “yeah” “hey Kai is live” “really!?!?!” I says following her back to the guest room 

I ended up sleeping with Brittney and waking up to someone tapping me “Jess wake up” I don’t open my eyes because I know exactly who it is “nem what are you doing here” “wedding planning come on wake up we’re waiting downstairs for you” “what time is it” “1 in the afternoon” “did kei and zashi already leave” “you think your two love sick puppies are leaving before they can say goodbye” “okay let me yeah” I says getting out of bed half asleep “sleeping beauty is awake” “shut up hizashi” “ouch first you don’t sleep with me now this I’m not feeling the love my love” he gets me in his hold before I can make it to the bathroom “tell me you love me” “I love you hizashi you know that” “I know but I like to be reminded” he says leaning into kiss me “no I need to brush my teeth” “I’ve had your whole body in my mouth kiss me” he says leaning in and who am I to deny “knock knock you ready yet” my mom says walking in the room “saying knock knock isn’t a valid way to announce your self” “yes it is now come on still got sleep in your eyes hizashi Keigo is waiting for you downstairs” she says dragging me in the bathroom “don’t leave till I get a kiss from kei” I says to a leaving hizashi “you’re ridiculous he’s going to be gone two days you’ll survive”she says turning the water on handing me my toothbrush and toothpaste “i actually won’t I might spontaneously combust you don’t miss dad so much you feel like dying” I says brushing my teeth “when we were younger yes but I’ve been looking at that face for 29 years now I need a break sometimes” “that’s sad you should miss him more” “he never gives me time to and I like it that way” “eww that’s gross” “what” “old people in love” “girl wash your face shower and come downstairs” she says leaving the bathroom 

“Princess” “I’m sorry I’m taking forever”I say from the closet “it’s okay no need to rush but we do have to leave like 30 minutes ago but it’s okay” “sorrry” “don’t apologize just kiss me” “okay” have I ever told you how much i absolutely love this man?!? yes? well i ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS MAN “your mom decided your going to try on dresses today so I set all that up and my mom is also here her book club is not happy about it but she said she couldn’t miss seeing her favorite girl try on dresses” “I’m going to cry fuck” how can one girl be so lucky “hey no crying while I’m here or I won’t leave” “no go go I would say I’ll send you pictures but can’t” “your going to look beautiful in anything you try on” “what if it’s too big and yellow with green polka dots” “yikes that’s a lot but you would be as beautiful as ever” “I know you’re lying but thank you” “yeah you’re not marrying me in yellow and green dot” “I would never you think I should go white” “I mean we do be fucking” “fucking nasty” “but why not neither of us are religious so there’s no need for you to wear white if you find a really pretty dress that’s not” “yeah real but I think I want white wanna look like a pretty cloud” “very pretty princess” “KEIGO JESSICA COME ON” we hear from downstairs “I haven’t heard my mother speak that loud since I was young” “and I never hear it again come on” 

“Keigo go get out see you later” his mom says pushing him out the door “mom hold on i promise to go I swear” he says holding his hands up “2 seconds” “all I need 1 here” he says passing me his card “and 2 I love you princess have fun” he says kissing me and getting pushed out but everyone but me “you two have the rest of yours lives to spend together it’s girl time right now” his mom says locking the door “I thought you couldn’t come” “well I couldn’t it was my turn to host the book club and I couldn’t get out of it but then Janessa called said she was going to take you to look at dresses and I told them they could figure something out I wasn’t missing this” “your the only girl for us so yes we’re taking this very seriously” my mom says sitting me next to her on the couch 

“so are you thinking a more traditional gown or something more abstract or what” nem says “I have no clue” “are you wearing white” my mom asks “most likely yes” “have you looked at anything”tomie asks “nope” “did you forget you were getting married”Brit says “it’s been a busy year I haven’t had time to just stop and think about it” “it’s okay this is what this weekend is for sweetheart so first we’re going dress shopping” “yeah kei told me” “he said he bought you a white dress why aren’t you wearing it” “because I have no clue what youre talking about” “call him” “okayy” 

“Yes princess miss me already” “yes but where the dress you bought that nem just told me about” “right i knew it was reason i came upstairs it’s in your closet” “why are you ahhh okay okay i know where” “yeah i forgot to give it to you before we left” “okay thank you ttyl” “okay love you” “love ya more” “nem come with me” 

I go upstairs going in the kink room “why is the door locked” “made the room look normal just in case she saw the room I jammed everything in here and locked it” I say unlocking the door “your going to have to tell them one day” “nahh I don’t see them enough to care” I see the one and only white piece of clothing in the room and it’s very cutesy but still very me “you’ve trained him well” “ she says looking at the dress it’s the perfect cut fit and style i usually wear the only difference is it’s white “can you zip me” “turn”  

I look in the mirror while she zips me I feel emotional for some reason then I hear a sniff behind me “hey no crying” “I’m sorry ugh I’ll stop” she says tilting her head back “why are you crying already”I say wrapping my arms around her “it’s just I still remember the little baby that walked in my dungeon and now you're all grown up and getting married” “aw shit here comes the tears” I say feeling the burn in my eyes “no no save the tears for later” she says fanning my face “I’m so lucky to have you in my life nemuri” “I’m so glad you let me be apart of this” “you’re literally my second mom how could I not” “yeah but your actual mom and Keigo mom is here” “and I needed you here Keigo asked you as well if it was okay to marry me because you're that important to me I’m not doing this without you where would I be without my mistress” I say and she hugs me tightly “mmmm I sometimes feel like I birthed you and this is one of those moments” she says pulling back looking at me “come on let’s go try on dresses” 

We go to the bridal shop and I don’t know why i expected less it’s very upscale every dress is by a luxury designer “hello are you the takami party” the lady at the front desk says “yes” “hello and welcome I’ll be your shopping associate Tina today your husband to be already told us that your still in the very early stages of planning and you’re just window shopping today so we’ve prepared a selection of dresses all very basic in different styles just so you can start by picking a style and we can work from there” “okay” is all I can say I wasn’t prepared for this much organization and she wasn’t lying when we got to dressing room area there was like 10 dresses all very basic all in different styles from big and fluffy to form fitting “sweetheart try this one first” my mom say handing me a dress I can’t only describe as a quinceanera dress it was huge at the bottom with a cute corset top “okay tomie you pick the next nem then Brit saying the best for last” I say going in the dressing room

 I try it on with the help of the Tina and just from the mirror in there I knew this wasn't for me and the “ohhhhhhh okay” from my mom did not help at all “yeah it’s too big i feel like i'm being eaten by the dress” I say looking in the big three way mirror “I kinda like it” Brit says “Nono baby stop talking” my mom says “this style doesn’t really fit you so we can eliminate this one” Tina says taking a picture of me “I picked this one” tomie says handing me a dress 

It’s very pretty but very basic it’s a halter silk dress that I liked but not for my wedding “cute cute I like the style on you” nem says “if I go with this I want more going on at the bottom it’s so flat” “would you like to try a mermaid cut” Tina asks “yeah” 

I go back and try on standard mermaid style dress and it was beautiful “okay I like this shape ALOT” I say walking out in the dress “there’s no reason to try on any of styles” my mom says “okay let me pull a few” Tina says before disappearing to the land of dresses

And after an hour of trying on dresses none of them hit so much so that I was trying on anything and most of them were beautiful but not me in the slightest 

“We can always look somewhere else” nem says after I sit down for the first time in a hour and half “yeah that one dress was pretty but kinda too much for me” “the one with the bow” tomie asks “yeah” “you looked like a fairy princess in”my mom says showing me a picture of me in it “I did didn’t I” I say smiling at the picture “there’s a another shop like 15 minutes from here seems smaller but worth a try” “okay” 

We head to the other shop and smaller was right it was a family owned bridal shop that’s been here throughout generations “oh welcome in” an older lady says getting up from her chair “hello she’s looking for a wedding dress” tomie says “do you know what you want or want to take a look around” “we can look around thank you” I say “yes yes if you need anything let me know”

We look around and I’ve seen a lot of pretty dresses but none that really stand out “Jess right” a younger lady comes from thin air “yes” “im Yuki I’m sorry I wasn’t here at first I was in the back working on alterations but my mom told me you’re just looking right” “yes just looking everything here is beautiful” “oh none of this old stuff is going to work for you” she says and it makes me laugh “mom loves to stay in whatever decade this is from but I’ve been working on a few dresses and I think I have one that fits you perfectly” she says grabbing my hand and leading me to a work space and like love at first I saw the most ugly dress I’ve ever seen but like not in the ew why are you showing me this way but if you’re looking for a more traditional dress this isn’t for you “I really hope you’re talking about this one” I say getting closer to the mannequin “yup isn’t she the worst” she says standing beside me “more like the best is this part translucent” “yup on both sides” “can I try it on” “I would be sad if you didn’t” 

I try on the dress and it fit almost perfectly a bit too big at the top but who cares “I think this is my dress” I say looking at me in it “what dress oh my god you look beautiful” my mom says coming from behind a rack tomie gasped when she seen me and nemuri bussed out crying on Brittney shoulder “do you want it” “yes please” “okay let me do some measurements to make this dress perfect for you” 

Okay let me tell you about the dress it’s a mermaid dress made of entirely lace from the top to the bottom it’s kinda a cream color instead of a blinding white there’s clear mesh sleeves that have lace details two lace mesh cutouts on the hips and around the knees it flairs out to this beautiful train and my favorite part the veil it has scalloped edges with the same mesh and lace details as the dress that’ll drag behind me

While she was taking my measurements Toyua called me “hey hey” “let me see the dress” he says and I flip the camera to show in the mirror and I think he forgets I can still see him because I see his eyes watering “you were right it is perfect” “aww Toyua don’t cry then I’m going to cry” “I’m not going to cry why would I do that it’s not like my baby sister is getting married or anything and I’m emotionally over it” “baby sister? I’m two months younger than you” “point still stands you looks beautiful Jess” “this is the first sincere compliment I’ve ever gotten from you” “and it’ll be the last” “I love you Toyua but I gotta go” “yeah yeah love you too” 

I was almost sad to leave without the dress but she can’t come home with me yet “that dress was really beautiful on you” the older woman says while checking me out “my daughter is 100x better at me at this and I’m glad you’re the first person to wear her work down the aisle” she says with a proud smile “it’s a beautiful dress and I’m glad i came here” I say smiling back at her 

We go home and now that I know what the dress looks like the whole wedding is coming together in my head we craft we watch bridezilla and wedding based movies while we cut and paste things on a board 

It’s late and I’m getting ready for bed and Hizashi calls me “hey hey lovely” I says answering the phone from bed “were you sleeping” “no just laying down did you have fun today” “yeah I mean we haven’t done anything but still enjoying my time with kei how about you did you have fun trying on dresses” “yeah it was a lot but I found the PERFECT dress” “really that fast are you sure” “I’ve tried on a hundred of them and none of them spoke to me like that one did and it’s a one of one it was literally made for me” “okay let me see it” “ what no?!” “Why not I’m not the one you’re marrying” “yeah okay and your still my boyfriend and you have to be just as surprised as my husband” “okay okay keep your secrets” “speaking of where is he” “shower” “this late” “he didn’t wanna go to sleep sticky” “what did you never mind don’t tell me” “all I will tell you is it was fun” 

It’s the next day and we’re going to look at flowers because looking at the book is fine but I need to see them in person to see if they fit what I want 

The place was filled with really pretty flowers I have a very not weird not annoying non dramatic vamp theme in mind and you would think red roses * wrong buzzer noise* wrong answer I’m thinking dark reds black gold and me in white dress Hizashi black suit red shirt gold accessories Keigo either black suit or dark red suit and whatever color he doesn’t wear our counterparts will wear (Touya and Rumi) no I haven’t run any of this by Keigo yet but everyone loves the idea so far so I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it “these lilies are beautiful” I say not taking my eyes off of them I know what I just said vamp theme and lilies don’t match but the bright pink would look so pretty with my dress “for the whole venue or just bouquet” “just for me” “can I have a dozen of these and the white rose” I say to the flourist “6 each” “yes thank you” “I’ll do white roses all over the venue” “very vampire princess of you” nem says “I know right” 

Watching everyone leave Sunday morning was kinda sad I got so used to being with them all day especially Brittney that now I’m sad they’re leaving me but not for long “mm missed you too princess” Keigo says while I hug him before he even got in the door “I have so much to show you” I says dragging him to the living room where there’s a huge poster board covered in exactly what I want from place setting to chair type “did all this in two days huh” “yes I know you wanted something more light and pretty but” “princess I’ve always know this was exactly what our wedding was going to look like from the moment I asked to marry you” he says looking at it deeper to really take it in “I mean if there’s something you wanna change tell me I don’t want you to have no say” “only thing I wanna change is I’m not wearing a black suit I’ll go with the red” “okay tell rumi she has to find a black dress” “any specific style” “no just as long she's comfortable” “okay cool i like it i wish i could see the dress you picked” “you’ll see it inna year” i say kissing him “that’s too long” “i know but i can show you the other dresses” I says pulling my phone out “oh no yeah i had a great time this weekend thanks for asking” zashi says coming in the living room “I know you did come look at me in the dresses I didn’t choose” 

“Am I gonna make it through this ceremony without crying you look so beautiful why didn’t you choose this one” Keigo says staring at the one dress that i thought about getting the one with the bow “you’re required to cry btw and it’s a beautiful dress but the actual one is to die for” “just let us see it” “no zashi so impatient” “this is why you should’ve made me your whatever in honor I wanna see what you chose” “Toyua loved the dress” “now that’s not fair” “he’s literally my best man of course he saw it” “just a peek” kei says laying his head on my shoulder “no you gotta wait” “literally isn’t fair”he says pouting 

Walking into the planners office with my huge poster board and a new sense of pride “someone’s been busy” she says smiling at me holding it up “yes I have and I’m excited” “okay walk me through it” she says getting a closer look “first do you wanna see the dress” “you found a dress already” “yes” “let me see” I show her and I can tell kei wants to peek but he stays a distance away from us “the perfect dress who's the designer” “her name is yuki her and her mom have this cute bridal shop and most of the dresses are made in house and she made it” “wow that’s beautiful so a one of one” “yup” “okay then let’s start talking venues” 

Notes:

brittney is a copy of my actual cousin and i love her dearly

flowers-https://pin.it/67jGYpyU8
dresses tried on-https://pin.it/7ksEyAoRd
https://pin.it/8Ew7GV2oC
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the almost dress-https://pin.it/5MNJqtZYi,https://pin.it/73Vx6yg2W
the dress-https://pin.it/4zNLjSUUE
general color scheme-https://pin.it/5noYOBZXI

Chapter 78: Extra #14

Notes:

Hello loves ✨okay so I really loved this idea at first and then I didn’t but it was too late to scrape it so I’ll post it as an extra🫩

I graduated next week so prep for that has been ALOT hopefully I get inspired soon

Jess and kaoru have a set schedule week by week planned out so there’s no real surprises anymore it’s been a year now and other than that one time they don’t see each other outside of AD but kaoru has been a the goodest of all good girls so she got to pick her reward and she wanted a sleepover “I don’t know angel”Jess says playing with her hair  “come on madam you said whatever I wanted” she says looking up at her “yeah I was expecting well anything but that” “please I’ll be a good girl and not try anything I just wanna cuddle and spend time together” “let me think about I’ll give you an answer tomorrow” “okay I’ll take it” 

Kaoru knows she has to run it by Keigo first but she’s really hoping he’s cool with it because she just wants have a taste of what he has all the time 

From: Madam Jess🩷

I’ll see you this weekend angel 

If she wasn’t at work kaoru would’ve jumped in the air and danced around 

She cleaned her house made room for jess to put her things and watched the clock till she heard a knock on the door “coming” she says running to the door “Hihii” she says with a big ol’ smile on her face when she opens the door “hi angel” jess is in very casual clothes a old  university hoodie and sweatpants it made her wanna crawl in her clothes and become apart of her “come in” she says moving out the doorway to let her in “have you eaten yet” jess says putting down her duffle “no I was waiting for you to get here” “good I cooked for you” jess says pulling out tupperware from a bag “really” kaoru was looking at all of the side dishes that were pulled out “yeah well if I’m being honest kei made most of the sides but I remember you saying you were craving a bento sooo” she hands her a pink metal container and when she opens it its a pochacco themed box “I seen that you had a keychain of him on your bag so I guessed you liked him” jess says “yeah he’s my favorite thank you” “no problem angel but he took up a lot of space so that’s why everything else is separate” “thank you” 

They ate talked a bit and ended up on the couch watching a movie kaoru got her wish of being in jess clothes well kinda she’s laying on top of her arms wrapped around her under the hoodie she’s living her best life being able be surrounded in Jess’s smell she wish she could always be basking in the scent “angel…kaoru” “mmm” “wanna move to the bedroom” “noo don’t wanna sleep haven’t spent enough time” she was sleep but was fighting it because tomorrow jess was back to a once a week experience “hey come on we can cuddle in bed okay” kaoru gets up and goes to the room jess takes the hoodie off putting it on couch and following her

Under the sweats jess had on a shirt and shorts so she just got in the bed with kaoru and the less of a barrier between them made kaoru wanna be even closer as much as she wanted more she held to her promise of being good and not trying anything 

The next morning she woke up before Jess the feeling of waking up to a person spooning her was the best thing ever honestly she turns in her arms just looking at a sleeping Jess just a pretty as when she’s awake and bossing her around 

It was an easy decision to pick Jess as her dom did she get denied my every dom in after dark first yes but she’d seen Jess before they met in the consultation room she walked in with so much power and grace she prayed a small prayer that she was the dom she was meeting that day and when she walked in and saw Jess she hopped to God she didn’t get denied again 

The first session they had she left feeling euphoric it was the first time everything she wanted was done nothing and no one could ever replace her madam 

Is it safe to say she was a bit teeny tiny obsessed with her madam yes but not stalking her obsessed but she definitely sees why Keigo made her change her name because shit she would do the same 

Jess was like a celebrity she worshiped she could do no wrong 

“Angel”Jess says breaking kaoru out of her thoughts “hmm” “your hand angel” “huh oh I’m sorry” kaoru was so locked out from reality she didn’t even notice her hand made its way into her shorts resting on her butt “I zoned out I’m sorry” “it’s okay angel you’re too pretty for me to care”she says moving her hand back but over the shorts this time “how long have you been up” she says moving them closer together legs lock together “not long” “mmm whatcha wanna do today” “you’re staying?” “Yeah for a bit I don’t wanna leave you so early” “oh I don’t know I didn’t plan anything” she didn’t think Jess was staying pass breakfast so she kinda just planned to miss her all day “we could always just lay around together maybe finish that movie” “that sounds fun” kaoru looks up at Jess with a smile “you’re cute” she says kissing her she kissed me AHAHAHSHAHDVSJAKSIDBFUSOSK act normal be real chill about it “can I have another” “maybe later” 

They ate breakfast finished that movie cuddled a bunch and late afternoon “angel i have to go now” “nooo” kaoru holds on to jess tighter “i know we’ve had so much fun” “then don’t leave yet please” “i have stuff to do tomorrow i can’t stay another day” she pouts and lays back on her “come on angel” “okayyyyy” she says getting off of jess arms crossed “you’ve been such a good girl this whole time i would hate for you to ruin that” “not my fault you’re leaving me” “how about this go get ready and we go out for a early dinner” “really?!” “Yeah go get ready” 

⚠️CnC coming up⚠️

Kaoru gets all dolled up curling her hair putting on a bit of makeup “you look pretty kaoru” jess says looking at her from the bathroom door and the pout was back “what I complimented you” “you called my kaoru” “that is your name isn’t it” “yeah but only madam calls me that” “oh my angel are you scared of madam” Jess gets closer to her trapping her between her and the sink “no” “are you sure kaoru? Because you seem scared what’s your favorite color angel” jess knew exactly what she was doing kaoru is always boarding subspace when they’re together she just has to push her “I am…green”with that simple affirmation Jess was gone madam took over “you’re what kaoru” “scared” “why” “because you’re mean” “I’m mean ouch you wound me” “you are I want Jess back” “it’s been so long since I’ve been able to play with my pretty doll and you want me to leave already” madam says hand sliding down her leg and under the dress “no please stop” she says trying to stop madams hand “telling me not to touch what’s rightfully mine you’ve forgotten everything I taught you haven’t you” “I haven’t I swear just not today” “why because you got so pretty for Jess and you don’t wanna ruin it” “yes please madam I’ll be your good girl endure whatever you want” her pleas fell on deaf ears when she was dragged to the bed roughly by her arm “you were gonna do that anyway” Jess thought quickly things were moving fast and she wanted it to be fun and effective 

Kaoru found herself hand tied behind her back with the shirt she wore to bed her dress hiked up ass on full display squirming under the weight of madam “you try so hard to look sweet and innocent when you know you’re enjoying this” a swift and impactful hit on her right asscheck rang through the room “please it hurts” she says trying to turn away “oh it hurts doll” “yes so much” “oh I’m sorry let me try again” another hit on the left side and  the crying started full tears coming out of her eyes making her makeup run “oops did I make you cry doll i guess you’re too ruined for that cute little date you had planned oh well I just keep going” 

the hits didn’t stop till her ass was red and welted in the shape of madam fingers and palm “who do you belong to doll” is the first thing she hears other than skin hitting skin “you madam” she says with a wince as madam squeezes her ass “good girl now get up and go get pretty Jess isn’t gonna wait much longer” her wrists are free and she gets up slowly fixing her clothes and going to the bathroom 

She no longer looked pretty she looked ruined fucked out if you will her hair was a fuzzy mess makeup ruined from the tears and being pressed against the mattress “you want help” Jess says walking in and she has no words in her so all she conjured was a nod “okay” and with a small kiss on the shoulder she was treated like a princess Jess redid her makeup for her re curled her hair while praising her through the whole process 

It was the best aftercare she’s ever gotten

While leaving subspace she felt sleep wanting to take over her “hey angel no sleep yet” “I won’t sleep just resting my eyes” she says head feeling to heavy to keep up “you’re cute come on I wanna show off my pretty girl” she says making her stand “am I your pretty girl” “the one and only” 

They go out to a restaurant together it’s nice and kaoru is loving the feeling of being the object of jess desires the small touches under the table picking and ordering what she was eating it all left her feeling like the only girl in the world 

But no matter how she felt she knew it was all going to come to an end soon “sorry one second angel hey love” she answered the phone and the attention was away from her “yes I’ll be home tonight” she heard a very whiny voice coming from the phone and could only guess it’s Keigo “I’ll see you later I’m still with my angel yes yes baby whatever you want okay okay I love you too” my angel she calls me her angel to other people “why are you smiling so hard”she says putting her phone down “you called me your angel to your fiancé” “because you are i don’t care who asks you’re mine” her sharp nails digging in her thigh pushed her right back into subspace “ain’t that right angel” “yes ma'am” “good girl” 

The drive home, Kaoru was thinking of ways to get her to stay longer, maybe even another night but nothing sounded like it would work “angel” “yes?” “Remember that toy I bought you the fansty one” yeah the one still sitting in the box because it was so intimidating “yes” “I never got that video of you using it” “because I never used it it’s a bit scary” “you say the same thing about madam and you still beg her to cum” she says a red light looking at her “i mean you're not wrong” “i know i'm not you’re using it tonight if i don’t receive the video by sunset im extending your session time” now that may sound like a good thing more time together but no the last time she extended the time she had to call out of work for three days “i'll do it i promise” “i know you will” she says pulling up to her house 

Kaoru reaches to get out of the car only to be pulled back “i promised you one more kiss” she says kissing her one last time “I’ll see you soon” “yes see you Thursday”

Kaoru gets upstairs and the first thing she sees in her home is Jess hoodie that she arrived in yesterday the rational part of her brain said call her and say she left it but the other not so rational part takes it to her room lays it on the bed and after showering slips into it 

It still smells like her a mix of Jess perfume and now her body wash it was comforting at first but after the 6th deep inhale of the scent of the hoodie it started to push her into submission slightly 

Looking in the mirror and seeing it’s a bit oversized from being old and well loved the elastic in the waistband is blown out so it lays flat mid butt the sleeves to long

She goes in her closet and gets the unused toy “how is this gonna even fit in me” she says to herself walking over to the bed she unboxes it gives it a quick clean and set up her camera on the dresser in front of her bed she’s scared that it won’t fit so she using a lot of lube on the toy and in herself “okay here goes” she thinks sitting on it would be best and it takes awhile but it slowly but surely she gets the full thing in feeling the base against her clit she wants to grind on it but she knows better than to do that “fuck madam it’s all in” she says pulling the bottom of the hoodie up to show it off 

She rides it till her thighs burn and she’s left with a painful reminder of earlier “fuck I’m so close” then she remembers there was no permission to cum tonight she pulls out before she came catching her breath fighting her body to keep going and reach the happy ending 

After recovering she gets up turn the video off sends it then cleans up and heads to bed 

The only response she got all week was a heart on the message and a session reminder from Jordan. It's Thursday afternoon and usually she’s excited but not so much today the lack of response really had her down. Did she do a good job?Was it good enough? Did she do something wrong? 

Work was over and she headed to after dark but not with her usual enthusiasm when saki comes to take her to the room Jordan picks up on her vibe being off “what’s wrong” he says smile dropping as soon as he sees her “nothing I’m okay” “no your not kaoru what is it if she did something I will go yell at her I can do that” he says sitting her down “nothing really it’s dumb” “no it not whatever you have planned today isn’t happening till I go yell at her what happened” Jordan and Jess are like the same person the moment they tell someone isn’t being themselves they’re doing everything in their power to fix it “it’s dumb but I was told to send a video to her and she barely responded to it just hearted it and i don’t know” “you stay here I’ll be back” she sits there while Jordan walks out the room determined 

“Jessica” he says walking into shota and nemuri office “I swear I didn’t do anything” she says holding her hands up “yes you did and you’re gonna fix it now”he says grabbing her hand dragging her out the room “woah woah woah what did I do” she says stopping them in the hallway “you made kaoru sad cancel whatever you had planned and fix it now” “I did what I was just with her” she says walking down the hallway to her room “angel what did I do” she says squatting in front of kaoru “you didn’t respond to my video” she says with a pout on her face “huh I did Jordan phone” she says reaching out behind her “I heart it then I said good girl angel I swear….fuck okay this is my fault” she turns the phone around and the message is still sitting there emojis and all “I’m so sorry i shouldn’t made you do that you were fully in subspace and I left you hanging I’m so sorry” once Jess notices her mistake the physical contact went away she gave kaoru space and the moment it registered in kaoru mind she reaches out for her

 “angel im so sorry will you ever forgive me” Jess says wrapping her arms around her waist laying her head on her lap “i can” “anything so I can make up for my mistake” “praise me was such a good girl” “okay I’ll leave you too it” Jordan says leaving as fast as humanly possible “you were such a good girl my pretty girl you look better in that hoodie then I ever have” she says looking her right in the eyes “I missed you” “I missed you too angel and the image of you crying and calling out for me while wearing my clothes has made me wish today got here faster” “would it be weird if I told you I've worn it every night since” “no it wouldn’t do you want another” “maybe”the smile on kaoru face was bright “hmm I’ll discuss it with madam and see what she thinks” anddddd the smile was gone

 “why she already marked me enough” “hey she runs the show” “i sometimes forget you’re both of these people we talk about and you just like making me cry” “aw doll you’re the prettiest when you cry” “nooo jess please” “nope get naked quickly” madam say getting up “no” she says crossing her arms causing madam to stop in her tracks “I’m sorry I don’t think I heard you” “I said no” “oh doll” “I don’t wanna I’m wearing my favorite color today” “and what color is that” “green” and the fun started and the session got extended but it was a good thing this time ;) 

“Did I earn a new hoodie” kaoru asks before they leave out of the room “bring back the other one and we’ll switch out” “I can’t keep it” “seee that one wasn’t mine” “oh whose is it” “me and kei went to the same university and his first boyfriend as well and well he’s not longer with us and that was the last thing he gave me so I kinda need that back” “why didn’t you say that i wouldn’t have wore your dead friends hoodie to get off in”she says freaking out making Jess laugh “it’s okay I just need it back I’ll give you a different one that you can keep” “okay I’ll bring it  Thursday” 

Chapter 79

Notes:

HELLO LOVES✨ it’s been 84 years but i have good excuse….i graduated from uni (finally) went on vacation have been settling in back to yk living in my home so ive been really slow with writing and no real ideas….but I have been feeling a lot of emotions related to greif that I still struggle with and I felt the best way to express it (in a fictional way) was to give the little people in my phone hardships🤭
So fair warning this maybe need a content warning of character death but it’s not major or anything so if you really just don’t vibe with that that’s okay this was really self indulgent

Anyways I hope you enjoy 💃🏽

Me and Jordan was i need of some mom time you know now that we can do that “Jess hand me the flour please” my mom ask “here you go” “mom franky is calling you”Jordan says handing her the phone “hey frank…what…..shit…okay okay umm let figure everything out and I’ll call you back okay love you bye” three things I’ve heard my mother curse about 10 times in my whole life two I know just as much as anyone else that was big sister Janessa on that phone and three something bad happened “so um my mother died” she says with a long sigh and a chuckle “what when” “last night or this morning don’t really know yet”she looks lost and on autopilot while she continues cooking me and Jordan hugs her because we know what it’s like to be estranged from our mom and that call would’ve broken me no matter how much i didn’t like her “aww babies I’m okay i promise” she says leaning her head on mine “whatever you need we’re here for you” “since you said that can you get a head start on the dishes” “anything but that” Jordan says making her laugh “franky doesn’t seem okay and I know after the last visit haven’t been on the greatest terms with her but be nice” 

The rest of the day had a big rain cloud over it no matter the joke or hug or the couch cuddle the cloud of her being gone weighed on us all “it’s a great sight to come home and all of my favorite people are together” my father says walking into the living room and there is no love stronger than the love James and Janessa have the moment she laid eyes on him she broke down “hey hey what’s going on” he says embracing her in a tight hug “she’s gone James” “who nessa talk to me” “her mom dad” Jordan says when he noticed she wouldn’t be able to 

His face was understanding he knew how much this hurt her and her knew that in this moment he had to be the strong one because now his entire family was crying and seeking his comfort he whispered small “it’s okay” and somehow held us all 

After awhile when we were all sniffles and drying eyes mom and dad went upstairs and we sent not coming tonight texts

“I’ve never seen her cry like that” I say staring at the wall “I have… after your graduation she cried like that for like a week she thought she pushed you away like she did…her mom” he says and my grip on the sleeve of his shirt got tighter “hey I got your mom down how are you two feeling” “I’m more sad about mom crying than anything”Jordan says sitting up from my lap “Jess” “huh oh I’m okay” “Jessica” “what I’m okay I swear” 

One of my “best” skills is keeping everything inside and putting on a smile so everyone around me thinks I’m okay because the last thing I want is for anyone to worry about me because then I’m a burden and I don’t wanna be a burden “princess” “huh sorry” I say coming back to reality rolling down the car window “how long have you just been sitting here”he says opening the car door “I don’t know honestly I kinda auto piloted all the way here” “you okay” “yeah yeah just was a long night” “okay come in the house” 

“I don’t know why I care I didn’t know the lady I’ve met her once for like 20 minutes she put my mother out for having me said I was gonna ruin her life why do I feel so out of it” I say pacing my therapist office “I mean you had a complicated relationship with your mother and all of this is making you think about if you got that call” “but I didn’t she’s here with me crying and not going to work over a women who treated her like shit and i don’t understand it” “let’s think here if you were in here shoes and you never made up and Jordan made that call would you not be crying and calling out of work” I start to speak but nothing came out of my mouth “exactly you can feel whatever you want about the lady you didn’t know her and she didn’t know you but for your mom you gotta be understanding even though she was an objectively bad mom to her children she was still their mother” “Nozumi I get that I do I really do and I’m gonna be there for my mom but why do I care so much” “because there’s a small tiny part of you that’s hurts that you missed out on knowing her don’t look at me like that you can say you hate her but you don’t know her and now you know you never will” “nozumiiiiiiiiiii”i say fully laying back on the couch “jessicaaaaa don’t act dense you knew this already” right I’ve mentioned it before but we went to grad school together so session are very informal “I know it sucks but you gotta accept that feeling and move on be there for your mom and aunt and stop disassociating when you drive that’s dangerous what is wrong with you” “I swear I don’t even remember leaving my parents house everything has just been I don’t know I’ve been in my head and no where else so everything around me is not there” “well on coming traffic is always there so stop it”

Me and Jordan are back at our parents house cooking to make sure mom eats while dad is at work “I reached out to everyone to tell them that we’ll be out of service for awhile kaoru was the only one that responded so far” “yeah she texted me earlier I need to call sho to ask if he could take over with angel while I’m away” “can you be real when I ask this” “what’s up” “are you okay” “honestly…no I keep thinking about if I was in her shoes and I wanna be like girl get up why do you care but if you called me while we were no contact i would’ve been worst honest to god” i quickly wipe away the tears that slipped through “you don’t have to hide from me Jess I’m your brother I get it” he says side hugging me and laying his head on my shoulder “I know it’s just hard Ive always been the strong responsible one” “you’ve never been either of those things but okay” “shut up don’t you have a class to get to” “I do actually are you going to be able to stay till dad get home” “yeah I got her don’t worry about it” “okay text me if you need me” 

I finish cooking and take it upstairs to my mother “hey mama lunch time” I say walking in with a full tray of food “I’m not really that hungry sweetheart but thank you” she says sitting up in bed “come on dad told me you wouldn’t eat last night or this morning” “just don’t really have an appetite” “okay so you sit and watch me eat it then” I say sitting on the bed next to her with the food it’s an old tactic that she would use on us as kids when we didn’t want to eat seeing someone else eat typically makes you want to do the same

 “so how you feeling” “Jess I love you but I don’t need a therapist right now” “trust me I’m not losing my license today I’m just asking mother to daughter how are you” I eat piece of fruit and she sighs “I feel stupid for lack of a better word” “why stupid” “im sitting here mopping around about a women that hated me and threw me away when my life deferred from her plan for me I didn’t care if she lived or died and now that the latter has happened I feel stupid for feeling sadness” “you’re not stupid regardless she was you’re mom and before dad came along and hypnotized you… you cared about her, cared about what she thought about you, if she was proud of you, If she loved you and now that she’s gone you won’t get those answers you can always guess but you won’t know for sure” “Jessica look at me” she says turning my head to her wiping away tears I didn’t even know came out “I think the world of you you’re my one true pride in this life and it killed me that I was turning into the person I ran away from I prayed everyday that there was a day that you would give me another chance and I will never become a person you want to run from every again” she’s crying I’m crying we’re all crying 

“and you’re right I do wonder if she would be truly proud of the woman I became or if she still thinks I threw away my life by having you…that’s the main reason I never talked to her again…the first time I saw your face I knew I had a purpose in this life outside of school and work and I’ve loved everyday of being your mother and if she couldn’t understand that then I didn’t need her…I tried talking to her when we moved back to the states and she wouldn’t even look at me she acted like I didn’t exist and I’m trying to figure why I can’t just act like she doesn’t exist I did everything she’s ever wanted from me graduated top of my class I’m a lawyer at a great firm kids marriage I may have done in an order she didn’t think of but I did it and the love she had for me was conditional and once her condition wasn’t  met I was in the trash…yet and still I’m sad and grieving a women that hated me” she says eating the ramen I made her “this is really good” “miss I don’t have an appetite” “hey I’m fragile right now” “I need a nap with all of this crying” “ain’t that the truth” 

It’s been two weeks since the call and I’m on a plane to California as much as I need Keigo and zashi they weren’t able to come with me but thankfully touya was 

Were mainly here for appearances and franky is not taking this well at all 

“Hey love you made it safely” zashi says when he answered the phone “yeah I wish you were here with me” “I know I wish I could be there but I couldn’t find anyone to cover me” “I know it’s okay don’t worry about it can you make sure to take the food I made to switch tonight they’ve been working nonstop on whatever they’re making and I know he’s not eating well” “you made enough to feed an army I’ll make them all eat till they’re full and force them to go home” “just like I taught you” I say with a small smile “I got it mama all I need you to worry about us making it through the funeral ” “yeah not looking forward to it” “well you have your original safety blanket with you” “did I just get called a blanket” Toyua says from beside me “you did and you are” I say laying on his shoulder “I’m sorry to cut it short but I gotta go love I love you so much” “okay I love you more” 

My insomnia has been the worst it’s been since grad school and to not disturb Toyua who is peacefully sleeping I’m sitting on the balcony we’re not to far from the beach and the waves crashing into the shore is soothing background to my staring off into the distance wishing this wasn’t the reason I was back here 

My brain went to a dark place for a second and to bring it back I called the only person that really matters “hey princess is everything okay it’s late there” Keigo says looking concerned at the screen “* snif * I can’t sleep…again” I say wiping the tears that fell once I seen him “fuck I should be there with you”I instantly feel bad because I can see that he’s still at work the team somewhere in the back talking amongst themselves “no no it’s okay don’t worry about it” “Jessica don’t do that with me if you want me there say it and I’ll drop everything and be there” the tears burn when they come out and my throat feels tight “but you have work and stuff that’s more important it’s okay” I say putting on a fake smile that he saw right through “Jess baby youre never a burden and there’s nothing more important than you just say the words” it takes me awhile to get them out but “I need you here please” “I’ll be there as soon as I can” 

I stayed on the phone with him till the plane was about to take off I did eventually fall asleep sleeping longer than I probably should’ve but crying is exhausting so I’m giving myself some grace here “come on Jess let’s go get food” Jordan says trying to get me out of bed “I’ve tried that already she’s not gonna get out that bed till her bladder threatens to explode” Toyua says from across the room “please Jess I know this all sucks but I don’t wanna go out alone and mom and dad left to get stuff ready for tomorrow” he’s using his baby brother tricks to get me out the bed”take Toyua” I say from under the blanket “he already went to eat come onnnnnnn” he says rocking me in the bed“what time is it” I say pulling the blanket down “3:30” “okay I have to get ready”

I get out of bed and I put on nothing essential I only packed a real outfit for the funeral and that’s it everything else is just sweats because I don’t even have the motivation to put together an outfit 

We go and eat somewhere close and well mostly he’s eating and I’m staring at the plate like it had all the answers to the universe “Jordan you remember when your pet fish died” “umm yeah” “and you wouldn’t sleep in your own room because that’s where it happened so you'd crawl in my bed every night” I say with a smile on my face “ahhh yes Kevin the fish” we laugh “yeah Kevin the fish…I don’t know why I just remembered that” “maybe because you haven’t been able to sleep and you don’t have anyone’s bed to crawl into to shield you from the scary truth of death” “shit Jordan I’m supposed to be the emo rager sibling” “yeah but I’m the philosophy sibling deal with it and eat your food before I do” “keep your hands over there” I say taking the first bite 

Walking back in the in the hotel lobby I didn’t expect him but there he was “there’s my girl” kei says getting up and hugging me you don’t know how much you miss a person till they’re in front of you “Keigo when did you get here” Jordan asks “about 30 minutes ago everyone was out so I just sat down here hey princess” he says bringing my face off his shoulder to look at me “hey princess” I say back making him smile “think you funny” “alittle” in this moment nothing else mattered even before we came here I barely seen him because they’re testing a new product so I’ve seen him like 3 times since we got the news “I’ve known you for a decade now and this maybe the worst I’ve seen you what the hell is this outfit” “hey” I say hitting his shoulder “like princess you left here just looking crazy” “I’m a grieving lady clothes are the least of my worries right now” “now that I’m here with you it’s my top worry let’s get you upstairs immediately” he’s not just being a dick he’s giving me normalcy our first big bonding moments were over fashion and honestly I’m glad Joan rivers isn’t here because I look a mess I’m pretty sure these sweatpants are zashi’s because they’re pooling at my ankles and this vintage band tee looks it’s age 

We’re sitting on the same balcony I called from this morning the waves still crashing into the shore doing more soothing now that I’m in the arms of my love “I chose a terrible time  to be busy with work wasn’t there for my princess” he says kissing my shoulder “I honestly didn’t think I would care so much” “ I mean you didn’t know her” “exactly I’ve seen her once and she only cared if I was married and what my job was didn’t even ask how my mom was” “I don’t know how she could ever hate her child like that like my dad was an abusive asshole but she may have him beat” “abuse is abuse but it’s crazy to me maybe because it’s a different time but I couldn’t imagine disowning my child because of a mistake” “what did franky do to get disowned” “ahh so my mom got pregnant and ran away to japan so the biggest rebellion was already done so franky decided to do everything by the book finished med school got married a man her mom picked out got pregnant and divorced two years later apparently it was the talk of the town first her oldest gets pregnant and leaves the country now the youngest is getting divorced she was the laughingstock of her social circle so that meant franky had to go too” 

“wooooow I wish you got to tell her that you’re a dom and have a husband and a boyfriend” “would’ve sent her into an earlier grave” “even though I know you never will here and now we have to promise we won't disown our child no matter what they do” he holds his pinky out I got to lock it and pull it back “even if they don’t like metal” he nods “but what if they’re normies” “still gotta love those normalbob babies” “oh. My. God. even if they’re straight”he pulls his pinky back too “ahhhhhhhhhhhhh we may have to discuss it then because what would we talk to them about sports” “SEE” “no no we gotta love them even if they’re straight” he says putting the pinky back out “okay but as long as they don’t bring it around us” I say locking pinkies “yeah don’t want the straight to rub off on me” he says with a shake 

I was able to sleep soundly and be prepared for the emotional fuck fest of today and honestly I didn’t know what the turn out would be but it wasn’t this “I don’t know how U.S. funerals work is there supposed to only be immediate family here”keigo whispers to me “um no” now I don’t know this lady but when I say only me my parents Jordan Toyua Keigo franky and Brittney are the only people here in this church “are we here too early or something” I ask my mom “nope I guess that the people she wanted to impress so bad didn’t give a damn if she lived or died” she say with a a slight bitter tone in her voice “nessa why isn’t anyone here I told everyone in her phone”franky someone that I’ve never seen without a big ol’ smile on her face looks like she’s been crying for weeks “Frank i don’t know the viewing started 10 minutes ago” “in the end the people she pushed away is the only ones here for her” 

Another 10ish minutes go by and we hear the doors open and a tall man walks through the door and I instantly recognize him from pictures and the fact that my mom and Franky looks just like him it’s my grandfather he left his wife when my mom was like 7 and if it wasn’t for his constant deployment at the time he would’ve gotten full custody of them with the divorce 

We’ve met him a few times when we were younger he’s a great guy and the complete opposite of his ex wife he felt the same pressure she put on the kids and left with no victory of getting his girls away from it “this seems about right” he says sitting in between his daughters “everyone she thought cared about her didn’t and the ones she pushed away are here” he has his arms around both of them and it made me realize that no matter how old we get we’re all someone’s child and it feels good to see my mom have some type of parental love “so which one of you swirled was it you Frank because James is holding it down” “what are you talking about” she says laughing at the question he tilts his head over at Keigo and Toyua and the confused look on both of their faces make me laugh “oh oh no that’s Jessica’s fiancé and friend from back home”my mom says also laughing “ahhhh which one is marrying my grandbaby” “me”Keigo says with all the confidence in the world “make sure to treat her right because I won’t hesitate to get on a flight” “yes sir” “now let’s get out of here ain’t no use in wasting more time here we can go get food” he says standing and we all just followed 

And we heard back from the church that no else came to see her they started the burial processes but we were already elbow deep in our second course at this fancy restaurant that I’m pretty sure I seen meryl streep when we were going to our seat  

The experience of this whole thing has been a emotional roller coaster and in the end it bought my family closer making us realize that even though our family story isn’t picture perfect but it’s ours to grow and nurture 

Does that mean now my mom is more present than she already is yes and our weekly lunch and shopping days are back in full effect :)))

Notes:

When I said fictional way i meant it I don’t feel that way about my aunt at all but I did not want to take out franky because she has some staple parts coming up in the future so estranged gma it is🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

Chapter 80

Notes:

HELLO LOVESSS✨✨✨✨✨✨I’m back kinda it’s been forever and a day but life has been lifeing so I haven’t had as much time to write but here’s a new chapter and I’m working on a new one currently

So happy holidays 🎁

Alt title Babygirl

When I’m at work I'm a cool , relaxed, chill boss that all of my staff love and I’m not just saying that when was the last time you begged your CEO to go out to dinner exactly. I'm respected and loved and honestly I would love to keep it that way. 

The day is busy I’ve had 3 meetings two separate product test and other very important very impressive things “hey Keigo your 3:00 is here” Yo says through the phone sounding more happy than usual “thank you send them in” I finish up the last of an email when the door opens I stand to greet this person that just HAD to have a meeting today when he walks in the tailoring on the suit is what caught my eye first it’s a navy blue suit it fits perfectly showing off his long arms and legs “good afternoon it’s nice to meet you” he reaches his hand out to me when he reaches my desk I shake his hand and I’m the last to let go we sit and I clear my throat “so you’ve been trying to get on my schedule for awhile now I hope whatever it is you want to sell me is worth the trouble” I say crossing my legs and leaning back in the chair “oh i promise that it is” “okay let me hear it” “you’re a big company everyone knows and loves you but I think I can help you be a household name”he says leaning forward “and how can you do that” I say doing the same “do you trust me” “I barely know you” “oh come on baby don’t be like that” 

See this man is hot like drop dead gorgeous so I’ve been trying my hardest to keep my head in the game I’m at work for christ sake but the way he called me baby made me fidget in my seat a bit “I think this meeting is over” I say standing and walking over to the door to see him out “wait wait give me a chance to show you I’m trustworthy” he’s pulled me closer to him just close enough that I can smell his cologne it fits him perfectly expensive and hot “how” my eyes can’t help but to linger at his lips wanting to close the gap

“just follow me” he pulls me flush to his chest, ghosting his lips over mine pulling away when I try to close the gap, his hands firmly on my waist “on your knees” “excuse me?!” “you.heard.me.kei.go” something about how he said my name annoyed me and how pointed he made the statement really pissed me off “one that’s not how you say my name two no” “I won’t say it again” he looks at me raising an eyebrow “what does me being on my knees do to make me trust you?” “Just do it” he says pulling away going to sit on the couch in the back corner of my office “whatever” I get down on my knees “happy now” I say looking at him from across the room “crawl to me” “okay you’ve lost me” I start to stand “stand and I won’t be very nice” I stop in my tracks because for some reason I care how he treats me “good now crawl” I roll my eyes and crawl over to him “now was that so hard sweetheart” he says brushing my hair back from my face I want to pull away from his touch but I don’t for some reason “you’re so much prettier on your knees” he says parting my lips with his thumb “now let’s see what else this pretty mouth can do” his thumb rest just outside my mouth laying on my bottom lip sticking my tongue out to welcome it in my mouth “good boy” after a little licking and sucking his thumb it was hard not to notice how his perfectly tailored pants were fitting tighter “go on” he says moving his hand away from me and leaning back on the couch 

Getting him out of his pants was the easy part but how am I supposed to get him down my throat he’s pretty long and on the thicker side but that’s not the part that I’m concerned about I’m more scared of the 3 piercings lining that underside of his dick “scared?” He says with a smug smile on his face “What no why would I be scared” “it won’t hurt you” he says guiding me 

And he was right once I got comfortable I barely noticed it “fuck yes just like that baby” his grip in my hair is tight and his hips are thrusting up practically using my mouth to his disposal and once he felt he was coming he pulled out of my mouth and covered my face in his cum “so pretty baby” he says smearing it on my lips

 “I don’t feel pretty” I says wiping cum from my eye “well you are and I bet mistress would agree” he says taking a picture of me “I’m in a relationship with two freaks” I say making my way to my in office bathroom “last time I check this was your idea” “statement still stands” I say washing my face 

“That was too quick” he says wrapping his arms around my waist “ima busy man only time I could fit you in for” “come on you can’t be that damn busy” “actually I have a product testing in a few” I say looking at my watch and it’s followed up with him being a drama queen and laying his head on my shoulder “they can test the robot arm without you come on” from this display of behavior you wouldn’t think he was MY dom “they could but they won’t Im coming home tonight so you can have me then” “you hate me it’s Friday I won’t be home when you get home” “shit not gonna lie didn’t even notice it was Friday I gotta meet Jess later” “and you can’t cancel because if you cancel on her again you’re gonna be meeting with madam Jess instead” “yeah don’t like that mean lady and even more reason you gotta let me go”

 “ughh you hate me” he says finally letting me go “just had your whole dick in my mouth I think that counts as love to the highest power” I say following him out the bathroom “nope doesn’t count” “whatever tell me you love me so I can go to this testing” “and if I don’t” “you gonna let your kitten go the rest of his day without knowing his master loves him bad dom” I say really pouty “you play dirty you know I love you” “then tell me” “I love you kitten” “I love you too master now gooo I’m late” I say pushing him out my office “keigo I called down to the lab and told them you would be a bit late” Yo says standing while we walk pass her desk “thanks Yo remind me that I have to leave at 5:30 today” I say before kissing him “Jess already called and told me to clear your schedule for this evening you’re all set” “thanks now go zashi I’ll call or text or send a message in to the show later” “ugh okay I love you” “love ya more” 

You maybe asking yourself why the fuck did you schedule getting your face fucked in the middle of the day AT WORK no less above being a professional I am a man and I have needs and my current need was a bit of role play and sucking my boyfriend dick and I don’t really see the problem in that

But back to the professional part I head down to the testing and it goes we as excepted for the first trail we figure out what has to be fixed and by the time we do it time for me to go 

I’m already not in good standings with mistress and it not helping that I’m coming fully prepped like she requested I sit and wait for saki and when she doesn’t come and it’s edging dangerously close to 7:30 I get a bit anxious 

“Hey Jordan is she busy right now” I say getting his attention “ahh shit um im really not supposed to be talking to you she’ll come get you herself just wait” he says before practically running away from me

Okay now I am scared because it’s 8 now and saki won’t tell me anything and my future brother in law is running away from me 

I feel relief for two seconds when I see her turn the corner but then she walks right pass me to have a conversation with someone else then tried to walk pass me again “mistress please stop ignoring me” I say holding her hand pulling her back to me “you can let me go” she says looking at my hand like yk I’m not her husband “baby please this isn’t fun” I can’t tell she softens up but not enough “ you’re late” “ I’ve been here since 6:59 I was here before time” “are you prepped” “…” “I’ll take that as my answer follow me” I get up and follow her 

I close the door behind me and “kneel” she says sitting on the stool that’s in the middle of the room “I haven’t seen you in two days barely even hear from you and today I received this” she says turning her phone around to show me the picture from earlier “wanna explain?” 

Okay yes I’ve been a very shitty fiancé lately and it’s true I’ve been mia for a couple days and also last minute told zashi to come to see me today “no” “so you don’t wanna explain why I received a picture of you covered in cum” she says and I shake my head no “hmm okay well i guess we’re done here leave.” “Wait no mistress don’t make me leave” i say crawling over to her “you don’t wanna talk so what are you here for” “I just don’t know how to explain myself without you getting mad at me” “well I’m  already mad so there’s no reason in not just getting it over with” “it’s just I got really needy today at work so I called master and he came” “yeah I can see that much why didn’t you call me” “because…I don’t know I wanted something quick and nothing we do is quick and I had a meeting right after he left” “whatever go your time is up I’ll meet you at home” “no I’m not leaving why are you so mad at me” “because you didn’t call me” “mistress what I wanted was a master thing” “so because I don’t have a dick you didn’t call me?” “Well no not exactly well partially yes but there was a bit of role playing too and you don’t like that” “and” her whole argument is falling apart “let’s go” she says getting up 

When we get out of the room she pulls me too same seat I was sitting in and walks away for a total of 5 minutes before she struts back out she almost walks past me and then comes back and I don’t even know if this is possible but the way she’s looking at me makes me the man who's known her for a decade now believe we’ve never met EVER 

“Hi cutie looking for someone specific” she says standing next to me “huh” “are you lost kitten I think I can help” I know I look dumb right now but I’m so goddamn confused “mistress” “no cutie my name is madam Jess how about you” “k..kei” “cute name for a cute kitten so what ya here for what’s your fantasy” she says with a devilish smile on her face as she sits across from me “you” I’m short circuiting here people don’t judge me “obviously but what do you like” “whatever you want to do to me” “hm I like you follow me” she smiles and walks away I damn near fall out the chair trying to hurry and catch up with her 

I confused why she’s waiting for me at one of the general room “come on go in or are you scared” she says opening the door to the pretty much dark room “no I’m not scared but why here” “oh only my really good subs get to go to my room” “but I am really good” “I’ll be the judge of that go in” 

I can’t see anything around me because the room is pitch black once the door closes behind me “I bet you’re wondering where you are right now” she says hands wrapping around my waist scaring the hell outta me “no need to be scared kitten you’re in good hands i promise” she’s now in front of me and the uneasiness of not knowing where I am and her just floating around me is more arousing then I thought it would be 

I can no longer feel her but I can hear that she’s moving around this room and I don’t know how she’s doing it because as i mentioned there’s no light in here not even a little “okay come here I’m ready” “um how I can’t see you” “do you trust me” “of course” “then follow my voice” I take a step forward with my arms out in front of me and it seems like a pretty empty space “good job just come to me” her voice is coming from the side of me the more I move in the room and knock into the edge of a table that I’m then pushed over and feel restraints going around my wrist “good boy” after the other hand is cuffed she’s behind me flush with my ass “let’s get these pants off then we can have some fun” im being stripped and im scared its pitch black in here and the only sounds is a occasional clinking from my restraints her heels clinking on the ground and my clothes being removed and honestly thats it no smells the table is metal and cold but the scared turns into arousal once I felt her hot hands on my body 

“Can’t even have that much fun because you’re not prepped”she says dragging her fingertips along my skin “you think you can handle some level 10 stuff today” she says and honestly no I don’t think I can level 10 stuff is reserved for kaoru “maybe level 7” “good boy for being honest okay can I push to level 8” “can we start at 6 and work our way up” “yeah I can work with that” 

I love pain i literally cum from it but with how upset she was at me earlier i would rather not start high 

After a very slow start my need for more than a thud grew bigger and bigger “mistress please more” “is there someone else in the room with us who is mistress” “madam please i can take it harder please” I say turning my head so that I can see her “you think you can go harder sweetheart” “not think I know I can” “your request is my command” she switches to a paddle and the instant gratification of the pain increase was exactly what I needed 

(I’m gonna do everyone favorite thing and switch perspectives) 

Once I switched to the paddle he really started to enjoy this and let go and honestly same I was a little upset (jealous) that he called zashi and not me so am i currently acting like my best friend fiance and submissive isn’t just that to satisfy him yes yes I am because that’s how good of a wife I am people 

“Such a good boy you can take it” I says rubbing his ass after a set of 40 giving him a break “I..told you madam” I can feel from touch and the heat radiating from him he’s bruised a bit and my arm is killing me “I don’t usually do this with new people but something about you thinks you can handle it” “whatever you want” “really?” He nods really fast and I undo his restraints and guide him to lay fully on the table on his back 

I would usually make a whole show outta of this but he can’t see me in this dark ass room so instead I just get right in position hovering about a foot above his face “madam where are you” he says “bring your right hand up to your face” and when he does he can’t reach his face because my thigh is in the way “oh ohh” he says both hands now on my thighs “can start now” he says trying to pull me all the way down “are you sure you know what you’re doing don’t really seem like the pussy eating type” “I can show you better than I can tell you” he says pulling my panties to the side 

Would I ever do this with an actual random client hell no but I mean if they can have a ceo x investors fantasy I can do the same thing 

“I guess you are useful for something” I says grabbing his hair for stability “come madam don’t be so mean I’m doing my best” he says panting for air “if you don’t make me cum soon you’ll see what mean really is” I say and he gets right back to it and because I can’t be out done I pull my phone out knowing I’m about to cum 

My phone flash bringing light to this dark ass room and finally being able to see his face covered in everything me while I record the moment before one of my best orgasms in life that also is accompanied by an eruption of squirt that he handled like a champ “you look better like this then how I seen you earlier” I say putting the phone away “my poor skin has been through a lot today” “gonna wake up with a full beard” I say getting down off the table “god I hope not can we get out of this dark ass room now” he says feeling around for me “yeah come on” 

 Once we got back to her room my mistress was back thank god “sorry mistress” “what are you apologizing for” she says combing her hand through my hair “I’ve been too busy for you and it’s made me less present” “can’t get mad at you for working kei” “yes you can! I’ve set the standard already I was ten times busier with the heart monitor than this and I made sure to make time for you every single day and I haven’t been able to do any of that” I say sitting up to look at her “well yes but life is unpredictable and even though you could’ve done a lot more you didn’t plan it this whole project has been way ahead of schedule and although I missed the hell out of you and was a tiny bit jealous you called zashi before me i understand that sometimes you’re gonna be locked in a basement working” “still I should’ve done more” “well you’ve already started to make up for it so that’s a start and I have an idea that make me completely forgot about all of it” “what is it?” “You’ll know when it happens” 

Notes:

This chapter was brewed up because of the movie babygirl but it took me so long to start it i forgot the original plot and that’s how we got here

Also I just wanted to get this out of theres any crazy typos or missing words ill fix it later😭

Notes:

its going to be awhile for the next update 🥰 check my other prides and joys while you wait