who knew dying was this difficult?

by xemox

Summary:

'time travel? yeah right!'

Kageyama Tobio suffered through middle school, high school, and basically all his life until one day he had enough and decided to end it when he was an adult living on his own. To his surprise when he wakes up and he's back in middle school as a teenage boy once again. Confused and tired he realized it might be a second opportunity for him to live a better life than the first. Even if nothing made sense the feeling that he should restart and try again was strong in his chest.

This time he will be happier! And fulfill his grandfathers wishes!
(this summary sucks mb)

TW: referenced suicide and maybe others along the way (will put tw if needed in the chapter)

Notes:

not me starting a new fic as if I don't already have the other one that I have yet to finish... but yeah so this idea (once again) is one that I came up with like two days ago and I suddenly wrote this short beginning part for it! my brain is weird but yeah enjoy?

Chapter 1: waking up on a thursday afternoon

Summary:

a boy wakes up in an unfamiliar place

Notes:

TW: implied/referenced? suicide

Slightly opening his eyes. Feeling an ache in his body. He was sore but didn’t know why. Sitting up from the bed realizing he isn’t in his room. Looking around slowly moving his head he became aware of where he was. This confused him greatly since the last thing he remembers was when he- no this isn’t making sense. How can he possibly be laying in a hospital bed? Suddenly the door opened and there was his sister who seemed rather shocked to see him. They stared at each other for a couple of seconds until she burst out in tears sort of yelling.

 

“Tobio! You… Nurse! He’s awake please come quick!” As Tears ran down her face she hurriedly ran to his side hugging him and minutes later the doctor and a nurse came to him and began examining him. 

 

He was confused. What is going on? Nothing is making any sense. The last thing he recalled was being alone in his apartment feeling sad, anxious, and just not fine at all. Which is when he decided to take his own life. As shitty as it sounds he really didn’t expect to be… well here. That’s not the confusion part though. What he’s wondering is why and how the hell he ended up in this place and why of all people is his sister here? He thought she hated him. 

 

He watched as the doctor and his sister were speaking privately about something. Not paying attention much until he heard something that almost made him faint.

 

“You said you found him in the bathroom of your house correct?”

 

She nodded. “Yes, I came to visit since I hadn’t stopped by in a while. Our parents are never home because they work a lot leaving Tobio alone. I try to come often and see him since I know how lonely it can get. I just didn’t expect that he would be feeling this way… I really don’t know what to do…” She silently sobbed and by her voice, you could tell she was also hurting.

 

Hearing that he was supposedly found in their home didn’t make sense. Mostly because he was fresh out of high school and living on his own (decided to leave the place that he never considered calling home). After quitting volleyball at the end of middle school and never daring to touch a ball ever again. And soon after high school moving out. 

 

He tried thinking about anything that would help explain the situation. Especially because the more he looks at his body the more it looks smaller and more child-like than an adult. He thought for some time until something clicked.

 

What if when he attempted in his apartment as an adult he succeeded? But then why would he be here unless- he went back in time. No that’s not logical. I mean time travel? really? that just isn't possible. Sadly it’s the only answer that would have some type of meaning behind it. 

 

As he laid back on the bed not caring about his surroundings he reminisced that one faint memory that haunted him every time he closed his eyes.

 

His first attempt. 

 

Back in his third year of middle school. He made a decision to take his own life but due to him not knowing what he was doing he ended up surviving. He went by through his days like normal not telling anyone about it. 

 

If his theory is correct then he is in the past. 

 

Once again in square one.

 

Kageyama Tobio is no longer an adult but now a teenage boy back in middle school. 

 

Shit,

 

this is going to be one hell of a ride. 

 

Chapter 2: the universe is such a little bitch

Summary:

a boy is confused

Notes:

[TW! referenced suicide]

idk where the motivation to write came from but here we are! (another short chapter because yeah) ENJOY THIS DUMB CHAPTER THAT I SHOULD HAVE PUT MORE THOUGHT IN!

As Kageyama waited for his sister and doctor to finish their conversation he began thinking about how his life would have been if he did things differently. It was kinda dumb thinking about it though since well… he was supposed to die (that was the goal). 

 

Honestly, he’s feeling sort of awkward and out of place. I mean just put yourself in his shoes. First of all, being back as a middle schooler isn’t the funnest thing in the world. Secondly why and how did he travel through time? Thirdly why does his sister seem to care so much?! All these questions and no answers. Also speaking of his sister and about the current situation. If he remembers correctly she wasn’t there for his first attempt so why is she here this time? That makes no sense but neither does whatever is going on. 

 

Since there isn’t much explanation to this then maybe he shouldn’t think about it much. 

 

…

 

Never mind he probably should. 

 

As he laid in the hospital bed which seemed like forever he realized how weird it feels to be back at a point in time that he hated so much. If the first time was bad enough what makes the universe think the second time will be better?? Yes, he is blaming the universe because who else is there to blame for this unfortunate turn of events. He sighed and sat up from the bed. Suddenly the door opened and his sister and doctor walked in. They both looked nervous which made him nervous. There was some unsettling silence until his sister spoke.

 

“Umm Tobio great news you are being discharged from the hospital tomorrow… so we can go home… uh-“ She was about to keep talking until the doctor interrupted and stated how he had other things to do and left the room. Now it was just the two of them. In a room. Together. Which was weird and not awkward at all.

 

Kageyama for some odd reason decided to break the weirdness. “So… Miwa how have you been? Is college fun?”. 

 

The way her eyes widened as soon as he said that was like watching a squirrel get run over- okay not THAT let’s not get too graphic here. The look she was giving him was definitely something though. It took her time but she regained her composure.

 

“Oh, I wasn’t expecting you to be so uh full of energy”.

 

…

 

What in the fuck is that supposed to mean?? Kageyama was not being- it's probably the effect of being sent back through time. Yeah, that’s it. For sure. No doubt. 

 

“I have no idea what you’re talking about”. He said that almost like a robot. 

 

Miwa chuckled. “That’s fine but uh are you really okay Tobio? Please be honest with me.”

 

All of a sudden the room felt smaller. It felt like he was suffocating. Who knew one simple question could hurt. Was he okay? Has he ever been okay? Ever since he was a child he had always felt alone. Yes, his parents were there but not actually there. God even his sister wasn’t there for most of his life. And the only person he thought he had ended up dying. So was he okay? He has absolutely no idea.

 

Was he ever going to be okay?

 

A tear fell down his cheek. More tears kept slowly falling. Kageyama realized he was crying. As he looked up and saw Miwa with tears in her eyes too he became aware that being okay is the least of his problems.

 

 

 

Notes:

I'm already writing the next chapter because why not? so yeah I hope you like this mess of a fic
edit : I just realized it's almost 2022 wtf

Chapter 3: this house drier than my dms

Summary:

maybe going home isn't going to be all sunshine and rainbows

Notes:

[TW : somewhat referenced child abuse/neglect]

HELLO ! i have ascended from nowhere but here i am ig. Once again with my very amazing writing *wink wink* anyways yeah enjoy me making kags cry again lol.

Soon later tomorrow came. Finally out of the hospital. He was not looking forward to going to that house again. He left for a reason. 

 

They walked in and the house was too big on the outside to look so dead on the inside. Miwa proceeded to go to the kitchen stating she was going to make them food while he waited on the couch. 

 

Kageyama was not thrilled to be there but what can you do. This is his life now. Even though he has no clue how things came to be the way they are. Yet again things could be worse right? He could be sitting alone in his apartment letting his thoughts get to his head and think about sad shit that shouldn’t matter like how Yuki from fruits basket clearly liked Tohru but since she and Kyo are basically soulmates he had to let her go.

...

Okay, we are getting really off track here. 

 

Now looking back at the house suddenly a wave of memories flashed through his mind. He then remembered how his parents would leave him at home. Alone with no one to talk to. The house always felt suffocating to be in. As a kid, he hated the days his parents weren’t there, but at the same time hated the days they were. Sometimes feeling alone was better than hearing shouts echoing through the house. The silence was sometimes better than being hit for no reason. Just imagining how things happened back then really hurts. Besides that, there is still something Kageyama is wondering about. Why is his sister here? Yes, he’s been asking this question from the start but it’s because the situation is odd. She has never once thought to come to visit him. Not since she left. He just has to know why suddenly in this very moment she choose to come. 

 

Kageyama silently walked to where his sister was in the kitchen and asked. “Miwa, why are you here?” Sounding way ruder than it should have. 

 

“I don’t understand what you mean Tobio.” She responded, slightly unsure.

 

“Yes, you do. Why after all this time you unexpectedly show up and act as if you were always there!” 

 

“Wait Tobio that’s not-“

 

“What?! That’s not what Miwa! You think that just because you’re here one time. One stupid time! Doesn’t mean I’m going the forget all the other times you weren’t here!” He yelled not as loud as you would think. As much as he tried to be mad at her. He just couldn’t. Looking down he noticed tears started to fall. Not knowing how that happened Kageyama stormed off to his room slamming the door quite loudly followed by Miwa immediately going after him.

 

“Please let’s talk about this Tobio. I didn’t mean to hurt you- it's just I- I’m sorry. Okay? Please can we talk?” She stood in front of his door in despair. 

 

She just wanted to talk. He didn’t want to talk to her. Not yet. Taking into consideration that he still has no idea why he’s back in his middle school self, his family problems are not what should be the main focus right about now. 

 

After wiping his tears and no longer hearing his sister begging for him to open the door he slowly walked into his old bed and attempted to lay down on it. He sighed sitting awkwardly on the edge of the bed. Even though he was on the verge of falling he was still deep in thought. No matter how you try to explain it everything is the same as it was back then. Well except for the fact that his sister cares for him now. Which isn’t bad, just odd. 

 

The more he imagined it the more he became aware that maybe being back isn’t so bad? I mean it’s not like in his adult life he was doing any better. Think about it, maybe instead of moping around like an idiot he decides to change things. What if he changes the course in which his life came to be?! Can he really do that though? It doesn’t hurt to try. Starting with the topic which he hasn’t thought about since… yesterday.

 

Volleyball, his all-time favorite sport, hobby, and all of the above. He set his mind and it became his mission to be better than before. 

 

Kageyama feeling determined and better than ever decided to leave his room. He walked to open the door holding onto the doorknob. He then stopped in his tracks. He heard screams, shouts, and more people than there were earlier. 

 

His parents. Oh no. 

 

They’re…

 

Home

 

Notes:

i'm still wondering if people actually enjoy this story hehe. OMG ALSO TO THAT ONE PERSON WHO COMMENTED ON THE LAST ONE- ily <3 (gave me motivation to write fr) LMAO FUN FACT : i had this ready to post like hours ago but i started playing pjsekai and now it's like 1am haha... ENJOY :P

Chapter 4: why is everyone yelling??

Summary:

who would've thought that the the person who birthed the sweet Tobio and Miwa is actually the biggest bitch here

Notes:

TW: referenced suicide/neglect (not that bad though) family problems
fun fact i wrote this in 2/22/22 lol

anyways *gasps* me posting more often now?? yeah cause i have nothing better to do (actually i do) hehe, also as you can see chapters are short (for now) because umm idk but yeah AS ALWAYS ENJOY!!!

After hearing the screams he was doubting if he should stay in his room or go see what the commotion is about. His natural instinct would be to stay in his room and hide but something seems off. Instead of staying hidden as he would normally do he without a hurry turned the doorknob and quietly left his room. 

 

He felt like he was suffocating. He was getting really bad flashbacks. Just knowing what might happen to him if he sees his parents is frightening. He’s starting to regret it. Sadly there’s no backing down now. 

 

Shortly after making it to the living room where everyone was. It seemed as if time stopped. All eyes were on him. He could feel the strong gaze they were giving him. As he opened his mouth to speak his father came rushing to him and hugging him? 

 

“Tobio! Oh my goodness you’re okay. We were so worried about you ever since Miwa called and told us what happened.”

 

HUH?! WHAT IS GOING ON?? HIS FATHER IS… WHAT!?

 

For a second Kageyama could sort of feel the worry in his father's words and for a second he actually believed they cared. Unfortunately, as soon as his mother opened her mouth all those thoughts came crashing down.

 

“Worried? Oh please give me a break. How can you be this selfish Tobio? We give you everything a kid would ever want and yet this is how you repay us?! Ungrateful brat.”

 

Something in his heart snapped. How can she say that….

 

“Me? Ungrateful? Really?”

 

“Yes really! And don’t talk back to me! I raised you and this is the thanks I get?”

 

Thanks? For what? Not being there?

 

“Raised me?! Since fucking when? You were never even there half of the time.”

 

“Do not talk back to me young man. I have done everything I can these past years just for you to tell me that I was never there?” 

 

“Stop lying! You were never there and even when you are you- Ugh never mind.”

 

Kageyama stormed off not caring about the shouts coming from his mother. Why? Just why did his mom hate him so much? He never did anything to her. She has always been like this. Always yelling and screaming for no reason. It wasn’t just towards him though. She was like that towards everybody. As much as his mom does this and that, he still can’t hate her. That’s his mom after all. Even if she doesn’t even let him call her that. 

 

He once again shut himself out in his room where he wished he hadn’t left from the start. He examined his room looking around and noticed how… weird it is. For starters it was really big like extremely big- was his house always this fucking huge?? God damn being sad all the time made him forget his way of living? Whoa, that sounded real dramatic but it’s true. Looking back at it now he basically lives in a mansion- why the hell is he thinking about this now? Back to the real issue which is- Oh my god what now.

 

“Tobio?”

 

Oh. His dad. Wonder what he wants to talk about.

 

---

 

IN THE LIVING ROOM

 

“Mother, please he just came from the hospital give him a break!” 

 

“Why would I listen to you? I AM the mother here not you! Ugh, you’re equally as ungrateful as that brat.”

 

“Stop calling him that. He’s your son and he just went through something traumatic and yet it seems like you don’t even care!” 

 

“What so now it’s my fault that he tried to do that? Miwa you are his sister why haven’t you helped him with his problems that for some odd reasons he has!”

 

“That’s not my job! That’s yours as his mother! Stop trying to put all the blame on me when you know damn well that you and dad are the reason why we can’t be happy!”

 

All of a sudden time seemed to stop. Miwa felt her cheek burn. She stumbled a little and realized what happened. Her mother slapped her. It stung. She hadn’t been hit since she left. She silently understood why she left in the first place. Huh? So what where little brother said is true… She was never there for him either.

 

Taking into account all the things that have occurred she then wrapped her head around the fact that this so-called family stopped being a family years ago.

 

 

 

Is it possible to fix something that’s already been broken?

 

 

 

Notes:

honestly it was not supposed to be as sad as i made it be, my brain has a mind of its own at this point!!!! (it's late and i have school tmr how tf did i just realize that)

Chapter 5: yeah you better leave before I throw hands

Summary:

Miwa is sad

Notes:

[TW: verbal abuse? is that thing?]

Anyways yeah this is mostly in Miwa's POV and clearly not everything is revealed yet (other than the fact that the mom is the absolute worst) but yea they be suffering :0 so sad

She sighed. “You kids are stressing me out, I’m leaving.”

 

Miwa saw as her mother was walking to the door to leave. How can she just leave as if nothing is going on? She should probably stop trying to provoke her but she can’t. She would rather speak her mind than keep quiet. Which isn’t always a good thing.

 

“Really you’re just going to leave? Is that all you know how to do? Running away from your problems makes you seem like a coward.” Okay, maybe she might have gone a little far with that one. Whoops.

 

“Why are you being like this Miwa?! I did NOT raise you to be this way-“

 

“You didn’t raise me at all! Stop trying to act like a mom. You’re not even a good person overall so what makes you think you would be a good mother?” She really needs to stop talking. 

 

“If that’s what you think then I shouldn’t be here!” She was about to leave but she stopped at the door. Looking straight into Miwa’s eyes. 

 

“I only came here because of your father, I don’t care what happens to either of you.” She proceeded to slam the door leaving as if she was never there. Tobio and her dad probably heard it. 

 

That was terrifying. That look always made her shiver. Gosh, this was the worst. If only things were different. 

 

“Miwa did your mother leave?” Her dad asked with Tobio beside him who looked deep in thought. She was right her dad and Tobio did hear which meant that their dad will most likely leave to go and find her. If only he tried to move on.

 

“Yeah, she got mad and left. Nothing out of the ordinary.” She responded.

 

He sighed sounding fairly tired. “Of course she did. Better go and hope something bad doesn’t happen to her. Miwa can you take care of Tobio while I’m gone?”

 

This always happened. He always runs back to her no matter what. Is it not tiring? Well, that’s not her business. After these types of fights, they don’t come back till days later.

 

“Sure, I’ll stay with Tobio. Like I always do.” She mumbled that last part.

 

“Okay thank you, take care you two.”

 

 

Once again alone together. Just like before. How delightful.

 

 

She turned to check on Tobio who was still deep in thought. Probably from the conversation he had with their dad. She assumes that’s it since she doesn’t actually know what happened. Well, he would probably tell her when he’s ready so no need to pressure him. 

 

Speaking of being pressured, isn’t she forgetting something? 

 

Wait…

 

“Tobio when-“

 

“Dad told me that mother said I need to go back to school next week or else she will never let me play volleyball again.”

 

How can she say such a thing?

 

“She what now?! She can’t-“

 

“It’s fine. Even if she didn’t say that I was thinking of going anyway.”

 

“No, it’s not-“

 

“Yes, it is fine Miwa. Trust me on this. Please.”

 

She stared at him with concern.

 

 

Tobio was determined. And he will not let anyone stop him. Not even his own mother.

 

 

Notes:

this was mostly dialogue that's why it's very short but I MADE THE NEXT CHAPTER ALREADY- which i am posting right after this one :D we get to see him got to school... HOW FUN!

Chapter 6: if i stutter one more time i'll cry

Summary:

Tobio goes to school (he fails miserably though) pt.1

Notes:

if you're wondering why i didn't just combine both chapters since i made them at the same time, it's cause since they talk about two different things and i didn't think they would fit together lol NOT SO SAD CHAPTER YAY!

Looking back now maybe coming is a bad idea. Tobio is currently standing in front of the doors of his school. Slightly hesitating to even step foot in the school. He wasn’t nervous or anything. He was going to change things. For the better. Yeah, that’s right, Here comes the new and improved Kageyama Tobio. Brace yourselves people because here he comes. 

 

Yeah, real bold thoughts for someone who hasn’t moved a muscle since they got there. He gulped. This is way harder than how he originally imagined. He suddenly felt a hand grip his shoulder which startled him making him jump.

 

“Gah holy shit- Sorry Miwa I forgot you were here.” He said with a hand on his chest trying to stop his heart from leaving his body.

 

“It’s fine but we should probably start heading inside.”

 

“Yeah, I guess so.” He agreed.

 

They walked in going their separate ways since Miwa had to go to the office to talk about the current situation and why he hasn’t been at school for almost a week. While Tobio was forced (by his sister) to go talk with the volleyball coach. Why did she make him go instead of her? He will never know.

 

The point is that now he is standing in front of the door to enter the volleyball court. No, he wasn’t scared if that’s what you’re thinking. 

 

He was about to walk in to find the coach until someone called out his name which startled him. Damn, he is acting like a scaredy-cat.

 

“Kageyama?”

 

He turned and was faced with someone he hasn’t seen since that day. Well, actually it wasn’t just one person. It was…

 

“Holy fuck- Kindaichi? Kunimi? Hah… What a surprise seeing you two here! Oh was it this the volleyball court of course you two would be coming here what kind of idiot doesn’t understand common sense haha.” 

 

Whoa, smooth as always Kageyama. 

 

All three stared at each other in the most awkward silence which was not helping his nerves at all. Seeing them again as teenagers after so many years is weird. Like extremely weird. In his head, he was trying to come up with something to say like an excuse or anything for that matter but his thoughts were cut short when he heard a name he had forgotten.

 

“So I see the king finally decided to come back from his long-awaited break,” Kunimi said with spite and a hint of… concern? 

 

King… the hell does he mean by that? Oh shit, that was the name he got for being the biggest jerk back then! How could he forget that? His whole team hated him because of his attitude. And holy- he just remembered in what period in time he is in once again. His third year in middle school. As in one of his worst years. This means he is basically back at the time were everyone hated him (okay he’s exaggerating I know, let him be he’s dramatic). 

 

Well now is probably the best time to come up with an excuse to avoid them (for the moment since he will have to talk to them eventually). 

 

“Right I wasn’t here! It's cause umm you know the umm it’s uh well…” Oh my god, why does he keep messing up what he wants to say?? He definitely just embarrassed himself.

 

Time to play it cool.

 

He gasped. “I forgot to feed my dog- wait I don’t have one, uh I mean I left the sink running and I think it just left so uh goodbye!” And just like that, he bolted. Could he have sounded any more stupid? Yes. The answer is yes.

 

He ran attempting to go to his class until he realized he doesn’t even remember what class he was in. Thankfully as he was coming to a stop in the marathon he was in he saw his sister that was about to leave and she told him stuff that he now forgot about. At least she told him his room number so that’s nice.

 

As he stepped foot in the room he could feel the glances his classmates were giving him. It made him somewhat nervous even though it didn’t seem like it.

 

He went to sit down and noticed how he was basically the center of attention. Probably not in a good way either.

 

 

Middle school is going to be so much fun.

 

This is the price he has to pay for being a not-so-good person.

 

Where did things go wrong??

 

Who cares he is still determined with the mission he gave himself which was…

 

Wait- Why does he keep forgetting everything lately?

 

He banged his head into his desk which made many turn and stare. 

 

‘Geez, can life be any easier?’ He thought.

 

 

Only time will tell.

 

 

Notes:

I had fun writing this one hehe :3 (also different POVs of different will be shown at one point) my motivation to write is there and idk why but i like it HOPE IT'S ENJOYABLE!! Fun fact : currently its 3am... i did not notice the time i should go to bed!!!

Chapter 7: making a friend?

Summary:

kageyama goes to school pt.2

Notes:

it's been months since i posted omg- ENJOY THIS LONG CHAPTER I MADE AHAHA!! (not actually long but longer than my past ones lol)

“Uh, Kageyama?”

 

“Huh?” Kageyama responded looking up at his teacher who was suddenly close to him. For a second he thought he was about to get in trouble since the whole class he’s been sleeping (He actually just had his head down which probably seemed like he was sleeping).

 

“I just wanted to ask if you’re okay. Are you okay Kageyama?”

 

Suddenly he saw from the corner of his eye as his classmates stared at him in interest. ‘Damn middle schoolers are nosy’ he thought. He went throughout his day like nothing and yet here was his teacher trying to bring shit in front of everyone! Like don’t get him wrong he’s glad that someone cares but why when everyone is watching and judging his every move?! Come on now she could’ve at least asked after class but there’s nothing he could do now anyways since he became the center of attention when he stopped coming to school (It was like a week, please it’s not that serious. Or is it?).

 

“Okay? Of course, I’m okay why wouldn’t I be?” Kageyama responded after he began overthinking the possibilities and outcomes that would come after answering that one simple question.

 

“Oh! Are you sure? I talked with your sister and-“

 

“Yes, my sister! Everything is fine! Don’t worry we just had some…”

 

“Family problems?”

 

“Yes! Those… We're fine now so there’s no need to worry!” Kageyama finished giving his most convincing smile.

 

His teacher gave him a hesitant look and surprisingly decided to drop the topic. He was about to lay his head down again when suddenly a girl came up to his desk, startling him in the process.

 

“Hello, Kageyama!” The girl said in an overly energetic way.

 

“Wahh- My bad you scared me…” He gulped looking at her and honestly not knowing her name even after probably seeing her every day. Yet again can you blame him? He thought he would be you know… So remembering people he most likely never interacted with is the least of his problems.

 

“Hehe did I? Sorry about that! Uh- I feel like you don’t even know my name… Yeah! You don’t! Your face is giving you away!” She pouted as she crossed her arms.

 

“W-what? Of course, I know your name, you’re my classmate so clearly, I should know.” He said giving the same not convincing smile again.

 

They both stared at each other. Not looking away. No blinking in sight. Kageyama was not liking the awkward silence. He looked at her and realized this girl is weirdly intimidating even though she was probably way shorter than him.

 

Screw it. He can’t deal with this right now.

 

“Fine, I admit it. I have no idea what your name is or anyone's for that matter.” He whispered that last part.

 

“Aha!” She yelled out pointing at him. “I knew it!”

 

“Yeah yeah cool so what do you want?” He asked getting slightly annoyed.

 

“Way to change your attitude Kageyama! That’s why others think you’re unapproachable!”

 

Why should he care if he’s not approachable? He doesn’t even like people! (He does. He’s just not the best at conversation and expressing himself in a way that won’t make him seem like an asshole. That sounded sad. It’s fine. Self-care).

 

“Well why should I-“

 

“Care? Because Kageyama Tobio!-

 

Damn full name and everything.

 

"You can’t go through your whole middle school life as an outsider! You should get out more and make friends!”

 

“Oh so now you’re stalking me?

 

“WE WERE IN THE SAME CLASS ALL THREE YEARS!!”

 

‘THEY WHAT NOW! Shit. He’s an idiot’

 

“From the looks of your face, you clearly didn’t know. It’s fine though I don’t hold it against you”.

 

“Thank you?”

 

“It wasn’t a compliment”.

 

. . .

 

“Anyways I came to you for a reason.”

 

“And that reason is-?”

 

“LET ME TALK!”

 

“Okay sorry!” Kageyama said totally not laughing.

 

“Basically I came here to ask… If you would like to be friends! With me?” She said shyly.

 

He stared back at her confused. Does she want to BE friends with HIM? Whoa- Wait he still doesn’t-

 

“I still don’t know your name though?”

 

She looked at him like a robot with the most dazed look he’s ever seen.

 

“Pardon?”

 

“I still don’t know your- OH MY- ARE YOU OKAY??”

 

Kageyama couldn’t even finish his sentence before she proceeded to bang her head on the window that was close to his desk. She then bowed and screamed out her name.

 

“Himari Sato!”

 

“I-“

 

“Would you like to be my friend?!”

 

And now everyone was staring at them. Great. Just great.

 

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Finally class ended and after that whole fiasco in the classroom Kageyama felt like people might talk bad about them for being obnoxious but it was the complete opposite. After Himari (They agreed to call each other by their first names) screamed at the top of her lungs everyone just laughed and thought the scene was comical and honestly did not care about what was truly going on so it wasn’t so bad.

 

Obviously, he said yes to her question even though he hesitated at first. Now as they’re walking together he realized she’s not so bad. She’s loud and talks a lot which isn’t bad but you know it’s still new to him since he’s never really had a friend who is a girl. Observing her more closely he now noticed that she was short with brown eyes and has shoulder-length brown hair and bangs brushed toward the right. A braid with tiny pink bows is worn on either side of her hair. She looks like your typical fun and nice girl so he was in complete disbelief when she announced that HE was her first friend. It may or may not have made him blush in happiness.

 

They walked alongside together about to head home as Himari talked about random stuff that he couldn’t keep up with.

 

Kageyama had already forgotten the encounter he had in the morning so when his volleyball coach suddenly came up to him as they were leaving surprised him.

 

“Oh, Kageyama I overheard your teacher talking about why you weren’t here. I’m sorry.” The coach said politely.

 

Kageyama was stunned. “It’s fine now… No need to worry.” They were about to head out until the coach stopped him.

 

“I actually want to talk to you about something-“ His phone then started ringing and excused himself telling him to wait for him so that’s what they did.

 

“Tobio you play volleyball?” Himari asked.

 

“Yes, I didn’t mention that did I? My bad, sorry.” He responded.

 

“You don’t have to say sorry when you didn’t do anything wrong you know?” She stated looking at him with a sad look.

 

He didn’t notice though. All he could think about was the fact that growing up with the parents he has, he condition himself to apologize for everything even if it didn’t involve him. He always hated that about himself. He was never able to truly express his feelings correctly since his parents- his mom always made sure to remind him how a waste of space he is. Having someone tell you how useless and unwanted you are isn’t fun at all. Well, neither is dying and yet here he is. At this point, he doesn't understand how he's still alive. Maybe the saying that goes ’It gets worse before it gets better’ is true? Probably not since things are only getting worse and never better. Ugh, all these thoughts filling up his head are giving him a headache. He was about to ask Himari if she wanted to leave and that he’ll talk with his coach tomorrow. Sadly he didn’t even get to ask because out of nowhere the people whom he talked to in the morning came for round two. How exciting.

 

See? Shit gets worse and worse as time goes on. He just hopes life will get better. Taking into account that his whole existence is abnormal. It’s clear that shit is just going to go downhill from here. Guess re-doing his life isn’t going to be all shits and giggles huh? How nice. 

 

 

Notes:

kags made a friend how cute (yes she's an oc i made BWAHAHAH :D) ITS 5 AM RN IM SO TIRED GN <333

Notes:

very short yet confusing? hope you liked it! (very shitty writing)