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“GET DOWN HERE ! Seriously, why do you have too let me yell to get you to do ANYTHING ‼!”
Please shut up…
“What are you thinking, letting me do all the work while you are in your room, looking at the screens ALL DAY without even going out !”
Please… I know how useless I am…
Anyone here must be wondering whatever was happening here, huh ?
Yes, I was being scolded by my mother. For the zillionth time.
“Where is your sense of responsibility ?! Where do you put all of those advices I gave you ‼!”
I know. I knew. I knew how useless I was. I knew how addicted to screens I was. I knew how hopeless I was. I knew how self-destructive I was. I knew I was constantly stabbing into my mom’s heart. I knew it all. Mom was just reminding me of all that.
Don’t get me wrong. I’ve already tried to change that. The problem being, each time I tried, it went for some days before reverting back to normal, if not even worsening my case. This was a real pain in the ass, if you ask me.
I wish I could change for the better.
Hmm. Perhaps my phone and any similar device were the cause. Perhaps I should just separate myself from that for a moment.
But how the fuck to do when one is literally surrounded by technology all day ?
Perhaps I should just leave that behind for some whole weeks and, I don't know, just go to camp in the mountain or something like that ? I was a 16 years old girl in holiday after all !
Being deep into my thoughts, I didn't hear anything else until Mom finally snapped and sent me to wash the salad.
When I was finally done washing the freaking fourth cabbage of the day, Mom suddenly said : “It’s raining ! Oh shit ! Go to close the swimming pool, I’ll take care of the cushions !”
I looked outside. Yeah, it was raining. Out of all sudden. Seems like the weather had decided to go along with my mom’s mood. It’d do good to the garden, in this oh so dry summer, but it was pouring all over our swimming pool too. The same swimming pool I only use rarely, with me being the less extreme version of a hikikomori I was.
Why’d some more water do any harm to a pool of water, I wanted to reply, but went to grab the keys instead, not wanting to worsen Mom’s mood. I ran towards the pool to obey my mom’s order, and…
I should have known better.
Yes, I slipped off like the fool I was. I ran like a fool while the ground was wet, like a fucking foolish child. So it didn't come much as a surprise when my head hit the ledge and went first into the water. To make it even worst, I was so knocked out I wasn't even able to get out the cold liquid.
So this was how I’d die ? Drowning in the family’s swimming pool because I was stupid enough to fucking run and slip out into it ? How pathetic of me.
Perhaps will it be better for Mom like this ? was my last thought before totally blacking out.
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Yeah, so that was how I found myself totally in the black, my sense not being here at all.
I can see nothing, I can hear nothing, I can literally nothing at all. If not thinking.
So this is death ? Pitch black, all by myself, with literally nothing else ? Yeah, not really surprising. How the heck could the notion of heaven and hell be real if there's no god.
I don't even know how much fucking time have I been dead. Guess my mind will slowly disintegrate here until I become one with this darkness. How creepy.
I haven't even said farewell to Mom ! … Or finished all the Spy x Family series ! Or any series at all, really ! It’s depressing to think that I won’t live to see an adult Marinette or Adrien. Or an adult Anya. Oh well, guess it’s a bit too late to regret all of that now.
Suddenly, I feel like I’m being pulled amidst the water, towards who-knows-what.
Wait.
What ?
Am I not supposed to be dead ? How the heck would a dead person feel the water running off their skin ??
And out of all sudden I’m pulled out of the liquid body, and my closed eyes meet light through my eyelids. I fall off to something that feels like sand, and ouch it hurts even if it’s sand.
I cough all the water out of my lugs while slowly regaining my sense. Once I’m sure it’s all out, I begin to slowly open my eyes. Slowly. Blink. You don’t want the light to destroy your retinas.
Once I get used to the light, I tentatively look around at my surrounding. I’m lying on my torso, belly, whatever, on… sand. I was right about it being sand. But…
… What the hell ? My swimming pool does not have sand with it ! What the hell would I be doing on a beach anyway ? Last thing I remember, I was drowning in a pool, not on a beach !
I continued to look around.
Ahead of me is some… rock, a whole grassland and further is a forest. Nothing like how it is at home.
Ok, this is getting weirder and weirder.
I finally decide to look at my hand. Instead of normal teenager’s hands, I find… tiny baby hands with some white triangular piece of cloth on each and pinky gold bracelets continuing white large cloth’s forearms. The bracelets look so much like… Paimon’s ??
Ok, what the actual fuck ???