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The first time it happened, Kingsley had freshly become Captain of his own Ship “The Mollymauk”, he awoke in a cold sweat had 2 panic attacks by himself within 10 minutes, and thrown up over board in the middle of the night somewhere in middle of the Lucidian Ocean.
What it was that scared him, future Pirate King?
He had dreamed of a circus, undead monsters, a giant toad, leaving the circus. Leaving the Circus had felt like leaving his family. Although he never knew these people. Never met them and never saw the town the Circus broke apart in.
The second time he woke up screaming. Again. In the middle of the night. He had a panic attack and through up over the side of the Ship. Again. He could not remember his dream but his chest hurt. Badly. But he was not wounded. Phantom pain Caduceus would later explain.
He had another panic attack and everything was becoming too much. Or rather too small. Everything seemed to close in on him. He could not be in his bed as it felt like he was buried under the blanket rather than comfortable curled up in them.
That’s when he decided he needed to talk to the Nein. Or someone of them. But he didn’t want to talk about HIM yet. So, he turned the Ship around and sailed to Nicodranas. Within a few days of travel, he was at his birthplace. Away from the sea, from the too small ship. He was at the Grove.
He spends the next few days with Caduceus in the Grove. He learned to tend to the plants and he and Caduceus talked about anything. Anything but HIM, or the dreams or anything.
Until one night when Kingsley had a dream again. When he saw himself(?) die over and over in different ways. He saw himself(?), he wasn´t sure if it was him but he sure felt the pain. He was dying in a ritual. Getting stabbed by a Glave. Getting hit by a Spell from Jester. Feeling himself(?) being pulled apart by himself(?).
He woke up. Throat sore from screaming and ran out of the House panicking into the “Garden”. He was confused. So, Confused. Who was he? Who were the others that were him? How many of him were they? Where they him or someone else?
That’s when Caduceus came out of the building. He put a steaming Mug of Tea in his hand and he caressed his back. They sat for a while in silence and then they talked. Talked about the others in his body. Every fact Caduceus knew.
A few days later, Kingsley would start his journey, from the Blooming grove. Through Alfield and Zadash and Up to Rexxentrum. The people who seemed to recognize him, he would talk to. Like Bryce or Pumat. They would learn of Kingsley and he would learn of HIM. And at the end of his journey, he would stand in front of a small house on the outskirts of Rexxentrum and knock and a Big pale muscular Woman would open and would speak the words.
“I want to learn about your friend”