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I don’t want to be a fcking girl anymore,e it just isn’t fcking right, my body is to fking feminine, and I know my parents are supportive and. I know my friends will be but it’s so fcking annyoning cto have theis fcking body, i fcking hate it, I hate that I have a chest, I hate how my hips have that that slight curve thst girls these days wish for, I hate how my voice is so fcking high pitched, and I hate that bc I dyed my hair and it was expensive I can’t just cut it all off yet. I hate my thighs look like smth straight out of a Beuaty article, I hate how my face has the perfect features that people use makeup to try to achieve. I just want to be a bamf makeup & earring wearing transmasc, is that to much to fcking ask? I want dresses and suits to fit me, without me looking like a f king idiot. I want to be able to pull off nail polish without looking like a brat. I want to be punk, and wear skirts and dresses without being a girl, and look good in them. I want to be a guy, without being a guy, I don’t want to be a girl, but non-binary doesn’t always fit me. And I want to pull off short hair, without looking as feminine as the looks I want make me. I want a male body without being a guy, i want to feel okay in at,eats my own fcking skin, but even that is to much to fcking ask. I want to be able to read fics with a feminine main, and not feel like f king sht. I want people to assume I’m they/them even when I’m feminine, but no, a 7-9th grader is to fcking young to know that they aren’t a girl, and that he isn’t a guy. I just want to be fcking normal and happy, but j can never be happy, or normal…