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After an afternoon spent doing what was supposed to be a quick errand Hawthorne headed back to the Unreliable. He stepped through the door to his cabin and found Parvati drinking at his desk, it made him stop in his tracks. He took in her sad and less than sober state, this wasn’t like her at all.
"...What's going on? You don't like drinking." He asked slowly.
"Junlei didn't want to date me after finding out...how I am." She looked up from the table, her expression betrayed her hurt.
"...I’m sorry Parvati." He replied sincerely, walking over and prying the drink from her hands.
"Captain? Is there something wrong with me? I know you said no before but everybody just keeps telling me different. I mean maybe I would like it if I just tried it, ya know?" She asked. She looked lost, and he couldn’t hold her gaze for more than a moment.
"You don't have to listen to them, their words dont-" He started.
"No they do matter, I appreciate it cap'n but I just...." She trailed off after swiftly interrupting him.
Silence hung over them for a long moment.
"If I’m gonna do this it’s got to be with somebody I trust." She got up from the table, slightly unsteady.
“And you haven't pushed me about this, you’re the only one who hasn't so..." She stepped into his space, and gripped his lapel with one hand.
"I know you were interested in me before I started talking about ladies."
He started a little at the words, like he’s been shocked. He raised his hands, "Parvati I never expected-"
"That’s exactly it. You let it go after that. And you've been nice to me, proper nice. Not just pretty words." Her hand tenses, gripping his jacket tightly as her expression pinches. Junlei has clearly hit her hard, and after what she told him about how many other folks pushed her away he isn't surprised.
"I gotta try this, just to get it out of my head that folks may be right, or prove they are. I want that to be with you, if you're alright with that, Ash."
She rarely used his actual name, it hit him how serious she was. He took a second to choose his response.
"Okay, I'll do it. If that's what you really want, at least I know if it's me it'll be properly, we'll stop the minute you're too uncomfortable, no expectations or pressure on you. But. Not right now, you're not sober. Tomorrow night, if you still want to go ahead with this plan in the morning, but right now you've gotta get some rest." He started trying to lead her from the room.
Her hand tightened and she held fast.
"Parvati. We're not doing this while you're drunk."
"Fine. Okay yeah, that’s probably a good idea. I just don't wanna be alone tonight. Could we sleep together? Not like...ya know. I just mean sleep next to each other." She looked down, embarrassed.
"Sure. Come on, then." He led her towards the bed. They both stripped down to their underwear plus a shirt and he gave her some water to drink, before they both got into bed and spooned close, to have enough room to sleep.
He woke slowly to a very pleasant feeling of someone squirming on top of him. That thought roused him fully and he opened his eyes, finding Parvati lying half on top of him, eyes bright but slightly lidded.
"Um...good morning?" He said, leaving his obvious question only implicitly asked.
"Morning," she smiled nervously, "you...I was just...I’ve never been close to a man like this before. It's...nice, at least it is because it's you. I was remembering our conversation last night, thank you for agreeing. And telling me to wait." She squirmed again.
He cleared his throat, "Please don't do that it's very distracting. But you don't need to thank me."
Her eyes widened and her mouth shaped an O. Her eyes flicked down in the direction of his crotch.
"I didn't...I forgot that might...right sorry." She cleared her throat and looked away.
After a beat, "Oh what the hell I need to start getting comfortable with the idea anyway. " She pressed a little closer to him, inadvertently grinding along his body slightly.
He sucked in a breath, clenching his teeth, "So you still want to go ahead with this plan then?"
She nodded.
"Yeah, I was thinking about it before I got drunk, I guess I was trying to give myself the courage to do it then and there with alcohol. Not such a good idea though."
He hummed, "Well I don’t know how your hangover is but I'll make you some breakfast if you want to get up."
She smiled really genuinely down at him.
"Thank you. It ain't to bad really. Probably should get up though, take a shower." She lifted herself off him, blessedly giving him a reprieve finally. Well he would certainly be able to get it up later, there was no doubt about that.
After they’d both eaten and taken showers they met back in his room. Sober and in the light of day Parvati was clearly nervous, so he gently reminded her that he wasn’t going to push. This was at her pace, she could take the lead.
“I don’t…know enough, how to make this good I mean. Show me what to do?” She asked.
Hawthorne took it slow with her at first, undressing both of them little by little, letting her look and explore his body, slowly exploring hers. He sucked a few hickies onto her neck too and played with her tits, taking them into his mouth briefly and teasing them a little, listening to the way her breath stuttered as he teased her.
Slowly he moved further down her body, reaching her cunt. He pushed her onto the bed and crawled between her legs. He slowly coaxed her into getting nice and wet for him, and then ate her out. He brought her to her first orgasm that way.
With her thoroughly relaxed and wet, he opened her up with his fingers, and then slowly slides himself in when she’s stretched enough he was sure it wouldn’t hurt her.
Parvati's head fell back and she gasped at the feeling of him sliding in, one leg coming up to bracket his hip.
"Woah, this is what it feels like?" She panted.
"Mmm, if you've done it right, yeah." His lip quirked slightly.
Her hands found the sides of his chest and she pulled him all the way in.
"Yeah. Yeah I think I’m getting it now." She breathed out.
He chuckled lightly.
He reached down to rub her clit. She moaned quietly, clenching around him, he took that as queue.
"I’m gonna start moving now, tell me if it's too much and u need me to slow down or stop."
She nodded and he pulled far enough out to thrust slow and deep. Parvati shuddered silently and he let himself feel a little pride at making it good for her.
He focused himself on the task at hand and slowly increases the pace of his thrusts, as he picked things up her legs came to wrap around him and her hands found their way up his back, pulling him close.
They were only a few inches from each other's faces, he leant his head to the side a little, silently asking if it was okay to kiss her. She leant towards him, he met her in a tender first kiss.
It was just as sweet as he imagined, but so much better, and she shuddered into him. He kissed his way down to her neck to tease her there again.
"I think I’m gonna...again." She said, incredulously.
"That's how you know I’m doing this right."
He sped up his pace, getting slightly rougher, and he applied more pressure to her clit. It was enough to drive her over the edge and he watched her moan and shake through it. The way she looked sent him over the edge and he spilled deep inside her. Her eyes went wide at the feeling and he felt her clench around him, dragging his orgasm out by a fraction.
"Woah...that's...different. I think I like it. Feels nice."
He smiled, satisfied, and rolled over to collapse beside her for a moment.
After a minute he reached for the cleaning cloth he left by the bed to clean them up.
They cuddled afterwards, her leaning on his chest.
"So, how was it? I hope you don't regret your decision to try it with me." He said.
She looked up at him meaningfully.
"I don't think I coulda made a better choice. You were a perfect gentleman about it all, making me feel good. Checking I was alright...making me feel all confused..."
His hand squeezed around her arm slightly for a moment in reassurance.
"Confused how?"
"I mean all this time my thoughts are only about ladies, and I’ve gone all this time not even caring about sex and then you go and show me the best night of my life like it's outta some romance story...I don't know what to think..."
He wasn't sure how to respond.
"Besides that I'd like to do that again, if you liked it as much as I did. " She finished.
He looked down at her, her face was hopeful and nervous.
"Parvati you already rightly called that I was crushing on you when we met. That never went away I just made sure not to show it or let it get in the way of things. You mean a whole lot to me, so as long as you're not bothered with feelings being attached to all this then yes, I'd really like that."
"Aw hell. I don’t think I'd want this unattached, don’t know if I'll ever be that kinda person. But you mean a whole lot to me, Ash."
"Then let’s see where this takes us." He smiled at her.
"Sounds good to me." She smiled back.
"If you're up for more, I think you'd really like what round two entails. My head back between your legs..."