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It was his idea, Welt reminds himself. He knows he trusts Luocha enough at this point, they talked about this so many times that Welt got tired of Luocha being so overly careful. He's not fragile.
But maybe he is.
Welt had asked for it to be rough. He wants to stop thinking for a while. He wants to stop hurting and focus on just the man, Luocha.
"Welt, pay attention."
The blonde man's soft, yet stern voice pulls him back from his thoughts. The older man opens his mouth to speak, but Luocha pushes his cock into Welt just a little deeper, his arms hugging the man's chest, pulling the brunette's naked back flushed against the blonde's chest. The words quickly turn into moans as the cock continues to press against his sweet spot but not making any more movement for him to get any closer.
Welt doesn't know how much time has passed with Luocha's cock just pressed inside him as the blonde continues to explore the older man's body.
"You are so pretty, Welt." Luocha whispers as he bites the brunette's neck, smiling as another mewl escapes Welt's lips.
"L-Luocha… Pleas—Haaahhnn… Ahnn… Pleaseee!!" The older man whimpers, cum leaking from his cock. The man's cock feels so full inside him, it's so big… He can't take it anymore. Welt can't remember how many times he came or how many rounds they had gone and yet his cock is still so hard, his mind dizzy from overstimulation. "I-I can't… Luocha…!! Aaahhnn!! A-Anymore and- Hnnn… I-I'll break!!"
"Stay still, Welt. I'm sure you can handle a few more rounds~ If you stay still like a good boy, I will fuck you sooner~" Welt tries his best to stay still as he rests his head on the blonde's neck, strained mewls escaping his pursed lips. He can feel a smile forming on Luocha's lips, as the man kisses the crook of his neck before whispering into his ears, "Good boy."
The blonde man pulls back nearly all the way and pushes right back in, his cock hits right at Welt's prostate making the older man cry out in pleasure. He buries his face into the pillow, trying to muffle his moans, but the other man just cups his face and turns it back out in the open, making his moans echo in the room. As Luocha starts to build up his pace, abusing Welt's spot over and over again without mercy, the older man just lays there and takes the assault, his legs twitch every time the cock pushes so deep inside him it makes him see stars. Luocha is so deep inside him, God he's so big. The brunette looks down at his stomach tracing over the slight bump on it. He's so full.
"Y- Hnnnngg.. You're so big inside me--- Haaahhnn... So full..." Welt nuzzles against the blonde's neck as he mumbles between moans. Luocha lets out a groan, his green irises watch the older man's lips curve up into a dazed smile, his cock twitching inside the man's tight hole. The blonde quickly flips Welt over before getting on top of the brunette, his gaze not leaving the man for a single second.
Luocha spreads the older man's leg even wider as he pulls the man's legs over both of his shoulders. He slowly kisses Welt's calves, then the man's thighs, watching the brunette's brows crease and lips open just so slightly as the man mewls and whimpers.
"Welt, Welt... Fuck, so tight. I'm going to fuck you so good." The blonde pulls all the way out of the man before thrusting back into the hilt as he bites down on the older man's thigh. Welt's back arc and he screams, his fingers digging and scratching Luocha's back, finding somewhere to ground himself. The blonde moves over to the brunette's neck as he licks and bites the salty skin, relishing in every whimpers it elicits.
Luocha licks his lips as he looks at Welt like the man is his masterpiece. Welt's lips are bitten red, drool rolling down to his chin. Lust fills the older man's hooded eyes, his irises unfocused and drowning with pleasure, barely conscious. Tears paint Welt's face as the man whimpers and writhes under him. Luocha picks up his pace as he gazes at the sight and whispers in between thrusts.
"I'm going to destroy you."
And that was the trigger.
Images of the other blonde flashes right before Welt's eyes, the pain and torment he went through by that man's hands, his father's and Joyce's deaths replaying over and over again. At the same time, he couldn't keep his control at bay any longer, the pain mixes with intense pleasure as Welt cum. His mind went blank for a few seconds, then as the high slowly ebbs away his body starts to shake, sobs threaten to escape from his lips as tears sting his eyes. Strained mewls escape his lips as pleasure and pain continues to intermingle with every thrust the blonde man makes.
Luocha groans as the wall clenches so tightly around him before finally spilling his cum into the older man. As he comes down from the high, he can hear the other man's whimpers and sobs. The blonde quickly looks down to see Welt's entire body shaking like a leaf. His arms shakily pushing Luocha's chest away as if the man had hurt him.
"Welt...? Are you okay?" Luocha reaches out to wipe the tears, but Welt looks away and bites his lips, trying to keep his sobs at bay to no avail. Hiccups start to build up into strained whimpers before the older man finally starts sobbing. His shoulder shakes as the man tries to take in each shuddering breath. Why can't he forget about that man? Why does the dead man have to keep on haunting him? Then Welt comes to a horrifying realization. He just came at the thought of that man, to… to the deaths of his loved one…
Nausea hits him all at once as he pushes himself off the blonde man and rushes over to the toilet. Welt dry heaves into the toilet bowl, the bitter acidic taste of bile makes his eyes sting. When had he become this messed up?
Careful footsteps approach the toilet as Luocha bends down and reaches out to the older man. The man jerks away from the touch before turning back and recognizing the blonde, Welt must had seen the hurt and confusion on Luocha's face as apologies start to tumbles out of the man's mouth.
"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry, he… He just shows up-" Welt rambles on as one of his hands start grabbing onto his hair, "shows up in my head I mean… T-Then... It hurts, but... But I enjoyed it. I shouldn't... He... F-Fuck." The older man's voice is so full of distress and confusion as words spill out of his lips between sobs. Luocha's hand gently moves to wipe away the tears on Welt's cheeks, his soft smile so understanding… So comforting…
"Can I hug you?" The blonde man's tender request circles around the mess that is Welt's mind. After a few moments of silence, through tears the older man nods. Luocha's arms gently, so gently, wrap around the brunette and pull Welt into and embrace. The man's warmth envelopes him as he lays his head over the blonde's chest and listens to the heart beats. Somehow it makes his own heart beat a little less loud, the pain a little more bearable.
Luocha watches Welt's shaking form slowly calm down, his mind still trying to figure out the cause of all this. "I can leave if you want?" His suggestion doesn't come from any bitterness or pain, just purely out of concern. The older man's breath hitch as soon as he heard it, his head shaking quickly on the blonde's chest.
"No…! S-Stay with me… P-Please…?" Luocha looks at Welt and gently tightens his hug as though to reassure the man that he won't go anywhere.
"Okay, okay. I will be here for however long you want." Luocha coos softly and pets Welt's soft brown hair, watching the man still shaking from the sobs. Welt is so composed most of the time, seeing the man being this... vulnerable scares him. "But let's move to the bed okay?" The brunette gives him a small nod so the blonde gently carries the older man back to the bed. After he lays Welt down, Luocha quickly makes the bed before joining the older man under the blanket. The brunette curls into his embrace as if on instinct, his body still trembling as he continues to let out muffled sobs from time to time.
The blonde hums out soothing melodies hoping that it would help calm the man down, his hands tenderly rub soothing circles on the older man's back until Welt finally passes out from exhaustion.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Luocha's voice comes from behind Welt as the brunette is putting on his jacket the morning after. The older man pauses for a moment, several thoughts run through his mind before he takes a breath and looks back.
"Okay."
The two men sit at the edge of the bed and while Welt thought that it would be awkward, Luocha's genuine sympathy makes it feel a little less daunting. Welt consider if he should sprinkle in some white lie, omit certain details, or just straight up lie about his past. In the end, he decides to settle with the truth. After all, if this breaks them up, this relationship is never going to work.
"The person that killed my father and mentor… He looks like you. His name is Otto."
Silence.
Welt watches as several emotions play on Luocha's face before settling back to acceptance and understanding. The blonde man nods as he takes in the information.
"I see… I must have said something wrong. No wonder." As he thinks for a few minutes more, Luocha looks back at Welt. "Do you want to break up?" The brunette laughs slightly at the question despite knowing that it is serious.
"Luocha, I decided to be in a relationship with you already knowing all of this. I think I should be the one asking that question here." The blonde man shrugs and smiles at Welt, a smile so gentle and soft that is just so vastly different from the other man. The man takes hold of his hand and rubs gentle circles over his palm.
"Then I will be here helping you through it then." The words sound so simple coming out of the Luocha's lips, yet somehow he knows that it's genuine. Welt just nods and finally lets out a small smile.
"Thank you."