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There are people running around here and there,so carefree in their joy to enjoy spring festival to notice the man who had single handly turn the tides of war in their favour.
The mentioned man was currently on the stall of ring toss, he absent-minded throw the rings,all of them falls in their intended target easily, he present them to him.
His eyes reminded him of what he could've if only he has some patience.
If only he had tried to listen the only person who cares for him, worried for his health when even he couldn't bother to do for himself.
Their eyes met and he could see multiple emotions in them.
Longing,regret,fondness,sadness,h..hate
No ... Never ..hate
Even if no one but he can right fully condemn Him for hating him.
He tries to smile but it came out more like a grimace,he had forgotten to genuinely smile not unlike the person in front of him.
A bark of that wretched creature pull out of his deep thoughts and before he knew,he was swaddled in his arms.
If the cultivation world knew that it only took a single harmless puppy to defeat the revered Yiling Patriarch.
The fearless Yiling Patriarch who had crawl from literal hell and killed a whole fleet of cultivators with just a haunting melody.
Their steady hands held him protectively as he burrows his head in their nape, released their qi to chased the creature away and then slowly led them to a secluded lake where lanterns were floating so the souls can be guided to the nahai bridge.
He was still holding him,cradling him close as he was some fragile thing, humming the very song that he both hate and love.
He hate the song that in another world could've been romantic,a witness of their love despite many sufferings,despite the many hurdles they faced.
Now it only represents, what was taken from him,what could they've been if ..... If only they could communicate,...if...if only they didn't shut out each other.
But he couldn't forget no matter how much he wanted to, it was the only thing of his be ...beloved that he had ,that was made solely for him,his most cherished possession.
He pulls his head and the melody stop.
He looks up to the caramel eyes mirroring his every emotion because the person in front of him was same as him.
There was no need for apologies between him and his Zhiji.
When he married him, he was ready to let Him punish him but all he get a sorry
Sorry for what he don't know then even now he couldn't know what that apology had implied
But there was also no need for sorry and thankyou between him and his husband too.
They both were a same person but raised in different circumstances.
If Lan Zhan and Wei Ying was two different sides of same coin ,then Lan Xichen and Wei Wuxian was also distorted versions of each other, similar but also different.
Lan zhan and Wei Ying compliment each other and balanced their different nature
But Lan Xichen and Wei Wuxian were reflection of each other just in a different situation.
They're scarred ...oh so scarred ..that they no longer knows,what they were truly like perhaps will never know,now their only light was taken from their life.
If one was crushed under the burden of responsibilities and then another under the countless debts.
Their lives were never theirs, as soon as Lan Xichen was born as a heir and him found by uncle jiang.
They can never live freely....could never become their true selves they were destined for,if only their fate was a little kind.
They could only embrace there was no point in blaming other because they both are responsible for the death of the most cherished person of life,if only to forget in another's embrace.
Lan Wangji...Lan Zhan...A-Zhan...
A breeze passes through them as if giving them his blessings as if apologizing for making them stuck with each other.
They remain in each other's arm past haishi.