To Leave You Forever

by Visible_Frustration

Summary:

A poem I wrote for my girlfriend.

Etched across my skin are the constant reminders of the wars that raged within my mind

And anyone willing to dig deeper would probably dig deep enough to find

That I carry my scars with pride and I carry my poetry with pride because my scars are my writing

I used to write a lot at night

And maybe sometimes I just need someone to find me

But to also let me be

And despite the pain and memories, these words are forever a part of me, thats something I need you to see

And darling I promise I’ll never leave you forever, but maybe I’ll leave you a lot so I can come back and apologize

Because I break everything I touch, and I’m afraid I’ll touch you too much

And I know some nights I’ll wake up and I’ll scream at you for letting me be me
And letting me be free and live out my dreams

And I know we’re supposed to be a team but I can’t make us whole with this crack down the centre of my body

Though I’ll never put myself back together, I love you just the way I am

And darling I promise I’ll never leave you forever, but maybe I’ll leave you behind so I can look back and pity myself for the chances I didn’t take

God knows I touch you enough to make every part of you shake

And I don’t want to be the reason why you have to forgive yourself for being in love with someone like me

We all know pain is the only thing I can guarantee

It’s something I need you to see

And god knows I touch you enough to make myself become attached

Maybe because I know I don’t deserve something that will last

Every part of my past involved someone choosing to leave

And sometimes I can’t breathe

Because I’m afraid I’ll do the same to you, and I’m afraid that your memory of me will be too easy to undo

We’re walking on unsteady ground and you must remember that even when I’m not around that I still love every part of you

And darling your hands will never be something I outgrew