Chapter 1: regulus pov september 1 1971
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"Boys get down here now!" it was coming from down stairs. The tow boys in question, looked at eacher other time. One was 12 and had wavy black hair down around his shoulders. He had on a black jumper with a t-shirt under. The boy across from him was 11, and aready in his new school uniform. A blue shirt with a dark blue tie, and black pants. He was also wearing a light blue robe around it all with a logo with a B on the right side. The oldest name was sirius orion black, and the younger was named regulus arcturus black. The two boys smilled at each other before moving down the stairs.
"Sirius, where is your uniform?" ther mother asked with a mad look on her face. "And regulus straighten you tie" she said before loking back to the older brother. It was the 1 september 1972, and the two moy would be leaving for school in under an hour. Sirius would go the platform 9¾; , And would be going to hogwarts for his second year at hogwarts. But regulus would leave with flue and would go to beauxbaton. It would be his first year. " i will change on the train, mother" sirius replied. There mother gave him a nasty look, like he was just a little bit of dirt on the wall of her perfect house. which in her mind he really just was, but still regulus some times thinks that a mother should not look at er own kids like that. But what is he to say he has never know any thing other then this.
Regulus mother had chosen to send regulus to beauxbaton, after sirius was sorted into gryffinfor. In her words " you dont need that kind of people like your brothers friends" She had said this, and when regulus had triend to argue he had gotten a slap across the face. He got tod to never ever think about the things his father and mother choose for him or his brother. But why did he have to leave his older brother to the potter boy. Regulus had hate that boy ever since sirius had come home from his first year. Sirius had never ever had a friend other then regulus, but now he had potter, lupin, and pettgriw. And what about regulus? Did he just not matter anymore. So here they where on the way to there two schools, and wont see eachother until Christmas break. Regulus was not sure what to think about being in a different country then his brother for so long. But there there was nothing he could do about it. He was just going to have to live with it.
Kreacher came into to the room with his and sirius trunk's, then he put regulus in front of him. He then looked at sirius and there father. " Let's go, sirius" there father told them grabing sirius shoulder, the he looked at regulus." make us proud regulus, unlike your brother here" he said pulling sirius out the door with kreacher on there heels. " Bye, little reggie" sirius quickly, before the door closed with a bang. "let go regulus, we dont want to be late" his mother said pulling him by his wrist into the living room. "yes mother" he quickly replied. His mother pulled a little jar wich was black with a gold B on it. " beauxton, france" she said and threw the little bit of green powder into the fireplace. Flames came to life in the fireplace, and they went into the flames.
"* hello, what are your name's?*" a man dressed i black robes asked the second they got out of the fire:
"* walburga and regulus black*" his mother said
"* ahh yes, here you are, just step over to that man holding the number 1*"
his mother pulled him with him over to the man and the around 10 other kids that looked his age. Regulus looked at them, thinking about how all of them would be his new school mates over the next 7 years. He would have to sleep, eat and go to class with them. He hoped that atleat some of them would like him, just so he could tell sirius all ablout his new friend. Juat like he did to him, but also it would be a bit sad if he would just have to go 7 years in a new country with out any friends. Some of them looked alright, but he also had to think about what kind of people his parents would think would be good to be friends with.
" look at that one" his mothe hissed to him, " you have to make friends with him, and the boy over there"
"yes mother, i will" he said, and well there where his new friends. he looked at them, and saw them look right back. The boy's father was also talking to him, and the girl was looking right back at him.
"* hello everyone welcome to eauxbatons Academy of Magic, i hope that we will see you all for the next 7 year's. Lets see who will be sharing dorm's. First it Regulus A. Black, Louis C. Durand and Jules Laurent. Come over here, with you trunk's and you will be let to your room*" the man holdin a sign with 1 one.
Regulus and the two boys went over, and a house elf came over a snapped his fingers to make their trunk's went way . Then they where let into a old castle and through alot of hallways. The house elf topped infront of a black door with initials on it, done in gold. The house elf opend the door and the 3 boys went in to the room.
The room was in all black and blue colors, with a few gold things around the room. There was 3 beds pushed into there own walls, with a little table on the side. Each of them had blue curtains on the side of them with gold details on the curtains. On the last wall there was a door, witch regulus guessed was the bathroom. There was also a wardrobe a little bit away from the bed in black wood the same as the door's. Next to 1 of the beds there was a small window. Regulus knew that he need that bed, so that he could look at the stars of his family.
"* can i tak the bed by the window?*" regulus asked with a look at the 2 boys.
"* sure i dont care, i will just take this one*" the one regulus was pretty sure was named Louis said and went to the one of the right of the window. Jules nodded and went to te one on the other side of that, and unpacked his trunk.
Regulus went to the window one and put his trunk down o the bed a opened it. The first thing he saw was a little brown box with sirius messy handwriting.
" Dear regulus, i hope that you will like this alot, it is just a little gift from me and my dear friends we made at the end of the school year" it said, tho he could not really see that, but after years othe reading it he could some what see what it was saying. He had been about to open it when he thought about the fact that potter had helped make what ever was in that box. So he grabbed the box a trough it under the bed. He would never open it, and would give it back to sirius when he saw him at christmas. He unpacked the rest of his trunk. He put the littel pic of him and his brother. It was painted the years that sirius went of to hogwarts, and regulus loved it for being the last pic before sirius got all of his new friends.
"* so where are you guys from?*" louis asked well turing around. He had a smill on his face.
"* paris, you*" jules looked at him with the same smil
"* same, that is so cool*" his smil grew even more
"* Yeah i guess, what about you quit kid over there?*" jules looked at regulus
"* england*" he sayed not looking at them.
"* then what are you doing here*" jules looked at him with a tone that made him sound like he was mad at regulus.
"* may family is from france *" he said looking op on them.
"* oh, then who this*" louis said pointing at the pic of him and sirius
"* my brother, his name is sirius, goes to hogwarts*" he said looking at it.
"* oh, then why you dont go there?" jules said
regulus just liftedet his shoulders, as away to say i dont know. Then a bell rung, and the house elf was back. "*come with me please, it is time for dinner*" he said walking out of the room. The 3 of them went after the elf with regulus in te back of the goup. The two others where talking all the way down to dinner. But regulus just stayed quiet all the way down to the dinner hall. When they some in it was made up of small tabels for each year. The elf let them over to a little group with other kid sitting around them. The 3 of them sat down at a around a tabel witch no one sat at yet. The other 2 just talked more and more as wher regulus just stayed quiet , and looked around the room at all the other kids.
"* hello and welcome to a year at beauxbaton or your first year*" a woman said from the front of the room making reguus look at her. "* i hope that the new ones of you that have joinfd this school, will have alot of good memories, and hopefully make some long like friends*" she said with a smill on her face."* But for now lets have some dinner*" then she sat down and house elf brought out the food. Regulus was so happy when dinner was done, even tho he ate just about nothing. When they same back from diner and began putting on there pj's. Regulus went into the bathroom, after all of the others. He looked at him self and started thinking about waht sirius was doing right now. When he was done he went into his bed a said the others goodbye, and slid into his bed with a bit of a heavy heart about sirius.
When he was sure all of then where asleep and slide out of his bed. And then into the little shelf next to the window. He found sirius's star in the sky a just looked for some time.
"hey there siri, how are you holding up? Are you happy to be back with you new friends? I think that i like my new dorm mates, so yeah" he said and then just looked. He's not really sure how long he sat there, but at some point he looked at the little watch his aunt. It said that it was 12 in the moring, so he slide back into his bed with quick bye to sirius. He is not sure how long it took him to fall a sleep, but it was with thoughes of the next 7 years with the two boys in the room.
Chapter 2: 1 september 1971 james pov
Summary:
just what happend to the marauders, at the same time as regulus
Notes:
hello, so this came out the next day, i was just so happy that some people love it. But i have alot going on in the next few day's with confirmation bening tomorrow and then my friends and some other fun stuff. So i really dont know when the next one will be out. But mabye som time this week
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James had been looking forward to going back to hogwarts, almost since he left. Not really the school part, But to see his friends. Playing prank, having fun but also just to see them. He had seen peter a few time's, but he had not seen remus and sirius over the whole summer. He also remembered that sirius little brother, named regulus. James had seen a small picture of him, on sirius nightstand. In his mind he looked almost like a smaller sirius, but from what sirius had said he was not like him at all. He was more quit and never really spoke up to their parents just like he did. So when he woke morining of the 1 september, he was so happy he ran down to breakfast.
" some ones happy arent you" his mother said to him putting a plate down in front of him.
" yeah, i am so looking forwars to seeing all of my friends, i mean saw peter a few times. But still this is when we all wil be back in the same room. Also sirius little brother is also starting this, his name is regulus, think of all the nick names. Like reg, reggie and baby black, yeah, i know that the last one is really only about him being sirius's little brother, but still i think that it is really cute. I mean sirius is still really scared that he will get in to slytherin, but i still think there is hope that he can get in to gryffindor." james said all well moving his hands alot, and speaky so quickly that his mother could not keep up.
"woah, woah slow down there, my boy" monty his father said while walking into the room. He looked like he just woke up from bed, and just put on his glasses . He kissed his mother, and james fake gagged. "Dont do that" his mother scolded, but with no anger in the words. He just gave her a smirk, and took a bite of his toast. Well he and his parents ate, they talked all about his friends and the new school year. When his mother said that she hoped they would play less prank's this year, he just said sure. But under the tabel he was crossing his fingers. They where going to play as many if not more this year. He knows that remus will try and make them stop, but he knows that they never will.
" go get dressed and make sure that everything is in your trunk" his mother said when they where done. He ran up to his room and got into one of his favourite shirts, and his most comfortable jeans. The shirt was one with a big dog on it that said " sorry my dog ate my homework" and overit he put one of his gryffindor jumpers. His jeans where dark blue with a few rips on the knees. He ran his hair trough his hair, and called it a day. He knew that his hair was a bit messy or mabye that was a bit of an lie. It was very messy, but he just never really cared about it. He pulled on his red converse, that had just a few to many holes and where a little bit to dirty. But he just really likes them alot.
"Oh there you are, hurry, hurry, we are going to be late." his mother pussed him out of the fireplase and gave him the a little bit of green pouder. He threw it on the floor and fire came to life. He said the place of a little cafe owend by a witch a few bloocks away from kings cross. He waved to the witch that owend the shop, and went over to his farther. "Come on lets go" his mother said when she stepped out of the fire, and began walking pulling them along. James and his father sared a look, and then began walking after his mother fastly. When then came ovr to the wall, his mother stopped and turend around to james.
"come on hurry on, you dont want to be late" she said moving him along
" realx mom theres's 10 minutes to the train leaves" he said rolling his eyes
" dont roll your eyes at me, young man" she said with a mean tone, putting her finger at him
" yeah, yeah" he said, and began runing at the wall. He felt him self slip trough and on to the platform wich was already full of kids and there parents. He began moving toward the train, as his parents came up behind him. His father put a hand on his shoulder, when he turend around he had big smill on his face. He began moving with them behind him. His mother help him push his tunk onto the train, and with a last good bye, he moved dowen the train. He was looking for his best freinds, and when he found one it was remus and peter.
" hello, my sweet loving best friends" he said jumping into the coupe. He began putting up his trunk, when remus got up and began to help him.
" it good to know you have not changed over the summer" remus said as they said down
" ahh, but why change when your perfect"
" perfect, i dont know about that" remus said looking back in his book. Peter began laughing, and james put a hand on his chest. And just as he was about to yell at him, the door opened. There stood sirius black in all his highness. He began saying hello, and putting stuff away all with a smill on his face.
The last time james had seen sirius, had been right when they where leaving the train. And he had been much sadder, and like he just wanted to run back to hogwarts agin. But he had always looked like that when ever someone talked about there famlit, or it was time to go home. Like when it was christmas last year, he had really looked like he wanted to jump in to the lake. He really just wantend to try and help him with his family. But when sirius never wantede to talk about it, he never knew what to do to help. He just fealt so useless some times, because he never really knew what to say. But right now sirius just looked so happy, tho james noticed that his brother was not with him. There was not little baby black.
" hey, sirius, where is your brother?" he asked.
" oh, our parents send him to a school in France, called beauxbaton" he said like he didn't care. But james could see that sirius really cared
" why tho" peter said
" some thing about not being with the same people as me." he said waving his hand around.
James thought about that, and it just sound really stupid to him. But sometimes sirius parents said and did really stupid things. So mabye it was nomal for them, but james never thought that his parents could send his not real sister of to another school. Tho he never had a sibling, so mabye this was just normal for siblings to different school's, so what did he know. James still thinks that sirius was really sad about his brother not being there. He could see it in the way his smil never truley came up to his eyes. He just allways looked a little sad, but still so happy. The rest of the train ride to hogwarts, went pretty normal. They brought lots of candy from the trolly. When they avrived it was raing very heavly, and they ran as fast as they could to the carriage's. When they fianly came into the great hall all of them where really hungry. But then they had to side to trough the sorting.
"come on, come on" peter was bounching his knee up and down
" oh they are almost done" remus replide to peter, tho all of them could hear his stomach
" hey inst that evans over there?" sirius said with a smirk
James spun in his seat, to look at look at where sirius was looking. And there she was, and james almost fell in love again. When james had meet her last year he had fallen i love almost just a sight, But her personality was almost just a great. The only problem was that she hated his gutes, but he dind't really care. He still really belived she would at some time would fall for him. He really hoped that he was right. So what if she said she hatedet him, but at some point she would turn her fellings arond and fall for him, and they would live happyli ever after. that was what he was going to tell him self, it was just so he could keep up hope. He knew it was a bit mean, and mabye it made him seem like his ego was super big. And mabye lilly had a point when she sayed his ego was as big as the black lake. But james just thought that she really would at some pint would say that she was really in love with him. But for now he would just have to wait, until she did come around.
" hey there, evans" he yelled arcoss the table. she turend around in her seet, and saw it was him and then went from a smil to a frown.
"what do you want potter" she said in a bord tone, like she would rather do enything other then talk to him.
" jut wanted to know if you wanna hang out some tim?" he said with a big smirk on his face
" i would rather jump out from the highest tower, then ever hang out with you" she said and then turned around to look back at the sorting.Well that was a bit of a blow to the gut. But as he said before she would come around at some point.
" ohh, you will get it next time jamie" sirius said clapping him onthe shoulder. Just then dumbeldore stood up, and said all of the useal stuff like dont break the rules stuff. Then the feast began. All of them began eating very quickely, but remus was the one who ate the most. He almost allways ate like a dying man. But at other times he would look like just getting the smallest amount of food down was the worst in the world. it was very werid but james just kinda got used to it.
When they where all down one of the prefects told the password to them. It was lions, and james never tough anything was funny in his 12 year old life. all of them then almost died becouse of the password, it was just so funny to them. Like they where the lion house and the password was lion. Likw how the fuck did that happen. But they did at some point make it to the fat lady's portrait, and gave her the passwrd. when they made it up to there dorms, ( wich looked just like last years but with a 2 not a 1 on the door) all of them where so tried none of them wantedet to unpack, jus sleep. So none of them unpacked anyting other then they're pj's. Went into the bathroom one by one. After that they all just moved around getting ready for bed. Remus pulled out a book and began reading, peter began eating some candy he had frm trolly. Sirius began staring out of the window loking at the stars, like he had done evry night. James never really knew why he did it, but just one more thing he got used to about his friends. James just slide into bed a wished them all good night, and told remus to stop reading. This eard him a "yes mother", but he did put it away. So win win. James was already so happy to be back and just wantedet to start plaing pranks right now. But he was also so tried. So for tonight he would just sleep
Notes:
bye bye until next time
p.s. i go be she/her
Chapter 3: flashs trough time
Summary:
just a few things that happend over the years, before regulus 5th year
Notes:
here it is sorry it took so long. But this is a bit more longer, and the pov switchs. so i put it at the top, so yeah here you go
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
(just a day in regulus pov)
regulus walked with louis and jules, all dressed to full in uniforms. They where all dressed with the blue dress shirts, and drak blue ties. Tho jules was black, and when the others had asked about it he hade said that he " just feelt like it" so they still dont really know why. But all of them where wearing the black pants and blue robes. All with the little b on, and under it there was the their initials. Regulus shoulder bag was black, and with the sliver B house logo. He knew that sirius had the same back, but had painted over the B on his bag this summer. That had earned him about a week our so locked in his room with no food. Regulus dind't mind the logo on the bag or mabye he just dind't want to get in truoblee with his parnets, he really wanted to live that to sirius. Tinking about sirius he had also made up his mind that he was just going to send him the box so that therie mother would find it and sirius would get in troubel. "* hey would you guy mind coming with me to send a box to my brother when school's over*" he asked the two boys at his side's.
"yeah sure, what do you need to send?*" louis said with a little smil on his face.
" ooh just some stuff of his that got put into mine*" he lied, because he really dind't like telling people about his family
"* yes yes we will go with you, but we have history of magic now so hurry*" jules said pulling them along.
When they done they left for the dorm's, because thi was ware people kept there pets. Regulus began tying the little box around the owels foot, when louis suddenly said "* mabye you should wright him a letter saying what it is*" he said oulling out one of his books. Regulus nodded, and pulled out some paper and his pen a wrote
"dear brother, i do not want anything that you and you're stupid friends have made. Keep it to your self and potter why dont you. And your should be happy mother dind't find out about it, or you would be in so much fire. R.A.B, your brother. P.S. evrything is thing is fien and my dorm mates are nice.
Then he stood up and began tying that around the foot of the owel too. He had been given it at the tart of the summer and had named her cissy after his favourite cousin. evan tho she was a few years older them him he still loved her. So when he had been given the owel it only took him a few minutes before he had named her. Bellatix, her other cousin, had thought it was a stupid name. Sirius had said he sould understandt why cissy was his favourite, but cissy herself had loved it very much.
When he was done he opend the little windouw next to his bed, and let the white owel fly out into the sky. He just stood there for some time thinking about what sirius would think when it came. It would take some time before it would arrive, but regulus hoped that sirius would not be to mad at him for sending it back. The two had not really been i contact since they had last spoken, before they both left for school. Sirius had not send any letters and regulus thought that he would seem lik he missed him too much if wrote first. There for neither of them and wrote letter at all. But had talked to cissy who said that sirius was fine and haning out with his normal gang of friends. And that he was being just as stupid as he allways was in school. He had written to mother and told her that all was going just like she said it would.
Him and his friends began working on the new homework they ad been given, with the room being silent . Unly questions being asked here and there and the sound of pen aginst paper, and pages being tound. All the times they had done is, wich would be almost every day for these two months they had been in school. But all the times they did do it, regulus would wonder if sirius and his friends did this. Tho from what sirius had told about his friends lupin was the only one that sound like he would do that. Pettigrew sound like he could do it, because potter and sirius dind't. And he just did what ever they did, so he never ever did. Regulus knew that sirius could just look at somthing ones and then knew it. It had allways mad regulus mad at him when they where younger, because he allways had to study so hard to get the same results. Only in potions had regulus allways been much, much better then him. There for it had always been his favourite, becouse he could allways beet sirius while they learned from their theachers before school. It was nice to know he was good at something. Did potter had to study alot, or where abel to read things, like sirius, and then just remeber stuff.
Regulus shook his head to get the thoughts of james potter, and try to think of one of the many goblin wars they had learned about in class. But it was for some reason super hard, to get him out of his head. Why, why could he not just get him out of his head. It was not like he had ever even seen him or somthing like that. Well, had seen a glance of him when they where droping of sirius after Christmas break last year. All he had seen was just a glance of the boy when sirius had hugged him, and had given him a big smil. Sirius had been about to drag him ver, when there mother had pulled him away. That was all that regulus had ever seen of the the boy. He had never been taken to drop or get sirius ever agine. So he had never ever seen the other two friends, so he had no idea what they looked like. But from what he had seen of james, he was boy with black messy hair and glasses. He also never seem not to be smiling or smirking.
"* it dinner time*" jules almost sang, and began puttig away his books. The others did it to, and so sirius and his friends where put to the bag of regulus' mind
( the gift from regulus james pov)
james liked to wake up super early in the morining, like 5 in the moring early. Even if school dind't start until 8 in the moring. James thinks he does it because of the fact that he allways liked to see the sunrise. He had allways thought that it was to pretty, and liked to think it was like the start of a new chance for somthing. He that most people like to just sleep and never get up, but not james. He was allways the firts one tho wake up in the doorm, and the firts to get in the shower. And that was every day, it would hopeflully always be this way.
When james got out of the showe, peter and sirius where alredy up and walking around the doorm getting ready. Remus tho where always the last one too wake up every day, where still not even out of his bed yet. James looked at sirius looked at each other, and then turend to peter. "no,no,no i am not going to get killed today" he said moving his handes infront of his body.
" yeah,yeah, you just dont want to admit that you are a little scared" james said smirking at peter
" tho, why i dont know because remus here is not scary at all" said sirius, moving over to remus bed. James moved to the other side of is bed, and then at the same time they pulled back the bed curtains, and pulled, pushed and screamed. Remus just yealled at them about wanting to kill them both. when the dorms fanily became quiet, remus looked at james and sirius.
"look, remus, my beloved friend, you dont want to be a murdere right" sirius said with a scared look on his face
"peter help, help" james turend to peter with a sort, og help me not die look.
"no, you did this you're self" peter turend away to put on his tie
" we have talked about this, just wake me up like normal" remus said, but dind't try to kill them. He just turend away and began getting ready. Sirius looked so happy not to die, and james gussed that his face looked pretty much the same. But then they both turend around, and got ready for school. James could still hear remus mubling about wanting to kill them both in there sleep.
When all of them where done, they made there way down to breakfeast. It was still abit troubel to get around school, but they did alot better then last year. It was a bit fun to see all of the 1 years run around. But remus allways helped them with what way to go, because he was almost an angel on earth. Well like an angel that was still mubling under his breath about wanting to kill james and sirius. James thinks he even heard somthing baout peter's name in there, so he thinks that remus was more like a murder angel. So yeah, that kind of angel.
When they sat down at the gryffindor tabel, remus was no longr planing there murder. James was already looking for lilly, but she was no where to be seen. But both of her friends mary and marlene where sitting a bit down. "hey macdonald, where is evans?" james yelled to them. " she said she need to speak to snape" the girl replaid before turning back to mckinnon. James got a scrowel on his face, when snape was mentioned around lilly. He was just about to say somthing about is to sirius, when the sound of many wings soundet above them. Owels began landing i front of people, with letters and pakeges. A white owel suddely lande in front of sirius, with a little box. " what do we have here" sirius said putting down his toast.
"is that you're mothers owel" remus said while putting butter on his toast
" nope this is cissy" he replaid while trying to get the box of it foot
" like your cousin, doesnt she go to the school" peter said loking at the slythrin tabel
" no i mean like the owel i called cissy, it is named after her." he said still trying to get the owel of the foot
" wait, but why" peter said
" yeah, like who's is it" james said trying to help sirius with the box
" my dearst baby brother reggie" he said getting the box with a little letter " let see it says, dear brother, i do not want anything that you and you're stupid friends have made. Keep it to your self and potter why dont you. And your should be happy mother dind't find out about it, or you would be in so much fire. R.A.B, your brother. P.S. evrything is thing is fien and my dorm mates are nice." he readet aloud, and the smil fell from his lips. And james gets why it did, they had made that thing with love, and his brother just send it back." well, that fucking dick, but do one of you have some paper.
" yeah here you go" remus said
" what does R.A.B mean?" james said looking over the letter
" it is his initials, Regulus Arcturus Black, the fucking posh cunt" he said still wrighting down a letter. When he was done he tied it around the owel's foot, and let it fly. Then he turend back to the box, and a smirk came on his face. " well now we have this little party since my reggie is a little rule folwing arshole, we are just going to have to use this." peter and james mached his smirk, and remus droped his face into his hands. He allready looked so tried, and now looked like he wanted to kill himself. But he would allways end up hellping them no matter how much grumbling there would be comming from him. It was allways like that with them. James and sirius would do something stupid, peter would follow after, and remus would try to stop them. But would allways help in the end
(summer 1972 regulus pov)
when it was time for regulus to go home for the summer, regulus had the same feeling as when he went home for christmas. But this time he knew that sirius would be there, because sirius had stayed at hogwarts over christmas break. He had done the same thing last year, and there mother had been s mad at him when summer rolled around he had been locked in his room. He had also been left home from the trip to france each year, but regulus think's that sirius really dind't mind that. He had later told regulus that he had just left there house and went to the potters. He had talked all about how nice it had been, and reglus had hated it so much. Why couldt the potter's house just also have sucked. Regulus just need his best friend back, and also his brother. But sirius had been werid ever since he had gone to hogwarts. He was no longer the brother that reg had grown up wit, just talking about all of his new friends.
But here he stood in the little graden out side of the biggest castle, to wait for his parents so he could head home. He never felt more nervous in his life ever, and it felt like his heart was going to spring out of his chest. He knew that his partens might bring sirius, if they had already picked him up. His parents had written to him to tell him that they would come pick them both up. But it was hard to know just when the train would come, so they dind't know who they would pick up first. Regulus dind't know if he hoped that sirius would come wit them. "* Mr. Black, your parents are here*" they're charms teacher said in front of him. Regulus looked around to see his parents, and there they where right there. His mother and father both, but no sirius in sight, so he must be first to be picked up. "* thank you, and have a good summer*" he said and began walking over to his parents not even wating for the answer.
" hello mother." he said looking into her eyes
" regulus, lets go, we still have to go get your brother." she said pulling him by his wrist into the fire. When they came out on the other side it was, a little wizard cafe not far away from the train. They began walking, all while his father was talking all about wanting the death and murder of the muggles. Regulus was tuging a the end of his shirt and bitting his nails. He was so nervours for what his mother would do to sirius when they came home. Not just because of christmas, but also because of all the pranks he had played over the year. what ould they do to him, was all that was in regulus's head. when they came over to the wall they had to run trough, regulus was still so nervours. "stop pulling at your shirt" his mother said grabbing his hand and pulling them off his shirt. Then with a hard push he was in through the wall. And all of the people where pushing him around, and then he felt a hand on his arm pulling him along. they found a place where almost no one was stading around them.
When the train pules up to the platform, as soon as it stops people are jumping of an finding ther family's. It took some time before reglus spotted sirius comming out, behind him there was a boy with scars and brown hair. After him a chubby boy with sandy hair, and then ooh. There was a boy with black hair that stuck out in all ways. His glasse's had cracks in them, like he had dropped them one too many times. Regulus had never seen a boy so pretty. But then he realised that sirius had said that james had glasse's, so that most be him. Regulus then made his eyes go back to sirius, and found him talking to the other two boy's. Regulus looked at his parents, too see them looking the other way. He made a run for it over to sirius, who had his back turend to him. And while running over there he discovered just who much he was missing his brother. He was not one for hugging, but in the momment he was just so happy he just hugged his brother from behinde. " hey what the fu- ohh hey reggie!" he said when he turend around, he hugged him back almost so tight that regulus couldnet breath.
" sirius- i cant-breath-" he got out, even if it was almost just a breath
" oh shit" he said putting him down" let me get a good look at you, you frence boy" he said holding regulus out and spining him around.
" stop siri, i fine" he said pushing him of " also it regulus not any of your stupid nick names"
" ohh come of it reggie" he said pulling him into his arm and messing wit his hair. Regulus tried to fight him off, and when he was free someone cough. And then reglus remembered that the other 3 boys where still there. He began strating his shirt and hair, and looked down into the ground.
"so who are you, not to be mean" the boy with sandy hair said looking and to reglus sound like he was judding everything about him.
"oh this is my dear baby brother reggie" sirius said and slung an arm around him. Regulus looked up into the eyes of the 3 boy's, and thought that they all still felt like he was judding him in some sort of way. " this is remus lupin, peter pettigrew and this is the famous james potter" he said waving at each of the boys while saying there names. When sirius said that about potter he felt a sort of anger fun thruogh him, and turend around to look at there mother. And there she was looking like she was planing the murder of them, and regulus felt like he might die. " sirius, mother is waiting" he said, and sirius turend around and all color left sirius face. " well see you boy's next year" he said pulling regulus along. Regulus could see that the boys wantedet too say something, but not a singel sound came from after them. And now regulus thinks that he knows what the other boys where judding him about. They thought he was just like there parents, and wanted too do someting mean and evil to sirius. What has sirius said to them, or had they all just never giving it a thought that he was nothing like the rest of there family. Regulus heart drops in his chest, and he almost fells sick. Did everyone think this way, and was there anything he could do to change those thoughts ever. But he was like there parents, was he not? it fellt like a sick felling and he almost wanted to trowh up. They made it over too there parents, and both felt the sick felling that ran over the two brothers. And out they where let by there parents.
(summer 1972 james pov)
james has in the 2 years he now has gone to hogwarts always, had mixed feelings about going home for breaks. On one had he has always loved seeing his parents agin, but he also ends up missing the others. He was also super nervous for sirius to go home, but he always was nervous. When sirius would come back with new scars and bruises. And what was james to do about it, he didn't know anything about what to do. he couldent just pull him out of his house, he would never leave. James ones asked and sirius said he would never leave with out his little brother. And james was an only child so he didn't understand it, but when he thinks about it if he was stuck in a place like that house he would feel the same. But at the same time he just wanted sirius out of there some time. Tho, he would just try and help as much as he could from the sideline.
So here they where stepping on to the train, and to see there parents again. All of them had been seen the way sirius mood had slowly dropped, until he was no longer his smilling pranking self. This happend leading up to every break, but summer was allways the worst. Remus thinks that it is because it's the longest. And james thinks that might be true, but he could never really see the difference in his mood. But remus allways looked like he could see every feeling in sirius face at all times.
As allways they found the one compartment they had meet in last year, they had allways sat in that one. It brought back so many feelings for them all, or at least for james. The all began to put away stuff and pull out some, like remus who pulled out his book and began reading. "oh, put that away" james tried to pull the book out of remus hands. He missed a end up falling on to the floor. This made the whole group laugh, and james soon joind in on it. It was just hard not to when he could see all of there smilling face's. James allways loved the train rides home for breaks. It was at these times that he could forget everyone else, and what would happen ones the train stopped.
Ones the train ride began it was filled with more laughing and jokes. No one talked about there summer breaks, because of the look that sirius would get in his eyes. Like he in that second rembert where he was going, where this would all end. He was not going home, he was going into a hause that allways liked to tuck at his feelings. James would never wanted to be the one to do that to sirius, so they just never even talked about it. They just wanted to be them self on that train ride. And james was more then happy to just be them , the four marauders. Yeah they hade just come up with that name, and where going to make in on there map. It would be the fist map over hogwarts ever made, or atleast that they knew of.
When the train stopped they where allready in there clohest. James, peter in there mix of muggel and wizard stuff, and remus in his muggle stuff to head back to the orhange that his father had dropped him of in. And sirius in his full wizard robes. " be honest, how much of a prick do i look like" he said turing to them.
" a super massive one" remus said with a smil on his face
" like a man who kicks puppy's for fun" peter said looking at him carefully
"perfect that was the look i was going for" he said closing his trunk. They mad there way out of there compartment and along the hall of the train. When they fainally made it to a door, james thought he might just die of lack of room. As soon as they where out, he took a deep breath of the fress air. He jumped down and stood with his friends. " so you will wright, wont you" sirius had a sort of begging look on his face. And who could say no to that
" of cures we will, sirius" james said smilling at him
" wait, i think i see my mom-" peter was cut of by a yell from sirius
" " hey what the fu- ohh hey reggie!" he sirius said sping around and lifting up a small black haired boy.
" sirius- i cant-breath-" the boy got out with a stammer and what sound like a french accent
" oh shit" he said putting him down" let me get a good look at you, you frence boy" he said holding the young boy out and spining him around.
" stop siri, i fine" he said pushing him of " also it regulus not any of your stupid nick names"
" ohh come of it reggie" he said pulling him into his arm and messing wit his hair. the boy tried to fight him off, and when he was free peter cough. and then the boy, named regulus, rosse to his full height. And..... whoah, james had thought that sirius was a bit pretty, but his boy was just so pretty. He had the same black hair as sirius only his was a bit shorter. He had the same eyes only darker, and he was much skinny then sirius was. He had pale skin just like snilvlus, but his was just ohh so pretty. He was allmost a head shorter then james, and just so cute.
"so who are you, not to be mean" the peter said looking the boy up and down
"oh this is my dear baby brother reggie" sirius said and slung an arm around regulus. he looked up into the eyes of the 3 boy's, and when he looked at james he felt the same buterflies as with lilly. Only mabye a bit stronger " this is remus lupin, peter pettigrew and this is the famous james potter" he said waving at each of them while saying there names. james thought he saw a flash of anger in the boys eyes when sirius sadi his name, but it was gone if it was ever there. then reglus turend around and said " " sirius, mother is waiting" and this made sirius turn around. And there was that look again, like death had just happend in frotn of him. "well see you boys next year" sirius said and began pulling his brother away. And how james wanted to yell after him, but he knew that would only make it wors for sirius. So ther 3 of them stayed silent, as they watched there best friend leave, knowing he would be back with more scars then the ones on his body.
Notes:
hope you like it, i dont know when the next one will be. But it will be about sirius leaving, because he leaves with out reg. Dont worry though regulus will leave a year or so later
Chapter 4: sirius running away regulus pov
Summary:
sirius runs away from regulus pov
Notes:
sorry it took me so long to update this, but have been sick, and school is ass. But here we are. Also dont worry regulus will also run away, just later. by the way there is no prank in this univers.here we go also, this chapter has:
blood
chils abues
angst
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Chapter Text
2 August 1975, summer before regulus 5th year
regulus was scared of his mother,his father and his whole family. They all held this sort of power that regulus never had. many of them never thought that they ever did anything wrong. it was always somone other then them, that where the reason they did stuf. Regulus was scared that one they he would turn into them. he didn't want to be like them. He wanted to be more then just a black. He wanted to be himself. But in house where everyone was the same, it was scary to be something other then that perfect mold. Only a few people dared to step up aginst them
His oldest cousin Andromeda had done it. She had fallen in love with a mud- muggelborn. regulus was trying not to use those terms, that his mother allways called them. But it was hard. But andromeda had done that and more. She had married ted tonks, not some casy fullblood that her parents picked for her. Andromed had stood up to the monsters that where the black's, and had stepped away from all of them. Regulus thinks that he wants to be like her, but it is hard tomake the change now. The only other person that had ever been diffrent other then her, is still here, sitting across from his at the tabel.
Sirius, regulus older brother. For many years they where bestfriends, they where allways with the other. never one seen with out the other, and regulus had loved it. But ever since sirius had gone to hogwarts they here no longer bestfriends. No, that place was taken by 3 boys, and regulus would never get it back. He rembers that day that sirius came home from hogwarts. the smile on his face, and rembers having the same on on his. But as the day would go on it would begine to fall away, as sirius went on and on about his new bestfriends. How great they all here, and where they came from. the name "james potter" was said alot in the black house that day. He rembers going back to his bed, and all he could hear in his head, was sirius calling them his best friends. What about regulus, did he mean nothing to sirius anymore? he rembers the tears that fell down his face, when thinking about the fact that he no longer had a best friend. Ever since then they where nver the same.
"regulus did you hear" regulus was snapped out of his head at the osund of his mothers voice. It was sharp, like a knife cutting the air.
" sorry, mother" he said looking down. " sorry, regulus, sorry, that is just not goog enough" his mother said looking at him agin like she could hurt him just by looking at his. And it did hurt, but only because he knew what came next." mabye i should teach you a thing or two, about not listing to me at dinner. belletrix would you please" Regulus whole body went nomb at the thought of what was to come. "ohh, mother dearst, please he was just tired of listing to bella go on and on about her new marrige" sirius said with a smirk on his face." what did you just say boy" there mothers anger turend from regulus to sirius. Like it always did, even tho sirius pain would be far wors then the one she would put on regulus. "i think you heard me just fine you ol-" his sentence was cut of by scream, as there mother cast her cutting spell. " how many times do we have to do this, sirius" she cut his skin after every word. A pained sound came out of sirius. " until you die, you old ugly bitch" sirius said spitting. " you know what it i think i have had enough of you" she said not giving the boy anymore cuts. " blood is not enough for you" she looked at him with som much hate, that regulus thinks that sirius might even be a little scared and sirius is never scared of ther mother
" come at me you old bi- CRUCIO!" it sound all over the room, along with loud scream of pain that came out of sirius. Regulus could not look away from there mother as the word rained on his brother agine and agine "crucio, crucio" he is sure he will never forget the sound of sirius sream. It was so loud, but grew more and more quit. It was the worst sort of pain that reulus would ever feel. That sound was to much, and he need it to stop. "mother please" he said pulling him slef free of bellatrix grip. But before he mad it to his brothers side, he feelt it.
A sort of pain that went deep into his gut. It made him fall down on the floor in pain. It feelt like to much. " you dare question you mother" he head his father speak, but feelt like it was far way. in other univers, because of that oain. Not only his own but the one he could hear, and see of his brother. It was all to much, and he need it to stop. But it just wnt on and on. He saw bellatrix step over to sirius, and for a momment he thought she would help. Until she saw the knife. He tried to get up and help, but the pain pulled him down. He saw the knife cut long lines on sirius skin. he felt the pain drag him deeper and deeper down. Until it was all to much for regulus, and he feelt his i eyes fall shut, and all stopped. The sound, the pain and the hurt in his heart. He was just there. He didn't know how long he was out for, but it must have been sometime. Because when he opend his eyes what greated him was the worst in his life.
He saw sirius cureld into a little ball sobbing. everyone elles was gone, only the two of them. Regulus tried to get up, but fell back on the floor. Everything hurt. He tried to get up agin, and this time he got up on his hands and knees. He slowly got to his feet, even if it hurt every part of his legs. Regulus made it over to his brother, and tried to turn him over. When he did, he wish didn't.
Sirius face was corved in blood, and tears where still runing down his face. Regulus could feel him shake under his hands, like he was about to start crying. And at the sigt of his brothers face, regulus knew that there was only on thing to do. Sirius had to get out of this house no matter what. He knew it would mean he would be all alone, but he would do anything for sirius." regulus, i am not staying anymore" his brother voice was hores as it came out. And where regulus had wanted to say yes to it, now he just wanted to scream no. He knew that he was being shelfish, but he would miss his brother too much. But as he thought it over it would make sence for him to try and stop sirius, so he would stop talking to him. Because this way there would be less of a chance of there mother finfing out, where sirius had gone.
" no sirius, please" he said, just a little shake in his voice.
" look, reg, we can do it togheter" he said puling him self up with a groan.
" no i cant leave, they are our partents" regulus said still on his knees.
" ohh, you can leave mother dearst" he said with a mocking tone in his voice" well fine stay, and turn into mommy's perfect little pet" with does word that stung regulus almost as much as the curs of there mother, sirius got up. He took one last look at regulus, before turning on his heal and walking out.
Regulus stayed on the floor, for god knows how long. He thought he heard the front door open, but it might just have been nothing. He was barley even there anymore, he felt his body go num. He feelt all will to life leave his body, along with his brother. he just wanted it too stop. Regulus had always been good at not cryning, but right now all he could do was cry, cry and cry. He was not sure how long he stayede there, but he mussede have past out at some point. Because next time he woke up he was in his bed, and kreacher was by his side.the fist word he heard wher
" good, you are awake, master regulus. You must go get ready for your heir meeting" and with that kreacher was out of the room, with a snap. regulus feelt him shelf go even more numb if he was even abel to. He had really left. Then he heard sirius words in his head all over again, like they where making fun og him
“ regulus, i am not staying anymore”
“well fine stay, and turn into mommy's perfect little pet"
guess this was his new life as heir, now that sirius was no longer there. regulus took a deeb breath and got up
Notes:
there we go, hope you like
Chapter 5: sirius running away james pov
Summary:
sirius coming to james house after the whole..... you know
Notes:
orry it been such a long time, i have had a lot of school work to do, but here we go
warnigs:
angst
blood
metions of walburga blacks parting
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Chapter Text
.2 august 1975, midnight
james was just going down for a glass of water, when he heard the knock. At first he thought i was weird that someone would be here at midnight. But then the thought of sirius last letter came to mind. He had said he might run away soon. He grab his wand just in case, and then ran to the door. When he opend he let out a gasp. There was sirius corved in blood, and all he had with him was a bag, his wand and his leather jacket. In one hand he held his wand, the other looked almost broken. "what happend sirius" he said pulling is best friend in, and sliding the back of his shoulder. Then he moved to shut the door. " my mother" sirius said and let a little groan of pain.
"not funny, mate" he said pulling one of his arms around his owen shoulder as they began to walk into the house
" not a joke" sirius replied not even smiling
" how did you even make to here" james said leading them over to the living room
" ran as padfoot, and pulled my back in my mouth" he said as james put him down on the couch
" james, dear, what is-" his mother stopped in the doorway when she saw sirius
" hello effie, how are you to night" sirius said with a smirk on his lips, but then let out a pained groan.
James watched as his mother began to pull potions out of cabins and open some. Then she carefully got to work on healing him, with both her wand and all sorts of potions. She looked all around his body. Turning him around to see his back, and making small noises when see saw what was there. When james walked over and looked at his back, he almost wanted to cry. There was a long cut running along, his back with blood spilling out them. They looked a little greenish outside on the edge. When james thought about his joke about it being his mother, a strong flame of anger inside of him. He wanted to make sure that sirius would never have to go back to that house. “ sirius, dear, what happened here?” effie said ruining her hand along them.
“like i said to james, my mother” he said with a little groan in his voice
“yeah, no way are you going back” James said looking at his best friends face
“ I wasn't planning on it,” he said, closing his eyes.
“ what about your brother, what was his name?” effie ran her wand up along one of the long cutes, as it slowly began to heal up. Sirius got a stain on his face and looked like he was going through constant pain. It almost looked like the healing hurt more, then the cutting must have. “ he will be just fine” sirius said waving a hand around, as tho to say that it was not really important. And from what sirius had told james about his brother he was almost like his parents. His mom got this sort of look on her face, like she most definitely thought that is was important.
“sirius he is just a kid” his mom said with a tone in her voice
“ He will be fine” sirius said turing over like he was about to go to sleep.
“ sirius, dont just sleep” effie said and was about to say something more, when sirius began making small snores. And boom he was really asleep. Effie got up with a shake of her head.
“ i still dont think we can just leave him there, maybe i should wright to -” effie stoped in her speaking, when her son shook his head. He knew what regulus was like, or atleast what he acoted like. He would be just fine in that house. Plus him and sirius did not seem to have that best relationship in the world. It was not the time to have the boy live here. it would ruin sirius. But as effie looks at him, james thinks that he can see that she is not going to let it go.
“ i will still try, to atleast” and with that she leaves the room. James is left alone with his best friend, and as he looks at sirius and all of his scars. He thinks of how all of this will go, what will happen next. In the mooring he should try and get sirius to tell remus and peter about the fact that he has run away. At Least so that they don't send letters there anymore.
Then he thinks of regulus. The last and first time he saw the boy, was at the end of there 2 year. He had been small with the same hair as sirius, but his eyes where much darker color. He had been thin like he barely ate anything at all. Regulus had pale skin like snivlus, but it look much better on him. at that time he had been head and extra shorter then james. James thought about if he had grown at all. Sirius had not grown all that much since they where 12, so maybe the boy was also as short. James tried to think about something eles but regulus just did not seem to want to get out of his mind.
James knew he likes boys ever since there 3 year when he had gotten a crush on frank from 4th year. He would get over that crush, but it helped him find out that part of him self. In his time james had hooked up with a few boys over the years. He thought about hocking up with regulus. Then stoped that thought. No, regulus was sirius younger brother, and if what sirius said was true a little shit.But then agin…. no no no. And as james lay down on the couch across from sirius he knew that this was ging to be along summer.
17 august 1975
James was so happy to day, because today remus and peter where going to come over. Then they where both going to stay until they all would go back to hogwarts. As he began getting ready for the day, he could hear sirius getting ready in his own room. They lived wall to wall, and both of them could not be more happy. Just as james got on his shirt after the shower, the door was opend and in cames sirius. He was dressed and had on the biggest smil james had seen on his bestfriend in along time.
After the whole noght, sirius had not been as happy as he normly was so james was glad tosee him happy agin. The day after had mostly been spent next to sirius while his mother tried to heal all of his injuries. Still now sirius would shut down here and there. He would just go all quit, and have this sort of look in his eyes. It was like was not really there. But as the days went by, it got better and better. And now it alomost never happend. It was like it was all back to normal.
" how are you my lovly james this morring" sirius said fling himself down on james bed.
" just fine, and why are you speaking like some posh prick?" james said fling down next to him.
" ahh, but i am posh, just not a prick
" i dont know about that" james said with a smirk on his face
" ohh really, come here you wanker!!" sirius said grabing on of james pillows and fling it at him. And so they began betting eachother with the two pillows.
" james, sirius rem- what are you doing!" monty stuck his head in the doorway looking at the two boys
" just havig a little pillow fight" james said putting down his, and then getting hit in the face by sirius
" wait did you say remus was here" sirius said saping to james father
" yes him and peter are down stairs"
The two boys dropped there pillows and ran to the stairs pushing eacher to get first. And when they came down satirs peter and remus where pulling in there trunks. The two boys turend to look at him and sirius. Peter with a big smile, and remus a smaller one. And as they all hugged a said helo agin, james knew that no matter what happend they would have each other for ever
Notes:
agin sorry for the wait, i will try to get the next one up sooner
Chapter 6: meeting again
Summary:
regulus gets told he has to go to hogwarts and he sees his brother again
Chapter Text
august 17 1975
regulus was still getting used to the whole being the new heir thing. There was alot more stuff then one would think. Regulus had never really heard sirius talk about any of this, but maybe that was because sirius hatedet to talk about anything todo with there family. Regulus had learned alot, like how one was to act, talk, sit. Who he was to talk to at parties. And boy didi regulus haveto go to alot of them. In the past he could often get to not go, because of him only being the spare. But now he was there full on heir. So he had to go to all those parties. Regulus knew that this would happen when sirius left, but he never really thought about how many things sirius did as an heir. And he had his whole life to learn how to be in the spotlight, but regulus was just pushed into it. and unlike sirius he was not a person that likes the spotlight to be on him.
Regulus had spend his whole life in the back of the house of black. When his mother was then all over him, not his brother. Well to say that regulus was new to this thing was not a lie. But soon he would be back at beauxbaton with his 2 best friends. Maybe this would be the year they went on a date after years of fliting. Regulus was so tired of them moving around each other like they had no feelings for each other. But then coming a talking for hours about the other to regulus. He was so done.
Regulus had also made other friends, being the heir and all. Evan rosier was the heir to the house of rosier. They and the house of black where apparently where good friends, and they have a lot of marrieds in there family. Evan was a white haired boy with dark skin, and piercings in bother ears. Even if they where out at parties, he had regulus had seen one and other at other place. Here evan went from a proper pureblood heir, to a cool ass boy that regulus really liked. Evan also liked him much more then he had liked sirius.
Then there was pandora rosier, evan twin sister. She was actually the older by 10 minutes, but evan being a boy he got to be the heir. She never let him live that down. She had hair down to her waist and often had some of it braid in some way. She was always wearing some sort of charms in her hair. Tho pandora almost never went to the parties in the past, she had begun coming just to hang out with regulus. Pandora was bit weird, often talking about seer and all sort of muggle stuff. But regulus thought it just made her even more cool. That she never really cared about what other people thought about her.
Both of them went to hogwarts, and regulus got to learn all about what kind of stuff other people then sirius and his brother did. To the two twins the four of them could be a little bit to much some times. The pranks they played often not as funny, as sirius had made them out to be. They more just sound stupid. But he never realy gave that much of thought. Pandora talked about there other friends. One named dorcas meadows who sound very scary to regulus by the way pandora and evan talked about her. Evan talked alot more about there other friend, who was named barty crouch jr. By the way evan talked about the boy it sound like he was in love, and pandora had told him once that he was so in ove. Barty loved him back to, but they never did anything about it. Regulus could relate to pandora’s feelings about two people like that.
Right now regulus was sitting at his desk reading one of the many books that could be found around the black house. He had began reading many of them, to learn more about what his family was like. And then a loud SNAP sound around the room, and there was kreacher. “miss black has asked for you to join her and master black in the dining room”. regulus nodded and got up from where he was siting, kreacher already gone. As he began making his way down to the dinner room, he thought of what they could want. It was time for dinner so maybe it was just dinner, but then why did Kreacher not just say that. Plus they would be having a party tonight, so why eat before that.
Regulus felt his nerves spick up, when he saw the door to the dining room. He swore he could still see the blood of his brother's blood on the floor. Even if he knew that it was not there he swore he could see some darker spots on the floor. “ regulus, sit” his father said. He and his mother where sitting at one side of the table. Regulus pulled out the chair his brother used to sit in. He still felt of sitting in it.” what is wrong, father?” he said looking at is mother and father.
“ we have some news, that have to do with the school year coming up?” his mother said
“ what is wrong?”
“seeing as you are now the heir, we need you closer to home. Therefore this school year, you will start your 5th year at hogwarts” his mother went on, but regulus could barley hear anything. Hogwarts? that would mean his brothers school, and seeing him alot more then before. He thought about it, and he hated the idea. But he knew that there was nothing he could do about it. Regulus tried to look at the positive, like he would be going to school with evan and pandora. He would get to meet dorcas and barty, see what they where like. Regulus knew he was going to miss the friends he had made at his now old school. But still he would just have to get used to the idea of it. “But for now, go get ready. the first guest will be here in half an hour.” his mother said with a wave of her hand. Regulus gave a short nod, and left the room. He had a party to get ready for.
almost an hour went by before regulus saw pandora. Regulus made his way over to her as soon as his mother let him go. “hello pandora” he said walk up making her turn around. the girl had a big smile on her face, and it got even better when she saw him. “regulus, how are you? my god i like this suit!” regulus smiled at the girl and was about to answer, until an arm was going around his shoulders.” regulus how are you?” evan said while roffling his hair. “stop that- and im just fine. Tho i do have some news,so do you guys want to leave?”
“yes please” pandora said grabbing regulus hand and pulling the 2 boys out of the big ball room, and down a hall. This was what they always did when at this sort of things. They would fin one an another and then get the fuck out of there. All of them hated being there anyway, seeing as none of them had any way other of getting out of there.
“ let me” regulus said leading the other two up to the floor of his room. Past sirius room a little faster then the others. He had tried not to think about the room, ever since sirius had left. His mother and father had not done a thing about the room, so it would still look the same if all was right. Regulus opened the door to his room, that looked just like had left it. As the other 2 began siting down, pandora on the bed and evan taking the chair, regulus made his way over to the lose floor board. Regulus had a few things under that floor board that his mother would not want him to have. like cigarettes, alcohol and a few muggle things that sirius had given him. Also stuff like candy, books and letters from andromeda and narcissa. His mother liked to look at all letters that regulus got, so he had hidden this. Pulling out some of the candy, cigarette packets and a few bottles of alcohol.
“fuck yes, reg” evan said grabbing one of the bottles and oping it and taking a big gulp.
“your going to die, from alcohol poisoning soon” pandora said grabbing some of the candy boxes. “thanks reg” she said opening one up.
“first of no i wont pandora, second what did you need to tell us, reggie” evan said taking an another sip.
“ im going to hogwarts” regulus said while lighting one of the cigarettes. Evan spat out his sip, and began choking. Pandora, who had just taking a pice of candy into her mouth, opened it so big that the piece fell out. “ what” evan said still coughing. “ yeah now that i am the heir i need to got meet all of the famous heir’s in england” regulus said taking a drag of his cigarette.
“oh you are so fucked” pandora said, who never ever swore, while grabbing one of the bottles and taking a big sip.
“yeah, i am fucked” regulus said taking one more drag.
20 august 1975
Regulus walked trough the house, while getting everything ready. He would be going to shop for his school supplies. And he would get to meet barty and dorcas, as he would be meeting with the rosier twins. They had planed all the night of the party, and to his surprise his mother had agreed. Something about being seen with the right people and all that stuff. Regulus was pretty sure that his mother was just happy she didn't have to go with him. Also why did she act like evan and pandora were good influences on regulus. Well fuck if he knew why she thought that.
“Regulus, get in here” he heard his mother yell from the room inside of the room he was next to. He stepped into see his mother and father, next to the fireplace. In his mother’s hand was a pice of paper, that he guessed was the list of things he would need. “come on regulus, and don't talk to anyone. Cant have you talking to just anyone. Now go” his mother told him handing him a little bag of money, and the list of his new school supplies. “yes mother” he said stepping into the fireplace with the fire and saying diagonally. He saw his mothers face and then nothing for a few seconds.
Next he was stepping out in to a little shop, and the he was pulled into a stong hud. “regulus how are you!” it was pandora, and he got a small smile on his face. “hello pandora, im good, wheres-” regulus didn't get to finish his sentence, when he was pulled toward a group. he could see evan turn around, but also two people he didn’t recognized. Tho he would assume that it was barty and dorcas, seeing as they looked very know by the others.
“dorcas, barty this is regulus, regulus this is barty and dorcas” pandora said pointing between them. “hello” the two said at the same time. “now why dont we get reg here some new robes” evan said. “what the fuck have i said about that nick names” regulus said as they walked out.
Regulus had never been in diagonally, but sirius had told him about it. Sirius tho had not done it justice of how pretty the whole thing was. The many shops all over looked way to pretty for the way sirius had talked about them. But then again sirius had just wanted to talk about james, and all of his new friends. There was never really time to talk about anything eles.
“so, your brother is sirius black?” barty asked swing an arm round regulus. he regulus tried and failed to push the arm of him. “yeah, what of it?” he asked with the tone of voice that made it sound like he hatedet talking about this. And he of course did. “ nothing wrong with it mate, just never knew he had a brother” barty said with a lasy smile on his face.
He didn't know that sirius had a brother, he didn’t know. Regulus tried to tell himself that it was maybe because of how little slytherins and gryffindors talked, but then again. He thought about how sirius friends had acted on the platform, all of thoes years ago. They had looked like they barley had any idea of who he was. Had sirius not told them who he was, but that owel head sent mut have been something. Regulus himself had a picture of the two of them on is night stand, and he had thought that sirius had too. But if most people had no idea of who he was, or even that sirius had a brother? did sirius not talk about him at school? Regulus him self had told many stories from the letters, to his dorm mates. Yet, sirius dorm mates had no idea of who he was
“regulus, hello, we here” pandora’s voice pulled him out of his thoughts. and as regulus looked up, they stood in front of a giant building with a robes painted on the front. it looked so pretty that regulus was taken back. For a moment he just stood there until, he was pulled in by pandora. then just as he took his first step he heard it.
“no sirius, you can not get pink school robes” a voice said, and as the turned the corner he saw a woman with dark orange hair. “but why not effie” sirius voiced complained. “minnie will kill you mate.” a new voice cut in, and regulus turend and holly shit. There on a little stool was the most beautiful boy regulus had ever lad his eyes on. He had messy dark hair, and glasses that looked like he had dropped them a million times before, with all of the cracks in them. His arms, ohh his arms, they where so pretty. not like regulus arms wich where skinny and fin, no his arms where bulkey and they looked fucking strong. how regulus wanted to be held by them.
“oh shit” came loud enogh from even, for the group( regulus now noticed the two other boys) turn around. sirius looked into regulus eyes, and he got this sort of look on his face, and then he said” regulus, what are you doing here”
Notes:
ahhh, regulus liking james arms. who saw that coming. also regulus metting barty and dorcas
dont no when i wil post
Chapter 7: diagonal alley
Summary:
james and regulus run into one and other agin
Notes:
i am ever so sorry for how long this chapter took me. But now i have summer break in hopefully the next will come soon
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Chapter Text
JAMES
When james woke up that morning he had no idea that only a few hours later, he would stand face to face with regulus black. but here he was. And woah………. james had had thought that sirius was at least a bit pretty, but this boy. He was the most perfect thing james had ever seen in his whole life.
He had black hair, like sirius, but his was a little bit more curley in the ends. His jaw was more sharp, and he had a little birthmark on the side of his face. it was so pretty. he was dressed in all black, and he looked like prince of some sort. Regulus had pale skin, and thin arms. he looked to thin all over, but he was still so hot in james eyes. He knew that he should not be thinking this way. regulus was sirius younger brother, and james was sirius bestfriend. but james heart had other ideas.
“ i didn't know I had to tell you where i went” he said, his tone like ice, and a pretty little french slipping out.
“ but you never come here” sirius said, and he sound almost mad.
“ well things have change now, have they not, reggie” the boy james soundly saw said trowing an arm around regulus. Evan rosier was his name.
“ yeah, reg here is just shopping a bit” dorcas meadows said from behind. She was in there year but a slytherin.
“ why are you hanging out with them?” sirius said.
“ what do you care, you don't even tell most people you have a brother” the boy said, before spinning on his heel and walking out. The girl rosier, pandora rosier, looked all of them over before leaving. the others where not far behind her.
James turned to look at sirius, and saw remus all ready holding his hand, as sirius just looked after the group. James was not surprised when sirius tuned and almost clung to remus. Remus saying small words into his ear. James was happy for them, but he still felt his heart beat for the boy
“ well he just seems like a super nice boy” remus said with a tone of voice. sirius laughed a little, and pulled away from remus, and looked at them all. then he turned back to effie, and asked “ are you sure i cant get them pink?”. effie smiled and shook her head. James could see that sirius smile didn’t fully reach his eyes. But james knew not to ask about it, sirius would tell them at some point.
The rest of the day was spend with jokes between the four of them.
“ oh pleas mother cant we just go for a bit” james begged of his mother. He and the others just wanted to got of for a bit
effie looked like she just wanted to go back to sleep. they had been begging her to go of on there own for hours. And with a small nod, effie let them go yelling about staying together behind them. but they 4 of them took of running down the street
“okay, where to first?” said peter, when they had stopped running.
“ i want to get this book” remus said and the others just rolled there eyes. “ oh come on” remus said.
“ you know what, i also wanted this herbology book” peter said. remus smiled and linked there arms together.
“ well, i do need a new journal, seeing as i had to leave min behind” sirius said, letting remus swing an arm around his shoulder. james was pretty sure that sirius was blushing, even tho he tried to hide it.
“ i really need some new quidditch gloves, tho, so maybe we should meet over at the ice cream shop” james said, and the others began nodding, and walking away. James made his way toward the quidditch shop. He waved at frank and alice, when seeing them. he was pretty sure that he at some point he had a crush on frank. Frank, Remus( even if it was long gone now) and lily. they where all of his crush’s, but there where a few hook ups over the years.
And now there was regulus, he guessed. But he had no idea, if regulus was his crush. Most people thought that he still had a crush on lily. But the two of them had tried to date for a month, before lily realized she was into girls. After that the two had become some sort of friends. They never really hang out, but the two of them had no problem with each other.
James opened the door to the quidditch shop. He really did need thoes gloves, last year his got a hole in the middle. And he really hated playing with out gloves, and he was also captain this year. James was pretty sure that he had to play good, as the captain of the team. So yeah, he need thoes gloves bad.
But when james entered the shop, he thought that sirius was standing looking at the gloves. So he went over, thinking that maybe sirius just got bored of watching remus and peter look at books, and went to the quidditch shop.
“hey, siri……….oh” james said, when he got a look at the boy he thought was sirius. No,this was regulus. James pulled back from the boy, and almost wished he didn’t. Regulus really was so pretty to look at, and whoa he was just …. whoa.
“ regulus, no sirius here” the boy said turning around, and looking at james. he had a sort of look on his face, like james was the dirt under his shoe. and some sort of dark part of james liked it. And that was probably wrong, james might have a little bit of a problem.
“ yeah i see that now” james said running a hand through his hair
“ yes, what amazing skill, potter” regulus said turning away from james, and back to the shelf
but james wanted to talk to him more, he wanted to know everything about this boy. Sirius had never really talked about his brother that much, even tho the picture of them still stood on his bedside table. Even now that he had run away, from the home regulus stayed in. and sometimes when drunk, sirius would talk about his brother for hours and hours. He would talk about stupid thing regulus did, or things they did together as kids. tell james, peter and remus story from his childhood, growing up in the house of black. but as both boys grew older in sirius storys, there started to be less and less of regulus. It was like sirius had no idea who his brother had grown up to be. Tho when he got to those years, he would sometimes cry, and sobbing he would tell james about how much he missed his little brother. About how he was scared regulus was going to turn into his mother, how he wanted him out of that house
“hey reggie, what are even doing here?” he said walking closer to regulus
“ first of don't call me that” he said turing around to face him “ and second why does that even matter to you?” regulus had his arms crossed over his chest, and dam, why was he so fucking pretty. james took one more step, lifting his arms and boxing i regulus
“ maybe, i really just wanna know what your up to” he said leing down into his face, and he swore that regulus was blushing.
REGULUS
Why was he so damn hot, and so close to his face? Like back up regulus could barely breathe, from how close potter was to his face. He could probably see, the blush over regulus face. And regulus tried to push some word out from his mouth, but it was like they where stuck in his throat.
“ well” his voice cracked “ well, i am just looking for some gloves if you must know”
“yeah, so am i, we can look together” potter said leaving even closer to regulus face. Was he flirting with him? because what does regulus do to that tho, what to say and do? Hopefully potter would back of soon, and regulus could have his breakdown i peace.
“ lets look, come on” potter said leaning back and james finally felt like he could breath. he stood even more up against the wall, thank god he got away. Regulus took a deep breath in, like air could finally get in his lounges. maybe potter was not flirting an regulus was just imagining. Hopefully potter just get his gloves, and get out. Because regulus would like to shop in peace. But to regulus worst nightmare, potter began looking at the gloves.
“ what are you doing” regulus spat at him
“ looking at gloves, why do you want to know?” potter said turing around and looking at regulus.
“ no, i do in fact not care” he said pushing potter a bit to the side. he heard potter let out a little laugh from behind him. Regulus could fell him right next to him, like if he was a strong sort of warmth. Hopefully he would leave soon, so that regulus would be left all alone. Regulus thinks he found his glove size, but when he tried to pull it over his hand. But he could barley pull it over his fingers, so back it went on the self.Tho, then he realized that the next size, was a little bit to high for him to grab. Regulus tried to step up on his toes, but it was still just a bit out of his reach.
“ fuck” regulus said falling back to his feet. But then he felt the feeling of body behind him pressing him into the shelves. “ here let me get that for you” potters voice was almost right in his ear. And regulus swore he could feel a shiver run down his spin. Was potter flirting with him? But no there's no way, he would do that.
“ thank you” and because regulus also wanted to fuck with potter, he led his hand linger on potters hand when grabbing the gloves from potter. He heard the breath that potter drew in, and when he looked at him he saw a blush forming on potters face.
“ well- em, i guess i will see you, when- when ever” potter said as his voice cracked. Regulus just lifted an eyebrow and then let his hands brush against potters body.He heard heard the breath that potter drew again. And in some way it made regulus happy, that he also could make potter a little flustered. Regulus made his way up to the counter to pay for the gloves.
“ so how did it go reggie, find the gloves” evan said as regulus as regulus sits down in the seat next to him.
“ first of don’t call me that” regulus said with a frown, and evan just smirks in returns. “ And nothing really happened, tho i did run into potter again”.
“ oh really” dorcas said with a look to pandora and both smirking “ and what happened our dear little reggie” she said her smirk growing
“ no, none of that little reggie” regulus said slapping dorcas on the back of her head “ and i have no idea of what happened in there.”
“ what ever do you mean” said pandora, her smirk turing in to bit more confused look.
“ i mean, i think he was flirting with me, but i have no idea” regulus said picking at his drink, the others had gotten him.
“ well tell tell, little reg” barty said lining in, with the biggest smirk on his face.
And that regulus did, and there face never changed trough out the whole thing. And ones he was done, there was a long moment where no one said anything. And then all of them look at one and other.
“ well, my sweet dear reggie, that does sound like he was flirting with you” Evan said, with a little glint in his eye
“ well no matter, because i do not like him back anyway” regulus said turing his eyes down to his drink again.
“ okay, sure” dorcas said with a small smirk on his face.
The others spend the rest of the day teasing regulus on his crush on potter. But james always was just on a no in some form. And after the whole day, regulus was getting tired of them making fun of him. And he was actually pretty tired, but not only of that, also just in general. So when he were making his way back to the little shop with the fool, he was not mad at going home. Tho, he was not looking forward to going home. All of the other had already been collated by there house elfs.
Regulus stepped out into his house, and could already fell his mothers eyes on him. And looking around, he saw his cousin where there to. along with lucius, who narcissa had married last summer.
“ well, hello there, regulus” bellatrix said with a small smirk on her face “ how did it go, did you find all of you things?”
He nodded at her, before looking at his mother. She had a glass of wine in her hand, and it was almost empty. And regulus knew that if she was drunk, that meant to get out of her way.
“ go to your room, for the rest of the evening regulus, we will see you tomorrow morning” Walburga said with a throw of her empty hand. And he could not get out of there fast enough.
When he averred in his room, he knew he had one thing to do. He pulled out his writing thing, and began his letter to his brother. when he was done it looked like this.
“ dear sirius, i know that you might hate me now. But i do need to tell you this few things.
i hope that you are okay, and that you made it to potter's house fine.
The reason i was in diagonal alley was, because this year i will be at hogwarts. That is because of me now being the heir.
i really do miss you
this was all in need to tell you, and i do hope you open this letter. I hope you are doing well, and that you have gotten into your new home fine. I know that you might not believe me, but i really do miss you alot. I wish i could see you again
From you dearest brother r.a.b.”
when he was done, he put the letter in to an envelope. then had made sure not to seal it with the black chest, just in case sirius would think it was from their mother. Then on to the little owel it went, and he send his owel of. hope fully, he thought as he laid down on his bed, sirius would read the letter. Maybe even believe the thing in side of it, but who could know
Notes:
i dont know when the next will come out, but hopefully in a few days
Chapter 8: 21 of august
Summary:
the letter comes to sirius
Notes:
sorry for how long this took, but good news i have another chapter to post soon
Chapter Text
21 august 1975
james
james had always been a morning person, and would there for wake up at 4 even in the summer break. This was a sort of hated thing, by all of his dorm mates. Remus was the one that was always the most mad about james waking habits. He was the worst one to get up in the morning.
So here james was just coming back from his run, as his mother sat the last plate of food on the table. Sirius, Remus, Peter and his father, were all sat around the table.
“well, there you are” his mother said “ where in the world have you been?”
“ just out for a run” james said kissing his mother on the cheek
“never got why you wake up so fucking early ” remus grubled still half a sleep on sirius’s shoulder. sirius was as red as a tomato, and james swore that even tho the two of them got together at the end of easter break, sirius would still blush like a tomato every time remus flirted with him.
“you okay there sirius?” peter asked as james sat down. peter and james had a habit of making fun of sirius everytime he blushed like that
“mmh” sirius said trying not to move an inch, remus looked up at sirius face, and gave cheeky smile. All of them sat down and began to eat there breakfast, when there was a knocking on the window. all of them turned around and looked to see a owl.
“that is weird, i don't recognize that owl” effie said getting up and letting in the owl
“i know that owl” sirius said as the owl flew over to him and dropped the letter
“whos is it” james asked, as the owl began dipping at sirius plate. sirius opened the letter while pushing the owl of the plate
“cissa, how many times have we told you? bacon aint good for you.” he said reading over the letter. “holy merlin ass” sirius said as he read the letter
“what, whats wrong, siri” remus said grabbing sirius shoulder, with a worried look on his face
“regulus is coming to hogwarts this year” sirius said the letter dropping from his hand.
what the holy merlin james thought. regulus was coming to hogwarts? really, why this where all the thoughts going through james’s head. james could not tell if he was worried, nervous or excited for regulus to join hogwarts. Since the trip to diagonally james had always had a little thought about regulus in the back of his head. Even tho, he had no idea of why he was in his head. sometimes he thought he might have a little crush on the boy. but then he reminded himself that regulus was sirius little brother. there for he should not have a crush on regulus.
“oh” was all james could say
“i don't care, i don't” sirius said righting a short letter for regulus and giving it to the owl. then he walked over to the window and let the owl fly away. james could see on sirius face that he cared deeply, but if sirius didn't wanna talk about it, james never pushed. hopefully sirius would talk about it to james. hopefully, until then james would just be there sirius. for what ever sirius would need like now.
“wanna play some quidditch in the garden? wanna invite some of the girls over to hang out?” james asked looking at sirius
“yeah, lets invite the girls if they wanna, what do you think remus” sirius said looking at his boyfriend. remus had a worried face on, but even remus knew not to push it
“yeah, theres a phone 20 minnuts away we can call them on” remus said pulling sirius up by the wrist and rabbing his arm around his waist. “wanna go in a little bit?” he asked pulling sirius over to the stairs, where their room was. sirius was blushing but nodded. and away went sirius and remus
“well we shall go when they are done” peter said taking a sip of his water, and leaning back in his chair. all of them knew that sirius and remus where probably making out in there room, and no one really wanted to go ask them to stop.
“yeah, wanna play a game of chess while we wait” james said looking at peter, who nodded.
about 5 minutes later, sirius and remus came into the kitchen. sirius was looking very red in the face. and remus’s hair was very messy all over. remus arm was still around sirius’s waist, and sirius was blushing harder the he normally was.
“hello, dear mister black and mister lupin” james said crossing his arms and looking at the two of them.
“where ever have you been, mister black and mister lupin?” peter said also looking at the two boys with a smile on his face
“we where ehm talking” sirius said blushing even harder.
“no actually, i pulled sirius up the stairs and into his room, and pushed him up-” remus began talking, and sirius blushed even more and more
“no, we do not need details of what you to where doing!” peter said holding up his hand to stop remus from talking
“lets just go to the phone and call the girls” james said getting up and opening the door. remus was still smirking and sirius was blushing.
the four of them walked down to the phone to call lily,mar and marlene. remus let sirius waist when they walk into the street. even if the potters are fine with sirius and remus, the rest of the world is not. they arent even open about there relationship at hogwarts. james thinks that it is unfair. even tho must of hogwarts is actually fine with queer people, the rest of the world is not.
when they avried at the phone box, remus pushed the others out the way to get to the phone
“im am the only non fullblood here, so out the way” remus said going into the phone box and closing the door. he began calling the girls. they talked while waiting, for about 20 minutes before remus came out of the phone box. “the girls said they could be over in 2 days, for a 2 days here.”
“that sounds like fun” peter said as they walked back to the house
“wanna go play some quidditch or swim, when we get back?” james asked swinging his arms back on forth as they walked
they had decide to go for a swim, when they got back. remus was a little slow to come out, because he had fallen into a conversation with effie. something about something to do with charms. the other just wanted to go swim and where already in the lake in the back garden.
when about 5 minutes later remus walked out. he walked over to the lake, and pulled up his shirt of. the he jumped into the lake, and splashing water all over them.
“hey, what the hell moony” james said water splashing all over him and sirius. sirius tho never said a thing, even tho must of teh water came over him. he was too busy looking at remus chest.
“you are so whipped, man” peter said sling an arm around sirius shoulders
Chapter 9: 1 september 1975 regulus pov
Summary:
the train ride regulus pov
Notes:
im am so sorrt that it took me this long to write this. but now i have two fanfics. i made a mistake with the other one i wrote and there will be more chapters. and i plan to update at least one off them each week. so here we gooooo
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1 september 1975
regulus
regulus’s was in his new school uniform, as he trys too get used to it. he hates it and want’s out of it. he liked his old uniform much more. the uniform of beauxbaton was much better. it was blue and regulus liked blue much more then he liked black. He knows it is kinda ironic that the boy named black as a last name, doesn't like black. but regulus thinks it because of that. there whole house is black, dark and gray. regulus likes the color that his uniform gives him, because at home he has to wear black and gray only. so the blue that his old uniform gave him was nice.
but now he is standing in his room, in his new uniform, looking in the mirror. The Hogwarts uniform is black, and the most color it has is the little tie. but seeing as regulus is not sorted into a house yet, his tie is just black, with a little hogwarts simple on. His hair has been cut again so that it is no longer as long. his hair usually almost reaches his shoulders, but no longer. And he hates it, like really hates it.
“get down here regulus!!” his mother yelled up the stairs. regulus looked over himself just one last time. he still hated it. but no more time to worry about it. he grabbed his bag, as his suitcase was already down stairs. down the stairs his mother and father where waiting for him. walburga looked over him, with that sort of judging look she all ways had, when looking at him.
“lets go” orin said, grabbing his arm and pulling him toward the front door “get the suitcase kreacher”
and then they where off. his mother and father transfigured them to the platform.Regulus ran trough the wall, his parents talking about how stupid muggles where. regulus dint say anything to there comments. in his house they where normal, not that he ever made them.
regulus, tho not as loud with it as sirius, never really agreed with their parents. He din’t see what was so bad about muggles or mudb- muggleborns. regulus was trying to remember always to say muggleborn not mudblood. but being raised in the house he was, it was hard. his old school also did not help, as they did not allow muggle born into the school. it was kinda stupid if you where to ask regulus.
muggleborns in france would have to go to schools in other countries for school. and personally regulus thought it was stupid. but he would never say so out loud in front of his parents. that was just stupid, and it would just end up tuning him into a small little sirius.
regulus was scared for the sorting. he knew he need to be in either slytherin or ravenclaw. his parents wanted him to be in slytherin of course but they would be okay with ravenclaw. they had made it clear he was to be sorted into slytherin, but that if nothing else they would live if he was in ravenclaw. just not hufflepuff or merlin gryffindor.
pandora was in ravenclaw, and evan, barty and dorcas where in slythrin. personally regulus hoped he would be in ravenclaw, mostly so he could make his parents just a little mad. Maybe that was his inner sirius talking, telling him to not do what his parents said. Or maybe it was that deep down regulus, would love to make his parents made. make them hate him, make them mad, not be the perfect heir, be something they wont like. Be like Sirius.
Regulus looked all around the platform, not really sure what he was looking. Maybe pandora, or evan or barty or dorcas. Maybe he was looking for sirius and his friends just a little bit. Regulus just wanted a glimpse of his brother. His mother pushed him forward while nodding at other pureblood, and staring with hate at none pureblood. Regulus spotted evan and pandora
“i see pandora and evan” he said to his mother and began walking over to them. His parents followed until they stood and began talking to the rossier parents. regulus, pandora and evan shared a look, before beginning to move to the train with there trunks. But before they made it his mother rapped a hand around his shoulder and pulled him back
“make sure to get into slytherin. and if not ravenclaw. if you don't it will be worst for you” his mother whispers in his ear, before pushing him toward the train. Did his mother just threaten to torture him, if he got sorted into another house then the one she wanted
“well your mother is just a nice lady, isnt she?” evan says as they jump on the train, with there trunks behind them
“yeah like sunshine as a person” pandora says as they walk down and look in the train cages looking for dorcas or barty. both of the rossier twins voices are dripping in sarcasm. regulus lets out a little laugh “i know right, could say the same about your parents never seen nicer parents ever” he says his voice dripping with even more sarcasm the other two
“found them” evan says pulling open a cage door “hello barty how has your summer been?” evan says as barty helps him with his trunk.
“just fine, other then my dad being a dick” barty says as he turns to pandora and regulus. “pandora dear, how you been” barty says, as he pulls pandora into a hug. “and reggie, the new one” bartys says sticking to just throwing an arm around regulus shoulders
“don't call me that” he says and slips out from under bartys arm, and begin to push his trunk up to the small shelves above the seats. then he slips into the seat next the window and on the other side dorcas is sitting “hello meadows, how’s your summer been” regulus aks as he opens his drawing book in his lap
“i went to visit some family in the states” meadows says as she peeks into regulus drawing books. regulus leans it away so she cant see “oh come on let me see” she whines, as she tries to look in to the book
“no” regulus says just as the train starts moving. dorcas tries for another few moments, but then just rolls her eyes and the turns to speak to pandora. barty and evan are having a way to loud conversation about something to do with chocolate frog cards. regulus lets him shelf sit in silence in the corner, and just listing to the others talk. He begins to draw the landscape he sees outside the window. And this is nice, he thinks to himself.
But nice things don't last for long if it has to do with regulus. So of course as he is walking back from the bathroom, he hears the noises of a voice he knows too well. And sure enough just a little down the hallway is his brother and his 3 friends. potter, he thinks as he spotted the boy. regulus remembers there meeting in the library while, how close they had been. but then he is snapped back to real life
“excuse me” regulus says as he walks up to the group, looking down at the floor, hoping sirius wont see that it is him. but life is never that kind to regulus, so sirius does see that it is him
“reggie, what are you doing here” sirius says a little bit of venom in his voice. and regulus looks up and rolls his eyes. regulus is pretty sure sirius got his letter
“did you not get my letter? im pretty sure i wrote i was coming here” regulus says
“yeah i got it but i thought you where joking” sirius says while staring at regulus with hate in his eyes. but behind them is also something. it is at hate, nor is it wishing he was dead. no the other thing behind sirius eyes is……..love? or is it worry? regulus cant really see the difference between the two
“well i was not, im stating at hogwarts. now if you would please excuse me” he says and he almost slips past sirius, before he feels the hand wrap around his arm
“why would you not want to go back to your fancy pancy school in france?” sirius says not letting go off regulus arm. regulus gives it a hard tug
“i did want to but mother din’t give me much off a choice in the matter” and with that comment, regulus walks down the hall. he walks until he stops in front off another bathroom. even tho he was just in one he slips in to this one. He locks himself in the small bathroom, and starts himself in the mirror. regulus feels the tears before he sees them in the mirror. he slides down the door, and begins crying while trying to be as silent as he can
why is he crying over this? was it the way sirius had been laughing with potter before regulus had come up? laughed like, regulus had always wanted sirius to laugh with him like. but sirius never had. Was it the way sirius had looked at potter like he had hung the starts on the sky? like he loved him. like he was the best brother he ever had. like regulus doesnt even exsit to him, only potter
And as regulus stands up and drys off his eyes, he feels his tight chest. As he stares in the mirror trying to make sure you cant see any signs off that he was crying. Because if people can see people will ask about it. and regulus honestly just can not deal with it, he just fucking cant.
Regulus slowly makes his way back to the cage where the others where sitting. And as he pushes open the door into the cage, he feels the others turn to him
“oh hey, you okay regulus?” pandora says, her voice has a slight bit of concern in her voice. regulus just noddes and slips into his cornor up to the window
“wake me up ones we are there” he says as he closes his eyes, and trys to fall into sleep. he can hear pandora answer a yes, but it sounds like it is far away, as regulus falls into a light sleep. not one of the ones that actually help if your tired. the kind that almost makes you more tired. but it makes the time pass without anyone trying to ask if your okay, if you have been crying or what your are doing there
regulus sleep is filled with people with long black hair, and red ties
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Chapter 10: 1 september 1975 james pov
Summary:
james pov of the train ride to hogwarts
Notes:
sorry this took to long i will try to get another chapter up to day, also look out for a new chapter in my other fic
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james potter
1975, september 1
Well, james thought to himself, that could have gone better. he looked after regulus leaving from. he was still super cute, and james just wanted to poke those cheeks. james looked at sirius, his face had a mix between anger and sadness on it. like he was angry with his brother, but sad that he was leaving
“Well, that went well” peter clapped his hands together “who wants to the girls and sit with them?”
They all began walking down the hall trying to find “the girls”.
Also know as lily evans, the smarts girl in the whole school, who got the best grade, but was also the most kind human on the planet. she would answer anyones questions. she was also the girl that james used to have a massive crush on, but realized around last year, that he had just been holding up some sort of image people had of him. now he and lily where friends, but she would still make fun of the ways he used to ask her out.
Then there was mary macdonald, who was this badass girl, who was not afraid of talking back to teachers if she thought they where wrong. Mary had last year almost punched there DADA professor after he sayed that girl couldnt be anything other then just housewives. but at the same time mary could be smart, but not like book smart like lily. no mary was smart as in she always knew what people where feeling and thinking about at all times.kinda creepy if you ask james, sometimes it was super nice tho.
Last but not least there was marlene mckinnon, the best quidditch seeker that james had ever seen. she had been on the team since 2nd year, and james would eat his own shoe if when she grew up she did not go on to play professional quidditch. sirius, who would say he was the best quidditch player ever, would always ad that marlene was still better and then he came on the list of best. she also always knew all gossip in the whole of hogwarts. nothing gossip like got past marlene
they went down the long train looking into carges to see if they could see the three girls. they reached the last part of the train before they found them. peter slide open the door. peter had become great friends with the girls, better then the rest of them. tho remus and lily also liked to talk about books and study together from time to time.
“hello girls, how was your summer” james said as he sat down next to mary and gave her a quick side hug.
mary hugged him back, with a smile on her face “great, other then the worry of the OWL’S “ she said as she pulled out a little pice of paper “everyone ready to show what they got?”
Everyone in the carge pulled out the pisces of paper with the OWL’S out. sirius paper much more cruppeld then the others and not looking as good as the others
“merlin what did you do to that paper sirius” marlene said as she saw the paper.
“Well i dint really have time to fold it needley when i ran away did i” sirius said as he tried to flatten it on his leg. like that would help james thought to himself.
They all began talking about how they had done and what class they would have next year. james had done just fine and would be going into a most of his class’s from last year. he had only failed in Divination, and who cared about that anyway. he had only taken it because it sounded easy. he was still unsure how he had passed his history of magic class, as he often slept trough the class. it was not his fault that professor bines sounded so boring when he spoke.
Nobody, barley even remus and lily could stay awake in that class. and remus could only if it had not been a foolmoon in the last week or in the week coming up. if that was the case then remus would normally fall asleep on sirius lap. and sirius would be left trying not to move a muscle, as not to wake up remus.
James looked at sirius and remus now, and they where so clearly both in love, but nothing had been done about it yet. just like how remus would fall asleep on sirius, sirius would sometimes simply just take power naps on remus. and every time remus would blush as red as a tomato and would refuse to move until sirius woke up. james and peter shared a glance. this year they had decided over the summer, they where gonna get remus and sirius to confess there massive crush for each other.
Plan wolfstar was going to work this time. and if not they would simply lock them in a broom closet til they confessed. or made out. or shagged. honestly anything at this point, james thought as he looked at sirius, who was almost in remus lap, and the very blushing remus. how would they do this, him and peter had to plan more carefully. this needed to work because james could not last other year, of both of them whining to him about the other.
After a little while there was a knock on the door, the trolly lady coming by. after sirius had been disowned he no longer had that much money, but james parents where filthy rich and would gladly give some money to sirius. and to no one's surprise the thing that sirius most likes to spend his money on is remus.
Even when sirius was still living with his parents, he would spend so much money on remus. remus wanted chocolate, sirius would buy him a whole basket. remus wanted a new book, sirius would bye a 100 copies of it. it was kinda crazy how much money sirius liked to spend on remus. and even tho remus tired to say no, sirius would always insist on buying him anything he wanted. and yet they could not see the big crush’s they both had on eachother.
Remus might be called the smart on of there group, but sometimes he could be so stupid.
“So, is everyone looking forward to the sorting?” marlene said while she was laying with her head in lily’s lap and eating a little box of sweets she bought.
“Yeah, tho ehm sirius?” james said his head turning to where sirius was leaning up against remus half asleep.
“Yes, dear prongs?” sirius said not even opining his eyes or moving from remus shoulder.
“Do you know what house your little brother will be in?” james said as he took out a little lemon candy from the bag between him and peter.
“Slytherin i suspect, like the perfect son he is” sirius said only moving closer to remus.
“I don't know” remus said, making sirius and the rest of them look at him. “i only mean that he never seemed down right evil, just a little quiet” remus had this look in his eyes like he thought what words he picked in this thing was so important.
Which when speaking about sirius family, it really was. Sirius' mood when you talked about his family could go from the happiest of happy. to looking like he wanted to murder you, everybody in the room, and then himself. and james, after having heard stories about them, understood why that was.
But regulus had never really sounded mean when you heard about him from the stories. maybe because sirius would really only speak on his younger brother when he was drunk. but james could remember a time that sirius used to tell story after story about regulus. and he never look evil in those. just maybe kinda scared of there parents
“I mean, from what i have seen of his report cards, that i used to steal, he is not dumb” sirius said siting up a little.
James could see the little sadness in remus eyes when sirius pulled of his shoulder. honestly james thought as he shared a look with peter.
“why did you steal his report cards” mary said while holding up her cards from the game her and peter were playing.
“because i needed to know how my mother was going to react to it” sirius said as if it was the most normal thing to do. and for sirius is probably was. james, remus and peter all shared glances. them and only them knew what “going to react” truly meant. sure the girls knew sirius family were assholes. but they did not know the full story. not many people did
but the marauders knew that sirius meant, how bad was his mother going to hurt regulus. or often sirius who would take it for his brother. james’, as an only child, never truly understood siblings. and most of all not regulus and sirius. because it had changed a lot over the years.
when they had all first come to hogwarts, sirius would often talk about his younger brother. the first year it had been about how excited he was for “little reggie” to join hogwarts. maybe even gryffindor. the next year it had turned to story’s from regulus french school. then third year there was only a few times right after every break that he would talk about his brother. and then for the last two years it had only been when sirius was very drunk, that the tell’s of regulus would come out.
so yeah to say that sirius and regulus relationship was weird and confusing, for everyone, maybe even them. well it would not be a lie.
After a few more hours, of the train where in only a few things happened. peter beat everyone very much i card games. sirius fell asleep his head this time in remus lap. this made remus sit very still for almost an hour. lily also braided a little bit of sirius hair when he woke up. this also caused remus to blush like his face was on fire.
and as james stood on the platform, having just left the train, he could not wait for this year
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Chapter 11: the welcome back feast, regulus pov
Summary:
regulus get sorted but what house?
Notes:
woaahhh, a chapter update for both of my fics on one day!!!!!! holy shit, im really good. also two chapters from this fic in 2 days. so i hope you all like
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Regulus had slept for most of the train ride. how did the others do this every year? maybe he had slo slept because when ever he spoke the others would tease him about always messing up and forgetting english words, and just saying the french. he was still fluent in english, sometime he would just forget a word or two. what was the big deal?
He found him self thinking back to his meeting with his brother and his brothers friends. has sirius really not thought things would change after he left? had his idiot brother really thought things would just stay the same even in the black family?
Well his brother was a fool. things were different now. ever since sirius had run away, regulus had been the one going to the fancy ball’s and dinners. sirius had been burned of the family tree, the day after he ran away. regulus had been made to change school’s. leave the friends he had made back there.
Regulus had written to jules and louis over the summer, telling them he was changing school’s. the two boys had promised they would still send him letters. in each of there letters there had also been about how they thought they might confess to the other. regulus had written back that they should do it.
He also gotten a letter from a girl he had grown close to doing his school years, as they liked to study together. she had written that she would miss there study session, and that she would write if jules and louis ever got there head out there ass’s and got together. regulus had written back thanking her, and wishing her good luck in the next year.
Regulus thought that maybe this year wouldn't be so bad. he kinda already had friends. at least regulus thought that him and pandora where friends. he was also pretty sure that him and evan where friends. dorcas did not seem to hate having him around. and while barty might make fun of him, pandora has said that was how he was around his friends. but he would still miss beabatonx.
Regulus would miss walking down the lang halls decked out with beautiful paintings, and regulus would miss sitting in the study room that each year was given. he would miss studying while trying to ignore jules and louis very clear flirting. it had been going on for about 2 years now, and regulus was about ready to just have locked them in a room until they confessed.
Regulus had no idea what hogwarts would be like. sure he had heard stories from both sirius, and the people around him. in sirius stories hogwarts was the best, but half of what he had said was also just about his friends. also sirius had only talked about the gryffindor common room. and regulus did not think he would be joining sirius in that house.
Pandora and the others had also talked about hogwarts. in a more realistic light. they talked about it so it did not appear so shining and like it was the best thing ever. more like it was great, but had it flaws. he liked that much better, because no place, especially no school, had no problems. there would always be mean or annoying people.
Regulus was watching as the others put on ties of there house colors. he had been given a black tie to wear until he had been storted. one thing he still did not get, was the fact that the sorting had to take place in front of the whole school. who came up with that idea, and did they think about it for more then 2 seconds?
“Hey you have the same tie as the baby first years” barty said when he spotted regulus tie, he said it with the biggest gin on his face.
“Wait do you not know your house?” dorcas said as she tied her own green and silver tie. her, evan and barty all had those. slytherin, the one sirius hated and the one his parents wanted him in. also the one most of his family had been in. pandoras tie was blue and silver, and regulus wanted to be in ravenclaw for that reason. so he could get to wear blue again.
“No, my letter said to not go in the ehh bateaux with the first years, but ones i get to the school, i have to find professor mcgonagall, i think she was called” he said as he dug his letter out of his pocket.
“Don't go in the what, with the first years?” evan asked with a confused look on his face.
“The bateaux, you know the thing you use to get across water” regulus said trying and falling to remember the english word.
“Regulus mean boat’s, ev, bateaux means boat in french” pandora said and regulus nodded
“Ohh oauis, boat that what it is called” regulus said, while dorcas just shook her head as the train stopped and everyone began moving.
Following the rest of the group trough the crowed of students. some big man was yelling that the first years had to follow with him. regulus let pandora pull him toward what look to wagons that where driving by them self. climbing up and siting between pandora and the end of the wagon, regulus looked around at the other students. the wagon began moving one after an other.
He could see people in red and gold, gryffindor, the house sirius was in. silver and blue, just like pandora, silver and green like the others in his group. also people in yellow and black, wich was called hufflepuff, if regulus did not remember wrong. in groups people climbed up into wagon after wagon, as the next part of the journey to hogwarts began.
There wagon stopped and regulus stared up at the massive building that was his school now. beabatonx had been much smaller, both in size and the amount of students. regulus thinks that is probably had to do with the fact that beabatonx in half bloods and full blood
“So french boy” barty said throwing an arm around regulus as he jumped down “what do you think?”
Regulus found himself not wanting to shrug barty of all that much. that did not mean he was not gonna do it. “It is much bigger then beabatonx that is for sure” he said while look up, having to take a step back to take it all in.
“Yep, it takes some learning how to get around” pandora said, grabbing regulus arm. "let's go find professor mcgonagall”
And in to the large castle they went. regulus was looking around at massive painting on the walls. like the ones in beabatonx, only that these spoke english not french.
“Mr. black i don't seem to think that.. oh” regulus had turned around when his name was spoken. and there stood a woman dressed in green robes and a large black hat. see looked a little scary, but also sweet in her own way.
“Regulus this is professor mcgonagall. professor mcgonagall this is regulus black” pandora said while pointing at regulus and then the professor.
“Hello, mr.black, sorry about before you just ehm look alot lik-” and while regulus knew it was rude to interrupt a professor, he knew what she was gonna say, and he could not hear it
“Sirius, yeah i get that alot” he said rubbing his hand along his other arm.
“Well no matter come come this way, lets get you ready for the sorting” and left away was regulus by the professor to find his new house.
As he stood in the way back, a little away from the group of first years, he thought to himself that this could not be a good way to pick house’s for 11 year olds. like what if people change over the years? stupid, regulus thought to himself, tho not saying it out loud.
“Everyone ready?, well lets go” professor mcgonagall said pushing the doors to what she called the great hall.
And as regulus looked around at the great hall all he could think about was the many eyes on him. way to many, like wayyyyy to many. he hated this it really sucked ass.
Regulus had no time to look around. and admire the beautiful loft, that copied the weather out side. the weather that you could spot a little from out the large windows, at the top of the wall’s the beautiful stained glass that the windows where made out off. he was to busy first spotting his friends. after waving he turned around, to the other side of the hall.
And oh fuck. there sat sirius, his brother. around him sat a bunch of people. only 3 of them did regulus know who was. remus lupin, peter pettigrew and james fucking potter. with his stupid glass’s and his stupid hair.
The whole group stopped and regulus drew his eyes away from his brothers eyes. looking up at the front he saw a chair with a ugly old hat.
And this was really getting fucking weird. like cult like weird. was a hat going to decide what house regulus was going to spend the next 3 years in. even worse the next 7 years for the 1 years that stood in front of him. you could have so much change, in even just 3 years, let alone 7 years.
“And now we have a transfer, mr. black if you wouldn't mind” professor mcgonagall waived him up the little chair.
“Well another black, what shall i do with you” the hat spoke inside regulus head. “not gryffindor like you brother, no no, not hufflepuff your not kind enough for that” and regulus snorted a little at that. “I don't think you would fit in with the slytherins, there for you must be..”
Notes:
there you gooooo. the next one wont come for some time probley. and the next update will probley bee the other fic
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Chapter 12: the welcome back feast, james pov
Summary:
james pov on the welcome back feast
Chapter Text
"Ravenclaw!!!"
James was sitting next to sirius, marlene on his other side. they had all been looking at the sorting. cheering when the hat would yell gryffindor, and james and sirius had taken to booing when it would be slytherin. which had earned them stern looks from mcgonagall, from where she said as the teachers table.
“Well would you look at that” sirius was the first one to say something after regulus had been sorted. sirius had been staring very hard at regulus as the boy sat under the hat. saying nothing, barley breathing, not blinking.
Now tho, sirius was watching regulus with a surprised face, as regulus quickly took of the hat, and ran to the ravenclaw table. james could see how regulus sat himself down next to the girl rossier twin. james could not for the life remember her name.
"Aren't you sad that he is not in gryffindor” mary said turning to look at sirius over the table “if i had a sibling i would want them to be in the same house as me”
Sirius got this sort of look on his face, like he didn’t care, but james could see that he really did care. sirius always did that if someone brought up his family. pretending not to care, but deeply carning
“I think there was no chance ever of him ending up in gryffindor” sirius said picking up his fork getting ready for the food to emerge on the table. “he wouldn't really fit in would he”
And as james look up and down the table, he tried to imagen regulus sitting at the table. maybe sirius was right, he probably would not fit in with the personalities in the house. not that he had spoken a lot with the younger boy, but just from how he held himself.
“Yeah yeah, probably right, still would be nice” marlene said, as she began taking food onto her plate “if petunia was here would you want her in gryffindor” she says looking at lily.
Lily just kept taking food onto her plate. but just like with sirius, when you spoke about regulus, she held herself a little tighter “I think, that in first year i might would have wanted to” she said looking at marlene “but now.. im not sure, she would even fit in”
And that is that. no one really wants to bring up siblings and family trouble also, seeing how lily can send looks of death if you might speak about petunia. but james can see the looks sirius sends over to where regulus is sitting at the ravenclaw table. he seems to be getting on good with the rossier girl.
They are talking, and pandora, that is her name, must have said something funny. because regulus looks at her, or at least that is what james guess. she is sitting with her back toward them. but regulus he doesn't laugh, not a big laugh like sirius. not loud and attention craving.
No, regulus barley even laughs. he just gets this smile on his face, tilts his head back a little. and james wishes he could hear what it sounded like. he wants to hear what it sounds like. tho he has no idea why he want to. but he does.
After dinner the group spilt up. remus and lily, after saying the password to the group, then they where off leading the first years to the tower. lily with a smile on his face, and remus with a sort of blank face.
They where like that, two very different prefects. lily all smiles and always willing to give her advice to anyone that asked. remus was more casual, and laid back. unlike lily who would give detention. james was pretty sure the only few times, was for bulling and picking on other students.
The rest of the group began walking toward the tower, right before sirius gripped james arm.
“I gotta go” james turns to look at sirius then where his eyes are at.
And he is looking at regulus, who is standing next to the same group that he was in diagonally with. a mix of slytherin, and two ravenclaw ties.
“Want me to ehm come with?” and before james has barley finishing the question, sirius said “no”. and then sirius is off toward regulus. for a moment james just stands there, not saying anything. watching as sirius walk’s toward regulus. they seem to say something to each other. then they are off toward a classroom.
Marlene pulled on james arm, and his head turned toward her. “come on let's go”
They begin there walk to the tower. they don't really say anything. there mothers are friends, so they had grown up together. peter had completed there little small trio, of kids running around. peter lived much closer to james then marlene, and peter’s mom hand become good friends with james mom.
Growing up together marlene and him could sit together not talking for horse. not needing to. it was nice to understand that james had a friend he could just be with. not that he couldn't do that, with the others, but marlene would always hold a special place in his heart.
“Godric” marlene said as they crawl into the common room.
“And this is the common room, over there there is the stairs to the girls domtrary and there is the boys” lilly is standing in the middle of the room pointing to where everything is. remus is standing behind her not saying anything, and he looks to sirius for james mind.
So sneaking behind remus, peter beside him. they share a smirk and jump onto remus at the same time
“Ahh hey!!” remus yells as they jump, almost falling over.
“Welcome to gryffindor” is all lily said, sarcasme in her voice, as she doesn't even turn around, as the first years stare at the 3 boys push on and other around
“Im sure you will love it,” lilly said, as she keeps smiling. james laughs, ready for the new year.
“Potter would you ever so kindly let go of remus. i need him to follow the first years to there dorms” she said, as she looks at where james has remus in a headlock.
“But whyyyyyyyyy” james said, as remus tries to push of his arm.
“James, would you….. please let go of him” and because he is james he has to let go he fake swoon.
“Anything for you my dear lily” and all that gets him is a smack on the back of his head from her.
“Come on first years, this way” remus said leading the group towards the stairs, james and peter on his heels, as lily lead the girls to there dorms
“Who are you two?” one of the first years asked looking at peter and james.
“We are the amazing, the best, the greats, the most fantiasic” james put himself in between peter and remus troughing his arms around there necks. “marauders”
“Well us and our friend sirius, who is….” remus said looking at james and peter for answers
“Talking to his brother, about …. well who knows” james said, as remus got that sort of look on his face. because if it had to do with sirius, remus would always like to know.
Remus lead the first years after james and peter, who kept going pushing into there dorm.
“Ah home sweet home” peter said falling down on the bed with his things next to it.
James laughs a little, and begins unpacking his things, as peter gets up to do the same. remus comes in after a few minutes “why did i agree to be a prefect”
Both james and peter laughed a little, as remus groaned loudly. he did began unpacking his things along with the others, tho a little slower then the other two. then the door was slammed upon with a loud bang.
In came sirius, looking as tired as ever.
“Hey how did it go with your brother, did ev….oh” james said as sirius moved past them all, falling face first into his bed, and letting out a loud groan.
“That bad?” remus said moving to lean against sirius bed.
“You guys are all lucky being only children” sirius said sitting up, in his bed crossing his legs.
James wanted to ask more but he could feel that sirius did not want to talk about it. so they didn’t, because if it had to do with sirius family, you had to be careful. only really
speak about it if sirius wanted to. other wise sirius would shut down, and not speak for hours. so instead he said
“I mean, am i an only child tho, i mean you live with me, little pest” this earned james a hit with his pillow.
this of course lead to a full on pillow fight. remus was the only one not take part. well that was until a pillow meant for hitting peter instedet hit remus. remus lifted the pillow up walked comly over to james and then hit james right across the face
As james lay in his bed, a few moments later, all he could think was that this year had to go good.
Notes:
hope you like, dont know when i will be back
Chapter 13: the welcome back feast, regulus part 2
Summary:
regulus in ravenclaw and him and sirius talk. regulus hates nightmares
Notes:
hellooooo, sorry i have not opdated for a while i have been really sick but now im back. hopefully there will come out 2 more chapters of this fic and 3 of the other fic, in this week, or soon
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
To say that regulus had been happy when he had been sorted in to ravenclaw, would be an understatement. his parents had told him that he was to get into slytherin, but that he would not be a digress over being sorted in to ravenclaw. still he knew that when he went home next, a little pain would come. and probably a new scar as well.
But as he sat next to pandora he found himself not caring all that much. he liked her alot, and she would be a nice friend. he was of course still scared of the returning home but less then he would have thought.
But he knew that when he lay in his bed tonight trying to sleep, the feelings would come. The shaking in his hands.
The feeling of not being able to breath.
The tightness in his chest would come.
And every scar would feel like it was on fire.
Not now, regulus thought as things became a little blurry and his hands shook a little. until he felt someone slip a hand into his, and grib his hand. when he looked up he found pandora, looking at him, hints of worry in her pretty blue eyes.
"Are you okay” she said still holding his hand, not letting go.
Regulus mouth feelt dry, and he could not get words out. so he just nodded, and pandora seemed to somehow know what to do as she took up his glass, and pressed it into his hand.
He lifted it to his lips, and the liquid that came into his mouth feelt so nice. even if it was just pumpkin juice.
“Yeah, im okay” he manage to get out, past dry lips. pandora seemed to look him over one more time, before standing.
“Well then lets go, we better found the others” pandora pulled her up and regulus let her because it feelt nice not having to think of anything but just walking.
They found the other just outside the great hall, the 3 of them leaning up against the wall.
“Well there we have the new little ravenclaw” barty said as he pushed of the wall and looked regulus up and down.
Regulus lightly punched him in the arm, and barty pretend it hurt and fell back into evan. but regulus was pretty sure barty just used that as an excuse to have evan’s arms around him. Regulus was not quit sure of their relationship.
“Comeon, we will walk you two blue’s back to ravenclaw tower” dorcas said laying an arm across pandora’s shoulders.
It was not long after they had begun walking that they all heard.
“Regulus!” and they turned around to see sirius, walking toward him. “hey reggie, can we ehm talk?” his brother stopped in front of them, and regulus looked him over.
Sirius had grown since he left grimmauld place. his hair had also become longer. one of the things there mother always hated about sirius. regulus was pretty sure that was why he had grown it out. regulus turned back to his friend.
“We will wait here” pandora said before regulus could get a word in.
So regulus just nodded, then turned around to his brother.
His brother nodded toward a classroom, and regulus followed him. he stepped inside, as sirius took a seat on one of the desk.
“So what did you want to talk about” regulus said crossing him arms over his chest.
“How are you” sirius said picking at his pants. like he was nervous being here, and regulus wanted to yell just how he was.
That he was fucking scared of going home.
That he was made at sirius for leaving him in that house.
Wanted to push up his sleeve on his arm to show sirius the new scars on his arms.
The ones on his chest.
His legs, his everywhere.
But he didn’t. he just took a shaky breath in and said “Im fine”
“Oh bullshit regulus, you're not fine!”
“Well what do you care, you have your friends why dont you just go back to them!”
“Your my brother, i care about you!”
“Since when!”
“I have always cared about you regulus, you just don't care about anyone but your self”
“Oh fuck of sirius, we have barley been brothers since you came home from your first year at hogwarts and all you could talk about was, potter this, potter that. he is you brother!” regulus yelled, then spun on his heal and walked out slamming the door behind him.
He found his friends in the same spot he left them.
“Don't” regulus said when he could see them getting ready to ask about it “just don't, please”
The group seemed to share a look, but none of them said anything about it as they walked back to the ravenclaw tower. pandora pointed out things for regulus along with dorcas. barty and evan walked behind them arguing about something stupid.
“We have to answer a riddle to get in” pandora said as they stood in front of the raven that would let them in to the common room
“I have hands but I can't reach out to touch you, I have a face but cannot see you, what am I?” the raven asked.
Behind the barty groaned talking about this being so stupid. pandora seems to give it a thought, but regulus already knew the answer, to him it seemed obvious. maybe also something to do with his parents making him study riddles, so that he could answer them if anyone was to ask.
“A clock” regulus said, and the raven swung open
“Oh yeah, that would have taken me some time to figure out” pandora said “well bye” she said to her friends and brother and pulled regulus in. regulus waved at the 3 slytherins.
The ravenclaw common room was high to the selling, and with stars painted on to it. high windows, on every wall, and large bookshelves all around. tables with chairs around them. and two stair case leading up, to what was probably the dorms.
“That one leads to the boys dorms” pandora said pointed.
“Im gonna…”
“Yeah i get it, see you tomorrow” regulus was fast up the stairs and pushed upon the door to the dorm with “5” on it.
His 2 other doormates, looked at him. one asked him if he really was sirius blacks younger brother. all regulus did was nod the walked to his bed, took his sleeping stuff and walked to the bathroom.
As he lay in bed, the whole room quiet, he thought that maybe this would not be so bad.
But then the nightmares came
Of sirius screams, and cries of pain
the pain across his chest, seeing sirius on the floor twitching in pain
Regulus sat up with a gasp. the whole dorm was still quiet not a sound but his dorm mates breathing. regulus tired to get his breathing under control. and slowly it went front the gasps to a more relaxed breathing. regulus got out the bed, and stumbled to the bathroom
When he got up of the floor from throwing up, he walked to the sink, splashing water in his face. he looked at himself in the mirror, and stared at himself. the eye bags forming under his eyes, his black curls sticking to his forehead
“your fine, your fine, your fine, your fine” he whispered to himself trying to convince himself that he was okay. he was regulus arcturus black, heir to the noble and most ancient house of black. he was not going to let a night mare take him
regulus laid back in bed, and stared at the ceiling, he hoped that it would be better from now.
Notes:
hope you like, also yes that it a nod to rise of the order, episode 1, dilverd by the fantiasic ezekiel as regulus black. god i love rise of the order, omg i love it so much. but also it makes my heart cry and i maybe cry a little, but it is so good
Chapter 14: first day james pov
Summary:
james first day at hogwarts
Notes:
sorry i have been gone for so long but here we goooooo
Chapter Text
When james wakes up he, only hears the sound of 3 other sleeping people. and the sound is nice. he had kinda missed the sound over summer.
He is always the first one up in the morning. peter is always the last, if not remus close to the moon. sirius was used to waking up early, but he somehow still didn’t make it to lessons on time most of the time.
Might have something to do with him spending hours on his hair, and clothes.
not that either where following the dress code of hogwarts. sirius hair might pass, but his uniform was never worn all together. the only thing that was always there was the button up and his red gryffindor tie. james thinks sirius wears the tie, to remind everyone that he is not like his family. maybe even to remind himself a little bit.
James gets out of his bed and grabs his things and heads to the bathroom. as he pass sirius bed, he spots the photo of sirius and regulus. normally it would be standing so everyone could see the photo, but now it lay down.
His talk with regulus yesterday must not have gone very well. but then again james had guessed that when sirius had come into the dorms late at night, trying, and falling, to hide his red eyes. sirius hated crying in front of people, probably because he grew up in a house where if you cried you got hit.
James takes a shower and gets ready. unlike Sirius, James has long given up trying to style the thing on his head he calls hair. it never stays the same anyway, and it grows out way faster than most. about every month one of the girls or sirius force him into a chair and help him cut his hair. it often right when it starts bening so that he has to keep blowing it out of his face.
He also does not think he could pull off having hair as long as sirius.
When james comes out the bathroom, sirius is awake, and seems to be pulling out his uniform.
“Morning, how did it go with regulus yesterday” james asks as he leans against on the pillars on sirius bed.
“Oh him and i are just best buddy mates” sirius says, and james knows he is lying
“Im sirius” james says before he relies his mistake
“No im sirius” sirius respondents with, and james can see the smile on his face
“You are still doing that?”
“To be fair” sirius stands up with his things in his arms “you walked right into that one”
And even tho james wants to disagree, he cant, because yeah. sirius smirks as he walks of to the bathroom.
James begin waking up the less morning people doormates.
With remus you have to be more kind, if it close to the full moon, but seeing as the full moon is 3 weeks away, he just pushes open the curtains
“MORNING MOONEY BEAR” he sings songs, as he looks down at the now awake but pissed of remus.
“Fuck of potter, it is to early for your shit” he says as he turns his face into the pillows
“Comeone mooney, mooneyyyyyyy” he keeps saying it until remus sits up
“OKAY, im up im up, just please shut up”
James smiles at him and walks of to wake up peter. he things he hears remus whisper “these fucking people, why am i even friends with them” as he walks of to peter bed. but maybe his ears where playing him a trick.
He does the same thing with peter as he did with remus. only when his curtains are open he tackles peter.
“OH- what- fuck! james” peter yells as james tackles him and begins just pulling him out of the bed.
“Wakey wake peter, we cant be late for the first day”
“Im up, you bloody lunatick, just let go of me!”
James does so, but as he had peter shoulders and half his body out the bed, peter falls onto the floor.
“I swear every year it gets fucking wrose” peter grumbels as he stands up and slowly get ready.
James just smiles as he walks back to his own bed.
They have had the same set up since first year. James closes to the door, sirius next to him. across from his bed, next to the bathroom peter and next to that and sirius bed was remus. and in between sirius and remus bed, but closets to sirius, was the window. this comes in handy as Remus and sirius smoke and they can let out the smoke there. james likes that you can see whose bed is whose.
James has photo’s of him and his parents on the wall, along with a few quidditch posters. he also has a few photos of them, the marauders. his quidditch gear is also standing around his bed. He is captain this year, as frank has left school. he cant wait, to beat slythrines ass. he also has a few picture of him wining the quidditch cup up. and the mini version that the girls gave him as a gift when he won last year.
Sirius bed has a few gryffindor posters. along with alot, and james means alot, of band posters. Queen, Led zeppelin, bowie, and so many more. sirius has a very massive collection of albums. they are in a box next to his bed. and in the window sile, was the turntable, that remus had brought. even tho it is as much sirius as it is remus. the only proff of sirius family is the picture of him and regulus, wich not lays facing down.
Peters bed as mix of quidditch and football posters. his dad is a fullblood, but his mom is a muggleborn, so he grew up with both muggel and magic things. james only knows the names of the quidditch players. he still does not understand football. peter also has a few plants, wich he keeps very well. then a photo or two of his family.
Remus bed has books. and alot. he has one music poster, wich is the beatles. he never really listens to the band, but james knows that remus mother was a big fan. there is one more poster of some band named The Who. james has no idea who they are. there a few picture of remus and the other boys, and a few with him and the girls. remus has no sign of his father, as remus hates the man, but james knows that remus keeps a photo of his mother in the draw in his bedside table.
James looks around the room, and fells a warm spread in his chest. he loves his mom and dad, but nothing beats this. begin together in a room with just them.
Sirius comes out the bathroom, and peter slips in, still half asleep. remus is opening the window for a morning smoke.
“One day thoes will kill you” james says as he packs his bag
“And one day we will all die, might as well live a little” remus says as he lights the smoke
“Yes but you are doing it faster with smoking, this will catch up to you” james scoledes ike he is remus mother.
“Well make sure i have a nice funeral, mum” remus said his voice dripping of sarcasm. they do this almost everytime remus smokes, and james knows he cant get remus to quiet, but he still can annoy him anyway.
And it not that james never smokes. he has smoked at a party of two, or when they lose a quidditch match, he just does not do it as often as remus.
Sirius smokes more, but he cant get his own cigs, so he just keeps browning of remus. tho with how he always leans in to remus cig, to light his own, or sits right next to remus so they can pass one between them, james does not think remus minds.
Peter does like james, tho sometimes if he does really bad on a paper, he will have a smoke with remus. sometimes peter also disappears with some hufflepuffs, and come back smelling very much of weed. james and sirius have tried to ask the huffelpuffs if they can join, but they just got a loud no, and a saying that remus could come if he wants. wich he does sometimes.
When peter comes out and remus slips into the bathroom, sirius is still busey doing his hair. he uses pins to pull it back a little, letting a few lose strands hang free. james is pretty sure that he keeps stealing the pins form mary.
Remus slips out and sirius has finished his hair but has now moved on to eyeliner. and james has given up waiting. quietly at least. so he keeps going on and one about sirius about being faster. until they are all done and can walk to breakfast
and as he sits at the gryffindor tabel with the girls too, james could not be more happy
Chapter 15: first day regulus pov
Summary:
regulus pov of the first day
Notes:
i hope that this means that i will be putting out alot more chapters
Chapter Text
Waking up in a new dorm is something regulus will have to get use to. when he wakes up he is the 3 out of 4 to wake up, he slips into the bathroom as soon as he can. he takes his shower and pulls on his new uniform. he still has to get used to how it looks. even tho his parents have of course made sure it fits like a glove.
Regulus leaves the room before any of his doormates. when he comes down the stairs he is meet with the face of pandora.
“Oh hey, morning” he says after he gains his footing after nearly walking right into her.
“Morning, how you felling” she says as they begin walking out the common room.
“Fine, tho im not sure if that is against the dress code or not” he waves at her many more charms that she has in both her snow white hair, and around her neck, wrists and fingers. her tie is much loser then regulus who wears his uniform to point
“Ah who cares here let me just” she reaches across and loosens the tie around regulus neck a little “there now you wont choke”
And even tho regulus wants to protest it feels nice. as if some weight from around his neck as been loosened. so right there he does not care if his parents find out he has not been wearing his uniform right.
Him and pandora walk down to the great hall, pandora has her arm around his, but he just walks next to her. he lets her guide him down to breakfast.
Because one, he does not know they way and this castel is way to fucking big, and two, after his first nightmare he woke up 2 more times and he never really feel asleep, so he is tired as shit.
Pandora talks regulus ear of with all sorts of stuff. what class they will have, what class regulus is most looking forward to, what class she is looking forward, and so much more. regulus used the time to make himself more know with what was around him.
They sat at the ravenclaw table, but pandora waved to her twin across the table. Evan was sat with dorcas and barty in the sea of green.
A professor began handing out class schedules.
“That is professor flitwick he is our head of house” pandora told him as she eat her toast “that means that he is kinda like the teacher that we have to talk to about our grades, problems and that sort of thing. mcgonagall is the head of gryffindor, she is the one in green, she is also our transfigurations professor.
Sprout, who is the herbology professor is head of hufflepuff, she is the one in begie colored suit thing. and of course flitwick is ours, he is the charms professor. and then slughorn is the potions master and head of slytherin”
Pandora went on and on about every professor, but regulus’ eyes had been caught on something else. because over at the gryffindor table, sat his brother. that was not what had caught regulus eye, not it was the boy next to him.
Now regulus had always deep down know that he was at least a little into men. he had never really found women pretty or any of the other stuff his old classmates did. the thought of marrying a woman never really spoke to him in anyway at all. but then sometimes he would catch himself looking at one of the older guys at his old school, and thinking hey he’s kinda pretty.
And then he will tell himself that he can never think like that again. it wrong, it goes against everything his parents have ever told him. but then he can look away. cant help but find masculine bodys much more pretty than feminine ones. the flat broader chest, where just what regulus liked more.
And for some unknow fucking reason he found the boy sitting next to sirius very pretty. But the boy was
James Fucking Potter.
Regulus could not tell anyone why he found him pretty or maybe hot, but he did. and it was so dam annoying. because the boy was a massive prick and regulus was meant to hate him.
He took his brother away from him, potter basically took his place in sirius life.
When they where kids, regulus was the one always by sirius side, always the one who he talked to. but the moment sirius had come home from hogwarts regulus knew, that he had lost the place. for some reason little 10 year old regulus had thought sirius and him would still be friends, even when they went to hogwarts.
But that did not stop potter from being very nice to look at
“Regulus, reggie are you hearing me, we need to go” pandora’s voice broke his almost trance
“Huh?”
“We have class in like 10 minutes and we still have to get there”
“Oh right” He got up fast and followed behind pandora
“We have class with slytherin, charms. but of course dorcas wont be there, as she is in the year above us” pandora had attached herself to regulus arm again.
They found the charms classroom, and went in. pandora pulled him to a desk behind barty and evan.
“Hey how did the first night go, little raven” barty turned in his seat to look at regulus
“First never call me that, Seconde it went fine” regulus answered but it seemed that only made barty smirk more.
“Oh come on i have to have a nickname i do for everyone. evan here is little snakey, dorcas is cas and pandora is panda. I need one for you, how about little french boy?”
“No, that one is even worse” regulus said
“Little ghostie?”
“No”
“Raven boy?”
“No”
“Baby black?”
But before regulus could get out his loud no, he was cut of by the door opening and a man, who pandora had told him was professor flitwick, stepped in to the room.
“Silence please” his voice was clam but loud enough that people began shutting up
“Welcome to charms, 5th year ravenclaws and slytherins. i hope that we can all do better then we did last year” he sent a few students some looks as he walked to the front of the room. he went down a paper checking of students
“Ah a new black i see” he looked at him “regulus i do hope that you are more inline then your brother?”
“Yes professor” he said,and this was what he was gonna be dealing with for a little while, people asking if he was like his brother.
the rest of the day went by very well, even if there was a lot of comments from professors about how they hoped they would not see him in there office or detention as much as his brother.
When him and pandora, and the rest of the ravenclaws from there year, arrived at the transfigured, classroom they found that went they went in, there was already a class in there. 6th year gryffindor and slytherins to be precise.
wich for regulus meant his brother and his friends.
“Ah 5ht years, professor flitwick has had to deal with an emengacy” professor mcgonagall said from the front of the room “So the 6th years here will be joining in on our class. flitwick is fine, something with a potion bowling up” she gestured for them to all find seats.
Regulus and pandora found a seat behind dorcas, who had her desk to herself, as there was an odd number.
“Hello reg, dora, hows your first day been?” she asked as she turned to look at them
“Fine, alot about hoping im not like my brother” was regulus answer just before mcgonagall voice sound across the room, telling them all to be quiet.
“Now mr.black, if you could please stand up” she asked and both him and his brother stood up. “the younger mr.black please”
regulus walked up as she told everyone else to find there summer homework. he swore he saw his brother send him a death glare as he walked.
Chapter 16: first day part two james pov
Summary:
james pov of the first day part two
Notes:
okay okay we are going strong so far and thanks for all the kudos. they make me want to keep writing
Chapter Text
James had know that this class might be weird. having to have class with the year below him, the people he often thought looked like small kids.
But this is was…….Fucking weird.
Sirius was sitting glaring a whole in the back of his brother’s head. if looks could kill, regulus would be long dead and in the ground.
James had never had a sibling, only sirius, so he was not sure but he didnt think you where meant to hate them, so much to look at them like that. but then again sirius and regulus probably weren't normal brothers, in anyway shape or form.
They had grown up in a house of cold faces and parents who did not hide how much they hated there kids, and only viewed them as things to show of to other fullblood parents.
But now he finally got to see what that kind of upbringing did to the relationships between the brothers. it destroyed it. crushed it up, set fire on it, and watched it burn. and this was what it ended in, two brothers who hated each other. fucking hated each other.
“Look at him” sirius whispered to him under his breath “the little pretentious brat”
Remus whispered in his seat behind them “i don't think that quite right”
And no matter how much james loved sirius, he had to silently agree with remus. regulus was not walking like the heirs of the fullblood houses he had seen around hogwarts. his shoulders where slumped slightly, and his posture thigh. not like how many of the slytherins walked, with there shoulders high and like they owned everything.
But he could never say that to sirius.
“Mr. black and Mr.lupin if you would kindly stop whispering back there” mcgonagall said as she handed regulus a stack of papers “now everyone please hand in your summer homework. Mr.black if you would be so kind to collect everyone's papers”
Before sirius could get fully out his seat the replay from mcgonagall came '
“Other mr.black please”
Regulus placed the papers on his desk and began walking around the room collecting papers.
He reached there desk and james swore he felt the air dip by at least 100 degrees. the look that regulus sent james and sirius was cold as ice. but james swore that it soften just a little when it looked on sirius.
james however got a look to sharp he could stap himself on it. the gray eyes where filled with none concealed hate. ice cold hate. like james was somethin he had just scraped of the bottom of his shoe.
and some sick deep down part of him liked it. maybe he should see someone about that. because he didn't really think that was normal. weren't you meant to only like people who atleast kinda liked you?
then again james other crush had been a girl who every time he had asked her out had cursed him or atleast called him something very very mean, so maybe he was just fucked like that
he should maybe talk to someone about why that was. maybe lily would be abel to help. maybe it was because he had only had love growing up. and now he wanted so hate. who fucking knows
but with sirius is seemed as if he could not get himself to hate sirius in that deep way he hated james. like there was still a little warmth left in his eyes.
“Homework?” he asked sticking out his hand, toward them.
Where as james just placed his homework in regulus hand, who then add it to the pile, in his arms. but sirius, sirius could not just do that, he had to make fun of his brother just a little bit.
“Little teachers pet now, reggie? just like with mother” he said not handing over his homework. or maybe he just had not done it.
“Just hand it over, dear brother of mine” regulus said his tone dripping in sarcasm.
“Just like always, a little follower of everyone”
“Oh just hand it over sirius”
“Always following what people tell you to do”
“Just fucking hand it over”
“Oh does mommy know you talk like that?”
“Fuck of sirius, i dont just do that”
“Oh yeah wanna prove me wrong punch me bet you wont?”
“That is the stupids thing i have ever heard you say”
“Scared little baby reggie”
“Just shut the fuck up sirius”
“Punch me do it i dare you”
And that was regulus breaking point. but unlike what james would have done he just snatched the paper from sirius hand, and walk to remus and peters desk.
“Oh that is just like regulus always walking away little baby, still in mommy dearest pocket. tell me is your life great as the new heir?”
“OH FOR FUCK SHAKE SIRIUS!!!” regulus yelled at his brother “no it has not been fucking easy!! what you think everything was just going to be perfect after you left!!? that mother and father where just going to turn into parents of the fucking year of something??!!. well newsflash sirius, they still suck!!” he yelled now in his brothers face
“Well if you had just come with me, but no you had to be a scared little bitch!” sirius stood up the two boys, who where basically the same height where right in eachothers faces.
“Oh fuck you sirius!”
“Shut the fuck up regu-”
“MR.BLACK AND MR.BLACK, BOTH OF YOU, SIT DOWN!!!!” mcgonagall voice sounded over the screaming match happening between the two brothers. “now both of you, sit down”
The two began moving back to there seats
“Oh no no no, you two can sit right here in the front together”. mcgonagall pointed at the seat that two ravenclaw boys had taken right in the front “If the two of you would be so kind to move, because mr.black and mr.black can not just be in the same room”
The two ravenclaw boys got up moving toward other seats, and regulus and sirius both walked to the seats and grabbed there things then sat in that seat together.
The seat was right in front of the one james and sirius had sat in. they did not like sitting there but after way to much talking he and sirius had been made to sit so mcgonagall could hear them. and tell them to be quiet.
When the two boys sat down james heard what they whispered to each other
“Fuck you” sirius whispered
“Oh Fuck you to”
Then the two turn away from eachother and ignored eachother. it looked like they where trying to turn the backs on eachother, but it was not really possible as they where sitting in one desk.
Well how fucking fun.
The rest of the lesson the two brothers spent ignoring one and other, very much trying to pretend that the other one did not even exist. at the end of the class mcgonagall walked to the two boys desk
“Now seeing as you two cant seem to just be brothers, i think you two can serve detention on saturday, 4 hours”
Sirius smirked at her “sorry no can do i already have detention with slughorn, for that whole potions blowing up thing”
“Well then regulus can serve detention with you and mr.potter, mr.lupin and mr.pettigrew, if im not wrong with who you will be having this detention with?”
“You would be right” sirius stood up “see you saturday little baby brother” sirius reached over and ruffled his hair, regulus slapped his hand away
“Stop doing that” regulus grabbed his bag and hurried out the room.
This saturday is gonna be fun, right?
right?
Chapter 17: welcome back party regulus pov
Summary:
the rest of the first day and the welcome back party
Notes:
so here we goooooooooooo
bonefire here come. also i just add a new ship, gilderat. mostly because i think it is fucking so funny. and now im putting this in my fic
Chapter Text
Fuck his brother, just fuck him. fuck him for fucking up regulus first day. fuck him for probley making professor mcgonagall think he was like his brother.
Fuck professor mcgonagall for given him detetion, even tho it was very much all sirius fault. and now he had to have detention with all his brothers friends too.
Fuck everyone and everything.
“So what the punishment?” dorcas asked as she and pandora stood against the wall waiting for him.
“Detetion on saturday, 4 fucking hours” he said as they began walking.
“Oh that kinda harsh” pandora said “when on saturday?”
Regulus pulled out the paper that mcgonagall had given him, a small slip of paper that both him and sirius had been given. it said when and where they would be having detention. dorcas took it out his hand
“Oh wait i think barty has detention this time too, something about smoking in front of a teacher and then calling said teacher a asshole who he hoped would die of lung cancer”
And well regulus had no idea what to say to that. other then “seems like a barty thing to do”
The two girl nodded and let out sounds agreements. the three of them walked to the library, dorcas had told barty and evan to meet them there. they found the two boys in the back of the library the farest away from mrs.pinnes desk. wich again was just like them.
“Hello our dear friends. panda” barty nodded at pandora as she sat down “cas” dorcas just pushed some of evans things out the way “little star”
“No that one is even worse” regulus said as he sat down “just call me regulus”
“But i have nicknames fo-”
“For everyone you have said that already. but you just will have to not have one for me”
“I will not give up”
And for the next 20 minutes well they where all trying to get the homework done, barty keepet trying nicknames, and in the end regulus broke
"Okay okay, you can call me reg if you will just shut up” regulus said to barty who smirked at him
“Thanks, reg”
“And i already cant wait to spend 4 hours with you on saturday”
“Wait what do you mean”
“Regulus here got detention for having a screaming match with his brother in mcgonagall’s class” Dorcas said as she ruffled regulus hair. he just batted her hand away.
“OH how fun now i wont have to spend it alone” barty said smirking at him
“Yeah oh and bad news my brother and his band of idiots will be there too”
But to his surprise this did not make barty’s smirk fall from his face, it almost only grew.“Meaning potter will be there, he is always so fun to rile up”
“Yeah until he is booking the quidditch pits everytime he can, so that we cant practise” evan said and regulus feelt like that was something that had happened before.
“Still fun” barty said a smirk on his lips, that made evan roll his eyes.
They spent the rest of the time until dinner to do there homework. seeing as it was there 5th year (other the dorcas) and at the end of the year they would be taking there O.W.L.exsams the professor gave them a shit ton of homework.
Regulus had more then the others as he had to do some almost test like papers to prove that he was up to the level he was meant to be at.
Wich he was of course.
When dinner time came they all packed up there things, and made plans to meet after dinner at the lake party that some 7th years where holding. regulus didn't really want to go but his friends had already decided that he was going. and well regulus didn't really like odds, 1 vs 4, so guess he was going to a lake party.
After dinner pandora followed him to his dorm. none of his dorm mates where there so pandora grabbed him some clothes
“I have a few extra things for you in my dorm now come with me”
“Wait i thought boys couldn't get into the girls dorm”
“That is only if they aren't invited, wich you are. and it is a stupid rule”
She pulled him to her dorm, wich she had alone as there was 5 girls in ravenclaw there year, so one had to be alone. pandora didn't seem to mind tho, all her friend, before regulus, had been in slytherin.
Pandora had grabbed him a pair of loose dress pants and a black turtel neck. while he changed into the dress pants, pandora took his turtle neck and cut a little off the bottom
“Hey i like that one!?”
“Im making it better, im making it a crop top”
“I don-”
“You will thank me when everyone thinks your hot, now” she cut the neck of making it more of a shirt that would show his neck “put it on”
He put it on not liking that the shirt didn't go all the way down. it went against everything his parents had ever thought him.
But as pandora stood back and looked at him (she had found out him and her had the same shoes size and had given him some high sole converse to wear along with the extra jewelry that was black family things) he found that maybe he should try to wear this.
“You look……perfect!!” she said almost jumping up and down.
She herself was wearing a long white flowy skirt, with a pattern of pink and purple flowers, a crop top white crop top wich in pink letters read “Im not cool”. all her usual jewelry and under the croptop a mesh long sleeve crop top.
Even if he did not like girls, he thought pandora was very pretty.
“Now eyeliner time” she said
“NO NO NO”
But she was on him and had to now wear the eyeliner and the small starts she had drawn too on his cheeks.
They met up with the other at one of the back entrances.
“Woah reg if i was not fully into girls i would snog you”
“Thanks, i think?”
They began walking to the party. it was on the other side of the lake. a large bonfire and some drinks table was sat up.
Barty and evan came back with drinks for them all.
“We have a shot of firewhisky for everyone, and then a cup of this blueish thing for the ravenclaws and green for us slytherins” barty said as he handed them all a small glass of firewhiskey and then evan handed them a plastic cup of something.
They all downed the firewhiskey. it burned in regulus throat but somehow feelt kinda nice. He took to standing a little away from the fire but close enough not to freeze.
Even tho he had no idea what was in the cup, it made his head fell a little lighter. like for now he could just be regulus, a 5th year ravenclaw student at hogwarts. not regulus arcturus black, son on orion and walburga black, heir to the noble and most ancient house of black.
Barty came up to him with a cigarette “want a drag” he asked handing him the light cigarette. and now regulus had never smoked before but the alcohol in the cup made him feel like it could not be that bad. and sure he coughed a little but after a few drags his head started to feel even lighter like he was flying on clouds
and he was just himself, at a party with his friends drinking, smoking,and breaking rules
just himself
just regulus
Chapter 18: welcome back party James pov
Summary:
party from james pov
also trigger warning. for underage driking, underage smoking, and sirius coping with the regulus thing by drinking
Notes:
heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, i am not dead. ha ha ha ha......
i have had some mental healt problems going on but i am going to try and post every 2 weeks or so. maybe more often
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
James had always loved parties. quidditch party’s, only really if he had won not lost, christmas parties, halloween parties, birthday parties. just if it was a party then james would probably like it.
Well maybe not the pureblood party’s sirius sometimes talked about.
But james also really like welcome back parties. they where great. because then you could really feel like you where back.
And with a bonfire, even fucking better.
The detetion that they would be serving with sirius brother was forgotten in the booze and smokes. sirius smiled again, a big one that james always only thought one person liked more then him.
That person was remus.
Speaking of remus he had been put on the so called “sober duty”. not that even that would stop remus from having a smoke or 2. or 3, or more. but he would not touch a drop of alcohol or smoke anything but cigarettes.
Remus was actually the one often who got this duty. because even if he drank, he could hold his liquor much better then any of them. james could hold his alright, but after maybe his 3rd cup he would be past saving and would tell the truth to everyone. peter could not hold his liquor at all, but he always a little got high on something.
And sirius, who had grown up drinking wine at fullblood party’s, on would think he would be abel to drink. but he sucked at it. he would always drink too much and get so drunk one or more of them would have to carry him back to the dorm.
And tonight is no different, actually james thinks he is only drinking more. it is like that often when he gets a letter from his parents. drinkings so in the morning he can only remember the hangover.
And to do with his brother….. well not so good.
Which you could tell by the amount that sirius was drinking. a few shots, cups and all drinks he could get his hands on.
He had been going slow in the start but then regulus had his friends had shown up.
After that sirius drank way to much.
James had been to busy looking at regulus to really drink.
The boy was in a crop top and fuck it was killing james. it was hot. not that anyone could ever know that he, james fleamont potter, found sirius orion black’s baby brother, regulus arcturus black, hot.
Not lily or mary or marlene.
Not remus or peter.
And never ever sirius.
Regulus could also never fucking know.
James was just going to have to take this secret to his grave.
He would die and so would everyone else around him. and nobody would ever know that at his 6th year welcome back party he had found regulus black hot.
Ever.
Lily was standing next to him, her own cup in hand, and it might just have been james eyes playing him a trick but he was pretty sure she was also looking at the group of slytherins and ravenclaws. tho it did not look like she was looking at the same person he was.
It looked like she was looking at that rossier girl, pandora, james thinks her name is?
“Looking at something?” he whispered to her, making her jump a little in the air
“Jesus! james stop doing that”
“It is fun because you always get spooked”
“James”
“Fine fine will stop i will”
“Thanks, so…… how sirius after the whole you know…..regulus thing”
“Well he is over there look for yourself” james pointed to where sirius was.
Sirius who was trying to down a whole cup of firewhiskey while remus was trying to stop him. sirius was wobbling a little and clearly very drunk.
“Oh” was all lily said the sight “so not so good”
“Yep” james said “not so good”
Then they both went back to just looking around the party. james eyes looked over regulus black's friend group again. he tried not to look to long on regulus. The way the light from the fire made his face have a gold red glow. the way his crop top rode up even more as he took a sip of his drink.
“Is that…..lockhard and peter?”
James looked at lily then to where she was looking.
And well….that was lockhard and peter standing a littler closer then friends would. where they even friends? he had never seen the two talk before. gilrode was in the year below them and in ravenclaw.
Wait that meant the shared a dorm with regulus okay james stop thinking about regulus!
“Yeah…..i think it is?”
“I had no idea they where friends?”
“Neither did i”
“Maybe they aren't friends? i mean they are standing kinda close?”
“Peter might just be sharing his weed with the dude”
“Yeah maybe”
Then sirius came crashing into james side.
“Jamie james my best friend!” he yelled way to loud in james ear.
Remus came up right behind him. “he is very drunk”
“And lily, oh lily,”
“Hi sirius”
Sirius went on and on about how he loved them all so much.
But then the thing james had been hoping a night would not happen, happened.
See james and lily had stood themselves right next to one of the 4 drink tables. meaning people came by all the time to get drinks.
People like regulus and his friends.
Regulus and dorcas meadows came walking up to the table.
“Oh shit” james thinks he hears remus whisper, and james could not agree more.
Oh shit.
Sirius drunk of his fucking ass, and regulus might not be a good mixture.
But it was a mixture that was about to happen either way, because regulus friends did not look like they where stopping or moving away. regulus had an arm around dorcas waist and it look he was trying to stop her from falling over.
But then why did a little part of james feel jealous over regulus having an arm around someone who was not him. maybe it was because he knew it never would.
Right now there was more important things to worrying about. like the fact the group of 2 where almost at the drink table. and that sirius was still spouting love at anyone near to him
this could only end in one way. a fucking massive fight. and james was not looking for that
Notes:
yeah, so i hope some people are still reading this. i am also going to be deleting my other fanfic. but i will probley start a new one, wich will be either marauders or marvel. i might write some peter parker fanfics soon.
byeeeeeeee
Chapter 19: welcome back party regulus pov part 2
Summary:
another pov of the party by the lake with regulus pov
Notes:
okay okay we are getting somewhere i am putting out a bit more now. i hope i can keep posting more often. Tho right now i am on spring break so when i go back to school i might be posting less. But i am thinking about just writing alot of chapters and then having some to post after i go back to school
also once again underage drinking and smoking
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
regulus is almost a meter away from his brother but he swears he can smell the alcohol coming off him. and all he wants is a bloody drink.
So far this party has been okay. he and barty smoked a cigarette together. then they smoked on with evan. then pandora and dorcas joined in. after some time him and dorcas where sent on drinks duty.
They had moved to the closets drink table. but they had missed on small detail. sirius and his friends where standing right next to that table.
Regulus had try to make dorcas go in a different way but she was set on that table. probably because of the fact that it was closets, but still they could go to another table.
They moved to the table, and regulus was very much trying to hide his face from his brother. his brother who was clearly very drunk, and proclaiming his love for everyone around him. regulus prayed that his brother would not see him. because he was pretty sure there would be no love to talk about. It would hurt more knowing that his brother had love for everyone else but not him.
Regulus kinda knew that already but it would hurt to get it underlined in front of everyone. to know that his brother really had no love for him. It was like it would sting more to know that Sirius really did not love him
right now he could pretend that his brother loved him, Regulus could live in his little fantasy where Sirius was still a loving brother, even if he had run away
“And dorcas” his brother exclaimed as he spotted her first “you know i might hate slytherin but you are a very good quidditch player”
He moved closer to the two of them, at the drinks table. And this was not how this was going to go. Sirius was meant to stay the fuck away from him and Dorcas. Regulus did not need him to come over here
“Ehm thanks, black?” dorcas looked the group of gryffindors, as if looking for answers, as to why the fuck Sirius was taking to them
“He is very drunk” lupin said as he just looked on, with a small smile on his face. mmh okay that was something
“And reggie!” his brother almost screamed as he slung an arm around regulus “my little baby cutie brother” sirius pinched his cheeks, wich hurt like hell
“Aw what the fuck siri-”
“I love you so much, my little brother so incent to good for this world”
“Okay just how pissed is he that he is calling regulus incent” dorcas asked from where she now held 3 drinks
“Like we said” potter said moving closer “very very drunk”
“Oh reggie rember how you would follow me everywhere. why did you stop doing that” sirius still had his arm around regulus shoulders.
“You went to hogwarts, i also grew up” He spat at his brother as he tried to push of sirius from his shoulders. “I was also 6 when i followed you around im 15 now”
“Your still so small, oh i love you so much and oh james” his brother now swung his arm around potters shoulders too, pulling them both very close
“My two brothers, oh i love you so much”
his two brothers, not just regulus. Now regulus had always sorta know that sirius thought of james as a brother, but this was the first time he was hearing it. And it kinda stung in his chest
“Okay okay get off” james tried and failed to slip out from sirius arm.
But then like the perfect little black heir he was, regulus did it.
“I will leave you to make sure he does not fall into the lake on his way back” regulus said as he tried to ignore the way potter had to almost bend in half to be the same height as his brother.
Now sirius had always been kinda short, regulus was pretty sure he was taller than him by a few centimeters, and had been since christmas last year. but regulus was nowhere near as tall as potter. and as potter stood to his full height regulus was pretty sure he was about a half head shorter then potter.
And why did regulus kinds like that? He should not like that as much as he did. Regulus could not like anything about James potter. Nope no no nope
“Come on dorcas” he spun on his heal and walked away
“Nice to know your brother holds his liquor so well. do you get like that too?” she asked as she walked by his side
“No i dont, my brother is just a fucking idiot”
“Oh come on it would be sweet if you where like that all smiley and loving”
“Piss of dorcas”
They walked up to the group of there friends, and handed out the drinks. Regulus took a large swig of his own cup to try and drown out the feeling of his brothers arm around his shoulders. He just need to make the feeling go away
“What about regulus getting drunk?” Evan said as he took the cup from regulus, looking like this was like the most interesting thing he had ever heard
“My idiot brother got drunk” regulus said as he sipped at his drink “and proclaimed his love for me”
“Oh image regulus like that” pandora said with a small giggle, like it was the funniest thing in the whole world
“I hold my liquor much better then my brother thanks” regulus replied as he took another, a little bit bigger sallow of his drink. he still did not just what was in it. he had let dorcas make the drinks
“Well, that something” barty said, as he was looking off at something.
They all followed his gaze to where he was looking at, pettigrew regulus was pretty sure, and some other golden haired boy. Regulus had no idea who the golden haired boy was, but the others seem to know who it was
“Isn't that lockheart and pettigrew?” pandora asked for them all. Oh so the golden haired guy was named lockheart
“Yes yes i think it is” dorcas said as she squinted trying to look better at the two people
“Weird” came from evan “never knew they where close, but good for them i guess”.
Regulus himself thought it was good that pettigrew, who only really had seem to be friends with his brother and them, had found a new friend. someone who was not his brother or his band of idiots.
Good for pettigrew. There where better people then his brother and those people out there
They went back to drinking and smoking. pandora got so drunk, she did not hold her liquor well either, that she began talking to regulus about everything and all. regulus just let her cling on to him, he thought she might fall over if not, and he was only half listing.
He was pretty sure he heard something with red hair and green eyes.
After about a half hour more, regulus had mostly just been standing with his friends pointing at drunk people, a student came running into the crowd.
“EVERYBODY RUN!!! FILCH IS COMING!!!!”
This made people move. regulus threw the rest of his drink on the bonfire, along with many of the others, and began following barty and evan back to the school. him and dorcas had to help pandora along as they walked.
Their group moved of into the forest a little bit. they walked along a path around the lake and the crouched down as they walked to the school.
Barty opened the same back door they had used to leave, and they slipped inside.
The others helped regulus carry pandora all the way up to the ravenclaw tower. here they said there goodnight, pandora’s a little slurred, and the others had to get back to the own common room. regulus just hoped flinch was not back from the party yet, because well regulus could pass of as sober. No one and Regulus would mean no one would think that pandora was sober. Well what a good first party here at hogwarts
Notes:
that was that, i hope you will also check out my other fic. i hope you all liked this chapter
Chapter 20: The Detetion James POV
Summary:
The day after the party and the start of the detetion from James POV
Notes:
okay here we go, a little latter then planed but here. Half of this chapter, down to the detetion part, has been written but then i happend to delete it. But i hope you all love this part to
also again warning underage drinking, talk of Sirius shit family, Sirius dirnks achole to forget and Peter smokes a little to much
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
When James woke up the day after the party, his head hurt like all merlin. Like he his skull had been slipt open by a bludger and then fallen of his broom. Wich was something that James had in fact tried before. And yet this allmost hurt more.
Jesus, what had been in thoes fucking drinks last night?
James rose from his bed, groning and as he messaged his head. God, did it hurt like a mother fucker. James didnt even want to think about how Sirius was feeling if this was how bad James had it. Sirius had drank a whole lot more, then James last night. And they all knew why. Sirius had been wanting to forget about him and his younger brothers argument.
James was pretty sure that the first time that he saw Sirius drink to forget, was in their 4th year. They had just came back from christmas break, and Sirius had been all over the place. He had acted like he was fine around others, but some night right after the break James could hear muffled cries comming from Sirius's bed. James, Peter and Remus all acted like they didnt see the new scars that ran along Sirius chest and some on his shoudlers. Pretend they didnt see the way he would flinch back just a little, everytime someone would raise a wand fast near him. Pretended they didnt hear the muffled crying or saw Sirius's red eyes.
It had been at a party and Sirius had been drinking so much. James and Remus had taken on the task of carying him up the staires, Peter having gone to bed allready by that time. It took some convicing to get Sirius to go to bed. The whole way up to the dorm, Sirius had been mumbling baout "that fucking women" and "she was meant to be our mother, meant to love us". But the worst had come when, they had gotten Sirius in to bed.
He had started telling them stories of his brother. About how Regulus used to follow him everywhere Sirius went. About how close the two of them were. Before school drew them apart. Before Sirius's mother drew them apart. They found out the reason that Regulus had not been sent to Hogwarts, was that Walburga didn't want him to turn out like Sirius.
"Turn out to be another blood traitor, Gryffindor, who was friends with such low lives like Sirius".
Those were her exact words, from what Sirius had told them when he was drunk that night. When he confessed that the reason he had drank so much that night was to forget it all.
To forget how his mother treated him and his younger brother.
To forget how his father just stood by most of the time, or also punished his kids with curses, that would make adults break down and cry.
To forget how Regulus was the golden child who did everything their parents wanted, even if it hurt other people
To forget the Christmas where his mother used the Cruciatus Curse on him for the first time.
To forget his brother and who the little kid had been before school
To forget everything to do with his family
James had wanted to cry, scream or hit something after Sirius had stopped talking and had fallen asleep. But he stayed calm, always offering for Sirius to stay with him over the holidays and breaks. Not that Sirius ever took him up on his offer. His parents would kill him if they found out Sirius ever spent as much as a day in the Potter house.
James found Sirius bend over the toliet, puking his guts up with Remus holding his hair back. How these two idoits had not realised that they where in love yet was still a shock for James. Like was it really James who was blind or was it thoes two? The world may never know.
"Inportent question, do thoes drinks taste better or worse comming up the other way?" James asked as he leaned on the side of the doorway. He tried to make it seem like his own head didnt hurt like a mother fucker. It was much more fun to make fun of Sirius then agnoled that he also felt like joining Sirius in vomiting.
Sirius turned around stopping with the vomting for a moment, and turned to stare right at James. "Oh fuck of James" Sirius said as he wiped the vomit of his mouth and standing. He took a deep breath as Remus handed him a glass of water.
The rest of the day was spend with James trying to ignore the splitting pain in his head. He had taken one of the fixer up potions before they had walked to breakfeast. But his head still hurt like a mother fucker, and he keeps rubbing his fingers on the sides of his head. James could kinda ignore the pain in his head, wich only got worse by the sound of hogwarts all around him. Not that the others where doing much better
Sirius spend half the day sleeping and the other half whining about how much his head hurt. He had spend allmost every class with his head either sleeping on the desk or on Remus's shoulder. Sirius also spend half of the day half in sleep and looking like he would rather be any where eles but here. Wich if James knew anything about Sirius that was probley true.
Peter was doing okay, having not actully drnk much last night. Peter more just look like a zombie with his with Peter's still slightly red eyes. He also still smeelt slightly like weed, the smeel clining to him. James sometimes wondered how Peter could be like that. Now it was not that Peter was not smart. I mean yeah he got a little bit below avarge in some class, but he was not stupid by any means. But Peter was also high half the time.
Remus actully looked just fine. Wich i mena he had been on sober duty last night, but James was pretty sure he had seen him take a few zips of some of Sirius drinks. Not that it seemed to have affected Remus much, who had a massive tolarance to achole. Remus did how ever spen most of the day a blushing and sturting mess. All because Sirius keept laying his head on Remus's shoulder. After that Remus would turn into a tomato.
The girls where only doing a little bit better then the guys. Well better then Sirius atleast, but then again James felt like that bar was not very high. That bar might actully be underground with how low it was.
Lily actully looked kinda fine, kinda like Remus where you would only be abel to see she was off if you looked at her for long and good. Her unifrom was just a little bit out of place, and not as neat as it normaly was. Her prefects badge sat just a little bit wrong on the left not the right side of her uniform. He hair looked like it had not been brushed trough that morning, still in thoes same braids from last night, only a little bit looser then before. Lily had probley sleept with them in.
Mary looked like shit. No other word for it, Mary looked like fucking shit. Her thick curley hair in a pony tail behinde her, with a ribon with lose pices falling around her face. She had just placed her head on the tabel for most of the class's not even borthering to pretend to care about what the teachers where saying. Mary didnt seem to give a fuck no matter how much the teachers tried to get her to pay attion. She only looked up in Mcgonagall's class, her fear for the women greater then her hang over.
Marlene was wearing sun glass's inside, as her dyed blond hair, cut into that wolf cut. When Marlene had taken her glass of for a bit, James had got a look at her smudge eyeliner. James was pretty sure she had been wearing eyeliner last night, and it look alot like she had slept in her makeup. Sirius tried to steal her sun glass's a few times and everytime he would get a hard smack on his fingers and a lifted middle finger, from Marlene.
When they were sitting in the great hall for lunch, James let his eyes look over the slytherin table. James could tell people he was just looking out at the hall. Tell them he wasn't looking for someone. But James could not lie to himself, and he knew why he was looking over the green and silver wearing tabel.
He was trying to find a pale skinned, black haired, a little bit taler, meaner version of the boy sitting beside him. He was trying just to find Regulus wanting to see how the guy was holding up.
James found him and was kinda in shock. At first glance nothing seemed to be wrong. Regulus sat next to the Rossier girl, and Crouch Jr. who both look much more like James and his friends.
But Regulus, looked like he had gotten 8 hours of sleep, and not been out partying last night. Like nothing was up with the heir to the black house. He looked just like he had on his first day here, if only a little bit more annoyed with the two people sitting next to him.
Tho, when James looked at him harder, looked over his clothes a couple times, he could see the few cracks in that perfect heir shield. Regulus' tie was just a little bit out of place, a little to lose. His hair didn't look as perfectly styled like the first day. And the bags around his eyes seemed to have gotten bigger and darker.
For some fucking reason, it didn’t make Regulus less pretty. If to James it only made him look even more pretty. James liked knowing that there was ways to make cracks in that hard sort of person that Regulus was.
James stoped himself. He had to stop thinking about Regulus like that. He was Sirius younger brother. It was not that Regulus was a boy, more who he was, who he repstended. He was everything to the house of Black, that Sirius was not. So james had to stop thinking about him.
Easier said then fuking done.
On saturday at detention
James was sitting in the classroom next to Sirius, with Mcgonagall haven't gotten here yet. In Front of them sat Remus and Peter, talking about some herbology homework, James knew he should do, yet just could not be bothered with.
They where here for more then one reason. James, Peter and Remus was here for pulling a prank on their first day. They had snuck into the slytherin dorms over night, made the Slytheriens from their year hair pink. They made sure they would be late, and how funny they looked running into their first class. It had however earned them 2 detentions each, and about 20 house points for each of them. Still worth it.
But Sirius was also here, for having a screaming match with his brother in the middle of Mcgonagall’s class. Regulus was to join them to, and James was pretty sure that was the reason for Sirius bad mood.
Speaking of Regulus he came walking into the classroom, with Crouch Jr. behind him. Regulus looked like he was annoyed by Crouch, but like he was still happy he was there. Probably just so he wouldn't have to be alone with his brother and all his friends.
“Ah see you have cared to show up” Sirius said as he turned around to look at Regulus, with a face between a scowl and a grin. Sirius is normal face when faced with his brother.
Regulus just rolled his eyes as he sat down, but Crouch put on his normal shit eating grin as he dumped his stuff next to Regulus. “See you have also gotten detention, what that in love with Mcgonagall?” Barty said as he sat down next to Regulus
“Well atleast i am not licking the boots of Slughorn” Sirius fired back already getting a little angry, at the Crouch boy
Just as Barty was about to trough another shit eating remark back at Sirius, the doors opened, with a loud bang. Mcgonagall walked in with her stern eyes towards Sirius and Barty. “Mr. Crouch, and….Older Mr. Black. If you could please stop trading insults like children, so we could get on with it”
This detention was going to be so fucking fun. Not.
Notes:
SOOOOO, hope you all like :)
I really like the idea that Peter is kinda a smoker, and that he smokes with the huffelpuff's in the greenhouse. And that he is also not stupid but actully okay smart. Not like genius just a little below avarge, in everything but herbolgy
I am gonna be honsent no fucking clue when i will update, maybe next weekend maybe not before the one after that but i hope soon
Chapter 21: Detetion Regulus POV
Summary:
That made Regulus stomac sink like a bottomless pit in his stomac. Not only because that meant that Barty and his brother where going to be togther. Wich Regulus felt like was sure to end up with either one or both of them with black eyes. But it also meant that Regulus was going to be with Potter. He would have to spend allmost his whole day with Potter. Alone. Just Regulus and Potter. Alone. For hours.
"And then Mr. Black the other one and then Mr. Potter, you two can then go trough the detetion slips and write the old ones on new slips" Mcgonagall says as she the puts down the list back on the tabel. She took a deep breath and looked around the room at all of them. "Well get to it, everybody follow me"
or
Regulus look at detetion
Notes:
Here it is, the next chapter. If you want to know more about why i have not been posting check out the notes on chapter 2 my other fic. Or you know just read the the fic because it is really good and i am really happy about both fics
i am going to try and post this every saturday and then the other fic ever friday. If i write enough extra chapters i might post 2 next weeks
goodbye i hope you love this chapter as much as i do
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
They were barely 30 minutes into the 6 hour long detention, and Regulus was already tired. Of everything. Not just the fact he was in detention. But from just about everything else too.
Regulus was tired of Barty who would not stop whispering comments about Sirius and his friends.
Regulus was tired of Sirius who kept taping his fingers against the table in the same rhythm. The family song, Regulus realised after a while. It was one of the songs him and Sirius had been allowed to sing growing up. It was forced into both his and Sirius brains. Part of Regulus was pretty sure Sirius was only doing it to piss of Regulus.
Regulus was also tired of James Potter who kept staring at him. Part of him wanted to snap at Potter to stop staring and ask him what was wrong. Another part of him wanted to just punch him in the face.
And some deep down part of Regulus wanted James to keep looking at him forever. Wanted James to never ever take his eyes off Regulus. But Regulus kept trying to press it down as much as he could. He was the heir to the nobel and most ancient house of Black. Regulus should not have thoes feelings. He must not have thoes feelings ever. Like ever.
"Okay so how are thoes lines comming along?" Mcgonagall asks as she moved down the rowes taking the papers from each boy. Regulus had been writing "I must not yell at my brother in class" over and over again. A boring task that made Regulus wish he could just do anything elese in the whole world. It wasnet that Regulus had never written lines before, but still it was just boring.
"Now Flich made a list of things that need doing around the school" Mcgonagall said as she walked up to her desk and put the stack of papers on her desk. And then grabbing a pice of paper of the desk, looking it over reading it to herself. "Mr.Lupin and Mr. Pettigrew, you guys can clean the trophy's in the trophy room. No magic allowed"
Lupin and Pettigrew didnt look like they felt like they got of that bad. Wich Regulus guessed that they where not. If he and Barty where paired up togther then maybe, just maybe Regulus would be abel to make it trough the day. Just maybe.
"Mr. Black and Mr. Crouch, you two can set up books in the library and help madam pines with things she needs" when Mcgonagall turned around and looked at the group and Regulus and Bartys smiles to one and another and then said "No no not you two, the other Mr. Black"
That made Regulus stomac sink like a bottomless pit in his stomac. Not only because that meant that Barty and his brother where going to be togther. Wich Regulus felt like was sure to end up with either one or both of them with black eyes. But it also meant that Regulus was going to be with Potter. He would have to spend allmost his whole day with Potter. Alone. Just Regulus and Potter. Alone. For hours.
"And then Mr. Black the other one and then Mr. Potter, you two can then go trough the detetion slips and write the old ones on new slips" Mcgonagall says as she the puts down the list back on the tabel. She took a deep breath and looked around the room at all of them. "Well get to it, everybody follow me"
All of them stood up even a if a little bit slow. Sirius looked like he was about to jump out a window. Barty allready looked about ready to punch Sirius in the face. Lupin and Pettigrew, even if Lupin looked a little nervous for his brothers shake. Regulus had for sometime wondered what the realtionship between his older brother and Lupin was. He wasnet sure yet, but he was pretty sure they wherent just friends. Regulus looks to the guy he was going to spend the day with.
Potter's face was unreadble to Regulus. Wich was weird because Regulus was normal allways abel to tell what people where thinking or felling just by their face. But with Potter, Regulus had no idea what Potter was feeling like. Potter had this smirk, that looked like it was allways on his face. With Regulus thought it might because of what Regulus had seen, Potter was allmost allways smirking at everyone.
Mcgonagall dropped of his brother and Barty at the libray. Before the two of them walked in Regulus grapped Bartys arm and hissed in his ear "I swear just...just dont get into a fight with him". Barty didnt say anything just gave him a smirk as he and Sirius walked in to the libray. Regulus was prettys sure it was not gonna end up well for either of them.
Then it was to the trophy room and in with Pettigrew and Lupin, and now it was just him and Potter. And well Mcgonagall. They didnt walk far way from the trophy room before Mcgonagall opend a door and him and Potter walked in. The room had a singel desk and then the wall's where filled with shevels of little boxes with years on them. On the tabel in the middel of the room lay quils and little detetion slips along with a few ink pots.
"Sit, i will be back in about 20 mintutes to check on you both" Mcgonagall said as him and Potter sat down at the tabel. Then at the last momment she turned around and looked at them "And i swear, if i come back and this room is a mess, then you can have another detetion next weekend" she said and then closed the door and Regulus heard the sound of the lock clicking into place.
Great this was gonna be great. Just great, perfect.
Regulus sat down at one side of the tabel and Potter sat downon the other side of the tabel. Regulus waited a beat before Potter stood up and pulled down a box from a random shelf and slammed it on the middel of the tabel. "1932-1933, Gryffindor and slytherin" Potter read of from the little card that came with the box.
Regulus pulled the top of the box and began pulling out the detetion slips and writing the ones that where falling apart down on new slips. For a few mintutes Potter just seemed to stare at him, but then he sat down. But every so often Regulus felt as Potter stoppped and would just look at him for a few moments. Like Regulus was something that James just could not pin down. Like Regulus was something to look at.
"Are we just not going to talk the whole day?" Potter asked after about 15 mintutes. Regulus didnt say anything just moved on to the next stack of Detetion slips. Potter let out a scoff, and Regulus felt as Potter seemed to lean closer to Regulus. "Come on Reggie at least look at me"
Regulus looked up with angry eyes "Dont call me Reggie, its Regulus. Black to you"
That made Potter smirk again, but this time a diffrent one. Not the one that everyone eles got, no this one was speacial. Like Regulus got the real smirk and not the fake one everyone eles got. Because maybe just like Regulus who had a fake smile and a real one, Potter had a fake smirk and a real smirk. "OH come on we like bestfriends" Potter said as he leaned his head to one side looking at Regulus
"No we are very much not bestfriends, i dont know where you got such an idea" Regulus told him, not looking up from the detetion slips. If he didnt look at Potter then maybe it would stop the butterflies in his stomac from comming back.
"I think we are bestfriends you just dont want to say it" Potter said and Regulus swore he felt him lean closer to him
"No, like i said we are very much not"
"Okay well then who is your bestfriend if not me dear Reggie? Dont tell me it Crouch cause you could do so much better then that twat"
"First of all Barty is not a tawat, seconde of all no, Pandora is my bestfriend"
"Pandora? As in Pandora Rossier that Rossier girl with the white hair?"
"Oh good you know your colors"
"Ha ha Very funny"
"No i mean it i was very scared you might not know them"
Before Potter could answer something back the door opend and Mcgonagall peacked her head into the room looking it over "Everything looks good, keep it that way" She said very much looking and Potter and only Potter
"Why are you only looking at me minnie? What if Regulus does something to tear up the whole room" Both Regulus and Mcgonagall looked at Potter with raised eyebrows and Potter rolled his eyes looking down "Yeah yeah, i got it, he wont. But neither will i. Minnie i swear this room will look perfect when we leave"
Mcgonagall moved back out mubling something about "It better" as she left, and locked the door again. And once again it was just Potter and him all alone inside the room. Great only a few more hours of this hell and it would be over.
The next hour checked by with out much happning other then a few small things. Potter would try to stand a convastion every once in a while. But Regulus kept shutting down every singel try to start up a talk. Regulus did not want to talk with Potter, he just wanted to sit here in silnce and do the task there was set for them. But Potter did not seem to want to do that. He was trying and trying to start up a convastion with Regulus. What was it wih gryffindors and allways wanting to talk. Could they not just sit in silnce? Did they allways need to be talking all the time.
After what felt like about the 100th attempt at him talking, Regulus finally snapped "Cant you just be quiet, for once!" Regulus hissed as he looked up from the detetion that someone named Jenny Blackberry from gryffindor. He looked at his own stack and then James. "How have you only done so few?"
"This is so boring and the real qoustion is how have you done so many? And why would i be quiet, when i can talk?" Potter said dropping his quill down on the tabel. Potter stood up and streched his arms above his head, making a few joints pop. But that was not what made Regulus head swim. It was the fact that Potters school shirt pulled up a little and showed a hint of his stomac.
Tan perfect skin, with a few freckels. God, he thought as he looked down at the tabel trying to hide the fact that he felt his head going a little bit red. Potter could never know about the fact that Regulus blushed at seeing some of his skin. No Potter could never ever know about that fact.
No one in the whole world could know.
Espacily his family. If his parents found out then they might actully kill him. In the Black family being diffrent in any kind of way was the wrost thing ever. Regulus could not like Potter. He could not like Boys at all. Of course he knew that some boys liked other boys and he was fine with it. Both his old roomates, but also his brother and Lupin. He was fine with it, even is family probley wouldent. But Regulus could never be like thoes boys. Because Regulus was the furture lord of the nobel and most ancient house of Black. And there for Regulus would have to get a wife. He would have to carry on the family with another male heir.
So no. Regulus could not like Boys. And really not James Potter. The Potter family was just about everything that his own family was against. He was also the boy who has taken Regulus place in Sirius life. Potter was the boy that Sirius had ran to when he had left Regulus in that house. He could never ever like James Potter like ever. He could never like boys ever, he was meant to the best and perfect heir to the Black house. Wich meant getting a married to another fullblood girl.
Regulus must never like boys ever.
Notes:
there it was i hope you all love it as much as i do. This helps me alot with alot of things. Once again if you want to know more about why, then you can look at the notes in chapter 2 of my other fic. It goes into a bit more reason as to why
-see you next saturday