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My name is Chloe Valois and I am Vladilena Milize's military aide. To her friends and close companions she was known as Lena. When I met her first time, she was a symbol of those Alba who opposed the inhumane policies and ideology of the Republic, she stood against what our country represented. She was an extraordinary person, an outstanding commander and someone who restored my faith in humanity.
But why now, why do I feel only bitter hostility and jealousy towards her? I sighed and fell into deep thoughts, I thought about what had happened recently, About someone, who had stolen my heart.
When I joined Colonel Milize as her new aide assisting her in leading of the newly formed Feldreẞ unit in Federal Republic of Giad, I met "him". A handsome man, one of the Eighty Six known as the Reaper and the Undertaker, Shinei Nouzen himself. His black hair, red eyes amazed me, his body resembled an ancient Greek god. Ah, if I could, I would ask him for his contact number but when I left my sweet dreams and thoughts, I saw him and Lena talking to each other as if they were very close friends and maybe they were something more, I don't know why but it irritated me. As if Lena had interfered with my turn.
From that moment on, my eyes and thoughts were almost always focused on Shin when I wasn't busy dealing with my duties.
Despite of being Lena's Aide, I couldn't stop thinking of her as my rival. I wasn't any worse than her in terms of looks (Someone might say that we look very similar and that we could be related), voice or attitude towards 86. But for some reason she always came first and they always thought about her.
One day I found out that Lena used to be commander of Shin's unit in Republic and that's where they met, well at least vocally. Green with envy they say it should have been silver with jealousy because hearing all those news of their shared history only made me feel more jealous towards Lena, and as Celena Alba, silver fits mine situation and feelings better than the proverbial green.
I managed to talk to Shin several times and I couldn't resist his voice, his personality, he was friendly towards me despite being Alba, he had great knowledge and was very well educated.
Oh holy San Magnolia, he makes me blush all the time. stupid sexy and charming Shin.
Why her? Why did Lena have a chance to meet him first, the world was unfair as always. As a lower-ranking person, I didn't have as many opportunities to be next to Shin or even to have just small talk with him.
This irrational anger makes no sense, it's stupid but I can't stop it, my heart bleeds every time I see them together.
In another world, perhaps there would be a chance that me and Shin could be together, we could get to know each other better and perhaps fall in love with each other and after the war (If God allows us to defeat the Legion or at least survive) we could get married and have children.
But only in a different world than mine. If its possible that there are an infinite number of alternative worlds, there are some universes where my fate would have turned out the way I wanted.
After all, a good woman like Colonel Milize deserves it and I'm just a fool with my childish jealousy, but I can't help that I'm just a stupid girl in love with the heroic man known as Shinei Nouzen. I truly wish it was me.