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Logan, Scott, Jean, Hank and Charles are in the jet waiting to arrive at the location of the Brotherhood’s base. Logan is quiet and Scott knows why; he hates flying. Scott argued with Logan this morning for putting the kids in harm's way in the danger room and it has put Logan in a shitty mood all day.
“Can’t this rust bucket go any faster?” Logan has his head in his hands and looks ill
“Stop complaining. You have been on a plane many times” Scott rolls his eyes at his boyfriend
“Be nice Scott. He just doesn’t like flying. I think it messes with those heightened senses of his” Jean smiles at her boys
On cue, Logan lifts his head and sniffs the air a bit. They are starting to land the jet and Logan tenses up
“What is it, Logan?” Charles looks at him
Logan is taking a big whiff of the air and then covers his nose and grimaces
“This place reeks of blood and bodily fluids” Logan almost gags at the smell
“Well, I’m glad we can’t smell it like you can” Scott jokes
“Trust me bub, this is not going to be pleasant” Logan still has a grimace on his face
They walk out of the jet and immediately see what Logan’s sense of smell is smelling—bodies everywhere, all human and very much dead. Some are strung up and put on display. They then see a group of people walking towards them with Erik leading them.
“Ah shit this is not going to be fun, is it?” Logan doesn’t like the master of magnetism for a great reason. His bones are all lined with metal, which is not the most helpful thing about him when fighting Magneto.
“Just relax Logan. I’ll talk to him and hopefully, we can save the violence for another day” Charles says calmly as Erik gets closer
Erik smirks “Well if it isn’t Charles Xavier and his X-Men. Come to save your precious humans? You might be a bit late for that”
“This is disgusting bub, even for you,” Logan says before Charles gets a chance to speak
“Ah! The Wolverine! Charles, you really should learn your lesson by bringing the animal with you. He is so easy to play with”
“Don’t you even think about it” Logan snarls
“With that temper, you would have been better on my side Wolverine but alas you have joined the weaker of our kind” Erik knows that if he gets Logan angry then Charles won’t be able to negotiate peace
Scott looks at Logan who is very much riled up “Logan calm down. The professor needs to sort this out”
“Screw that! I would rather not get my ass handed to me when we are taken off guard”
“Not everything has to be a fight, Logan! You are so self-centred that it's embarrassing” Scott is getting pissed off with his boyfriend's lack of calm that it's making him angry
“Well, you seem pretty happy fighting with me right now bub, take that anger out on someone else. You have been at me all day”
“Because you are an idiot! You don’t care about anyone but yourself! You would let us all die so that you could live! You are not a hero Logan, and you need to realise that before you get people hurt!”
Everyone else is watching this ordeal and Erik is smirking. This gave him the perfect opportunity to start a fight. His Brotherhood against the X-Men. They all start fighting and Logan is so angry from what Scott said to him that he has gone into a full-on Berserker rage. Blood flying everywhere, his claws dripping with it. When most of his Brotherhood are injured or dead, Erik levitates himself into the air and looks at the remaining Brotherhood and X-Men. Hank is hurt, Logan is raging and destroying everything in his path, Scott has some injuries, Jean is fine and so is Charles. With a few remaining comrades left, Erik goes to his telepath and tells her to control the Wolverine. Erik has had enough of the X-Men not getting hurt like they are.
“ENOUGH!” Erik shouts and his telepath gets to work
Logan is snarling and growling, and Scott and Jean look over at him with concern, they know what he is like when he gets into his berserker rages and it's hard to get him out of them. Scott feels partially responsible for him being in this one.
“Let’s see you fend off one of your own” Erik smirks and his telepath invades Logan's mind
They all look around at each other but it's obvious who Erik would choose. The Wolverine is currently covered in blood and looks manic. He is covering his ears at the mental attack and Charles is looking at him with concern
“Logan? Logan, are you alright?” Charles says wearily
Logan looks up at him and a low guttural sound emits from his chest
“What a beauty you have here Charles. A beast with the anger of a wild animal and claws to rip people apart. Not exactly the best look for your peaceful X-Men. He would be best suited to my group don’t you think old friend?”
“Erik, what have you done?”
Logan is in pain as his mind is being invaded. He has a lot of strength against telepaths, but this one is strong and he is having difficulty stopping them
“You are hurting him!” Jean shouts
“Hmm that’s a lot of strength he has if he can fight off my telepath like that” Erik looks at the Wolverine
Logan is snarling and hitting his head with his hands. He is feral
Scott remembers the words he said to Logan earlier “You would let us all die so that you could live. You are not a hero”. Seeing his boyfriend like this is killing him
Erik lifts up his hand and everyone sees Logan physically tense. His body goes rigid
“No Erik. Please don’t do this” Charles pleads
“If his mind can’t be controlled, then his body will have to do”
Logan is panting and growling as he tries to swing his arms but as he does so, Erik holds his arms still and then directs them to the X-Men. His claws pointing at them
“Shit. We need to move. Now!” Scott shouts
A fight ensues with the remaining Brotherhood, Logan and the X-Men. A few of them get slashes from Logan’s claws and when Erik is happy with the results he lifts Logan off the ground a bit so that they can’t reach him. Logan struggles and growls, still feral and in a berserker rage.
“Erik!!! What are you doing?!”
“What I should have done when I first met him. Did you know that that remarkable metal runs through his entire body? It is also the only thing that can break itself. Adamantium can cut through itself. Lets try it shall we?”
Erik moves his hand and Logan’s claws push into his legs. Logan shouts in pain
“STOP! STOP IT YOU ARE HURTING HIM!” Jean cries out
“Oh, my dear. Do you love him? Well, I’m terribly sorry but this animal has killed too many of our kind today with his rage. He needs to be dealt with like a feral dog would. He needs to be put down”
“No… No please” Scott says
“You too huh? Logan must be a lucky man to be such a violent creature but to have people that love him. I heard you earlier. You said he doesn’t care about anyone but himself. You would not miss him dear boy”
With that, Erik lifts his hands again and Logan's hands shakily retract their claws, and his knuckles are pushed to the underside of his chin
“No…. PLEASE STOP” Jean and Scott are watching their partner in pain as blood drips onto the ground from his leg which has already started healing
“Erik please don’t do this” Charles says with worry for Logan
“I’m going to count to 3” Erik smirks
“NO PLEASE!!”
Logan is growling loudly and trying to free himself, but he can’t. His eyes are feral and are looking directly at Scott and Jean
“3….”
“Please Erik don’t do this I beg of you” Charles shouts
“2…”
“PLEASE PLEASE DON’T”
“1…”
All eyes are on Logan as a SNIKT sound is loud in the air. They watch as Logan’s claws come out fast and go through his skull. Logan’s eyes are still open and his body is stuck in place in the air. Blood pours out and drips to the ground as he is still being levitated in the air. One claw sticking out the top of his head, one to the side and the other angled slightly so that it is coming out of his forehead. The sight is sickening.
“NOOOO! No… no LOGAN!!!” Jean screams and Scott looks at Logan with tears in his eyes
Erik floats the body over to the X-Men and leaves him dangling in the air in front of them “Don’t test me again” he then drops Logan in front of them and walks away
Logan’s claws are still embedded into his skull. His eyes are wide open and staring at the ground
Scott and Jean are at his side. They turn him over and place his head on their lap. His claws are still very much out and that was a sign he was still alive. A gurgling sound comes from his throat and his body twitches a little.
“Logan? Logan, can you hear me?” Scott says
Logan’s eyes are wide and slowly and shakily moves over to look at Scott
“Scott, Jean we need to get him to the jet quickly. If he loses consciousness and those claws retract, we could be in big trouble. He will lose a lot of blood, and his brain will suffer more than it already is” Hank says carefully to not to upset them
Scott and Jean carefully helped him up and, as was expected, Logan’s whole-body weight was on them. They managed to get to the jet and Logan was dripping blood everywhere. He looked pale and his eyes were unfocused. Even with his fast healing, he couldn’t heal around the claws that were embedded into his skull. His nose was also leaking a clear liquid which worried Scott and Jean.
“Hank, this fluid that is dripping from his nose… what is it?”
Hank looks over at Logan and then moves a little closer to inspect it
“Oh… that is not good…” Hank looks worried
“What? What is it?” Scott is now looking very anxious
“He is leaking brain fluid. That liquid is coming straight from his brain and spine”
“WHAT? No that…. that….” Scott is panicking
Logan looks at Scott and his lips turn up in a shaky smile
Scott looks at him “H…how can you be smiling right now?”
Logan’s breathing is shaky and Hank looks at him
“Logan, if you are going to pass out you need to let us know. I know you are in a lot of pain and can’t really talk with your claws in your head, but you need to give us a sign”
Logan went to open his mouth and Scott and Jean winced a bit as they saw the claws in his mouth as they tore through the flesh of his chin and up into his brain
“I… F…feel…. I….m…. d….dyi….n…g…” Logan says in broken words
“It’s ok Logan, you are going to be ok” Hank looks at Scott and Jean with a concerned look
Scott holds his hand “I’m so sorry Logan”
Logan’s eyes look away from Scott. He is still angry and Scott isn’t helping
Scott looks at Jean
“Logan look at me…” Jean says calmly
Logan’s eyes meet hers and she sees the anger and fear in them
“What Scott said... He didn’t mean it”
Logan feels a tear run down his face but he can’t tell if that’s actually a tear or brain fluid leaking from his eye
“I…. I….. am….a…..mon….monst……er…a……a….an…ani…m…a..l…”
Jean shakes her head and Scott looks at him with tears in his eyes
“I….. am….no….hero…..”
Logan looks at Hank and has fear in his eyes and Hank watches as his eyes start to close a little
“Shit….” Hank looks at Logan “Logan it’s ok we have got you alright?”
“Hank, what’s happening?” Scott says worriedly
“He is going to pass out”
With that Logan’s eyes are unfocused and are still open slightly, his eyes drop and stare at the wall of the jet and suddenly his claws retract. Blood and brain matter drip from the holes in his face and chin. Logan coughs and splutters in his unconscious state and his hand drops unmoving to his side.
“Oh my god….” Scott looks at Logan who is now extremely pale and leaking blood and brain matter everywhere
They are nearly at the mansion. Time is moving too slowly for Hank’s liking as he watches Logan bleed out. His wounds not healing properly
“Why is he not healing like he normally does?” Jean looks at Hank
“I’m not sure. You can see that parts have started healing but I wonder if the wounds are so deep and internal that it's taking longer. He had those claws in him for a while”
They arrive at the mansion and Beast carries Logan carefully but quickly to the med lab. Kids are watching as Logan is being carried and they are all concerned for their teacher and friend
Hank gets to work on making Logan comfortable and attaches him to a drip and prepares a blood transfusion.
“I know you heal fast Logan but you have lost a lot of blood”
Scott, Jean and Charles enter the room and watch as Hank helps Logan
Charles enters Logans mind and finds it filled with pain and confusion.
*In Logan’s mind*
“Logan we are helping you. Everything will be alright. I know you are confused. Your claws seem to have hit some vital parts of your brain. It will take a while for your body to heal it completely”
“P….Professor?” Logan seems distant
“Hello Logan”
“I’m not worth saving Charles…”
“Don’t say that. What would Jean and Scott think if they knew you said that”
“They would be better off without me. I heard what Scott said. His eyes were truthful. I only care about myself… I’m not a hero Charles… I’m not one of you”
“Logan that is the most idiotic thing I have heard from you. You were the reason we all made it out of there alive today. Yes, you were in a berserker rage but you saved us all. Erik focussed on you because you were strong but you had a weakness that he used against you. Everyone knows how much you do for us all. Scott loves you”
“He loves Jean… He doesn’t love me… He puts up with me for her”
“Logan how wrong you are…”
“Rest… I can feel your mind waking up and healing. You will be confused and a bit more animal-like but we will help you”
Logan growls a little in response
“His vital signs look good. It’s a good thing he has that healing factor otherwise we might have lost him” Hank says a little more calmly
Scott and Jean look at each other and hug one another
“I have talked with Logan. He is a little bit confused and trust me, he needs a lot of support right now” Charles says sadly
“You talked to him? Is he alright?” Scott says
“He is under the impression that he would be better off dead and that no one would miss him. I told him that it is very far from the truth. He also seems to be under the impression that no one loves him or wants him” Charles says sadly
“Oh Logan…” Jean looks at him and sees that he is healing more but is still very pale
“I must warn you both that he is going to be a bit feral. He might not speak at first. When I was in his mind, a lot of his more animal traits were very much active and I’m not sure that he even noticed it. He will be very confused”
Scott and Jean nod
“I would suggest taking him to his room. He will not like waking up in this lab” Charles says calmly
Hank nods and carries Logan to his room. He must have been annoyed this morning after the danger room session because there is a slash mark down his wardrobe from his claws and his floor is covered in feathers from a discarded pillow. Hank settles him down.
A low guttural sound emits from Logan's throat as his eyes start to open a little. Hank looks at him.
“Logan?”
Logan’s eyes dart around the room and he panics a little. His claws come out and defensively stay in front of him
“Logan it’s alright you are safe. You are in your room at the mansion. I know you are a little bit confused and that’s ok. Would you like me to leave you with Scott and Jean?”
Logan looks at Hank and sees him as another animal. He growls a little and then nods
Scott looks at Jean and then back to Logan who is now getting under his duvet and trying to hide away from them both. Jean and Scott can hear the slight whimpers he is making as the sound of his claws retracting makes them realise that he is remembering what happened.
“Logan? Baby it’s going to be ok” Jean says calmly
They hear some slight sniffling and realise that Logan must be crying and trying to hide it
They both sit on the bed with him and take the duvet off. That earns them a growl in response.
“It’s ok we aren’t here to hurt you. We love you Logan” Jean says with a smile and carefully goes to reach for him
Logan is weary at first but allows her. Jean cards her fingers through his hair which has bits of dried blood in it from his claws sticking through the top of his skull. His face is gaining more colour.
Scott looks at him and sighs “I’m sorry Logan”
Logan looks at him and slowly makes his way over to Scott. He lays his head on his lap and a sound that sounds very much like a purr a cat would make rumbles through his body
Scott smiles and kisses his forehead
“You desperately need a shower Wolvie you stink” Scott says
Logan talks for the first time “I….I know”
Jean looks at Scott and smiles. They knew that Logan healed fast but his speech came back pretty quick after his brain damage.
Jean and Scott help Logan to the bathroom. They run him a bath and then help him wash himself. Both Jean and Scott marvelling at their boyfriend’s body as they do so. They would never get used to seeing him like this. After he is clean they get him changed and they lay together on the bed. Logan snuggles up close to Scott which surprises both Jean and Scott considering that his choice is usually to snuggle up to Jean and not let Scott anywhere near her in an act of animalistic hierarchy.
“Logan… about what I said before”
“Scott…. I know you don’t love me and frankly, I understand why. I’m an animal and a beast and I know I can’t be loved without it being painful. Just…. Tell me you don’t want me and I can get over it” Logan says all this while being buried in Scott’s shirt
Jean looks at Scott with sadness for Logan. He doesn’t realise how much he is loved and all that pain he went through today…. He thought he was alone and unloved.
“Logan, I love you. I don’t just love Jean you know. When you first entered our relationship I was a bit weary but I eventually fell in love with you. You are kind, a bit grumpy but ultimately a man that I love and trust. What I said about you not being a hero wasn’t fair. I know how much you do for all of us. I love you, Logan”
Scott hears some noises coming from Logan and he realises while looking down at him that the man is whimpering a little and has tears coming down his face. Scott lifts his chin to face him and kisses him. Logan leans into the kiss and Jean smiles as she watches them. Scott pulls away from the kiss and smiles at Logan who looks exhausted.
Scott cuddles him and rubs his back. He feels the purring again and notices that Logan has fallen asleep while lying on his chest
“He is adorable” Jean says quietly
“That he is but I’m glad he was asleep when you said that otherwise, we might’ve seen those claws out again” He chuckles
“I love you both so much and I don’t know what I would do without you” Jean says
“I love you too Jean” Scott looks down at Logan who is gripped onto his shirt. He can see his sharp canines as his mouth is open, lightly growling in his sleep
“Nighty night Logan. I love you”