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The grating whine of the food processor and the satisfying sizzle of aromatics drowned out the variety show on the living room TV that had quickly lost Sunoo’s focus.
Instead, his gaze had settled on his apron-clad boyfriend, singularly focused on making sure that dinner was ready before their friends arrived. Sunoo hugged a throw pillow to his chest, hiding a maudlin expression as his eyes followed Jay around the kitchen.
His breath hitched as he watched Jay bring a tasting spoon to his mouth, lips blowing gently to cool the sauce before wrapping around the warm metal. Jay’s brows creased. His calloused fingers carefully pinched sea salt out of a dish and sprinkled it into the bubbling sauce. He sighed and dragged a hand across his sweaty forehead.
Sunoo took another sip from his wineglass before sinking deeper into the couch. He watched as Jay fixed a loosened sleeve, tugging it back in place with gritted teeth. His forearms flexed as he moved a filled pot to the stove and set it to boil. When he did another taste test, a corner of his mouth lifted into a lopsided, self-satisfied grin.
Sunoo muffled his screams into the tightly clasped pillow. How could anyone be so attractive cooking pasta? It wasn’t fair at all, and someone needed to put a stop to this. He peeked over the pillow and startled when he found Jay staring back at him, smiling.
“What’re you giggling to yourself about, Sunoo-ya?”
Sunoo shook his head. “Hmm…nothing. Just something on TV.”
“You hungry already? You can have some of the canapés that are ready.”
He slowly stood up. “I’m OK. I’ll be back — bathroom.”
He flipped on all the lights in the bathroom so he could properly inspect himself in the large mirror. He smacked his already reddened cheeks. Tonight, he needed to be in top form. It was time for him to stop being so captivated by his boyfriend and finally turn the tables. He needed to seduce Jay so that they could finally have sex.
Embarrassment caught up to him and he buried his face in his hands, thrashing under the harsh bathroom lighting. He couldn’t believe he had such a salacious goal in mind — he had never been this horny in a relationship before. His previous partners had put their own needs before Sunoo’s, so he never had the opportunity to unearth his own desires. But now, with Jay, he had the space to discover that he, in fact, wholeheartedly wanted his boyfriend to fuck the shit out of him.
They’d been dating for nearly three months after a year or so of hovering around each other. Occasionally, they had worked on the same photoshoots, Sunoo as a freelance makeup artist and Jay as the managing editor of a men’s magazine. At first, Sunoo thought Jay was overly serious, always observing with a slight frown. He was handsome in a severe way, all sharp angles and unreadable expressions. His clothing was neatly pressed, and he often glanced at the expensive watch on his left wrist.
Then, one day, Sunoo accidentally scattered his brushes during a particularly stressful shoot. The noise around him quieted to a sympathetic buzz, but no one had stopped to help. Suddenly, Jay was on his knees on the dusty floor, carefully picking up the brushes. Sunoo braced for a lecture that never came. Instead, Jay spoke gently, and he brought Sunoo an iced coffee afterwards to thank him for his hard work.
They began greeting each other, and eventually, they ran into each other at a nearby cafe before shoots, and then Jay asked if Sunoo wanted to check out a new Japanese restaurant opening down the block. That was when he asked if Sunoo was single and asked him out.
At the time, Sunoo wasn’t looking to date anyone. He had been single for two years and had just become more comfortable being alone. He had moved out of his parents’ house again and found a cozy place with his best friend, Jungwon. He had finally established a roster of regular clients and felt like he was close to becoming a real adult.
Jay gave him space to think about the confession but continued to treat Sunoo as usual, inviting him to events and treating him to food. He was everything his exes had not been: attentive, creative, curious, thoughtful. He listened carefully whenever he asked Sunoo about his day, and he genuinely valued Sunoo’s opinions. He handled Sunoo with such care, even in his relentless teasing.
Sunoo wasn’t used to being so treasured when someone was romantically interested in him. His past relationships had been marked with great strife, akin to war zones. He shrank himself with his previous partners, always adapting to them until, eventually, he just became a patchwork of other people’s expectations.
But Jay never rushed him for his response and accepted all of him, from his moody mornings to his overly excited reactions. He was exceedingly patient and kind, and never because he wanted anything in return. It didn’t take Sunoo long to decide.
And so, after a lively concert and a pleasant walk by the river, enjoying a cool, mid-autumn night, Sunoo said yes and they started dating in earnest.
Emotionally, spiritually, mentally, Sunoo felt extremely fulfilled in the relationship. He could talk to Jay for hours on end about anything and everything. Jay was always game to try something new, whether it was a new restaurant or a new route back home. He knew what Sunoo needed before he even recognized it himself. Their arguments were trivial, about the ending of a drama or what to have for dessert.
Physically, however…that was a different matter.
And Sunoo would like to set the record straight that he wasn’t that sexual of a person to begin with. Sex to him had just been something to appease his partners with, something that he half-heatedly participated in because someone else wanted it.
But as they spent all their time together, Sunoo found himself thinking about how good Jay smelled, or how handsome he looked when he styled his hair out of his eyes, or how lovely his tanned skin look whenever he wore that blue polo Sunoo had bought for him just because. His thoughts would wander whenever Jay biked home, sweat sliding down the side of his face, or the time he pulled Sunoo out of the crosswalk when he mistakenly stepped forward, strong arms tightly gripping his waist.
When they finally had their first kiss, it uncovered a deep hunger that Sunoo didn’t know he had. It was late; Jay was walking him home. They were talking about a shoot with a new idol group. There were only a handful of other pedestrians around, mostly drunken office workers stumbling to the station. It was chilly, so Jay took Sunoo’s ungloved hand into his jacket pocket. Then, in front of Sunoo’s front door, he adjusted Sunoo’s muffler before he leaned in and kissed him. Jay mumbled stay warm against Sunoo’s lips and hugged him tightly.
In that moment, Sunoo knew that he desperately needed his boyfriend to slam him against the wall and tear him to shreds. He wanted Jay to fuck him so deeply that he would feel him for months, even forget his own name and ancestry. He wanted Jay to mark him irrevocably, all over his body, in places people would blush if they saw. It surprised him how violent he wanted Jay to be with him, to have his way completely.
But Sunoo wasn’t entirely sure how to vocalize those needs, and he was too embarrassed about it. There his boyfriend was, being so wholesome and gentle, but all Sunoo wanted was for him to choke him and come on his face.
He masturbated for the first time in a while, that night after their first kiss, stifling his moans against the fox plushie that Jay had won for him last week at the arcade.
Kissing was as physical as things got. They didn’t go beyond a few tongue slips during chaste make-out sessions. Whenever Sunoo would attempt to sneak his hand down Jay’s pants, he’d grab it and kiss Sunoo’s fingers, apologetic smile on his lips. Sorry, Jake’s in, or isn’t Jungwon in the other room? as if their roommates would even care. (Well, they would most likely complain and make fun of them if they found out.)
Sunoo tried to play it cool, but one time, he moaned a little too loudly when Jay had accidentally tightened his hand around Sunoo’s throat. To keep Sunoo quiet, he slid his hand up to Sunoo’s mouth, pressing down, but that had the opposite effect. Suddenly, Jake banged on Jay’s door, whining about being left out.
Even though they saw each other almost daily, they didn’t have much time to themselves. They both shared apartments with roommates, and work kept them busy. They had stayed overnight at each other’s places, but they always just cuddled and fell asleep. Sunoo once caught Jay with morning wood and wanted so badly to suck him off but was, again, too embarrassed and disgusted with himself to try anything.
Why was Sunoo even this horny anyway? He glared at his reflection in annoyance and brushed his bangs out of his eyes. He wondered if Jay was struggling too, but then why was it so easy for him to pull away and simply kiss Sunoo on the forehead whenever things started heating up? Was Sunoo not hot enough? He pouted at the mirror.
No use in this circular thinking, he decided. As much of a novice as he was, he needed to properly seduce Jay. He pulled down one side of his cardigan so that his shoulder was completely exposed, showing off the cute ribbon tied around the strap of his sleeveless top. He added more blush to his cheeks and rearranged his earrings.
He practiced making bedroom eyes, but they just made him look angry. He batted his lashes but that just made him look like he had something in his eyes. He felt like a complete geek, but it was fake it ’til you make it, right? Fired up, he swiped on a fresh coat of gloss and stepped back out with more purpose.
Sunoo leaned on the kitchen island and observed Jay, back still hunched over the stove. He tried to analyze the situation more logically: He could (A) hug Jay from behind or (B) approach from the side and touch his arm. Option (A) could be dangerous and unnecessarily startle him around active burners. Option (B) was boring, but if he looked up at Jay through his lashes, that might add allure. He went with option (B).
As Sunoo made his way around the island, he somehow tripped over the rug by the sink. Jay swiftly spun around and caught him before his head made contact with the corner edge of the counter.
“Whoa, easy there! You OK?” Jay helped Sunoo steady himself.
He was red to the tips of his ears. He pulled away from Jay and busied himself with the silverware drawer. “Just gonna set up the table,” Sunoo mumbled and hurried off to the dining area.
Kitchen Seduction: Failure.
Fine. He needed to regroup and try something else during dinner.
Jake and Sunghoon were the first to arrive, returning from their gym session. The two of them and Jay had been roommates since their undergrad days and they continued living together as working adults. The pair brightened when they spotted Sunoo by the dining table, coming over to ruffle his hair and pinch his cheeks. He liked Jay’s roommates — they brought out his exasperated, mischievous side. He liked how silly his boyfriend was around them. He also liked seeing how much Jay cared for his friends, making sure Sunghoon didn’t skip his meals and Jake went to bed on time. They had welcomed Sunoo so easily, slotting him into their lives as if he had always been there.
The pair went off to freshen up before their other friends arrived, stuffing a few canapés in their mouths as they escaped to their rooms. Jay waggled his wooden spoon at their retreating backs but had a fond grin on his face. He caught Sunoo staring, again, and wrapped an arm around Sunoo’s shoulders, pulling him into a hug.
“You’re so quiet tonight. Is everything OK?” Jay asked into Sunoo’s hair.
He buried his face into the side of Jay’s neck, inhaling his spicy, smoked wood scent. “Just missed you. And I’m excited for dinner.”
Jay kissed the top of his head. “You know you can tell me anything, right? What’s really on your mind?”
Their eyes met and Jay offered a reassuring smile. Sunoo bit his bottom lip — maybe he could tell his boyfriend his private struggles with this sudden emergence of sexual desire. Maybe it wasn’t so shameful and they could figure something out.
Just as he was about to open his mouth, the door swung open and Jungwon, Heeseung, and Riki trampled in. Jungwon immediately came over to hug Sunoo, stealing him out of Jay’s arms. Heeseung and Riki grabbed the canapés and flopped onto the couch, changing the channel to a football match.
Later, Jay mouthed and returned to his nearly finished cooking.
Sunoo sighed and turned his attention to Jungwon, who was complaining about a new intern at work.
Dinner was braised beef ragu with pappardelle — when Sunoo took the first bite, he realized that Jay had catered the menu to his random comment last week about craving pasta. He caught Jay, who was sitting across from him, grinning as he watched Sunoo dig into his food and make small sounds of satisfaction. Jay pointed to his own cheek and Sunoo blushed, quickly grabbing a napkin and wiping his face. Sure enough, it had been smothered in pasta sauce.
The table was mostly silent save for the sounds of everyone enjoying their meal. Heeseung demolished his plate in record time, chair scraping sharply on the floor as he scurried to get seconds. When he sat back down with another full plate, he let out a ginormous burp that seemed to shake the table. Everyone burst out laughing, and Riki shoulder-checked him in pure disgust.
Sunoo loved these monthly gatherings with their friends, a blending of important people from his and Jay’s lives. Heeseung was their mutual friend who also worked in the entertainment industry. Riki was Jay’s step-brother and a current senior at his alma mater. Jungwon was Sunoo’s childhood best friend and a junior consultant.
The first time all seven of them hung out was at an open reception that Jay’s magazine was hosting. Sunoo brought Jungwon as his plus-one. He had never laughed so much at a work event, but there he was, keeling over as Jay tried to stop Jake and Sunghoon from seeing how many drinks they could chug from the open bar.
Jungwon, who sat to Sunoo’s right, elbowed his side. “You’re doing that thing with your face again, the one where you look so totally in love with Jay hyung.”
He grinned as he dodged Sunoo’s counterattack.
Sunoo tried to rearrange his face into something more neutral. “I’m just listening closely is all.”
“Oh yeah? Is that why you needed to wear a totally slutty outfit tonight, hmm?”
Sunoo’s ears reddened. “You’re the one who’s been giggling at Riki’s stories since you walked through the door.”
Jungwon rolled his eyes but the tops of his cheeks turned red. “I’m not the one whose entire nipple is hanging out of his top.”
With that, Jungwon grabbed the strap of Sunoo’s sleeveless top and yanked it all the way down, exposing part of his chest. Sunoo shrieked and tried to pull away from Jungwon’s stupidly strong grasp.
“Whoa…pink.” Sunghoon’s fork fell to the ground.
Jay shoved a napkin over Sunghoon’s face and sternly told Jungwon to cut it out. Jake lifted his shirt in a show of solidarity, flashing the rest of the table with his toned chest. Heeseung and Riki booed and flung the remaining canapés at his head. Then, Jake turned to Jay to try and lift up his shirt.
Sunoo abruptly stood up. “Time for dessert! We’ve got cherries and ice cream and other stuff, so everyone make your own sundaes. Let’s go!”
He grabbed Jungwon’s hand and dragged him into the kitchen. Jungwon couldn’t stop laughing, wiping tears from his eyes. “Did you see Jay hyung’s eyes pop out of his skull? As if he’s never seen your nipples before! He kills me!”
Sunoo hastily set up the sundae station on the island, slamming things down and throwing Jungwon a sulky look.
“That’s because he hasn’t,” he muttered as he pulled out the ice cream bowls.
Jungwon grinned at him skeptically. “Yeah, sure, as if you guys didn’t fuck on the first date.”
“We didn’t. We haven’t fucked at all.”
Jungwon’s sudden silence allowed the noise from the dining room to spill over — for whatever reason, their friends had started chanting pink nips! pink nips! and then there was the clattering of cutlery being thrown. Sunoo shook his head and started making his own bowl of ice cream.
“You’re serious?” Jungwon finally managed, wearing a look of utter disbelief.
Sunoo sighed tiredly and continued drizzling chocolate syrup on his two scoops of vanilla and strawberry.
“But you two are so disgusting around us — Jay hyung’s always like, ‘Sunoo-yaaaa’ and ‘babe,’ I just figured…oh my god, if you act like that without fucking, I don’t even wanna know what you two will be like when you finally do it. Ugh…wait, how come?”
Sunoo slammed down his bowl and slumped over the counter. He made a noise into his arms not unlike a dying animal. Jungwon patted his back in sympathy.
“I don’t know! I mean, I think he does really like me, and I guess he’s just being respectful, but I’m trying to—”
“Ah, so that’s why the slutty outfit.”
Jungwon just laughed as Sunoo tried throttling him, his small hands unable to properly squeeze around best friend’s thick neck.
“Wonie, what do I do? How can I get him to put me through the mattress?”
His friend wrinkled his nose. “Gross. Have you tried just talking to him?”
Sunoo groaned again. “Anything but that! I’d rather die. God, why does it have to be so embarrassing being—”
“A raging homosexual?”
“So horny.” Sunoo shoved at Jungwon’s shoulder as he guffawed.
“Listen, you really don’t have to do much to seduce a man. Jay hyung’s already so crazy about you. All you need to do is tell him what you want and he’ll do it.”
Sunoo wasn’t sure if he wanted to be taken out with the garbage or flushed down the sink. He figured being disposed down the drain would be more environmentally sound, probably.
He sniffled. “I can’t tell him. What if he gets the ick because his boyfriend is too horny for him?”
This time, Jungwon shook Sunoo by his shoulders. “Oh, my sweet acorn, you couldn’t be more wrong! There’s nothing more irresistible to a man than a partner who wants him so desperately, so openly. He probably wants the same things, but you both just need to — say it with me — communicate. It’s the key to every relationship.”
Sunoo wasn’t sure who made Jungwon the relationship guru, but unfortunately, he was right. He just didn’t want to admit it, so he returned to completing his overly sweet sundae and whining to himself. “Why can’t he open his damn eyes and figure it out?”
“Why can’t who open his damn eyes?” Jake hugged Sunoo from behind, hooking a chin onto his right shoulder.
Jungwon ruffled his hair. “Oh nothing, just silly gossip. Are you and Sunghoon hyung still trying to get that model’s number from Jay hyung?”
Jake’s bottom lip jutted out. “Yeah, but he’s being so stingy! Sunoo-ya, can you talk to your mean boyfie for us? He’s blocking our path to true love!”
Sunoo giggled and patted Jake’s cheek. Now it was Jake’s turn to seek advice from Jungwon, so he left his two friends after making a simple ice cream bowl for Jay as well. The dining room had returned to calm. He set the ice cream in front of Jay, earning a kiss on the cheek. Jay continued recounting the story of a recent work fiasco involving a difficult veteran actor and a rising star, everyone listening intently. Sunoo sat back down across from Jay, calculating his next moves for the Dessert Time Seduction.
Jay was sitting back in his chair, relaxed. The table wasn’t so large, and Sunoo figured his leg was just long enough to reach across to discreetly fondle Jay’s thigh. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, stretching his leg until he finally hit a shin with his socked foot. He tentatively stared stroking with his big toe, inching up to the knee.
Before he could slide deeper across the thigh, a hand curled around his ankle and firmly stopped him.
“Whoa, Sunoo-ya, I’m flattered, but I thought Jay wasn’t into threesomes.”
To his complete horror, Sunoo had somehow missed Jay’s leg and landed on Heeseung, holding onto his foot with a teasing grin.
Sunoo instantly retracted his leg and covered his face. “Oh, I thought you were Jay hyung…”
Everyone else just stared at him in confusion, including Jay. Sunoo tucked both of his feet onto his chair and focused on eating his ice cream, curled up in silence.
Dessert Time Seduction: Failure.
Heeseung, graciously, seemed to pick up on Sunoo’s mistake and didn’t make a big deal about it. He changed the subject to food, as usual, asking his friends about their opinions on the best fruits to pair with ice cream.
Jake mentioned something about a common wisdom around cherries. Sunoo had no idea what he was talking about and wasn't entirely in the mood to entertain another one of Jake’s Trivia Moments. But, of course, Jungwon took the bait and asked him what he was talking about.
Jake grinned around his spoon. “Apparently, people who can knot a cherry stem in their mouths are good kissers.”
“Nah, isn’t it that cherry pits make you gassy?” Sunghoon chimed in.
An argument broke out, but of course, Jungwon immediately quashed it by pulling out his phone and looking it up. There was something of a myth around tying cherry stems and kissing, so Jake smugly stuck his tongue out at Sunghoon. He then declared a competition to see who in their friend group could do the cherry stem technique.
Sunoo grumbled — he just wanted to eat his ice cream in peace. He wasn’t one for party tricks anyway. He decided to get it over with, popping a cherry into his mouth, stem and all. He wasn’t even sure what he was supposed to do. He spat the stem back out, unchanged. Jungwon, Riki, and Jake faced similar predicaments. Sunghoon tried to hide behind Riki to tie a knot with his fingers, but he was quickly discovered, yelling when Jake and Riki threw their spit-covered pits at him.
Heeseung triumphantly produced a knotted stem between his teeth, earning a loud smack of a kiss on the cheek from Jake and more boos from everyone else.
When it was Jay’s turn, he grinned as he pulled out a cute, nearly heart-shaped knot from his mouth, causing his friends to groan in disbelief and call for a recount. Sunoo, however, felt his stomach flip and wished he could turn back time to five minutes ago, when he wasn’t thinking about all the filthy things Jay could do with his tongue.
Jake protested the hardest. “There’s no way your tiny mouth could ever be good at kissing! Let me check!”
He grabbed Jay’s face as if to smash their lips together, but Heeseung and Sunghoon quickly intervened, pulling them apart. They were getting rowdy again, so Sunoo quietly slipped back into the kitchen and started loading the dishwasher.
As if he wasn’t already suffering enough, now Sunoo’s thoughts were occupied with Jay’s mouth — how small it was compared to their friends, how chewed-up his lips were and how they sometimes scabbed, how he pouted when he was concentrating. But, overall — and this was purely an objective statement — Jay’s mouth suited his face well. And Sunoo could attest that he was a good kisser.
Sunoo gripped the edge of the counter, head slumped into his chest. His resolve was so weak. There was no way he could seduce Jay at this point if he was this easily swayed. He just, for once, wanted to make someone else’s heart pound as much as his did. But he was getting nowhere.
A warm hand gently caressed his cheek. “Hey, you OK? What’s wrong?”
Jay wrapped his arms around Sunoo’s waist and turned him around, pulling him close.
Sunoo sighed and hugged him back, muttering into his sweater. “Just lamenting about how much of a failure I am.”
Jay tenderly brushed back his hair. “Don’t say that about yourself. There’s no way that’s true. What’s the problem? Let’s figure it out together.”
Sunoo looked into Jay’s kind eyes. He was such a sensitive, caring partner — maybe Jungwon was right. Maybe all they needed to do was just be honest with each other. It was time to come clean. Sunoo took a deep breath.
“Hyung…why won’t you have sex with me?”
Jay’s blush spread all the way down his neck, disappearing under the collar of his shirt. He stared incredulously back at Sunoo, who had started to pout. Sunoo wanted to look away, but also didn’t want to miss the different expressions running across Jay’s face.
He hugged Sunoo tightly and hid his face in Sunoo’s shoulder. “I told you, it’s hard to concentrate when our roommates are in. And you’re always so tired after work — I’d rather you rest more.”
Jay’s voice was small but sincere. And finally, it clicked in place for Sunoo, all the times his boyfriend cooked him dinner, drew him a bath, massaged his shoulders, and held him as he fell asleep. Jay had always been looking out for him, making sure he got enough sleep because of the odd hours he worked. He was just being considerate of Sunoo’s time and energy. His heart was glowing in his chest.
Sunoo felt a huge weight lift from his shoulders as he relaxed in Jay’s arms. “So, it’s not because I’m not attractive enough?”
Jay firmly but softly cupped Sunoo’s face. “That never crossed my mind, not even once. I…there were many times I wanted to…but I wanted to take things slow because I thought that was the best way to go about it. I’m sorry, I should’ve just asked you.”
Sunoo started laughing, and Jay soon followed. They rested their foreheads together, sharing each other’s breaths. There were still words that needed to be shared between them, but instead, Jay tilted Sunoo’s chin upwards and kissed him, gentle and warm.
Sunoo whispered against his boyfriend’s lips. “Hyung, I really want you. Like, so badly. It’s all I can think about lately.”
There was a pause, and then Jay bit down on Sunoo’s bottom lip as he groaned in anguish. “You can’t say things like that, Sunoo-ya. We still have guests.”
“Well, get rid of them.” Sunoo tightened his arms around Jay’s neck.
Jay sighed, sliding his hands down Sunoo’s back until they hovered over his waist. But instead of embracing his boyfriend, Jay placed his hands on the counter behind him, gripping it tightly.
“They won’t be here for much longer. Can you wait, angel?” Jay murmured lowly.
He shivered, burying his face into Jay’s shoulder. He didn’t want to let go — he just wanted his boyfriend to bend him over the counter and take him right there. But patience was a virtue, and the wait made things that much more exciting. Probably.
“Hmm…OK, I guess. But you’ll have to make it up to me.”
Jay smiled and kissed him again. “Anything you wish.”
Sunoo had several things in mind.
But those would have to wait as they returned to entertaining their guests. The wine flowed and numerous games were in play at the same time. Heeseung and Riki were locked into a FIFA match on the giant TV, while everyone else played modified poker at the table. Jake, Jay, and Sunghoon kept on trying to call each other’s bluff, while Jungwon somehow kept getting a royal flush. Sunoo’s eyes kept wandering over to Jay and the way his hands held the cards, long fingers expertly shuffling the deck.
When he licked his lips, Jungwon nudged him and looked at him in disgust.
Stop being so horny, his best friend mouthed at him.
Sunoo rolled his eyes and mouthed back, Mind your own business!
Jay looked up and grinned at Sunoo. He blushed and hid behind his cards.
It was nice to have a night with his friends after a stressful workweek, but Sunoo kept glancing at the wall clock and tapping his feet as he tried to mentally prepare himself for what was to come. He needed to shower and prepare himself. He also wanted to explicitly tell Jay that he didn’t need to be so gentle in bed, if it interested him. He didn’t want his boyfriend to hold back just because it was their first time together.
Finally, Riki was the first to announce his departure, and everyone else followed him to the entryway, gradually putting on their jackets and slipping into their sneakers. To Sunoo’s surprise, Sunghoon and Jake were also leaving, taking overnight bags with them.
“Wait, you’re heading out as well?” He and Jay stood together to see everyone off.
Jake grinned. “We’ll be crashing at Heeseung hyung’s place for the weekend, at Jay-ah’s request. Isn’t that right, lover boy?”
Jay groaned and covered his face with his hand. “This is your idea of discretion?”
Sunghoon clapped Jay’s shoulder. “I left a full box of condoms on my nightstand if you need more. Good luck, Sunoo-ya. This guy’s a beast.”
Riki gagged. “Ew, please don’t remind me. But, seriously Sunoo hyung, we’ll check in in the morning to make sure you’re still alive.”
Sunoo smiled nervously. “What are you all on about?”
They all just laughed as Jay yelled at everyone, red-faced. Jungwon gave Sunoo a sympathetic hug and made him promise to text an update tomorrow.
Then, it was quiet again, just the two of them in Jay’s spacious apartment. Before Sunoo could speak, Jay immediately went to the living room and busied himself with straightening things up. As he put away the cards and wiped down the coffee table, Sunoo hovered in the background, still mulling over their friends’ vague warnings.
“Hyung…what did they mean by that?”
Jay’s hands stilled. He slowly turned to Sunoo, apologetic expression clear on his face. “I…well, since we’re trying to be better about communicating with each other, there’s another reason why I wanted to wait to have sex with you.”
Sunoo nodded, gesturing for his boyfriend to proceed. His mind was racing with a number of wild scenarios: maybe he turned into a werewolf when he got aroused, maybe he was into super freaky shit Sunoo was unprepared for, maybe he preferred unsettling role-play that would throw Sunoo off. He held his breath for the worst.
Jay sighed. “Apparently…I can get kind of intense during sex. At least that’s what my exes have told me. And Riki and Sunghoon have unfortunately walked in on me once.”
Sunoo scratched his upper arm. “What do you mean? What does that mean?”
He shrugged. “I’m not really sure myself. But I’ve been told I sort of, I don’t know, transform into this…I get tunnel-vision when it comes to my partner’s pleasure, and I just lose sense of everything else around me. And I’ve pushed my exes past their comfort levels. There’s this switch that turns on if I don’t keep total control. I learned that I have a higher sex drive than I thought, unfortunately realized at the expense of other people. That’s why I wanted to take things slow — I still wanted to figure out our boundaries. But I guess that’s something we should learn together.”
Sunoo swallowed thickly. That was…much better than he anticipated. It sounded like exactly what he was looking for: a partner to ravish him completely. Even though he could see that it was something Jay was still nervous about, and maybe even a bit ashamed of, they were actually on the same page. Sunoo wanted that, wholly.
And so, he closed the distance between them and cupped Jay’s face in his smaller hands, smiling at him sincerely. “Thank you for telling me. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve such a wonderful boyfriend, but I’m so grateful for you. I feel so safe with you hyung, from the moment we met. To be honest, what you’re afraid might scare me away is exactly what I want. I don’t entirely know what it entails, but I trust you. Let’s figure out this next step together.”
Jay hugged him and inhaled him longingly. “I don’t want to hurt you. There’s still so much I need to learn. If at any point you change your mind, we’ll stop immediately.”
“Hyung, I trust you with all my heart. And…you don’t have to be so gentle with me in bed. I want to be challenged.”
Jay groaned. “Again, you can’t say things like that, Sunoo-ya. I’ll really lose my mind.”
Sunoo laughed. “Good, I really want you to.”
This time, their kiss had graduated from school dance to something more involved. Jay shyly opened his mouth and let Sunoo’s tongue slide across his, tracing a line along the roof of his mouth. Sunoo scraped his nails on the side of Jay’s neck, fingers tracing along his ears. Jay sighed and nipped his bottom lip. Their scents twisting each other was a dizzying combination — Sunoo had to remind himself to breathe.
Jay knew when to command and when to yield, capable of keeping up with Sunoo’s sharpening appetite. His hands slid from Sunoo’s shoulder blades down to his waist, familiarizing himself with the planes of Sunoo’s slender back, tugging him flush, front to front. One hand drew circles into the bare skin on Sunoo’s hip, sneaking down the waistband of his trousers, while the other hand cradled the back Sunoo’s head. Sunoo felt like he was floating, the center of his gravity shifting to Jay’s arms. He knew he was cherished, so deeply cared for, that he could let go of his insecurities, of his repressed desires. He was home, and he was free to be himself.
But, there were things he still wanted to do, so before he could fully lose control, he pulled away to catch his breath and slow his racing heart. “Let me shower first. Meet you in the bedroom in 20?”
Jay laughed. “Sure, whatever you need. Just call me when you’re ready.”
Sunoo thought about dragging Jay into the shower with him, but he could feel his nerves through his shaking hands. They just needed a bit of time apart to gather themselves and stay grounded in the present. Next time, they would shower together.
Under a piping-hot stream of water, Sunoo recalled his previous sexual encounters. He hadn’t received pleasure from sex yet, mostly because his past partners had been more focused on chasing their own highs than sharing a mutual climax. He’d also had encounters that teetered the line of coercion and reluctance, not necessarily by force, but sex seemed like the best option to appease a volatile situation.
He didn’t have many fond sex memories, but he was optimistic that things would be different with Jay. There was a comfort in learning that Jay also had his own complicated feelings around sex that he seemed willing to work through. They could learn a lot together, and perhaps shed the shame around sex they seemed to have. Sunoo didn’t want to spend too much time away from Jay, so he turned off the shower and quickly toweled off.
He thoroughly moisturized his skin, hoping its softness would further entice his boyfriend. He spritzed on Jay’s favorite cologne on him, a fresh, floral scent. He pulled on lacy thigh-highs, tiny silk shorts with split sides, and a tight black arm shrug that highlighted his broad shoulders and left his chest on display. He wanted Jay’s arms to stay on him at all times.
He poked his head out the bathroom door to make sure the coast was clear, then scurried to Jay’s bedroom. He practiced a few stances and expressions in the mirror — his bedroom eyes still looked too evil somehow. He arranged himself on the bed, sitting with his legs to the side as if posing for a boudoir portrait. Finally, he called out for Jay.
He heard the shower turn quickly on and off. There was some rummaging in the bathroom. Then, the bedroom door slowly creaked open and Jay stepped in.
Sunoo watched, with his heart in his throat, as Jay’s eyes roamed all over his body, his pupils expanding in the candlelit room. He robe was loosely tied, and his hair was still damp against his forehead, making him look much younger. He fell to his knees at the foot of the bed, hands nervously awaiting Sunoo’s permission.
Sunoo nodded and Jay took his right leg in hand, gently pulling him closer. He caressed his cheek along Sunoo’s lace-covered calf, nosing along the delicate fabric.
“You want to kill me, don’t you?” He murmured, his lips pressed to Sunoo’s shin.
Sunoo laughed lightly, placing his foot on Jay’s shoulder, drawing slow circles. “Just wanted to be good for you, hyungie. Do you like it?”
Jay kissed along his leg until he reached the bare skin of Sunoo’s inner thigh, biting down in leisure. He then surged upwards and captured Sunoo’s lips with his own.
“Are you sure about this? We don’t have to do this now. Maybe we can plan for another date, get a hotel room, give us more time…”
Sunoo held Jay’s face closely. “I’d like for our first time to be somewhere familiar. I feel so comfortable here, in your room, with your scent all around me. This is perfect.”
Jay hugged him, whispering into his neck. “Don’t hesitate to change your mind, OK? Seriously. What about a safe word?”
His boyfriend was talking too much, so Sunoo kissed him again, circling his arms around Jay’s neck. Jay made a startled noise but he then melted into the kiss, his own arms planted on either side of Sunoo’s head as he suspended his weight above the younger man. But Sunoo wanted that pressure, wanted to feel Jay blanket his body, so he hooked a leg around Jay’s waist and pulled him flush to his front. At the slightest graze of their erections, Jay hummed into Sunoo’s mouth and sucked on his tongue.
Sunoo’s body was heating up, tender at every slide of skin against skin. He tugged at Jay’s robe and threw it to the floor so that he could finally slide his fingers freely on Jay’s back, scratching along his sides until he snuck past the waistband of his boxers briefs. His skin was so smooth, so comforting, Sunoo couldn’t get enough of it.
They kissed until Sunoo’s lips started to go numb, and then Jay slowly made his way down Sunoo’s body, licking a trail down his neck, nestling into his collarbones, and then teasing and savoring his nipples. He kissed down Sunoo’s belly until he reached his groan, gently hitching Sunoo’s legs over his shoulders as he sank in between, nuzzling his face against Sunoo’s silk-clad erection. He mouthed at the slippery fabric, the color darkening with his saliva.
Their heated gaze met as Jay took his time peeling off the shorts, biting marks into his thighs as his fingers trailed up and down Sunoo’s leg. Sunoo bit his lip as he watched Jay’s hazy eyes stare at his already leaking dick, tongue carefully reaching out to taste the bead of precum before he swallowed down to the fine hairs neatly groomed at the base.
No one had ever gone down on Sunoo before. He had spent years giving head to others, and was highly praised for it, but no one had ever returned the favor. He threw his head back as Jay took his time to unravel him with his mouth, throat tightening as he bobbed down, fingers fondling his balls. Sunoo grasped for Jay’s head, fingers digging into soft, black strands as he shivered in his boyfriend’s hold.
For a second, Sunoo’s eyes flicked down and he felt the coil in his belly ready to snap. Jay’s expression was one of unfiltered hunger, eyes glistening, cheeks splotchy red, and spit smeared all over his mouth. That was enough to send Sunoo arching off the mattress, shuddering as Jay slurped his head and twisted his hand around the base.
Sunoo was on the edge of a beach, watching a giant wave approach the shore. He felt a finger circle his entrance, spreading something sticky and warm. Jay swallowed Sunoo’s cock again while breaching the ring of muscles. The waves crashed behind Sunoo’s shut eyes.
He tightened his grip in Jay’s hair. “Hyung, I’m close. I think I’m gonna—”
Jay’s long finger brushed something small and sensitive inside of him just as he wound his hot tongue around Sunoo’s head. Sunoo came, curling upwards and shaking as if he had been thrown into space. He was floating — he had never felt so light before.
He blinked slowly and found Jay’s concerned face close to his. He kissed the corner of Sunoo’s mouth. “Hey, you OK? Do you wanna stop?”
Sunoo shook his head, moving like molasses. “No, please, don’t stop. I’m just…I feel so good, hyung. Let me return the favor. Just sit back now.”
He liked the way he tasted on Jay’s tongue, lightly saccharine. He playfully pushed Jay against the headboard, making him sit up so that it was his turn to settle between Jay’s legs and hopefully drive him just as wild as he drove Sunoo. But it was clear that Jay was still exercising a lot of restraint. Even as Sunoo tightened his fingers around Jay’s hardened shaft and hollowed his cheeks, Jay’s hold never turned forceful.
He was starting to relax against the pillows, but still, his arms remained tense as he touched Sunoo, and the noises that left his throat were strained. Was Sunoo doing a bad job? He took a lot of pride in his blowjob skills, and he hadn’t received any complaints so far. But how come Jay was still so grounded when Sunoo had lost all sense of self earlier?
Just as Sunoo was about to deep-throat him, Jay pulled him off and pushed him onto his back. He kissed Sunoo roughly, muttering against his lips. “Sorry, can’t just sit back. Need my mouth back on you, ’s that OK?”
Still reeling from Jay easily manhandling him, Sunoo nodded in daze. With one arm, Jay propped Sunoo up so that he could bury his face right into Sunoo’s ass, tongue working overtime as his other hand stroked Sunoo’s growing erection.
Sunoo rested his legs on the headboard, feeling like a doll in Jay’s arms. His hands wandered to his nipples, where he timed his twists with each thrust of Jay’s tongue.
Jay squeezed Sunoo’s shaft and licked a stripe down to his hole. “You taste so sweet, baby. Can’t believe I held back for so long.”
Sunoo’s giggle melted into a moan. “Don’t hold back anymore, hyung. Really. Give me all of you, please. I can take it.”
Jay groaned and sped up his strokes. Sunoo could feel his boyfriend’s cock hard against his back; he tried to wriggle around to reach it but the position was too awkward. Jay adjusted them so he could still eat Sunoo’s ass while slowly stroking himself as well. That was so hot to Sunoo, and it caught him by surprise when he came again.
This time, though, Jay didn’t stop and just moved Sunoo down the bed, slipping a pillow underneath his lower back and then folding him in half, securing Sunoo’s legs against his shoulders. He quickly sheathed himself in a condom, and before Sunoo could blink, he slid inside, biting Sunoo’s collarbone as he pushed to the hilt. Sunoo gasped, fingers scrambling against the sheets. He was so full, it felt like Jay had plugged all his openings, invading all his senses. His ears were still ringing from his last orgasm, and he felt his next one nearing its crest.
“Wait, wait, give me a second.” Sunoo tried to school his rapid breathing.
Jay clasped Sunoo’s right hand and rubbed soothing lines on the back of his palm. “I can wait. I got you. You’re doing so good, Sun, so good for me. Such a good boy.”
Pink dusted Sunoo’s cheeks. He hiccuped. “Is it all gonna fit, hyung?”
Jay smiled so fondly. “It will. I’ll go slowly. Here, just breath in and out with me. Try not to tighten up just yet. That’s it, baby. You’re taking me in so well.”
Sunoo matched his breaths to Jay, peeking at where they were connected. The tip of his cock was wet, yet again. He gulped as he saw a slight bulge in his stomach.
Jay’s large hand spread across it, pressing down gently. Sunoo shuddered as he felt Jay’s dick deep inside. Jay leaned down and whispered in his ear as he kept pressing. “Feel that? Feel where I am? It feels so good, angel. You feel so, so good.”
He traced his nose lightly up and down Sunoo’s neck as the younger man followed Jay’s breathing.
If Jay kept talking Sunoo through it, his body would snap in two. He felt tears emerge in the corners of his eyes as the pressure from Jay’s cock melted into pleasure. He blinked up at Jay. “I think I’m ready, hyung. You can move.”
It happened so quickly that if Sunoo hadn’t been intently watching Jay’s face, he would’ve missed it: Jay’s expression went from patient to determined, a subtle switch. His eyes darkened as he licked up Sunoo’s tears, kissing the top of his cheeks. That was when Sunoo knew he was in trouble.
The initial, easy rocking rhythm soon gave way to hard, relentless thrusts. And when the gentle pink blooming across Sunoo’s pale collarbone deepened its shade, Jay lapped up Sunoo’s glistening sweat, sucking his neck harshly as he quickened his pace.
He kissed Sunoo, open-mouthed and urgent, bending him deeper as he slammed into him, Sunoo’s breathy moans gaining volume with each jab. Sunoo was glad they had the apartment to themselves because his cries were becoming even more obscene, his throat starting to feel all scratchy.
“Hyung…’m coming…again,” Sunoo gasped.
Jay sucked on his lip, intertwining their hands as he thrusted sharply. Sunoo unraveled, his body shaking with abandon as the thinnest spread of cum shot onto his stomach. His chest heaved, and his entire body was engulfed in flames.
But instead of a moment of rest, Jay tightened his hold around Sunoo’s waist and pulled him up so that he was sitting up on Jay’s dick. Sunoo steadied his balance, spreading his palms on Jay’s chest. He shook his head.
“Wait, hyung, I just came, so I’m—”
But Jay started moving again, eyes completely blown as he pumped his hips up into Sunoo, fingers digging into Sunoo’s waist. His hands then moved down to Sunoo’s ass, gripping and slapping the plump flesh there as he ground relentlessly into Sunoo. Despite how sensitive he was, it felt so good, and Sunoo was on the verge of another crashing of waves. But it felt different this time, like the waves would somehow leak out of him. Something molten, buzzing, was starting to uncurl inside, and he panicked.
“Wait, hyung, I think I’ll—”
Jay kept thrusting until Sunoo arched away, clear and sweet liquid shooting out of his cock, drenching the side of Jay’s face and coating his torso. Sunoo couldn’t stop shaking, but he was mortified, clumsily trying to mop up Jay’s face with his bare hands. But Jay just stopped him and took his fingers into his mouth, licking them clean.
He roughly pulled Sunoo down to kiss, fucking up into him until he came deep inside. Sunoo had never experienced such overwhelming pleasure before, not to the point of losing all bodily control. He couldn’t believe he just did something so embarrassing, but he also couldn’t shake the image of Jay’s blissed out face, as if he wanted to stay inside Sunoo forever.
His mind was all muddled, and he collapsed onto Jay’s chest. He instantly fell asleep to Jay calling out his name.
++
The feeling of warm sunlight on his face spurred Sunoo to blink awake. He slowly sat up, bleary vision taking in his surroundings. The sheets had been changed — the blue floral spread had been swapped out for the green flannel ones. Jay’s right arm was loosely thrown across Sunoo’s waist. He was lying on his stomach, face buried into the pillows.
Sunoo laughed to himself and then remembered last night’s activities. He blushed, shaking his head and slapping his cheeks. He gently moved Jay’s arm off him and slinked out of the bed. But he clattered to the floor as his knees gave way.
He glanced at Jay’s still slumbering form, grateful that he was deep sleeper. But his balance seemed to have a hard time returning, so he grabbed his phone from the nightstand and practically army-crawled to the bathroom. He had enough strength to pull himself up onto the counter and stand on wobbly legs.
He startled at finally seeing his reflection. His neck, collar, and shoulders were completely covered in marks. His nipples were sore. His hair was in total disarray. He looked like he had been mauled by a wild animal.
His phone screen flashed with a new message from Jungwon.
09:30 a.m.
riki wants to know if you’re alive
Sunoo scoffed. His fingers flew across the keyboard.
11:30 a.m.
don’t tell me he stayed the night 👀
he did, but we just talked the whole time…nothing happened 🫥
*sigh* he’s still as oblivious as ever 🤦🏻♂️
don’t try to change the subject tho
i’m alive. barely.
fuck, that’s hot 🥵 so he really is a beast then...
riki said it was traumatic to walk in on jay hyung back in high school
he says he’d never seen such a crazed look on his brother’s face
he was…incredible. but i’m scared
of him?
no — of myself
like…what if i want it all the time now?
ffs you guys match each other’s freaks, i can’t believe this…
no, wonie, i’m serious, this is bad!
i can’t function like this!
it’s the weekend that’s when you’re supposed to have a sex marathon
i can’t…it’s too much of a good thing
kim sunoo, if you don’t just give in to your desires and keep fucking your boyfriend…
i need to chill!
you need to embrace your nasty side once and for all! 🫵🏻
no cowardice!
i’m nothing but a coward!
i think i’m gonna head home 😔
i’m coming back, wonie
if you step one foot out of that apartment, i will eviscerate you 🔪
“There you are. Good morning.”
Sunoo looked up from where he was crouched on the bathroom mat. Jay leaned against the doorway, smiling softly at his boyfriend’s goblin stance.
He tried to stand up quickly but forgot he was still a newborn deer. Before he toppled over, Jay caught him with a laugh. Embarrassed, Sunoo hurriedly extricated himself and tried to compose his face. He realized he was still naked and Jay was wearing sweats slung low on his hips.
“Everything OK?” Jay looked concerned.
Sunoo offered a small smile. “Yeah, yeah, all good. Just hungry, I guess.”
Jay nodded. “I’ll get started on breakfast. Or, I guess brunch at this point.”
Sunoo sighed, thankful for the time alone to regroup. In the morning light, he was embarrassed at how desperate and wanton he had been last night. Did he really release…all of that onto Jay? And then Jay — he really did transform into an insatiable creature, like he wanted to devour Sunoo completely, and he was totally OK with that. In fact, why wasn’t he sitting inside Jay’s stomach right now?
Sunoo shook his head and slapped his slowly hardening dick, scolding himself for still being so horny even after such an amazing night. But still, he wanted more. He closed his eyes and willed his horniness to go away, or at least shrink back down to something more manageable.
After a few more minutes, he washed his face and fixed his hair. He grabbed Jay’s sweatshirt from the bedroom and quietly made his way to the kitchen.
Jay hummed as he cooked omelets, sprinkling in red pepper flakes just for Sunoo. Sunoo watched fondly, his heart growing a hundred sizes too big for his chest. He couldn’t remember the last time someone other than a family member or Jungwon ever made breakfast for him. His body was sore but he felt good all over, like he had been lovingly fired up in a kiln and made whole again.
He didn’t realize he was crying until Jay turned around, startled. He rushed to Sunoo’s side and cupped his face.
“Hey, hey, what’s wrong? Are you OK? Are you hurt?”
Sunoo shook his head, blowing his nose out into the tissue Jay held for him. He hugged Jay tightly, wanting to stay in his arms until he left this Earth.
“I think I love you, hyung. I don’t know, I just felt overwhelmed about it for a second.”
Jay held Sunoo’s face so gently between his hands, thumb brushing away his tears. He smiled warmly, trying to hold back his own sobs. “I love you too, Sun. From the moment I saw you, I knew I loved you.”
“Sorry to keep you waiting.” Sunoo sniffled.
Jay laughed. “You had me worried there. I thought maybe I had been too hard on you last night.”
Sunoo shook his head furiously. “No, never! Last night was so amazing. The bad thing is that I’ll probably want to fuck you all the time now. Like, I don’t want you to stop.”
Jay brought their foreheads together. “Sunoo-ya, again, you have to watch your words. I get whiplash when you’re being so sweet and then you’re suddenly all sexy.”
Sunoo smiled but he didn’t apologize. Instead, he kissed Jay. A second later, his stomach loudly rumbled, causing Jay to laugh kindly. “Alright, food first. Then, we can revisit.”
As they ate a breakfast of omelets and toast, Jay talked about a new whiskey bar in Hongdae he wanted to try and some vinyls that he had added to his collection when he went shopping with Jake and Sunghoon the other day. Sunoo tried to stay focused, quickly scarfing down his food and impatiently waiting for Jay to finish his plate. But Jay took his time, taking small bites with his chopsticks and nursing a coffee in between. Sunoo played with the frayed hem of his sweatshirt, pulling at loose threads.
When Jay glanced down, he spat out his coffee. Sunoo wrinkled his nose. Jay coughed frantically. “You…you’re not wearing any pants?!”
Sunoo looked down at his lap and saw that the sweatshirt had ridden up his thighs, practically flashing Jay. He blushed and had the sense to pull the hem back down. “Whoops! I just…thought we’d be getting back to it quickly.”
Jay laughed, throwing his head back. “Why so impatient, Sunoo-ya? Besides, you passed out so quickly last night, I would’ve thought you’d want to take it easy today.”
Sunoo grabbed Jay’s arm and shook it. “No waaayyy! I told you, I don’t want you to go easy on me! Besides, the way you were last night was so…exhilarating.”
Jay choked around the last piece of toast. He laughed and patted Sunoo’s head. “I’m really…thank you, Sunoo-ya. It means a lot that you accept me as I am. I…I’m still not used to it, to be honest.”
Sunoo kissed the inside of his wrist. Then, he leaned over and kissed Jay. He tasted maple syrup on his lips.
“Let’s clean up the table and get ready for Round 2,” Jay murmured.
Thinking his boyfriend was talking about another meal, Sunoo rolled his eyes and huffily started piling the dishes together. Instead, Jay pressed him down on the tabletop, bending him over and pulling his ass back onto Jay’s growing erection.
Jay grinned. “I meant this, silly.”
He kissed the back of Sunoo’s neck, slipping his hands into Sunoo’s sweatshirt and pinching his nipples. Sunoo giggled and turned his head so they could kiss, tongues dancing against each other.
“Hmm, still hungry for more?”
“You’re the main course, babe.”
Sunoo was learning that, even as embarrassing as it could be, he liked being eaten out. He liked Jay’s tongue exploring his hole, working him open with two fingers, nose brushing against his ass cheek. He liked when Jay kissed the side of his neck — he didn’t know he could be so sensitive there, especially when Jay traced his tongue to his ear and bit down. He also liked Jay’s knobby fingers twisting and pinching his nipples while he was buried deep inside Sunoo, cock hitting his prostate. It still startled him when Jay smacked his ass, but he was starting to discover he liked that sting on his skin, and when he did it enough times in a row, it blended into something pleasurable. He was learning a lot of things about his body he didn’t know before.
After they both released — Sunoo across the dining table and Jay onto his ass — Jay carried him to the bathroom, where he ran a bath and started rinsing Sunoo down in the separate shower. He was also learning that aftercare was essential.
Jay lovingly washed him, massaging Sunoo’s scalp with shampoo and conditioner. When they were both clean, he guided them to the fully heated bathtub, resting Sunoo against him as they soaked in the fragrant water.
Sunoo leaned his head back against Jay’s chest, closing his eyes as the bathroom speakers played jazz and the blinds closed halfway to soften the afternoon light streaming through the windows. Jay ran his fingers through Sunoo’s hair, smoothing it down and kissing the top of his head.
“You really loved me the moment you saw me?” Sunoo asked, playing with Jay’s hand.
Jay kissed his temple. “Yeah, I did. I was having an awful day. I didn’t want to be at that shoot, but I had to cover for one of my colleagues. Everyone was getting on my nerves. But then I saw you, cheerful and friendly, setting up your station. The models looked so calm around you. And the photographer was excited to be working with you again. I just thought, ‘Oh, here’s a person who is so full of light that you have to love them.’ So I just developed this biggest crush on the planet until I couldn’t take it anymore.”
Jay squeezed his arms around Sunoo and nuzzled his face into the back of Sunoo’s neck. Sunoo shrieked, ticklish, cheekily struggling in Jay’s hold. He laughed, collapsing against his boyfriend’s chest once more.
“I thought you looked so mean at first. You were always frowning like this.” Sunoo turned around to show Jay his best scowl. Jay laughed and kissed his nose.
Sunoo smiled and pushed Jay’s hair away from his eyes. “But then you showed me how kind you were, and I thought, ‘Oh, here’s a person who looks harsh on the outside but is actually so gooey and sweet on the inside. You have to love them.’ When you finally asked me out, I was overjoyed. Wonie had to stop me from bothering the neighbors with all my screaming.”
Jay traced his thumb over Sunoo’s bottom lip. “Well, you don’t have to worry about bothering the neighbors here. This apartment has pretty good sound-proofing.”
Fucking in the bathtub proved to be a tricky endeavor. The ledge wasn’t big enough for the both of them, and the slippery tiles made it hard to find the right balance. Plus, the heat from the water was getting to Sunoo’s head. So, Jay just sucked Sunoo off until he came, shooting into the bathwater.
They quickly moved to the bedroom, where Sunoo pushed Jay against a wall and took him into his mouth, knees digging into the turquoise rug. They fucked against the wall, Sunoo on his tiptoes as Jay pulled his arms back and pounded into him.
The rest of their Saturday was filled with fucking and eating. When they weren’t fucking — in the living room, in the kitchen, even in the entryway — they were finishing the leftover pasta and ordering Chinese food for delivery. Sunoo had never had so much sex in his life. He didn’t know he could keep going for so long. It felt like he had a never-ending supply of orgasms.
Eventually, they fell sleep in a heap on the couch, an old romance movie playing on the TV. Sunoo snuggled into Jay’s neck and breathed him in deeply.
++
On Sunday morning, Jay awoke to Sunoo’s mouth on his cock. Sunoo soon learned that making love in the mornings was the best way to wake up, unhurried and sensual, somehow slowing time just enough so that they could spend more of it together.
Their hands never left one another even as they showered, even as they got dressed for the day in Jay’s clothes.
While they ate breakfast in bed, Jay checked his phone for the first time this weekend. As Sunoo fed him a piece of kimchijeon, Jay read out a message from his roommates.
“Jake and Sunghoon have run out of clean underwear and they wanna know if they can come back to the apartment.”
Sunoo laughed. “Sure, I should go back to my place anyway and get ready for Monday.”
Jay pouted. “Next time, bring more of your stuff over so you don’t have to go.”
“I will. And you too, at my place.”
Just as they were about to kiss, Sunoo’s phone lit up with a new message from Jungwon.
10:43 a.m.
hey, i’m staying at my parents’ house for the week because my sister’s about to give birth!
omggg it’s happening soon?!
yeah, so i gotta help out at home
don’t be too lonely without me
“So…Jungwon won’t be in our apartment for the week.”
Sunoo slowly looked over at Jay.
Jay kept his expression neutral. “Oh, then…is it cool if I stay over?”
A new text from Jungwon arrived.
10:46 a.m.
DO NOT FUCK ON OUR COUCH!! I’M SO SERIOUS!! KIM SUNOO!! 😡
Sunoo switched his phone to “do not disturb” and linked hands with his boyfriend.