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It only got worse, Nico had taken a strong liking to me, and that came through threatening to blackmail me.
While the torture the guards put me through was physical, Nico’s was.. worse.
He’d tell me that I was the reason my family was dead. That my youngest sister, Ella, recently died trying to escape, died the same way that Maddy did.
And then he’d seize my body, I never remembered what happened when he did, but the physical damage was still there when I woke up. This was what I deserved for attempting to escape though, for even trying to listen to that part of me that told me that Torch still loved me, well if he still loved me he wouldn’t now.
Not after what Nico has done to me, sometimes I’d still be lucid and it made me want to carve my brain out using just my hands. The memories are so clear due to how recently it started, but he convinced me I wanted it, so I shouldn’t be distraught about it. Anyone else would kill to be in that position.
I slammed my head against the padded wall of my cell, feeling tears spill down my face.
If Josh still loved me he wouldn’t anymore. I was contaminated by Nico.
Josh didn’t love me anyways though. He wanted to kill me, so he’d hate me even more if he learned about this.
I sat on the ground on my knees, sobbing.
I’d ask Nico for permission to join the glorious gone. I had to. It was the only way to get that feeling of him away. Had to get the feeling of his hands off me.
Josh didn’t love me. If he did he wouldn’t of let this happen.