Girl Crush

by Rainbowphead

Summary:

Regulus Black is in his fourth year at Hogwarts, quiet, composed, and always listening when his brother talks about James Potter.
James, now in his fifth year, is still hopelessly in love with Lily Evans. And Lily… wants nothing to do with him.

Regulus becomes obsessed with Lily, not because he loves her, but because he wants to understand.
What is it about her that keeps James running after her, again and again?
What would it take for someone like James Potter to look at him that way?

At home, things are getting worse. His mother is turning crueler, and Sirius won’t stop pushing back. Regulus is powerless to stop any of it.
He needs a distraction. So he watches Lily. Watches James. Tries to piece it all together.

And just when James finally notices him… he gets it all wrong.

Notes:

Hi, this is a story that’s been going around in my head ever since I started obsessing over Jegulus, so I wanted to share it here.
I just want to warn you that English is not my first language; I speak and understand it, but I’m not as good at writing it, so I apologize in advance for any grammatical mistakes.
I want to clarify that the tags are there for a reason. The beginning of the story is based on the song Girl Crush (the cover by Harry Styles, of course), but it gets darker as it progresses.
There are multiple pairings in this story, but I decided to include a polyamorous relationship between three of the characters because I simply couldn’t separate one of them from the other two.
Pandora and Evan are twins because that’s how it has to be.
Regulus is very insecure at the start but evolves, I promise.
Sirius and Remus are idiots, of course. Just like Barty and Evan.
And James, my love James, is the best. And he’s half Mexican because I support the Latino James, and because I’m Mexican.

Chapter 1: I've got a girl crush

Regulus (Introduction)

Regulus doesn't like girls. He never has. And he doesn’t think he ever will.

But there's something about her.

Maybe it's her red, long, wavy hair.

Maybe it's her smile.

Her rosy lips.

Her green eyes.

Her perfume that smells like spring.

Or the freckles on her nose.

Regulus can't sleep, thinking about how beautiful she is. He can't get her out of his head.
It's basically become an obsession.

He knows it’s not healthy, but he needs to know.

He needs to understand what lies beyond the beauty that surrounds Lily Evans.

Because Lily is beautiful. And James Potter is in love with her.

And if James only loves her for her beauty, then Regulus is lost—because he can never compete with that.

Unlike Lily, Regulus has short, black, curly hair.

He rarely smiles.

His lips are red and cracked from biting them so much.

His eyes are gray, like the sky when it clouds over, searching for a storm.

He doesn’t smell like spring, because he is the storm.

And he has no freckles on his nose.

That’s why it’s impossible for James Potter to notice him.

That’s why James always chases after Lily, running after her until she disappears.

But he never gets tired.

And Regulus wishes he would chase him instead,
because he wouldn’t run.

He would stay.