PSYCHOPOMP

by pluto_baby

Summary:

no one will know the violence it took to become this gentle.

 

character / oc
marvel
pluto_baby
cross-posted on wattpad

Chapter 1: PSYCHOPOMP

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

PSYCHOPOMP

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am the shape you made me. Filth teaches filth. 

 

Sophokles, from Elektra. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CHANGING IS SCARY, BUT STAYING THE SAME IS EVEN MORE SO.

 

    For the longest time, Alex Dizon lived an unchanging life. 

 

    He was born alone. The minute after he was shoved into this world, he was taken from his family, his mother and father crying out and fighting back as he was taken from them, despite them being the ones who sold him away. He was forced into a life he didn't want to live, into an organization he had no reason to be in. 

 

    He grew up the same way, alone and separated, detached from his peers through necessity and force. He was brainwashed into a lifestyle no one should live, taught ruthlessly and mercilessly through means of coercion, torture, drugging, and other methods he'd rather not recount. The Red Room was cruel and unjust, even to a boy like him; even though he wasn't their preferred choice of slave, he was treated just the same as the others. He was given tests, orders, missions, none of which he could refuse. He killed each and every one of his assignments—men, women, children—because the Red Room didn't discriminate with its targets. 

 

    That's how he's lived his life. Even now, despite having escaped the Red Room years ago and having since been picked up by shield, the routine is always the same—unchanging in its solitude. He had people around him, people with shared experiences, people who could understand him and what he's been through, people that he should trust.

 

    But he just couldn't bring himself to be so open, to be so honest and vulnerable just yet. It would mean going against everything he's been taught, against the way he's been living his entire life. 

 

    He was too used to being alone. It was the way he was born, the way grew up, and the way he's lived since his escape. 

 

    But even so, he needs change—desperately. And that change comes in the form of a group of six superheroes who are all called in to save the world from an alien invasion. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Alex "Al" Dizon   /   The Black Wolf

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

𝖎. Cherry Wine. Hozier / 𝖎𝖎. Door. Mitski / 𝖎𝖎𝖎. Duvet. bôa / 𝖎𝖛. Seven Devils. Florence + the Machine / 𝖛. Foreigner's God. Hozier / 𝖛𝖎. Blur. Princess Goes / 𝖛𝖎𝖎. The Summoning. Sleep Token / 𝖛𝖎𝖎𝖎. Nobody's Solder. Hozier / 𝖎𝖝. Smells Like Teen Spirit. Nirvana / 𝖝. Lonely Boy. The Black Keys

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

DISCLAIMER

 

I do not own Marvel, or any of its characters, ideas or plotlines, nor do I own any of the gifs and images used in this story. All credit goes to the original creators. I'm only responsible for my own characters and plotlines.

 

 

 

WARNINGS

 

Swearing, crude humor, blood, graphic violence and gore, character death(s), sensitive topics, non-graphic SA, mentions of/references to past SA, torture, human experimentation, mental illnesses, disabilities, racism, sexism, ableism, human trafficking, past drug addiction, past alcohol addiction, smoking, heavy angst, the slowest-slow burn ever, eventual romance, strangers to enemies to friends to lovers, slight mature themes, awkwardness, secondhand embarrassment, cliches, and fluff. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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started: 05.02.2025

 

published: 05.03.2025

 

status: unfinished

Notes:

I haven't really been that active in the Marvel fandom for a few years now, but I've been getting back into it recently because of all the new content they're pumping out rn. I've re-realized my love for it, especially the older films, and have also re-realized my love for certain characters. Plus, I just recently watched Thunderbolts (literally writing this author's note like hours after watching it) and have re-realized my love for Bucky, so I, of course, had to make a fic.

I love the trope of characters, who are taught to be violent and have grown up being used as a weapon, wanting nothing more than to not be seen as violent or a threat and instead want to be gentle and kind, and be looked up to, and this fic is a prime example of this trope. But it's also a bit different from some of the other works I have that include this trope. Most of my other fics have the weapon character but they've already done the bad things they didn't want to and have already begun their journey of recovery and self-discovery. PSYCHOPOMP is a bit different from these works.

ALEX DIZON, my OC, has yet to really begin his healing journey, and still has the mindset of an enslaved/brainwashed person, and this mindset doesn't change for a while. He doesn't really begin to recover until much later into the fic. Honestly, this entire fic is mostly just Alex's healing process? At least, that's how I want to portray it, but it might come off differently, idk. There will be some romance later with a character I already have in mind (whom you can probably guess but I won't confirm it until later), but it's very eventual and doesn't come until after Alex has developed more into the person he wants to become. So, if you're here for exclusively romance, then this might not be the fic for you.

I have Manny Jacinto as my OC's face claim, but you can honestly imagine Alex to look like whatever you want. Just keep in mind that Alex is meant to be a poc.

Also, this fic is cross-posted on Wattpad! My username over there is Kam_the_mess19, so if you prefer that formatting, you should check that out instead.

I feel like there's more I should say, but I can't think of anything else at the moment. I'll probably come back and add some more later, but for now, that's all folks! Hope yall enjoy the fic, and please don't be a silent reader! Comment and leave kudos!