Chapter Text
“I wish I knew how to quit you.”
BrokeBack Mountain by Annie Proulx
It was another round of the twisted game they were all forced to play, the round started briefly as they were transported to the place where this round was gonna happen, the weather was cold, but it didn't matter much to two time, right now they were wearing their usual clothes, just with a coat on top of them, since the weather was freezing these days and chance said that they needed to cate care of themselves. They made sure that they had everything ready before moving, their dagger, and.. will to live(? Doubtable.
After kneeling and doing the ritual so their second life would be granted, they began looking for generators, and maybe some medkid he could give to Elliot later, they didn't know who the killer was since they were distracted when it was mentioned, so they walked mindlessly around the map, the river smelled like poison as they went near the hill with the well on top, most of the time there was a generator nearby, they caught out of the corner of their eyes chance flipping his coin, they didn't thought much of it until they heard the gunshot pierce the air, with Chance body then falling limp after being thrown.. they froze as they turned around to see, but the killer was already gone, now that feeling of dread and guilt washed over them as they walked to do the generator, with guilt written over their face, they couldn't help but feel guilty whenever one of their companions died, since well, they just felt that pain in his chest, they don't know how to describe it through maybe they should really go see a doctor.. or a therapist.. whatever fits best.
After finishing the generators, they began to walk again, their grip on the dagger tightening. They didn't know how many of them were left alive since they didn't hear guests yelling or shedletsky swords, and that filled them with fear, not that they would show it much. As they continued to walk, they heard someone running, 7n7. They rushed to assist him as he was injured and covered in some type of slime.
“7n7! Do you have any serious injuries? One may assist you if necessary, spawn has blessed me with a medkid,” they said, not so loud yet not low as they reached to 7n7 side, grabbing them by the torso as they helped him to lay on a wall
“umm, I'm fine two time, no need to worry” he hurried to say, that fatherly tone present in his voice, They shook their heads.
“I refuse to accept such a lie, you are hurt, and need assistance, elliot it's dead I suppose, but one may help with some bandages”
“Two time, it's not necessary, I insist, you should keep the medkid for yourself, it's a new killer, and they seemed to be looking for you” Those words made two time froze.
“Looking for me? c-can you try to describe them 7n7? Can you do the favor to-” Two time was shushed by the other
“I know they had tentacles and were slimy.. yet you shouldn't worry two time, I'm pretty sure you would be able to go through this round without any injuries” he sooted, making two time look away, as they felt scared, and even if they were, that stupid smile was still on their face, just some sweat “you're gonna be just fine, I'm just.. going to rest my eyes a bit” he muttered laying on the wall again, two time knew that 7n7 was just going to die since he lost way to much blood and seemed to be poisoned. It did not take long until 7n7 died, and he felt that rough, agonizing pain in his back, and also the sudden change of place dizzied them out a bit...
“May the spawn protect and enlighten me during this round” They put their hands on a way of prayer, muttering a quick one before getting ready to attack and protect themselves in case of an ambush or a simple attack, and even so their movements were sloppy since the wings made his life a mess. They hear a shuffling sound, and before they can even react, they freeze. They knew that face much more than they wanted to admit, this couldn't be real, not real at all, they had killed him with their own hands, they had carried his body through the path until they reached the field of nightshades, and they had used their body in the ritual, how.. unless… the spawn granted them a second life, that would explain what they were seeing them right now, they knew they should be smiling, the leader told him so, they should smile if they wanted to be blessed by the spawn.. but he couldn't he just couldn't, the other felt way to unreal
“you.” azure(? Muttered angrily, as they stared with hatred at the other “Are you enjoying your second life? The one you took away from me, the one you stabbed my back for!” he raised his voice, really fucking annoyed at the person fronttnt of him
“azure,” they muttered as they stared, they had missed the other so much, and to know that they were alive brought him a sense of relief, but also a sense of guilt, they had killed the other over selfish reasons, BUT it was the leader's wish! And the spawn had brought Azure back again! Yet you killed them, and destroyed the friendship and almost love that once sprouted, it was like a half-dead plant, not dead, but you would need patience and love to grow it again...
“Answer me you sult!” he growled as he held two times his throat in his hand.
“azure..” they muttered softly.
“don't you dare say my name, traitor, can't believe I once-” he stopped his words as he noticed two time crying, he slowly lowered him, even in this state, he hated to see the other crying… with a huff, he put his hand on top of the others head “why are you crying eh? You have no right to do so” his tone was softer now, and well, as he tried to soothe(? The other a bit, two time wrapped their arms around them repeating those 2 words over and over again.
“I'm sorry”
After a bit, Azure reciprocated the hug “Stop repeating that, it makes you look pathetic.” They said coldly, they never liked how two time let themselves be walked over by the leader or other people.
“I won't, I… am really sorry azure!” they muttered as tears flooded from their eyes, the clock was ticking, 40 seconds left.
“I can see you are…” he muttered with a huff, as he watched the others drowning in their own tears “why.”
“uhm..?” they lifted their head at the question. Tilting it to the side in confusion
“Why did you do it..? we don't have much time so don't try avoiding the question,” he said firmly. kinda annoyed
“the leader told me to.. she said I would get a second life if I did so, and she also promised that the spawn will grant you a second life.. so..” as they confessed, their face were teensy red from embarrassment, that sounded silly out loud.
“you and your devotion for the spawn... I never understood why you followed her rules so submissively..” he muttered more for themself than the other close to him “killed me for a second life.. can't say it wasn't what I expected..” as he gently pulled away from the hug, two times spoke again.
“Do you think I'm worthy of forgiveness..?”
“no. I don't think you deserve it.” two times looked away as those words left azures mouth “Yet… seeing you like this affects me way more than I would like, you have more scars than you used to have, pisses me off”
“u-uhm.. I guess that explains it.. a-ah.. times it's running off.. Should we meet somewhere when we are back.. at the ‘normal world’? I really.. want to make up f-for what I did”
“guess I can arrange somewhere.. my cabin is pretty… poisonous you can say… but I guess.. i can't try and arrange somewhere for us to meet at” his voice turned soft, as they stared at the other “you look pretty.”
Two time looked away embarrassed again “Thanks.. you look cool too… umm t-till next time Azure…”
The last survivor has won
Then they were transported to the usual place, two times seemed to be tired, yet they were happy, they were so happy they could jump around and even write their whole bible
“I told you, you could make it,” 7n7 said as he got closer to the other
“yeah.. maybe it was just luck.. but… this.. this round was a good change!” they began making their way into their room and getting in position to pray for the spawn. It was late at night. Maybe they could finally sleep without getting a nightmare
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“I’ve never had a moment’s doubt.
I love you.
I believe in you completely.
You are my dearest one.
My reason for life.”
Atonement by Ian McEwan
It would be another “normal” day if it wasn't for the fact that two time was happily going everywhere, they seemed well rested and didn't have the gross eye bags they usually had, the first to notice was elliot, as hr was one of the first awake, one of the ones that knew how to cook (the other ones were bullderman, dusekkar, and shedletsky, but he only knew how to make fried chicken)
“Are you alright two time? You seen extrangely happily” he mentioned as he served the whisked eggs he had
Two time noded “I feel just fine, Elliot, the spawn has blessed me with good news, and I'm thankful for that.” They closed their eyes in a cute little way. Elliot gave a nod as he escaped the scene. No matter how much he could hang out with two time he would always find them weird, they thanked the spawn for every single bit in their life, kinds obsessive if you asked him
Meanwhile azure was serving himself some food at the killer's cabins, they felt warm and cozy, not because it was on fire or anything, just the killers kinda had the vibe of a happy family, he usually talked with 1x about feeling, (even if the other could only feel hatred) but he did it because he kinda related to 1x, and he didn't really comprehend how hate should feel like, sometimes took care of pr3ttyprinces or c00lkid whenever they were sick. Since in their garden they had a lot of medial herbs, they never took care of bludud, he kinda hates that child
Times with Jason were pretty quiet, since the other didn't really like to talk, but were nice and comfy either way, noli… noli was something different. Their obsession with that one survivor with the burger on the head was sickening, they, most of the time only yapped about that, how they used to be together, he really had an obsession and needed to work on it, really bad, then itrapped, they remembered azure of elsa, maybe related to his ice powers, but he didnt know how to feel about him, he didn't knew him much and well. They avoided him most of the time, he seemed like a very rough guy
He likes to try and help John Doe remember stuff from his past, since he can't imagine not being able to recall his moments two time. Would he even recognise their face if they couldn't remember? Or would they just see them as a blurry figure in their past.. either way. He always made sure to make small proofs of amnesia to the other, asking him things that happened recently and stuff then.. guest 666, he resembles a weird creature, it took them a while to get used to his enormous figure, but they were fine with it now, lastly mafioso, always in a corner being.. weird, at least to aruze, he seemed really egocentric and it was kinda visible that he “hated” the gambler, he found their relationship weird. with calm steps he went to the fluffy couch that they owned, and sat to have his breakfast, he was still in deep thought, well he could try to arrange a place, like his garden, as long as two time doesn't eat one of the plants it would be fine, he the realized was he was thinking.. he still hated two time (even if all those time he talked with 1x, the humanized hatred said it wasn't hate, that he was just suck up and still in love) yet reuniting with him brought certain butterflies, a feeling he knew too well from that time, he remembers how two time always made their heart flutter, and.. this is just how he was feeling that night
they shook his head and continued eating, Pr3ttyprincess was there, she gently approached Azure, with her little crazy expression and some lipstick smudged, because she liked to put makeup sometimes
“you have your lipstick smudged ” he said gently as the girl approached him
“I know mr. azure! but i think its looks pretty” she game a small giggle, her voice always sounded a little deranged
“is that…? or could you just not wipe it out..”
“mr. Azure knows too much” she grumbled with a pout as she got onto the couch “how has killer life been treating mr. azure?”
“mmm. had better days, but.. i guess it's going to turn for the better” azure smiled at her gently, even if she was a killer he knew that she grew alone because her parents died, so he didn't really mind taking care of her
“did mr. Azure finally reunite with their lover?”
“how do you- ”
“You don't know how to keep secrets mr azure! It was pretty obvious since the start”
“... why do i keep up with you” he grumbled as he took another bite of his food
“because you care about me!”
“Shame I do.. ”
“I also care about mr azure! When he's killer i make sure to water his plants”
“i’ve only been killer once”
“STILL! I watered them..”
“whatever you say girl…”
They settled onna comfy silence as he began eating again, after a while 1x came through the door
“!S PR3TTYPR!NC3$$ H3R3?” azure pointed at her
“there”
“Y0U 4ND ! H4V3 4 L0T T0 T4LK M!1SS” he said, his voice loud as always as he picked her up, PR3TTYPRINCESS looked annoyed, azure saw them disappear before continuing with his meal, he didn't feel as off as the first days he was here, it feel usual now, taking care of the kids, making sure they are well fed and not sick.. it all remembered him to the “good” times in the cult, he was one of the oldest here, but he didn't let himself be humiliated like others, he just… he had a good friendship with the leader, because well the leader and him were not too different of age, he was (when he was alive) 23 meanwhile the leader was 33, he remembers how the leader was one of the oldest kids in the cult, and how they helped him pray the spawn, all those stuff.. he met two time when he was 14…
we are getting out of topic around here, maybe we should go back to two time?
two time was looking around their closet, their pants hanging loosely still, they were looking for something nice to wear, they really wanted to wear one of the cute things that the spectre gave them, they usually didn't do it because even if their wings only showed when they are on their second life, they do have small bumps on their back, to were the wings are supposed to be, they hate when they come out, it just hurts… so much, it was tearing pain that made their stomach curl, it was horrible, maybe that's why they never wore pretty things, just his shirt that successfully covered those two little bumps, even so… his shirt got always tired when he entered his second life, besides that, he continued looking for stuff in his closet, he was very aware that the other would find weird his cloth change, he hoped that he didn't have to explain what happened last round, they would hate to do so, after all they would have to include why azure seemed so mad at them, that would be a hassle.. BINGO!
they found a pale blue shirt, it was soft and nice, comfortable, he could mix it with his usual black pants (that were always a goon of falling out) and well, sure its gonna look good, yeah, pretty sure, they fiddled with it for a bit, questioning themself if the change was really worthy, to be honest
they never liked change
but as many people had told them, change is necessary for good things to happen, “change it's a blessing of the spawn” they reminded themselves as they took of their shirt, looking in the mirror without any shirt on, two time was AFAB (HC) they didn't really care much about the looks, their chest wasn't really big to be honest and they didn't mind having a coin slot instead of a cucumber, what whatever, they were used to this, they didn't care much anymore, the cult was indeed not so accepting of their gender, but with many prayers they managed to be called they/them inside there, they didn't wear bra or something like that, they were more likely flat, they liked it, quite the load, with the shirt on they looked more soft, they put the bandana around their neck, looked at the mirror, damm, it had been so long since they wore something different
they softly left to see who were the ones chosen for the next round, to be honest, two time wanted to be chosen, at least in the rounds were azure was the killer, as they entered the living room, they saw mostly everyone, shedletsky was eating fried chicken while builderman cooked, dusekkar and taph were “chatting” mostly dusekkar speaking an thaps saying short responses on sign language, guest and chance were speaking about the way that they were able to stun the killer, elliot and 7n7 were sitting uncomfortably on the couch, but they were mostly chatting and noob was sitting on the table drinking one bloxy cola, everyone seemed to fit in,, except them, they turned their attention to the board, the next that were going to the round were everyone except them and dusekkar…
they were pretty sure dusekkar hated them
for some reason
they could not understand
with a sigh they continued their way to the fridge for a glass of water, usually when it wasn't their turn to the round they would just play some music on their room, pray to spawn or just.. stay there, they knew they needed better methods to pass out the boredom, that hey needed to talk, but they just didn't find the energy to talk to the rest of the survivors, they all seemed him as an outcast.. they shook their head gently, the others were leaving in less than 5 minutes, he could only pray that they all would not have any major injuries during the game, with sloppy steps they went outside, rather ignore it than acknowledge it, it was dark, as always, it seemed like the sun never rises here, with calm steps they made their way to the dock on the end of the.. what they supposed was an island… it brought them doubt, where the hell do the killers rest? should they go and investigate?
they didn't know
they didn't know at all
Chapter 3
Notes:
Huh, an actual healthy and constant post, is the world goign to collapse???
just ah.. heads up, mentions of self-harm and the actions of self-harm, if you are sensible to this topic please know that its only on the end part of the chapter, yet feel free to skip it
Chapter Text
“You are my heart
my life
my one and only thought.”
The White Company by Arthur Conan Doyle
two time was teletransported to were the round was gonna happen, the pirate one, they never cared to learn the names to the field they were forced to be on-
rattlesnake
the killer this round was 1x, they could tell by that annoying rattlesnake sound that they(? made, they should definitely get other swords, ones that aren't as loud as those, they made their way to one of the generators, wanting to get over this quickly, they didn't care this round now
azure was not there
they did not care
at all
they were desperate, they wanted to fix everything they messed up, they wanted things to be like before, the thing is.. 2 rounds had already happened and they haven't been killer yet! they never thought they would want a killer in specific, guess that's what love does to. the generator was easy, or that what he wants to think, they haven't seen any of their companions… scratch that, elliot and chance were on top of the boat, was chance hurt? did their flick flock explode on them again..? uh.. elliot it's already taking care of that anyway…
they should go and fight the killer, if chance is hurt, shedletsky and Guest must be on disadvantage, they had to help, be useful somehow, they got closer to where the other two were
“chance? elliot?” they asked, putting their hands close to their chest
“ah, there you re little they” chance said with simples as he ruffled two time’s hair
“please not” they reminded as the gambler took their hand away
“right..” he crossed his arms “where are you looking for something?” two time shook their head
“Once I was worried about both of your wellbeing, hoping they could be of any help” they raised their voice a little bit, to make sure the other two heard him well “were you fighting 1x with shedletsky and guest 1337?” they tilted their head to the side, gripping their blade on the pocket of their pants
“ah that.. 1x seems more aggressive, yet shed and guest had him controlled” elliot responded for chance, who was eating that pizza as if had gold
“Do you think they request my help?”
“not much, but there's never too much help” chance said, finishing his portion of pizza, and flipping his coin “i'm ready to keep fighting, after all, there's never too much gambling” he gave a smirk “feel free to come two time. but just know your help is going to be appreciated”
“on my way.”
when they reached the scenery was as they expected, shedletsky was munching on some fried chicken, on a corner recovering a bit of his life while guest was doing front for him, Two time did not miss a beat, they grabbed their dagger with a strong grip, stabbing killers it's a good way to release stress, with a quick movement, they were behind 1x without the other even noticing, two time with a smirk stabbed the others back, dragging the blade and then twisting it, they knew this wouldn't do much to the killer, but it would stun them, that was enough, 1x let out a growl, after all, two time always makes sure to twist the blade, things amara that taught them that!
guest gave them a nod as an acknowledge and give him some thanks, shedletsky gave the, a goofy smile, two time smiled back, they were certainly glad to have such an useful team.
they were snapped out of their thoughts when they heard someone talk to them, they tilted their head gently as they faced 1x
“huh?”
“Y0U TH3 ON3 TH4H JUST $T4BB3D M3”
two time felt danger, they kept the blade up, even if it hurt
“C4LM TF D0WN..” they seemed quite annoyed, but they dragged their hands two time’s “H3R3, D0N’T 4SK.. ! D0N’T 3V3N KN0W WHY ! D0 TH1S” a folded paper, two time took it rather gently, as always, nice, he gave a small bow to 1x as a way to show respect, and sneaked to the side to read the folded paper on their hands
“Two time
my apologies for delivering this rather late, I didn’t know any way to be able to contact you, yet 1x offered to bring this to you, which makes me rather happy
i have thought for a while, and yes, i have found a place where both of us won't be discovered and we would be able to chat, but you have to be careful reaching your way there, it's a bit far for the survivors cabin, but i'm pretty sure you won't care. you never do, always found a way back to me, didn’t you?
after leaving the main cabin, go straight onto the place where that.. cake monster is, you just gotta go straight forward until you find a clear path on the forest, i’ll be there waiting for you right after the rounds are over
-Azurewrath”
Two time couldn't help but smile, this made them so happy, a blush creeped on their face as they read the letter over again, the round ended earlier than expected, two time entered the room bouncing of the walls , everyone, well most of them were kinda weirded out, guest 1337 was the first one to talk, as always
“Is something up two times? you seemed.. rather excited when 1x gave you that note, may i know what it was about?”
two time shook their head, that note was theirs and only theirs, no one else deserves to see it
“uh.. i hope you're not hiding anything from us, that would only cause trouble”
two time gave guest a dirty look as their made their way back to their cabin, there was only one round left, and two time would be able to see him again, they had one hour before it started, they wanted it to be over right now, they opened their door and threw to their bed, tired, they're back was hurting as always, they brought their hands to their back, feeling those bumps, glad they didn't have to use it last round, they stretched once again and rolled onto their back, they felt happy, only wanting to get close to the and love them, but they knew that they needed to build upon that trust once again, and maybe it was going to be hard, but… they deserved it, he deserves to have azures love again, they’re sorry aren’t they?
two times made his way back to their blade, looking at it with hungry eyes, they remembered all the words and teaching that amara told him, he smiled as he brought the blade to his wrist, one cut more one cut less, no one was counting on them where they were? they didn't think any of the survivors would care, and if someone does care that would probably would be azure
yet he isn't sure
azure might as well just want him there to kill him and finish what he did
he shook those bad thoughts away as he gently pushed the blade a bit higher than his vein, they did not want to kill themselves, well.. not right now. they pushed it as the blood started to sprout, can't help but smile as it all came out
they felt so full and happy
no one could stop them
they don't even think someone would want to stop them
the burning on their wrist was something they ached, it felt nice, calm, something that managed to bury all of those stupid emotions they felt while they were living
sadness
anger
grief
guilt
None of them were present. just happiness
they knew that they shouldn't have cut that deep
the blood kept flowing, staining the bed
with a groan two time got up from when they were, clearly done with everything, their wrist burning , they only cut once, yet rather deep, they did not want to lose more blood, and the round was starting in.. what, probably 20 minutes, they grabbed some bandages and put that on somehow, now feeling guilt again, knowing that this was bad, that they had to stop, that maybe someone would notice and feel pity for them, but. They didn’t think so much.. It felt nice. Fine and carefree, they should do this more often..
Huh
Why are they even here anyway?
Softs steps were heard entering the main cabin, everyone knew, but no one wanted to care, or well no one allowed themselves to care. Maybe there was some fatherly insecticon 7n7, but the older one felt too intrusive talking about that topic…
It only proves that two time was right
None of them would stop them
Chapter 4
Summary:
Azure and Two time talk like normal human beings!! (SOO SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE, i got catchen on a lot of things and hell!, this has been pretty tirinf and all, and well, i also start exams this week so.. em.. we are peak rn)
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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“And just like that,
you died thanks to my blade
and I was sure
I was going to die by yours”
Your heart mine to take again by Living_murder
the rounds were over, and two times could finally go meet up with azure, they didn't take the time to go eat, they were excited, oh how exited, they grabbed the paper, their bag and followed the instructions that the note that azure sent said, and oh well, it was dark at first, the forest was dense, and then it started to rain.. uh two time did now want to get wet,they hate water.
They kept walking, following the instructions… where are they walking in circles? holy spawn.. they kept walking, with his dagger leaving some marks on the trees so they would know if they were walking in circles… soon enough they saw the clear path that azure told them about in the note, they made their way to it, the moon light up the place, it felt a warm atmosphere, it reminded them of.. something
“you are rather late two time..” the soft voice was heard thought the path, something that made two time snap out of it and look at azure in the eyes
“a-ah.. sorry Azure..” two time looked down apologetic
“it's fine… it was hard to find?” two time tilted their head “the place, was it hard to find”
“yes, quite hard actually.. i got wet” he muttered as he looked down, their clothes sticking to their body
“i thought you liked the rain”
two times shook his head “not anymore.. it's something not relevant by now…”
the place fell on a uncomfortable silence, two time did not know what to do, they had thought this moment, over and over again, so much they even died first in the round they participated in, but.. now they felt like they didn't know what to do..
meanwhile azure was just taking every detail of two times, the way that the clothes stick to their body, how even if azure had told them many times back then they still didn't wear any type of bra, how their hair was still a mess, how their eyes were uncanny… azure felt something inside of him, something he needed to know, he felt the need to know everything about two time.. just.. something.. something inside him said that he needed the other close
“How are the rounds? I've only been a killer in one..”
“Well, it's the same most of the time, doing generators. I usually use my.. d-dagger.. to stab the killers. usually to be able to respawn” they muttered as they started explaining, for some reason talking about using their dagger with azure gave them.. a bad feeling, made them feel guilty
“umh.. sounds boring, you never liked repetition..”
“y-you remember? ” they stuttered quite surprised, they had forgotten how nice it was to have someone that remembers every detail of how you feel.. “i-i'm just a little surprised.. you have a really good memory after all”
“Of course I do. How could I ever forget something about you?”
Two time turned red, they had missed this type of connection and love from so long ago.. they felt as the tears rushed to their eyes
“a-and what do you killers do when you're not i-in the r-round..?” they muttered as they wiped their face “do you have a garden?”
“hmm, sure i do ” he looked at the other lovingly “it's not really as big as the one i used to have. But its growing, i have many herbal herbs.. as well as flowers and-”
“nightshades..” they whispered out. Finishing the sentence for the other “a-ah! S-sorry.. y-you can continue telling..”
“don’t worry two time. I won't bite you. You can stop being so tense..” he reminded gently as they held two times hands “i'm here for you two time..” he grabbed his other hand and brought it to two times face “see? I'm real..”
Two times I was speechless just looking at Azure like he was going to take their world away. They just stared at azure as the other said those loving words, were they loving? Two time didnt know. The longer they stared. The more that heavy weight on their chest escalated, oh.. azure.. azure
Azure
Azure
AZURE
Two time held his hand up to be able to feel the other
“A-azure..”
The voice barely came out of his voice. Like it was strained. Hurt, like his voice didn't want to talk and wasn't able to create coherent speech
“yes..?”
“why… Why did you give me this second chance..? ” their head tilted to the side as they brought their hands to their chest, gripping tightly their shirt in between their fingers, so much that the knuckles were white, as much as they thought of it they couldn't understand how azure, gave them a second chance
“that's something i can't answer now..” the voice was soft, azure stared for a bit longer before taking action, he slowly brought two times hands away from their chest “don't.. hurt yourself..” he muttered as he brought the others hand down onto the floor, his eyes fixated on the bandages that covered the others wrist
“s-s-sorry”
“it's alright.. don't do it again”
they fell at silence again, this time not so uncomfortable, but that.. feeling still lingered on the place, that something was missing, that they needed to talk, that something wasn't done yet, but.. right now they just wanted to feel at ease
“azure..”
“mm?”
“i thought.. i-i haven't told you yet.. b-but.. i-i just wanted to tell you azure.. i-im sorry for e-everything.. a-and i wanted to explain the reason why.. why i did that.. i know that even if i apologise it w-wont really fix anything because.. you already died.. a-an it was my fault.. w-whatever i try to do w-wont fix it now…”
“I think we already talked about this. i don't like it when you apologise”
“n-no no! y-you have to listen! i-i need to explain why i did it, w-why i hurted the person i love the most!”
“Alright.. go ahead” he did not question the last words that left the others mouth, he was going to listen, yes he was, he deserves an explanation after all didn't he?
“s-so.. before i even s-star with this.. i-i have to admit something.. u-uh.. you know, the leader of the cult.. Amarah?” Azure nod, waiting for the other to continue “shes… She's my mother.. i-i know it sounds weird because you met her before i-i.. b-before i even existed.. s-so to be able to be the leader of t-the cult.. you have to d-do certain things.. she told me.. from long ago, when i was.. when i was already 19, she told me that to be able to b-be the leader of the cult you had to leave someone that would take after you in case of emergency, that you needed to have a child. who has to know e-everything about the cult and believe blindly in it…” they fidgeted with their fingers, azure was at loss of words, he didn't expect this, not at all, they expected something less shocking? they couldn't word at all what they were expecting
“i-i know.. if i'm not wrong you joined the family when you were 6 right?” azure nod “well… mother was 16 at that time… she was.. pregnant when she started.. planning to be the leader..”
“wait.. ” azure looked at them two time and grabbed their sides “you're 6 years younger than me?”
“oh.. right.. i forgot to tell you that, amarah.. when she had me, well.. she told he she didn’t want that her ‘daughter’ was one of the smallest there, so.. when we met.. i-i was actually 8… she told me to lie about my age because that way i would be treated differently and people.. would you know. understand that i knew as much about the cult as them…” azure looked at the other nervously
“sorry sorry.. hold up.. ” he muttered as he made the other stop talking. He did some math on his head “you.. killed me when i was.. 23.. ” he turned into a weird face “so… youre were 17 at the time?” two times nod “oh lord.. ” azure looked aside.. “why.. why did you do that spell being so young?”
“ah.. the spell.. w-well..” they started looking embarrassed and guilty once again “l-look… It all starts at the start of the year.. I was talking with amarah when.. when she told me i needed to do something to show the spawn that i actually followed them and that i actually appreciated them.. so.. when we were talking.. She told me that.. your faith was lacking, that it didn't.. it wasn't as strong as the start” they looked away once more. now picking on the skin of their shoulders
azure grabbed the others arm and stopped them “continue”
“she told me.. t-that the s-spawn needed to know that the same wasn't gonna happen to me, t-that i needed to show my faith to them once again… she also told me that the spawn will make you suffer if you continued living. a-and o-of course at that m-moment I couldn't stand the thought of y-you suffering.. even less for the s-spawn.. so i-i followed the instructions that she gave me.. every single word” they felt tears starting to come down their cheeks again, while the other was just simply quiet
“she t-told me.. that i had to kill unexpectedly.. that.. u-uh..” they had tried to hard to forget that moment, yet they remember every single detail of it “i had to twist the knife, i had to stab you right in the back… it had to be on somewhere you really loved, that your feeling had to be.. apparently romantic? then. there was also another stuff, your body had to rest in the place you loved the most for about an hour, where you weren't disturbed.. only i could touch you, then..” two time started to sob every time they took a breath to talk “i-i.. stayed right next to you.. just.. w-waiting for something to happen.. s-she told me that the spawn would b-bring you back to life with even more f-faith in you! s-she was a liar..” they bit their lip
“after… you had rested.. I brought your body to the.. ritual room.. and performed… things i’d rather not mention”
“mm… so.. it's all her fault?”
“i-its mine too! i-i just.. I could not follow her rules or I could also try to listen to you when you were talking to me! there are so many things i could have done to avoid killing you that i just.. it was all my fault.. not hers..”
“not exactly.. look.. I forgive you, and I have always thought of forgiving you, in my opinion.. you did what you were thought” two time nod in their tears “stop crying..” he gently cleaned their cheeks
“w-well.. t-there's more.. 3 years.. a-after i… that. i had to clean your cabin.. b-because she said they needed more space, and e-even if i had requested for that cabin to never be t-touched it couldn't happen anymore.. so i began cleaning.. your clothes were still folded on the cabins, your blade laid on the top of your nightstand, the flowers that you kept in the pot rotten, already smelling bad… everything.. was just in its place.. i made sure to not break or hurt anything, your gardening gloves, your little hair ties and the clips.. and.. while cleaning i found your diary.. I hope you don't mind me reading it..”
“i don't even remember what i wrote there”
“hmm.. i kinda do , just some parts, it started when you were 10, you told your experiences on the cult.. then.. I read something I don't remember.. as you can imagine i just remember much that happen after i read that, i just.. remember my chest hurt, and that i grabbed your blade”
azure stayed quiet, having a clue of what happened, but not really remembering what he wrote that could have caused that reaction
“then.. I just remember I woke up here..”
“I also woke up after you killed me” he added “I remember.. a figure, not much of how they looked, but I do remember they were wearing a hat.”
“huh.. maybe he's the one that has us here” they thought for a bit, the cheeks once stained with tears now dry “do you remember anything else? maybe that could help us get out of here!”
“sadly, that's the only thing i remember.. and the name, spectre” two time perked up
“the spectre.. I have.. uh.. yes! I recognise that.” they gave a nod. As they also gave a yawn “u-uhm… it must be late… im feeling sleepy”
“The killer's cabin it's closer than yours.. come on..” azure stood up with the help of his tentacles. Whom squirmed around as uf to find anything warm, it was getting cold
“they’re squirming around..” they pointed out as they got up. The earlier cut now making itself noticeable
“it's cold.. come on.. let's get going”
It didn't take too long before they reached the cabins, some flowers bloomed outside of it. Even though it was midnight, two times was a little tense. They were basically in ‘enemy territory’ they had to be catefull unless they want to die, as they both entered the place, two time saw to little kids (not so little) asleep in the couch, with the tv playing, there was a dude.. it looked like he was half burnt, around in the kitchen, a guy who seemed to he drinking an ice-cold drink and a big guy who seemed cuddling some bunnies.. was it mafioso his name? He was snapped out of his thoughts when azure spoke
“Im back..”
“O-O-OH F-FUCKING FI-FINNALLYY!” a glitched voice came througth the house “I-I-IM ALREADY F-FUCKING H-HUN… I-ITS THAT A SURV-SURVIVORR??!” azure nod
“Two time.”
“you do know we aren't allowed to kill them outside of the round ”
“I know, he's here to spend the night.”
“W-W-EHATTT?!??!?! Y-YOU REALLY BROUGHT HIM HERE TO F-FUCKKK???”
Two time turned red as heck.. “i-im not here. To d-do that stuff. We were just hanging out and i-it's late… besides.. it's not him… it's them”
“O-OHH… S-SORRY!”
two time only gave a nervous smile, they all seemed to live in company
“Y-YOU KNOOWWW… HOWSSSS 0-0… 007-7-7N7!”
“7n7..? H-hes been fine i guess… getting better along with people, yet i dont see him talking much to other survivors.”
“do not speak of 7n7 around him.. i don't want to hear him.. yap..”
Two time couldn't help but chuckle “It's the first time I've heard you say that slang..”
“C-COMEONNN! I-I JUS-JUST LIKE YO TALK A-ABOUT H-H-HIMM!” he said angrily as he looked away. Two time turned to azure who was carrying BLUUDBUD and C00LKID to their rooms
“BLUUDBUD.. and C00LKID” they muttered as they followed Azure around
“they spend a lot of time together... I think BLUUDBUD likes C00LKID.. he reminds me of me sometimes.. that's why I don't like taking care of him”
“you’ve always liked taking care of kids tho.. do they all share a room?”
“yes, all of the kids have a separate room from us, sleep together because they asked for it” Two time helped Azure open the door of the room, one pretty pink bed, with a girl close to a 6-year-old, sleeping in it
“PR3TTYPRINCESS… ahh.. she hates me..” Two times chuckled, acting way too normal to be in a house full of killers
“Nmh?” azure only mumbled as he continued putting the kids in their bed
“she hates my style.. and I'm banned from her tea parties.. mostly because of the stabbing”
Soon enough they were in Azure’s room. Two time looked around, it had quite the flowers, it was decorated nicely with a purple rug that had a flower pattern on it, the bed had a black and purple mattress, and gardening stuff was thrown around meanwhile it all had a.. botanical look on it… Two time was hesitant, their movement was sleepy and sluggish as if they were afraid, oh so very afraid of it.. “Azure.. where am I gonna sleep?” they looked at the other with their head tilted
“the bed it's right there.. did you go blind or sum?”
“we’re sleeping on the same bed..?”
“yeah- I mean.. it's big enough. The mattress isn't uncomfortable and its recently cleaned… besides. I'm not cruel to make you sleep on the floor..”
Two time nodded, they took away things that may make it uncomfortable to sleep, such as necklaces, gloves, shoes, the belt he wore and some other stuff you don't wanna know. They left their blade on top of the nightstand, and after not so long they ended up with an azure coat on top of him, they were really tired so they didn't argue, they had a really strict sleep schedule, and they were breaking it really big today…
Azure admired how the other had fallen asleep in their bed without any complaint, he shook his head as he made sure they were properly covered with the sheets and then went to get comfortable themselves.. it was a great day if you asked him and an even better night… goodnight two time, you will never escape me again
Notes:
(I hate this, THIS CHAPTER TOOK ME SO LONG THAT I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE)