Wherever you stray, I follow

by Jegstarwolf

Chapter 1: Pick your Potion Babe

Summary:

Studying for a Potion exam wich James Potter has forgotten over the Holiday.

 

Regulus Black is Not the biggest help in this case, totally being a Little Bitch.

Notes:

Heyy… so this is My very First fanfiction I Hope it is likeable, Englisch is Not My First Language so there may be some grammar or Language mistakes.

I Hope you like this and please let me know if I shall change anything.

In this fanfiction The skittles are in the same year as the Marauders!

EDIT: I might rewrite this chapter as soon as the second chapter is finished.

Regulus

 

Regulus opens his eyes, he sits up straight on his bed, he cant remember when exactly he fell asleep but it must have been while Reading.

He slowly lookes around in this empty dark dorm, no sight of Evan or Barty anywhere.

He closes his Book, put it on his nightstand table, seeing he was covered in his blanket, he shoved it to the end of his bed.

He still wore his white Shirt with his Black Jeans and his green converse, no tie.

His family would never allow him to wear green converse, Pandora was the one who gifted him those for his 13th birthday.
From then he wore them almost everyday. Pandora had to take them with her back home because if he gets caught with them, It’s gonna end bad, probably.

He got up and searches for his tie, till he found it on Bartys Bed. He ties it around his neck and walks towards the door. He takes his homework ,Potion books and walked down the stairs to the Common room.

He hears familiar voices, Dorcas ,of course, is the loudest, out of them all. He stays at the bottom of the stairs for a little bit just looking in the Common room. He sees Dorcas and Pandora sitting on the floor Surround by lot of Books ,mostly Potions.

Pandora spends most of her time here, She’s a little weird for some people who don’t understand her but Regulus loves her still. She’s, after all Evan’s twin sister so she sticks around with her brother. Regulus and the others agreed on protecting her at all cost.

Regulus walks past them without getting involved in their chatting, he was heading to the Library to actually do his homework which he just skipped the past days.

He could do it with them but as often they tried to study together all three of them won’t  last 10 minutes before getting into a conversation wich has nothing to do with their work.

No one is entering or leaving the dorm so Regulus opens one of the books and Starts Reading. He is the Only one that walks through the Dungeons this time of Day, he does not have to worry about bumping in to someone.

Walking down the hallway to the Library, one of the Doors open and Students storm out complaining about their school work, probably, Regulus Doesnt Quite understand them.

A loud Voice echoes through the hall snapping Regulus out of the book.
It was Sirius‘s.

„Hey Baby Bro! Wait up!“ he howles, while coming down the hall to Regulus.

Fuck, was the only thing he could think about now, he absolutly has no time and no interest in talking to his detention collecting Brother.

Sirius and his and his friends have had more than 10 detention these last two weeks. Are they trying to make some sort of record? 

„Could you stop screaming so loud please.“ Regulus whisperes when Sirius is next to him. „Probably not no.“ He answeres with a ridicuolus smile on his Face.

„What do you want“ Regulus askes, clearly annoyed. „I just wanna now were your going“ Sirius raises his arms in surrender.

„The Library, to do my homework“ Regulus answered quickly, „Ah Sorry you probably dont even know what homework is right Brother?“ Regulus mockes him.

Regulus looks into his Brothers Face while the sides of his Lips curl up.

„Ok First I know what homework his, im just To Lazy to do it and se-„
„And secondly you like to collect detention as much as possible am I right?“

Regulus breaks Sirius off.

„Er, no that was not My Point, I wanted to say secondly I dont have time to do it“ Sirius says confidently.

„Are you serious?“ Regulus asked him with a questioning, not quite believing Stare.

„Actually yes I am“ Sirius Smileys brightly

Without answering Regulus just Shakes his Head and walks away from him.

Following him, Sirius Speaks again.

„Ne fais rien de stupide, petit Freré“ 

„Je ne me ferais pas prendre, contrairement à toi, Freré“

And with that Sirius turns around and walks Over to his Friends, Regulus looks After Sirius and notice that James Potter is Directly looking at him. Salazar Slytherin have mercy. He looks good.

But He doesnt Look Like Usual when they pass eachother in the hallway, or when they Met in the Boy bathroom this Morning. Theres something about his expression that seems wrong but what would Regulus know, he thinks.

Gesturing him just one quick Look Regulus now heads where he wanted to Go.

Opening the large Doors to the Library he exhales softly before greeting the librarian and heading to his usual Spot at the back, between the last two bookshelves, he likes it here, he can observe other Students, its also quiet here since some of them are to lazy to Walk through the whole Library.

Laying out his Books all over the table, he sits down with his back to the entrance so he will Not get distracted by anyone.

Dorcas spared him some of her potions books seeing that She is a Bit more Talented and interested in it.

She was gifted a potions Book for the Seventh year Students, Personally from Professor Slughorn for Extra Credit. Dorcas even beat Lily who is now in 2nd Place, Regulus himself is also on the podest.

Fully into reading and taking notes ,he didnt hear the door open. He only knew he was not alone anymore, on his table, was when footsteps approched behind him. Regulus was sure it couldnt be Pandora seeing that she was occupied talking nonsense with Dorcas and evan in the Common room. His Brother went the other way so he didnt come to question either.

In the next second Regulus’s sight went pitch Black.
„Studying much Baby Black?“ a voice said near Regulus ear.

„Barty I swear to salazar I will rip your hands off your arms if you dont get your fucking dirty hands away from my eyes.“

Barty does so with a muffle laughter before he sits down next to Regulus, his brows fuzzed as he Looks on the table Filled with all Kind of Books, some from Dorcas ,some from the shelves behind him.

„Where were you?“ Regulus asks, „You were gone when I woke up, Evan to“

„We were on the quidditch pitch, flying a Bit“ ,He explained, „You were still sleeping and Evan and I woke up 20 minutes After you feel asleep so we decided to Not wake you up“

„Oh okay well, What do you want Barty?“ Regulus askes, watching Barty sit down, his tie is not tied properly and his hair looks a mess, normally After flying. He got back to the dorm to fix it but it Looks like he came straight here After flying.

„ I.. I Need your help“ he admites quietly, sounding ashamed.

„You- wh.. what“ Regulus stutters tilting his Head in confusion, Barty, Barty Crouch Jr. His bestfriend for 6 years suddenly needs help from him? Wasn’t it always Regulus who came to him when he needed help, Even if its hard to believe but Barty actually has a talent for comforting people and helping them with their Problems.

Regulus didnt ask often for help but when he did, Barty was always There for him.

Regulus came to him when his house wasn’t a home and his brother didn’t act like the big brother he’s supposed to be. Barty would Never admit it or say it out loud but he would do anything for his Friends if they were in trouble. Regulus knows.

„Reg please…“ Barty stammers desperate, tapping with his Fingers on one of the Books that lays infront of him.

„Okay okay Calm down“ Regulus Replied while reaching out to Cup Bartys Hand in his own and whiping his Thumb up and down to Calm Barty. 

Regulus doesn’t do that often he hates people touching him. He allows it very rare. Unless his friends are distressed and he sees they need it he gets over himself and allows it.

„What is it?“ he asks.

Barty is silent for a Moment before he opens his mouth and closing it again and shaking his Head

„Barty, its okay you can tell me, I wont tell anyone“ Regulus tries to convince him.
But even after that confirmation Barty shakes his head again and just answers

„No, No Archie its, its Fine, Im, Im Fine it was stupid I dont know what got into me, sorry for bothering you“

And with that He got up and left Regulus sitting there in silence starring to the now empty chair.

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James

As James wakes up something was different, he isn’t sure what was wrong but he had this feeling in his chest, he never felt like this before, or not that he can remember feeling this before, so he has no clue what to do about it.

He got up slower than usually, Sirius was doing his hair in the mirror, Remus just admiring him, they are kinda obvious about they’re feelings everyone sees it, or atleast Peter and James do.
Sometimes James just wants to blurt out How ridiculous and obvious both of them are.

But if he does he might also expose Sirius feelings towards Remus.

……

A couple weeks Ago Sirius and him had one of those talks again. Sirius was feeling guilty about Regulus not talking to him After the Holiday because of the things Happening at that house.Regulus was the one collecting all the curses now instead of Sirius. They’re Parents found out about Regulus company with the Rosiers and with Meadows.
Even though The Rosiers are one of the first people who joined the dark lord, The Blacks don’t have the best relationship with them.

A few minutes after that Sirius confesses James his feelings towards Remus. James could not have held that Laugh that came out of him in any longer.
And of course Sirius was a Drama Queen and was MAD at him for laughing about something like that. James explained it to him funnier and then Both of the Boys were laughing they’re Asses off.
……

„You okay Prongs?“ Remus asked sitting on his bed next to James‘s one. James turned his Head to see the concern in his best Friends eyes.

„Yea, yea Moons of course Im okay! Why wouldnt I be“ James tried to sound as convincing as possible but it doesnt seem to work as Remus lifts his brows and just nods while more muttering to himself

„Right of course you Are“

„Dont Lie to Moony prongs!“ Sirius turns around to Look at him „ you dont look fine James, Remus is just worried ,so am I“

„I’m sorry Moony, You dont have to worry Im Fine, just had a Bad Night, Thats all!“ That’s not all, James thinks, he’s feeling different.

And with that they all got ready and headed down for breakfast.

At the bottom of the stairs ,James bumbed into Lily who seems to be Reading a very interesting Book.

Lily dropped her Book at the shock and bend down the same time as James to pick it up.

„Oh Im Sorry Lily I didn’t see you“He tried to apologize while standing up and handing her the Book.
„Oh dont worry James! I didn’t see you either“ Lily Said polite.

She was always very Polite since the beginning where they met in first year. James has noticed her at the train station first. She was standing next to Severus Snape. He hoped Lily would get sorted into Slytherin with him, wich honestly wouldn’t have made sense. Lily was destined to be a Griffindor, her courage, her beauty, she is very beautiful indeed, her smartness, her ability to light up an entire room just by opening her eyes. She has some sort of  special Charm on her, James guesses.

James had this big crush on her back in forth year, it was embarrassing. Thinking back at that He gets chills all over his Body.

„I should probably be more careful where I read“ Lily Said giggling.

„Yea probably“,James agreed also chuckling, „What exactly Are you Reading?“

He asks, pointing at the Book.

„Potions, I make notes in the Book while slughorn explains something and it can be very useful as to just Write down what he says to Write down. You know?”

„Wait Potions? Why Potions aren’t you Reading one of your Fantasie Books? You told me you have a few you want to finish“

„I wanted to but we Are writing an exam? Next week? Dont tell me you forgot it?!“ Lily sounded more serious now and looked shocked at the very confused James.

Shit.

Shit.

Shit

James was so busy with other stupid things to avoid studying that he actually forgot to study anything

“When exactly is the exam Lily!?” He now sounded desperate

“Wednesday before dinner”

“That’s in 5 days omg Lily you said next week! I thought it was set on Friday!”

Even if it was, He knows he will not pass it

Shaking his head in disbelief and trying not to sound panicked, he just runs off and out in the corridor right to the abandoned boy bathroom. The place he always goes when he needs time to calm himself down.

But James isnt the only one who uses this place, Regulus Black, Sirius’s little brother, the boy James wanted to talk to since they met, sat in the back of the bathroom not even looking up as James forgot the reason he is here in the first place. James took a quiet Deep breath and started going towards him.

“What are you doing here Potter” The boy said annoyed. “How did you know it was me?” James asked confused sitting down next to him.

“First I heard you Walk in, second I saw your Red converse as you stoped infront of me and lastly you come here as often as I do so it was easy to guess it is you.” Regulus answers closing his book and looking at James

James felt his face shift in confusion, “you knew it was me because of the way I walked in?“ The question left his mouth in the same confusing Tone James face has.

“Every person who pays attention will know you by your footsteps, not many people have your way of struttering” Regulus answers.

„I think your the only person who pays attention to something other than My looks“ James admitts with a lumb in his throat.

Every Person in this school only saw him as THE James Potter, The Rich Boy (aswell as Sirius), The ladychaser, The Prankster, Quidditch Captain, Sunshine in Person but no one, so James thought, except his Friends saw him as nothing Else.

„Dont get sentimental now please, I can’t deal with you at this time“ Regulus Blurted out annoyed.

God hes so difficult, James thought.
One moment he seems nice and then the next hes being a dick again. Apparently Regulus has always been this way, this cold hearted Person who only has a Little Bit of Empathy for a few people, James was obviously Not one of Those.

Sirius warned him, but James still tried his best.

Ever since he has known Regulus the Boy was always rude to him, even through the only thing James did was being nice and Kind to him. He had wished Regulus would do the same but he gave up on this hope long time ago.

James was Friends with Sirius since the Train Ride in First year. Regulus on the other Hand went into an Apartment with his Cousins Bellatrix, Narcissa and Andromeda, to say in Regulus’s Words „giving Sirius some space to dissapoint our Parents“

No matter how often James tried Talking to him, Regulus did his best to avoid him.

Just as now ,Regulus suddenly stood up “well you can rot here for the rest of the day if you like but I won’t cover for you when you miss classes.” And with that the boy left without looking back.

Now James was left sitting alone on the cold bathroom floor, alone with his thoughts.

…………

The next few days flew by like it was nothing but James still didn’t understand anything that happened in potions wich was not helpful seeing the exam is tomorrow.

Sitting next to Regulus in potions was torture enough, (He and Sirius got sat apart after laughing to loudly) but getting looks from slughorn that are basically saying “I expected more from you Potter, your dad won’t be proud about this” was way worse because James once was one of the best Students Along with Lily and Regulus.
The way Slughorn saw right through him, seeing the disappointment James has become, he was supposed to be good in potions like his parents, James used to be but now something changed and he can’t figure out what it is.

His Mother, Euphemia, was class best with Sirius Mother (unbelievable that she finished school before joining the dark side). Slughorn talks about them almost every class. James and Sirius always just look at eachother and think the same *How did Effie survive being in the same class as Walburga*

“Potter” Regulus voice snapped him out of his thoughts. “What is up with you”

Regulus never spoke to him in Potions or any class, why now? What changed Godric what is happening with James?

“Hello?” Regulus asked quiet but clearly annoyed, “are you deaf?”

“No sorry I was thinking” James tried to Defend himself though he can clearly see that Regulus did not believe him.

“Is it because of the potion exam?” He asks numb.

“Maybe” James said “ I don’t know” he muttered barely hearable but Regulus seemed to have noticed it.

“Your gonna fail Potter you know that right?”

“That’s very helpful, thanks Regulus“, he rolled his eyes at him.

„Relax Potter,I wanted to offer to help you ,but it seems like you have no interest“ Regulus admitted looking at James and then continuing his work.

Regulus, The Regulus Black, offering help to James? Offering? Help? To James? Merlin’s beard James must be hallucinating or some weird shit because Regulus couldn’t have said that.

„Well if you wouldn’t be such a dick you would know that I am interested in getting help from you!“ James blurted out a Little louder.

“Hey, guys ,stop Slughorn is looking!” Marlene said looking at them from the right side of Regulus.

Now Regulus was the one confused „Merde, Potter Calm down“

„No Black I cant calm down, I’m fucking stressed okay!? And your not making it better“

James could feel his heart racing, he tries to breath normal wich seems not to work. Regulus looking at him makes it harder.

In the Next Moment ,James stands up unwilling and runs out of the class, his legs feeling like they could Break any Moment but he just continues Running.

Notes:

Translation
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Ne fais rien de stupide, petit frère– don‘t do anything stupid, Little Brother.

Je ne me ferais pas prendre, contrairement à toi, Freré– I wouldnt get caught, unlike you Brother.

 

The talk with James and Sirius will be explained in another chapter more specifically.

Sooo uhm …sorry for starting off with a Little Drama but life is Not always Fun and James gets to know this know.

I try to Upload once or maybe twice a week but since its school I probably can Upload more in Summer holidays

With that Said, have a nice Day!

Chapter 2: You know how to Ball

Summary:

Some quidditch and some drama mixed.

The Skittles make an appearance.

Notes:

hey guys!

Sorry for updating so late but I had no idea what to write in this chapter, still I tried my best, and you should know im not the best person to write slow burn so this is really hard for me but I still hope you enjoy reading it.
If you see any ggrammar mistakes, ignore them. Also sorry that this is so short I try to make the next one longer I promise.

Regulus

The Daylight was finally shining through the endless rain. Regulus finds himself sitting on a bench in the corner of the hallway where a lot of Students are now filling the Halls running outside to the courtyard. Just like most days he just watches them having the time of their lifes, most of these students are first and second class. 
Not spending his thoughts on them, he got back to rereading his Book, Quidditch history, wich he reads for the tenth time now.
He needed some time before the match to get his strength and courage together.

Once again he hears footsteps coming closer to him, it sounds like more than just one person.

He lookes up and meets the Faces of his best Friends. Pandora on the left with two ties. A green one around her waist to keep her brown skirt with stitched flowers on the right high. The Ravenclaw tie was normaly tied around her neck. Next to her is her twin Brother Evan aka Regulus’s first friend.

Evan and him slammed into eachother one night on their first day in Hogwarts. They both snuck out of their dorm , which they already shared but neither of them spoke a word to anyone there. So as they were standing in the dungeons they began talking and realised pretty soon that they have much in common. 
After that they became Friends and been the best for 6 Years.

He is dressed in his Quidditch robes and to Regulus shock he even wears Make-up wich happens really rare.

Barty, Regulus „Brother“ (they’re saying this to pretty much everyone to let it get to Sirius). Barty and Regulus shared a dorm (with evan of course) so they were basically forced to talk to eachother. They were talking about how much there parents annoy them and how much they hate them they began joking about cursing the life out of them. Bartys is the Minister of Magic, so he has high expectations for Barty, wich is really annoying Regulus has agreed. 
Barty and Him have a special bond, even more as him and Evan have.

Barty is dressed almost the same as Evan , just with regular clothes but still matching, just with alot of Make-up all over his face.

Dorcas Meadows is also with them. She was the one talking to them back in the middle of first year. There were Rumours she cursed one of her classmates for unknown reasons but they didn’t really care about that. She sat herself next to Evan in the Great Hall and Asked what they were up to that day. The day they became the skittles.

It was the best day Regulus has ever had. He would never admit this of course, but that day he found his own place, his comfort and his voice that was so often stolen from him. He found himself, he could be himself, they would never judge him for being a brat or being embarrassing,(wich he is not). 
He finally has something for himself, something his family or brother cannot take away from him.

She has that one Outfit She wears for every quidditch Match of slytherin. Even though she probably has to change it when some players aren’t playing.

The said Outfit is a black skirt (a Mini Skirt if its hot outside) with black ripped thighs, Black Boots with a Green bow at the back, her tank top is dark Green almost Black. She ties her hair into a half bun, the Upper half to a bun and the rest of her hair is down, instead of using a hair tie she used her tie for extra support. Her Make-up is the same as always just now Dorcas added a lot of Green eyeshadow and a Long Eyeliner with Stars at the end. And to finish it up She has her signature dark red lipstick.

“Archie you ready?“ Evan Interrupted Regulus’s Reading

“Yea soon just let me finish my book.” He says still looking in the book before Dorcas reminds him, „The Match starts in two hours and we have to meet with our team mates.”

Regulus Face shifts as he realizes, “Merde!” He says while he stands up fast and runs down to the dorm. Followed by the others.

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As Regulus and Dorcas are walking towards the Quidditch field they notice Potter and McKinnon coming from the left of the Castle. One of the few things Dorcas and Regulus have in common is that they both can’t stand them, not just because they’re Griffindors but because they think they rule the school, wich pretty much anyone thinks except, of course, the Slytherins.

And also the fact that Marlene ignores Dorcas constantly even though they were inseparable in first year.

Before the rumours started, Regulus saw them in the Courtyard every day, Dorcas entered the common room smiling and giggling after hanging out with her. She was so different back then. When the rumours began to make their way to everyone, Marlene distanced herself from Dorcas. She never left her dorm for weeks, probably cried all the time. Until the day she walked up to Evan, Barty and Regulus. She changed her whole appearance, Regulus noticed, she probably found a spell to change her hair permanently into long braids.
In first year she had her hair brushed out wich kinda looked cool, she didnt wear any Jewellery or makeup, because why would she?

She was a child but people talked about her and called her names, bad names, they were being racist and Dorcas ignored them. Anyway after she finally came out of her dorm she wore black clothes and boots with heels and more jewellery. Her face looked more lifted and not so chubby ,wich is normal for any kid. Her braids were first reaching her chest and now 5 years later her braids reach till her waist, she cut them, of course, otherwise she would have stepped on them.

Regulus isnt sure why Marlene didn’t stand to her *Best friend* but he was scared to ask Dorcas seeing she’s better now and in a good mood almost all the time and Regulus doesn’t wanna ruin that.

He proceeds to walk towards the pitch ignoring the Griffindors until, ”Hey Black!” James called out, “ Ready to lose?” He said laughing, ”Youre in a good Mood Potter” Regulus replied “ Ready to lose your honor?” 

“Ha as if” McKinnon laughed at him, “you dont stand a chance ,same as you meadows”

“Im not a mirror McKinnon, no need to mock yourself” Dorcas said, “and you Potter shut up”

Regulus tries to hide the smirk that is forming in the right cornor of his mouth at Dorcas comments. He knows Dorcas sees it. Still he tries to keep his Pokerface. 

“And you think you stand a chance Mckinnon?” He says mocking and letting them stay behind as they went to their teammates in the changing room.
Evan was already there, him and Barty probably ran here to be first.

“Wait someones missing”, Regulus noticed, “wheres Lucinda?”, he said.

Lucinda was the previous captain of the team till she got hit by a bludger two years ago. In the hospital wing she said that she would be honored to name Regulus the captain.

She said Regulus would be a better captain with his eagerness to win and his ability to play with all his heart and mind.

”She broke her arm” Rodolphus Lestrange, soon to be the husband of his cousin, answered from the back of the room.

“Again?” Evan asked letting out an annoying breath.

Dorcas changed into her quidditch clothes. She playes as chaser taking Lucinda’s Place. Along with Zabini, a talented young witch, who seems to be getting everything she wants and everyone she wants. Dont ask how Regulus knows, he just does.

Regulus chose to speak, seeing the match is about to start. “Ok guys listen to me now, We’ve been training hard this past week, so hard to destroy these Griffindors today so they will go cry in their dorms and dont ever try to claim they are the best team”

The cheering outside got louder signing the Griffindors have entered the field, “I hope every one remembered my plan?” Regulus asked, the team nodded, “Okay good, so we go out there and destroy those motherfckers”

Now the cheering came from them. “We only think about us not them, they are trash to us. Remember the pranks that humiliated our house!” 

“Hell yea!” Evan cheered “Then lets fucking go!” Dorcas yelled waving her hand through the air towards the door. 
Now everyone takes their broom and follows her outside.

Outside of the changing room they fly on the pitch from below the people and split up and every one flies in different directions.

Regulus is the last to fly out and as he does, he flies towards his people and threatens Barty, “If I dont hear you scream for us. I’ll let Dorcas send a blutcher directly to your beautiful face”

“If you want me to loose my voice than I’ll do” Barty laughed before Regulus continued flying around.

Now Regulus is in peace again, feeling the wind in his hair, his face, not having to walk on the ground, just feeling free and relaxed, until Potter has to ruin his peace again.
“Salazar no” Regulus sighed speeding up, but Potter continued flying after him.

”Black, wait please” , Potter screamed after him until Regulus stopped and turned around, “what do you want Potter?” He says annoyed.
James has big eyebags under his eyes, even though you cannnot see them that good because of his glasses but He never has them or regulus has never noticed them before.

”I wanted to apologize for my behavior in potions class, But you avoided me” He says, “You have nothing to apologize for Potter” how much attention does one person need? Regulus thought, “not everything is about you” he added. 

“I know Regulus” he sounded pathetic and desperate, “I dont wanna make everything about me I just want your help” 

“well you had your chance Potter and you missed it” Regulus replies and flies off looking back and seeing Potter stare at him before he pumped into one of the big podests. 

“Maudit, putain quel idiot” Regulus mutteres to himself in French, shaking his head watching Potter not entirely being himself, what is wrong with him, he thought.

This is Quidditch, The one thing we’re James Fucking Potter is brilliant in. He won the Cup everytime while he is captain. He played with the team and never got distracted. What changed?

”Qu'est-ce que tu as fait, petit frère?” Sirius said flying beside him,

“Merde, Sirius what the fuck.” Regulus totally forgot Sirius was playing as keeper for Griffindor, but of course Sirius would be try talking to him, even now.

“I didnt do anything! that dumb*ss flew himself there, why do you think its my fault if he cant control his broom?” Regulus says annoyed rolling his eyes.

”Calm down Reggie it was a joke, James is not himself, I don’t know what has changed but I think you play a part here.” Sirius sounded worried.

“Its Regulus for you, Sirius.” He answered, “And isn’t he your Brother? You should know what’s wrong with him.” Regulus said feeling his stomach drop.

They were interrupted by a loud whistle coming from Professor McGonnagall who is now walking on the field with a large brown box wich she lays down on the grass while Regulus and his team are forming a half circle above her, he and the seeker from Griffindor fly a little bit higher and a bit more in the middle then the others. 

McGonnagal opened the box and the bludgers flew straight in the air, as did the snitch, it circled around regulus and the other seeker, before disappearing to. 

Before the quaffle is thrown by McGonnagall she looked up and shouted worried “I want all of you going to bed in one piece today! Got it?!” Then she throws the ball up and whistled again to signify the start of the game.

The beaters of Griffindor were the first to catch the ball, Regulus flies higher to watch from above waiting for the snitch.
He hasn’t noticed Marlene before but now she was chasing after Dorcas who has the quaffle under her arm heading straight towards Sirius, wait no shes really heading for Sirius.
What is she doing? Now Sirius probably thinks the same and flies low to dotch the ball dorcas throws at him with such a high speed Sirius would have spend the rest of the year in the hospital wing.

”Meadows what the hell!” Sirius yelled flying to her. Regulus lowers himself to hear the conversation, “That was not necessary!” He said throwing his hands in the air, “oh how wrong you are Black” Dorcas shouted flying to get the quaffle again. 

“Black, tame your Monster!” McKinnon looked up and hissed at Regulus. 

She should tame herself he thinks.

Regulus flies higher to watch again, not admitting it but hes afraid to get hit by a bludger.
No idea if the Griffindors will get there revenge for almost loosing their keeper. But it seems like they do, as Regulus watches them getting more ignorant against his team.

Luckily Slytherin practiced much and better so they will not lose their honour again. 

He observes from above, he catches his brother almost throwing the quaffle at Evan who shows off his middle finger straight at Sirius who does not take that well, Marlene has to be the one to calm him down.

Potter playes as usual, despite his looks and he is clearly not in his right mind. Still playing the same as always.

Regulus hopes Sirius won’t make that much drama after the game… will he?

“And Slytherin scores another 10 points to their 40, which leaves Griffindor with 20 points” the Hufflepuff student announces through the speakers.

The slytherins cheer loudly including some of the hufflepuff and Ravenclaw students.
The slytherins usually get along with them more than with Griffindor.
There are of course some Slytherins who, like the Blacks, mostly his cousin Bellatrix and Malfoys, still despise them seeing most of the hufflepuffs are halfblood and muggleborns. Ravenclaws have a certain charm to slytherins with all their riddles and complications. Regulus likes them. 

The game continues with many cuss words being thrown between Slytherin players and Griffindor players.

This Game was going for almost 2 hours now and still no snitch in sight.

Some Players have been hit and had to leave the game. Some players are cheating, one only knows if they know how to do it, no Teacher or someone else noticed except for Regulus who studied every Quidditch book in the library, can clearly tell when someone did it to.

Suddenly he hears a quiet hissing next to his ear, he looks to the side before the snitch flies down.

Without hesitating Regulus follows. He flies straight through the Battle, which the game slowly turns into, everyone has there issues, some say Slytherin bewitched the quaffle, others say they somehow found a way to manipulate the Game.

Those pathetic Griffindors just cant accept that for once Slytherin will win again.

Regulus trained hard this year he analyzed all the Quidditch books he found in the library over and over again, with his allowance into the restricted section he also found a few untouched books, how he knows there untouched? As he pulled one of those out he almost cought himself to death from how much dust was on the book and the shelf.

The snitch heads straight towards the ground, Regulus reaches out, the cold air now reaches his fingertips, he can feel it through the gloves, He doesnt flinch because Regulus is so close to catching the snitch ,only a few milimeters away. Hes so dangerously close to the ground if he doesnt slow down or turns back up he might actually get hurt. 

"Come on, Come on" He whispers to himself, a tear runs down his cheek from the cold wind in his eyes, his eyes start to burn and filling themself with tears. No not know, not when he is so close to making everyone proud. He blinks for a second so the water doesnt blur his eyes completly.

He is so so close to catching that little ball, it keeps flying down until it suddenly turns to the side and flies back up on the left from Regulus.

”Fuck” He yells, how did it do that, it could have been so easy to catch it Regulus just had to stretch out his arm and Slytherin would have won. 

He will never forgive himself for that mistake.

He turns his broom around and follows the snitch. In the corner of his eyes he sees his Brother catching the quaffle Dorcas threw,  right back at her face, she protests, of course. He doesn’t care the snitch is more important. Dorcas can handle it.

”Oi Baby Black” Of course that voice is coming from Potter, who else has this desperate need to talk to someone in the middle of a fucking match Regulus is so close to win.

Regulus begins to slow down, unsure why, maybe it’s Potters fault from pronouncing the word Baby so fcking Desperate, it makes Regulus wanna scream.

He makes the mistake of looking to the Boy, Potter looks awful, not that he doesn’t do that always.

Well sometimes Potter looks good and some days he looks better than before. How does he manage to do that? He even looks good after training for the whole day. Don’t even start on the days in Summer where it is so hot he only wears jeans. Regulus could have stayed on that bench for the whole day just observing James.

Or that day in History of Magic when he looked over at Regulus almost all the time Regulus said something. He was so distracted by Potters Eyes, those damn brown eyes, hidden by his glasses.

No, what no not here not.. what is he thinking about. Clear thoughts. Clear thoughts.

He has to focus on winning this game, not focusing on James motherfucking Potter staring at him. Again.

Wait he’s staring. Why is he staring at him.

Concentrate Regulus, Pull yourself together. He forces himself.

“Get out of my way Potter” He hisses and Speeds up searching for the snitch.

Its to Late. Regulus sees the Seeker catch the snitch with both hands. Both Hands? Who uses Both Hands to catch a fucking small ball? 

”Griffindors seeker catched the snitch Griffindor wins the Match!”

Thanks a lot Potter, Regulus thinks.

The Griffindor team celebrates themselfs, Sirius throws his hands up in the air and screams his fucking lungs out, Marlene and James High five and scream as loudly as Sirius. 
The rest follows their lead and fly around the pitch and over the heads of the crowd.

 

Regulus is the first on the ground followed by Dorcas who’s just as furious as himself.

He tosses his broom aside and sits down on a bench in the changing room. His hands grab his curls so hard he might as well tear them out. 

All this hard work and for what? So he looses Again? 
Again to griffindor?
To those stupid jerks?

His hatred towards them grows from day to day, more and more.

If they decide to humiliate the slytherins again tonight Regulus will be prepared.

Notes:

I’m very sorry for this short chapter but I have to pull myself together otherwise this slow burn will end in 4 chapters😖

I will start writing the next chapter soon. And try to update as quickly as possible.

I hoped you liked it.

Chapter 3: Take the Moment and taste it.

Summary:

The Griffindors celebrate their Win with a Party, there are some affections that were never seen before.

Notes:

I tried to improve my writing with this chapter!!

This one is a bit longer than before I hope.

Leave Comments Please it would really help me.

TW:
-kissing/snogging
-Underrage drinking

James

They won.
They won again.

James and his team mates are celebrating like they just won a war, wich honestly makes this funnier, this game today was hard James has to admit. 

Slytherin changed something about their technique. Or maybe they just changed captains.

James can’t remember when exactly regulus became captain because he never was before. 
It was always that Hufflepuff girl who was way to soft.

But Regulus suddenly disappeared. Where did he go?

He wasn’t in the changing rooms when James entered. Wasn’t in the shower or at Dinner.

Is he this mad about loosing? 

James wonders where Regulus would go after loosing a Quidditch match.

Is Regulus mad at him? Because James wanted to get his attention in the middle of  a game?

He knows it was stupid, it’s stupid trying to start a conversation in the middle of Quidditch with a seeker who has been chasing the snitch all over the pitch.

James is the reason Regulus didn’t catch it. He knows. He is the reason they lost and he won.

He should be proud about winning again. But he also is not. He distracted Him. He practically won unfair, Cause Slytherin was hella good. They had more points then Griffindor, with or without the snitch they would have won. 

“Oi Prongs!” Remus walked over to him, “What got you so distracted here?” He asked calmly putting a hand on James’s knee as he kneeled down infront of him.

”Oh nothing it’s fine Moony” he said “Im fine”

Remus tilted his head to the side, one brow lifted “ You told me 3 times already” 

Oh. James did?

”Sorry Moons” James sighed “ I… my … I don’t know what’s wrong” he lowers his head so he doesn’t have to look at the phase of his worried friend. It sucks.

Remus rubbed his thumb on James knee. 
“Hey” he said, taking his other hand to lift James face up so he does have to look at him.

”If you don’t feel well, you can always come to me and the others” 

Remus smiles. 

There is something about the way Remus smiles. It makes you wanna cry and laugh at the same time. 
Remus is so good at comforting others, honestly it should be teached. James thinks. 

“Come on” Remus says standing up, pulling James with him. 

James smiles at him. Just so Remus doesn’t have to worry anymore.

They walk in the middle of the common room we’re all the Griffindors are dancing and singing together.

Of course Sirius snuggled Alcohol with him here. So some of the students are drinking on the couch or the floor. Some are snugging in the corner.

Who is that? James looks to his left corner to make out who is snogging there.

Some girl with brown curly hair and oh wait is that Mary? He steps closer, not to close, but closer so he can see better.

And who is the other person? 

Mary starts giggling and breaking their kiss. The other person can’t be a guy, cause the giggle from them makes it very clear.

”you wan-“ a burp escapes from the person Mary stands infront of.

”sorry, you want another drink?” 
“yea lils” Mary answered.

Lily?? Lily Evan’s? Lily Evan’s snogging Mary MacDonald?

James smiles brightly.

Lily slides her hands around Mary’s waist and kisses her longer again. Then she loosens and smiles softly at her.

”Hi” James says as she approaches,

Lily stops, looks shocked, she looks back at Mary, who is barely standing on her feet and James can clearly see her face blushed.

”Hi, James” she says quietly, “Di- did you see?” She muffles.

Lily looks distressed by the thought of someone noticing her making out with her best friend.

James understands, she’s the queen, one of the smartest girls in Hogwarts, the brightest witch in their year maybe she’s even the brightest witch in her age.

All the guys, Well all the guys James heard talking about her, have a crush on her.

he gets it, She’s absolutely stunning, her long auburn hair, wich shines even brighter in the sunlight, her green eyes are just so pretty to look at, the way she talks is so comforting and kind.

James would say God is a woman named Lily Evan’s if Marlene didn’t give him 3 hours of lecture about her religion and her god.

”See what?” James chuckles, putting his arm around her neck, resting on her shoulders. She scoots her arms around James waist.

”Thank you” she whispers.

They Walk around the dance floor to the table with drinks. He sees Fire whisky, Sirius’s favorite, Butterbeer, water and some juice.

He takes the cups out of her Hand, he’s surprised she didn’t drop them, and pours in some water. 
“No!” Lily complains lifting her hand attempting to throw the cup out of James’s hands.

He reacts quickly by lifting them up.

“Lily,you drink this now” He says offering her the cup.

She looks up at him, well as good as her eyes allow it, she looks down at the cup, hesitates and takes it.

“What’s this?” She asks lifting the cup up and down a bit.

”Whatever you want it to be Lily” James says smiling

”I want fire whisky” She muffles, “Is this fire whisky? James?” 
He tilts his head, not answering, lifting both brows.

“James?!” She says, Pushing him a bit 

“Answer me now” Lily commands.

He shakes his head, takes the other cup, filled with water and walks over to Mary.

Looking back over his shoulder to see a very confused Lily looking in the cup.

He chuckles turning his head back around to Mary, who’s now fallen on the floor.

She laughs as she sees James coming closer, she’s adorable he thinks.

“Hey Mary! What are you doing down there?” He kneels down to her.

She looks at him, her brown eyes slowly closing and opening again. 
He sits down in front of her, legs crossed.

Her blouse is opened a little bit, her lipstick is smeared and her hair is very messy.

”James My Boy!!” She yells, throwing her hands in the air. 
He chuckles, scooting forward till his legs reaches hers, he takes her left hand puts it down and hands her the cup.

She’s shaking so he doesn’t let go.

”Where’s Lily? I wasn’t finished” She asks tilting her head, almost falling to the side.

”She’s drinking over there by the table, she’ll come any minute” he reassures her, brushing her leg with his free hand.

She takes the cup to her mouth, with James help, and slowly swallows.

Suddenly the music changes and Queen starts playing. Oh no not now.

James looks straight to the dancefloor and spots Sirius coming to him.

”are you good Mary?” James asks receiving a nod from her.

He hopes she will survive this without having to vomit here.

“PRONGS” He yells pulling James up abruptly, “It’s Queen!!” He yells at him 

“I know!!!” James Laughs with him. 
“Come dance with me!”
 He pulls James towards the Dancefloor so swiftly James almost lost his arms.

They make their way through the crowd and start screaming the lyrics to dancing queen. 

They make crazy dance moves everyone seems to love. 

James and his Bestfriend dance to almost every queen song except for Bohemian Rhapsody. Sirius insists Marlene joins him on a duet on that one.

James is fine with that. He loves giving Sirius his moment and he can clearly tell Marlene loves it as much as Sirius does.

The one person who also likes seeing Sirius having his Moment is Remus. He’s so fucking obvious, James thinks, Sirius and Remus give eachother looks that say “ I wanna fuck you right here, right now” and they would probably do it if they weren’t so fcking stupid and talk to eachother about their feelings.

Sirius drinks up his cup and throws it away. 
He blurps straight in James’s face.

James turns his head away and scrunches his nose, “Ew Pads” he yells. “Sorry Prongs” Sirius giggles. “You know what?” He asks, James shakes his head, “I really wanna snog someone right now shall I just go for it?” 

“Depends on who you wanna snog” James answers his bestfriend.

”oh ok” Sirius nods his head, “thank you Prongs” 

James receives a very abrupt but sweet hug before Sirius disappears into the crowd.

 

James is left standing in the middle of the dance floor, until he sees Lily coming near him, well she’s more trying to stumble to him. He makes his way towards her and catches her in his arms right before she dares to fall.

She breathes hard, they fall to the ground because yes James is strong but not when Lily has her whole weight on him and he almost tripped catching her.

Normally he would carry her with one arm when her legs give out, he would do this for all of his friends, he was raised to be a gentleman, thanks to Monty for this.

His knees hit the floor so hard they could be broken, he doesn’t care only thing he cares about right now is Lily who is heavily crying in his arms.

James has his hands on her arms as he sits and opens his legs to pull Lily to his chest gently.

“What happened?” He says sharp.

Who the fuck would hurt Lily “smartest and brightest witch” Evans?

James will not consider murder but he will do something bad when one of his closes friends has a breakdown in the middle of a celebration of winning another quidditch game. 

He snaps out of his thoughts, takes one of his hands to lift her chin up so she has to look at him, he whipes one of her tears from her cheek with his thumb.

“Lily” he says softer, “What happened?”

She sobs, swallows, opens her eyes, Merlin they’re red and filled with water, she closes them again, swallows again, takes a deep breath.

”Mary” is all she manages to say, she swallows her sob opens her eyes and looks in James’s eyes “She- and… I- I thou-“ she says shaking.

”Mary did what?”

”Sirius made out with Mary in front of my eyes and she looked so pleased and completely forgot I exist” Lily manages to say before she completely begins to sob  again and breaks down deeper into James’s Arms.

James is shocked, Sirius did what? When he said “snog someone” He assumed Moony or anyone else but not Mary. So yea they were together last year but they broke off good and decided they were better of as friends.

Sirius wasn’t the best boyfriend, Mary confessed to James as she came to him and cried her heart out. To be honest James is kinda tired of comforting all of his friends who made the mistake of going out with Sirius “I’m in my rebel phase” Black, with all of his friends James means Mary and Marlene but still they came to him so many times, if he counted them together, the girls came to him more than Sirius was together with them.

James thought Sirius was out of this Phase, He gives Remus those signs, so James thought Sirius realized that he is in fact not interested in Woman, or his closest friends.

No James stopy is unwell she’s first priority now, he says to himself.

”Okay Lily” He takes both hands now to lift her face up, he brushes a strand of her hair out of her face, “Listen to me now okay?” She nods looking at him, “Sirius is fucking drunk, I don’t know how drunk but mental drunk, Mary is to, she doesn’t drink often, you know that, so the alcohol gets to her faster and harder, tomorrow she probably won’t remember” 

Lily looks at him but doesn’t seem satisfied,”James” she stops, “she said she loves him” Her eyes filling with tears again.

”No Lily don’t cry, I’ll find out what that meant okay?”

Sirius your in big trouble.

“Come” James says, lowering his hands from her face down to her hands, she holds on thight. He pulls her back on her feet.

”I’m gonna lift you up and take you to my dorm okay then you’ll rest there” 

Lily nods in agreement.

James bends his knees and puts arm under her kneecaps the other has a tight grip to lilys waist.

She slides her arms around James neck and rests her head on his shoulder. He picks her up and carries her towards the stairs.

Merlin she’s as light as a feather, James thinks. Is Regulus this light to? He bets, Regulus is skinny and was probably starved ,Sirius only said he was starved one time but didn’t mention Regulus, Still Regulus would look like an angel in James’s arms.

What?! Regulus? Angel? In the same sentence in James’s head? What is wrong with him.

Focus James.

He makes his way through the people, luckily not many, he reaches the stairs and spots Remus looking as flustered as Lily did. He not crying cause Remus is so fucking strong, so he can get over it, hes probably upset for the same reason as Lily.

“What the fuck Prongs what happened?” He asks, “Is she alright?”

James nods and smiles

“Are u alright moony?” He asks quietly cause Lily apparently fell asleep in his arms.

Remus nods. Looks at James with a questioning expression.

James tilts his head to the other end of the room where Sirius and Mary are sno- no correction basically eating eachother. Eww. He can see that from here.

”I’m gonna go upstairs, bring her in our dorm okay?” James asks Remus.

He nods staring at Sirius and Mary.

James turns around and goes upstairs, he pushes the door open with his leg.

He walks to his bed and places Lily gentle, she curls herself together. James places the blanket over her body. She smiles.

He leans down to her ear, with his right hand he holds onto the bed so he won’t fall on her, with his left he brushes her hair (again) away from her ear.

”I’ll be right back, Lily” He kisses her head and goes downstairs again.

He finds Remus in the same spot and state as he left him there. He’s still observing Sirius and Mary. Poor Moony. He looks like he could tear the whole common room apart based on his form grip on his glass.

“Moony?” James asks with caution, “Are you Okay?”

Remus turns his head to James, Remus has to look down a bit to meet James eyes, because Remus is tall he might as well be the tallest Griffindor James would guess. 

Remus nods, not quite believable. 
“Moons, come one” James says taking Remus’s drink and put it down on a table near by.

He gestures towards Sirius and Mary.

Remus sighs and shakes his head “No, no ,no” his brows furrow, he wrinkles his nose, closes his eyes hard. Takes a step back but James thinks fast grabbing Remus arm and shoving Remus with him.

”Sirius!” James yells a few steps away from them. Remus seems very unwell James can tell.

Godric no what is he doing, they are eating eachother, any minute longer and they will both stand here without clothes.

”Sirius!” James grabs Sirius shoulder and tears him apart from Mary. 

She looks quite upset by the interruption but it is for the best James decides.

Sirius’s face shifts suddenly as soon he lays eyes on Remus.

His brows are low, his eyes red, from the fire whisky of course, his lower lip is covers his upper one, he looks at him like a dog begging for food, only that Sirius is begging for affection from Remus.

Like he always does and Remus always falls for it, Sirius seems to take that for granted.

Remus gives in.

”What Padfoot?” He asks, “Up” Sirius says.

Pushing his lip mor forward, eyeing Remus with his dog eyes, that always seems to work.

Remus can barely stand as Sirius moves closer, he lets out a big sigh and lowers himself.

Sirius throws his arms up so Remus can have a form grip on Sirius’s waist. His arms travel down Sirius’s body to his thighs.

He picks Sirius up like he does this all day ,every day.

 
Mary on the other hand is holding on to James for support to stand. 

“I’ll bring you to Marlene, she will take you to your dorm okay?” James whispers in Mary’s ear. She nods.

Marlene is not far from them, so he’ll be back to his bestfriends in a moment. 

Remus is standing on the exact spot, eyes fixed on Sirius who has his hands over Remus face, in his hair or simply crossed in the back of Remus’s neck.

James comes to rescue his friend again.

”Come on Moons” 

Remus walks slowly as tho he is holding something very special and easy breakable thing.

James takes water on the way.

Arriving in the dorm. Remus places Sirius next to himself in his bed. Covering both of them in the sheets. Sirius must have said something seeing Remus face turning bright red.

James places the water on his nightstand.

He doesn’t dare to wake Lily she looks so peaceful, no one would have thought she was breaking down just 10 Minutes ago.

He undresses himself, not fully, leaves on his white shirt and trousers. He lays himself down next to Lily and falls asleep in a minute.

He’s sleeping next to an Angel.

 

 

Notes:

I hope you liked this chapter!!

The relationship between Remus and Sirius is quite obvious for a good seeing eye. Only they are to dumb to realise it. I tried to describe between the relationship of Sirius and the other girls.

Thank you still for reading this. <3

Chapter 4: Deck the Halls

Summary:

The griffindors try to get Marlene talking to Dorcas while they are still recovering from the night before.

The slytherins talking about some pureblood shit.

Notes:

Hii!!
So Uhm this chapter is short again. Sorry. I just have a writers block at the moment so I don’t know when I will post the next part but yeah I still hope you enjoy this one!

Regulus

Regulus must not be in his right mind, he thinks, all his thoughts are filled with that messed up quidditch game. 
Luckily his brother hadn’t made a big issue out of it. 
All his thoughts are wandering about James Potter and the way he watched Regulus play.

”Reg!” Pandoras voice snapped him out of his thoughts. She was sitting across from him in the great hall. Her long blond/white curly hair was tied together in a messy half bun.

“You thinking about someone?” She asks giggling to herself. All she gets is a blank face with an raised eyebrow from Regulus.

”About who exactly do you think I can spend my thoughts on Pan?”

Pandora looked at Dorcas who shares the same expression, the same grin, the same light in her eyes.

”About a certain Quidditch player perhaps” She chuckles. They look over to the griffindor Table where his brother and his friends are sitting down know.

Regulus clears his throat, “Wha- Who” he stops, sees James Potter looking over to him, grinning. Whatever can he grin over, is he mental? 
“Who do you think?” He asks nervously, trying to keep his emotions under control.

”A certain someone” Pandora says looking over to Dorcas, “Oh yes” She says smiling “A certain Captain, with glasses and messy hair” 

Oh Salazar no, How could they have figured it out? He was being so careful to not reveal his feelings.

“Are you truly that blind Regulus?” Dorcas asks wondering. Regulus is of course not that blind but his secret crush that no one had to know about was now not secret anymore.

“No, Dorcas I’m not” He grunts.

Barty and Evan start laughing loudly that the other houses are now looking at them. They are so close to falling down on the floor.

”Could you stop that” Regulus whisperes angrily. 
 
He takes a bite from his toast and swallowing it slowly, listening to the chattering of the slytherins around him.

The most of them are from higher ranks, Evan and Regulus included, they are convinced that they are the ones with the most power and influence on the rest of the students. They humiliate them to gain there trust or whatever they seek to achieve.

Regulus and Evan are under great pressure from there parents, they are not so happy about the company they keep.

The Rosier and Black family have unknown history together. The only thing Regulus and Evan know is the fact that both their parents hate eachother and are loyal to the dark lord. So practically speaking Evan and Regulus must, at some point in their young years, join the dark lord and fight in their parents war perhaps.

The thing they have in common is their pureblood nonsense, Evan is expected to Marry a rich pureblood girl from a fortunate family, better be a slytherin girl. While Regulus’s father chooses his and Sirius’s future wife so Sirius may inherit the black fortune and become lord black with his wife.

Sirius and Regulus have always dreamed about finding true love, though they don’t know what that feels like, they had many talks like this in Sirius’s room after one of them was punished once again and they just needed each others company.

When Sirius decided he’d “stay in Hogwarts” over the holiday Regulus collected double curses and went into his older brothers room just to lay in his bed and cry without a voice. Walburga once again punished him for not convincing his brother to come home and take his place as heir. 

As his thoughts land on that he drops the toast and suddenly lost all his hunger.

Sirius had once told him on the night before the start of school that even though they both are just brothers with an age difference of 1 year and a few months, Sirius still felt like it was much more, like he was beyond his years and instead of his parents raising Regulus, he got the job done. Sirius told Regulus no matter what happened or how much changes he’ll always be there for him.

Well that was before Sirius met James Potter and dared to introduce Regulus to him, for the second time in his life Regulus felt a warmness in his chest an unknown and strange warmness, the first warmness he ever felt was when his brother was climbing into Reguluss crimb for the first time and cuddling him to sleep.

Two brothers, one a few months older with a heart full of love, the other still a clueless little pathetic child with no idea of what life has prepared for him, cuddling eachother and being close together night after night.

“Regulus Black for Salazars sake!” Barty rips him out of his mind “stay here with your head won’t you?”

Regulus shakes his head “I am here what the hell”  

“Yes YOU are but not your thoughts” Evan says. “Well” Regulus says closing his eyes “if you’ll not have me here thinking about something you’ll never know, I will be going now so the next time you’ll find me, my mind will be clear and ready for your nonsense story’s”

Dorcas looks at him smiling but then looking down at his plate and smiling a little less “Will you not continue eating your food Archie?” She asks calmly.

Regulus stands up swallowing the lumb in his throat while thinking about food.

”No” he says swiftly and turns towards the door, ignoring the faces of his friends he noticed before turning around.

He didn’t know where he was going he just explored, hoping to find some peace. 

He finds himself moments later on the astronamy tower with a cigarette in his hand.

 

James

 

The day after a party with alcohol was always worse than the night with the alcohol. Sirius had a blackout and can’t remember anything he did, Remus and James swore to not tell him about the snogging part with Mary. Lily on the other hand is very upset with Mary and Sirius she hasn’t smiled a bit today neither she did talk to any of them, Mary noticed and was very confused and concerned about her.

James sits down next to Sirius, looking over at the Slytherin Table catching the sight of Regulus Black and oh Merlin he looks good, like gorgeous even. A grin forms in James’s face at the thought of Regulus at the Game. He was Marvellous. 

James still has that hole in his chest but he overplayed it very well till the game and that ended in disaster so he’ll never let anyone see how he feels. Okay well no that’s not true. He lets everyone see the bright side of him. The side everyone knows him for. He’ll hide the part of him where he constantly feels like a burden.

“Ok Prongs” Peter says, “What happened?” 
James looks at Peter questioning, “Nothing? What could-“ He stops because Regulus is looking at him and wait is he choking? Is he okay?

”Prongs?!” Remus says next to Peter 

“Oh yea sorry uhm where was I?” 
“Clearly not here” Sirius said, “You’re not here either Padfoot” Remus answered.

“Hey boys” Marlene says clapping James on his back before sitting down. “Watcha doing?” She asks.

Sirius barks out a lough “ Don’t you have eyes McKinnon?”

“Haha Black so funny” She says mockingly “Alcohol is definitely not good for you” 

Shes right, James thinks, he spares a look to his side to see Mary still so confused trying to get Lily to talk with her. She’s furious James has never seen her so angry. Actually he has never seen her angry, when he really thinks about it.

As he takes another look at the slytherin table he spots Meadows, he only knows that they used to be bestfriends but Godric knows what happened. Marlene refuses to talk about it and anytime someone mentions Dorcas, her whole mood changes abruptly. James hasn’t tried talking to Marlene about her and he’s sure he’ll never try.

No scratch that he’ll try now he cannot live in the dark about Marlene’s friendship anymore.

”M-Marlene” he asks carefully, she turns his head towards him and nods

”Uhm.. What ex-“ he clears his throat “What exactly happened with you and Dorcas?” 
As expected that wiped off the smile from her face.

”Why?” She asks stiffs “Curiousity” James tries and raises his shoulders slowly till they reach his ears.

He lets out a deep breath, “Why don’t you just talk to her Marls?” 

“No”

”Yes! I’m sure it’s not that hard!” He answers agnorant. 

He pears over to the slytherins watching as Regulus stands up and makes his way towards the door. Rosier and Crouch hesitate for a moment and murmur something to Dorcas before standing up to.

Dorcas is left there alone so it is the perfect opportunity for Marlene to go.

”Marls!” He says “Go” He gestures towards Meadows

Marlene lets out a big sigh but stands up “I hate you Potter”

James blows her a kiss with a smile on his lips.

He watches her walk towards Meadows not so confident like she usually is but still she listened.

”You think she’ll do it?” Sirius whisperes.

Yea, James thinks on first thought, I mean they are talking about Marlene Mckinnon, the finest, according to Sirius, Griffindor girl in the school. She is Quidditch Champion, along with James, She is talented in many things and has no problem embarrassing herself in public.

”Maybe” He says.

Sirius turns his head towards his bestfriend, questioning expression on his face. “Maybe? What do you mean maybe” He then asks

”I mean” James begins “Look at her” he stretches his arms out, “have you ever seen Marlene McKinnon so nervous ever in your life” He looks around the table seeing the same expression in each of his friends faces, “Exactly that’s what I’m saying, there was definitely more between them” 

He looks back at Marlene who is slowly sitting down opposite from Meadows. It looks like she asked and Dorcas accepted. He lets out a laugh. It’s hilarious seeing Marlene like that. 

“Okay Guys! Uhm I’ll be going somewhere” James announces rather abruptly, not even he knows why he said that nor does he know where he’ll be going.

”Uh Okay Prongs” Peter says confused “Hut don’t be late for the first lesson alright?”

James nods and smiles.