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October 1892
The rain hammered against the cabin roof like bullets, each drop echoing the hollow ache in Arthur's chest. He held the small bundle closer, feeling the tiny heartbeat against his own, the only warmth left in this godforsaken world. Isaac. His son.
Eliza lay still on the bed behind him, her face peaceful now in a way it hadn't been for hours. The midwife had done what she could, but sometimes nature took its course regardless of human will. Arthur had arrived just in time to hold Eliza's hand as she slipped away, whispering the boy's name like a prayer.
"What am I supposed to do with you now, partner?" Arthur's voice cracked as he looked down at the infant's scrunched face. Isaac's eyes were closed, his tiny fists curled tight, oblivious to the tragedy that had brought him into this world alone.
The midwife had left him with bottles and instructions that made about as much sense as Latin. Arthur's hands shook as he tried to remember her words, something about feeding every two hours, keeping the baby warm, watching for signs of... what? Everything seemed like a sign of something when you'd never held a baby before. Isaac's skin looked pale, almost translucent, and his breathing seemed too fast, too shallow. Or maybe too slow? Arthur couldn't tell anymore.
He'd tried feeding the boy twice since the midwife left, but Isaac barely took any milk before turning his head away with weak little cries. The sound cut through Arthur like a blade, helpless and desperate. Each rejected bottle felt like another step toward losing the only piece of Eliza he had left.
"Come on, son," Arthur whispered, trying again with the bottle. "You gotta eat. You gotta..." His voice broke as Isaac's tiny mouth refused the nipple again, his cries growing weaker. "Please, Isaac. Don't you leave me too."
The grief hit him in waves, one moment he was focused on keeping Isaac alive, the next he was staring at Eliza's still form and feeling like his chest was caving in. She was supposed to be here, supposed to know what to do. She was supposed to be the one holding their son, not lying cold under a sheet while Arthur fumbled with bottles and blankets like a fool.
By the time Arthur finally wrapped Isaac in every blanket he could find and mounted his horse, the baby had gone frighteningly quiet. Not sleeping, Arthur could tell the difference now, but that awful, weak stillness that made his blood run cold. The ride back to camp felt like a race against time itself, every mile stretching into eternity while Isaac's breathing grew more labored against his chest.
The gang was finishing supper when Arthur rode into their camp at Hangman’s Rock, his horse lathered and his clothes soaked through. John looked up first, his spoon halfway to his mouth, expression shifting from casual greeting to alarm at the sight of Arthur's face.
"Arthur?" Hosea rose from his place by the fire, his voice carrying that gentle concern that had gotten Arthur through more scrapes than he could count. "Son, what's wrong?"
Arthur dismounted with shaking hands, cradling the bundle against his chest. Isaac's cries were barely whispers now, more like the mewling of a sick kitten than a healthy baby. The sound made something wild and desperate claw at Arthur's insides.
"This is Isaac," Arthur said, his voice raw. "He's... he's my boy. His mama died birthin' him, and I don't..." He looked down at the pale little face, at the way Isaac's tiny chest struggled for each breath. "I don't know what I'm doin' wrong, but he ain't takin' milk proper. He's gettin' weaker."
The words hung in the air like a confession. Arthur had faced down lawmen and rival gangs, had killed men without batting an eye, but this tiny, helpless thing in his arms had brought him to his knees. He was watching his son die by inches, and he didn't know how to stop it.
The camp had gone silent except for the crackling fire and Isaac's labored breathing. Arthur looked around at the faces of his family, all men who knew as little about babies as he did. John stepped closer, his young face creased with concern, but Arthur could see the same helplessness in his eyes that he felt in his own chest.
"Three days," Arthur whispered when Hosea asked. "Born Sunday night. She... Eliza lasted long enough to name him, then..."
Miss Grimshaw approached with careful steps, her usually stern expression softened by worry. "Let me see him, Arthur."
Arthur found himself reluctant to let go. What if Isaac stopped breathing the moment he wasn't holding him? What if-
"It's alright," Miss Grimshaw said gently, taking Isaac with surprising tenderness. "Lord, he's so small. Arthur, have you been able to get him to feed proper?"
"I tried," Arthur said, feeling like he was confessing to murder. "The midwife left bottles, but he keeps pushin' them away. I don't know if the milk's wrong, or if I'm holdin' him wrong, or..."
Miss Grimshaw examined Isaac with careful eyes, her expression growing more concerned by the moment. "He's not getting enough milk, that's certain. And he's too cold." She looked up at Arthur, her face honest but kind. "Arthur, I helped birth a few babies in my time, but caring for one this young... it takes knowledge none of us have. He needs proper tending."
Dutch had been standing in the shadows, his jaw working like he was chewing on bitter words. Finally, he stepped forward, his voice tight with barely controlled anger.
"Arthur, what the hell were you thinkin'? Bringing a baby here? We're outlaws, not nursemaids. This ain't no place for-"
"Dutch," Hosea's voice cut through the night like a knife. "The boy's here, and he needs help. That's what matters now."
"What matters," Dutch snapped, "is that Arthur's lost his damn mind. We got the law breathin' down our necks, we got mouths and jobs to plan, and now he wants to play house with some-"
"Don't." Arthur's voice was low, dangerous. "Don't you say nothin' about Eliza. She's dead, Dutch. Dead because I wasn't there when she needed me most. I ain't gonna fail her boy, too."
The silence that followed was thick with tension. Arthur could feel the weight of every eye in camp, could sense the calculations running through Dutch's mind. But all he could focus on was Isaac's shallow breathing, the way the baby's skin felt too cool against his palm.
"Arthur," Miss Grimshaw spoke up, her voice surprisingly gentle. "The child needs proper care. More than any of us can give him out here."
"I know," Arthur said, his voice barely above a whisper. "I know he ain't thriving. I can see it. But I can't... I won't abandon him. He's all I got left of her."
John stepped forward, his young face serious. "What about findin' him a family? Someone in town who could-"
"No." Arthur's grip tightened protectively around Isaac. "He's mine. He's my responsibility."
"Then what's your plan?" Dutch demanded. "Because right now, that baby's dyin' on your watch, and all your good intentions ain't gonna change that."
The words hit Arthur like a physical blow because they were true. Isaac was failing, and Arthur's love wasn't enough to keep him alive. He looked down at his son's pale face, at the way those tiny features seemed to be fading even as he watched.
"I don't know," Arthur admitte+d, his voice breaking. "I don't know what to do."
It was Hosea who finally stepped forward, placing a weathered hand on Arthur's shoulder. The older man's touch was gentle but firm, grounding Arthur amid his panic.
"We'll figure it out," Hosea said simply. "We always do. But first, let's get this boy warm and fed proper. Miss Grimshaw, you think there's anything we can do?"
"I can try," Miss Grimshaw said, though her voice carried uncertainty. "But Arthur, what that baby needs is someone who knows anything about caring for infants.”
As the camp slowly organized around the crisis, Arthur found himself sitting by the fire with Isaac still in his arms, watching his son's chest rise and fall with each precious breath. The baby's grip on his finger was so weak it barely registered, but Arthur held on like it was the only thing keeping them both alive.
It was then that a soft voice spoke from the edge of the firelight.
"Mr. Morgan"
He looked up to see Maureen Lawless approaching, her auburn hair catching the flames' glow. She'd been with the gang for three months now, ever since Dutch had offered her protection after she'd killed her husband. The Pinkertons were still looking for her, but she'd proven herself useful with her quick hands and quicker wit. Still, she mostly kept to herself, speaking only when spoken to.
"I heard what happened," she said quietly, settling beside him on the log. "With the baby's mother. I'm sorry for your loss."
Arthur nodded, his throat too tight to speak. Isaac stirred weakly in his arms, making those soft mewling sounds that had become increasingly faint throughout the evening.
"May I?" Maureen asked, extending her hands.
Arthur hesitated, then carefully transferred Isaac to her arms. She held him with a confidence that surprised him, supporting his head properly, adjusting his position with practiced ease.
"He's not getting enough nourishment," she said after a moment, her voice gentle but certain. "The milk you've been giving him, it's not sitting right with his stomach. Some babies, especially ones born under strain, need something different."
"Different how?" Arthur asked, leaning forward.
"When I lived with my aunt and uncle in Boston, I helped care for my young cousins. Two of them had the same problem, couldn't keep down regular milk. My aunt used to prepare a special formula. Condensed milk mixed with water and a bit of sugar, warmed just so." She looked up at Arthur, her brown eyes serious. "I could ride to town tomorrow, get what we need. It might help."
Arthur felt something that might have been hope stir in his chest. "You think it would work?"
"I think it's worth trying," Maureen said. "And Mr. Morgan... caring for a baby, it's not something you learn overnight. But it can be learned. I could teach you, if you'd like."
The offer hung in the air between them, weighted with possibility. Arthur looked down at Isaac, who seemed slightly more settled in Maureen's arms, and felt that desperate clawing in his chest ease just a fraction.
"I'd... I'd be grateful," Arthur said, his voice rough. "I don't know the first thing about any of this."
"Nobody does, at first," Maureen said softly. "But you love him. That's the most important part."
The next morning, Maureen was up before dawn, quietly preparing for the ride to Valentine. Arthur hadn't slept at all, sitting vigil over Isaac through the night, trying to coax a few drops of milk into the baby every hour. By sunrise, Isaac's breathing had grown so shallow that Arthur could barely detect it.
"I'm going now," Maureen said, checking her saddlebags. "I'll be back before noon."
Arthur nodded, cradling Isaac close. "What if he... what if he doesn't make it till you get back?"
"He will," Maureen said with quiet certainty. "He's got his father's stubborn streak, I can tell."
The hours crawled by like years. Arthur paced the camp, Isaac limp in his arms, while the other gang members cast worried glances his way. Dutch had made himself scarce since the night before, but Arthur could feel his disapproval hanging over the camp like storm clouds.
It was just past eleven when Maureen's horse thundered back into camp. She dismounted quickly, her arms full of packages from the general store.
"I got everything," she said, slightly breathless. "Condensed milk, clean bottles, proper nipples for feeding, and some other things we'll need."
Arthur watched as she set up near the fire, her movements quick and efficient. She mixed the condensed milk with warm water in careful proportions, testing the temperature on her wrist, adjusting until it was just right.
"Now," she said, settling beside Arthur, "let me show you how to hold him for feeding. The angle matters, see how his head needs to be elevated? And you want to let the milk flow slowly, let him set the pace."
To Arthur's amazement, Isaac latched onto the new bottle almost immediately. The baby's weak sucking grew stronger as the formula filled his stomach, his pale color slowly improving as he drank.
"There we go," Maureen murmured, her voice warm with satisfaction. "That's a good boy."
Arthur felt tears prick his eyes as he watched his son feed properly for the first time. "How did you know?"
"Experience," Maureen said simply. "My cousin Tommy was the same way. Born too early, couldn't keep anything down. My aunt nearly went mad with worry before we figured out what he needed."
Over the next few hours, Maureen taught Arthur the basics of infant care. How to support Isaac's head, how to tell when he was hungry versus when he was just fussing, how to burp him properly after feeding. She showed him how to check if the baby was too hot or too cold, how to change his diaper without fumbling, how to swaddle him so he felt secure.
"The key," she explained as Arthur practiced holding Isaac in different positions, "is to stay calm. Babies can sense when you're tense, and it makes them anxious too. You're doing better than you think."
By evening, Isaac was taking regular feedings and his color had returned to something approaching normal. His cries were stronger, more demanding, and Arthur found himself actually grateful for the sound.
"You saved his life," Arthur said as they sat by the fire, Isaac sleeping peacefully in his arms. "I don't know how to thank you."
"No need," Maureen said softly. "I know what it's like to lose everything. I'm glad I could help you keep what matters most."
Arthur looked at her then, really looked at her. He'd known she was pretty, of course, but tonight he saw something else, kindness, competence, the kind of strength that came from surviving hardship without losing your humanity. She'd stepped in when he was drowning, thrown him a lifeline without asking for anything in return.
"You're good with him," Arthur said quietly. "Natural."
"I always liked children," Maureen replied, her eyes distant. "Always thought I'd have some of my own someday."
They sat in comfortable silence for a while, watching Isaac sleep. Arthur felt something shift inside him, not just gratitude, but a recognition of what Maureen had given him. Not just the knowledge to keep his son alive, but the confidence to believe he could actually do this.
He was an outlaw, a killer, a man who lived by the gun and the take. But looking down at Isaac's peaceful face, and glancing at the woman who'd helped save his son's life, Arthur Morgan began to think that maybe, just maybe, he could become something else entirely.
The morning sun cast long shadows across Hangman’s Rock as Arthur adjusted his gun belt, preparing for another job Dutch had outlined the night before. It had been a few weeks since Isaac's arrival, and the routine had settled into something approaching normal, at least as normal as life with an outlaw gang could be.
"You sure you don't mind, Mrs. Lawless?" Arthur asked Maureen for what felt like the hundredth time, though he knew the answer. She was already reaching for Isaac, her movements confident and natural.
"Mr. Morgan, if you ask me that one more time, I'm going to feed you to the wolves," she said with a smile that took the sting out of her words. "Go on. Isaac and I will be just fine."
Arthur watched as she settled Isaac against her shoulder, the baby's tiny fist tangling in her auburn hair. The sight did something to his chest, a warmth that had nothing to do with the West Elizabeth sun. Isaac had thrived under Maureen's care, his cheeks filling out, his cries growing stronger and more demanding. More than that, the baby seemed to recognize her now, his fussing calming the moment she took him.
"Dutch is gettin' impatient," Arthur said, though his feet remained planted. "Says I've been distracted lately."
"You have been," Maureen replied matter-of-factly. "And you should be. This little one needs you." She adjusted Isaac's position, her hands sure and gentle. "But he also needs you to provide for him. Go. We'll be here when you get back."
Arthur nodded, though something twisted in his gut as he mounted his horse. Dutch had been increasingly vocal about his displeasure with the "domestic situation," as he called it. The previous night, he'd made pointed comments about Arthur's priorities, about the gang's needs coming first. The unspoken threat hung heavy in the air, and Dutch's patience was wearing thin.
As Arthur rode out with John and Bill to scout a potential robbery target, he found his mind wandering back to camp. Was Isaac eating enough? Was he too warm in the heat? Maureen had assured him she knew what to do, but the worry gnawed at him like a persistent ache.
"You're thinkin' about that brat again," Bill said with a sneer. "Dutch is right, you've gone soft, Morgan. Used to be you could focus on a job without moonin' over some mick woman and a brat."
Arthur's hand moved instinctively to his gun. "That's my son you're talkin' about, Bill. And Mrs. Lawless ain't 'some mick woman.' She's family."
"Family?" Bill laughed, but there was no humor in it. "She's been here three months, Arthur. That don't make her family. Hell, for all we know, she's still got the Pinks following her."
"Enough." Arthur's voice was deadly quiet. "Keep your goddamn mouth shut on matter that concern Mrs. Lawless."
John rode between them, his young face tense. "Can we just focus on the job? Dutch wants us back before sundown."
The scouting mission took most of the day, and by the time they returned to camp, Arthur's nerves were frayed. He'd found himself checking his pocket watch every few minutes, calculating how long he'd been gone, wondering if Isaac had eaten properly.
He found Maureen sitting by the water's edge, Isaac cradled in her arms, singing softly in what sounded like another language. The baby was alert and content, his blue eyes, so like Arthur's own, tracking the movement of her lips.
"How'd he do?" Arthur asked, settling beside them on the sandy shore.
"Perfect angel," Maureen replied in her faint Irish lilt, though her smile seemed strained. "Took his bottles on schedule, slept for two hours this afternoon. Miss Grimshaw said he's gaining weight."
Arthur reached out to touch Isaac's cheek, marveling at how much stronger his son looked. "You're gettin' to be a fine boy, ain't you?" he murmured.
"Mr. Morgan," Maureen said quietly, not meeting his eyes. "Dutch spoke to me while you were gone."
Arthur's blood ran cold. "What did he say?"
"He asked about my plans. How long I intended to stay with the gang, whether I understood that this wasn't a permanent arrangement." She shifted Isaac to her other arm, her movements careful and controlled. "He made it clear that he sees me as a temporary solution to a temporary problem."
"And what did you tell him?"
"I told him I'd stay as long as Isaac needed me." She finally looked at Arthur, her brown eyes serious. "But Arthur, I can see the strain this is putting on you. The way Dutch looks at you when you're with Isaac, the comments the others make. They think you've lost your edge."
Arthur felt something cold settle in his stomach. "You think I should give him up."
"No." The word came out sharp and fierce. "I think you should choose what kind of life you want to give him. Because living like this, with Dutch's disapproval hanging over us all, with the constant worry about raids and the law... It's not sustainable. Not for Isaac, and not for you."
That evening, as Arthur helped Maureen prepare Isaac's bottles, Hosea approached them with the careful steps of a man about to broach a delicate subject.
"Arthur, son, can I have a word?"
Arthur looked up from measuring the condensed milk, noting the thoughtful expression on Hosea's weathered face. "Course, Hosea. What's on your mind?"
"It's about your situation," Hosea said, settling on a crate beside them. "With Isaac, and with Mrs. Lawless here."
Maureen continued her work, but Arthur could see the tension in her shoulders. "What about it?"
"Well, I been thinkin'. And talkin' to Dutch, though he ain't exactly receptive to the idea." Hosea paused, choosing his words carefully. "The way I see it, you got two problems that might solve each other."
"How do you mean?"
"Mrs. Lawless here, she needs protection from the law. The Pinkertons are still lookin' for her, and a woman on her own... well, it ain't safe. And you, you need someone reliable to help care for Isaac. Someone who knows what they're doin'."
Arthur felt his pulse quicken. "Hosea, what are you suggestin'?"
"I'm suggestin' maybe you two should consider makin' this arrangement more permanent. Legal-like." Hosea's eyes were kind but serious. "A marriage would give Mrs. Lawless a new life, new protection. And it would give Isaac a mother to care for him."
The words hung in the air like gunpowder smoke. Arthur looked at Maureen, who had gone very still, her hands frozen over Isaac's bottle.
"That's... that's a big step," Arthur said carefully.
"It is," Hosea agreed. "But sometimes the biggest steps are the ones that make the most sense. I've seen how you two work together, how natural it is. And I see how that baby takes to her. Seems to me like it could be a good thing for all of you."
Arthur felt his face burn. "Hosea, I appreciate the thought, but I can't ask Maureen to-"
"You're not asking," Hosea said gently. "I am. Mrs. Lawless, what do you think? Would you consider it?"
Maureen was quiet for a long moment, her fingers tracing the rim of Isaac's bottle. When she finally spoke, her voice was carefully neutral. "I... I'd need to think about it."
"Course you would," Hosea said, rising from his crate. "Take all the time you need. But Arthur, son, Dutch's patience is wearin' thin. You're gonna have to make some decisions soon about how you want to handle this. For Isaac's sake, if nothin' else."
After Hosea left, Arthur and Maureen finished preparing Isaac's evening meal in silence. The baby was fussy, picking up on the tension between the adults, and it took both of them working together to get him settled.
"I'm sorry," Arthur said as they finally got Isaac to sleep. "I didn't know Hosea was gonna suggest that. I don't want you to feel pressured."
"I don't," Maureen replied, though her voice was distant. "I just... I need to think."
They said their goodnights awkwardly, and Arthur retreated to his tent with Isaac's makeshift cradle. He lay awake for hours, staring at the canvas ceiling and listening to his son's steady breathing. The idea of marrying Maureen wasn't unpleasant, far from it. But the thought of asking her to tie herself to a man like him, to the dangerous life he lived, made his chest tight with guilt.
He was just beginning to drift off when he heard soft footsteps outside his tent. "Arthur?" Maureen's voice was barely above a whisper.
"Come in," he said, sitting up quickly.
She slipped inside, her nightgown ghostly pale in the darkness. Isaac stirred at the sound but didn't wake. Maureen settled on the edge of Arthur's cot, her hands clasped tightly in her lap.
"I've been thinking about what Hosea said," she began, her voice soft but steady. "About marriage."
Arthur's heart hammered against his ribs. "And?"
"I want to tell you something first. About my husband, my late husband." She took a shaky breath. "My uncle was a drunk and a gambler, and when he finally exhausted his last creditor, he sold me to the man he owed the most money to. Donal was twenty-seven years older than me.”
Arthur remained silent, sensing there was more. She pulled her shawl tighter around her shoulders.
"He was terribly cruel, Arthur. In every sense a man can be. I lived in fear for many years, and my family refused to take me back. I had nowhere to go and no one to turn to.” Her voice grew smaller. "My brother came once to give me money to help me leave, but we were discovered and it sent Donal into such a rage I thought he was going to kill me.” She sighed.
“There was a moment when I realized that I could either get up from the floor or die there. I don’t remember much of what happened next, but I had hit him in the back of the head with a fire poker, and I took that money and ran.”
Arthur felt something murderous stir in his chest. "Maureen..."
"I'm telling you this because I need you to understand, I'm still afraid. I'm afraid of giving that kind of power to another man. Of being trapped again." She looked at him directly, her eyes bright with unshed tears. "But I also know that Isaac needs stability. And I know that you need help. And I... I care about both of you more than I probably should."
Arthur reached out slowly, giving her time to pull away, and took her hand. "I ain't him, Maureen. I ain't perfect—Lord knows I got my faults—but I would never hurt you. I would never hurt any woman, but especially not you."
"I know," she whispered. "I can see it in the way you are with Isaac, the way you've been with me. You're gentle when you don't have to be. Kind when the world's taught you to be hard."
"So what are you sayin'?"
Maureen was quiet for a long moment. "I'm saying that if you promise me, really promise me. that you'll never raise a hand to me in anger, that you'll never try to control me or make me feel small... then yes. I'll marry you. For Isaac's sake, and for practical reasons, but also..." She paused, her cheeks flushing. "Also, because I think we could be companions."
Arthur felt something break open in his chest, something warm and bright and terrifying. "I promise," he said, his voice rough. "I swear to you, Maureen, I ain’t ever gonna be like that man.”
She smiled then, the first real smile he'd seen from her all day. "Then yes, Arthur Morgan. I'll marry you."
As if summoned by their words, Isaac stirred and began to fuss softly. Maureen moved to comfort him, and Arthur watched as she lifted his son with practiced ease, settling him against her shoulder with gentle shushing sounds.
"We'll be a family," Arthur said, the words feeling strange and wonderful in his mouth.
"Yes," Came her whispered reply, her voice warm with certainty. "We just need to make it official."