Video Game Lover // STREAMER AU

by ArashiKhumito

Summary:

yeah idk what I was doing with this

 

“Hello, CreationofHatred. I would like to partner up with you for a collab video I am thinking about making with you and a few others. Also, hope you enjoy the subs :)”

1x1 scrambled to look at the name of the person who had donated a whopping 200 subs in less than a minute. Their soul almost left their body.

The username displayed on the screen read none other than the legend himself, John_Doe.

 

lowk third time writing so I have absolutely no faith in this
also don’t look at how many comments there are I like to respond to people…

Notes:

I wanted to write something for the forsaken fandom but I have never written actual fanfiction a day in my life so here we are

I fell like this is going to be half a chatfic due to the chat but idk take it how you will and this is probably very ooc

Chapter 1: The killers become streamers?? (NOT CLICKBAIT)

1x1x1x1 was a popular streamer, well known for their gaming and (mostly) their voice. They knew that most of their viewers were most likely robloxians who just stayed to see 1x1’s character png and to hear them talk. 

 

Streaming had become one of their most favorite things to do. It helped them get at least some money, aside from working on patching servers for their father. 

 

..

 

..Right, their father . 

 

1x1 didn’t have the best of relationships with their dad. Most of it stemmed from a shitty childhood, which led to 1x1 resenting their father for many reasons. 1x1 had always tried to reel in their anger and not let it get too catastrophic, but they had always ended up hurting someone that they hadn’t meant to. 

 

1x1 blew a breath out and booted their computer up. They settled their headphones over their ears as their screensaver lit up the slightly messy room. Empty bloxy cola cans lined their desk and were strewn across the floor. 1x1 grimaced. They really needed to clean their room. 

 

 They slowly dragged their mouse over to click on their streaming engine. They yawned and shook their head. Just for a few hours, they told themself. Then I can sleep.

 

1x1 opened a popular game called ‘Road Blox’ (yes, I know) and started up their stream. It didn’t take long for a few people to start chattering away as they joined. 1x1 was only a few minutes later than usual. 

 

1x1 leaned back in their chair with a soft chuckle. They scanned the chat and thanked a person that donated. 1x1 read the name like usual and tossed out a few grateful words. They waited a few more moments before deciding to actually start talking.

 

“Hey, everyone. Thanks..for, um, joining..?” 1x1 was never good at introductions. They normally hated talking to people, but with streaming, they felt a little more comfortable. Probably because they were in the comfort of their own room and could shut the stream off whenever. “Telamon, whatever. What should I play tonight?” They cringed a bit at the use of their father’s name but shook it off.

 

1x1 took a sip of yet another bloxy cola and watched his chat’s mixed replies. They noticed the names of some other big streamers in their chat, a smirk making their lip curl up. They felt slightly honored to be recognized and acknowledged by big streamers (though they reveled in the attention a bit much). 

c00L3STK1DD: i lik tgat garden game!! :DD

 

..

 

☑️ V01DST4R007 has raided the stream!

 

☑️ V01DST4R007: H3YYYY 1X1 H0W5 TH3 5TR34M

 

nightshade:   I agree with @c00L3STK1DD 

 

TEAMBLUUU: you all are BORING they shoulf play a FPS

 

☑️ The_Mafia(lings): I think that you should play an RPG game. I have always enjoyed those.

1x1 hummed and raised a brow to themself. “Ah..thanks for the raid, Voidstar007. Nice to see you.” An alert pinged in their headset. They turned their attention to a person that had gifted–

 

A whole one hundred subs.

 

1x1 blinked in slight disbelief. Not one viewer had done that yet, not even the most down bad. Their jaw slightly dropped when the user did it again , this time with a message. 

 

“Hello, CreationofHatred. I would like to partner up with you for a collab video I am thinking about making with you and a few others. Also, hope you enjoy the subs :)”

 

1x1 scrambled to look at the name of the person who had donated a whopping 200 subs in less than a minute. Their soul almost left their body.

 

The username displayed on the screen read none other than the legend himself, John_Doe .

 

1x1 used to be a big fan of John’s content before deciding to get into content creation themself. They had always admired how he played games (definitely not how his voice sounded. Definitely.) and conversed with his viewers. 

 

1x1 could only stare at their screen in shock. Their chat was blowing up with excitement. 

darkheartofice: CLNGRATS???

 

S1x3r: im proud od yiu

 

☑️ V01DST4R007: H3Y 1 TH1NK 1 G0T 1NV1T3D T00!! H0W 3XC1T1NG F0R U5 👅

 

☑️ the_real_jason: im coming too and cg on all the subs dude

1x1 couldn’t stop the shit-eating grin spreading on their face. They were excited, and that was very rare for them. They swallowed with slight nerves and went to go look at John’s stream. 

 

John was just sitting in that one really popular gardening game on Road Blox. He was conversing with his viewers and laughing to some joke someone had said. 

 

1x1 just blinked at their screen. 

 

…

 

Dear Telamon, they were down horrendous for his voice. 

 

1x1’s fingers hovered over their keyboard. “Should I say something?” They murmured, half to their viewers and half to themself. They decided to run a quick poll, and to no one’s surprise, the majority wanted 1x1 to say something. 

 

They sighed. Truly, they had the worst (best) fans ever. 

☑️ CreationofHatred: hey john

1x1 immediately regretted sending the message. John probably wouldn’t see it. 

 

…Even if John didn’t see it, his chat did. 

 

pr33typr1nc3ss3s: is that who i think it is??

 

L0Lyoug0thaxx3dXD: JOHN 1X1 IS HERE 

 

Slasher_is_here: that was fast

As 1x1 was filled to the brim with shaky uncertainty, John had fallen silent and was reading his chat. 

 

“Oh, 1x1? Welcome to the stream. I hope you saw the message about the collab..” John’s voice snapped 1x1 back to reality. Their eyes darted to his face cam, which showed a just slightly more composed John Doe.

 

He looked nervous too. 

 

1x1 snickered to themself and let their fingers fly over their keys.

☑️ CreationofHatred: i saw the message

1x1 could hear John exhaling a shaky breath. They glanced back at his face cam and saw a big smile–part relief and part joy. 

☑️ CreationofHatred: i think im going to join you i just need a time and date

1x1 felt satisfied with themself. They looked over at their own chat and rolled their eyes. “No, not a date like that. You guys really are weird.”

..

John was shaking in excitement. 

 

One of, if not his favorite streamers had actually agreed to collab with him. 

 

He could die right then and be happy. 

 

John adjusted his face cam and smiled. “Good to know. I’ll reach out with more details soon, but I’m shooting for this Friday. I hope you’ll be free then. Voidstar007 and The_real_jason are free then, so that’s why.”

 

John had been debating on inviting a slightly smaller streamer, but still quite popular by the channel name c00L3STK1DD. Not yet verified, but still quite entertaining. He was young too. 

 

He would think about that later. 

 

John turned his attention back to Road Blox. He did have an audience to entertain.

Chapter 2: they converse on the purple app

Summary:

They talk. On discord.

Notes:

Let’s pretend that discord exists okay guys.. 😻

I don’t know how to write about 1x but pretend they’re still a green slime blob in this ok

Their design is basically betrayed but with black hair if you catch my drift. And in a hoodie and sweatpants

1x1 shut their stream off around three in the morning. Their mother wouldn’t approve of their sleep schedule as of late.

 

Their face twisted into a sneer. As if their mother would care about them anyways. 1x1 knew Brighteyes stopped caring about them when she had first sided with Telamon , that bastard. 

 

1x1 knew that Brighteyes had since married a new man named Shedletsky. 1x1 didn’t like Shedletsky either, but harbored less hate for him. The two men still looked awfully similar, though. 

 

1x1 trudged to the small bathroom in their dingy apartment. They looked at themself in the mirror. Tired, red eyes and messy hair that definitely needed to be washed. 

 

They groaned and started stripping their clothes off, throwing them haphazardly into the basket by the door. They felt lighter after their binder came off, the pressure making it seem like their ribs would crack.

 

..they could have taken it off sooner. But they kinda forgot.

 

1x1 stepped into the shower and grabbed some shampoo. They rubbed their fingers through their hair, sighing contentedly at the feeling of getting clean. 

 

Once the shampoo had been rinsed away, they grabbed some conditioner and started to work that into their hair too. They glanced down at their body and frowned a bit. 

 

They had never liked the way their waist curved out into their hips. They had tried switching to a diet that helped them gain a little more, but nothing worked. They hated how their frame looked slim enough to get blown over by some wind. They longed for a different body, but they supposed that they’d have to work with what they were given. 

 

1x1 sighed and washed the conditioner out of their hair. They washed their body off and got out of the shower, going to their room and throwing on a loose shirt and shorts. They yawned and went back to the bathroom to brush their teeth. 

 

When 1x1 went back to the bedroom and flopped down, it was almost four in the morning. They hadn’t realized just how long of a shower that was. But it felt good. 

 

They wouldn’t admit to anyone that the shower was their first one in weeks. 

 

But damn if it wasn’t nice to feel clean again. 

..

 

It was nearly two in the afternoon when 1x1 woke up. 

 

Not that it wasn’t normal for them to wake up that late. They had a bad habit of staying up too late and waking up late. 

 

They fumbled around for their phone, squinting at it groggily. They had notifications from Discord. They yawned and swiped open their phone. 

 

1x1 rubbed their eyes as they attempted to read the messages sent to them. Most of it was just Noli sending funny clips from his stream or just random videos. 

 

Some other notifications came from 1x1’s own Discord server, which they had made for their fans. Usually, 1x1 wouldn’t care to remember the names of all their followers, but they liked to see some regulars appear on stream.

 

The streamer moved on to the last of the notifications, their heart almost jumping out of their chest. 

 

John_Doe has sent a friend request! Accept   Decline

 

1x1 has never clicked ‘accept’ for something faster in their life.

 

They fumbled to hold their phone correctly, typing in “hrlko?.?” and sending it before their brain could catch up. 

CreationofHatred: 

hrlko?.?

sorry

hello*

 

John_Doe:

It’s fine, don’t worry about it lol

we all make mistakes

I have a feeling you just woke up anyways

 

CreationofHatred: 

and how did yiu know thar

 

John_Doe:

just something about the way some gamers operate 😛

besides, i woke up about an hour ago

 

CreationofHatred:

guess our sleeping schedules are both shit then

 

John_Doe is typing…

1x1 caught themself smiling and settled their expression into a more calm one. They didn't want to get so excited over something as simple as just chatting with another streamer. They sat up and stretched, bones popping with satisfying crackles.

John_Doe:

ig so

also are you free this friday

 

CreationofHatred:

I mean…yeah

are you taking me out John??

 

John_Doe:

oh telamon.

no i didn’t mean it in that way i swear

 

CreationofHatred:

you sure?

wouldn’t mind

1x1 nearly flung their phone across the room. Why did they send that? Surely John would just brush it off and think 1x1 was weird. 

 

A ping sounded from where 1x1 had buried their phone. They slowly grabbed it and read over the message John had sent. 

John_Doe:

i’ll set aside some time for just you and me

if that’s what you want

you know like once the other streamers leave

 

CreationofHatred:

i’m not opposed to it… 👅

 

John_Doe:

ok 

i mean i’ll be sure to set some time for just us

is there a time that works for you?

and by that i mean for the collab

 

CreationofHatred:

any time honestly

i have nothing better to do

 

John_Doe:

alr 

i’ll contact you when i hear back from the others

With that, 1x1 set down their phone. They sat on their bed and questioned a lot of things before getting up and going to the bathroom. 

 

They ran a hand through their hair. It felt..nice. Soft. They liked it like this. 

 

1x1 did their morning routine of brushing their teeth, washing their face, and brushing their hair. They yawned and shuffled into their small kitchen, where the last cup of instant ramen was waiting like light at the end of a tunnel. 

 

They sighed when they picked it up. They’d have to go shopping soon. They never liked going out, since it meant they had to talk to people who asked stupid questions all the time. 

 

1x1 filled the cup of noodles with water and tossed it into the microwave. While they waited for their food, they decided to finally respond to all the things Noli sent them. 

 

…

 

Spoiler alert, they didn’t watch a single thing. 

Notes:

I’m debating on adding c00lkidd to the collab or not..because the idea was to have all the in game killers (skins not included) to do it but since c00lkidd’s a lot younger I’m not sure..

Chapter 3: asking around

Summary:

John asks everyone when they can be online on friday (and gets convenient answers)

Notes:

I decided to add the little time thingys because I can

ALSO TRIPLE UPDATE WOAH

do not expect this many updates together like this.

John Doe wasn’t one to get flustered easily. 

 

Even then, he still found himself flushing at the messages 1x1 sent to him. He had read them over and over, trying to tell himself that the other streamer was simply joking with him.

 

John tossed his phone onto his bed and stood up, cracking his back. Jane should be out at work at the moment. John ran a hand through his hair and slipped out of his bedroom. 

 

He looked more refreshed than he felt. 

 

John squinted at himself and chuckled. His mind felt like it was being dragged through endless sludge. He closed the door to the bathroom and hopped in the shower, mostly to wake himself up. 

 

Once out of the shower, John struggled into a shirt, wincing at the pain in his right arm. He hissed under his breath and forced the shirt on. Telamon , his arm hurt like hell. Why couldn’t it have healed already?

 

John reluctantly grabbed the cast sitting on the bathroom counter, putting it on his arm with some difficulty and sighing. He really hated wearing it. 

 

But he knew Jane wouldn’t like it if he wasn’t taking care of himself. 

 

After finishing getting ready, John wound his way to the kitchen. He absently opened the fridge and stared at the contents like they would give him answers. 

 

They didn’t.

 

But the leftover spaghetti was almost beckoning to him. 

..

John hummed quietly to himself as he washed the dirty dishes. Him and Jane didn’t own a dishwasher, so they had to wash everything by hand. John didn’t mind. It was a bit calming. 

 

He dried his hands on a towel and went back to his room. He looked at his bed longingly, but had to hold himself back from just collapsing into it. 

 

He did have to grab his phone though..

 

John bit the inside of his cheek and snatched his phone up before the bed could start to seduce him. He had some notifications. 

 

John sat down in his gaming chair and opened his phone. Of course, the main source of the messages were from V01DST4R007, or Noli. John just skimmed through the videos without really looking at them. 

 

V01DST4R007: 12:56 pm

H3Y

1M FR33 FR0M 6-9 0N FR1D4Y C4US3 1 G0T 4 D4T3 4T 9:30

1F TH4T W0RK5

 

John_Doe: 3:09 pm

stop typing like that

and that works for me, i’ll just have to check with the others

 

V01DST4R007 is typing…

 

John moved onto the next person before he saw Noli’s response. It was probably something about ‘insulting the way he typed’. John could care less. 

 

John_Doe: 3:10 pm

hey jason

 

…

 

the_real_jason is typing…

the_real_jason: 3:15 pm

sorry I was finishing something

what’s up John?

 

John_Doe: 3:15 pm

oh that’s fine lol

I was just wondering what time you’d be free on friday

 

the_real_jason: 3:17 pm

around 5-8 or 9

 

John_Doe: 3:17 pm

oh great! that works perfectly

thanks jason

 

the_real_jason: 3:18 pm

np 

 

John smiled. This was working out great! He just needed to ask 1x1–and c00lkidd. 

 

He’d decided on letting the kid join. 

 

It would boost his channel anyways, and he could brag to his friends. 

 

The problem with contacting c00lkidd was the fact that the kid didn’t have discord. But John had obtained his father’s number at a partnership event about five months ago. 

 

John chewed at his lip as he debated texting 007n7. The contact sat open, the most recent messages being from about two months ago. 

 

The streamer then sighed. If he was going to let the kid join, he’d have to talk to his father. 

John

hello?

007n7

Oh hello John!

Do you need anything from me or Kidd?

 

John

yes, actually

I’d like to invite c00lkidd to a collaboration between me and some other streamers

I’ve invited the streamers V01DST4R007, the_real_jason, and CreationofHatred

 

007n7

Oh my!

C00lkidd has definitely made it far if he’s being invited to collaborate with big names like you guys!

That’s fine with me. I trust you guys.

 

John

thanks n7

it means a lot to have c00lkidd join us

the collab is on friday, and I was wondering on when he was free?

 

007n7

I see. C00lkidd should be free from 6-8. 

I wish I could let him stay up a bit longer, but he needs to work on his sleep schedule.

 

John

ah, that’s understandable

and that works for me!

thanks again 007n7

 

007n7

Of course!

 

Now that c00lkidd was successfully added to the collab, John turned his attention back to discord, to the person he’d been looking forward to talking to. 

 

..He couldn’t believe himself. It was like he was a teenager again. 

 

John shook his head. He was safe behind a screen anyways. It wasn’t like 1x1 would be able to see the smile that formed whenever he got a message from them. 

 

John_Doe: 3:30 pm

1x1

@CreationofHatred

@CreationofHatred

 

CreationofHatred: 3:32 pm

admins above what could you possibly need me that badly for

and it better be good

 

John_Doe: 3:32 pm

so uh..

i was just going to ask you about the collab..

but if you don’t want to talk to me that’s fine 😞

 

CreationofHatred: 3:32 pm

WAIR

WAOT

JOHM

DONR LWAVE

 

John_Doe: 3:33 pm

goodness

i can’t leave you now

 

CreationofHatred: 3:33 pm

you better not leave.

 

John_Doe: 3:33 pm

I won’t

I swear on it

 

CreationofHatred: 3:34 pm

good.

so what were you going to ask me??

 

John_Doe: 3:34 pm

oh i was just wondering when you were free on friday

FOR THE COLLAB.

 

CreationofHatred: 3:34 pm

you’re no fun 🙄

annyywayss

from whenever I wake up to around 3am

 

John_Doe: 3:35 pm

i expected as much

 

CreationofHatred: 3:35 pm

what does that mean??!!

 

John_Doe: 3:35 pm

whatever you want it to

..darling

 

CreationofHatred: 3:36 pm

WHAT

john

come bacl

@John_Doe  

@John_Doe 

YOU CANR JUST SAY THAT AND LEAVE

The two continued to talk into the early hours of the morning.

Notes:

john doe wants 1x1 BAD

also Noli has a date??? wonder why n7 isn't letting c00lkidd stay up on a nice friday night..

Chapter 4: we’re getting the band back together!!

Summary:

the sillies get ready for the collab

Notes:

I hc that their mics are absolutely horrid which is what gives them their unique voices

It was finally Friday. 

 

Not that it took long to get there. 

 

It was 1x1’s usual time for ending the stream, about 2:30–3 in the morning. They got out of their chair with a sigh, then jumped as theyaccidentally crushed a bloxy cola can. It sounded like a bomb in the early morning. 

 

1x1 glanced around their room and hung their head. They supposed it was time they cleaned their room.

 

Before they could pick up a single can, their phone started buzzing. 1x1 snatched their phone off their desk and peered down at it. 

 

John was calling them. 

 

..

 

“Hello?..”

 

“Oh, 1x1, you’re still awake? Actually, I take that back. I’m not surprised.”

 

1x1 scoffed with a slight grin. They turned their phone volume all the way up as they started to pick up cans. 

 

“You sound..different,” John said quietly. 1x1 raised a brow to themself, tossing an armful of cans into a bin. “And what does that mean?” 

 

“Your voice sounds a lot clearer. Not like when you’re streaming.”

 

“Ohh. That’s because my mic sucks ass.” 1x1 shrugged and went back to their room to grab the rest of the cans. “But Noli’s is worse. It glitches so much that his fans have just taken it and plastered it with his streaming persona.” 

 

1x1 could hear John’s faint laughter coming in through the phone. They grimaced at themself, stopping a stream of thoughts before they could even start. Why am I like this? They would never know. 

 

“One day, your fans will be able to hear how beautiful your voice is. One day. Once you get a new mic.” John sounded amused. 

 

“..you think my voice is beautiful?”

 

1x1 heard John sputtering and stammering in a panic, which made them start to snicker. “Wa-wait, I mean…yes? But–but you probably, you know, hear that everyday, and, and, um…yeah..” 

 

“I do hear it everyday,” 1x1 said cheerfully, which startled themself. They shook their head and dumped the rest of the bloxy colas into the bin. “But it’s a bit different hearing it from someone when you’re one on one.”

 

John was quiet for a bit. “I suppose..” he muttered. “And I suppose that you should be getting to bed. I don't want you waking up too late. We’re starting at six tonight.”

 

1x1 rolled their eyes. “Yeah, whatever. I’ll be there. Sleep tight, John.” 

 

John laughed. “Yeah, you too. Don’t let the bed bugs bite.” 

 

The call ended.

 

The room felt silent and hollow, just like it always had. 

..

1x1 woke up to multiple notifications from Noli. Again. 

 

They somehow opened Discord while being mostly asleep. They groaned when they saw how many messages Noli had sent them. 

V01DST4R007: 10:02 am

1X1

H3Y

H3Y

@CreationofHatred 

@CreationofHatred 

W4K3 UP

1 N33D T0 T3LL Y0U S0M3TH1NG

@CreationofHatred 

 

V01DST4R007: 12:50 pm

4R3 Y0U AW4K3 Y3T

1X1

1X1

1X1

1F Y0U D0NT W4K3 UP 1M G0NN4 PUBL15H TH4T 5MUTF1C Y0U WR0T3 0F M3 4ND Y0U

@CreationofHatred

1x1 sighed. Surely whatever Noli needed them for was done. But they couldn’t risk that fanfic being posted. People would start shipping them together, if they haven't already. 

CreationofHatred: 4:26 pm

whar do ypu want

ans you better nit have post3d that fanfic

 

V01DST4R007: 4:26 pm

F1N4LLY!!

4ND N0 1 D1DNT

1 JU5T W4NT3D T0 T3LL Y0U TH4T J0HN 1N5ULT3D TH3 W4Y 1 TYP3

 

CreationofHatred: 4:27 pm

yeah and maybe ir was for good reasom

 

V01DST4R007: 4:27 pm

Y0U B0TH 5UCK.

D1CK.

 

CreationofHatred: 4:27 pm

uh huh says the one with a date later

 

V01DST4R007: 4:28 pm

4ND H0WD Y0U KN0W TH4T?

 

CreationofHatred: 4:28 pm

john told me 👅

 

V01DST4R007: 4:28 pm

yeah i thought so smh 😐

D03SNT M4TT3R

4T L34ST 1 C4N PULL

 

CreationofHatred: 4:29 pm

and who said i cant??

..

 

Noli left 1x1 on read. 

 

1x1 just sighed and rubbed their eyes. Sore loser . 

 

They dragged themself out of bed and to the bathroom to get ready. They decided to just throw on their favorite hoodie and some sweatpants. They didn’t need to look good today. They weren’t planning on going out. 

 

1x1 started up their computer, grabbing their phone and opening it. They found that they had been added to a groupchat of all the streamers participating. Including c00lkidd. 

 

1x1 hummed at that. Guess c00lkidd’s dad is getting cracked good tonight. Never in a million years did I think I’d see c00lkidd with Discord.  

c00L3STK1DD: 4:40 pm

IM SP EXITED!! :DDD

 

CreationofHatred: 4:40 pm

your dad let you have discord?

 

John_Doe: 4:41 pm

he did, yes

i told him it would be easier for us to all communicate this way

also good morning sleepyhead

 

CreationofHatred: 4:41 pm

im going to chose to ignore that last part

but thats great

welcome to the big leagues kid

 

V01DST4R007: 4:42 pm

1 C4NT W41T F0R MY D4T3 L4T3R 😝

 

the_real_jason: 4:42 pm

shut up

 

CreationofHatred: 4:42 pm

shut up

 

John_Doe: 4:43 pm

we know, Noli.

 

V01DST4R007: 4:43 pm

wow you guys suck. 😐

BUT 1 D0NT C4R333 😝😝

4T L34ST 1M CR4CK1NG S0M30N3 T0N1GHT ✌️

 

c00L3STK1DD: 4:44 pm

uncle noli what deos cracking someone mean?

 

CreationofHatred: 4:44 pm

dont worry about it kid

uncle noli is just being a WEIRDO.

 

V01DST4R007: 4:45 pm

W3LL 3XCU53 M3 F0R B31NG WH0 1 4M.

1x1 turned their attention to their monitor. They set their phone down and opened Road Blox. They were sure they could sneak in a round or two of a popular game called Brosaken. They actually voiced in the game and had their own character. 

 

1x1 loaded into the game and checked what skin they had on their character. They smiled once they confirmed the skin to be the ‘Betrayed’ one, the one that looked like their character PNG when streaming. 

…

1x1 was so immersed in the game that they didn’t realize the groupchat was being called. Once the current round ended, 1x1 finally decided to join the call. 

 

“--ki ki. Ma.”

 

“Y-yeah-ah, wh–tever. Y-you g—s suck-ck.”

 

“Hey 1x1, welcome to..uh ..whatever is going on right now.” John’s warm voice cut through whatever glitchy mess was going on. 

 

“Noli, you really need a new mic,” 1x1 remarked with slight amusement. “It’s hard to tell what you’re trying to say.”

 

“Sh–t up-p-p 1x1-1. Like-ke y—r mic is-s-s any b–ter,” Noli shot back, huffing with clear offense. 

 

“I hate to say it uncle Noli, but I agree with Mx. 1x1!” C00lkidd said joyfully, his mic having a slight echo to it. 

Noli groaned. “See, even the kid agrees,” 1x1 teased with a smirk. 

 

“Alright guys, I trust that you all have your streams set up?” John said with a slight chuckle. 1x1 just sat and stared stupidly at their screen before rushing to go set their stuff up. 

 

A confirming “Ki ki ma ma” came from Jason, an ecstatic “I’M READY!” flew from c00lkidd, Noli said…something, and 1x1..wasn’t ready. 

 

“1x1? Are you ready?” John asked with a small yawn. Seems like he was still pretty tired. 

 

“I..give me a sec.” 1x1 quickly opened their streaming application and started it up. “Okay. I’m ready now.”

 

“Great! If you guys want to go ahead and start your streams then do that. I’m going to try and figure out how to get you guys to be audible for my viewers.” John then muted himself, and 1x1 followed. 

 

1x1 started up their stream and was immediately flooded with viewers. The chat was lagging from how many people were screaming about the collab. 

 

“I gather that everyone’s here to watch the streamer collaboration today?” 1x1 said as they absently watched people shout “YES!”, “mommy/daddy/smeggsy 1x1 real” and “FACE REVEAL WHEN??” in the chat. 

 

1x1 started to work on getting the call audio audible for their audience. It took a little bit since they weren’t familiar with doing it, but they got it to work. 

 

“Can you guys hear them?” 1x1 questioned their viewers. Once they saw a good amount of people saying yes, they unmuted themself. 

 

“Alright, I’m all set up. How about you guys?” 

 

“I-I’m g—d. It was-as-s pretty e-easy-y,” Noli said proudly. 1x1 scoffed and rolled their eyes. “Yeah, bet it was.” 

 

“I’m ready!” C00lkidd announced with glee. The slight echo his mic gave his voice made him sound a bit strange. Guess they all needed better mics. 

 

“Ki ki…ma.” Jason seemed to have been done too. 

 

“I’m finished. We’re all good then?” John said, making everyone double check before confirming. 

 

1x1 leaned back in their chair and smirked. 

It was going to be a long night.

Notes:

I’m edging you guys but I swear next chapter is gonna be them just playing games

Also noli is such a freak here I’m sorry (not)

Chapter 5: five idiots play the mimic (and die)

Summary:

they play the mimic and Noli loses it

Notes:

hello my brotato chips!!

also I haven’t played through/watched a playthrough of the mimic in so long…I was going off the wiki don’t tickle me

The streamers had barely started playing The Mimic on Road Blocks, yet someone was already screaming.

 

And no, it wasn’t c00lkidd.

 

It was Noli. 

 

1x1’s ears hurt from hearing Noli scream through his shitty mic. The streamers had made the poor choice of picking Jealousy chapter 1. It hadn’t even been ten minutes.

 

..to be fair, they were getting chased by a monster. 

 

Even 1x1 had let out a few yelps of surprise. But that was only because they had been caught off guard by the monster. 

 

C00lkidd was laughing his joyous ass off, cackling as John and Jason sprinted away from the monster. John was trying to make sure Jason didn’t die, since he had one of the poisoned rats needed. 

 

1x1 didn’t want to talk about how that was their first rat. 

 

They hadn’t registered when Noli stopped screaming. They tuned him out a while ago. The silence was nice, though. 

 

1x1 guided their avatar into a safe room, the monster stopping right outside the door before leaving to go find someone else to chase. 

 

They waited a few more moments before running into the room across from the one they were in. It wasn’t safe, so they had to be careful. They had already died multiple times due to Noli leading the monster to them. 

 

1x1 heard a faint squeaking come from a corner of the room. They turned themself to the side, and lo and behold, another rat. 

 

“I found another rat,” they announced firmly. John exhaled heavily. “That’s great, because me and Jason..well..” 

 

1x1 groaned with a small smile. “Don’t tell me you guys died.” Noli let out an unholy screech that cut out halfway through. “If you don’t want to hear it, then I won’t tell you,” John said with amusement. 

 

1x1 ventured out into the hallway, assuming the monster was now after c00lkidd from the way he was giggling. 

 

“Where do I poison the rat again?” 1x1 asked, walking down the hallway and happening to run into John. 

 

“Oh, follow me. It’s in the courtyard.” John started to lead 1x1 through the halls until they found themselves outside. “We’re safe out here. Do you know where the monster is?” 

 

“Aw, I died.” C00lkidd noted his death with the most sadness 1x1 had ever heard from him. “Bet the monster’s chasing Uncle Noli now, though!” He started to laugh evilly again. 

 

Noli proceeded to start screaming.

 

“Guess that answers my question.” John laughed as well and started to lead 1x1 to the room where they put the rats. 

 

The duo ran into Jason on their way there, who decided to accompany them. “Noli, we’re going to need you to keep the monster busy,” 1x1 huffed out. 

 

“Um-m-m..t-too-o l–te?..” came Noli’s glitchy voice. The trio all just paused to turn their avatars toward each other. 1x1 could feel the disappointment radiating off Jason through the screen.

 

Jason swiftly typed “really man?” in the chat before taking off in the direction they needed to go. John and 1x1 started running after him. 

 

1x1 paled as they heard the monster behind them. “Is..there a safe room around here?” They asked with a hint of urgency. John made a soft noise. “No. We just have to hope that we make it.”

 

Suddenly, the monster wasn’t behind them anymore. 1x1 looked back to see Jason running off with the monster on his tail.

 

“Thanks, Jason,” 1x1 blew out with relief. They did not want to lose their (first and only) rat. 

 

John continued to lead 1x1 into a room where the rat would be placed. 1x1 hesitated and turned to John’s avatar. 

 

“Do you think..what’s the monster’s name again? Riley? Rolex?--” “Rin.” “Right, right, whatever. Do you think she's going to come in here when I put the rat in?”

 

John made his avatar do a slow turn toward 1x1. Noli shrieked, then started laughing. 

 

“1-1x1. No-o, the mon-mons—r is goin-ng-g to go for a-a-a sw–m. Of course-se she’s g—-ng to c-come in-n!” Noli cackled. 

 

1x1 just sighed. Right. They were kind of stupid sometimes. 

“John, are you ready?” They asked, inching closer to the button on their screen. Their finger hovered over their keyboard. 

 

“Ready for what?”

 

“To run, dumba–..idiot.”

 

1x1 caught themself just in time. They did not want c00lkidd’s dad berating them.

 

John snickered, and 1x1 heard faint laughter from Jason. What great friends they were. 

 

“Yes, I’m ready. Do it, before she kills us and we lose the rat.” John crept closer to the door. 

 

“One of you has to stay in the room,” Jason said in the chatbox. “To make sure she eats .”

 

1x1 groaned. “I’ll do it..I guess.” John chuckled. “What a noble sacrifice. I’ll be sure to cherish it.” 1x1 grumbled out, “you better” before placing the rat where it needed to go and ringing the bell. 

 

John ran immediately. 1x1 looked around the room quickly and settled on a corner of the room that looked better than the others. They ran toward it just as they started hearing footsteps. 

 

They sat back in their chair and aimlessly read their chat. Most of their chat weren’t even paying attention to the game, just commenting on how hot John or 1x1 sounded, or how cool Noli’s mic made him sound. 

 

Or the others, who were spamming stuff about how fine 1x1’s character was. 

 

1x1 really needed to get their fans checked out. Especially with all the Mommy 1x1 fanarts they’d seen around. Not to mention the fanfictions. 

 

They shuddered at the thought. They nearly lost their soul when they saw and heard the monster’s jumpscare. They squeaked and jumped in their chair. 

 

“1x1? Are you alright?” John inquired with a worried tone. 1x1 nodded, though John couldn’t see it. “Yeah, I’m fine. I just zoned out and got caught off guard by the monster.”

 

C00lkidd started to giggle at that. “Imagine getting scared by the monster…but at least Uncle Noli is more scared than you, Mx. 1x1!” 

…

It took them thirty minutes. Half an hour. Three zero minutes. 

Just to get the rest of the goddamn rats. 

 

And imagine the streamers’ horror when they found out there was a chase scene right after. 

..

“OH-H MY F—KING-G SH-SHIT-T, HOLY-Y FUCK—G  HE-ELL,” Noli screeched as Rin chased them. The rest of the streamers were dead silent, locked the fuck in—save for c00lkidd, who was shriek-laughing along with Noli. 

 

…the chase wasn’t even that bad. 

 

Once the streamers had cleared the chase, they found themselves in a hallway with floating heads and masks. 

 

1x1 walked closer to John after two of the masks screamed at them. 

 

The five of them walked up a long set of stairs (which Noli complained about. Jason was tempted to throw him off if possible) and came face to face with the most horrifying thing they had ever seen. 

 

“What..the hell…is that ,” 1x1 whispered, staring at the thing that had just snapped John’s avatar up like a bug. 

 

“Not-t sure I-I-I wa—na f-find out,” Noli muttered. He stepped forward next, sprinting toward a patch of grass. 1x1, Jason, and c00lkidd followed as the ground rumbled and shook ominously.

 

The four crouched down as the big monster surged up from somewhere and began searching the ground for them. C00lkidd let out an “ew.” before laughing at it. 

 

John was quick to rejoin the group as they slowly made their way to the big bridge that they probably had to cross. 

 

While the monster looked for them, 1x1 observed the bridge. “How are we going to get across that?” They wondered with a sigh. “There’s barely any spots to hide.”

 

“We’ll figure it out,” Jason typed before running out too early and getting snapped up. 

…

It was safe to say that part took them an hour to get through. 

 

There had been many deaths, much screaming, and many lessons learned. 

 

And even after it all, they had to let someone go. 

..

“I have to go..”

 

“What?!” 1x1 exclaimed as c00lkidd started spinning sadly. 

 

“I know. But dad says I have to go to bed. And if I go right now, then he might let me have ice cream for breakfast tomorrow!” C00lkidd said excitedly. What a mood switch. 

 

“You get that ice cream kidd,” Jason typed out. “We can always play another time.”

 

C00lkidd struggled with reading what Jason had said, but seemed to get the gist of it. “Thanks, Mr. Jason! Bye everyone!”

 

After everyone had said their goodbyes to c00lkidd, the adults all looked at each other. 

 

“...wan-nna p-play s—thing-g else?”

 

“Sure.”

 

They all proceeded to hop onto Brosaken. 1x1 slaughtered them all.

Notes:

next chapter will be mostly 1xdoe (I think)

I swear

they are so in love god

Chapter 6: 1X1X1X1 RUN THEY FREAKED OUT IN HERE!!!

Summary:

they have quality time to themselves (and play block tales)

Notes:

black tales mention but at what cost

don't fry me for this one gng

I PRAY this reaches the right audience…
TW: 2020

yeah idk where this chapter was going but since block tales in set in robloxia then it should be the other way around for these guys right?…. (help me)

At the end of the collab stream, Noli was practically buzzing with excitement. 1x1 could feel it through the screen. To say they were done with the other streamer was an understatement. 

 

“Bye-ye, l-losers! I-I g–t a date-te to g-get to!” Noli announced cheerfully for the millionth time. 

 

“We know, Noli. Get out of here,” 1x1 groaned. They didn’t want to admit it, but they were looking forward to spending time with John. Alone. 

 

“Wow-w. So direc-ct. Jeal—s, huh-h?” Noli teased before promptly leaving the call. Glitchy bastard, always having to get the last word in. 

 

1x1 rolled their eyes again (they had done it so much during the stream that they felt like their eyes were just going to roll into their head) and decided to end their stream early. 

 

They were eager to spend time with John. 

 

And it seemed he felt the same way, from the way that he had also decided to end his stream early. 

 

“So..” came John’s voice, soft due to the late(ish) hour. “What should we play?”

 

Before 1x1 could speak, John spoke again. “And before you say ‘I don’t care, you can pick’, I want you to pick.” 

 

..damn John and his good intuition. 

 

1x1 scanned over the games on Road Blox, their gaze landing on a game they had played recently and enjoyed. It didn’t have the most active players in Robloxia, but 1x1 still enjoyed it. 

 

“Um..there’s this game.. it’s called Earth Tales..” 1x1 said quietly. The softness of their voice startled them. They were used to being loud, but whenever they spoke to John, they softened up. 

 

It was..weird. 

 

“Oh, Earth Tales?” John hummed. “I’ve seen a few things on that game. It looks interesting. Do you want to play it?” 

 

1x1’s cursor hovered over the game. “Yeah. I’ll have to start a new file, since I’m pretty far into the game. I’ve got about twelve hours on there.”

 

John whistled lowly. “Damn. I’ll bet you’re pretty good at it then.”

 

1x1 snorted. “Of course I am.” Their eyes narrowed. “But you’re going to have to work for the privilege of being carried.”

 

“Oh, I’ll work for it alright,” John mumbled. 

 

“What?” 1x1 blinked at their screen.

 

“..nothing. Don’t worry about it.”

 

“Right.” 1x1 bit their lip and entered the game. The familiar bright colors welcomed them as they chose a new save slot. 

 

1x1 skipped through the dialogue, as they’d been here before. John read through it swiftly and joined 1x1 in the starting house. 

 

“Follow me. Oh, and join my party. We have to go to the White House.” 1x1 invited John to their party and exited the house. 

 

1x1 led John to the White House, which would start the prologue. 1x1 skipped through the dialogue again and watched the cutscene again. 

 

A mysterious person appeared behind the president, Donald Trump, and tied him up(w person). The grandpa next to 1x1 got up and started lecturing them. They then hopped up to face off against the mysterious figure’s acquaintances with a gun. 

 

The fight was pretty easy, though 1x1 had to give some pointers to John. 

 

 The grandpa then instructed 1x1 to shoot at the weird time machine-thingy the mysterious person had. The shot caused the machine to malfunction, dragging 1x1, the mysterious person, and the sidekicks back into the past.

..

“Wow. That was cool,” John noted as the duo woke up in a house. “I know, right?” 1x1 said with a big grin. They were happy that they got at least one person into Earth Tales. 

 

A little boy then started yapping at them, telling them to get up. 1x1 sighed as they skipped through the text. They waited for John as he finished reading. 

 

“Come on, don’t worry about what the kid says. At least, not here. Just follow me.” 1x1 went downstairs, where their mother was waiting for them. 

 

The two were instructed to go out and find their older sister, who worked in the White House. John seemed a bit puzzled by the story. 

 

“1x1, would..would you mind explaining the story to me? Like, how did we get here?” He asked with genuine confusion. 1x1 chuckled and leaned back. “Alright. Follow where I go while I talk.”

 

“So, we, the player, get transported back to the year 2020. Once we find our sister, she asks us to go retrieve essentials needed for the big quarantine happening all over Earth. We have to traverse through multiple neighborhoods, stores, and try to avoid the alt and anime teenagers on the way. The boss battle for demo 3 is pretty hard. We have to go against K-pop stans, disguised as Donald Trump.”

 

John was silent the whole time. He took a few moments to process the summary he’d gotten. 

 

“How..interesting,” he finally mused. “I know, right? The story is pretty original for an RPG.” 1x1 smiled to themself. 

…

They spent the better part of four hours on Earth Tales.

 

It was safe to say that John had definitely gotten into the game. And 1x1 was more than happy to learn that fact. They hadn’t had anyone interested in playing with them before. 

 

1x1 yawned as they finally dragged themself off the game. They had promised John an hour before that if they beat the K-pop stans first try, they’d do one thing he wanted. 

 

And they supposed it was time to fulfill that one request. 

 

“So, John..” 1x1 started, rubbing their eyes as they fought off another yawn. It was around three in the morning. “What do you want from me?”

 

1x1 realized that they probably should have never made that deal with John. Too late to turn back now. 

 

“Well…” John hummed. “I..I’d like to see you,” he murmured. He sounded slightly embarrassed, which surprised 1x1. 

 

“..that’s it?” They asked with disbelief. If they’d made that bet with Noli, that cursed fic would have been published already. 

 

“Oh–yes?..is it bad?” John sighed and turned his own camera on. “There. So it won’t be just you.” 

 

1x1 admired the view. John looked tired in a good way. The way his eyes drooped made 1x1 just want to jump up and down, run around, then scream into a pillow. 

 

They stopped themself. That was weird to think about. 

 

“Alright. Only because I feel like I can’t leave you hanging.” 1x1 hesitated before turning their camera on. 

 

There was silence for a few moments, before John broke it. 

 

“..oh. Oh Telamon,” he breathed out. 1x1 tried not to frown at the mention of their father. 

 

“1x, goodness..you..” John opened and closed his mouth a few times. 1x1 smirked. “What? Like what you see? I’m gorgeous, I know.” 

 

1x1 watched John swallow nervously and look them up and down. Then, his face switched into a matching smirk. 

 

“Yeah. I do like what I see. I can see why you don’t have a face cam. If you did, then I think you’d have a whole different fanbase. I’m honored to be able to see such beauty for myself.” 

 

1x1’s cheeks prickled with heat. “O-oh. Wow. I..” they were speechless. Sure, they had been called hot more times than they cared to count, but hearing compliments from John made them have more meaning. 

 

“Was that too much? I’m sorry–” “No. That was perfect. I liked it.” 1x1 wanted to explode. They didn’t feel like themself. But at the same time, they felt so comfortable around John. Like they could push down the walls they’d constructed so carefully to keep people out. 

 

“As long as you’re comfortable with it.” John’s lips held a warm smile. 1x1 wanted to claw at themself and John. They wanted desperately to tear that soft look off his face and to claw their skin off. 

 

This man had no clue what was happening to them. 

 

1x1 bit the inside of their cheek. “You are way too sweet. Someone’s going to come and take advantage of that.” They knew firsthand what that felt like. They had avoided even looking out their window after that incident. 

 

“Like me. I could take advantage of you,” they muttered, more to themself. John chuckled softly, blissfully unaware of the inner turmoil 1x1 was experiencing. “And what if I wouldn’t mind you doing that?” 

 

1x1 scoffed. “Right. Sure. And what would you do if I did?”

 

“I.. um..didn’t get that far.” John rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. 1x1 felt the corner of their lips twitch upward. 

 

“You better start thinking ahead, then. One day, I’m going to come crawling to you with loads of ways to guilt trip you.” 1x1 huffed out a laugh. John’s shoulders shook lightly as he smiled. “You really are something, 1x1.”

 

“And what does that mean?” 1x1 asked indignantly. 

 

“Whatever you want it to mean,” John responded, amused. 

 

1x1 felt a sense of deja vu at his words. They glanced at their previous messages from John, and sighed to themself when they confirmed what they were feeling. 

 

“Aren’t you forgetting something?” 1x1 blurted out before their brain could catch up. They wanted to die when a look of confusion came over John. 

 

John opened his mouth to ask what exactly 1x1 meant, when it appeared that he remembered their previous conversation. 

 

“Right, right…” John smirked again. “You really want me to say that?” 

 

“John, I will punch you–”

 

“Hush, darling.”

..

It was embarrassing how easily 1x1 shut up. 

 

John raised a brow.

 

“..John, don’t–”

 

“I think I’ll be using this from now on.”

 

“..I’m going to kill you.”

Notes:

ew they're so in love I want them to die

wait..I'm the author! muahhahahah /J

Chapter 7: baby 1x1’s first stalker!!

Summary:

weird stuff happens to 1x1 and they have a deep talk with John

Notes:

hey guys what’s up

also shoutout to low_level whose fic inspired me to make this. you a real one

TAKE A BREAK MENTIONED?? Hamilton ref /hj

Later that day, 1x1 decided that they needed to go shopping. 

 

They were out of ramen and easy meals to make. Their fridge looked as bare as the desert. 

 

So, they wrestled their binder on, threw on a hoodie and sweatpants, pulled a mask over their nose, and walked out of their apartment. 

 

They hated going out. They never liked looking at people too long. They preferred to just blend into the crowd. They were grateful that their mic distorted their voice a bit, so the most recognition they got in public was that their voices sounded similar. 

 

1x1 pulled their hood over their head, shivering lightly. It was starting to get chilly. They probably should have worn a coat. 

 

They walked briskly to their nearest corner store. The doors opened and warmth rushed out to greet them. They sighed in relief and headed straight to where they could find some ramen. 

 

Unbeknownst to them, someone was watching their every move.

…

1x1 groaned when they finally got back to their apartment. Some random person kept asking them really weird questions, some of them quite personal. 1x1 had almost punched the other robloxian in annoyance. 

 

Whatever, at least they were home. 

 

1x1 dumped the bag unceremoniously onto the kitchen counter. They fished out a cup of instant noodles and filled it up with water. They put it in the microwave and dug their phone out of their pocket. 

 

Their thumb hovered over the Discord icon. They hesitated, before just going with what they wanted. 

 

Messages from earlier in the morning between them and John were displayed on the screen. They smiled faintly as they reread the texts. 

 

1x1’s face fell as they remembered why they had even opened the app in the first place. 

CreationofHatred: 5:12 pm

hey

john 

i need to talk to you about something

 

John_Doe: 5:12 pm

what’s up?

 

CreationofHatred: 5:13 pm 

buckle up this is kinda serious

 

John_Doe: 5:13 pm

I’m listening.

do you want to call?

 

CreationofHatred: 5:15 pm

i’d rather not tbh

its easier for me to tell you over text

 

John_Doe: 5:15 pm

I understand

 

CreationofHatred: 5:16 pm

thanks

ok so basically

I was at my local corner store when some guy approached me and started asking me a lot of weird questions

some of them were very personal

I think the guy tried touching me too

I just payed for my stuff and left

he lowk pmo

John_Doe: 5:17 pm

1x1

please listen to me.

you need to be really careful when you go out

 

CreationofHatred: 5:17 pm

I think i know that

 

John_Doe: 5:18pm

1x1.

 

CreationofHatred: 5:18 pm

sprry 

 

John_Doe: 5:18 pm

I really need you to be aware of your surroundings when you go out.

running into people like that is a terrifying experience.

my right arm got broken in an encounter like that a couple weeks ago.

 

CreationofHatred: 5:20 pm

your what?

who.

tell me

 

John_Doe: 5:20 pm

1x1, that is a story for another time

we need to focus on you right now. 

are you willing to call?

1x1 stared blankly at their screen for a few moments. Their chest swirled with mixed emotions.

 

They just closed their eyes and called John. 

..

“1x1? 1x, please turn your camera on. Let me see you,” came John’s voice, pleading for 1x1 to just be alright .

 

1x1 jumped and almost dropped their phone when their microwave beeped. “Shit! Hold on..” They turned their camera on and set their phone on the counter. They took their ramen out and placed a fork on top of the lid, letting it sit for a few moments.

 

“I was making ramen, so sorry about that?” They propped their phone against the microwave door and ran a hand through their messy hair. They winced as their fingers caught on a particularly bad knot. 

 

“You’re not injured, right? And that–that’s fine , 1x. I just need to know that you’re okay.” John had his camera on too, trying to look over 1x1’s body without seeming creepy.

 

Once he was (mostly) satisfied, he leaned back and blew out a breath. “I was worried, you know. I am worried. When you said someone went up to you and started asking you weird things, it just..” he gestured with his hand helplessly for a few moments. “It brought back memories that I was trying to forget. I was scared that you might have broken something too.”

 

1x1’s expression softened without their permission. “How come I haven’t seen your cast then?” They wondered quietly. “I don’t mean to be rude. Just curious.” 

John shook his head. “No, that’s fine. I just hide it out of frame. Somehow.” He got out of his chair and stood, his torso coming into view. 

 

Lo and behold, there was the cast in all its depressing glory. 

 

1x1 frowned. They went closer to their phone to try and look at it better. “Admins above,” they muttered. “Is it healing okay?” 

 

John sat back down with a heavy sigh. “Yes, it is. Thankfully. The person who did it was also arrested, so no need to worry about them anymore.” He glanced down at his arm. 

 

“That’s good..but isn’t it hard to game when your arm is in the cast?” 1x1 questioned. They started to eat their ramen, blowing gently before shovelling some into their mouth. Tasted as good as heaven. 

 

“Don’t tell anyone, and especially not my sister, but I..don’t wear it while streaming.” John looked away from his camera as 1x1 viciously seized their phone. 

 

“You what , John?!” 1x1 barked, a bit disappointed in John for not taking care of himself. 

 

“You know, since my arm is healing fine ‘n all.” John’s voice was weak compared to the shouting coming from 1x1. 

 

“John, do you know how stupid that is?! Take a fucking break! Your fans will understand! Especially if it’s something as serious as a broken arm!” 1x1 dragged a hand down their face. 

 

“ Please John. If not for your fans or sister, do it for me ,” 1x1 begged. “You could injure yourself further if you don’t take care of yourself properly!”

 

They went silent for a second, taking in a deep breath. 

 

“If you injure yourself further, I swear to every single fucking admin out there that I will go to where you live and I will force you to take a fucking break,” 1x1 gritted out. 

 

John’s face held a look of surprise.

 

Then, he smiled.

 

“It makes me happy to see that you care so much,” he murmured. “Which makes me worried, since I’m pretty damn sure we live in the same city.”

 

“We what–”

 

“ And ,” John continued, “rest assured that I might take a break, depending on my schedule this week.” 

 

“..John.” 1x1 swallowed some more of their ramen before speaking again. “I said take a break. Not take the fucking idea of one and just consider it.”

 

“Right, right, sorry..”

 

“You don’t mean that, do you.” 

 

“..nah.”

Notes:

what should I do next because I kinda want them to meet up irl…but I feel like it’s too early for that yk? Please lmk what you guys think

Also c00lkidd had a sleepover with bluudude while his dad’s back was getting blown out WHO SAID THAT..

Chapter 8: serious things happen

Summary:

1x1 has some deep thinking time, calls John and showers, and then has something strange happen

Notes:

dunno where I was going with this one but that’s okay!!

also why does John immediately respond to 1x1 ew he cares so much

this chapter feels shorter than the others

1x1 felt disgusting, to say the least. 

 

They needed a shower. 

 

Their bed felt suffocating, like it was pulling them into the dark prison of unconsciousness. 

 

They didn’t like sleeping.

 

Not after what happened last time they attempted visiting Telamon. 

…

The sharp sound of a notification made 1x1 jolt. They shot up and snatched their phone up. They were ready to hurl their phone at the wall until they saw that there were multiple more messages coming in. 

 

1x1 stared at their phone until the screen turned off. They didn’t feel like responding to anyone today.

 

..though, they supposed it wouldn’t hurt to check.

 

1x1 opened their phone and tapped on Discord. They saw a few messages from Noli and chose to focus on the ones from John instead. 

John_Doe: 9:37 pm

1x1?

are you feeling okay?

 

CreationofHatred: 9:38 pm

yeah ig

 

John_Doe: 9:38 pm

you ate today right?

washed yourself, brushed your teeth, put new clothes on?

got at least some sunlight?

 

CreationofHatred: 9:39 pm

yeah 

 

John_Doe: 9:39 pm

please give me a better answer.

i worry for you

 

CreationofHatred: 9:30 pm

im not sure why

 

John_Doe: 9:30 pm

1x1

something very serious happened to you earlier.

i can’t just sit back and pretend that i’m not worried about you.

do you feel dirty at all?

you mentioned that you almost got touched earlier

I’m sorry for not asking sooner

 

CreationofHatred: 9:33 pm

im fine

im gonna shower rn thougj

if you wanna csll or smth..

 

John_Doe: 9:33 pm

go shower weirdo

unless you actually want to call?

 

CreationofHatred: 9:34 pm

sure 

1x1 called John after fighting themself for a moment. They noticed the way that he seemed to pick up after only a second. 

 

“Really wanted to see me, huh.” Their voice was more monotone than they’d wanted it to be. 

 

“Oh, 1x…” John sighed out. He smiled when he saw 1x1’s camera turn on. They honestly didn’t know when or why he had started to care so much. 

 

“Yes, John?” 1x1 raised a brow. They dragged themself out of their bed, their blankets clinging to them like the hands of souls lost to hell. 

 

..maybe that was a bit dramatic. But it was still hard to get out of bed. 

 

“Oh, nothing..just…you know.” John's smile turned into a nervous one.  “Saying your name?..” 

 

1x1 made their way sluggishly to the bathroom. “And..what does tha….yeah. No. Not asking that.”

 

John frowned. “You sound more tired than earlier. Did you take a nap?” He was forced to stare at 1x1’s bathroom ceiling as they set him on the sink counter. 

 

“I did, I think. All I remember is having my eyes shut for a few seconds, then it was suddenly dark outside.” 1x1 yawned and started the water in the shower.

 

They let the water run for a few moments, getting warm. They stretched and looked at themself in the mirror. 

 

Horrid.

 

They looked back at their phone with their hands on their arms. They noted the way John was just staring at them with a worried look. They almost giggled at how protective he was being over them. 

 

“I’m going to turn my camera off, by the way.” 1x1 reached over to grab their phone. “Unless…you want to watch me str–”

 

“Just turn your damn camera off.”

 

“Got it.”

 

That, for some reason, got a small smirk out of 1x1. They turned their camera off and flung their hoodie into their laundry basket. 

 

1x1 stepped out of their shorts and underwear, giving themself one more glance in the mirror before stepping into the shower. 

 

They decided not to take too long this time, despite how good it felt, since they needed to get back to John. 

 

Why did they leave him on call?

 

1x1 wasn’t too sure they cared.

..

The shower went by faster than what 1x1 would have liked, but they didn’t want to bore John. They wrapped a towel around their body, snatched their phone, and trudged back to their room. 

 

“I’m done,” they reported gruffly. They heard a soft yawn come from their phone, along with a chuckle. 

 

“I think I…you know what? Welcome back, 1x. I missed you,” John teased lightly. 1x1 scoffed. 

 

“Yeah, yeah. Bet you did.” They went to go hunt in their drawer for some light clothes they could wear. They didn’t feel like streaming tonight. They..honestly just wanted to talk to John.

 

As odd as that sounded for them. 

 

1x1 pulled on a shirt right as John asked, “Are you finished with getting dressed?” 

 

1x1 turned their head to slowly glare at their phone. They hoped John could feel the weight of their stare through the phone. 

 

“You miss me that bad, huh? Can’t wait to see me?” They asked sarcastically. “John, I just barely put a shirt on. Calm down.”

 

“Sorry, 1x.” John sounded so apologetic 1x1 wanted to forgive him right then and there. But part of them knew that he wasn’t fully sincere.  

 

“It’s fine, John.” 1x1 pulled on pajama pants and flopped down on their bed again, turning their camera back on. 

 

They were hesitant to let John see them like this, especially without a binder or anything covering their chest, but the bright smile they got was worth everything. 

 

They still felt sorta bare, though. 

 

“Hold on, I’ll be right back. Actually, just come with me.” 1x1 scooped their phone up and carried it to the bathroom. They set it on the sink counter again and quickly removed their shirt so they could wiggle the binder back on. 

 

They were pulling their shirt down over their stomach again when a flash caught their attention. 

 

1x1 shoved their shirt the rest of the way down and hurriedly left the bathroom, grabbing their phone on the way out.

 

“John? John, are you still there?” 1x1 didn’t notice, but their voice and body were shaking. They peered at their phone with a nervous gaze. 

 

John’s expression morphed back into his signature worried one. “Yes, I’m here 1x. What happened? You look… scared .”

 

1x1 turned their bedroom light off, jumping onto their bed and going under the covers like a little kid. “Something..bright flashed when I was in the bathroom. I-I was..”

 

Once again, 1x1 hesitated. They gritted their teeth. John’s opinions be damned, they knew he would care less. 

 

“I was putting my binder on when something flashed. From outside my window. And..I…I didn’t even try to look out the window. I went straight back to my room.” 

 

John looked more concerned about the flash than the binder. 1x1 blew out a silent sigh of relief. They hated people who looked down on them just for being who they were comfortable being.

 

“1x..I think you should call the police. Don’t you think that this could be related to that weird person from earlier?” He bit on his nail. 1x1 noticed he wasn’t wearing his cast. 

 

“I…I don’t..I don’t remember their face.” 1x1 was tempted to bite at their own nails. They felt like scratching their skin off, but refrained from touching their arms. 

 

John was quiet for a moment. 1x1 had almost thought he’d left. “That’s..fine. Not really, but..admins above,” he muttered. 

 

“Do you want me to stay on the phone with you for tonight?” John offered gently. 

 

“Yes.” Came the immediate answer. 

 

And for the rest of the night, even when 1x1 fell asleep while still on the phone, John made sure that they were okay to be alone. 

Notes:

so yeah. that just happened sorry gng

ALSO OFF TOPIC BUT ME AND MY FRIEND BEAT HATRED AFTER LIKE AN HOUR OF TRYING??? I AM OVERJOYED

btw someone remind John to WEAR HIS STUPID CAST OOOHHH MY GOD

Chapter 9: VERY bad things happen.

Summary:

whatever 180 mood switch this is featuring John, very freaky 1x1, and…

that fuckass stalker

Notes:

*taps shiny new tags* they are there for a reason fellas!

warning: breaking in, 1x1

 

ALSOOOOOO VERY BIG SHOUTOUT TO totes not an arg maker (01100111_01101111_01100100) FOR IMSPIRING THIS CHAPTER (at least most of it)

please pretend that 1x1’s apartment has a fire escape 💔🙏

1x1 hadn’t left their house in a few days.

 

Their blinds were all pulled shut, windows and front door locked up tight. Their hands still shook every time they went into the bathroom.

 

Whenever they walked past a window, they looked at it with furrowed brows and a tense stance. 

 

1x1 had been calling John more recently, sitting through his streams while on call with the man. John would check in every ten to thirty minutes. 

 

1x1 fell asleep with John on the phone most of the time. They found comfort in knowing that if something happened to them, John would know. 

 

It was safe to say that 1x1 did not feel safe in their own home. 

…

1x1 woke up with a groan, rolling over and burying their face right back into the pillow. Soft laughter made 1x1’s eyes open again. 

 

“Morning, sleepyhead,” came John’s voice from somewhere in the blankets. 1x1 sat up and slowly sifted around for their phone. 

 

Once they found it, they looked at themself in their camera. Admins, they looked horrible. 

 

1x1 ran a hand through their hair and tried to make it look a little better. “Yeah, hello to you too..” they mumbled, throat dry from sleep. 

 

“Why are you fixing your bedhead already?” John let out a yawn himself and smiled. 1x1 raised a brow. “Um…because i look absolutely horrible right now?” 

 

John waved a hand. “Nonsense. You look great.” 

 

1x1 noticed that John was in a white t-shirt instead of his regular yellow hoodie. His hair also looked a bit messy. 

 

“Did you also just wake up?” 1x1 asked with amusement. John sighed in defeat. 

 

“You caught me. Not that I was trying to hide it or anything.” John shrugged and picked up his own phone, taking 1x1 to the bathroom with him to get ready. 

 

“Yeah..” 1x1 shamelessly looked over John’s body as his phone was set on the counter. John took notice of their distractedness. 

 

“What, like what you see? I’ve noticed you like to look at me.” John smirked and flexed his arm muscles. 

 

Holy admins.

 

1x1 had never wanted to be suffocated more in their life. 

 

They envied the shirt that John wore. 

 

“Uh huh. You’re very full of yourself.” 1x1 tore their gaze away from their phone. Were they okay? They didn’t know. 

 

“You didn’t deny it, 1x.” John just laughed and started to brush his teeth. 1x1 decided that it was probably time to get ready too. 

 

Up and out of the bed they went. They set their phone on the nightstand as they picked out some clothes to wear. 

 

1x1 walked back to their phone after a few minutes, seeing John back in his bedroom–

 

–with his shirt off.

 

1x1 could genuinely pass out. Right then and there. 

 

Admins, was John built. 

 

His arms were one thing, but his torso was another. His stomach held a bit of extra fat, but not much. His waist looked so snatched that 1x1 felt like they could wrap their hands around it. 

 

There was only the slightest bit of hair, so clearly John took care of himself. The way his waist dipped and curved back out to the shape of his hips was insane. 

 

And don’t even get 1x1 started on that trail of hair that disappeared past John’s waistband. Happy trails lead to happy meals–

 

“--x. 1x1.” 1x1 snapped out of their absolutely shameless looking and tossed their phone away. 

 

“Shit! My hand slipped,” They lied as they went to retrieve their phone. Their eyes widened like saucers when they were met with John’s shirtless body. 

 

“Damn it John, put a fucking shirt on!” 1x1 snapped, face heating up as they started to get dressed. 

 

“I saw you looking, 1x. Don’t pretend like you didn’t like what you saw.” Somehow, 1x1 could feel John’s stare through the phone. 

 

“So what if I did? You’re not getting to look at me!” 1x1 growled, stomping over and hurriedly turning their camera off. They could hear John snickering as they quickly dressed themself. 

 

“Goodness, so snappy today,” John teased. 1x1 just rolled their eyes and brought John to the bathroom. 

 

“Just be quiet, won’t you?” 

 

“You like when I talk.”

…

Time really can fly by when you!re having fun. 

 

It was nearly eleven at night when 1x1 realized how long they’d been talking for. 

 

“John.. it’s almost eleven,” they whispered. John made a noise of confusion, then sighed. “You’re right. You should go to sleep. You’ve been waking up later and later recently.” 

 

1x1 just groaned. “Yeah, but…okay.” They gave in with their own sigh. “At least let me ask where you live? You said before that we might live in the same city.” 

 

“Oh, right.” John nodded and leaned back in his own bed. He wasn’t streaming tonight. “I–...” 

 

He suddenly stopped talking. 1x1 was about to ask why, until their phone started blowing up with messages. 

V01DST4R007: 10:52 pm

GUY5 GU3SS WH0 JU5T CR4CK3D 4 B4DD13 (4G41N)

M3 👅✌

TH4T5 R1GHT

4 F3W D4Y5 4G0 W3 H4D A D4T3 R1GHT??

TH3N…

W3 FUCK3D.

G00D.

1 3V3N H4D A TURN 0N TH3 B0TT0M

 

CreationofHatred: 10:54 pm

first pf all noli sybau

second have you forgotten theres still a kid in here??

 

John_Doe: 10:54 pm

thank you, 1x

 

CreationofHatred: 10:54 pm

anything for you bbg 😻

 

the_real_jason: 10:55 pm

ew who let the gays in here

 

CreationofHatred: 10:55 pm

thats kinda…homophobic jason 

 

the_real_jason: 10:55 pm

sybau 💔

1x1 was about to respond to that when they heard a weird noise. 

 

They sat up and held themself very still. 

 

A faint scratching sound could be heard from somewhere in the apartment. Maybe from the outside, but it sounded far too close. 

 

1x1 crept toward the pair of shoes they kept in the corner of their room. 

 

“1x1? Are you okay? You’re very quiet..” John asked worriedly. 1x1 turned the volume down on their phone. 

 

“I hear something,” they whispered with a shaky voice. They cracked open the window leading to the fire escape outside. 

 

John had fallen silent now too. 

 

1x1 was ready to run, adrenaline starting to kick in. It was probably just nothing, and they were being paranoid for no reason–

 

Footsteps.

 

1x1 froze .

 

They were scared. 

 

Those footsteps didn’t belong to them. 

 

1x1 could hear the other person rummaging through drawers, lights being flicked on and then off. 

 

They couldn’t move. They couldn’t push themself. 

 

But as soon as the door handle to their room turned, they were out of the window in an instant. 

 

They were shaking badly as they made their way down the fire escape. They felt like they were going to fall. 

 

1x1 didn’t register that they had started running until five minutes after hitting the ground. 

 

“J-John? John? Are you still there?” 1x1 held their phone up desperately, trying to block out all the terrifying thoughts running through them. 

 

“I’m here, 1x. I’m here.” 1x1 could feel themself relaxing as soon as they heard John’s voice. Their heavy breathing was loud, too loud in the quiet air. 

 

“I know I didn’t get to tell you where I lived earlier, but I live..” As John gave 1x1 his address, they realized that they didn’t even live that far from each other. 

 

1x1 started running again. They were planing to maybe speed walk to John’s house, but they had heard footsteps echoing off the buildings that didn’t belong to them. 

 

..

 

Maybe it was the adrenaline, maybe it was 1x1 blanking out, but they made it to John’s house faster than they thought. 

 

1x1 triple checked that they had the right address before shuffling up to the door and knocking on it. They were freezing, they just realized. 

 

It was cold as hell out. 

 

And what was 1x1 in?

 

A loose t-shirt and some damn shorts.

 

Who could blame them? They didn’t have time to grab anything. 

 

The door swung open, startling 1x1. 

 

There, in all his worried glory, was John. 

Notes:

hey guys so like we’re still friends right

Chapter 10: TEHY AHVE A SLEEPOVER NO CLICKBAIT

Summary:

they are silly and happy + noli and Jason being homophobic

Notes:

EARLY CHAPTER NO WAY

I liked writing this one

I giggled and twirled my hair

1x1 shivered in the cold air. They wished they had at least grabbed a sweater or something. 

 

John looked 1x1 up and down before moving aside. “Please come in. You look like you’re freezing.”

 

1x1 snorted. “I am,” they replied dryly. They quickly stepped into the house, taking off their shoes with trembling fingers. 

 

John shut the door and went into the kitchen. He beckoned for 1x1 to follow. 

 

1x1 quietly padded over, hands on their arms as they tried to warm themself up. It was warm inside the house, but the kitchen was still pretty cold. 

 

John motioned for 1x1 to sit at the small island counter and disappeared into another room. He came back with a blanket and gently draped it over 1x1. 

 

“This isn’t..exactly…well. This isn’t how I expected us to meet,” John said quietly. He leaned on the counter and offered a smile to 1x1. 

 

1x1 pulled the blanket tighter around themself, feeling a little better now. “Me either. I thought we would meet up at a convention or something.” 

 

John nodded as he pushed off the counter and grabbed a pot. He started to fill the pot with some water. “Me too. But..I’m still glad we got to meet. Even if the circumstances are less than ideal.” 

 

1x1 pillowed their head on their arms as they watched John. He put the pot onto the stove and let the water heat up. 

 

John glanced over at 1x1 and smiled. “Don’t get too comfy over there. I don’t want you sleeping down here.” They just groaned in response. 

 

After a few minutes, the water was done heating up. John got two mugs out and started to do something. 1x1 couldn’t see very well from their position, but they trusted John not to poison them. 

 

A mug was then set down in front of them. 

 

1x1 slowly raised their head, not wanting to feel dizzy if they looked up too fast. They wrapped their cold hands around the mug and shuddered. 

 

It was so warm.

 

1x1 bet that John was warmer. 

 

They looked into their cup and saw a tea bag sitting in it. 

 

“I..don’t know if you drink tea or not, but it should help warm you up.” John was holding his own mug, blowing gently before taking a tentative sip. He winced and set the pot in the sink.

“Come on, let’s go upstairs.”

 

“Wow, you want me in your bed already? Take me out to dinner first, John.” 1x1 got off of their chair, making sure that the blanket didn’t fall off of them. 

 

John sighed with exasperated affection and shook his head. “You know that’s not what I meant..but you can sleep in my bed tonight.” 

 

1x1 eagerly followed behind John as they went upstairs. The air got noticeably warmer.

 

John gently nudged a door open, gesturing for 1x1 to go in. They hesitated when walking in. It felt like a dream, if they were being honest. 

 

1x1 looked around the room cautiously. It looked the exact same from when they had seen it on streams and calls. 

 

Their focus soon turned to the very comfortable looking bed pushed against one wall. 

 

1x1 looked at John, who raised a brow before letting out an “oh”. He smiled and nodded, closing the door. 

 

1x1 set their tea down and practically flung themself onto the bed. They wrapped themself up in the warm blankets, shivering in delight and from the cold. 

 

They curled up, taking in a sweet scent that was probably John’s. They closed their eyes. They felt content. 

 

1x1 could die right there, knowing that they were in John’s bed.

 

“Comfortable?” John murmured, sitting on the edge of the bed with a fond twinkle in his eye. 1x1 nodded, shifting so they could look at John better. 

 

John reached out, gently brushing some hair out of 1x1’s face. He then froze and quickly retracted his hand. “Sorry, I didn’t mean–”

 

“It’s fine, John. I don’t mind. Really,” 1x1 said quietly. They blinked up at John, then sat up. 

 

“I’ll sleep on the floor tonight, by the way.”

 

“No, you won’t. You are my guest and I want you to sleep in my bed,” John said firmly. 1x1 smirked and took their chances, leaning against John’s side. 

 

“I’m flattered, I really am, but this is your house. You deserve to sleep in your bed.” 

 

John let out a soft noise when he felt 1x1’s body collide with his. He looked away before 1x1 could see his darkening cheeks. 

 

“1x1, please. If anything, we’ll share the bed. If–if you’re comfortable with that.” 

 

1x1 hummed and put their head on John’s shoulder. “I’m okay with that..as long as there’s no cuddling.” 

 

John let his lips fall into an exaggerated pout. “You’re no fun, 1x.” They just laughed and grabbed their mug, deeming it cool enough to drink. 

 

1x1 took a sip of their tea. “But..I suppose I wouldn’t mind it,” they mumbled. 

 

“What was that?”

 

“Shut up, you bastard.”

 

“You love me.”

 

“..maybe I do.”

…

1x1 fell asleep rather quickly. 

 

Once the two streamers had settled down, finished their tea, and gotten into bed, 1x1 was out like a light. 

 

The events that night had really taken a toll on them, but they at least got to sleep in John’s bed. 

 

They certainly didn’t expect to wake up in John’s arms though.

..

1x1 stirred awake some time later in the day. The two dumbasses had stayed up way too late purely just admiring each other. 

 

1x1 shifted a little, but froze when they felt movement behind them. 

 

An arm that they hadn’t felt a few seconds before dragged them back until they hit a warm wall. They could feel hot breath tickling their neck as they tried to not let out any sound.

 

1x1 lay still until they could confirm that John was still 100% asleep. They let themself relax, slowly, into John’s arms. 

 

They definitely were not complaining about this. 

 

But if they were born a guy, they probably would have had a boner by now.

 

1x1 buried their face back into the pillow, reaching out for their phone. They managed to grab it and tug it over to them. 

 

They squinted as they read the time. 3:27 pm .

 

1x1 mentally shrugged. Their usual time, albeit a bit early. 

 

They yawned softly and opened Discord, where they found a lot of messages in the streamers’ server. 

V01DST4R007: 12:02 am

TH3Y ST1LL 4R3NT R3SP0ND1NG

 

the_real_jason: 12:02 am

do you think something happened to them

 

V01DST4R007: 12:03 am

1 TH1NK TH3YLL B3 F1N3

1X1 C4N T4K3 C4R3 0F TH3MS3LF

 

the_real_jason: 12:03 am

what about john dumbass 💔

 

V01DST4R007: 12:04 am

sybau jason 😐

J0HN C4N T4K3 C4R3 0F H1MS3LF T00

 

the_real_jason: 12:04 am

wtv man..

if theyre dead im blaming YOU gng 🥀💔

 

CreationofHatred: 3:28 pm

hey guys

did you miss me

 

V01ST4R007: 3:28 pm

no bitch

WHY TH3 FUCK D0 Y0U TH1NK W3 W3R3 S4Y1NG 4LL 0F TH4T???

 

CreationofHatred: 3:29 pm

aww thanks guys

i knew you loved us

 

the_real_jason: 3:29 pm

stfu 

where the hell did you two disappear to???

we were all js talking and then you guys just dropped out of the conversation

 

CreationofHatred: 3:30 pm

[image]

(🤮) (💔)

 

V01ST4R007: 3:30 pm

0H H3LL N0 G3T TH3S3 G4Y 4SS3S 0UT 0F H3R3

 

the_real_jason: 3:30 pm

ew 

i knew it

 

CreationofHatred: 3:31 pm

yall homophobis asf 🫤

OH SJIT HWS MOVINH

 

V01DST4R007: 3:31 pm

G00D

1 H0P3 Y0UR CUDDL1NG S3SS10N 1S 0V3R

 

CreationofHatred: 3:31 pm

i hope your dick falls off so yiu can never fuck 007n7 again

(🙄) (😶)

1x1 froze when John moved. 

 

The hand that was curled over their hip shifted to splay out over 1x1’s stomach. 

 

1x1 let out a shaky breath as John groaned softly. 

 

“..1x?” Oh admins, his voice sounded so hot when he woke up.

 

John pulled 1x1 as close as they could be and buried his face into their neck. Clearly, he was still tired and didn’t know what the fuck he was doing. 

 

John slowly started to wake up, rubbing his hand against 1x1’s side absently. 1x1 didn’t mind, but wondered when John would realize what he was doing.

 

Or maybe he did.

 

That thought made 1x1 turn right over. 

 

They came face to face with a droopy-eyed John, who blinked slowly in surprise. He just smiled at them and pulled them back into his chest. 

 

“What time is it?” He muttered into their ear. 1x1 pressed their thighs together. They were glad their face was hidden. “Um..like…three thirty in the afternoon.” 

 

John hummed lowly, running a hand up and down 1x1’s spine. “I’m still really tired..”

 

1x1 scoffed softly. “Yeah. I can tell.”

 

John pulled away a little to look 1x1 in the eyes. 

 

“Can you stay with me? A little longer? I don’t want to get up yet..”

 

“..alright, fine.”

Notes:

eat up eat up

also I realized like halfway through writing this that John's arm is supposed to be broken..that will be brought up next chapter

oh and the picture 1x1 sent was a picture of John cuddling them 😝

Chapter 11: fluff. ew.

Summary:

they cuddle all chapter. disgusting

Notes:

ew gays ew ew

THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SUPPORT THIS FIC HAS GOTTEN!!!!! I LOVE SEEING YOUR GUYS COMMENTS THEY MAKE MY DAY

sorry guys shorter chapter today but DOUBLE UPDATE??? who am i

1x1 quickly found that they couldn’t say no to a sleepy John.

 

They spent another two hours just napping in his arms. 

 

Not that they minded. 

 

1x1 woke up around five thirty. They heard a faint snicker and quiet footsteps approaching the bed. 1x1 turned to blearily look at the other person. 

 

What they didn’t expect was to have a young woman staring right at the two streamers with a shit eating grin on her face. 

 

“Oh shit, didn’t mean to wake you. Go back to sleep, I’ll leave.” She waved her hand and tried to hide her phone behind her back. 

 

1x1 opened their mouth to ask a bunch of questions, but was silenced by John pulling their face back into his chest. 

 

“Jane,” he said tiredly, “go away.”

 

“Aw, you don’t want to see the pictures I took of you two?” She held up her phone with a smirk.

 

1x1 felt John’s fingers press into their waist. 

 

“I’ll see them later. Trust me.” John’s voice held a slight tone of warning. 

 

“Alright, alright. Fine. Just came in to tell you that I’m leaving for work. Didn’t know you brought a girl over,” she said dismissively. 

 

1x1 was sure John could feel the way their body stiffened. He tucked their head under his chin and bundled them up in the blankets and his arms. 

 

“They aren’t a girl, they’re..they don’t have a gender,” John said defensively. One hand started gently threading through 1x1’s hair. 

 

It felt as nice as the fact that John was correcting people about their preferred gender without them having to. 

 

“Oh–I’m really sorry about that one. Genuinely.” 1x1 heard a bit of shuffling and the sound of the door shutting. 

 

John let out a heavy sigh. “I’m sorry about her. She likes to just walk into my room sometimes,” he mumbled against 1x1’s temple. 

 

“Who..is she?” 1x1 asked with a yawn. They closed their eyes and settled right back into the curve of John’s body.

 

Were they getting a little too comfortable with a streamer that they had come into contact with only like a week ago? Yes.

 

Were either of them complaining? 

 

..no.

 

“That’s my sister, Jane,” John grumbled. He stretched for a good moment before draping himself back over 1x1. 

 

“Oh. That explains it.” 1x1 rolled over (despite John’s soft complaints) and grabbed their phone. John wrapped his arms around their waist and peeked over their shoulder. 

 

“Damn, it’s late,” 1x1 muttered. They opened Discord (yet again) to a bunch of messages from the server.

c00L3STK1DD: 4:06 pm

1x1

wjat the hell did you jsut say about my dad

 

the_real_jason: 4:07 pm

oh shit

here comes kidd

 

V01ST4R007: 4:07 pm

H4H4

1X1 Y0U G0T TH3 K1D 4FT3R Y0U

@CreationofHatred

@CreationofHatred

BR0 PR0B4BLY W3NT B4CK T0 SL33P

 

c00L3STK1DD: 4:09 pm

can we call guys???

 

the_real_jason: 4:09 pm

sure 

1x1 then noticed that the three of them were still calling together. Probably in a game or something.

 

John hummed and closed his eyes, pressing his nose into 1x1’s neck. They swallowed hard.  

 

“Join the call. I want to see what they’re talking about.” John’s breath was so warm against 1x1’s neck. They swore they felt his lips graze their skin. 

 

1x1 ignored the warmth pooling low in their gut and joined the call with trembling hands.

 

“Wh-who just-st-t joi—d?..oh-h, the gay-ays-s are h-here…” Noli sounded disappointed. 

 

“..Noli. You said you literally–”

 

“Shh…th-there-re’s a k-kid here..” 

 

1x1 wanted to slap Noli really badly. 

 

“Is that Mx. 1x1?” Piped up c00lkidd. Noli suddenly started cackling. Jason was..silent. Like usual.

 

“Mx. 1x1! I want you to apologize for what you said about my dad!” C00lkidd declared. 1x1 heard John start laughing. 1x1 slapped his hand and moved out of his arms. 

 

They ignored John’s soft pleads and huffed. “Look, ‘kidd. I was just making fun of your Uncle Noli. Don’t take it to heart.”

 

“Oh.” C00lkidd was quiet for a moment. “That’s fine then. Uncle Noli is really easy to make fun of. Him and dad were wrestling the other night! Uncle Noli was losing, I think.”

 

Noli was dead silent for once. 

 

1x1 was the one cackling now, John trying to stifle his own laughter. 

 

“I always knew my dad was stronger than you, Uncle Noli! Even when he loses when you guys wrestle sometimes, he wins a lot!” C00lkidd said with overflowing joy.

 

“Oh, ‘kidd…I don’t think Noli will be ‘uncle’ for much longer..” 1x1 wheezed. 

 

“What–”

 

“1x-x-x1. I am-m go–going to s-ste-eal John from-m you.” Noli’s voice was calm for once. But not the good kind of calm.

 

1x1 smirked. “Yeah? Let’s see you try.”

 

They turned their camera on and showed John off to the other three in the call. 

 

C00lkidd started beaming the second he saw John. “Hello Mr. John!!” He shouted excitedly.

 

John just calmly smiled and waved back at the red child. 

 

Noli just scoffed. “G-guess-s you didn-dn’t photosho-o-op th–t pi-i-icture earlier-r,” he muttered. John gave 1x1 a look. 

 

“What picture, 1x1?”

 

1x1 just side-eyed John and sat up. 

 

“Don’t worry about it.”

 

“1x1..” John tugged 1x1’s head back down to his level, whispering something into their ear. 1x1 flushed hard and sat back up. 

 

They prayed for the heat between their legs to fade. 

 

“Here! Just–don’t say anything like that again unless you plan to act on it!” 1x1 snapped, throwing their phone at John with the picture on display. 

 

John studied the picture as Noli crowed something about ‘1x1 getting caught.’

 

John started laughing. “This isn’t even that bad. I’ll even let you keep it as a..souvenier.” 

 

1x1 snatched their phone back and got off the bed. “Yeah, guys, I’m going to go. I’m going to deal with John.”

 

“Oooh! Are you guys going to wrestle like Uncle Noli and dad???” C00lkidd shouted. 

 

1x1 almost dropped their phone. 

 

“Th-they s-sure ar-re kid,” Noli snickered. 

 

“No, we aren’t.” 1x1 ran a hand through their hair in exasperation. They looked back at John. “Unless…”

It was John’s turn to have flaming cheeks. 

 

“Okay. Bye.” 1x1 hung up and proceeded to get jumped by John. 

 

Not really.

 

1x1 screeched as they were yanked back down onto the bed. They were yet again ensnared in John’s embrace. 

 

“John. I didn’t take you for being this clingy,” 1x1 muttered, holding onto John’s arms like it would free them.

 

Oh shit. His arm.

 

“Also, we’ve been in bed all day and you’re not wearing your cast. Let me go and put your fucking cast on.” 

 

“Don’t wanna,” John mumbled. 

 

1x1 felt flattered. 

 

They also may have just realized that they have a crush on John. 

Oh shit.

Notes:

i giggled while writing the part with c00lkidd

SHOULD THIS FIC HAVE SMUT GENUINE QUESTION...

Chapter 12: john needs to be put down

Summary:

warning: JOHN DOE

Notes:

i hate these two ugh

also no smut this chapter but John is FREAKED OUT

chapter is in johns perspective

please dont smite me for this one twizzlers idk how to write suggestive things i think

John knew that he had a crush on 1x1. 

 

He’d known for a while. 

 

He loved the way they got all snappy when they were annoyed, and the way their hair fell over their shoulders, the way they looked when they just woke up…

 

John could keep listing things. It would never end. 

 

He just wasn’t sure if 1x1 was ready for a relationship yet. Especially with everything that had happened recently. 

 

John was aware that 1x1 liked him to some degree. He wasn’t stupid. He’d caught the way they looked at him. 

 

John really wanted to hold 1x1 again, to feel their body underneath him, the listen to them–

 

Okay buddy. Slow down. 

 

John groaned into the empty kitchen, wanting to bash his head with a pan. He just couldn’t stop thinking about 1x1. 

 

He glanced at his arm, which 1x1 had forced into the cast. He loved the way that they genuinely cared for him. 

 

John caught himself smiling. He glared at himself in the reflection of the kitchen window. 1x1 was just staying over so that they could get away from someone. They weren’t staying forever. 

 

But they could…

 

John nearly slapped himself. He probably looked crazy to anyone that wasn’t him. 

 

Am I crazy?? They wouldn’t want that.

 

While it wasn’t uncommon for streamers and content creators to be roommates, John wasn’t sure Jane would like that. 

 

He’d have to ask. 

 

“John? Oh, you are down here.” 1x1 came up behind John and rested their chin on his shoulder. “You making anything or am I going to?” 

 

John rolled his eyes, trying to hide the growing heat on his cheeks. “I don’t trust you in the kitchen. All you eat is instant ramen and TV dinners.” 

 

“Alright then, I trust you.” 1x1 shrugged and backed away from John. 

 

He really wished they’d stayed. 

 

John opened up the fridge and stared at the contents. “Are you.. um..okay with leftovers?” He asked, glancing over at 1x1. 

 

“I’ll eat anything, honestly. I haven’t had real food in months.” 1x1 stretched on the island counter like a cat. 

 

John shook his head and grabbed some leftover steak from a couple days ago. It should still be good.

 

He slid a few pieces of steak onto a plate and popped it into the microwave. He turned back to face 1x1, getting a good look at how his clothes looked on them. 

 

John wanted to devour them. 

 

He wanted to watch them crumble under his hands, listen to them squirm and gasp out his name, watch their legs shake as they tried to hold themself back…

 

..yeah. I’m going to kill myself.

 

John forced himself to look away from 1x1. They looked too good in his clothes. The way his shirt slipped down just enough to expose their collarbone was just begging him to come and bite. 

 

“John. Hey. You’re staring.” 1x1 snapped their fingers at John, causing him to jolt. “I mean, I know I look good, but you’re looking at me like you’re about to eat me right here.”

 

The sad part was that they weren’t even that far off.

 

“Oh..y-yeah, sorry, 1x,” he stuttered out. He jumped when the microwave went off and quickly opened it. 

 

John checked if the steak was warm enough before handing 1x1 the plate along with a fork. 1x1’s face lit up when they saw some good, real food in front of them. 

 

The steak was gone in seconds. 

 

John let out a soft laugh when they saw 1x1’s satisfied face. “I haven’t eaten this good in so long,” they sighed, leaning back and rubbing their neck. 

 

“I’m glad you liked it.” John took the plate and fork away from 1x1 and put them in the sink. 1x1 stood and walked over to the sink. 

 

“..what are you doing?” John asked when he noticed them turning the sink on. They just glanced over at him and grabbed a sponge. 

 

“I’m washing my plate,” they explained slowly. 

 

“But–”

 

“Let me do this, John.” 1x1 rolled their eyes and continued to wash the rest of the dirty dishes. Before John could start protesting again, 1x1 shot him a sharp glare. 

 

“I don’t want your sister to do all this. And you’re not doing it with that cast on.”

 

John exhaled heavily. What part of ‘guest’ did 1x1 not understand?

 

“Then I’ll take my cast off,” he muttered, absently reaching to remove his cast. He flinched when he felt warm water touch his face. 

 

1x1 stood there, one hand in the sink and one hand going back to collect more water, with the coldest glare John had ever seen. 

 

He swore some part of him fell even harder for 1x1.

 

“What–” he sputtered, “what was that for?!”

 

1x1 snickered and flicked water at John again. “That’s for trying to take your cast off. Your arm won’t heal if you don’t wear it.” 

 

John yelped and tried to avoid the water by hiding behind 1x1. They just shoved him back and almost hurled the sponge at him. 

 

The best part about that was the smile on their face. 

 

Oh, what John wouldn’t do to get them under him, in his bed, calling his name, bearing his marks..

 

Somehow, John had ended up pinned against the counter with 1x1 dangerously close to his face. 

 

His eyes widened almost comically as his face heated up. 1x1 tried to hold it together, but failed and burst out laughing. Their forehead gently bumped John’s collarbone as they tried to catch their breath. 

 

John’s free hand came up awkwardly. He wanted to run his fingers through their hair again, but didn’t want to make them uncomfortable. 

 

1x1 eventually pulled away to lean on the counter. They had finished washing the dishes, apparently. 

 

They brought a hand to their mouth and bit it to try and stifle their giggles. “J-John, your face ,” they wheezed. “It was so red. ” 

 

John pulled his shirt up to hide his face. He didn’t see the way that 1x1 shamelessly admired the strip of skin exposed. 

 

“You..just be quiet.” John lowered his shirt and managed to look at 1x1 again. “Are.. you.. um. Are you staying over again?” He asked quietly, almost too soft for it to be heard. 

 

1x1 straightened themself up and scratched at their chin. “It would probably be good. If you’re alright with that, anyway.”

 

They both knew that 1x1 didn’t want to leave, and John didn’t want them leaving anyway. 

 

“Of course I’m alright with that.” John tried to make it sound normal, like he hadn’t wanted them in his bed for days. 

 

Of course he knew that they’d have to go back to their apartment eventually. 

 

But he’d go with them. 

 

To keep them safe. 

 

John jolted when he was suddenly being pulled forward. He stumbled and let 1x1 drag him back upstairs. 

 

They immediately let him go when his bed was in sight, though. 

 

John tried to force his eyes not to wander when 1x1 sprawled over his mattress. 

 

But damn if they didn’t look good right now. 

 

John closed his bedroom door and slowly made his way over to 1x1, like he was a predator about to catch his prey. 

 

1x1 raised a brow and smirked. “Don’t think I don’t see you looking at me, John. I know you want me.” 

 

John cocked his head to the side, getting closer to the edge of the bed. 1x1 propped themself up on their elbows, watching him with a smug half-lidded gaze. 

 

“So what if I do,” John growled, pinning 1x1 to the bed with his legs and free arm. 1x1’s eyes widened. Their gaze raked up and down John’s torso. 

 

“..admins above,” they whispered. “I didn’t think I’d get this far.”

 

Truthfully, John didn’t think he’d get this far either. 

 

“I’m not complaining though.” 1x1 settled themself against the sheets as John straddled them. He didn’t touch them, letting himself hover over their body as he looked at them with straight hunger in his eyes. 

 

The air between them felt electrified. John noticed 1x1’s hands hovering too close to his thighs for it to be an accident. 

 

John leaned down, his nose brushing 1x1’s, before he pushed his face into their neck. He could hear them let out an annoyed grumble.

 

The urge to bite them was strong. 

 

John wanted to bite their skin until it bled and suck dark marks into their neck until all of Robloxia knew they were his.

 

John felt 1x1’s hands curl into the back of his shirt, almost silently begging him to do something. 

 

They weren’t in a relationship. 

 

He couldn’t.

 

As much as he wanted to, he wouldn’t dare.

 

Not until they were something real.

 

Still, John let himself be a little greedy. 

 

He brushed his lips against the hollow of their throat before pulling away. He knew they’d felt it from the way they bit their lip and glared at him. 

 

John chuckled and rolled off of them. 

 

“You’re such a mood killer,” 1x1 muttered. John just smirked smugly at them and avoided their annoyed swatting. 

 

“Come on. I’m still injured. It’s not like we could have done anything,” John said innocently. 

 

“Oh, now you want to pull the ‘injured’ card.” 1x1 turned their back to John as a way of ignoring him. 

 

John knew they weren’t actually mad. 

 

He sneakily snaked an arm around their waist, fingers grazing the warm skin under their shirt. He felt the way their muscles tensed from his touch and laughed gently. 

 

“John,” 1x1 warned with a gentle elbow to the arm. John just nuzzled 1x1’s neck and pressed them against his body. 

 

“What?” He asked softly. They just sighed in exasperation and let themself be held, reaching for their phone so they could presumably check up on the other three idiots.

 

John wasn’t letting them leave the bed for a while. 

 

And 1x1 was more than fine with that.

Notes:

sedate john NNNOWWW

Chapter 13: the other idiots get worried over 1x1

Summary:

they go back to 1x1's apartment.

Notes:

GUHUGHHU THANKS AGAIN TO totes not an arg maker (01100111_01101111_01100100) FOR SUGGESTING A PART OF THIS CHAPTER THANK YOU THANK YOU

GUYS idk if any of you watch TADC but PLEASE the new episode BROKE ME

1x1 could still feel the warmth of John’s lips lingering on their skin.

 

They wished that he did more. He could have at least given them a full kiss on the neck but no .

 

So 1x1 decided to look at the streamers’ server on Discord while John cuddled them in his sleep. 

CreationofHatred: 5:42 pm

hey gusy

guys 

 

V01DST4R007: 5:42 pm

4R3 Y0U ST1LL @ J0HNS H0US3

 

CreationofHatred: 5:43 pm

yes why

 

V01DST4R007: 5:43 pm

F4G

(😐) (👍)

 

CreationofHatred: 5:43 pm

genuinely the most homophobic person ive ever met

 

the_real_jason: 5:44 pm

i gotta ask though

why are you at johns anyway??

 

CreationofHatred: 5:44 pm

oh 

erm

so someone lowk broke into my house like yesterday or smth

they also took a picture of me a few days before that

so i ran to johns house to be gay together 😻✌️

 

the_real_jason: 5:45 pm

1x1 PLEASE tell me youre joking.

 

V01DST4R007: 5:45 pm

@John_Doe

@John_Doe

1x1 is this true??

 

CreationofHatred: 5:46 pm

johns sleeping stop @ him

rare footage of noli typing normally

and yes its true unfortunately

 

the_real_jason: 5:46 pm

1x1 this is serious

im glad youre with john rn but we need to get that guy arrested

 

V01DST4R007: 5:46 pm

i have to agree with jason here.

do you know what the damn guy even looks like??

 

CreationofHatred: 5:48 pm

no gng 💔

i would have called the police a long time ago

 

V01ST4R007: 5:48 pm

C4N Y0U C4LL 4T 4LL?

W3 N33D T0 D1SCUS5 TH1S PR0P3RLY

 

CreationofHatred: 5:51 pm

i don’t want to wake john up

he looks really comfy rn

 

the_real_jason: 5:51 pm

fag

(😐)(😍)

fine then

but we WILL talk about this. 

sooner than later

1x1 just sighed through their nose as they set their phone down. They’d be fine. 

 

Especially with John near them. 

 

1x1 yawned and curled up. They tugged the blanket up to their nose and closed their eyes. Their binder was starting to feel too uncomfortable. 

 

They really needed to get home.

…

1x1 trudged beside John as they made the slow journey to 1x1’s apartment. 

 

They really did not want to go back. 

 

1x1 messed with the edges of the sweater John had lent them. They glanced at the sides of buildings, wondering if someone was watching them right then.

 

John seemed to pick up on their anxiousness and offered his hand to them. 1x1 stared at it before placing their palm on his. 

 

They liked the way his fingers curled around their own. He could curl them somewhere else, though.

..

The walk was shorter than 1x1 liked.

 

They stood in front of their apartment door with their hand held tightly in John’s. They gave an experimental turn of the doorknob and felt their heart drop to their stomach when they found that it was unlocked.

 

John stepped forward and gently pushed the door open. His grip tightened on 1x1 as they walked in. 

 

“I’ll go first,” he said firmly. “Don’t let go of me.” Please.

 

1x1 just nodded, chewing their bottom lip as they looked around cautiously. Their apartment looked the same as it did the night they ran out. 

 

They noticed the door to their room was wide open.

 

1x1 glanced toward the bathroom and decided to look in there first. 

 

They shuffled toward the bathroom and nudged the door open. It still looked the same. They didn’t notice their hand slipping from John’s as they proceeded further into the bathroom. 

 

1x1 looked around, their gaze settling on the window. They crept closer and almost stepped on a piece of broken glass. 

 

They hissed under their breath and carefully stepped around the glass. They inspected the window once they were close enough and wrapped their arms around themself when they saw that the window was broken. 

 

Great. Just wonderful.

 

So, 1x1’s front door was unlocked and their bathroom window was smashed. What was next? A camera? The stalker sleeping in their bed? Leaving a note? Stealing their clothes?

 

1x1 felt sick. 

 

They took a few shaky breaths in and out, rubbing their arms. 

 

That bastard knows where I live. They have pictures of me. They probably stole from me.

 

1x1 shook their head and slowly backed out of the bathroom. They jumped when they collided with a wall–or, to be more specific, John Doe.

 

“Admins, John. You scared me,” 1x1 muttered. John slipped an arm around their waist and pulled them close again. 

 

“Was wondering where you went,” he mumbled. 1x1 could feel their face heating up as John pressed his face into their neck. 

 

“Not far. Never far.” They let him hold them. It felt nice. 

 

“I was going to ask..” John pulled away slightly, his gaze drifting to the broken window. “Did you want to look in the bedroom now?” 

 

1x1 looked at their feet. Did they? Hell yeah they did. They wanted their stuff. 

 

Besides, they had John with them. 

 

“Yeah. I want to see what they fucked up.” 1x1 gently removed themself from John’s hold and went to their bedroom. 

 

They didn’t like how the door was open, practically begging for them to go inside. 

 

John came up next to them, twining their fingers together. 1x1 gave him a sideways glance. 

 

They slowly walked into their room and surveyed the damage. 

 

..there wasn’t any damage. 

 

But they did happen to notice that their bed looked more messy than usual. 

 

Like someone had slept in it. 

 

1x1 wrinkled their nose and went to their desk. They did in fact find a note from their stalker. 

 

“John,” 1x1 called softly. The man was at the desk in an instant. 

 

1x1 picked the note up and read it with trembling hands. 

“Dear 1x1x1x1, I hope this note finds you well. I apologize for breaking your window and sleeping in your bed, but I really couldn’t resist! I love watching your streams so much. I love when you notice my comments and read them out loud in that charming voice of yours! I feel so special, like nobody else matters. And they don’t. 

 

1x1x1x1, I love you so, so much..I hope that you love me too. I know you do. The way that your character model lights up when you read my messages in chat, they way you laugh when you see what I say..you know you love me too.

 

Don’t worry though, I don’t want to hurt you. I didn’t mean to scare you when I broke the window. I was just trying to say hello! You didn’t have to run..that wasn’t too nice. I just wanted to confess to you. You would have loved it. 

 

That’s all for now. Love, @iheart1x1x1x1forever <3

 

P.S: I borrowed some of your clothes!!! I know you won’t mind, my love <3”

1x1 was genuinely going to hurl. 

 

They crumpled the note and chucked it towards the wall. They stumbled back and fell onto the ground, staring at their desk with wide eyes and a racing heart. 

 

Their throat tightened as their breathing slowly picked up. Their hands curled into their palms, trying desperately to ground themself. 

 

1x1 didn’t love this person. 

 

They didn’t even know who this person was.  

 

They just wanted to be left alone. They hadn’t asked for this. 

 

1x1 flinched away from John’s worried hands, curling up into a ball on the floor. They hadn’t realized they were crying until John gently raised their chin with his finger and started to wipe their cheeks. 

 

They leaned into his hand as he caressed their face with his hand and thumb. 1x1 closed their eyes. They felt scared. They were scared.

 

They heard John shift to sit next to them. Their eyes snapped open when they felt themself being pulled into his lap. 

 

1x1 sniffled and wiped their eyes with the back of their hand. They hesitantly leaned their head on John’s shoulder. 

 

John’s arm curled around their waist, the other one in its cast. 1x1 felt the corner of their lip tug up at the sight of the stupid thing. John hadn’t needed reminding today.

 

He gently rubbed up and down their side as they tried to calm down. They had John. As long as they had John, they’d be fine.

 

1x1 wrapped their arms around John’s torso. Their body shuddered with every hiccuping breath they tried to quiet. 

 

They sat like that for a while. John whispered sweet things in 1x1’s ear until they eventually slumped against him. Not asleep, just tired and safe with John. 

 

1x1’s fingers traced circles on John’s spine absently. They were both enjoying the soft moment. It was the most relaxed 1x1 had felt in a while. 

 

They really wanted to kiss John though. Or have John kiss them.

 

They squished their cheek on his shoulder just so they could get a good look at his lips. 

 

I want him.

 

John seemed to be staring at something, though. 

 

1x1 followed his gaze and froze when they saw a blinking red light coming from their closet. It was faint, but visible when they looked hard enough. 

 

“Is–is that..?” they whispered, voice hoarse. They curled their fingers into John’s shirt to keep him close. 

 

“Yeah. A camera. Bastard,” John gritted out. 1x1 yelped quietly as they were hefted up and nudged onto the bed. 

 

They looked up at John with heated cheeks. “John?” They sputtered out, letting him step between their legs. 

 

“I hope that fucking thing is on,” John growled before bending down and smashing their lips together.

Notes:

uhhh cliffhanger

Chapter 14: they diddle caught in 4k ultra hd

Notes:

warning: smut

for my readers who don’t like smut I’d suggest waiting until the next chapter comes out sorry guys!!
also idk how to write smut ✌️ my first smut guys wow hopefully it doesn’t suck

 

girl we been knowing how to write

“Write smut!”

huh???

they riddled. they fiddled. they diddled.

ALSO HUGE SHOUTOUT TO PanicForever FOR MAKING SUPERCOOL FANART??

 

1x1 didn’t realize what was happening until John dove in for a second kiss.

 

Their eyes widened, but they didn’t push him away. They slowly melted into the rough and demanding kisses, legs wrapping around John’s waist. 

 

A small sound slipped out when John nipped at their bottom lip. He slipped his tongue inside their mouth, exploring every part of it like he was committing it to memory. 

 

When John pulled away, 1x1 already looked ruined. Their lips were wet and swollen from John’s kisses and they were panting from how much he’d went down on them. 

 

He wasn’t done. 

 

1x1 could tell.

 

John slipped his cast off and tossed it onto the floor. “Be careful with that, John,” 1x1 hissed. They shuddered when they felt his hands run up under the hoodie. 

 

“Don’t you try to do anything that’s going to hurt you, okay?” 1x1 was watching John with a sharp eye. John smiled wryly and kissed them again, a lot gentler than the first few. 

 

“I know, darling. I know.” He rubbed his thumbs over 1x1’s stomach, gently applying pressure. 

 

1x1 couldn’t deny the heat curling in their gut after he called them darling .

 

John nosed at their neck, taking in deep breaths of their scent. 1x1 could feel him dragging his lips over their skin and shivered in delight. 

 

They clamped their hand over their mouth when John finally decided to bite down, stifling a groan. 

 

John leaned back and clicked his tongue in mild annoyance. 

 

“Don't do that,” he said softly. 1x1 moved their hand to speak. 

 

“Cover your mouth. Don’t do that. Please.” John leaned in and nipped at 1x1’s neck. 1x1’s other hand fisted in his shirt. 

 

“I want to hear you, 1x,” he murmured. 1x1 could feel heat building between their legs when he looked at them with that god forsaken pleading face. 

 

Men who yearn are men who earn.

 

1x1 sighed and fully moved their hand from their face. John smiled in triumph and went right back to attack their neck.

 

1x1 squirmed and gasped every time John grazed their pulse point. They would probably have to use makeup to hide these marks. 

 

But no one knew what they really looked like. 

 

No one except their stalker. 

 

1x1 would bear John’s marks with pride. 

 

John leaned back and admired his work. 1x1’s neck was a mess of bites and dark marks that he’d made. 

 

He shifted 1x1 to lay back more comfortably. “Before I try anything else…” He kissed 1x1’s jaw. “Do you want this? Am I allowed to do this?”

 

1x1 had never fallen harder for someone in their life. 

 

“Yes,” they managed hoarsely. “Please. I need you.” They snaked their hands under John’s shirt and started sliding them up. 

 

John laughed and sat up to take his shirt all the way off. He tossed the fabric somewhere on the floor and crawled right back on top of 1x1. 

 

1x1 admired John without shame, hands running up and down his torso and feeling his arms. 

 

“Hey, John…I wasn’t breastfed as a child–”

 

“Oh, be quiet.”

 

John started to slide the hoodie 1x1 was wearing off. He admired the way his shirt was just a bit big on them, hiding their slim frame from his sight. 

 

John threw the hoodie off the bed and placed his hand on 1x1’s abdomen. 

 

“Do I have permission to take the shirt off?” He questioned with a warm look. “I completely understand if you don’t want to.”

 

1x1 weighed their choices.

 

On one hand, John takes the shirt off and is disgusted by the fact that they have female anatomy. They hated that experience. 

 

On the other hand, John takes off the shirt and doesn’t give two shits. 

 

It was a hard choice. 

 

But their ribcage felt like it was being compressed and about to implode. 

 

1x1 nodded slowly. They tensed as John started removing their shirt. 

 

Once the fabric was removed and tossed to the side, 1x1 shied away from John's gaze. Their arms raised instinctively to hide their binder and chest.

 

“Why are you hiding yourself from me?” John whispered. His hands gently gripped 1x1’s arms. Not forcing them away. Just holding. 

 

“Because–because I don’t want you to look at me and be disappointed,” 1x1 mumbled. Their breath hitched as John bent down and bit their hip. 

 

“I’m not disappointed. I could never be disappointed. You’ve brought up your binder before. Back when we first found out about the stalker.” John kissed a trail up 1x1’s stomach and torso. 

 

“I never said anything about it because I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable.” He gently took one of 1x1’s hands and kissed the back of it. 

 

1x1 felt so fucking honored to be in John’s prescence. 

 

They slowly moved their arms and thumbed the edge of their binder. They looked up at John and guided his hand to where their other one was. 

 

“Do you…um..” 1x1 turned their head away. John chuckled warmly. “Oh, I’d love to. Would you let me?”

 

1x1 nodded and propped themself up. John carefully worked their binder over their head. 

 

He didn’t miss the way they let out a relieved sigh. 

 

“Admins…I feel so much better now,” 1x1 breathed out. They melted back into the sheets and smiled up at John. 

 

John nipped at their collarbone and dipped his head to plant a kiss on the swell of their chest. 

 

He sat back and ran a hand through his hair. “There you are, darling,” he murmured. 

 

1x1 gripped onto John's hips, trying to ground themself while also trying to tug his sweatpants off. 

 

“Easy, love. I’m not going anywhere.” John got up to drag his pants off. 1x1 raised a brow and let their eyes roam shamelessly over his thighs.

 

Their restless looking paused when they spotted the tent in John’s boxers.

 

Admins, I really am doing this.

 

1x1 quickly kicked their own pants off to not make John feel awkward. They instinctively closed their legs, only for them to be spread again by the other streamer. 

 

John’s hands slid under their back and lifted them onto his lap again. They placed their hands on his shoulders, hips pressed firmly against his own. 

 

1x1 shifted their weight a bit, pretending like they weren’t trying to mess with John. They lowered their forehead to his shoulder and smirked when they heard his breath stutter. 

 

A strong hand gripped their thigh and gently stroked the sensitive inner skin. 1x1 shuddered as John’s thumb caressed the edge of their underwear. 

 

John gently bit down on 1x1’s shoulder as he started to circle their clothed clit. 1x1 dug their fingers into John’s sides while they fought back near whimpers. 

 

It had been a long time since they’d done something like this. 

 

They couldn’t have asked for a better person to do it with. 

 

John started to rub at their sensitive bud with two fingers, coaxing out soft moans and gasps. It was clear that he liked hearing their voice like this. 

 

1x1 had their cheek pressed to John’s shoulder, soaking up the pleasure. They squirmed when they felt him push the soaked fabric to the side. 

 

John rubbed one slick finger over their entrance and slowly pushed it in. 1x1 whimpered and ground down on his hand. They wanted more . 

 

John patted 1x1’s hip and smiled against their throat. He slid a second finger in down to the knuckle. He started to carefully scissor his fingers apart, curling them against 1x1’s inner walls to try and find that special spot that would make them see stars.

 

1x1 felt a bit full since John’s fingers were a lot thicker than theirs were. He was satisfying them way more than they themself ever could. When he added a third finger, they started to curve their body into his chest. 

 

“John–ah…John..” 1x1 whined and rocked their hips. Their body suddenly locked up as John’s fingers pressed into their g-spot. 

 

“Right there, darling?” John hummed, rubbing his finger into that spot firmly. 1x1’s mouth hung open while their back arched into him.

 

“O-oh, Jo–AH!--hn, please…” 1x1’s fingers squeezed the skin on John’s waist. They were trembling from the sensations shooting through their system. 

 

John teased them for a bit longer, loving the way they were falling apart from just his fingers. He finally removed them and laid them back down on the bed. 

 

He slid their underwear off and let his own join theirs on the floor. He gave his cock a few pumps to slicken it up. 

 

“1x, darling, do you have any..lube or condoms? Probably shouldn’t be asking this now..” John kissed them and rubbed their inner thigh. 

 

1x1 blinked at John for a moment before snickering and pointing to the bedside drawer. “Just in case,” they said with amusement. 

 

John gently swatted at their thigh and opened the drawer. He tossed the bottle of lube on the bed and tore open a condom wrapper with his teeth. 

 

“You could have opened it with your hands, you know,” 1x1 remarked. They watched as John rolled the plastic over his dick. 

 

“Do you want this or not?” He asked dryly, settling himself back between 1x1’s legs. They rolled their eyes. “You’re the one that came onto me. This isn’t my doing.”

 

John narrowed his eyes at 1x1 and they swore he was holding on by the tiniest thread of self-restraint. 

 

John lifted one of 1x1’s legs onto his shoulder. He moved one hand to their hip and one hand to his cock, guiding it to their entrance. 

 

He looked at them one last time for confirmation before beginning to slowly work himself in. 1x1’s hands twisted in the sheets. Admins, he was big. They weren’t complaining though.

 

The process was slow, almost too slow. But John didn’t want 1x1 to get hurt. 

 

When John was halfway in, the feeling of their warm walls making him want to just slam himself in, 1x1 put a shaking hand on his shoulder. 

 

“I-I need—” their hand dropped back to the bed. “I need a moment..” they shuddered and turned their head to the side. 

 

John stopped moving and let them catch their breath. Admins, they looked divine . 

 

He gently ran his thumb over their hipbone. “You’re so beautiful..” he whispered. 1x1 managed a soft smile. “You’re sappy, aren’t you?” 

 

“Can’t help it when I’m around you.” John kissed 1x1’s neck, causing them to shiver. “You..you…never mind. I think I’m ready now.” They took a deep breath and held onto the sheets for dear life. 

 

“..you know what? Just slam it in, John.”

 

“But you could get hurt..”

 

“Do it.”

 

John looked over 1x1 one last time before sighing heavily. “This was your choice,” he muttered before pulling out and slamming right back in. 

 

1x1 choked on their air, soul momentarily leaving their body. The two were still for a moment, even John taking a moment to just breathe. 

 

1x1 barely registered a hand coming up and wiping the tears of pain (and pleasure) away from their eyes. They had never felt so stuffed. They felt like they were going to be split apart. 

 

John peppered their face with soft kisses, whispering praise into their ear. It took 1x1 a little bit to relax, but once they did, they felt a lot better. 

 

“Am I alright to start moving now?” John asked quietly. 1x1 nodded and bit their lip. 

 

John gently pulled his hips back, relishing in the way their walls seemed to cling onto him and tried to suck him back in. He pushed in with a quick snap of his hips, noticing the way 1x1 jolted. 

 

The starting pace was slow, very slow. John didn’t want to hurt 1x1 despite also wanting to just fuck them senseless right then and there. He was close to just fucking them into the bed. 

He had to pace himself. 1x1’s comfort came first.

 

John wanted desperately to go faster, but wouldn’t dare unless 1x1 wanted it. 

 

And they noticed. 

 

“John. Y-you can, hn, go faster you know..” 1x1 groaned out. They honestly wanted John pounding into their guts, but didn’t know if their body was up for that. 

 

“Are–are you sure? I don’t..want to hurt you..” John kissed them carefully, having to pause with his thrusts. 

 

“Says the injured one,” 1x1 grumbled with mild annoyance. They didn’t want John to stop. “Come on. You…ugh. You can go as fast as you want.”

 

1x1 had no idea that they had signed themself up for their guts being rearranged. 

 

“Oh, darling..you’re sure, right? Once you agree, I don’t think I can stop myself.” 1x1 saw how John’s eyes darkened and swallowed nervously. “I’m sure. Just get on with it.”

 

He looked them up and down. “Safe word is red.”

 

John had pulled out and flipped 1x1 onto their stomach so fast, they barely had time to anchor themself before he was driving into them with full force. 

 

1x1’s legs were trembling so bad they were glad John was holding them up. He wasn’t gentle anymore, no, he was ramming into them while also slamming their hips back against him. His hands would definitely leave marks from how tightly he was holding them. 

 

1x1 had been lucky enough to faceplant into a pillow, grabbing it and holding onto it like their life depended on it. Their moans and whines were muffled by the fabric, drool starting to leak from the corner of their mouth. 

 

John had started to try and find their g-spot, thrusting at different angles to try and find it. He knew he’d found it when he heard a muffled shriek of his name from under him. 

 

He stopped himself for a moment and reached one hand around to feel their abdomen. He hummed once he found a slight protrusion. He tapped on it, making himself and 1x1 shudder. 

 

John pressed down with a couple of fingers, making 1x1 let out near sobs of his name. Their hips jerked in his grip. 

 

He eventually decided to have mercy on them and continue breaking them down. 

 

He started ruthlessly nailing their g-spot with every harsh thrust, making them shudder and tense up. He could tell they were getting close from the way they were arching into his touches. 

 

John snaked one hand down to mercilessly rub at their clit. 1x1 could feel a knot forming low in their gut. They bit down on the pillow and attempted to muffle the near screams coming out of their traitorous throat. 

 

John leaned over them, pressing his chest to their back. He sucked a dark bruise onto the back of their shoulder and bit down gently. 

 

“Come on, love. You’ve been so good for me. Just let yourself go,” he murmured. 

 

The knot in 1x1 snapped, and they came undone. 

 

Their mouth opened in a silent scream of John’s name, eyes rolling back in their head as their inner walls spasmed around and milked John’s cock. They whimpered through their high, John continuing to thrust until his rhythm became sloppier. 

 

“Fuck–I–..I love you, 1x,” he gasped out before slamming in one last time. Warmth pressed at 1x1’s cervix but didn’t breach it. Thank admins for condoms. The two streamers weren’t ready to be parents.

 

John stayed like that for a moment, simply just coming down from his high as he held them loosely. He forced himself to pull out, shivering at the loss of warmth. He tossed the used condom in the trash and glanced at 1x1. 

 

“Fuck..” 1x1 panted. “I..think that was the best…the best sex I’ve ever had.” They smiled lazily at John. They tossed their drool-covered pillow somewhere else in the room and grabbed a new one. “C’mere.”

 

“Let me take care of you before I lay down and never want to get up again.” John reluctantly got off the bed and went to grab a rag from the bathroom. 

 

He came back quickly and started to gently wipe 1x1 down. They relaxed into his touch, about to fall asleep. John kissed their forehead and scooped one of his shirts off the floor (since they were both wearing one when they got to the apartment). 

 

He gently sat 1x1 up despite their sleepy complaints and wrestled the shirt over their head. John went and sifted through their closet for a pair of shorts, sighing when he finally found one. 

 

He got 1x1 dressed before he even thought about doing the same to himself. He went to their kitchen after throwing on a shirt and shorts himself. Their clothes surprisingly fit him. 

 

John filled up two glasses of water and brought them back to the bedroom. He offered a glass to 1x1, who took it and drank it gratefully. 

 

John took a big sip of his own water and sat down next to 1x1. “Should we head back to my place?” He asked, breaking the comfortable silence between the two. 

 

1x1 shrugged. “We could. I mean, I have nothing here anyways. We could always come back to grab it another day.” Their voice was raspy, which made them scowl. John thought it was cute. 

 

“Though I’m not sure my legs will work.” Oh. Right.

 

“I can carry you,” John suggested quickly. 1x1 raised a brow. “My knight in..a hoodie. But don’t forget about your arm.”

 

John scoffed. “I can carry you back. Don’t worry about my arm. I’ll carry you if I want to.”

 

“Not if your arm ends up worse than it is now.”

 

“Don’t go jinxing me.”

 

1x1 smiled and downed the last of their water. They set the cup on the nightstand and leaned against John, who wrapped his arm around them. 

 

“So..” 1x1 said quietly, “what are we?”

 

There it was. The big question. 

 

“I..” John looked down at 1x1’s face, which was staring at him expectantly. 

 

“I’d like to be your boyfriend. If you’d let me,” he admitted quietly. He looked away shyly. 1x1 almost couldn’t believe this was the same man who was destroying him ten minutes ago. 

 

“My boyfriend, huh?” 1x1 mused. They moved John’s face back towards theirs, planting a kiss on his lips. 

 

“I think I’d like that.”

 

———

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Notes:

guys I wrote like half of this at a baby shower so sorry if it sucked

also I didn’t expect the chapter to be this long…

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Chapter 15: 1x1’s jelly legs

Summary:

1x1 shows off their bite marks and gets called a bottom (not clickbait)

also…the stalker has an appearance 😨

Notes:

shorter chapter than usual but I was SO EXCITED TO SHOW OFF SOME BEAUTIFUL FANART I GOT

end of chapter like last time!!! Thank you to low_level, McRuruily, and PanicForever for these gorgeous arts 🫶🫶🫶🫶

1x1 had forced John to put his cast on before they did anything else. 

 

They sat on the bed while John inspected the camera (that 1x1 had forgotten about) that had caught all of that . 

 

But all they could think about was the fact that John was their boyfriend now. 

 

John walked over with the camera in his hands. “So..first of all, I’m obviously destroying this thing, but what do you think the stalker is going to do with..you know. What..the camera caught.” 

 

1x1 shrugged and pulled him closer. They pushed their face into his chest and sighed. “If I had to guess, they’re probably pretty mad right now…and they're going to save it so they can jerk off to it.”

 

John laid a gentle hand on 1x1’s head, running his fingers through their hair. “You sound so tired,” he noted. “I promise we can go back soon. I just need to quickly check if there’s any more cameras.” 

 

1x1 nodded and reluctantly pulled away from John. He smiled and kissed their forehead. “Don’t fall asleep, okay? It’s fine if you do, but I think I’ll miss your voice.” 

 

1x1’s cheeks flared up with heat. “I..okay.” They watched him leave the bedroom. They flopped backwards onto the bed and yawned. 

 

There was a pleasant ache in their hips and between their legs. They felt around for their phone and opened the camera to look at their neck. They laughed breathlessly when they saw all the marks. 

 

They opened Discord and immediately opened the streamers’ server. They felt like Noli, about to brag to everyone about how they just got laid. 

 

Whatever. Noli could suck 007n7’s dick. 

 

..he probably does anyways.

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1x1 shoved their phone into their pocket and tried to stand up. They steadied themself on the nightstand and shuffled forward.

 

Their legs felt like jelly. They sighed and wobbled to the doorframe. 

 

“John? Can..you..” 1x1 leaned on the doorframe with a glare. “Come help me. You did this and I expect you to at least support me.”

 

John chuckled and smiled apologetically. “Sorry, love.” He walked over to 1x1 and looped his good arm around their waist. 

 

1x1 leaned on John and huffed. “Thanks,” they muttered. He kissed their temple and started walking to the door. 

 

John sat 1x1 down on a stray chair and grabbed their shoes. 

 

“Aw, what a gentleman you are,” 1x1 teased with a smirk. They snickered when they saw John duck his head down to hide his smile.

 

1x1 slid their shoes on and had John help them up. They stumbled and fell into his chest. He helped them straighten up and rubbed their back. 

 

They made their way to the front door and opened it. John let 1x1 hold onto the wall as he shut the door. He looked over at them and smiled warmly. “Come on. Let’s start the long journey home.”

 

1x1 rolled their eyes. “It’s not going to take that long. My legs aren’t that weak.” 

..

The walk back to John’s took about thirty minutes. 

 

Not too bad, but not the best either. 

 

Once inside the comfort of John’s home, 1x1 pulled out of John’s grip and stumbled toward the stairs. They managed to get up rather quickly and threw themself into his bed. 

 

They never wanted to get up. Ever. 

 

John came into the room a few minutes later, clearly having taken his time. 1x1 rolled onto their side and opened their arms. 

 

John couldn’t stop the grin that spread across his face. He collapsed next to them and pulled them close. 

 

“You really like to cuddle, hm?” 1x1 pushed their face into John’s neck. “Sure. Coming from the one that invited me onto the bed.”

 

1x1 just grumbled. “Be quiet. Just take a nap with me.” 

 

“Of course, darling.”

…

While two people were happy, one other was definitely not. 

 

“I told you, breaking in isn’t the way to go,” a male voice spoke up. She whipped her head around to glare at her friend. 

 

“Shut the hell up,” she hissed. She thrust her phone at him. “They–they had sex . In front of the camera. They knew .” 

 

“It’s…not like you’re good at breaking in,” he mumbled. “Excuse me?!” She exclaimed. “ You try breaking into someone’s apartment!” 

 

He gave her a skeptical glance. “I..have. Yours. It wasn’t fun.” She rolled her eyes. “Doesn’t count. I gave you permission.” 

 

He sighed heavily. “Look…they–” “He.” “-- they probably won’t ever like you. People don’t tend to like it when their homes are broken into.” 

 

She scowled at him. “You are no help to me. I don’t need you.” He folded his arms over his chest. “Yes, you do. I’m giving you good advice. The advice being to not break into people’s homes. ”

 

“But–but how else am I going to get him to notice me?!” She cried. 

 

“You donate money. You become a regular in their streams. I don’t know?! I can’t cover for you much longer.” He started walking out of the room. He paused in the doorway. 

 

“If you keep this up, I’ll turn you in myself,” he said quietly. “It doesn’t matter if you’re my friend. I don’t want someone I know to be a criminal, but I’ll do it for their sake.” 

———

 

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Notes:

before you guys come knocking NO the stalker does not have a name…they are not important I do not care about her

ALSO ALSO…drum roll please

I’m thinking about maybe making a discord server?!?!
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Chapter 16: they are dating now

Summary:

they are too dumb and John exposes them

Notes:

it’s currently 2am as I am posting this but oh well

I made some art at the end for what I think John and 1x look like but please ignore John’s hair

shoutout to Zach_Soot and freakmaster99 for giving me ideas this chap

1x1’s thumbs hovered over the screen of their phone as they thought about what to add. They had been writing an apology for not streaming lately. They knew their fans would understand no matter how dry the message was, but they wanted to sound genuine.

 

They groaned and stretched their legs out. John said he was going to stream that night. 1x1 didn’t mind, as long as they got to be with him. 

 

1x1 got off of John’s bed and went downstairs on wobbly legs. They spotted John’s sister in the kitchen and waved awkwardly when they were seen. Their heart sank to their stomach when she started walking over to them.

 

“You’re still here? I thought John would have..well.” She scratched the back of her neck. “With how much he talks about you, I’m surprised you’re not chained to his bed or something.”

 

1x1 just blinked at her. What.  

 

Jane (at least, that’s what 1x1 thought her name was) stared right back at them. She raised a brow slowly. 

 

1x1 tugged at the hoodie they were wearing. “Does..erm..” they cleared their throat. “Does John bring me up a lot?” They asked weakly, trying to keep their hopes down. 

 

Jane was silent as a large grin spread across her face. “Yes, he does. Always gushing to me about how pretty you are and how cool you look. I’ve been wanting to see you for ages. Didn’t think I’d first see you in John’s bed.”

 

1x1 pursed their lips. They remembered that . At least John had gotten her to go away..

 

Wait.

 

“Didn’t you take pictures of us?” 1x1 asked with an accusatory tone. A look of confusion crossed over Jane’s expression before it morphed into a teasing one. 

 

“Yeah. I did. They weren’t bad though, don’t worry.” Jane waved her hand dismissively. 1x1 couldn’t help the way their shoulders tensed. 

 

It’s just John’s sister. She doesn’t mean anything by it.

 

1x1 didn’t notice the way Jane’s brow furrowed. They didn’t notice the way she opened her mouth, only to immediately close it again. They didn’t hear the footsteps approaching them until it was too late. 

 

Two arms slipped around 1x1’s waist and tugged them backwards, making them jump from the sudden contact. They heard Jane’s soft laughter and whipped their head around. 

 

There he was, the man of 1x1’s dreams. 

 

1x1 looked John up and down swiftly, taking in the way his shirt slightly clung to his body from his shower. They then wrinkled their nose when his wet ass hair dripped onto their face. 

 

“You’re wet,” 1x1 grumbled. They gently shoved at his arms. They realized he didn’t have his cast on. 

 

“Mhm. Just like you were yeste–” 

 

" John .”

 

The streamer laughed and squeezed 1x1 one last time before letting go. “Come on, let’s go upstairs. My sister has entertained you enough.” 

 

1x1 followed John upstairs, looking outside a window. It was pretty dark out. John was going to start streaming soon. 

 

1x1 beelined straight back to John’s bed. They snatched their phone up and checked the time. Almost nine at night. 

 

John was at his desk booting everything up. 1x1 trudged over and wrapped their arms around his neck. They could see him smiling even when he tried hiding it. 

 

“How long are you planning to stream for?” 1x1 asked with a slight yawn. John hummed and leaned his head on their arm. “The usual. Until I get tired or until two in the morning.”

 

He turned his head to look up at 1x1. “Though..I might end a little early,” he mumbled. He spun around in his chair and gently pulled them down for a kiss. 1x1 could feel him smiling into it. 

 

The kiss was short and sweet, but 1x1 definitely felt John’s love through it. They tried to force down a small grin, but they eventually gave up. 

 

John looked at his bed, then to his monitor, then back to 1x1. “If.. if you're comfortable showing your face, I was going to ask if you wanted to cuddle while I streamed. But if you’re not, then just sit on the bed and look pretty for me, yeah?” 

 

1x1 took a hesitant step toward the bed. “I’ll think about it. I swear. It’s not like I’m opposed to the idea, it just feels..weird. People would recognize me for sure. I mean, my– Telamon is the most well-known figure in Robloxia.” 1x1 scoffed. 

 

“Anyway..I’ll think about it.” John nodded and slowly turned back to his computer. 1x1 thought he looked incredibly hot at the moment. 

 

Maybe they did need to be chained down. 

 

Preferably to John’s bed. 

 

And preferably underneath him. 

 

1x1 forced themself to look at their phone. They opened the camera app and looked at themself idly. 

 

They found themself raising their phone to look at different angles of themself. They fluffed their hair out and made sure the marks on their neck were visible. 

 

1x1 took some pictures of themself and sighed. They went to delete some of them and criticized every little bit before actually moving the selfies to the trash. 

 

Bad angle.

 

Too quick.

 

Blurry.

 

My eyes look weird.

 

My clothes don’t look right. 

 

Too..feminine.

 

1x1 grimaced and deleted that one quickly. They hated it when they looked like that. 

 

They curled up on the bed as John started his stream. Admins, his voice could lull 1x1 to sleep. 

…

It appeared that 1x1 had actually fallen asleep. 

 

John was still streaming when they woke up, though. 

 

1x1 groggily grabbed their phone and almost dropped it onto their face. The bright light from the screen made them hiss like a vampire. 

 

1am.

 

1x1 blinked slowly. 

 

1am.

 

..why was John still in his chair and not in bed with them?

 

1x1 dragged themself out of the bed and stumbled over to John. They weren’t aware that their body was being caught by John’s face cam. 

 

“John,” they mumbled, voice soft and hoarse from sleep. Despite him having headphones on, he had somehow managed to hear them. He lifted one side off his ear and looked up at them.

 

“1x?” He murmured. “What do you n–what do you need?” He had to stop himself from calling 1x1 a pet name. 

 

“I’m just wondering why you haven’t come to bed yet.” 1x1 ignored how they sounded like a worried housewife. 

 

Their gaze shifted from John to his chat, which was currently exploding with messages. They read a few out of curiosity and felt heat creep up their cheeks. 

 

“John, do they...did you tell them?” They whispered. They glance over at his face cam to see if their face is visible before looking back at their boyfriend. 

 

John shook his head with a lovestruck smile. “They just like to, you know, make assumptions.” 

 

1x1 stared at John with a blank expression. He sucks at this.

 

“Right..can they hear me?” They gestured to the monitor. John shook his head. “No. They can hear me, though.” 

 

1x1 nods slowly as they catch glimpses of what the chat is saying. 

 

Mostly stuff about John dating someone. 

 

Someone that had a hoodie with a ribcage design. 

 

You know who else had a ribcage in promotional stuff?

 

The streamers CreationofHatred.

 

The chat had pieced this together and was buzzing with all sorts of theories. 1x1 kept seeing messages about them not being slick, amd that they weren’t hiding it well. 

 

1x1 smiled tiredly. “..we should tell them.”

 

“Are you sure? We don’t have to..” John looked skeptical, but let 1x1 climb into his lap and settle there. 

 

1x1 buried their face into John’s neck. They knew at least some people in the chat would recognize them. Even if they didn’t show their face a lot, they knew that their true fans knew what they looked like. 

 

John rested his good arm against their back, holding them against his chest while also making sure they don’t fall. 

 

1x1 pressed a kiss to John’s lips before deciding to go right back to sleep. 

 

John didn’t know what to think of that. 

 

Some concept art that I made

 

Notes:

join the discord server! https://discord.gg/7YnK2HxM

Chapter 17: 1x1 and telamon converse

Summary:

WARNING: heavy, heavy topics incoming..please skip if you aren't comfortable

1x1 and Telamon have a conversation for the first time in a while.

Notes:

HEED MY WARNING PLEASEEEEE

my (beta) readers wanted to jump

*taps shiny new tags* now why are those there

 

1x1 knew John’s fans had run their mouths when they got bombarded with ship art in every app they opened.

 

They didn’t mind it, honestly. At least they didn’t have to try and hide it. 

 

Not even six hours later, they received a text from both Shedletsky and Telamon. 

 

1x1 despised talking to Telamon. They wanted to throw up just looking at the notification. Knowing him, he’d probably have many choice words to say about their choice of a partner.

 

Shedletsky, on the other hand, probably wouldn’t care. Maybe. 1x1 didn’t talk to him enough to know. 

 

1x1 chose to open the text from Shedletsky first. 

Shedletsky

yo

r u dating someone??

im not judging or anything

i just want to make sure youre happy with your choice

 

1x1

i am dating someone

and im very happy with my choice

id prefer if you dont ask too much

 

Shedletsky

oh ok

thanks for letting me know 😝

1x1 sighed. At least Shedletsky was understanding. 

 

They stared at Telamon’s contact for multiple minutes. They reluctantly clicked on it. 

T

1x1.

Why are you dating someone? 

Especially someone who looks so mediocre in status. 

There is someone better. 

Do not stoop down to this level.

I did not raise you like this, 1x1x1x1.

 

1x1

correction, you didn’t raise me at all.

brighteyes raised me and gave me the best childhood she could. 

you could never, ever compare to her.

or shedletsky.

 

T

Do not bring up their names.

This is a conversation for me and you.

 

1x1

fine

i’m dating someone because I can and because I can take care of myself

don’t insult someone you don’t know just because they look a certain way.

especially since you look like an overfed chicken.

 

T

1x1.

Don’t forget what I can do to you. 

 

1x1

dont bring that up

im not scared of you anymore

 

T

You can’t even look at me during family events.

Is it because of what happened last time?

 

1x1

dont bring that up

i dont like talking about it

 

T

Sure.

In the moment, you didn’t seem to be saying no. 

 

1x1

i was trying to push you off

dont turn this on me and make it seem like it was my fault

you cornered me

 

T

Really?

You invited me to talk.

 

1x1

no i didnt??

you literally grabbed me and locked me in the room with you.

 

T

You weren’t complaining, as far as I remember.

 

1x1

oh maybe because i was in shock?

i couldnt talk because you also GAGGED me.

you are disgusting.

 

T

I didn’t want to disturb the others. 

It was late.

 

1x1

more like you didn’t want them hearing me scream for help.

 

T

You were practically asking for it.

Don’t pretend that you weren’t.

 

1x1

i wasn’t

i dont understand

why did you do it

 

T

You weren’t listening to me.

 

1x1

i was

i dont like looking at you

its a waste of my vision

 

T

You are a waste of time.

I have better things to do.

 

1x1

wow.

getting so offended about something like that

is exactly what i expect from you

 

T

Watch yourself. 

I know where you are.

I could do anything to that boyfriend of yours.

 

1x1

if you hurt him ill kill you

 

T

How sweet.

It’s funny how you think you can do something to me.

Don’t forget that I have access to anywhere in Robloxia.

 

1x1

wow big flex

 

T

Don’t make me take you to the Heights.

 

1x1

and let you try to harm me again?

im good

 

T

I didn’t harm you.

You weren’t injured.

You seemed to be enjoying it.

 

1x1

I wasn’t

you know that

 

T

I’m sure you’d like it if I did that in front of your boyfriend.

 

1x1

no????

youre insane

why would i want that

 

T

You seem to enjoy being watched.

 

1x1

the only person I want watching me is John

and his dick is bigger than yours anyway

 

T

I have nothing to say about that.

 

1x1

hope youre jealous that i got dicked down by some ‘low class’ guy better than you

1x1 blocked Telamon immediately after sending the message.

 

They didn’t know why they had put up with him for so long.

 

They felt like bugs were crawling over their skin. 

 

1x1 threw their phone across the room. They ran their hands through their hair and stared at the floor. They felt sick.

 

They dragged themself out of John’s bedroom. He had gone out with Jane to get groceries. The house was quiet. Too quiet.

 

1x1 locked the door to the bathroom and stared at themself. They looked horrible. 

 

Their gaze wandered over their own figure. John’s shirt hung loosely off their frame. The collar slipped down enough to expose their binder. 

 

Right.

 

1x1 checked that the door was locked twice before throwing their clothes into a corner. They stepped into the shower and turned the water on.

 

They didn’t care how hot the water was.

 

They didn’t care that their skin was starting to burn.

 

They needed to wash off the hands touching them. 

 

1x1 stared at the wall, scalding water sliding down their sides. Their eyes fell to the side to look at body wash. 

 

They practically lunged at the bottle, pouring some into their hand. They didn’t care to grab a shower sponge. They rubbed the body wash over their skin, scratching down their arms harshly. 

 

They didn’t notice the bloody marks on their arms. They scrubbed themself until they opened up old wounds. 

 

Only when the water turned cold did they feel the burns on their skin. They felt the blood dripping from their legs and arms. They felt how raw they had rubbed their skin. 

 

1x1 flinched away from the water. They fumbled to turn it off. They made sure the blood had washed away before stepping out. 

 

They grabbed a towel with shaky hands. They wrapped it around themself and sifted through the bathroom cabinets. 

 

They eventually found bandages. They hastily wrapped their arms and legs up before grabbing their clothes and retreating back to John’s room. 

 

1x1 pulled on some of John’s clothes and their hoodie. They threw the blanket into the laundry basket and went downstairs to get some water. 

 

They had just grabbed a glass of water when they heard a knock on the door. Slightly curious and cautious, they shuffled over to the front door. 

 

1x1 looked out the peephole and saw a girl standing there, looking anxious. Maybe she needs help with something.

 

They opened the door slowly. They noticed how a look of surprise and recognition flashed across the girl’s face, but didn’t say anything. 

 

“Do you… need something?” 1x1 asked awkwardly. They wished they had put their binder on. The way the girl was staring at their body was making them feel anxious. They thought the hoodie would be enough.

 

“Oh.. um, yeah. Sorry..” Her voice was a bit shaky as she fidgeted with her fingers. “I’ve been going door to door asking for help. My.. my brother, he…um.. he fell on a rock and twisted his ankle. I don’t have anything to drive him to the hospital.”

 

1x1 felt skeptical. 

 

On one hand, they felt bad that the poor girl’s brother twisted his ankle, but on the other hand, they could see the smile she was trying to hide.

 

“Right…let me get something real quick.” 1x1 nodded slowly and backed up to go grab their phone, but a hand on the arm stopped them. 

 

“If–if you’re grabbing supplies, then I already have some at home, so don’t worry!” She gave 1x1 a strained smile.

 

1x1 shook their head and tried to pull away. She was strong. “I’m going to grab my phone–” they tried to explain, but she interrupted them. 

 

“I only live just down the street! Come on, it’ll be quick!” She tugged on 1x1’s arm. They stumbled forward, losing their balance. They almost crashed into the desperate girl. 

 

1x1 tried yanking their arm out of her grip again, but winced when her fingers dug into the recently opened scars and raw skin beneath their hoodie.

 

They glared at her and planted their feet. What was her problem? “Let go of me, damnit,” they hissed. She didn’t seem to hear them and kept trying to drag them out of the doorway. 

 

“Let them go.”

 

A firm voice made both of them freeze. 1x1’s head shot up. They recognized that voice. 

 

Their saviour stood behind the girl, pushing her out of the way. She stumbled and fell flat on her ass. 1x1 looked up at John with a blank expression, rubbing their arm. 

 

John gently guided them into the house as Jane started to berate the other girl. John set the bag of groceries he was carrying down on the kitchen counter and looked over 1x1.

 

“Are you alright, darling?” John gently took 1x1’s hands and pulled them close. They nodded and leaned against him. 

 

“I’m fine. That girl just..I thought she really needed help. Until she started pulling at me.” 1x1 hugged John. They hadn’t noticed their body shaking.

 

John held them carefully, nodding gratefully at Jane as she passed by. He kissed their head and hummed. 

 

“I didn’t like her at all. She was clearly going to bring you somewhere to do something bad.” His voice was low as his fingers pressed into 1x1’s hips. 1x1 kissed John’s neck and sighed. 

 

“Thanks for stepping in,” they mumbled. “I don’t know what would’ve happened if you weren’t there.” 

 

John smiled softly. “Of course, love. It’s the bare minimum.” 

 

1x1 wanted to stay in John’s arms forever. 

 

They promised right then and there that they’d keep him safe. 

 

Even if it meant killing Telamon.

Notes:

hahahha

jumps off a bridge

Chapter 18: The Family Jewels

Summary:

Oh, don’t you find it strange?

The only thing we share is one last name.

Notes:

WARNING BIG WANRING OMG FUCK YOU TELAMON

my readers were out for me for this one…heh..

cries

A convention was coming up, and 1x1 had been asked to be there. 

 

It was in a couple days, apparently. 

 

1x1 didn’t necessarily want to go, but they supposed they should. 

 

They made it through the week quicker than they wanted. Their skin still ached from when they had burned it and rubbed it too harshly. 

 

At some point, they had ended up in front of the building. They stared at the ground for a bit before heading in. 

 

The area was filled with noise, all the vendors setting up their booths. They nervously walked over to the designated area for voice actors. 

 

They didn’t voice anyone too crazy, but they guessed that their character in Brosaken would be big enough for people to come see. 

 

1x1 trudged over to their spot and looked around for a supervisor. They felt quite awkward just standing there. Their hand fidgeted in their hoodie pocket, itching to text John. He hadn’t come with them to the convention since they both agreed it would draw too much attention.

 

They wished he was here. 

 

1x1 took a few hesitant steps in a random direction before getting stopped by a few taps on their shoulder. They turned and saw a smiling woman with a clipboard. 

 

“There you are!” She chirped. “Come right this way, Mx. 1x1. Your booth is over here.” She started to walk the opposite direction. 1x1 rushed to follow her, not wanting to get lost. 

 

1x1 had to dodge multiple people on the way to their booth. They almost slammed into a couple tables just trying to not touch someone. They couldn’t help but scan their surroundings anxiously. 

 

He could be anywhere. 

 

..he’s in the Heights. He always is.

 

1x1 shook off their anxiety and tried to keep up with the lady. They almost bumped into her as she stopped. 

 

“Alright. This one’s yours. Have a good time! Come find someone with one of these badges if you need anything.” She grinned at them and showed them a badge that was pinned to her shirt. 

 

1x1 nodded blankly and watched her leave. They sat down in the chair that was behind their table. They just stared at their hands for a while. 

 

Their hand slipped into their pocket and pulled their phone out. They had two more hours. They had time to text John. 

 

Their thumb hovered over the Discord app. They didn’t know why they were hesitating. 

 

They wanted to talk to John.

 

They didn’t have the motivation. 

 

1x1 ran a hand through their hair and groaned. It was going to be a long two hours. 

…

Halfway through the convention, 1x1 felt drained. 

 

They wanted to die.

 

They wished John was there. 

 

1x1 plastered on yet another smirk as they took a picture with a fan. They wanted to go back to John already. They quickly signed something and said words of thanks. 

 

They finally got a small pause a few minutes later, their seemingly endless stream of fans finally ending. 

 

1x1 leaned back in their chair and closed their eyes. They looked up at the ceiling and decided to get up and walk to the bathroom.

 

They stood up and slowly wound their way to the bathroom. They yawned and waved idly to some cosplayers. 

 

The bathroom was surprisingly empty, but they supposed the rush was over now. Most of the people here were just here to catch voice actors while there wasn’t a line. 

 

1x1 splashed water on their face, feeling refreshed. They rubbed their eyes and sighed contentedly. 

 

But that quiet peace was shattered by the sound of rustling clothes. 

 

1x1 looked up slowly. Their eyes widened when they saw who was standing behind them. 

 

They slowly turned their head, praying to any of the admins that they were wrong. 

 

Their hands curled into fists at their sides. 

 

No.

 

1x1’s breathing quickened as they locked eyes with the god in front of them. 

 

The two stared at each other for a moment, until Telamon stepped forward. 

 

1x1 pressed themself against the counter, hands flying up in front of them. “Don’t come any closer!” They shouted, body and voice shaking. 

 

Telamon tilted his head. “But I’m your father. Can’t a dad come to visit his daughter once in a while?” 

 

1x1 gritted their teeth. “You’re not my dad. You won’t ever be. Don’t pretend like you care. I’m not your daughter either.”

 

Telamon hummed and gently took 1x1’s hands. They tried to desperately yank them out of his grip, but he held them far too tightly. 

 

“You should watch your mouth, brat,” he hissed. His wings came up around them like a cocoon, shielding them from any onlookers. 1x1 wanted to get out. They needed to get out. 

 

“And what are you going to do? I’m fully grown now. You have no rights over me,” 1x1 spat. They finally managed to free themself from Telamon’s bruising grip and bristled as he tried reaching for their arm. 

 

“You’re still my child,” he said firmly. 1x1 snorted. “Was I your child when you decided to pull that ?” They glared at Telamon as his mouth pulled into a frown. 

 

1x1 was playing with fire. 

 

They didn’t want anything to happen to them. 

 

They, truthfully, were scared.

 

1x1 tried to ignore the way their body trembled just from Telamon being near them. They wanted him out of their sight. 

 

Unfortunately, Telamon seemed to notice the shaking. 

 

“Aw, is the little birdie attempting to fluff up her wings? You’re not that intimidating, you know.” Telamon laughed, a horrible thing, and gently caressed 1x1’s face. 

 

1x1 visibly recoiled from Telamon’s touch and words. “Don’t touch me,” they hissed. Their eyes widened in horror when Telamon gripped their waist with both of his hands, leaning into their personal space. 

 

They tensed in horror as his hands slid up, then down.

 

They were frozen.

 

They couldn’t move. 

 

Push him away. 

 

I can’t.

 

Yes you can. 

 

He’s too close. 

 

Push him and run. 

 

My hands won’t move. 

 

Hurry.

 

He’s touching me. 

 

Make him stop.

 

Make him stop.

 

Deep breaths.

 

I can’t breathe.

 

1x1 could only watch in frozen dread as Telamon slowly edged his fingers underneath their hoodie. 

 

They screamed at themself, begging and pleading to move. Their fingers twitched. 

 

Don’t let him do it again.

 

Please.

 

Please.

 

1x1 blinked, and suddenly Telamon was on the floor. Their legs shook with adrenaline. Their eyes darted around the room wildly, chest heaving with heavy breaths. 

 

It wasn’t until Telamon started moving that they broke into a sprint. 

 

They bolted toward the door and ran out. They made a beeline for their booth, phone already in hand and calling John. 

 

1x1 almost ran into the lady from earlier, but once they recognized her, they slowed down. 

 

“M-Miss,” they gasped out, pushing past their wobbling tone. “An emergency came up. I’m so sorry,” they said, calming down just a bit when they heard John pick up. 

 

The lady nodded and immediately directed 1x1 toward the nearest exit. 

 

1x1 hadn’t ever run faster in their entire life. 

 

They tried talking to John as they ran, but ultimately gave up and slowed so they could speak. 

 

“J-John, I–” 1x1’s breath hitched. Great, they were crying. 

 

“1x1,” came John’s voice, worried but soothing at the same time. “I’m coming to pick you up. Don’t worry.” 

 

1x1 shuddered and let out a sob. “Don’t hang up. Please John, please,” they begged. 

 

“I won’t, love. I promise.” 

..

1x1 was sitting on the curb with their phone in their hand, whipping their head around at every sound. They stood up quickly when they saw John’s car approaching. 

 

The car practically skidded to a halt in front of them. John rushed out of the car and to 1x1, wrapping them up tightly. 

 

1x1 sniffled and clutched onto John with a death grip. They had initially tensed when he’d hugged them so suddenly, but melted into him with a soft sob. 

 

John gently rubbed up and down their back. It reminded them of when they were in 1x1’s apartment.

 

1x1 let themself shake and cry against John. He could hide them from the prying eyes. He didn’t even question what was wrong. 

 

He gently lifted them up and placed them into the car. They were reluctant to let go, but a few kisses soothed them enough to let John slide into the driver’s seat. 

 

The drive back to John’s was relatively short. John held 1x1’s hand the entire time. 1x1 was too anxious to let go. 

 

Once back at John’s home, he proceeded to carry 1x1 inside, take their shoes off, lock the front door, and carry them into his room. He gently set them on his bed and sat next to them. They hesitated for a few moments. 

 

John didn’t mind. He let one hand hover over their head and gently placed it down, like he was trying to pet a cat. He stroked their hair softly. 

 

The two were silent for a little while. 1x1 laid their head on John’s lap and buried their face into his stomach. 

 

John eventually broke the silence with the question 1x1 had been dreading. 

 

“Do you… well. What happened?” 

Notes:

I wrote like half of this while listening to let down, die your daughter, and creation of hatred this is a deadly music combo

Chapter 19: they fuck again lelelelelel

Summary:

john I’m gay lets fuck

yes 1x1

Notes:

WARNING: smut. again

hey guys I’m back sorry for not updating yesterday

1x1 curled up on the bed, head tucked into a pillow as they finished telling John everything. They nervously picked at their nails. They knew John wouldn’t judge, they knew that. 

 

John was silent as he processed everything. His eyes roamed over the blankets as his fists slowly clenched. He was clearly getting angry. 

 

1x1 knew it wasn’t at them. 

 

He finally brought his eyes up to look at 1x1. They tensed under the weight of his stare. They shifted nervously and gave him small looks. 

 

John’s expression softened. He gently moved so he fully sat on the bed, legs crossed. He opened his arms out to 1x1 slowly. He tipped his head with a worried smile. 

 

1x1 took in a deep breath and carefully slid themself against John. They hated the way their body tensed when John’s arms slotted around them. They closed their eyes and held onto his shirt tightly. 

 

John didn’t move at all until 1x1 was fully settled. Only then did he start to gently rub circles into their hip. His other hand traces up and down their spine as he presses soft kisses into their temple. 

 

1x1 buried their face into John’s chest, happy to listen to his heartbeat. It meant that he was really there for them. They appreciated that he was being careful. 

 

They really had gotten lucky with John. 

 

The two sat in comfortable silence for a while, John rocking them back and forth. 1x1’s phone going off made them jump a little. 

 

They snatched their phone up to glare at it, retreating back into John’s chest. They heard a soft chuckle from him, accompanied by a kiss on the forehead. 1x1 rubbed their cheek against his shoulder as they opened their phone. 

 

1x1 opened Discord and was met with too many notifications from Noli. They huffed and brought their legs to their chest. 

 

John peered at their phone, chin on their head. “What does he want now?” He muttered. 1x1 shrugged. Noli was always like this. 

 

1x1 opened their dms and mindlessly scrolled through the messages until a link caught their eye. They narrowed their eyes and read what Noli had sent them. 

V01DST4R007: 3:46 pm

 

1X1

L00K WH4T 1 F0UND 

[mysterious link]

1TS 4 F4NF1C

B3TT3R TH4N Y0UR5

1X11111

PL34S3

1x1 looked up at John, to their phone, then back at him.  John gave them a confused look. 

 

“Go and look at it. I want to see what kind of fanfiction this is.” 1x1 nodded and pressed on the link. 

 

The link took 1x1 to a website called Archive of Our Own. The story was called Black Hair. 

 

1x1 just blinked at it. They scrolled up and squinted at what the text on the screen said. 

 

Relationships: 1x1x1x1/John Doe

 

Well fuck them in the ass. 

 

1x1 quickly went back to Discord and called Noli. It didn’t take long for the other streamer to pick up.

 

“Wha-a-at-t do you wan-nt, 1x1?” Noli asked with a hint of smugness. 1x1 wanted to punch him. 

 

“Why the hell did you send me a fanfiction about me and John?” They asked snippily. Noli was silent before starting to laugh his ass off. 

 

“Oooh-h, tha-at?” They snickered. “I thought y-ou-u would like i—t.” 

 

1x1 promptly hung up on Noli and flung their phone away from them. 

 

John had been silent the whole time. 1x1 noticed this and moved their head to check if he was okay. 

 

He was. 

 

He was just admiring 1x1. 

 

John carefully laid himself down on the bed, bringing 1x1 with him. He caressed their hair and kissed their cheek. 

 

He could feel them shifting to get more comfortable. He didn’t care if he was left in an uncomfortable position. 1x1 was all that mattered to him. 

 

1x1 wrapped their arms around John’s torso and pushed their face into his neck. They started placing hesitant kisses on his skin, slowly getting braver. 

 

The kisses started turning into gentle nibbles, then full on bites. John’s lower lip trembled as he tried to keep the noises building in his throat down. 

 

1x1 soon pulled away and kissed John’s jaw as an apology. He exhaled sharply and rubbed their side. They looked at him with a strange gleam in their eye. 

 

“John.”

 

“Yes, love?” 

 

“Wanna fuck?” 

 

“I–”

 

“Only if you bottom this time.”

 

“If..you’re okay with that…”

…

1x1 smirked down at John as they watched him struggle. They had tied his hands up (carefully and with explicit consent) and was greatly admiring the view. His shirt was already off.

“1x1…” John mumbled quietly, drawing their attention. “Are you sure about this? We don’t have to if you don’t want to. I don’t want to.. hurt you. Especially not after what you said..”

 

1x1 rolled their eyes. “If I didn’t want this, then you wouldn’t be tied up right now.” They put their hands on his chest and tried to resist the urge to just squeeze him. 

 

“Besides..I feel safe with you, John. You make me feel a hell of a lot better than him . Your dick is bigger anyway.” John flushed at that, turning his head to the side. 

 

“Don’t just say it like that..you’re so blunt,” he whispered. He squirmed as 1x1 kissed his collarbone. 

 

1x1 pulled at John’s sweatpants. “Should I ride you, or..” they glanced up at John. He opened his mouth to say something, but snapped it shut. 1x1 gave him a look. 

 

“Okay, okay..” John relented. “I..there’s a strap. In a box, somewhere  in the closet…I tried to bury it to forget about it.” 

 

1x1 flew to the closet and started digging in the cardboard boxes. It took them a few minutes, but they managed to pull it out. 

 

They held it up for John to see. “Why do you even have this?” They questioned with a perplexed stare. “You don’t even need this. You’ve got the real deal.”

John looked like he wanted to die on the spot. “A–a fan gifted it to me..I was opening fanmail and happened to open the box with that one in it. The note inside claimed I looked ‘peggable’..”

 

1x1 snorted. “Can’t blame them. You really do when you’re tied up like that.” They crawled back over him and sat themself on his lap. 

 

John’s hands twisted in their restraints. 1x1 could tell that he wanted to hold them. 

 

That was the main reason they tied him up.

 

1x1 removed their hoodie and threw it away from them. They slowly took John’s sweatpants off and smirked. 

 

“Wow, so excited for me, hm?” 1x1 dragged a finger over John’s growing bulge. He shuddered and let his legs fall open for them. 

 

“Please, 1x.” John bit his lip and looked away. He was embarrassed for sure. 

 

“Please what?” 1x1 settled between John’s legs, fiddling with the strap-on.

 

“Just..get on with it. I need you,” John murmured. 1x1 gave an exaggerated sigh and took their shirt off. They wrestled their binder off and toyed with the waistband of John’s boxers.

 

He gave them a pleading look. They finally gave in and yanked the pesky piece of clothing away.

 

1x1 licked their lips and circled a hand around John’s cock. They slowly rubbed their thumb over his tip, making him jolt. 

 

Soft, breathy groans left John’s lips as 1x1 teased him. His breath hitched when 1x1 squeezed the base. He let out an involuntary moan as they placed a small kiss right on the head. 

 

“1-1x.” John’s voice was trembling. His wrists strained against the restraints. His thighs tensed as they gave him an experimental lick. 

 

1x1 looked up at John and snickered, slowly taking him into their mouth. John’s eyes widened. 

 

Even if they were inexperienced, John still found himself trying to hold back near whimpers. Their mouth felt so good. He just wanted to shove them down and–

 

“ Fuck, ” he whined as he watched them take him fully. His hips twitched. 

 

1x1 wasn’t expecting him to make a noise like that.

 

They wanted to hear more.

 

They would be pegging this man.

 

1x1 started to slowly bob their head up and down, hands on John’s thighs for support. They could feel the way he tensed and trembled.

 

It was intoxicating.

 

1x1 could tell John was holding himself back from slamming his hips up. They rubbed a firm circle into his thigh as a way of thanking him. 

 

1x1’s jaw started to ache, but they kept going. They were enjoying this far too much. 

 

They couldn’t wait to just ram into him. 

 

John, on the other hand, was losing his mind.

 

He had bitten his lip so hard it had started to bleed. He eventually gave up and let moans fall from him unfiltered. 

 

He could feel tears pricking the corners of his eyes. His hands twisted and clenched, desperate for something to hold onto. 

 

John felt a knot start to form in his gut. “1x, I–I’m–” He screwed his eyes shut with a soft whimper. 

 

1x1 pulled off of John and wiped their lips. John cracked his eyes open and whined at the loss of warmth and pleasure. 

 

1x1 waved their hand at him. “I’m sorry, I know. Almost there.” They bit the inside of his thigh and pulled away. 

 

They shimmied out of their pants and underwear, stepping into the harness for the strap. 

 

John watched 1x1 with glossy eyes, feeling slightly impatient but also a bit nervous. He’d never been on the bottom before. 

 

For 1x1, he was willing to try.

 

1x1 sifted around in the blankets for the bottle of lube they had thrown around earlier. They glanced at its contents and wondered how many partners John had before them. 

 

1x1 shook that thought off and bounced back over to John. They popped open the lube and poured a generous amount onto their fingers. 

 

They pressed one finger to John’s puckered entrance. He flinched away from the cold sensation. 

 

1x1 gripped John’s hip tightly. “Do you want it to hurt or not?” They muttered. They slowly worked one finger inside him, eyes widening at how tightly he was gripping their finger. 

 

Sure, they’d felt this process themself, but doing it to someone…

 

They’d have to tie John up more often.

 

1x1 slipped a second finger in, prodding at John’s walls until they heard a sharp intake of breath. They hummed and rubbed over that spot with unrelenting firmness.

 

John tugged at his restraints, holding back whines as 1x1 teased him. His legs tried closing instinctively, but 1x1 just forced them right back open again. 

 

After a few more minutes of playing with John and prepping him, 1x1 deemed him ready. 

 

They removed their fingers from his fluttering hole, watching as his chest rose and fell rapidly. 

 

1x1 grabbed the lube again and slicked up the strap. They looked up at John, seeing his eyes blown wide with slight nerves and lust.

 

They lifted John’s hips up and gently pressed the silicone tip against him. They glanced up at him to make sure he was ready before pressing in slowly.

 

John’s body shook as 1x1 entered him. They were going very slowly, trying not to hurt him. They braced a hand on his stomach as their hips met John’s.

 

The two took a moment to breathe. John didn’t know how to feel. The feeling of being full wasn’t bad, just new .

 

1x1 dragged their hips back carefully, then snapped them back against John’s. John let out a choked breath. 

 

1x1 felt a grin tug at their lips from John’s reaction. They attempted to set a pace, but due to lack of experience, it took them a few tries to get a good rhythm. 

 

John opened his mouth to give them some gentle encouragement and praise on how well they were doing, but a high-pitched moan escaped instead as they nailed his prostate. His head fell back, spine arched high as 1x1 started to grind into it. 

“1x–1x! Ah, f-fuck..” John clawed at the air, hips starting to try and meet 1x1’s. 1x1 slammed into him again and chuckled. “Yes, John? Do you like it?” They teased, sliding one hand between them to jerk him off. 

 

John’s jaw fell slack, tears of pleasure finally falling down his face. Unrestrained moans and gasps of 1x1’s name came from the poor, trembling man pressed into the sheets. 

 

John’s hands itched to hold 1x1, to scrape down their back as they used him like a cheap toy. He wanted to feel their teeth searing into his flesh, marking him as theirs forever. He wanted to feel the ache in his hips when they were done with him. He wanted them. Bad. 

 

 1x1 began to pound into John, messily getting him off with their hand. They had to adjust a bit so they could have a good grip on him. 

 

They bent down and bit down on John’s neck. They sucked a harsh mark onto his chest and righted themself.

 

They quite liked seeing John so ruined underneath them.

 

1x1 could tell John was close from the way he was shaking. They moved their hand faster, prodding at the tip and squeezing him. 

 

They then leaned close to his ear, having gotten an idea. They nipped at his earlobe and started to murmured praise to him.

“You’re doing so good for me, John.”

 

“Such a beautiful face when you’re like this.”

 

“You’ve got this, John. Just let loose.”

 

And boy, did 1x1’s words do something to John. 

 

“1–1x–1x1–...hngh, 1 x1 !” He climaxed with an almost silent scream of their name. 1x1’s hand quickly flew to muffle John just in case. 

 

1x1 decided to be a prick and kept rocking their hips into John. As soon as he came down from his high, he started to tense with overstimulation. His legs tried to half-heartedly kick 1x1 away.

 

1x1 stopped moving after that and pulled themself out. They tossed the strap-on somewhere else after wiping it with a towel they had grabbed earlier. They gently wiped John’s body down and freed his hands from where they had been tied up. 

 

John immediately took them into his arms. He nuzzled their hair with heaving breaths. 

 

“I missed holding you,” he muttered with a raspy tone. 1x1 smirked. “I know you did. That’s why I tied you up. It was kinda funny to watch you struggle.”

 

John bent his head and gave their neck a sharp nip. “You’re evil.” 

 

The two lay in silence for a little while, just content to be with each other. John traced up and down 1x1’s spine gently. 

 

1x1 ended up being the one to break the silence. “..are we going to shower or anything? I can still feel your children on my skin.” They gestured to the sticky towel in the corner.

 

“..let me hold you. A little longer. Five minutes at least.” 

 

“..fine. Admins, you’re hard to refuse like this.”

Notes:

sorry if the smut was bad I kinda half-assed it because I was tired and also was at a hair appointment

Chapter 20: this girl’s gotta go

Summary:

funny things happen

Notes:

my readers kept coming after me it’s like 1am as I post this

ALSO SORRY FOR NOT POSTING PAST COUPLE DAYS!!

peak fanart by freakmaster99 at the bottom

find the references

Maybe taking a bath with John wasn’t so bad. 

 

1x1 found themself between John’s legs as he carefully scrubbed shampoo into their hair. They weren’t sure why they were being taken care of when they literally had to carry John into the bathroom. 

 

They weren’t exactly complaining, though. 

 

It felt nice. 

 

1x1 leaned back into John’s chest, their eyes drooping with exhaustion. They wanted to nap. 

 

They hadn’t told John that they’d been staying up until the early hours of the morning. 

 

John gently poured water over their head to rinse the shampoo out. He kissed the nape of their neck as he gently squeezed the water out of their hair. 

 

1x1 felt exposed, which was strange since the two literally just had sex. They felt an overwhelming urge to cover their body and never let anyone see it again. 

 

John carefully brought his hand up to their jaw, tilting their head back. John smiled warmly at their blank expression, pecking them on the lips before moving to wash their shoulders.

 

1x1 just turned their head away, flustered. 

…

1x1 was later cornered in the kitchen by Jane. 

 

“Did you and John get it on earlier?” Jane asked with an accusatory tone. She had 1x1 backed against a counter. 

 

1x1 blinked and nodded slowly. “Yeah. Why?..” they hugged themself. Jane huffed. 

 

“For one, you guys were being super loud. But also..” she leaned in slightly, her voice dropping to a whisper. 

 

“Was John on the bottom?” She questioned with a smirk. 

 

1x1 felt their cheeks heating up. “Well…yeah, he was.” They picked at their hoodie. 

 

Jane backed away and started laughing. “I can’t wait to use that against him. Never knew he liked to be a little pillow prince.” 

 

1x1 snorted at that. They then got startled by a loud notification from their phone. They whipped the device out of their pocket and opened it. 

 

 They brought their phone closer to their face. Messages from Noli again. 

 

They almost skipped past them when their eyes caught on the word airport .

 

What the hell was Noli doing at the airport?

 

1x1 could think of every scenario for being at the airport, yet even the idea of going outside seemed strange for Noli. 

 

They pondered this for a while until they remembered a conversation they had with Noli a week prior to the whole collab. 

“Hey, 1x.” Noli’s voice cut through the otherwise silent room. It was rare for him to actually sound normal, so 1x1 lazily brought their phone closer. “Yeah?”

 

Noli hummed, and 1x1 could hear shifting sounds on the other end. “Well, I was thinking that I should fly out to see you again. It’s been a while.” 

 

1x1 nearly dropped their phone flat on their face. “Really? You would? When?” They grinned at their phone screen. 

 

“Oh…in a few weeks. I already have my ticket.” Noli laughed and 1x1 smiled even wider. “That–that’s great! I–wow.”

 

“I know right? Anyways..I guess I’ll see you then. Seven is calling.” 1x1 rolled their eyes. 

 

“Yeah, yeah. Go call your boyfriend.”

 

“He’s not my boyfriend. Not yet.”

 

1x1 scoffed. “I’m telling you, man. Just go for it. You guys are so in love it makes me sick.”

 

“Oh, 1x…you grumpy little shit. You’ll find someone someday.” Noli’s tone was mocking. 1x1 wanted to shake him.

 

“Just get going, Noli.” 1x1 scowled at their phone and exited the call. 

Jane watched with mild amusement as 1x1’s expression went from blank to confused to panicked within seconds.

 

1x1 ran a hand through their hair and practically flew to the front door. They tugged their shoes on and glanced up at Jane.

 

“I..” They hesitated and straightened. “Can you tell John that I’ll be back?” 

 

Jane nodded and folded her arms. “He’ll probably try to find you…but I can keep him here for you.”

 

1x1 felt a grin tug at their lips. “Yeah..thanks.”

 

Jane returned their grin with a smirk of her own. “Better head out now before he wakes up from his nap.”

 

“How’d you know he was sleeping?” 1x1 looked over their shoulder as they opened the door. 

 

“Oh..y’know. Sibling intuition.” Jane waved her hand dismissively and made a shooing motion. 

 

1x1 gave one last smile before heading out of the house.

 

They really liked Jane.

…

“Finally. I thought I was going to have to track your location to find you.”

 

1x1 just stuck their tongue out at Noli. “You’re lucky I even looked at my messages. I completely forgot that you were coming.”

 

Noli gave 1x1 an unimpressed look (or what 1x1 thought was an unimpressed look. They couldn’t see anything behind Noli’s hair and mask) and gently punched their arm. 

 

“You think so much of me, don’t you,” Noli said flatly. 1x1 smirked. “Oh yeah. All the time.”

 

Noli just huffed. “Sure. We’re walking to your place right?” 

 

Silence settled over the two as Noli pieced together something. 

 

“Oh.”

 

1x1 side-eyed Noli.

 

“Uh…”

 

1x1 sighed. “Come on. Let’s just go to my place.” 

 

Noli hesitated, but picked up their bags. “Are you sure? I can just book a hotel–”

 

“Noli.”

 

“Right, right…so bossy.”

 

1x1 started walking in the direction of their apartment. Noli scrambled to follow them. 

 

The walk wasn’t too far, which 1x1 was grateful for. They didn’t own a car. 

 

Speaking of cars…

 

“Noli,” 1x1 spoke up. They heard a hum from the other Robloxian and continued. 

 

“Did you hear about that car accident in that one server? Poor person got slammed into.” 

 

Noli perked up. “Oh, I heard about that! The victim’s name was Broken Spawn or something, right?”

 

1x1 nodded. “Dead before authorities even got there. Heard his best friend was there, too. Watched it happen.”

 

Noli shook his head. “Terrible thing to happen. Guy is gonna be traumatized.”

 

The rest of the walk was in heavy silence. 

 

1x1 eventually stopped at their apartment complex. They stepped inside with visible tension in their muscles. 

 

Noli walked closer behind 1x1.

 

The two wound their way up the stairs, Noli complaining with each flight. 1x1 nearly punched him right back down. 

 

When they finally made it to 1x1’s apartment, it was safe to say that Noli was going to have a few bruises the next morning. 

 

1x1 sighed and tried the door. Unlocked.

 

“That’s strange,” Noli pointed out unhelpfully. 1x1 shot them a venomous glare.

 

1x1 opened the door carefully. From just a quick glance, everything looked normal. 

 

1x1 could tell that something was off.

 

The apartment was clean. Too clean.

 

Like someone had been living there.

 

1x1 immediately dismissed the thought as soon as they’d had it. They didn’t want to make themself paranoid. 

 

Noli whistled lowly. “Looks the same from when I came here last. Few years ago, right?”

 

1x1 nodded absently. They instinctively made their way toward the bedroom. 

 

Noli quietly set his bags down and followed after them. 

 

1x1 put a hand on the doorknob and twisted it slowly so it would make as little noise as possible. They slowly stepped into the room and almost immediately backed up with a hand over their mouth.

 

Noli gently moved 1x1 out of the way to see why they were so shocked. 

 

His eyes widened. 

 

“ Shit. ”

…

When John woke up, the first thing he noticed was that 1x1 wasn’t with him. 

 

..which was fine , he supposed. 

 

They were probably just downstairs or in the bathroom. 

 

John sat up with a groan, stretching his legs and arms out. He remembered to grab his cast since 1x1 would nag at him if he didn’t have it on. 

 

John slowly made his way out of his bedroom. First, he checked the bathroom and found the door open. No one there.

 

Then, he went to check downstairs. 

 

No one.

 

He did happen to notice that 1x1’s shoes were missing by the front door. 

 

Right, anyways…he had to check–

 

1x1’s shoes were missing.

 

John whipped his head back around to double check. Sure enough, all he saw was his and Jane’s shoes. 

 

A soft snicker caused him to turn back toward the stairs. Jane stood on the bottom one, leaning against the wall with her arms crossed. 

 

“Looking for your partner, are you?” She hummed with amusement. John narrowed his eyes at her. 

 

“Yes, I am. Where are they,” he muttered. Jane sighed and walked over to him. 

 

“They just had to grab something really quick. They told me to tell you not to worry.” Jane gently put a hand on John’s shoulder. He huffed and brushed it off. 

 

“Are you sure? Did–did they send me a text or anything? Or–”

 

“ John .”

 

He turned at the mention of his name, lowering his head with shame. “Sorry, Jane. I just..I worry.” 

 

Jane’s expression softened. “I understand that John, but sometimes you just have to trust them to not get in trouble.”

 

John chewed on his bottom lip for a few seconds, then sighed. 

 

“You’re right,” he groaned. “I’m sorry.” 

 

Jane shook her head. “Don’t apologize. I get that you’re worried. They’ll be back soon.”

… 

1x1 stood behind Noli as the other crept into the bedroom with a knife. 1x1 trusted Noli with their life. 

 

They knew he’d protect them anyways. This was a serious situation.

 

Noli padded over to the bed and motioned for 1x1 to stay by the door. They nodded and watched anxiously. 

 

Noli took in a deep breath and turned their phone flashlight on. He bit his lip when he confirmed their suspicions. 

 

There was a person in 1x1’s bed.

 

1x1 covered their face and turned away. Noli glanced back at them and exhaled. 

 

He peeled the blanket off the person and raised a brow when it revealed the sleeping form of a girl. 

 

“Didn’t expect this,” they muttered. Noli snapped a picture of the girl’s face before roughly shaking her awake.

 

She startled awake and almost screamed when she came face to face with Noli’s knife. She scrambled back until she collided with the wall. 

 

“Fuck, who are you? Why are you?..” she trailed off as she caught sight of 1x1 standing in the doorway. Her face paled.

 

1x1 locked eyes with the girl, heart sinking into their stomach. No.

 

It was the same girl that tried forcing them out of John’s house.

 

They were really going to throw up.

 

Noli watched as all the girl’s attention shifted to 1x1. He quickly stepped in front of them, blocking them mostly from the girl’s vision. 

 

“Who the hell are you? Why are you in someone else’s apartment?” Noli’s voice was shaking, but they couldn’t tell if it was from rage or adrenaline. 

 

The girl looked surprised still, but calmer now. “What do you mean? This–”

 

“Don’t you lie to us,” 1x1 spoke up weakly. They appreciated how Noli angled his body to cover them. 

 

The girl was silent for a few minutes. 1x1 could see the wheels turning in her head. 

 

“..fine. You caught me. Happy?” She folded her arms. Noli raised the knife as she shifted on the bed. 

 

“My name is Lloyd,” she declared. Noli and 1x1 shared a look. 

 

“Shouldn’t you.. um.. not be giving us your name?” Noli raised a brow and deadpanned. Lloyd clapped her hands over her mouth. “Oh, right..pretend you didn’t hear that.”

 

1x1 squinted at her. Is she stupid or something?  

 

“Yeah…so..what the actual fuck are you doing in my house,” 1x1 asked flatly. Lloyd blinked at them for a few seconds, then came to herself. 

 

“I came to see you, of course!” Lloyd huffed. “I love it when you acknowledge me in the chat and the way your persona lights up when you see my messages…”

 

She crawled forward on the bed, making Noli back up and guard 1x1 further. “Don’t you love me too?” She cried. “You-you always read my messages in that voice of yours. We’re meant to be, don’t you see that? All the messages I’ve sent you, all the phone calls I’ve left, all the times I’ve tried to reach out to you through John Doe’s chat..”

 

Lloyd threw her focus onto Noli, who tensed. “He doesn’t respond to me. And to make things worse, he’s trying to cheat on me with that stupid John Doe! He doesn’t understand that I’m perfect for him!” She punched the blankets. 

 

Noli ran a whole ocean of thoughts through his brain. “Who…who’s ‘he’?” They wondered aloud. 

 

“You–” Lloyd looked at Noli like they were stupid (they’re not stupid). “1x1x1x1, obviously .” She rolled her eyes.

 

Noli didn’t need to look at 1x1 to know if they were uncomfortable or not. 

 

He simply reached back and offered his hand, relaxing just a bit when they felt 1x1’s fingers curling around their own. 

 

“Get out of here,” Noli hissed. “Before John comes to find us and we all get fucked over.” 

 

“What could a guy like him do,” Lloyd sneered. “I had my friend break his arm a month back when you first started mentioning each other in streams.” 

 

1x1 lifted their head to look her in the eyes. 

 

“You what?” They muttered.

 

Lloyd gave them a challenging stare. “My friend broke John’s arm.”

 

1x1 snatched the knife out of Noli’s hand and chuckled it toward the girl in blind rage. They wanted to carve lines across her skin and watch her bleed onto the floor. They wanted her ribs to slowly be compressed by a train, puncturing her lungs and leaving her to die out in the heat of the sun. 

No.

It wasn’t enough. 

 

It wouldn’t ever be enough. 

 

1x1 reached for where the knife had fallen on the bed, but was held back by Noli. 

 

“Hey, hey, come on..” Noli carefully pulled them back. He made sure to grab the knife. 

 

“Noli, let me go . I want her dead .” 1x1 didn’t fight Noli, but did keep staring coldly at Lloyd. 

 

Noli gently pulled 1x1 into his side and brandished the knife at Lloyd. “Go,” they gritted out. “Now.” 

 

Lloyd got up and bolted out the door, wiping the blood off her arm from where 1x1 had clipped her. 

 

Noli let out a huge sigh and slowly tilted 1x1’s face up. They were shaking with adrenaline, fists clenching and unclenching slowly. 

 

Noli studied them carefully and then shook their own head. 

 

“What am I going to do with you..”

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Notes:

Lloyd…

sighs

Chapter 21: No Surprises

Summary:

such a pretty house,

and such a pretty garden

Notes:

my readers threatened me over this chapter why did it lowkey make me sad #sensitive

disscordddd linkkkkk to the server because idk if the old one still works https://discord.gg/Cu8rJwCR

um anyways tw: panic attack, mentions of sh

1x1’s hands shook as they held the glass of water in their hands. Noli stood next to them and watched them carefully. 

 

“I..”

 

Noli immediately looked over to 1x1. 1x1 gestured helplessly with their hand. 

 

“Why…why me ?” They bit their lip to try and stop themself from breaking down. They knew Noli wouldn’t mind, but even then..

 

..they hated crying. 

 

1x1 sniffled and fought down the suffocating feeling in their throat. Their breath hitched as tears started rolling down their cheeks. 

 

“I didn’t do anything for–for something like this to happen. I was just chasing a–a foolish dream.” Their voice wavered. They had to take a break to take a sip of the water.

 

Noli listened quietly, just offering their presence. He gently took the glass of water from them so they didn’t drop it. 

 

1x1 curled their fingers into their hoodie, barely trying to wipe the tears from their face. Their throat hurt from holding back.

 

They were scared that if they tried to talk, they’d just break down. 

 

“I just–” their voice cracked, “I just want to be left alone. Is that so much to ask?” 

 

Noli opened their arms to 1x1, who hesitated before letting themself drop into the embrace. 

 

1x1 tried to calm their breathing before it could spiral into gasping for air. They hugged Noli tightly, trying to ground themself. Their shoulders shook as they buried their face into Noli’s shoulder. 

 

For a moment, they thought that he would just push them off.

 

1x1 wouldn’t blame them.

 

But then, Noli’s arms came up to carefully hold them. They held 1x1’s head and caressed their back. 

 

Everything was still. 

 

On the outside, anyways. 

 

1x1 shifted their head and caught a glimpse of the bloody knife in the sink. 

 

They saw the metal pressed against their own skin, drawing out lines of their own suffering like it could actually help. 

 

1x1 needed it.

 

Now.

 

Noli seemed to sense where they were looking and pushed their head into his chest. 

 

“Don’t look over there,” they murmured. “I know what you’re thinking.”

 

“Noli, please–”

 

“No.”

 

1x1’s chest heaved as they started sobbing. Their head felt light as they let their feelings pour out. They were holding onto Noli’s clothes so tightly they were near about to rip. 

 

Noli let them scream and cry about how it wasn’t fair. He knew they hadn’t gotten to do this when they were younger. 

 

Noli wanted them to be happy. 

 

1x1 cried so hard their legs gave out. Noli just caught them and supported them all the way to the couch. 

 

He sat next to them as they choked and curled up into a ball. Noli rubbed their back comfortingly. 

 

1x1 felt hollow. They shouldn’t stream anymore. If they hadn’t chased that stupid dream of theirs, this wouldn’t have happened. They wouldn’t be crying in an apartment that they were scared of going into, they wouldn’t have met John, oh John …

 

How they missed John. 

 

“I want to kill her,” 1x1 rasped. Noli looked over at them with slight concern. “What?”

 

“No, I’m going to kill her. She won’t get away with this. She can’t. I won’t let her.” 1x1 wiped their face with their sleeve. 

 

“What? 1x, what are you talking about?” Noli turned 1x1’s face towards them. 1x1 gripped his hands. 

 

“You don’t understand. She–she had her friend break John’s arm. I–I need–” 1x1 shook Noli’s shoulders. “She needs to go. ”

 

Noli recoiled and looked 1x1 up and down. “You need to calm down. 1x1, we are going to go to jail if we kill someone.” 

 

1x1 looked like they wanted to shout some more about killing people, but kept their mouth shut. They dropped their hands from Noli’s shoulders and slouched into the couch. 

 

“It isn’t fair,” they muttered. They sniffled and angrily swiped at their face. 

 

Noli observed 1x1 for a bit longer before grabbing his phone. He opened it and went to their dms with John. 

V01DST4R007: 5:29 pm

yo

john

 

John_Doe: 5:30 pm

yes?

must be serious if you're not using your typing quirk. 

 

V01DST4R007: 5:30 pm

please help

your partner wants to kill someone

 

John_Doe: 5:30 pm

what

 

V01DST4R007: 5:30 pm

yk the persob tgat broke your arm

well

that was the stalkers friend

shr made them go and break your arm so yku coulnbt stream and talk to 1x

 

John_Doe: 5:31 pm

what??

is 1x1 alright right now?

what happened

why is the stalker being brough up

noli 

answer me

 

V01DST4R007: 5:32 pm

sorry 

1x1 wants to talk to you

 

John_Doe: 5:32 pm

what? 

 

V01DST4R007: 5:33 pm

john? 

hello 

its 1x

 

John_Doe: 5:33 pm

1X

1XQ

1X1

are yiu alright?? 

why do you hav nolis phoen

 

V01DST4R007: 5:33 pm

im fine ig

i just cried though

lowkey

couldve been better

oh yeah

i have nolis phone because hes at my hiuse rn

 

John_Doe: 5:34 pm

what

im coming voer

 

V01DST4R007: 5:34 pm

why

i mean

like

for what reason

 

John_Doe: 5:34 pm 

im worried about you, 1x.

noli brought up the stalker

 

V01DST4R007: 5:37 pm

sorry i had to beat noli up

errrrmmmmm 

dont worry abiut it

 

John_Doe: 5:37 pm

im coming

 

V01DST4R007: 5:37 pm

WIAT

KOHN

JOHN

WIAT

WIT

WERE COMING OVER 

I SWESR

PORMISE

PROMSEI

 

John_Doe: 5:38 pm

…

fine.

hurry.

1x1 tossed Noli’s phone at them. “Come on, we gotta go.” 

 

Noli caught his phone with a startled look. He sat up from his spot on the floor and looked at 1x1 with confusion. “What?”

 

1x1 wrestled their shoes on and grabbed Noli’s bags. “We’re going to John’s. Come on.”

 

Noli sighed and pulled their shoes on. “Are we getting yelled at?” They checked their phone. “Oh. We are.”

 

1x1 glared at Noli and pulled him out the door.

..

1x1 knocked on the door to John’s house. They were met with Jane’s grinning face. 

 

“I’m guessing this is what you had to go out for?” She gestured to Noli, who waved a bit shyly. 1x1 rolled their eyes. “Unfortunately.”

 

Noli gently punched their arm. “My name is Noli,” he introduced softly. Jane hummed. “Jane. Nice to meet you.” 

 

“Likewise.”

 

1x1 peered behind Jane. “Where’s… um.. John?” They fidgeted nervously. 

 

Jane’s expression softened seeing their anxiousness. “I can try to calm him down. He’s…not happy.” 

 

Noli shifted closer to 1x1 protectively. 

 

1x1 appreciated it. 

 

“Thank you,” they muttered. Jane nodded and stepped aside to let them in. Noli hesitated by the door.

 

1x1 glanced over their shoulder when they noticed Noli not following them. They clicked their tongue. 

 

“Come here,” they ordered sternly. Noli obediently shuffled over. Jane took their bags and set them on the couch. 

 

She looked the two up and down. “Good luck, guys. You’ll need it.”

 

1x1 quietly thanked Jane and started heading up the stairs. Noli tentatively followed behind. 

 

1x1 knocked on John’s door and carefully pushed it open. Inside, they spotted John sitting on his bed with his phone in his hand. 

 

They swallowed nervously. “John?..” they mumbled. “I’m here.”

 

They hated the way their voice trembled. 

 

John’s head snapped up. He practically threw his phone aside as the other two filtered into the room. 

 

“1x1,” he muttered, trying to keep his tone level. “Care to explain why you were at your apartment?”

 

“I was picking up Noli from the airport,” 1x1 explained quietly. “I didn’t think that there was anyone in my apartment.” 

 

“The stalker was in your apartment?!” John hissed. He slid off the bed carefully. 

 

“John–”

 

“No, 1x. Listen to me,” John snapped. “You shouldn’t be going back to your apartment without–”

 

“Without you?” 1x1 interrupted. They crossed their arms over their chest. “I had Noli with me. He was defending me.” Noli nodded silently from where they stood behind 1x1.

 

John narrowed his eyes. It was clear he didn’t fully trust Noli.

 

“John. Noli can defend me just as well as you. Your arm is broken anyways.” 1x1 could feel Noli settling a hand on their shoulder to ground them. They leaned into it slightly. 

 

John’s free hand clenched by his side. His arm was in the cast. 

 

“1x1, I just worry for you.” John bit his lip and turned his head away. “You know that.”

 

1x1 sighed. “I know, John. I know. But sometimes, you just have to believe in me.” They fiddled with the hem of their hoodie as John slowly walked closer.

 

He wouldn’t hit them.

 

Right?

 

1x1 flinched as John raised his hand to run it through his hair. 

 

Everyone in the room froze. 

 

1x1 shrank back from the other two. They could feel pressure building in their chest. 

 

Not here. Please.

 

Not now.

 

John slowly reached out to 1x1, but immediately pulled back when he saw the tears in their eyes. 

 

“1x–shit, no, I’m sorry–” John could only watch as they curled into themself, wiping at their eyes roughly. 

 

1x1 hadn’t wanted to do that.

 

It was just a natural response.

 

It wasn’t. Noli and John knew that. 

 

You’ll get over it.

 

1x1 knew they wouldn’t.

 

Their hoodie sleeves were in the way. They needed to feel their nails on their skin to know that they were still present. 

 

They couldn’t get to their skin. 

 

The fabric was in the way. 

 

Their binder was restricting their breathing, compressing their ribs and stabbing their lungs. They couldn’t breathe. Their head was feeling far too light to be healthy. 

 

1x1’s hands scraped down their clothed arms, grasping at fabric desperately. Voices swam through their head sluggishly. Noises barely registered to them as their heart beat faster and faster. 

 

Their chest heaved as they tumbled to the floor. It didn’t hurt. They couldn’t feel it. 

 

Their clothes were too much, everything was too much. They sobbed harder every time their hoodie brushed their skin. 

 

They wanted to leave. They needed to leave. 

 

They were shaking so bad they could barely stay upright. 

 

John isn’t that kind of person.

 

1x1 didn’t know that.

 

He wouldn’t hit you.

 

What did 1x1 know?

 

You’re safe.

 

1x1 wasn’t ever safe. Never.

 

Their own parents couldn’t even keep them safe. 

 

All because of 1x1’s stupid, stupid body. 

 

It’s not your fault.

 

Wasn’t it? Their body was far too feminine.

 

1x1 hated that word. 

 

Every time someone referred to them as ‘she’, ‘her’, or anything relating to that gender, their skin crawled. 

 

They hated looking so dainty and fragile. 

 

That’s what he had taken advantage of. 

 

Pain flared in their scalp. 1x1 barely felt it.

 

Their hands had somehow made their way into their hair. They were pulling and tearing, trying to give themself some sort of relief from the pain in their chest. 

 

Their throat burned from crying. Their breathing was littered with hiccups and stutters. They almost broke down again when they felt their sweatpants touch their skin. 

 

1x1 couldn’t hear themself or the others. They couldn’t calm their racing heart or their spiraling thoughts. 

 

Calm down, calm down, calm down, calm down–

 

They couldn’t.

 

1x1 began to panic. 

 

No, no, please, not here, not now.

 

I need to get home.

 

1x1 couldn’t even stand, much less move. 

 

Why aren’t they comforting me?

 

They must hate me.

 

I don’t blame them.

 

1x1 sobbed and scraped their hands down the sides of their head. They wanted to get away from themself. 

 

Their skin was stretched too tightly over their bones. They wanted to cut up every piece of themself and watch their suffering seep from their cells.

 

It wouldn’t work.

 

It never did. 

…

“Welcome back, dumbass.”

 

Lloyd’s friend’s voice greeted her as she slunk back into their dingy hideout. She scowled at him. 

 

“Fuck off,” she snipped. “I got attacked.”

 

“Good,” he snorted. “Now that you’re here, I can finally go see my partner.”

 

He stood up and made his way to the door, but then stopped. 

 

“Lloyd,” he hummed. She snapped her head in his direction. “What the hell do you want, weirdo?”

 

He huffed. “I’m not helping you anymore. I have to focus on my partner and my flower shop.” 

 

“And that weird cult of yours?” Lloyd shot at him. He glared at her. “It’s not a cult. It’s just a business I joined.”

 

He brushed the front of his shirt off and waved his hand. “Besides. I met my lovely partner there.” 

 

“Your partner is creepy,” Lloyd muttered. He whipped his head around so fast there was an audible crack.

 

“What did you just say?” 

 

“Ugh, nothing. Just get going.” Lloyd rolled her eyes. “If you’re not going to help me anymore, then I don’t want to see you around here any longer.” 

 

He muttered something under his breath and opened the door. He looked back one last time. 

 

“If you threaten them again, I’ll kill you.”

 

“Just leave, Azure.”

Notes:

something absolutely no one asked for but in this AU Noli and 1x1 have been online friends for years like 8 years maybe okay bye