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Two Time felt crazy
They always did, tonight was no different.
They felt crazy since they were young. There was nothing they could do about it. It was all the Spawn’s plan. He wanted them to be crazy, crazy for the spawn. That’s what the cult wanted. They wanted to drive them mad, that’s what it is.
The cult was insane, they couldn’t leave. They felt as if the Spawn was taking their body, controlling them. They didn’t want to be like this. They hated it. But they felt so devoted to the spawn they were afraid to leave.
Maybe they didn’t want to leave. Maybe they felt a sense of worth there.
That’s what they thought
That’s what Two Time thought as they grabbed their dagger, staring at it, contemplating if they should do it again. Cut into their skin.
They liked doing it on their shoulders, it was easy to hide with longer hair.
Maybe they would carve the spawn into their skin. Maybe that was too crazy but they genuinely couldn’t help it. They needed something to do.
Azure wasn’t home. He wouldn’t know of the act.
He never knew, not yet.
Two Time was afraid to tell him.
They felt he would find them crazy and leave them.
Who are they to care? Right? Haha… Two Time doesn’t care! Just more devotion to give to the almighty spawn, correct?
But who are they without Azure?
Some freak who has devoted their entire life, body, soul to some stupid cult they can’t even bother leaving.
Will they even gain a second life? They wonder.
It surely cannot be a hoax.
They’re sinning with such thoughts, they must punish themselves.
Hopefully Azure never finds out.
It would be bad. They don’t want him to be mad or upset with them. They hate when people get upset with them. They cry a lot then.
They cry a lot.
Dear Spawn, they’re crying now.
What a baby.
Why would Azure fall in love with them?
They wonder.
Two time turns their head to look at their shoulder.
They’ve ruined themselves like this.
Just like this.
With all of the cuts
The cult
The scars
All of it.
Their body is ruined, and it’s their fault. How could Azure love this.
He doesn’t know.
They don’t plan on him knowing.
They guide the dagger to their shoulder and find a place to leave a new, deep, clean, cut.
Two time pushes the blade into their skin, dragging it across their shoulder.
It hurts so amazing.
They did good this time, it’s deep.
Deep enough for them.
They cut again, and again a few times more until they feel satisfied with it.
They feel tired now so they rest.
The white scars and the deep cuts never leave their mind though, even as they nap.
Two time sleeps like a cat, rolled in a ball, purring. They feel weird doing it. They feel like a freak. But Two time is already a freak. There’s no difference.
Azure finally arrives home, opening the door to their bedroom and spotting Two time asleep nicely on the bed. He smiles softly at their sleeping position.
He loves how they act as a cat, especially with their tail and purring. Azure finds it adorable.
Azure lies next to them, tired as well. He wraps his arms around them until he smells almost a metallic smell.
Blood maybe? He thinks.
Maybe Azure accidentally had cut Timey with his nails. He checks for any injury.
He doesn’t find any. Not now.
Maybe it was too dark
Or they had too much hair.
Either way, he was too tired for this.
He’ll figure it out in the morning, if he remembers.
For now they may sleep.
Chapter 2: The next morning
Notes:
More was asked for, more was given!
Also i was just busy with schooling and all of that!! My apologies for the wait
I almost got hit with the ao3 writers curse too bro, i nearly got hit by a car head on and literally could’ve died
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Two Time wakes up first, feeling sore and weak. They hadn’t noticed Azure, who had fell asleep right there beside them.
Two time didn’t feel like getting up, it seemed to be too much work.
They were still tired after all.
Two time had nearly forgotten about the cutting, well, that was until they felt a stinging pain in their exposed shoulder.
Shit.
Why did they decide that they really enjoyed wearing tank tops? Why would they wear one after cutting themselves? Did they want to get caught? They thought.
What an idiot..idiot idiot idiot…
They think too much. They should stop.
Two time looked over at Azure’s face.. god if he found out.. he would think they’re insane.
Well, that’s just stating the obvious, but more insane than they already are! They didn’t want that. They love Azure too much to lose him like that.
Two time turned over to fall asleep again while waiting for Azure to wake up, then he did wake up.
Or… at least stirred a bit and mumbled their name quietly.
(Wow…dialogue..!!)
“Two time..”
“Yes, Azure, i’m right here, wake up..”
They stroked his hair slightly as he woke up
He turned his head to look at Two Time and scan their body, remembering last night and the smell of blood.
He became worried.
“Nightshade, were you bleeding last night? Like.. uh..”
He coughed, not knowing how to ask, not knowing how to word it.
“I smelt some sort of smell.. it smelt like blood and i think I may have cut you with my nail or something when i walked in, are you okay?”
Two time was shocked, they didn’t know how to feel, they just tried to hide the fact that they were shocked.
“Oh, no, don’t worry.. uh… nothing happened I promise!”
Azure’s worry grew, he knew something had to be wrong. He knew that look. He sat up straight ane pet Two time on the head a bit, causing them to purr quietly.
“Two…don’t tell me..”
He might have figured it out. I mean, Azure could put two and two together, Two time just seemed like someone who would cut.
“Azure..”
“Please, tell the truth, for me? Did you cut..where..?”
He searched their arms and found the deep clean cuts on their shoulder. He could see the blood drying up.
“My love.. why?.. actually, don’t answer that, please, just..”
Azure looked on the verge of tears, and Two time was already crying.
Pathetic…pathetic i am, they thought.
“Have you at least eaten? Maybe that’ll help you feel better but please, please my nightshade don’t do this again..”
“No, I haven’t eaten.. not for at least 3-4 days…i’m sorry. I just.. don’t feel like eating.”
“That’s okay..just eat today… let’s put bandages on those shoulders of yours.. hide the cuts, my love.”
“Okay..”
Notes:
I’m soo tired omg
Sorry if this is like fucking terrible i’m exhausted from school aahdehejsi