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The photograph appeared on Instagram at 9:47 AM Monaco time, and by the time Oscar saw it three hours later in the McLaren motorhome, it had already accumulated two million likes.
Lando stood on his apartment balcony, the Mediterranean crystalline behind him, one arm wrapped around Magui's waist. She wore his team cap backwards, her smile wide and unguarded. But it was Lando's expression that made Oscar's chest tighten—that specific softness around his eyes, the way his whole face seemed to lean into happiness. Oscar knew that look. He'd memorized it once, in darker rooms and quieter moments.
"Mate, you seeing this?" Jon, one of the team's communications coordinators, leaned over Oscar's shoulder. "Boss is absolutely loved up. Good for him, yeah?"
Oscar locked his phone screen. "Yeah. Good for him."
The season had started with promise—McLaren's upgrades working, both drivers consistently in the points, podiums feeling inevitable rather than aspirational. The narrative the media loved was the teammate dynamic: Lando, the established star entering his sixth season, and Oscar, the calculated newcomer in his third year, finally hitting his stride. They made it easy for journalists, their banter natural during press conferences, their debriefs professional and thorough.
What the cameras didn't catch was the careful choreography of it all. The way Oscar timed his arrivals to team meetings. The microsecond pause before Lando responded to Oscar's radio messages. The fact that they hadn't been alone in a room together—truly alone—in fourteen months.
The Monaco Grand Prix weekend arrived with its usual circus of glamour and chaos. Oscar qualified third, Lando second. The press conference afterward was held in the harbor-side media center, windows open to the yacht-filled water and the ambient soundtrack of wealth.
"Lando, we've seen a lot of personal content from you this season," a journalist from Sky Sports said, her tone warm and conspiratorial. "You seem really happy. Is that translating to your performance on track?"
Lando's smile was immediate and genuine. "Yeah, I mean, life's good, you know? When things are settled off-track, you can focus more on the racing. I'm just in a really positive place right now."
Oscar kept his expression neutral, nodding slightly as if in agreement, as if he were just another colleague happy for a friend's contentment. His media training was excellent. No one could read anything in his face.
Except perhaps Lando, who glanced at him once during that answer, a flicker of something—guilt? concern?—before looking away.
Race day was hot and unforgiving. Oscar finished fourth after a poorly timed pit stop; Lando took the podium in second. The photos from the podium ceremony showed Magui in the front row of the barriers, phone held high, recording everything. Lando sprayed champagne in her direction, laughing, soaked and triumphant.
Oscar watched from the cool-down room monitors before heading to his own media obligations. He answered questions about tire degradation and strategy calls with the same calm professionalism he always did. When someone asked if he was pleased for Lando's result, he said, "Of course. Strong result for the team. That's what matters."
Later, scrolling through social media on the flight back to Melbourne, Oscar saw the clips and photos everywhere. Lando and Magui at dinner. Lando and Magui on a yacht. Lando looking at Magui the way he used to—
Oscar closed the app and stared out the window at the darkness below.
-
It had started in Baku, of all places. End of Oscar's rookie season, both of them exhausted and punchy after a long day of media commitments. They'd ended up in Lando's hotel room with takeout containers and a movie neither of them watched, talking instead about everything and nothing—families, pressure, the strange loneliness of this life they'd chosen.
Lando had kissed him first. Tentative, almost questioning. Oscar had kissed him back with certainty.
For eleven months, they'd built something in the spaces between. Hotel rooms in different time zones. Lando's apartment in Monaco during the summer break, where they could exist without performance, without eyes. The simulator room at MTC late at night when everyone else had gone home, sitting close enough that their shoulders touched while reviewing data that didn't need reviewing.
It was never easy. Formula 1 didn't allow for easy. They couldn't hold hands in the paddock or sit too close during team dinners. Every interaction was calculated, measured, designed to look like exactly what it was supposed to be: teammates, friends, nothing more.
Oscar remembered the weight of it, the constant awareness. Remembered Lando pulling away during their last race of the season together as a secret, the tension that had been building for months finally crystallizing into words during the Abu Dhabi debrief.
"We can't keep hiding," Lando had said, alone in Oscar's hotel room, voice tight and exhausted. "It's not fair to either of us. I can't—I can't do this anymore. The lying. The pretending. I want to be able to just be with someone without calculating every fucking move."
Oscar had understood, even as his heart fractured. Had even agreed, in the logical part of his brain that knew Lando was right. They'd ended it cleanly, or as cleanly as these things could end. Decided to stay professional, to protect what they'd built as teammates.
Then, three months later, Magui appeared in Lando's Instagram stories, and Oscar understood what Lando had meant by wanting to be with someone without hiding.
Now, driving through the streets of Montreal during the Canadian Grand Prix weekend, Oscar caught the scent of Lando's cologne—something woody and expensive—drifting from the car ahead in traffic. It was the same scent that used to cling to Oscar's own clothes after those hidden nights. His hands tightened on the steering wheel.
That evening, in the hotel gym, a song came on the speakers—something electronic and dreamy that Oscar immediately recognized. Lando had played it constantly during the summer break, humming along while making coffee in his Monaco kitchen wearing nothing but boxers and unselfconsciousness.
Oscar changed the song and finished his workout in silence.
During Thursday's media day, he spotted the hoodie. Lando wore it walking into the paddock, faded gray with a small logo Oscar couldn't make out from a distance. But he knew that hoodie. Had worn it himself, swimming in its oversized comfort, while curled against Lando's side watching the lights of Monaco harbor through the window.
The memory arrived unwelcome and vivid: Lando's fingers tracing patterns on Oscar's shoulder, his voice sleep-rough and content. "Could get used to this." Oscar had tilted his head back for a kiss, thinking the same thing, not knowing they had only two months left.
"Oscar!" A team coordinator waved him over. "Quick interview with Channel 4, yeah?"
He smiled, nodded, walked toward the cameras. Professional. Composed. Practiced.
-
The Spanish Grand Prix brought both McLarens home in the points—Lando third, Oscar fifth—and the debrief afterward was textbook efficient. They sat at opposite ends of the table in the motorhome, laptops open, discussing racing lines and tire compounds with the engineers between them like referees at a negotiation.
"Turn nine was tricky," Oscar said, eyes on his data. "Lost time there every lap."
"Yeah, I had the same issue in the first stint," Lando replied, scrolling through his own screen. "Opened up in the second stint after the adjustment."
Their engineering teams exchanged information. Strategy was optimized. Performance was analyzed. It was professional, cordial, exactly what a top-tier Formula 1 team debrief should be.
It was also careful in a way that their debriefs hadn't been two years ago, when they'd stayed late arguing about setups with an enthusiasm that bordered on joy, when Lando would lean over to look at Oscar's screen and their heads would nearly touch, when the easiness between them felt like the best part of racing.
Now they maintained their distance. Spoke in full sentences rather than the shorthand they'd developed. Made sure there was always someone else in the room.
The season progressed through Austria, Britain, Hungary. McLaren's development trajectory remained strong. Oscar's consistency put him in championship contention—P4, P3, P5, P2, P3. Lando's results were more volatile but included two wins that sent his confidence soaring.
In Silverstone, after Lando's victory in front of his home crowd, the team celebration was loud and jubilant. Oscar joined in, spraying champagne and smiling for photos, offering genuine congratulations because Lando had driven brilliantly and deserved the win.
But later, when Lando's parents hugged him and Magui kissed him for the cameras and the entire paddock seemed to revolve around his happiness, Oscar slipped away early. Claimed fatigue. No one questioned it.
On track, they remained sharp together—too sharp for it to be anything but intentional focus. They could anticipate each other's moves, knew each other's racing rhythms so intimately that defending against each other felt almost choreographed. The trust was still there, built over years of racing side by side, but now it existed in the only space they allowed themselves: the competition.
Belgium was the first time Oscar saw the cracks in his own performance. Lando radioed something funny during the formation lap—a joke about the weather that had the team laughing. Oscar's response was shorter than it should have been, clipped at the edges.
"You alright?" his engineer asked, voice private on their channel.
"Fine. Just focused."
But later, watching the replay, he saw the moment Lando had glanced toward McLaren's garage before the start, saw Magui wave back, and Oscar had to remind himself that looking away from screens showing things he didn't want to see wasn't avoidance, it was survival.
In the motorhome corridors, they'd perfected the art of casual distance. If they saw each other coming, someone always had somewhere else to be. Not obviously avoiding—that would invite questions—just naturally busy, naturally occupied. The few times they did cross paths, the conversations were light.
"Good session today."
"Yeah, car felt decent. How was yours?"
"Not bad. See you at the debrief."
"See you there."
Three sentences, four max. Then movement, separation, the relief of not having to maintain the pretense for longer than necessary.
During the Hungarian Grand Prix, a photographer caught them in the garage between sessions. The photo made it to social media—both of them standing near the cars, Lando laughing at something an engineer said, Oscar in profile with an expression the photographer captioned as "contemplative."
The comments section filled with observations Oscar wished people wouldn't make:
"Oscar looks sad in every photo lately"
"Is it just me or does he always look like this when Lando's around?"
"He's just focused. Y'all read too much into everything."
Oscar didn't read the comments. Or he tried not to. But sometimes, late at night in hotel rooms that all looked the same, he'd scroll through and wonder if his control was slipping, if the mask he wore so carefully was developing hairline fractures visible to strangers' eyes.
-
Spa to Zandvoort, the season hit its critical phase. Oscar had quietly, methodically climbed to second in the championship standings. Lando was fourth, close enough to make a run at it but needing consistency he hadn't quite found.
Monza arrived with its usual fervor—the Tifosi, the history, the high-speed desperation of the Temple of Speed. McLaren locked out the front row in qualifying, Oscar on pole for the third time that season, Lando beside him.
The race was tactical brilliance from both of them. Oscar managed his tires, controlled the pace, kept Lando honest behind him. Lando pushed hard but couldn't find a way past without risking both their races. When the checkered flag fell, it was Oscar-Lando, a McLaren one-two that had the team principals beaming and the social media accounts exploding with content.
The press conference was crowded and hot, cameras everywhere, journalists eager for the story of McLaren's dominance. Oscar and Lando sat next to each other—contractually obligated positioning—both still in race suits, faces flushed and hair damp.
"Oscar, your third pole, second win this season," a journalist from Autosport began. "You're now leading the championship by twelve points. Does that change how you approach the remaining races?"
Oscar leaned into the microphone, measured and calm. "Not really. The approach stays the same—maximize every opportunity, work with the team to keep improving the car. The championship is still wide open, so it's about consistency more than anything else."
Several more questions followed—technical, strategic, the usual post-race analysis. Then a journalist from an Italian publication turned to Lando.
"Lando, we saw Magui in the garage today, very excited for the team result. How important is it to have that personal support at the track?"
Lando's face transformed—that same unguarded softness Oscar had seen in photos all season. "Yeah, it's amazing. Having someone there who understands the pressure but also just wants you to be happy regardless of the result... it makes everything better, honestly. She's been incredible."
The journalists smiled, charmed. A few follow-up questions came about work-life balance and managing relationships in Formula 1's chaotic schedule. Lando answered them all with genuine enthusiasm, clearly comfortable discussing this part of his life.
Oscar kept his expression neutral, nodding slightly as if listening with polite interest. He'd perfected this—the teammate who was happy for his colleague's personal fulfillment, who understood that racing was just one part of life.
But something slipped.
Just for a second, when Lando said "makes everything better," Oscar's practiced mask flickered. A soft flinch, barely perceptible—the slight tightening around his eyes, the way his jaw shifted almost imperceptibly before resetting. It lasted maybe half a second before his control reasserted itself.
One camera caught it. Posted in the paddock for international broadcast, run by an operator with good instincts and better timing, the lens captured Oscar's face in profile at exactly that moment.
The press conference continued. Oscar answered more questions with his usual composure. The room eventually cleared, both drivers heading to separate obligations—Lando to celebrate with Magui and his family, Oscar to technical debriefs and sponsor commitments.
It wasn't until later that night, alone in his hotel room with room service he didn't really want, that Oscar opened Twitter and saw he was trending.
The clip had been isolated, slowed down, analyzed frame by frame. Dozens of accounts had posted it with varying captions:
"The way Oscar's face changes when Lando talks about Magui..."
"I'm not saying anything but I'm LOOKING"
"Oscar Piastri try to look happy challenge: IMPOSSIBLE"
Some defended him, saying he was just tired or focused or that people were reading too much into a single expression. Others created entire threads analyzing his body language throughout the season, compiling photos where he looked distant or withdrawn, comparing them to his more relaxed demeanor from previous years.
Oscar scrolled through the discourse with a detached sort of horror, watching strangers dissect a moment he hadn't even realized had escaped his control. Some tweets veered uncomfortably close to the truth with their speculation, while others went in wildly wrong directions.
He should stop reading. He knew he should stop reading.
But there was something almost masochistic about it, seeing proof that his careful performance wasn't as seamless as he'd thought. That despite all his media training and emotional discipline, something real had leaked through.
At 1:47 AM, he turned off his phone and lay in the dark, staring at the ceiling, trying not to think about how Lando's voice had sounded when he said "makes everything better"—so genuinely happy it was almost worse than if he'd been faking it.
-
Singapore was brutal. The heat, the humidity, the night race that demanded everything from both car and driver. Oscar qualified second, Lando fourth. The race was a war of attrition—Oscar managed his pace, brought the car home in third. Lando struggled with tire degradation, finished sixth.
The debrief ran late, engineers poring over data trying to understand Lando's drop-off. By the time they finished, the hospitality area was mostly empty, the usual post-race chaos settled into quiet. Most of the team had left for their hotels or the inevitable Singapore nightlife that swallowed paddock personnel after each race.
Oscar stayed behind, sitting in one of the debrief rooms with papers he wasn't really reading, data he'd already memorized. He wasn't ready to go back to his hotel yet, wasn't ready for the solitude that would force him to think rather than just exist.
He heard footsteps in the hallway—light, familiar. Recognized them before Lando appeared in the doorway, still in team gear, hair damp from a shower.
"Oh," Lando said, stopping. "Didn't know anyone was still here."
"Just reviewing some stuff," Oscar replied, gesturing vaguely at his laptop. "Heading out soon."
Lando hesitated, and Oscar could see the decision happening on his face—leave or stay, engage or retreat. They'd gotten good at reading each other's exits.
But instead of leaving, Lando stepped inside and sat down across from him, leaving a careful distance between them. "Hell of a race."
"Yeah. Tough one."
"You drove well."
"Thanks."
Silence settled between them, the kind that felt heavier than words. Outside, the Singapore night hummed with distant traffic and celebration. Inside, the air conditioning clicked on, artificially cool air filling the space.
"You've been off lately," Lando said finally, not quite looking at Oscar. "At least, that's what people are saying."
Oscar's hands stilled on his laptop keyboard. "People say a lot of things."
"Yeah, I know. I just—" Lando stopped, seeming to recalibrate. "I wanted to check in. Make sure you're alright. The championship pressure is intense, and I know what that's like."
"I'm fine," Oscar said, keeping his voice level. "Just focused on the racing."
"Right. Focused."
Another silence. This one stretched longer, pulled taut with things neither of them was saying. Oscar could feel Lando studying him, that perceptive attention that used to feel comforting and now felt like exposure.
"You seem really happy," Oscar said, not quite intending to, the words escaping before he could evaluate their wisdom. "With Magui. That's good."
Lando's expression shifted—something complicated passing across his features. "Yeah. I am. It's... different. Easier, you know?"
Oscar did know. That was the problem. He understood exactly what Lando meant—the relief of not having to hide, of being able to exist publicly with someone, of not carrying the constant weight of secrecy. He understood it intellectually even as it carved something hollow in his chest.
"That's what you wanted," Oscar said quietly. "To not have to hide. I get it."
"Oscar—"
"You look happy in the photos," Oscar continued, needing to say it even though he knew he should stop. "Really happy. The kind of happy you couldn't be before. So it's good. It's what you deserved."
Lando was looking at him now, really looking, and Oscar could see him trying to find the right words, the ones that would acknowledge what they were dancing around without actually naming it. The words that would make this conversation something other than what it was becoming.
"I don't want things to be weird between us," Lando said finally. "We're teammates. We have to work together, race together. I need—we need to be able to function without all this... whatever this is."
"Things aren't weird," Oscar replied, the lie smooth and practiced. "We're professional. We race well together. The team's happy with our results."
"That's not what I mean and you know it."
"Then what do you mean?"
Lando ran a hand through his hair, frustrated. "I mean you look at me like—" He stopped, seemed to realize he was about to say something they'd both agreed to never say. "Never mind. Forget it."
Oscar closed his laptop carefully, precisely, using the action to steady himself. "I look at you like a teammate. That's all."
"Right."
"You wanted to move on. You moved on. I'm happy for you."
"Are you?" Lando's voice was quiet now, almost too quiet.
The question hung in the air between them, dangerous and honest. Oscar could feel the answer in his throat—no, no he wasn't, he was the opposite of happy, he was watching someone he'd loved find happiness with someone else and forcing himself to smile through it because that was what you did when you loved someone, even after.
But saying that would unravel everything they'd carefully constructed over the past year. Would expose the wounds they'd both been pretending had healed. Would make racing together impossible.
"Yes," Oscar said. "I am."
Lando held his gaze for a long moment, and Oscar could see that he knew it was a lie but was choosing to accept it anyway. Choosing the easier path, the one that let them keep racing together without the mess of unresolved feelings dragging them down.
"Okay," Lando said finally, standing up. "Good. That's... good."
He walked to the door, paused with his hand on the frame. For a second, Oscar thought he might turn around and say something else, something real. But he didn't. He just left, footsteps fading down the hallway, leaving Oscar alone in the empty room with papers he wasn't reading and feelings he wouldn't acknowledge.
Oscar sat there for another twenty minutes before finally packing up and heading back to his hotel. The conversation replayed in his mind, all the things said and unsaid, the careful avoidance of truth in service of functionality.
On the walk through the paddock, he passed a screen showing highlights from the race. A clip of Lando and Magui kissing after the podium ceremony—except no, that was from a different race, a different broadcast. Oscar kept walking, eyes forward, focused on the path ahead.
-
The championship battle intensified through Japan, Qatar, and Austin. Oscar's consistency—P2, P3, P2—kept him at the top of the standings, but Lando's victory in Qatar and second in Japan kept him mathematically alive. The media loved the narrative: McLaren teammates fighting for the title, though "fighting" suggested a aggression that didn't match their careful professionalism.
Oscar's social media became a study in curation. Race results, training updates, the occasional photo of coffee or a sunset. Nothing personal, nothing that invited speculation. Clean, professional, exactly what a championship contender's feed should look like.
Lando's feed, by contrast, was sunshine incarnate. Photos with Magui on beaches, at dinners, in the paddock. Stories of them laughing together, traveling together, existing together in ways that Oscar had once experienced in secret and now watched publicly documented.
The likes became automatic. Oscar would see a new post notification, open it, double-tap without really looking, close the app. A reflex, a performance of normalcy. No one could say he wasn't supportive of his teammate's happiness.
Mexico City brought another McLaren one-two, this time Lando ahead. The celebration was loud and colorful, confetti and mariachi music and tequila someone had brought to the motorhome. Oscar participated genuinely—Lando had driven brilliantly, made aggressive moves that paid off, deserved the win.
But when Magui arrived at the garage and Lando lifted her in a spinning hug, Oscar found reasons to be elsewhere. Media obligations. Cool-down. Team debriefs that ran longer than usual.
Training became his sanctuary. Early mornings in hotel gyms, running until his body ached more than his chest, pushing weights until his arms shook and thoughts quieted to just breath and rep count. His trainer commented on the intensity, suggested maybe easing back slightly before race weekends.
Oscar nodded and didn't change his routine.
Brazil was wet chaos. The São Paulo rain turned qualifying into a lottery and the race into survival. Oscar hydroplaned on lap twelve, touched the barrier gently but enough to damage his front wing, had to pit for a replacement that dropped him to fifteenth. He fought back to eighth, salvaging points but losing ground in the championship.
Lando won in conditions that seemed impossible, his car dancing through the rain like it was made for it. The photos afterward were iconic—Lando soaked and triumphant, Magui wrapped in a McLaren raincoat, both of them glowing.
In the motorhome afterward, Oscar watched the replay of Lando's victory lap. The onboard footage showed perfect car control, instinctive reactions, the kind of driving that reminded everyone why Lando had been special since his debut. Oscar felt genuine admiration watching it, separate from everything else. Lando in the rain was art.
"Heartbreaker for you today," one of the engineers said, sympathetic. "Brazil's never easy."
"Yeah. Still learning these conditions. Lando was on another level."
"Championship's still close though. Vegas and Abu Dhabi, anything can happen."
Oscar nodded, knowing the mathematics were growing less favorable, knowing that Lando's win had shifted momentum in ways that points tables didn't fully capture.
That night, the team dinner was celebratory. Oscar sat at one end of the table, Lando at the other with Magui beside him. The seating hadn't been deliberately arranged—it just happened that way, the invisible choreography of their distance playing out in restaurant seating charts.
Oscar left early again. Claimed jet lag, which was plausible enough. No one pressed him to stay.
Walking back to the hotel through São Paulo's streets, watching couples holding hands and friends laughing over beers, Oscar thought about parallel lines—close forever but never touching, traveling the same direction toward the same destination without ever meeting. It was a geometry that felt familiar.
-
Las Vegas arrived with its manufactured glamour and legitimate speed. The Strip circuit, fast and unforgiving, held the penultimate round of the championship. Oscar led the standings by eight points over Max Verstappen, with Lando third, eighteen points back but not mathematically eliminated.
The weekend started well. Oscar topped FP2, felt comfortable with the car, approached qualifying with quiet confidence. He qualified second, Lando third, both behind Verstappen's Red Bull.
Race day was cool desert air and neon anticipation. Oscar got a good start, kept Verstappen honest, managed his tires through the first stint. The strategy was simple: bring it home in the top two, protect the points lead heading into Abu Dhabi.
Then, on lap forty-three, everything shifted.
A backmarker crashed at Turn 14, bringing out the safety car. The timing was perfect for those who'd already pitted, disastrous for those who hadn't. Oscar had pitted on lap thirty-eight, was on older tires than most of the field. The team made the call: stay out, track position was everything.
But when the safety car came in, Oscar's tires were cold and worn. Verstappen on fresh rubber made an easy pass on the restart. Lando, who'd pitted under the safety car, came through like a missile on lap forty-seven, barely giving Oscar time to react.
Oscar held third, defending desperately, but on lap fifty-three, Charles Leclerc on even fresher tires found a way past. Then Carlos Sainz. Oscar finished fifth, watching the points lead he'd built over months evaporate in twenty laps of cruel timing.
Lando won. His third victory of the season, perfectly executed strategy, brilliant driving. The championship was suddenly Lando's to lose—he led Oscar by seven points with one race remaining.
The press conference afterward was professional torture. Oscar answered questions about the strategy call, the tire choice, the timing of the safety car. His voice was calm, analytical, gracious. Inside, he felt hollowed out.
"Are you worried about the championship now?" a journalist asked.
"It's still close. Abu Dhabi will decide it. We'll both give everything we have."
"Do you think the team made the right strategy call?"
"In hindsight, we'd have pitted. But those decisions have to be made in real-time with incomplete information. I don't blame anyone."
"Lando drove brilliantly today. Does that put extra pressure on you for the finale?"
Oscar looked at Lando, who was watching him with an expression Oscar couldn't quite read. "Lando's been brilliant all season. He's a deserving championship contender. May the best driver win."
The phrase felt hollow even as he said it, a platitude that meant nothing and everything.
Abu Dhabi week was media chaos. Every interview, every press conference, every fan interaction focused on the championship battle. Two McLaren teammates, separated by seven points, fighting for the title in the season finale. The narrative was perfect for television.
Oscar went through the motions. Smiled for cameras, answered questions thoughtfully, participated in all the content obligations. But something in him had shifted in Vegas—a resignation settling over the competitiveness, a quiet acceptance of what felt increasingly inevitable.
He qualified third. Lando took pole.
The race itself was tactical precision from both of them. Oscar got a good start, pressured Lando in the opening laps, but couldn't find a way past. The cars were too evenly matched, the drivers too aware of each other's tendencies.
On lap thirty-one, Oscar's engineer radioed: "We need to cover Verstappen's stop. Pitting this lap."
It was the right call strategically. But it meant coming out behind traffic, losing time, watching Lando extend his lead. Oscar pushed hard on his out lap, faster than was probably smart, trying to minimize the deficit.
Too fast.
Turn 9, pushing the limits, the rear stepped out slightly. Oscar corrected, but overcorrected, touched the run-off, had to back out of the throttle. Lost three seconds in one mistake.
His engineer was calm on the radio: "We're okay. Long way to go."
But Oscar knew. That mistake, combined with the pit stop timing, had ended his championship challenge. Lando won the race and the title by twelve points. Oscar finished second, close enough to imagine what might have been different with better luck in Vegas, with perfect execution in Abu Dhabi, with any of the thousand small variables that separated championship glory from being the first loser.
The podium ceremony was surreal. Oscar stood on the second step, spraying champagne with manufactured enthusiasm, watching Lando above him, radiant with achievement. The crowd roared. Magui was there in the front row, tears streaming, holding up her phone to capture every second.
Oscar caught Lando's eye once during the ceremony. Lando's expression was complex—joy and guilt and triumph and something else Oscar couldn't name. Oscar nodded, smiled, a gesture that meant congratulations and well done and I'm okay, all lies.
The press conference was worse than Vegas had been. Oscar sat next to the new World Champion, answered questions about where the season had slipped away, about whether he'd given his best, about what he'd do differently.
"You led the championship for most of the season," a journalist from ESPN said. "How did you let it slip?"
The question was pointed, almost cruel. Oscar kept his composure. "I didn't let anything slip. Lando drove an exceptional season and was better when it mattered most. Championships are won over twenty-four races, not just the ones where you lead. He deserved it."
"Do you think he wanted it more?"
Oscar's jaw tightened slightly before he forced it to relax. "I think we both wanted it equally. He executed better. That's the difference between winning and not winning."
"How do you come back from this?"
"You focus on next season. Learn from the mistakes. Come back stronger. That's all you can do."
Lando, sitting beside him, looked like he wanted to say something—to defend Oscar or deflect the criticism. But Oscar's answers left no room for intervention, were perfectly calibrated to sound gracious while revealing nothing.
Later, at the team celebration that ran into the early morning, Oscar stayed longer than usual. Drank slightly more champagne than was wise. Watched Lando accept congratulations from everyone in the paddock, watched Magui never leave his side, watched the whole beautiful spectacle of someone achieving their dream.
At 2 AM, when most people had either left or were too drunk to notice, Oscar slipped away. No goodbye tour, no final conversations. Just a quiet exit into the Abu Dhabi night.
-
The season-ending party at the Yas Marina hotel was everything these events always were—loud music, flowing champagne, drivers and team personnel mixing in clothes that weren't team-branded for the first time in months. End-of-season relief mixed with celebration, everyone lighter now that the pressure had released.
Oscar had gone because not going would have invited questions. He stood near the bar with a drink he wasn't really drinking, making conversation with engineers and sponsors, playing the part of the gracious second-place finisher who was happy for his team's success.
Across the room, Lando held court, the new World Champion surrounded by admirers and well-wishers. Magui stayed close, glowing in his reflected glory, occasionally kissing his cheek or whispering something that made him laugh. They looked perfect together—genuinely happy in a way that cameras couldn't fake.
Oscar watched for a moment, allowing himself that, then looked away.
"Hell of a season, mate," one of the mechanics said, clapping Oscar on the shoulder. "You'll get him next year."
"Yeah. Next year."
The phrase felt automatic, a racing platitude that meant everything and nothing. There was always next year, until there wasn't.
He stayed for another hour, fulfilling his social obligations, then found his moment to leave. The party was hitting its peak—people were drunk enough not to notice departures, music loud enough to cover exits.
Oscar walked through the hotel to the exit, the sounds of celebration fading behind him. In the lobby, a screen showed highlights from the season—podiums, overtakes, championship moments. A clip played of Lando's Abu Dhabi victory, the moment he'd crossed the line to secure the title, the radio message full of disbelief and joy.
Oscar kept walking.
Outside, the December air was warm and still. The Yas Marina circuit stood illuminated in the distance, its distinctive architecture lit against the dark sky. Cars moved along the access roads, carrying people to hotels or airports or wherever came next.
Oscar's phone buzzed—messages of consolation and encouragement filling his notifications. Fellow drivers, family, friends, all saying versions of the same thing: incredible season, bad luck, next year is yours. He'd respond to them eventually. Just not tonight.
He walked toward the marina, away from the party noise, toward the quiet water where yachts bobbed gently at their moorings. A few other people wandered the pathways—couples, small groups, other escapees from various end-of-season obligations.
His mind replayed the season in fragments. The highs: pole positions, victories, the weeks he'd led the championship standings and allowed himself to imagine what holding that trophy might feel like. The lows: Vegas, that safety car timing that had unraveled everything. Abu Dhabi, that split-second mistake in Turn 9 that had cost him any remaining mathematical hope.
But underneath all of it, threading through every race weekend and press conference and podium appearance, had been the other narrative—the one only he fully knew. The championship loss hurt. But it wasn't the only thing that hurt, and maybe not even the thing that hurt most.
He thought about Lando's face on the podium today—pure, uncomplicated joy. The way Magui had been crying, had reached for him the moment he descended the stairs. The way Lando had held her like she was the reason any of it mattered.
Oscar had wanted that once. Not the public relationship specifically, but the freedom to have it if he chose. To not calculate every interaction, to not hide parts of himself in service of image and career and the complicated politics of Formula 1. He'd wanted what Lando had now—the ability to just be with someone without the weight of secrecy.
But he'd also wanted Lando. And those two things had been incompatible.
A memory surfaced, unwelcome and vivid: Monaco, summer break, Lando's apartment in the early morning. They'd stayed up too late talking, had fallen asleep tangled together on the couch. Oscar had woken first, watched Lando sleep in the golden light filtering through the curtains, and thought with absolute certainty: I could do this forever.
Three weeks later, Lando had ended it.
Oscar reached the end of the marina walkway, looked out at the dark water. A year and a half had passed since that conversation in Abu Dhabi—different Abu Dhabi, different hotel room, same city where everything ended. He'd thought time would make it easier, that distance and professionalism and Lando's obvious happiness with someone else would eventually dull the ache into something manageable.
It hadn't.
Or maybe it had, and this was manageable. Maybe this was what moving on looked like—functioning normally, racing well, maintaining friendships and professional relationships while carrying something quiet and unresolved beneath it all. Maybe everyone did this, in some form. Maybe heartbreak was just another thing you learned to drive with, like tire degradation or fuel management.
His phone buzzed again. This time it was a social media notification—he was tagged in something. Against his better judgment, he opened it.
The post was from McLaren's official account: a photo of him and Lando on the podium, both holding champagne bottles, Lando's arm around Oscar's shoulders. The caption read: "An incredible season from both our drivers. P1 and P2 in the championship. The future is papaya. 🧡"
The photo captured a moment Oscar barely remembered—had it been genuine or performed? At this point, he couldn't tell the difference anymore. They looked like teammates, friends, two people who'd just achieved something remarkable together.
The comments were thousands of congratulations, celebrations of McLaren's success, speculation about next season. Buried among them were the other observations, the ones that had followed Oscar all season:
"Oscar looks exhausted" "You can see it in his eyes, the disappointment" "He's smiling but something's off"
Oscar closed the app and pocketed his phone.
Behind him, voices approached—people leaving the party, heading back to their hotels. Oscar recognized some of the laughter, knew he should probably turn around and rejoin the social obligations. But he stayed facing the water, hoping they'd pass without noticing him.
"Oscar?"
He turned. Lando stood a few meters away, alone, still in the button-down shirt and dress pants he'd worn to the party. His hair was slightly messed, cheeks flushed from champagne and celebration.
"Hey," Oscar said, surprised. "Shouldn't you be at your own party?"
Lando walked closer, hands in his pockets. "Needed some air. Saw you leave."
"I'm fine. Just tired. It's been a long season."
"Yeah." Lando stood beside him, both of them looking out at the water rather than at each other. "Hell of a season."
"Congratulations," Oscar said, and meant it despite everything. "You drove brilliantly. Deserved it."
"You led for most of the year."
"But not the part that mattered."
Lando was quiet for a moment. "Vegas was bad luck. Could have gone either way."
"But it didn't."
The words came out sharper than Oscar intended. He softened his tone. "Sorry. I'm not—I'm happy for you. Really. You were better when it counted."
"You made a good point in the press conference," Lando said quietly. "Championships are won over the whole season, not just the races where you lead. I had the wins. You had the consistency. I got lucky with timing."
Oscar shook his head. "You made your own luck. That's what champions do."
Another silence settled between them, but this one felt different from the careful silences of the season—less guarded, more exhausted. Like they were both too tired to maintain their usual distance.
"I keep thinking about Singapore," Lando said suddenly. "That conversation in the debrief room."
Oscar's chest tightened. "We don't have to do this."
"You asked if I was happy. I said yes. You said you were happy for me."
"I am."
"Oscar—"
"I am," Oscar repeated, stronger now. "You got everything you wanted. The championship, the relationship you can actually have publicly, all of it. That's good. That's what you deserved."
"And what about what you wanted?"
The question hung in the air between them, dangerous and honest. Oscar could feel the answer in his throat—he'd wanted the championship, yes, but he'd also wanted Lando, and the version of them that had existed in secret spaces and stolen moments. He'd wanted both, and gotten neither.
But saying that now, with the season over and Lando's happiness so complete and public, would accomplish nothing. Would only hurt them both.
"I wanted to win," Oscar said simply. "Didn't happen. There's always next year."
Lando turned to look at him finally, and Oscar could see something complicated in his expression—guilt or regret or relief, maybe all three. "I need to know you're okay. Not just the professional version. Actually okay."
Oscar met his gaze, held it. "I'm okay."
"Are you?"
"I will be."
It was the most honest answer he could give. Not okay now, but working toward it. Not fine, but functional. Not happy, but managing. The ambivalent middle ground where most of life actually happened.
Lando nodded slowly, accepting this measured truth. "Next season's going to be intense. Both of us fighting for it again."
"Yeah."
"We're going to have to actually work together. Can't have all this..." Lando gestured vaguely between them. "Whatever this has been."
"This has been professional," Oscar said. "We raced well together. No issues."
"You know that's not what I mean."
Oscar looked back out at the water, at the yachts and the lights reflecting off the dark surface. "Then say what you mean."
Lando was quiet for a long moment. When he finally spoke, his voice was soft. "I don't want you to hurt."
"I'm not."
"Oscar—"
"I'm not," Oscar said firmly, needing to end this conversation before his control slipped further. "You made your choice. I respect it. We both moved on. We're teammates, and we'll be great teammates next season too. That's all there is."
Lando looked like he wanted to argue, to push past Oscar's careful walls and have the real conversation they'd been avoiding all season. But something in Oscar's expression must have stopped him—the clear boundary, the evident exhaustion, the quiet plea to just let it be.
"Okay," Lando said finally. "Okay."
They stood together for another minute, the sounds of the party faint in the distance, the water quiet before them. Oscar wondered if this was closure—this awkward, incomplete conversation that resolved nothing but acknowledged everything.
"I should get back," Lando said. "Magui's probably wondering where I went."
"Yeah. Go celebrate. It's your night."
Lando hesitated, like he wanted to say something else. But he just nodded and started walking back toward the hotel. Oscar watched him go, silhouetted against the lit pathways.
Halfway back, Lando stopped and turned around. "For what it's worth... I'm sorry. For how things worked out."
Oscar didn't ask which things he meant—the championship or everything else. "Don't be. You didn't do anything wrong."
Lando held his gaze for a moment longer, then nodded and continued walking. Oscar watched until he disappeared into the hotel, back toward the party and the celebration and the life he'd chosen.
Then Oscar turned back to the water, alone again with the quiet.
He remembered something Lando had said once, near the end of their relationship, during one of their many conversations about whether they could make it work. "Maybe someday it'll be easier."
Oscar had wanted to believe that then. Had thought time and distance would smooth the rough edges, would transform what they'd been into something simpler—just teammates, just colleagues, just two people who'd once been close and now were professionally cordial.
Standing here now, championship lost and heart still aching in ways he couldn't quite name, Oscar thought: It isn't.
Maybe it never would be. Maybe this was just what love looked like after—not absence or healing, but this quiet coexistence with longing. Learning to function while carrying something unresolved. Watching someone else live the life you'd wanted with them and genuinely hoping they were happy, even as it carved you hollow.
The season was over. Tomorrow, he'd fly home to Melbourne, spend time with family, reset for winter training. He'd analyze every race, every qualifying session, every strategic decision, looking for the margins that had cost him the championship. He'd come back stronger, more determined, better prepared.
He'd do all the things a professional racing driver did after a near-miss season.
And underneath it all, threading through the training and the preparation and the professional determination, would be this—the knowledge that some races you lost before they even started, that some gaps couldn't be closed no matter how fast you drove.
Oscar checked his phone one last time. The McLaren photo had accumulated more comments, more likes, more people celebrating what looked from the outside like triumph. Two drivers, a championship winner and runner-up, smiling together.
He turned off his phone and started the walk back to his hotel. Not to the party—he was done performing for tonight—but to his room, to pack and prepare for departure.
The sounds of celebration followed him for a while, then faded as he moved farther away. By the time he reached the quiet wing where his room was located, the only sound was his own footsteps on expensive tile, echoing in empty corridors.
Inside his room, the bed was already turned down, chocolate on the pillow, everything pristine and impersonal. His suitcase sat open on the luggage rack, half-packed. He'd finish it in the morning.
Through the window, the Yas Marina circuit glowed in the distance, scene of today's triumph and defeat. Tomorrow it would be dark, the grandstands empty, the celebration over. The circuit would wait for next season, for another chance, for the endless cycle of hope and preparation and racing that defined this life.
Oscar stood at the window for a long time, watching the lights, thinking about parallel lines and near-misses and all the ways you could finish second.
Eventually, he closed the curtains and lay down on the bed, still dressed, staring at the ceiling. His phone buzzed with more messages—his engineer, his trainer, his family, all checking in. He'd respond tomorrow.
For tonight, he just lay there in the dark, letting himself feel everything he'd carefully compartmentalized all season. The disappointment of losing the championship. The exhaustion of maintaining professional distance. The specific ache of watching someone you'd loved find happiness without you.
He let himself feel it all, just for tonight, before he'd have to pack it away again and get back to work.
Because there was always next season. Always another race, another championship fight, another chance to be better.
And maybe, eventually, it would be easier.
Maybe.
Outside, the celebration continued without him. Inside, Oscar closed his eyes and tried to remember what it felt like to race without the weight of everything else—to just drive, just compete, just exist in the pure mathematics of speed and strategy.
He couldn't quite reach the memory.
But he'd try again tomorrow.
That was what you did in this sport, after all. You kept trying, kept pushing, kept racing toward something that stayed perpetually just out of reach.
You kept going, even when your heart wasn't quite in it anymore.
Especially then.
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Epilogue
The photo appeared on Oscar's Instagram three days later—a simple shot of Melbourne at dawn, taken from his morning run. The caption was minimal: "Reset. See you in testing."
The comments filled with support, with promises that next year would be his year, with admiration for his consistency and professionalism. His followers had grown substantially during the championship fight; they'd stay for the redemption arc.
Oscar liked a few comments, replied to none, and went back to training.
Lando's feed, meanwhile, exploded with content. The championship trophy in various locations. Celebration photos with Magui, with family, with friends. Sponsorship obligations and award ceremonies and all the glittering aftermath of achieving your dream.
In one photo—casual, unposed, clearly taken by Magui—Lando sat on a beach somewhere tropical, wearing the same gray hoodie Oscar remembered, smiling at something off-camera. The caption read: "Finally breathing."
Oscar saw it, felt the familiar tightness in his chest, double-tapped it anyway.
Because that was the deal he'd made with himself. He'd be professional, he'd be supportive, he'd be the gracious teammate who was genuinely happy for his colleague's success.
Even when he wasn't.
Especially when he wasn't.
The photo stayed in his feed for days afterward, appearing occasionally when he scrolled before he remembered to avoid that particular path. Each time, he looked at the hoodie, at Lando's expression of contentment, at the evidence of happiness that existed entirely separate from Oscar's own complicated feelings about it.
Each time, he kept scrolling.
Two weeks later, McLaren released their testing schedule. Oscar and Lando would be in Barcelona together, preparing for the new season, starting the cycle again.
The announcement included a promotional photo—both drivers in new race suits, standing side by side, looking determined and focused. Probably shot months ago, before the championship fight, before Abu Dhabi, before everything.
But it served its purpose. Showed the world what they needed to see: two teammates, united in purpose, ready to fight for McLaren's future.
Oscar shared it to his story without comment.
Lando did the same.
And if anyone noticed the careful space between them in the photo, the way they weren't quite touching despite standing close, the subtle tension in their posed camaraderie—well, that was just racing psychology. Just teammates with healthy competition. Just two professionals who knew how to work together while fighting for the same prize.
That's what Oscar told himself, anyway.
That's what he'd keep telling himself, through testing and the new season and however many years it took for it to actually become true.
The photo stayed on his story for twenty-four hours, accumulating views and reactions, then disappeared into the archive of moments that looked one way from the outside and felt entirely different from within.
Just like everything else.
The sun rose on another Melbourne morning. Oscar laced his running shoes and headed out into the quiet streets, running toward a future that looked exactly like his past, full of racing and striving and carefully maintained distances.
He didn't look back.