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Hey ,
so I know you will never read this, but I really love you with all I am capable of.
We could have never worked and I don’t even know if I would even want that , but I still think about you, what could have been…
I know I will never marry but you would have looked good in white
I would look good in white standing by your side , but it will never be.
And even though I will most definitely not marry, would I marry someone else, I would look for you in the crowd. I would look into your beautiful eyes and just stop for a moment.
Knowing we could never work.
Knowing you will always hold a dear place in my heart.
Not knowing if you ever loved me at all
If I was ever beautiful for you
If you ever felt what i feel now
If you ever thought about me , about a different universe were we were better for each other
If you ever thought about me walking down the aisle
If you ever wished for us to be together
I always wished to be straight just to not feel what I feel for you. It would have been so much easier. I want to be free from you, but I don’t know if I will ever be.
You so strong,
You moved on so quickly , so easily.
I will always hate you for that.
But oh , how I wished to bring you flowers freshly plucked from a garden on the shore, to braid it into your hair at the kitchen sink.
To kiss you good-morning
To be great for you
To make myself pretty for you , for you to notice and complement me even though I always look pretty to your eyes.
Oh. oh how i wished….
Knowing it could never be.
I love you and I strongly believe i will never get you out of my mind
for , my fist truly Love , A.