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Something was wrong with Eddie.
Venom had known this for weeks now, watching their host move through the world like a ghost of himself. Eddie's heartbeat was slower these days, sluggish in a way that had nothing to do with physical exhaustion. His thoughts—normally sharp and racing, full of righteous anger and stubborn determination—had dulled to a flat, gray static that made Venom's form ripple with discomfort.
They had tried asking. Of course they had tried asking.
Eddie, why do you hurt?
Silence.
What troubles our Eddie?
Nothing but the tightening of Eddie's jaw, the way he'd press his palms against his eyes until colors bloomed behind his eyelids.
Let us help you.
"I'm fine, V. Just drop it."
But Eddie wasn't fine. Venom could feel it in every fiber of their shared existence—the weight pressing down on Eddie's chest when he woke, the dark thoughts that circled like vultures before he finally succumbed to sleep. It hurt Eddie, yes, but it hurt them too. That was the nature of symbiosis: Eddie's pain was Venom's pain, even when they didn't understand its source.
Venom had boundaries. They respected Eddie's privacy, had learned through trial and error which corners of his mind were theirs to explore and which required invitation. Eddie's memories were his own—a treasure trove of experiences and trauma that Venom only glimpsed when Eddie chose to share them or when emotions ran too high to contain.
But tonight, as Eddie lay unconscious—finally, finally knocked out by exhaustion and three fingers of whiskey—Venom made a decision.
They would look. Just once. Just enough to understand, to find the source of this festering wound so they could help their Eddie heal.
The symbiote's consciousness slipped deeper into Eddie's mind, past the surface thoughts and recent memories, down through layers of experience like geological strata. They moved carefully, reverently, searching for something—anything—that might explain the hollowness that had taken root in their host.
Further back. Further.
Past the bitter dissolution of Eddie's marriage. Past the fall from grace at the Daily Globe. Past college, past high school, past—
Venom stopped.
The memory that materialized around them was wrong. Not Eddie—or rather, not the Eddie they knew. This was a child, perhaps thirteen or fourteen, with longer hair pulled back in a messy ponytail and features that were familiar but different. Softer. The proportions not quite right.
Venom's confusion rippled through the memory like a stone dropped in still water.
They pressed on, drawn by something they couldn't name—an urgency in these buried memories that called to them. The scenes flickered past like a broken film reel: the child in a dress at Christmas, rigid and uncomfortable while adults cooed about how pretty she looked. The child in a bathroom stall at school, breathing hard, fingers pressed against her chest as if she could make something disappear through force of will alone. The child staring at boys in the locker room with an expression that wasn't desire but envy, raw and aching.
And then—
The bathroom mirror was fogged at the edges from the shower's steam. The girl—Elizabeth, Venom realized with a jolt, Eddie's birth name—stood before it in an oversized t-shirt, her wet hair plastered to her skull. She was sixteen, maybe seventeen. Her face was blotchy from crying, eyes red-rimmed and wild.
Venom felt the emotion crash over them like a tidal wave: rage and desperation and something fierce and bright that they didn't have a name for. This wasn't like observing a memory. This was being the memory, feeling everything Elizabeth had felt in that moment.
Elizabeth's hands were shaking as she picked up the scissors from the bathroom counter. The metal was cold against her palm.
"You are not Elizabeth," she whispered to her reflection, and her voice cracked on the name like it was a curse. "You are not a girl."
The first cut was hesitant, awkward. A chunk of wet hair fell into the sink.
"Your name is Eddie." Another cut, more sure this time. More hair tumbling down. "Eddie Brock. You're a guy. You're a guy."
The mantra continued, each repetition building in intensity, in conviction. The scissors flashed in the bathroom light, and with each snip, something seemed to fall away—not just hair, but years of trying to be something he wasn't, of suffocating inside a body and a name that felt like a prison.
"Damn the world. Damn Dad. Damn what anyone thinks." Eddie's—because this was Eddie, Venom understood now, this had always been Eddie—breath came faster, more ragged. "You are a guy. You ARE a guy."
When the scissors clattered into the sink, Eddie's hair was a jagged, uneven mess. But his eyes—his eyes burned with something incandescent. Something like hope.
He looked at himself in the mirror—really looked—and for just a moment, Venom felt him see himself. Not who everyone said he should be. Himself.
Then his fist went through the mirror.
Glass exploded outward. Pain lanced through Eddie's knuckles, bright and sharp and grounding. Blood welled up, dripping onto the white porcelain of the sink, mixing with the fallen hair.
He didn't cry out. Just stood there, breathing hard, watching the blood drip.
The pain felt real in a way nothing else had for months. Years.
The memory released Venom like a hand letting go of something too hot to hold.
They surfaced back into the present moment gasping—as much as a symbiote could gasp—their form roiling with confusion and distress. They materialized their head next to Eddie's on the pillow, peering at their host's sleeping face.
Eddie was crying in his sleep. Silent tears tracked down his temples into his hair, and his face was pinched with a pain Venom now understood ran deeper than any physical wound they'd ever healed.
Venom extended a tendril, carefully, reverently, and licked away the tears. The salt taste was familiar—they'd tasted Eddie's tears before—but now it carried a new weight. A new significance.
Their Eddie had been a girl. No—that wasn't right. Their Eddie had been told he was a girl. Had been forced into the shape of someone he wasn't. And somehow, through sheer force of will, he'd carved out space to become himself.
Venom didn't fully understand—not yet. Their species didn't have gender the way humans did. They'd chosen 'they' because no human pronoun felt right, because they were multitudes, because they were other. But Eddie's humanness was bound up in being male in a way Venom was only beginning to grasp.
What they did understand was pain. Isolation. The desperate need to be seen as you truly were.
They understood Eddie.
Venom curled around their host, enveloping him in their mass. Not restraining, not consuming—protecting. Sheltering. Their form rippled and shifted, creating a cocoon of living darkness around Eddie's sleeping body.
We will help you, Eddie, they whispered, though Eddie couldn't hear. We will keep you safe. We will protect you from anyone who tries to hurt you. We will—
They paused, tendrils tightening almost imperceptibly.
We will make sure you never have to be alone with this pain again.
Eddie stirred slightly, his breathing evening out as Venom's presence soothed him back into deeper sleep. The nightmares retreated, at least for now.
Venom held him through the night, their consciousness still churning with questions they didn't have language for. Why was Eddie hurting now, years after claiming himself? What had brought those old wounds back to the surface? How could Venom help heal something they barely understood?
They didn't have the answers yet.
But they would find them. They would understand. Because that's what you did for the people you loved—you learned their language, even when it was foreign to everything you'd ever known.
Eddie was theirs to protect. And Venom protected what was theirs.
Always.