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"In the life cycle of a caterpillar..."
The lesson was really boring. I could only think of Kashima's gaze on me and how it made me feel... Different. Honestly, I think I've just grown up. We get more hormonal as we grow up, anyways, that's what we've been learning in science, and whenever they would talk about the reproductive system and things like that, I'd get horny. I don't know why, Kashima would be the one to fill my mind up. Sometimes I wished it would be something else.
During club, I was sleep deprived from revising all night. I had somehow just slept in Kashima's arms, my head on his surprisingly soft chest until I had woken up in a half empty room with Yuri looming over me. Kashima had left me here with this idiot, but I couldn't blame him anyways. I immediately stood up and left the room to see Kashima in the hallway. "Toono, you woke up?"
His voice was always very soothing, I liked it very much. I nodded softly and looked away, blush creeping up my cheeks. I don't know why I feel this way, but there was no way I like Kashima. That's all I know. It couldn't possibly happen, not when we're both men.
I nodded and he smiled. His smile was always really nice and make me feel warm inside— I never said anything, but I looked away to stop myself from anything further than this already. Kashima reached out to hold my hand but I pulled back. "I-I... I'll go now, thank you..."
I think Kashima frowned, but I just looked down and walked to my dorm. My legs felt weak and the second I got to my dorm I slid down to the floor and let out soft whines. I don't know why I feel like this; why I feel so weak, why I feel so horny, I don't like men...
I hugged my knees and buried my face in my chest. I just wanted to be in a school with girls. My dick ached, I was suddenly thinking of the other club members— especially Kashima, thinking I could do things with them. I pushed those thoughts away and sighed.
Tears burned into my eyes; I didn't like men, of course I didn't...! But then why, why did I feel like this? I slowly unbuckled my pants, I felt my dick and stroked it softly. It was surprisingly really hard.
"... there are 4 stages."