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Aaaaaugh, just wish everything would stop being painful right now. And I've been strapped down too for the past two days here, in the good doctor's lab, just... Eh. Just great.
Guys, it just so happens that your friend here, and by friend I mean me, is only MOSTLY dead! There's totally a big difference between mostly dead and all dead. Mostly dead is slightly alive. With all dead, well, with all dead there's usually only one thing you can do.
And apparently that didn't happen, so I guess that's great. Although...
Sigh...
Hera? Are you there?
You're probably picking up on something right? Like picking up on my vital signs like that time where I almost drowned? Because you missed me?
Heeeraaaa?
Sigh...
Eh. Of course... HE turned off the comms again. Might as well have some time for those experiments after that flare up. I guess it leaves me plenty of time to think though, right?
Right.
Riiiight...
...
It's funny, really, when you think about it though. Never thought I had that much to lose. Never though I would ever had someone giving a damn so much about little ol' me. Let alone more than one person, actually.
I could hear them. Between the coughs and the haze of really REALLY ridiculously painful pain I was having, I could hear them.
I could hear them. They.. eh. I can't believe it but...
Lovelace was about to leave. She was about to blow this place up to smithereens. It was about to blow up as if it was set in a Michael Bay movie, or some post apocalyptic capitol city battleground.
And then, I heard them protecting me. It could have gone so wrong. She could have left us there to die instead of just me. I still don't understand why she didn't.
Eh eh...
Like I could understand Hilbert not wanting to lose his experiment, I guess. Even though, he totally could have found another meatbag for Decima if he really wanted to. Just use the notes and restart and then continue where you left off. Easy, peasy right? Especially for a guy like him, like there's nothing to it.
And Minkowski... I guess she didn't want to lose the Han to her Luke in some messed up carbonite induced hell illness but...
Oh great. I can't brush those off now. My vision is all blurry. Great, just great. That crap is just coming out of nowhere. I guess the good doctor got me hopped up on pretty good stuff if I just react like that , right? Right.
But I guess I should thank her too. While Lovelace saved my life with her blood, she did it with her voice. For the moment I was still conscious, she gave me focus. I honestly don't know if...
If it hadn't been for her, I don't even think... I...
Eh, honestly I would rather not think about that too much. I would rather think about how I'm one hell of a lucky bastard, you know? I was always the no good son, the drifter who will amount to nothing.
Eh...
It's funny really...
I almost had to lose my life at least three times now, probably more. You stop counting after a while. I had to lose my family back home, in a way. I had to hit rock bottom and be scrapped out of the hell hole I dug for myself kicking and screaming.
I... It kind of hurts to say because it brings so many stupidly painful memories back but...
I mean, I would like to take a break from the physical pain already so imagine heaping mental one on top of that but...
Eh...
I had to almost lose everything to find this. I found it all on my own. It's little, and broken, God knows it is, but still good. Yeah - still good, to paraphrase another experiment.
And it's more of a family than I ever had back on Earth.
It's funny how those things go, right?